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Sunday, March 21
Sunday, January 3
Friday, December 11
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Show me Yours, and I'll show you Mine
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Wednesday, October 28
Leg Video
This video explores my legs as both subject and object- having both narrative and structural qualities. Click here to watch the video
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Sunday, October 18
Friday, August 14
Friday, July 31
Thursday, July 30
Saturday, July 25
Thursday, July 23
Wednesday, July 15
Thursday, July 2
Tuesday, June 16
Performance art at the whitney!
so i guess it is not just the art center of sarasota that feels that they need to be "hip" with the times. this guy is kinda interesting, i would like to know what you think. i am kinda weirded out by the fact that he was chosen as the first performance artist in residence.
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Thursday, May 28
Thursday, April 30
Wednesday, April 22
dude, where's my me?
I don't really know. Sorry I haven't been posting. New York and shit. It's going to be a very visual summer. Working for Petah Coyne, visiting galleries and museums in the city, creating a portfolio for grad school since art school has been calling to me from beyond the grave, telling me I'll regret it forever if I don't go. The thing about New York City is that nobody really cares what you do as long as you're doing it well. So I've decided that this summer I'm going to engage in an experiment, because the city is a perfect control group. Basically, I intend to go out in public in full drag, with different personas and different kinds of masculinity, dress, and assumptions. I'm not really sure what the conclusion of this experiment is supposed to be but I'm sure I'll find it out somewhere along the way. Apparently I've become a sculptor while nobody was looking, which is kind of fun. Nash, I have a million things to tell you about fiber arts. Oh yes.
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Tuesday, April 21
can we engage in one? i'd like to think about organizing an art show. i've given up on the uhaul cause i don't want us to have to rent a generator. however, i have not given up on you. i'm interested in projecting videos onto walls throughout the new college campus. i'm interested in a room filled with confetti and box fans. get it? i'm interested in a textile piece that i need everyones help with. what are you making (not for class) that you need help with? let me know/ i'm here for you.
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Wednesday, April 15
Friday, April 10
Monday, April 6
so i am pretty sure someone must have introduced me to this back in the day, but they are now featured on ubu, so that is how i came across this stuff just now. hope you like it rtri.
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Sunday, March 1
OPEN - Art Festival
Hey RTRI, I'm trying to pull together some kind of art festival that is reminiscent of "Under the Radar" that happened a few years back. It's going to be on April 5th in Sudakoff. It's in conjunction with Culture Fest, Art for Charity, and probably a few other things. There will be an entire Art Exhibition (OPEN) dedicated to art from people (New College, Ringling, anyone in the community). 2-D, 3-D, Installation, Video, performance if you wanted it. There will also be bands playing all day in front of Ham Center. I wanted to know if any of you sandbutlers would like to be in it/ do you guys want a spot for RTRI in the show? Wanted to give you all and extra heads up. Submission deadline is March 13th. Let me know if you want to put stuff in or if you have/know of bands that would like to play.
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Tuesday, February 17
lets have an art show!
so nash and i have been hashing shit out and we think may 8 and 9 we should rent a uhaul and have a traveling show! included in the uhaul will be lots of things we make as well as possible videos and performance. get yer shit together, K? lets have a meeting soon, at mine and sarah's new house! maybe monday after printmaking class?
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Monday, February 9
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Saturday, February 7
RTRI, im waiting by the phone
but it never rings. you disappoint me, RTRI. sometimes i think there is such hope in our future. but lately, you have been giving me the cold shoulder. i thought you liked me. i thought we had good times. and what about all that great sex? iknowiknowiknow, it takes two to make it and break it. but right now, i cant give as much as i used to. so can you pick up the extra weight? i am counting on you sweet RTRI. i know you have it in you. just give a little, and i will give back. maybe some plans for a show? hell, i would accept even a drunken get together with you. i will take that. i will take anything. just giveittome RTRI. i promise lovin' right back. so whaddya say? it is almost valentine's day baby. gimme something good.
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Thursday, January 29
Monday, January 26
Sunday, January 18
Table 2
A response to a response to a response to be respondent.
And Rosemarie Trockel is where "it" be at.
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Friday, January 16
Sunday, January 11
Tuesday, January 6
thesis research
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Saturday, January 3
nash is on my mind
from the book intimate distance "in K, 1989, the artist appears to expel a long string of viscera from her mouth which she then knits with her arms into a dress which hangs down in front of her naked body. but, rather than suggesting a violent disembowelling, the film offers a meditation on the interiority of the body and the irrational fears it engenders. the disgust and horror we might feel at innards revealed is converted into a recognition of beauty, even of domesticity, as she slowly her body's visceral covering. it is difficult to find the film, i just found an excerpt, not even ubu was carrying it. but nonetheless, i was thinking rtri upon exploring this artist.
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Monday, December 29
also, check out http://www.erosie.blogspot.com/ in general
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Friday, December 26
let's put on another show
something small
something manageable
[impt.] something for us
showup at my house for a drink
m∆ke eh h∆ppen.
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Wednesday, December 17
Monday, December 15
Thursday, December 11
Monday, December 8
i am privilege
i wondered, just now, why am i spending time writing a paper on making things when i could be making more things?
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Thursday, December 4
Tuesday, November 25
duality of structure
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Monday, November 24
E_MERGE_N_C meeting
alexis sent me a package which i have to distribute the contents of at a gathering of all of us, so, we need to get together before xmass break to see what she sent us from her travels. how does next week sound?
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Thursday, November 13
Tuesday, November 11
Friday, November 7
Sunday, November 2
our space has been lost in the waves of formal- institutional- climbing to the top- busy-busy-busy bullshit. we need to reclaim our special connections, we need to fuse our creativity once more. RTRI WE MUST MEET MORE. RTRI WE MUST MAKE THINGS. RTRI WE MUST FUCK SHIT UP/EACH OTHER AGAIN if you are in agreement with this, respond here. what do you need more of from each of us? what do you need more of yourself? TIME PLACE DATE NOW. let us not get caught up in the excuses we give ourselves on a daily basis as to why we are not doing. let us end our own tyranny to ourselves. let us be glittermashdemiterrorists!!!!!!
