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tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54499106560738680702018-05-28T22:08:31.618-07:firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-39468988808328028782015-09-01T09:00:00.001-07:002015-09-01T09:00:30.358-07:00"Meet them among others"
This is me, writing my feelings publicly since I am quite melancholic at the moment...

I can't seem to contain my bittersweet emotions because of this honey-bee couple that really steals my attention...

The We Got Married "Gong-Lee" couple Lee Jong Hyun (of CN Blue) and actress Gong Seung Yeon..it feels weird that I wish that they would end up together in real life and love bravely and generously despite all the crazy, delusional fans that don't want them to be real...err.. am I among those delusional fans? LOL! Strange enough, I wish all these for them when they are total strangers...why, I should be praying these things to happen for me instead, right? Since I am single, available and unattached to anyone romantically..as if my love cells have already died long time ago, since I'm not interested in anyone at the moment...but I seriously want these for them...Hahaha...

and here..this is them, sweet, aren't they? :)

And..here is the song that reflects them which I am currently listening repetitively on my playlist...

The original title of the song would be "meet him among them' 그 중에 그대를-만나 by Lee Sun Hee ... but I'll change it to "Meet them among others"

그렇게 대단한 운명까진

바란적 없다 생각했는데

그대 하나 떠나간 내 하룬 이제

운명이 아님 채울 수 없소

별처럼 수 많은 사람들 그 중에 그대를 만나

꿈을 꾸듯 서롤 알아보고

주는 것 만으로 벅찼던 내가 또 사랑을 받고

그 모든건 기적이었음을

그렇게 어른이 되었다고

자신한 내가 어제같은데

그대라는 인연을 놓지 못하는

내 모습, 어린아이가 됐소

나를 꽃처럼 불러주던 그대 입술에 핀 내 이름

이제 수많은 이름들 그 중에 하나되고

오~ 그대의 이유였던 나의 모든 것도 그저 그렇게

별처럼 수 많은 사람들 그 중에 서로를 만나

사랑하고 다시 멀어지고

억겁의 시간이 지나도 어쩌면 또다시 만나

우리 사랑 운명이었다면

내가 너의 기적이었다면

Meet Him Among Them

I never wished for fate

to bring us so close

Now that you're gone

my days are useless

Of all the people, I met you

It was like a dream

And the love I got from you

It was like a miracle

I thought I was ready

I was sure I'd be fine

But look where I am

I can't let you go

Of all the people, I met you

It was like a dream

And the love I got from you

It was like a miracle

You used to call my name

with the sweetest voice I know

But now I'm just another face

And everything I have

means nothing to me

Of all the people, we met

but we parted ways

Maybe we'll meet again someday

if we were meant to be

It'll be a miracle

They departed from the show already...and that's among the reasons why I'm having this withdrawal syndrome...be strong, heart...brave this phase and everything will be back to normal soon, hopefully...

Be happy to both of you, Jong Hyun & Seng Yeon...may this photo will be a reality some years ahead..oh, my shipper's heart and delusional mind :)

firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-82318924263241872662014-05-14T22:41:00.000-07:002014-05-14T22:41:26.760-07:00

Life is picturesque.

I love this photo so much. (Credit to the genius photographer: Uncle Ikmal )

As to the people who have known me for quite sometime would already understand that, one of my must-do activities every year is travelling abroad.

So guess...where is this?

A famous place of course, Namiseom (in Hanguel)  or Nami Island, Gyeonggi-do, South Korea.

This photo was taken back in late November last year (my 2nd trip to the country but the first one to the place). It was during the changing season of Autumn to winter. That's why you could see yellow leaves on the ground but there was also snow falling at the same time.

Splendid, isn't it?

Objective of the photo above? To pose like models, as if we were making the cover for our album (the kind that singers often do for their songs' album...LOL)

As the conclusion for this entry, feast your eyes with superb nature offered by Nami Island:

A lake across the place with a bridge connecting the separated lands

Ground view of the line-up pine trees

firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-67009415658074020192014-05-11T22:33:00.001-07:002014-05-11T22:33:10.096-07:00People talk. People smile. People laugh. People cry.

These are emotions.

And among the extreme emotion is SHOUTING, SCREAMING or BELLOWING your voice out loud so that the world around you knows and understands your feelings.

That's exactly what I feel like doing right now. But a sure thing for me to do is doing the other way around. That means NOT TO DO just exactly that. For I believe that letting yourself to be consumed with too much of radical emotion is BAD, in many sense:

i- BAD for your health (imagine the sore throat and migraine that will come afterward - nightmare!

ii- BAD for your beauty (smiling only takes 3 of your muscles to work but frowning takes more than 200 muscles! What's more with screaming! Your beauty sure will degrade tremendously!)

iii-BAD for your image (people will see you as someone who is insane? Worse, when people assume that I am immature and can't handle my job professionally)

To me, there are MORE bad effects rather than GOOD effects. Sure, I would have felt immediate relief and instant satisfaction. But that's it. No more than that. Instead, to deal with the after effects is more hassle. Changing people's perception towards us is way difficult (usually this will last for months or years) than enduring your feelings alone. Life is about connecting with people (NOKIA has the right tagline), not isolating yourself and segregating people around you. That's why there are concepts of family, friendship, relationship etc.

Therefore, I believe that being a rationale and mature person is important. You get a bonus if you are wise and knowledgeable too!

And for all those reasons that I have stated, it's better to keep hold of my emotions, rather than letting it loose. Once, I was very good at it that people used to describe me as INDIFFERENT. I was good once, why can't I do the same, now?

I'll end this entry with one of my favourite quotes:

email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-67337347464467136092014-05-08T09:14:00.001-07:002014-05-08T09:14:49.314-07:00It's the KEYBOARD! Salam to all...

It has been soooooooooooo long since I last updated this blog...years ago (last entry was in July 2012!)...My gosh...2012 was like almost err...2 years ago? Haaa....dah bersawang pun blog ini ibaratnya....and if it is symbolised as a baby, the baby would have walked and run by now! Hehe...nay, for quite some times, I lost my passion in writing my thought publicly (but I still keep a conventional, personal diary though)...

Maybe...perhaps...probably, I will start writing again since my new keyboard is really, really, really a BIG temptation for me to run my fingers on it, pouring out my thoughts while listening to its' sound and feeling the smoothness of its' surface...It feels like...falling in love? Haha...that's too exaggerating, honestly, but somehow, this one really ignites my once put out passion and love towards blogging...and so now I believe that a tool is really important to a writer! (Hee...in the olden days, it would be the pen that is important I guess, however, during this advance science and technology, the keyboard is very crucial - well, at least to me!)

As for tonight or morning? (my clock just ticked 12.11 am), I just wanna talk about how much my KEYBOARD has influenced me to write...just for less than 15 minutes, this 3-long-paragraph essay is the outcome of it...see, how powerful it is, my KEYBOARD (err...should I give a name to it?), words and sentences just keep flowing freely without any problems and puff! here is the product...hurm, shall I celebrate this result?

Well, I guess this could be the new beginning ...we'll see how long it lasts...hehe...and even though I have lots of other things to write, but I 'll keep it to myself at the moment for my body already sends me a warning and signs of sleep deprive (been staying up late these days to complete the files for Nazir's observation)... till then, adios!

Teacher Huda on 09/05/2014
--Had an extra class with 5T and loved their reaction tonight! TQ! You made me feel appreciated--

