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Building Up The Body
Make no mistake about it, ours is a culture of specialization and niche marketing. From vegetarian or vegan restaurants to the most obscure hobby, entrepreneurs have found a way to tap into every conceivable niche market. And just as the …Read More
Nurture and Admonition
The young couple stood before our congregation that Sunday morning holding a tiny baby recently adopted into their family. They had come to have the sign of water baptism applied to him, the sign of their faith in God's promise …Read More
Family Traits
The family is central to the biblical ethic. It is the primary image of the relationship of the saints to God. The work of Christ was required to bring about regeneration and adoption, making believers heirs of God and joint …Read More
The Family of God
The theological doctrine of adoption is not one that readily comes to most people's minds. It has often received short shrift in text books of systematic theology and in the church's confessions, so it is little wonder that even people …Read More
The New Birth
REGENERATION PRECEDES FAITH. This assertion that captures the heart of the distinctive theology of historic Augustinian and Reformed thought is the watershed assertion that distinguishes that theology from all forms of semi-Pelagianism. That is, it distinguishes it from almost all …Read More
Accepted in the Beloved
When I begin premarital counseling with a couple in our church, one of the first things we talk about is the purpose of the marriage covenant. I usually astonish the couple when I explain that their marriage is not primarily …Read More
Wily Jacob
Sell me your birthright now," Jacob demanded of his twin brother, Esau (Gen. 25:31). Thus begins the sorry tale of Abraham's grandson. From the start, Jacob challenges us to dislike him: a self-willed, pampered child with ruthless skills in getting …Read More
Keep Yourselves in the Love of God
It's easy to miss the fact that Isaac strove with God for twenty years over his wife's infertility before seeing a positive answer. His son, Jacob, showed similar persistence when he wrestled with the angel at Peniel. This is not …Read More
The Song of Solomon
I confess the Song of Solomon has always intimidated me as a preacher. Its vivid and excitable statements of marital sexual intimacy and the penchant of commentators to interpret it allegorically have combined to make me cautious. Even the ancients recommended …Read More
The Book of Job
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Washington : Government Printing Office
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|Paul Bighead, heirs. Sale of lands.
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Be it enacted by the Senate and House of Representatives of the United States of America in Congress assembled, That the Secretary of the Interior is hereby authorized and directed to sell the trust allotment numbered 322 of Paul Bighead, deceased Winnebago allottee, described as the northwest quarter of the southwest quarter, section 25, township 26 north, range 6 east, sixth principal meridian, Nebraska, containing forty acres, conveyance to be made by the issuance of a patent in fee to the purchaser and to distribute the proceeds of such sale among the heirs of the said Paul Bighead in accordance with their respective interests: Provided, That the Secretary shall deduct from the amount payable under this Act to any such heir a sum equal to the principal and accrued interest on any unpaid loan charged against such heir.
Approved, August 1, 1949.

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Osho,When I sit in front of you and listen to you speak, I feel as if a process of osmosis is happening. I find I don't intellectually listen. Is this the right way or am I missing something?
This is the right way. If you listen to me intellectually you miss, not something, but all. Intellectual listening is a kind of deafness. When I say something, you can listen to the word. You have a mind, a library in the mind of all your prejudices, philosophies, ideologies. The word has to go through all those preconceived patterns, and by the time it reaches to you it is no longer the same.
It has changed so many times, passing through the whole process of intellectual listening, that when it comes out it is absolutely something else. And yet it appears to be rationally the right thing; it fits with your mind. The process of listening has managed to cut it here and there, to change it here and there, to color it here and there, to make it what you want it to be, not what it is. And you will agree with it; it is your own idea, it has nothing to do with me.
Listening intellectually is not listening at all. It is a way of avoiding. The right way is that you don't bring your mind in and you let me go into your innermost being without being hindered. Then there will be an understanding. Then there will be a communion, a real listening, because in the very process of listening, you have changed.
Now the agreement that arises in your being is not agreeing with your mind, it is agreeing with something new, which your mind knows nothing of. The mind is always old, and the truth is always new; they never meet, they never coexist.
You are fortunate that you can listen the right way - putting the mind aside, just allowing me to sink deeper and deeper within you. Then even though words have been used, silence has been conveyed. Even though words have been used, that which cannot be said has been said - at least has been heard. And saying is not important, hearing is important.
Right listening means you will never ask how to do it. For example, if I am talking about silence and you are listening the right way, you will never ask how to be silent because in the very listening you would have tasted it. In the very listening you will have experienced it - the window has opened.
The people who listen intellectually are bound to ask later on how to do it. Their question about how to do it signifies that they have missed what was conveyed to them.
It is not only words that I am saying to you - I am conveying my very heart. The words are only vehicles. Through the intellect the vehicles will reach, but I will be left behind. When you are listening without the mind, the vehicle becomes unimportant; its only use is that it helps me to reach to you. It is my outstretched hand, so that I can touch your heart.


