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Field McConnell & David Hawkins w/August Dunning: Transcript—17 April 2009 Hour 2
Source: rumormillnewsradio.com, hawkscafe, captainsherlock.com
Field McConnell: If we're going to talk about China I'll continue to throw in the microphone to August, but China seems to play a very big part of this going back even to President GHW Bush and the other guy…
Rayelan Allan: Right:
Field: …he's spent some time in China and I'm sure August will cover that. Also, General Shalaskavelli which was a huge embarrassment to everyone in the military, he was the Chairman of the Joint Chiefs under Clinton, and Clinton of course hated the military and if you don't believe me, you can read a book called Dereliction of Duty where on of the Air Force pilots that carried the brick for the president and it talks about his treasonous behavior. But China has a very tight connection to nine-eleven although and apparently they didn't want to be seen at the forefront which is what you will see when you go looking around. French speaking Canada first up in Quebec and Gaetano and Montreal. You see the French-speaking Canadians you see the French, and if you look with a microscope or if you just keep looking with your own vision you'll reach China and maybe August would like to share some news about China with your listeners?
Rayelan: Yes, August, let's follow up on this China thread.
August Dunning: Well, I think there's several threads, you had the Department of – Food and Drug Administration with very few inspectors, we've had over a thousand different events where poisonous toxic contaminated foods coming into our food supply, toys, our children, you know, supply. All sorts of things from China and they're only inspecting one out of a thousand cargo containers. Okay, so there's stuff coming in that we're being exposed to all the time from China. Is it ignorance, is it just no control over there, or is it an operation, a subversion and a military operation just seeing what they can do.
Rayelan: Mhm.
August: One of the things that was interesting to me was the pet scandal you know, they found melamine which is a plastic that gives a false signature of nitrogen that gives you a false signature of protein in food then it destroys kidney tissue. It turns out that Sadexo, a Chinese food manufacturing company which provides food for all fifty-five of our Marine bases and all…
David Hawkins: It's French, Augie.
August: …it's French rather, are supplied by Chinese products through this French company that supply the food supply for our soldiers in Iraq and Afghanistan. Fifty-five of our Marine bases around the country and all they would have to do is put a bad batch into all those food supplies and feed them to the soldiers and in forty-eight hours you have one and a half million people down with crenel failure.
Rayelan: Oh my God.
August: This is the kind of thing that really worries me. You know we've got ports from Port Angeles, Oakland, Long Beach, Ensenada in Mexico, Panama Canal all under the control of the Chinese. Only one in a thousand cargo containers are inspected. Any one of those containers or several could have nuclear devices, trucked to a city and held for nuclear ransom, I mean, there's things going on here that are very disturbing, and because this is a real possibility, it's a real possibility because Clinton, via General Shalikashvili went over there and just gave the Chinese all of our military information. Gave it to them.
Rayelan: Yeah, I…
David: If I could just interject. Over in China, a senior consultant for KPMG by the name of Kevin Rudd is now the Prime Minister of Australia, so you'll find that Sidley Austin has got a big office in Beijing. So, the thing to understand is, the glue that binds these rolls of China or Australia, or United Kingdom, or France, against the United States, it requires a secure communications system which is under the control of senior women inside the Sidley Austin Law Firm. Because without the communications system, without the encryption for the delegated authority you cannot put together a sort of military maneuver which might involve injecting into the food chain some of the stuff that Augie described, and then make sure the people who are responsible for inspecting that goes sideways. So we need to always find the mens rea, the guilty mind behind it. We have a one-hundred and forty year tradition with Sidley Austin behind it, its got offices all over the world including London associated with the London underground bomb. In Beijing with the introduction of the virus. In the case of Sidley Austin and the AIDS and hepatitis C virus, that was coming out of the Arkansas prison system aided and abetted by the Clintons.
Rayelan: Yes, it's really amazing.
August: Here's what's funny, and this is Hawks method that David has come up with. You look at the weapon first then you start looking at possibly the weapon is used and then you see patterns happening. What happened to the steel girders of those buildings after nine-eleven? Well, they went to India and China didn't they? For immediate destruction and melted down quickly, quickly, there was in fact an edict to have those things melted quickly as soon as they were received them. It turns out if you back it up before nine-eleven, these are the same countries, India and China, that shipped the ammonium perchlorate to Saddam Hussein when he was embargoed by the UN.
Funny when there's a UN embargo all these bad things happen. The UN allows the embargo – you know, gets thrown out but really what happen was *laugh* it allows these countries to do these dirty deeds while supposedly they have no oversight. Well there's plenty of oversight, they're just arranging it so they can do bad things. And of course we see this movement of nano-aluminum powder out of France into Iraq prior to nine-eleven.
And we have sixty-six tons of aluminum powder from the Iraq stores, from the you know, Iraq Survey Team. So we see people involved before nine-eleven, people that got the resources after nine-eleven, and people that are like melting down evidence after nine-eleven supposedly for the steal. Well, you know, this is curious to me and bothersome, but the real thing is this Maurice Strong character. You know the reason he's in China is because he'd be prosecuted for his criminal activities during the oil for food program which may have been the program food for rocket propellant program because when you talk about these explosives, what they really are is rocket propellant.
Rayelan: Okay.
August: Thermate, super thermate, thermite, all these sort of things, they are very important because they can have different types of controlled combustions and different types of combustion velocities. For instance, thermate is a wonderful combustion because what it does is it does hydrodynamic shock, and what that means it shocks the molecular bonds between the atoms and the substance to just shatter it. So when those columns were shattered by thermate okay, what happen was the steal was just vaporized and the concrete was powderized, that's where we get powderization, because the explosive detonation velocity is about twenty-thousand feet/ second. These are very short time frame explosions of extremely high energy because what they're trying to do is thermodynamically shock things apart.
They learned this from nuclear weapons, that shock wall that comes off a nuclear bomb when it goes off. And in physics they've been able to design these into these things. And these things are easy to make, I mean, thermite is nano-aluminum powder and iron oxide and the results are aluminum oxide and molten iron which was found at the base of the world trade center. There's no energy in the world that can have a collapsing building make liquid molten iron in their basements. And thermate is even easier because you have thermite and you mix two-hundred and six grams of thermite with eighty-seven grams of barium nitrate and six grams of sulfur and point nine grams of dextrin and you have thermate which is even hotter. So these things are easy to make, my God, you could make them in your garage.
Rayelan: Wow.
August: And what's even better is this: thermite has a viscoelastic polymer that you that is usually mixed with it to hold its shape which means you could make a desk out of this stuff, an office piece of furniture out of this stuff and bring it in you know, during these building power downs and evacuations prior to nine-eleven, hence furniture. Even if someone saw it they wouldn't recognize it. Then on Saturday and Sunday before nine-eleven was popped off, you had these same white vans with guys in white outfits supposedly coming in supposedly to wire the buildings for computer lines up and down the elevators.
Now, it doesn't take a rocket scientist, and I am one, to see these things, *laugh* but it looks very similar to a situation where some group is loading explosives that are very stable until they're hooked up. Then another group comes in and wires these explosives so they're fairly unstable so you turn all the radio signals off, and they lost TV power, and the radios didn't work for the firefighters that day. Remember?
Rayelan: *laugh* That's right.
David: And then you ship the three-hundred and forty-three firefighters into the building, you tell the people in the building to stay where they are, you vaporize them and then you file a claim in the Lloyd's syndicates in London for reinsurance for a hundred-million dollars and then you split it with the insiders.
August: Didn't they triple the coverage on those firefighters? And didn't they double the insurance in all those buildings?
David: Yeah, and incidentally, the relatives of the people who were killed, they were called into the Sidley Austin office at seven-eight-seven seventh avenue whatever, and they were invited in to get an emergency payment. Well what they had to do was hand over the death certificate, Ray, and when they had enough death certificates, they took it upstairs to Axel reinsurance and then they claimed for three-hundred and forty-three dead firefighters, we think ten million dollars a pop, so they made three point three billion dollars and they paid out, I don't know, let's say four point three million dollars.
Rayelan: Oh boy.
August: Ray, just for the sake of argument, we don't have it all right, we don't have one-hundred percent of everything in line, we've got a damn good chunk of it, Ray.
Rayelan: Yeah, I can see that. I can already feel it, I mean, I think everybody in the world already knows the official explanation of nine-eleven is just nuts, plain nuts.
David: And do you know the story had been written before it happened so the NIST people and the MIT people injected the theory of the buildings coming down for whatever reason. But the description of that event had actually been written before nine-one-one because they clearly understood if they could get the encrypted story into the mainstream media before anyone else, then all subsequent theories could be dismissed as conspiracies.
August: Well here's another interesting thing that I found out just recently, David. It turns out that two Chinese colonels have admitted to designing the nine-eleven disaster. Now of course, this is after they got all of the information on our military weapons systems and communications systems from Shalikashvili. So China is involved with the planning of this thing intimately. There's a real, real thing there. And let's talk – real quick back to detonation velocities. During the crash in Shanksville, a lot of people heard cracking and popping and interruptions of magnetic signals in television and radio right before that plane blew up. Now, when you emit huge electro-magnetic pulses like that you get those kinds of interruptions in normal broadcast structures. What's really interesting is that when you produce the exact type of frequency in electro-magnetic pulse you can also, you can also create arcs between the plates. Like in this material called SMACSONIC and I think Field can tell you the dangers in that.
