['There have been other times I felt like a poor parent and provider but that was one of the most memorably worst.']
What happened?
Being a parent I guess it's inevitable to feel shame at many points. I remember several times when I wanted to do something for my child and I just didn't have the money. Once we drove past a spring carnival in our town, which I didn't know was going on, and I had to drive by it quickly before he saw the rides because I simply couldn't afford to take him.