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INTERVIEW: John Densmore on his new book 'The Doors Unhinged'
Listen to The Doors on iHeartRadio
Founding member of The Doors, drummer John Densmore, released his new book, The Doors Unhinged: Jim Morrison's Legacy Goes On Trial last week. The Rock and Roll Hall of Famer sat down with Q104.3's Jim Kerr in New York to discuss the book and talk about The Doors' imprint on rock history.
"The Doors were knocked off their hinges a few years ago for a few years because Ray and Robbie - keyboard and guitar player - thought they could go on without Jim," Densmore tells Jim Kerr. "The Doors without Jim Morrison... The Stones without Mick... The Police without Sting... uh uh. So Jim's estate and I had to enter this legal struggle to straighten that out.
"I tried to write it like my mind was when I was sitting in the courtroom drifting off to thinking about playing with Eddie Vedder, Carlos Santana or whatever was in my mind," Densmore says, adding, " And humor. The older you get the more humor you need."
Buy The Doors Unhinged at the Amazon store
Check out the full interview with John Densmore and get a sneak peek of the book in an excerpt below.
Check out an excerpt from the book:
The Good Old Days
July 6, 2004
It's early morning and I just parked in the courthouse lot, where
I paid the usual seventeen-dollar parking fee. This charge benignly
drops to a mere six dollars after eleven a.m. but who goes to court after
eleven? It's not like I can't afford the tariff. I can. But what about the
unfortunate folks who dominate this building in the mornings, with their
woes of immigration, traffic tickets, and petty crimes? "Let's rip off the
poor one more time," must be the motto here.
As I approach the heavy front doors to the ominous Los Angeles
courthouse, I'm keenly aware that this is quite a different venue than
I'm used to playing. Compared to the smoky clubs where I spent my
lonely youth, this is pretty antiseptic. As a kid, I was hoping that a girl
might notice me behind my gleaming set of drums, but now I don't
have my musical security blanket. It's just me entering this courthouse,
armed with my determination to make right what I believe is a wrong.
I stop for a moment as I pass through the recently installed metal
detectors at the entrance to the courthouse. I get frisked by security
as I gaze down the long marble hallway with the bright neon lighting,
winding its way to my new prison cell — I'm referring to courtroom
Division #36. I expect I'll be here every day for a few weeks. (Not
for the entire summer, as it actually will turn out.) I am plagued by
thoughts about how my "integrity" led me to this dire hall of justice.
Will I actually wind up with any justice? What am I trying to prove
here? Am I committing sabotage against my old bandmates? These
thoughts won't stop, like maybe I should be less possessive about our
brand name. I don't own it. We all do. We're all in this together. Is it
unfair for one person to try to stop it? Am I the spoiler?
The truth is that a precious pact inked long ago by our front man,
Jim, states quite clearly that if things ever get weird, one of us can and
should do something. Well, it got weird and I'm doing something. But
now that I've blown the whistle, I'm in the weirdest place I've ever
been. Inside the courtroom, people talk real quiet, calling each other
"sir" and "Your Honor," while they simultaneously and deliberately stab
anyone standing in the way of their agenda … in the neck, back, sides,
front, toes … anywhere. They're dressed in their Sunday Best Armani
suits, but they act like they're in a brothel instead of church. What the
hell am I doing here?
I had no idea that when Jim suggested a four-way split on everything,
it was a historic moment not to be duplicated by any other band before
and since. His suggestion was not only magnanimous, but the solidarity
turned out to be ironclad. Nothing would crack this fortress. I rest in
the knowledge that I haven't sabotaged Jim.
In fact, reflecting back all those years to Jim's violent reaction to
the Buick incident, when Ray, Robby, and I nearly sold "Light My
Fire" to Buick for a TV commercial, I feel shame. The Greed Gene
was flowing through my veins back then when Jim's outrageous burst
of passion against our selling a song to an ad agency became etched
on my brain, never to be forgotten. For thirty years we were a band
of musicians with one of the most unique four-way agreements ever
— nothing could be contracted unless we each gave it the okay. And
now we are enemy combatants on the fourth floor of the courthouse in
downtown Los Angeles.
In a book by James Hillman (Pulitzer nominee, Jungian psychologist,
and best-selling author), The Soul's Code, he states that individuals hold
the potential for their unique possibilities inside themselves already,
much as an acorn holds the pattern for an oak tree. I think Jim and
legendary Crazy Horse (Native American war leader of the Oglala
Lakota) had similar callings — that invisible mystery at the center of
every life that speaks to the fundamental question, "What is it in my
heart, that I must do?" With all the slings and arrows of outrageous
fortune that these two endured, they lived out their defining images that
were in them from the beginning.
I hate all the Morrison fake death rumors, but there is a reason that,
like Crazy Horse, the whereabouts of Jim's remains still evoke mystery.
I'm quite sure that Père Lachaise cemetery in Paris is his "happy hunting
ground," due to mistaking THE GREAT SPIRIT for the spirit in the
bottle, but Jim's spirit is still so strong, the fans want him alive.
As John Neihardt (Black Elk Speaks) says in his Cycle of the West,
the parents of Crazy Horse rode into the Black Hills of South Dakota,
carrying their son's body behind them. His mother wept for the innocent
times "before the great dream" took her son's life. No one really knows
where they stopped as the final resting place for their offspring, but to
the Lakota, the entire area is sacred.
I, too, look back to the sweet, innocent period when we were
a garage band, before our "great dream" took us off to the global
stage. But there is very little sacred about this courtroom, which is
filled with people whispering secrets to each other. I'm used to loud,
inebriated fans yelling out requests for their favorite song. How did
it come to this? While I wait to enter the courtroom, I travel back in
time to the beginning …
It was 1965. Ray Manzarek and Jim Morrison had met and
become fast friends while attending film school at UCLA in beautiful
Westwood Village in Los Angeles. At that time, people were becoming
interested in Eastern philosophy and so my good friend Robby Krieger
and I decided to attend a seminar on Transcendental Meditation (TM)
which Ray, whom I hadn't yet met, also attended. I was obsessed
with music, taking piano lessons at eight years old, playing drums
in the high school marching band, the dance band, and the orchestra.
I went to Tijuana and got a fake ID so I could play in bars. . . a
budding professional. At the TM meeting, Ray introduced himself
and suggested I come to his parents' house in Manhattan Beach to jam.
I was down, happy to follow any lead to further the high I got from
playing music. The praise that came from fellow musicians was like
a dermatologist's salve on my acne.
The gathering at Ray's garage had both a negative and a positive cast.
On the down side was the low level of musicianship of Ray's two brothers
… but the guy lurking in the corner of the garage fascinated me. His
name was Jim Morrison, he looked like a modern version of a Greek
sculpture and he moved like one too. In other words, he didn't move
at all. I stopped staring at him when Manzarek started a nice groove on
keyboards, a blues by Muddy Waters, and I joined in. It must have been
true that the guy in the corner had never sung before, just like Ray said,
because it was a good half hour before he walked up to the mic. At the
time, I didn't think this guy had the confidence to be the next Mick Jagger,
but I just couldn't stop looking at him … and I wasn't into guys!
Thankfully, after a couple more rehearsals, the two Manzarek brothers
quit, convinced that this band wasn't going anywhere with a lead singer
who was obviously so uncomfortable performing. I was worried about
Jim's stage presence, just like they were, but his lyrics were extremely
interesting to me … and they were percussive! I immediately heard
drumbeats to his words:
You know the day destroys the night,
The night divides the day,
Tried to run, tried to hide,
Break on through to the other side.
It was very risky betting on a singer who had never been in a band,
couldn't play an instrument, and was extremely shy. Something was
magical about him though … I just couldn't put my finger on it.
The void created by our lack of a guitar player provided me an
opportunity to invite Robby Krieger to audition for the group. Up to
this point he'd primarily been a flamenco guitar player, but he was
starting to get into playing electric as well. Ray was gregarious and
knowledgeable about jazz, which was my passion, but he wasn't too
passionate about my bringing Robby Krieger in for a rehearsal. His
reluctance came from the fact that Robby's persona was not that of the
typical macho rock lead guitarist — strutting the stage, milking the
notes, grabbing the audience. Robby had a much more internal style
and Ray was concerned that two introverts (Jim and Robby) would not
make a rock band. But I pressed for Robby because of his talent. In the
end, I was able to convince Ray that what Robby lacked in persona he
made up for in originality. Robby's musical contribution to this band
was immense and once he had joined us, The Doors was complete.
As we continued to meet and rehearse, a fascinating thing happened.
One day, in a show of extraordinary selflessness, Jim suggested that
all the songs be credited as being written by all of us, even though he,
himself, the primary lyricist, was entitled to half of the writing royalties.
As a result, no song in our playlist is written solely by Jim Morrison. No
song is written solely by John Densmore. And no song is written solely
by Robby Krieger or by Ray Manzarek. Jim's desire to split the pot
four equal ways had never been done by a band in the history of popular
music, from Glenn Miller to The Beatles and up to the present.
Then Jim took it a step further. During a break in a rehearsal, Jim
sat up on the edge of the couch and declared, "We should all have veto
power." That is, if any one of us didn't like something that was proposed,
each man had the right to veto it. That's the way Jim thought we could
achieve harmony and we all loved the idea, which worked flawlessly —
until this current court battle some thirty years later.
In 1967, during the Summer of Love, Elektra Records released
our first album and "Light My Fire" went straight to the top of the
charts … and stayed there … and stayed there … for an unheard-of
twenty-six weeks. We started touring and recorded a second album,
and toured some more, and recorded some more. This was our life
over the next several years … an incredibly creative period that was
a lot of fun, especially because we were all kindred spirits. But then
Jim started to go down.
Besides his encroaching alcoholism, there was another divisive
element in the air: Vietnam. The folk prophet, Bob Dylan, whistled
into my ears, giving me the courage to get out of the draft, which was
blowing in the wind harder every day:
Temptation's page flies out the door,
You follow, find yourself at war
Watch waterfalls of pity roar
You feel to moan but unlike before
You discover that you'd be just one more
Person crying.
A napalm storm would reach such a gale force that college kids,
married men, and parents with children were forced into a "conflict"
we knew was a "terrible wrong," way before Secretary of Defense
McNamara would write that phrase in a war memoir. His book exposed
the underpinnings of why I narrowly escaped going down with 60,000
of my classmates and ghetto brothers, not to mention a million and a
half Vietnamese. It was a book written in blood, not ink.
Power-hungry men didn't understand that the Dylan lyric, The
new warrior's strength is not to fight, was heralding the beginning of a
movement: Peace. Jim further defined the underpinnings of the time:
There's blood in the streets
It's up to my ankles,
Up to my knees,
There's blood in the streets,
The town of Chicago,
There's blood on the rise,
It's following me.
The dread was with us 24/7 and we were desperate every day due
to the immoral nature of the enterprise and the growing awareness of
the American public. The country was divided "for and against," and
we were against this war in a big way. At the same time, the seeds
of the civil rights movement, the peace movement, and the women's
movement were all being planted in the sixties. The Doors were steeped
in that kind of stuff, hoping we could sort of level the playing field for
everyone else out there. It may have been a pipe dream, but without a
dream, one has no sense of direction. We also hoped to make a lot of
dough, but we wanted to do it with a sense of social consciousness.
By the time we had reached "arena" status, which is usually reserved
for sports and not music, we had acquired a couple of managers, Sal
Bonafede and Asher Dann. They were obviously not kindred spirits,
however, when they pulled Jim aside one day and said, "Hey, you're the
money. Let's get rid of these other guys."
They didn't know Jim. At our very next rehearsal, Jim told us,
"These guys want me to dump you guys … Let's dump them." Which
we did.
Businessmen drink my blood
Like the kids in art school said they would.
So I'll just start again.
– Arcade Fire
And then a final note of group unity manifested when we were about
to go onstage and a DJ introduced us to an audience somewhere as "Jim
Morrison and The Doors." Our lead singer dragged the DJ back onstage
by the ear, refusing to play until he reintroduced us as The Doors.
Those were the good old days. Now, the remaining Doors are
ready to tear asunder everything we stood for in the beginning. We
used to be a collective body intent on making art, not a bunch of
individuals mainly out for ourselves or for the money. Perhaps if
Jim hadn't made such a point of us being a "band of brothers," we
wouldn't be here in this historic courthouse at all. But he did, and it
resonates with me still.