Field: Yes, SMACSONIC can be installed in aircraft insulation because it looks like regular insulation and it can be used as a thermal, a vibrational or a sound insulation, but also, if you hit it with a certain type of electro-magnetic energy or electronic trigger, you can cause the entire fuselage of the aircraft that's surrounded by the insulation to reach fifty-eight hundred degrees Fahrenheit; literally instantaneously which blows the tail off the airplane like it did the seven fifty-seven at Shanksville. It turns what's left of the aircraft into a missile that burns up and turns into plasma before any of the big parts hit the ground.
August: Assuming the SMACSONIC has been impregnated with super thermate *laugh* instead of the rubber insulator.
Field: Yes, and we gave this information to the FBI on February thirteenth of two-thousand and seven and here it is two years and two months later and our patience is wearing thin. But I think the FBI might be ready to move on all this. Let's watch.
David: And incidentally, the triaxial configuration of the QRS eleven gyro chips, that was done under patents acquired from Hillary Clinton by the French contractor Thales which was the preferred weapons supplier to Saddam Hussein. And they make one other product, Ray, which is SMACSONIC, the insulation that can double up as incendiary. So Thales, the company that helped Saddam develop decoy and drone maneuvers in Iraq has got all the technologies for nine-one-one.
August: And the other thing is they say the terrorists were overwhelmed by the passengers and were brought down to the ground. Well, if that's true why were there engine parts strewn across eight miles of landscape?
Rayelan: Yeah, exactly, exactly.
August: It blew up in the air.
Rayealn: Have any of you ever, ever questioned the phone calls that were made?
August: Oh sure, that's an easy one. Cell phones have an initiation period between towers. When you're driving in a car there's plenty of time for that. When you're traveling at four-hundred miles per hour, there's not enough time to initiate contact to the tower to contact the tower. These were all, these were all false signatures that were injected into the day probably from the people that were offloaded off of these – out of the real airplane into the Lewis Research Center in Cleveland where a drone took off and went to target and they had these people with a gun up to their head going, "Hi mom, this is Bob Jenkins, do you recognize me mom?" Wait a minute, who says that, who says their last name to their mom?
Rayelan: Yeah, exactly.
August: You know, it's like…
David: And incidentally, the True Pass System of encryption formed a partnership out of British Columbia with various CAIC Entrust and ATT, Augie. So those communications were taking place through an encrypted system to confuse the public and a representative lawyer of ATT in nineteen ninety-one in Washington, was one Michelle LaVaughan Robinson.
August: Who do we know with that as a first name?
Rayelan: Right, right.
David: And she also represented Union Carbide for the defense in the Bhopal pesticide bomb.
August: These people are being repaid for their work for the cadre, you know…
Rayelan: Now there's that call from Barbara Ohlson to her husband Ted Ohlson. What do you make of that call? That one was strange, stranger than the rest.
August: Yeah, well who was he, where was he? When you look at the flight manifests from all those planes, it's like these were all people from Raytheon, the Navy, there were a few weird people who accidentally got on that plane, but most, they thought they were participating in a war game. They thought they were part of that red team blue team war game going on that day. They had no idea…
David: They had digital identities with actors associated with digital identities. So you're able to take a digital identity associated with a human being in Ottawa and inject the voice of the digital identity, which of course is the human…
Rayelan: You just said that…
David: …to follow the conversation.
Rayelan: You guys just said something that I have never heard of before. Are you saying all those people on the planes, or just some of the planes, were actually actors that were acting in this…
August: In a war game.
Rayelan: …in a war game.
August: If you look at the flight manifest all those people on the planes were all members of the Navy, the Air Force, Raytheon and these companies that design remote control aircraft. If you wanted to get rid of the people in the know how any of that stuff that would have happened you would have had them on those flights.
David: And so what they were doing, Ray, these were the people unwittingly on the blue team using the True Pass Communications System when suddenly the guys, probably the first lady, certification authority in Chicago, and possibly in Washington, they revoked the certificates. So the blue team went blind and deaf and dumb and they died in large numbers. And the red team then took over in what would have been a coup 'de tat if that fourth plane had reached the Capitol building.
Rayelan: Oh my God.
August: During that time period that was a planned military stand down of US Forces handed over to the Canadians during that war game. All these things have happened in that morning during that stand down period where we gave our air defenses to the Canadians. It was not in our hands. We had already signed that off. And when Dick Cheney is sitting there in the basement in the war room going, you know, "I don't want to change the flight paths." Why would he? If they brought that plane down it would have crashed in Falls Church or Arlington where mothers were with their babies in the early morning.
Rayelan: Who would be running the United States right now if that flight ninety-three plane had taken out congress?
August: Nationalist Socialist Communists period like they are right now.
David: We could be more specific. There is an organization created by the terrorist leader Bernadine Dohrn, who was at Sidley Austin training the interns from nineteen eighty-four to nineteen eighty-eight. The last intern she was responsible for was called Michelle LaVaughan Robinson who handled interns from nineteen eighty-eight to nineteen ninety-one. So for seven years, the Sidley Austin law firm, the world's most powerful hedge fund law practice, had seven years worth of interns to be corrupted. And shortly after ninety-one, they formed an organization called Women at Sidley, and you can google that, and the Women at Sidley appears to have been equipped with these True Pass encryption systems and created the possibility of what we might call 'First Lady Certificate of Authority.'
The ability to delegate for example, the Mumbai attack of Thanksgiving Day of last year, a local commander to take care of for example, the counter-terrorist forces in Mumbai. Take them out with a targeted hit then disrupt communications to basically kill Jews, tourists – essentially make the Indian Government look stupid or incompetent. Exactly the same technique with Hurricane Katrina where the hurricane had passed eighty miles to the east, twenty-one hours before, and then at four simultaneous places the levies were blown using underwater explosives. Probably using the thermite that was used…
Rayelan: I've always said that.
David: …then thy flooded the town. They had a computer simulation called 'Hurricane Pam' run by AMEC about a week before. And the objective in the sense of the computer simulation was to determine what kinds of insurance hedging would take care of the death to the order of sixty-thousand if they could get a fifteen foot flood. Now Katrina didn't perform according to standard. It went to the east. It had gone past; the storm was over so they had to blow the levies. They were hoping to get sixty-thousand dead because that would trigger the catastrophe insurance, or that had been put together by Sidley Austin and its first ladies. Now if you go to the web site for the Chicago Global Affairs, which used to be the Council on Foreign Relations and scroll down, there's some fascinating characters.
There's a guy called Lester Crown whose a director of General Dynamics which is the international military organization able to take care of hits like Mumbai. The treasurer, and I didn't make this up, her name is Leah Zelwanga [not sure on name] and she has a hedge fund called Lizard. [not sure of name and spelling until confirmed] And if you keep going down you find *garbled* [not sure of name here], the managing director of Goldman Sachs and then a woman called Michelle Obama who describes herself as the first lady of the United States. So in Chicago you have all the structure in place to execute an encrypted attack on America domestically and on American allies abroad including the London underground and the Mumbai attack on Thanksgiving Day of last year. And then blame, well, I don't know how long they can keep blaming Bush. It's getting pretty hard as he fades into history, but basically…
Rayelan: They're blaming…
David: …go ahead
Rayelan: They're blaming him every single day for something. Did you say they released that classified document on what was allowed in the interrogation of the prisoners and, I mean, that's classified. That's going to put our people in danger, or totally nullify…
August: I think that Dick Cheney okay, is really the person you need to talk to not George Bush. He's obviously just like any of these people in that position is just a mouth piece for the people that are running the game.
Rayelan: Right.
August: I think Cheney was the guy that really decided, do you know what, we're not going to play by the rules, we're going to find out what the hell happened, how we were blind sided and who is doing this stuff? So he assassination squads going into all these countries finding and knocking them off getting information. Against the law, against the laws of these governments, it's well documented now, because he decided if these people aren't going to play by the rules. Why are we…
David: You're dead on Augie, you see, because George Bush, remember, he was sworn in on the twenty-sixth of January. So a few months later there as this huge attack. Now, in his mind, in his position – I don't know if you have ever got any experience in dealing with any bureaucracies, his number one problem is, who are my enemies? He must have known, he's a fighter pilot, he must have known that there were people on the inside who were able to do bypass maneuvers on the world's most powerful air force.
Rayelan: Ahuh.
David: But the problem was, he couldn't identify it. So I think he might have done something that might in the long run save the United States. He's helped get a whole bunch of young American men and women into extremely dangerous areas to do quite a lot of clean up, but the number one issue to be solved after nine-one-one was not to take out Saddam Hussein, but to take out the Chicago-based intelligence services that enabled Saddam Hussein and his money to help execute the nine-one-one attack. Come to Chicago, come to British Columbia, come to Montreal, that's where the enemy is.
Rayelan: And so do you think that Saddam Hussein was part of this Sidley Austin thing?
David: Absolutely. I've been – because he aided and abetted Maurice Strong to place thirteen billion dollars at one stage in cash in the BNT Paribas account in New York at the address where they handed out the checks to the firefighter's survivors – relatives.
