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blindsidedbyhim posted 9/29/2013 17:08 PM
I am going to get a good amount of criticism after I write this and post. That's ok, and it's partly why I am doing it. I DEPERATELY NEED A SI BITCH SLAPPING. Here we go friends:
I somehow have become the OW in what was a strictly friendship based relationship with a married man.
Me: Betrayed by WH
He had a 2 year LTA with a woman he cheated on me with 10 years earlier when we were dating. I tried for 3 years to forgive, move past the devastation. I became fed up this year in May, mostly because he continued to have inappropriate female friends, continued to do drugs, continued to gamble and watch porn...the only vice he gave up was his OW.
He moved out as requested on June 1.
How I became an OW:
June 2: I logged on to my facebook page and saw that I had an inbox message. It was my 7th grade bf (typical, right?) telling me how great I look and can we be friends?
At that point, yes, I could use a friend. So I accepted and told him it was great that he found me, however, I am in the beginning stages of a divorce. I think he heard the dinner bell?! The "vulnerable woman" alert must have tuned him in to my neediness frequency because he knew how to draw me in....Compliments, nostalgia, and stories went back and forth in a few phone calls. He told me he had just gotten caught in a two year LTA. This interested me. For some reason I had the idea that I could get answers out of him that I could never get from XWH. I was immediately intrigued because he was willing to be very candid and open with my questions. I basically gave him the 3rd degree. What's weird is I think he like the confessional-type of friendship that started to develop. We didn't talk trivialities. We got on the phone and the infidelity-driven conversation took us deep into our fears and frustrations with our spouses. I was now unattached, but He was still very married, and I knew somewhere in the back of my mind this could get tricky.
Wasn't this the "just friend" bullshit that we always hear about? Was I dangerously becoming a diversion for him, and myself?
Let me be honest, with you guys and myself. I KNEW IT WAS NOT A GOOD THING I WAS DOING. It felt selfish. I would tell him so. But then, we were just talking on the phone. Until...we decided to meet for lunch. Wtf was I thinking?
I wasn't. I was angry. At my Xwh, and at him for betraying his wife. I curiously found it easy to demoralize myself because I found my feelings were numb to everyone. I started to realize, my God, this is how my XWH must have felt. No one matters but you and your selfish desires. This is how it starts. Lightbulbs...
In my lifetime, I was never a cheat. I am loyal, true to my integrity, and my high moral standard always kept me feeling good about myself. Now, I feel awful. I don't recognize myself. This abyss is degrading and hollow. Why would anyone WANT to be the OW?
So if I am confessing, let me do it right.
The fact is I definitely felt a strong and immediate attraction to someone else's husband. This was not ok. Beyond that, in a moment of pure adrenaline, I regrettably kissed him...just like I did in 7th grade. I then felt like a 7th grader...with no regard for the consequence of my actions, just having some fun.
Wait a Freaking Second here! I know all about predator married guys who find lonely, single women with low self-esteem. That is NOT me!
I am now involved. It did not "just happen". I consciously knew what I was doing. I calculated every thought and emotion I was allowing to enter my mind. Every word I said to him brought us closer to a unspoken precarious ledge over which we pretended we wouldn't fall... This is how an affair starts...Many of the questions I wondered about XWH have been answered by this experience and, all the while I realize there is a wife out there, whom I don't know and have no right to hurt, I am destroying. I didn't give her much thought...because I am her.
My dilemma now, I need to be out of this so-called friendship with a married man. It disgusts me. Yet I still find myself taking his calls, answering his text, looking forward to knowing more about him...every part of that is wrong and I argue with myself daily.
My recourse is to put it here. For SI to give me the perspective I am not giving myself.
Please don't hold back...I deserve whatever you have to say, and I welcome it...
[This message edited by blindsidedbyhim at 5:14 PM, September 29th (Sunday)]
jo2love posted 9/29/2013 17:27 PM
blindsidedbyhim -
Please do not encourage people to throw 2x4s at you.
Thank you.
HurtsButImOK posted 9/29/2013 17:27 PM
Truthfully only you can answer your whys.
I know for myself that I made a conscious and deliberate choice to forsake seeking validation from other men post my break up. I did this because it was my go to and fall back in past times of separation. I had horrible WW tendencies, I realised I needed to fix me not look for superficial validation from someone else.
Why do you think you need this, why did you think it was okay, why knowingly hurt another as has happened to you?
It sucks to dig deep and look at our own shit but it is necessary, BS or not.
JustDone posted 9/29/2013 17:29 PM
Now, I feel awful. I don't recognize myself. This abyss is degrading and hollow. Why would anyone WANT to be the OW?
Why? First of all, no little girl looks forward to growing up and becoming the OW. Not any people I know who've been involved in affairs do so with years of premeditation. They kind of do what you have - go down a slippery slope.
Also, when you do get to be an OP, you don't know you are going to feel this bad. You are going to be the one in a thousand million zillion who somehow manage not to hurt anyone, and everything will be OK.
If people knew how bad it was, they wouldn't do it.
Now that you are doing it, and do feel awful, you know what to do:
blindsidedbyhim posted 9/29/2013 17:33 PM
Sorry, Mod...
Can they be gentle 2x4s?
I truly need perspective...without judgment.
Totally lost here..I don't recognize myself.
I thought I knew myself so well.
Skan posted 9/29/2013 17:33 PM
edited because this was unnecessarily harsh and I somehow thought I was in the General forum.
You know what you need to do. You've walked this path before. Tell the BW, go NC with him, and get to your IC to figure out how you could devastate another woman in the same manner that you were.
[This message edited by Skan at 5:35 PM, September 29th, 2013 (Sunday)]
blindsidedbyhim posted 9/29/2013 17:35 PM
OMG Skan...thank you...brutal...
Deeply Scared posted 9/29/2013 17:38 PM
Please note this thread is now moved to the WS Forum.
Can they be gentle 2x4s?
No, because its impossible for us to moderate in a protected forum.
No 2x4's by BS's in the WS forum.
Thank you.
[This message edited by SI Staff at 5:46 PM, September 29th (Sunday)]
Skan posted 9/29/2013 17:38 PM
You're welcome, blindsidedbyhim. I'll PM it to you for you to keep. Mods, I really did think that I was in the general forum, not the Wayward for some odd reason. I'm afraid the original post was not in the spirit a BS should be posting here. If I've screwed up by my editing, please let me know and I will do what you deem necessary to make it right.
Deeply Scared posted 9/29/2013 17:38 PM
It's ok Skan...I'm pretty sure you were typing on General when this was moved to the WS Forum...we understand
20WrongsVs1 posted 9/29/2013 18:01 PM
I was able to still look in the mirror, I believe, due to dissociation or compartmentalization. I subtly shifted into a different personality when I was involved with OMM. I was able to deftly shift into and out of that personality, in which I felt no guilt and was just selfishly focused on my own twisted emotional needs.
WH moved out and left a huge hole, the next day you were offered an opportunity to fill it. Now you're pouring water into a bucket that's full of holes, and wondering why it never gets filled up. You'll never be able to answer this question until you shut off the water supply, babe.
Admitting your A here is a good first step.
I know all about predator married guys who find lonely, single women with low self-esteem.
Oh for crying out loud, this again?! Take some personal responsibility, BBH. You say you know it "didn't just happen," but you're writing in a very detached manner, and you're asking the people of SI to act as your surrogate conscience. Nobody can 2x4 sense into you, that needs to come from within.
blindsidedbyhim posted 9/29/2013 18:11 PM
So right, 20 wrongs...
I write detached because I feel that detachment you described. I stand outside myself and listen to his compliments, taking them in, letting them marinate in what little water I have in my bucket filled with holes... and my "sane self" speaks up, reminding me he is simply using every possible way to get what he needs from me...attention, validation, ultimately sexual fulfillment.
I say it like this because I am a "good student" of infidelity 101. I know what's happening...I am angry that I am not as strong now as I once was...that I can be human, weak, vulnerable to allure of something like this.
Thank you...I need this.
After my xwh I knew I could only trust myself, and now that is tenuous...it scares me
AML04 posted 9/29/2013 19:40 PM
No stop sign right? Gently...picture his BW finding out and feeling everything you felt from dday until your WH left you. Every time you think of him, think of this instead. Please don't be that person. Because regardless of who you were before, you are that person right now. But you CAN change.
JustDesserts posted 9/29/2013 19:50 PM
Tell his spouse, and go NC.
Until then, everything you write about wanting to understand and address...sorry...sounds kinda self-serving, vain & douchey to me. Like you want us to acknowledge something special in you and your behavior. Sorry, nothing special seeming at all. Garden variety. Pathetic. Sad. And this is the worst of all...cruel. You are being cruel to a now twice (at the very least) BW...and you're a BW?
ThoughtIKnewYa posted 9/29/2013 19:55 PM
My take? You stopped loving yourself.
In my lifetime, I was never a cheat. I am loyal, true to my integrity, and my high moral standard always kept me feeling good about myself.Why else would you be willing to throw all of that away?
This isn't about OM or his BW, it's about you. If you had been loving to yourself, respectful of yourself, this would never have happened.
Just out of curiosity, did you post that you were separated on FB the day before he messaged you??
ETA: Do you have a plan for ending your A?
[This message edited by ThoughtIKnewYa at 7:59 PM, September 29th (Sunday)]
blindsidedbyhim posted 9/29/2013 20:29 PM
JD...wow...Thank you. I fucking hate that I am exactly what you say...trying to be smart about something so simple, wrong, basically bullshit on every level. Who do I think I am? Not special, very stupid...silly girl...7th grade is long over. ***sigh*** thank you (()))
NO I was still in married status on facebook.
I plan to just not answer text or calls, and stay off Facebook.
We have only met up a couple of times, and every time the guilt overwhelmed me. I see now that an EA is just as dangerous.
I need this critique...
I am alone for the first time in 20 years. I never thought my self worth would be something in question, or I would attract something, do something that diminishes all my values...
Also, I have deleted every facebook message, text and phone number. I have no evidence to present to his BS. She sent me a facebook friend request last month which makes me think she was suspicious. At that point, I had not met with him.
Can I be honest here for a minute?
After my WH cheated on me for the umpteenth time, really, he could have fucked a girl in front of me and I would have yawned and gone back to bed.
I believed in reconciliation...I wanted it badly. I still love him!
Without the trust and true remorse, it's just a shell of a marriage.
[This message edited by blindsidedbyhim at 8:47 PM, September 29th (Sunday)]
SoCo posted 9/29/2013 21:30 PM
This is what really struck me....
BSBH..... You gave some pretty detailed description's of why you "should" end this. Also some pretty strong " reasons" why you chose/choose to continue?
Have you really thought it could be as simple as ....
What you are getting out of it is much more satisfying emotionally, filling (your words) a selfish need? Just plain easier than to dealing with your true pain, needs?
You have chosen/are choosing ( knowingly) one of the most
self-destructive behavior's one can indulge ones self in.
You know as painful as this is effecting you , the AP's wife will feel that and possibly ten fold. you say this eats away at you, yet you continue?
You know the answers to your questions. You seem pretty self aware of the entire situation.
You do not need someone on here to swing 2x4's , you seem to be doing that quite well yourself. Rinse and repeat?
What you need to do is pull up those big girl patties and get your butt in IC, and learn to love yourself again and not look to anyone else to do that for you!!!
In time...
IMHO..... Love from the "right" partner should enhance, encourage, and reflect ones own self respect, courage,and Integrity. Does this married man do any of those things for you???
SI can be a great place to find advice, understanding, encouragement, but only if YOU are willing to do the work on yourself.
LOL! And just a little FYI...... You will never have to beg for 2x4's, these wonderful FWS, some fondly known as the " old timers" will come at you swinging.
Of course only when and if you continue to do harm to yourself and/or to others.
None, that have I ever read were swung in judgement, anger, mean spiritedness , instead with the intent of...
calling a spade a spade..... So in turn you had better start digging a little deeper! most of these wonderful folks have seen, heard, read, done just about anything you throw out there! Not a fool among them!
Good Luck in finding your healthy self.
Alyssamd24 posted 9/29/2013 22:08 PM
I would suggest deleting FB all together....when I was in my A I would block my XAP on fb....only to unblock him a few hours later, and the cycle continued until I finally deleted my fb account.
I would also recommend telling his BW. She may or may not believe you, but telling her will help you to go NC.
When I confronted my xAP BW she asked why she should believe me and like you, I had deleted all messages and texts. So I had no proof....but you should still tell her. I would like to think that even though she initially believed him and went with him to throw me under the bus (he told the pastor at the church I worked that I was blackmailing him) that my conversation with her at least planted a seed of doubt and maybe one day she will realize the truth.
People can tell you why you need to end it and why it's wrong...but until you're ready to hear it and work on it, it won't matter....you need to do it for yourself because you realize it's what needs to be done.
Being the OW sucks and I can certainly empathize with you....it's role I am still trying to come to terms with. I wish you lots of luck!!
StrongerOne posted 9/30/2013 11:29 AM
Not even going to "suggest":
Tell the BW RIGHT NOW!!!!
Blindsided, you have a lot of excuses for not telling her, but none of them hold up. So what if you deleted all the "proof"? Really? Really?? That's not a reason. Really.
Contact the BW. Tell her the truth, straight, without any defensiveness, blaming, or anything but the straight truth, plus an apology (straight, nothing about how you feel in it), plus a statement that you will never contact her WH or her ever again. Give her your email or phone so that she can contact if she wants. Then kill facebook, delete them all from your phone, email, etc. And then leave them alone. If she contacts you, answer her questions. Apologize. Keep your own feelings out of it.
Please do the right thing. I can't speak to your experience and feelings as an OW. I don't have any explanation or analysis for you. I do know, that as a BW and as a person, what the ethical thing to do is. And you do, too. Please do it -- not doing it is disrespectful to the BW and *to yourself*
ThoughtIKnewYa posted 10/2/2013 11:07 AM
Hi, blindsided. How's it going? Are you doing OK with NC??
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Qt Extended 4.4.3
From Openmoko
Note: this is the last version of Qt Extended. Trolltech cancelled the project on 3 March 2009
Note: the download links have been removed pending the availability of binaries build on the official 4.4.3 source released on 5 March 2009
Installing Qt Extended 4.4.3 on the FreeRunner
Download the kernel and rootfs
Next download the kernel and rootfs to your workstation. Here's a link to the rootfs created by Tomas Riveros Schober. And here's the kernel image. Boot your FreeRunner in dfu mode and use the dfu commands:
desktop# dfu-util -d 0x1d50:0x5119 -a kernel -R -D Neo_kernel_Backup_200902212230.bin ... stuff ... desktop# dfu-util -d 0x1d50:0x5119 -a rootfs -R -D Neo_rootfs_Backup_200902212230.jffs2 ... more stuff ...
This kernel/rootfs fixes the WSOD problem and includes the echo patch but doesn't seem to support ogg or mp3 playback.


