['I walked into a final knowing that I was gonna fail and it was so nerve wracking.', 'Why were you so down on yourself about failing?', "It wasn't so much that I was gonna fail as know that I had to sit in there for hours and I was gonn fail anyway."]
Thats not a great attitude as you at least must give a go. You only fail if you don't try.
One time I walked into a final knowing damn well that I was gonna fail. Just the idea of knowing that I was gonna 100% fail was so  nerve wracking.