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5:23pm edit: I gave blood today, with no advance notice, and am doing good! It was my THIRD time and finally I understand the importance of eating well before and after. Meaning, do NOT severely restrict calories or sugar when you give blood!
breakfast: i actually didn't eat at home, picked up dunkin donuts eggwhite flatbread turkey sausage and huge tea 350 (and this worked out perfectly for when i gave blood an hour later after eating!!)
snack: after giving blood, cookies 140, juice 70 total 210
lunch: chips and veggie patty sandwich at subway 500
snack: starbucks light blended drink: around 200
dinner: I will NOT restrict today. although, i am i the mood for something healthy, at this moment...so healthy 500 cal. :)
total cal: 1760 and i am overjoyed with my success today.
exercise: weights and 15 min cardio. some abs. :) just lovely and what i needed.
LOL. i soooo cannot sleep. Mr. Florida did in fact contact me and all is now well on that note...
i need to sleep bc it's going to cause bad eating...however, with this new goal of Nov. 14th, i think i can seriously overcome my emotions and not stuff myself with food tomorrow. i know i can, but i realize it may NOT be easy!
breakfast: can't even think about it at 3:01am now...
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
i doubt mr. florida will call me to wish me a happy bday. I will be SO BUMMED if he doesn't. but moreso if my own sister forgets. and she SO WILL, unless someone tells her. totally not cool. when it's her bday, 9/20/09 you can bet i will not forget and i will AT LEAST text her in the morning. gosh! lol.
if mr. florida forgets, well, i will be so upset. first of all, i'm friends with him on facebook , maybe he'll check that. idk, if i knew it were his bday, which i can check on facebook, i would certainly wish him a very happy bday. if he doesn't, i'm texting him tomorrrow probably.
on another note, i must stay as positive as possible as it is NOT easy to keep a diet, not binge, until November 14th...and then hopefully onward, to reach my goal this year, 115. I'd love to reach it by Christmas. I have a major party to go to for my school and the entire hospital radiology department.
ok, progress so far!
early breakfast 5:45 : 340 cal
10am bday bagel breakfast which i enjoyed: 550
late snack: nuts:
snack 2: ices
total so far 1320
late dinner: microwavable 400, dessert 500
total cal: 2220, good.
exercise: 5 miles.
up an hour early to study at school...haha, let me get off this computer then!
breakfast: NASTY and GROSS. coffee yogurt 90, and such a completely disgusting microwave breakfast sandwich, never again! blech! 200, coffee 50 total: 340 grossness.
snack: do i have to think about it now?
lunch: bday cake probably...and a yogurt....salad beforehand? lol. who knows.
i will have to work HARD not to binge today. I have a wedding to go to Nov. 14th. I want to be 120 lbs or less. :) (right now i probably weigh in the upper 130s)Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
I don't know if I should even say anything about Mr. Florida. Let me just say, that if he does NOT call, I do NOT want to be reading about how you BINGED because of someone ELSE's actions -- or INactions, rather.
I have a wedding to go to in November. And my goal is 120 lbs or less by that wedding, November 14 i think. It's one of my very best friends from college and i love her dearly. we don't see each other much for she is in another state. I am very excited and happy for her. and i would HATE to see myself with her in such a happy moment all bloated up with extra weight. No freakin way. I NEED to look put together at this wedding. It is very, very important to me. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.
a wedding, two months. 120 lbs or less. that is all....
Breakfast: cereal and soy milk and coffee 350
snack: sucking candies yeah, not the best. 100
lunch: 2 pcs bread toasted 220, with tofu heated up on top 100, yogurt 90, large tea w. milk and equal.
snack: large bowl of cereal, yogurt, diet root beer. 400
total so far: 1310. fine by me.
dinner: microwavable meal and 2 cucumbers w. dressing, maybe also a kombucha 450
total: 1760. *very* happy with this number...progress is my goal right now. and 1760 = progress.
exercise: EVERYTHING. I walk to the gym and back, did some elliptical 15 minutes worth, and did weights, finally! 30 minutes or so of weights. was WONDERFUL! i like weights, and i need to get a pattern going.....because....
I have a wedding to go to in November which I am VERY excited for. One of my best friends from college! :)
I can definitely do this by November. This is the ULTIMATE goal....2 Months is nothing! it's so easy...just 2 months from now.
so my plan:
not to give up on weights, at least 2X a week minimum.
i just will not binge. no matter what. no more than 2,000 cal per day.
keep up the cardio, at least 2 or 3 miles per day.
to do this once and for all. no more stalling.
weight i'd like to achieve for the wedding 120 or less. That's it. I need this. 120 or less.Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Labor Day Monday:
snack: pineapple 50
lunch: pepper 50, sandwich 200
snack: pineapple 50
dinner: microwave meal 400, red pepper 50, yogurt 150, tofu 200. total: 800.
total: 1950. blah. at least no real binge or screw up today.
MONDAY EXERCISE BEFORE BEACH: 4 MI, 3 JOGGING AND 1 WALKING, evening: 2.5 miles.
but if i look at my weightloss chart, i've been losing weight since May. Of course, I've gained about 5 lbs back, I refuse to get on a scale to check that out but i know its true.
but, I have lost steam and for no good reason. I was doing well, there's no reason I can't keep doing well. yes, it'll be challenging. but it also can be done. and as for the binging, it's even more important i work on it too, i know. lately, what was working, is when i let myself eat not as healthy as i think i need to. whenever i get on too much of a health kick, i almost always binge with bad things. yeah, i know that didn't make a whole lot of sense. but that's what i've been seeing. who knows anymore.
off to the beach, thank god. this weekend was very upsetting. i really didn't make any other plans other than today with my friend and i was bored. of course, i went to visit my grandmother during the day yesterday and get loads of exercise in, but i was still dissatisfied and upset for a good portion of the weekend. i think i'm PMSing. .
sunday update:
yogurt150, pretzels240, cereal 420w. soy milk60, cereal 630and yogurt140, sorbet 320 = 1960. this was done at 1am. I couldn't sleep. terrible!
total calories today: 4100. wow.
wow, time is flying! do you guys feel that way!? i guess as we get older, time seems to move quicker...
breakfast: large coffee 50, 1 ice cream sandwich 140, yogurt 150, jello 60: ...hmm, what did i forget!? arg...not sure..i'm gonna put down 400 (i hope i only had one ice cream sandwich - i can't seem to remember!)
snack: ice cream sandwich, yogurt: 240
total so far: 640.
snack: 100 cal pudding/yogurt
lunch: 420: fruit, yogurts galore.
dinner: with grandma, some bbq stuff. i was actually happy about it bc i had chicken and a burger lol...and i haven't had meat for quite some time...i feel i was eating all carbs this past month, especially past two weeks so dinner was a good change of pace tonight. 800 cal dinner.
late snack: soy chips and drinks: 140.
total cal: 2100. ok. i did walk 8 miles again, so alright.
avg cal: 2324 over the past 38 days.
exercise: approx. 8 miles. 4 in morning and 3.5 or 4 in the evening! :)Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
You are not "DOOMED". Please don't think that way. Just make the next meal lighter. It doesn't even have to be healthier, necessarily. Just a little less, perhaps.
I'm sorry you had a bad weekend. I know you were looking forward to just relaxing and having time for yourself. There's nothing wrong with that.