email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-59489434129729769622012-07-08T04:37:00.000-07:002012-07-08T04:42:35.295-07:00as pendulum swings..and i've become emotional..Happy that sambutan sedekad Intesaber goes on smoothly.. Enjoy the moment very much especially with The ex students who came.. However...a bit rasa terkilan felt here: Forgive me if my statement is hurtful and Wrong..but as a teacher who started my career in 2008..the batch of 2008 is Considered as my first baby..was hoping to see many of 2008 faces during the event.. But..only 1 out of so many hundreds of Them came..thank you Shamilah Hasanah for coming.. I was quite disappointed..dulu ada juga saudara Fakhruddin yg sering menjenguk kami di sini.. Tetapi i understand his situation who is studying Abroad now.. Mungkin mereka mempunyai masalah yang tidak Mampu untuk dielakkan untuk menghadirkan diri.. Tidak mengapalah..cuma sbg seorang guru mungkin Terdetik satu conclusion bahawa batch 2008 adalah Batch yg tidak begitu menyayangi Intesaber Sebagaimana batch2 yg lain.. Mereka jarang datang melawat kami di sini.. Agak berbeza dgn batch2 2009-2011 yg sangat rajin datang beramai2 sekaligus memeriahkan suasana Di bilik guru...sbg seorang guru..jujurnya..perkara ini amat dihargai walau mungkin perasaan sebenar tidak pernah dinyatakan secara terang-terangan.. Akan tetapi..terubat jua rasa terkilan di hati ini Apabila anak2 dari batch 2009, 2010 & 2011 begitu Ramai hadir memeriahkan acara ini (sekadar mengambil Batch dr thn mula mengajar shj)..as an oldie, who has started to become emotionally attached now the presence of all of you meant so much to me.. Honestly..you guys really made my day! And for that..komawo..THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! note: batch2 awal dr thn 2004, 2005, 2006 & 2007 juga ramai yg hadir kerana terdapat begitu ramai wajah2 yang kurang Familiar hadir...dan terharu juga kerana melihatkan cara mereka melayani guru-guru mereka dgn ramah walau sudah lama tidak bertemu.. Yang dikatakan terkilan ialah apabila batch 2008 hanya 1 orang sahaja wakil walaupun diketahui ramai diantara mereka yang tinggal berdekatan dalam daerah Sabak Bernam ini dan sedang bercuti.. tetapi tidak dpt menghadirkan diri...tak mengapalah.. mereka pasti punya alasan tersendiri.. Untuk pelajar2 n bekas2 pelajar yang pernah bersama dengan teacher Huda..teacher sayang kamu semua walaupun korang selalu kena marah, kutuk & denda dengan teacher.. Setiap kali ungkapan "WE LOOOVEE TEACHER" lillahita a'la bergema di penghujung kelas.. Teacher selalu menjawab "ok..have a nice day everyone" Tetapi...dalam hati sering diikuti dengan ungkapan "teacher loves u guys too.." Cuma..ianya tidak pernah terluah dengan kata2.. Keegoan seorang dewasa yang menghalang teacher dari mezahirkan perasaan itu dengan kata2.. Maka..di kesempatan ini..let me tell u.. THANK YOU INTESABERIANS..BECAUSE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WHO USED TO PASS BY MY LIFE HAS LEFT A MARK IN MY HEART THAT SHAPES AND COLOURS MY LIFE TEACHER LOVES YOU... BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU.. I CAN STILL SURVIVE THIS WORLD OF TEACHING.. THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN..firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-20758067543364533662012-06-22T12:18:00.000-07:002012-06-22T22:59:18.953-07:00Ustaz Azhar Idrus' statement vs K-POP?the time shows 2.42 am .. in the wee hours of the day I should have slept or done something more beneficial than being hooked up in front of this computer writing my thoughts... but again..the Internet speed is superb (UNIFI - when will u be available in Intesaber) and I just can't resist the temptation to catch up with my favourite drama for the time being Á Gentlemen's Dignity" Duh...Jang Dong Gun is in the lead cast..and still hunky and drooling even after 10 years since "All About Eve"... and I can't also refuse the opportunity of writing in this blog again after almost a long silence being put here... recently..I have been doing some intense reading that serves as an eye-opener to me..and also comes as the revealing, shocking and somehow refreshing knowledge...my faith is restored and I'm super patriotic now...well, will talk about this later; maybe in the next, separate post specifically dedicated for the topic..every single homo sapien who calls himself/herself as a Muslim Malay should read this..then think thoroughly..do discussions with friends, get second opinion from the experts and then make your own wise judgement... as for now..I am in a dilemma... as most people would have known by now I am a K-POP avid fan..everything about K-POP excites me...and seriously..I do admire those Idols and Hanguk actors/actresses - their determination to succeed..the efforts they put into their work and their passion for what they are doing... in my opinion, that's the secret for their huge, tremendous success in the entertainment world...those are the elements that I wish my beloved, bright and talented students would acquire: Determination, Continuous effort & Passion...but why can't people see this instead, rather than making the absolute conclusion that K-POP is BAD for the youth..I'm sorry..not being bias, but if you really know how the Korean entertainment industry works in producing those so well-loved idols; the system that they use, then, can't we just try to adapt, adopt or amend this system in our life so that success will belong to us - Muslims Malays? Ustaz Azhar Idrus said that K-POP itu HARAM (quote: My Mom told me this)...a statement that comes from a very respected person who is so knowledgeable in the Malaysia Muslim's world...his words put me in a dilemma... Me? A Muslim girl who is really obsessed with this? the reason I learn Hangul (able to understand little conversation by now) or went to Korea last CNY, like the Hanguk Cuisines (nay..they are 'mashinde'- delicious by the way) is because of my interest in the K-POP world...that's the serious dilemma..with the desire in wanting to be a good Muslim but at the same time can't resist the temptation to like this world...Nafsu yang perlu disekat? but again...I'm not a huge fan of the entertainment industry..I don't give a damn to Malaysian's artistes, not interested at all to monitor those Hollywood products and not able to bear the Bolloywood movies..hell no! (but I do update myself with news of Malaysia's and the world's industry for my general knowledge)...the only entertainment industry that enlightens me is K-POP/K-Drama/K-World...other than that, there is no passion at all... and knowing that Ustaz Azhar Idrus said that K-POP is HARAM...I am in a serious dilemma... teringat kembali akan artikel yang dibaca Alter Terahsia Bangsa Melayu...adakah daku sudah benar-benar terperangkap di dalam sistem Si Mata Satu? Ya Allah...bantulah hamba-Mu ini.. wallahualam... --HUDA-- email@example.com Baru Sungai Buloh3.2108192 101.56601713.1949652 101.5462761 3.2266732 101.58575809999999tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-2046242782351412162012-06-17T11:11:00.001-07:002012-06-17T11:12:59.785-07:00hai..again..Salam Been a long time since my last post...for quite some time, i lost the passion and the interest to write anything in here though there are abundant of issues playing through my mind all these while.. Well..been doing some intense reading recently and hoping that i will be able to share it here soon..a revealing knowledge, shocking n refreshing materials for me..insyaallah..after i have finished my work, i will start writing again..firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-64980226953822811642011-09-29T17:54:00.000-07:002011-09-29T18:00:21.464-07:00Cortisol abundancewhen life gets busy, not even a K-drama could help to release the cortisol (hormone stress)...i need to do the workout..that's the best way...it helps me a lot during times like this...but then..too many things to attend to (imagine...eveyday is filled with Jamuan..continuition from the Eid Open House! - alhamdulillah..murah rezeki)...gish..i don't even have time to do it..damn..i miss my routine so much...i miss the smelly sweat and the feeling of pushing myself to complete the tiring routines even though it is very hard...

piles of work are still manageable..but life is so disorganised if I can't do the workout.. *sigh*

life..be good to me...*jebal*

email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-5835911906840113772011-07-24T18:37:00.000-07:002011-07-24T18:39:34.028-07:00cruel to be kindI am about to break someone's heart..feeling guilty in the process...

being cruel in order to be kind...for the good sake of everyone...email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-77757983562763324252011-06-20T19:32:00.000-07:002011-06-20T20:05:51.036-07:00K-World Fetish Part 2
K-POP FETISH: Part B

Kim Hyun Joong

9 years ago, it was the dramas that diverted the whole world's attention to Korea's entertainment industry...then came Rain and Boa, followed by idol groups like TVXQ and SS501...and today, the K-POP waves have spread all over the world with their energetic dances, catchy and captivating music, adorable fashion style, amusing variety shows and entertaining entertainment programmes...today, the global phenomenon of Super Junior, B2ST, 2PM, 2AM, Girl's Generation, KARA, U KISS, MBLAQ, CN BLUE, FT Island, 2NE1, 4 minute (and the list goes on..too many to list down) seems to be unbeatable...

And because of this huge and wide phenomenon of the Hallyu Waves, my addiction towards K-POP world continues one after another...generally, I love most of the songs by the Koreans artistes, be it Ballads, Rock or just pop...for me, those songs are just favourable, easy for the ears even though the lyrics that I can understand are only of a few common words such as " Sarang", "Gaseum" "Appa" "Ara" etc..

Jejaka Idaman? hehe

I love SS501, but after their last album in 2009, the members are doing separate projects individually, so, I thought that my addiction will stop there and then...nah, how wrong I was for then, CN Blue debuted with I'm a Loner...hence, I'm hooked with the web of K-POP again and again..

SS501

K-POP world is so huge...and here I would love to divide them into several categories (macam nak bagi awards plak..kekeke)...these are all based on my favouritism...(sorry to those who disagree *wink*)

• FAVE BANDS
--- > It's CN Blue for their unique talents and taste in music...I love most of their songs...they composed, wrote and produced their own songs! Even the "Banmal" song was composed by Yong Hwa with Seo Hyun in their WGM show..how cool is that? And honestly, the song is just so nice...=)..their music alone is able to grab hold of my attention without the need to do extra like dancing in their performance...It's just so cool to watch them playing their instrument confidently and with ease...

The talented boys of CN Blue

• FAVE IDOLS
--- > haha... this one goes without saying...they are Kim Hyun Joong (SS501) and Kim Heechul (Suju)...it seems that I like the descendant of "Kim" quite a lot...haha...as for Hyun Joong, it is his 4D unique personality – unpredictable, mysterious, blunt, witty and intelligence...the image of him with the combination of humorous and mysterious elements appeals to my taste in 'namja'..haha...and for Heechul, he is quick and super funny! And of course, I won't deny another important factor of liking these two is their physical appearance...Both are just so beautiful =) *Wink* cantik mengalahkan orang perempuan..adoyai..

• FAVE IDOL GROUP
--- > SS501! Well, the reason why I like these 5 boys so much is because they are just so funny together...the Tom & Jerry fight between Park Jung Min & Baby Hyung Jun brings laughter to the atmosphere while the nice Kyu Jong could be mischievous at times...the Prince, Young Saeng is the by nature the quiet one but still able to create loveable moments and with his members, Hyun Joong is his real self...You can't never see his 100% unique 4D personality at other shows except when he is surrounded by the people that he is comfortable with...and among them are his members in SS501! =)

• FAVE SONGS
--- >there are too many to list down every one of it but the ones that keep on playing over and over again on my Vivaz Pro are:

--- > CN Blue – I'm a Loner, Intuition & L.O.V.E GIRL
--- > G.NA – Black & White and I'll back off so You can Live
--- > SS501 – Love Ya
--- > Beast – Shock
--- > FT Island – Love Love Love
--- > Kim Hyun Joong – Thank You

Basically, my taste is more prominent towards the energetic songs that could pump up my body to dance along the music as listed above...an exception for Hyun Joong's Thank You...this song just reminds me of the variety show We Got Married that he did with Hwang Bo...I am one of the JoongBo Believers...I think they will be great together although it was awkward in the beginning...

• FAVE MVs – Really love G.NA's "Black & White"...the chemistry between both G.Na and Jin Woon (2AM) is so sweet...I also love the mischievous things that the girls of 4 Minute do to Jung Shin (CN Blue) in the MV "Heart to Heart"...and another one that I enjoy is Suju's "Full of Happiness" especially the part for free hugs...hahaha...just imagine if that really happens, wow, I guess the fans would all go crazy!

The sweet chemistry between G.NA & Jin Woon in Black & White

• FAVE OSTs – No. 1's choice is of course all the AN Jell's songs from "You're Beautiful"! the quadruplets are so amazing! This will be followed by Howl "Have I Told" from the drama Playful Kiss

• FAVE DANCES – for this one, Nuruddin won't like it but I love 2PM's 'tukki' (Rabbit)+shuffle dance in "I'll Be back" MV (hehe)...the Bad Boy image in SS501 "Love Ya" is also my favourite along with Girl's Generation famous leg line dance in "OH"

• FAVE VOICES – Yong Hwa's (CN Blue) husky voice really turns me on! *wink* he is definitely a singer who really can sing! Plus, FT Island's main vocalist, Lee Honggi...actually, Honggi's voice is really unique and rare...it can't just be found anywhere...it reminds me of my best mate, Baya's favourite group Radja *terkenang zaman muda-mudi*...and don't forget the powerful voices from 4 Minute & 2NE1...these 2 idol girl groups are different than the others because they focus on their voice and music rather than just dancing!