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National effort against Alzheimer's ramps upJanuary 31, 2013
The National Alzheimer's Project Act (NAPA) legislation passed in 2011 is galvanizing U.S. efforts to combat Alzheimer's and related dementias and to support patients and their caregivers. Under NAPA, all federal agencies involved with Alzheimer's are working together, under the leadership of Health and Human Services Secretary Kathleen Sebelius, to realize the goals set forth in the National Plan to Address Alzheimer's Disease. A Federal Advisory Council on Research, Care, and Services, made up of federal, state, local, and private sector officials and advocates, is helping guide implementation of the plan.
The national research goal aims to prevent and effectively treat Alzheimer's by 2025. NIA leadership and staff are involved in a number of activities to further that goal. For example, two workshops are planned for 2013 to advance our understanding of dementias.
- The Alzheimer's Disease-Related Dementias: Research Challenges and Opportunities workshop will be held at Natcher Auditorium, NIH Campus, Bethesda, MD, on May 1-2, 2013. This workshop will address special research priorities for Alzheimer's disease-related dementias, including frontotemporal, Lewy body, mixed, and vascular dementia. Organized by the National Institute on Neurological Disorders and Stroke in collaboration with the NIA, the workshop complements the NIA's May 2012 Alzheimer's Disease Research Summit 2012: Path to Treatment and Prevention. Learn more about the workshop and register online.
- The NIA and the Eunice Kennedy Shriver National Institute on Child Health and Human Development are planning to co-host a research workshop on Down syndrome and Alzheimer's disease. Once confirmed, details about the meeting will be posted on the NIA website.
A 5-minute video about the 2012 Alzheimer's Disease Research Summit featuring NIH officials and grantees is available.
Page last updated: February 26, 2015


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Layton • Swarmed by classmates on a frosty fall night, Dayan Lake takes requests and fulfills them. One by one, friends and fellow Northridge Knights line up in hopes they can get a photo with the school's star defensive back.
One by one, and eager to stand next to Lake, they smile and congratulate their friend on the exciting victory. He thanks the lot, laughing and admiring the cold breath escaping from his lungs.
He's barely 16 and already one of Utah's top Division I recruits. Lake, a junior defensive back committed to BYU, is as Northridge coach Erik Thompson recites, "one of the most unlikely superstars you'll ever find."
Many coaches could say that about a various number of players they've seen grow, but Lake's story fits the bill more than most.
He was born in Liberia in the late 1990s, in the West African country stricken with horrific violence and civil wars. His father, Robert, played soccer growing up in Liberia and knew if there was any way to get son Dayan and daughter Yasah out of the torn country filled with chaos, he'd have to find a way to get an education and get out.
After applying to BYU-Hawaii and starting a collegiate soccer career there, he met his future wife, Jenny. The process of getting the children to the United States was exhausting. The U.S. embassy in Liberia continually shut down due to the evolving danger.
"By the grace of God," Jenny Lake said, "they got here."
On Aug. 6, 2002, Yasah, 7, and Dayan, 5, arrived in Utah. The trip was rough. Their father was still in Hawaii, so Jenny suddenly was thrust into the role of guardian to two young children.
"The kids are pretty resilient, and they acclimated pretty quickly," Jenny Lake said, "once we got them going in sports."
Naturally the kids laced up soccer cleats and began dominating the youth ranks. Dayan's natural abilities led him to score so many goals so often that Jenny eventually asked the coaches to sit him to give the other kids a chance. Parents and coaches asked to see validation in the form of Dayan's birth certificate because of the skill level he exhibited on the field.
Football forced its way into the picture when Dayan reached the fifth grade as he wanted to branch out and start playing other sports.
He excelled. So much so that during Dayan's freshman season, Thompson started to whisper to college coaches around the state about his talented up-and-coming defensive back.
"I can play him anywhere on the field," Thompson said, "and he'd probably be the best at it. What he needs to do is make sure he's always on the field."
Thompson had to early this season.
Dayan is starring as the Knights' primary running back and defensive back, returns kicks and is an integral part of the punt return team.
"I think the only time he comes off the field is on PATs," Thompson said.
Knowing the pressure would increase as the primary rushing threat for Northridge this season, it only rises more with senior QB Nate Kusuda out with a broken collarbone.
"I can score on defense, but they don't pass to my side," Dayan joked. "On offense, I get the ball a lot, but I just like both. ... I'm a DB at heart."
At BYU, he'll be a defensive back. His 5-foot-11, 185-pound athletic frame will give him the chance to play in a scheme that Dayan felt comfortable with. Mom Jenny said one of tthe main reasons he chose BYU is the similarities between the style of coaching there and at Northridge.
"Dayan's a loyal person," Jenny Lake said. "Once you're a friend of Dayan's, you're a friend for life."
Such was the case following last Thursday's frigid win over Weber, when a hoard of friends surrounded the football star and he thanked each one for coming to watch him play.
Twitter: @chriskamrani
Dayan Lake
Year • Junior
School • Northridge
Positions • Running back/defensive back
College choice • Committed to BYU


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Thread: Rasmussen has mitt up by +5
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Rasmussen has mitt up by +5
Who would have thunk it in June?
McCain didn't lead til and only by +2 in Sep after he got the convention bump. Then the market crashed in October and OBY won in November.
GOPs are excited at this point.
DEMs worry in panic mode except for our
incumbent homer.
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Re: Rasmussen has mitt up by +5
Nah... Rassmussen, at least for the day, is all that matters.
I can say that this Presidential election is rounding out to be a lot like my favorite type of Ravens game. I love watching Ravens games where the Ravens come out strong and stomp their opponent early on where you get to sit back and enjoy the spanking. But then I like for the opponent to score with a hail mary or something before halftime and maybe score on a turnover early in the second half so that the opponent's fans are back in the game...albeit a bit delusionally but none the less...hopeful again. The Ravens then score a couple times to finish the game strong and you get to watch the opposing fans get crushed not just once, but twice. Romney just needs to get a bit closer to Obama in the state polling as it still isn't close enough for the second crush yet.
Re: Rasmussen has mitt up by +5
Bloomberg? ILMAO
Gallup, The other natl poll besides Rasmussen has OBY up by just +1. See real clear link above. That 1 pt is well within the margin for error meaning it's a tie but Rasmussen is far
more accurate than Gallup.
Again, Galen's polls don't reflect the registered or likely voters and their wording of the surveys
solicits the results they want.
You loved it when Rassmussen said unless there's a curve ball thrown, OBAMA will beat McCain by 6%.
Guess what? He did, he did.
This is from the DEMs #1 web site as quoted by
According to Politico, "Rasmussen's final poll of the 2008 general election — showing Obama defeating Arizona Sen. John McCain 52 percent to 46 percent — closely mirrored the election's outcome."[29]
At the end of the 2008 presidential election, there were eight national tracking polls and many other polls conducted on a regular basis. Polling analyst Nate Silver reviewed the tracking polls and said that while none were perfect, and Rasmussen was "frequently reputed to have a Republican lean", the "house effect" in their tracking poll was small and "with its large sample size and high pollster rating [it] would probably be the one I'd want with me on a desert island."[30] After the election, Rasmussen's poll was rated as the most accurate.
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Re: Rasmussen has mitt up by +5
Rasmussen got the Kerry election right too when all Galen's phony early exit polls had Kerry winning by a land slide just as his polls
have OBY winning by a land slide now. ILMAO.
Another example of DEM polls polling only DEMs and in that case mostly female DEMs and mainly Hispanic female DEMs.
The idea was to get voters still at work to give
up thinking the election was over.
I remember I was so upset I left the office and ran out to the car to turn on Sirius Radio and those guys said all the exit polls were phony and they interviewed all DEMs.
Get out to vote they said.
By the time I got home and turned on TV Bush was leading and never looked back.
Last edited by AirFlacco; 06-25-2012 at 02:16 AM.
Re: Rasmussen has mitt up by +5
Today Rasmussen has it back to a +2 pt lead
which is in the margin for error meaning its
Gallup gives Mitt a +1 pt lead.
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Hultzen notches first full-season win
M's No. 2 prospect tosses 6 1/3 shutout innings for Generals
By David Heck / Special to MLB.com | April 19, 2012 8:43 PM ET
The Mariners' No. 2 prospect allowed just two hits over 6 1/3 scoreless frames and earned his first full-season win Thursday as the Double-A Jackson Generals defeated the Mississippi Braves, 2-0.
"It feels good," said Hultzen, who went 1-0 with a 1.40 ERA in the Arizona Fall League between October and November. "It's kind of an accomplishment, I guess. I'll remember this one, it's a good feeling."
Hultzen (1-2) struck out five and walked two in the outing, lowering his ERA from 4.66 to 2.81. In 16 innings this season, he has fanned 21 while issuing eight free passes.
The 22-year-old left-hander was perfect through the first 3 1/3 frames, striking out four. That ended when Mississippi's Emerson Landoni reached on a bunt single, which Hultzen fielded but threw into the outfield.
"It was probably the catcher [Jesus Sucre]'s ball and I was probably too aggressive and got after it," Hultzen said. "It was right on the line, I tried to throw it around the runner and threw it way off into the outfield. He didn't get to second or anything, but it was probably a bad decision. I should've let the catcher get that one."
The only other base knock against Hultzen came in the fifth, when Joe Leonard led off with a single through the left side. Hultzen then induced a double play off the bat of Adam Milligan before Mathew Kennelly grounded out to end the inning.
Hultzen continued cruising until the seventh. After fanning Landoni to start the frame, he issued back-to-back walks to Philip Gosselin and Ian Gac -- his only two free passes of the day -- before being replaced by Steven Hensley.
"I felt good throughout the start, but I got a little tired and didn't make the pitches," Hultzen said. "That's something I need to work on, making better pitches later in the game and cutting down on my walks."
Hensley and Brian Moran combined to allow just one baserunner in 1 2/3 frames in middle relief, while Stephen Pryor tossed a scoreless ninth en route to his fourth save of the year.
Rich Poythress provided the only scoring in the game, smacking a two-run homer in the fourth and No. 4 Mariners prospect Nick Franklin went 2-for-4 with a double and a run scored. Franklin reached base in 11 of 12 games this year.
Thursday's contest marked the Generals' second shutout in three days and lowered their team ERA to a Southern League-leading 2.19 -- with the next-closest being the Mobile BayBears at 2.93. Along with Hultzen, Jackson features Seattle's No. 3 prospect Taijuan Walker and No. 5 prospect James Paxton in the rotation.
But even with the squad's success and his touted teammates, Hultzen doesn't get caught up in the numbers.
"Just putting our team in a position to win, that's the job of a starting pitcher," he said. "You're not out there to necessarily throw shutout innings or a complete game. Just put the team in a position to win, and that's the way I take every start."
David Heck is a contributor to MLB.com. This story was not subject to the approval of the National Association of Professional Baseball Leagues or its clubs.View More


