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Judge Gordon Sullivan is glad Zombie Lake beach is closed for the winter.
The Charge
God help us if they rise again!
The Case
If the history of art is anything to go by, humans love to see other humans naked. No matter how many layers we wear (or don't wear) in public, our museums and movie collections are filled with image after image of men and women shucking their duds at the slightest excuse. Sometimes it's for purely sexual reasons, other times it's to express freedom, and for some I suspect they just prefer people (especially women) naked. I suspect Jean Rollin falls into that latter camp. Though his films have their own unique brand of sexuality (as lesbian-focused as it is), he often seems to get women naked just to have them naked (or maybe to sell a few more tickets). Zombie Lake is a perfect example—it's also right at the eye of the storm of European zombie flicks sweeping across the world in the 1980s. Though it's hard to label it a classic or anything, it does lots of nudity and that strange Jean Rollin touch to recommend it.
There's a lake in an idyllic French village. It's a popular spot for women to get naked (especially a visiting volleyball team). Unbeknownst to all these cloth-less ladies, during World War II the French Resistance killed a bunch of Nazis before dumping their bodies in the lake. Now, they're reanimated (whether by the naked ladies or not) and attacking the villagers.
Zombie Lake is going to be of interest primarily to those who are already fans of Jean Rollin's particular brand of surrealist softcore erotica. He has a knack for shooting beautiful, uninhibited women in interesting settings (this time in nature rather than an isolated chateau or castle). He's also famous for his violence, which tends to be abrupt and disjointed, leading to comparisons to surrealism. That's less on display here than it is in some of his other films—there are definitely zombie attacks but the violence/gore factor feels slower here, more inevitable.
The film looks pretty good on DVD as well. This is a new re-master of archival elements for the 1.66:1 anamorphic transfer. They're in pretty good shape, and aside from the 1980s colors looks much better than many genre films from the era. Detail is pretty strong, and black levels are surprisingly good. No digital artefacting or noise shows up to mar the image either. Fans can choose between either the original French audio track (in stereo) or an English dub (also in stereo). Neither track is going to win awards, but they're decently mixed and dialogue is clear throughout. It's almost certain that even the original French track was dubbed, so there's no real question of authenticity here, either.
Extras start with two alternate scenes that were shot with the hopes of selling the film to TV. They're versions of the opening skinny dipping and the volleyball team's antics out at the lake. In both cases, the women are in skimpy dress rather than being full-on naked. We also get an alternate title sequence and the film's theatrical trailers (some of which show a surprising amount of nudity) along with trailers for other Rollin films available from Redemption.
This is not particularly a film for fans of zombie cinema. I could see an argument for watching Zombie Lake because of its rarity and weirdness, but otherwise there's very little to tempt fans of the undead. The zombies themselves are "made-up" with some kind of green-tinged latex-looking paint that is often peeling from the hands and faces of the returning dead (probably due to their emergence out of the water). It looks obviously theatrical and not at all convincing in the Romero tradition. Their attacks are seriously tame. The first attack looks like the zombie is making out with the victim's neck rather than munching on her flesh. When the camera moves to reveal the damage the zombie has inflicted, we get some red smear, not a gory look at carnage.
The film is also very, very slow. This is typical of Jean Rollin films, but the atmosphere here doesn't quite work the way it does in some of his earlier work. There, the gothic atmosphere and strange settings gave everything a dreamlike atmosphere that aided the slow unfolding of the narrative. In the context of a zombie infestation in a remote village, the slowness of the narrative feels like it's fighting the tension generated by the walking dead.
I love the Redemption releases, and they've done a fine job here. My only complaint with this release is that it would be great to hear from somebody who loved the film. Jean Rollin films often need vigorous defending, and the lesser entries in his oeuvre (of which is this one) need even more cheerleading. I would love even a small essay by someone waxing rhapsodic about the film to help me put it in context.
Fans of weird European horror from the era might want to check out Zombie Lake, but it's really aimed at hardcore fans of Jean Rollin who feel like they need to own everything he ever directed. It's missing the usual atmospherics, though none of the nudity, his films are known for. With that said, if you want to own the film, this DVD is an excellent one to have.
The Verdict
Guilty of being a Rollin film, for whatever that's worth.
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Friends here have never heard of Frito pie. Often, they seem disturbed that I grew up eating this stuff—along with chicken-fried steak, pork tamales, and cheese enchiladas. (Were you just dirt poor? Were your parents abusive? Did you grow up in the time before the FDA?) But it got me to thinking: What regional specialties that others might find revolting did Slog readers grow up eating and loving? (Searching middle-school menus across the country, I find exotic delicacies I had never heard of in my palate's formative years: Things like bagels with cream cheese on Long Island, chicken teriyaki in Virginia, and Philly cheese steak in Pennsylvania). Do your middle-school food memories inspire nostalgia or revulsion? And do you still make them for yourself?

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Today, I dialed a wrong number. The other side said, "Hello?" and I said, "Hello, could I speak to Joey?" They said, "Uh, I don't think so . . . He's only two months old." I said, "I'll wait "
The judge asked, "What do you plead?" I said, "Insanity, your honor. Who in their right mind would park in the passing lane?"
The lady across the hall tried to rob a department store . . . with a pricing gun. She said, "Give me all of the money in the vault, or I'm marking down everything in the store."
The other day, I was walking my dog around my building . . . on the ledge. Some people are afraid of heights. Not me, I'm afraid of widths.
The other day when I was walking through the woods, I saw a rabbit standing in front of a candle making shadows of people on a tree.
The power in my apartment went out the other night. I had to use the flash on my camera to find my way around. I took twenty seven pictures of my kitchen while I was making a sandwich. The neighbors thought there was lightning in my house.
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Up to 20%
of pooches are sensitive enough to need professional
Fireworks are beautiful,
but they are deafening to humans and absolutely traumatizing to
many dogs (and cats).
If you have a fearful dog (or cat), especially sensitive to sounds,
PLEASE...be sure to do the following:
Make sure your dog is secure and can
not escape or run loose should he/she get spooked. An infinite #
of dogs disappear each year due to open doors, windows and
gates, even tie downs (which are generally cruel during firework
season). Many dogs bolt and in their frenzy run and run
and run.