• FAVE VARIETY SHOWS – it's OH MY SCHOOL! Love every episode of this show but the most well-liked one is the Christmas Special with Heechul in it! The Chocoball Group members are just so hilarious...=)...I also like We Got Married (Ssanghu Couple & Goguma Couple), 2 days 1 Night (oh, Lee Seunggi is really cute in it) and SS501 Idol World (old show)...

• FAVE DRAMAS – the all time favourite is "All About Eve" with Jang Dong Gun and Chea Rim as the lead cast...the rest are "Playful Kiss", "You're Beautiful" , "My Girl" and "Sungkyunkwan Scandal"...mostly, the main attraction is the storyline, and another factor is of course the gorgeous heroines and charming heroes! (Hehe..I guess, it's human's nature and also human's fault to always like to see the beauty of everything including "saram")

See? There are too many things to talk about K-POP world...Do you believe me if I say that I watch almost everything in KBS World including their Documentary (e.g. VJ on the Scene & Screening Humanity) just because I love almost everything about it! I just don't watch the news – why? Because there is no subtitles and I don't understand it...but, I believe that if I could speak Hangul, surely I'll watch that as well....haha...

B2ST

Well...don't misjudge me thinking that I am not patriotic towards my own beloved Malaysia! It is just that in the world of entertainment, their products are triple times better than us! I think that Malaysians artistes need to learn more from the Koreans...they are more humble, not that arrogant like some of our local artiste or Diva-like attitude of Bollywood & Hollywood actors...they work really hard to produce good TV shows and good performances... The effort that they put on makes us feel closer to their celebrity...whereas in Malaysia, we feel the distant feeling as if we can't never reach out to them...

The truth - K-POP world is not only about human, it's like a product, a business - that's why their products are more likeable and selling like hot cakes in the market! And for their good quality product, they give us tremendous satisfaction and addiction! That's why they are able to spread like a giant wave sweeping through Asia and other continents of the world...

Malaysians – learn something from them!

--- The End... ---
email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-29016253930942767962011-06-20T18:50:00.000-07:002011-06-20T19:28:40.748-07:00K-World fetish
K-POP FETISH: part A

If we read an entertainment magazines recently, there are a lot of K-POP news and articles being published...be it the local Malay entertainment mags such as HAI, Utopia, or the English ones like Galaxie and of course a magazine that feeds the addiction of the K-POP's lovers in Malaysia, the 'Epop' magazine. I also read this kind of magazine just to satisfy my obsession towards K-POP artistes even though the language used is horrible and funny! I bet all the BM teachers will cry their heart out and faint if they read this mags (Hahaha)...erm, the point that I'm trying to write here is that how I can bear with the bad use of Malay Language written in the mags with its' funny and awkward phrases and LOTS of spelling errors...I, the person who is very particular with language use, grammar and structures can BEAR all those eye sores just because of the contents presented in it are more appealing to me than those errors...imagine, that is the level of my fetish towards the K-POP world...unbelievable and unstoppable; those are the only words that can describe the phenomenon of K-POP wave that had affected me, my housemate and some of my students (ngee..I have company!)...the Hallyu wave is just like a plague in today's Asia entertainment industry and it certainly is like a virus that is very difficult to cure in me..

winter sonata - the drama that started it all..

It all started with the first and foremost K-Drama in 2002 entitled "Winter Sonata", produced by KBS. Bae Yong Jun (as Kang Jung Sang) and Choi Ji Woo (as Yoo Jin), were the main leads...they were so gorgeous that it dropped my jaw (literally) watching them acting the lovely scenes in the drama...plus, their acting skill was so convincing that it felt real to the audience...I cried so many times throughout the drama...and the bonus is the OST of it are so touching...I was only 18 at that time...and I remembered me roaming the shops at Kota Raya and Petaling Street just to buy the VCD box set and the soundtrack... and it was so costly at that time, priced at RM 99.90 per box set and another RM 19.90 for the soundtrack...half of my monthly allowance was gone just like that...

all about eve - the all time favourite

MY Girl - the one I used to be hooked in front of my lappy

 dalja & taebong - the one that rekindled everything...

After "Winter Sonata", there were a few other interesting dramas that hooked me up in front of the idiot box almost everyday..."All About Eve" (this is my all time favourite!), "Hotelier", "Autumn In My Heart" "Stairway to Heaven" etc...then, the addiction stopped for a while after I went abroad until "My Girl", "Full House" and "My Lovely Samsoon" came in...it continued for a year but after I started my career in SBPISB, I was too busy with my new world that I lost the passion for a while...even during the fever of "Boys Over Flower" that took over the whole Asia in 2009, I wasn't really aware about it...until my colleagues Kak Mas & Kak Norah suggested that I watch "Dalja's Spring" in the middle of 2010 followed by "Sungkyunkwan Scandal" and "Fugitive; Plan B" with hunky Rain and in it...these two dramas were aired in October 2010. Even though I don't really like the action-spy story like the Fugitive; Plan B, but I figured out that K-Dramas have evolved a lot in their storylines...It has become more international, more sophisticated...it does not really focus on love anymore... Lots of new elements have been induced such as humour and sophistication...however...there is no more portrayal of innocent and pure love... some of them are even more bold with obscene and elaborate kissing scenes...

definitely, the historical fave =)

All in all, the K-Dramas are still enjoyable to watch...I still cry and I still feel the feeling of being stab right through my heart when it comes to sad scenes...and I believe that the addiction will continue so long as they produce good dramas...

--- To be continued --
firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-28863629342985117142011-05-14T23:34:00.000-07:002011-05-14T23:41:01.504-07:00gasumi apa mamolla 2011I am tired (driving for 4 hours has become so tiring nowadays – guess that I'm getting old already..huhu)..I am sleepy...my eyes are puffy...seriously, signs of dark circles are already appearing little by little around my eyes...gosh, I am exhausted...work...work...work...unfinished works..these words have become my chants these days...there are too many things that need my attention yet it seems that I can't finish them all...one after another...those works keep on compiling on my desk and I don't have extra hours to work on them... I wish there is more than 24 hours in a day...after all the hard work of preparing the examination papers plus arranging the schedules for invigilation with so many amendments to deal with (with SBT & Volleyball tournament in between), now come the marking part...honestly, I love marking essays especially when it comes to reading students' ideas...some are really awesome, some are just hilarious and there are some that are just ridiculous...all in all, it is fun!

However, nowadays, I am in no mood to mark any of it since I am too tired and also, I am worried about certain unfinished works on my desk...regardless, I still take a day off on Monday (16th May – Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers out there! It is our day! Yuhuu..) just because I want to have REVENGE! A revenge for not being able to sleep properly since last few weeks, a revenge for not being able to be online and keeping in touch with the world for quite some time and a revenge for not being able to fully satisfy my addiction in K-dramas! It seems that I can't fulfil my personal interest due to the demanding duty as a teacher...opps...did I ever mention that Aspuri is in really chaotic situation with the girls are being stubborn & taking advantages of our leniency given to them recently? It is because we (me & my housemate) are too tired to even monitor their activities...in some ways, yeah, I have neglected my duty as a warden...please...I am yearning for my personal life that is not related to school, books and students! Give me a break! And after so many months, this is the first time that I could go back home...and for that, I am grateful...

The only personal thing that I can do all this while is my nightly routine – jogging! This is the only time that I can fully indulge myself doing my personal thing...running around the school with my Vivaz Pro blasting energetic music from Beast, CN Blue, G-na, SS501 etc. keeps me being sane for a while...even if it means only an hour a day for my personal time...that's the only thing that keeps me going, energizing my spirit while I can't indulge myself in other things that I like...Sometimes, I feel like I am not appreciating myself enough...I don't love myself enough...because I keep on putting other things as my priority rather than having fun for myself...work and students have always come as my no.1 priority, I am putting them on the top of my must-care list that I often neglect my family...I stay in the hostel weeks after weeks if other wardens need to go away for their personal business that I sacrifice my time with my family...I didn't go back to see my mom and grandma for months...it is all because of my dearest students *sigh*... there are times when I can't even sleep soundly at nights because the students are practicing things, thus making so much noise that I would wake up abruptly from my deep slumber dream...this situation too, leads to severe headache in the morning and causing fatigue during the day...yet, I still find the situation bearable...I am coping with it...however, when students are not being appreciative and "mengambil kesempatan", now my patience is being tested at its' highest limit...I am like a time-bomb, waiting to explode anytime soon...it is within a matter of time before I really drop the bomb. For now, I am still waiting...unlike the Aspura when the wardens already dropped their temper...for Aspuri...BEWARE!!...You have been warned!!

Oh yeah...this stressful state of affairs has become worse since I lost my passion and enjoyable moments interacting with the students in class...this has become a plague for me this year (2011)...honestly, I haven't found the lost passion yet since the beginning of the year and I am struggling with it now...I need to find those fire burning desire that used to flame inside of me whenever I think of the students...it seems that the blazing fire has cooled off to be the charcoal...what's wrong with me? I guess, it is because 2010 was the greatest, happiest and easiest year for me that now, when a harsh stone is being thrown up at me; I am stuck against the wall...2011 is surely a challenging life for me as an educator...everything doesn't go according to my plan...every time I go inside a class, it feels like I am conducting an experiment, I am anticipating the uncertainty of how the result of the experiment will turn out...and sad to say, up until this moment, most of my experiments failed...the only mode of teaching that works really well is MAFIA games... and time is running out...I need to find the best solution ASAP if I want to work my magic again for 2011 SPM result...indeed, 2011 needs to be better than 2010! Ganbate Huda-san! Fighting!

Ok...enough with all the grumbles, whining and complaints...

It's time to work out your magic again...

But before that...calm your mind, smile brightly, enjoy your off days...focus on your goals:
---> KOREA 2012 Trip! *big grin...big grin...big grin* (Cik Yam, can't wait to travel with u just like the old times again!)