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Saturday, November 1
russian futurism
specifically, watch the "movie" and avoid the "manifesto"
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Friday, October 31
Wednesday, October 29
so i thought that i was really on top of things, until i began to take feminist theory. i think that i was stronger and more successful without it. is this what happens? when you get into this stuff? that you loose your agency and your confidence and yourself in the name for a particular kind of higher learning? i thought the point was to feel more empowered, feel more a sense of yourself, get to know yourself kinda thing. i am comfortable with myself, what i am uncomfortable with is other women telling me I shouldnt comfortable with myself be for a lot of reasons, and that i am, in fact, better off in this knowledge of reactionary anger that they give me. well i say fuck you feminist theory: you have made me a walking mind fuck and loose aspects in my life. (******space*******) so i am doing this project where i write something over and over and over (big surprise huh?) on a large scroll that probably cannot be hung up on the wall because it will be so big, and i will unveil it during a show. oh i know what it references, but for me the catharsis of the event lies not in how it is reacting to something grandeur and universal, but how it can be purged from my body by making it public and physical. and i love you.
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Tuesday, October 7
i wanna look into yer soul
loves, i'm working on a project right now where i need the time you were born and the location. long story short
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Saturday, September 27
Friday, September 19
Wednesday, September 17
Maybe one day I'LL BE SOL LEWITT. Or Phong Bui.
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Sunday, September 7
Tuesday, September 2
i have just been formally introduced to existentialism. woopsy- daisy. a bunch of little worms to form one bigworm.
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Sunday, August 31
erotic asphyxiation
hey guys. i love you. just thought you should know.
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Tuesday, August 26
Thursday, August 14
green porno
so nash showed this to me last night. also this: http://www.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/TV/05/05/isabella.rossellini/index.html
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Wednesday, August 6
completely naked
british group who does interactive art.
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Friday, July 25
Body & Mind. Apparently they think that what makes their nude photos of women "more beautiful" than others is that they have moral value...."nudes with a wholesome twist", as they say. Their philosophy of feminine beauty, or "super beauty" (again, their words), basically says that female beauty is a literal representation of our values. And, as the founder claims, "When female beauty is attacked, it is by twisted monsters bent on destroying all human values, the things female beauty represents to all of us." DISCUSS PLZ
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Daddy and I
O Zhang, photographs adopted Chinese daughters and their Western fathers. Meant to bring up issues of interracial gender roles in the family, but every time I see these pictures all I see are precursors to child porn...but I probably wouldn't feel that way if the images were of a Chinese father with his Chinese daughter, or a white father with a white daughter. At the same time, though, I feel like a lot of these images are set up to make them look a little sexual, or at least possessive. Father-daughter relationships are hard to portray without some element of creepiness.
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Saturday, July 19
Eating: Coldstone cheesecake ice cream with graham cracker pie crust Crying because: Fuck you, Batman!!
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Wednesday, July 9
Saturday, July 5
independence day
i spoke to you in the shower today but i got no response. i miss you. where are you guys?
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Sunday, June 29
i just made a video. for the art show. and i need to edit it. but i am having a hard time watching it. big surprise, huh?
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Tuesday, June 24
birds birds birds
this came from my latest crackpot tattoo idea: bear walking on my shoulder, head facing away from my spine. puffin in flight behind bear, sparrow in front of bear and various other birds of that type to wrap around my shoulder and arm. so i came across this blog. and it is awesome. enjoy!
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Sunday, June 22
Thursday, June 19
Sunday, June 15
Friday, June 13
(beat beat beat beat) forever ago...
so i would like to propose an idea. i think we should have another art show toward the beginning of the school year. i think that the students who know us will attend and i think it would give incoming students a chance to see how new college projects can be awesome. blah blah blah. everyone knows the reasons why an art show at the top of the year is good. anyhow, i think we should all be working on stuff this summer for it. if we want to put on a show. for example, i am compiling stuff for a video (though i dont know if it will be done by then), some 2D pieces and some performances; maybe an installation. i think it would also be interesting to do some kind of cataloging. for example, i have been drinking about four to five times a week. (whether that be two beers or eight, it doesnt matter)and i have been thinking about saving them and altering them somehow, maybe all one color with a label on time and date. the same thing for cigarettes. i know ive been smoking more now because i dont have to be in class, ect. saving those boxes. how many did i go through over the course of the summer? by seeing that all there at once, how will that affect my view on my personal habits, etc. hell, even masturbating or counting the number of times i check my facebook: some kind of habit catalog. ok. so i think it would be neat to see if you guys started that too. maybe we could construct an entire room out of these cataloged habits from the summer. lemme know what you guys think about that stuff: the beggining of the year art show, if we should be working on stuff for it, and if each of us should be cataloging something about our summers. ok i love you!
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Monday, June 9
Saturday, June 7
Wednesday, June 4
on standby
Well, I've missed my flight to Texas & the Homeland Security Warning is orange.
The news is on. A woman took 2 of her 7 kids with her to sell heroin. No babysitter.
This is stupid. This terminal is under construction. Yep. Cloudy skies over Boston Deana.
There's a guy in a hardhat looking worried at some blueprints. A tornado killed 7 people and destroyed a bank and Ed McMan may lose his Beverly Hills home. And the drop out ceiling is missing. Ducts.
I wonder what Jill Scott is up to. Singing probably.
Nash. What's the first book we're reading? Maybe I can buy it at the News & Gifts.
"Five years ago we stayed in Miami for 3 days and it rained every day." "Oh...."
A guy just walked right in front of me and pulled a Starbucks cup out of a deep trashcan. How'd he know it was there? He's drinkin' it.
Fewer planes means fewer seats for us. 18% domestic cuts.
Happy birthday to Angelina Jolie and Dr. Ruth.
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Monday, June 2
this guy
so i was bored and looking around port performance website and i thought about how performance art maybe differs from other performance because of the consideration of visual reiments and overall aesthetic quality that can compare more to sculpture or painting than it can set design, costume design, or general conventional theatrics. (yes, i know we have covered this topic extensively) but i am still interested in finding examples of this difference. i think this guy does that. moreover, i think port performance stuff does that too or, at least, that seemed to be the case for the students who participated in the berlin show last year. anyhow, i think this is good to look at, and for me, a way to continue to explore how performance can be all sorts of things, and that it doesnt have to remain in the realm of, or reaction to, conventional theatre. if you are bored or wanna look at stuff, look at this and tell me what you think. love you babies!
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Thursday, May 29
VACC. pt. 2 of 2
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VACC. pt. 1 of 2
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ryan trecartin
nytimes article also his stuff is on ubuweb
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Wednesday, May 28
I like to look at what other artists are making. I don't get any of this. and that's a weird feeling- feeling good about that. and I'm not posting this to bash Steve McLaughlin, whoever he is.
except some of his ideas are cool. and some of his pictures are cool.
