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It seems a good idea to republish this sequence from almost six years ago to complement the recently completed sequence on transcending the crocodile within and providing more detailed background to its thinking. This is the last of six.
Only Our Simulations to Go On
At best we never achieve more than a simulation of reality. Even something as apparently clear-cut and concrete as colour is no exception. What we perceive as red is really nothing more than a wavelength of light and our experience of red is a coded response that has been allocated quite arbitrarily. We could just as well have experienced the "red " wavelength as blue! More abstract things are of course even more liable to be the product of construction and elaboration in the brain-mind system which habitually fills in the gaps in experience as best it can to make sense of it all. For present purposes three aspects of this simulation concern us most: experiences, beliefs and flexibility.
Experiences are the raw material of the mind. They are what we access of the inner and outer worlds through our senses, albeit modified by the interpretive activity of the brain. Experiences range from mainstream to the extremely idiosyncratic. Dreams are about as idiosyncratic as experience gets for most of us unless we are placed in strange, extreme and possibly frightening circumstances. For some people however dreams seem to become part of their waking reality.
Beliefs are the ideas we form usually on the basis of experience. We often make heavy emotional investments in our important ideas. These then colour experience in turn and can even distort it at the time it happens or in memory. Again beliefs range from the conventional to the extremely unusual. Even the most middle of the road person can find their way of looking at the world morphing into strange and frightening shapes as a result of such things as prolonged isolation.
Experience suggests that most people manage to negotiate their way through the world without too much of a problem on the basis of the models of the world they have developed. Many people whose experiences and beliefs are well outside the usual run of the mill rub along quite well. There are relatively small numbers of people whose beliefs and experiences are not only unusual but also very troubling. These are often the people mind-workers have to deal with. The majority of them have only short-lived difficulties.
Much of my work, before I retired, was with those who are stuck in their difficulties. Their experiences are unusual, troublesome and intractable. It is in helping people deal with this intractability that the model of mind-work I am proposing here is most useful.
Steering between Rigidity and Chaos
Most of us live somewhere between rigidity and chaos. Our models of the worlds are sufficiently malleable to respond flexibly to the shifts and changes of the world around us. If systems of thinking are too unstable or unformed we will be unable to make sense of our world and make reasonable responses to it. If they are too fixed and too compelling we cannot adapt when circumstances require it. The antidote to such unhelpful fixity is the flexibility which comes from reflection, relatedness and relativity.
Complete fixity, which often though not always in psychosis results from the kind of high emotional investment and simplification of thinking that feelings such as terror can induce, makes therapeutic work of the kind I am describing difficult. Someone who believes that their survival is in doubt is unlikely to see too much point in a leisurely exploration of their inscape! If the terror, or whatever is driving the investment that is creating the fixity, can be somewhat reduced, then conversation becomes possible. I suspect that medication, where it works, achieves its effect by calming someone down.
Increasing our Leverage
Once conversation is possible two powerful tools, implied in all that has been said above, become available. First, some space can be created between consciousness and its contents, and secondly there is a chance for more than one mind to be brought to bear upon the experiences. The space can be used for people to compare notes as equals – as two human beings, both with imperfect simulations of reality at their disposal, exchanging ideas about what is going on, with no one's version being arbitrarily privileged from the start. There is a wealth of information that suggests most strongly that this process of collaborative conversation (Andersen and Swim), of consultation in the Bahá'í sense (see John Kolstoe), of inquiry (see Senge), of interthinking, can achieve remarkable results: Neil Mercer talks of the crucial function of language and says:
it enables human brains to combine their intellects into a mega-brain, a problem-solving device whose power can be greater than that of its individual components. With language we are able not only to share or exchange information, but also to work together on it. We are able not only to influence the actions of other people, but also to alter their understandings. . . . . Language does not only enable us to interact, it enables us to interthink.
I'd like to slightly alter the wording of one sentence there to capture the essence of what I think I'm describing:
We are able not only to influence the actions of one another, but also to alter one another's understandings.
I feel that the conditions that I have sought to describe in this sequence of posts go a long way towards making effective interthinking possible. Effective interthinking and mind-work are closely related activities. Neither can happen at their best and most constructive in the absence of good relationships, reflection, relativity and relatedness.


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Saturday, March 31, 2012
Buying Bigger Clothes = Accepting the Fat?
The weather is changing and the clothing dilemma is approaching. I've mentioned before that I gave away all my bigger clothes; it's bad enough I only have one pair of jeans that fit, but I am pretty sure I have ZERO pairs of shorts that fit. I've been getting by hiding my excessive muffin top bulge by always wearing a sweater or a sweatshirt over my tee, but it is quickly getting too hot for that. Yes, I could go to the Goodwill and buy a couple of things that fit. And I may have to do that. But doing that goes against everything that made me give away my fat clothes in the first place! I mean, I gave them away so I wouldn't have anything to grow into! Having nothing in bigger sizes creates a barrier to weight gain. If I gain five more pounds I will not fit into ANYTHING! So if I go out and buy bigger clothes, will I just keep growing into them... like I did when I gained 80 pounds in a year? Buying bigger and bigger jeans and then going to stretch pants that let me have NO feedback from my clothing about my size? I don't want to "let" myself do that. That is why I have been holding out on buying anything comfortable. Because once I buy a pair of comfy size 18's, well, it opens all kinds of opportunities for more gain. I have finally put the brakes on the gaining and *want* my too-tight pants to tell me every day to NOT eat junk. So I dunno, not sure what I am going to do if I don't start shrinking significantly. I can't go naked. But it feels like buying bigger clothes means I am accepting the fat. I don't think I can do it.
Tonight for dinner I am making a new recipe. It's a veggie stew loaded with onions, mushrooms, carrots, celery, tomatoes, and beans. The recipe calls for potatoes, too; I may put one small one in there, or sub some other veggies. Not sure yet. I will post the recipe if it turns out good. It sounds really good. Off to bike!
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I was trying to think of a happy medium to your dilemma because I do understand. What if you were to buy a larger size that you didn't like that much? Maybe a style you didn't find flattering or a color you disliked? And then buy another pair of pants in a smaller size that you just love and really want to wear? Could that be motivating while still giving you some comfortable clothes? You certainly don't deserve to be suffering in the heat.
Just some thoughts. Wishing you all the best!
- March 31, 2012 at 12:17 PM
I also had the idea of buying something inexpensive in a style you do not like. The other idea I had was to force yourself to look at the tag and acknowledge the size every time you put on one of these items of clothing.
Both are designed to remind you and reinforce that this situation is TEMPORARY. You have NOT resigned yourself to this size and you are taking the actions to change it. Both these actions are "jarring" enough (hopefully) that you will not become "comfortable" in the larger size.
I think you have to buy a couple of things at least, but it does not mean you are resigning yourself to a larger size.
Take care,
- March 31, 2012 at 12:59 PM
- birchgirl said...