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Between 2008 and 2012, institutions and individuals in South Carolina received $7.1 million from the National Endowment for the Humanities and the Humanities Council of South Carolina for projects that explore the human endeavor and preserve our cultural heritage.
Below are some examples.
- A unique collection of a thousand documents cataloguing the lives of two generations of South Carolina women, Eliza Lucas Pinckney and her daughter Harriet Pinckney Horry, between 1739 and 1830 has been digitized, annotated, and archived at the University of South Carolina with the help of two grants totaling $324,000.
- The content-rich websites of historical societies and libraries may present numerous challenges to the visually disabled. With two grants totaling $74,000, the University of South Carolina is developing tools to help visually impaired users access humanities collections online.
- When two million African Americans migrated from the South to the North in the early twentieth century, they profoundly altered American society. With the help of a $75,000 grant, fifty middle school and high-school teachers from South Carolina studied this historical event through the art of Jacob Lawrence and other primary sources at two-day conferences hosted by the Sumter County Cultural Commission.
- One hundred thousand pages of historic newspapers such as the Columbia Phoenix and the Charleston Daily News from 1860 to 1922 are being digitized by the University of South Carolina with the support of $676,000 in grants. This work is part of Chronicling America, which NEH is conducting with the Library of Congress.
- Sixty thousand people came to the Union Course near New York City in 1823 to watch Eclipse and Harry in the greatest horse race of the nineteenth century. Paul E. Johnson of the University of South Carolina, with the help of a $40,000 research grant, researched the showdown as the basis for a book on southern-northern rivalry in the early years of the republic.
- The South Carolina Encyclopedia, a joint effort of the Humanities Council of South Carolina, the University of South Carolina's Institute for Southern Studies, and the University of South Carolina Press, tells the state's history. After selling more than 18,000 copies, the project has now yielded a series of e-books.
- Six medical centers have hosted Literature and Medicine, a reading and discussion program of the Humanities Council of South Carolina, which is led by humanities scholars and uses notable books to help medical professionals better understand their patients and their own reactions to suffering.
- Political debate in the 1970s over the Equal Rights Amendment culminated in the International Women's Year conferences, which helped shape positions on women's roles in American society. A book about the period and the conferences is being written by Marjorie Spruill, a professor of history at the University of South Carolina, with the help of a $50,400 fellowship.


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SK Hynix has developed 8-gigabit LPDDR3 memory using 20nm-class process technology. The chips are targeted at mobile devices that are high-speed, high-density and low-power consumption.
The 8Gb LPDDR3 chips can be stacked up and realize a high density of maximum 4GB solution in a single package, SK Hynix said. The product works at 2133Mbps which surpasses 1600Mbps of existing LPDDR3 in the aspect of its data transmission speed and is the world's fastest mobile DRAM, the company claimed.
With a 32-bit I/O, the SK Hynix 8Gb LPDDR3 delivers bandwidth of up to 8.5GB of data per second in a single channel, and 17GB in a dual channel. It works at ultra low-voltage of 1.2V. The chip can be provided in PoP (package on package), or in a single package with eMMC (embedded MMC) devices for mobile gadgets, as well as on-board type embedded in ultrabooks and tablets.
SK Hynix has been shipping samples of its 8Gb LPDDR3 memory to customers, and expects to start mass producing the new chips at the end of 2013. The firm added that high-density LPDDR3 memory products over 2GB will be loaded mainly on to high-end mobile devices from the second half of the year.
- Wireless broadband developments in Southeast Asia markets
As of 2013, the 10 ASEAN nations had a total of over 700 million mobile subscriptions, with the CAGR from 2003-2013 reaching 24%. This Digitimes Research Special Report analyzes the various mobile broadband markets in ASEAN and looks at the respective trends in 4G LTE development for those markets.
- 2015 global tablet demand forecast
This Digitimes Research Special Report provides a 2015 forecast for the global tablet market and analyzes the strategies of key market players such as Google, Apple, Intel, and Microsoft.
- 2015 China smartphone panel trend forecast
This Digitimes Research Special Report analyzes the strategies of key China-based major panel makers BOE, Tianma and IVO for attacking the different market segments through technology and pricing, and their relationship to local vendors Huawei, Lenovo, ZTE, Xiaomi and Coolpad.


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It's been nearly three months since iOS 7's debut, yet there's no jailbreak available to let it run apps from outside Apple's App Store. It's also not clear when iOS 7 will get a formal jailbreak, as previous versions have. Perhaps frustrated by that delay, a group of folks have tried to crowdsource an incentives payment for the first open source (not simply the first) iOS 7 jailbreak that meets a set of prescribed conditions.
That effort hasn't done so well; in its first day, total contributions remain under $2,000. In addition, the notion of a financial incentive troubles Jay Freeman, the man (known as Saurik) behind the Cydia app store that is the best-known source of jailbreak apps for iOS.
[ See InfoWorld's recommendations for a road warrior's must-have mobile toolkit, and discover the best productivity apps for your iPad. | Read InfoWorld's special report on iOS 7 for developers. ]
"I've seen bounty programs in the world of Android devices, and they create a much more mercenary-like 'maybe if you pay me enough I'll get around to it' on the side of the jailbreak developers, and 'I put up good money for this, you took my bounty, now maintain your tool' on the side of users. This leads to really bitter and demotivating arguments," Freeman tells me.
Freeman contrasts that with the force behind iOS jailbreaking: "Jailbreaking has been about people scratching itches and open devices." In other words, it's about the intrinsic virtues of technical exploration and open systems. He notes that those who provide jailbreak tools get compensated by users, usually via after-the-fact donations that are more thank yous than incentives. Furthermore, those who get such accolades may not have even created a jailbreak but instead made it easy to use or otherwise more valuable -- which encourages the use of jailbreaking.
By the way, jailbreaking is perfectly legal in the United States, per the feds' decision a couple years back. Apple strongly dislikes the practice and makes it techically hard to do. However, the feds don't require Apple or any other vendor to enable jailbreaking; rather, they say it can't be legally prevented.
Apple's antijailbreaking efforts are why we haven't yet spotted an iOS 7 jailbreak, despite what you may have seen on the Web, where search engines happily serve up phishing sites pretending to offer jailbreaks.
Freeman notes that the exploits needed to jailbreak an iPhone 4 running iOS 7 are already known, but no one has made a tool to deploy them with the right kernel patches. As for more recent iPhone models, the secrets to getting around Apple's antijailbreaking methods have yet to be cracked. Only then could an established, trusted jailbreak provider like redsn0w or evad3rs jailbreak iOS 7 as they have earlier iOS versions. I recommend you wait for one of them to provide a trustworthy iOS 7 jailbreak tool.
In the meantime, you have to ask a few questions: Do you really need a jailbroken iPhone, given all the apps and cloud services available for it? For the vast majority of people, the answer is clearly no. For those who want to make a technopolitical statement via jailbreaking, the question becomes whether you want to support mercenary approaches to jailbreaking or virtuous ones.
I have no doubt that those pushing the open source jailbreak incentives effort believe their path is virtuous, but I tend to agree with Freeman. Though this particular road to jailbreaking is paved with good intentions, the journey will likely descend into a less enlightened place.
This article, "iOS 7 jailbreaking: Do it for love, not money," was originally published at InfoWorld.com. Read more of Galen Gruman's Mobile Edge blog and follow the latest developments in mobile technology at InfoWorld.com. Follow Galen's mobile musings on Twitter at MobileGalen. For the latest business technology news, follow InfoWorld.com on Twitter.


