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Monday, September 12, 2011
The Generous Wife - A Great Marriage Blog
As much as I enjoy reading normal, every day life blogs (of people I don't know - does that make me a stalker? HA!) I also really enjoy blogs that help my life personally, my children, and my husband. I ran across The Generous Wife several weeks ago and was quite impressed with it. Each day she gives a helpful hint or idea to help you be a better wife. (Her husband writes a blog also called . .. The Generous Husband, imagine that!). So many of her posts are just gentle (and sometimes not so gentle) reminders of how we should be treating our spouses anyway.
For example, on September 8th, she wrote a POST that talked about how to build your husband's reputation. Just a reminder that what you say and how you act toward your husband needs to build your husband's reputation with others, not tear it down. Make sure you don't bad mouth him to your friends or even do things in front of others that make others question who he really is. Or, on September 5th, she wrote this POST where she encourages you to buy your husbands favorite candy and leave it where he can find it. I love doing this - buying a bag of Peanut Butter Cups and sticking them in the snack cupboard. I know that Darryl will open that cupboard eventually and I love seeing his look of surprise that his favorite treat is there! It seems so simple but it is a reminder to be intentional in the things we do for our spouse. Than there was this POST called "Fix It". What bugs your husband - is it clutter? Being Late? an Unmade bed? Take time to evaluate the issue and take one item a week and work on it. Fix the thing that bothers him most and work together to do it. Sure, you have things that bother you so maybe after fixing one area for him, you can work on one area for you. It is another way to be intentional in how you care about your spouse.
She also normally does a weekly post of of Links to Blog Posts that Stood out to her. Some of them are not for the faint of heart HA! BUT they are good and you may find more that interest you!
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A packed room of supporters attended the Guild for Exceptional Children's Community Appreciation Awards Luncheon, held at the non-profit agency's main building, 260 68th Street.
Executive Direct-or/CEO Paul Cassone opened the program with a review of the Guild's 50-year history and its many programs and services that benefit more than 1,000 children and adults with developmental disabilities, and their families.
He also described the agency's Capital Improvement Campaign, currently involved in raising funds for renovation and expansion in order to better serve the consumers.
The presentation was followed by comments and a welcome by President Anthony Santoro who thanked the officers, board, staff, elected officials and friends who were in attendance for being instrumental in the Guild's progress over the years.
Conducted by Cassone and Santoro, with the assistance of Harriet Leich, Guild self advocate, the awards ceremony brought forward a group of honorees, both individuals and organizations who have been especially helpful to the Guild.
They include Colonel Tracey Nicholson, commander at the Fort Hamilton Army Base, and Eric Rodriguez, deputy inspector, NYPD 68th precinct, for keeping the community safe and responding to the needs of Guild consumers; Salvatore Ferrera, president, Xaverian High School, for sponsoring fundraising events and including clients in school activities and socials; Lisa Schiano-Denis, administrator, Holy Family Nursing Home, for welcoming clients at holidays and special events; Ben-Bay Kiwanis Club, Verrazano Rotary Club and Knights of Columbus, Archbishop John Hughes Council #481, for contributions, gifts and holiday celebrations for consumers.
The award recipients each received a framed, colorful painting created by both children and adults who participate in the agency's various activity centers.
In addition, Councilman Vincent Gentile, Senator Marty Golden and representatives of other elected officials offered their congratulations and presented citations to the honorees.
The Guild for Exceptional Children's Community Appreciation Awards Luncheon was followed by a tour of the agency's greenhouse program and ceramic workshop where individuals with developmental disabilities expand their creative skills.
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I remember the day during the first semester of my junior year at the University of Texas at Austin, I was going through the typical turmoil and struggles of a college student—a rough relationship break-up, figuring out my future, and other concerns— I had hit a low point. So I called my rabbi and mentor for some advice.
"I'm depressed," I said.
I expected to hear some Jewish wisdom about how there is never cause for despair, or an encouraging phrase to point me toward the path to happiness, but instead he answered. "Good, feel depressed!"