2. If you have medication to calm your
dog, be sure and give it ample time to kick in.
3. If possible, do not leave your dog
4. Be sure and have back ground music
or white noise to help deflect the intensity of the booms of the
5. Give your dog access to a basement
or even a big closet or stall shower where they may feel safest.
6. Cover his or her crate if they
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USA and Rusia are not agree, what do we people care?... if they make a war will not people´s will, but few persons in the power who can not agree who is more powerfull or who will say the official lie to say the why of the next war... of course if there is a war, the winer of it will set up the official truth about it... USA have to stop pretending they are saving the world, may be they can just say they had another reason for enter to Irak?, may be they can say why they really make wars or invent other countries have massive weapons or are horrible? they will end up saying the whole world is horrible except for them... I think people is opening eyes and social protest are growing, and I think fine persons like John Lennon are an inspiration for us, not people like Bush creating a war and talking about God
the expressions of social concern are borning again, this is what we must tell governments if they insist in create more wars to destroy each other, wars are the real important subject, governments still using others knowledge, fine poeple´s knowledge (Einstein´s is one example, but not the only) for create weapons to destroy each other, they don´t even have to create the knowledge, and they still sending solitaire mad murderers to kill who they dont like... so yes... I am sick of social repression... me and many people, and the social concern is growing, massive meditations are growing and making people be aware about this is loosing sense already, so love and peace, beauty and nature is what we must ask for, freedom of thinking, freedom to feel, to love and to express, peace and beauty. John Lennon is not death, his spirit still inspire many people to ask for love, beauty, freedom, peace and nature.


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Ruthless, charismatic, and devastatingly handsome, Andres Sereno rules the small South American island of Kadeira with an iron first - and he has abducted the irresistible Sara Marsh to keep her out of harm's way. Of course, Andres has ulterior motives: He is determined to convince Sara that she cannot live without him. Blindsided by a sudden storm with no safe harbor in sight, Sara has no choice but to embrace the fierce warrior who holds her captive. Though Andres tries to shield her from his violent side, Sara knows that she's tempting fate. Before risking everything, Sara must walk through fire and discover the strength within herself. Only then can she surrender to the primitive force of their desire.
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Dear Mr Bad-manDear Mr. Bad manDear Mr Bad-man by Dragon-Dame
You took me away
Pulled me off the street
Why must I pay?
My friend lays dead
Somewhere beyond the lights
Oh why did you hurt him?
What of his rights?
I had a sister
She was young
She resisted
Her neck was wrung
And I did nothing
I watched and cried
Now you've got me wishing
That I had died
But yet here I sit
Gagged and bound
Lying in your basement
Never to be found
Men came down here
They bend and brake me
They have their way
I have lost my scream
Don't bother to yell
There's never an escape
When your burning in hell
So what do I tell you?
What do I say?
I hate you, I'll kill you
I want you to pay
But then again, no
I just want to be free
I don't care about you
I care about me
A dying handYou worship the figmentsA dying hand by Dragon-Dame
You hide in your mind
Living in long darkness
Until you are blind
You know you are trapped
A mere copy in time
And your searching for a plan
To help escape your crime
You want to escape
You want to be free
You want to walk back
And glance once more at me
But now I am nothing
And no longer bear a heart
I feel naught but clouded memories
Look elsewear for your start
I see you fall to your knees
I watch you remember
Of a time many years ago
In the middle of december
You layed upon a hill top
Your body weighed with snow
And through your desperate sobs
Wishing away all you know
Then appeared a helping hand
That pulled you to your feet
And a kind voice that followed
That echoed through the street
She was not of great beauty
Her face showing lines of wear
But with the only eyes sharp enough
To notice you were there
But you pulled away suspiciously
Asking the question why
She said she was far off
When she heard a distant cry
She said she was sent here
On a great quest
He's coming.....He's coming with a vengenceHe's coming..... by Dragon-Dame
He's coming for a fight
I know he's gonna hurt me
Just to make things right
I will remain standing
I won't feel the pain
Even as he drowns me
In the fury of his reign
I won't run and hide
Yet I won't stand and fight
Cause I know that I deserve this
As he approaches in the night
The sharpness of his tongue
It cuts like a blade
And I can't help but reel back
To hide away in the shade
But pretty soon I feel it
The roughness of his grip
He thrusts me to the ground
And the tears start to slip
I lose it and beg for mercy
I beg him to let me free
But his ears are clogged with fury
And his eyes just cannot see
"Help me!" I scream allowed
To all those within my sight
But they know this is my lesson
They know that this is right
I've had a wall of lies around
For oh so very long
But onw it all tumbles down
As I see where I went wrong
He raises his fist up high
To deal his final blow
And after one last spit of disgust
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I had created an article with general information about making projects for my physical science type of workshops. This includes where to find the materials at lower prices and the basic types of projects.
Below are mousetrap car kits I had made up.
Below are mousetrap car kits I had made up.
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Thanks, it is more of a challenge scrounging materials for a group project than for an individual project. For example I used the tiny motor and gear set in the defunct model helicopter in a small model solar car. Somebody gave me some small dc motors but not enough for a group project in model wind turbines. But the foam often comes in large sections, not good if you only need some for a small project.
Great info! I'm going to share this link on my blog (eventually I move slowly sometimes).
That would be great, I will check out your blog. Another project that I have done since this article that seems really popular is the syringe hydraulic arm. http://www.scienceguy.org/Articles/SyringeHydraulics.aspx
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Father John Misty at First Avenue, 5/21/13
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Father John Misty with Solid Gold
First Avenue, Minneapolis
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Father John Misty aka Josh Tillman returned to Minneapolis for the fourth time within a year last night. The singer, who recently celebrated his 32nd birthday and the one-year anniversary of his debut album [as Father John Misty] Fear Fun, seems to love this city. Mr. Misty toured non-stop since last year, sitting mostly on same twelve songs that make up Fear Fun.
