text:
tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79496255167853321092018-03-06T04:34:56.923-06:00My Love KnotOne girls journey to finding the meaning of her life.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-55152188305825061752013-11-03T09:30:00.001-06:002013-11-04T11:14:12.790-06:00Starts
Starting... Where to start.... I think a lot of us get an overwhelming feeling when we decide on something but then realize.. Where do you start?? And after thinking about it get even more overwhelmed and just give up and walk away.

I am actually kinda feeling like that... But i took a moment and prayed about it and asked for God to show me where I need to start... And what came to me was... Myself.. What do I give toward myself? What do I do for myself and how do I treat myself?

I am so good at giving to others. Treating others as I would want to be treated. Helping, encouraging, and loving others.... That i tend to neglect myself.

I cant remember when the last time i actually took time for myself that didn't have an agenda attached to it. I mean.. Yes.. I go shopping and by myself clothes... But its for work.. A necessity to what I need to do on a daily basis. But I cant remember the last time I loved myself and bought something for myself where i did it just because. I know I have bought things for people... Just because. So why don't I deserve that same treatment? Ahhh the thoughts of being selfish creep in. Who said it was selfish?? Who is calling me selfish? I am. I am my own worst critic.

I can fill my week and make it busy doing and giving to others that i cant even fit time in for something i really want to do. I feel like that is being selfish. I place everyone elses wants, desires, and needs before myself. I try to be the best mom, daughter, friend, etc... That i can be. I spread myself so thin that I don't have nothing left to give to myself.... And most times.. To God either.

I fill myself with busyness and duties that I overwhelm myself and end up crashing and burning. I don't eat right and the pounds start piling on and then negative self image talk comes around. Its a crazy cycle within myself and I don't know how to get off. Until now... Hopefully... I need to be the mature one in my life and take control. I need to really start focusing on me and really find what makes me happy. I mean really.... I have this one chance to live this life... Why not live it being happy and fully satisfied? No one else is living this life... They are busy living their own. I cant let others control who I am and what I become.... That's just setting it up for a natural disaster. But I can lean into God.... Quiet myself daily with him.... Take that time to have a face to face conversation with Him and recharge myself. Daily! There is nothing selfish about that. He is my partner and love of my life.... Nothing wrong with that at all.

So the time i take to commit to others needs to be balanced with the time I commit to God and to myself. This is the first step. I have deep down known this.. But to realize it and play it out in my own life will be a new experience.. A new commitment...........
Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-90639840420161316872013-10-31T10:02:00.000-05:002013-10-31T21:26:28.855-05:00The Nitty Gritty
Lately, I don't know....Im kinda feeling like Im being thrown around so much mentally and I dont know which way is up.  Maybe after all these years I really need to just lay all the pieces out and truly see if I know the meaning of my life.  I mean, I have done a lot of hard work and feel really really good about the progress I have made within myself.  Learning why I am the way I am and making sure I make the changes I need to.  I know I am not perfect and I will never be perfect.  Every day will be a constant lesson in my life book.  But maybe if I lay it out there...lay the pieces out there, maybe I can step back and see the big picture of my life.  What I am created to be.  I don't know...but that's been kinda tugging at me lately.

So anyways....where do I start when I feel like I have a pile of mental paperwork piled up inside me.  I could just toss it up and throw everything out the door and just start with a blank canvas and just rewrite me.  But in all honesty...that's not gonna happen...that's not really me.  Ahhh...ha... is that a start? :-)

So I'm gonna do this... Im gonna see what God has in store for me. I'm gonna be more diligent on my writing..... Prayerfully it will happen :-)

So let's do this.. Let's pull the top paper from the pile and lay it out.... Lets see what I get........
Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-49795753343282992592013-03-19T09:31:00.005-05:002013-03-19T09:32:25.399-05:00With YouJob 7:19
Will you never look away from me, or let me alone even for an instant?

Sometimes we feel like we are Alone.... Forgotten, left behind... What about me?...... We wonder if God is wanting bad things to happen to us... We question Him all the time when we are faced with struggles.

We Must ALWAYS remember that He is there no matter what.... HE NEVER LEAVES US!.... At any point..... He is our most faithful and loving companion... He will never abandon us. NEVER! He guides us and directs us... He helps us and loves us... He is our biggest cheerleader. If we cant trust in Him... Who will we trust?

So allow Him to comfort you in your time of need and heartbreak... Allow Him to hold your hand and always lean on Him. Trust IN Him..... TRUST HIM!Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-85364219675268355742013-03-13T09:50:00.003-05:002013-03-13T09:55:03.638-05:00Quit Sabotaging Your HappinessDo you ever feel like you are trying to lead a life of goodness and do what's right but you are constantly feeling attacked. It's not like you're doing it on purpose…not at all…but there is something deep down within you that is speaking and whispering negativity?

This has been happening to me a lot lately and the word Sabotage has continually been coming up. It wasn't till today when I realized what God was trying to inform me. About a month ago or so, he whispered, Quit sabotaging your happiness. So anytime I would start to remotely fret over something, I would remind myself not to sabotage my own happiness. But unfortunately this has been a constant battle lately. It seems like the more I dig into God's word or into His presence the more I would feel attacked. This is certainly nothing anyone else has been doing or saying to me to even make me feel this way. So why was this happening to me? Why me I would ask. Then finally when I could not handle it anymore and I cried out to Jesus to help me…to release me. I am tired of living this way. I don't want to do it no more. Please Lord, come inside me and wipe away all that is not right within me and to fill it with all your love, grace and happiness.

That is when I heard Him speak. My daughter, do not fret, for I am here with you. I will protect you no matter what. I will always be here for you. Do you not see that when you get closer to me, when you walk with me, Satan will try anything and everything to bring you back to his way, his life? Do not listen to him, listen to me. Continue to have faith in my ways. Continue to have hope in what I have in store for you. Continue to believe what I teach you and continue to stay close to me. For there will always be light on my path. There will always be goodness in my teachings. You will never have to feel guilt, shame, doubt or any form of insecurity when you are with me. Continue to hold my hand, continue to walk with me. I love you my daughter. You are and have always been special to me. So please do not let Satan sabotage your life. He is not worthy of your time or thoughts. He will only bring you saddness and doubt. Never will I wish that upon you.

So my daughter, give me your burdens. Hand them over to me. I have plans for you and Satan knows that. So now is the time that you must surrender it ALL to me. I will take this and I will deal with this. This is not for you to carry any longer. Free yourself from these thoughts, free yourself from this weight. You are washed clean and you are made new. Do not pick this back up….ever. Trust in me…Trust IN me. Trust ME.

As I sit here now with a renewed heart, lightened shoulders and peace in my soul…all I can say is…Thank you Lord, Thank You!!! I do not need to tell Him anything else, for He knows how I am feeling and what I am thinking. When we are facing a battle and we feel like we are being sabotaged, we must not try to take on this attack by ourselves. As much as we want to put on our battle gear, take this on ourselves and come out the winner, we need to remember that all we have to do is surrender….surrender not to Satan but surrender to Jesus and He will fight the battle and He will win the war for us….each and EVERY time.

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for being my protector. Thank you for going to battle for me. I'm sorry that I try to do things on my own and not ask you for your help. I know now that all you ever wanted me to do was to lean on you and let you take control. Thank you for being my guide and please continue help me stay on your path and to always feel your presence in my life. I love you Father. Thank you!!!Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-48186265191813886542012-06-12T18:47:00.000-05:002012-06-12T18:47:34.977-05:00DisturbedOver the course of our lives we have gone through peeks and valleys of good times and bad. Its life's natural roller coaster of highs and lows. Each of us have had many different experiences which in turn has created us to be who we are today. We all are created with a certain purpose. Our lives hold value and meaning. Throughout our journey we sometimes forget this and tend to dwell in a self centered pool. We will float along and want things to go our way or have things handed to us. Just a normal human tendency I suppose. Sometimes we are so excited about our lives, we want to share this with everyone and other times we are so disappointed with our lives we tend to pull back and hide. But once again, this is all in that swimming pool of our self centered lives.

With that being said, I have a question to ask you. Have you ever been disturbed? You know…you are doing something and someone comes along and interrupts you or stops you. Sometimes its a good thing…you needed a break and sometimes it just annoys you to be disturbed. The definition of Disturbed is having had its normal pattern or function disrupted. God likes to disturb us sometimes….when we get comfortable within our every day, day to day lifestyles, he will come along and disturb us. It's his way of pushing us out of our norm. To push us to grow. If we were to stay in the same place all the time, how would be have the opportunity to become better. To be better.

So when you get disturbed sometimes, maybe you need to stop and listen a moment and hear what God is speaking. Of everything in this world, He is the one we need to be disturbed the most by. Being disturbed out of our self centered lives helps us and reminds us of the bigger picture. Life truly isn't about us…it's about what is not us. Taking ourselves out of the equation and seeing what we can do to give back and offer others is one of the keys in a successful life. Remember that you get to experience what you bring to any relationship…..in all facets of life.

Psalm 43:5
Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

Peace and luvs to ya.Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-47257723450711324792011-04-21T18:13:00.003-05:002011-04-21T18:36:55.463-05:00Divine Romance

For you I sing I dance!!!!!

Gods splendor and grace is an amazing gift that we receive each and every day. Tho times may not be the best and we may be tested in our faith....He is there for us ALL each and everyday!!!