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Maybe something over svn... I know a lot of linux users happen to use older desktops/laptops without dvd drives/burners or usb boot capability. Actually I've got one here I wouldn't mind setting up myself come to think of it.
Also this would be a one-shot answer to those on this forum having trouble with making the usb file into an iso. Then we can look forward to a whole new slew of messages asking about how to use svn .
-ps I just realized this pops into the bt2 features... my suggestion is in relation to bt3 development and final release.


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Diamond drill bit suggestions
Posted 02 November 2012 - 01:52 AM
Posted 02 November 2012 - 02:18 AM
Posted 02 November 2012 - 07:06 AM
I have used silicon carbide as an abrasive for drilling, but I prefer diamond. Thanks for the link. I don't have much need for drilling glaze but you never know.
Posted 04 November 2012 - 12:36 PM
Posted 04 November 2012 - 03:10 PM
I have not used the thin pads on that site. They look very useful.
Posted 04 November 2012 - 07:36 PM
Lawrence Weathers
Gismo Guy
Spokane WA
Posted 06 November 2012 - 12:54 AM
because i really want to get diamond pads too.........sand paper wears out too fast
i just put adhesive backed sand paper discs on a bat, put it on my wheel, and sand away at the moment.
Posted 06 November 2012 - 06:54 AM
These pads could be useful but I don't think they'll adhere to a bat.
Posted 09 November 2012 - 03:14 AM
THis is a little off topic, but reminded me of a great tool. It's a hand held diamond polishing pad. I use it on the bottoms of my pots after final firing and they are as smooth as silk. Go to the web site www.toolocity.com and look for Diamond Hand Polishing Pads, I get the 100 grit one. They are about $10.00 each, and last a long time.
BajaMary Where are you in Baja and are these the polishing pads you recommend?
JHX dry metal bond diamond polishing pads are designed to polish hard granite and concrete counter tops. They are economical but capable of producing a great finish. They are recommended for use on all granite and concrete counter tops for DIYers. Metal bond matrix help extend the life of the pads. Creamy color of the pads help avoid staining of concrete surfaces. They are recommended for polishing concrete counter tops.
- 2.5mm Thickness
- Velcro backed and color coded
- Comes with 7 pieces including 50 grit (Blue), 100 (Yellow), 200 (Orange), 400 (Red), 800 (Green), 1500 (Lime) and 3000 (Brown) grit
- Dry or Wet use
Diamond hand polishing pads are used to perform light on-site polishing/recovering of scratches and other hand polishing jobs. They are ideal for polishing granite, marble, glass and concrete. Electroplated diamond hand polishing pads are more aggressive and suitable for polishing granite and concrete. The electroplated diamond hand polishing pads are also widely used for smoothing out edges of glass. A set of diamond hand polishing pads comes with 7 pads of different grits, 50 grit, 100, 200, 400, 800, 1500 and 3000 grit. 50 grit through 400 grit are electroplated and 800 grit through 3000 grit are resin bonded pads.
- You save $5 when you order in sets compared to order individually.
- Size: 3-1/2" x 2"
- Color: 50 Grit - Green, 100 Grit - Black, 200 Grit - Red, 400 Grit - Yellow, 800 Grit - White, 1500 Grit - Blue, 3000 Grit - Orange
Many thanks
Posted 09 November 2012 - 04:51 PM
Posted 14 November 2012 - 10:37 AM
Bajamary....is this what you are referring to?
because i really want to get diamond pads too.........sand paper wears out too fast
i just put adhesive backed sand paper discs on a bat, put it on my wheel, and sand away at the moment.
Hi, I'm sorry if I'm late posting this. I've been in the states for a little while. We live in a small town called San Felipe on the Sea of Cortez in Baja. It's only 126 miles from the border so I can get back up for "supplies" I use the 50 (green) and the 100 grit (black) and I mostly use them on the bottoms of my pots after glaze firing to cone 6. I like to have a nice smooth bottom so that my customers don't have to worry about the piece scratching their furniture. Just a few minutes by hand with the pad and the finish is nice and smooth. If I have a glaze drip, I have a belt grinder for that. I order from Toolocity, but the invoice shows that they are from Applied Diamond Tools, they have a toll frree number of 800-980-7808... Justin, I've bought one of those sandpaper bats but haven't found it very useful. I.m sticking to the hand pads. Thanks for the info on diamond drills, I'm going to look into that also.
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13 Cats That Refused To Get Dressed Up For Halloween
Cats are such stubborn creatures. Case in point: These difficult jerks who refuse to even wear fur on Halloween. While their dog counterparts are yukking it up in bumblebee costumes and ridiculous hats, these cats are letting it all hang out — naked as jay birds, with their silly little lion cuts.
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Walker perfect at plate, drives in five
White Sox prospect raises average from .185 to .313 in victory
By David Heck / Special to MLB.com | April 12, 2012 9:10 PM ET
The White Sox's No. 7 prospect went 5-for-5 with five RBIs, lifting the Class A Kannapolis Intimidators to a 9-4 win over the Lexington Legends.
Walker, who came into the game with just five hits and three RBIs on the season, raised his batting average from .185 to .313 with the performance.
"I was trying to just relax," Walker said. "I was seeing it really well. Really just going out and having fun."
The 21-year-old outfielder started his day with an RBI double in the second inning, then came through with a bases-loaded two-run single in the third. Those two plate appearances helped to chase Lexington starter Tanner Bushue after just three innings, as the Intimidators got to him for six runs.
"In my first at-bat, [Bushue] started me off with a fastball and I hit it for a double," Walker said. "I figured he was going to start me with a curveball or changeup next time, and true enough, he started with a curveball and then came with a change. I got ahead 2-0 and he threw a fastball low and in. I got my foot down and got my hands down on it."
Walker collected a pair of singles in his next two at-bats before once more stepping up to the plate with the bases loaded in the ninth. The switch-hitter was able to pull a ground ball through the right side, plating two more runs to end his day.
"Just put the ball in play," Walker said, describing his thoughts during the at-bat. "I didn't want to strike out or anything. Of course, that 5-for-5 is going through my head, but really just putting the ball in play."
Though Walker considers himself as more of a top-of-the order hitter, he is currently batting in the middle of the Intimidators' lineup. That helped him set a lifetime high in RBIs on Thursday, as he estimated that he had never recorded more than three in a game at any level .
"I'm definitely a leadoff guy," Walker said. "I'm just hitting in the middle of the order because I changed my stance up a little bit. They're trying to get me some fastballs so I can get into a groove with my left-handed swing."
Drafted 47th overall in June, Walker signed early and played in 54 games between Class A Short-Season and Class A. The Central Arizona College product hit .257 with 41 runs scored and 21 steals in that time.
According to Walker, the most important lesson he took out of that experience was learning how difficult it is to play ball every day.
"It is an absolute grind," Walker said. "Going every day and playing a game, especially toward the end of the season, gets exhausting. I'm really just taking it one day at a time and conserving my energy. I'm trying to go 100 percent every game, but that doesn't usually work out because your body gets fatigued."
Given all that, Walker said he has one simple goal for his first full professional season.
"Make it through healthy," he said. "That's all I want to do."
David Heck is a contributor to MLB.com. This story was not subject to the approval of the National Association of Professional Baseball Leagues or its clubs.View More