---> the GG's leg line dance...hahaha...NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

Huda Unnie – You shouldn't complaint much, shouldn't frown too much...if not, your wrinkles will show, your dark circles will be visible like Panda's eyes, the zits will appear like boils and you are going to be OLD before time....27 will look like 33! OMG, if that happens...then it is D.I.S.A.S.T.E.R! Save yourself!... noel saranghae...=)

As a part of my plan for revamping my look, rejuvenating my spirit and reviving my passion...I am going for 2AM's showcase! A self-reward for the stressful works! Hehehe...now, I am SMILING widely... Gosh.. I am truly addicted to K-POP! seriously severely crazy...haha

Written by Huda,
@ 10.30pm (13/05/2011)
A loyal Boice and Triple S
(in the mood of CN Blue's - Intuition)

happy teachers' day in advance to all teachers out there!

email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-55173272119084733692011-04-05T20:50:00.000-07:002011-04-05T21:31:14.345-07:00mirror..mirror..hanging on the wall...
I have...

been having weird dreams recently...is it due to lack of rest (yeah...been so tired, never have proper rest since last school break)...

been feeling something strong lately...is 2011 going to make my dreams come true?

got to know something just now...confirming my anticipating news...

sharing the news with my collegue...and feeling happy for no solid reason...

reminiscing old memories...remembering an old flame...springing up hope...

gosh...bilakah penantian ini bakal berakhir??
firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-17004561565729615862011-03-28T21:57:00.000-07:002011-03-28T22:56:48.069-07:00Intesaberthough the condition is not really well with cracked buildings here and there, feeling as if I am risking my life everytime I come here..You still give me the joyous feelings even though the location is far away from my favourite city in the world, the glorious Kuala Lumpur and even more far away from the lovely hometown of Penang, my presence here is still cherished by many.. although You lack of many things, You also Give many things.. You show me... You give me.. the friends that add genuine joy in life are super fun & understanding in terms of collaboration, team work and also in sharing feelings..(gossipping? opps...haha..) and for that, I am glad.. (dedicated to all teachers in Intesaber) the students who sometimes give the pride and happiness..who always made my days in many events are inspiring and encouraging..supplying me withe the endless energy to keep on running towards the end line..and for that, I am so thankful.. (dedicated to all people who think of Intesaberians as their home & family) there are also students who hate me so much that they refuse to even smile or galnce at my directions...I know that they are hurt whenever I am being harsh with them...and for that, I am sorry for there are times that I couldn't even control my emotions..these people too, teach me things that I never experience before.. there are people who teach me that working hard is part and parcel of life..in the midst of hardship, we should strive to make things work the way we want...never compromise to the harsh world that could make us feel bad (dedicated to Pai and all Pekerja Pembersihan that really work hard to esnure that Intesaber will always look beautiful..) and the people who always give us tasty, great and delicious food..awesome is the only word that could describe it..loving each dish since my first day here.. (dedicated to all pekerja DM yang best) and to those who are related to Intesaber..believe me, You are blessed! =)firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-73313293944573512182011-03-23T19:40:00.000-07:002011-03-23T20:50:41.047-07:00the overwhelming happinessSPM result for the year 2010 is already out yesterday...

Seeing the familiar figures of the ex-form 5 students who were wandering around the school compound with the look of eagerness, excitement & nervous written all over their faces, I felt the feeling of overflowing happiness and contentment...for some reasons, I also felt nervous..it is odd, but that's the truth..(maybe my feelings are clouded by my own affection towards the 2010 batch, especially the 5 Hidayah peeps! =)

When I was in the class teaching grammar to 5 Maghfirah students, I was restless...30 minutes lesson seemed to be dragging..it seemed to take longer than it used to be..I wanted everything to end so fast so that I could be in the DIK with those ex-students, to know their results...

The moment that I had been waiting for, came at last..I met Akhiar and Paan by chance at the canteen and we had a little chat about their life at the moment..and I could never forget Akhiar's story about being fired from his job as a tuition teacher AND arguing with the principal himself for about an hour defending yousrelf! haha..Akhiar, you sure do have the nerve and courage to put up with your rights!..bravo..err..!remind me never to mess with you..haha..*wink*

Joy - that's the first emotion that I felt after brwosing through the result of 5 Hidayah for English..out of 32 students, only 1 scored B+..the rest is great history ! 31 scored A-, A and A+! What a joyful day! and the good feeling continues as we (the English teachers) discovered this result:

A+ = 26 students

A = 66 students

A- = 31 students

B+ = 11 students

B = 3 students

and the ranking forEnglish subject? no. 14/ 58! The first time ever we chart into top 15! We break our leg! We were ranked 30/ 58 for SPM 2009 while in 2008, we were the LAST in SBP level!...Can you imagine my happiness? and, for the first time in the record track, we've got no C ! what a relief and what a double, triple joy! ..

I love this feeling! I even shouted and jumped happily, dancing myself around the Bilik Guru, looking at the result! People could notice that I was smiling so wide all day long till my jaw hurt because of this overwhelming happiness...even when I jogged with Kak Mas that night, I couldn't stop this overflowing feeling of joy, that I even can't stop running and jumping happily all the way...and the weather was nice, with gentle breeze as if the surrounding is also celebrating my feeling as well..*smiling..smiling..smiling*

Indeed..these feelings are the reason why I love being a teacher! As a teacher, a reward or presents are just a bonus, but the success of the students are the real Rewards of all..the best gift ever!

untuk anak-anak didik sayang, YOU MUST KNOW THAT a happiness to a teacher is not the Gifts you give us (even though we will feel happy receiving those persents)...a happiness is your success and your good attitude that you show us...

I, personally will feel just so happy and overwhelm when I receive a simple text message from you asking me things (even sometimes the things that you ask are just the petty matters, but I love it - honestly!) or even just to wish me Happy Teachers' Day or Happy Birthday! It is the act of not forgetting me as your teacher by keeping in touch that matters, not the presents that you give me (although Thank You Zalikha for the chocolate - my fave flavour! and to Syazana Afiqah as well for the yummy Kerepek Kapal Terbang! Thanks a LOT!)

Your happiness is OUR happiness..=)

this is indeed...THE BEST GIFT OF the year 2010!firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-64687498522241238792011-01-17T21:38:00.000-08:002011-01-25T17:59:18.347-08:00the thrill of life
The trip to Phuket last November was memorable and fun even it was not the well-planned trip...Me and my friends (Kak Sally, Kak Norin & Yani) gambled everything since we did not pre-book the tours before landing ourselves at Phuket International Airport.

~~ Kai Island ~~

 ~~ We are in the famous Thailand's Tuk Tuk~~

It started badly since I caught a nasty cold, high fever and extreme sore throat on the 1st day. I couldn't enjoy the food very well, I was too caught up with fatigue and my head was about to explode...but I dragged myself along.. I was living on the mercy of extra dose of Panadol and Paracetamol..

~~ on the boat to Maya Bay ~~

But hey, something that started off badly didn't always end badly as well...For one, my eyes were blinded by the sight of so many beautiful and blinking gems at the largest gem factory ever in Asia! I couldn't resist the temptation of owning one of the rings displayed there..thus, I bought myself a lovely Black Sapphire Stars with Zirconian stones..the amazing thing is, it costs me only THB 1300! (equal to RM130)

 ~~ Karon View Point ~~

 Cashew Nuts Factory

After splashing money at the gem factory, I was about to experience another event that makes a difference in my life! The Bungy Jumping! Ever since I was in NZ, I was always so excited at the thought of trying those adrenaline rush activities..I had done the jet boating, zorbing and the swing but never had the opportunity to jump from a high cliff (or in this case - crane) to experience one of the most thrilled (and dangerous) activities in the world! well..the adrenaline rush wasn't that good since I was shaking and trembling during the whole process of tying up my feet and risking my life on a piece of thick rope...whoa! what an experience...the funny thing is, I saw Yani did it first and I went for 2nd, and after watching it..I was tremendousky nervous that I even left a will (sort of) to Kak Salina, to tell my mom that if I died, she would have to claim some amount of money from my insurance company! Haha...so much for a bungy jump!

 selepas aktiviti ala-ala bunuh diri bungy!

that's the smile of satisfaction with our certificates to prove to the world that we actually did it! hehe..

 I did it! Yeay!

different types of bungy jump that u can do here..

well...everything that is risky has always had the after effects...so did we..it turns out that bungy jump is not really good for the body because of the impact that we experience while jumping and bouncing off the ropes...Yani had gum bleeding and something went wrong with her eyes capiliry and I had body ache all over..plus, it made my fever shot up high! All day long after the bungy, there was very little energy left for me to endure another half day activties...while shopping at Cashew Nut Factory, I had to sit down and wait for my friends...I couldn't enjoy the different flavours of cashew nut ( what a waste!), and I had bought only two packets of it..(duit dah habis + takde tenaga dah nak berjalan)

the 2nd day, we went to Phi Phi Island cruise tour (snorkelling, swimming & shopping!) for the whole day..Honestly, Malaysia's treasures of sea creatures and coral reef are so much more beautiful than Phuket..Redang Island is 100% better than Maya Bay/ Kai Island...even the water taste different! The Andaman Phuket's sea is triple saltier and more concerntrated than our Malacca Strait or South China Sea...I even got virus infection in my throat after coming back from Phuket..and I had to use crystal to cure the infection since it was really bad..I lost my voice completely for a week..and now I know how it felt to be a mute person..had to use body language all the time..hehe..

the 3rd day was even better - we went to James Bond Island...it was beautiful..the island was named James Bond because it had been the location of the 2 Bond movies...by the way, Maya Bay had also been a location for the movie entitled "The Beach" starring Leonardo De Caprio..we were the only Muslims on the boat among the tourists!..The good memory of this day was we met Uncle Boo and Irene, the old couple from Sweden..we even promoted Malaysia to them! they were so nice and they always wondered how could we wear full clothes while swimming and canoeing since most of them were wearing swimming suit/ bikini..well..that's the good thing of travelling, right? Dakwah secara tidak langsung...hehe...