Lately life has not been easy for me. I often feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster ride. I have always known that life wouldn't be a piece of cake. In fact with my personal experiences I have known that trials and tribulations will always come upon us. I never knew the extent tho to how far deep down within yourself you will have to travel to really learn. Learn about what truly matters in life.

Months ago, I went to God and asked Him to transform Me. I knew that I was headed toward an uphill battle against Satan. I wanted Him to help me become a better person, one full of His glory and grace. For His light to shine through me to fight off the enemy when ever he attacks. I can see how God has been here every step of the way being my teacher. He is helping me when I didn't even know He was here. I know I have become someone different than I was months ago. Its truly amazing to feel the overwhelming sense of peace my life has taken on.

Don't get me wrong....like I mentioned before, my emotions have been a roller coaster. But I know its been a healthy ride. For we are only human right? But I do know that having faith and believing in Him will help me win the battle I am facing right now. I have been in search of a job....and its been a hard search and sometimes blow to the ego. But I do know that He has a plan for me, and the right job will be there.....God is just helping me while I wait for it to become present. I know that I will need to find a new place to live (not that I want to) but those anxiety fears have not creeped up. I know He will take care of me.

So even during this storm I'm fighting....I continue to have Faith. I believe! I raise my hands and I sing I dance!Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-77964296729773161222011-03-05T19:07:00.001-06:002011-03-05T19:19:36.210-06:00While Im Waiting

Its heartbreaking to know that what I feel today is how the Lord felt when He was waiting for me.Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-40035305961761669572011-03-05T18:48:00.002-06:002011-03-05T19:07:48.238-06:00WaitingAs you lean into God sometimes it seems like the whole world is either passing you by or falling apart all around you. You are changing. You are being transformed. The other people around you don't look the same no more. Your priorities change. Your outlook changes. Life becomes more difficult. Its so hard to comprehend at times why God wants life to be like this. But its not God that is doing it. He wants you to be taken care of. He wants you to be blessed and cherished and nurtured. He only wants whats best for you. To be able to truly SEE what He has in store for you...you sometimes have to go thru the difficult times to become a better person.

I know I am a good person. I know I am a good willed person. I am Gods daughter and he will never forsake me. I trust that He knows what He is doing for me on this journey. As frustrating and hurtful that it is at times. There is a reason for all of this. Satan is telling me that I can fix this. I KNOW that I cant fix it. I have to surrender it all over to the Lord and allow Him to show me what I need to see.

Why is it taking so long? What am I not seeing? Patience is a hard lesson to learn isn't it? Hitting the fast forward button would seem so easy. I know that I am different now. I know that I am someone I wasn't 3 months ago. With Gods love and my prayers to Him...He will provide what I need.

If you can pray for me to seek clarity and direction and continued transformation. For a peaceful heart and a calm mind. For His direction to be shown to me and answers to be answered. If you can pray for my husband and his health and well being. For his heart and mind to be made new by the power of our Father. For him to be open to change not only within himself, but in our marriage. If you can pray for my children that they receive and feel the unconditional love that they so willingly deserve to experience each and every day. For them to know what their Heavenly Father will do for them always. Pray that if He wants me to get a job...that one will open up for me. If He wants me to have a different residency..that one will be shown to me. I am at a loss right now. Don't know which direction my life is headed. I'm having faith and trust as hard as it is.

I really just wanna smile and laugh again.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-73213976065605097462011-02-16T18:52:00.003-06:002011-02-16T19:43:02.156-06:00SufferingAfter reviewing today, I had a good day, lots to be thankful for. I had a great talk with an awesome friend from far away this morning for an hour. Then had a much needed lesson at my woman's bible study today. Finally had a great lunch with my mom and that was a much needed break from everyday reality. Oh and cant forget the beautiful weather that we had today...car read 55 degrees. I actually opened the sunroof and took in the amazing weather.

As I said before, I really enjoyed my lesson at my study today. We are starting the study on II Corinthians. I know that I'm going to get alot out of this book in the Bible. We are learning about Paul's writings and how even though he had one of those terrible, horrible, no good, very bad times....he still knew that the Lord had good things planned for him.

It was enlightening to learn that even tho we are hard pressed on every side.....we are not crushed. Even tho we can be perplexed....we are not in despair. Even if we feel persecuted, we are never abandoned. When we are struck down we are not destroyed. And when we are under great pressure, we are despaired even of life.

Paul teaches us how to respond to suffering by letting God comfort us. For He is the Father of compassion, the God of All comfort. He lives with you and will be in you always. Go to the word of God and he will comfort you. We must also rely on His grace and allow Him to renew you day by day. For when we struggle we tend to focus on the struggles. We can not do that. I love the quote that mentor Patty said....worrying chokes out the Word....but the Word chokes out the worries.

"Sometimes you just have to sit and dwell on His grace, warm yourself in His comfort and fix your eyes on eternity!"Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-47572277315567779102011-02-15T09:13:00.003-06:002011-02-15T09:45:26.602-06:00To 40 and beyondSo Ive been a bit scatter brained and havent updated the blog for days 31-40....for that I apologize. Life has just been a bit rough and slow. What Ive learnt is that Life is Hard. I think we all know that, just we dont verbalize it very often. Its hard. Its Hard. Its Very Hard. Some times when nothing is going on we often find ourselves that much more confused and lost. Its like we need to be in constant motion to get to something but when its not we are often lost. I think Im to a point where I am just numb. So let me break down in short cliff notes the dare days.

Day 31: Love and marriage
Basically reassure your spouse that you make your marriage a top priority. That even tho your going through hard times...that you wont give up. That you wont leave. That this is whats important to you.

Day 32: Love meets sexual needs
If at all possible try and initiate sex. Yeah that was a tough one. Nothing like the feeling of being shot down.

Day 33: Love completes each other
Basically allow your spouse to be a integral part to your future success. Include them in upcoming decisions. Yeah I did....and he never gave an answer...another day of being shot down.

Day 34: Love celebrates Godliness
Find a specific, recent example when your spouse demonstrated Christian character in a noticeable way..then tell them about it. Hmmm...that was a very hard one to do since I feel that he hasnt been acting in that manner...but who am I to judge. I complimented him on something...but cant remember now.

Day 35: Love is accountable
Find a marriage mentor and even if your spouse wont go and talk with them...make sure you do it for yourself. Which I have a email in to talk to my pastors wife...she is out of town till this week so hopefully I can get in to talk with her soon.

Day 36: Love is Gods word
Commit to reading the Bible every day. Im trying, its hard sometimes...but its just like a habit...you gotta practice at it and make it happen. I do know tho that putting the food of the Lord in me will only make me stronger.

Day 37: Love agrees in Prayer
Ask your spouse if you can begin praying together...if they wont then make sure you do it on your own. Hes not at that place....I continue everyday.

Day 38: Love fullfills dreams
Ask yourself what your spouse would want if it was obtainable. Commit to praying about it and start mapping out a plan for meeting some if not all of their desires. Ive tried on one thing and gave him something to think about.

Day 39: Love endures
Pray and then write a letter of commitment to your spouse about why you are committing to this marriage till death and that you have purposed to love them till death. I wrote a letter....I got a thank you.

Day 40: Love is a covenant
Write out a renewal of vows and place them in your home. If at all possible formally renew your vows before a minister and with family present. At this point it takes two to do that. I can hold up my end...but cant hold up his end.

The book ends at day 40....Im at day 43. I didnt get a Happy anything...words...nothing..said to me yesterday on Valentines day. Im a bit hurt by the fact that I cant even be treated like a regular human being. Today I have been short and quiet with him....yet now that is making him want to talk to me more...but I dont have the oh happiness to talk with him at this moment....maybe thats why he keeps bugging me.

Im sorry that this isnt an upbeat blog. Just one of those days. Very depressed.

Gotta run to an apptment...will update laterStefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-75456323126145426112011-02-07T15:54:00.003-06:002011-02-07T16:26:54.279-06:00Updated ThoughtsI know I need to catch up with my Day 31-33 posts...but I just felt like writing down stuff that is running through my head. I kinda feel a bit deflated at the moment and a bit run down. I really am trying to stay strong and positive, just over this past weekend it really has turned out hard to have the feelings to do that.

Friday night my husband and I had another discussion, and he came out and said that he still loves me but is not in love with me. He can not show me any loving and kind emotions if he doesn't feel it. The hard part of it all is that he can show kind and loving emotions to all his friends and their wives...yet its like he wont even give me the time of day or even the courtesy of how you nicely treat a friend. I feel so left out. I feel so hurt. I feel so belittled. Its very hard to sit around these situations and have it like rubbed into my face. None of our friends treat me as badly as he treats me. They are all very kind and loving and nice to me. Not the case with him. Even some of his friends see it and are concerned for me.

I know its not me that is doing this to him. I know its his disease that he has. I'm just getting really tired of of being in a relationship where there is no equal. Where I don't matter. Where I'm not loved any more. Where my boys are not even getting the love and conversations that they used to get from their step father. I'm soo tired and hurt by all this. It seems so unfair. I guess I keep remembering how he used to be and how nice and kind and loving he always was. He has just done a 180 in a different direction, and I feel like hes pushing us all away. Replacing us with friends. He is constantly always going over to one friends house in particular. I feel bad for their family life as well. Because I see what their family life was like before and how its changed for them too. This disease can take away so much from someone.