I was momentarily puzzled. Then he clarified his advice. "Feel bad from 10 to 10:05 p.m. (or another set period)—but the rest of the time, remember you have a purpose, a job to do here, and be happy."
I decided to try the seemingly simple recipe, to designate 5 minutes every night to feeling sad and when that period was over, to push away any negative thoughts that came my way. In addition to exercising more control, the practice helped in handling sadness and taught me the benefit of setting aside times for guiding certain emotions.
Of course, such general advice is not meant to be a solution to clinical depression or more serious bouts of despondency. But in this case, the method of "set times for sadness," provided me with an important lesson about driving away destructive thoughts. It also exposed some tricks of the mind: You can walk around all day with angst beneath the surface, bothering you while you should be productive or feel joyful. Yet when that prescribed period of reflection arrives, the time to really reflect—to face negative thoughts head-on—staying focused for even 5 minutes is not so easy.
Suddenly, when the designated time arrived, things don't seem all that bad. The mind wants to escape, to relax and watch a show, or do something more pleasurable. When it counts, feeling sadness takes effort. There is an explanation for this too—but we'll save that. The flip side to the effort, however, is that if you can stay calm and focused for those 5 minutes and utilize the time for introspection—determining the source for those feelings and experiencing true sadness—the destructive emotions work their way out your system and won't invade the mind as often.
An Added Dimension of Joy:
Years later, after reading through the classic Chassidic book Tanya, which addressed these methods in more detail, I better understood the intricacies and benefits of channeling sadness at the appropriate time. The process was not only to purge the mind and heart of burden but if practiced properly, could be used as fuel to reach a greater happiness.
The commentaries on Ecclesiastes describe this emotion as "a light which comes out of darkness." A common interpretation of this Hebrew phrase proposes that the previous existence of darkness enhances the current recognition of light. In a psychological framework it's like saying, "after going through difficult times, the good times become more meaningful."
The deeper explanation, however, is that the darkness itself gives birth to a new type of light; when we experience true sadness, we elevate it by converting it into fuel for positive change and more powerful joy.
The Underrated Festival:
This principle also applies in a broader, more meaningful and potent, context and perhaps helps explain a curious Tannaitic statement about an underrated event this week: Sunday saw the observance of the saddest day that has been stamped into the Jewish calendar, Tisha b'Av. Remarkably, thousands of years after the destruction of the temples, Jews still join in synagogues, fasting, mourning and reciting lamentations. Friday brings a different atmosphere as we celebrate Tu b'Av—the fifteenth day of the month.
This day is often described as a holiday of love and romance, where the "daughters of Jerusalem would go dance in the vineyards" and unmarried men would find their match. The Mishna boldly declares: "there were no festivals as great for the Jewish people as the days Tu b'Av and Yom Kippur. Yom Kippur is obvious. But the greatness of Tu b'Av is puzzling—an oddly conspicuous event in the middle of a month plagued with the darkest memories of destruction.
Ruin and Repair.
The Mystical sources begin by explaining that Tub'Av symbolizes the luminous repair that follows this intense period of sorrow. And there is an axiom that true rising isn't just recovery but destined to reach a superior level; "the greater the fall, the greater will be the subsequent ascent.
More concretely, the happiness of Tu b'Av is directly related—historically and psychologically— to the sadness of the Tisha b'Av. Tradition recounts that on the original Tisha B'av night it was decreed that the generation of the wilderness would not enter Israel. Years later, on the same day, the great city of Betar fell to the Romans and its dead were left unburied. Interestingly, both these misfortunes were rectified on the day of Tu b'Av: the people ceased to die in the wilderness and the dead of Betar were granted burial by the Roman government.
Hidden Message in Time:
What emerges is that the placement of these "holidays" in such close proximity communicates a message about the nature of sadness and joy. In more personal terms, someone who cannot sincerely cry cannot really celebrate. To the extent that a person can feel shame, can mourn, can embrace sorrow or regret—at the appropriate time—will he or she also experience true joy. This is not simply a question of contrast, where suffering brings greater appreciation when things improve. Rather, one experiences a brighter light, achieves greater success than would otherwise have been possible.