Refusing to go to size 18 is what spurred me onto my 45 lbs weight loss. What size shorts do you have? If they are less than size 16 you need to buy something no matter what. If they are size 16 I would say use it to motivate yourself to lose weight.
- March 31, 2012 at 1:01 PM
I know some others disagree with me here but I personally would Not buy new clothes for as long as possible. Layering shirts helps hide muffin top and such, and if you wear a sleeveless/strappy shirt under a tight tee, it smooths you out and isn't bulky.
I know it's a hard issue-different people have different takes on it.
Another kind of embarrassing tip is really stretching out your jeans. Do all sorts of stretches and whatever you can do to loosen them up. Hold weird poses to really loosen up the fit. This is a favorite of mine for stiff skinny jeans that have no "give" to them. As you hopefully lose weight, you can wash them a bunch or wear with a belt. I don't know if I'm just nuts, haha, but I'd rather loosen up pants I already own than go out and buy more.
- March 31, 2012 at 1:41 PM
such a dilemma. My approach is to buy a small number of clothes, on the plan that I will "outgrow" these ones in a month or two. Being happy makes me more likely to lose weight, and having clothes to wear to fun events makes me happier.
- March 31, 2012 at 1:43 PM
- Overhauling-Me said...
I'm concerned with the changing weather. At the moment I have just one pair of jeans that fit. Still have a pair of nice sweats from my larger size (just 40lbs) that I wear. My concern is my arms. Not wanting to have the saggy flabbiness exposed in shorter sleevers. As the fat goes away they seem to have more swinging skin.
I'd love to hear how the veggie stew turns out and would love the recipe.
Happy Saturday!
- March 31, 2012 at 1:59 PM
Lyn, this tactic might be a barrier against weight gain for others, but it obviously didn't work for you. Your lack of larger-sized clothing didn't prevent your weight gain so far, and here you are at 217 without any clothes that properly fit you.
Everyone, EVERYONE, deserves to have comfortable, properly-fitting clothing, whether they're gaining, losing, maintaining, or what have you. Anything less is just disrespecting yourself.
- March 31, 2012 at 2:13 PM
Buy something that fits, it will make you feel better. Don't spend to much money on it, but it is always better to dress nice and feel comfortable.
- March 31, 2012 at 2:36 PM
- Princess Dieter said...
I figure looking and feeling like crap in too tight clothes doesn't do anything positive for one's state of mind. Finding clothes that fit is just accepting that FOR NOW, you are THIS SIZE and facing up to that, seeing that 18 when you dress, may remind you that you musn't go up to a 20!
I'm a believer in clothes that fit--for health and mental well-being. But I also believe in buying a smaller "doesn't fit" size for motivation.
Buy the 18s. Then buy a size 14 that you really love--anything fitted that isn't stretchy. Something you ahve to WORK to get into down the road, in a classic style so it isn't out of fashion if it takes you a year.
Something for now. Someting for a future date.
But stuff that fits.
You have to feel good and accept NOW, too, ya know?
- March 31, 2012 at 2:47 PM
I think buying clothes that fit properly tell you that you value yourself...and think of how you will feel when they are baggy...buy something that has a zipper rather than an elastic waist though...
- March 31, 2012 at 3:01 PM
- debby said...
I probably have a different opinion than most people. While I do understand the technique of wearing tight clothes as a reminder to not overeat (and I have done this myself when going out for dinner or on holidays, etc,) I do not agree with non-stop wearing of clothes that are too tight, or not having enough clothes to wear. I feel that that is disrespecting yourself. I refused to do that when I was at my heaviest, and I refuse to do it now. At whatever size I am, I am worthy of dressing comfortably and well.
I am a big thrift store proponent, so it is not even expensive to go up or down a size or two (which I have done quite a bit in the past six years.)
- March 31, 2012 at 3:15 PM
I definitely identify with the reluctance to buy fat clothes. Which is why I have almost nothing to wear with the season change. I did break down and buy a pair of dress pants. I have two tops to go with them. sigh.
Anyway. I tried the yogurt recipe. It was WONDERFUL! Picture is on my blog along with a shout out to you.
Thanks for this!
- March 31, 2012 at 3:30 PM
- timothy said...
i must admit i'm on the fence about the clothes, my instincts are screaming "NO DON'T DO IT!" because when i regained some and had to buy a larger size i felt disgusted and every time i put them on i felt like a worthless failure, i burned those pants as soon as i could and i will NEVER buy a 34 again gosh darn it. but it's very personal and i dont want to project my negativity onto you. if you can wear the larger clothes and feel ok with it do it, if not stand your ground. either way i adore you and am here if you need me! xoxoxoxoxoxo
- March 31, 2012 at 3:54 PM
Ok, I guess I'm alone in leaning towards NOT buying new clothes, heh. It has worked for me in the past but I guess it only works to an EXTENT-if you absolutely can not even get your jeans past your thighs, it won't. I guess it depends on how extensive the regain is and where it has affected you most. I'm more of a stomach gainer, so usually any point of concern is in the waist of the pants.
- March 31, 2012 at 4:05 PM
Lyn, I fear that if you panic about the lack of comfortably fitting clothes, you may attempt a "desperation diet" again. I have a thought that you will most likely reject as an idea, but here goes anyway: If you take an entire year to get back to healthy eating and the exercise you are able to do, eat around 1800 calories per day and simply maintain, you will STILL be ahead of the game, compared to the last two years when you were torturing yourself in one way or another and gaining consistently. If that works for you, the following year you could drop a couple of hundred calories per day and start losing slowly, without too much effort, eating well and exercising well. If, while you are eating 1800 calorie (or so), your "maintenance year", you happen to lose a pound or so a month, just think, you'll be 12 pounds lighter than your expectations.
Ultimately you will decide what you will do about buying or not buying new clothes but perhaps a working plan may help you with the issues that are most bothersome to you.
I hate to use such a corny expression, particularly given the subject of your post, but "flying by the seat of our pants" when it comes how much we eat, regardless of the type of food we consume, can get most of us into trouble. I respect anyone's decision to do whatever she need to, in regard to remaining unaware of the amounts of food consumed but we all know that we are notoriously good at underestimating. If we eat well and exercise but the calories we consume are still to high, we may tend to assume that healthy eating and exercise "do not work for us" and we're on to the next plan.
If you were at peace with the potential consequences it would not be an issue but given your worries about clothes (to give only one example), seems to indicate that perhaps the results of your "coasting" may end up upsetting you in the future or at the very least continue to leave you floundering. I have read every single one of your entries and I am aware that when you started losing weight you did not keep track of calories too closely and the pounds melted. I know that you are aware of the reasons for that, namely where you started in terms of weight, calories consumed and activity or lack thereof. Your system responded accordingly. I believe later you stalled and discovered MF. Suddenly you were probably eating about 50-60% of the calories you had been eating the previous 2 years and of course you lost weight fast but since you could not sustain such an unreasonably low calorie consumption, you were inconsistent. At the same time you stopped working out due to injuries and possibly due to lack of energy. This combination of factors brought you to the conditions in which you are currently. At the same time, you learned a lot. You have untold amounts of testing and results. You are in a position to use this data to help you with your next stage.