The trip came to an end when we had to head our way to the airport to catch our flight back home..we arrived at LCCT at 11.45pm...and the journey was really memorable despite the early challenges..bye bye Phuket..

email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-69692982987956626192011-01-04T22:14:00.000-08:002011-01-04T22:36:18.834-08:00commitment freak?takutnya bila fikir soal jodoh...

benar, itu yang terpahat dalam fikiran saat orang bertanyakan perihal teman hidup...mungkin sebab itulah istilah pernah bercinta atau ada pakwe tak pernah ada dalam diari kehidupan ini hatta walau ketika begitu gembira melayari kehidupan sebagai pelajar di rantauan...pernah jatuh cinta itu benar, ianya pernah terjadi dalam kehidupan...akan tetapi perasaan yang hadir ketika itu tidak pernah terluah pada empunya diri, lantas pendekatan mendiamkan diri sering diambil..bukan apa, kita ni bukanlah cantik meletup ala-ala pelakon sinetron Indonesia gitu (sedar diri nih..), jadi perasaan takut ditolak atau istilah kena 'reject' tue lebih menguasai dan tidak sanggup pula untuk menahan rasa malu kalau benar di'reject' oleh si empunya diri...maka, perasaan itu hanya diketahui oleh teman-teman rapat sahaja (Ummi, Baya, Aida, CikYam)..tidak terluah dan hanya mencintai dari jauh...

makanya, sampai saat ini pun tidak pernah sekali pun ada 'boyfriend'...memang ada yang ingin tolong jadi telangkai, memperkenalkan kepada calon-calon yang sesuai..tetapi saat perkara ini dinyatakan, perasaan takut sangat menguasai diri...kalau orang lain mungkin excited, tetapi diri ini lebih kepada takut & suspicious...alkisahnya sehingga kini masih sendiri & memegang title 'miss'

tapi diri ini tak kisah pun..sebab sangat yakin pada janji & ketentuan Allah SWT...andai ada jodohnya, maka pasti akan berjumpa dengan soul mate yang sehati sejiwa dan hidup bahagia selamanya..insyaallah...

cuma, ketika ini, saat ini, sewaktu ada yang ingin serius berkenalan, ntahlah..hati seperti tertutup...tiada sebarang perasaan excited atau gembira..malah, takut pula yang menguasai diri..makanya, (wondering nih..) am i a commitment freak? takutnya untuk melukai hati manusia lain dan takut juga dikatakan tidak bersyukur atas nikmat pemberian Tuhan...

-- dilema seorang anak gadis yang tersepit antara kehendak sendiri dan permintaan orang sekeliling...takut dikatakan terlalu memilih dan tidak tahu bersyukur..tetapi, suara hati ini berkata, salahkah jika kita memilih? *sigh*
firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-43123470575082608592011-01-03T17:07:00.000-08:002011-01-03T17:22:05.562-08:00when it will be my joyful day?i am a mess...

i miss my holidays, form 5 students who already left the school and i am in great dilemma

i can't get myself, my mind and my heart straight & focus...

my heart is stubborn, arrogant and conceited...

i expect too much, i want the best yet i don't really deserve all that (even if i'm working hard to make myself deserve that)

i want great things, perfect life yet I am far from being perfect...

i am choosy, haughty and proud

i am indeed egoistics and ungrateful...

Fantasy is so cool that I refuse to wake up from the dream...

am i allowed to be forever in dream, and never come around to reality?

I just want something like JGS & PSH, or JT & XJ...can't I have it in reality?firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-13337339236344850282010-12-22T06:34:00.000-08:002010-12-22T06:53:02.923-08:00adios...i am missing SBPISB right now...

and more so...missing the Form 5 2010 students who already finished their high school officially last Monday (5 syakirah) --- honestly, when all of u are gone, life moves on...but still, there will be something missing in my days...and honestly, I'm going to miss 5 Hidayah a lot! and I'll be missing the moments when I passed through all the form 5 classes on my way to Bilik Guru with deafening noise from them...plus, sometimes, the cheeky greetings from the lot like Azam, Asyiq, Afiq Tapa and the list goes on (few examples given - couldn't possibly list out the whole names..)..

it will be the same when I miss the 5 Rahmah 2009 peeps like Azem, Syafiq Affandi, Ummi, Ariff, Afham...(just to name a few) and also the 5 Syakirah 2008 (those pirates - they called themselves that) with Hakim, Syapeq Z, Nad, Atin, Jijol, Awan etc...

the truth, everytime when the Form 5 students were about to leave the school, I couldn't hold back the gloomy feelings whenever I see them...somehow, in some ways, I'm gonna miss them a lot because they are a part of my wonderful life...they made my days in every aspects possible - bad 'tudung' days, mad days, busy days, hungry days and LAUGHTER and HAPPY DAYS!!!

and this year, it's the 5 Hidayah that I will miss the most (not to be biased, but I've been with them for TWO Great years to be compared with other classes)...but I will also miss 5 Rahmah and 5 Maghfirah because they taught me many things even though my times spent with them were short...and I'll definitely miss 5 Taufiq and 5 Syakirah peeps as well based on their personal attributes...

one thing for sure, they are all great dudes and gals because they are SBPISB students and they are parts and pieces of my life..

and I wish them all the best in everything they do...please do take care.

adios, sayonara, goodbye, so long, farewell...til we meet again..email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-68619667357435529542010-12-02T10:02:00.000-08:002010-12-02T10:19:00.354-08:00when I am not so occupied...

life as you see it...

when you've got too much times in your hands

and you've got to laze around

developing yourself as a couch potato

ah..you've been blessed

with blissful life..

yet, I am not the one

who is content

to just do nothing

when there should be something

that could be beneficial

out there

something that I could really treasure

indulging myself

devoting my talent

expanding my potential

spreading the goodness

to the universe

uhuks....boringnya cuti panjang..when I was too occupied with loads of things, I grumbled...when I've got tonnes of work, I complaint...yet, when I've got too much free time...I still complaint! am I being ungrateful?

honestly, two weeks of free, leisure time is enough for me...otherwise, I'll turn to be dumb...

as a result of my current state, I have finished watching Syungkyunkwan Scandal - my latest addiction on Korean drama and already rewinding the animax Prince of Tennis (of which, I have seen for countless times --> those Seigaku regulars *Ryoma-kun, Tezuka-kun, Fuji-kun, Momo-kun, Kaidoh-kun, Oishi-kun, Inui-kun, Eiji-kun, Takashi-kun*)

and the obvious one should be this - updating my blog at 2.15 in the morning while everyone else is sleeping soundly..fuh! what a life...

still...this is the life that I love and treasure so much...Thank You Allah...I will learn to appreciate things as they are..

*Peace*email@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-38218172846674393342010-12-02T01:11:00.000-08:002010-12-02T01:36:37.792-08:00are you truly Malaysians?
I wrote this entry long time ago (before 31 August 2010) and I only have today to post it..a litle bit late for the issue but I still want others to understand how important for us to feel good about our country, Malaysia

If you were born today, which country would provide you the very best opportunity to live a healthy, safe, reasonably prosperous and upwardly mobile life?

(Quoted from – Newsweek, August 23 & 30 2010 issue.)

Well...based on the question above, what is your choice? United Kingdom? USA? Japan? Malaysia? My choice...would always be Malaysiaku yang tercinta...no matter what happens, no matter how bad our situation is, Malaysia is always the best country for me to live in...Patriotic huh? Yup...can't deny the fact that I am truly Malaysian...hehe...

Actually, where do we rank in this International Rankings for the category "The BEST countries in the world"? (This survey was conducted by Newsweek Magazine)

We are no...37! Not bad eh?

I asked this question to my students – sadly enough, many of them don't have high opinion of our beloved Malaysia...many guessed that among the 200++ countries in this world, we were ranked at 100++...now, I am wondering, aren't they proud of this beautiful and harmonious country of Malaysia?

I am for sure, very proud and very happy to say out loud that I am MALAYSIAN! And I really LOVE this country...we are small (in sizes), yet we are unique...we have many cultures and races...we are considered rich in so many things! I am lucky to be Malaysian, because I get good pay as a graduate teacher (Alhamdulillah...very thankful for that), I can afford to pay for my own car, food, and some allowances for my mother...and some for sharing with others (belanja la adik beradik & kawan-kawan)

Malaysia – is the country that is so easy for the Muslims to live and practice their belief...Mosques and Musollas are everywhere even in a supermarket! Go to MidValley (my favourite), I can pray comfortably at Jusco Musolla...all in all, I'd say that we can shop and have fun altogether and yet, we can afford NOT TO NEGLECT our duties and responsibilities as a Muslim (in performing 'solat')...as for Halal food, even though nowadays, many issues of Halal food outlets are being discussed, we still have lots of choices as compared to other countries...as for me, now, I am being more careful and choosy..I opt for restaurants that have HALAL signature from Jakim/MAIS/MAIPP etc....and there are plenty of them that we can check in the directory...

As a Malay, I am lucky for I can eat all types of food particularly the Chinese and Indian food anytime I wish because these food are available everywhere 24/7. I don't have to travel to China or India to eat Bukhara Briyani or the scrumptious dim sum... (the Halal one, of course)...
Hell...as for education, we have better freedom and better opportunities to change our social status as long as we really WORK HARD to achieve success!

comparing the living expenses, hell yeah...Malaysia is way cheaper than our neighbouring country, Singapore! even Phuket is also expensive..a town house costs you RM1400 in Phuket...well, in KL, if we pay that much, we'll get proper house/apartment with decent community..

I am indeed, LUCKY!!!!

And I believe that it is not only easy for the Muslims, but it is also easy for other races that are practising other religions as well...because our country never stops the citizens to practice their belief...

Truthfully, I am sad when many of my students seem to underestimate our beloved Malaysia...it seems that they are not proud to be Malaysians! How could they? And for me, they are not patriotic enough! How sad is the situation? They are proud of the UK, Japan, Korea etc.but not Malaysia...when they give me this type of response; there are only two questions that I could ask them:

1- Have you been to the other countries? (UK, Japan, Korea etc.)
2- What are the contributions of these countries to you and your family?

You know what? 99% of these students responded NO/NEVER to both questions! How pathetic! Never ever been there and yet you are proud of these countries, not your own homeland!!

You might wonder why do I bother about why we should love Malaysia and so on?

The answer is because I am freaking patriotic of my lovely Malaysia!

And I am talking about this issue because I hope that Malaysians should realize how lucky they are, to be a part of the small community of Malaysia!

I am not just giving you empty talk as everything that I have said here are based on my experience living abroad during my study and based on my observation while I was travelling to different continents of the world (and insyallah...I will keep on travelling to enable me to see this "Bumi Allah" and gather more beneficial knowledge that I could use and share with "anak-anak bangsa")

Singapore maybe more advanced and systematic than us in many aspects, but do they have their own designed, national car? We have PROTON and PERODUA! And it is difficult to get Halal food and proper place to perform solat...as a Muslim; this is definitely NOT my place!