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just a quick post to share photos of my december daily. yes, i'm going to do this for the second year and it is going to be very simple...i love simple, more and more. here are my covers:
everything is from my stash. the covers are made from brown shipping boxes that we had around here. i mod podged the crate paper peppermint collection - ski lodge on the outside covers and then applied (vintage) hambly and (vintage) making memories rub ons.
i'm sad to say that three fabulous sheets of hambly paper were needlessly hacked to pieces due to my poor measuring skills...and then mod podged to the insides of the covers.
i like the irregularities of the handmade covers, the corrugated pattern that shows through from the box pieces, and the overall imperfection of this handmade project. i have plain white cardstock pages punched and ready to go - now i'm wondering if i'll go with kraft instead. either way - simple and easy is my 2011 december daily philosophy!


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by Matt Slick
Guardians of the Galaxy is a campy and a little over-the-top romp through a menagerie of creatures, situations, and fun. It opens with a gut-wrenching scene in a hospital and quickly takes you to the near future with the main character foraging for an orb, a very dangerous orb. The action quickly develops, as do the plot twists and the introduction of the other heroic characters who eventually unite to form a mismatched group consisting of a tree, a couple of aliens, a modified raccoon, and one human. But, somehow they congeal into a promising band of "do-gooders." Well, not exactly do-gooders, but they end up doing the right thing. Of course, they're kind of forced into banding together when Ronan, the resident bad guy, inflicts major havoc to get the orb. With spaceship chases, fights, weapons, and explosions, the whole thing is entirely enjoyable.
The special effects were fantastic. The acting was great. I even found myself chuckling several times at some of the humor that was cleverly woven into the script. All I can say is that Marvel has done it again.
However, I am concerned about something. Isaiah 5:20 says . . .
Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil;
Who substitute darkness for light and light for darkness;
Who substitute bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter!
Now I know it's a comic book movie, but even the subtleties of humor and comic books can be used to contradict the word of God. As the Scripture above says, "Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil." I noticed in this movie, and other movies, a frequent theme where the outlaws, the killers, the liars, and the thieves become the heroes. I am not trying to be legalistic, but if I were writing a movie like that, being the Christian that I am, I could not in all good conscience make evildoers out to be the heroes. I'll leave it to you to judge whether or not my comments are appropriate.
Nevertheless, I enjoyed the movie.


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Chapter 6
I do not own Vampire Diaries or Twilight. Read and then review thank you. I'm not following exact story line, keep that in mind. Taking my own spin on this.
I'm dedicating this chapter to my cousin, Donnie. (We lost him back in 1998, due to an OD) Not a day goes by, that I don't think about your smile and contagious laughter. Thanks for the memories!
Bella sauntered about the woods aimlessly. All she knew was she couldn't stand to be in that house, not with Stefan. She knew she couldn't go home either. Everything seemed to be hitting her at once. Her body felt heated and she was completely livid. And when Bella was this angry, she cried. That only pissed her off more. The sound of leaves shuffling about spread across the area as the wind picked up. Her memories were taunting her, as well as Stefan, Damon, Caroline, Bonnie, and Jeremy and everything involving them. Belle felt as though she were about to go insane. Stefan reentered her thoughts and Bella gritted her teeth.
"FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKK!" She shouted as she punched at a nearby tree.
The blow she gave peeled the flesh off her knuckles. She groaned in misery and painfully brought her hand about her chest as it now throbbed in pain. The cool air only added to her agony as it bit at her opened wound. Bella leaned against the tree and shut her eyes for a moment. She just knew Damon was going to HATE her. How could he even begin to look upon her the same way again? Deep down, she knew it wasn't even her fault. Still, that didn't keep the guilt at bay.
She came to a sitting position against the tree. Bella's eyes remained closed as she thought about her past, continuing to reminisce.
Damon entered the house, to see Stefan pacing the living room. He was drunk off his ass and the living room was a disaster. Damon folded his arms about his chest taking it all in.
"Having yourself a tantrum, lil bro?"
Stefan's eyes darted his way. They were wild and his hair was a mess. Stefan wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and cleared his throat. Damon rolled his eyes as he looked around the house.