As always, wishing you serenity through the decisions you make, as well as the aftermath.
- March 31, 2012 at 4:40 PM
- Lyn said...
Thank you all for the thoughts.
Thanks. I admit over the past few weeks the thought of going back on Medifast crossed my mind, but I already committed to myself that I will stick with whole foods and exercise and figure it out. No desperation diets :)
I still am not sure what I am going to do re: the clothes. I guess I need to go through the 2 rubbermaid tubs of clothes I DO have and see if there is anything in there that fits. Maybe I missed an item or two. I am doing really well with my exercise now, so maybe that will help. I think if I dropped even 5 or 8 pounds off my middle (which is where I regained it all) I would fit in a lot of things.
- March 31, 2012 at 4:50 PM
Be respectful of yourself, you deserve to look nice at any weight. You don't have to spend a ton of money, but feeling good and not squashing yourself into a painfully small size should be a positive boost to the self esteem. I say go buy from a discount house, take someone with you and have them cut the size tag right out of the item!
- March 31, 2012 at 5:11 PM
- Karen said...
Get some clothes that fit. I like princes' idea of buying 1 item that is one size smaller to have a mini goal outfit.
It is what it is. Being honest and getting clothes that fit is better IMO. Too tight clothes fool no none.
Getting the right size of clothes is a step into reality and gets you off the denial mile. Your choice. You're driving your life car.
- March 31, 2012 at 6:08 PM
- Karin said...
You are not your pants size. I think M/B is right on the money. But whatever you decide....you rock :)
- March 31, 2012 at 6:13 PM
- PaulaMP said...
There is no way in the world I would subject myself to wearing skin tight uncomfortable clothing. Nobody knows what size you are wearing, they can't see the tag. Buy some clothes, you can always give them away to charity when you lose again.
- March 31, 2012 at 10:39 PM
- Jamie Mckay said...
I HATE wearing jeans! But I know if I wear them, I'll be able to tell when I overeat. That, and I'll be aware of my gut being uncomfortably squashed by the waist band. I always wonder if skinny people hate wearing jeans too but I imagine that they don't mind them as much since their bellies are flat lol :)
- March 31, 2012 at 11:57 PM
Lyn, I guess I disagree with all the comments above about motivation, because I don't think that hunger is just a mental thing. I think that hunger is very real, and that it is usually caused by biochemical issues, not emotional issues.
I would focus on getting rid of the hunger by eating nutritious foods, but also doing these things:
1. Cut way back on carbohydrates of all kinds.
2. And specifically, cut way back on all grains, corn, rice, wheat, white potatoes, sweet potatoes, beans, legumes (peanuts) and salt.
And guess what is a good low-carb low-sodium food that meets those criteria, with lots of protein and fiber and potassium?
The Slim-Fast 3-2-1 ready-to-drink liquid shakes.
I recently switched from soups and other salty foods, to Slim-Fast 3-2-1 shakes, and my weight and blood pressure dropped so fast that I got severe dizziness from the orthostatic hypotension for a little while, until my body adjusted. Now I have more energy than I've had in many months.
Try Slim-Fast 3-2-1 ready-to-drink liquid shakes and see if that helps. From my experience having spent hundreds of dollars on both Medifast and Slim-Fast, I think Slim-Fast ready-ro-drink 3-2-1 shakes taste a lot better than Medifast powder.
And. no, I have no connection to Slim-Fast. In fact, I hated their old Slim-Fast Optima shakes because somehow they made me feel very sick. Some places are still selling the old Optima version, and I would avoid them like the plague.
- April 1, 2012 at 3:32 AM
Lyn, this really struck a nerve with me. I am older than you are, and for many, many years (decades) I had very few clothes because I felt unworthy to have nice things because I was obese. I might have had one skirt and a top that I wore for "dress up" and one or maybe two outfits for every day....this went on for way too long. One day I thought, there are nice plus size clothes and regardless of the size I wear I am going to look decent! That actually helped me with my weight loss because I felt so much better about myself.
I also had to make the decision about getting rid of the too big clothes, and my nutritionist insisted I do it. It was hard, as mentally I thought "I will need those again sometime" but I did it. It was a right decision, even though as my weight drifted up a little I found myself in a similar situation to you. So, I bought a few things in the next size up....so what!? I still deserved to look nice. I didn't stop being a human being or a woman just because I gained 15 pounds after losing a lot. I have now given THOSE bigger clothes away because they don't fit....too big again! I hope someone who needs them enjoys looking nice in them too and feels good wearing them.
It may sound self indulgent, but I believe that I am entitled to dress nicely and feel good about how I look even if I became enormous! I am more than a pants size or a number on a scale and so are you! It is way more fun when you are buying clothes in a smaller size, but you will get back there too. Enjoy the journey!
- April 1, 2012 at 4:59 AM
Princess Dieter had my idea - buy something that fits now, and buy something smaller to work toward. I bought a Jason Wu dress in a 12 - it fits in all the right places except the very middle back is just a tich too small (didn't know that, as I bought it on eBay). I want to get in that dress so badly that I'm running 4x a week and eating on plan. Its a great motivator and I look forward to when I can fit into it properly...
- April 1, 2012 at 7:03 AM
- Fit Thesis said...
I understand not wanting to give in. I worked in a clothing store for a time and the kind of anxiety that clothing size/number causes is intense.
Personally, I have a hard time handling ill-fitting clothes. Once I realized just how much a difference that it makes when things fit right, I haven't been able to go back. If it digs, I won't wear it. It's physically uncomfortable and I don't need any help on accentuating what's already there.
I hope you can find a solution that works for you, mind & body.
- April 1, 2012 at 7:47 AM
Jamie Mckay-i kind of hate jeans too and I'm thin/normal. I'm generally lean but gain more in the tummy, as does most of my family, so I get it. :x
- April 1, 2012 at 8:55 AM
Anon 3:32 A.M.
As I am for everyone who finds a solution that is effective for the goal of becoming healthier by losing wt., I am extremely happy for you. With the utmost respect, however, I will suggest that you read Lyn's blog from beginning to present. You will see that, as most of us tend to do, she occasionally eats or overeats for reasons that have little to do with hunger.
In addition, as far as I understand, she is attempting to move back to eating food that is not hmmm, shall we say processed and prepackaged. It has taken her some time and effort to return to a way of eating that has brought her success in the past, as well as making her feel better physically and emotionally.