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get off the stick and get a ring
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Thursday, May 22
david bennett
David Bennett is really strange. I think he lives in his head and comes out of it every now and again when he has to in order to interact with others. But even when he does that, I wonder how much he still remains inside David's world, the place that is swirling and visual and funny. So when David does a performance, sometimes it is well thought out, like his Vivisexing project, other times it is completely made up and he is phoning it in, an example of this is when he crawled to the side of the couch in the study room and tried to push the couch with his legs to the other side of the room. Granted, we all liked it, but we knew he just came up with the performance a few seconds before he did it. And maybe that is ok. I think david's sometimes haphazard way of performance is a good balance for those of us who take it really seriously. David reminds us that there are really silly and dry things about this medium of expression, and that in doing so, it reflects life. David also really likes parties. He loves going to and throwing them. He makes some of the best posters for a dumb Friday night party that I have ever seen. Some of us think that the last art show was shit, but David really liked it because of how it made people feel and he likes to entertain. As a matter of fact, I am on board with him on making a alternative space tutorial in order to find more places for art parties. I think that when David approaches performance, he considers the party. He likes to feel a kind of satisfaction in everything that he does, even if his projects look like they lack a sense of satisfaction, like his Vivisexing performance. A strange kind of satisfaction happened between the two characters, even though they were sad. David Bennet loves music as well. I think that he sees words as lyrics and motions as sound. For one performance, he played music, and at the art show, he developed that idea further. He likes ambient sound that swells and repeats. I think that his newer performances will most definitely include this concept. David's performances, like his 2D work reflect a kind of inner world that he sometimes gives us access to, like when he repeated the phrase "tiny horses" for an entire class. We didnt know where that came from, but he was so amused by something about that phrase or image the phrase made that he just repeated it. His music is personal and internal too, he never engages the audience. And even his video for this semester was about something only he was going to look at. All this internal world stuff makes David and interesting fellow. People are drawn to him and this shtick, he doesn't disappoint either; I still cant figure him out and I am around him a lot
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For this video project I wanted to explore a few different concepts. The most obvious being western, but I also wanted to simply begin to understand the medium of film making as well as attempt to undo myself in icon form. I will begin by discussing how this film project reflects "western" themes and then move on to the other concepts involved. My designated week for mod two was western theme. Fo r this, I decided to divide the theme into two major ideas. The first idea was based on a type of "Hero With A Thousand Faces" narrative in which the 'lone ranger' was one that the western film highlighted, but was prevalent in much of American culture. The second idea was the icon of the western: the masculine form, the gun, and the justice. The two, I think, coincide, but I wanted for us to look at films with those ideas in mind. How does Kill Bill reflect these concepts just as much as Outlaw Josie Wales? When is the image stronger than the narrative, or how do we apply the cowboy idea to "heros" in the local paper? With that in mind, I wanted to make a performance where I "killed" myself. I had a face off with myself and lost. But my issue with this was whether or not the physical me should die or the video me. Each ending had merit and each ending could reflect that western showdown, but the good guy should always win, and here, that line was faint, if not nonexistent. I liked that conflict, but once I did the performance, I thought about how there could be all these outcomes, all these chances because I could fluctuate between good and bad. For the western, I think, that dichotomy must exist I could become good or bad based on the way I handled the gesture of pulling the gun out. And that is where the idea for a longer video came into play. For the video, and like a few performances I have done, I wanted to dissect and explore the various ways one gesture can shift and change. So I pulled the gun out a lot in front of the camera and played with how that movement can grow and imply a number of things. Here, I think I definitely covered the icon component of westerns, while at the same time, responding to other video and performance artists. I think that this project was similar to Hannah Wilke's videos, such as her film Gestures and So Help Me Hannah. My piece is similar to Gestures in that I attempt to explore/ exploit a single movement over and over, confronting the camera and engaging the viewer. In So Help Me Hannah, Wilke walks around the city naked with a gun, implying gender roles and the power of the gun, I think my video is similar in that I reference the image of female with phallus, but I try to negate a completely female form by only showing myself from the shoulders up, clothed. I wanted to create a kind of narrative using the clips I gathered. The first chapter was confrontation, in which I stare down the opponent. The second chapter was preparation, getting ready to duel, to kill, to defend. The third chapter was posing, an homage to characters like Travis Bickle; funny and strange and threatening. The fourth chapter was shooting. The fifth chapter was recognition, and this came as either satisfaction or fear or guilt. The sixth chapter returned to the first, only now it was confronting the action, unsure whether or not the action was good or bad. I think the result was a myriad of forms, pictures, and gestures that derived from one iconic image. I like that. However, I am still interested in how that can be interactive. How can I shoot myself in video or live that can create a dynamic narrative? How can I be more selective in my clips so that the powerful images really stand out? I do not want to copy those clips from films directly. I don't feel like I need to. My audience knows those images so well that I only need to reference them. However, I think there are editing choices I could have made that would be more cohesive, such as how my sepia and black and white are used. This is a work in progress for me, and I want to see how this vast idea can become tighter and more effective.
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Friday, May 16
Friday, May 9
i want to go back to reading. organizing rules, but i am glad the heyday of "corridoors" is over. but, a few notes, i think that though we could have condensed the space a bit more, meaning, to make all art fit into those cramped space, the show was visually alright. people engaged with the show as a kind of treasure map, and i think nash and kim's installations really aided that idea. people saw the space differently, but i dont think we transformed it in any way. also, fuck new college, i am definitely on board for a kind of alt space for art shows. lets think about that possible tutorial for fall... ok so the performances: nash and alexis' i think was very successful. a large enough crowd gathered and, since they had the experience, i think that it ran smoothly as well. kim and melenie's cigarette piece was also good, again, drawing a small crowd but maintaining a very clear performance structure. i think jared's piece was a nice progression from the last performance, but it still lacked the sense of control that the performance ultimately revolves around. visually it was also nice, however, i am unsure about how jared wanted to deal with the material he presented. i think that when you isolate something like porn, there are a lot of implications at play, especially when said porn is connected to a body and sex. my piece needs some work. i was happy with my installation. i might finally put that little treasure to rest. ok, it is 4 am and clearly i have not assimilated back to non-art show hours, so i am going to try to sleep now, and get excited about new things tomorrow.
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Thursday, May 8
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Tuesday, May 6
today i
watched a polish movie, saved a baby bird, did a headstand, mushed gak-like clay onto my chest, made a sign for bongs, and fell in love with a western themed radio show. it certainly has been a bowl of oranges kinda day.
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Monday, April 28
consistently impressed by liars
this projection thing is getting pretty big check out the snowden video "like bullets" for more
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Saturday, April 26
embodiment, layers, nostalgia
For future reference bjork is the shit
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it has been a good day
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Thursday, April 24
re Vivisexing - David Bennett
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re Vivisexing - Jessica Borusky
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Vivisexing- Nash Lawhead
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Wednesday, April 23
henry darger
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western fucking rules
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Monday, April 21
color construction
video video videobaby
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building a pavilion
I think this is worth your time.