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Bristol- When Todd Wheetley stopped Clayton Harris for an expired license tag back in 2006, he had no idea that routine traffic stop would set the standard for K-9 law enforcement officers across the country.
"There was an open beer container... he seemed very nervous" Wheetley said of Harris after approaching his vehicle. "I asked for consent to search his car, he declined. At which point I deployed Aldo to do an open air scent around the exterior of the vehicle."
Aldo alerted to an area around the driver's door handle, where there was residue of chemicals used to make methamphetamine. Harris was taken into custody.
"Post Miranda [rights], Harris stated that he used and manufactured methamphetamine."
But the story was far from over. Harris' lawyer challenged Aldo's reliability due to a lacking of records stating all of Aldo's deployments.
"[The Florida Supreme Court] was trying to deem that he was not accurate based on the training records. I had the deployments, when you put your dog out- I kept the [records for] the ones that led to an arrest, but not on the ones of a non-productive response" Wheetley explained.
Florida Supreme Court Justices ruled Wheetley had violated Harris' 4th Amendment rights.The state appealed the case to the US Supreme Court, which unanimously overturned the state court's decision.
After a seven year court battle, Wheetley said the Supreme Court's decision was not only a win for Aldo, but for law enforcement officers across the country.
"K-9 is a very effective tool-not just in narcotics, but also suspect apprehension " Wheetley said. "It's just like having an officer that carries hand cuffs and tazers- it's an effective tool.
Tuesday, the US Supreme Court also ruled against a Miami Dade K-9 named Franky, saying he and his handler conducted an unreasonable search on a drug suspect.


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Eastern Sierra Unified School District candidates forum Oct. 16
There will be an Eastern Sierra Unified School Board candidate forum Oct. 16 from 6 p.m. to 8 p.m. at Lee Vining Elementary School
Candidates Arya Degenhardt, Jimmy Little, Pamela Haas-Durhart and John Peters are vying for two seats, and will be given three questions with a Q&A session following. The event will be moderated.
For more information, call Anna Strathman at Lee Vining Elementary at 760-647-6460.