Your suggestions are excellent and apply to many of us, regarding low(er) carbs and the elimination of some simple carbs that tend to spike our insulin levels and lead to hunger. I am just not sure that prepackaged "food" is the way to go in order to meet that requirement.
Of course, as we all do, she will make her own decision and in no way do I wish to imply that your own choice is not to be admired, since it seems to be successful for you.
- April 1, 2012 at 10:03 AM
- Lyn said...
Anon & m/b~
agreed, and I think prepackaged/protein shakes etc can be very helpful. I still have a Medifast drink or bar for a snack sometimes. But for me, two years was enough and I was really missing things like fruits and legumes, so I am glad to be back to whole foods.
- April 1, 2012 at 10:19 AM
- Diandra said...
Go ahead and buy a few used comfortable items. You weigh what you weigh, whatever size you wear. And your clothes do not dictate how much you will weigh in the future. You shrank out of the larger items before, you can do it again.
(I have been buying clothes at ebay while shrinking, even office outfits. Have most likely spent less than hundred bucks on clothes in three different sizes over the last two years.)
- April 1, 2012 at 12:31 PM
- The Captain's Daughter said...
DO NOT buy the bigger sizes. I am going through this EXACT same thing with you - but give yourself 2 weeks of on-plan eating and you'll be surprised at how much better your existing clothes will fit. That's what I did 2 weeks ago... I was THIS CLOSE to giving up and walking back into a LB store for new bigger clothes but I said HELL NO! It was difficult (still is) wearing the winter pants and sweaters that I could still get away with wearing (elastic waistbands, which are the devil, by the way) because it was SO hot here in March - but I did it and I busted my tail to get back into my dress slacks and smaller shirts. And this time, there is NO going back! I am sitting here after having had my grilled chicken lunch salad and the waistband on these pants are CUTTING into my middle, but it is a GOOD reminder that if I remain on plan, these pants will fit a little better tomorrow and a WHOLE lot better next week! So be kind to yourself - believe that it'll happen and it will!
Always my love to you!
- April 2, 2012 at 10:43 AM
- Laywoman Shawoman said...
Oh my gosh, you have to have some clothes that fit you and that you love - but just a few things! You must must must feel happy and confident and you absolutely must not get yourself into a forlorn mindset that could keep you from going out and enjoying your life! What are you going to do if you know you look horrible? That's a real possibility if it's hot and yucky and your clothes fit awfully. You might just decide to stay home and get reeaallyy tired. Feel that? Give yourself a little budget, buy a few things that make you feel as presentable as possible, and don't have ANY shame that you would be "wasting" the clothes by giving them off to someone else once they get too roomy.
I recommend to keep these "temporary" items to a minimum which will force you to launder them a lot, which is an active activity to keep you movin' as you go.
Deep down somewhere, you must know that you need to mean so much more to your own heart than your weight, and deserve to feel good about yourself no matter what the scale says. Until you work on resolving these self-acceptance issues, the weight will go up and down anyway, ya know?
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In her one season as an assistant under head coach Austin Parkinson, Benton was charged with assisting with post player development, scouting and video breakdown of opposing teams, and coordinating team travel arrangements. During her tenure at IUPUI, Benton was instrumental in the team's recruiting efforts, with a focus in Southern Indiana, Kentucky and Illinois.
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Benton was a member of the DePaul University basketball team that qualified for the NCAA Tournament four straight years. As a senior and team captain in 2006, she helped the Blue Demons post a 27-7 record and reach the Sweet 16 of the NCAA Tournament, where they fell to top-seeded Louisiana State University. Benton was presented the Maggie Dixon Captain's Award. Benton scored 261 points and distributed 72 assists during her DePaul career.
A native of Houston, Texas, Benton finished her prep career at Nimitz High School with 1,447 points, 887 rebounds, 327 steals and 205 blocks. As a senior, she led the Houston area with 19 points and 9.7 rebounds per game while shooting 44.0 percent from 3-point range. Benton was an honorable mention All-State selection by the Texas Sports Writers Association and twice was tabbed second-team All-State by Texas Basketball magazine.
Benton graduated from DePaul in 2006 with a degree in fitness management. She earned her Master's of Arts in Higher Education from Saint Louis in 2010.
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Long before the British launched the rockets made famous in the "Star-Spangled Banner," they were aiming the fiery missiles at the outnumbered Americans defending Craney Island.
And three days after that June 22, 1813 attack at the mouth of the Elizabeth River fizzled because of the American gunners' superior marksmanship, the Royal Marine Artillery was lighting fuses again -- this time during a predawn amphibious assault against the Cedar Point gun batteries on the Hampton River.
It wasn't the first time British forces had used their Congreve rockets in the Chesapeake Bay. Just weeks earlier they'd killed a man during a Maryland raid.
But the engagements that took place here in Hampton Roads were far larger in scale -- and they happened more than a year before the much better known attack on Fort McHenry.
At Craney Island, the first volley of rockets created momentary chaos as they screamed through the air and landed amidst the militia.
"It produced an involuntary dodge from the bravest & at first produced great confusion in the ranks," one observer recorded.
"But when the first had passed off without doing the least injury they (the militia) observed: 'Why damn the things, we thought they were going to kill us, but they cannot hurt...'"
The attack on Hampton was just as threatening at first, then just as quickly dismissed as the artillerymen manning guns at Cedar Point returned fire, driving the British boats back up the river.
Two houses caught fire from the attack, but the initial state of alarm rapidly disappeared.
"A great number of rockets, charged with combustible matter, which, with very exceptions, and those without injurious effect...either fell short or over reached their object," American militia commander Maj. Stapleton Crutchfield later reported.
All in all, the rockets performed relatively poorly in both Hampton Roads attacks -- and certainly with less lasting drama than Francis Scott Key describes in the national anthem.
But in the first moments they must have been exciting to watch.
"The British fired their rockets first -- both from the barges and land battery -- when they attacked Craney Island. They placed a lot of confidence in them as a way to scare and terrorize green troops," Hampton Roads Naval Museum historian Gordon B. Calhoun says.
"But they were like big bottle rockets -- and they screamed through the air the same way. They made a lot of very scary noise -- but you had to hope that they would go straight."
Find my latest stories on the War of 1812 in Hampton Roads, including new stories on the Battle of Craney Island and the Sack of Hampton, at dailypress.com/warof1812.
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On Friday 27 September the Museum will be holding Science Uncovered, part of the Europe-wide Researchers' Night.
Science Uncovered involves almost all the Museum's staff and volunteers talking to visitors about their job, recent research or their favourite specimens. If that isn't enough to tempt you, how about joining one of the Museum tours, or having a drink with a scientist to talk about their work, and maybe ending the night dancing under Dippy's tail with a DJ?
An evening with the fossil fish
On the night our team will be out in force...
Dr Zerina Johnanson will be talking about her work on fish specimens from the London Clay. These are beautifully three-dimensional specimens, which Zerina and her colleagues have been CT-scanning to reveal their internal structures so come along on to see inside these amazing fossils.