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More Details from Lisa Su
The executives at AMD like to break their own NDAs. Then again, they are the ones typically setting these NDA dates, so it isn't a big deal. It is no secret that Kaveri has been in the pipeline for some time. We knew a lot of the basic details of the product, but there were certainly things that were missing. Lisu Su went up onstage and shared a few new details with us.
Kaveri will be made up of 4 "Steamroller" cores, which are enhanced versions of the previous Bulldozer/Trinity/Vishera families of products. Nearly everything in the processor is doubled. It now has dual decode, more cache, larger TLBs, and a host of other smaller features that all add up to greater single thread performance and better multi-threaded handling and performance. Integer performance will be improved, and the FPU/MMX/SSE unit now features 2 x 128 bit FMAC units which can "fuse" and support AVX 256.
However, there was no mention of the fabled 6 core Kaveri. At this time, it is unlikely that particular product will be launched anytime soon.
Retiring the Workhorses
There is an inevitable shift coming. Honestly, this has been quite obvious for some time, but it has just taken AMD a bit longer to get here than many have expected. Some years back we saw AMD release their new motto, "The Future is Fusion". While many thought it somewhat interesting and trite, it actually foreshadowed the massive shift from monolithic CPU cores to their APUs. Right now AMD's APUs are doing "ok" in desktops and are gaining traction in mobile applications. What most people do not realize is that AMD will be going all APU all the time in the very near future.
We can look over the past few years and see that AMD has been headed in this direction for some time, but they simply have not had all the materials in place to make this dramatic shift. To get a better understanding of where AMD is heading, how they plan to address multiple markets, and what kind of pressures they are under, we have to look at the two major non-APU markets that AMD is currently hanging onto by a thread. In some ways, timing has been against AMD, not to mention available process technologies.
Click here to read the entire editorial!
Rumored AMD Carrizo APU (Kaveri Successor) Will Support FM2+ Socket
Subject: Processors | July 31, 2013 - 03:59 AM | Tim Verry
Tagged: Kaveri, fm2, carrizo, APU, amd radeon, amd
Rumors recently surfaced via VR-Zone china that AMD's Kaveri APU successor will be code-named Carrizo, and it will be compatible with the upcoming FM2+ socket and AMD A88X chipset that Kaveri will use.
AMD's Carrizo APUs will reportedly be available in TDPs up to 65W and will feature Excavator CPU cores along with a next generation Radeon GPU. Much like Kaveri, Carrizo will be fully HSA compliant. The chips will also include support for DDR4.
Carrizo will allegedly begin sampling in August 2014 with mass production starting around December. That means Carrizo will be available for purchase within the first half of 2015.
FM2+ boards like the ASUS A55BM-A/USB3 are rumored to support AMD's Carrizo APUs (the successor to Kaveri).
The rumors also suggest that Carrizo will be joined by a low power "Beema" System on a Chip (SoC) and a BGA-based Nolan APU for embedded systems. Details on these complementary chips are scarce, however. Perhaps most telling is last bit of the article that suggests that AMD will not be releasing a AM3+ Vishera CPU-only processor successor. It seems AMD is going all in as an APU company after all.
I have been looking forward to the launh of AMD's Kaveri since AFDS 2012, and Carrizo appears to be a refinement of that chip. It should be more power efficient and faster thanks to architecture tweaks and process shrinks. I think that AMDs architecture and HSA approach has potential, and I'm excited to see what these upcoming chips can do with regards to performance.
ASUS Shows Off FM2+ Motherboards Compatible With AMD Kaveri APUs
Subject: Motherboards | July 28, 2013 - 07:40 PM | Tim Verry
Tagged: hUMA, Kaveri, hsa, fm2, asus, APU, A88X, A55, PCI-E 3.0, mATX
ASUS recently announced two new socket FM2+ motherboards that are compatible with AMD's upcoming "Kaveri" Accelerated Processing Units (APUs). The new boards are the A88XMA and A55BM-A/USB3 and use the A88X and A55 AMD chipsets respectively. Pricing and availability have not yet been released, but the new boards confirm that users will need new motherboards in order to take advantage of AMD's next generation APUs (though the new FM2+ boards are backwards compatible with the existing APUs, it will not work the other way around). Both motherboards should be available around the time of the Kaveri processor launch (2H 2013).
The AMD A88XMA FM2+ Motherboard.
Both the ASUS A88XMA and A55BM-A/USB3 motherboards come in the mATX form factor. The boards both have FM2+ processor sockets and expansion slots including a single PCI-E 3.0 x16 slot, one PCI-E 2.0 x1 slot, and one legacy PCI slot. The support for PCI-E 3.0 is new for AMD motherboards, and the extra bandwidth may prove useful for as graphics cards get faster and AMD works on its hUMA and HSA architectures to create a layer of virtual memory that can be simultaneously addressed by CPUs and GPUs. There will still be latency to deal with over the PCI-E bus, but more data can be moved back and forth in the same amount of time.
The two ASUS FM2+ motherboards also share the same rear IO options, which include:
- 2 x PS/2
3 x Video outputs:
- 1 x HDMI
- 1 x DVI
- 1 x VGA
- 2 x USB 3.0
- 2 x USB 2.0
- 1 x Gigabit Ethernet
- 3 x Analog audio jacks
The RJ45 jacks are backed by a Realtek 8111G Gigabit Ethernet controller and the audio jacks are handled by a Realtek ALC887-VD chipset. Finally, they also have UEFI BIOSes in common, but from there the two boards diverge in hardware capabilities.
The ASUS A88XMA is the higher-end of the two boards, and features a FM2+ socket, four DDR3 DIMM slots, and six SATA 3 6Gbps ports. It utilizes the AMD A88X chipset which is aimed at enthusiast platforms.
ASUS' A55BM-A/USB3 budget motherboard.
On the other hand, the A55BM-A/USB3 motherboard uses the cheaper A55 chipset. That motherboard features an FM2+ socket, two DDR3 DIMM slots, and six right angle SATA 2 3Gpbs ports. The A55Bm-A/USB3 should be significantly cheaper as a result of the A55 chipset and resulting hardware reductions. In most other respects, ASUS has managed to make the two baords remarkably similar, including aesthetics and basic board layout.
According to Bit-Tech, the two boards are are part of a larger family of boards with the new FM2+ sockets. As such, we should see additional ASUS boards that fill in the gaps between the two models closer to AMD's Kaveri launch. As noted above, ASUS has not provided official pricing or release date information yet.
Just when you thought it was going to calm down AMD drops Richland on your lap
Subject: Processors | June 5, 2013 - 04:25 PM | Jeremy Hellstrom
Tagged: VLIW4, trinity, Richland, piledriver, fm2, APU, amd, a10, 6800K, 6700
Richland is here, in the form of the A10-6800K with a 4.1GHz base clock and 4.4GHz Turbo clock, support for DDR3-2133 and an improved GPU called the 8670D with 384 shaders and a 844MHz clock speed ... all for $142! Computationally you can compare it to a Core i3 or a slower Core i5 but graphically this CPU is head and shoulders above the competition as you can see in X-Bit Labs' testing. You really need to keep the price in mind, as it may not provide as much power as a Core-i5 it costs about half as much which can mean a lot to someone on a tight budget, especially when they can skip purchasing a discrete GPU altogether.
Make sure to check out Josh's reivew where he contrasts the last few generations of AMD chips.
"AMD decided to refresh their Socket FM2 platform and release a new generation of hybrid processors for it based on Richland design. This is exactly the one that earned the "Elite Performance APU Platform" title in the mobile segment."
Here are some more Processor articles from around the web:
- AMD Elite A-Series A10-6800K APU (Socket FM2) @ techPowerUp
- AMD A10-6800K & A10-6700 APU Review @ Neoseeker
- AMD A10-6800K and A10-6700 Richland APU Reviews @ Legit Reviews
- AMD A10-6800K & A10-6700 Richland APU Review @ OCC
- AMD A10-6800K / A10-6700 @ Hardware.info
- AMD A10-6800K and 6700 A-Series "Richland" Processor Review @ HiTech Legion
- AMD A10-6800K APU Richland Processor @ Benchmark Reviews
- AMD Richland APU - Release Day Coverage @ Overclockers.com
- AMD Richland Desktop Review; A10-6800K & A10-6700 Benchmarked @ Hardware Canucks
- AMD A10-6800K and A4-4000 Richland APU @ TechSpot
- Intel Core i7-4770K @ Legion Hardware
- Choosing a Gaming CPU at 1440p: Adding in Haswell @ AnandTech
- Intel Core i7-4770K CPU Review. Intel Haswell for Desktops: Ruin of Our Hopes? @ X-bit Labs
Trinity... but Better!
Richland. We have been hearing this name for a solid nine months. Originally Richland was going to be a low end Trinity model that was budget oriented (or at least that was the context we heard it in). Turns out Richland is something quite different, though the product group does extend all the way from the budget products up to mainstream prices. We have seen both AMD and Intel make speed bin updates throughout the years with their products, but that seems like it is becoming a thing of the past. Instead, AMD is refreshing their Trinity product in a pretty significant matter. It is not simply a matter of binning these chips up a notch.
Trinity was released last Fall and it was a solid product in terms of overall performance and capabilities. It was well worth the price that AMD charged, especially when compared to Intel processors that would often be significantly slower in terms of graphics. The "Piledriver" architecture powers both Trinity and Richland, and it is an improved version of the original "Bulldozer" architecture. Piledriver included some small IPC gains, but the biggest advantage given was in terms of power. It is a much more power efficient architecture that can be clocked higher than the original Bulldozer parts. Trinity turned out to be a power sipping part for both mobile and desktop. In ways, it helped to really keep AMD afloat.
It turns out there were still some surprises in store from Trinity, and they have only been exposed by the latest Richland parts. AMD is hoping to keep in front of Intel in terms of graphics performance and compatibility, even in the face of the latest Haswell parts. While AMD has not ported over GCN to the Trinity/Richland lineup, the VLIW4 unit present in the current parts is still very competitive. What is perhaps more important, the software support for both 3D applications and GPGPU is outstanding.
Click here to read the entire review on the AMD A10-6800K and A10-6700.
GELID SlimHero Cooler Is Quiet and Low-Profile CPU HSF
Subject: Cases and Cooling | April 10, 2013 - 06:53 AM | Tim Verry
Tagged: slimhero, hsf, Gelid, fm2, cpu cooler, 1155
Hong Kong-based PC cooling company GELID Solutions launched a new low-profile CPU cooler yesterday called the SlimHero. The new SlimHero cooler joins the existing Silent HSF series, and is a mere 59mm high.
The low profile cooler measures 131 x 123 x 59mm including the fan and weighs 352g. The SlimHero cooler features four copper heatpipes connecting a copper block to a horizontal aluminum fin array. A 120mm fan is then mounted on top of the heatsink to push cool air over the fins and VRM area surrounding the processor. It is rated to cool processors up to 136 TDPs and is compatible with all of Intel and AMD's latest consumer sockets. On the AMD side, the cooler can be mounted in one of four directions on AM2, AM2, AM3, AM3+, FM1, and FM2.Further, it is compatible with Intel's LGA 775, 1156, 1366, and 1155 sockets.
The heatsink comes bundled with a 120mm fan and GC-2 thermal compound. The fan is PWM controlled and can spin at anywhere between 750 and 1600 RPM. GELID rates the 120mm fan at 52.4 CFM and 12-25.4 dBA.
The new cooler is designed to work with small form factor systems without getting in the way of RAM or VRM heat-spreaders. It comes with a 5 year warranty and is available now for an MSRP of $32 USD (25 EUR).
Additional information on GELID's new SlimHero cooler can be found in the full press release (PDF) as well as the SlimHero product page.
Define an Enthusiast CPU...
FM2 poses an interesting quandary for motherboard manufacturers. AMD provides a very robust and full featured chip for use with their processors (A85X) that would lend itself well to midrange and enthusiast class motherboards. Unfortunately, AMD does not provide a similarly high end CPU as compared to the competition at price ranges that would make sense for a motherboard that would cost between $140 and $250 on the FM2 platform.
So these manufacturers are constrained on price to offer fully featured motherboards that take advantage of all aspects of the A85X FCH (Fusion Controller Hub). Until AMD can deliver a more competitive CPU on the FM2 platform, motherboard manufacturers will be forced to design offerings that can really go no higher than $129 (the current price of the fastest A10 processor from AMD). This is not necessarily a bad thing though, as it has forced these manufacturers to really rethink their designs and to focus their energies on getting the greatest bang-for-the-buck. AMD is selling a decent number of these processors, but the market is constrained as compared to the Intel offerings utilizing the 1155 BGA infrastructure.
Gigabyte has taken this particular bull by the horns and have applied a very unique (so far) technology to the board. This is on top of all the other marketing and engineering terms that we are quite familiar with. The company itself is one of the top three manufacturers of motherboards in the world, and they typically trail Asus in terms of shipments but are still ahead of MSI. As with any motherboard manufacturer, the quality of Gigabyte products has seen peaks and valleys through the years. From what I have seen for the past few years though, Gigabyte is doing very well in terms of overall quality and value.
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We are Still Among the Living
The day after the official AMD presentation we were able to sit down with Leslie Sobon for a good hour and really dig into the products we are expecting throughout this next year. AMD did not officially announce any products, but they revealed more details about products on their roadmaps.
To say that AMD is in a somewhat precarious situation is an understatement. This does not necessarily mean that they won't survive for some years. This was never mentioned to us by AMD, but we can assume that it is not in ATIC's best interest to let AMD flounder too much. AMD is still GLOBALFOUNDRIES largest customer, and ATIC believes that they can become a fabrication giant in the next few years. So, while AMD is hitting some hard times, they will be around for some time to come in spite of their issues.
Believe it or not, AMD is still a CPU company with some relevant producxts. While Intel has the advantage in x86 performance and process technology, AMD has a distinct advantage in the integrated graphics portion. While Trinity was a big step in the right direction in terms of performance and power consumption, it was not enough to boost their flagging marketshare. Throughout the 2013 they are working on several products that will help to change their fortunes.
The first product that we will likely see is the Jaguar core based Kabini APUs. These are the next generation, low power APUs which will replace the Brazos 2.0 products that we currently are seeing. These quad core and dual core parts are manufactured by TSMC on their 28 nm process. Kabini will be the first APU to include the new GCN architecture that we currently see in the HD 7700 series and above. AMD will be breaking new ground in offering a true quad core part at price points unseen so far.
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CES 2013: MSI Launches A85XMA-E35 ATX Motherboard
Subject: Motherboards | January 9, 2013 - 08:21 AM | Tim Verry
Tagged: msi, fm2, ces 2013, CES, atx, APU, a85xma-e35
MSI has launched another micro ATX motherboard for AMD APUs using the FM2 socket called the A85XMA-E35. Measuring 24.4 x 22.8 cm, the motherboard packs a number of MSI technologies including the company's ClickBIOS II UEFI BIOS and OC Genie II auto-overclocking software.
The micro ATX board features the FM2 socket, two DDR3 DIMM slots (16GB max), six SATA 6 Gbps ports, the Realtek ALC887 audio chip, a TPM module, PCI slot, two PCI-E 2.0 x1 slots, and a single PCI-E 2.0 x16 expansion slot.
Rear IO on the A85XMA-E35 board includes one PS/2 port, six USB 2.0 ports, two USB 3.0 ports, one Gigabit Ethernet port, six analog audio jacks, and VGA, DVI, and HDMI video outputs.
In the end, the A85XMA-E35 board is very similar to the A85XMA-P33 motherboard covered earlier today. MSI has added beefier heatsinks, additional expansion slots, and HDMI output so it should carry a small premium over the other board. MSI has not released official pricing for the board yet, however.
You can find more specifications and photos of the FM2-A85XMA-E35 on company's product page.
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hfCode:-t Show all matching exploit modules
is it possible to use the autopwn function to check a host if it would be possible to be exploited without exploiting it?
or is there any other way to check a host against all exploits from metasploit without compromising the host?
hfCode:-t Show all matching exploit modules
you can also find 3rd party scanners that do very thorough scans of systems/networks for vulnerabilities that metasploit uses
yes -t option is a way or all the better do a scan using nessus or openvas


