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Unified data center hardware: Changing the equation
Converged infrastructure is gaining momentum as the new model for data center upgrades. How should smaller specialized VARs prepare themselves for this big cultural shift?
- Barb Darrow, TechTarget
xToday's data centers may be getting a makeover. If big IT hardware vendors have their way, data centers will soon fill up with unified or converged data center hardware instead of the usual piecemeal combinations of servers, storage and networking. This converged data center hardware -- big pre-integrated chunks of IT -- will ostensibly cut down on wiring and energy costs and pack more compute/storage/networking power into less sprawl than is conventionally found in data centers.
That sales model—which involves bigger buy-in across traditional IT silos—has huge ramifications for smaller VARs that are used to selling best-of-breed chunks of storage or servers or routers and then knitting them into unique customer solutions.
Most data centers today rely on their server group to spec out, recommend and sign off on a given vendor. The same goes for the storage and networking crew, with each picking out its own specialized hardware. As a result, many shops run EMC or NetApp storage with Hewlett-Packard, Dell or IBM servers connected by Cisco Systems, Juniper or Brocade networking.
But hardware vendors, most notably HP and Cisco, say the future belongs to the bigger pre-integrated hardware bundles. In that world, deals would be bigger and require a higher level customer sign-off—typically by a C-level executive. Smaller VARs with an eye on this new reality of converged infrastructure are already looking at ways to adapt their business models.
Bigger deals, slower process
Converged infrastructure does mean bigger deals, said Jamie Shepard, executive vice president of International Computerware Inc. (ICI), a solution provider in Marlborough, Mass. But it also means a slower, more reflective sales process. It's always easier to get a company to sign off on a $2,000 server rather than a $50,000 or $70,000 converged solution, Shepard said.
For larger VARs, this may be no big deal. "It all depends on the reseller," said Joe Onisick, technical solutions architect at St. Louis-based World Wide Technology Inc. "Larger systems integrators—including us—have been converging infrastructure sales already, so this is not that different," Onisick said. In many accounts, World Wide already talks to high-level execs. In others, it might now bring in multiple teams to sell higher into an account, Onisick said.
Combining best of breed
Converged data center infrastructure often pits itself against best-of-breed solutions. But some VARs have found a middle ground. Fritz Menchinger, CEO of Data Connections Inc. in Charlotte, N.C., is one of those VARs that focuses on data center infrastructure.
Data Connections, which serves higher education, healthcare and utilities clients as well as some regional banks, focuses on nitty-gritty data center foundations—everything that a company has to have in place to run servers—cabling, UPS, racks, PDUs, facilities stuff.
Data Connections is pushing Egenera's PAN Manager software as the management glue that keeps multivendor storage, servers and network gear working in sync. Layering software over the storage and servers that already work appeals to many shops, he said.
Most of the companies he talks to have already been approached by Cisco or a Cisco VAR about Unified Computing System, an option that's too rich for their blood. But the visit also opens up a chance to talk about a less costly alternative, Menchinger said.
"With UCS, the value proposition is there, but the capex dollars are not," he said. "We can say, 'We know what you want to do, but you can't afford it. Here's something you can afford,'" Menchinger said.
Smaller VARs that typically deal with one or two of the technology silos should think about broadening their practices or partnering with other VARs with different specialties to pitch joint deals. Both options are big cultural shifts.
In Shepard's view, customers are showing more interest in converged infrastructure. "But you, as a partner, have to ask them to define what they mean by 'converged,'" he said. "You can converge and unify networks -- the Nexus is Cisco's bread and butter there. Or you can converge and unify storage."
The likely scenario is that convergence will come in stages. "We already have these discussions about technology unification and how to adopt it," Shepard said. "You have to talk to the CIO and ask, "Why do you want convergence? What does it mean to you?"
Many VARs said one reason for the questions is that many companies that have deferred data center upgrades now feel pressure to move and may even have the budget to build the foundations of private clouds. "They want to invest in what they can own versus all this other cloud stuff you hear about," Shepard said.
Demand for converged infrastructure can vary by the type and size of a company as well. "Big service providers—those with core competencies in managed services, telecom, etc.—they're the ones buying converged infrastructure," said James Staten, analyst with Forrester Research Inc.
There's a big sociological and political change involved when people feel their jobs are at risk, Staten said. Because of that, many end-user organizations with strong management silos around storage or servers will resist the convergence sales pitch. "A network admin could transition to the guy who manages quality of service across network pools from the guy who manages and changes ports all day," Staten said. The analogous technician at a VAR company should probably consider a similar career path, he added.
How converged is converged?
Most customers have to be educated that the whole notion of a one-stop converged hardware shop is still more illusion than reality. For example, HP BladeSystem Matrix converged solution still relies on Brocade Communications technology for a big part of the SAN software networking component and Cisco UCS relies on EMC storage.
Realists in the channel point to this type of interdependence to reinforce the idea that no single vendor can provide a bundle that brings the best-of-breed technology across the board. The VCE Company's Vblocks promise the best of all worlds—pretested and preconfigured Cisco server hardware, EMC storage and VMware virtualization set up to slip right into a customer's data center while the Flexpod swaps out EMC for NetApp storage.
"Brocade still offers the best Fibre Channel, the best interface," said one long-time VAR that works with all three vendors. "It's just that they kept quiet and stuck to their guns on high-performance connectivity while HP and Cisco pretend they can do it all."