Field: I just want to let your listeners know that Saddam Hussein had a half brother by the name Barzan Ibrahim al-Tikriti, I believe, was Saddam's banker and also Saddam's intellectual senior and there was a relationship where the money flowed through Switzerland in or out of Iraq, and in or out of the United States or Canada. But in this case out of the New York Federal Reserve Bank, and after we got out of Iraq we found seven-hundred and forty-two million, subject to either of the other two gentlemen correcting me, seven-hundred and forty-two million in brand new Federal Reserve Notes printed in New York. And those reserve notes in the basement of Saddam's house had been funneled in there with the help of Barzan al-Tikriti and Hillary Clinton. And when they decided that they wanted to hang somebody the rope was a little bit longer than it should have been. I'm not a physicist, the other two guys are, but they gave the guy a little bit more rope than he needed to strangulate him and he got his downward velocity and energy going to such a degree that his head popped off. And that's a message from the Queen of Arkancide to anybody who wants to roll over on her, or isn't a physician to roll over on her, that maybe she'll take them off at the shoulders. And I'll…
Rayelan: Wow.
Field: She doesn't scare all of us and I'll turn it over to David.
David: Well, I think that's right. So then we can go to that bank account in Switzerland, or Geneva, it's actually known in the intelligence industry as 'Satan's bank.' And it was funding , you know, dirty money through the system including UN oil for food through the proper name, I guess is Paliby Genea Associate Anoneem Parbisa. [not sure on name] The chairman was a Montreal – or a Canadian by the name of Paul Demoray whose on the board of directors of the Total Oil Company which had amongst the directors a director of Thales which made the gyroscopes and the incendiary devices used on nine-one-one.
So, I know it's a bit convoluted, but if you follow the main financial consulting company, which is KPMG Consulting, and it changed its name to Bearing Point at one point. It went bankrupt in February. Sitting behind KPMG Consulting that is moving this dirty money around in contract killing or murder for hire, which is a violation of RICO, is the Sidley Austin law firm. So you come back to Chicago and in Chicago you have a militant radical women's group called Sidley Austin.
And someone like – it's hard to imagine – but someone like, someone like Saddam Hussein is merely a male agent, right? Now, if you control his intelligence services, his encryption services, the weapons that supply him, and above all the debt that he's used to buy the equipment you control Saddam. So he's disposable, you know, you can remove his head from his neck and that doesn't basically change the system. The important thing is to look at the legal structure that weaves or puts these webs together, and the encryption systems that are used to communicate amongst the seditious conspirators and basically attempt to merely succeed to overthrow the United States on nine-eleven.
August: You know, one of the things that David brought up was this event pin wheel idea. You can see it in some of our presentations. Is that if you follow the time wheel around events you can see how events lead to people. We did this with nine-eleven. We found Iraq was intimately involved. We found that Saddam Hussein gave a hundred-million dollars to the MOVIC weapons inspectors to monitor what was going on during Amalgam Virgo and a war game with the Canadians that was supposedly with Al Qaeda guys to hijack an unmanned remote controlled aircraft and fly it into resources a hundred days before Global Guardians which was an unmanned Al Qaeda hijacking of remote controlled airplanes into resources.
It looks like Saddam obviously funded what was going on in these war games to get information so that one-hundred days later the people could get into these integrated systems and secure systems to operate the war game for twenty hours with us completely out of control. We also see that Saddam Hussein was under an embargo. He wanted money. So we have these vultures out there like the OIF, the Organisation Internationale Francophonie which is a bunch of French speaking countries like Laos, and Cambodia and Vietnam and France and Canada French speaking. And you have these guys doing all this bad stuff.
So we have an opportunity where someone is vulnerable to have a presentation given to him. Do you know what we need, we need a bunch of propellants, rocket propellant. He might not have even know what he was building at the time. We also need to funnel some of this money to find out some information. Why don't you give us a hundred-million dollars. The money came from Saddam. He might not have known what he was funding to get their favor. Same thing with Kim Yong Il. Kim Yong Il is in the same position where he suddenly throws out weapons inspectors from the UN and all of a sudden all these nuclear weapons and bombs are going off. Was the bomb that went off in North Korea [that was a very big boom] a failed large device, or a successful small scale nuclear suitcase bomb? I would posit Saddam Hussein was building stuff for this nine-eleven event and that Kim Yong Il was building suitcase through the OIF and that these are going to be used in events in the upcoming years. You see people of great mental illness and evil intent and vulnerability and these characters come in there and exploit their resources.
And the people in both of these countries, Iraq and North Korea, are completely out of control, completely subjugated by these horrible, horrible men and living in abject poverty. That's a really bad prescription and it's probably going on in several places around the world right now most curiously in Africa with the Chinese now in Africa all over the place buying up precious metals and storing precious, precious metals and important strategic metals in preparation for what? Because when the country all of a sudden has sanctions against them if they have resources they don't care about resources.
David: And if I could just hop in there? Notice the WACO killings and the day care center in the Murray Building. There's an element here which we can track back to the psychology of a group, they call themselves lesbiennes radicals, or militant lesbians and the militant lesbians are actually fascinated by the idea of killing what they call 'useless breeders', that is women with children? And if you look at the killings, or the genocide in Kenya at the beginning of last year, women and children were being stuffed into churches and burned to the ground.
Rayelan: That's right. That's exactly what went on.
David: And if you look back on who was in communication with Odinga you have Barry Seotoro's digital identity named Barack Hussein Obama using his Blackberry.
Rayelan: Yeah, and so that explains why the Blackberry.
David: Exactly. If you look at Palin up in Alaska after – when they wanted to send a signal to Sarah Palin. If you look at the Australian churches in Melbourne there's pictures, they love to take out a Christian church you know, they're basically triumphant. There's this extraordinary fascination by killing women and children and if you go up the stack in the DOJ, the Department of Justice, you'll find an extremely dangerous organization called DOJ Pride, which is lesbians, gays and bisexuals and transgendered. And I think gays, lesbians and transgendered, God bless them, they're along for the ride and they do not understand that lesbians, or certain kinds of lesbians, they like to kill women and men.
Rayelan: Is that what the pig farm was all about?
David: Absolutely. There was a woman out there that we're tracking down now, it's in part of the story, and people, I urge them to go to Captain Sherlock and look at this book that is being written – and who knows who's writing it, but it's just this freedom – stream of consciousness, but it's called Olympic Debt and the Tontine Death Squad. And there's a woman – it's about a week ago – she was jogging in a park and it looks like someone broke her neck from behind like a military unarmed combat instructor…
Rayelan: Oh boy.
David: …and it turns out she's connected with the Olympic debts and a downtown women's association.
Rayelan: The Olympic deaths from…
David: The Olympic debt. In BC, and I'm the leader of the Reform Party here and I'm running in this election on May the twelfth, this little province, we've got four million people in it. We've taken on between seven and ten billion dollars of debt to build these projects for a sixteen day sports fest next year. We'll never be able to pay so what they're doing is they say, "Alright, we understand you can't pay the principle and interest so collect a carbon tax peasants and pay your debts out of carbon tax."
Rayelan: Oh wonderful, wonderful.
David: And anyone who gets in the way is going to get whacked, so someone near them is going to get whacked soon. This woman who was whacked, her brother was on the Olympic Committee.
Rayelan: Oh great. David, tell us a little more how we can possibly help you. We've got a lot of listeners up in Canada and you'll have to tell us where the *garbled* are and that can vote for you. This is rumor mill news radio on the micro effect broad casting network, and we will be back.
Rayelan: You're listening to rumor mill news radio. My name is Rayelan Allan and I am talking with Field and David and August, ad we are talking about things you have never heard of. David, would you finish up on that pig story and can you kind of let people know what went on there before the bodies were buried on a pig farm?
David: Yeah, sure. In nineteen ninety-six in which is the south western part of British Columbia which is the western providence of Canada. In nineteen ninety-six there was set up a federally registered charity called the 'Piggy Palace Good Times Society' and we believe the Piggy Palace Good Times Society directors and officers were actually linked up through this encryption system that was later called 'True Pass' and prior to that was a product developed by the Entrust Company out of British Columbia, a company called McDonald, Dettwiler and Associates. Now, what McDonald Dettwiler does, it equips military and government networks with secure communications systems and then builds software applications for what is known as guidance and control of missiles, planes and boats using gyroscopes for example, and ground moving target indicator through the RADARSAT satellite system which does I think, seventeen orbits a day.
And we believe was over New York on the morning of nine-eleven. And this generates through a synthetic aperture radar system, a very precise picture of targets for example, predator missiles. So you can see the combination of ability to guide weapons into a target very accurately with gyroscopes or coordinates with surveillance either from airborne radar or satellite synthetic aperture radar enable – basically you have the perfect killing machine. Now, the third product that's vitally important for McDonald Dettwiler's system is what they call 'Mindbox Automated Loan Recovery.' So, what they were doing is, they were taking prostitutes from the downtown east side, desperate women you know, some with AIDS and Hep C, arrest warrants as long as your arm. Many of them native completely detached of detached from their peer group an they were basically hookers on the downtown east side. I've worked all over the world, the slums of Lagas [not sure of word] have got more hope in them than the downtown east side which is just infested by organized crime. Anyway…
Rayelan: And is this where…
David: Sorry.
Rayelan: What province is it in?
David: This is British Columbia.
Rayelan: British Columbia.
David: Western province of Canada.
Rayelan: Okay.
David: It's one of the providences where after Americans passed their RICO statutes all the slime, scum and came north into Ontario and Montreal and British Columbia and set up shop basically to take America apart. Anyway, these women were taken out to the pig farm and through the offices of the Piggy Palace Good Time Society, and as far as we can judge, they would buy insurance on them and then they would perform in strip shows including the horrific possibility that they were making snuff films of the killing of these women.
Rayelan: That's what I suspect.