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Saturday, April 19
Cinema of Transgression
Cinema of Transgression Manifesto by Nick Zedd We who have violated the laws, commands and duties of the avant-garde; i.e. to bore, tranquilize and obfuscate through a fluke process dictated by practical convenience stand guilty as charged. We openly renounce and reject the entrenched academic snobbery which erected a monument to laziness known as structuralism and proceeded to lock out those filmmakers who possesed the vision to see through this charade. We refuse to take their easy approach to cinematic creativity; an approach which ruined the underground of the sixties when the scourge of the film school took over. Legitimising every mindless manifestation of sloppy movie making undertaken by a generation of misled film students, the dreary media arts centres and geriatic cinema critics have totally ignored the exhilarating accomplishments of those in our rank - such underground invisibles as Zedd, Kern, Turner, Klemann, DeLanda, Eros and Mare, and DirectArt Ltd, a new generation of filmmakers daring to rip out of the stifling straight jackets of film theory in a direct attack on every value system known to man. We propose that all film schools be blown up and all boring films never be made again. We propose that a sense of humour is an essential element discarded by the doddering academics and further, that any film which doesn't shock isn't worth looking at. All values must be challenged. Nothing is sacred. Everything must be questioned and reassessed in order to free our minds from the faith of tradition.Intellectual growth demands that risks be taken and changes occur in political, sexual and aesthetic alignments no matter who disapproves. We propose to go beyond all limits set or prescribed by taste, morality or any other traditional value system shackling the minds of men. We pass beyond and go over boundaries of millimeters, screens and projectors to a state of expanded cinema. We violate the command and law that we bore audiences to death in rituals of circumlocution and propose to break all the taboos of our age by sinning as much as possible. There will be blood, shame, pain and ecstasy, the likes of which no one has yet imagined. None shall emerge unscathed. Since there is no afterlife, the only hell is the hell of praying, obeying laws, and debasing yourself before authority figures, the only heaven is the heaven of sin, being rebellious, having fun, fucking, learning new things and breaking as many rules as you can. This act of courage is known as transgression. We propose transformation through transgression - to convert, transfigure and transmute into a higher plane of existence in order to approach freedom in a world full of unknowing slaves. go to ubu and watch their movie "mommy mommy where's my brain?"
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The UA 150 70mm/35mm, Seattle. Contact me if this is your image.
I stood in line with two six-year-olds, a seven-year-old, my friend who had just turned nine, and a parent. I was eight. The line headed down 6th Avenue then wrapped around the corner as more people filled in behind us.
My friend and a lot of the other kids in line were excited for reasons you might guess: the school year had just met its long-anticipated death and we were out to see a movie. A break in the routine. It was a warm, sunny day.
But some of us were... lit.
We knew. We knew something else was up, something bigger was happening. If you were a kid of a certain frequency, the crackle in the air was getting loud & roiling faster. The world had a different tint to it, a high watercolor plum. (I've wondered whether people like Prince are drawn to purples because there's something mystical about them. They seem to assert themselves around wonder & the extraordinary.)
#Damson Image thanks to Willis Orchards
We sank right into this magic & rode fast. Next to nothing was all the understanding we needed. This wasn't a thing of the head, it was visceral. And it connected us. It even caught some who were not tuned in. Even some adults. Something here was larger than the stuff of hours & days.
And this is just about the line of kids outside the theater, which had begun forming before the screening prior to ours & would be hours long all day. It busted the first block & spilled to the next.
Once we were in & seated, we waited seventeen goddamned years for the lights to go down, and then (spoiler alert): they did. I'll never forget it happening.
And then John Williams slayed us all & launched us into to a completely different life. It began with The Crawl.
The Crawl image thanks to Nerdist
No jaw was left unfloored. Many would not fully re-connect with their owners' heads until they went to sleep that night.
And that was just music & reading. So to get that, remember two things:
1) Lit. We were not a just a bunch of excited summer kids. This was different, bigger & other, and now no matter who you were, if you were in that theater, crackling air was all your breath & skin would know for ninety minutes. You were on fire with the rest of us, and nothing felt ordinary anymore.
2) John Williams is superhuman, & music+memory is among the most potent & rich meanings of life as a human animal. We were welding that powerful music to this transcendent moment, and of that fusion arose a thing greater than the sum of its parts. That was The Force.
Infused with it to bursting, we witnessed the opening scene. Here it is. What happens between 2:08 and 2:26 changed the way we see.
Clip thanks to Marcelo Zuniga
A number of the heads in the sea of people in front of us whipped around between 2:10 - 2:15 and found themselves looking squarely at the back wall of the theater. Can you imagine why that happened? They quickly re-whipped those eyeballs back to the screen. I didn't do this, but I could tell why those people did: their brains were confused about where the vessels came from.
Industrial Light & Magic didn't just skyrocket our VFX standards by degrees; it re-wired our brains.
The emergence of Darth Vader (4:32) took me clear out of my skull. I wasn't in a seat at movie theater anymore. Seeing the cloak, watching him walk, turn his head, is burned into my brain for all time. I forgot myself, my life, and succumbed to the crackling air and the magic. I rode the rest of the experience like an E-Ticket ride that went on as long as you wanted to. The cheers & chills at the final scene were loud and crazy and completely involuntary & like never before.
I would never be the same, and course the world would never be the same, and we could not shut up about it, and we still can't. There are few things in this life that make me truly, purely happy, but that's one of 'em.
The Force will be with us, always.
*light saber emoji*
P.S. Now, for a slightly older kid's perspective, go read Marty's post!
P.S. Now, for a slightly older kid's perspective, go read Marty's post!

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Golden haiku!
In my brain tumour blog I started trying to write one verse 'haiku' poems, then completed a two-verse haiku about my cats. Because poetry is an art form I thought I'd write one here for a recent special anniversary.
24th March 1963 - 2012.
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BREST, Belarus – In the Belarus city of Brest, the Jewish community association "Brisk" has begun undertaking a campaign for establishing a Jewish section in the municipal museum. The first initiatives to be taken are the collection of materials and items to display once this section has been created.
Towards this end, Boris Bruk, the Chairman of the Jewish community of Brest, is leading the establishment of a special council to close manage the collection and accumulation of materials on the life and development of the local Jewish community, including its foundation and distant past.
According to Boris Bruk, the collection for the future museum exhibition is already starting to come together. These materials include pieces from the traveling exhibition "The Jews of Brest", which was previously organized by Arkady Blyaher, the local representative of the 'Holocaust' Center.