Flexpod is more a bunch of IP than a prepackaged solution, which is the same way VCE started, Shepard said. In the beginning with VCE Vblocks, VARs figured out how to configure the VMs, how many CPUs were needed, what kind of connectivity, storage was needed, he said. "We bring the numbers back to the VCE guys, who plug them into a spreadsheet and tell us 'here's what it'll be.' Then they manufacture it and ship it out," he said.
Questioning the converged infrastructure premise
Some VARs question the very notion that customers are clamoring for converged infrastructure. They say customers remain leery of the whole "one throat to choke" rationale behind one-vendor solutions.
"I'm not seeing much demand for it at all," said Todd Knapp, CEO and CTO of Envision Technology Advisors LLC, in Providence, R.I. "It's an interesting idea, however. If you go with Cisco [Unified Computing System], you're locking yourself into that set of vendors and whatever technology they choose to bring out indefinitely," he said. "Most CIOs I know aren't comfortable with that."
There are still too many IT constituencies for this idea to gain traction, Knapp said. "In large environments, you've got a storage group, an infrastructure group, a Wintel group, maybe a Unix group—each with its own needs and each wanting to have control over its own environment."
There's a method to the silo madness, Knapp said. "UCS centralizes the infrastructure technology to a degree that breaks some security barriers," he said. "If you think about it, a major bank or financial institution keeps those groups segregated so no one person can do a lot of damage."
But others say the march toward converged hardware is inevitable. "This is part of a macro trend we've seen for 25 years," Staten said. "If you go back to the client-server era, most IT departments built their own PCs. They'd get the motherboards, chassis and put them together because they had the skills and they could build them for less. But as manufacturers got good with inventory management and eliminated cost, there was not as much value in BYO PCs."
In theory, converged data center hardware means integrated gear that takes up less space, consumes less energy and eliminates excess wiring. Pete Sclafani, CIO of 6Connect, a San Francisco area data center specialist, has the following advice for VARs looking to expand their expertise in this area:
- Think about the whole IT chain, not just the parts. In the old model, if you update just the switches now, you're often in for a cabling and interface nightmare. Instead, bundle like mad. Sell the host bus adapters or other interface cards with the solution so the client gets the full package. It also helps VARs build in margins.
- Add services. Fielding an offsite integration center lets a VAR sell pre-tested and preconfigured hardware that will roll right into the data center. In this case, the VAR—not HP, Cisco or the VCE Company—is the integration point.
- Offer options. Come up with a "good, better, best" list of solutions. It gives customers a better understanding of the impact of cost and features. It also starts conversations that will help customers feel comfortable with whatever choice is made and confident in the VAR as trusted adviser.
- Talk to the CFO. It's great to chat up the IT guys, but with budgets still tight, it really helps if the VAR understands the customer's business and pain points. Even more important is if the VAR can communicate that to the person in charge of the budget. Forget the marketing points, and play up real numbers and case studies.
About the author:
Barbara Darrow is senior news director for TechTarget's Data Center and Virtualization Media Group and has covered technology, business and the channel for more than 20 years as reporter and editor. Prior to TechTarget, Darrow worked at CRN where she focused on channel issues and software news. She has also written for InfoWorld, ComputerWorld, Network World, InfoSec Magazine, eWeek and other publications. Contact her at firstname.lastname@example.com.


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A traditional white vanity and sleek light fixture keep this bathroom looking simple and clean. A display cabinet above the toilet shows off lush ornamental grasses while a round topiary completes the vanity.
Create a contemporary look by displaying serving ware in a clear glass cabinet.
These display cabinets, framed by stainless steel, give the homeowners room to add personal touches to their contemporary kitchen.
In between the breakfast room and kitchen, built-in display cabinets flank the doorway and elegantly showcase formal dishware. Below, additional cabinets provide ample space for storing serverware and other kitchen essentials.
This beautiful display cabinet with cast bronze hardware houses the homeowner's collection of blown glass from around the world. The designer likes the juxtaposition of different materials, seen here with the weathered bronze metal and the sleek colorful glass.
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This beautiful modern kitchen features high end appliances and sleek cabinetry that offers storage as well as an elegant display for formal dishware.
This display cabinet is dramatically lit with LED lighting. Hanging above is the original Mexican artwork that inspired the dramatic space.
To give a London kitchen a striking focal point (not to mention acres of built-in storage), designer Egon Walesch had a haberdashery display cabinet from a department store cut down to size to create a unique kitchen island. "Toughened (or tempered) glass provides an excellent work surface, and the drawers, previously used for storing gloves, scarves and hats, provide excellent space to accommodate and display treasured crockery and table linens," says Walesch.
Brass trimmed shelves frame and support these matching flavor jars for a decorative and stylish display. The labeled jars are organized on three stacked shelves. The mirror background creates a luminous surrounding for the display and brightens the dark frame of the cabinetry.
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Cal State Fullerton
Less than two weeks removed from upsetting No. 21 University of San Diego, the UCI women's volleyball team has quickly learned that their success has not gone unnoticed by their opponents in the Big West.
After dropping their first two games of conference against CSUN (3-11) and Long Beach State (12-4), the Anteaters were pushed to the brink of defeat against a winless Cal State Fullerton team before narrowly taking the match in five sets, 25-17, 28-26, 25-19, 26-24, 15-13, to avoid a 0-3 start in conference play at Crawford Hall last Wednesday night.