Chie Heath, one of our many fantastic volunteers, will be talking about the TLC she gives specimens (otherwise known as reboxing), which she carries out on the fossil fish collection.
Picture of the Holotype of Percostoma angustum, a bony fish from the London Clay of the Isle of Sheppey.
Do you know who Sir Arthur Smith Woodward is? Mike Smith, another member of our fantastic volunteer team will be talking about our upcoming symposium to celebrate Woodward's contributions to the palaeontology world, specifically involving fossil fish. Woodward joined the Museum when he was only 18 in 1892, and spent his entire career here.
A rather serious looking Sir Arthur Smith Woodward.
Myself, Research Associate David Ward and volunteer David Baines will be talking about our experiences of fieldwork - why we went to Woodeaton Quarry to collect samples (see my last blog entry), the processes involved in sieving and acid-preparing specimens, and what we have found so far. Woodeaton has proved to be a great site and so far we have found an early dinosaur tooth, a very early mammal tooth, bits of crocodile and lots of microfossils.
One of our many Woodeaton samples being washed before we check for fossils.
PhD student Joe Keating from the University of Bristol will have several fossil fish specimens on show, and will be talking about the wide diversity of fish and how they evolved over time. You may have seen Joe at a past Nature Live event.
Joe Keating during his last Nature Live talk.
We will also have Dr Martha Richter talking about her work on fossil fish and Research Associate Sally Young talking about fossil eels.
There will be a member of the fossil fish team on a table in Marine Reptile Way (where all the Ichthyosaurs are displayed on the wall). So why not come along and say hi! It is a free event with lots to see and do. If you are unable to attehnd, keep up-to-date by following us on Twitter (@NHM_FossilFish) or follow the hashtag #SU2013 for updates across the whole Museum.
I'm now off to pack for my next fieldwork trip to Morocco! Keep checking back to hear all about it!


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Some concerned parents pulled their children from Willis High School Monday after rumors circulated about a possible incident on campus.
After the mass shooting at an elementary school on Friday in Newtown, Conn., school safety is a top concern right now.
"Apparently there's threats going on at the school that somebody's gonna do a shooting this Friday," Rebecca Eudie, a concerned parent, said.
Some students were too scared to go to school at all.
"I'm worried that someone is a little bit off right now," Colby Clarkston, a student, said. "And I'm worried that somebody is gonna come to our school with a gun."
Rumors started in Willis last week. The shooting in Connecticut made it even worse, and it has been the talk among students and parents on social media on Monday.
Students started sending out pictures of that showed an increase security presence on campus. Students recognized that there were more police than usual. There were also rumors of an arrest.
The school district responded only with a statement from Erin Kleinecke, communications director for WISD:
"Our schools are safe. Like many districts around the country, Willis ISD has increased security at all of our campuses to help reassure parents and students in light of the tragedy in Connecticut."
Fears of an incident are not limited to Willis ISD.
In San Antonio, an elementary school was placed on lockdown after a teacher thought she saw a man outside with a gun.
It turned out to be a falconer dressed in camouflage who was looking for his lost bird.
"I guess it could be that but at the end of the day I'd rather be safe than sorry, because you know these people that go out and do mass shootings at school if they really want to do it extra cops and rumors is not gonna stop 'em," a concerned parent in Willis said.
The Montgomery County Precinct 1 Constable's Office confirmed that they have stepped up security at Willis schools because of the rumors and issued the following statement:
"With the recent tragedy in Connecticut, the Constable's office in charge of law enforcement at Willis ISD, understands that parents have concerns about student safety. We take the responsibility of student safety very seriously. We train our staff in safety protocols and rely on parents to help us enforce procedures. We conduct safety drills, including those for a building lockdown, and we have procedures in place for all types of potential incidents. Like many districts around the country, Willis ISD has requested increased security at all campuses to help reassure parents and students in light of the tragedy in Connecticut. Willis schools are safe. Their counselors are available to talk with students, staff or parents who have a need regarding this situation. The safety of the students, staff, parents and community is the top priority at Willis ISD."
Three members of the Montgomery County SWAT team were at Willis High School Monday just to meet with school police officers about those concerns. They were not in SWAT team tactical gear.


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CHARLESTON, S.C. – With nearly three top-20 finishers, the Georgia College & State University women's cross country team took third Saturday at the Will Wilson Invitational in the non-Division I portion on the race at the Citadel.
Freshman Allison Lones (Kathleen, Ga.) was the top runner for Georgia College for the first time in her rookie campaign, finishing the 5K course in 20:44 for ninth place.
Junior Karissa Ekstrom (Alpharetta, Ga.) was second on the squad, finishing in 21:05 and 15th overall. Classmate Sarah Balkcom (Fayetteville, Ga.) crossed the line in 21:29, narrowly missing the top-20 by one slot.
Freshman Andrea Byrnes (Snellville, Ga.) was 26th in 21:55, and classmate Ashton Passino (Alpharetta, Ga.) took 30th in 22:10.
Lenoir-Rhyne University took the team title among non-Division I squads, getting 57 points, beating SCAD by 31 and the Bobcats by 42. LRU's Kate Griewisch won the individual title in 18:35.
The Bobcats are back in action Saturday, Oct. 1 at the ASU Invitational, hosted by Augusta State University.
The Georgia College Department of Athletics, back-to-back winners of the PBC Commissioner's Cup, sponsors 10 varsity athletic programs at the NCAA Division II level. As a Division II program, Bobcat Athletics prides itself on balancing the life of the student-athlete, evidenced by the teams' multiple appearances in post-season competition as well as documented academic success and community-service involvement. Sign up at www.twitter.com/GCSUBobcats for up-to-the-minute reports, and visit www.GCSUBobcats.com for more information, and to nominate your favorite former Bobcats and Colonials to the GCSU Athletics Hall of Fame.


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This new 3-DVD MP3 set contains all the lectures, conversations and music CDs ever released of His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, the Founder-Acarya of the International Society for Krishna Consciousnes (ISKCON), plus some additional bonus materials that has never been released.
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Four years ago on June 10th, Adam proposed to me. I wanted to post this on the 10th, but with so much going on at our home lately, I am afraid I am just now getting to it. Some have said, I married the perfect person for me. I would have to agree with them. Adam made me this amazing album, with help from our sister-in-law.
So here is the story of how he proposed ...
I woke up early to go running, and there was a rose with this scrapbook page:I knew that something was going on ... but was unsure of what it was all about. After getting ready, I started out the door to go and meet some friends for Breakfast. There on the front door step was another page, and another rose. After breakfast, I went to work and on my desk was another page, and another rose. I have previously arranged to take off work (I was currently working for a local scrapbook store as the design coordinator) and scrapbook with my sisters all day. It worked out that each "HOUR" during the day, another page and rose was delivered to me by someone that had been very significant in our relationship.