The Jewish community of Brest appeals to the public for assistance from anyone who may have access to or provide assistance with regards to collecting materials for the museum, and expresses its gratitude in advance to anyone able to aid in this matter. Boris Bruk is reachable via mobile telephone at +375 (29) 635-51-53 or via e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.com
The Jewish community of Brest is a full and active member of the Association of Jewish Communities of Belarus and, as such, of the Federation of Jewish Communities of the CIS and Baltic Countries.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Belarus -- Brest Jewish Museum?
The web site of the Federation of the Jewish Communities of the CIS reports thata campaign is under way to establish a Jewish section in the municipal museum in Brest, Belarus.
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It seems I am in need of some good ideas for new games to develop. I have been busy preparing Jelly 2 for the Pandora (http://www.openpandora.org/) and PC but as it does not look like I am going to get one this year (There seems to be a delay in the delivery of LCD screens). In the meantime I am looking for some other projects to fill my boots.
The idea of this topic is for people to post their Ideas and I will see if I can make any of them.
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Re: Inspiration
You HAVE to try making an OKAY/AVERAGE first person shooter that shows the gun when u play. not a dumb point n click game... There have been a couple, but the links wont work... maybe try making a humorous platformer or an N+ flash game! good luck!
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I have to give credit to ppl who make flash games for PSP it has to be hard, keep up the work!
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how about a mmo type thing?
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Yesterday was my first time in Pasadena and I really loved the area. There's so many places to shop and eat. We found a cute little alley to take some pics so of course I couldn't resist! Brick walls always make a great backdrop.
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I got this aztec print shirt from ShopExcessBaggage after I did the lookbook shoot for them on Friday. It was so sweet of them to give us gift bags! I absolutely love how comfortable this top is and I am so happy that I was able to wear it out here in Cali. I feel like the print and whole outfit is super laid back and casual which is what I wanted. It was actually in the low 80s and as I mentioned I packed so many sweaters thinking it would have been colder, so this shirt definitely came in handy! I bought these legging style pants out here at the Zara at the grove. Definitely a great buy. They're high waisted and the fit is amazing. I'm really obsessed with these sneaker wedges because they are literally the best shoes to walk around in. When you're out for a day of shopping you definitely want comfort! I added the beanie to complete the whole relaxed look.
One of the best parts about yesterday was meeting Ashley and Blake from AnythingAndEverythingLa. We've been following each other for awhile via instagram and our blogs so it was so nice to see them in person. They're the sweetest! I will be posting my pics with them in my LA Diary post coming soon!
My friend Christine has been taking most of my pics during my stay here and she actually let me take one of her so I wanted to post it :)
I heard that I might be going home to snow and it makes me sad since the weather here has been absolute perfection! I'll have more to share soon!


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Living life without recording and commenting makes it seem an uneventful life. I have written a blog before. I was a member of Multiply but when it evolved into commercial enterprises I decided to venture here.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Moving Forward into the New Year
January seemed to be a cold and banal month. It was colder and there wasn't anything to anticipate. The feast of the Epiphany or Three Kings Day wasn't commemorated with any celebration. It was now known as Little Christmas. We knew that some people held on to that tradition when we saw their homes still decorated. My family's Italian heritage had been completely assimilated with the American culture. I would later learn about Belfana, the Witch. All there was to wish for was school cancellations due to snowstorms.
Yesterday we put our Christmas decorations in storage. We do it now with more of a feeling of relief then regret. I am grateful for our Christmas celebration but I realize that it's only a part of the year. We have to move forward through the year and face all of the uncertainties. There are some things that can't be stored until the following December and they are our memories. Our good times with family are the treasures.
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Lovely post, Robert! We, here in Portugal, as well as in other European countries, celebrate January 6, the Three Wise Men's Day, which marks the end of the festive season. In Spain, the day is widely celebrated and highlighted with the gift-exchanging that never happens on Christmas as most of us are used to.ReplyDeleteReplies
The Latino communities (people of Central America and the Caribbean Islands) celebrate Three King's Day. Maybe due to their influence we will resume celebrating the day.Delete
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Via http://piratemonkeycult.wordpress.com/2008/03/21/dome-it/ came word that noise nazis are trying to get every possible govt agancy to shut down a dirt bike track at a local reservation.
I'm very glad to learn of the one example of vehicluar activities not being relocated, or shut down, due to complaints of neighbors.
No other location for off road enjoyment of internal combustion engines has endured and overcome the adversity of homeowners, residents, or tenants to my knowledge of race tracks, drags race sites, or oval tracks.
It's a rare occurance when cicumstances do not allow the complaints of a vocal minority who catterwaul to the press, EPA, U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service and unknown other official entities who have likely been contacted to act as agents to close, diminish, or outlaw the extremely rare track or other outdoor area for enjoyment or cars, trucks or motorbikes.
Just last year I believe the Imperial Dunes environmentalists were trying to get Off Road Vehicles (ORVs) banned from the sand dunes because some insignificant flower of no environmental impact (my opinion) was found to only exist in the sand dunes... and perhaps a handful of intelligent beings in the whole universe are aware of it's existance. Why it should matter to any species that a flower may cease to continue its existance on this planet of 6 billion humans, and countless billions of other creatures, who have no contact or knowledge of it's existance, is baffling to myself.
So long as anyone gets to enjoy the USA in any mode of transportation a teetotaler finds offensive, there will be environmental nazis who have no life to find comfort in beyond stamping down the freedom associated with gas powered vehicles that bring poeple to locations where the vehicles can be enjoyed by those fortunate enough to find a use for barren deserts, blasted death valleys, dry lakebeds, forest trails, frozen lakes, national parks, and outskirts of town where drags strips once existed.
Southern California once had 9 or 10 quartermile dragstrips south of Bakersfield. Now only 1. Pomona. Not all were closed by noise nazis and NIMBY (not in my back yard) types who moved into the area and then found it offensive to have previous users who could make happiness from nitro burning hemis, but most were. Case in point, the noise nazis who have moved into Miramar after the US military found that the land was a really good location for aeroplane takeoff, landing, and practice. 1997 found another coordinated effort by noise nazis to force previous tenants (US military) from continuing to use the airstrips, due to the change from F14, F16, F18 etc of the Topgun era of NAS Miramar to the helicopter needs of the USMC, who became the newest in a chain of Department of Defense agencies who could best use the base that has been a military asset for about 100 years since the US needed the area for horses for the US Army infantry.
About time, I say, that somehow myriad circumstances align in an area that can continue to be of use to ORV users who find happiness in minding their own business instead of trying to outlaw the pleasures of others. How'd prohibition work out for those lawmaking teetotaling religious zealot busybodies anyway?