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There were those that felt he was off his Crocker when he felt he could still play at age 33 after his two previous seasons ended gimpy and dinged.
But Bengals safety Chris Crocker just keeps rolling. On Sunday in the 49-9 rout of the Jets, he got Paul Brown Stadium back into the game on the first snap of the second half with a pick-six of rookie quarterback Geno Smith. The 32-yard breeze down the left sideline marked his first TD return since his second season with the Browns in 2004.
"It means a lot to me. It means a lot to me to be in this locker room," Crocker said as he advised everyone to savor the moment. "People say I shouldn't be here."
But what if he wasn't? The Bengals are hoping 2012 first-round pick
"I just got a good read on the route. I got my hand on it and it stuck in my glove," Crocker said. "I was glad it wasn't any longer than that."
That's because Crocker covered the kickoff and was still getting his breath.
"I was blowed," he admitted.
Later, cornerback
"I knew (Smith) would give us one," Jones said. "I kind of read his eyes. I was looking into the backfield. They were running quick outs on me all day. I jumped one of them and I dropped it."
Jones finished it off with a rather easy cutback on Smith himself at about the 15, but it was important to him because he was thinking about what special teams coach Darrin Simmons would have said.
"I never would have heard the end of it," Jones said. "Darrin would always be on me saying, 'You let the quarterback catch you.' "
STATS: After Calvin Johnson's Megatron Day in Detroit on Sunday, guess who is 1-2 in NFL receiving yardage? Right.
And only two receivers have more than
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Got a supercomputer in the closet?
When we think of supercomputing we think of water-cooled Crays and Deep Thought, but features that once used to be reserved for lab-coated researchers are today often found in the most unexpected of places.
However, such compute-intensive systems can be elusive, disguised as rendering engines or batch processing servers hidden at the back of the machine room.
These days, supercomputing tends to be referred to as high performance computing, frequently shortened to HPC. On the technology side, HPC solutions that were once purely the domain of specialist supercomputing systems can now be built on top of industry standard x86 architecture processors – coupled with suitable operating systems, which include those built around the Linux platform or Microsoft Windows Compute Cluster Server as well as those available from specialist suppliers. As a result, systems capable of supporting processing intensive workloads are now available to support a wide variety of workload demands and have become far more affordable.
While the technology to support high demand workloads is available, many organisations don't yet take advantage of them. A potentially deciding factor in the rate of adoption is the ability to determine the existence of suitable workloads.
This is, of course, chicken-and-egg: without this understanding, it is difficult to appreciate value and vice versa. Understandably, then, HPC systems are more often deployed to support a relatively small number of specialist functions, before being used to support more general, "mainstream" processes.
So, should HPC systems remain the domain of the specialist, or are they ready for such a wider remit? Are the systems now available to support high performance workloads ready and affordable for the mainstream and, perhaps even more importantly, are there now enough "routine" or everyday business workloads that require such systems? With such questions in mind we would dearly love to know your opinions, to gauge the potential use of HPC type systems in mainstream business operations.
So please take a few minutes to fill in the short poll attached here and we will be sure to let you know the results.
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I've been poring over the Creating Change program book and I think there is nothing they've left out. They've even added two days of film screenings. Just don't go in expecting Avatar or Sherlock Holmes. These are a little more relevant.
Films range from docs about undocumented students to a film that takes a "look at how popular pressures around gender and sexuality are shaping the lives of American teens." However, I'm hoping to catch the screening of Outrage. Filmmaker Kirby Dick takes on closeted politicians who rant and rave against the LGBT communities.
Dick also did the clever 2006 documentary This Film Is Not Yet Rated, an expose on the movie ratings board. I expect good stuff and this trailer sure helps.
The film screens at Sheraton Dallas, 400 N. Olive St. Feb. 6 at 4:45 p.m. in the Dallas Ballroom A1. Visit the site for details.


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How about a thread where you can post some new jokes? at least new to me.
Please post your jokes here in this thread.
Make a new post for additional jokes.
In a few days I will have a drawing and give away a surprise prize (that means I haven't decided what the prize will be yet).
I know Pensacola Tiger and Spike know lots of jokes. I bet the rest of you guys know some funny ones as well.
For me the jokes work kind of like therapy. As I am working through the day I will be reading the new jokes you guys post here.
Helps to keep me from being grumpy.
Thanks, Mark


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With the end of 2012 vastly approaching, the sneaker community will be gearing up for another strong end-of-the-year footwear release schedule. The "Bred" Air Jordan 11's take the top spot on the most sought after kicks this time of year but looking forward to 2013, we know that Jordan Brand is prepared to come hard with the releases once again. One of the upcoming retros set to hit retailers in the new year is the "Bred" Air Jordan 13's and here we highlight the previous 2004 version in this edition of Sneakerhead Sneaker Watch.
As we view the large gallery of photos, we notice much more heat from the Jumpman crew. The classic white/red Laser Air Jordan 4's are on display along with the "White Cement" 3's, "Bred" 11's, and recently released Black/Cement Grey-Red 4's. The sneaker community represented LeBron James' heavily once again as well as the "Cutting Jade" and "Floridian" 10's were on hand along with the more coveted "Birthday" LeBron 4's. Finishing off this recap of kicks is a slew of footwear from Nike Sportswear in the form of SB Dunks and Air Max runners. Check out the stock of New Balances as well.
Take a look at all the footwear included in the Sneaker Watch this time around and let us know what your favorite sneaker is. Remember to tweet our #SneakerOfTheDay hashtag on Twitter to show us what you rock on a daily basis. Shoutout to Niketalk.


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We had an inkling that Fuse would be a cooperative shooter with a bit of a chaotic bent, but it was hard to really figure what that would entail. It's certainly come a long way since 2011, when it was announced at EA's E3 press briefing almost as an afterthought.
Known then as Overstrike, Insomniac's third-person shooter seemed to be trying to channel something like Team Fortress with its slightly cartoony look and sense of humor; details were sparse though, and the game was overshadowed by higher-profile EA shooters like Battlefield 3. After its debut, Overstrike dropped out of sight, and didn't reemerge for more than a year.
As it turns out, Fuse's multiplayer at least amounts to something like a greatly expanded horde mode with persistent characters. It brings with it some nice options and mission types, as well as the potential for some interesting strategy. It has promise, especially if Insomniac is able to keep up with a steady diet of fancy weapons and explosions.
Among the things that have been refined since Fuse was first shown is the overall look. It's still a bit more fanciful than the typical hard sci-fi shooter, but it also looks quite a bit less cartoony than before. For some, that will be a negative. It's not as if there's any shortage of sci-fi shooters out there. But that's not to say that Fuse looks generic. The monsters in particular are fun to look at for all their intricate detailing--the bulky muscles layered with cybernetic parts.
The action itself is fast, enjoyable, and--if Insomniac reps are to be believed--hard. There's certainly no shortage of death when fighting the waves and waves of enemies. Luckily, if you go down, your friend can pull you up to continue the fight.
One of the wrinkles that Fuse adds to the combat is that every character gets their own special attack. Probably the best is the ability to create what amounts to mobile cover with a shield. Basically, when a firefight starts, everyone rallies around that guy. It's not a bad way to encourage a little bit of teamwork among players; and with weapons like an explosive crossbow also available, it helps to differentiate the characters a bit.
Ultimately, it's that sense of teamwork that is Fuse's biggest strength. Fuse was conceived as a co-op shooter from its beginnings as Overstrike, and that emphasis on multiplayer seems to have carried through into the game's current iteration. The suite of multiplayer options is quite robust--splitscreen with friends, online player, and even bots are available. In addition, Fuse has one profile for each character, with anything that is unlocked becoming available in both single player and multiplayer. This is a nice addition for both sides of the spectrum, since it helps to balance things out a little bit by bringing the modes more closely together.
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If Fuse has a weakness, it's that might it might end up having a hard time standing out from the competition. From the look of it, the shooting is both fast-paced and enjoyable, and the variety of mission objectives--most of them built around protecting something or simply surviving--helps to keep it from being repetitive. But in the end, Fuse seems to lack either the wild creativity of a Monday Night Combat or the unique art design of a Team Fortress. If Fuse ends up catching on, it'll be because of strong word of mouth on the part of a few hardcore gamers. In that sense, the shift from Overstrike's more zany approach may be to Fuse's detriment.
The good news is that, between its emphasis on teamwork, strong multiplayer options, and solid shooting mechanics, Fuse is looking like it'll warrant whatever word of mouth it ends up getting. Coming from a well-established studio like Insomniac, it certainly has the right pedigree. The ingredients are there.
So knowing now that Fuse has the potential to be a very enjoyable multiplayer shooter, it's on Insomniac to follow through. If they do, they may have a surprise hit on their hands.
The game is coming to PlayStation 3 and Xbox 360 sometime in March.