I encourage you to weigh yourself soon. Something about the whole denial aspect sits uncomfortably with me. Take care of yourself. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you.
check this site out> it gives you a list of cravings and why you have them and what your body is truely seeking
I used to crave chocolate on a daily basis and then I found this site and switched over to putting more nuts and seeds in my diet which was pretty much non existent in my diet before and I no longer get chocolate cravings as much as I did before. I would say once or twice a month I get a bad chocolate craving... way better then daily.
i am actually happy in many respects with today. I started out in binge mode this AM, but recovered completely. I didn't leave the house till around 3, but that was a good move - as all i wanted to do this weekend was kinda chill out with my folks away and the house to myself. I watch a movie I had rented around 1pm....then, I finally headed out to the park! and how much do you think i walked!?
exercise: EIGHT miles at the park! wahoo! that is good. I wanted 9, i really did, but i knew that too much is not a good idea and i didn't want to pass out! lol, i haven't done 8 miles in a long time. so this was good.
breakfast: i forgot but lots of yogurt, puddings, large coffee, and ice cream things...i did calculate calories throughout the day, so i still know my overall total.
snack: packaged fried tofu thing and yogurt
late snack around 3/early dinner: fiber one and soy milk, 300 cal.
rest of the day: all sorts of diet drinks
total calories: 1950. very fine, very happy, definitely in my range. :)...plus a light ice cream sandwich (i was STARVING) 150 more = 2100.fine! :)
37 day avg calories: 2326...after sandwich = 2330. :) it's ok.... :-)
tomorrow i go to visit grandma. not super excited. I know i have to behave - as in not binge.Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
thanks to me, i've been talking more often to my Florida, yeah, florida guy. he may be far away from here but it's still great to talk and we'll see where it goes from there. he likes the phone calls...
today's new calorie total: 3,000 on the dot. bleh. but i kinda just eased myself into this one! it's ok, and i have 3 days to both relax and eat right coming up: sat, sun, mon! i am excited to have few plans if any and just to chill. i needed a weekend like this and i am happy to relax. plans are to watch movies and exercise. i think i can pull that off! :)
(calorie average:2336, 36 day average. 3.5 lb gain if i had burned only 2,000 calories per day for 36 days. that is really crappy.)
exercise: 5 miles walking.
edit: i'm in the midst of a "planned binge." i had many more calories after school (ate 850 before leaving school) and i wanted to use many more, eating whatever i wanted at the store. weird, but i don't care.
5:00pm planned sorta eating: popcorn, puddings, jello: 500, 3 ice creams 420, 6 pretzel sticks 240: 1160...and one more ice cream 140, yogurt 100
total: 2250 total. fine by me. i know it's a little high, but so the heck what!
soon out to the park to walk, then the gym. ooooh, right, weights....i think i'm saving it for tomorrow, not in the mood anymore for weights...
whew, up early to study at school...
breakfast: fig 50, large peach 80, coffee 50: 180.
snacks: 1 tea w. milk over the course of the morning and a bar: 300, also a hardboiled egg 70
lunch: microwave meal? i want that, but i want to study at lunch, so i will have a BAR w. tea/milk: 300. i'll just have to have one of the new meals i bought for dinner tonight!
total so far: 850.
snack: probably popcorn, yogurt or something like that. probably a new type of yogurt i haven't tried (need to change it up!) dinner: microwave meal, kombucha! exercise: i WILL do weights, no matter what today and i am excited for it! bike to gym, elliptical, weights, abs, pushups, back.
tonight: watching a movie i rented, calling it an early night. so excited to rest up, rejuvinate these next 3 days, i need it bad!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
avg 35 day calories: 2317, still.
total cal a tad high, 2300. not terrible though.
exercise: 3 miles walking, jogging.
breakfast: huge peach, coffee, diet sodas: 180
snack: powerbar, diet waters 250
lunch: microwave HEALTHY meal 400, lots of fiber and well balanced, tea w. milk and equal 50, AND birthday cake (strawberry shortcake) (i think 600 should be a good estimate but i could be SO OFF!, was a medium size piece) for a classmate. cake was worth having, it tasted great. total for lunch: 1050
snack: good, 4 cups diet soda, popcorn 240, yogurt 120: 360 :)
total so far before dinner: 1840...
dinner: not sure but i know i should not limit myself too much bc i'm in one of the moods where it's better to have a limit more than a little less and go crazy later on food.
dinner:probably a microwave meal and veggies for like 400 more cal...460 cal.
exercise: park :)
i will definitely do weights at the gym tomorrow, i miss them!
many tests tomorrow, 3 in total. but, i really don't care too much about studying too much. it really doesn't matter anymore.
this weekend i don't so much as want to limit what i eat, but i will also focus on me, relaxing, i want to watch a movie i rented last week, and i may rent one more movie. i don't have labor day plans, and i'm glad, i need to refocus on myself this weekend, badly...Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
well this day has started. and i must finish it. therapy tonight - good thing. and psychologist visit also. I was the one who asked for it bc i want to see the possibility of taking light antidepressants or something.
i just picked all of my nice long nails off last night after i ate my house. i should not be feeling this way. i am really, really feeling sad today. my 27th birthday is in exactly a week from today. and i am not where i want to be, again, another birthday...this isn't good at all! what am i doing? god, please help me. i do not know what to do anymore. my body and brain are completely against each other.
breakfast: 170 large peach, large coffee.
snack: bar, diet waters? 250
LUNCH: bar, tea w. milk 280
snack: 420, 20 = 440., LOL, and ice cream 500 :) was good? 940 here
Dinner: one red pepper 70, microwave wrap 180, large peach 90: around 360 or so....
total: 2,000. that is good.
exercise: bike to the gym, gym elliptical (no weights, no in the mood, at all.)
2317, 34 day average.
i will stop the count as soon as i get to 2250. then, my goal will simply be to lose 3 lbs. well, maybe not a simple goal but not an impossible goal either!Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Please take a nap when you get home instead of eating. The same post-lunch fatigue hits my husband like that too. And me, to some degree. For me it happens when I have too many carbs at lunch. Most days, my husband comes home from working (7a-3p) and takes a nap right away.
2327, 33 day average.
Since my return from vacation, July17th, i've gained about 3 lbs. I am setting out to lose them, and to reach 130. That is the goal. I weigh about 135 now. and I will reach 130 by the end of this month.
Dear God, give me the power to overcome these terrible binges.
binge, after school: total today 4500.
4.5 miles, late at night.
cereal, 2 yogurts: 540, chinese food 400, chips/fish 600, bread and cream cheese 250, cookies 260, milk/cookies 700, ice cream 250: 3,000
today is a new day. but, is it really? because, you know, all of our actions affect us in the future. treat your body badly and it will not feel good in the future. everyday is a brand new day but we are not invincible.
breakfast: filling bowl of cereal and coffee diet cream soda: 350.
snack: vit waters and strawberries: 150
lunch: hot pretzel, ketchup/mustard and tea w. milk/4 equals. : 550 or so.
total so far: 1050 (the sugar highs/lows today were terrible...) all my fault for eating so many carbs and sweets yesterday.
snack: yogurt and diet soft drinks galore: 120 1170 dinner:veggies and packaged fried tofu (has weird amount of fiber and 200 cal. mostly healthy fats) and that is it no matter what. maybe a kombucha for good measure. 400 at most. 1570 calories. good.
exercise: goal: 4 miles.
getting through this.Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
so my life is a little bit out of wack. not eating right. sleeping a little better but not great. and talking to people in florida that i shouldn't be. haha.
exercise: ended with 5 miles, walking.
1st breakfast: peach, coffee w. soy milk.sweet and low 120
2nd breakfast: not satisfying. dunkin donuts grilled cheese flatbread, tea: 420
lunch: cottage cheese flavored lightly 130, dunkin donuts egg white sausage flatbread 290: 420
4:30-5pmsnack turned into dinner:
grapes, cup strawberries, diet soda, fiber one and soy milk 300, large peach 90, three english muffins (luckily with lots of fiber) 300 and fried tofu 200....and popcorn 250 more.
