["I feel bad I don't always get to go through bad things and full get healed."]
Do you mean you feel bad that you don't get to go through bad things or that you don't get to be healed?
I feel bad I don't always get to go through bad things and full get healed. I have someone who was around me during the worst times of my life who took that away from me and made the focus be on them..which disrupted my process of grief and healing/