The second to last page was delivered by Adam ... and he took me up to a beautiful home in Alpine, Utah where his brother served us dinner and brought me my desert on a tray ... which was the last page displaying ... MARRY ME and of course the Ring!! I immediately said yes
It is true ... I married the perfect man for me. He hasn't scrapbooked since then, but he sure is great to take pictures, and to give his opinion on pages when needed. I LOVE this man and count myself the luckiest girl in the whole world to have him in my life!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
4 years ago ...
6 comments:
- Denise Z. said...
Now THAT's a love story! He does sound perfect (and he does nice work, too! LOL!) Belated Happy Anniversay and best wishes for MANY more!
- June 25, 2009 at 11:33 AM
- Nicole said...
Awww, that is soo cute.The pages are wonderful. Happy Anniversay
- June 25, 2009 at 12:22 PM
- lizbonj said...
I love this story..SO SWEET!! Congratulations on your beautiful family!!!
- June 25, 2009 at 5:50 PM
- Jenna said...
Your last picture with the ring & your face is the cutest engagement picture that I have ever seen. Congratulations on 10 years!
- June 25, 2009 at 8:07 PM
- Kelly Evanson said...
so cute! how fun to look back at that time in your life! and how creative adam was. props to him. anyway, hope things are going well with the new baby!
- August 3, 2009 at 6:55 AM
Loved the story of your engagement! =)
I couldn't help but notice the message cork boards in the background of some pictures...what did you use those for?
Thanks! =)
- August 7, 2009 at 1:16 PM
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Online seller of stolen bikes gets jail sentence following police investigation
- By London Cycling Campaign on at 2:15pm 9 February 2012
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A 21 year old man has been jailed for 6 months for his involvement in the sale of stolen bicycles online. Alan Miah, was sentenced at Southwark Crown Court after pleading guilty to conspiring to handle criminal property. A second man, Mohammed Masselmeh, was also sentenced and ordered to carry out 200 hours community service for conspiring to launder the proceeds of crime.
The arrest and conviction of the two men involved an investigation by the joint Metropolitan Police Service's and Transport for London's (TfL) Safer Transport Command (STC) Payback Unit and Cycle Task Force. The Met's Cycle Task Force was set up following campaigning by LCC before the last mayoral election.
The police began their investigation after a cyclist, who had had his black Giant bike stolen notified police that he suspected it was being sold online.
Miah was arrested by officers from the Cycle Task Force in possession of the stolen Black Giant bike. The bike, which has since been restored to its rightful owner and a mobile phone were seized. Further searches at Miah's home were carried out where two bikes and numerous phones and laptops were seized. Forensic examination linked Miah and Masselmeh to selling and trading of over 120 bikes.
Efforts were made to link a number of the bicycles advertised for sale with reported crimes that occurred around the time of the advertisements, resulting in five victims being identified. All five adverts were posted within a week of these bicycles being reported stolen, in two cases; it was between 24-36 hours.
Chief Superintendent Sultan Taylor, Safer Transport Command, said: "This case demonstrates how the Payback Unit and Cycle Task Force are tackling organised cycle theft through proactive investigations and operations, as well as disrupting the trade of stolen Act 2002 (POCA) legislation to seize criminal assets and reduce crime. " More than 200 arrests have now been made by the unit.
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BREAKING PHOTOS: Scene of the stabbing attack in Jerusalem where 4 Israelis were stabbed by Palestinian terrorist. pic.twitter.com/HpvGkR6FiW
— Israel News Flash (@ILNewsFlash) October 3, 2015
TERRIBLE: Among the 4 stabbing victims in Jerusalem is a young BABY! Share this as kids shouldn't be terror targets! pic.twitter.com/2Y0dSThAvZ
— Israel News Flash (@ILNewsFlash) October 3, 2015
(JPost) A Palestinian terrorist was shot dead moments after stabbing four Jewish family members multiple times in a terrorist attack near Jerusalem's Lion's Gate, in the Old City, shortly after Shabbat concluded Saturday night.
Two of the victims are reportedly in critical condition, while one is in serious condition. A two-year-old child also stabbed in the attack is being treated for light wounds.
According to Police spokesman Micky Rosenfeld, the attack occurred at approximately 7:30 p.m., when the unidentified family members were walking to the Western Wall.
"The Arab suspect repeatedly stabbed the [four] Israelis while they were walking near Lion's Gate," said Rosenfeld minutes after the attack.
"Border Police and Police responded immediately and shot the terrorist, neutralizing him. Police have cordoned off the area and are searching for a possible accomplice.
Rosenfeld said Magen David Adom paramedics are presently treating the three victims, one of whom is in serious condition and two who are in moderate condition.
The attack comes amid heightened tension in the capital, and less than 48 hours after the Jewish parents of four young children were murdered in the West Bank.
FACE OF TERROR: Palestinian terrorist who stabbed 4 Israelis, 2 of who died & 2 more fighting for their lives! pic.twitter.com/L89CWJUuIu
— Israel News Flash (@ILNewsFlash) October 3, 2015
BREAKING: Islamic Jihad claims responsibility for the deadly stabbing attack in Jerusalem which left 2 Israelis dead. pic.twitter.com/NtKUpOU6yE
— Israel News Flash (@ILNewsFlash) October 3, 2015
Before heading out on a killing spree stabber's Facebook seen sprawled with warnings of "3rd Intifada has started". pic.twitter.com/LWpb0ua2Z1
— Israel News Flash (@ILNewsFlash) October 3, 2015


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Fixing the Body: An Immune-Based Approach to HIV
1. It's the Virus, Stupid
By now most people know HIV causes AIDS. But this is actually inaccurate. To understand why this is inaccurate helps explain why there are two different ways scientists are trying to figure out how to treat AIDS.
2. What Causes AIDS
AIDS is a condition in which a person is not able to fight off many illnesses that the body generally can get rid of or can learn to live with. The illnesses that kill people with AIDS are called "opportunistic infections" because they take advantage of a problem HIV sets in motion -- the slaughter of many different types of T helper cells.
Before turning attention to how the T helper cells are killed off, let's look at how these T helper cells protect us in the first place.
3. How T Cells Protect Us
The immune system is our protection against disease and it has many parts.
The simplest parts of the immune system are barriers that stop germs from getting into important parts of our body, for example, our skin. Other parts are cells that are pre-programmed to kill off certain illness causing germs the body already knows about.
Then there is a third part that is much more creative and adaptable. This is the part of the immune system that can recognize a new enemy germ, and in response raise an army of fighter cells that are taught exactly what the enemy looks like and then gun down the enemy, attacking it either directly with chemical weapons like 'neutralizing antibodies' (stuff that sticks to the germ like glue and kills it or stops it from working), or indirectly by killing cells that hide it or help make more of it. In other words, by killing off infected cells that have been hijacked by the virus.