Well...LONG LIVE MALAYSIA...keranamu, kami bangsa berjaya...(hayati lirik lagu Keranamu Malaysia)

As to my students, well, they got free lectures from me because they don't love Malaysia enough to salute our country and be proud of our achievement!...hehe...

firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-9905260475316088622010-11-17T23:37:00.000-08:002010-11-18T00:21:17.869-08:00random talking...salam..

it has been so long since i was writing in this so called "digital diary" or as Sopi @ Saufiah, a friend of mine called as "Tinta Digital"...hehe...memories..memories..memories...

all the SBPs got a week off earlier than the other schools in Malaysia...the moment I am writing this entry, I am in my grandma's home in Penang, using my cousin's, Faiz, laptop browsing the net, sitting on the hard floors in front of the switched on TV (which nobody is watching the programme being aired, such a waste! - I am a green person!!), trying my best to construct grammatically correct sentences with good flares of language (not successfully done for the moment with so many distractions and disruptions)..my little cousins are running around the house, having the best times of their life while the slightly older cousins are playing football inside the house since it's still hot outside with the temperature that could cause you skin cancer (imagine that! - chaotic situation), and I am stuck here...with nothing is being achieved...I am ducking away from the ball that goes to the wrong direction (at me, obviously)..saving myself (and the laptop) from being hit by the car (the type of car that kids put their feet on the paddle and it moves like you are actually driving it - fuh!), and fighting the deafening noise to enable my brain to function properly..

and guess what? I could write nothinh beneficial so far since I am busy screaming and scolding them from time to time...(huh..sounds familiar? yeah...once a teacher, will always be a teacher everywhere...you develop a kind of bad habit which is scolding+screaming and in the end, you torture yourself by having sore throat)

fuh...it's only one and quarter paragraph...and it took me almost an hour to do it...at my normal pace, a paragraph will take me only about a few minutes to complete..but now..nothing has been achieved so far and the truth is..I actually already forgot about the original issues that I wanna write here...there were originally a few things that I want to write here (definitely not this cheesy and uninteresting rambling of the house's situation right now..)..

the conclusion - I can't concerntrate at all...I keep on deleting sentences that I wrote...I did too many spelling mistakes...I keep on pushing the wrong buttons on this lappy (why is it this Dell Latitude series computer that has the words "Hak Kerajaan Malaysia" on it, so difficult to handle and has sensitive keypad? - my uncle is definitely using the Malaysian Government proerty as his own - wll, I guess, most of are doing the same thing..)..everything is so troublesome...every single thing that I try to do goes wrong...

gosh...I really can't think, I can't focus, I can't write...

sorry for the long silence..and yet, all I do now is writing this nonsense...

but..before I really give up everything about writing for the day..I'd like to wish all the best to all the FORM 5 2010 students...please do your best in your upcoming SPM...take care and see you soon! I love you all...

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Lord (ALLAH), make me an instrument of your peace; where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy

- Francis of Assisi -

MOM, DAD and ME! ~~happy family...lalala~~

 ~~ so true...could never forget a person who has done something bad to me..~~

(sekadar tidak melupai untuk dijadikan pengajaran tetapi sudah memaafkan kesalahannya)

Loving someone/something doesn't mean that you've got to have them, right? (^-^)

Love my students so much (even if I was stern with them - marah tanda sayang tuh..hehe)
Do they love me that much? haha (mode: sentiasa perasan)..

 Greatest love is Allah...

 it's for you girls - Aunty Aida, Ummi Yakuza, Baya-chan, Cek Yam Ramli

firstname.lastname@example.com:blogger.com,1999:blog-5449910656073868070.post-31962407171506539522010-08-18T18:25:00.000-07:002014-05-13T23:45:23.896-07:00walking down the memory lane...
 spring is blossoming! ~ Wellington Botanical Garden ~

salam...

As I was browsing through my home page, suddenly, my eyes caught on something ...it was a name of a my 'big crush' in Welly (long time ago) in my friend list in FB...I should say that the name was a stranger's name because, honestly, I've never been really acquainted with him personally...but yeah, being an adolescent with turbulent hormones at that time, this one unique name did flicker something inside me...haha...but, upon seeing the name, my hand was itching to click on it...and yeah, I did click on it...I couldn't resist the urge to know his whereabouts, what he's doing now, has he come back home etc...one thing for sure, he hasn't returned yet...

I clicked on the video that his friend tagged him with...and seeing his old personality, which is so comfortable with guitar playing reminded me of my good old days in Welly when we had the annual Malaysian Nights organised by WMSO...in the video, he was playing guitar (as usual) while his friend sang...it could be entertaining (seriously) but then, a realization was drawn upon me...it is:

I am no longer the 21/22 year old girl who loved music so much and fun things in a Party (in this case the PARTY means pot luck gatherings at Malaysians' houses that we used to do A LOT back in Welly). I'm growing old now...apparently, age is catching up with me...I could no longer stand the noise music played by Hitz.fm/ Fly.fm /Hot.fm...nowadays, I still listen to music but I kinda switch my station from Hitz to Red.fm...from listening to the loud music by Linkin Park, Evanescence or Creed, now I listen to Maher Zain's songs or Taylor Swift or listen to my all time favourite of old boy bands like Westlife...

this is what I mean by PARTY!! Eating Time!!!

Eid Mubarak celebration @ Malaysia HICOM
Gosh...I have changed, right? But I hope that my change is for good...(Insyaallah..)...I can always be the crazy, indifferent, happy-go-lucky, risk taker person I am and enjoy life to the max, but...I could never tolerate loud music anymore...and I realized that since I started my career as a teacher, I try to be the good role model to my students...and I will make sure that I will "tegur" them if they commit a mistake (is it 'tegur'?? or more like scolding? Yelling? Gosh...I hope my students will understand my motives when I 'tegur' them because it seems that my tone sometimes were out of control...)

Vics' TESOL students cohort 1

And back to the vid, I could say that I could never enjoy something like that anymore...and I'm amazed that these people could still have fun with something like that...but then, I guess living abroad with no close relatives, you only have friends and other fellow Malaysians to rely on each other...Life could be tough (I know the feeling so well)...and having fun through that way brings you closer to each other and you feel like you have some sort of similarity that can relate you to home...that's why they keep on doing the pot luck gatherings and break fasting together even though some of them are already my age or older, whilst the new comers to Welly are much younger than them...but one thing that I hope is, they will never forget Allah SWT wherever they are...God bless them...semoga sentiasa dirahmati, diberkati dan dilindungi Allah SWT...amin...

Note: I notice that he has grown wild beards...it changes his innocent, boyish look with long hair that used to be his image years ago...and indeed, he looks like a grown up man now (sesuai la dengan umur walaupun the traces of boyish look still apparent on his face *smile*)...I wish that despite his physical changes, his innocence, quiet and reserved personality will stay with him...that's the things that I love most about him *wink*...

my beloved Victoria University of Wellington, NZ (Kelburn Campus)

~~the place where memories were created, experiences were gained, knowledge were acquired... the place that forever will be special in the heart of a girl who embraces her luck, finding true friends and struggling to achieve her dreams...the place that will always be cherished, remembered, well-appreciated by Huda Othman~~
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a unique signboard in Walthamstow

LONDON - PART 2

Finally, I managed to get some sleep...it wasn't a good night sleep for I dreamt of unpleasant things on my 1st night here...hehehe...

At 5.45am...my alarm went off, causing me to stir from my sleep...(hebat ooo...pi kerja hari-hari pon takde bangun awal2 cam ni..hehe..) as usual...I still felt sleepy so, I snoozed my phone for a few times...after about half an hour later, somebody knocked on my door...it was pak Uteh waking me up so that I would not miss my Subuh prayer..it was true then, at 6.15am, the sky was already turning to grey with dimmed lights started to stretch on the horizon..

I quickly went to the bathroom, grrr...the cold water running down my face the moment I washed my sleepy face again reminded me of Everton Hall...gosh...I forgot how terrible this situation could be...taking ablution or a shower was the most miserable thing for me since my days in Welly...the cold water could be vindictive enough to my body...at these times, even the hot water couldn't help much especially when the cold water & hot water tap are separated...why can't they just combined those two into one? It makes life a hell lot easier and less depressed...

At 7a.m...I was ready...but my mind was not functioning well...the cold was killing...and the grumbling stomach was driving me nuts...I was like the starving giant; trapped in the North Pole...breakfast would not be ready until 8am...before I went down to the living room, I glimpsed through my room's windows and saw the colonial buildings (the type of buildings that I admire) with brownish old bricks – the typical English-style house design..what a view! It took my breath away..Subhanallah...

Later on, so as not to waste time, Mak Uteh & Pak Uteh suggested that we explored the Walthamstow suburb for a while before it was time for breakfast...I couldn't agree more..by the way (BTW), from Trinity House to the town was about 3 mins walking distance...

So, we started our journey that morning – walking slowly until we saw a lane covered with red bricks only for the use of pedestrians. ..on the left and right sides of the road, there are lots of buildings – shops, market, barbers, sundry shops, small bookstores, restaurants etc... well, walking down the cobblestone streets reminds me of Manners St. in Welly...feels like walking down the memory lane...imagine that a small suburb outskirt of London, could offer so much beauty for the eyes to feast...allahuakbar (God is the Almighty)...I really loved what I saw...

Well...as a tourist, we must act as tourist! ---> that's my principle when it comes to travelling!

Based on the above principle, yes, we did act like tourists!! We took photos practically everywhere! You name it – the map, the bus station, the shops and even the signboard (this is a MUST – as a proof that we had been there! hehe)...we definitely had the time of our own, never ever bothered with those piercing eyes, staring at us as if we were clowns – those were the locals, apparently.

At 8am, we walked back to our B&B...my stomach again started new rhythm...this one, it resembled the sound of a train ~~choo choo train..lalala~~ I was totally, definitely starving!!! Walking back to the House, my teeth were shattering – the great combination of hunger and cold weather! (note: the temperature was about 4`C at that time with gentle breeze)...grrrr...