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Monday, November 18, 2013
Thanks, Sarah!
Who is Sarah? Sarah Hale, of course! Sarah Hale should be thanked for Thanksgiving. She was not a pilgrim and she was not at the 1621 harvest celebration (later known as the first Thanksgiving) but she was very important in making sure our country celebrates Thanksgiving today. Read this book and click on the links below to find out more about this woman and Thanksgiving.
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Well, finally made it and got the move to SE Ala over and done with. Still have stuff ( a lot of it ) in storage, but will deal with that later.
Been living in Central Florida for over 15 years and I guess I have to say that I miss the warmth and the sunshine. Colder here at this time of the year and the sun sure doesn't shine as much. I do miss that and the fresh produce. A big surprise is the cost of food. The meat here is so much cheaper than I have seen in years. You just have to shop at the local stores here. In comparison the Wally World charges the same as in Florida and I can get the same and better quality at more than a dollar less a pound. Ex: ground beef at WW was 2.36 / lb. while the local was 1.16 / lb. t-bone and rib eye ( which i rarely buy ) were only 4.99 and 5.99 regular price. Pork butt at .86 / lb. I could go on, milk about the same price, bread a little lower. Gas right now is 2.85 / gal for regular.
The pace is much slower here also. Not so much craziness and people rushing all over the place just to get somewhere they really don't want to be anyway.
I like my crafts and quilting and this area is lacking in that I only have a Hancock Fabrics and a Michael's to choose from. Thank goodness for the internet, because that make everything just a click away.
My hubby is really enjoying his new job driving tour bus for a smaller company than he worked for in Florida. Surprise, the pay is better. He is out of town a little more, but still in the area of Ala and Ga and Fl. So he is never more that an 8 or 10 hour drive away.
Guess that will be enough for today. Been getting caught up on the blogger sites I read and have enjoyed that a lot. Love to read about other folks and the things they are doing.
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- Buy whole - Whole chickens, pork loins, roasts and other meat varieties can be purchased and cut to suit -- by you. Cutting meat doesn't take an advanced degree, and you can save by buying larger quantities, cutting and repackaging them yourself. Many meats are easy to cut with a little practice, so the process can take a few minutes once you get home from the grocery store. (If you're lucky, you may be able to get an accommodating butcher to do it for you, but often grocers offer bargain prices on whole cuts because they require less handling so any extra service may be subject to an additional fee.)
- Shop the extreme sales - You know about advertised sales, but most meat markets also have unadvertised sales of packaged products that are reaching the end of their freshness dates. They are usually displayed in the same meat market location every day and can sell for a much as 50 percent off the retail price. Shop early for the best selection, though, and use these items right away.
- Buy dry - Secondary proteins like grains and legumes are among the best protein deals at the store, and they're often at their cheapest when purchased dry. Head over to the rice aisle of your market and check out the dried lima beans, garbanzo beans, black beans, lentils, barley and brown rice. The bargains may surprise you, and these great ingredients can last up to a year in your pantry. When you want to use them, all they need is some water and a little TLC.
- Visit the deli - The deli department of most major grocery stores have sliced meats available for quick sale. Quantities that don't sell are often used as ingredients for the next day's sandwiches. If delis have too much product, though, they sometimes sell the overage at a reduced price. That sliced turkey or black forest ham is just as tasty, but sells for a lot less. Check out the policies at your market, and watch for sales.
- Join a warehouse store - Membership warehouse stores charge an annual fee to join, but offer attractive discounts on goods and services -- often including meats, dairy and other grocery store fare. The offerings are generally sold in bulk, too. These stores sell quite a few different products and if you buy enough, you can net a nice rebate -- enough to repay the membership fee and then some. One nice thing about these outlets is that they have everyday low prices that can often compete with the sale prices at your regular market.
- Shop the no frills markets - Bare bones markets can offer very good prices on canned goods, dairy and frozen meats, but don't expect convenience. If you don't mind paying a quarter to use a shopping cart (you get the quarter back when you leave), and the idea of bringing your own bag doesn't turn you off, you can find items like cheese, milk, yogurt, peanut butter, lunch meat and other basic proteins for less. These are often off-brands you won't recognize, and the selection may be limited and change without notice. If you want to net a pound of cheese for half-off what you'd pay at your regular market, or score a frozen turkey breast at a big savings, though, a no frills market may be your best bet.


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"Drew just went. It's your turn," my younger sister Kate addresses me as she sits at the dining room table in the new house. We are playing Monopoly and drinking some beers with Drew's best friend Damian and his wife, Lisa, which seems to be the norm now on Friday nights. My roommate Drew and I moved into the new house 3 months ago. Previously we lived in my old house that I owned with my ex-husband, Donnie. Our divorce was finalized just before Drew and I moved.
"I know," I say picking up my silver shoe and moving 6 spaces on the board. "Dammit I landed in jail."
"Know any good lawyers who can get you out?" Kate asks jokingly, but she knows she has gone too far. I give her a dirty nasty look. She had to go there. I'm not ready to talk about him…my divorce lawyer, Marco Piccoli. The one who I fell for and let go. I have tried to forget him and his whole existence, but it's hard. I work at the diner as a waitress still and I am enrolled in the local university to obtain my nursing degree. It is extremely difficult, so I have been mostly focusing on that. I keep myself busy so I don't have time to think about him. We do not speak about him in our house. My sister knows not to bring up the "M" word. He wrote me a letter confessing his feelings for me that he sent along with my divorce papers when they were finalized. I replay the words in my head. I know that everyone knows I have feelings for Marco, including Drew. I choose not to discuss anything.
"You had to fucking go there," I snap.
"What's with you?"
"Really? You have to ask."
"Alright ladies back to your corners," Drew says diffusing the situation. "It's my turn again."
"You can't even joke with her anymore." Kate says to Drew.
"Yeah because why do you have to joke about him, and I am in the room you know.
"How's school?" Lisa asks breaking the tension and changing the subject.
"It's great. I only have a few months left. I actually didn't have too much time left to make up. It's a lot of work, but it will be worth it in the end."
"Oh, definitely. You will be great. I have no doubt."
"Thanks Lisa." I smile.
"She's been studying so hard," Drew chimes in. "I barely see her. Our movie theatre is being wasted. I have no one to watch movies with."
"Hopefully once I pass my test, I will get a job and my life will be stable. Right now I'm all over the place."
