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- This is the main entrance of Clow Faculty building on High Avenue. We are on the 4th floor.
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Your father was never in a war. The military didn't want him because he walked funny, like a gay chicken, and though he was never diagnosed with a physical infirmity, his way of walking was enough for the draft office to send him home.
"But I want to raise a flag on a foreign beach, like those guys!" he shouted to the man looking for kids to send to Viet Nam.
"Maybe you can do your part by going home and learning to sew," the military man giggled. "Someone's got to make the flag before it gets raised, you know."
Your father took the man's advice and started a custom flag-making business. He distributes his share of American flags, especially around the Fourth of July, but his specialty is the custom design.
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The serial killer would place the order and would then start saving money before he went on his killing spree. Your father might end up getting stuck with the flags if the killer came to his senses or got caught molesting a farmer's crop or something else that would send him to jail, but your father was the kind of man who would take the risk for the sake of his vision. Compromising a design was a far greater sacrifice than the monetary investment.
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All of us love flaunting our jewelry collection. and gold especially finds most favour in our hearts. Its unique beauty makes it distinguished and if you need to impress then dirty or tarnished jewelry is not really an option. To bring back that lost luster here are some simple and easy methods that can be followed at home without worrying about spending big bucks.
- Dish-washing liquid
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- Handling pieces with glued-in stones
Immersing in water and liquid soap solution is not an option for jewelry that contain gemstones glued into setting as the glue can loosen and gemstones may fall out. There is a simpler solution for that. Soak a delicate soft towel in the mentioned mixture and gently wipe the ornaments. Wash the cloth with plain water and use it to sponge down the jewelry and remove any leftover soap. Air-dry the piece to get rid of all moisture.
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This is another method that is often followed for a thorough clean-up. Take six parts water and one part ammonia and mix well. Soak the trinket in it for just a minute, take it out on to a strainer and rinse in water. Pat it dry with a piece of soft cloth and air-dry completely. However, since the substance is very powerful and somewhat caustic it should be used occasionally. In fact, pieces with pearls or platinum should be kept away from it.
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Justice for Vets
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Veterans across the nation are volunteering in Veterans Treatment Court and coming to the aid of their fellow veterans who are struggling with substance abuse and/or mental health conditions. In this gripping documentary short, Justice For Vets brings you face to face with the volunteer veterans of the Orange County Veterans Treatment Court. Learn how they are once again serving their nation and witness the transformation brought about by a community that won't give up on its veterans.


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(1996-98). Editor, Cultural Dynamics, Sage, London.
Fellow at the Centre for Studies in Social
Sciences, Calcutta, until 1998.
Has taught at Johns Hopkins University.
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Designer, creative director, fine art photographer, and educator, Ms. Meyer-Newman has been an active member of the design and education community for the past 25 years and has received numerous awards, grants, and honors. She operates a successful studio that integrates her design practice with photography to produce work that is distributed internationally. Serving as Educational Director at AIGA (American Institute of Graphic Artists), she continues to support students in the AIGA Student Chapter at Cornish College of the Arts.
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Barbara Sudick is the Nierenberg Distinguished Professor of Design in the School of Design at Carnegie Mellon University where she teaches collaborative interdisciplinary classes to graduate and post-graduate students in Communication Planning and Information Design and Human Computer Interaction. Her current research explores sustainability, a collaborative systems-based discipline. She holds an MFA in Graphic Design from Yale University.
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RACE IN THE COUNTRY: Illegal Immigrants Turn up their Noses at Some Kinds of Work
I'm writing today about an interesting phenomenon: maid snobbery. Instinctively, one thinks that because the economy is in a downturn, people should be happy to find a job, any job. Depressingly, a lot of new jobs are low paying, minimum … Continue reading
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SEX IN THE COUNTRY: Viagra Could be Cause of Rise in Autism
I've noted here before that there's been a huge increase in codger dads since Viagra became the pill du jour for the over 50 set. It makes sense that more sex leads to more babies. For decades we've believed that … Continue reading
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SEX IN THE COUNTRY: Restoration Hardware Chairman/CEO Resigns in Sex Scandal
I saw this headline and I was dying to get to the salacious details: hopefully a Christian Grey type with a real life, dirty twist. (yeah, that stuff in the book was child's play.) The guy had and is having … Continue reading
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CORRUPTION IN THE COUNTRY: Plagiarism by Prominent Authors on Apparent Rise
The movie Shattered Glass tells the story of the young TNR reporter Stephen Glass who, eager to impress his superiors, fabricated parts of stories and sometimes entire stories. He was discovered by his editor, and his life since has been a Sisyphean … Continue reading
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Iraq's cabinet backs $9.35 billion supplementary budget
Iraq's cabinet approved a supplementary budget of 10.875 trillion dinar ($9.35 billion) for 2012 on Tuesday, adding to a $100.5 billion package agreed by parliament in February, the government spokesman said in a statement. Budgetary matters usually pass through parliament after approval by the cabinet. The budget approved in February was based on an average world oil price of $85 a barrel and 2.6 million barrels per day in crude exports.
The Opec member state, which is trying to rebuild its battered economy after years of war and sanctions, depends mainly on oil revenue which funds about 95 percent of its budget. Its vast reserves are the world's fourth largest. Brent crude has traded well above Iraq's budgeted price and advanced by more than $3 to over $100 on Tuesday after Iranian lawmakers drafted a bill calling for the country to shut off the Strait of Hormuz through which much of the world's oil is transported.
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Ask Billboard: Hot 100 'Peak' Performances
Ask Billboard is updated every Friday. Submit your burning music questions to Gary Trust at firstname.lastname@example.com. Please include your first and last name, as well as your city, state and country, if outside the U.S.
Hi Gary,
Happy 2010 (or Y2K10, if you prefer)!
As always, it's great reading your articles. I am digging the first edition of your "Taking Peaks" feature on the Billboard Hot 100, as you analyze the chart peak position-by-peak position over the years. You know, as much as I hear Van Morrison's "Moondance" on the radio, I am still shocked to see it reached only No. 92!
Along with that classic, I wanted to add a few more "honorable mentions" in response to your already great list:
- Modern English's "I Melt With You" may have been the smash that folks remember, but the group actually did have another chart hit in 1984: "Hands Across the Sea," another great song from the band, reached No. 93.
- You mention Boney M, a Frank Farian creation, at No. 85, but another noteworthy Farian inclusion would be "Stairway to Heaven" by the Far Corporation (including members of Toto), which hit No. 89 in 1985. It is the only charted version of the song here in the U.S. It also made No. 8 in the U.K.
- A song that hit No. 88 in 1980 which was actually parodied by the artist/actor in the 1980 film "Smokey & the Bandit 2": Burt Reynolds' "Let's Do Something Cheap and Superficial."