"You had better tell me that Lizzy is here, somewhere, or so help me…"
Stefan half laughs.
"Let me guess. You'll kill Caroline or someone else that's close to me? Keep in mind that my friends are Isabel's friends as well. Or you could do us both a favor and finally end it once and for all."
"Always so dramatic… Such a terrific little pity party you have going. However, I renounce your invitation. So where is she?"
Stefan shrugs.
"She left."
Damon grits his teeth on this information.
Damon crossly took off, in search of Bella.
Bella eyes shot open. She hadn't realized she'd fallen asleep. The temp was dropping as the sun was about to set. She rubbed her eyes wondering how it was she managed to sleep for that long. Somehow time got away from her. She froze with the feeling that she was being watched. This odd sound was heard from a distance. Her jaw dropped in disbelief as she finally had a visual. A slew of bats were heading right for her. Belle took off running back to the Salvatore house. What had Bella confused, it wasn't even dark yet. So what were bats doing out, furthermore, sailing right for her? She turned back to see they were just inches away from her
"Shit!" Bella took off running back towards the Salvatore house.
Halfway there, she lost her footing and came tumbling down. Bella hurriedly brought her hood up as she crawled amongst the ground. She scurried about the ground, doing her best to protect herself.
The bats let out this odd high pitched cry. Bella lifted her head just enough to see what was taking place. A flock of crows were confronting the bats. She uncovered her face and her jaw dropped in sheer amazement. The crows were plucking out the bats' eyes and taking them down one by one. Bodies of the bats were landing right before her. She braced herself as another bat was heading straight for her. A crow swooped in and snatched it as though it were nothing more than a flea. Bella felt a hand upon her shoulder and jumped in alarm.
She turned, seeing it was Damon. He nodded towards her and helped her to her feet. Damon looked around wondering where the son of a bitch was. This had original written all over it.
"What the hell was that? I mean… are they yours?" She questioned in perplexity, pointing towards the crows.
Damon nodded towards the crows once they finished the job. They took off in flight cawing away in celebration of their victory. He smirked at this and scooped her up.
"Let's get you inside…"
Bella gasped out as Damon took off at vampiric speed. As soon as he had her inside he checked her over.
"Damon, how were you doing that?"
He shrugs.
"That's not an answer!"
"Vampire, sweetheart."
"So all vampires can control birds is that what you're saying?"
He decides to change the subject, knowing that the answer to that was entirely too long winded.
"Why were you out wandering in the woods anyhow?" He asked with a hint of disapproval to his voice.
"Just needed some fresh air."
He takes in a breath of slight annoyance.
"We need to talk."
He took her hand and sat her down on his recliner. Damon hunkered down eye level with her.
"I need you to grab something to read and come with me. Looks like it's going to be a long night, sweetheart."
She looked upon him confused.
"Jeremy's in the ER… He OD'd, Lizzy."
Her heart felt as though it'd pump right out of her chest. The area around her spun and her ears felt as though they were burning.
"What do you mean he OD'd?" She said trying to keep from going into hysterics.
Damon shut his eyes for a moment.
"I think we both know. Let's just go and see how this plays out."
"Plays out?" She repeats as if going into shock and puts a hand to her heart.
Stefan overheard this and peeked over with a grimace. Damon sighed and grabbed her things, before they headed out.
Damon sped on through a red light as they headed to the hospital. Bella just sat there. She didn't talk or even blink, the entire way to the ER. Damon parked the car and hopped out. He rushed over, opening the door for her. Bella just sat there, staring off into space.
"Up you go…" Damon spoke and took her hand.
When they entered the waiting room, Damon sat her down. Bella remained quiet and motionless. A couple hours went by without word on Jeremy's status. Vicky however entered the waiting room with Matt and Tyler. Bella shot up and Damon raised a brow.
"After this, you stay the fuck away from, Jer! I MEAN IT!"
"Bella!" Matt called out in disbelief.
Vicky half laughs. Her eyes were still blood shot and she was still high on whatever she and Jeremy had been taking. Bella gritted her teeth.