2200 total. fine with this for sure.
ok, i binged. 500 on ice cream, 500 on fried rice.
total: 3200....
calorie average: 2228, 32 day average....now 2259.
i wasn't going to exercise. but now i think i must.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
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Pei and Sunny run a car dealership. Sunny is a bragging womanizer, who keeps the underwear of his conquests filed in a briefcase. Pei is a conservative and very happily married man. Pei meets Lu, a single psych graduate, at a party. Pei's wife Winnie goes to KL to a wedding, and Pei is drawn into Lu's clutches. They fool around happily while the cat's away.
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- I wish hubby's income would increase or he finds a job that pays more or I get to work again so we could finally buy our own car.
- I wish hubby's income would increase or he finds a job that pays more or I get to work again (hehe!) so we could start building our own "home".
Guess what? Hopefully we're on our way to finally having our own car or own home because starting February 3, this mom is a SAHM no more.
I waited until today to announce it so as not to jinx it. I had my job offer today and I signed it, the contract will be signed after I completed all the pre-employment requirements.
I know that I've been blogging about how awesome it is to be a stay-at-home mom, it really is, believe me. If only we could live comfortably with hubby's income, I would have stayed a SAHM forever. But, our needs are increasing by the day and there are certain areas that need to be considered - like a family car, a house and most importantly, Johan's education. I realized that if I will be so picky in choosing the right school for Johan then I better start helping out hubby in saving for it as early as now. I heard that preschool in an A-list school down south already costs PhP 90,000.00! WTH! Imagine how much more it will be in 2-3 years when Johan starts school. I'm already scared.
I haven't been thinking about the adjustments we had to make because my mind is full on which of the Pre-employment requirements I should accomplish first. But, here are some of the major things that we had to decide upon SOON:
- We need to find a yaya but hubby and I had to weigh things first if we could afford one from my income. MIL is living with us but she's already taking care of my SIL's daughter who's also living with us (long story) and I'm sure she'll have a hard time taking care of Johan as well. The SIL's daughter is already a handful and with an active toddler like Johan, MIL won't be able to rest until I came home from work. Kawawa naman.
- I'm also thinking of bringing Johan to my parents' house in Laguna but we still had to hire a yaya because my parents will have a very difficult time caring for him plus Johan's not used to them yet so there might me crying spells, lots of it.
- List of to-dos regarding Johan - like the time he should sleep, he should take a bath, what he should eat, what he should not eat, what he's allowed to watch, what he's not allowed to watch, reading time, play time, vitamins to give him, lotion, insect repellent, pajamas when he's walking outside, EOP or English Only Policy when talking to Johan. The list is endless and from an OC mom like me, you wouldn't expect anything less. I'm thisclose to purchasing and installing a CCTV at home so I can monitor all of Johan's movements and his caregiver, whoever that ends up to be.
I'm not even thinking about me and Johan being apart five days a week. I'm sure I will be the one who'll have separation anxiety. For now, I'm just focused on his future and this motivates me to be strong and to work harder.
Please don't judge me for wanting to work again. I'm not prioritizing work over my son. I've given up work before when he's still inside my tummy and I would do it again if ever he needs me back home. I would give up anything, in a blink of an eye, for my son.
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April/May, 2003
We mourn the loss of Ginny Wray and offer condolences to her husband Paul and all her loved ones.
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the non-fiction of Thomas Larson
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Sup Y'all
I'm baaack, I hope you all are more happy I'm back then mad that I was gone for over a year. Well I do apologize my life sdave to give all you guys who come to my blog and read a huge thank you. It's unbelievable how many visits I'm getting a day. Okay enough of this sappy stuff back to what you came here for.
I bet you are sitting here like why in the world am I reading about a Jet Torchs on my survival tools blog. Well in my opinion what kind of lighter would work better in a cold, wet, maybe windy situation….a Jet Torch of course. Now there are better ones out there for surviving in harsh climates but a Jet Torch such as the Xikar Tech would be more than adequate for camping in the woods during Summer, Spring. I am personally loving this little work horse. Well let's jump in and take a look around.lll the
pee you right ther rolling your eyes just bare with me or skip to the next paragraph, j/k guys. The company was started in 1994, when now President Kurt Van Keppel decided he wanted to buy a good cigar not only then to ruin it because he couldn't find good cigar cutters. He found that it didn't matter how much money he spent they always were underperforming. So he set out with vice President Scott Almsberger to match good design with the best styling and materials you can find. The final result which took them 6 months is what we know as the market leader in cigar cutlery, The Xi cutter which was first assembled and ship from his garage in 1996. The word Xikar originated from sikar which is believe to be the first Spanish spelling for Cigar.
Xikar's Corporate Mission is to Serve a Great Products. They are dedicated to providing value to consumers through unique, artful cutlery at a fair price. They will provide these products through honest and ergonomic design to achieve superior form, feel and function. One of my personal favorite aspects of Xikar and its oproducts is that they offer a full lifetime warranty on all their products. Xikar's team is dedicated to providing value through honest and ergonomic design at a fair price. On his design stands for consideration of function, we're going on the comfort with simple, clean lines and lack of superfluous decoration on the product. Xikar has four fundamentals that all products must meet.
- Function: Product must be extremely high functioning, meet their high standards poll
- Opiijlmechanical and material quality.
- Form: All products should meet two sayings "Easy on the Hand" and "Easy on the Eyes". By this they mean the product should be ergonomic and artful. Beautiful design enhances the enjoyment and experience of the product.
- Fair: All products are set to a fair price.
- Forever: Lifetime unconditional guarenas on all Xikar products.
I hope you all enjoyed that little history lesson on Xikar. Now it's time to start digging into the family of Tech Jet Torches. The Xikar Tech comes in 4 different Jet Flames and 3 different colors. Tech lighters feature a large fuel tank, and three different joke flames and durable body style that achieves Xikar's commitment to form, feel, and function. Tech lighters combine a sleek transparent body design that comes in Blue, Black, and Clear with solid metal construction at an affordable price. Their design is what makes them great for outdoors usage and camping.
Product Details
- Single, Double, Triple, and Quadruple Jet Flames
- Auto-Open Lid
- Durable Body Style
- Oversized flame adjustment wheel
- Ergonomic Design
- Large fuel tank for prolong life span
- Simple Thumb Ignition
NWTacticals Personal Opinion:
Xikar's Tech cigar lighter is an awesome little powerhouse. You can defiantly see from the body style that it is competing with Blazers Little Buddy. Today's Tech that I am personally reviewing is the Double Jet Flame in black which burns two immensely hot Blue flames that range from about half an inch to 2 1/2 inches. One thing that sets the Tech apart from the rest of Xikar's lighters is that it is mostly plastic body which is what makes it ideal for camping. (Xikar does have a model that is for High Altitude, Water Resistent and Wind Proof. This model is called the Stratosphere, if you would like to look it up.) The upside to the plastic body is that you are keeping the cost down while delivering a durable and reliable Torch. NWTactical is a huge fan of single depression of the pusher which automatically opens the lid and ignites the RapidFire ignition. The Tech no only looks good but it feels good when holding it and igniting it, the ergonomics make it very comfortable in your hand. Another reason why this makes a great survival torch is that it has a rather large fuel tank, plus since the tank is made out plastic and is transparent you can always know just how much Butane you have left. At the bottom of the Tech is a huge wheel that encompasses the entire bottom, this wheel is used to adjust the size of the flame which ranges from a 1/2in to 2 1/2in blue flame.