- And, Canada's answer to Duran Duran in the '80s, Platinum Blonde, at one time Canada's biggest musical export, except in the U.S. The act reached No. 82 with "Somebody, Somewhere."
Thanks again, Gary. Once again, you have outdone yourself for the benefit of chart geeks like myself!
Ron Raymond, Jr.
Music Director, WMPG-FM
Portland, Maine
Hi Ron,
Thanks very much. And happy two-thousand-ten/twenty-ten/Y2K10 to you!
For those who haven't yet read the first installment, "Taking Peaks" is a Chart Beat special feature, being unveiled in four parts each Tuesday this month. The idea is that well-loved songs didn't peak only at No. 1, or in the top 10, on the Hot 100. The chart's history shows that well-known titles peaked at every position, all the way to No. 100. This week, we started with Nos. 100 through 76. We'll continue with Nos. 75-51 Tuesday (Jan. 12).
Your additional trivia is invaluable, especially the note that the only version of Led Zeppelin's "Stairway to Heaven," arguably the most famous album track never to chart on the Hot 100, has reached only the list's lower ranks, and by an act a few degrees of separation away from Milli Vanilli.
I also received a detailed e-mail from Chart Beat reader Christopher Brisson, and the only reason I didn't publish it here is that it's filled with great suggestions for songs that peaked between Nos. 75 and 1, and more than one of those will likely make the cut going forward! So, instead of giving away any future titles, I'll save them for the next editions of the "Taking Peaks" feature.
Again, this is by no means an official or definitive Billboard chart ranking, but a somewhat subjective - and, hopefully, fun - look at the Hot 100, based on (objective) peak positions. It's designed to invite debate, so please offer your opinions in the comments below this column or each "Taking Peaks" posting.
Hi Gary!
We all know that Taylor Swift continues to make headlines in the music industry these days, and this week is no exception.
With her former No. 1 Country Songs hit, "You Belong With Me," at No. 1 on the Adult Contemporary chart for a 12th week, she is enjoying the longest reign for a hit by a core country act on the list since Faith Hill's "There You'll Be" spent 12 weeks at the summit in 2001. If Swift is able to spend another week on top, and it looks likely that she will, as the song is the survey's Greatest Gainer this week, then "Belong" will mark a core country artist's longest reign on AC since Hill tallied a record 17-week run with "Breathe" in 2000.
John Maverick
Burt County, Nebraska
Hi John,
Thanks, as always, for your insights on country music and our country charts.
I'm glad you included the word "core" when describing country acts, as, prior to Swift's reign on Adult Contemporary, Miley Cyrus led for 15 weeks with "The Climb," which reached No. 25 on Country Songs. While Swift and Hill are primarily country acts, Cyrus has recorded pop music almost exclusively and would not be considered a core country act.
Country crossovers, in fact, show throughout this week's Adult Contemporary chart. "The Climb" remains in the top five (No. 5), Keith Urban's "Kiss a Girl" bullets at No. 12 and Brad Paisley re-enters at No. 19 with "Then."
Click here for Billboard 200 chart manager Keith Caulfield's analysis of Swift's "Fearless" claiming the honor of 2009's top-selling album.
Hi Gary,
With recent chart outings for each artist, which "American Idol" champion - Carrie Underwood or Kelly Clarkson - has sold more albums? I assume that Carrie Underwood, despite winning "Idol" three years after Clarkson, is in the lead.
Robert Becker
Knoxville, Tennessee
Hi Robert,
In advance of the new season of "American Idol" Tuesday night, the top-selling champion, in terms of album sales, is ...
... as you guessed, Carrie Underwood. She has sold 11,149,000 albums in the U.S. to date, according to Nielsen SoundScan.
Kelly Clarkson follows with U.S. album sales of 10,494,000.
How did each artist fare with their latest albums? Clarkson's "All I Ever Wanted," released in February, has sold 815,000 copies. Underwood's "Play On," released in early November, has sold 1,183,000 copies.
For more on the latest "American Idol" developments, read Ann Donahue's Billboard Q&A interview with "Idol" judge/songwriter/producer/publisher/A&R executive - and former Billboard administrative assistant - Kara DioGuardi here.


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"…Can you honestly, truly say to yourself that our country has changed for the better? (sic) Are our children safe when theygo to school? Are our parents safe when we leave them at home?…" – General Muhammadu Buhari
The above three critical questions were raised by General Muhammadu Buhari in a video widely circulated on social media in the run up to 2015 presidential election.
The obvious answer to these questions then was: NO. Reason being that insecurity in the country took a frightening trajectory then, and the government of former president Goodluck Jonathan appeared to be too weak, confused and incompetent to curtail Boko Haram insurgents.
Fast forward to 2018, in spite of the laudable gains of the Buhari-led government in the war against Boko Haram insurgents in North-East, the same questions Buhari raised on insecurity in 2015 are back to haunt him as killer herdsmen continue to wreck serious havoc across the country.
Compiling a dossier on the number of persons killed and properties destroyed in coordinated attacks of herdsmen across the country right under Buhari's watch would humble the proudest of Buhari supporter. And to say that Buhari's government has woefully failed to appropriately answer the same questions he raised in 2015 is no exaggeration.
Passing the buck or claiming that herdsmen menace predated Buhari's administration like Mr. Femi Adesina, the Special Adviser to the president on Media and Publicity, irresponsibly did in a video he recently shared on facebook, is not only infantile but wicked.
As a matter of fact, Boko Haram insurgency predated Goodluck Jonathan's administration. Nigerians, however, did not accept that as an excuse to justify Jonathan's dismal performance as regard insecurity in the country under his watch.
Before the phones of Mr. Adesina started ringing, he wrote, criticising Jonathan's administration for failing to tackle insecurity in the country, not minding that Jonathan inherited the same problem.
Moreover, one is obliged to wonder why Mr. Adesina who once lamented how "human beings were killed like chicken" in Nigeria in one of his article titled, "This country does not give a damn", could be so "unkind" and insensitive to moot such an infantile debate when the families of those killed by herdsmen in Benue State during the new year were still mourning their dead.
What is wrong with Mr. Adesina, a supposed gentleman I respect so much?! Would he countenance the same view if Peter Aboh, the 28 year old final year student of Microbiology at the Federal University, Lafia, Nasarrawa State, who was slain by herdsmen were his son? This is not wishing Mr. Adesina and his family evil, anyway.
However, if Mr. Adesina could boastfully argue that Buhari has "technically" defeated Boko Haram, an insurgent group that predated Buhari's presidency, why does he wants us to see herdsmen menace as a problem we must endure because it has been with us since the day Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit?
Dear Mr. Adesina, get it right that:
President Buhari was very much aware of various security issues in the country before he begged Nigerians to give him a chance to turn things around – for good. He was not elected to watch herdsmen morph into an insurgent group deadlier than Boko Haram. Or to supervise them slaughter Nigerians like chicken on daily basis.