I don't know what to do any more. I wish I could see the map that God has laid out for me. I really want to get to the happy X on the treasure map of life. I probably need to start taking the steps I need to take in case I'm going to be a single mom again. I need to find a job that I can handle with taking care of the boys by myself. Because I know I wont be able to count on him...and I shouldn't if he has told me hes done. Plus really how reliable is he with this disease too? Man its all so frustrating and heart breaking. I just want to cry and cry and cry.

I'm sorry if this came across as a pity party post...I am just having one of those days. Maybe tomorrow will be better.Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-26235004482836632702011-02-03T18:37:00.002-06:002011-02-03T18:49:10.036-06:00Day 30: Love Brings UnityUnity. Togetherness. Oneness.

Today's reading was leaning on the unity of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit....how being united they all work together...being unbreakable. I'm still trying to soak in this lesson and still trying to comprehend it. I'm kinda at a loss for words on this one. But the Dare for today is: Isolate one area of division in your marriage, and look on today as a fresh opportunity to pray about it. Ask the Lord to reveal anything in your own heart that is threatening oneness with your spouse. Pray that He would do the same for them. And if appropriate discuss this matter openly, seeking God for unity.

So I kinda get it, but kinda don't. I can pick up on things that do separate us in our marriage..and I will pray about it. I will ask God to show me where I may not be united even in my relationships with others. For my goal is to be the best me I can be....and even if my marriage doesn't make it...I do want my relationships with my family and friends to be the best they can be. I just want to live the best life I can live. I just want to be me. I don't want to feel guilty for feeling things and acting certain ways. If I know that I am doing my very best...that's all the matters. I will take compassion on those that feel or think otherwise...but if I know that I am doing what God wants me to do then that's all the really matters. Living our best life is what its all about right?

I'm sorry that I'm lost on this lesson...I will pray about it more. I'm open to any lessons that God is speaking on your heart to tell me. :)Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-35307217991824780172011-02-02T16:53:00.002-06:002011-02-03T18:37:45.418-06:00Day 29: Loves MotivationToday's Dare says: Before you see your spouse again today, pray for them by name and for their needs. Whether it comes easy for you or not, say "I love you:, then express love to them in some tangible way. Go to God in prayer again, thanking Him for giving you the privilege of loving this one special person-unconditionally, the way He love both of you.

With that being said and reading over the literature....what spoke out to me the most was how our attitudes seem to affect our motivations to love. I know that this has been present in our relationship where when one person is in a bad mood...the other tends to feed off of it and now we are both in bad attitudes. When one is in a good mood..we both seem to be in a good mood. Oh the cycle of our bad selves LOL. What Ive learnt from this and past experiences is that I don't need to take things so personally. When he comes in with a bad mood...its not all about me. I need to listen and understand. Show compassion...but when I know I didn't cause him the pain...don't take it that way. I don't need to battle back...but just love him....just as the Lord loves us unconditionally. As quoted in the book..."Love that has God as its primary focus is unlimited in the heights it can attain."

So I'm motivated to live my life for me...for what I feel, for what I know. Lean on God to help me along this path. My life does not revolve around my husband and what he feels....but I will take his feelings into consideration. I will listen and show compassion. But just cuz he is acting one way doesn't mean I need to follow suit. I am my own person. I am not him. Two great people encouraged me today and both said...to not live my life for him...live my life for me...Please God, don't worry about pleasing him. It will all fall into place with Gods hands and help.Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-46871780056779496512011-02-02T16:17:00.002-06:002011-02-02T16:53:29.152-06:00Day 26-28On to Day 26: Love is Responsible

I am learning about taking personal responsibility. Lots of times we are really quick to see and point out other peoples flaws and mistakes. We are sometimes are so quick to find fault especially with our spouses. Heck they are the easiest to blame because we think they should be one way or doing something that we think they should be doing. I'm guilty for this.....thinking that my views and ways are better or more correct than my husbands. And especially going through these tough times....I probably started off with its all about him...all about what he did wrong. Now I'm thinking more like...what did I do, what was my share of the downfall in this marriage. I know its not alllllll my fault. I'm learning that I need to take personal responsibility for my actions and behaviors. Love doesn't make excuses. Love keeps working to make a difference....in me and in my marriage.
This doesn't mean I am a doormat and I should surrender all to him...and make it his way or no way. Ive learnt that if there is something that's not right between me and God or me and my husband, then that should be first priority. I am learning to swallow my pride, admit my mistakes and seek for forgiveness.

Day 27: Love Encourages
Today's Dare was to eliminate the poison of unrealistic expectations in my home. Think of an area where my husband has told me that I'm expecting too much and tell him I'm sorry. Assure him of my unconditional love.

I know that this kinda ties in with the personal responsibility as well. Sometimes we expect soo much from someone that they can not fill or meet those expectations. Sometimes we wanna make a big deal out of it and pick a huge fight over it. When in actuality we are all human. We know men and women are created differently. We all think differently. So instead of trying for find fault all the time...take on compassion and sincerity and even tho they didn't do it right, encourage them for at least trying. By encouraging them for the things they are doing, will only help our relationships grow and become better. It allows others to feel safe with us. I love this line in the book......."You must realize that marriage is a relationship to be enjoyed and savored along the way. Its a unique friendship designed by God Himself where two people live together in flawed imperfections but deal with it by encouraging each other, not discouraging them."

Great lesson to take in and absorb.

Day 28: Love makes Sacrifices
Ill make this lesson short and sweet. This is about what can we do to help our spouse. Its taking an interest in their wants and needs and acting on them without being asked. Its making them a priority in our lives. We would want the same in return right? Someones gotta make the first move.

Another line I liked from the book said " Even when your mates stress comes out in words of personal accusation, love shows compassion rather than becoming defensive. Love inspires you to say "no" to what you want, in order to say "yes" to what your spouse needs." That's the key...what they Need. To truly love we must make sacrifices to make sure our spouses needs are given with our very best effort.

I am trying my best to put all these lessons in to effect in my daily life. To really learn what Love is all about. I can feel myself changing inside and learning to be a better me. Believe me I still have my set backs from time to time....but with prayer and Gods hand on my shoulder I make it thru. Positive thinking and a changed attitude helps alot. As for anything on his behalf......I don't know. He hasn't talked any more about a divorce. He hasn't talked anymore about what is the next step to ending it. He has been nicer. He has actually called me Hon....and has smiled at me. He has been saying Thank you for alot more things that I have done. I could tell you the discouraging things that he has done...but then I wouldn't be putting my lessons into practice. LOL ;) But with prayer it helps me get thru those discouraging times. I am learning that God is not doing this to me...He is doing this for me. So when I get discouraged or down....I try to remember that there is a good reason that this situation is going on. Now that fix it part of me really wants to come out....but that was the other Stefani. This Stefani knows that I cant fix this. I can fix myself. I can lean on my Heavenly Father and he will provide an amazing life for me. For in the end....we can only be held accountable for ourselves in front of God. So whatever discouraging things my husband may do....I turn it over to God and tell Him....Ok, do you see this....now you can take care of it!!! LOLStefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-56153513882773188192011-02-02T15:51:00.002-06:002011-02-02T16:17:21.342-06:00Day 24-25So I am not good on my daily updates now am I? I guess we do live in this crazy place called life and there are things that do consume our time. But just know, that God is really consuming my time these days...and oh the little bit of the new season of American Idol....LOL! Seems like Ive been taking a college course and He has been my teacher. Giving me daily homework assignments and lots and lots to think about. I definitely know that this is what I need to be doing now. Ive really made alot of self discoveries lately and even tho its been heart warming, its been kinda jarring as well. We don't really like to see the bad stuff in ourselves now do we?

So I had last left off that I was about to do Day 24 which was Love vs. Lust....It is all about learning that God truly does provide all that we need, and because we are only human we tend to get caught up in those worldly possessions and go on a roller coaster of wants and desires. We sometimes get fixated on all those things that we think will make us happy...and in turn do they really? When if we just have faith and believe that God will provide all our happiness for us we might not ever need to feel like keeping up with the Jones' or be entangled in debt. Sometimes lust comes in forms of possessions or power or prideful ambition.....right along with what you would typically think of lust as.....that lustful eye persay.

By taking on this lesson, Ive learnt that I am so grateful for what God has already provided for me in my life. Its really made me take a step back on why I buy certain things and and crave certain things. I certainly have always been aware of the demon of the lustful eye. I have never craved or even thought about that in my marriage. I love my husband way to much to even fathom those thoughts. My Dare was to Identify every object of lust in my life and remove it. Single out every lie Ive swallowed in pursuing forbidden pleasure and reject it. Replace all that with the sure promises of God and a heart filled with His perfect love.

Day 25: Love Forgives
This lesson was whatever I haven't forgiven in my husband, forgive it today. Let it go. Just as we ask Jesus to "forgive our debts" each day, we must ask Him to help us "forgive our debtors" each day as well. Unforgiveness has been keeping my and my husband in a prison too long. This has been easy yet hard. When we dwell on what the other has done to us...we tend to get angry and frustrated. It may change our whole attitude in a matter of minutes if we continue to think about it. Does Jesus do that to us? Does he dwell on it, does he treat us badly? Does he give us an attitude? No! No matter how badly we treat him and take for granted what he has given us....He ALWAYS forgives us...no matter what...and continues to love us soo much! Learning about the true meaning of love has been so eye opening and heart warming. If I want to live a much more fulfilled life...I really need to take these lessons to heart and act on them each and every day! That's my ultimate goal right? To have a more loving and confident and peaceful life. Yes it is.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-28470731062058393292011-01-27T14:55:00.002-06:002011-01-27T15:30:43.504-06:00Day 19-23Eeek I let time get away and didn't get around to blogging about all these days. Oh well....life does go on. So the short cliff notes on what these days are about.....