I'm so thankful for Drew. He has been a godsend in my life. He has helped me through so much. I contribute to the bills with what I make at the diner. He doesn't ask me for much. He is also still letting me drive the SUV back and forth to work and school. I told him I would give him more. He told me just to put my alimony payments and the 401 k payment I received from my ex into the bank. I don't know how I could ever repay him. He told me that he doesn't want anything back from me. Drew is just an all-around nice guy. It's a shame that I don't have romantic feelings for him because the woman that he ends up with will be one lucky chick. Before we moved, Drew and I sat down and had a talk. I explained to him that everything happened to me at one time: my divorce, everything with Marco and him moving in. Everything was happening so fast all around me. I mistook my feelings for him as something more and they weren't. I let him know that I actually considered him one of my best friends. We agreed to continue our friendship and move forward with our living arrangements.
I also thank God every day for my therapist who has helped me get through the difficult time in my life. I have been seeing her for the past 3 months and she actually didn't agree with me taking medication that my sister suggested so we skipped that process all together. She also doesn't agree with me blocking Marco out of my life like he's not there. She thinks I need to talk about it. I refuse to bring him up in our sessions. She said when I'm ready she'll be here to listen.
"I think I'm gonna call it a night and head up to bed. I have a long day at work tomorrow," I say getting up from my chair.
"We're out of here too. We have to get home to the babysitter," Damian says.
"Well I guess that leaves me and Drew." Kate says. "Want to hit the theater? I'm in the mood to watch a comedy. "She asks Drew.
"Yeah, I'll make some popcorn." He replies as he gathers the game together and puts it back in the box.
"Have fun kids. I'll be in my millionth dream since I have to be up at 5 a.m." I yawn as I head to the stairs.
One day I'll live my life again, until then I have to deal with my daily dose of insanity.
Chapter 1
"Oh here she comes the big bad nurse." My coworker and friend, Gina, yells out in the diner. Everyone turns around to look at me. All the regulars who come in every day start clapping and cheering. Gina runs up to me and hugs me. "I'm so proud of you. You graduated nursing school…finally." She says with tears in her eyes. "You have come a long way since last January when you started working here. I can't believe it's been a year already and tomorrow's your last day here."
"Don't go getting all emotional on me. We still have 2 days of work left to complete."
"Fine. You have your regulars, John and Stella, coming in at 4 for dinner. They said they want to see you before you leave."
"Awe, I'm going to miss them. See here you go making me all soft." She stares at me for a few seconds.
"What?" I ask.
"When you get settled I have to tell you something."
"More gossip," I say joking. I've grown accustomed to the whole diner gossip.
"Not exactly. You may be mad."
"What are you talking about?" I say going to the back of the diner where the lockers are. I grab my apron and book for taking orders. Tying my apron, I come back out to the front. I grab a package of coffee and empty it into the basket on top of the coffee urn. Gina returns from bringing a soda to her table.
"What did you want to tell me? Come on the suspense is killing me!" I roll my eyes at her.
She looks hesitant. "Someone came in for dinner last night."
I bust out laughing. "It's a diner. Someone comes in for dinner every night.
She puts her hands on her hips. "Let me finish."
"Go ahead." I wipe the counter down.
"It was Marco." I think my face turned completely pale. I actually felt the color drain from it.
"Sit," she says. "You look like you're gonna be sick. He came in with a woman in her late 20's. Tiny waited on them. He kept looking around checking to see if you were here. He eventually came up to me. I was serving at the counter last night."
"What the hell did he want? How dare he bring a woman in here?" I yell low enough for the whole diner not to hear me. I am angry.
"I said the same thing. I was pissed. He asked me if you were here. I said no that you would be back today. Brace yourself for what I said next. I told him Saturday is your last day because you're getting married." Gina actually had a smirk on her face.
"You told him that? What did he say?"
"He got a really sad look on his face. He said well tell her I wish her all the best. I said why don't you tell her yourself. He said he didn't think that would be right and you're happy with Drew and he doesn't want to get in the middle of that."
I couldn't help but laugh. He thinks I'm marrying Drew. He has nerve even if I was; he comes in here with a woman and then questions what I'm doing.
"I told him you would be here at 3. He thanked me and wished me a good evening."
"He wouldn't have the balls to show up here especially if he thinks I'm getting married. Right? You don't think he would? Why does he even care? It's been 9 months since we were together." I question, but I know Marco and I know that he will be here.
"Apparently that doesn't stop you from wanting him," Gina blurts out.
"I don't want him. You're crazy."
"Who you fooling? I can tell when you're lying…You can't look at me and you clean."
I start wiping the dessert case.
"You can't run from this. He exists, Molly. I think he's gonna come in here. What are you going to do… ignore him, fight with him? You love him. It's obvious," she continues.
"It's different now. Too much time has passed, plus he has a girlfriend. This conversation is over. I have a table.
I walk over and greet the family of 5. The conversation is still fresh in my mind. I guess in my mind I thought he would wait forever for me. I'm a dumb fool. The poor woman he was with has no idea why he came into the diner. She thinks they are enjoying a meal, he has other intentions. It's probably best he thinks I'm getting married. If he shows up, I don't know if I'll tell him otherwise. We can all go on with our lives.
"I'll be right back with your drinks." I say with my big fake smile because my insides want to cry out. I head to the soda machine and every time the door chimes my stomach drops. It is going to be a long day.


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The exams, they are graded. The papers, they are graded. The final grades, they are tabulated and posted. It is o-v-e-r!!!!! Woohoo!!!! Am F-R-E-E!
(Except I'm actually not, as I've got loose ends crap to tie up in the next week or so, but I'm at least done with the teaching part of things. I had thought I'd go to my office today to get all of this junk out of my house, but it occurs to me now that I am in no way going there today but rather will go tomorrow in the morning so that I will actually be productive. Instead, with all this free time on my hands - for I'm not acknowledging the other things I need to do for at least this afternoon and evening - I think I may go to the gym, or for a walk, or something, maybe to the grocery store, we shall see.)
Now let's see if I get any grade challenges. I feel like I won't, but you never can tell....
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Behind FlyBall Bags is one highly motivated missy... Diana Coatsworth. Diana has many talents in the artistic field. She is a professionally trained dancer, singer, actor and improviser and has worked in theatre and film for over 13 years.
In 2003, she pursued another passion... to design and produce beautiful, one-of-a-kind handbags called FlyBall Bags. Diana uses a mix of quality vintage and new materials to give a sense of humour to a piece.
Diana grew up in Niagara Falls and got most of her creative juices handed down from her mother, who is a highly skilled crafts person herself (sewing, knitting and cake decoration, to name a few). She is blessed to have an amazing group of friends and family to encourage this compulsion to create. These days Diana resides in downtown Toronto with her partner, Kevan. Simply put, she hopes to create beautiful things that people will enjoy.
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Jayson Werth is congratulated by Ian Desmond upon scoring the winning run.