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Deliver your stock and store your supplies during a move with mailing and shipping supplies. Cardboard boxes offer solid protection against bumps and dings. Whether you're moving your business or just need something large in which to put your stock in, you'll find something that's right for you.
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Packing becomes a lot easier when you have the right moving boxes. Choose from a variety of sizes to protect your stock, ranging from book and archive boxes that will handle large amounts of heavy paper to large boxes that will hold lighter equipment. Midsize boxes will cope with everything from household goods to office equipment. Boxes offer reliable protection, but for very heavy items, consider double-walled boxes for complete security.
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Rather than buying boxes individually, moving box kits let you purchase a lot of boxes at once. Choose from multi-packs of the same box size to kits that hold a variety of different box sizes so that you have exactly what you need in one package. Some kits even include tape and labels so that you have everything to get started, although it's easy to buy these separately.
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When a box is too big, choose from a variety of mailers instead. Whether you're sending your products through a courier or through the USPS, you'll find the right size of mailer. Select from envelope-sized mailers that are ideal for the smallest of items to larger mailers that will hold documents, files, and even flyers. Tubes are ideal for posters and blueprints, and heavily padded mailers are great for smaller electronics and jewelry.


text: '"I haven't thought about last year since maybe a few weeks after it ended," Stafford said Sunday. "You've got to reflect, then you've got to move on and work on getting better. That's what I did. I'm not thinking about anything from last year. I've got a brand new year here and a brand new opportunity. I put in a great summer to be prepared for it because that's the most important thing is being prepared mentally and physically."'


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Situations like the one in Boston remind us of the importance of our nations' SWAT teams.
Being prepared is a matter of life or death for the 10 members of the Ozark SWAT team.
Ozark Police Chief Tony Spivey said, "In today's ever changing society and ever changing world, you never know when they may be called upon. But it is something that you don't want to have to do, but you want to be prepared in case that event happens."
Preparation starts with weekly training and the right equipment.
Spivey said, "And in order to do the mission and be successful you have to give them the tools that they need to keep them safe as well as to do their job that the community would expect."
That is why the Ozark City Council approved the purchase of 10 new assault rifles to replace the old larger, bulkier model.
"The weapons are smaller and more compact. And these weapons give the tactical members the ability to not be in a position where the weapon can be taken from them very easily."
With new weapons comes more training, training that will be done on their new and improved firing range.
Hundreds of truck loads of dirt later, the range will double in length and add more firing lanes.
On top of adding more lanes and extending the length of the range, new safety features will be put in place.
Cpt. Bobby Blankenship said, "We're going to have for lack of a better word a wing of the back range wall so we can contain the shots and be more safe with the officers out their also."
Keeping the officers safe and at the same time protecting the public.
"Just like with Boston and everywhere else, you have the officers that are firing their weapons, whether it be a long gun or a short gun, you want to have your officers efficient and proficient with their weapons because ever bullet that comes out of that weapon, we're responsible for," Blankenship said.
The new weapons came at a price tag of more than $12,000.
The department was able to cover the cost by selling their old weapons to a law enforcement distributor.


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To the Editor:
There is a letter to the editor showing up in various papers. The writer complains that Carol Shea-Porter is not listening to her constituents on her Facebook page. Maybe the writer doesn't realize that Carol Shea-Porter's swearing-in date is Jan. 3; that until that date she actually has no constituents nor does she have an official Facebook page; and that he should write to still-in-office Rep. Frank Guinta, not to Shea-Porter's campaign Facebook.
I hope this helps clear things up.
Lucy Edwards
To the Editor:
Today, Dec. 22, at Mass, our priest asked us to pray for the victims of the Connecticut school massacre, and mentioned that the following night, Dec. 23, there'd be a candlelight vigil to further pray for them and for their bereaved families.
And that's when it hit me… Dec. 28 is when we celebrate the Feast of the Holy Innocents, those children in Bethlehem massacred by the orders of another basket-case. Usually their feast follows Christmas. This year, sadly, it preceded it.
But I am not going to be like everybody else and scream for gun control. The answer is obvious. Gun control is useless. A gun is just a tool. A tool whose purpose is killing, true, but a tool nonetheless. Normally it just lies there. It has to be taken to the place of execution and used by somebody to accomplish its purpose. As the NRA says, "Guns don't kill people. People use guns to kill people." Banning guns won't solve anything: when the British thought to neutralize the Irish by forbidding them the use of swords, the Irish simply developed the use of the skull-cracking shillelagh. When the Japanese tried the same tactic in Okinawa, they went on to develop the nunchuks.
The answer lies elsewhere.
Now, after the fact, we're being deluged by statements of how the perpetrator's counselors and psychiatrists all considered him a loose cannon, a bomb just waiting to go off… just like the perpetrator of the Columbine massacre some years ago. Why wasn't he defused? Why wasn't he committed? Or at least taken out of school and put in a special one with others like him, where he could be watched? And if there are no schools/institutions like this, then why, in these days of government intervention into everything, not?
A weekly scandal sheet features an article on why the perpetrator's mom didn't have him committed. Regardless of the publication, the question is valid. Why didn't she commit him?
And here's another thing that needs to be redressed… the mollycoddling of people who are dangerous to the rest of us. In Psycho II, the judge ordered Norman Bates released when he was "judged sane" in spite — in defiance — of the opposition of local residents. When Fritz Haarman was a youth, his father tried to have him committed. The good doctors refused to do so. No doubt they had sundry, weighty reasons for their decision. And Fritz went on to become the German Ted Bundy, who killed an estimated minimum of 100 young boys. Baroness Meister and Don Escudero both also had many reasons why they didn't summon a priest when her son and his wife became vampires… with disastrous results when they each got loose.
I've always called for, when a paroled criminal goes back to his old habits, having the members of the parole board being summoned before national TV and forced to answer the question, "And what were the no doubt excellent reasons you, knowing that individual's record, voted for his release?"
I now call upon this being expanded to include counselors, psychologists and parents of the perpetrators of school massacres to be likewise made to answer on national TV the question, "If you knew the kid was a danger, why didn't you have him committed?"
Why not? After all, it's going to be the exact same question the prosecution's going to ask them when they stand in judgment before the throne. (Romans 14:10)
It'd be interesting to hear what kind of explanation they're planning on giving.
BJ Figueredo
To the Editor:
There were many things that impressed me about Japan, having spent nearly 12 years in the country as a young man. Most poignant was the ability of the large Japanese population (about half that of the U.S.) to coexist in relative peace and harmony in a nation about the size of California. Japan, with its thriving democracy; enjoys many freedoms, a very high standard of living and one of the world's highest longevity rates. Despite its diminutive size and dearth of natural resources, Japan has the planet's third largest economy.
Japan is an old country relative to the U.S. I discovered Buddhist temples and Shinto shrines, in every nook and cranny, which were several hundred years older than our nation. We could learn lots from our humble and gracious Japanese friends. Japan's murder, rape and robbery rates are absolutely minuscule compared to those of the U.S.
As a Japanophile, it was quite simple for me to predict the general Japanese reaction to our latest national tragedy. I viewed a series of spontaneous interviews, online, regarding the U.S. gun culture, conducted with six ordinary Japanese citizens outside of Metropolitan Tokyo's Shimbashi Train Station. The following is a translation of their indicative thoughts:
The distinguished middle-aged man in the dark business suit stated, "The U.S. is recognized as a modern democracy in the world, but when it comes to guns, it is a barbaric and undeveloped country."
The young male college student said, "I was surprised to hear that possessing a gun is legal in the U.S. It is totally illegal in Japan."
The attractive mature woman wearing the red jacket and black scarf asserted, "It is absurd that a normal family has a gun. It enables anyone to cause a crime whenever they get upset. That is very strange. I wish the U.S. will start strict gun control from now on like Japan. We can walk very safely at night in Japan. I sincerely wish the U.S. will become a safe country like ours. "
The spectacled middle-aged man suggested, "If this kind of shooting continues, teachers have to arm themselves. It's terrible. We no longer live in the Wild West."
The pretty young lady with the black scarf and pink shirt mentioned, "Horrific murders in Japan would never involve the use of guns, like in America."
The elderly gentleman adorned in the tweed sport-coat lamented, "Freedom is very important but we are not perfect and get angry very quickly. Having something that can hurt or kill others in arms reach is no good. I am sad rather than angry."
Although a supporter of the 2nd Amendment's original intent, I find it naturally easy to rationalize and pragmatically accept the opinions of my Japanese friends and NYC Mayor Michael Bloomberg who described the NRA as, "Instead of offering solutions to a problem they have helped create, they offered a paranoid, dystopian vision of a more dangerous and violent America where everyone is armed and no place is safe."
Wayne H. Merritt
To the Editor
Some want Armed Police/Security in all our schools.
Do you want armed Police/Security at our movie theaters, hospitals and malls and other public places to keep all safe as well?
What type of training will these employees have? Will they carry 10 bullets or 50 bullets? What type of guns will they carry? Again what type of training and education will these employees need? Will these employees be of military nature?
Does each town or corporation set their own standards for these town police/security employees? Who will pay for all this? Do you really want to see armed personnel wherever you bring your children and family?
Not the America I envisioned.
I want to see our youth educated about peace and loving their neighbors. I want all who are mentally ill to feel needed and cared for, as they deserve.
Do you really think it will make things safer having armed employees in most public places or could that be dangerous as well? What is a public place?
Gail Mitchell