"You think this is something to laugh about? YOU STUPID BITCH!"
"Stop it, Bella!" Matt shouted as Bella shoved Vicky up against the wall.
Vicky hauled off and slapped Bella.
"WHAT THE HELL, VICK?!" Her brother scolded.
Damon merely cocked a brow their way. He smirked seeing Bella's hand was already folded into a fist.
"You think you can take me on? Bring it!"
Vicky shoved her back and Bella socked her one. Not just once, but twice, before Tyler grabbed ahold of her. Matt got ahold of his sister and both men struggled to keep the women from ripping into one another. Damon chuckled to himself not just in amusement, but with pride.
"You're going to blame me for this?"
"You're the reason he started doing drugs in the first place!"
"You always were jealous of me."
Bella breaks into laughter.
"Oh, that's a good one. That's right, you got me. I wish I was just like you track marks, blood shot eyes, bitchy attitude, and the town pass around. What I wouldn't give to be a walking, talking, human toilet. You're so lucky!"
"You wanted Jeremy for yourself!"
"Oh hun… you're so delusional. You honestly believe that you and I are in some sort of competition? That's a joke within itself! It should be you in there! NOT JER!"
One of the nurses enters the waiting room. She looks directly upon Bella.
"Mam, if you can't keep it down. I'm going to have to ask you to leave."
"Oh I'm not going anywhere. But you… are… Out of my face!" Bella says pointing upon Vicky.
"Bella, she has every right to be here." Matt defends.
"If she doesn't leave she's going to need a room herself!"
Damon sighs and comes to his feet. He makes his way over and looks Vicky dead in the eyes.
"Go home, sleep it off." He says as he compels Vicky.
Matt watched with puzzlement to his face as Vicky didn't even argue this. She merely exited the waiting room and was heading home.
"Vick!" Matt called out as he followed after her.
Bonnie entered the room with Caroline. Caroline instantly grabbed ahold of Bella, hugging her.
Bonnie hugged her afterword and they each took a seat in the waiting room. After about another half hour the doctor finally entered the waiting room.
"Gilbert?" He inquired and Bella shot up from her seat.
The doctor cleared his throat.
"We managed to get him stable… however he seems to have slipped into a coma."
The doctor nodded.
"My apologies, we are doing everything we can. You're welcome to visit. I'd suggest only a couple of visitors at a time though. He's in room 123."
At this the doctor leaves the waiting room. And Bella just stood there.
"Bella?" Caroline called out with concern.
Matt was making his way back into the room. He eyed Bella.
"Vick didn't deserve that…"
Bella said nothing. She merely left the room. Damon shook his head and followed her out.
"What?" Matt inquired seeing the look the others were giving him.
"Jer's in a coma. So just lay off will ya!" Tyler remarked.
Matt sunk into a chair.
"You're kidding."
"Nope and I happen to agree with Bella here. Your sister is the one that introduced him to this shit, in the first place!"
"You can't do that! You can't put all the blame on her!"
"Just shut up! Both of you." Caroline says.
Bonnie takes in a breath.
"This isn't helping anyone, turning against one another. Bella and Jeremy they need us."
"Bella hasn't any right to put this all on Vick though. Jer is just as much to blame in all this. Last time I checked he too had a mind of his own." Matt defends.
Damon followed Bella into the room. She grimaced seeing all the tubes that were connected to his body. He looked frail and pale. Bella put her hand over her mouth and took a few more steps towards Jeremy. Damon narrowed his eyes as she took Jeremy's hand. She broke into sobs and put his hand upon her cheek.
"You can't do this to me, Jer." Bella whispered in agony.
"I mean it, dammit."
She placed his hand back alongside of him. She then parted his hair away from his eyes. Bella kissed his forehead, but couldn't stand to be in there a second longer. Damon cocked a brow as she damn near ran out of the room. When he stepped out she was leaning against the hallway wall, with her eyes closed. Damon made his way over and lifted her chin with his fingers.
She recoiled and shook her head.
Damon reared back as she wouldn't even look at him.
"I'm sorry… I…"
"Sorry? For what?" He questioned with a snarl.