David: Now, many people, and I don't want to apologize for my past, but when you are a young man or woman you might do things you wouldn't do as you get older. But quite often there's a fascination of danger. So, the Hell's Angels were selling tickets, and it's not at all obvious, the Hell's Angels per say, fully understood what was going on out there, but according to the newspaper reports, there was an extremely dangerous woman who was orchestrating the events out there who didn't appear in court. What they did is, they got the body disposal man, a guy called Willie Pickton, who was apparently chopping up the bodies and having pig roasts out there. So the people were actually going out there and eating their fellow human beings thinking it was pigs. It was a pig farm.
Rayelan: Oh my God.
David: Now the films we think, were being encrypted using this True Pass System and then sold internationally on *garbled* [this name is not audible] and making huge amounts of money, and then when the whole story came out the True Pass communications system was used to steer the police and the courts at the person who disposed of the bodies and away from this mysterious woman who seemed to be orchestrating the contract killing on behalf of the Piggy Palace Good Times Society.
So our interest in the story, and again, if people will go to captainsherlock dot com, they'll find this amazing story where there's this group of eccentrics, and I believe, Ray, you might be one of them, but anyway, there's a guy called Chips who's a real trouble maker and he's assembling a group of trains and planes and cars and boats to come up to British Columbia and help out a guy called Hamish, who is a fictional character that's loosely modeled on someone like me. And basically we want to solve these murders and bring them to justice and start cleaning up North America out of British Columbia.
Rayelan: Well, let me tell you, the fiction books that you are writing could easily become a film script and I'm hoping that we've got somebody in this listening audience one of these days and realizes that your book is just a block buster.
Field: Can I address that please?
Rayelan: Yes, go ahead.
Field: Yeah, this is Field. That's taken care of. There is a movie that's being produced to be released in two-thousand and eleven that is basically, and it is a major Hollywood production, and I can't say a whole lot about it, but the person who told me about it told me not to speak before we put it into print so I can tell you, and that is, the story that you see in Captain Sherlock Solves nine-eleven is going to be the theme of a major motion picture. However, the more important of the DVDs perhaps, is the nine-eleven trilogy and that's the one you should hope a screen writer picks up because with our fiction, which just to make it clear, there's a big group working on this. We're getting truthful stuff every single day, in fact, today Ray, this will make your head spin. But in the first chapter of our most recent book that went up less than seventy-two hours ago, I talk about a specific f4 d and the honest and specific crew chief of that airplane, his name is Jimmy Moore from Fargo, North Dakota. I had not seen Jimmy Moore since nineteen eighty-nine or ninety. I went to a bank today and there he was and the lady at the bank knows what I am up to in terms of Hawks Café and Rumor Mill News and all this stuff.
And so we fired up her computer and I showed Jimmy Moore where his name and his airplane were used as a central part of our most recent chapter. And the man is about fifty-five years-old and he was absolutely pleased as punch to see somebody doing something honest. And using not only him but his real live aircraft which is scattered all over the internet with my name on it. And I'm simply a face, I don't know what part I play in this, but I do put together a lot of the fiction to support all of our facts. But the people supplying us facts including Jimmy, he mentioned a woman ho is going to appear in our book as our Armice Brooks. Armice Brooks [not sure of name until verified] was a tv show in the fifties, but there's a lady who's married, she's out there in California, her husband I believe, owns the LA Times.
And she has just recently been nominated for some position of authority in the Department of Defense and I'll let David fill in the blanks on that in a minute, but that should give you a snap shot of how the book is being written. The book – David said something about the stream of consciousness, but everything that we put into the book is based on something that happened in real life, not only the criminal elements that are trying to destroy America, over our dead bodies collectively, but also the fiction. Everything I write that's fiction, for instance in chapter four you're going two see two f4s, including Jimmy Moore's, fly through the Cascade Aerospace hanger. This is a heads up to Cascade Aerospace, you better move your airplanes because we're coming through. But everything that I right that appears to be fiction is based on facts. There's nothing I write in fiction I have not done, or I have not seen done by others. And there's a whole lot of God fearing faithful servants in America who may think they're not important.
But everyone is equally important. Jimmy Moore was a crew chief and you know, he probably thought when they got rid of his airplane his life was over. Well, he's going to be dusted off and I made a commitment to him today. I'll be talking to the Revell, R-e-v-e-l-l, model company, and I'll try to work out a deal where they put out a model of the f4 with the truthful number and the North Dakota Guard numbers on it. These things are not impossible, it just takes a little effort. No body knows how many people are working with us including David, myself, Nano, which is August Dunning, and yourself, and I don't want to blow your cover but you know who you are in the book. And every person in the book is a real person that is some how touched the lives of myself, David, yourself, Nano, or Skymaster.
Rayelan: Mhm.
David: Ray, let me just read the last two paragraphs of chapter one of the Olympic Debt and the Tontine Death Squads.
Rayelan: Go ahead.
David: So, and this shows that the fact is which is either proceeding the fictional or vice versa, "Not exactly, was her response prior to the third pull, What it does mean is that more people are going to die. Wendy's murder links back to Fortress, Sidley and the Olympic Village. We've hacked Emerson and the CAI commanders who lined up the Radarsat surveillance beam on the park. We know that PKI gave Bell – not Larry – the master Olympic security contract and Emerson has local control over the Cisco embedded Talleywhackers and the tontine death squads. Someone tracked the jogger with a telephoto lens. Dettwiler's GPS", that's Global Positioning Systems, "kept them in synch. The Ladner hit was run from a point last seen. We'll start from there"
When we wrote that Ray, the next day I went on a trip to Victoria and a man came up to me and he sort of tied his shoelace or something, and I looked down and the hairs on the back of my neck went up because he was in a kind of semi-combat fatigue…
Rayelan: Right.
David: …with dark glasses. He had a telephoto lens. I started talking with him, he's ex-CIA.
Rayelan: Mhm.
David: And then, the last line is, "While a thousand miles to the west, Rolling Thunder Rico and Marquis d'Cartier were driving a 1934 Ford V8 to Cascade Aerospace in Abbottsford, BC to do a little 'cleaning up'. Now that photograph was provided to me by Field. I spoke to Rico Gambolini, whose a character up here, and I showed him this and he said, "Do you know what, David, that's the first car I ever had."
Field: A thirty-four Ford and I didn't know that when I selected that for the fiction.
Rayelan: Wow.
David: Twenty-four hours after we completed and published this chapter, we meet a guy who is ex-CIA who told us a whole bunch of inside information about fraud and corruption in British Columbia, and Rico Gambolini who's one of the stars and insiders of the story up here in British Columbia his car was the same as the nineteen thirty-four Ford v8.
Rayelan: That is amazing, truly amazing.
David: Who knows where fiction or fact begins or ends? It doesn't really matter as far as I can see.
Rayelan: Well, how far are you? You've only got the first chapter up don't you?
David: We can do a chapter every two days.


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Hi everyone,
Sorry for the english. I just moved to Portugal and wanted to introduce myself and my lil project back home.
Its an original M3 Europameister Number 102 of 148 that I am currently rebuilding completely with a few "improvements".
I bought the car from the previous owner a few years ago with intentionts to make it like new or better. The previous owner had really mistreated the car so it had allot of rust.
So far I have replaced the following panels n the car:
1) Front inner wings
2)Front outer wings
3)Trim around winscreen wipers
4) Front floor
5)Side panels
6) Rear quarter panels
7) Rear inner wings
Boot floor
9) Rear tail light panel
10) Roof with sunroof
All parts were bought by BMW Germany.
I also added the cabrio reinforcements at the front to make the car a little stiffer:
I then started soda blasting the car and the plan is to glass blast it to before primer and paint.
Meanwhile I have been buying some toys and making some improvements........
Bought a new fuel tank and full fuel system,
Reinforced the subframes front and rear and rear wishbones and painted them.
I also bought the aluminum front wishbones, Eibach ARB, all new bushes, Z3 quickshift, Some proper coilovers and Brembo BBK,
Z3M diff cover and rebuild the diff
Rebuild the pedal box and steering rack
At the moment I am looking for a full carpet for my car so if anyone knows something please let me know.
The plan is to make the car my dream of what the E30 M3 should have been from factory but keep it all original.
Also hopefully build an S14 at 300+bhp that is very close to DTM spec.
Anyway that is it for now as my car has to wait until my bussines is set up here in Portugal.
Hope to get to know as many of you guys and maybe meet in person as I would love to be part of the BMW scene here too!
Closing...here is a pic of me test fitting an S85 to my best friends M3 too back in Iceland, that is going to be a bit of a monster.....stroked 600+ hp motor with dry sump and use the M-DCT 7 speed dual clutch box.