"We're seeing teams now that are gunning for us because we've had a little bit of success. I think Northridge and Fullerton probably had one of their best matches against us, I mean they're really just playing out of their minds because they have nothing to lose," said first-year head coach Ashlie Hain. "We've had some good wins, and so, I think that's a tough position to be in, especially with three freshman on the floor."
Of the three freshman who saw action Wednesday night, two ended up with career highs. Outside hitter Harlee Kekauoha posted a match high 19 kills at a .310 clip, while middle blocker Idara Akpakpa had 11 kills and four total blocks.
These career highs were not gained however, without first enduring an arduous back and forth affair against the scrappy Titan team.
The night began promisingly enough for the 'Eaters, who took a 7-4 lead after consecutive aces by sophomore libero Luna Tsujimoto and never looked back to cruise to a 25-17 win in the first set.
Holding double match-point at 24-22, the 'Eaters looked to be well on their way to a sweep before the Titans responded with two straight kills to force extra points. Despite holding two more match-points at 25-24 and 26-25, the 'Eaters could not put the Titans away, and wound up conceding the set 26-28.
The 'Eaters struggled to establish an offensive rhythm in the third set, recording a match-low .135 hitting percentage. After trading points early on, the Titans took a 10-8 lead with two blocks, and led by as much as 18-10 before taking the set 25-19 to take a 2-1 lead in the match.
In the fourth set, a kill by junior outside hitter Victoria Dennis put the set within reach at 23-20, but Fullerton responded with three straight points to prompt an Anteater time-out. The Titans would hold off one match point at 24-23 with a double block, but the duo of Ella Rosenfeld and Sydney Wright answered back with a block of their own to force a fifth set at 26-24.
A kill by Dennis put the 'Eaters in control late at 13-11 in the fifth, but once again the Titans managed to come back and tie the score at 13-13. Another kill by Dennis gave the 'Eaters match point at 14-13 and Akpakpa salvaged a broken play with a kill to avoid the upset at 15-13 to clinch the match.
"Coming out playing against Fullerton, we knew that they were going to play hard, and they were going to play scrappy, they were looking for a win," said Dennis, who finished the night with 18 kills and three block assists. "We came out, foot on the gas pedal, and we were punching and screaming, had a couple of bumps in the road, but at the end I think we did a really good job of coming together as a team, and playing discipline and just pushing and grinding the last points."
While the rest of the 'Eaters Big West only looks to become increasingly more challenging, the team will have to first address the issues on their own side of the court. For the 'Eaters, one of the most telling numbers of the night was 14, the amount of service errors the team collectively logged.
"I think our serving is just all over the place. We know how to serve, I mean it's something we do every day at practice, and I think it's just a reflection of where you're at mentally," said Hain. "We're just in a rough spot mentally right now [but] we'll get through it."
UC Davis
Despite holding a 27-6 advantage in blocks, the Anteaters could not overcome the Aggies, falling in four sets by a score of 15-25, 25-22, 25-23 and 25-14 at the Pavilion, Saturday night.
Both teams finished the night with a .157 hitting percentage, which marks the first time in eight matches that the 'Eaters have hit for below .200.
Freshman outside hitter Harlee Kekauoha tallied a double-double for the night with 12 kills and 12 digs, while senior middle blocker Ella Rosenfeld logged a match high eight block assists. Sophomore libero Luna Tsujimoto tied UC Davis's Malia Bolko for a match-high 17 digs.
The 'Eaters return to action next Thursday night on the 8th when they will host Cal Poly at Crawford Court.


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The EU's GDPR regulation appears to be encouraging data breach reports with almost 60,000 reports being filed since the privacy law came into force on the 25 May, 2018.
According to multinational law firm DLA Piper's GDPR Data Breach Survey, the data breaches ranged in severity from minor breaches to major cyber-attacks affecting millions of people.
Breaches were reported in all the 26 countries analysed, however the Netherlands, Germany and UK were responsible for the majority of breach notifications with 15,400, 12,600 and 10,600 disclosures, respectively.
Italy, Greece and Romania had the lowest per capita rate of breach reports suggesting varying levels of reporting and compliance.
Ross McKean, partner at DLA Piper, said: "The GDPR completely changes the compliance risk for organisations which suffer a personal data breach due to revenue based fines and the potential for US-style group litigation claims for compensation.
"As we saw in the US when mandatory breach notification laws came into force, backed up by tough sanctions for not notifying, the GDPR is driving personal data breaches out into the open."
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The Survey also revealed that since May last year, 91 fines have been issued for GDPR violations but not all were related to exposure of personal data. The €50 million fine issued by the French data protection commission (CNIL) to Google emerged as the largest fine issued so far. The company had been held to account for processing personal data for advertising purposes without obtaining the permission required under GDPR.
The GDPR imposes strict measures for the protection of data and organisations found in breach of the GDPR can be fined up to 4% of annual global turnover or 20 Million Euros. Fines depend on the severity of the breach and if organisations have taken steps to show they are compliant.
The report stated that: "Regulators are stretched and have a large backlog of notified breaches in their inboxes. Inevitably the larger headline grabbing breaches have taken priority when allocating resources, so many organisations are still waiting to hear from regulators whether any action will be taken against them in relation to the breaches they have notified."