Obviously, Werth had ample opportunity to analyze the situation at hand. Bottom of the 10th. Tie game. One out. Ivan Rodriguez at the plate.
And one clear thought came to mind: Steal third base.
"In that situation, with one out, I'd rather be on third than on second," Werth said. "I just felt like, it was time to make something happen. It felt right."
So he took off as Marmol delivered his first pitch and slid safely into third base. Cubs catcher Geovany Soto never even attempted to throw him out. Werth's jump was too good. He caught everyone in the ballpark by surprise.
"There was no sign for that," Nationals manager Davey Johnson said. "It was just his read, and boom, he's over there. That's a winning attitude."
A winning attitude that actually produced a win moments later when Marmol's slider to Rodriguez sailed to the backstop and Werth scampered home with the run that gave the Nationals a 5-4, extra-inning victory.
As he leaped into teammate Ian Desmond's arms near the on-deck circle, Werth heard the roar from a delirious Independence Day crowd of 32,937. Many of those same fans booed him mercilessly three innings earlier when he struck out with a chance to give his team the lead, his latest failure in a clutch spot during a homestand that has featured plenty of them.
This, though, was perhaps Werth's signature moment in a Nationals uniform. No, it didn't come on a home run, or a double or even a great throw to the plate (though he did have one of those earlier during Monday's game). It came with one burst of hustle, the kind of play anyone -- $126 million contract or minimum-salary deal -- could make, but not the kind of play everyone actually makes.
"Cheer me, boo me, whatever," he said. "I'm still going to go out there and play my game. Winning ballgames is the most important thing."
The Nationals are somehow winning ballgames right now, not every day but enough to hover right around the .500 mark (they now sit at 43-43). They pulled this one out in remarkable fashion, somehow scoring three runs over the game's final five innings despite producing only one base hit that left the infield.
They pulled it out despite missing Ryan Zimmerman and Michael Morse from the starting lineup, each dealing with nagging injuries.
They pulled it out despite 43-year-old fill-in first baseman Matt Stairs departing after banging his knee on a rail as he tried to track down a foul ball, a development that forced career outfielder Laynce Nix to switch to first base for the first time since high school.
They pulled it out with two pitchers needing to come off the bench as pinch-hitters, including Livan Hernandez, who dropped the picture-perfect sacrifice bunt that advanced Werth to second base during the 10th-inning rally.
This isn't exactly Johnson's preferred style of baseball. He admittedly likes the three-run homer over the sacrifice bunt. And he couldn't remember ever using two pitchers as pinch-hitters in the same game before.
But he also knows he can only manage what he's got. And what he's got right now is a somewhat-flawed roster that still finds a way to keep (and often win) close games.
"We've got guys that can go out of the ballpark," he said. "But we're scoring on groundballs in the infield and walks. It's not really a good comfort zone for me yet. But I think we're a much better ballclub than that, and I think we're going to show it in the second half."
Johnson was talking about his entire team, but he easily could have been referring specifically to Werth, who still isn't producing the big hits the Nationals were counting on when they signed him to that gargantuan contract but on Monday found plenty of other ways to contribute.
He did come through with a pair of RBI: one on a broken-bat single to right, another on a weak grounder to third. He drew two walks. He stole that key base in the 10th (though he also was caught stealing earlier in the game). He threw a runner out at the plate. He also was involved in a gross mis-communication in the outfield, pulling up short along with Roger Bernadina to watch a routine fly ball land in between them and allow two runs to score.
Werth hopes and believes he'll start producing in conventional ways soon. In the meantime, is he making a conscious effort to try to contribute in less-conventional ways?
"I wouldn't say it's a conscious effort," he said. "I'd classify it as just playing. I'm still doing what I do. ... You get hot, you get cold, you keep hustling, you keep playing the game hard. Do it the right way. Helping your team win: I think that's the most important thing. At the end of the year, if your team wins the World Series and you didn't hit all year, it really doesn't matter."
On this day, it didn't matter much to the crowd or the Nationals' clubhouse how low Werth's batting average had dropped, or whether he helped let a fly ball fall to the ground.
It mattered only that he scored the winning run that got this roller-coaster club back to the .500 mark.
"He plays the game the right way, and good things are going to happen with him," Rodriguez said. "He's doing a good job, even though offensively it's not there. He's going to be right there pretty soon. But all the things he does, it means a lot to us."


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i'm taking the day off from a finds to fancy post, so i can enjoy my time in California, but to tide you over, i'd love for you to check out a site i mentioned earlier this week...
|{photo via My Favorite Find}
i know you'll love it!
i'll see you all next, week, when i'm back in Seattle! have a great weekend- hope you find lots of good stuff out there !


text: This metaphor of Hipsters (sustainably!) "harvesting" and "foraging" Awkwardness and Self-Awareness is too perfect. At the end of every day on Neurosis Ranch, Hipster gently brushes the velveteen leaves of his Discomfiture plants with his calloused hand before retiring inside the farmhouse he built after spending a summer with the Amish and makes love to his wife using the rhythm method because not only is it delightfully outmoded but it turns out that if practiced correctly it is an agreeable and effective means of contraception.


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We are still beavering away in the background sorting out the details and trying to make sure that you have the best night celebrating the brilliance of all your wonderful businesses but we can tell you this:
- The event will be at Komedia on Wednesday 16 September.
- There are two ticket prices: for £60 you get a welcome drink, three course meal from Komedia's multi-award winning kitchen, the award ceremony itself and Komedia's flagship club Night Motorcity playing the best in soul funk and motown into the early hours. For £20 you can come and have a welcome drink, the award ceremony and Motorcity...all the fun for a fraction of the price so that no one has to miss out on grounds of price
- The event will be hosted by a soon to be announced Komedia veteran
- There will be pre-diner entertainment...we are still working on this one but we hope to bring you some awesome music from a local band
- The evening will not be black tie - come in whatever makes you feel fabulous - we will certainly be in our finery
- Our secret squirrel go-to photographers will be on hand to take some truly memorable pictures of you all in your finery!
- AND if you want to give all your staff a big thank you but can't afford lots of tickets then all your staff can come to the club night afterwards ABSOLUTELY FREE. Simply let us know how many and we will add them to the guest list (on a first come first served basis).
To book your tickets click here keep spreading the word to all your indie colleagues about the awards and don't forget to ENTER HERE!


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Adopting a child especially through international adoption process is not an easy decision to take. Both the needy parents and the adoption agency have to look after various factors . . . .I don't think the author intended sarcastic social commentary about the fact that adoption these days isn't so much about finding families for needy children, but is instead about finding children for needy parents. . . .
What's that saying? Many a truth is said . . . by accident?!