Thank you,
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"Concepts that become evident in film become applied in our own practicesHow we experience the world and then take that into our [design or professional] practice." Brian McGrath
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matter-flux/open whole "bergson's conclusion...:if the whole is not giveable...it is because it is the Open, and because its nature is to change constantly, or to give rise to something new, in short to endure." "The duration of the universe must therefore be one with the latitude of creation which can find place in it." (Deleuze, Cinema 1,p9) "The real whole might well be...an invisible continuity"." (Deleuze, Cinema i p1_). "Act on it one piece at a time." BM set of information - "a way of looking at an image, not as a picture, but as a set of elements in relation to each other which give you a limited frame of the open whole."
immobile cuts or section: a closed unmoving system/set.
frame - We will call the determination of a ...relatively closed system which includes everything which is present in the image - sets, characters and props - framing." (Deleuze, Cinema_ - "you can't close the whole world out, you can only close out certain information in a frame." BM
movement image - "Movement as physical reality in the external world, and the image, as a psychic reality in consciousness, can no longer be opposed." Deleuze defines the movement image as "the centered set of variable elements which act and react on each other." ( perception image - "set...of elements which act on a center, and which ( objective perception ex: your percept of the room if you are viewing it from the door outside subjective perception - means you're inside the "scene" ex: your percept of the room if you are siting inside it affection image - -we become intimate with these characters, we empathize and identify with them. -less about worldly information and more about the qualities of the individual, the qualities of the face. a close up. thought image has to do with memory reflection image - remembering and reflecting what has happened and overlaying it to what is currently available. (recalling information) -relating the present to the past -by the time it reaches the brain, it is already in the past relation image impulse image- "the energy wich seizes fragments in the originary world." (Deleuze, Cinema 1, pg 124.)" "between affection and action is impulse" action image - "reaction of the center to the set." (Deleuze, Cinema I, p.217) "The action image frames the body in a medium distance shot." sensori motor system - "Bergon states in Creative Evolution that 'the sesnori-motor system' [is] the cerebro-spinal nervous system together with the sensorial apparatus in which it is prolonged and the locomotor muscles it controls," (p. 124). sensori-motor schema - "organizes and coordinates the perceptions, affections, and actions of each living image, and from this schema issues particular configuration of the world..." (Bogue Deleuze on Cinema, p4.) "extensions to our sesnori-motor apparati - ex: digital tools, body practices like yoga or boxing." BM "a schema to help us understand ourselves both as hunters and cyborgs" BM first the hunter develops the skills, the locomoot muslces skills, and then devleops a hunter schema eventually to develop a schema betwn ceberbor spinal nervous sytem _ locomortor muscles. "this is how we can be change detectors and change agents." BM
living image/interva/center of indeterminacy - is the center odf indetermination of a living image, an interval or gap in the universal interaction of matter flows"How do you construct an interior space, a reality from scenes in the film? objective perception/subjective perception - movmeeng images are either objective or subjective. Objective per is provisionally defined as a point of view from outside the framed set, while subjective perception isd efined as a point of view from within the freamed set. (Deleuze, Cinema 1, pg 71-6) nbsp ex: "you assume you're looking at the wife through the view of the husband's eyes and the husband from the view of the wife's eyes. if the camera assumes that position, it is subjective" BM
"There's something powerful about that camera that just sits there, is meditative and watches the world go by."BM
While he uses static shots, the camera changes places between shots, so in that sense it moves. He is always at right angles to the room he is filming like an architect.
add'l shots - static moving temporal
Change blindness - "sometimes my mind creaties patterns of history, am i seeing reality or am i seeing something i remember." BM
re: using two different ladies in Ozu's film
Films Mentioned: Gaspar Noe's "Enter the Void" 2010
Sources: Deleuze, Cinema I BM - Brian McGrath
My Questions: How do you do that when there are shots that aren't just static - like panning and tilting or using a dolly. Why do you want to get the metrics and measurements of the building? Especially when it could be a a set - so it is a partial and fake reality that you then try to define.
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Service Areas: California & Available to Travel
As I reflect back on my life and interests, I realize that I must have the organizing bug in my DNA. Ever since I was a small girl I liked to have my dolls and all of their accessories arranged in a logical fashion. I also had a chest, which I named "hopeless," and into it I stashed all of the trinkets, swatches, and baubles for my future home. Ultimately I did use all of the ideas and color schemes for my new place after I got married. Needless to say, every room was a wild and different color and I would be horrified to use that scheme today. However, at the time it was wonderful and everything was color coordinated. After the sale of the family business, where I was the office manager, I went into real estate. I utilized my organizing and business skills to build my career in the industry. I have helped my clients prepare for sales, moves, and up/down-sizing through the years. I have also been involved in property management, staging of homes, offices and vacation estates.
I certainly had my days of disorganization when I became a young, single, working mom. I was working at the family business when my neighbor called to let me know that it looked like my house had been broken into. My dad and I raced over to my house to discover that it had apparently been broken into by kids (they took a couple cans of root beer, my son's piggy bank (cut open) and a turquoise ring which I had left on the kitchen shelf above the sink). As I was surveying the situation my father said, "Oh my land they have ransacked the whole place." And of course I had to sheepishly tell him, "No Dad this is primarily how I left it this morning as I headed out the door to drop off my son at day care and get to work on time." You should have seen the look on his face. I have thought about that experience many times and the valuable lesson that it taught me. There are times in our lives when we just flat need some helping hands with everything we have on our plates.
I am passionate about helping you re-do, re-design, re-move, re-purpose, re-begin, re-organize, re-locate and re-cover from the avalanche of life events and "stuff" that has prevented you from achieving and maintaining an organized surrounding in which to work and live. So if you are overwhelmed and don't even know where to begin, help is available and a more relaxed stress-free environment can be yours.
Confidential and respectful help is what I offer my clients. It is my goal to help you attain an amazing experience of "An Organized Life and/or Business!" Let's get started today so you can be telling your story to others with a little humor in the past tense.
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The College of Arts and Sciences is hosting an internal competition for nominations to the National Endowment for the Humanities. While stipends are awarded to individuals, not organizations, the NEH requires all full-time faculty applicants to be nominated by an official on their campus. Because of the restricted number of nominations allowed per institution, the College of Arts and Sciences conducts an internal competition to select the university's two nominees. The CAS Office of Research Administration and Grant Development coordinates the internal competition.
About the program
- Summer Stipends support individuals pursuing advanced research that is of value to humanities scholars, general audiences, or both.
- Eligible projects usually result in articles, monographs, books, digital materials and publications, archaeological site reports, translations, or editions. Projects must incorporate analysis and not result solely in the collection of data.
- Summer Stipends support continuous full-time work on a humanities project for a period of two consecutive months.
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Scenes on Sunday ~ Turkey
When a man is weary of sunshine and the sea, he is weary of life.
I a little while I'm going on my first vacation of the year, to Olu Deniz in Turkey. I was there last year, and wasn't brave enough to go parasailing ~ I'll be doing that exciting activity this year.
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the hotel has only about 20 rooms, but the pool area is really nice
Almost Drowning in Turkey
Always look before you leap.
When I went on a day's boat trip in Turkey I jumped into what looked like fairly shallow water. Turned out it was about 60 feet deep. It also turned out that I've just about forgotten how to swim.
I almost drowned before I made it back to our boat.
As almost drowning on vacation is not a good plan, I am taking a week's 1 to 1 professional swimming instruction, from a lady called Sarah Kentish.
This will be in the pool of the Imperial Hotel in a British seaside resort called Llandudno.
jack collier
I wonder if I've forgotten how to ride a bicycle too?
Inspired and Motivated
Life has many ways of testing a man's will and inner strength.
Yesterday I joined a different gym here in my little seaside town. I had not been regularly using the 'old gym', and they had increased their prices. Often the walk there, around the marina, was so interesting and distracting that I never made the gym at all.
I'm pretty surprised that I just went ahead and joined a new gym, without hesitation, procrastination, or much thinking about it. But then, since my recent vacation in Turkey, I'm a changed man. In Turkey I had a bit of an epiphany.
I know that I'm now venturing on yet another important evolutionary step on the warrior's path to discover what I am truly capable of, and I have come to know that I have an immense inner strength. Part of my journey along the warrior's path is knowing what this inner strength and power is, and how I can use it, for the greater good, in my daily existence.
You have power over your mind ~ not outside events. Realise this, and you will find strength. ~ Marcus Aurelius
My goal is to unearth and understand this power and strength from the depths of my subconscious mind, my heart, and my soul. I have something to say and I need to learn how to say it. Perhaps I need to break away from traditional approaches and practices and accept that I am now a unique individual that deserves to receive more recognition and respect for who I have worked so hard to become.
As I was taking my leave from the new friends I had made on vacation, a very together lady said to me that; 'You are a very different kind of man from most…..' She said that and more in a very caring way.
However, right now I still do not feel as fully in charge of my own destiny as I could be. I know that I need a clearer vision of what lies ahead of me. I need to work towards more balance, acceptance, understanding. I need courage. I need to use my new-found self-awareness, self-confidence, inspiration and motivation. And, I need to eliminate negative energies and negative people from my life.
I know, trust, and believe that I am capable of forging my own path, that I have a manifest destiny to reach, a destiny that is not intended for anyone else, at least for no one who cannot share my vision, needs, wants, dreams, and desires.
It is time to explore my dreams and to experiment with the strength and power I suddenly possess. I need to become connected with who I really am, and I need to better connect with those I care for. I want and need to become the real Renaissance Man that some have thought I have always been. Until now I believe that I have always fallen short of that ideal.
Some say that we take for granted those things that are most deserving of our attention. And, that most people never show up for their Appointment with Life. All I know is that Real Life is what happens to you while you are busy making pointless plans.
jack collier
Marmaduke likes to sunbathe on one of the historic ships moored in the marina
Scenes on Sunday ~ Parasailing in Turkey
Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.
Oludeniz is a big centre for parasailing. From the top of the mountain to landing near the beach-side restaurants the flight is about 40 minutes. I didn't go up there on my recent Turkish trip ~ I was too busy on the ground, taking pictures.
jack collier
it's quite fun to do the impossible
Food on Friday ~ Summer
The blue sky in July trembles like a butterfly.
It's high summer. I have just returned from Turkey and the best vacation ever. The food in Turkey was fabulous, and went perfectly with their hot summer sunshine.