One important thing to remember is that if you are ulsing this in direct sunlight it can make the flame hard to see almost invisible to the naked eye, you want to stay away from the Jet Flame at all times and do not point it directly at your person or someone else. The Jet Flames reach the very hot 12,000 degrees F, which means what ever you are using the torch on will be extremely hot and make sure to give it time to cool down after exposure to the Jet Flames, also the lid will most likely be hot if you were using for an extended period of time. Xikar recommends that you do not keep the Tech lit for more then 10 seconds at a time. Last but not least remember that the Xikar Tech and all Xikar products come together with a LifeTime Warrenty so when you get your Tech go online and register it, also when you register your lighter Xikar will send you a very stylish Leather Lighter Carrying Case.
Final Thoughts:
Everyone here at NWTactical is sold on this little spit fire(haha get it, I'm not explaining it so if you don't leave and don't come meets all Xikar's 4 fundamentals in that it is (Form)stylish, ergonomics of the lighter are great, (Function) the automatic lid is a must in my book I'm not trying to light the torch while flipping it open with a different finger. One solid motion will suffice for me. Also I like the see thru fuel compartment. (Fair) All Xikar products are priced accordingly to what you are getting. The Xikar Tech's price range can vary greatly depending on where you are buying it and what model you want. The best prices you will find will be on Amazon.com. Xikar's recommended prices are
- Single Jet Flame in Blue, Black, Clear. Xikar.com is selling them on their website for 29.99. You can find these on Amazon.com starting at $16+$3 Shipping. My local smoke shop in WA is charging $39.99
- Double Jet Flame in Blue, Black, Clear Xikar.com is selling them for $44.99. On d they range from $20-$90. At my local smoke shop in WA these were prices at $49.99
- Triple Jet Flame in Blue, Black, Clear. Xikar is selling them for 59.99. Amazon lists them for $19-$34
- Quadruple Jet Flame in Blue, Black, Clear retails in my local smoke shop for $74.99. Xikar does not post the Quad Flame on their website and Amazon does not either. In my honest opinion the Triple is more then adequate but hey I'm a man I total understand wanting the biggest and the baddest.
Last but defiantly not the least he's the type of butane fuel that you use to refill the torch. There are many different types of butane fuel and most will damage or break your torch. My recommendations are to use either
- Xikar Purofine brand Butane and order it online at Amazon.com unless you can find it cheap at a local smoke shop or hardware store. At my local smoke shop I paid $5 for a bottle that weighs only 1.9oz which I feel like is only going to get me roughly a total of 3-4 refills and depending on how much often you use the lighter and how long you leave it on for at a time. For me this is not good I can go thru a tank in probably two days of heavy usage.
- Newport Ultra Purified Butane with Zero Impurities which you can find for around $9 dollars for a can of 10 ounces which is amazing compares to the $5 I paid for 2 ounces. My friend said he knows a top secret location in WA where he gets bottles of Newport for $3 and that jackass won't tell me.
- Whip-it brand Premium Butane w/ Zero Impurities. Comes in White Box w/ Blue and white writing. Whip It on Amazon.com usually comes in boxes of multiple cans so that's cool cause you get them cheaper for the more you buy. I only saw one person selling Whip It for $6 a can.
- DO NOT USE VECTOR QUADRUPLE REFINED BUTANE. I filled up my Xikar Tech and after only a couple uses the flames were not reaching the same heights as before and I couldn't keep it on the lowest setting it would just sputtered out. Once I got home from my friends house I bleed my Xikar empty and refilled it using my Xikar Purofine Butane and it worked instantly you could see that the Jet Flames were bigger and it was also roaring like a jet engine.
Thank you all for reading and look forward to seeing your comments. If you have a Jet Torch that you love please leave a comment or if you have a brand of Premium Butane please leave a comment with its name. Vee


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Every few days our team will scour Shanghai's dining scene for scrumptious dishes that'll fill your belly without emptying your savings. Not to discriminate, we'll search everywhere from bicycle carts to chic venues with twenty-course tasting menus, knowing that any spot could have the next Dish of the Day.
It can prove quite challenging to replicate the Thanksgiving experience in Shanghai. Turkeys cost you an arm and a leg and are generally only sold at high-end expat stores, and do they even sell pumpkin pie and cranberry sauce in China? But one element of the traditional Thanksgiving mosaic that's readily available and cheap is the grilled sweet potato, which is vended out of medieval-looking drums on most food streets and at many metro-stop exits. Sweet potato vendors are identifiable by the aroma of burnt caramel that permeates the air around them.
Sweet potatoes run you about 4RMB per jin. Pick out the desired number and either lug them home or devour them on a nearby stoop. To eat, just bite through the skin into the fluffy orange belly. They come dolloped with sugar, but this isn't necessary, as sweet potatoes are naturally syrupy-sweet, hence the name. No need to mash them up too much at home either, they take on a mashed consistency when grilled.
So to save yourself some work at your upcoming Thanksgiving dinner, simply serve a couple of these titillating tubers on a plate along with the rest of your spread. You can even say you cooked them yourself.
Last time on Dish of the Day: Naan and kebab sandwich @ Sapar Uygur Restaurant
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"As a completely independent solution provider we partner with the very best manufacturers in the industry, so our customers can be sure of getting the very best solutions available on the market" commented Glen Foxon, Director of Strategy at IISAS. "We researched the available technologies and selected rostrvm to provide the 'glue' that brings multiple call handling components together to deliver comprehensive, consistent contact management".
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Summer Eats: Creamy Nut Oolong Tea GelatoPosted: August 25, 2011 Filed under: Chilled, Dessert, Gelato, Recipes | Tags: chilled, creamy, dessert, food, frozen, gelato, ice cream, oolong, recipe, summer, tea, treat, yummy workshop Leave a comment
I can feel the heat outside the house as I am writing this post. My house is usually cool even during the summer, if I can feel heat, it is REALLY warm out. 🙂 Which is good, considering we didn't really get much of a summer for the past month or so in Vancouver. Hot weather calls for yummy frozen treats! I was shopping at a tea shop a few weeks a ago (I am a tea lover), looking for a tea blend that would work well in my gelato. The tea expert recommended that I try their "Creamy Nut Oolong". The tea description: "This high grade Chinese Oolong contains apple pieces, caramel bits, almond pieces, safflower, sunflower, mallow flower and natural aromas." So I decided to give it a try. It turned out to be very delicious, the caramel flavour worked exceptionally well with the creaminess of the milk and cream in the gelato. I also used honey, its floral aroma also worked well with the floral notes in the tea blend. Ice-cream or gelato is actually very simple to make, as long as you have a good base recipe, you can flavour it with different aromas. I made small batch to try, my brother asked me why I didn't make more. 😀
Makes 2 – 3 servings.
- 2 tsp. of "Creamy Nut Oolong" tea blend
- 1 cup Milk
- ½ cup Whipping Cream (at least 30% milk fat)
- 2 Egg Yolks
- 2 tbsp. Granulated Sugar
- 2 tbsp. Liquid Honey
- Place milk, cream and tea leaves in a small saucepan and heat on low heat for about 10 minutes.
*We want to steep the tea, so don't boil the mixture.
- Whisk together the egg yolks, sugar and honey until foamy and light (see image above).
- After steeping, pour the milk into the yolks and sugar mixture slowly and whisking at the same time.
*Careful not to pour the hot milk into the yolk mixture all at once, we don't want to have scrambled eggs. Also whisk as you pour in the hot milk.
- Pour the custard through a FINE sieve, removing the tea leaves or any solid bits.
- Return the custard to the pan on LOW heat, stir with a wooden spoon as the custard heats up.
*NOTE: This step takes a bit of patience and you have to keep an eye on it because we don't want to overcook the mixture and have solid lumps of egg yolk to affect the texture of the gelato.
- Cook until the custard coats the back of a wooden spoon and draw a line with your finger to test if the custard has reached the right consistency (see image above). The custard will not be very thick but will be a creamy consistency. If you see lumps, remove the pan from heat immediately and cool mixture.