19~ Love is Impossible.....I was suppose to look back over the previous dares and see if any were very hard to do and reflect on why. If so ask God for his strength and grace and where I stand with him.

20~ Love is Jesus Christ.....Dare to take God at His word. Dare to trust Jesus Christ for his salvation. Really let Him into my life and hand everything over to him. Know that all things are possible if I truly believe in Him.

21~ Love is Satisfied in God....Be intentional about making time to pray. Really start a habit of picking up that Bible and leaning into His words. He does show his love and promises for us through His writing. By doing this will only make my walk Grow with Him.

22~ Love is Faithful....Learning Love is a choice not a feeling. I was dared to choose today to be committed to love even if my husband has lost most of his interest in receiving it. I let him know how much he means to me and how unconditional it is....no strings attached and no expectations. I let him know that even if he doesn't chose to love me in return...that my love for him will always be.

23~ Love always Protects.....So that leads up to today's lesson I'm learning about. Marriage is made up of many things that include happiness, sadness, great achievements and hard failures. We have so many influences in our day to day lives that we need to protect each other and ourselves from. Like watching too much TV, or spending too much time on the computer, working long hours taking away from family time. We really need to learn how to find that balance that will only allow our relationship to grow. We also need to make sure we keep our eyes on the road so to speak....opposite sex relationships can really undermine your marriage if your not careful and be on guard at all times. Satan will get you if he can and will weasel his way in those cracks if you are not careful.
We also need to protect our spouse by making sure we don't talk bad about them in public. Their secrets are our secrets and we must do everything possible to make sure them feel secure in our relationship so they will feel the love we have for them come out to its fullest. Love hides the faults of others. It covers their shame. Then we move onto parasites, which can latch on to either one of us and suck the life out of the marriage. So this is the part about addictions....we saw it in the movie Fireproof...where he was addicted to pornography. It says in the book that if you love your spouse, you must destroy any addiction that has your heart. If you don't, it will destroy you.
Man this really hit me on something that I never thought was an addiction.....but its been stealing my heart....I tend when I get something in my mind to really really dwell and obsess about it....it will take up my mind hours upon hours. I don't really know what you call this addiction...OCD?! But I do know that it is stealing the joy from me. I need to really pay attention to myself when these occasions arise. Learn that I need to stop and pray about it...and just hand it over to God. Then go about my business with something else. Everything will work out in Gods timing. He has a plan for everything. I just need to be strong and learn to trust. With each and everydays worth of practice it Will become easier and easier.

So this is where I'm at. Still ok. Still having faith. Still believing in the best outcome that God wants me to have. Its been kinda weird because Ive been in my own little world lately. Not really talking to many about this. Ive been really leaning into God this time. This is not anyone elses problem and I do not want to unload my crap on top of the crap that is going on in their lives. That is really not fair. Plus after the last weeks lessons....I really don't want to talk bad about my husband to anyone. He is my other half, and talking bad about him is talking bad about me. Its just not right. Yes he is not perfect...but I am not perfect either. If I truly want to learn what God is trying to teach me then I really need to listen to his lessons. I feel funny sometimes talking to myself, or listening to my voice inside my head reassuring me and cheering me on. But I know these are just conversations with God and its all good.

Well tomorrows lesson will be Love vs. Lust.....The world is passing aways, and also its lusts; but the one who does the will of God lives forever. -1 John 2:17Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-574578953863298042011-01-22T15:27:00.002-06:002011-01-22T15:54:37.140-06:00Day 16-18Ahhh Love intercedes.....all about how you cannot change your spouse. Darn it...and I thought it was possible....just kidding. Yes this I do know. We can not change anyone but ourselves. Hence that is why I'm truly enjoying this Love Dare session. Knowing that in the end, the only thing that will be prettier will be who I become. Knowing that I am beautiful no matter what, inside and out. I am truly having faith that God is working his hands in me. I am his clay and he is molding me. I know I cant do this without him. Life is hard. Its no walk in the park. But with patience and kindness and prayer, I know that good things will happen for me.
I know that God is not my magic genie and will grant me all the wishes that I want. But he will give me all that I need to make my life the best it can be. Day 16s dare was to begin praying for my spouse. Pray for exactly what he needs, pray for his heart, pray for his attitude...etc. I know I cant change him....but maybe God can take the wheel and mold him into what he thinks he should be.

Love promotes intimacy. We all have friends and family that we are close with....but there is that total intimate closeness that we only get from our spouse. Who knows our deep dark secrets and guards them with their own heart. Its what happens when we marry. But it can be a double edged sword sometimes. They can either love us at depths we never imagined, or they can hurt us in ways that we may never full recover from. Its our job to make sure that we cherish their secrets and feelings like we would want ours to be treated. Make them feel safe and secure. I never thought of this analogy before....when we got married we took all of our spouses baggage into our life and they did the same for us. We all come with some type of baggage. But its our job to help them feel like they matter, that their baggage is safe with us. That we wont hurt them with what we know. God knows all of our secrets, yet he doesn't hold them over our heads waiting to torment us when we least expect it. No...he gathers us up each and every day and tells us that it will be ok. That we matter. That we are forgiven. So even tho we have done things to hurt our spouses, we must learn to take the steps to move forward and show love inspite of these issues. Listen to what is being said by them and truly feel, cherish and guard their feelings. Once again, do unto others as you would want done unto yourself. I'm really learning, Life is truly not all about me.

Love seeks to understand....today I'm learning that I need to study my husband. When we have an interest or a hobby we like, we tend to follow up on it, learn about it and practice at it. We did this when we were fresh into our relationship.....but somewhere along the way it kinda fizzled. We musta figured that hey..we are married now..we must know everything about each other. Well do we really? I guess obviously not if we have hit this point in our marriage. So I need to go back to school and really start to learn more about my husband. Start digging deeper with in him to really learn and understand Him!! If I want this marriage to work out and be the best it can possibly be...then I need to do my part. I know its not all on my shoulders to make it work. But if I can be a leader, a great example to him. If he can see that I am living more peacefully and lovingly...then he might want the same to. For that I pray for!!!

So anyways...sorry that I haven't updated on a daily basis...but I was having troubles finding words to write. Gods working in me...I know that. I'm still doing ok. Day by day, cherishing each and everyday and taking nothing for granted.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-62147846446577872222011-01-19T13:48:00.002-06:002011-01-19T14:01:22.455-06:00Day 15 Love is HonorableToday's Dare is learning about the word honor. To honor someone is to treat them as being special and of great worth. To be nice, understanding, and to really listen whole heartily when they speak. To be courteous and polite and respectful.

When I took my wedding vows I chose to honor my husband. I chose to treat him like he mattered and let him know that he matters. Sometimes day to day activities and situations attack us from all different angles and we tend to forget that little choice we made. We get caught up in what we are feeling and what matters to us. We become selfish. At one time when we were fresh in our relationship...it was quite easy to show him how much he mattered to me. Over time, I guess I let that priority slide. He did too. We are human. We are not perfect. But I can chose to regain that feeling. I can suck up my pride and be the first to make a move. If someone don't make the first move then who will. I'm learning that I need to let go of my stubborn pride. Let my pride reflect what Gods pride is. Live my life to show Gods presence in it.

As quoted in the book...."Of all the relationships I have, I will value ours the most. Of all the things I'm willing to sacrifice, I will sacrifice the most for you. With all your failures, sins, mistakes, and faults-past and present-I still choose to love and honor you." That's how you lead your heart to truly love your mate again. And that's the beauty of honor.

I will be marinating on this lesson all day. Things that make you go hmmm??!! ;)

I hope that you are having a great day and that your life is being filled with lots of love and peace.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-22570650895043616882011-01-19T13:13:00.002-06:002011-01-19T13:47:56.666-06:00Day 12-14 Keep on lovingDay 12: Love lets the other win

Day 13: Love fights fair

Day 14: Love takes delight

Sunday, Monday and Tuesday has all seemed so eerily calm given the circumstances of the past few weeks. Almost a sense of peace has fallen upon our house. Its hard to explain, but I feel God is working behind the scenes right at the moment. Sometimes its good to just sit back and allow God to do the dirty work. That is what he is there for right? I truly know that I can not fix this storm, but I do know that he will not forsake me or leave me. He is my Heavenly Father and does not want to see me suffer. So with this sense of peace I'm chalking it up to him taking care of me. My mind has almost bit the dust and needs a break. I'm tired of thinking and wondering and worrying. Ive turned it over to Him to do. Seems a bit strange because I'm so used to trying my best to fix everything. I always wanted to be in control of my life. Now...I'm not, and it feels strange. Not a bad strange tho. Just different.