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WATCH: Who Knew!? with the Backstreet Boys
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Backstreet's Back - like, all five of them - alright!?
It's hard to believe it's been 20 years since A.J. McLean, Nick Carter, Howie Dorough, Kevin Ridhardson and Brian Littrell first got together to form the Backstreet Boys in Orlando, Florida in 1993. In just two decades, the guys have sold over 130 million albums worldwide, making them the best-selling boyband in history (take notes, One Direction and The Wanted).
Kevin departed the group after 2005's Never Gone, leaving behind the quartet responsible for 2007's Unbreakable and 2009's This Is Us. But Kevin wasn't easily forgotten; after all, it was the fivesome that was responsible for massive international hits like "Quit Playing Games (With My Heart)," "Everybody (Backstreet's Back)," "Larger Than Life," and, of course, "I Want It That Way."
All five guys are back together for their 20th anniversary, and it's already been a good year for the guys. In April, they were honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, and in May the guys appeared on "Good Morning America" to perform new music and announce the release date for their new album, In A World Like This, which drops July 30th.
CLICK HERE to pre-order In A World Like This on Amazon.com
To celebrate all things BSB, A.J., Nick, Howie, Kevin and Brian stopped by iHeartRadio recently, where they let us quiz them on their own 20-year history. Check out Who Knew!? with the Backstreet Boys below.
Okay @iHeartRadio gave us some pretty tough questions! Did you guys know all the answers to their trivia questions? http://t.co/LsmByNdmt3— backstreetboys (@backstreetboys) June 19, 2013
And on Monday, the Backstreet Boys announced that their new single, title track "In A World Like This" would have it's radio premiere on New York's Z100 on Tuesday.
Stoked to tell you guys that @RadioMoBounce is premiering our NEW single on @Z100NewYork TOMORROW at 7pm ET!! #InAWorldLikeThisZ100Premiere— backstreetboys (@backstreetboys) June 17, 2013
UPDATE: The guys went ahead and posted the new single online ahead of the radio debut! Check out "In A World Like This" and leave your thoughts in the comment section below.
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Related story: Police seek two men who shot, killed man in Pomona neighborhood
Photo Galleries: Memorial for Kelly Jacinto-Burian | Shooting in Pomona
POMONA - Mitzi Burian screamed so loud she could no longer hear her own voice.
As she held her young daughter on Friday in her mother's modest Pomona home, she remembered running toward her older brother, Kelly Jacinto-Burian, as a gunman's bullet struck him in the temple on Thursday.
"I saw all the blood coming out," she said.
"I tried to put pressure on the wound and I just kept screaming and they kept firing. It was like a movie. I still feel like it's not real."
Mitzi Burian, her brother and her brother-in-law as well as their three children were walking Thursday afternoon along Ninth Street near Hamilton Boulevard to a neighborhood market to get some milk for Jacinto-Burian's 1-year-old son and meat for a barbecue. The two men were pushing two of the children in strollers while Mitzi Burian walked with her daughter.
"We were laughing and he started reminiscing and told me, `Hey Mitzi, remember when we were little,' and that's when it all went down," Burian said.
According to Burian, a man had exited a gray Ford Focus, parked a few feet from where the three family members were walking, pulled out a handgun and started firing.
"He didn't even say anything. He just started shooting," Burian said as her mother, Yaneth Burian, wailed a deep mournful cry for her son.
"He never had a chance," she cried. "Why did they take my baby? Why?"
Mitzi Burian recalls seeing the first shot hit her brother, who lives in the Los Angeles area, in his side.
Still unclear of what was happening, she said her brother stepped in front of her and her young daughter and tried to grab his son from the stroller he was pushing to prevent them from being struck by gunfire.
That's when he was struck in the head and collapsed to the ground.
"If it wasn't for him, I don't know if my daughter or if I would've been alive," Mitzi Burian said. "He's my hero."
A faraway look came over the 19-year-old mother's face when she recalled having to pry her dying brother's hand from his son's stroller to try to comfort the bleeding man.
"I was just holding him in my arms," she said. "He died in my arms."
No one else was hit in the shooting, according to Pomona police, but Mitzi Burian said the gunman did fire at her brother-in-law.
"He only stopped when my brother-in-law said, `Don't shoot my daughter!"' Mitzi Burian said. "Then he got back into the car and they drove off and went to the right."
Family members say Jacinto-Burian was not involved in any gang activity.
"He wasn't even from here," his mother said. "He didn't know anyone here except us. He wasn't even part of anything."
Neighbors said there has been an ongoing dispute among black, Latino and Cambodian gangs in the area, but residents said they didn't believe the Jacinto-Burian shooting was a part of that.
"It's sad if this was mistaken identity," said one woman who lives near Ninth Street and did not want to be identified.
As his mother, sister and other family members spoke to the media, Jacinto-Burian's 7-year-old sister walked into the living room and asked, "Are they here to find the person who killed him?"
The girl's grandmother quietly told her no, and the girl was visibly disappointed.
"I can't believe that only yesterday morning I had my baby," said Yaneth Burian, her eyes red from a day of crying. "I can't believe he's gone."
But between the dark moments of pain from Thursday's slaying, the family shared fond memories of the 24-year-old they say was always laughing and telling jokes.
They spoke of his love for the Los Angeles Lakers and Oakland Raiders and his commitment to being a good father to his three children.
"That was the most important thing to him," said a longtime family friend, Bianca McAndrew of Ontario. "To be a good father."
Jacinto-Burian enjoyed spending time with his family and was always looking for any excuse to have a barbecue, said McAndrew.
"He loved being with his family," said his mother as she scrolled through pictures of her son on her cellphone. "That's why they were going to get the meat for a barbecue."
Yaneth Burian then burst into sobs when she found a voicemail Jacinto-Burian left her on Jan. 31.
On the message, he tells his mother she's the best mother in the world and how lucky he was to have her in his life.
"I don't know why I kept it," she said. "Something told me not to delete it. Something. Now this is one of the only things I have left of my baby."
The family was beginning to plan Jacinto-Burian's wake and funeral.
"I think his wake will be on Saturday," said Yaneth Burian.
A pained look suddenly came over her.
"That would've been his birthday," she said. "Sept. 16, he would've been 25."
Authorities continue to investigate the fatal shooting. No arrests have been made.
Anyone with information is asked to contact Pomona police at 909-620-2156.
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Any good artists that can design some trippy artwork for a fish I am shaping?
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Any good artists that can design some trippy artwork for a fish I am shaping?
There is a kid in Pawleys Island, SC named Dwight Guthrie. I just came across him randomly. His info should be somewhere in this article:
Where are you?
I tried my first resin swirl this summer. Yellow, red, and blue came out looking like brown mud. Be prepared to a) use a lot of extra resin b) make a mess c) be dissapointed. A good resin swirl looks **** hot though.
Air brushing is much easier IMHO. If you have access to a compressor you can get a HVLP gun from Harbor Freight for $30 or so and spray right on the blank (before glassing) with thined out acrylic paint. Tape it off for sharp lines or go free hand for fades. If you screw it up you can sand it down and try again. Resin is a one shot deal. shoot me a PM if you have any questions.
pretty sure the problem with those three colors is that yellow and blue make green and then green and red make brown. All colors in the mix have to be complementary.
My guess is if you stuck with any two of those colors you would have been more stoked. And yeah you do have to use more resin and avoid squegeeing it around too much.
By the way rDJ: I saw a couple of your boards at the AB3 last spring, and they were beautiful.