So what can you get out of a FJM show that you don't get sitting in your room with the lights down and candles burning? All of the little nuances: humor that is so sarcastic it borders on insulting for the uninitiated, his captivating voice, and, most importantly, his dancing. From the screams of the women in the crowd, you would have thought you were at a male strip club when Tillman brought out his sexy gyrations.
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With his cup of whiskey -- or maybe it was water -- Tillman in his usual white button down shirt and black pants took his place onstage, took a sip, and spit it out into the air. Grabbing his mic, he remarked, "I just blew our special effects budget for the evening." Amidst his elaborate stage set of band members and large stuffed white tiger, his mural loomed large and colorful behind Tillman. For those that were attentive enough, it was a treat to find hidden pictures and meanings within the mural, the best being a naked picture of him at the top looking at the audience.
Wasting no time, Josh launched into "Funtimes in Babylon" and belted out the line "Look out, Hollywood, here I come" less like a threat and more as a promise. Showing his love for the Minnesota/Prince/First Ave., he name-dropped Lake Minnetonka during "Only Son of a Ladiesman," a favorite song of his to perform -- one he says he embodies every night. Grabbing his acoustic guitar for "I'm Writing a Novel," the singer noticed the crowd with their cameras, and said, "Let's carry onward and upward...to a sea of deteriorating MP3s."
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The haunting "Misty's Nightmares 1 & 2" had the house turning down the lights to a carnival-like atmosphere. Watching Tillman, you come to the conclusion that he is an entertainer first. Not that he didn't produce a stellar album, but it's hard to take your eyes off of him. His stage banter is never canned, but just random thoughts that run through his head. He thanked the crowd with, "Thanks. Thanks for all of the good things you've done in your life. Thanks for that time you pulled your brother from the frozen lake. Thanks for giving your mother that kidney. Thanks for tutoring after school when you really wanted to be at the arcade. It's hard to say 'thank you' so many times," and as the band played the opening lines for "This is Sally Hatchet," he pondered, "Am I insincere? I don't even know anymore."
Perhaps because he's been playing the same album live for a while, the band changed up "Well, You Can Do It Without Me," making it much more bluesy and soulful. Tillman played into the impassioned character, and kept everyone waiting by pausing to tuck in his shirt before belting out the final line "But you can do it without me." Once the final note was played, he declared, "Nailed it," and mimed wiping his hands, then fake crying, before saying, "Onward and upward, friends." He went on to make the audience laugh some more with his most spot on song "Now I'm Learning to Love the War," a misnomer not about war, but about the struggle of putting out an album. During the piece, Tillman ponders all of the things that go into making an album, even ad-libbing, "Shit" into the song, as if he didn't realize it until was singing the words how much work it takes to be a musician.
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As he pulled out his acoustic guitar again for "Tee Pees 1-12," he joked, "That's right. That's right. Acoustic guitar, motherfuckers. Shit's about to get crazy." Some "clever" audience member shouted out their request for "Free Bird," to which Josh asked, "Something caught my ear just now," and the guy didn't fail requesting it again. Tillman said, "Yeah, there it is again. Is it some local regional Minnesota charm? Is it local to here? That's what we love about each place we go to each night. It's original." "Tee Pees 1-12" is easily the band's most country song, pulling from the '70s era of drug-induced country music, and showcased Tillman's talent of writing fun songs, something he felt was missing from his career when he was J. Tillman.
For "Everyman Needs a Companion," Josh added in an extra verse, with hilarious lyrics about Satan's mom and getting matching pentagram tattoos. The singer saved his big hit for last, the moody "Hollywood Forever Cemetery Sings" had the audience hooting with its bluesy and dark guitar. During the extended bridge, he grabbed the stage light sitting on the floor and waved it around for ambiance, while dancing onstage.
Before his encore, someone had requested for him to take off his shirt. He responded with, "Anytime someone screams 'Take your shirt off!' I like to think it's a sex criminal saying it. Thank you so much. I wonder what it would take for me to take my shirt off. Maybe if I'm attacked by bees. [mimes getting attacked by bees] Yell something original. If you yelled something original, you will be my hero." As he came back onstage for his encore, the request was made again, forcing Josh to address it with, "Just shut up for one second and imagine the following scenario: I come back onstage for my encore. Someone yells to me, 'Take your shirt off!' I begin to blush, and sort of tell a half-joke that no one really laughs at. And then I take my shirt off, and I stand here in shame and dignity, and the whole crowd goes [gasps]. And you're the only person going, 'Yeah!' And then you have an existential crisis where you're like, 'What is it that I want out of people? What is it that I want out of life? Do I equate nudity with pure raunch? Do I have a capacity for innocence?' It's not fun."
For his encore, he opened with a new piece, a solo acoustic love song, that while touching, was sweet with charming lyrics. He also included the new "I Love You, Honeybear," another song that is soulful and dark -- even if it is a love song. Tillman's treat that he was saving for the end of the night was a cover of the Beatles' "Happiness is a Warm Gun." With its tempo changes and fiery delivery, the song was made for Josh. Happiness may be a warm gun, but it also certainly is a Father John Misty crowd.
Critic's bias: I saw Father John Misty when he opened for Youth Lagoon last year (helping sell out that show), and have been captivated ever since. While the band is great, Father John Misty is Josh Tillman. Don't miss out on seeing him (he will be back in July for the Basilica Block Party).
The crowd: Less hipster and more suburban than anticipated.
Overheard in the crowd: "You're so lucky." - a girl to her friend after Josh pointed to her as he sang the lyrics "Smoke everything in sight with every girl I've ever loved."
Random notebook dump: The stuffed white tiger's name is Dartantion.
Funtimes in Babylon
Only Son of a Ladiesman
Nancy From Now On
I'm Writing a Novel
Misty's Nightmares 1 & 2
This is Sally Hatchet
Now I'm Learning to Love the War
Well, You Can Do It Without Me
Tee Pees 1-12
Everyman Needs a Companion
Hollywood Forever Cemetery Sings
New Song (?)
Happiness is a Warm Gun - Beatles cover
I Love You, Honeybear
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It wasn't them, it was me.
Well, not wholly me.
But if I wasn't impaired, insecure and otherwise emotionally damaged, I might not have endured bs, for the sake of being in love.