So for my dares these past few days Ive learnt alot about how in control I always seemed to come across. For love lets the other win.....oh boy, was that a doozy to realize. I always felt that I had to defend myself or my way was the best way and no one could try and change my mind. How selfish of me right?! I know!!! Ive realized that sometimes you just got to let the small stuff go. No two people are alike, and we must pick our battles wisely. Sometimes its best not to say anything at all. Doesn't mean the other one is right, it just means why sweat the small stuff that really isn't gonna make a difference 5 to 10 years from now. It means putting your partners feelings at the top of the list. Wouldn't I want the same respect in return. It was really learning how to fight fair. Knowing that I need to really listen before speaking. Absorb what he may be feeling. Just because he has opinions doesn't necessarily mean I have to agree...but we are each unique and different so I need to embrace that. Just as each one of my friends and family members are different and unique...so is my husband. Just because we got married doesnt mean we need to be the exactly the same. If we were what would be the use then?

Which leads to Love takes delight....by really putting my husbands thoughts and feelings into consideration...Im really learning to choose to love him rather than just feel love for him. When I make that choice Im opening my eyes wider. Not living so blinded by false ideas. Learning that true love is more powerful and rewarding when everything is laid out on the table. We are all in control of our choices and feelings. We can choose to let something bother us and eat at us, or we can choose to snip the problem right in the bud by looking at each circumstance with our eyes wide open. Its not all about me. Im learning that.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-48890260539052516692011-01-15T14:35:00.004-06:002011-01-15T14:51:39.511-06:00Day 11 Love CherishesAnswering him, Jesus said "What do you want Me to do for you?" (Mark 10:51)

Today's Love Dare says... What does your spouse have that you could meet today? Can you run an errand? Give a back rub or a foot massage? Is there housework you could help with? Choose a gesture that says "I Cherish You" and do it with a smile.

Learning that I need to give this marriage the time and space that it needs to grow and heal, I gave him the space he needed last night. He went off and did what he felt he needed in his life and I breathed in the sweet breath of my children. I went and had a dinner date with them and just really enjoyed their company. We later went and hung out with my sweet cousin and just enjoyed each others company.

I'm really learning that each day is a gift presented to us and I'm learning to not take things for granted. Trying to really live in each and every moment and let God work his hand in all that he needs to do.

Today's Dare I offered up a haircut for my husband. Even tho he didn't want to inconvenience me, I made him aware that I would be more than happy to do this for him. Today's been pleasant and I have been walking around with more smiles.....not because of him, but because of who I am becoming. Sometimes smiles can be contagious....as someone sweet told me. That's a free gift I can give others as well.

I really don't know what else to write...but know that I am ok. This marathon of life is going slow and steady...but that's the way one succeeds in it right?!Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-88988798583012898332011-01-14T12:15:00.002-06:002011-01-14T13:02:57.236-06:00Day 10 Love is UnconditionalSo today started out having a pity party for me. I had a quick set back with the tears and the why Me's? Life just felt so overwhelming and unbearable. But after taking a couple hours to just cry it out and let it out. God picked up my hand and comforted me and talked me through it. Stupid Satan was trying his best to get his grips on me when I least expected it. If you let your guard down for just one second he can swoop in there and try and tempt you with ugly, crazy thoughts. Which I know are not true. Which I know are just lies!!!! So I picked up my big girl pants and am moving on. I will not let him get to me the rest of the day.

Today's lesson on unconditional love couldn't come at a better moment. After last nights talk...I thought for a fleeting second that there could be hope on the horizon. That maybe his walls were starting to come down. But to be woken this morning to be told that he still feels nothing and still wants it over, really hit me in the face. As I stood in the shower and tried to wash away the morning battle with Satan...God spoke to me. God told me that what my husband is going through is not about me. He has issues much deeper than whats been laid out on the surface, and I can not fix it for him. This is about him and he is and will be the only one that will be able to work thru what he needs to work thru. I need to let go and let God work with him. I can and will still be there for him when hes ready. I can continue to work on myself and my marriage thru doing these Love Dares. Because the most important thing that I am learning from all this....is what I need to learn about me. To make me the best Me I can possibly be......and not for anyone else.

I will continue to pray for my husband. I pray that he can find that missing piece deep down within himself that he is so lost at trying to find. I pray that he will turn to God and lean on him during his time of sorrow and dispare. For I love my husband so deeply that words can not explain. I do know that loving someone so much can not fix everything. I do know that we all are not perfect....for we are merely human.

Taking this time and learning Gods unconditional love that he has for me will give me the opportunity to see his love grow inside me. For once I can truly comprehend his deep unconditional love and totally receive it, then I can in turn share it. How great would it be to have that whole feeling of being loved with no strings attached. Ive searched for it all my life, yet I seemed to by pass the one being that was always there, always willing to give it to me. I just needed to look up.

Today's Dare is to do something out of the ordinary for your spouse-something that proves (to you and to them) that your love is based on your choice and nothing else. Demonstrate love to them for the sheer joy of being their partner in marriage. Examples were wash the car, clean the kitchen, buy his favorite dessert, fold the laundry......well I do those most of the time so I went a totally different off the wall approach....call me silly, but hey....it still means I care. I went and bought the best windshield wipers the store sold. I noticed that when driving his truck that his didn't do a very good job, and don't let there be ice/snow on them...oy vey!! I know its something that he would eventually fix...maybe come spring after he got so tired of it or he just so happened to see them at the store and be reminded of them. I would of normally gone the middle of the road price range because..hey they are just wiper blades LOL. But as I was standing there, I thought how much he deserves to have the best. So I didn't think twice and I just picked up the top of the line. I went to where he parks during the day and just dropped them off in his truck.

Learning to love unconditionally seems like an easy task....but the more you think about things....how often do we really love like that. I know it comes easily to me with my boys. Must be because I birthed them. That pain that we felt when we delivered them and just how quickly it fades away. That's the same for when they do something wrong...our quick get over it and carry on is just the same. But why is it totally different to react and try and get over what others do. God has no problem doing that. He is always loving and forgiving us.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-90483369841749260222011-01-13T11:54:00.004-06:002011-01-13T12:15:02.490-06:00Day 9 Love makes good impressions....Helloooooooo!!!!!! :0)

Ahhh...by reading the title...I'm sure you can imagine what today's Dare is going to be about. Today I must think of a specific way I'd like to greet him. I must do it with a smile and with enthusiasm. Then determine to change my greeting to reflect my love for him.

It takes me back and makes me remember how when we were fresh into our relationship and how wonderful it was to see each other after being separated for however long during the day. There was always that sense of peace and calmness. Such love poured out from one another and let each other know how important we were to each other. How just coming home and being together made everything alright. Then as time went on, that sense faded. I don't know why it faded....but now I know that it was wrong to let it fade. We let everyday life get in between what was most important to us. I let the actions of what I felt thru the day rub off on my greeting to him. He did the same as well. We are both guilty of this matter. I think we may not be the only couple in the sea that has done this.

I do know tho....that I am making that conscience effort to change that behavior in me....and not only with him...but also with my children, family, friends etc. If I can go to Jazzercise or the grocery store and be completely nice and loving towards complete strangers....why in the world cant I do it to those that matter the most to me. I guess it really does all fall back on to....Do unto others as you would want done unto yourself. I need to stop waiting to see the change and just get off my high horse and make the change myself. If those that encounter me see me with a smile, with a beautiful greeting it might just might make a slight improvement to their day. What better gift can I give to those by helping improve their day. And it don't cost no money. I know when I'm around those the lift me up unconditionally, it really helps me. Its my time to pay it all back.

Soooo.......Hey there!!!! How are YOU doing today? I really hope that you are having a wonderful day....because YOU deserve it!!!!! Huge Hugs!!!!

oh and ps......Since the boys go to their dads tonight again....he would like to have another talk. So continued prayers would be greatly appreciated. I did warn him that there would be no fighting or raising of my voice on my end because I am so over that. I dont know how many more heartbreaking conversations I can continue to have. But I guess if God takes me to it he will lead me thru it, right?! So here goes another day of no eating and stomache full of messed up nerves. What a great weightloss plan right?...Not!Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-40551500002680491872011-01-12T14:11:00.002-06:002011-01-12T14:22:35.109-06:00Day 8 Love is Not JealousToday's lesson is learning about jealousy. How there is two different kinds of jealousy we deal with. There is the legitimate jealousy which is based on love. Then there is the illegitimate jealousy which is based on envy. Ive learned that I have been holding onto legitimate jealousy because I felt like he turned his heart away from me and was replacing it with something else. I just wanted back what was righteously mine. After having my revelation over the past weekend, I know now that true love is not selfish and puts others first, it refuses to let jealousy in.

I will start practicing being my husbands biggest cheerleader. Its time to let love, humility and gratefulness destroy any jealousy that springs up in my heart. Its time to let his successes draw us closer together and give me greater opportunities to show genuine love.

So today's Dare was to take yesterdays Negative attributes and discreetly burn them and then share with him how glad I am for a success that he has recently enjoyed. I will become his biggest fan and reject any thoughts of jealousy.Stefanihttp://email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-8872587313256097822011-01-12T13:57:00.002-06:002011-01-12T14:11:50.795-06:00Day 7 Love believes the bestAs the days are going on...I do find myself getting closer to God. And the wonderful thing about it is the sense of peace and calmness I'm feeling. Its as if I am hearing clearer. Tho I am still taking it day by day...I can not see what my future holds. But as for today...I'm ok. I still am praying and having faith that it will all turn out beautifully in my marriage. But I'm in a place that I'm ok with whatever Gods path is for me. I am trusting whole heartily in him and know that he will lead me in the direction I need to be.