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In November, City of Estherville staff and management held a goal-setting session. Funding, of course, will determine whether those goals are met.
January 3, 2014
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I'm pretty sure that adding occlusion culling would increase the size of MC's codebase, not decrease it. The issue isn't that MC has too many lines, it's that certain useful technical tricks are missing.
The world of minecraft has a basic geometry (a huge 3D grid of cubic blocks) that makes occlusion culling almost trivial, given that the engine is re-adapted to that.
See Cube and Sauerbraten, for engines which were written with occlusion culling in mind from the ground up, and which support way much more complicated geometry at quite impressive framerates.
The problem is that the minecraft engine was probably written in a completely different way and adding this feature would require a complete rewrite of th
is that the same as minesweeper?
No. Minecraft is a completely different game. See http://www.minecraft.net/ [minecraft.net]
-- hendrik
It's completely useless for 3D (sprites and scrolling only!)
It's not the graphics output speed that would be the limiting factor, it would be calculation of the actual 3D scenes. I expect even running Wolfenstein would be pushing it to its limits. With the memory limitations you'd probably have to do with very very basic textures if any, and without an FPU it would be very slow to calculate the movement and rotation of a lot of vertexes.
Actually I saw a really interesting level for LittleBigPlanet2 where the guy had hacked the 2D gameworld into a very basic FPS that drew everything by painting sprites on the screen. You could only turn at 90 degree angles, everything rendered very slowly, so obviously not exactly the best gaming experience ever, but it was incredibly clever.
very basic FPS that drew everything by painting sprites on the screen. You could only turn at 90 degree angles, everything rendered very slowly
...like that arcade game XYbots from the early '90s. Later, after I learned about 3D graphics, I realized the origin of the name.
No, it's got less to do with the computing speed (you could use one of the pin-for-pin-compatible ARM boards) and more to do with the Gameduino not having an actual framebuffer.
I guess you *could* render a scene entirely on the host controller then upload it to sprite memory when it's ready - use the gameduino just as a frame buffer. It would be limited to a four color image though.
It's fashionable with the people who think Legos are cool.
The trees don't have to be regenerated but rather updated. It's not that difficult with kd-trees. Surely, it's not optimal, but can give reasonable results.
New hardware supports occlusion testing on the GPU. There's a query method to test how many or if any fragments were actually drawn between the beginning of the query and its end. You can then hierarchically draw bounding boxes and only actually draw the geometry you want.
Check this [nvidia.com] out.
Hate to admit it but yes, this thing looks very cool. To an 80s game programmer (like me) it would have been a dream machine - four-way hardware scroll and a ton of sprites.
And, as a bonus, all data to/from the graphics engine is sipped through a SPI pipe. If you thought that old AGP 4x was slow, wait until you go through SPI.
Wait.... PCI-express is a serial protocol... SPI is a serial protocol. Doesn't that mean that they have the same performance
I don't think bandwidth is an issue in this design. I mean, once the initial data is copied to the RAM on the gameduino, how much really has to change per frame for the average sprite based game with a scrolling background? If you're just scrolling horizontally, you only need to change less than 40 bytes for each 8 pixels moved, and updating the coordinates and character mappings for a few sprites isn't exactly a massive task, nor is checking for collisions as it's hardware based.
I think one thing that coul
this thing can actually develop into a more powerful gaming platform if people just concentrate on it.
I think the point is kinda that it's *not* powerful. It's about the right speed to natively run retro games.
In a way it sorta reminds me of the Dingoo A320 [wikipedia.org]. I've got one of those, it's pretty awesome. What's not to love about Metal Slug 2 in your pocket?
Is the Dingoo A320 powerful enough to run Neo-Geo games in native resolution with full audio at 30p/60i FPS?
YouTube is now completely useless. It keeps asking me to log into my account but I don't remember the password and it was created with a throw-away email account.
If I click "sign out", then try to click on your link to view the video, it remembers my username and ask me to login again.
The worst part? I deleted all YouTube cookies, so why does it remember me?
Ah, I see... had to delete all cookies which contained "Google". Next up: making YouTube completely useless by forcing WebM down our throats.
And even Slashdot buttons look like crap now...
Even worst, HTML5 playback doesn't work anymore. Good-bye YouTube, Google is officially the new Microsoft.
I don't have a GMail account.
Deleting both the YouTube and Google cookies worked. but their HTML5 playback in H.264 no longer works in Safari. Are they starting to sabotage H.264 support on YouTube to try and push WebM? Safari doesn't do WebM and I deleted Flash from my system. Vimeo works fine in HTML5, in fact better than YouTube (when it used to work, for the handful of videos that had HTML5 support to begin with).
If someone could port MAME to it (for at least most of the earliest 2D games) and they'll sell thousands instead of hundreds.
The thing has a compressor with access to the video RAM which runs FORTH? I bet the guy who came up with that design has a beard....
Having video output from an arduino would be useful for all sorts of projects, not just games.
...also very true (but I have no mod points today).
400x300 isn't massive resolution but I bet there's a lot of uses for something like that in public information displays, or just showing debug info for your Arduino project.
It's an FPGA on there with verilog code available. Go grab the Xilinx WebPack (free, windows/linux), get a JTAG cable (I've seen Xilinx USB-clones for less than $50 on eBay) and get cracking.
Getting to know the tools is hard, learning to think in VHDL/Verilog is hard (at least if you're not used to thinking in terms of logic gates and other hardware) but you can transform that board into pretty much any hardware you'd like and control it from the arduino. The reason for the 400x300 is probably memory limita
Well, I guess you could do that...
There's only 32k of video RAM though so you won't be able to go *too* crazy.
32k is small for the intended usage
- a gaming device.
Games need the caracter map to be able to display full-colour tiles, using several palette, features truckloads of sprites (up to 256) collision detection, etc.
(==the equivalent of rather good console/arcade video chip of the late-8bit to 16bit era)
That's purely overkill for debugging, where one only needs to display ASCII (a 256 character set of monocrhome tiles - no palettes, except maybe for selecting a different foreground colour on specific charact
Another option for retro-gaming hardware is Andre LaMothe's XGameStation [xgamestation.com] line of DIY kits.
Looks like they now have a "Chameleon" [xgamestation.com] line of kits, in both 8- and 16-bit flavors, which are similar to Arduino or BASIC Stamp systems.
I have not personally used these, but they appear to be pretty cool.
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The Uzebox [belogic.com] is another one, which has a bigger developer folllowing than the Chameleon boards and even has an emulator for development use.
I mean, cool factor is always cool, but does this really provide better capabilities than what is possible with homebrew on some other system that would cost you no more to get started on?
Are you like, 14? Try to escape the gravity of your short sightedness and put some imagination into the invisible world around you.
Yes, yes there's a point, but you aren't privy to it because your imagination is dead and clings limply over you as faux-darkness.
Maybe it costs a lot more than the next cheapest identical solution. Can we find a repose that uses more than black, and white?
If you really are 14, you have no right being uncreative. You seriously need to look beyond yourself for where your creat
Maybe it costs a lot more than the next cheapest identical solution. Can we find a repose that uses more than black, and white?
That was what I was asking, almost; s/identical/similar/
If you really are 14, you have no right being uncreative.
If you really registered that UID all by yourself, you have no right thinking I'm 14 after all the years we've both been here.
does this really provide better capabilities than what is possible with homebrew
This won't get you sued, unlike homebrew where Nintendo and Sony routinely sue companies that deal in homebrew-related hardware. If the video can be redone into more consumer-electronics-friendly formats (composite, S-Video, component), it might even be possible to use this as a platform for developing and selling your own standalone TV games [wikipedia.org].
This won't get you sued, unlike homebrew where Nintendo and Sony routinely sue companies that deal in homebrew-related hardware.
It's interesting that this list doesn't include Microsoft. I know there to be a homebrew scene at least on the original Xbox. I imagine there to be less of one on the 360 (XNA aside) but I've never even looked into it so I honestly have no idea. I can't recall anyone ever getting into trouble for using the official XDK, although there were plenty of hoops jumped through for the sake of avoiding such unpleasantness... and because I don't recall doesn't mean it didn't happen.
Nintendo and Sony routinely sue companies that deal in homebrew-related hardware.
It's interesting that this list doesn't include Microsoft. I know there to be a homebrew scene at least on the original Xbox.
Hence present tense. In the past tense, Microsoft was one of the companies that sued Lik Sang out of existence.
I imagine there to be less of one on the 360 (XNA aside)
As I understand it, the far smaller 360 homebrew scene is due to XNA and Media Center Extender. XNA is an official way to make and sell homebrew games, and MCE does much of what the Xbox version of XBMC did.
This is an open platform, with a great software interface. Complete documentation that is written by the guys who made it (not some reverse-engineered stuff).
Also, try to homebrew on a NES. Guess what? You also need a cartridge with some FLASH memory on board. Those are not free. I would imagine that the homebrew "development kit" is not nearly as polished as the Arduino & Gameduino.
Also, try to homebrew on a NES. Guess what? You also need a cartridge with some FLASH memory on board.
You really can't just ZIF an EEPROM? You can get a prom burner for like ten bucks. You can get a ZIF for about that. You can get an iron for about ten bucks. You can get a NES for about ten bucks. You can get solder and braid for about ten bucks. IIRC this shield is about fifty bucks and you still need some kind of Arduino to attach it to. Either way you need some kind of PC, too. Anyway I'm not suggesting that this device has no purpose, I'm asking if this device has no purpose.
The Uzebox [belogic.com] is another ATMega-based game console, except this one doesn't cheat with a big FPGA on top of it. They cheat by overclocking the AVR.
One thing that seems missing from a quick overview of the Gameduino... what about the gamepads? They talk about video, audio, sprites, registers, etc... but nothing about controllers.
Another option is to pick up an old arcade machine from an operator for next to nothing and canibalize the sticks and buttons from that (or just buy them from Ebay, they're not expensive)
Just because it uses the same connection doesn't mean the SEGA Genesis gamepad isn your typical dumb switches Atari-style joystick. It uses a 74HC157 internally.
My point was that the Gameduino should have specified an interface from the start to simplify the whole thing. Some people will go with an Atari interface, others with a SNES interface, and so on... Games will be compatible on everything except controllers, which is kind of dumb since it's the easiest part to do.
Just because it uses the same connection doesn't mean the SEGA Genesis gamepad isn your typical dumb switches Atari-style joystick.
Yet switches muxed by a 74HC157 are compatible with a lot of devices expecting common-ground dumb switches and vice versa.
My point was that the Gameduino should have specified an interface from the start to simplify the whole thing.
There are really only two standards that need support: SNES (SPI) and Genesis (multiplexed parallel switches). Have you mentioned this to the Gameduino folks?
I believe it says they're using a sparkfun control pad. It seems there are a bunch on their site.
We're talking about a processor that can reach up to 66MHz. Which isn't too stellar from the point of view that we share today concerning Processor speed, but consider:
No need for a heavyweight OS (no need for multitasking, no need to consider other programs running).
No need for a hypervisor or other DRM (seriously, nobody but the maker of commercial software wants it)
No need for "generalist" hardware (just plug in the hardware your current game needs).
The result is surprisingly little overhead. Almost 100%
You are in a maze of little twisting passages, all different.