Violent killings in Benue State or any where in Nigeria under Buhari's watch should not equal or outnumber killings under his predecessor's before Buhari is called to rise up to perform the primary duty, protection of life and property, he swore to perform as Nigeria's Commander-in-Chief.
We all saw how the Buhari-led government heavily descended on hot-headed Indigenous People Of Biafra (IPOB) and swiftly declared them a terrorist group. We heard Buhari avow to deal with Niger Delta militants like Boko Haram. And to imagine that the same Buhari has failed to act decisively on killer herdsmen who kept writing news headlines in blood, vividly reveal the bias and "inhuman" side of him.
If Mr. Adesina cannot understand why Buhari's long silence on herdsmen menace frustrated Nigerians to accuse Buhari of tacitly taking side with killer herdsmen, then it is OK to believe that the "demons in Aso Rock" also rob people of their common sense.
Nigerians understand that Mr. Adesina is employed and paid to run a fool's errand for Buhari. That notwithstanding, does not mean he should trivialize reckless killings in Benue State and other parts of the country by comparing it to what used to be under an administration Nigerians voted out to elect his principal.
Responding to herdsmen menace in the country goes beyond glib talk and empty promises in preparation for 2019 election. Buhari must face killer herdsmen squarely like Boko Haram to tell Nigerians that he does not belong to killer herdsmen.READ MORE ON:


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Candidates focus on strategies to introduce and develop swimming and water safety skills in the Red Cross Program. Candidates are required to complete a 20 hour on-line course and a co-teach (8 hours) during the first 3 weeks of June.
Co-teach dates/times will be assigned on availability upon Enrolling. All teaching assignments in June are between 4:00-8:00pm.
Class/pool hours: June 1, 8, and 15 from 9:00am - 6:00pm. 100% Attendance is mandatory.
Prerequisites: 15 yrs old, ability to perform Red Cross Swim Kids 10 strokes and skills, ONE of Emergency First Aid, Standard First Aid or Bronze Cross
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10 Mens Wardrobe Essentials for a Sharp Image in 2019Last Updated: May 1, 2019
To look stylish, men don't need a huge wardrobe full of throwaway trends. A capsule wardrobe is the way to go; a curation of basic essentials that will make endless, and timeless, combinations of sharp business and casual outfits. Get going with these 10 must-haves to turn yourself into a sharp-dressed man at all times.
The sheer range of fashion choices, even for the modern business man, can be quite bewildering for some. The most sensible choice when putting together a collection of mens wardrobe essentials is to go for a seasonal capsule wardrobe that has sufficient variety to keep you looking entrepreneurial and sharp at all times.
Mens Wardrobe Essentials for 2019
These 10 mens wardrobe essentials are a useful starting point to ensuring that you have the sharpest possible professional image in 2019.
1. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – White Dress Shirt
Although it's easy to get distracted by more colourful designs, nothing is as sharp as a clean white shirt. It's extremely versatile and can be worn with a suit and tie or open-collared with chinos. This shirt is made from keep-cool fabric and it won't look crumpled on long business trips.Check Price >
2. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Simple Trainers
The trainers you wear when hanging out with friends shouldn't be the ones you use for your workout. Casual trainers should be understated and white, and the more scruffy and bashed up the better, for an authentic feel. These retro-style trainers from Italian brand Superga are perfect.Check Price >
3. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Brown Lace-Ups
Dress shoes should have a rounded or pointed toe, as clunky square-toe shoes can let down an otherwise stylish outfit. Take a break from monotonous black for a brown shoe, but remember to always wear a matching brown belt.Check Price >
4. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Slim Dark-Wash Jeans
No list of mens wardrobe essentials would be complete without slim jeans—the perfect compromise between super-skinnies and dated boot-cuts. A dark indigo wash is universally flattering and can be dressed up or down with ease. Armani Jeans create luxe denim with fashion-forward cuts, seamlessly taking you from day into night.Check Price >
5. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – White T-Shirt
A plain white T-shirt is the most versatile item in any man's wardrobe, making it a true essential. Although they can be picked up anywhere, it's a good idea to invest in a good quality item that will endure plenty of washes.Check Price >
6. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Cashmere Jumper
There's nothing cozier than a 100% cashmere jumper for layering in the winter time, and simple V-necks and neutral colours also score major style points. This Dunedin jumper is made from good quality material, and should last for years if you look after it properly. It has a contemporary fit and is reasonably priced, considering its 100 percent cashmere quality.Check Price >
7. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Navy Suit
A navy suit can be more inspired than traditional black, while modern cut tailoring and Italian slim fit ensures you look contemporary. A good quality suit in pure wool in a sharp, dark navy shade, will make you look as sharp in the boardroom as on social occasions.Check Price >
8. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Tan Chinos
Chinos are a great alternative to jeans and, depending on your office dress code, may be perfect for workwear on occasions when you don't want or need to wear a suit. A slim cut in tan is flattering for all and exudes understated style.Check Price >
9. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Navy Silk Tie
When choosing a tie for your range of mens wardrobe essentials, it's important not to get carried away with bright colours and loud patterns—a plain silk can be the most effective. Navy silk ties, especially those with a matte finish, create a sleek, stylish look when worn against a crisp white shirt.Check Price >
10. Mens Wardrobe Essentials – Navy Peacoat
Although the puffa jacket has been making a comeback recently, a wool peacoat is more classic and versatile. It's a garment that can be worn with a suit or jeans and trainers, while a dark neutral shade such as navy means it will go with anything. Coats inspired by the original US Navy Pea Coat are warm, stylish and, for the most part, reasonably priced, making them one of the real standouts among your mens wardrobe essentials.Check Price >


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Are You Washing Your Face the Right Way?
This is one of those things we all do on a daily basis, but not all of us are washing our face the right way.
Myself included. I've been making mistakes in my own face washing routine.
I'm going to walk you through all of the face washing tips I uncovered….to help you take better care of your skin.
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1) Makeup Removal and Cleansing are Two Separate Things
As I was researching this post, this really threw me for a loop! Makeup removal and cleansing are two separate things??
I'm traditionally a one-and-done kind of girl. The more fast and efficient the process is…the happier I am.
But, in this case…it looks like I've been skipping a whole step!
You should first use a proper makeup remover to remove makeup from your eyes and face.
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It doesn't irritate eyes at all.
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Once you remove your makeup, then you apply your cleanser.
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2) Use the Right Cleanser For Your Skin Type
I also found this information quite fascinating, according to the American Academy of Dermatology, you should cleanse your skin gently, with a gentle cleanser.
If you scrub your skin, it can not only cause irritation, it can also accelerate aging!
It might take a while to adjust to the cleansing oil versus a bubbly wash, but once you do, you will never go back.
The L'OCCITANE Shea Butter Cleansing Oil is the cleanser I've been using lately. I brought it with me on my trip to Cabo San Lucas over the holidays.