Ive been surrounded with such great love and concern by so many wonderful people. I know that if I'm feeling the slight bit uneasy...I know I can turn to you all and know that you will help listen and direct me. I am making sure that I am constantly surrounded by positivity. Thru friends, thru motivational emails, thru church and thru motivational programs I can watch. It is all helping fight Satan off and keep him from attacking me.

Day 7's Dare was to take two pieces of paper and on one write all the positive things about my husband. On the other sheet write all the negative things about him. Take them and hide them for now. But then sometime through out the day pick one positive thing about him and point it out to him and thank him for having this characteristic.

I let him know that even tho he is going through lots of pain and frustrations right now in his life...that he still manages to show kindness. He has always had that great quality about him and I thanked him for still showing me kindness. Don't ask what he said back...cuz he didn't say anything at all...and that's good because I don't need to hear anything about me from that comment. That comment was unconditional to him. Sometimes we all need to be reminded of our good qualities.

Still no opening of doors on his end. He is being pleasant and cordial. No arguments or discussions have been had again. One day at a time....and many prayers!!!Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-7949625516785332109.post-34286575917479297972011-01-10T15:43:00.004-06:002011-01-12T13:57:50.850-06:00The Weekend Recovery...Day 4,5,6Taking it day by day is my goal right now. Made it thru the weekend and came out of it with a sense of more peace. On Saturday my Dare was to contact him sometime during the day and ask how he is doing and to see if there is anything I could do for him. I phoned him up while he was at work and we had a pleasant conversation. I really paid attention to what he was saying and acknowledged what he was feeling. I didn't go deep with him. But I did let him know that I was here for him.

On Sunday my Dare was to ask him what causes him to become uncomfortable or irritated with me. As to which I tried but never got a response from. I am not letting that discourage me and will forage on and still try and learn more about myself as the days continue on. The day before tho I had a heartfelt conversation with some friends about an ongoing issue that has probably consumed me over the last year. It has affected me on so many levels and now I know I am able to resolve it and let it go. I thought I was trying my best to do it before, but now I got the help I needed and a different perspective to really learn about the situation better. God is good and God has really helped me. I am learning so much about myself and how I think and how I react. Having a past full of hurt has really jaded my mind and outcome of how I interpret things. When I think I'm being nice....am I being nice for all the right reasons? I'm getting it now...slowly but surely.

Today's Dare I'm still trying to wrap my finger around. I got half of it pondering around but I'm confused on the other half. My Dare says...Choose today to react to touch circumstances in your marriage in loving ways instead of with irritation. Begin by making a list of areas where you need to add margin to your schedule. Then list any wrong motivations that you need to release from your life.

I'm not the brightest crayon in the box but I need help understanding what it means to add margin to my schedule. I get the wrong motivations part. I am just confused that is all. I wont let this get to me tho...I will get thru this and learn more about myself.Stefanihttp://firstname.lastname@example.com


text:
The end of year reports are coming in and 2008 marks the lowest in Police Officer fatalities by firearms since 1956!!! There were 41 Police Officers killed by gunfire in 2008. A total of 140 Officers were killed in the line of duty last year, which is a decrease of 27% over 2007 and the lowest year total since 1965. About 30% of those fatalities were by firearm, which is considerably less than historical trends of over 50%. All good news for our Police Officers.
And this all happened in spite of the Assault Weapons Ban sunset and with both increased gun ownership and relaxing of concealed carry laws nation wide. Go figure.

subset: commoncrawl


text:
7-9 June 1993
Filter Results
IEEE Conference Record - Abstracts. 1993 IEEE International Conference on Plasma Science [front matter]Publication Year: 1993| PDF (2969 KB)
Environmental and industrial applications of pulsed power systemsPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. Non-thermal destruction of organic contaminants using the free radicals produced by e-beam interactions has been demonstrated in stimulated mixed-waste radiolyzed material. Cleanup of organic contaminants in ground waters can also be accomplished using e-beams. Pulsed-power-driven ion sources can effectively couple to large surface areas to achieve amorphous layer formatio... View full abstract»
Optimal power-coupling and beam focusing using a LiF applied-B ion diode on PBFA IIPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. Experiments have been performed on the PBFA II accelerator using a thin-film LiF source, studying power and energy coupling to a lithium ion diode, ion divergence, and optimal focusing of the lithium beam to enable target experiments. These experiments have provided insight into the present limitations on focussed ion intensity in single-stage applied-B ion diodes using a ... View full abstract»
Lithium beam energy-momentum correlations on PBFAIIPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. The correlation between the energy and canonical angular momentum of an Li beam generated with a 15-cm-radius applied-B-field ion diode on PBFAII is measured with a magnetic spectrometer for the purpose of determining the character of instabilities in the virtual cathode of the diode. The wave nature of instabilities expected in the virtual cathode of the diode should gene... View full abstract»
LEVIS active anode lithium ion source development on PBFA-IIPublication Year: 1993
Cited by: Papers (2)
Summary form only given. Experiments are ongoing on the PBFA-II accelerator to optimize an active lithium ion source in a 15-cm focusing applied-B ion diode using the LEVIS (Laser Evaporation Ion Source) process. Spectroscopic observations indicate the presence of a preformed anode plasma prior to the power pulse. However, the time between application of high voltage and the initiation of signific... View full abstract»
Operation of passive wax flashover and LiF ion sources on extraction applied-B ion diodes on SABREPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. Wax flashover and LiF anodes are being fielded on an extraction ion diode on SABRE (Sandia Accelerator and Beam Research Experiment). These anodes are passive sources of principally hydrocarbon and lithium beams. The authors have considered the effect of magnetic field geometry and the important role of cathode feed electrons in the formation and evolution of the A-K gap e... View full abstract»
Theoretical and experimental results from 2-stage light ion diodesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. In order to improve the coupling of power to the ion diode and improve the beam divergence, a 2-stage intense ion diode concept is being pursued. Analysis and simulations have indicated improved divergence in a 2-stage diode with only modest ion emission in the second stage. Experiments on the joint Sandia National Laboratory-Ktech 2-Stage Diode Facility have shown voltage... View full abstract»
High voltage high brightness electron accelerators with MITL voltage adder coupled to foilless diodesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. It has recently been experimetnally and theoretically demonstrated that foilless diodes can be successfully coupled to self-magnetically insulated transmission line voltage adders to produce very small high-brightness, high-definition (no halo) electron beams. The RADLAC/SMILE experience opened the path to a new approach in high-brightness, high-energy induction accelerato... View full abstract»
Beam propagation options for intense electron beams in welding and materials processing applicationsPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. A typical high-intensity electron-beam device for welding and materials processing applications might produce beams with energies of several MeV, currents of 0.1-10 kA, radii as small as 1 mm, pulse lengths of tens of nsec, and pulse repetition rates up to several kHz. This dramatic increase in beam energy and peak power offers several new capabilities, including the poten... View full abstract»
A self-consistent theory of space charge limiting current for a relativistic electron beamPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. A self-consistent theory of the space-charge limiting current has been developed for a relativistic electron beam propagating through a grounded conducting cylinder. The beam electron density is assumed to be uniform. It is found that the propagating current depends very sensitively on the current densit profile. The self-consistently evaluated limiting current is consider... View full abstract»
Theoretical analysis of collective effects in traveling wave tubesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. Self-consistent field theories of traveling wave tubes have been developed based upon both sheath and tape helix models. In both cases, the helix is assumed to be surrounded by a conducting wall. The transverse motion of the electron beam is assumed to be suppressed by a strong magnetic field for the sheath helix, but not for the tape helix, in which the beam dynamics is t... View full abstract»
Single and multistage depressed collector design in high power linear beam tubesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. One means to improve overall efficiency in linear beam devices such as traveling wave tubes and klystrons is to use a single or multistage depressed collector to recapture a portion of the power in the spent beam which would be otherwise dissipated as heat. Numerical tools which are useful in their design are discussed. One useful code, TRUE103, accepts spectral energy dat... View full abstract»
Sheet electron beam confinement for rectangular cross-section Cerenkov amplifiersPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given, as follows. Analyses have been performed which predict that sheet electron beams confined by periodic cusped magnetic (PCM) focusing should be stable against low-frequency breakup instabilities (such as diocotron) provided the magnet period is short enough. Criteria have been identified delimiting a regime of stable, focused sheet beam propagation. Several PCM configuratio... View full abstract»
Analysis and preliminary experiments for rectangular grating Cerenkov masersPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. Pencil and sheet beam propagation over a rectangular deep groove grating structure in a rectangular guide has been considered. A 14-GHz prototype has been analyzed, designed, and fabricated for experimental measurements. The lowest order mode in the rectangular grating in a Ku-band size guide is the hybrid TE/sub x10/ mode. The beam energy ranges from 2.5 kV (backward mode... View full abstract»
Small signal gain for crossed-field devicesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. The stimulated microwave emission from electrons undergoing E/sub Ospl times/B/sub O/ motion inside slow wave cavities (magnetrons, crossed field amplifiers) is analyzed. A guiding center approach is applied to single mode evolution in cross-field devices. The cyclotron motion contribution to the instability ensemble averages to zero to all orders in Larmor radius if relat... View full abstract»
Cross-field amplifier end-hat effects and 3-D electron density measurementsPublication Year: 1993
Cited by: Papers (1)
Summary form only given. A low-frequency, injected-beam, non-reentrant CFA (crossed-field amplifier) has been constructed for experimental investigations of electron-radio frequency wave interactions. In situ 3-D electron density profile measurements have been made to study the end-hat space-charge region of the CFA. It has been found that a separated electron population exists in that region and ... View full abstract»
Multimode simulations of an 85 GHz quasioptical gyroklystron experimentPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given, as follows. The quasioptical gyrotron is under development at the Naval Research Laboratory as a high-power source of millimeter-wave radiation. A quasioptical gyroklystron experiment has recently been completed, where the electron beam is prebunched in an upstream resonator by an external 85-GHz drive source. Typical operating parameters are 70 kV beam voltage with a curr... View full abstract»
Compact amplifier using time gated beam sourcesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. A short pulse amplifier which uses a combination of a cold field emitting cathode and a light gated semiconducting switch to generate a gated current beam is discussed. A number of such beams interact transversely with a wideband propagating circuit, with each beam timed accurately to add energy to portions of a pulse as it travels down the circuit at its phase velocity. P... View full abstract»
Present status of direct drive inertial confinement fusion research at ILE Osaka UniversityPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. Direct drive implosion experiments at ILE of Osaka University are focused on planar and spherical target experiments relating to Rayleigh-Taylor instability and implosion experiments of cryogenic targets with low-density plastic foam shell overcoated by a solid plastic layer. To determine the value of /spl beta/ experimentally, planar plastic targets with well-controlled a... View full abstract»
Solid-state laser driver for IFE power plantsPublication Year: 1993
Cited by: Papers (4)
Summary form only given. The authors present the concept of a diode-pumped solid-state laser driver in the context of a power plant for inertial fusion energy (IFE) based on the cost and efficiency analyses published for Sombrero. A systems-analysis computer code has been used to optimize the design parameters in selecting the best driver configuration. The development of this configuration poses ... View full abstract»
Laser driven hydrodynamic instability experiments on NovaPublication Year: 1993
Cited by: Papers (1)
Summary form only given, as follows. A series of experiments on hydrodynamic (Rayleigh-Taylor) instabilities seeded by drive modulations in planar foils has been performed on the Nova laser at Lawrence Livermore National Laboratory. A drive laser beam smoothed by a random phase plate and by spectral dispersion with variable bandwidth was used. The laser far-field image was measured both time integ... View full abstract»
Two plasmon decay, ion acoustic waves, and the (3/2)/spl omegasub o/-thermometer in laser produced plasmasPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. In order to investigate the relation between TPD and (3/2)/spl omegasub o/-radiation the authors have conducted an extensive experimental survey of the growth and saturation of TPD waves in a CO/sub 2/-laser-irradiated long-scale-length plasma of /spl sim/quarter critical maximum density. Using ps-streak camera detection of visible Thomson-scattered probe laser radiation t... View full abstract»
Electron emission from metal surfaces excited by intense femtosecond pulsesPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. In order to understand quantitatively the electron yield and energy distribution and to develop a useful diagnostic technique, the authors present a combined experimental, analytical theory, and particle simulation investigation of femtosecond pulse induced electron emission from Al, Ag and W surfaces. Al [110], Ag [111], and W [100] samples in an ultrahigh vacuum chamber ... View full abstract»
Optical ionization of gases by intense ps KrF laser radiationPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given. The authors report on studies of optical ionization of gases produced by 12-ps pulses of focused Raman-shifted KrF laser radiation (/spl gamma/=268 nm) at intensities of 3/spl times/10/sup 17/ W/cm/sup 2/. Measurements of Thomson, stimulated Raman, and stimulated Brillouin scattering have been used to determine the electron energy distribution and temperature in He and Ne ... View full abstract»
ANTHEM simulation of hot electron transport from a bright source laserPublication Year: 1993
Summary form only given, as follows. The ANTHEM 2D implicit plasma simulation model has been used to examine the hot electron transport and self magnetic fields produced by short-pulse (1-ps) high-intensity lasers. Preliminary calculations have manifested conventional thermoelectric fields at intensities approaching 40 MG for 10/sup 19/ W/cm/sup 2/ illumination. These fields are both weaker than a... View full abstract»