These recipes may not all be authentically Turkish, but they are all the kind of dishes you would get in the better Turkish restaurants in the tourist areas, and they will all go perfectly with our long summer days.
First up this week, found by Elise Bauer at Simply Recipes, we have 4 Great Add-Ins for Hummus. Hummus is almost an essential component of a Turkish banquet, and these ideas from Katie Workman are just brilliant. I especially like the roasted red pepper hummus, and Katie even tells us how to make perfect roasted peppers.
Now, from at How Sweet Eats we have summer BBQ Quinoa Salad, which is a perfectly Turkish inspired side dish, or a lighter meal to take to work.
Summer BBQ Quinoa and Chicken Salad
Well now, OK, this recipe for orozo stuffed red peppers with lemony basil tomatoes from Tieghan Gerard at Half Baked Harvest is actually Greek, but I had an exactly similar dish when I was in Turkey. This is a very quick and easy 30 minute vegetarian dish, (other than it has cheese, but you can buy vegan cheese).
Greek Orozo Stuffed Red Peppers with Lemony Basil Tomatoes.
From lovely San Diego girl Averie Sunshine we have this wonderful looking dish of Peach Chili Grilled Chicken, just the kind of thing you could be served in the better Turkish restaurants in the tourist parts of the country. This damn easy 10 minute dish needs no cleanup afterwards ~ how cool is all that?
Peach Chili Grilled Chicken
I almost never feature the same cook twice in one Food on Friday, but here's another Dish from Tieghan Gerard, at Half Baked Harvest. Turkish fried eggs in herbed yogurt. You could have these at breakfast, lunch, or dinner ~ and the whole thing takes only 30 minutes to prepare.
Turkish Fried Eggs in Herbed Yogurt
For desert, this is another sort-of Greek dish: frozen honey Greek yogurt dipped strawberries, shown to us by Andrea at Cooking with a Wallflower. But, there is nothing to stop you from using Turkish honey and Turkish yogurt to make this guilt free desert recipe.
Frozen Honey Greek Yogurt Dipped Strawberries
Finally for this week we have a great collection of Turkish recipes from Delicious Magazine, including this fabulous Lamb Kofte Tagine. This is an easy 30 minute dish that would make a super mid-week meal, or something fast for a Saturday night in with friends. Buy Turkish beer to go with it.
Lamb Kofte Tagine
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we sat in an outdoors restaurant watching the parasailors landing.
how cool was that?
Inner tranquility ~ freedom from anger, anxiety, and fear.
There was something weird about my short stay in Turkey. Was it the place, or the people, or the blue, blue sky? Was it getting enough good sleep, good food, staying sober, staying calm? Or, was it the long, meaningful, and mindful conversations I enjoyed? Or was it some inner spirituality that was awoken in me? I suspect all of these things and more combined to wrought a significant change in my psyche.
For me this was a jumping-off point. I lost some things, I lost negativity, I lost the way I was used to seeing the world, I lost judgmentalism, I lost my mistrust of others, I lost my fear and anger, and I learned how to fly…..
Last night I lost the world, and gained the universe. ~ C. JoyBell C.
I had not been there long before I knew a radical freedom that allowed me to seek acceptance, humility, integrity, mindfulness, and understanding of myself, of those around me, and of those I care for. I was encouraged to take a new control and responsibility for my own life ~ I believe that most of us, (up to and including me), are not in control of our own lives. Rather most of us drift aimlessly through life, so that today is pretty much like yesterday, and tomorrow will be pretty much like today.
That isn't really living, it's just existing, and that's no way to explore true happiness and well-being. To know true happiness and well-being we perhaps should strive to improve and enhance our own lives, the lives of those we care for, and society as a whole.
Within the real meaning of human happiness and enhanced existence, within our aims, significance, and overall purpose, we all have the freedom to choose what to do, to be who we want to be. Sadly so many of us never even try to grow into an enlightened being.
After a couple of days in the mindfulness of my Turkish vacation I began to seek to understand things, to understand the interconnectedness of all things, and the ways to find the significance of my own life among the chaos.
The real meaning of enlightenment is to gaze with undimmed eyes on all darkness. ~ Nikos Kazantzakis
I realised that each of us is what we take ourselves to be. But to live in an authentic, caring, and mindful way, we each have to take each situation as it comes and show our true nature through what we do, and not what we say. Talk is cheap.
I was always frightened to show my true nature. I was a shadow man, the man in the mirror, I was always conforming to what others expected of me, putting on masks that fitted the roles I was expected to play. I saw the world through a winter mirror, darkly.
After just one week in a small Turkish hotel, under blue, blue skies, among a group of friendly and supportive people, I was able to throw away the masks, stop playing a role, eschew the man in the mirror, and really take charge of my own life.
Knowing others is wisdom, knowing yourself is Enlightenment. ~ Lao Tzu
Today, back in the garret, I am self-analytical, self-aware, self-confident, and filled with real self-control, and self-discipline.
Now I need to act in a way that reflects my new self-awareness, and the awareness of my own complete freedom. This is what I am, this is what I choose to be, this is the real me, and I will never again dodge responsibility for being true to myself.
I do not pretend to understand how this enlightenment came about. Probably it was a unique set of serendipitous circumstances, a synchronicity that has energised me physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
Some say that once in a lifetime your chance comes along, that once in a lifetime fate deals you the perfect winning hand. And, that we each have to be courageous enough to take that chance, to throw everything we have behind our one great opportunity in Life. All I know is that today I feel better than I have ever felt before in my entire existence.
My short stay in Turkey was the kindling of a flame.
jack collier
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Turkey – Going Home
It's very nice to go travelling – but it's so much nicer to travel home.
I have had the time of my life on this short little Turkish vacation.
Sadly, today I am flying back to England.
I will miss this place and the new but temporary friends I have made here.
I will miss the strange air of synchronicity this place has.
I will miss the ability to meditate I have learned here.
I will miss the Crystal clear skies and the sunshine.
Who knows, in the strange world of the solitary traveller I may someday come across some of the friends I have made here again.
That wouldn't be bad at all.
Jack Collier
Turkey – The Strip
Sometimes unexpected Magic happens.
Taking a vacation with no expectations, other than reading a book by the pool, has lead me down a surreal rabbit-hole of fun.
This sleepy little seaside town of Oludeniz has a street that comes alive at night time, when it's called The Strip.
Last night, our organised excursion was to visit some bars and clubs, so come ten o'clock, 18 of us hit The Strip.
Starting at Oh Yes cocktail bar, via Reef Bar, we all ended up in Bitter's Cocktail Karaoke Bar.
Turns out I can't sing, but I can dance. 😈
Jack Collier
Independent Traveller in Turkey
Better than expected.
My expectations were low, but it turns out this place is brilliant.
There are 18 guests here, and the group dynamic is fabulous.
Before dinner this evening everyone stood or sat at the bar, talking, drinking and smoking. About half the group smokes, and you can smoke everywhere and anywhere in Turkey.
The buffet at dinner was good. And then we walked 50 yards into town.
The nightlife here is jumping. Unbelievable.
Day 1 in Turkey a 100% success.
Jack Collier
Male Aggression
The whole world is filled with news of violence and chaos.
In the United States of America the killing of white police officers by disaffected black men continues, with a new tragedy almost every day. The abortive military coup in Turkey seems to be the beginning of a Stalinesque purge by President Erdogan. An insane muslim petty criminal kills and critically injures over 100 people in the French town of Nice, with a truck.
The Middle East in still in flames with muslim fanatics in Iraq, (Daesh, IS, ISIL, ISIS, whatever), inflicting torture, rape, and murder on women and anyone they don't like, (mostly non muslims, homosexuals, and women). The strangling of 'selfie queen' Quandeel Baloch by her brother is just the most recent and high profile honour killing in supposedly civilised countries like Pakistan and India. Millions of refugees are on the move, many of them trying to gain access to a better life in Europe.
Gentleness, self-sacrifice, and generosity are the exclusive possession of no one race or religion. ~ Mahatma Gandhi
In the European Union, crime by these self-same refugees is endemic, particularly rape and sexual assault. Meanwhile, England has decided to leave the European Union, (Brexit), and today the British Parliament will vote to replace our fleet of nuclear ballistic missile submarines with something even deadlier.
What strikes me is that the vast majority of this mayhem is committed by men. One has to ask if deep within the male of the human species is an hereditary propensity to aggression, violence, mayhem, jealousy, and conflict.
You know what? There is. Males are naturally violent and competitive. Look at the entire natural kingdom, from the tiny robin bird, to alpine goats, to man, and we see violent competition for territory, food, and females.
It's only common sense and a higher, (almost altruistic), need to protect the survival of the species, as against one's own gratification, survival, and the promotion of one's own genetic heritage, that keeps species, (including mankind), from wiping themselves out.
In the past I have been guilty of aggression, excessive competitive urges, violence, manipulation, a need for instant gratification, and insane jealousy. But, do you know something else? The better part of mankind sublimates aggressive urges and instead cultivates serenity and a strong desire to do no harm.
The better man is safe, reliable, dependable, altruistic, friendly, kind, and protective. Women feel safe around that kind of man. Going to the extremes of available responses should only be resorted to for the protection of oneself and others, especially those you care for.
Some day you will find out that there is far more happiness in another's happiness than in your own. ~ Honore de Balzac
Randomly killing people is the sign of a diseased and inferior mind, body, and spirit.


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NEW HAVEN, Conn. - Coming off a two week break from match play, the Yale women's tennis team is looking forward to a busy spring vacation schedule that features five games over eight days and a trip to the West Coast.