- Cool custard and chill in the refrigerator for a few hours or overnight.
- Churn the mixture in an ice-cream maker, following its manufacturer's instructions.
- Transfer the gelato into a seal-able container and freeze until firm.
My ice-cream maker is probably one of the simplest and inexpensive models that one can get. It consists of a moving part that has a switch to and a bowl that is to be frozen before the mixture is churned. I think freshly churned gelato actually tastes the best because its temperature is bit higher than freezer stored gelato (unlike the professional freezers in gelato shops). Its consistency is so soft and creamy. So if you are serving gelato from the freezer, you might have to "defrost" it for a short time in the fridge to get a softer texture.
Summer Canning: TomatoesPosted: August 20, 2011 Filed under: Canning, Recipes | Tags: canning, food, homemade, recipe, summer, tomatoes, yummy workshop Leave a comment
Fresh local tomatoes are so delicious in the summer, it is a good time to preserve their sun ripen tomato-ey flavour for cooking. I came across some nice local tomatoes so I bought some to try canning them at home – it is my first time canning tomatoes. It is not a difficult process. All you need is tomatoes, salt, citric acid or bottled lemon juice, and water (proper canning jars too!). The following recipe was adapted from Chow Times.
For every 500 ml bottle:
- About 1 lb. (400-500 grams) fresh vine ripen tomatoes
- ¼ tsp. powdered citric acid OR 1 tbsp. bottled lemon juice
(bottled lemon juice has regulated acidity whereas the acidity of fresh lemon juice varies)
- ½ tsp. salt (if desired)
- Fresh herbs (if desired – I did not use any since it was my first time)
- Score a cross on the bottom of the tomatoes with a knife for easy skin removal.
- Boil tomatoes in hot water for about 30 seconds.
*Remove from water and place them in a cold water bath.*
- Peel skin.
- Remove the core (stem end) of the tomatoes with a paring knife.
- Cut tomatoes into halves or quarters and place into a pot and cover the bottom with water. (I used about 1 cup of water for 2 lbs of tomatoes.) Bring contents to a boil in medium high heat. Reduce heat and simmer for about 5 minutes. Simmering them will kill the enzymes that causes the liquid and solid to separate – the process is called 'Hot Pack'. Add salt if desired.
- Prepare jars for canning: rinse jars with warm water, sanitize and keep jars and tops in hot water (not boiling) until ready to use. Do not put hot contents in a cold jar – glass may break! Place the citric acid or lemon juice in the empty sanitized jars.
- Fill jars with prepared tomatoes, leave about ½ inch of space from the top of the rim. Use a plastic knife or utensil to remove air bubbles in the jar, add more cooking liquid if required.
- Wipe rim of the jars, place tops and screw rings (not overly tight!). Place jars into hot water with at least an inch of water above the jars and bring to a boil. Process the jars for 40 minutes (time from when boiling starts). After 40 minutes, turn off heat, wait until boiling subsides, carefully remove jars without tilting them. Check seal after 24 hours, the top of a good sealed jar shouldn't 'pop' when pressed with your finger. If it 'pops', it means the jar is not vacuum sealed – you will need to use contents as soon as possible and store it in the refrigerator. Store properly sealed jars in a cool dark place.
I was surprised that canning tomatoes are so easy, the tomatoes I used is probably not suitable for a pasta sauce but will be good in a soup or stew. This is not canning tomato sauce – that is a different story which will require removing the seeds and milling the tomatoes. Things to be careful about is handling the hot jars and that cleanliness is key!


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There is no rest for Richmond Women as the testing fixtures come thick and fast in the Tyrrell's Premier 15s.
After a tough day at the office against Saracens last weekend, Richmond travel north to take on Firwood Waterloo Ladies in Round Six of the competition, searching for a fourth win that could see them climb into the top four.
Director of Rugby Dave Mobbs-Smith has made four changes to his side to take on Firwood Waterloo in Liverpool on Saturday afternoon. Firwood Waterloo are without a league win, their only result coming last week when they secured a draw at Darlington Mowden Park Sharks.
Having produced consistently impressive performances from the bench, centre Kirsty Lee Griffiths earns a start in the No 13 jersey, she will partner the ever present Victoria Britland in the midfield.
Tess Braunerova also comes in to the starting XV operating at full back for the first time this season. Wingers Rachel Laqeretabua and Kiri Lose provide pace and guile in abundance either side of the newcomer.
Fly-half Abi Chamberlain and scrum-half Steffie Clarke reunite as injury forces Keane to withdraw.
In the pack, Rowena Burnfield returns from England duty to skipper the side in their test in the North West with Claire Phelps her partner in the engine room. Props Laura Kapo and Victoria Meki start either side of French skipper Gaelle Mignot who has shown her vast experience in her tenure at Richmond thus far.
The back row remains unchanged with Chloe Butler, Fran Hall and Zoe Barber the outstanding workers around the park.
Emelie Hellgren and Jade Wong will look to make their mark on Waterloo from the bench come Saturday with Jade Knight also providing cover in the back division.
Forwards Sian Hobday, Becky Ball, Anna Butler and Morgan Simpson will also have to wait in the wings for their chance to impress Mobbs-Smith for a starting spot next weekend.
Though Mobbs-Smith is aware that Richmond may start as favourites, he has urged his side not to take the clash lightly.
"Waterloo Firwood Ladies are an incredibly competitive team and shouldn't be underestimated because of their league position" he said.
"We are delighted to have Rowena Burnfield back from England duty. Her leadership as captain will be important for what will be a tricky fixture against a side desperate for their first win of the campaign."
15 Tess Braunerova
14 Rachel Laqeretabua
13 Kirsty Lee Griffiths
12 Vic Britland
11 Kiri Lose
10 Abi Chamberlain
9 Steffi Clarke
1 Laura Kapo
2 Gaelle Mignot
3 Victoria Meki
4 Rowena Burnfield (Capt)
5 Claire Phelps
6 Zoe Barber
7 Fran Hall
8 Chloe Butler
16 Morgan Simpson
17 Anna Butler
18 Becky Ball
19 Sian Hobday
20 Jade Knight
21 Jade Wong
22 Emelie Hellgren
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Worm Hole: On Aging Well, Dating Younger, and the Zen of Complete Closure
With a glass of champagne in one hand and my phone in the other, I casually snapped shots of party goers as they chatted, played cards, or lamented the political climate. At the dining area table, one group had brilliantly blended all three. As I darted between both rooms of the suite my sister and I were only able to afford because we booked months in advance and used disposable flatware left over from my mom's haaj celebration, I couldn't help but feel like a curly-coiffed, glittering ball of black magic. At times I caught my reflection in the arrangement of beveled, hexagonal mirrors that adorned the wall near the bar, and paused to admire the new lines and curves of my arms and legs. All of it earned from several rigorous weeks of pole dancing classes. So this is 35? I let the thought wash over me in a gentle way this time, and the apprehension I felt when I celebrated my actual birthday in Costa Rica a few months back was gone. And that was a relief, because in the months leading up to the excursion I'd hit a down spiral so disorienting that I could barely discern up from down while inside of it: had I gotten better, or worse? The question itself was a wormhole, efficient enough in its pull to leave me feeling emotionally churned and altered as it sucked me in. Traversable worm holes are hypothetical, after all, and transmutative ones? Sci-fi entirely. Yet there I was, with questions swirling at me from all sides: am I a good person? Mother? Friend? Writer? Am I in any way…better? Read More


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I guess I have to educate you people again, because you keep gravitating downward when judging God's necessity as the power behind and intelligence within the physical universe, in both its creation and evolution.