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I set up a wireless bridge with my TP-Link TL-WR1043ND to get better signal in my flat. (landlord provides internet via wifi AP but I have bad reception, therefore the wireless bridge) I works flawlessly. I can connect my android phone and my PC to it. Recently I tried to connect with a HP Stream 11 (Realtek RTL8723BE) to my TP-Link and it refuses to connect. Password is correct. If I connect to landlords AP directly it works and I am able to ping my TP-Link but I cannot access its web interface either. The HP Stream 11 uses Win 8.1 but this shouldnt matter afaik since my TP-Link acts as an AP.
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NDE Associates, Inc. Phased Array UT of CRA Welds
Corrosion resistant alloy (CRA) pipes are used for transport of high sour gas and oil that has high percentage of hydrogen sulfide. CRA piping can be weld overlay or metallurgically bonded . CRA pipes are carbon steel with carbon steel or CRA welds. Carbon steel provides the strength and CRA clad is only for corrosion resistance. The CRA materials are A625 or A825. Unlike carbon steel pipes inspected with a single technique and sensitivity, the CRA pipes require inspection not only for weld fill passes but also integrity of the CRA root. Failure of CRA portion of the weld root, that is only 3-5 mm, will expose the sour fluids to carbon steel and can have disastrous effects. Because of this reason, inspection of these pipes should pay special attention to root integrity.
CRA welds are anisotropic and not favorable to conventional shear wave transmission. Inspection of these welds is done by refracted longitudinal waves. Refracted longitudinal waves have a limitation. They cannot be used be in full vee mode. Inspection is therefore limited to 1/2 vee mode and requires removal of weld cap for 100% coverage.
Figure. Cross-section of a weld with metallurgically bonded A625 clad and A625 weld
Carbon Steel Pipe + CRA weld + WOL – 1/2 vee Refracted L wave
Carbon Steel Pipe + carbon steel weld + WOL – 1/2 vee Refracted S wave
Solid CRA (duplex SS) – 1/2 vee refracted L-wave
Note – All techniques require removal of weld cap
CALIBRATION OF L-Waves. Side drilled holes vs Notches
Refracted longitudinal waves are typically used for inspection of corrosion resistant alloy welds in piping using phased arrays. Sensitivity calibration is done either on side drilled holes or notches. Figure 7 from from the paper (Ref 1) shows refracted longitudinal waves mode convert when incident on notches. When incident at 45 degrees on ID notches, refracted longitudinal waves mode convert and loose 16 dB. This drop is significant and results in a large difference in reflection between side drilled holes and ID notches. Figure 7 (d) of the paper shows barely any detection of the 1 mm notch with refracted L-waves when sensitivity is established on the side drilled holes
Refracted longitudinal waves when calibrated on side drilled holes as per some engineering codes (Ref 2) have low ID sensitivity and can miss ID cracks. Detection of LOF or ID cracks in root are very critical. Sensitivity should be established on ID notches when inspecting ID connected discontinuities. Paper (1) recommends update of engineering codes where sensitivity calibration is based only on side drilled holes.
Refracted dual element longitudinal wave angle beam probes are recommended by engineering codes. The main issue with such probes is that they result in ID roll from weld overlay clad. The ID roll can mask ID indications. This can be overcome by using phased array probes with focusing on the ID surface.
1. Anmol Birring, "Selection of Calibration Reflectors for Corrosion Resistant Alloy (CRA) Piping" Materials Evaluation, March 2016, p 361-366
2. DNV-OS-F101, Appendix D, Section B411


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In the days that Turkey is preparing to attack the Kurdish areas of northern Syria, Trump decided to withdraw US troops from Syria
A decision apparently coordinated with Turkish President Recep Tayyip Erdoğan
But is the US really going to leave Syria?
According to Trump's coordination with Erdogan for the withdrawal of American troops
Does the US intend to leave the arena for Turkish military invasion on the Kurds with the withdrawal of troops from northern Syria?
The publication of images of the transfer of troops and military equipment from Syria to northern Iraq
Does the United States intend to press Iran and the central government with the transfer of its forces to Erbil?
The United States have forces in the northeast of Syria, as well as in the al-Tanf, located in the south of Syria
Will the United States withdraw its troops from all Syria or only withdraw the troops located in northeastern Syria?
Trump had repeatedly threatened Saudi and Emirati allies to withdraw its troops from Syria if the costs of the war were not covered.
Is the US still thinking of financing its forces with getting money from the Saudis?
Is the United States looking to launch new plan in the region?


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Wifey had the urge for a bowl of piping hot fish head noodle on a wet, rainy day so we drove over to Salak South garden where we last saw a banner advertising it. Alas, the stall was nowhere to be seen. We were left with the choice of either Hokkien mee at Kim Lian Kee or Tong San which was just down the road. We settled for the latter since we were quite hungry and to be honest, I was rather lazy to drive to Old Klang road.
Hokkien Mee (炒福建面) @ RM 5.50 ~ The version here was a little runny compared to Mun Wah and Kim Lian Kee, but still a joy to savor.
Fish Head Noodle (魚頭米) @ RM 5.50 ~ Tasted rather bland, lacked of the sourish taste and definitely short of Chinese wine. The saving grace was the Song fish (松鱼) which was fresh.
Stir-fry flat rice noodle with beef (牛肉河) @ RM 6.00 ~ Beef was succulent but unfortunately, the flat rice noodle (河粉) was lumpy.