I didn't realize how off the mark I must have been, to have kept attracting men with blatant character flaws.
Self respect is not innate, it is taught. I wasn't taught it, so how would I have learned? No idea.
Maybe it is all academic. Maybe I can read all about self esteem but it still never settles in. Maybe.
Creating a safe place in which women can share their concerns, their victories and their feelings regarding rising out of abusive situations. Sometimes you may not have anyone to talk with about this; I am here. I have been where you are. If you need immediate assistance, dial 911. The National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233). Check out my about.me profile!
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
What I have learned
It wasn't them, it was me.
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Despite living through multiple abusive situations, I would like to think I am about hope, about reaching back to help others.
What is it that makes some people prone to being abused, and some not?
Are those who are abused more than once, or by more than one person, somehow inherently flawed, or deserving of abuse?
I am not sure that is a valid point to make. Because aren't all people worthy of being shown respect, worthy of not living in fear?
I am what an abused person looks like, not a victim so much, but an overcomer. I am not so inherently flawed that I deserve to be treated badly.
It is sort of funny in a way, because counseling for abused people starts by teaching us to ask for help. I guess a lot of people have too much pride to ask for help. I don't have unhealthy pride like that. I know enough to know when I cannot handle everything.
But what about when help doesn't come? Or when there is no one to ask for help?
The old testament, in proverbs, speaks about getting away from from abuse...make no friendship with an angry man, and with a furious man thou shalt not go, lest you learn his ways and get a snare unto your soul.
I bet a lot of abused wives would have liked to claim that scripture and get away, rather than dying at the hands of their abusers.
No one can sit in judgement of those who are abused; because until you have been there, you don't know what it is like.
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Why do we do that?
Why do we do that?
We, being we women who have have multiple abusive relationships, enter in the relationships thinking the man will change.
A person is who they are. Only a person who desires change and personal growth will change. All of our hoping, cajoling, crying and subtle manipulation will not change character flaws in a man, nor in ourselves for that matter.
It is true that a man can make changes because of the love a good woman, but he has to want to change. If he doesn't want to change, all the love in the world will not register with him.
Here is another question, that we may not want to ask ourselves, which is: what is lacking in ourselves, what need correction or change in us, that we keep picking "broken"?
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Being nailed...
So, I am supposed to feel badly about a lot of nonsense dumped on me by family.
But I don't feel badly. Why? They weren't nice people. And then miracle of miracles, I find out they weren't even my family in the first place.
Finding out that they weren't my family, well, it was a very good day.
Deep breath.
Not everyone gets that kind of closure on their pain. I am grateful.
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
Bum Magnet, Revisited.
So can woman really be a Bum Magnet? Or is Bum Magnet just a quote from the movie "Pretty Woman"?
As a recovering bum magnet, I say, yes, it is possible to only attract the lost, broken and dysfunctional. Others may find you attractive and intriguing, but they will never let you get close, because you lack proper boundaries.
It may sound harsh to say their brokenness could be about you, but it is. At least it was for me.
I had been so profoundly hurt that I had to put a barrier around me to shield myself from pain and vulnerability. But in this case a boundary, is not the same as a barrier. Boundaries are about self-respect, respect for others and care. Barriers are usually rough, crusty, jagged things that impede communication and vulnerability. And when someone tries to cross the barrier to care for us, i n a respectful manner, beat proverbially and psychologically beat the hell out of them, for revealing our pain. And we become more and more dysfunctional.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Bum Magnet
I am seriously considering changing the Blog's name to Bum Magnet. That's partly tongue n' cheek, but only partly, because I am a rehabilitating Bum Magnet.
See it wasn't just about attracting bums, as much as it is about what was dysfunctional about me that I kept attracting bums; or at least until recently.
More to follow...
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
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...still trying to overcome
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Attention Hound...
I smiled.
You see, I do have OCD (and I battle hideous insecurity, daily)...so yes, I am pretty sure that my OCD does gets attention.
...and I have come up out of abusive situations/where I felt too overwhelmed to even assert myself.
...and I wrote a novel/book about overcoming dysfunction, that is selling, worldwide
...but the thing is though...it isn't about me, mostly...I open myself up and sometimes even play the fool, to get other people to open up...if people can see that other people have overcome, they are likely to feel that they can, too.
...that, and being bold, is sometimes a gift, sometimes a curse.
...for the most part I am all my 2 kids and I have, to stretch resources, to stay encouraged, and to keep us going in this great big world...so I have to willing to be scrappy...lol...and I am making peace with that...
If you have ever been a doormat in a relationship...or did not feel empowered to change your destructive patterns...well, when you finally do, you are on your way to being different.
...I am different then from who I was the first time I my first husband belted me.
...I am different than from when I felt abandoned when I left my kids' abusive dad.
...I am different from who I was just a few years ago, when my latest husband came home and said he never loved me; but that he had only married me so I could help him raise his sons..
I sure as heck had better be different...otherwise I might still be the blubbering idiot that ever lowered my standards long enough to have settle for any one of them...does that make sense?
I don't hate men...I do feel the abusive, selfish, immature ones give men a bad name...but mostly, it wasn't about them...and if you are struggling in an unhealthy relationship, you may find your abusive relationship isn't 100% about your's man's faults, temper or pain, either...it is not about them all about them, it is about us.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Signs to a Healthy Self-Esteem...
is calm;
is composed;
doesn't seek others' approval;
is capable and disciplined;
knows what they like and what they don't like;
knows what they stand for, and isn't afraid to take a stand;
their sense of self is internally motivated and fed, rather than externally;
is confident, though not arrogant;
is assertive, though not aggressive;
is gracious and hospitable, without being insecure or a doormat;
they know strengths and weaknesses;
they seek to keep good company, including those of character, integrity and manners;
they think before the speak and act;
they ask for help when they need it;
they offer help when they can give it;
they do not settle for second rate behaviors and attitudes in self or others;
they express wants, needs and desires in a healthy fashion;
they are quick and sincere in their forgiveness of self and others;
they have or develop a strong work ethic;
they strive to become a independent and interdependent;
they set goals for short term and long term accomplishments;
and they learn to handle both failure and success well.