The dichotomy between a scientific explanation and an Intelligent Design explanation for creation and evolution doesn't exist anywhere but between religious bigoted thinkers and religious Protestant fundamentalists. And the arguments between these two groups of people are not at the pinnacle of human thought, no matter how many scientists you can dance on the head of this pin.
The existence of an eternal God is absolutely necessary for the creation of the finite physical universe. For there cannot logically be an infinite line of finite things.
And the existence of an omnipotent God is absolutely necessary for the existence of the physical universe increasingly expanding and speeding up away from a singular point. For there cannot logically be a material explanation for such a universe.
And the existence of a divine intelligent God is absolutely necessary for the existence of the complexity in the universe of simple matter and energy. For no combination of lesser things can create a greater thing unless something even greater than the greater thing is added to the lesser things.
And scientific discoveries have consistently supported the existence of God, in both what science has discovered and what science cannot and will not ever discover.
I guess I have to educate you people again . . .
What has been on your minds the past weeks?
What has affected you deepest lately?
What has angered you, given you fear, or given you mistrust in your fellow man?
Is not the answer to these questions, and so many more, the evil and senseless killings of many people by individual people?
So, it seems, this Biblical Commandment given to humanity and written on stone thousands of years ago is today still needed to be given—
"You shall not kill!"
What simple and powerful words delivered from the highest authority imaginable.
What important words that shake our lives down to the core when they are disobeyed.
Hey ... but who cares?
Let's make fun of this Commandment because it seems so religious and we're really smart atheists who don't want to be commanded to do anything.
Yes ... let's do that.
What has been on your minds the past weeks?
What has affected you deepest lately?
What has angered you, given you fear, or given you mistrust in your fellow man?
Is not the answer to these questions, and so many more, the evil and senseless killings of many people by individual people?
So, it seems, this Biblical Commandment given to humanity and written on stone thousands of years ago is today still needed to be given—
"You shall not kill!"
What simple and powerful words delivered from the highest authority imaginable.
What important words that shake our lives down to the core when they are disobeyed.
Hey ... but who cares?
Let's make fun of this Commandment because it seems so religious and we're really smart atheists who don't want to be commanded to do anything.
Yes ... let's do that.
Really smart Christians like Kennedy, Johnson, Nixon, McNamara, Westmoreland et al?
Training our youth to kill - "Kill Anything That Moves"
Editorial Reviews
From Booklist
The shocking images of the mounds of corpses, including women, children, and even babies, murdered by American troops in the Vietnamese hamlet of My Lai symbolized for many the horror of that war. At the time, military officials insisted that the massacre was an aberration and stressed that American troops in the field behaved with discipline and restraint, and strived to avoid civilian casualties. Not so, according to Turse, an investigative journalist who has been researching and writing about American "war crimes" in Vietnam for a decade. If his goal was to illustrate that atrocities committed against civilians were more widespread than previously acknowledged, Turse succeeds. He has mined Pentagon archives and conducted interviews with American veterans to credibly support his assertion. Unfortunately, Turse has a broader agenda, which is to show that the murder of civilians was systematic and encouraged by U.S. policy. He implies that our soldiers were on an out-of-control rampage on a regular basis.The nation could use a balanced view of the conduct of our combat troops in Vietnam, but this misses the mark.—Jay Freeman
From Bookforum
After reading Turse's meticulous, extraordinary, and oddly moving account, it's hard to avoid concluding that the US record in Vietnam has more in common with the Wehrmacht and the Imperial Japanese Army than "the greatest generation" that fought those enemies in World War II. —Jeff Stein
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Then there was the Korean War. About 10% of the civilian population of N. Korea were killed - men, women and children - mostly burned alive with napalm. U.S. pilots complained to their commanders that there was nothing left to bomb - not even a village. What is 10% of the U.S. population? 33,000,000? Would there be anyone who didn't have a friend or family member who had been killed? Entire families killed as they cowered under the bombers . . .
Mario, I was listening to my iPod at the gym yesterday, when this song come up and made me think of you.
I think a lot of your frustration on this forum is that most of the posters here have never attempted to seek god, or at least, to develop some sense of the sacred and transcendental. You can set me straight about this if I'm wrong.
This song, by musician Bill Nelson, is a tongue-in-cheek tale about what might happen if god actually did directly contact us. What would be an ordinary person's reaction?
I thought you might find it amusing.
Ordinary Idiots
High above America
In his custom built cocoon…
God looks down and laughs at me
And not a day too soon…
He sends me strange transmissions,
Full of dangerous advice…
And I reply,
Well, thank you god, but I think
I'll keep those thoughts on ice…
I'm just an ordinary idiot…
I'm not some holy fool…
We're all ordinary idiots…
It's ok… It's cool
We're all ordinary idiots…
Irregular kind of guys,
Ordinary idiots,
Angels in disguise…
Ordinary idiots…
Angels in disguise…
Ordinary idiots…
We're irregular kind of guys,
High above the universe,
In his custom built cocoon…
God looks down and laughs at me
And not a day too soon…
He sends me strange transmissions…
He sends me strange transmissions…
Ordinary idiots…
We're all ordinary idiots…
Yes, you're wrong, Cat.
I would have to respect a person and value their personality to become frustrated at them not reaching their potential to live fully alive through the knowledge and love of God.
But I have met only a few persons here that I knew were squandering their potential, and those persons have all moved on after coming to the realization that there is nothing good and true going on in the head and heart of a silly atheist who knows and loves his or her personal opinions.
My attacks on these silly persons are not out of frustration but out of duty to the goodness and truth they belittle to raise themselves up.
Only significant persons accept God's gifts with gratitude and love towards God himself, and then live their lives giving these gifts back to others.
You are among the insignificant who thank and love themselves for mundane thoughts and deeds.
You can recognize them by the way they keep their pockets empty and their time to themselves.
And the lyrics to your song were written by such a person is my guess. It's an excuse to remain selfish and lazy, and in turn to judge oneself and everyone else an idiot.
We are like God. And God's no idiot.
Being actually educated, I find it impossible to accept as worthwhile a history lesson (which was actually a bigoted personal diatribe against religion) from an uneducated and, more importantly, untalented person who has no business pontificating statements about anything.
When such a person pontificates with untalented redundancy, such as making me endure reading "a slow slog", as if there is a fast slog (try Googling it and I'm willing to bet everyone on the Internet knows not to be so stupid), a head shake is not enough — a good confrontation with a hearty belly laugh is more appropriate.
Religion is still around in full force. It has never been replaced or diminished by "intellectuals" who can't admit to its benefits and wonderful traditions.
And to take 9/11 as a jumping off point for an atheist resurgence, as Sam Harris has admitted to doing, is as shortsighted and ignorant as it gets. His quieting down about his atheism to become more palatable to the actual intelligentsia is proof of that.
You all have quieted down to underlying bigoted thoughts that shitty up your contributions to the life around you.
Anyway ...
I have to quickly race out of my house and go run my canine dog on my single one day off from laboring work.
Being actually educated, I find it impossible to accept . . . [reality?]
Religion is still around in full force. It has never been replaced or diminished by "intellectuals" who can't admit to its benefits and wonderful traditions.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Church_attendance (see graph showing church attendance by country)
So let me get this straight—
You so-called atheists, who woke up one day and decided God doesn't exist (you're brilliant thinkers, after all), are now ridiculing God ("God is good.") because a hurricane was so intense it demolished some of the Bahamas and killed or left homeless human beings?
And your ridicule came on a thread where you further ridiculed some woman dramatically praying to God to turn this hurricane in another direction?
Please tell me the difference between this woman and you.
She wanted God to turn the hurricane and you want God to not allow this hurricane to exist in the first place.
Where is the brilliant thinking in either of you?
Is not the creation of a physical universe with physical laws a brilliant idea?
Is not the creation of a human being with individual freedom to create his or her own destiny a brilliant idea?