text:
On February 1, the University of Chicago's Future of the City Symposium brought together leaders from Chicago and beyond to examine the performance and possibilities of one of America's largest urban centers.
The symposium began with a special address by Mayor Richard M. Daley, Chicago's longest-serving chief executive. The day's schedule of events also included presentations and discussions led by internationally recognized urban planners, researchers, and thought leaders.
Together, the day's sessions presented leading-edge thinking on economic priorities, education, quality of life and cultural considerations, raising important questions for the next generation of public and private leadership in Chicago and all large cities.
The symposium was organized by the University of Chicago's Harris School of Public Policy Studies and the Office of Civic Engagement.


text:
PETALING JAYA - An orange alert warning has been issued by the Meteorological Department to parts of Pahang and Terengganu.
Its National Weather Forecast Centre director Muhammad Helmi Abdullah said the Level 2 orange warning, issued for Kuantan, Pekan and Rompin (in Pahang) and for Dungun and Kemaman (Terengganu) on Monday, could be lifted if the situation improved.
The yellow warning status indicates weather alert and to make people aware of the situation to take preventive action.
The orange status implies that those in affected areas should prepare themselves to take action in the event of worsening condition.
The red status alert means severe weather warning and people need to take action to protect themselves - this could mean moving families out of the danger zone temporarily.
The department issued its heavy rain advisory orange warning on Monday, saying that intermittent and moderate rain would persist until yesterday and this would cause floods in low-lying areas.
Helmi said floods were the result of heavy rains made worse by high tide.
He said the northeastern monsoon started in November and would end in the third week of March next year but the wettest season would be from November to February.
The monsoon started to hit Kelantan and Terengganu last month and would hit the western and middle parts of Sarawak, from Kuching to Bintulu, later this month, he said.
The monsoon would then hit the eastern parts of Sabah - Sandakan and Kudat - in January, he said.
He said the public could call the department's central number 03-7967 8116 or the numbers listed for each state on its website.


text:
Another one of my own creations! What can I say? I love skulls and I love cute, pretty things.
Sewn from black cotton knit jersey and whispy semi-sheer vanilla creme colored skull/pirate ship/anchor print knit. The creme fabric on the bodice has an asymmetrical cut over the black. It has perfect little poufed sleeves and a bow on the front. I trimmed it in wide black lace edging.
very cute dress! :) +1
0 ▲ ·
Oooh! very nice! hype! see me too if you want! thanks!
hype~ pretty dress and pretty girl~♪ :)


text:
By TIOL Feature Team
NETIZENS, particularly those who are working with the CBDT and its field formations, may recall the 'Let's Share' Initiative. A rare attempt for any government department to trigger the concept of institutional memory. It was, for the first time, done with much fanfare. But pessimism generally dominates the mood of the vox populi in the Department, and most thought that the second edition will not come out.
However, it is not only the second edition which has come out but also a special compilation of judicial decisions favour Revenue has been published by the Department. This compilation 'Case Laws in favour of Department' is for the first time authored by a below CIT-level officer, Mr Shaji P Jacob, an Addl CIT of 1988 Batch. Mr Jacob is presently posted as DR with the Chennai Bench of the ITAT. There are more than 100 reported decisions in his name. In the first volume of "Let us share" published by CBDT he was a leading contributor.
Mr Jacob has indeed taken the pain to go through all published sources of cases - offline and online, and selected all such judicial decisions decided not only in favour of Revenue but also having precedence value. Knowing full well the requirements of the Departmental officers at critical levesl, the author has endeavoured to arrange the case laws chapter-wise and also the hierarchial system of our courts. The idea is to save time for the officers who could spend more time in studying the facts of the case in hand and then applying the ratio decidendi of cases decided.
What inspired him to work on such a project is his stint with the ITAT various Benches where he felt handicapped for the lack of such publications. In fact his experience like many others in the Department is that most publications carry very few of decisions favouring Revenue, and even those few are buried in huge mountains of decided cases. That means if one needs such cases, one has to spend hours under the mountains of case laws. To mitigate their problems he developed a habit of collecting decisions favouring Revenue and his hobby has finally become an asset for the CBDT's institutional memory.
TIOL finds it a very useful tool for fast and accurate decision-making by the senior officers of the Department. But the long-term solution to this problem does not lie in print publication which cannot be published every month or quarter. Given the pace and volume of decisions which have been altering the landscape of judicially-settled wisdom, it is important for the Board to go for an ONLINE solution for a regularly updated knowledge warehouse which can be simultaneously accessed from anywhere and by all officers of the Department. Let's hope the Board shows the much-needed vision to work out a permanent solution to this issue.