And when these attributes/traits are in your life it is not likely that you will end up in destructive cycles that include alcoholism, drug addiction or being with abusive partners...
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Social Work/Note to Self...
...note to self on getting to a better place:
...learn to better manage insecurities...
...for instance, i don't want a guy who is going to beat me up (mentally or physically) for where i am, right now...
...i like eating out at least once a month...
...i love listening to classical music; drinking coffee; taking pictures; and watching college football...and it is not that that we have to be joined at the hip in all of our interests, but sometimes, let it be about me...instead of me catering to you all of the time...
...i want a partner, a friend, a lover...not a daddy or a warden...
Thursday, April 19, 2012
...first relationship, with a side of abuse
My first husband was abusive. His name was Tom. He is currently in a Texas prison for armed robbery.
He and I married in 1984. The abuse started less that 6 months after we married. At Tom's hands I was slapped, shoved, raped, pushed out of a moving car...among other things.
And about how things were with my first husband, Tom...it was so strange...it was like it was up on me, before I could really run for daylight...I confided in my parents...and my dad even had Tom arrested once...but there was such an emotional draw there...Tom made it seem like I was the only who loved him or believed in him...apparently the Regan household/childhood was a nightmare...and they all just coped better than Tom...it was nothing for Tom's mom, Jan to fist fight those boys into submission...
So, back when things were so horrible I was able to confide a bit in Tom's mom...but I had no clue just how messed up she was and had her own issues, that were not talked about...one incident that speaks of that, was when I left Tom once while we were living in Mobile, back in 1986...I went to live with my parents (even though my step-mother resented it)...that afternoon Tom locked our $500 scottish terrier, Sherman out of our apartment...walked to Circle K...stole a car...drove to a fancy department store, maxed out our credit cards for clothes, shoes and whatever...and started driving for Seattle...he was delusional enough to think that he could contact my mother, who lived there, to get me to come back...my mom would have no more talked to him than the man in the moon, because of how he had treated me...but he didnt ask, he just took off...
By the time he got to Chicago, he was feeling guilty about stealing the car...left most the stuff he had just bought in it...and took off for Seattle on foot...and started calling my parents collect every few hours to let me know of this brilliant plan he had to move us to Seattle...my mom said if he showed up, she would have him arrested...he was hitchhiking...had no winter clothes...no coat...it was a nightmare...somewhere between him being in Chicago and Montana, I had gotten in touch with his mom and given her the real scoop...she still worked for American Airlines back then...she said if Tom could make it to a major airport, she would fly him down to Dallas...only the kicker was I had to go back to him and "tend to my marriage"...as in I had to leave Mobile, Alabama and move to Dallas, Texas to meet him...she would help us get an apartment...and yada, yada, yada...I felt so trapped...I had no clue how messed up Jan was in her own mind, to have even suggested I go go back with Tom, after telling her what all he had already done...I caved...we ended up staying with the aunt in Dallas that had worked for the IRS for a couple of months before he and I could both get jobs...
The very first night I was at the aunt's house...she was wonderful by the way...but she had no clue what Tom was really like...well that first night, Tom closed the door, turned out the light and smacked me so hard that I saw stars and almost passed out...and said "that's for doing all of this and embarrassing me to my mom and family"...
We were in Dallas in our own place for about 6 months before I was able to finally get away from him for good...that was in 1986...(we had just gotten married in 1984)...it was 1988 before the divorce was final...
Part of what created the unhealthy dynamic between me and my step-mother was she is a person that cares about "what people think"...she cared more about that, than about me...so my humiliation over all that happened with Tom, was just embarrassment for her...something she could put down and gossip about, as though she had no skeletons in her closets...
It is weird what dysfunctional families do to their own members for saving face...
I am not like that with my kids...they have known from day one, if they get into trouble they cannot handle themselves, they are supposed to run home...not feel all alone like I did...it is not that we can solve our kids' problems for them, they have to do the work...but we sure as heck can be supportive and loving, no matter how old they are...but especially if they are being abused...
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
...when, there is no Arizona...
(from Facebook 4/4/2012)
"...didn't think I would ever love a song about someone lying...but "There is no Arizona" is very special to me...this song was popular the spring Jordan was on life support...in fact the first time I heard it was a couple days after Jordan was hurt...I remembered thinking that my soul was as dry and barren as the song was depicting...someone I loved, trusted, thought I knew... had just been accused of beating my kid almost to the point of death...and we were realizing there was no freakin Arizona...these days were are so glad to have overcome..."
"...one of the things we do not do often enough or completely enough in our culture, is mourn or grieve...instead we shove it down, act tough, and defy our emotions to betray us...as though there is any strength in denial...in being stoic...putting on a brave face is ok for a while, but acting like it never happened is insane...let's not do that each other...let's not act like it is weak to cry, hurt and mourn...because there is strength in facing life as it actually happened..."
Songs sometime have the ability to transport us to a different time and place. This one takes me back to the week of May 10, 2000.
"...her heart sinks lower in her chest..."
...and I am transported back to a time when my son was being kept alive by machines.
You don't know who you are, or what you are capable of, until something this horrendous happens to one of your children, and you can do nothing.
If you want to no why shelters, counselors, social workers and self-help groups drill about things about safety, getting away from abusive men, and making better decisions...its because they know that when we make decisions when we are damaged, someone is apt to get hurt...
The Bible even speaks to this, in Proverbs, 22nd chapter...
"Make no friendship with an angry man; and with a furious man thou shalt not go: lest you learn his ways and get a snare unto your soul"
And rest assured there is a snare in not getting away from a violent man...he can hurt you, kill you, damage your children, so bend and twist you that you are no longer the vibrant, capable person you once were...and heaven forbid you keep going back to him...or worse find an even more abusive man to replace him with. It is called the cycle of abuse for a reason; because once it is set into motion it can be nearly impossible to untangle from...and even if you do survive what is left of you is so mangled that you barely recognize what is left.
Why did I write "The House that Silence Bought"?
...to gain attention?
...to blame my problems on others?
...to shame my family?
Hell, NO.
I wrote it because it is important to break the cycle of abuse before it takes a toll on your life that is nearly priceless.