She shut her eyes even tighter as she spoke.
"I've done something terrible. Something… you may never forgive. Damon… you need to know that I never once loved him. I loved you and…"
"I'm not so sure I like where this is going. Who the fuck are you talking about?"
She opened her eyes looking into his baby blues. That only added to the guilt.
"It's about Stefan."
"What about him?" He questioned through gritted teeth.
Bella took in a breath and motioned for Damon to follow her. She led him to the alleyway of the hospital.
"As you're aware my memories are coming back and not just the one lifetime I had with you."
"What's that have to do with my brother, Lizzy?"
She flinched at the tone in Damon's voice.
"Damon…" She said, feeling as though she'd pass out.
"There was a time I was engaged to your brother. I…"
Damon starts to laugh rather madly. She swallowed back full of nerves.
"Joke right?"
She takes back a miserable breath.
"I wish…"
He backs her up against the wall. Her breathing became erratic as those black veins of his spread about and his eyes were cold and dark.
"NO! I want to know what the fuck you're talking about! When the hell were you EVER engaged to Stefan and why?!"
"It was my second rebirth or however you want to put it. I hadn't any memory of my past life. Hell, Damon each time I'm reborn, I have a different set of parents and family. It's one hell of a MIND FUCK. Apparently, my second father was a real dick and a half and sold me off to your brother. My family owned land that was at risk of being sold off, by force. The railroad industry had come into town. They offered my father a pretty shitty price. One that wasn't even near what the land, house, and stock was worth. Not even HALF. Well my father decided to take matters into his own hands, in order to save our land. I was his best bet. Stefan Salvatore at the time was one of the richest most well-known bachelors, in town at the time. He'd obviously showed interest in me. He offered my father a price, he just could refuse. Next thing I know my bags are packed and I'm being shipped off like one of the heifers. I wind up living with this strange man, before I'm even married. Mr. Stefan Salvatore had this manor filled with luxurious things. He threw expensive perfume, jewelry, dresses, food, and whatever else he could think of my way. He spoiled me every chance he got… That is until few days before the wedding, I came across a picture he'd out on the mantle of the fireplace. It was of him and another man. A man I found strangely familiar. To his sheer stupidity, when asked about this picture. He admitted that the other man was you. Like a bolt of lightning the name Damon Salvatore course through me.
These images came to mind. Images of you and this feeling washed over me, it was so heavy like nothing I'd ever felt. Next thing I knew, Stefan was hovering over me. He was calling to me repeatedly. I must've passed out. Still, your memory lingered. And I remember demanding that he find you. His silence had me concerned. He said nothing on the matter. He just cut me this look, one I couldn't quite detect. I stopped him as he headed for the door. I made him promise that he wouldn't return without you. Stefan vowed this to me before he walked out that door. Only when he returned, he returned empty handed. When I confronted him on the issue…"
Damon tilted his head about, looking full of wrath. Bella shook her head.
"He what, Lizzy?" He said trying to stay calm and collected as possible.
"Damon…" She said in a pleading matter.
"You're going to kill him."
"Oh, you're god damn right I am, after I fuck up whatever world he has around him!"
"He knew damn well what he was doing! He isn't the one that had his memory wiped clean. YOU WERE! NONE OF THIS WAS YOUR FAULT AND YOU'RE NOT EVEN ABOUT TO MAKE ME BELIEVE OTHERWISE!
She grimaced and chills ran up her spine at the recollection. She took back a quivery breath before she answered.
"He killed me, Damon. His hands were wrapped around my throat and that was it. I died at the age of 16 and at the hands of Stefan Salvatore!"
Damon nodded, about to take off.
He froze as she hurriedly rushed over. It was the way she screamed his name. It never failed, it always brought back that horrible day, he watched her die.
"Please, you can't kill him or my friends!"
"I'm not going to touch your precious friends, Lizzy! My brother on the other hand! HE CHOSE TO DIE THAT DAY!"
"Damon, trust me, I get it! It's no more than he deserves! But…"
She winced.
She wouldn't answer looking completely ill. Damon took something out from his jacket. It was her journal. He handed it to her.