Meal wasn't too satisfactory and laden with MSG during this visit. Must be the chef having a bad day. Nevertheless, if you are around the neighborhood, dining alone or with a group looking for a simple meal at a clean coffee shop, TS is worth a try as the prices here are reasonable. Besides, they do offer a good variety of other dishes such as fried yam abacus, steamed fish, sweet sour pork rice, Hainanese noodle and toast, just to name a few. If you are planning a visit, do be warned that parking under the voltage power lines in the area after 630pm may result in having your vehicle bombarded by swallow droppings!
- Tong San (東山)
- Jalan Tuanku 1 (directly across 7-11)
- Salak South garden
- Kuala Lumpur.
- Tel –
- Business Hours – 1000-2100 (Mon-Fri)/0800-2100 (Sat,Sun & PH)
- Closed – Fortnight of every Thursdays
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Pilgrim Quality Solutions: 25 Years of Quality, Compliance, and Success
Pilgrim Quality Solutions, an IQVIA company
This week, Pilgrim Quality Solutions proudly celebrates 25 years of commitment to helping hundreds of organizations around the globe manage product quality with confidence, enhance patient safety, and be more prepared for audits than ever before. Pilgrim has pioneered quality management software solutions since 1993, bringing industry best practices to the Life Sciences sector, and partnering with the world's leading companies to enhance their quality processes, positively impact their financial performance, and achieve regulatory success.
In honor of this accomplishment, we look back over the last 25 years of events that have defined Pilgrim as the leading provider of enterprise quality and compliance management software and services for the Life Sciences and other highly regulated industries.
- 1991 – Pilgrim's co-founders develop ISO certification software for their employer while retaining ownership of the software.
- 1993 – Pilgrim Software is incorporated in Tampa, FL – headquarters to Pilgrim ever since.
- 1994 – ALCOA and Hoechst-Celanese become Pilgrim's first customers.
- 1995 – Columbia Lighting licenses software applications for multiple plants locations.
- 1997 – Pilgrim opens Research & Development Operations and its first Asian Headquarters in Kathmandu, Nepal.
- 1998 – Pilgrim launches its Enterprise Quality Management Software (EQMS) platform and solution suite.
- 1999 — Pilgrim closes large seven figure deals with customers such as Air Liquide and Caterpillar.
- 2000 – Pilgrim's Research & Development group is re-established at the Tampa Headquarters – total organization more than doubles again.
- 2001 – Pilgrim focuses on four key vertical markets – Life Sciences, Aerospace, Automotive, and High-Tech.
- 2002 – Pilgrim launches its fully web-based SmartSolve® product.
- 2003 – Pilgrim opens its first European Headquarters location in The Netherlands.
- 2004 – Pilgrim's India Development Center is established.
- 2005 – Pilgrim is recognized as a leading Enterprise Compliance and Quality Management (ECQM) solution provider in the Life Sciences industries by industry analyst Frost & Sullivan.
- 2006 – Pilgrim moves it European Headquarters to Amsterdam.
- 2007 – Pilgrim is named North American Enterprise Compliance & Quality Management Company of the Year within the Life Sciences Industry by Frost & Sullivan.
- 2008 – Pilgrim is honored by Frost & Sullivan for the second consecutive year as North American Enterprise Compliance and Quality Management Company of the Year.
- 2009 – Pilgrim's recurring cloud-SaaS revenue skyrockets with large deals from perpetual software customers lifting-and-shifting to the Pilgrim Cloud deployment and managed service model.
- 2010 – Pilgrim is honored by Frost & Sullivan with the Best-in-Class Customer Value Enhancement Award in the Enterprise Risk, Compliance and Quality Management Market for Life Sciences Industry.
- 2011 – Life Sciences and healthcare technology-focused private equity firm, Riverside Partners LLC, purchases Pilgrim Software, Inc.
- 2014 – Pilgrim Software is re-branded under its new name, Pilgrim Quality Solutions.
- 2015 – SmartSolve is used by nearly 1,000,000 professionals globally in over 30 countries.
- 2016 – Pilgrim is honored by Frost & Sullivan with the Enterprise Quality Management Solution for Medical Devices Customer Value Award.
- 2017 – Pilgrim is honored by Frost & Sullivan with the Enterprise Quality Management Solution for Pharmaceutical Product Leadership Award.
- 2017 – Pilgrim Quality Solutions is acquired by QuintilesIMS.
- 2018 – IMS Health and Quintiles become IQVIA, and Pilgrim adopts the IQVIA moniker as its official name: Pilgrim Quality Solutions, an IQVIA company – the largest life science and health care solution provider in the world.
Best Practices for Next-Generation QMS
This ebook examines six key imperatives for successful Next-Generation Quality Management.


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Nasser al-Bahri, one of the al-Qaeda's leader's most trusted members of staff, disclosed that in August 1998, whilst they were hiding in caves in Afghanistan, bin Laden had handed him a loaded gun.
"He told me, 'If ever the Americans encircle me, I absolutely do not want to end my life as a prisoner of the United States. So you will be in charge of killing me,'" he said.
Bin Laden told him: "I would rather receive two bullets in the head than be taken prisoner. I want to die a martyr – but certainly not in prison."
Al-Bahri, 39, who worked for the terror chief for six years, told the Daily Mirror: "When I heard of his death my first thought was that he had got his wish. But I'm glad I did not have to pull the trigger."