It is pure heaven! The smell, the texture, the hydration…Even the price is amazing at just $24 for 6.7 ounces!!
I'm not exaggerating when I say, you'll thank me for this one.
3) Massage Cleanser Into Face
Now, let's talk technique. I know it's tempting to quickly apply a cleanser, and then rinse it off.
After all, 9 times out of 10, you are in a big rush or super tired. But, you are missing a golden opportunity.
If you gently massage the cleaner into your face, you can increase it's efficacy by as much as 30%, according to Refinery 29.
You should apply using circular motions starting in the middle and working your way to the hairline. Don't forget your neck and chest!
When I massaged the the Shea Butter Cleansing Oil into my face, I felt like I was given myself a personal spa treatment.
It's SO wonderful, you will want to take the time.
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4) Use Warm to Cool Water
Listen…I love a good scalding as much as the next woman, but apparently it's not great for your skin.
Hot water can strip your skin of moisture, and cause redness and irritation.
Opt instead for luke warm or even cool water to wash your face.
The colder water will constrict capillaries, close pores and reduce swelling.
5) Moisturize
The last step in your face washing process… moisturize.
Finding the right moisturizer for your skin type can be tricky.
For me, I have dry, aging skin and I look for intense hydration, especially now that we live at altitude (9,500 feet!)
I have really enjoyed using both the Shea Butter Light Comforting Cream (day) and the Ultra Rich Comforting Cream (night) over the past several weeks.
I've heard of shea butter, but wasn't really sure what it does.
According to L'OCCITANE, shea butter is particularly rich in omega 6 and karitene.
That doesn't mean a whole lot to me, but essentially these molecules help to moisturize, nourish and protect your skin.
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A Couple of Other Helpful Hints When Washing your Face:
Be sure to wash your face at least once a day, twice is preferred (both AM and PM).
If you only wash your face once per day, make sure it's at night before you go to bed.
And, never ever go to sleep with your makeup on.
Have you been making any common face washing mistakes? Share your stories in comments section below.
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Why is religious freedom generally important?
The Constitution can only govern a moral and religious people.
"John Adams... wisely observed that: 'we have no government armed with power capable of contending with human passions unbridled by morality and religion. Avarice, ambition, revenge, or gallantry, would break the strongest cords of our Constitution as a whale goes through a net. Our Constitution was made only for a moral and religious people. It is wholly inadequate to the government of any other.'"
Dallin H. Oaks, "Preserving Religious Freedom," speech given at Chapman University School of Law on February 4, 2011 (Part I) (citing Charles Francis Adams, The Works of John Adams, Second President of the United States, 228–29 (Books for Libraries Press, 1969). See also Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, "Faith, Family, and Religious Freedom," Clark Memorandum, Fall 2013, p. 25.
Religious freedom encourages higher moral standards than what the government requires under law, resulting in fewer violations and greater accountability.
Religions advocate for high moral standards and encourage accountability for wrongdoing. Religions also teach values such as service, gratitude, humility, honesty, and industry.
"Many scholars have gathered empirical evidence tracing the strong correlation between contemporary religious observance in America and virtuous behavior. For example, religiously observant citizens tend to be more generous and civically-minded neighbors... According to estimates, more than 90 percent of those who attend weekly worship services donate to charity, and nearly 70 percent volunteer for charitable causes."
"How Religion is Vital to Society," Mormon Newsroom, Commentary, March 12, 2012, http://www.mormonnewsroom.org/article/religions-vital-place-society#_edn3.
The moral advancement of society is driven by religious principles.
"Many of the most significant moral advances in Western society have been motivated by religious principles and persuaded to official adoption by pulpit preaching. Examples include the abolition of the slave trade in England and the Emancipation Proclamation in this country. The same is true of the Civil Rights movement of the last half-century. These great advances were not motivated and moved by secular ethics or persons who believed in moral relativism. They were driven primarily by persons who had a clear religious vision of what was morally right."
Elder Dallin H. Oaks, "Strengthening the Free Exercise of Religion," Part I of Speech given at The Becket Fund for Religious Liberty Canterbury Medal Dinner in New York City, May 16, 2013.
2. Religious freedom contributes to the ethical and moral advancement of society
Religious freedom allows individuals to act according to conscience.
"If we remove the rights of man to dictate according to their conscience, we also take away their responsibility for their own actions, and we bring their wrongdoings upon the controlling governments."
Hans Noot, "Enhancing Freedom of Religion or Belief in the EU," European Interreglious Forum for Religious Freedom, October 20, 2013, http://www.eifrf-articles.org/Enhancing-Freedom-of-Religion-or-Belief-in-the-EU_a71.html.
"Can there not be a government in which majorities do not virtually decide right and wrong, but conscience? - in which majorities decide only those questions to which the rule of expediency is applicable? Must the citizen ever for a moment, or in the least degree, resign his conscience to the legislator? Why has every man a conscience, then? I think that we should be men first, and subjects afterward. It is not desirable to cultivate a respect for the law, so much as for the right. The only obligation which I have a right to assume is to do at any time what I think right."
Henry David Thoreau, Civil Disobedience, http://thoreau.eserver.org/civil1.html.


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I hope that everyone has been having a good holiday season! I spent the 25th in the DTES serving food and providing support to the residents, as I have for the last 6 years running. This year was quiet and the dinner service went smoothly; we served turkey, mashed potatoes, corn, stuffing, cranberries, gravy, cookies, maple pecan bars and sandwiches to 150 people. Oh, and presents with fresh socks and gloves, chocolates, candy canes and hot chocolate! It is truly heartwarming to see the number of donations and volunteers surge during the holidays as this time of the year can be very depressing and/or traumatic for a lot of people. It may be a happy season for some of us, but it serves as a cold reminder to many others of families grown apart or lost, unhappy childhoods, and of lives spent in poverty. Did anyone else spend xmas day giving back to their community? I want to hear about what you did!
My family has been gradually phasing out xmas celebrations, and this year was our best year yet! My Mom and step-dad treated themselves to a holiday in Hawaii, and my sister, Dad and I had a simple and delicious meal made by my sister. The only material gifts I received this year were a box of Purdy's chocolates and a pair of amazingly comfortable Toms slippers. The only material gifts I gave this year were some LUSH products to J, and some melt and pour soap ingredients so he can make some of his own soap in the new year. Non-purchased gifts I gave this year were a scoby to my sister so she can make her own kombucha, and some of the dill pickles I made this summer (they turned out amazing, BTW). As a gift to my Dad I phoned his internet, phone and cable companies and cleaned up his service subscriptions reducing his monthly bill by a staggering $400/mo.
J and I also each gave the gift of a warm and comfy home to a new animal… it's turning into the Ace Ventura house around here!
Happy new years everyone!