The Bulldogs first opponent is San Diego, who comes into the match ranked No. 42 in the nation. The Toreros, led by long time coach Sherri Stephens, are 8-2 and boast the No. 93 player in the nation in Solymar Colling. The match is at 11:00 AM Pacific time on Saturday the 16th.
On Tuesday, the Bulldogs take on another San Diego based team in SDSU. The Aztecs are 8-6 on the season, and are coming off two consecutive wins. They are coached by Peter Mattera, who has been the Aztec coach for two decades. The match is at 2:00 PM Pacific time on Tuesday the 19th.
Staying in San Diego, the Bulldogs then take on Colorado State on neutral ground. The Rams are 7-4 on the season and have won three of their last four. Their head coach is Jarod Camerota, in his second season. The match is at 10:00 AM Pacific time on Wednesday the 20th.
Following the trio of matches in San Diego, the Bulldogs will return home for a pair of weekend matches right before classes resume. On Saturday the 23rd, the Boston University Eagles will return to New Haven for a rematch of Day One of the Bulldog Invitational. In that matchup (non-dual match), Yale won nine of their twelve matches. Head Coach Lesley Sheehan and the Eagles are currently 5-6 on the season. Play will begin at 4:00 PM.
And to round out their busy spring break schedule, the Bulldogs will take on the Massachusetts Minutewomen, another team they fared well against in the Bulldog Invitational. UMass has been excellent since then, coming in with a robust 8-2 record and a six game winning streak. They are coached by Juancarlos Nunez.


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I think there is an old blogging curse placed on me, that every ten to twelve blog posts my creative writing well runs dry and I have to resort to falling back on my current series of filler posts to fill the void until I find my video game blogging muse again. If I were to blame this blogging drought on anything I would claim that it was a combination of a lack of variety of what games I have been playing recently (Ie. nothing besides Nintendo games) and staying up extra late last night watching the first two episodes of American Horror Story.
The More pressing issue is that I need to start thinking of another Be MOP filler post series, because current predictions suggests that I will run out of Star Trek movie titles by early 2015. After this I think I need to do a small history lesson about my previous filler posts and how I was able to still pump out content to fulfill my self-enforced Monday/Wednesday/Friday schedule even when I did not have the writing inspiration to do so.
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SEEd – Youth Attitudes to Sustainability Survey
SEEd, Sustainability and Environmental Education, want to find out more about how young people across the UK are feeling about sustainability and climate issues. So they've designed a survey to go out to young people across the country to explore how youth attitudes to sustainability, and how they view sustainability issues in relation to their own lives.
The survey takes around 12 minutes to complete, is aimed at those aged 25 and under, and is completely anonymous. No personal details will be asked for or shared with any third parties. And the data collected will be used by SEEd to help them design better programmes for young people across the country.
Here at Little Earth we fully endorse this survey and hope that if you know and/or work with young people you'll share this survey with them. The more responses they can get the more information they'll have to be able to better understand young people's thoughts, feelings, responses and needs around sustainability, and the better programmes they'll be able to design to meet young people's needs.
Little Earth & The SEEd Team


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By Mandela Wells
In 2001, Zoolander was a box office hit grossing $60.7 million worldwide. Now, almost a decade and half later, it will be getting a sequel simply titled Zoolander 2 and the first official trailer has just been released.
Ben Stiller returns to the role of Derek Zoolander in the sequel where he and his former rival, Hansel (Owen Wilson), are now considered lame and old in a changing fashion industry.
Though after a string of murders seems to only target the world's most beautiful people who then die imitating Zoolander's famous "blue steel" look, the two are approached by an Interpol agent (Penelope Cruz) who enlists them to go undercover in the fashion industry to find out who the murderer is.
The trailer is jam packed with hilarious snippets and, of course, Zoolander's trademark stupidity and cockiness. There's also a ton of guest appearances from stars like Justin Bieber, Kristen Wigg, Benedict Cumberbatch and Will Ferrell, who will reprise his role as Jacob Mugatu.
Just like the first movie there will be plenty of relevant celebrity appearances, though this time that will range from the likes of Kanye West and Kim Kardashian to Miley Cyrus, Ariana Grande, and Joe Jonas.
Stiller is once again directing the feature flick which is scheduled to hit theaters on February 12th, 2016.


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Pain Compliance Techniques and Children – Abuse or Necessary Risk Control Measure?
The use of force with children and young people is an emotive enough issue on it's own. Add to the that the fact that staff can, if necessary, use pain compliance techniques to restrain children and you step into controversial territory.
The question is, is the use of pain-compliance technique on a child 'abuse' as some agencies consider it to be, or, is it a necessary evil that, if not used when it should be, could cause a greater harm to manifest?
All staff who work in the 'best interest' of children, as required by the law, must consider the child's welfare and safety as their paramount consideration. So could the omission of such techniques be more about the consideration of staff and organisations not wanting to be sued rather than the best interest of the child?
To read a fuller article on this go to: http://www.nfps.info/_webapp_275969/The_Use_of_Pain_Compliance_to_Control_Children


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2017 Week 10 and 11
Tennis returns to desert this week, with one of the biggest non-major tournaments of the year: Indian Wells. Main draw play starts Wednesday, March 8th. Coverage for Indian Wells is going to be a bit all over the board, and I do anticipate some struggles for tennis viewers. Tennis Channel, TC Plus, TennisTV, ESPN 2 and ESPN 3 all will be covering Indian Wells to some extent over the fortnight. TennisTV will have 126 ATP matches available for streaming; however, outside of TennisTV, coverage gets a little more spaced out. Tennis Channel will have coverage during the first week, and ESPN 3 starts streaming Thursday, March 9th. ESPN and ESPN 2 will have some tennis on the schedule during the second week, including the finals. One coverage note that is still a bit up in the air is whether Tennis Channel will be airing WTA matches on both its network, and TC Plus, or if WTA will only be available to stream on TC Plus as the ad suggests. However, this very helpful link from the Indian Wells twitter account indicates that both WTA and ATP will be on Tennis Channel. Which is good news for tennis fans!
As with all two week tournaments, second week viewing schedules do change, so keep checking Tennis Watchers for the latest updates. What are your thoughts on coverage during Indian Wells? Tweet me or contact me here to let me know.
**3/8/17 Update: ESPN 3 streaming started one day early, and we can confirm WTA is on both Tennis Channel and Tennis Channel Plus.
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late spring kohlrabi/
The late spring crop of kohlrabi has been popping up at the Collingswood Farmers' Market in shades of green and purple. Kohlrabi is part of the cabbage family (Brassicas) and close friends with kale. The cruciferous vegetable is nicknamed 'space cabbage' for its alien-looking appearance with leafy stalks sprouting from the globe (or bulb) in no particular arrangement. The kohlrabi bulb grows aboveground and is both a late spring and fall crop.
Green or purple, the inside flesh is white and nutrient dense with iron, calcium, fiber, potassium and vitamins A, B, C. Kohlrabi literally means cabbage-turnip in German. And sure, the flavor is mildly cabbage-turnip-esque, but there are also similarities to radish, apple and broccoli. The kohlrabi available from Savoie Organic Farm reminded me of an Asian pear – surprisingly crisp and gently sweet.
The entire kohlrabi bulb and leafy stalks are edible and can be enjoyed raw or cooked. The outer skin will add texture and color to any dish if you choose not to peel it away as some recipes suggest. The very chewy and slightly bitter leafy stalks should be treated as kale or collard greens. You may slice, shred or julienne (matchstick cut) kohlrabi for gratin and fritters, or even stuff the bulb. I made two different salads with the bulb and also sautéed the greens. For an effortless approach, toss a handful of kohlrabi matchsticks into any salad.
kohlrabi with white beans and horseradish
serves 4-6
½ cup homemade mayonnaise
½ cup finely diced red onions
¼ cup Dijon mustard
2 tablespoons capers, drained
2 tablespoons chopped fresh dill
2 tablespoons bottled horseradish
1 tablespoon olive oil
2 teaspoons salt
2 teaspoons freshly ground black pepper
2 teaspoons sherry vinegar* (or substitute lemon juice)
1 teaspoon sugar*
5 cups julienned kohlrabi (about 3 medium-sized bulbs)
1 15-ounce can cannellini beans, rinsed and drained
*I used homemade mayonnaise with a heavy hand of lemon juice and garlic, and therefore omitted the sherry vinegar. An additional ¼ teaspoon of sugar was needed after tasting.
Combine the dressing ingredients and mix. Taste and adjust to your liking.
30-minutes prior to serving, pour the dressing over the julienned kohlrabi and beans. Refrigerate until ready to eat.
Modified from Vedge: 100 Plates Large and Small That Redefine Vegetable Cooking.
kohlrabi snack for two
1 medium to large kohlrabi bulb, julienned (roughly 2 cups)
¼ teaspoon garlic, minced or finely grated, to taste
¼ teaspoon salt
1 7-ounce whole milk Greek yogurt (I used Fage Total 5%, strained)
1 lemon, juiced
1 tablespoon fresh mint, roughly chopped
pinch of salt
¼ teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
1 teaspoon olive oil, for finishing
This recipe is not rulebound and may be adjusted to your taste.
Combine the julienned kohlrabi and minced garlic in a medium-sized bowl. Sprinkle ¼ teaspoon salt over the kohlrabi and gently mix. Set aside for 5-10 minutes while making the dressing. The salt will draw out some moisture from the kohlrabi and help to flavor and thin the dressing later.