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November 13, 2013
The Defense Department has selected Autonomic Resources, a cloud provider labeled safe for governmentwide use, to handle military information, marking the department's first foray into what was expected to be primarily a civilian accreditation program.
The General Services Administration in December 2012 deemed the small North Carolina firm's networks safe to service any agency -- an unprecedented move, and has since endorsed nine more organizations, including, most recently, IBM. The initiative, the Federal Risk and Authorization Management Program, or FedRAMP, is intended to save time and money for agencies moving data to shared server farms by eliminating the security testing step. A single agency or a GSA-led interagency board checks a company's infrastructure against a standard set of security controls, and then any agency can read the evaluation.
The Pentagon has never used one of these generic approvals. Neither have many civilian agencies.
Agencies uncomfortable with what they find in the FedRAMP documentation can ask a vendor to undergo more evaluations.
It seems the Defense Information Systems Agency did just that, based on comments from Autonomic Resources officials.
The "offering was assessed using the DISA-developed DoD cloud security model, which was performed for an additional twenty-three controls and control enhancements from [the National Institute of Standards and Technology] above and beyond the FedRAMP moderate baseline," company officials said in a statement.
In June, Kevin Dulany, chief of risk management oversight for the Pentagon's office of the chief information officer, explained Defense's high yardstick.
"I'm going to use your security artifacts and that body of evidence for me to make my own risk decision" and "my process is going to be about a two week process of verification and I'm going to make my own decision," he said.
Autonomic Resource's so-called infrastructure-as-a-service product "is yet again first in security authorizations that are meaningful to our government cloud customer," John Keese, company president and chief executive officer, said in a statement. Reusing an evaluation by the GSA board, which included input from the Defense and the Homeland Security departments, "assisted DoD in rapid approval, something that would have been much more difficult with a single agency [FedRAMP test]."
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Divide and Conquer
A Jewish town had a shortage of men of marriageable age, so they had to import men from other towns. One day a groom-to-be arrived on a train, and two mother-in-laws-to-be were waiting for him, each claiming ownership on him.
A rabbi was called in to solve the problem. After a few minutes of thought, he said: "If you both want the groom, we'll cut him in half and give each one of you half of him."
To this the first woman replied, "If that's the only solution rabbi, then do what you have to do."
The rabbi responded. "Ah...this is the real mother-in-law!"


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In my previous post, I touched on content marketing and I emphasized throughout the post the importance of quality content. But what does that mean?
What a great post about using stories to build quality content -- and a fun poll to take at the end too!
I love how the author has organized her thoughts and given us really good tips on using storytelling to build great blogs, articles, websites, ebooks, etc. Her tips are a terrific map.
And then you get to take a quick poll at the end and see immediate results. I'm bookmarking the post so I can keep going back and to see how people are responding!


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Freshwater Mussels of the Pacific Northwest
By Ethan Jay Nedeau, Allan K. Smith, Jen Stone, and Sarina Jepsen
This book provides an introduction to the freshwater mussel species that occur in western North America, focusing primarily on the Pacific Northwest. This expanded edition includes updated information on the status and taxonomy of western freshwater mussels, as well as a detailed bibliography.
This guide includes information on basic anatomy, life cycle, habitat, ecosystem role, diversity, distribution, human use, conservation, and management of freshwater mussels that occur west of the Rocky Mountains. The species or species groups addressed in this guide include: Margaritifera falcata, Gonidea angulata, Anodonta beringiana, the Anodonta californiensis / Anodonta nuttalliana clade, and the Anodonta oregonensis / Anodonta kennerlyi clade. For each species or species group, this publication provides a description, a shell photograph, range, a range map, and life history, habitat and conservation information. This publication is 51 pages and printed in full color.
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Attorneys for a man accused of killing six hunters in northwestern Wisconsin filed court papers suggesting he may claim self defense.
The Star Tribune of Minneapolis is also reporting Chai Soua Vang also won't pursue a plea bargain.
Vang is charged with murdering six deer hunters and wounding two others in a confrontation over trespassing in Sawyer County last November. His trial is to start September 12th in Hayward.
According to court documents, Vang told investigators he shot the victims because they called him names and shot at him first. Survivors told authorities Vang fired first.
Vang's attorneys filed proposed jury instructions last week. The defense asked the judge to instruct the jury on the legal definition of self-defense.
Defense attorney Steven Kohn declined to comment on the defense strategy. He dismissed a possible plea bargain.