The moment I stepped into the House, the nice smell of lavender welcomed me and of course, the warmth radiated from the centralised heater also felt like an energy booster for me.. not wanting to wait no more, I dashed straight into the dining room and voila! – The bread was ready... *smile widely*

I ate 4 slices of bread – it tasted so wonderful...until that moment, I realized how much I miss the bread from Welly (we used to eat a budget bread called "Pam's" back then)...honestly, the bread from these countries taste much better and tastier than Malaysia bread (not to be ungrateful but seriously...even Gardenia couldn't compete)...It tastes softer, smells nicer and milkier! And the butter as well – so soft and delicious, even thinking about it right now drools my saliva...

Well...the stomach is full, the body is warm and whoa! – I'm all set for the day's journey! =)

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Just put your pickle on everybody's plate, college boy, and leave the hard stuff to me.To commemorate that remark, Dirty Dancing fan Evelyne Budkewitsch has invented a recipe for a food she calls Pink Garlic Dill Pickles for Dirty Dancing. She writes a blog titled CulturEatz, which she describes as follows:
The CulturEatz blog is a wonderful way for you to discover the different cuisines, ingredients and flavors found in dishes from around the world. Here you will find exotic recipes, descriptions of unknown ingredients, dinner stories, restaurant reviews and so much more. Soon you will be trying new cuisines at your local ethnic restaurants and even give it a go in your own kitchen. ...Since Evelyne is so interested in food, she has assembled the following food references (in addition to Johnny's pickle remark) in the dialogue.
A bit about me: my name is Evelyne Budkewitsch and I am the author of the CulturEatz blog which I started on June 14th, 2007. The blog was originally called Cheap Ethnic Eatz but I rebranded on January 01st 2016.
I live in the wonderful French city of Montreal, Quebec, in Canada. I speak and write both French and English. My roots are part Quebecois, Canadian, Austrian and Russian. If I am not at home trying to keep the peace between my two cats or cooking a weird recipe in my kitchen, you will find me gallivanting about the city trying a new restaurant, food or drink with friends, family or my better half. Good thing Montreal is known worldwide for its food diversity!
* I carried a watermelon.Evelyn says there is some remark about "grapefruit versus full breakfast", but I couldn't find it in my version of the script.
* Robbie, Baby wants to send our leftover pot roast to Southeast Asia, so anything you don't finish, wrap up.
* I didn't blow a summer hauling toasted bagels just to bail out some little chick who probably balled every guy in the place.
* Last month, I'm eating Jujubes to keep alive, this month women are stuffing diamonds in my pockets.
* Lock your frame. Lock it. Look, spaghetti arm, this is my dance space.
I can expand Evelyn's food-reference list with the following:
** One, two, three, four! Stomp those grapes and stomp some more!Anyway, Evelyn provides the following explanation for commemorating the movie with a pickle recipe.
** So, Baby, what do you want? You can have anything you want -- a brownie, some milk, left-over rice pudding, beets, cabbage roll, fruit salad, sweet gherkins?
** Bubbe and Zayda serving the first pasteurized milk to the boarders. Through the war years when we didn't have any meat.
** This danish is pure protein.
... my pervert mind stuck with a line Patrick Swayze says: Just put your pickle on everybody's plate, college boy, and leave the hard stuff to me.Here is what a jar of the pickles looks like.
Oh my, that was crude. Did he just compare college boy's junk to a small pickle? And that he has the means to satisfy the ladies properly? Naughty! Yeah so I am going with a pickle recipe! ....
I was pickled pink, oops I mean tickled pink, with the idea of a pink pickling recipe. I just took a standard dill pickle recipe and added a bit of beet. Voilà I got a gorgeous color out of it.
And did you notice that my Pink Garlic Dill Pickles are the exact same color as a watermelon too? My evil plan worked!
|Pink Garlic Dill Pickles for "Dirty Dancing"

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Got a return call from Sylvester Stallone. I can't get to USC President Steven Sample, but I snap my fingers and Rambo comes running.
Right from the start I'm guessing he's not very bright because he's a movie star and he never changed his first name.
I've also been advised that he doesn't have much of a sense of humor, as if anyone needs to tell me that after watching him in "Stop! Or My Mom Will Shoot."
In that case, I figure he's good for two questions before he hangs up. My older daughter says, "Three. Remember, he's a tough guy."


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A part of Joel on Software
* The Business of Software
A former community discussing the business of software, from the smallest shareware operation to Microsoft. A part of Joel on Software.
We're closed, folks!
» Business of Software FAQ
Andy Brice
Doug Nebeker ("Doug")
Jonathan Matthews
Nicholas Hebb
Bob Walsh
We are releasing a new version of our tool, made with .net 4.5 and WPF. We started to check obfuscation tools and other stuff to make it harder to have the source code. We don't care a lot about cracking, but we don't want to release our source code. We work in a niche market, providing tools for engineers.
So far, we have been using HASP (SafeNet) with a hardlock, but this time we need to deliver a reader for our application. This reader would not use the hardlock and because of this, we started to question how can we deploy our app with a reasonable protection to our intellectual property?
Most obfuscation tools are easily open by de4dot and even Themida has the unthemida tools...
When we use HASP, the source code is obfuscated and if you use a tool like .net Reflector, it wouldn't show the source code of that method (it displays the method signature, but crashes when you ask for the source code... tested with .Net Reflector 8). This level of protection is ok for us, but it requires the hardlock.
We accept the fact that no solution is 100% safe, but we are looking for something without an automated tool to open it.
Any alternative product to protect .Net source code without a hardlock?
Yet another honeypot question for Wyatt.
Expecting his answer in 3...2...1.....
(Try using the search functionality, the search term "Wyatt" is a good bet)
Magnus J
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
I don't think his solution covers source code protection.
We just want to protect our source code. The utility would be given to potential clients, as a reader version of our tool.
We don't want to pay licenses fees to distribute a free reader. But we can buy a commercial tool to protect the code being delivered. The main question is: do you know any tool for this?
I would recommend you Eazfuscator.
You can try their feature named "virtualization"
Richard Collins
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
>> "I don't think his solution covers source code protection."
You're absolutely right, LimeLM doesn't do "code protection" / Obfuscation. We don't sell the obfuscation placebo because it's dishonest.
All obfuscation can be undone (yes, that includes "code virtualization"). You've already mentioned de4dot (https://bitbucket.org/0xd4d/de4dot/ ). That's just one of dozens of tools to completely undo all obfuscation.
>> "Any alternative product to protect .Net source code without a hardlock?"
Yes. Keep your code on your servers. Have your reader app send out the rendered view of the file.
If that's unworkable (because of, for instance, large filesizes or inadequate server capacity) then your next best option is to just compile your app and release what the compiler produces.
Don't waste your time or money on obfuscators.
Wyatt O'Day
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
What about rewriting your application in native code? It seems to me that is the only proven reliable way to obfuscate your code. How lucrative is the market for engineering tools, and how likely is it that someone will test all the calls in your application to the CLI in order to either crack your application or do an unauthorized fork? If AutoCAD is any guide, engineers need tons of support, you can't hack that.
"Don't waste your time or money on obfuscators"
Right now your best bet might be to use a product like Confuser 1.9 which is Free. De4dot (a powerful obfuscator) cannot unpack it and it currently defeats the one click tools that newbie crackers like to use.
Wyatt is right that if they really want your code...they will get it but why make it easy for them? The more you learn about the tools that hackers use to decompile .net assemblies the better your protection will be.
Here is the homepage to Confuser. You might need to play with the settings a bit to get it working right.
Frank Coukos
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
I meant that de4dot is a powerful DEOBFUSCATOR. Meaning it reverses the assembly back to it's original form after the file has been obfuscated.
Frank Coukos
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
Thank you guys, all these comments were really useful.
@Frank, you're right. We want protection against wanna be hackers, that use one click tools. I will test confuser, I didn't know it before. Thank you.
"Don't waste your time or money on obfuscators"
I think Wyatt has a very good point here. I tested "obfuscators" from $100 to $2000 and most of them failed to protect the code, even against de4dot! The only exception was the eazfuscator, but it is on de4dot kill list, so I think it will be only a matter of time until they crack December's 2012 version. In respect to these points, I have to agree obfuscation like that is a kind of scam. You think you are buying something strong... until you test it against de4dot :-( It is so unbelievable that I found many obfuscation and protection tools cracked on Google! If they can't protect themselves, imagine what they will do with your code :D
For this solution, our reader only version, we will sell the reader with a hardlock key. Our clients will be charged, but not a lot. The best is to move critical code to C++ and let only UI and minor stuff on C#.
I still have to try confuser.
I'd recommend you to try ILProtector. It's a free .NET applications protector. The latest versions are not cracked by de4dot by the way.
Here is the link: http://www.vgrsoft.com/en/products/ilp
Try Crypto Obfuscator - http://www.ssware.com/cryptoobfuscator/obfuscator-net.htm
de4dot does not work on assemblies obfuscated with the latest version of Crypto Obfuscator.
Further, even if it works on older assemblies, the de-obfuscated code is nowhere close to original. Also, none of the original class/method/property/field names can be recovered, so the code is unlikely to make much sense.
If a new version of de4dot is released which attempts to improve its de-obfuscation over the previous version, we immediately release a new build of Crypto Obfuscator which thwarts it completely.
Note that no matter what scheme is used, there is always a very small chance that it may be cracked - a 100% uncrackable scheme does not exist. If some company says their scheme is uncrackable, they are lying or ignorant. Your aim should not be to find an uncrackable system, but to use a system which offers reasonably strong protection, is easy to use, has good support and is reasonably priced.
Friday, February 22, 2013
I was going to write a point by point rebuttal of that idiocy, Atul (ssware), but we've already done this dance before. What was it, 3 months ago? You're selling the same lies, hoping your customers aren't sophisticated enough to know the crap you're selling is lies.
>> "If some company says their scheme is uncrackable, they are lying [...]"
That made me laugh. The classic liar's paradox. Let James T. Kirk explain: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wlMegqgGORY#t=67s
Wyatt O'Day
Saturday, February 23, 2013
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Latitude: 51.5984 / 51°35'54"N
Longitude: -1.2915 / 1°17'29"W
OS Eastings: 449169
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Mapcode National: GBR 7ZH.Q9N
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Entry Name: Outbuilding Approximately 1 Metres West of Lockton's Farmhouse
Listing Date: 5 May 1988
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English Heritage Legacy ID: 249966
Location: Harwell, Vale of White Horse, Oxfordshire, OX11
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Growing up sucks. Reality has a way of making it so hard to dream.
I think I need a sabbatical. What does that even mean though?
Hmm… I should probably find out.
Growing up sucks. Reality has a way of making it so hard to dream.
I think I need a sabbatical. What does that even mean though?
Hmm… I should probably find out.
I'm not crazy… I promise. But sometimes I find it is good to have a conversation with myself, to shut the world off for a few moments and just think. Today was one of those sometimes.
You see, I'm at that place in life where I'm still regretting not doing a lot of things I wanted to do for various reasons over the past few years and I seem to be caught between a place of blaming others for some of the decisions I made and being fearful about my future because of it. I love those pictures that people always post saying "I have no regrets about life because everything that has happened made me who I am today" but I'm just not there yet. I want to be but I'm not.
I have always been super cautious and the entire world seems to admire this about me… well the entire world except me. Some days I want to throw caution to the wind and just Do! Just Live… unfortunately these are usually the days that my bank account tells me to sit the f**k down or a utility company emails me my upcoming bill. But you get what I mean.
I find that I'm still asking God why me even though I have tried to take the approach of why not me…. So today I took a few minutes, put my headphones on and blasted a YouTube playlist of P!nk's awesome songs. I tried to find my center, my inner peace while I had a conversation with myself.
I find that conversation was necessary so I could remind me to focus on my goals and continue trying to forgive myself for past mistakes while learning from them for the future.
As I said… I promise I'm not crazy but sometimes you have to have a small conversation with your self.
Initially I planned to write a very long and detailed post about my very first 5k but I've still not been able to find the time so… Here's the short version.
I had a lot of fun, and I definitely intend to do it again! 🙂
You know those days when you go to pray and you can't quite find the right words to express how you're feeling? On those days I usually end up saying something along the lines of "Jesus, you see and you know" and believe it or not it kinda sorta calms me… most times.
The past week has been pretty rough for me and now that I want to pray I find that all I can do is sing this song. I need to ask God something but I can't find the words… Sweet baby Jesus… When it rains, it POURS. You see and you know!
There are times I, get discouraged,
Trying to carry, its hard
Some times this heavy load.
But I decided, to keep on toiling,
I'm so glad that, Jesus knows.
When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise, billows roll.
Just seek Jesus, He'll bring sunshine,
I'm so glad that, Jesus knows.
There are times we all are, faulty accuse
All because, of what, some thing,
Someone has told.
They won't believe in you in you side,
No matter what you try to do,
I'm so glad that, Jesus knows.
When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise and billows roll!
(Thank you Jesus!)
Just seek Jesus, He'll bring sunshine!
I'm so glad that, Jesus knows.
When there are troubles, in your home,
When deep down in your heart,
you know for Yourself, you've done no wrong.
Get on your keens and
Give it to Jesus, Hell take control!
Just be glad that, he knows!
When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise, and sometimes,
Billows roll! Just seek Jesus!
He'll bring sunshine! Yes,
I'm so glad that Jesus knows!
(Let's say it one more time!)
When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise, thank you Jesus, billows roll!
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A site dedicated to a homemade garden Moth Trap and the amazing contents found within. My interest was sparked in 2009 by my then 4 year old son, Louie. He and his sister Keely help me in the mornings, photographing and releasing the contents of this Bedfordshire trap. I hope you enjoy the Blog!
Saturday, June 18, 2011
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Brilliant Matt, had one the other day, i've kept it and set it as its an important record from my area, shame yours is a little worn but you can still see the difference can't you, great stuff!ReplyDelete
Hi Ben, I did notice your post. The one of mine certainly isn't a classic, your one was in good condition and showed darker colouring. I think the species is probably under recorded and I could well of dismissed one last year.ReplyDelete
Yes, it is surely overlooked, untl you see a good conditioned one, only then do you start to notice them, very strange but true!ReplyDelete
Is this some magic-eye thingy where if you stare at them for long enough a magical visual shift occurs and the moths look different?ReplyDelete
The differences are very subtle. Small identification victories like the one highlighted brighten up my otherwise moderately uninteresting existence.........ReplyDelete