....my son is permanently disabled...and not just because some maniac crushed his skull at age 7 months...but also because of what abusive relationships had already wreaked on my emotions and confidence...and also because my family of origin was in such denial they couldn't be bothered with much else other than judgement and condemnation...it is years later, and they still don't fully grasp what all contributed to Jordan being disabled.
Freak of freakin nature, people who have always called themselves family, are social with the children's father; who was the abusive man I had left just weeks before running into the man who almost killed my kid.
Like I said, it is called a cycle, for a very good reason.
It would be one thing if children's father had ever acknowledged his abuse, and I had processed his remorse and chosen to forgiven him. But to this day he claims he was never abusive and that I am crazy. He is a lovely human being. Of course I say "lovely" sometimes, when I want to cuss.
"...so take the time, those of you that have been abused to deal squarely with what actually happened...cry, shout, scream into a pillow...cry some more...feel each of your feelings fully...fear, anguish, hopelessness, anger, resentment, abandonment, rejection...whatever it is...feel it...mourn...grieve the loss of all the lies that had to be shoved down your throat in order to accept the situation...and get help...from a counselor, from God, from church...from friends...and if you are fortunate to have a a loving, emotionally healthy family, from them as well...get help...break the cycle...don't become a statistic or a cautionary tale..."
In physically abusive situations there are very few choice outcomes...death, injury, disability, annihilation and assimilation of a person's self-esteem, confidence and autonomy...or becoming a cautionary tale...case in point.
Friday, March 30, 2012
...greater treasures than Mega Millions...
(and at the same time Powerball was over 60 million)
...but get this, a few months ago Jordan learned how to give kisses...(before it was a very hard concept for him because of partial blindness and coordination)
...so now I get kisses everyday...he says
"you give me a kiss and I'll give you a kiss" and he does...and so how very rich am I ???
Jordan and overcoming abuse was the inspiration for the novel...some of you know that, some not. Please read the novel, we would appreciate it. I used to think that the book would be just a forum for Jordan later in his life; mainly because he has no idea he is disabled. But these days I fear he make make it to later in life. He is nearly 15; but behaves like a 5 year old. That is hard for a parent to face. But what is harder to face is that he is not growing very much. There may be many reasons for this; for instance he is on a lot of very damaging medications. These drugs not only potentially damage his liver, mess up his sleep patterns, but also when conbined seemed to be affecting his growth. So of course prayers and welcome.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
...spotting emotionally unavailable men...
Is there such a thing as an emotionally unavailable man?
Do some men purposely withhold their feelings, their approval and their attention?
Do the ones who do it, mask some insecurity they have about their own inadequacies? Or do they really just not feel as much as other people and therefore don't see the need for displaying their emotions?
What kinds of things make a man emotionally unavailable?
Does he has a wife, girlfriend or sleeping partner? then he is emotionally unavailable.
Is he is hard to reach; and go hours, days, or even weeks without feeling like he has to communicate? When there is finally communication, does he makes it seem like there is something wrong with you that you wanted more communication? Is there is no explanation for the lack of communication? Is there is no flow between one conversation to the next? Do you feel like things are stopping and starting a lot? If you have no idea when will be the next time you two will communicate, he is emotionally unavailable.
If he wants you to keep an open mind, wants no labels, boundaries or definitions of the relationship, he is in fact, emotionally unavailable.
If he doesn't want to talk his feelings, about where you fit into his life or how he sees your relationship, he is emotionally unavailable.
So, it would be uncomfortable if your guy has one or two of these traits, but it is time to do some serious evaluating if he has all of them. Take a deep breath though, because you are not going to be able to change him. All you can do is start seeing the signs that you are with an emotionally unavailable guy, decide how to proceed, and take the steps to dissolve the relationship. But bigger than that, is you have to figure out if you have a habit of dating this kind of guy. If you see a pattern you must start changing your habit. Also there may also be a correlation between the emotionally unavailable man and the men that can develop abusive tendencies. After all theses men may reason that you knew what you were getting when you got together with them; and that their abuse was something you drove them to because you wanted something from them they couldn't give. Though not all emotionally unavailable men become abusers, but some do. The underlying issue for you as a woman who wants to develop healthy relationships, is why would you want an emotionally unavailable man either way?
I can only blog about this because I have been there. But what can you do about it? After all isn't there times when he is charming, sweet, and maybe even romantic? Maybe. But if you are starting to feel badly, unsatisfied and overtly insecure after your communication with him, it may not be you, it may be him. The insidious thing is you cannot tell if he is clueless or doing these things on purpose. Which can leave you second guessing yourself.
I have dated guys who had a couple of the traits. I also have been in the unenviable position of dating a guy who had all of the traits; and it was very hard to assert myself and insist on better treatment. Why? Because the emotionally unavailable guy will usually turn the tables on you and make it about your faults, instead of just owning that they refuse to become available to you. And if you are damaged enough, you may bend over backwards trying to prove to him that it was your demanding, needy insecure nature that pressured him and caused him to withdraw. Yet, nothing could be further from the truth. Emotionally unavailable guys were that way before you and will be so after you; which means its ok to leave them. It is more than ok, it is really all you can do to protect yourself.
You have a right to break up with someone if they are with someone else and they did not tell you.
You have the right to politely ask when you will hear from them again. You have the right to expect some sort of flow from one conversation to the next. Rest assured, if he wanted to get to know you, he would make his communication steady and reliable.
Any desire to stay away from definitions, labels or boundaries simply means he doesn't want to commit to giving you what you need emotionally; and from such, you have a right to flee.
When the time comes to discuss emotions, you have a right not to feel like you are pulling teeth to get a healthy exchange. If you don't know if he sees you as a girlfriend, it is acceptable and emotionally healthy to ask and expect a clear, decisive answer. In fact I will go one step further, if he wants you to feel secure, cared for and protected emotionally he will provide a lot of this on his own without having to be asked, pinned down or chased. And if you do have to assert yourself, for any reason, he will be proud of you for doing so, not ridicule you or make you feel badly.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
...have you walked a mile, in these shoes...?