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Janet Simons
Was so happy to come across this site. My mother was born in Lyon Mt. My grandparents were Walter and Lula Peets. Many, many fond memories of all their neighbors who lived on third street. My mothers name was Patricia Peets and she married my dad, Roy Bosjolie. Summers spent with my cousins Vicky and Cheryl Thompson was always a lot of fun. Thank you for all the great memories Lyon Mountain! I will always cherish them.


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I'm still slacking in the reading department. I have been doing the dusk-to-dawn routing between my day job and gardening on the farm, and researching things for my (still unofficial) move into my new house. So, please bare with me until I can get my nose back in a new novel!
To tide you all over, I dug into my old google doc files and found an essay I wrote back in college. (I know, I make it sound like so long ago…) Since I reviewed Lone Wolf by Jodi Picoult last week, I thought Nineteen Minutes would be another great example of Picoult's engrossing literature. I wrote it as an analytical essay so it's more technical than conversational, but the story outline is there and the explanation behind Picoult's technique that has more depth to it. Just keep in mind that this is a college paper, and there are moments that show my naiveté. Hopefully between the two, I'll have convinced you to read something by her! So, without further ado…
Nineteen Minutes: Maslow's Third Layer
Maslow's hierarchy of needs comes to mind when reading the novel Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult. The main characters of the story reflect upon themselves and the tragic shooting incident, and the causes that lead up to the event. Josie, who seems to be the typical popular high school girl has come from the bottom of the social ladder at school, and struggles to maintain her status and belonging in the 'popular' crowd. Alex, Josie's mother, struggles to feel needed as a mother since she constantly buries her maternal side under her job position as a state judge. Peter, the person who started the shooting at the school, was constantly being bullied, and all he wanted was to be accepted by Josie. These three main characters struggle with acceptance and belonging. Picoult's reflective formatting of chapters and third person omniscient point of view allows the audience to see the struggle within the three characters.
Picoult's reflective format in the novel starts on the day of the incident, but flashes back to the past, then to the future, and then continues to switch the past and present. So when we are first introduced to Josie, she seems to be an average popular high school student. Then, after the shooting, we start to see her past history with Peter. Josie used to not care about what other people thought, until she made friends with a popular girl while working on a project. Then, she ditched Peter because he wasn't cool like the popular crowd. They picked on him, put him in his place. Josie found out that with them, she didn't have to worry about being picked on. But then she starts dating her popular boyfriend Matt, who is Peter's bully. Matt reminds Josie that the social ladder is what keeps her above Peter, saying "If there isn't a them, there can't be an us." Josie realizes that being popular isn't simply being accepted, but a struggle to maintain acceptance from everyone else. This causes her to feel guilty about the treatment of Peter, because every time he is bullied, she is reminded that at one point she was his friend, and that she could easily fall from the graces of the popular crowd and become just like Peter.
Alex, a state judge, must maintain her calm, unbiased reputation no matter where she is. At home, this becomes the downfall of her relationship with her daughter, Josie. Internally, she struggles with the fact that she isn't the mother she wants to be. "I'm good at being a judge. And I'm lousy at being a mother." Shocked for admitting the truth out loud, since she couldn't admit to herself, the audience realizes that even though Alex is a great judge, she is still a human, and can't help but judge herself. She also can't help but want to be accepted as a normal human, rather than 'Your Honor'.
Finally, throughout the book, Picoult has the audience questioning the motive behind Peter snapping and shooting at everyone at the school. While some of his bullies were shot, there were other people that seemed innocent in the novel. Peter seemed to show no remorse, and even dared to ask "How many did I get?" But for some reason, Picoult convinces the audience with Peter's bullied history that maybe the boy isn't a murderer, but someone who was pushed to the brink and finally snapped. And towards the end of the novel, Picoult reveals at least one hint that shows why Peter killed these kids. We find out that Josie was also a culprit- she is the one who puts a bullet in Matt. She doesn't kill him, but shoots him in the stomach, and instantly regrets what she did. She begs Peter to help, and his response was putting a bullet in Matt's head. This put Matt out of his misery, but isn't what Josie wanted. Peter takes the blame for Josie, hoping that after all the years of adoring her, that this will finally make her accept him. It was his final offer of friendship to her, but obviously the most damaging.
Josie, Alex, and Peter all have internal conflicts about acceptance and belonging. As Maslow's hierarchy of needs states, all humans need this to feel complete. Picoult shows this struggle of the main characters achieving acceptance in the novel Nineteen Minutes through the use of reflective formatting and third person omniscient point of view.


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- Character
- Exposed beams
- Inglenook fireplace
- 100 ft plus garden
- Village location
- Parking
Maisemore is a village and civil parish, it lies on the A417 approx 4.02km (2.5 miles) northwest of Gloucester, on the west bank of the River Severn.
Maisemore Bridge connects the village to Alney Island, and provides a viewpoint for the Severn bore. Maisemore Weir and Lock were built in about 1870. The weir is at the upper limit of the tides on the Severn. The lock is no longer in use.
There is a church, dedicated to St Giles which is part of the West of Severn Benefice incorporating the villages of Ashleworth, Corse, Hartpury, Hasfield, Maisemore, Staunton and Tirley.
Entrance Hall
Exposed beams, stairs leading off with cupboard under, doors off leading to
Living Room (5.55 x 3.25)
Large feature inglenook fireplace with inset woodburning stove, exposed beams, windows to front and rear aspect
Snug (2.56 x 2.40)
Exposed beams and double doors through to
Conservatory (5.10 x 3.75)
Two doors to outside space, door back into kitchen
Kitchen (5.46 x 2.44)
Oil fired Rayburn which runs central heating, base and wall mounted units, sink with drainer, windows to side and front
From entrance hall, stairs lead to first floor landing with access to loft space, airing cupboard and doors leading to
Bedroom One (5.62 x 3.42)
Exposed beams, eaves storage, front aspect window
Bedroom Two (2.67 x 2.50)
Window to rear
Bedroom Three (2.70 x 2.50 Max)
Window to front
Wrought iron roll top bath with separate shower cubicle, w.c and wash hand basin
To the front of the property which is accessed via a driveway shared with neighbouring properties and in turn leads to parking area suitable for 2 vehicles and the front door.
Gated side access leads around to a rear courtyard garden off the conservatory and then opens into a large open space off patio and lawn with a variety of mature trees and hedgerows. The rear garden measures approx 135 ft in length and backs onto surrounding farmland.
Local Authority - Tewkesbury Borough Council tax band - D
Energy performance certificate - Current 31 Potential 50 (Please note roof insulation has been installed since report)
Oil fired central heating, mains water, electric and drainage
Local Authority
Tewkesbury Borough Council
Tax Band D
£1535.44 - 2017/18
Energy Performance Rating
The EPC is currently F31 with potential D50 (please not roof insulation has been installed since report)
Leave Newent via Gloucester proceed on the B4215. Turn left signposted Hartpury and Upleadon. Turn next right signposted Hartpury and continue onto Corsend Road. At the junction of the A417 turn right proceed through the village of Hartpury and into Maisemore. Continue into the the village and take the first right into Old Road and follow this lane for a short distance before turning right onto the driveway which leads to the property.