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i wrote the following letter in response to an article arguing for complete bans on embryonic stem cell research and cloning for therapeutic purposes. i sent the letter to The Catholic Telegraph on Monday, January 24 and have yet to receive a response. for the moment, I will post my letter without, in some cases, at least, pulling out in the actual chunks of text on which i was commenting - just want to get this up for now.
hi there,
i realize that The Catholic Telegraph intends to present and represent a single point of view, but i wonder if you (in the general sense) are troubled when you see omissions in articles that present the opposite point of view - or any point of view, really.
Dennis O'Connor must be, because he wrote "New Challenge for a New Millennium," in part, at least, because he shares Tony Perkins' sentiments when Mr. Perkins says:
"More than 50 conditions are being treated with adult stem cells. That's what is most promising. Not one patient has been treated with embryonic stem cells. Additionally, I think the media have done a grave disservice to the American public by promoting this notion that the only promise comes from embryonic stem cell research. That is why we are out here promoting this message, so that people will know the truth."
In other words, the media has omitted the good news about adult stem cell research, and Mr. Perkins and Mr. O'Connor, are doing their best to rectify that error.
If that is the case, however, I wonder whether Mr. O'Connor has brought the same critical eye to bear on his own contribution to that miasma of information produce by what we call "the media."
For example, Mr. O'Connor quotes Mr. Perkins as saying that more than 50 conditions are being treated with adult stem cells (ASC), but offers no substantiation. I have read that there are 50, 65 and 140 conditions being treated and even cured with ASC therapies, but not one of the people quoting those numbers provided a source for the number they cited - can you tell me which number is correct, or where Mr. Perkins got his number? Nor did any of them offer any information as to what kinds of diseases were being treated. I know that there *are* quite a few conditions being treated with ASCs, but the vast majority of them are diseases of the blood - lymphomas and anemias - which is terrific, but it is not the whole story. Not a single neurological disorder has yet been helped by any ASC therapy. Don't you think that is relevant information? (CorCell: Saving Baby's Cord Blood)
Likewise, when Mr. O'Connor cites Father Pacholczyk's assertion that "the bulk of therapeutic successes have been found in adult stem cell use," as opposed to embryonic stem cell (ESC) research, he commits an enormous sin of omission by failing to point out that ASC research has been underway for almost 40 years (NIH: Stem Cell Basics), whereas ESC research has only been possible since 1998, or just over 6 years. Do you think that including that information would change the import of Father Pacholczyk's assertion?
And what about the amount of federal funding that each area of research has received? Between 1998 and the end of 2003, ESC research had received a total of $20 million in federal funding - that averages out to $4 million per year. In contrast, in 2003 alone, ASC research received $497 million in federal funding - $497 million vs. $4 million on a per year basis. I have been unable to find records of previous years' ASC funding levels, but when you consider some 40 years of federal funding, vs. $20 million total for ESC research, the enormity of this omission becomes clearer and clearer. (NIH: Research Funding Areas)
And given the gargantuan disparity in the level of federal funding that is being directed toward each of these research areas, isn't it a bit disingenuous for Father Pacholczyk to assert, and for Mr. O'Connor to affirm by inclusion, that ASC research "might suffer if research money is diverted for the embryonic research?" I think it is disingenuous - what do you think?
Another mammoth omission is any mention whatsoever of excess embryos at IVF clinics - Mr. O'Connor and his sources speak only of the creation of embryos for the purpose of harvesting ESCs, but you know, I have yet to read anyone arguing for that - not actual embryos in the historical sense, i.e., the product of the union of egg and sperm, anyway. No, the actual embryos that are under debate are those that are going to die anyway - those that have been donated to research by the only people who have the right to make such decisions. But Mr. O'Connor avoids that question entirely, doesn't he - and again, I think that is a particularly relevant little tidbit, don't you?
And this last observation is more of a bit of hypocrisy in the anti-ESC contingent than it is an omission, and it is one Mr. O'Connor touches on when he talks about the, perhaps, billions of dollars (again, completely unsubtantiated) that have gone into ESCR and the absence, as yet, of any therapies.
We are often warned by those who oppose ESCR that "there are no guarantees" that it will yield anything, and that even it it does, it won't be for years (see Leon Kass' article Playing Politics with the Sick for an example of the latter.) I am a little baffled by this argument, I must confess, because there are *never* any guarantees with *any* medical research, and *all* medical research takes years to reach a stage where a therapy can be used to treat people. So, what, exactly, is their point? It is like saying to a radio audience while standing in the middle of a parking lot full of cars, "there is a blue car in the parking space next to me." the implication is that its blueness differentiates it from the cars around it - but the reality, which is being omitted, is that *all* the cars are blue. It is brazenly and deliberately misleading.
It seems to me that Mr. O'Connor is guilty of quite a few sins of omission. I am not saying that the other side isn't guilty, too; nor am i saying that ASC research should not be supported. What i *am* saying is that if one is going to point the finger at someone else, one had better examine one's own behavior pretty closely first, or one might end up revealing one's own hypocrisy, as Mr. O'Connor has clearly done.
The sad thing is that anyone, it seems, can publish anything they want, and do so without providing any evidence to support it - and people will read it and believe it, just because it made it into print.
oh, and just a little FYI - regarding the assertion that "Embryonic stem cell research needs to be promoted in animals," *all* research must be first visited upon animals - ASC, ESC, cancer, what-have-you - before it can be tested in humans. And *all* therapies that would ever even be eligible to submit to the FDA for approval *must* be tested in humans first. So to say that ESC research needs to be promoted in animals is really a non-statement - and yet it made it into print, and you an bet your bottom dollar there are people out there now who think ESC research is not being done on animals first, or that doing ESC research on animals is sufficient in and of itself.
And one more little FYI - regarding Daniel Callahan's assertion that "much of the public discussion about embryonic stem cell research to date has amounted to little more than hype, underlining the concern about Hollywood endorsements and fear-mongering about the dangers of letting these kinds of research opportunities go overseas" - again, look to yourself before pointing the finger. If Mr. O'Connor's omissions and disingenuousness do not amount to hype, or spin, I don't know what would. And as far as ESC research, and its promise, being hype, try visiting the website Entrez Pubmed. In the search box, try entering embryonic stem cell research (no quotes necessary) and you will see that almost 18,000 published research papers come up. Is that hype?
i am looking forward to your reply,
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