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- 1 English
- 1.1 Etymology 1
- 1.2 Etymology 2
- 1.3 Etymology 3
- 1.4 Further reading
- 1.5 References
Etymology 1[edit]
Timon + -ian, from the 5th-century BC person Timon of Athens (as described by Plutarch, Lucian, Aristophanes), possibly by way of William Shakespeare's play Timon of Athens (c. 1607). Used by poet John Langhorne in his translation of Plutarch's Lives (1777).
Timonian (comparative more Timonian, superlative most Timonian)
- Of a form of bitter misanthropy relating to Timonism, like Timon of Athens.
- 1983, M. R. Stopper, in Phronesis:[1]
- [About Timon's account of Pyrrho's views.] The second Timonian passage is usually taken to come from his prose work, Python.
- 2001, Jonathan Barnes, in Mind:[2]
- Aristocles is not citing Timon—and how near he keeps to any Timonian text we cannot judge.
- 1983, M. R. Stopper, in Phronesis:[1]
- 1770, Langhorne, John; Langhorne, William, Parallel Lives, E. and C. Dilly, translation of original by Plutarch, page 457:
- None of these things, however, disturbed him; for, at once abandoning his hopes and his cares, he left his Timonian retreat, and returned to Alexandria;
- 1939 June 13, "Dr. Ezra Pound", in The New York Times[1], page 22:
- Yesterday Hamilton College doctored Ezra Loomis Pound, the Idaho lad who was graduated from it in 1905. In his habitual Timonian mood he has, time and time again, taken the hide off American professors.
- 1962, Nabokov, Vladimir, Pale Fire: A Novel, New York: G. P. Putnam's Sons, Index (written by the author, part of the narrative) (Repr. Vintage Books, 1989, →ISBN.), page 308:
- Kinbote, Charles, Dr., [...]; his modesty, 34; his having no library in his Timonian cave, 39; his belief in his having inspired S, 42;
- 2002, Berkove, Lawrence I., A Prescription for Adversity: The Moral Art of Ambrose Bierce, Ohio State University Press, →ISBN, OL 11352634M, Introduction, page xiv:
- Like Swift, whom he admired and imitated and with whom he had much in common, Bierce was a man who hated boldly and well and yet was not a Timonian misanthrope.
- For more examples of usage of this term, see Citations:Timonian.
Related terms[edit]
Of a form of bitter misanthropy
Etymology 2[edit]
Timon + -an, from a 3rd-century BC disciple of Pyrrho, Skeptic philosopher and satirist Timon of Phlius (c. 320 – c. 230 BC).
Timonian (comparative more Timonian, superlative most Timonian)
- Of or relating to Skeptic philosopher Timon of Phlius, his life, works, style, or ideas.
- Timonean (less common)
of or relating to Timon of Phlius
Etymology 3[edit]
From the name of French priest Joseph-Marie Timon-David (1823-1891) and the Sacred Heart congregation he founded in 1864.
Timonian (comparative more Timonian, superlative most Timonian)
- Of or relating to the French Catholic Sacred Heart congregation founded by Joseph-Marie Timon-David.
Of or relating to the congregation of Timon-David
Timonian (plural Timonians)
- A member of the French Catholic Sacred Heart congregation founded by Joseph-Marie Timon-David.
Member of the congregation of Timon-David
Further reading[edit]
- OED, "Timon [feat. Timonian, Timonism, Timonist, Timonize]" in the Oxford English Dictionary (reproduced in a post)
- WPFR, "Timonien" in Wikipedia in French
- WPFR, "Joseph-Marie Timon-David" in Wikipedia in French
- ^ M. R. Stopper, "Schizzi Pirroniani [review of Lo scetticismo antico by Gabriele Giannantoni]" (JSTOR 4182180), Critical Notice in Phronesis, Vol. 28, No. 3 (1983), p. 265-297, endnote 36, at Google Scholar.
- ^ Jonathan Barnes, "Pyrrho--his Antecedents and his Legacy. Richard Bett [review of the book from Oxford University Press, 2000]" (doi:10.1093/mind/110.440.1043), in Mind (ISSN 0026-4423, e-ISSN 1460-2113), Vol. 110, Nr. 440, p. 1043-1046, at Google Scholar.


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Bank of America is planning to cut 16,000 jobs by year end as it speeds up a company-wide cost-cutting initiative amid declining revenues, The Wall Street Journal reported on Wednesday.
Under Project New BAC, Bank of America has said it planned to eliminate $5 billion in annual expenses and 30,000 jobs by the end of 2013, largely through cuts in consumer and technology areas.
Bank of America is one of many financial companies slashing thousands of jobs amid new regulations and a tepid economy that are crimping revenue.
New regulations and decreased revenue. Obama and his minions are putting more people on the government dole.


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Tonight at the World Science Festival, astrophysicist Paul Davies and quantum computing innovator Seth Lloyd will talk about the growing field of quantum biology—why it works, what it means, and how it might shape our future. The Bad News: The Festival is happening in New York City and tonight's panel is sold out. The Good News: You can watch a live webcast of the event online at 8:00 Eastern time. Learn more
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Perhaps it was the play that might have been blown dead but wasn't, a miraculous throw by Seahawks quarterback Russell Wilson as Cardinals linebacker
Wilson's knee was all but down as he flipped the ball to tight end Zack Miller to keep a scoring drive alive, and in one moment crystalized the frustration and challenge of defending the guy who makes the Seahawks go.
"He created two touchdowns that weren't designed in the playbook in our ballgame that was the difference in the game," Cardinals coach
Wilson had three touchdown passes and no interceptions in the first meeting, although he did get sacked three times and lost a pair of fumbles. The Cardinals have spent a lot of time figuring out the best way to pressure Wilson and could bring extra rushers – "I love it when they blitz," Wilson said – but defensive coordinator Todd Bowles knows Wilson has a lot of ways to maneuver out of trouble.
"He's dangerous because he uses his brain, his arm, his feet, his legs and he's slithery," Bowles said. "You go back, four guys can't get to him, five guys can't get to him and then he finds a guy open down the field."
Thanks to Wilson's ability to run and the play of running back Marshawn Lynch, the Seahawks also have a very good three-pronged run-pass option Wilson has turned into an art form. The Seahawks don't use play-action as much as a zone read, allowing Wilson to either give the ball to Lynch, keep it himself or flip it to an open receiver on the run in a play that is tough to defend.
"It's more their zone read that messes everyone up," Washington said. "You have that defensive end or outside linebacker, what do you take? You take the dive, he's going to run it. You take the quarterback they will hand it to the dive. It's something you have to scheme for. Zone read turns into a play action. It's that triple threat.
"Don't practice it right and it will eat you up all day."
Arians, however, sees Wilson's pocket presence as the biggest problem.
"He's much more dangerous when he has the rest of the team is going out for passes and he has the field spread for his athletic ability," Arians said.
The Cardinals are not using any special earplugs going to Seattle, but they will use the silent count to try and defeat the noise problem Sunday.
"It's probably the toughest on the guys that have to block the D-ends," quarterback
Arians said the Cardinals will limit some of the run/pass options that can be called because communicating changes at the line is tough.
"Coach said it earlier in the week, once you go to silent count for us on offense, it doesn't change anything," guard
Wide receiver
Many of the Cardinals on the injury report will be game-day decisions, Arians said. Safety
As for quarterback Carson Palmer, Arians said his veteran was "good enough to play.
"He can move around the pocket as well as he did last week," Arians said.
Officially, Fitzgerald, Palmer, linebacker
For the Seahawks, receiver Percy Harvin (hip), guard JR Sweezy (concussion) and linebacker KJ Wright (foot) all are out. All others on the injury list are probable.