Disclaimer: These particulars do not form part of any contract and no responsibility is accepted for any errors or omissions in any statement made, whether verbally or written for or on behalf of Naylor Powell.
Floorplans have been prepared for identification purposes only, they are not to scale and no guarantee can be given as to their accuracy.
Prospective purchasers please be aware none of the appliances, boiler, heaters etc. which may have been mentioned in these particulars have been tested and no guarantee can be given that they are in working order. Prospective purchasers should arrange for such items to be tested at their own expense.


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THE PALE SERIES - Sparks and pigs fly when a wise-cracking waitress meets a reclusive billionaire.
Trixie is a wise-cracking waitress trying to work her way through college when a late-night storm blows in a stranger. He's not like the usual customers with his pale skin and dark clothes. Her kindness to him is rewarded with an invitation to his house in the country, and she finds herself in a sticky relationship when he returns her kindness with more than just a thank-you.
It all started with ketchup. I wasn't scheduled to work that night at the diner, but one of my coworkers slipped on a packet of ketchup and sprained her butt. That's why I was called in to fill her position that dark and stormy night when he showed up.
It was the usual chaos around the diner, a dirty little place off the intersection of Going and Nowhere, which, like this book, was the story of my life. I'd worked at the small, cramped, old-fashioned rectangular building for the last seven years and saw myself coming near the end of my college years without any way to brake and put the car of life in reverse. I was plump, but not fat, witty, but not mean, blond haired, but not dumb, and made more friends than enemies with whom I met. It was a comfortable life, other than the stress of college and work, but not one with much prospect of becoming a millionaire and living a life of retirement at age forty. If I kept up this pace I could retire at four hundred and spend the rest of my days on life-support.
One of my friends, Sheila, was helping me run the diner that night. The rush hour of regulars was over, the hour was late, and our muscles were tired from scampering from table to table all night taking orders. Sheila, a skinny young girl of twenty with as much ambition as a sloth, plopped herself down in a chair beside the door to the kitchen. She glanced outside and shook her head. "What a night," she sighed.
She wasn't kidding. A storm raged outside the windows the likes of which I'd seen once or twice before. I'd just washed the outside of the windows yesterday, so that ensured that the wind blew leaves and rain against all of them. The wind blew so hard people had trouble staying on their feet, and I swear I even saw a cow fly by, which was strange considering we were in the middle of the city.
"Huh? What?" That was my name, and Sheila was calling it.
"I said do you think the power will go out? We don't have any way to keep the burger patties frozen if the fridge dies," she pointed out.
I shrugged. "Then we'll have to take one for the team and eat them all ourselves," I told her.
She snorted. "As if. I'd be so bloated I couldn't fit through the door."
I shuddered; being stuck at work all night wasn't my idea of fun. Maybe somebody else's idea, but I wouldn't have been a part of that planning process. "If the power does go out just don't open the doors."
"Or hope it goes out after we leave," she added. "How much longer do we have?"
I glanced at my watch, and around the diner. Two diners were finishing up their meals. "We have an hour left and then it's rough sailing through the storm." I walked around the counter to one of the booths and glanced out the window. The streets were running with water. "Looks like some of the city's fine sanitary infrastructure isn't working right," I told Sheila.
"The whats-it?" she asked me.
"The sewer drains are clogged," I rephrased. "At the rate the rain's coming down we might need to flip one of these tables over and use it as a boat to get home." I glanced over to our two remaining customers. "Sirs, you might want to get a move on or you'll have trouble getting through the streets." The two men were nice enough to finish their meals, pay and get out, leaving Sheila and me alone with just the cook in the back. He was as friendly as a bear awoken in mid-hibernation, so we didn't include him in our conversations.
After I showed the last man out and made sure the door shut behind him, I glanced at my watch. Half an hour left. Outside the storm raged like a toddler hell-bent on destroying a model city, and the night was so dark I couldn't see more than a yard past the doors. The decrepit streetlights were broken, and the rain came down in sheets of thick silk. The owner of the diner was very strict about closing and opening on time, but the weather was so bad made me so nervous that my hand hovered over the lock.
I didn't even see the man until his face was pressed against glass. My loud, vibrating scream registered on the Richter scale, and I stumbled back onto the floor when the door swung open. Sheila, my brave and bold friend, ducked down beneath the counter and the cook stuck his head out of the kitchen.
The man who stepped inside was almost six feet tall with a fedora hat on his head and a heavy trench coat over his body. On the floor I could even see his shoes; simple and black with pointy tips. What really scared me was his skin; it was as pale as paper, the white printer kind, not that colorful construction kind that's fun to cut up. He had a pair of bright blue eyes that stood out against the white color like Christmas lights on a snowman. This guy didn't look jolly enough to be Frosty, not with those pursed lips, though he was dripping on the floor I'd just cleaned an hour ago out of sheer boredom.
I started back when he bent down and offered his hand to me; it was covered in a thick black glove. "I'm sorry to have startled you. Are you all right?" he asked me in a deep, firm voice. It was the kind that would make a girl swoon to the floor if I hadn't already been down there.
I took his hand and was surprised how warm it felt through the glove. He pulled me up with more strength than I'd give a man who looked like he had one foot in the grave, or a serious accident with flour. "I'm fine, just this stupid weather," I replied as I brushed myself off. "But what can I do for you?" At this point I normally let the customers seat themselves, but he wasn't a normal customer. Hell, he didn't look like a normal person, not with those bright eyes staring unblinkingly at me. Gave me the willies, creeps, heebiejeebies, and made me a touch nervous. I also wanted to close up early, now more than ever with Dracula standing there. I wouldn't have minded a bit of ravishing because he wasn't bad looking without the pale skin, but the bloodsucking was a bit of a drain on a relationship.
"Coffee, your strongest," he requested. He shuffled over to the counter and took a seat in the very center. That was my work area for the evening, so I sighed and went around the counter to find Sheila still cowering beneath there.
I glared at her and gestured for her to get up, but she shook her head. I glanced up and caught the customer staring at me funny, probably because I'd been mouthing words of warning at my cowering coworker. I plastered a wide, terrifying grin on my face and fetched a cup of our drink. At this late in the evening it wasn't so much coffee as it was sludge filled with coffee grounds. It was guaranteed to keep the drinker awake for five days, or bring them back from the dead. The guy didn't look like he needed a remedy for the second, so I figured he wanted to be up during the day.
I filled the cup with the oozing mess and plopped it down in front of him; the surface jiggled. The damn thing had attained sentience. "Careful, it's, well, alive," I warned him.