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Marie Trottier, former disability coordinator for Harvard University, will deliver a presentation "From Where I Stand: Work and Lifestyle Opportunities for Individuals with Disabilities in This New Century" on Saturday, March 2 from 8 to 9 a.m. in the Center for Science & Mathematics at Bridgewater State University. Her talk is part of a yearlong lecture series presented by the Children's Physical Developmental Clinic (CBDC) at Bridgewater. The series presents a number of topics relating to the care, treatment, rehabilitation and education of children with disabilities. All lectures are free and open to the public and the campus community.


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Tornado Soccer loses heartbreaker to Emmanuel, 4-3October 18, 2008
Paseta's 89th minute goal dooms Brevard
Brevard, N.C. - Jorge Paseta scored an 89th minute goal off a deflected cross to propel Emmanuel College to a 4-3 victory over Brevard College Saturday afternoon at Tornado Field.
With the win, Emmanuel improves to 6-7, while the Tornados fall to 3-12-1 (0-6 SAC).
Brevard was responsible for the first score of the game but not in the manner they would have liked. In the 10th minute, miscommunication between goalkeeper Jerry Hatsady (Orlando, Fla.) and defender Ian Townson (Boiling Springs, S.C.) caused Townson to kick it into his own goal, giving Emmanuel a 1-0 lead.
The own goal did not destroy Brevard's morale, however, and the Tornados recovered with a pair of scores to take a lead of their own. Douglas Neill (Inellan, Scotland) got Brevard on the board in the 14th minute, heading a perfectly-struck cross from Jussi Halonen (Joensuu, Finland) into the bottom-left corner of the net to tie the affair at 1-1. Continued pressure from the Tornados culminated with a 23rd-minute goal from Kyle Hamilton (Peterhead, Scotland) on a shot from just outside of the box, giving BC a 2-1 advantage.
Emmanuel regained control of the pitch following the Hamilton goal, however, and made sure the teams did not go into intermission tied. Ste Heu's (Commerce, Ga.) 32nd-minute cross found the head of an unmarked Noel Abrego (Gainesville, Ga.), who beat Hatsady to tie the game at 2-2 heading into halftime.
The second half saw the scoring faucet get shut off until the 75th minute, when Emmanuel regained the lead on a highly controversial goal. An Emmanuel cross went uncleared, causing Hatsady to come off his line in an attempt to corral the ball. But as the Brevard keeper wrapped his arms around the ball, he was head-butted in the face by Emmanuel's Obinali Uzohu (Athens, Ga.), causing the ball to bounce away. Head official Harold Rowell chose not to call a foul, and with Hatsady on the ground in pain Emmanuel's Michael Huskins (Rome, Ga.) scored on an empty net to give Emmanuel a 3-2 lead.
The deficit did not discourage Brevard, though, and Ville Toivanen (Espoo, Finland), tied the game again in the most spectacular fashion possible. In the 85th minute Halonen headed the ball to Toivanen, who executed a perfect bicycle kick and drilled the ball into the goal, evening the score at 3 apiece.
But Emmanuel would have the last word. With overtime approaching, Paseta (Athens, Ga.) capitalized on a missed clearance to score a goal of his own just a minute before the 2nd half whistle. The goal made the score 4-3 and gave Emmanuel their sixth win of the season.
Emmanuel was badly outshot by Brevard, 25-11, but was efficient enough to earn the victory. Hatsady stopped five of the nine shot Emmanuel put on goal. Emmanuel keeper Andrew Endara (Lilburn, Ga.) played the first half, allowing two goals and making three saves. Tyler Jensen (Madison, Ga.) played the second, allowing one goal and making six saves.
The one-goal loss is the sixth of the season for the Tornados. Brevard is 3-6 in games decided by one goal in 2008.
Brevard returns to the pitch Tuesday for a 7 p.m. road showdown with Clayton State University. The Lions travel to Toccoa Falls College next Saturday for a 6 p.m. match.


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It was a year ago today, and at the literal last possible moment, that I was told that I would not be coming back to Charter High School for the next year. I had absolutely no warning or indication that it was coming and, in fact, had been explicitly and repeatedly told that it wasn't by people I foolishly trusted; I have copies of emails and instant messages to prove it.
A lot has changed in that year, but what really hits me is what hasn't changed. I still, to this day, have not any reliable explanation; no one has bothered to give me the decency of telling me exactly what happened to me or why it happened. I've heard different stories from different people, each told to me in almost embarrassed tones, like the speaker didn't really believe what they were saying. None of the principle players involved in this little drama has ever reached out to me, either to explain or to apologize.
For a year now, I've held doors open; I've been available and accessible in the hopes that someone would grow a conscience and send me a message, to offer me some kind of explanation, to tell me the truth. No more of that, though; I'm done. I'm not accepting the apology I never got, but I'm not going to leave myself open anymore, either. I'm too hurt – and too angry – to keep hoping that they're going to suddenly become decent or ethical. I need to move on, and in order to do that, I need to lay this baggage down.