There are few pains in life as acute as the loss of a child. I almost know what this feels like. Or maybe I know altogether what it feels like. Because while I have my son Jordan as a disabled young man, I did indeed lose my child who had been born whole and healthy.
It gnaws at a parent when their child suffers something they cannot fix, mend or make amends for...and it damages without repentance. Never mind all of the complications that came with our story; because even if no hindrances accompanied his injuries back in 2000, his injuries still would have left a gaping wound in all of our lives.
I have faith in God. I cannot imagine what any of this would have been like to face had I not. Still over the years I have questioned everything; my faith is not perfect, merely resilient.
So in almost every way imaginable I can relate to the partial loss of a child, every bit as much as the complete. Jordan wafts between his world and ours. Sometimes he has great clarity and resolve, but mostly he struggles with making sense of the world. The poetry in is that he doesn't realize that we all struggle to make sense of the world around us. There is great joy in the fact that Jordan has no clue he is disabled.
But unlike a parent who has had to bury a child, I die a little every day in all the things that Jordan will never do, accomplish or see. Everyday I mourn for this little guy, who is so easy to love...and yet is all but cast aside. I am not jealous of those that bury their children; I am grateful for all I have in still having Jordan. All I can liken this feeling to is a sore that never heals; because we wake up to both loss and gain everyday.
May 10, 2000 is our own personal ground zero...it was the unraveling and the exposing of all faults, sins and frailties...and we get bombarded almost daily with could haves and should haves.
Jordan is preparing for junior high. Which is a far cry from the original prognosis that he would be a vegetable at 7 months. So of course we are grateful. And his charm, wit and intelligence can light up a room, as much as his limitations can suck the breath from my very lungs.
So why do you ask do I write a blog about helping women overcome abusive relationships? Because it wasn't right what happened to Jordan. It wasn't right that his own father had been abusive. It wasn't that my own family could not be bothered with us in any substantial way...but mainly it wasn't right that my self-esteem and confidence was so lacking and damaged that the best possible choices I had to make still contributed to the events of May of 2000.
Blogging about empowering women, is not about putting men down, even abusive ones. The abusive ones will meet their day of reckoning either in this life, or as part of their judgement. Blogging about empowering women is about helping hurting women to see that if they keep picking broken men, it is because they themselves are also broken.
There is a lie out there that we have to have a man in our lives in order to be complete...while that can be true, it doesn't have to be true. It becomes a lie when we, as women, put having a man in our lives over taking care of ourselves.
I wanted desperately my own father's approval, but he was by nature withholding and indifferent. So I went out in search of making my own family. The thing was I couldn't have possibly known what to look for in a man, except for the qualities of being withholding and indifferent. The more withholding and indifferent a man was, the more I worked at making him love me. Winning such a man over became a hobby, then a sport, then my entire way of life. Which left me no time for self improvement, realization or enjoyment. The only goal was landing a guy. And since I was starting out with withholding and indifferent men, it left much to be desired in actually finding a man with decent, loving or caring characteristics. With each new broken relationship came new baggage, new hurts and wounds, and eventual desolation. My first relationship abused that daylights out of me...the next relationship included a miscarriage...the next, vile sexual habits and disrespect...the next, abuse from a child...the next rape, verbal abuse, control, and threats of suicide...then came the supposed friend, who in 2000, decided it was okay to prey upon me and my two children. He abused my 4 year old daughter and almost killed my 7 month old son...and with all that I was slammed in the face with every unhealthy relationship I had ever undertaken, every flaw I possessed and every weakness that was part of my nature.
So not only were both of my children hurt...and there was nothing I could do to alleviate that pain...I had to come to terms with the grim realization that had I had a healthy self image, any confidence and assertiveness to speak of, that I would have never been in such a position...Judah, my daughter's innocence died, Jordan's life literally almost came to an end...and my entire concept of myself was obliterated...not to mention coming face to face with glaring family dysfunctions...so...so, if I seem a bit too, whatever...there is just cause...try not to judge...
And I will try not to judge you,as well...see because before all of this I was so sure of who I was, what I believed and what I was capable of...I was judgmental...I was critical...I was so certain that my faults could not have been as bad as other's people's. I was wrong. People smoke, sleep around, steal from their jobs, run red lights, cheat on their spouses and other things...and those things do not come close to putting them on the path of destruction that lead to my son nearly dying in early May of 2000. To everyone I have judged, I am sorry. I do not know where you are in the world, but know that what I did was out of ignorance and self-preservation. It was not my nature to be critical or self-righteous...they were traits spoon fed to me by some of those I loved most. But...I could have refused. I could have adopted compassion instead. I partook in that which I hated most, and became the same. This is part of the weight I carry. Because those that I was so sure I was better than? Guess what? Those sins that I had judged in others? Well, none of those other people's sins led to their children being abused. Or led to their son almost dying and becoming permanently disabled.
I didn't physically harm either of my children; but I was so battered emotionally, that I couldn't see what was so obvious to a healthy person.
Getting to healthy is so vital...in any relationship...even if you have to let go of the relationship to do it. That one truth, is why I blog. To have even one women make a shift before having to face catastrophe and desolation, is all I can hope for having survived this. To never have you have to walk a mile in my shoes...that is what I owe to my children, especially Jordan.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Tributes to Miss Whitney Houston...
The queen of Pop...and domestic abuse...
I am angry as an abuse over-comer about Whitney Houston's needless death. Its things like this that we want to lessen. It why we speak out! It is truly by God's grace that every woman who has ever been abused (physically, emotionally or sexually)...every woman ever introduced to street drugs by some loser guy...could have turned out the very same...Miss Houston was many things in life; but empowered was not one of them. That is why so many of us who have been hit could relate.
The single greatest influence in her life was the remarkable time spent with her paternal grandmother; it was under this influence that she thrived. Her grandmother introduced her to not only fine Literature, but also the Arts and the Opera. And it was beloved grandmother who told her that if she wanted to be a great writer she must first learn to be an avid reader.
Early adult life would be peppered with indecision, failings, and the haunting of things not learned in childhood. But as is the case with most sincere artist, out of the angst of life came a great capacity for creativity.
Shelby considers her writing a gift...a joy, a tremendous responsibility, and something that helps to define her life.