The former bodyguard, who helped choose bin Laden's fourth wife, Amal al-Sadah, in Yemen, revealed intriguing details about the al-Qaeda leader's lifestyle, telling how he followed Arsenal Football Club, constantly hailing the "beauty" of the team's performances in the 1990s, and also loved volleyball.
Al-Bahri said bin Laden, dubbed "the Sheikh" was a voracious reader and often quoted the memoirs of Field Marshal Montgomery and Charles de Gaulle.
He was also obsessed with black stallions. "The Sheikh loved horses," al-Bahri said.
"He would always stop and try to buy one if he saw one he liked along the side of the road. He loved honey too, claiming that it could cure most ailments."
He told how bin Laden rose early and prayed before spending his day in meetings and doing paperwork. He said he had once heard that bin Laden complained about not having a satellite TV to watch the September 11 attacks as they unfolded in New York.
Al-Bahri, who was born in Saudi Arabia and now lives in Yemen, was also acquainted with Mohammed Atta, who flew a plane into the World Trade Center on September 11. He was arrested and imprisoned following the al-Qaeda attack on the USS Cole in the Yemeni port of Aden in 2000. He was released in 2002 and is still wanted for questioning in the West.


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We decided to actually go out for our anniversary and spend some time together before our Summer gets out of control. We went to a Mexican restaurant "Salsa's". We went to a Mexican restaurant on our first date. We went for ice cream and then headed to the theaters to see "Snow White and the Huntsman" We talked and talked and laughed and reminisced. It was a fantastic evening!
I love you Sambo! I wouldn't want to have anyone else's babies, so I guess that's true love!
"No measure of time would be long enough, but lets start with forever."


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Yes, you can, but only if your phone is compatible with our frequency.
We will publish a list of phones that are compatible with our network on our website jtl.co.ke . The list will be updated from time to time as the number of compatible phones changes.
Devices will be fully compatible with Faiba mobile or partially compatible (data only). In both cases, you will need to configure the respective APNs.
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Below is a list of USSD codes and short numbers that are available on Faiba mobile
USSD code
Function description
This is the main prepaid USSD. It contains all the services offered on Faiba mobile
This USSD code will display the subscribers' phone number
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This USSD code is a shortcut for buying bundles
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VoLTE simple means Voice over LTE. It is voice calls carried over a 4G LTE network instead of the more common voice networks like 2G & 3G.
Below are the benefits of the VoLTE;
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MiFi is a brand name used to describe a wireless router that acts as mobile Wi-Fi hotspot. This name signifies a portable router that one can carry around as they embark on their day to day tasks.
The Faiba Mobile Mi-Fi device retails at 5,400 Ksh at our shops and also at any of our official agents. Prices may differ at our sub dealer outlets.
The MiFi can be purchased at our shop at our headquarters in Upper Hill or at any of our official dealer and sub dealer shops. Faiba Mobile agents are also available and can deliver the device to any interested party within Nairobi at no extra cost.
The Faiba Mobile Mi-Fi device is locked to our network and SIM cards from any other internet service providers cannot work with the device.
The device has an 8 hour battery life when in constant use and charges for 2 hours before the battery is fully charged.
Yes the Mi-Fi can be assigned a network name(ssid) and password that meet the client preference. The only restriction is that the password should be a minimum of 8 characters.
For Android and iOS users, there is a Faiba App that is downloadable from the Play Store and App Store. Once it's downloaded the user will be required to set up an account which will enable them to buy bundles plus check their bundle balance if need be. For those not using Android or Apple devices, theycan access selfcare.jtl.co.ke while connected to the Mi-Fi device. The selfcare portal is zero-rated and doesn't require the client's line to have bundles while accessing this page.
Modes of top up are available on the Faiba App as well. There are 3 modes of crediting one's Faiba line:
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Connect to the device by using the default password and access your browser. On your browser visit the address 192.168.0.1
The default password to login to the web configuration page is admin
On the homepage access settings > wireless settings
Proceed to change the Network name(ssid) and the password based on the desired specifications of the user
Click apply to effect the changes already configured
We have now automated online payments i.e. MPESA/ AIRTEL Money & ONLINE payment. This means that all payments will be verified by "pesapal" then the system will post these automatically and you shall receive a payment receipt within 15-30 minutes of making a payment.
This is a more efficient payment method that has the necessary checks i.e. reference to one's account number (JTLKXXXX) which is mandatory thus ensuring accurate and timely reconciliation of billing records.
In case of any disconnection, once payments are made, the system is able to post these payments and automatically extend the usage period to mirror the payments 24/7.
Kindly take note of the following online payment options:
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Kindly deposit your cheque(s) to Barclays Bank using the following details: Barclays BANK:
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Branch: Hurlingham Branch
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• Is the JTL router unit turned on? (the power switch should be highlighted green)
• There should be two flashing green lights for the PON and WLAN
• The LAN LED is flickering with a green light
• If the LOS LED is red: restart the unit.
• Check if payments are up to date
Note: Please do not move the ONU unit once it has been mounted as the fibre connections are delicate and a slight move could mean loss of signal.
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How to improve broadband speed
Internet speed depends upon many factors. One of the main aspects to be considered is your own PC/Laptop. Download speed may vary based on the settings of the computer. If it is an old PC/Laptop, the upgrade of hardware may be necessary to improve the speed of your internet connection. There is no point in going for a fast Internet connection unless your PC/Laptop is ready to match with the Internet speed you have subscribed in.