text:
Video Transcript
Hey, this is Steve with Dabble Lab. So in this video, I'm going to show you how to set up a skill for Amazon Alexa from start to finish. And this is actually a remake of a video that I originally published in March of 2017. But lots changed since then, so I'm going to just walk through it in sort of updated version.
So we're going to go pretty quick. I'm going to try to finish it as fast as I can, but you will need two things to follow on. You'll need an account at developer.amazon.com and you'll also need a Amazon Web Services account with you can get at aws.amazon.com. So if you don't have accounts at both of these places, go sign up. And then once you've signed up, you just want to go ahead and log in. And after you've logged into the Developer Console, you would go to Alexa over here, and then to the Alexa Skills Kit here.
And then in the Alexa Skills Kit, you choose to Add a New Skill and we're going to call this one space facts and we'll make the invocation name space facts too. And this skill is going to be a skill that's based on an example that Amazon provides. So once you have that here until this point, then you can go over to Amazon Web Services and you can sign in to the console there. After you've singed up of course, the AWS account, there is a free tier, so nothing that we're doing here will cost you anything but it will prompt you for a credit card when you sign up.
Once you're logged in, you're going to go to the Lambda Console. So you go under Services, Compute, and then you go to Lambda. And like I said, we're going to create this from a Blueprint that Amazon provide, so when you go — I went through that quickly. I'll go back. So here you go create function. And if you don't have any functions the screen will look a little bit different but there will be a big orange Create function button that you want to press or click. And then you want to select Blueprints here.
And then if you just filter this with Alexa, it will filter and you want to select this template here, the Alexa Skills Kit SDK fact skill. This is the one that we're going to use. And we're just going to call this space-facts, like that. And if this is the first time that you're creating a lambda function, you want to select a Create a custom role and it will step you through creating a role which provides the permissions for the functions to run.
If you've already created a function at some point as you can choose this existing role here and then you would select the role that you want to use. Additional it creates a default one called lambda_basic execution, so that's what I'm going to use for this example. And then you can see here there are some boilerplate code for the Blueprint for this skill that's going to provide space facts and I just go create function.
And then this has changed quite a bit from the last time around but basically doing the same thing. You want to setup so that the function can run when a request comes from the Alexa Skills Kit which is over the Amazon Developer Console. You set up what's referred to as a trigger and if you go over here on the Add Trigger, on the left-hand side, you want to select this Alexa Skills Kit trigger right there. And then just down here, you would choose Add and Save.
And now the functions all set up and so we can go back over the Developer Console but before doing that we want to copy this ARN here. So we're going to need this, so you just want to select that and copy it and then go back over to the developer.amazon.com console to your Alexa space facts skill and we're going to go over here to — I'm skipping real quick. We're going to go to configuration and then select AWS Lambda ARN and we're going to paste that ARN in that we just copied from the AWS Lambda Console and save that.
And now this, how I did this in the last video, this has changed too, because they've updated the example. So we're going to use this time around the skill builder to create the interaction model. So you go to Launch Skill Builder here and you can — I could go through and set up the required information for this, but I'm going to cheat and show you how to cheat also.
If you go to the code editor here and then go to GitHub and then go to github.com/alexa, you can grab the interaction model from the — I think, it's this one. Yes, it is. Okay. So then from here, we go to interactionmodel.json here and just select all this. I'm going to just grab the raw. You want to copy that just like that and then go back over to the skill builder and then paste that in. Hold on.
This lethal language model in there, that and then apply changes. Okay. And then we can save it and then build it. It will take a minute to build, so I'm going to just pause the recording and then come back when it's done.
Okay. So now the interaction model is done building, so I can go over here and test it to see if everything is working. At this point, we should be done and it should work hopefully. We'll try it out. Enable the testing. And then from here, you can use the Service Simulator down here to test it. So you open space facts, right. And so we got our fact back here, we can listen to that.
Alexa: Here's your fact. A total solar eclipse can happen once every one to two years. This makes them a rare event.
Okay. So the skill is all up and working. It's really that simple. You can, at this point, if you've set up your developer account using the same account that you used to set up your Echo, if you have an Echo, then you will also be able to test this with your live Echo. So I'll do that with my Echo here.
Steve: Alexa, open space facts.
Alexa: Here's your fact. The Milky Way Galaxy will collide with the Andromeda Galaxy in about 5 billion years.
Okay. So that's it. That is creating a very simple Amazon Alexa Skill using one of the Amazon Blueprint, skill blueprints, the fact blueprint. So hopefully, that was helpful. If you have any questions, you can leave those and I will reply as quickly as I can. If you found this video valuable, please subscribe to the Dabble Lab channel and like the video. Thanks so much.


text:
Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Inc. greatly values education and is focused on three key areas of enrichment in this area:
Our signature youth enrichment program is designed to motivate, engage, and assist high school students in reaching their maximum potential in their journey to college or vocational employment. More >>> ASCEND APPLICATION
One Million Backpacks℠
A program where we will donate and distribute one million backpacks and related school supplies to students by 2018.
Think HBCU℠
Our commitment to highlight Historically Black Colleges and Universities and their contribution to our sorority and society.
Program Chairman: Andrea Sparks Brown


text:
He is the MAN....haha
Welcome to OrchidTalk Orchid Forums
The Friendliest Orchid Community on the Internet!
OrchidTalk - "Bringing People Together to Grow Orchids Better!"
Let us help you grow your Orchids better; Join our community today.
YES! I want to register an account for free right now!
Register or Login now to remove this advertisement.
This is a discussion on paph.(makuli-curtisII)-Maudiae x Maudiae'Napa Valley' HCC/AOS x SIB - (green/white) within the Paphiopedilum, Phragmipedium, Cypripedium IN BLOOM forums, part of the Orchid Photography category; Very pretty flower. It is elegant. Thanks for sharing...
Very pretty flower. It is elegant. Thanks for sharing
He is the MAN....haha
any tips for growing this orchid? R
Gorgeous blooming !!!!!
thanks, guys. Will post some of my orchids, not in bloom now.
Very, very nice. Thanks for sharing.


text:
Education News
Black History Month | Malcolm X
Posted by
Help your class deepen their understanding and knowledge of black history through the life of Malcolm X, African American leader and human rights activist, with the following "American Icons" lesson plan.Read More
PBS Education Blog
Posted by
Discover new voices in education, explore cool tech tools, and get your daily dose of classroom inspiration from the PBS Teachers' Lounge Blog!Read More
Reader, it's Jane Eyre | Crash Course Literature #207
Posted by
The novel, "Jane Eyre" - published in 1847 - became one of the great successes of the Victorian age and yet its release was tinged with scandal.Read More
Benjamin Franklin | Writer, Inventor, and Founding Father
Posted by
Learn about Benjamin Franklin.Read More
Gratitude and the Environment
Posted by
While it's important to be thankful year-round, the holidays are one of the most opportune times to express gratitude.Read More
Do an Hour of Code
Posted by
Educators: How can you cultivate the innovators of the future? With Hour of Code, of course!Read More
The Perfect Christmas Gift (According to Science)
Posted by
"Twas the night before Christmas, and all through the house, there was one creature stirring – a gift-less spouse."Read More
SciGirls Training Day 3
Last Updated by
One of the challenges of any training is bringing what was learned back home. It has been two weeks since the training and I am finally at a point where I can both write about the third day of connections and reflect on the program, always aiming forward.Read More
Mister C: Science and Math
Posted by
DROP THE BEAT! This cool collection from PBS Digital Innovator and educator Mister C will have your students singing, dancing and learning about a variety of math and science topics, from the process behind photosynthesis and the role of ecosystems to the concept of "order of operations" and how long division works.Read More
Elizabeth Freeman (Mumbet)| She Inspires
Last Updated by
Learn about Elizabeth Freeman (Mumbet), a slave in western Massachusetts until she sued for freedom and won.Read More


text:
It's not a regular occurrence that you discover you need a replacement Window Regulator for your automobile. You bought your Villager because its reliability and a trusted name appealed to your senses; so why would you settle for second best when it comes to great quality auto parts? The vehicle in your driveway symbolizes the best in class when it comes to all the vehicles these days. Your Mercury dealership isn't the only place to buy trusted parts to repair your Villager.
In order to maintain a basic level of convenience, you have to be able to raise and lower your windows. Your Mercury Villager window regulator moves the window glass; ensuring that you and your passengers can keep the outside world separate while driving down the road. It's easy to take the window regulator on your vehicle for granted when it's working, but easy to see how vital it is when yours doesn't work anymore. Don't be the person who drives your Mercury Villager with the windows down in the dead of summer while air conditioning escapes from your car because your window regulator doesn't work.
Trust in the value of the parts you get from carpartsdiscount.com and realize incredible savings on all your upcoming repairs. At Car Parts Discount, we have live customer service members here with enough expertise to help you purchase the appropriate Mercury Villager part for your needs. Don't let a broken Window Regulator bring about the demise of your car, truck, or SUV, and don't risk lowering its resale value by installing anything but the highest quality replacement parts. All the Mercury Villager Window Regulator parts on this page will fit vehicles made in 2002, 2001, 2000, 1999, 1998, 1997, 1996, 1995, 1994, 1993. Choose your year below to refine your search.
Vehicle Install Locations: Front Left
Vehicle Install Locations: Front Right
Vehicle Install Locations: Front Right
Motor/Regulator Assembly.
Vehicle Install Locations: Front Left


text:
Nigerian strikers Anthony Nwakaeme and Emmanuel Bonaventure Dennis were both on target for their respective clubs in tonight's UEFA Champions League third qualifying round matches.
Nwakaeme propelled Israeli champions Hapoel Be'er Sheva to a 2-0 home win over Ludogorets of Bulgaria when he opened scoring after 19 minutes.
In Belgium, young Nigerian striker Bonaventure Dennis scored as early as fifth minute for Belgian team Club Brugge, who were eventually held to a 3-3 draw at home by Turkish club Istanbul BB.
The overall winners of these ties will qualify for the final playoffs for the group stage of the Champions League.