Infected cells hijacked by the HIV are reprogrammed by the HIV to manufacture more bad virus. To get rid of that kind of infection, we have to kill off those infected cells.
T helper cells are the part of the immune system that recognizes the new kinds of intruders, trains an army and hunts down infected cells. After 'learning' that a virus is an enemy, the T helper cells send out messages that get killer cells to investigate cells to see if they are infected and if so to destroy them. This, in most cases, eventually can cure us of an illness or at least hold it in check.
4. How Do Helper T Cells Learn a Virus Is an Enemy?
It turns out that all living things are made up of chemicals that we understand pretty well. The same set of chemicals which -- when you break them down -- form long chains of simple things called peptides.
T helper cells can tell which peptides are parts of you and which belong to something that should not be inside of you.
When T helper cells 'recognize' a peptide or a bunch of peptides that don't belong in you, they mobilize the immune system in a lot of different ways to get rid of the virus that the foreign peptide(s) are part of.
T helper cells are all born different, and recognize different specific peptides. Every T helper cell recognizes a peptide, as if it were a letter. The "z" T helper cells, for instance, are the ones that recognize "z" peptides, and know that they do not belong inside of you. They know right away that a virus with a "z" part -- in this case the so-called "zebra virus" -- is a bad guy. They alert every cell in the immune system that fights enemy viruses to kill off viruses that contain the peptide "z".
These cells recognize the viruses because they know that anything containing "z" -- including the cells hiding the zebra virus -- does not belong in your body. This way the immune systems clears out the virus and the cells that manufacture more of it from your body.
Sometimes this system of identifying these enemy "z" viruses stops working -- the question is why?
5. How Do the T Helper Cells Lose This Ability to Know That a Certain 'Zebra Virus' Attacked You?
If something is killing off T cells, and if there are only a limited number of T cells that can recognize this zebra virus, the result is that when none of those T cells are left, if the "zebra virus" attacks you, it will be very hard for your body to fight this zebra virus.
For one thing, it will take your body a long time even to realize that the "zebra virus" is there doing damage If you lose all the T cells that recognize the letter "z".
In the case of late stage HIV progressing to AIDS, your cells lose this ability to recognize enemy viruses. T helper cells have disappeared from your repertoire; your alphabet of T cells is missing important letters that makes you vulnerable to "zebra virus" if it attacks.
As one T cell after another disappears, and therefore T cells lose their ability to recognize letters, that is, to recognize those peptides that do not belong inside of you, you become less and less able to fight more and more illnesses and this condition is called "AIDS".
Importantly, the HIV is not directly making the T helper cells vanish -- the disappearing act is being caused by something else.
6. What Is Killing Off the T Helper Cells?
It has been known for a long time that the T cells (the "killer" T cells) -- whose job it is to kill off infected cells -- also kill off uninfected cells that look a lot like the infected ones. We might call them 'bystander' T cells. Scientists call the killer T cell a 'CD8+ cytotoxic lymphocyte' and these cells become hyperactive when HIV is around. In fact, they become so hyperactive, that for every cell actually infected with HIV, they kill hundreds or thousands of uninfected T helper cells and they slowly reduce your total healthy cell repertoire. It is actually this overkill from hyperactive CD8 cells that causes you to get AIDS, not the actual virus.
[A technical note: In the early 1990s, the researchers Joyce Zarling, Leonard Adelman and Allen D. Allen, working independently, proved to a scientific certainty that it was the cytotoxic CD8 T cells that were indiscriminately killing off CD4 T cells. This was published in prominent medical journals, such as Journal of Immunology, AIDS, etc. and led Allen to invent an agent known as Cytolin (a mouse anti-human monoclonal antibody.]
7. How Could We Stop This From Happening?
Your killer defense CD8 T cells would calm down if the amount of HIV in your body would be reduced. This is what antiretrovirals (the medicines that stop HIV from making more HIV) accomplish. However, there are several problems with this approach, even though it has worked wonderfully keeping millions of people alive for many, many years.
The problems are: the HIV medicines are expensive, have side effects and the virus can sometimes get resistant to them.
For this reason, it would be useful to have a medicine or a group of medicines which the virus would not get resistant to, which are not too expensive and which would help calm down the killer cells a little.
Different chemicals like steroids act like a brake on the immune system, and a particular monoclonal antibody called "Cytolin" (mentioned above) acts like a brake on the hyperactivity of the CD8's -- it calms them down. It down regulates their hyperactivity, which would help the body keep healthy T cells around to do their work preventing opportunistic infections, and therefore avoiding AIDS.
We have known for some time that this approach of calming down the immune system would work to slow down AIDS because we have had medicines that calm down or slow down the immune system. There are immune tranquilizers, such as cyclosporine A for example, which makes CD8s less panicky and lets them shoot at the enemy with an accurately pointed pistol instead of what is more like a machine gun shooting down every cell that is near an infected T cell.
When you use these types of drugs on people with HIV, you can show that T cells are no longer being killed off and the amount of virus is actually reduced.
However these early immune tranquilizers were just as over reactive as the CD8 cells we are trying to calm down, and made the immune system unable to protect us from many illnesses.
But now there are some drugs known as 'immune modulators' that make the killing CD8 cells less hyperactive, but allow them to still kill off the already infected cells, and allow them to still protect against other infections as the body gets attacked.
One of these immune modulators, mentioned above, is called "Cytolin." It is what scientists call a 'monoclonal antibody' and it makes the killer cells less crazy -- that is, less likely to kill off all the cells near an infected cell but instead focuses just on the infected cell.
During the height of the AIDS pandemic, before the antiviral cocktails were available, activist doctors used Cytolin to rescue a few hundred patients. [Data from 188 patients treated with Cytolin for 18 months were reported to the FDA (check www.searchforacure.org). A Phase I(b)/II(a) study of Cytolin was reported at the 2002 and 2005 CROI national conferences by Donald W. Northfeld, MD.]
Cytolin -- which is given as an intravenous infusion -- is being developed by a west coast company called CytoDyn and is being studied by Eric Rosenberg, M.D., a researcher at the Massachusetts General Hospital. It is hoped that within a year we can get more information on how the medicine works on people with HIV.
8. Why Would We Think This Drug Might Work?
We think that this medicine may work because before 1996 (when HIV/AIDS antiviral drugs were invented), doctors used this drug on 188 HIV-positive people of them) and we know from the records of those patients that the drug seemed to help them.
In general, using the antibody showed some return in their ability to fight illnesses, an increased number of T cells, and a drop in the amount of HIV.
The way scientists measured this was to use a test of the body's ability to recognize enemy germs, a skin test showing if the body recognized illnesses it was exposed to in the past. It was clear that people who were not able to fight some illnesses got this ability back after using the antibody.