The stranger was mesmerized by the jiggling. "Is it safe to drink?" he asked me.
"Yeah, but you'd better hurry and drink it before it demands citizenship," I advised. At that moment I felt a tug on my leg; Sheila was wanting my attention. "Excuse me for a moment, I think the rats want to talk to me about their union dues." I had enough time to see his bewildered expression before I slipped beneath the counter. I dropped my voice to a low, hissing whisper so he couldn't overhear. "What are you doing? Get up!"
Sheila shook her head, and her eyes were wide and as round as diner plates. "Not with that creepy guy! Did you get a look at his face through the door?" she squeaked.
"I'm pretty sure I got a good look at him from five inches away," I replied. "Now get up and show what kind of a man you can be."
"But I'm not a man, and I just want him to leave!"
"Then it's time you traded in your breasts for some balls, and stood up," I hissed back at her.
"Is there a problem?" the stranger spoke up.
We both froze; we hadn't been quiet enough to escape his sharp ears. I grabbed Sheila's shoulders and hauled her with me as I stood. We both plastered smiles on our faces, and startled the man. "Sorry about that, my coworker here lost a power saw and needed help finding it."
"A...power saw?" the man repeated.
"For cutting our way home through this storm," I told him. "We get off in half an hour and want to be prepared for anything."
The man looked concerned. "Am I keeping you from leaving? I can leave, if you want." He got as far as one leg off the stool before I sighed and shook my head.
"No, it's all right." Sheila's clinging hands on my arm begged to differ. "We don't mind staying open for a few more minutes while you finish your, um, sentient life." I couldn't bring myself to belittle the coffee by calling it a drink; that would hurt its feelings.
We all jumped when a door slammed at the back of the diner.
"What was that?" the stranger asked.
I rolled my eyes. "Apparently the cook minded staying and just went home for the night. I hope you didn't want a meal with your drink because the most we can do is scrambled eggs, and I'm not so sure about the scrambled part," I warned him.
"No, this coffee will do." He was being kind; the sludge blinked at him. I worried it thought he was its mother. "But are you sure you don't want me to leave?"
"No, it's fine." There was that tugging on my arm again; I'd have to have that nervous twitch looked at after he left. "You must have been pretty desperate to come in here."
"To be honest I'm not too familiar with this part of town and your lights looked the friendliest, so I came inside," he told us. "A sort of sailor adrift who catches sight of land and swims to it."
"I hope you can still swim because if this storm gets any worse we're all going to be needing to," I quipped. The rain still beat on the windows and an old farmhouse flew by.
The stranger took his mug and downed the rest of the contents; I hoped I hadn't just poisoned him. "I really appreciate your kindness. Not many would serve me on this sort of night," he mused with a sad smile.
I shrugged. "I'd keep serving at this place even if the world was coming to an end. Nobody should have to face the Rapture on an empty stomach."
He chuckled, and those eyes twinkled. "I'd like to do something nice for you as a token of my appreciation." He pulled out a card from an inner coat pocket and slid it over to me. I glanced down, and saw an address and the letter B in a circle printed on the front. "That's where I live."
My mind proceeded to conjure up images of bad porn films; not that I'd seen any, of course. "I don't really make house calls, so you'll have to pour your own coffee," I told him. I pushed the card toward him, and he pushed it back.
"This isn't anything like that," he assured me. "I'd like to interview you for a job I have in mind, and would prefer a more private surrounding."
I leaned over the counter and stared him straight in the eyes. "This isn't a sex job, is it?"
He grinned. "Quite the opposite, but are you looking for such work?"
I straightened and opened my arms to show my flabby body. "There's plenty of folds to put the dollar bills, but I don't think the pole could support me."
He chuckled; this guy was easy to please. "I can see what you mean, but my offer still stands. Come to my house for the interview at eight o'clock tomorrow evening and we'll see what we can work out." That worked for me; I didn't have any college classes that late. He tossed down a twenty dollar bill for a fifty cent cup of coffee and slid off the stool.
The fellow wasn't giving me much time to think about this offer, and he'd given me even less information to decide what to do. "Wait, I don't even know your name!" I protested as he walked toward the door.
He paused and glanced over his shoulder with a dazzlingly pale smile on his face. "It's John Benson," he replied.
"And don't you want to know mine?"
He shook his head. "I don't need to know it. I'll just call you my little Angel."
I wasn't modest enough to dispute the angel tag, but the little was not quite accurate. He was out the door and gone before I could say anything else.
Sheila came up to me with her hand raised and a finger pointed at the door. "H-h-he's-"
"-gone, I know," I finished for her.
She whipped her head to me and frowned. "Didn't you hear his name?" she snapped at me.
"My memory hasn't slowed up these long minutes with him," I countered.
I noticed Sheila's attitude had changed from a cowering coward to a giddy schoolgirl. "Then don't you know who he is?" she whispered.
"The only things I need to know is that he's a guy offering me a job, and I don't have to strip to do it."
"He's the John Benson, of Benson Investments," Sheila explained to me.
I stared at her blankly. "He's who of what?"
Sheila rolled her eyes. "It's only one of the largest investing companies in the country, and he's the head of it!"
I raised an eyebrow. "I'm pretty sure I would have heard about a business with an albino at the head of it. News like that's too good for the papers to ignore."
"It's because he doesn't let anyone see him. He works from home and rarely travels."
"Then how do you know it's him? John Benson isn't exactly a rare name."
She snatched the card from my hand and pointed at the B. "See? That's his company's logo."
I snatched the card back and stuffed the card into the front of my blouse. The damn thing stuck out and I abandoned my attempt to look cool by shoving it into my pocket. "So how come you know so much about him?" I asked her. She was the type of girl who only looked at a man's business to assess his bank account.
"Because he's young, eligible, and I knew he lived somewhere around the city," she told me. "So are you going to go?"
I shrugged. "Maybe, maybe not. I don't work tomorrow, so I may as well see what he's offering."
She pressed against me and clasped her hands together. "Can I go with you? Pretty please?"
"You work tomorrow," I reminded her.
"Yeah, but if he really likes me I may never have to work again," she countered.
"How about you catch your own wealthy businessman and leave him to me? Besides, you're scared of him, remember? Pale skin and creepy blue eyes?"
We jumped when something hard knocked against the window and reminded us of the end of the world outside. That scared the gold-digger out of Sheila, and she nervously glanced at the windows and nodded. "Yeah, on second thought he's all yours. I'll wait for the next one."


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It's Saturday night. I suppose I'm a couple of days late for my posting goals. But it's been a tough week for me emotionally. I can recall five things which made it a particularly hard week.
I saw the psychiatrist again this week.