Why do I get different results when I run the test?
The test shows the current throughput you can get on your internet connection. Factors such as network congestion and other downloads in progress can affect the available throughput
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Faiba is the latest JTL high quality, world class fiber to the home network. With faiba Internet you get very many benefits:
The possibilities are endless….
Among many other features fiber optic is faster and is future proof meaning the fiber infrastructure we install now will meet ICE (Information, Communication and Entertainment) needs of today and the foreseeable future.
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We value your opinion and look forward to delivering world class services to you.
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This means Wireless Local Area Network and usually indicates that the Wi-Fi signal is being broadcast by the ZTE router
NB: if this is not on, then kindly press the "Wlan" button located at the back (model ZXA10 F660) or top (model ZXHN F660) of the ZTE router
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31 Club Street
#01-02 Emerald Garden
Singapore 069468
08:00am - 05:00pm
This was pretty eye-opening and I've always loved cereal milk as a flavour, be it in ice cream or in cakes so I don't know how it never occurred to me that I could use it for coffee! I loved how it was slighty oat-y and had a bit more of a creamy mouthfeel than if normal milk was used. Towards the end of the drink, you can definitely taste the cereal notes more prominently!
We got the Iced Cereal Milk Latte and The Dirty ($7.50 each), and thoroughly enjoyed both. While I can't say that I tasted the cornflakes-soaked nuttiness, I have to admit that the mildly sweet and exceedingly creamy cereal milk latte was 200% addictive. Especially when you've got that complementing a robust, bold, and chocolatey espresso — literally couldn't put the glass down after my first sip! The Dirty was described to us as a "cold brew with oat milk and some spices", but after a sip I'd basically describe it as a dirty chai 😉 I like that you can discernibly taste the spices in the chai (I got cinnamon/ginger/cardamom), in a really mellow not in-your-face kinda way, and it's just very lightly sweetened to enhance all the different flavours. Super easy to drink and great if you're a fan of chai. Note that if you're intending to use the Beyond 1-for-1, you've gotta top at an additional $1.50 for their coffee specials. That adds up to a total of $9 for your 1-for-1, which is still very worth it imho 😉
Nestled in a cosy space along Club Street is this coffee kiosk known for creative coffee mixes. The crowd favourite is their creamy and unique Cereal Milk Latte ($7.50). Those in the mood for something refreshing should opt for the Coconut Cold Brew ($7) which is the perfect combination of coconut water, lime and cold brew. They also pull a mean White 5oz ($5) that's great when paired with the buttery Banana Loaf Bread ($4.50).
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I absolutely LOVE the coffee at Maxi. I've been here twice, the first time I tried the coffee shake (which was crazy good by the way, please try it) and the coffee tonic. This time I decided to try the cereal milk latte and the dirty latte (chai latte) and both were really good. I love the coffee at Maxi - it's strong, robust and flavourful, exactly what I look for in any coffee place. Really nice vibes and service as well.
Tried out this tiny coffee shop today. Shop space was really limited so it's best to just take and go.
Cereal milk latte was one of their specials and I gave it a try. I think the taste didn't really suit me. I love cereal milk ice cream and I was thinking maybe cereal milk latte shd taste good as well but hahahha its bitter and the milk taste a bit weird lol maybe it's just me.
Strong coffee with a tinge of cereal milk flavour, the kind you get when you finish your whole bowl of cereal and slurp up what's left in your bowl. Super friendly service by the two stall owners as well. Highly recommended!


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Some devoted Christians have a hard time handling or believing the fact that I was healed. Or that anyone they know will be healed of something huge. My faith is so much bigger, stronger, and more fulfilling now that I know I've been healed. It is the biggest blessing that could have come out of cancer. I hate the idea that others can't get into that mindset. It changes everything. I know it can be scary to believe in miracles like that, because they don't always happen. And there's no earthly way of us knowing which prayers really will and will not occur. But for me it's worth the risk. Life is so much better on this side.
It's normal to be scared to pray for these miracles, or to explain them away. I was scared to believe I would be healed, because if I was wrong my kids wouldn't understand. Maybe other devoted Christians feel the same now. If I keel over tomorrow, did they lead their sheep astray by having rejoiced that God had healed me? Or, if they dare to believe I was healed how do they explain why their wife's best friend wasn't healed? Finally, if I can be healed because I prayed and believed God, how does that change the way they view and pray to Jesus?
I understand fear. We are told time and again not to worry behave out of fear for a reason–it's everywhere. Our society teaches us to be cautious. Our experiences ensure that we will be disappointed if we let our guards down, so we protect ourselves. And our memories repeat the stories we've seen and heard about others being let down.
The thing is, if you can't believe God healed me (just for example, this issue is not literally about me), how can you believe He answers other prayers? Do you set guidelines on how much to ask God for? Like, "Take my sore throat away for long enough to do this presentation", but never, "Lord, I believe you have removed the inoperable tumor from this woman's brain". I think that happens but it shouldn't. A good example is when Abraham walked with God and they spoke about Sodom, he asked boldly for more and more grace regarding His destruction of the city and the people in it (Genesis 18).
If we are going to limit God by what we believe He will do, what kind of faith have we developed? That takes the living trinity out of the mix and basically makes us the god. It turns us into being "spiritual, not religious" like so many lost souls. That is an easier way to live but that doesn't make it right. People might think it helps them avoid disappointment but it actually leads to destruction instead.