Is not the creation of seating this human being in this physical universe to struggle and work and love and learn and relax and rejoice and become and fail to become and on and on a brilliant idea?
You know, if I was as brilliant a thinker, as you people think you are, I think I would look at the reality around me and within me and find it to be a reality with limitless potential for me to become an amazing fellow who loves deeply in the face of hate and succeeds profoundly in the face of failure and becomes wondrously in the face of mediocrity and on and on.
Yes. I would be in awe of my existence and wouldn't change a thing, especially not to make it easier for me and then ridicule some sky daddy for the struggles I face.
So ...
That single woman commanding in the name of God for the hurricane to change direction may be considered a "religious nut" alright.
However ...
A so-called atheist who whines about reality can also be considered an "atheist nut" commanding God to change the direction of reality.
Such an atheist has heard about the reality of climate change and the human footprint in the midst of it, so for this atheist to ignore what he or she has heard and look to God for a different reality is no different than that woman.
Oh, well ...
That's the way I see it. But, of course, I am not such a brilliant thinker as you people claim you are.
On another note ...
What about all those other religious nuts who got up this morning, dressed nicely, and went to give thanks and praise together in some bright joyful place to the neglectful sky daddy who allows hurricanes?
Not a brilliant idea, right?
Just ask brilliant Brick, who gave all that up to come here and try and try to write something "brilliant".
For the life of me I can't remember a single thing he ever wrote, except one of his more recent posts where he might have, sort of, said he was a gay man.
But, then again, I'm not a brilliant thinker, and may have missed all the wonderful conversation he has contributed to.
But since I remember so much wonderful stuff I heard only one time, I doubt it.
Now you see ...
When you announce something as "grand", you've already lost all the intelligent and talented people in the room.
For such people know something is "grand" when they see it, want to look for it themselves, and can't be bamboozled into being told it's where nothing "grand" could be.
And smoking a joint is the surest way to exaggerate your contribution to reality.
Look in the mirror, within you, and around you, for if you find nothing "grand" in any of these places, you won't find it suddenly and forcefully showing up.
Being "grand" is a gift freely given by the grandest being imaginable, and cleverly kept and increased by the lesser beings who received it with the love and gratitude and joy and respect it deserves.
Being "insignificant" is a very expensive gift a nobody gives to herself.
And she doesn't even suspect a thing is going wrong, and even applauds herself for her ambitions to have self-afflictions over a wonderful "grand" inclusion into an infinitely more beautiful experience of what it means to be alive.
And that is humanity's illusion of grandeur personified.
Enjoy your expensive ladyjane, LadyJane.
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. . . fundamentalism discourages any logical reasoning or scientific evidence that challenges its scripture, making it inherently maladaptive.
It is not accurate to call religious fundamentalism a disease, because that term refers to a pathology that physically attacks the biology of a system. But fundamentalist ideologies can be thought of as mental parasites. A parasite does not usually kill the host it inhabits, as it is critically dependent on it for survival. Instead, it feeds off it and changes its behavior in ways that benefit its own existence. By understanding how fundamentalist ideologies function and are represented in the brain using this analogy, we can begin to understand how to inoculate against them, and potentially, how to rehabilitate someone who has undergone ideological brainwashing—in other words, a reduction in one's ability to think critically or independently.
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Oh, goodie.
One of the clownish fools to have squeezed into this clown car climbed back in today — Salt Creek.
And he was quickly welcomed by another clown who got from him nothing but one clown pie after the next right in the face — Bruce Burelson.
The clowns in this circus couldn't be wearing more ridiculous clown costumes and makeup.
Someone needs to tell them that the costumes and makeup come off when the show's over and the audience goes home ... you know, when the real world returns.
I got to know him in person. He's not nearly as big an asshole as you are, asshole.
You went to visit a complete moron dedicated to ridiculing God and all people who know and love God?
You're a bigger dickhead than I imagined.
Every post he ever wrote sounded like a confused adolescent trying to get undeserving attention inbetween extended periods of masturbation.
And you spent precious time visiting this idiot.
You couldn't be more of a waste of humanity.
Nobody on this board has been a bigger dickhead than you. You have attacked me relentlessly, more than anyone else. I'm just giving you your own medicine.


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I have been reading some of the posts others have written and decided to see if anyone could help guide me. so here it goes. i am 26 years old and have been dealing with chronic lower back pain for 2 1/2 years. I now that may not sound like very long, but up to that point i was very active. I had seen my primary at which an MRI was ordered which revealed multilevel degenerative disc changes as well as facet degenerative hypertrophy at L4-5 and L5-S1. (disc bulge at T12-L1, L1-L2, L3-L4, L4-L5 and L5-S1) and a Schmorl node with adjacent fatty endplate changes at the superior endplate of L3. Two small Schmorl nodes at both the superior and inferior endplate of T12. disc desiccation and disc space height loss at L5-S1, T12-L1, L1-L2, and L2-L3. and "minimal spinal stenosis" (sorry that got at little winded). also having right leg pain/weakness. I started seeing pain management in December of 2010. i have tried physical therapy with no improvement. i also purchased an inversion table which it did help for a little while until about 3 months ago when i began having daily neck and head pain and was advised to stop using it until Pain management could take care of the current issues. i have been given numerous pain medications to help control but they left me feeling groggy and so on. i could not continue using them due to being a medical assistant for a small podiatry clinic. about 3 months ago they placed me on Nucynta 50mg along with a muscle relaxant. that helped for 2 months at which now my body has gotten used to them and they are not working as well as before. i had recently seen pain management which prescribed gabapentin. i had a bad reaction to that med and stopped taking it. i get about 2-4 hours of sleep a night due to the pain and tingling. some weeks ago i began having tingling and weakness in bilateral hands, 4th and 5th fingers, sharp pain left side of neck that radiated up the back of my head, and numbness feeling on the left side of my face. i saw a neurologist who said "you need surgery to fix this mess, but I dont feel like doing it" then walked out of the room. i also seen an orthopedic who said," clearly you are in a lot of pain and need surgery, but i dont feel comfortable operating operating on you. I need some suggestions or names of good doctors in Wisconsin. i am so frustrated that all pain management wants to do is give more and more pills and adjust the dosage. My insurance only approved 1 S1joint injection which failed and getting them to approve any more is like trying to pull teeth with them. i see a chiropractor weekly, have been placed on 10lb max lifting restriction, and also wear an adjustable brace almost daily. HELP!!!! i need to do something else but what?? also what is a Schmorl node, seems when i ask, the doctors tend to change the subject. i would like my quality of life back, is that so much to ask. If any one has some ideals or words of encouragement i would greatly appreciate it. thank you
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"what is a Schmorl node"?
I found these answers on Wikipedia.
"These are protrusions of disc material into the surface of the vertebral body, which may contact the marrow of the vertebra and lead to inflammation."
"Schmorl's nodes are fairly common, especially with minor degeneration of the aging spine, but they are also seen in younger spines. Schmorl's nodes often cause no symptoms, but may simply reflect that "wear and tear" of the spine has occurred over time; they may also reflect that bone strength was at one time somewhat compromised, perhaps due to a vitamin D deficiency, although this has yet to be confirmed with studies."
On an X-Ray it looks like a dip or pothole in the vertebrae.
Pain Management. Their job is basically to relieve your pain and help you cope with your symptoms. Hence, manage your pain. They are not designed to "fix" what's causing the problems. That is the job of your neurosurgeon or orthopedic, etc.
Chiropractic is great for adjusting subluxations and working out the spasms, etc associated with it. However, there are times when you need to move on to a doctor who can physically fix what is wrong.
If your doctor is recommending surgery, he should be referring you to someone who can/will do the procedure. If he can do it himself... but won't... ask why!