I sat down and pulled out my notebook with my notes, questions and a list of things to go over with the doctor. I proudly set my book down and opened to the page which was carefully written and colour coded. As I start to speak, the doctor holds his hand up to stop me, leans over to his phone, and pages his assistant, "Christine, please bring me the additional questionnaire for her to fill out about OCD" he pauses, looks to me then down at my book before looking back to his phone, " actually, bring them both."
I felt proud of my list I had carefully made. Ensured it was made for ease of conversation and flowed nicely for verbal interaction. I was happy I was being diligent in making sure I got myself educated about all this.
Notice how all of those sentences were past tense. Because that feeling of accomplishment was gone. Evaporated with quite the speed. Here was thing number one of what made my week hard.
I filled out the questionnaires then answered all of his questions. He always hands me the questionnaire to fill out looking for any signs of bipolar disorder. He reads over it. Then grills me some more verbally. I'll come back to bipolar disorder and how our interactions have made that a problem for me. First I want to go over number two of making my week difficult: postpartum depression.
Up until now, I have been coping pretty well with the hormones making me "sad". The baby blues had come and gone and I felt safely out of that postpartum depression zone. Turns out, postpartum can begin anywhere between two weeks and one year following delivery of your baby. Huh. Upon talking with the doctor I realized how sad I had been. Answering all his questions about how I feel about myself, my body, my achievements in life. I already knew I was having a hard time with these things but I feel because it truly is because I have failed on all these fronts and more. I didn't see how that could be "depression". I answer his questions and he thanks me for being so open. I tell him I trust that he's a medical professional and I want to get better so I don't feel shy or the need to hide anything from him. Not a popular patient opinion in this medical field I take it. Anyway, he finds a break point in the questioning (sometimes feeling like an interrogation) to inform me (yes, I feel inform is the correct word here) that he sees postpartum depression starting to show its ugly face. I never considered my failures to not be true failures. Though, I still feel like they are. I suppose hearing he thinks I'm becoming depressed is kind of comforting? In some way? It's like, "Okay, maybe these things aren't all that important. Maybe I am doing wonderfully and I just don't know it? If I keep telling myself that, will I believe it?". I mean, I have two wonderful sons and such an amazing husband. I should be happy. Should. But all I can see is my fat, stretch marks, lack of career and education. Add the paralyzingly fear I have bipolar disorder in there, and there's thing number three on the list.
Every time I see the doctor, there's a part of the appointment where the scene changes within and I feel I'm in a poorly lit room with a crappy light flickering overhead. The doctor has explained to me that the medication he has me on is a great one to combat depression, anxiety, and yours truly – OCD. But there's a catch: it can be catastrophic if there is underlying bipolar disorder hidden somewhere. It can cause quite gruelling symptoms of mania or depression, and neither of which does anyone want around a newborn baby. So. Problem there. He makes sure he's diligent in checking for signs of this, but absolutely terrifying me in the process. To the point where I am afraid to be happy.
Yes. I am afraid. Yesterday, I had a wonderful day. I was giddy and silly. I was playing with my children with such energy I haven't had for a while. I was feeling particularly feisty when interacting with my husband. And once I noticed what kind of day I was having, I hit the brakes and became so afraid I was experiencing a manic episode that my husband had to calm me the hell down. I must've said "but, what if, what about that…" a hundred times. Maybe more. Every time, the man just smiled and told me I was just happy. I had to have him explain why I was happy and why it meant I was not bipolar. I spent a great deal of the evening doing research on symptoms of mania and depression and combing over every aspect of my life wondering if it could be qualified as such. Wondering if maybe I shouldn't take my medication that night just in case I was experiencing mania. (Heelllloooo! OCD much?! Right! But, I can't see it when I'm in it. It takes a lot of inner strength for me to put the breaks on and divert down another path.) Anyway! Why was I so happy, you wonder? Well! Here comes reason number four! Vaccines!
Not what you were expecting? Yah, me neither.
Vaccines. My wee little baby is now two months old. He had his first set of vaccinations. It did not go over well. He had a poor reaction to the vaccinations. Not a deadly reaction or anything, but enough of one that I cannot begin to explain the kind of worry I had for him. Anyone whose ever had a sick child, especially a baby, can tell you what that's like. The OCD and anxiety were no help at all in this situation. He had a fever, a rash, lethargy, fussiness and more vomiting than normal. Come day three following vaccines and my ass is starting to get worried beyond all hell. I call the nurse at my doctors office and she tells me it's still within the "okay" time and tells me to call back in the morning if there's no improvement. Enter Friday morning and there I am fervently telephoning the doctor's office. Filled with angst and fear, we get to the doctors and the baby decides that NOW he's feeling better. Rash clears up to where it's barely visible. Fever is hardly there. He's wide eyed and bushy tailed, ready to go. I get in the doctor's examination room, looking batshit crazy, because here is this perfectly happy and perfectly fine baby. The nurse looks at me like I'm insane and doesn't bother to take his temperature. I feel embarrassed but also so very happy because my child no longer appears to be on the brink of death, or how my OCD riddled mind felt he looked. Thankfully the doctor sees the faint rash and checks my baby's temp, upset that her nurse did not, and can see past my mental health diagnosis. She didn't talk to me like a mental health patient who was having delusions. She talked to me like a worried mother who had a right to be worried. The evidence of him being sick was still there. You just had to look for it. But I feel I have often looked for things that aren't there, given my diagnosis. So I was worried they would not take his reaction seriously and harm would come to him. I was also worried maybe I had indeed dreamt the whole thing up in my mind. Maybe I was looking for something that wasn't there? But I was right. Which me being right has definitely played a role in this development of OCD (ahem, my cardiac history).
Well, there's a tangent and a half. Back to why I was happy! OBVIOUSLY I was happy that my child was not as gravely ill as I had feared. My oldest son was at home that day with us as he doesn't have daycare on Fridays. My husband didn't have to work late. Everyone was together and the weather was wonderful. We had a wonderful family dinner. No one was sick. I had every right to be happy. But I was so afraid of being too happy. It ruined my evening a great deal.
Enter reason number five. A bit random and I haven't the energy to make it flow nicely in paragraph form with an introductory sentence, so I'll just say this: this is going to be a long road to recovery. And it effing sucks.
I am tired. I asked the doctor about this exhaustion and if I could look at another medication. Not only was that idea kiboshed, but he in fact wants to increase the dose next month. He says I should eventually get used to the sedative effects of the medication, so he'll wait another month before increasing the dose. Then after that we wait and watch. I guess there's a process to go through before looking to another medication. And the word "month" scared me. He's waiting a month to look at just increasing this dose a little bit. Because I so obviously need it, he says. Bleh. It just all made me realize what a long process this is going to be. I was looking for some quick fix. Well, that doesn't exist when you're trying to fix the mind. It depresses me to know this may take months, years even, before I can get this under wraps.
Months? Years?
But there's so much I want to do with my life. Can I do it with these problems? Can I do it with this medication?
What can I do?