Christians are called to pray to Jesus, who intercedes for us. How egotistical of us to limit what we ask Him, what we expect of Him, to piddly little things that could happen by coincidence. How sad it is for our children to learn to word their prayers out of fear of disappointment rather than true faith. The Bible tells stories of suffering, but that doesn't make it the theme of the book. Our duties in this life are to grow closer to God and help others to do the same.
So, in this world where people without faith are empowered to do pretty much anything their hearts desire, I think we should feel empowered too. Not as individuals but as children of Christ. The Lord empowered us all to pray boldly, stand firm in faith and to be courageous. The great commandment tells us to love the Lord with all our heart and mind. We can't love and glorify Him if we're limiting Him with our own expectations (Mth 22:36-37).
1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong.
2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.
Hebrews 4:16 So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.
Matthew 7:7 "Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.


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These are some of the accounts that bring me joy or help me when I'm struggling…
Matt Haig – While I did struggle a bit with 'Reasons To Stay Alive,' I really respect Matt Haig and love his presence online. His posts range from moving to funny to encouraging. This is one that particularly spoke to me:
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This is Eldon Square shopping centre in Newcastle. In 1999, while I was still trying to claw back from a breakdown, I cried in this shopping centre. Panic and despair had swarmed me and the brace face I had tried to keep for Andrea that day had slipped. People could see me crying. A 24 year old strong young man, crying in a shopping centre. I was convinced I'd never get better. Never make it to 25. Well, I am now 42 and I just did an event at a packed out Waterstones across the road from here. I am the future I never believed in. A fiction that couldn't happen. And yet I did. It is amazing what can happen simply by living.
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Really really hard to get a good photo of this, it's more of a piece that you need to see in person, but today I installed my newest piece of work entitled 'Baggage' as part of my current residency at THAT Gallery Basingstoke! A little different from my usual, this piece employs the audience as the performer, encouraging you to walk amongst the 80 tags that hang from the ceiling and be surrounded by my own thoughts. The piece explores intrusive thoughts, and features a variety of day to day intrusions that I suffer with. A huge thank you to my amazing art team @mattglenart and @corvidaecrochet who helped for the best part of 4 and a half hours to install this piece. #art #artist #artwork #contemporaryperformance #fineart #modernart #contemporaryart #conceptualart #performanceart #mentalhealthart #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #intrusivethoughts #automaticwriting #textart #writing #contemporaryartist #ocd #liveart #installationart #artistresidency #thatgallery #basingstoke
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Anna Akana – I've talked about Anna's videos before (here and here) but I had to include her in this post. Her videos are beautifully crafted and incredibly succinct in their messages, many of them about mental health with real, usable advice. I also love her sense of humour and the short skits where she plays all the characters.
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Claire Wineland – I've talked about Claire before (here) and introduced her channel (here) but I couldn't not include her on this list of helpful and inspiring social media accounts. She speaks so eloquently about some really tough stuff and she always inspires me to be a better person, to be a positive force in the world.
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Claudia Boleyn – I've watched a lot of YouTube videos about BPD and Claudia's are my favourite by miles. I've talked about her videos before (here) and there are others that deserve their own posts because she describes it all so, so well. She's thoughtful and eloquent and her videos mean so much to me: for the first time, I didn't feel alone in this.
Haley Pham – I found Haley through her dance videos. I absolutely adore her dancing; I find it so calming. If I could have her dance for one of my music videos, I absolutely would. One day maybe. She's also completely hilarious.
This post was deceptively hard to write. When writing about other people and their work, I get really anxious that I'm not doing a good enough job, if that makes sense. I love all of these people and want to reflect all the good they do – I'm scared I'll do them a disservice. So I hope I did an okay job and that you guys have enjoyed this. Are there any social media accounts you think I should check out?
Tomorrow, I'm heading back to my university for an event about social media and mental health, which I'm really excited to be a part of. Maybe I'll write a blog post about it…
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That was about eighteen months ago. I've tried all my old tricks: wearing a hat, playing with fidget toys, fiddling with my spinner ring. But so far nothing has really worked. The hat worked best but the anxiety of not being able to get to my hair almost sent me into a meltdown and at the moment, pulling out my hair is the lesser of those two evils. I guess it's not surprising, considering the amount of anxiety I've been dealing with recently.
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A few days on and I'm mostly pain free. That was not something I'd expected when I made the decision to try this again and it was really upsetting. I'm not sure when or what I'll try next but I'm sure I'll find something.
Conclusion: Failure.
Lesson learned: Be careful of where you redirect the urge and/or the effect that your attempt is having.
Hi! I'm Lauren Alex Hooper. Welcome to my little blog! I write about living with Autism Spectrum Disorder, as well as several mental health issues. I'm a singersongwriter so I'll probably write a bit about that too.
My first single, 'Invisible,' is now available on iTunes and Spotify, with all proceeds going to Young Minds.
My second single, 'Bad Night,' is also now available on all platforms and is the first track from my new EP, 'Honest.'


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Do you have a Barbie in your life?
In L.L.'s words: "write about the Barbies in your life…Stories, memories, weird pictures, fun poems… anything goes"
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A signed copy of Marcus Goodyear's poetry book Barbies at Communion
Submission Deadline
11 pm EST on Thursday, June 3 2010 (check your timezone here)