In a medium-sized bowl, start with 5-ounces Greek yogurt (roughly ¾ of the 7-ounce container). Add 1 tablespoon lemon juice, 1 tablespoon chopped mint and season with a pinch of salt and ¼ teaspoon black pepper. Whisk all together and taste. The dressing will be on the thick side. You may adjust by adding more yogurt, lemon, mint or pepper. Hold on the salt since the kohlrabi was salted.
Scoop some of the dressing (about half) over the kohlrabi and gently stir to combine. Taste and add more dressing, or season as needed.
kohlrabi greens with pickled raisins
serves 4-6
pickled raisins
½ cup apple cider vinegar
¼ cup golden raisins
1½ teaspoons sugar
½ teaspoon salt
sautéed greens
1 pound Kohlrabi greens with stalks, roughly chopped and blanched
2 tablespoons olive oil
2 teaspoons chopped garlic
½ teaspoon salt
freshly ground black pepper, to taste
chopped roasted pistachios, as garnish
In a small sauce pan, combine the ingredients for pickled raisins. Bring to a boil over high heat and then reduce to a simmer for 5 minutes. Remove from heat, drain and allow to cool.
Set a large skillet with the olive oil over medium-high heat. Once the oil seems to lose viscosity, add the shallots and cook until translucent, not browned. Increase the heat slightly and add the garlic and kohlrabi greens all at once. Stir to coat the kohlrabi with the oil and season with salt and pepper. Continue cooking for about 5 minutes or until the greens are lightly wilted and tender to the bite.
Place the sautéed greens on a plate and garnish with pickled raisins and chopped pistachios.
Modified from Vedge: 100 Plates Large and Small That Redefine Vegetable Cooking.


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Sometimes Nothing IS Something
I haven't blogged in a minute. I think about it every day. I jot down ideas and start blurbing — but the seeds didn't blossom. There was a time when I would get down on myself when I went through lazy-phases but I shifted my attitude by leaving myself more open to things chemicalizing inside,… like the yeast in bread making it rise. (Funny coming from someone who doesn't eat yeast or gluten lol.) An important aspect of creating is stepping back and assessing what you're making… or letting the pieces parts fall into place. Like resting for recovery after working-out — if you miss that facet, you're toast. Like giving yourself regroup time after a breakup — if you charge into the next thing you'll probably ride back into the same groove. I changed my thinking that it was ALL,… a part of the process, that not-writing was contributing to the eventual writing. Some ideas just need to bake.
Time in a relationship is like that. Sometimes you're together, sometimes you're not — but somehow the time passing does something to glue things better for the future. The time invested puts a confidence in myself and the other person in how faith happens between us. Proof of truth, nobility in action, reliability in what to expect, delight at being surprised. Ultimately, we do what we can and then can only sit back to see what unfolds. Life happens, and when I sit down at the computer, we'll see what comes out of my fingertips.
I planted some lavender, rosemary, mint, & basil. A huge tree fell down in my front yard. I saw a hummingbird at a feeder my mom gave me. I think I will do another Adventure Race. I shredded a bunch of crap and threw away a shitload of junk. I got a two presents in the mail. I have my muscleup no problem but I think I lost my double-under. I found all my notes from a screenplay I thought I lost when my laptop crashed. I met Daisy Luna. And I'm seriously crushing on a guy.
When you're going from day to day it's so easy to float along thinking nothing is going on. We have come to think in terms of momentous occasions and tend to overlook the mundane. In Anthony De Mello's book Awareness, it's about getting caught up in the daily regular stuff to witness the joy there and appreciate it, appreciate ourselves. I derived a lot of self-satisfaction from making my little garden. I made the special effort to go to a particular nursery and choose what I wanted. The pots had been sitting there, dead. My last foray ended in predictable outcome given my black-thumb tendencies — but I really wanted to try again. I always love to pinch off a leaf and smell that savory aroma on my hands. It just feels so earthy and naturey, breathing in that scent just reconnects me. Now the pots are teeming with life and invitation. When I come to my door, it's the first thing I see — and it pleases me. Pure ego, I smile because I made the effort to make my home welcoming to ME. Please God help that shit to grow because I'm really trying HARD this time lol — and that's all I have to do,… do my best then wait to see how the weather and seasons and time affect these plants.
I want to take a picture of that hummingbird for my mom. She gave that red-bulb-sugar-thingy to me and I swear for a year it's been hanging in that tree and I've never seen a freaking hummingbird at it EVER. But I have a voicemail message saved from the other day when she called me whispering in the phone, "Kathy, (only family calls me Kathy), the hummingbird is here again… it's there outside the window, it's been coming about the same time the last few days,… I think it comes to visit me…" And yes, she is whispering, like the bird could overhear her or something — and I could picture exactly where she was standing, in the kitchen looking out the window, because I know where her feeder hangs. She just had to call and share that moment with someone and it made me smile because it was me. She's a pain-in-the-ass but my mom is just so friggin' CUTE. And she made me and she loves me and I've seen her grow and change and TRY. We have gone through some major ups & downs, so much grace, so much righteous fighting. …And then maybe the same day, I was sitting outside and there was the hummingbird! The first thing I wanted to do was call my mom. How silly is that? No really,… how perfect is that? So now, I've been spending a little time every day sitting and waiting. I'm not irked that I haven't seen it again… I'm just kind of excited that when I do, and get the picture, I'll give it to her and it will make her so happy.
I threw away a computer monitor. I'm talking a gargantuan behemoth from when big was NOT good. I'd been carting it to every place I moved thinking I was going to do something with it. I mean, the flatscreen is so streamlined and light — but you're SUPPOSED to refurbish or sell-on-ebay or bequeath it to the needy,… SOMETHING, right? Well I got tired of staring at that thing and just said fuckit. My landlord had put a bunch of stuff on the street after their not-so-successful garage sale, and when I found myself perusing THEIR junk to see if I needed anything to become MY junk, I mustered up the backbone to say NO THANK YOU, and then garnered up the resolve to add some of my crap to the pile. I know people drive around in trucks just collecting this stuff, so I put a sign on the screen that said "yes this works, ENJOY" and left the rest to fate. Within an hour it was gone and I was filled with HALLELUJAH(!) gladness. I felt so much lighter just knowing that when I pack up and move to Beverly, that I would NOT have to lug that sucker around. The relief to my lightness-in-being was worth more than the $12 I probably would've gotten for it. Plus what I've gotten by releasing an anchor is I created a void for the universe to fill it with some new.
One of the best things on the planet is watching a baby grow. You don't make it do anything, you CAN'T. You just be quiet and look at her and hold her and marvel at how tiny and wonderful her fingernails and ears are,… and you observe her taking in the world. You watch her watching. You wonder what she sees what she thinks, how things must look from her perspective. It makes you think about your own life and that you used to be in a place like that, and now we walk through our day not noticing things. Stopping for a moment to spend time with that new baby makes one realize the time we waste. Because there is nothing more precious than doing nothing, with her.
So about this crush… Aren't crushes just GREAT?! They fill you with this shy zingyness inside, that you can't really do anything about. But you suddenly got the motivation to take care of business. Contemplate how your body is, consider how your life looks from the outside in, daydream, fantasize. I remember once a girl said about a boy paying attention to her, "He's so sweet but I don't really want to encourage him, I think he has a crush on me and I don't have one on him, and I don't want to hurt him." I said "Who are you to deny him his crush?" I went on to say how I love that I'm secretly in-love with Keanu Reeves (not that he really counts, since he's actually one of my soulmates that I think I will eventually end up with hehe) or Vin Diesel (whose birthday is in my outlook calendar 😉 — that I get a certain zestiness and spike in my creativity when I make-up scenarios in my mind for when we will meet and I'll be the one for them and we'll marry and live happily ever after. And how limp would my fantasy-life be if they found out I had a crush on them and they said "don't have a crush on me, it's not allowed, I don't have a crush on you, and I don't want to hurt you." I mean puh-leese. Movie-stars are put on this earth FOR us to have crushes on. And I said to this girl, what harm would it do you or sweet-guy if he's allowed to have his crush? You should LOVE the idea of someone having a crush on you, you should relish it, CHERISH it. How lucky are you to have someone moon over you? It's not leading him on. You should enjoy it, not squelch it. The energy of putting up a wall to repel his "like" seems cold & aloof really… to be not-receptive to his adoration just feels somewhat destructive. I like it when someone LIKES me. You should let him like you. And like it. So as crushes go, I think I have my act together. I am reveling in this phase when I'm a little bit giddy and have butterflies. He might not like-like me, but I'm okay with that for now, I don't have to make it into something more — because this is about ME. The dancey feeling inside that makes me want to do it on the outside. The wishing he would call. Smirking when I send a suggestive innuendo text and he reacts GOOD. Feeling awe-shucks when he gives me compliments on my legs. That is all about ME. About being brighter inside and having it spill as happiness onto others. Letting myself have this is not turning it into a full-blown dating scene. We don't even date, I'm just sighing from afar. Don't get me wrong, it's not unrequited — this is just the beginning waiting will-you-be-my-brother-or-lover phase. Gotta make it through this one to get to the next. So I am jigging-it-up with appreciating this new-ness of the IDEA of having someone in my life. Having a crush is basically the foreplay of a relationship. And right now, all I have to do,… is nothing.
So that's what I've been doing lately… sitting back, letting things simmer. I wonder what kind of soup destiny is going to give me.