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Leonne Mech by MikeDoscherWatch
©2007-2016 MikeDoscher
This is a mech design I did for a movie project. The project ended up being shelved in favor of something else (which I'm working on as well), so I thought I'd show it off here.
Digitally shaded pencil, like usual. ©Thorsun-Escelce
Digitally shaded pencil, like usual. ©Thorsun-Escelce
I really like this design. Good job.
to cool
これは非常に素晴らしいデザインです。 Σ(゚д゚lll)
Excellent work. I really like how you included the interior detail as well. Very cool
Looks kind of like a Gorgon from Starsiege.
Beautiful design.
What purpose would this dsign serve on the battlefield?
The tactical and strategic background of mechs was never adequately explored in the film pitch. This was designed to be a visually impressive unit for the antagonist. We went with all this spaced armor on the limps so that we could show damage over the course of a final battle with the hero and still have the limbs be functional.
Sorry, I ment to say design not dsign.
Just Epic!
What was the movie, what the movie was suppose to be? Tell me...
It was going to be an animated CG mech story, but nothing really gelled. The circumstances were complicated, and ultimately unfavorable for them doing a project on this scale.
Awesome Mech design. Love it!
I was inspired by your design to build it as a Battlemech, I'll be posting it later this weekend and I hope I have your blessing/approval.
I'm sure it'll be awesome- I'm really flattered, and I look forward to seeing it.
Down rite awesome, Reminds me of old Battle Tech stuff.
awesome awesome AWESOME!!!!
I can't put words to describe how much I love this.
I need an artist to illustrate a Mech battlesuit for a pen and paper RolePlaying game supplement I am writing. My email is email@example.com; email me if you are interested. If you are it needs to be quick because the book is almost finished.
wonderfull mech... i love it
I really like this design, my only concern is the leg armour, and the legs in general. It looks like it would be tripped up by rough terrain because of the limited traversion of the legs, it can't really lift them high enough to get over large obstacles. Also, the armour is agled, deflective armour, which is good, but it deflects right into the weapon systems and maybe even the cockpit.
A really like it otherwise though, it's just semantic problems for me. BTW, how many points wourld it take to commision a rough mech sketch from you?
A really like it otherwise though, it's just semantic problems for me. BTW, how many points wourld it take to commision a rough mech sketch from you?
Thank you- You're absolutely right about the legs. I did this without properly thinking about how it would move, and when I revisit mechs of this size I'll probably build a proxy model to make sure I get the gait right.
As far as commissions, I'm afraid I don't have the time right now to do a proper job, but hit me again in late October.
As far as commissions, I'm afraid I don't have the time right now to do a proper job, but hit me again in late October.
I'm glad to point out faults in your concept
And thanks for considering it, I'll be sure to check back on you then...
And thanks for considering it, I'll be sure to check back on you then...
It's a valid criticism, and I really appreciate it. Next iteration will probably have somewhat wider hips and a lower knee, but by space the lower leg armor forward I can get the appearance of a longer leg, and an associated sense of tallness.
Now that's a bloody mech! It's a nice Western influenced piece of mechanised hardware, although the main chasis is a little too long for my liking. Having said that I can see influnces from Battletech and some from Macross in it's design, so there's *some* manga in there.
Yet another mech channeling the Mad Cat.
But I like it non-the-less, the good old MC is one of my favorites anywho.
But I like it non-the-less, the good old MC is one of my favorites anywho.
Well, the MC is based off of the Marauder, wich is based off of the Glaug. So it's all from the same basic, Mecha family
definitely a sharp-looking design, i love the shields mounted on it's guns, and the body is thin enough to fit behind them, too... nice!
This was going to be for a CG movie pitch, so the mech had some interesting requirements: It had to be as expressive as possible while not looking too anthropomorphic, so the cab/head pivots in a way that really isn't very useful, but shows where the pilot is looking. The big armor plates are a little like a tearaway football jersey- we could have big hunks torn off the mech in such a way as it was obvious on the silhouette, while still having it be able to move and fight with speed and drama.
Very nice!
looks nice! faved
Great level of detail. You put a lot of effort into even the smallest areas of these machines.
I could just imagine this beauty leveling a building. It's an awesome mech design. Me wants one sooo much!
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PTSD symptoms related to school bullying have rarely been investigated, and never in national samples. We used data from a national survey to investigate this among students from grades 8 and 9 (n = 963). The prevalence estimates of exposure to bullying were within the range of earlier research findings. Multinomial logistic regression showed that boys were 2.27 times more likely to be exposed to frequent bullying than girls. A latent variable second-order model demonstrated an association between frequency of bullying exposure and PTSD symptoms (beta = 0.49). This relationship was not moderated by gender. However, the average levels of PTSD symptoms as well as clinical range symptoms were higher for girls. For all bullied students, 27.6% of the boys and 40.5% of the girls had scores within the clinical range. A mimic model showed that youth who identify as being both a bully and a victim of bullying were more troubled than those who were victims only. Our findings support the idea that exposure to bullying is a potential risk factor for PTSD symptoms among students. Future research could investigate whether the same holds for PTSD through diagnostic procedures, but this will depend on whether or not bullying is decided to comply with the DSM-IV classification of trauma required for diagnosis. Results are discussed with regard to their implications for school interventions.
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This warm, delicious, easy Nectarine Blueberry Crisp Recipe is just right for breakfast or dessert!
What are your weekend mornings like? Are you up early to make the most of your day, or do you sleep in late to catch up on your rest? I would love to sleep in, like until 8 o'clock even, but my boys are up EARLY. When I say early, I mean around 5:30 am. In the morning. I try to tell them to stay in bed, stay quiet, and keep resting, but that doesn't last long. By 6:30, I'm up and at 'em, fumbling with the coffee pot and trying to figure out what to feed everyone for breakfast.
The good thing about getting up so dang early is that even on a weekday there's time to bake some special for breakfast like these nectarine blueberry crisps for example. I actually thought I was making these for dessert because they are born to topped with a big scoop of vanilla ice cream. Once they were out of the oven, I realized they would also be perfect with a little cream for a warm, fruity start to the day.