I'm not an advocate of surgery unless you've exhausted all the non-invasive options available. But, if you need surgery to resume a normal way of life, please get a second or third opinion.
BTW, I also have DDD, and Spondylosis in the lumbar region with myelopathy. L1 through S1 are effected and a lateral herniation at the L4-L5 level was very prominent . I understand what it's like to bounce from doc to doc for pain management and physical therapy. I was given the option of surgery to correct several issues, but he also gave me reasons to delay the surgery. However, those options were up to me.
Again, I would suggest you get another professional opinion.
I hope you are able to find a solution that gives you relief.
Wow...and I thought I had a messed up back. I would definitely get a second opinion regardless. The neuro surgeon is more than likely going to just want to treat your symptoms where as the orthopedic surgeon wants to correct the mechanism that is causing your symptoms. I have DDD with herniation beginning at the L3 all the way down to the S1. In 2008, I had a discectomy on my L4/L5 level due to a 11mm herniation, which was compromising the nerve. All went well for about a year until I got hurt again. This time I had problems at the L5/S1 level. After trying all kinds of stuff (meds, physical therapy, steroid shots, acupuncture), my pain continued to worsening and became very debilitating. I am a career firefighter and I literally could not get to work anymore, walk, sit, lie down. Everything was so painful. I got very depressed, especially since I was not able to go to work. I finally gave into getting a fusion surgery at the L5/S1 in December 2010. My orthopedic surgeon told me that he was about 95% sure that this will relief my pain and he was right. I still have struggles with having a fused level on my spine, but I take that anytime over the pain I had to endure prior to surgery. The issues I am still dealing with are having to due with lack of flexibility (for instance, I cannot even come close to touching my toes anymore when I sit down and reach for them - prior to back problems, I was able to reach past my toes), not being able to bend or twist and just the feeling of having this extra hardware in my back. I can totally feel it, but not so much in a painful way but awkward kinda way. I don't regret the surgery. If I was you, I would try acupuncture (I really, really enjoyed that but your insurance will probably not pay for it) in combination with either a steroid block or ask your doc about a facet joint arthrogram to figure out where you pain originates from. They would normally follow that up with a radiofrequency thermocoagulation. The arthrogram is a testing tool to see if your pain improves temporarily after the procedure. If it does, then they are sure that the facet joints are the problem and will then permanently kill the nerve so it can no longer send signals to your brain. It helped for me for a little while until I was involved in a motor vehicle accident. Then all hell broke lose on my back. I hope this helps you a little bit and gives you other options to explore. I would not do any type of invasive surgery (fusion, disectomy) until the pain becomes debilitating enough to keep me from walking or getting out of bed).
I could go on and on about what is wrong with my spine, but I won't. I have had three major car accidents and live with chronic pain from the C3 to L5/S1. I do yoga to stay flexible and biofeedback to control my pain. As for getting your life back, that may not be an option, so start with accepting that, however, you can live your best life within your physical limitations and on your terms. Some psychological therapy will help with the anger of not having the life you thought you'd have. All the best to you Jennifer, and I am sorry you have to go through this. Second and third opinions are always best.
Hi Jennifer,
Not knowing where in WI you live, I wonder if you can go to U.W. Hospital & Clinics. I am fused L3-4-5-S1. This was through 2 surgeries, but the end result for me is doing things I never thought I would ever be able to do again, and I am 55 yrs. old now. My surgeon was Dr. Paul Anderson. He is seen at the Spine Clinic at 621 Science Drive, Madison, WI 53711. Call 608-265-3207. If you see him tell him I refered him to you because he is so wonderful , he gave me my life back (Delores Meyers). He did my surgeries in July 2004 & Dec. 2005. I hope he is still there. If you need to see an Orthopedic Dr. 1st, ask for James W. Leonard, DO at the same address and #. He got me to Dr. Anderson. Maybe you can just get a referal to Dr. Anderson from one of your doctors.
I wish you all the best. If you do have surgery, I recommend you do EXACTLY what you are told. You won't regret the effort if the end result is like mine, totally AMAZING!!!!
Good luck.
Jennifer, Get thee to an orthopaedic surgeon who specializes in the spine or limits his/her practice to the spine. Forget general orthopod surgeons, they will NOT risk treating neck injuries/diseases due to the liability attached if they goof. I am in advanced years (76) but was forced to have my cervical spine fused (C2-C5 plus C5-C6 is autofused) with hardware due to invasion by ligaments that impinged on my cord. This did remove the pain associated with that impingement but added new pain, probably as a result of that surgery, called occipital neuralgia, a kind of permanent, 24/7 head/neck ache. No more tennis matches for me as i cannot swivel my head. This followed by 3 years surgery to fuse my L1-L2, L3-L4 and L5-S1, again with hardware, all due to advanced arthritis of the spine. That was the 3rd lumbar surgery as the first 2 surgeries were failures mostly caused by the surgeon only doing a discectomy at one disc level when he saw the beginning of the same condition at the next disc but did nothing about it. 4 months later he had to do the next one, which, incidentally, failed as well.
If you get to see the RIGHT surgeon, he will justify to the insurance company the necessity of going that next step and surgically correcting your problems. Only after the operation and physical therapy will you need to see pain managers to take care of any residual discomfort you experience.
Hi jfred,
Welcome to the group.I have same issues as as u , my T5-S1.L 5 n L 6 i had laminectomies done on them in march, I have degenerative disc disease in all those discs.After surgery they labeled it failed back surgery, but dont get to nervous its a term they use meaning ,they fixed problem they went in for, but patient still experiencing unexplained pain. And if u read everyones bloggs, we all pretty much had surgeries n r experiencing continuous pain,,,Hence we all pretty much have that diagnosis.
If you have to have surgery at some point if surgeon saiys so. ( 2nd opinion, even better).try not to get fused and rods,I am an experienced nurse in orthopedics..its my recommendation. (im not dr,) but recommending ,if u HAVE to have surgery have the discs addresed by laminectomy, Try not to get fused and rods. But again im not surgeon,,,just my input...Hope ur on an anti-inflammatory, pain meds,psychotherapy...(good for the soul :) :)To find good surgeon, go to ur best surrounding hospital.look up who the neuro-surgeon is,Better hospitals give priveledges to the better surgeons ,Good luck to you,,feel better RENE :)
dear jennifer
you are correct about Pain management doctor's , it's what they do . very suprised the neurologist's
comment , and then leaving the room . i believe if you were to call the *county or State medical society in your city , they may be able to direct you to someone willing to help . clearly , you need some real direction for the way things are . i hope you find someone good and with compassion to listen . chronic pain 24 / 7 is awful . good luck to you .
jfred, i hope you've seen the above comments, all of which can be of some use. Now is the time to be proactive. Go get help before your problems get worse, which they will if un- or mal-treated. You seeked help, you've been offered some excellent suggestions, now's the time to go find a competent and sympathetic orthopaedic and/or neurosurgeon and end your suffering. Then get a 2nd or even 3rd opinion and demand a clear explanation in writing of what is going on in your spine, what they would do about it, and what outcomes you can expect. If you opt for surgery, plan on a period of intensive rehabilitation (those plans should be included in your surgeon's explanation) and get yourself back to a quality of life with minimal or no pain. I sincerely wish you only the best.


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- De-toxification by body purification
- Counselling with training for meditation.
- Medication by HERBADICT, which protects the vital organs of the body, repairs the damages done to the vital organs, enhances will power and memory power and induces natural sleep pattern.
The De-Addiction Centre of Muniyal Ayurveda Hospital at Manipal has 50 beds, along with required facilities managed by expert physicians. Patients or their family members can approach the Muniyal Ayurveda Family Clinics for consultation or directly admit them to the hospital.