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Skip to comments.40 years later, seized USS Pueblo is tourist draw in North Korea
Posted on 09/07/2007 7:41:24 PM PDT by Dubya
PYONGYANG, North Korea North Koreas greatest propaganda trophy, a captured U.S. Navy spy ship, floats along the banks of the Taedong River, beckoning visitors aboard to see how this country once humiliated the United States. It's the USS Pueblo, whose captain surrendered without firing a shot to North Korea in 1968.
Now a major tourist attraction, the vessel has become a floating symbol of anti-Americanism and the Cold War era. It draws some 1,000 people a day in organized tours designed to drum up patriotism.
It was a great victory for the Korean people to capture this ship, said Li Gyong-il, a tour guide dressed in a crisp taupe military uniform.
Even as tourists clamber aboard, inspecting bullet and shrapnel holes circled in bright red paint, poking into the captains quarters and taking the wheel on the bridge, the fate of the Pueblo is again in play. Several U.S. legislators have demanded its return, and North Korea hinted as recently as April of such a possibility as part of six-nation talks to dismantle the nations nuclear weapons program.
If the 177-foot vessel generates intense pride in North Korea, feelings also run strong in the United States, especially among survivors of the 82 crew members who were captured 39 years ago. During 11 months in captivity, they endured beatings and deprivation before a deal was struck to let them cross to freedom in South Korea.
Theres just a tremendous amount of bitterness on the part of the crew, said Stu Russell, a former reservist aboard the vessel who now lives in Eureka, Calif. Weve had a couple of suicides and a higher-than-normal divorce rate. We go through it every night. It doesnt go away.
Another former Pueblo crewmember said he longs for the ships return.
I would love to see that ship sail into San Diego harbor. Id just salute it, said Ralph McClintock, one of several dozen communications specialists posted aboard the spy ship when it was captured.
Temperatures were frigid on the Sea of Japan on Jan. 23, 1968, when three North Korean torpedo boats and a sub chaser circled the USS Pueblo at gunpoint and ordered its surrender. The United States later claimed that the ship, disguised as a marine research vessel, was outside North Korean territorial waters, a claim Pyongyang contested.
When the Pueblo crew started evasive maneuvers, the North Koreans fired machine guns, killing one U.S. seaman. Fearing a massacre aboard the lightly armed vessel, Cmdr. Lloyd Pete Bucher ordered it into port at Wonsan as crewmembers tried with little success to destroy the abundant intelligence material aboard.
We were told wed be executed. We were bound up, blindfolded and beaten, recalled McClintock, 63, who's now a television producer in Jericho, Vermont.
The beatings grew worse months later after the North Koreans discovered that the crewmen had staged a ruse. While assembled for propaganda photos, many of the crew offered middle-finger salutes to the camera.
We had a cover story, Russell said. We said it was the Hawaiian good-luck sign. They bought off on it.
The photo was published in a U.S. newsmagazine with an explanation of the real meaning of the gesture, enraging the North Koreans.
Tourists boarding the Pueblo today enter the galley to watch an 18-minute video, narrated in strident tones with rousing martial music in the background, that recounts how the ship was seized by dealing severe punishment to U.S. imperialist aggressors.
By the end of the ordeal, when the captives were allowed to leave North Korea just before Christmas 1968, the enemy knelt down before the Korean people and the outcome sent a signal to the world, the video says.
The aggressors who lorded it over everywhere in the world were driven out by our country. They returned without even turning their faces, without any dignity of the United States, it says.
Li, the tour guide, ushers visitors past lockers pocked with bullet holes and into interior electronic monitoring and cryptography chambers bearing shelves of secure communications equipment with red labels that say Top Secret -- Prohibited.
Thirty-four spies were on duty day and night to wiretap and spy on the important state and military information of our country, she said.
Much as Soviet trawlers laden with electronic listening gear patrolled the coasts of the Western world in that era, U.S. naval vessels thinly disguised as civilian ships sought to eavesdrop on the communist world.
Within days of the Pueblos capture, Soviet KGB officers are believed to have whisked some of the documents, codebooks and listening gear from the ship to Moscow.
For decades, the North Koreans kept the Pueblo docked in Wonsan, the port near the point of capture. But in 1999, they ran their own flag up the mast and sailed the ship for nine days in international waters to Pyongyang. Why U.S. naval forces based in South Korea and Japan didn't move in to seize the ship then hasn't been explained.
Russell, the former crew member, said senior Pentagon naval officers told a retired Pueblo commander that they were told, Hands off. Let them move the ship.
Some of the history surrounding the USS Pueblos capture has yet to emerge, said Russell, who's filed numerous Freedom of Information Act requests seeking records from the Defense and State departments and the National Archives, to little avail. Its not all on the table yet, he said.
The Pueblo has never been decommissioned by the Navy and remains the only active-duty vessel in enemy hands.
North Korea has hinted at least twice that it would be willing to repatriate the Pueblo, first to Donald Gregg, a former U.S. ambassador to South Korea and top aide to President George H.W. Bush, in 2005 and then this April to New Mexico Gov. Bill Richardson, who toured the ship.
Afterward, the State Department denied that a formal offer had been made and said that the USS Pueblo should be returned to the United States. North Koreas seizure of the vessel and its detention of the crew were in violation of international law.
Aboard the vessel, there is no hint of any return to U.S. hands.
The video declares that the ships presence in Pyongyang will testify century after century (of) the crimes of aggression played by U.S. imperialists against the Korean people.
Li, the tour guide, added: If we sent back the ship, it would be a crime to the Korean people.
2007 McClatchy Newspapers
How about a challenge to all seal teams. First team to demo the ship and make it out of N. korea has the bragging rights.
I would not lose sleep if their tourist attraction disappeared one night is a ball of flames and thunder.
I do not know what those monsters did to our people while they were in their custody, but I knew one of them for a year and a half while I was in Viet Nam. He would never speak about it at all.
I remember when the Pueblo was captured.
After the crews return to San Diego, they were
taken around 7 blocks up the street from me to
the Naval Hospital.
Some yrs. later I had got to shake hands with
Loyd Bucher, the skipper
Could you remind me, and the reporter, who was Commander in Chief in 1999?
That damn ship should have been sunk, right then. If not then, sink it at the pier now.
Interesting, what were the circumstances that you got to meet him? The Chi-coms ramming our P-3 in 2001 seems eerily similar to the Pueblo event.
Correct on your first guess! It was Time that triggered the borderline-fatal weeks of beatings that the crew endured after the Koreans showed them the Time magazine copy in an assembly.
From Bucher's account of their Time-Out:
"...threatened me with speedy execution after an [absolutely inevitable] trial. He was pretty convincing about it and I was returned to my cell feeling that my chances for survival had sunk to zero."
"Radioman Hayes had his jaw broken."
"...beatings were repeated twice a day and at least once a night over the next several days and soon my ribs felt cracked, my guts ruptured, my testicles ready to burst, and my face a pulp with all my front teeth loosened and almost falling out."
"I was by now staggering down the corridor once again urinating blood in a latrine fouled with the vomit of men sickened by their injuries."
Gosh, how'd you do it? We conservatives just seem psychic sometimes.
The Pueblo was based here originally.
AS with most of the crew, they continued on
here in San Diego.
During a rally for the troops during the early
WOT Boucher was there as was Duncan Hunter.
I had a chance to speak to him and shake his hand.
He is buried here at Fr. Rosecrans National Cem.
The photo was published in a U.S. newsmagazine with an explanation of the real meaning of the gesture, enraging the North Koreans. ................ Let me guess, Time? Newsweek?
Traitors then, traitors now. But this time we have the Internet and Free Republic!;)
It's a little late for that, but I like the way you think.....
Stephen Decateur and his crew must be turning in their graves.
We should bomb it.
1.5 Million North Korean troops poised at the 38th parallel, waiting to invade the south and itching for a reason. All they need is an "international incident" to set them moving south....especially if they think our military is stretched thin with Iraq, Afghanistan and the rest of the battles going on with the war against the Islamo-Facists.....
You may not belive it
Yes I know about the USS Liberty. Very sad that we did nothing about it.
I was a Sp4 stationed at the 121st Evac Hosp in 1968 and was sent to meet the crew when they were released. I was in that 1st bus you see in that pic at the bridge of no return. Capt.Bucher was seated between to men that immediately started asking him questions about what documents were destroyed and before he could complete his answer was asked a question by the other person who I'm guessing was either Naval Intel or CIA. The crew was taken to the 121st for medical exams and the next day sent home. For a 19 y/o it was quite an experience.
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He has played king and slave, hero and villain, and is renowned throughout the movie-going world for the heroic figures he played during his early years in Hollywood: Moses, Ben-Hur, El Cid and Michaelangelo. In a wide range of roles, from classical to futuristic, he has shown himself a consummate actor. But Charlton Heston has always been more than a star. Although he is a private man, he has often appeared to be a very public one, willing to speak up on issues he believes in--however controversial they may be. Here, in his own words, is Heston's life as well as highlights of a career that resulted in more than 60 motion pictures. This episode includes scenes from The Greatest Show on Earth, The Ten Commandments, The Big Country, Ben-Hur, Will Penny, Soylent Green, and Planet of the Apes.
Visit the Website: http://www.janson.com
Episode #404 / Length: 49 minutes