Some of the well known scientists who worked with this antibody years ago were contacted by the non-profit organization Search for a Cure and interviewed. All of them indicated that they would like to see Cytolin studied because they felt it had potential.
9. What Is Happening Now?
Search for a Cure has researched this drug and helped to get a clear strategy for studying it underway. The testing will first happen in vitro (in the test tube) and later in people.
There are several ways studying the drug might be helpful:
- It would protect antivirals from resistant strains of HIV emerging since HIV cannot get resistant to Cytolin.
- To see exactly how Cytolin protects T cells and through this to better understand the errors made by the immune system that leads to AIDS.
- To see if some version or amount of Cytolin might be able to help people avoid needing the use of antivirals for long periods of time.
The research will take a good deal of time, but many specialized scientists are convinced that a monoclonal antibody such as Cytolin is a good way to help the body fight against its own over reaction to HIV and protect its immune system. This would make Cytolin the first immune-based therapy in existence for HIV. There are others like Interferon alpha for hepatitis C for example, but none for HIV.
12. How Can I Get More Information?
For more information:
Contact us at firstname.lastname@example.com and we can send you more information. If you are interested in technical materials, we can e-mail them too you. You can also check the CytoDyn website where a good deal of data is available. Eventually the results of the studies will be available to everyone.


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NICU partners with Children's National
The Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) at Sentara Northern Virginia Medical Center has partnered with the division of neonatology at Children's National Health System to extend expert neonatal care to the Woodbridge, Va., metropolitan area.
Ranked in the top-10 neonatal programs nationally by U.S. News & World Report, Children's National neonatologists will provide Level 1 (well-baby nursery) and Level 2 (intermediate nursery) coverage within the Sentara Northern Virginia Medical Center state-of-the-art NICU. It will be closely linked to the Level IV NICU at Children's National main campus. Additionally, the neonatologists will work alongside hospital staff and on-staff obstetricians to determine care for newborns, as well as mother and baby treatment plans.
"We are excited to partner with such an esteemed organization and bring this high-quality, specialized service to the families of our community," says Marlene Bolster, vice president of operations for Sentara Northern Virginia Medical Center.
Medical Director Ashraf Afifi, M.D., leads the program, which consists of two other board-certified neonatologists and six neonatal nurse practitioners from Children's National.
Billie Lou Short, M.D., Chief of Neonatology at Children's National says, "The goal of this partnership is to provide cutting-edge care for sick newborns in an environment that allows considerate and compassionate relationships with our patients and families, while fostering a close partnership with our referring institutions and physicians."
This partnership extends the specialized neonatology services provided by Children's National Medical Center in Washington, DC beyond the walls of their central hospital, helping to enhance the care of newborn patients closer to home.


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Even Captain Delusional conceded the third-round tender placed upon him by the Raiders stung a little bit.
"It's hard to really kind of fathom it," Raiders linebacker Kirk Morrison said on an episode of ESPN's "Jim Rome is Burning" to guest host Marcellus Wiley. "You understand that, OK, here I am, putting in this hard work, feeling like I was very deserving of being put on a higher pedestal, but the organization didn't see it that way.
"I don't get mad about it. I don't get frustrated about it. My thing is to go out and work hard this offeason, be a more productive linebacker next year. Be better."
"Captain Delusional" is the nickname used good-naturedly by some Bay Area media with regard to Morrison because of his ability to paint even the most dire situation in a positive light. Give up 200 yards rushing? No worries. Just a couple of big plays or trick plays. A one-sided loss? A springboard to togetherness and better days ahead.
We know, of course, Morrison may be thinking other things. But he's a team-first guy who won't start fires in the media, from whom never is heard a discouraging word.
Morrison has led the Raiders in tackles for each of the last five seasons, but was given a third-round tender while Stanford Routt was given a first- and third. Thomas Howard was given a second. Ricky Brown was given a second. Even Hiram Eugene got a second.
The message seems clear enough _ the Raiders were inviting teams to make an offer and would take the draft pick in return. Short of that, with the restricted free agent market as slow as molasses, Morrison could be part of a trade as the draft approaches.
"I understand it's a business and I want to make sure I go ou tthere and whatever happens in this free agency thing, whatever team I play for, whether it be the Raiders or whoever else, that I go out there and give 110 percent and move forward."
And although the Raiders will ultimately determine where Morrison plays, the Captain's public stance is that he's in control of his destiny.
"I'm excited for the situation I'm in right now because I do have the opportunity to explore my options, figure out what's best for Kirk Morrison," Morrison said. "A lot of teams, they want to do what's best for them. I have the opportunity now to see what's best for Kirk Morrison and where his career can go."
Morrison said there has been interest from other teams which he declined to name but promised "Over the next couple of weeks there's going to be a lot of action going on because of the draft, trades, different things. I'm just kind of sitting back, waiting around."
Morrison talked in diplomatic terms of the Donovan McNabb trade from Philadelphia to Washington, painting it as a good deal for both teams and lauding his skills as a quarterback, and gave the company line "open competition" answer when queried about JaMarcus Russell and Bruce Gradkowski and their battle to be the Raiders quarterback.


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My Son: My Positive Influence
Throughout my life but prior to my son's birth, I had major difficulties adhering to my medication. Honestly, I still have problems digesting pills, which I hate (actually, "hate" is not a strong-enough word). However, the thought of my son makes swallowing the pills a bit more tolerable.
I had never thought that I would be able to have children, and being blessed with the son I have is unimaginable. He is the most adorable, funny and intuitive child that I have met. His smile is infectious, and his laugh is contagious. Every time he sees me, he calls, "Dad!" and his arms begin to flail as he runs to me with joy. Nothing in my life explains how my heart jumps to realize the love that radiates from him. Every day I praise God for his existence. I have always had reasons to live, but none like this.
However, I can look at him and become so sad. I begin to ask myself: How much of his life will I be around for? What will I do when children tease him because his father has AIDS? How am I going to explain my condition and its severity without making him afraid? How am I going to feel if he ever asks if I am dying? Will he be ashamed of me because I am HIV positive?
I experience myriad emotions because, though I love my son, I hate that AIDS could cause such pain in his life. My child, whom I am supposed to protect, support and comfort, will suffer because of this. I have mixed emotions about fatherhood and my own mortality, since sometimes I grow tired of chasing him and playing with him because my immune system is so compromised.
Despite all of this, I know that God never puts more on you than you can bear. As long as I am a positive influence in my son's life and provide for him the best way I can, he will be fine. At least that is what I tell myself to make it through.
Fatherhood is hard. I work to be the strongest man I can so that I can be the best father I can. My love for my son has no limits. I just have to do what I have to do, for him and for me -- which in this case means adhering to my medications so that I can have more time to watch him grow into a man who will be able to stand on his own and raise his own son one day.
William Brawner, 30, is the founder and executive director of Haven Youth Center, a non-profit providing services to HIV-positive youth in Philadelphia.