"I want you back in that waiting room. I want you to read this. Something I could quote word for word. Remember what we had."
She continues to cut him that full of guilt expression.
"You said you had no recall that I ever existed. Is that true or not?"
"Yes, of course!
"THEN HOW THE HELL IS THIS ANY OF YOUR FAULT?! How can you stand there and feel any ounce of guilt?! YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG! FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!" Damon throws his hands in the air and reaches to his gut as though someone socked him one.
"One more time, did you and Stefan have sex?!"
She nodded with tears forming in her eyes. His upper lip curled.
"Damon, I'm sorry!"
Damon gently cupped her chin.
"I want you to go back inside. You worry about Jeremy, be with your friends. I'll take care of everything else."
Before she could argue on this any further, he was gone.
Stefan shot up from his recliner as fog began to fill the entire house. He shook his head and sighed already knowing. He nodded to himself as a crow flew through the window. It looked upon him and cawed out. Stefan took in a breath as he looked around. His skin crawled as he merely waited for it.
"So where are you hiding, Damon?"
Stefan gasped out as he was shoved across the room. Every time Stefan came back to his feet, he was thrust back once again.
"I take it, she told you." Stefan calls out, dusting the remains of the dining room table off him.
He caught a glimpse of Damon's reflection and zipped over. Stefan hurled him up against the fireplace and bounded over taking his knee to Damon's sternum. Damon quickly reversed the pin. Stefan brought forth his knees and propelled Damon off him.
"Are you going to hear me out on this or not?!" Stefan shouted.
"I'm done hearing you out, brother."
"I never meant to hurt her!"
"Save the spiel, Stefan. We're done…"
"You know what… fine. Do your worst!"
Damon genuinely smiles.
"Oh believe me, I plan to."
He swiftly snapped Stefan's neck. Damon hopped back up. He grabbed a lock of his brother's hair and dragged his body into a chair. He wrapped links of chains around his brother's torso, ankles, and wrists. Damon placed silver serving bowls at the ends of the arm rests. He then gave Stefan a heavy dose of vervain through a syringe. He slit Stefan's wrists with a letter opener. Damon pulled up a chair across from his brother and waited as he bled out, into the bowls.
After another hour or so Stefan weakly came to, but could barely keep his eyes open. The rest of him was completely paralyzed.
"Well hello, brother!"
Damon leaned over.
"You comfy? I truly hope so."
Stefan couldn't even talk. He just sat there in pure agony. His eyes watered the pain was so great.
"So… it seems you and I have a lot of catching up to do." Damon makings a tsking sound with his tongue.
"Let's see… you found Lizzy-check. You failed to find me and let me know-check. You forced her into becoming your fiancé-check. You fucked my Lizzy-check. And then you KILLED HER-CHECK!" Damon reached over and squeezed his wrists, so he'd bleed out even more.
"She's died twice, because of you! You haven't any idea just how badly I want to rip your fucking heart out, chopped it up, and make you eat it piece by piece! I want to ram a stake through your heart over and over and over! But no, that would be too easy! I want you to feel Lizzy's pain! Therefore, killing you is just not an option. No, you deserve something a bit more gruesome!" Damon says with the raising of his brows and a grin about his face.
"You see, it was in my mind to do so on the way over here. Just end it once and for all. Go against my lovely Lizzy's wishes. But the more I had time to think. The more I realized. What better punishment is there than to spend eternity in absolute darkness, suffering, starvation, and isolation?! Oh brother, you will suffer! You haven't a clue just what it is I got planned for you! I mean, I'm all giddy just thinking about it! You Stefan, will never know the taste of blood, the touch of a woman, the joy of getting shitfaced, or any of the wonders that life has to offer ever again.
And to think, I one loved you. I did everything within my power to keep you protected. I always had your back. I'd have fucking died for you, you worthless piece of shit! But this is how you repay me? You backstabbing little bitch! You swore an oath to me that if you ever found her again, you'd do everything within your ability, to reunite us! I trusted that. You made it seem as though, you were so full of guilt. That you were willing to do whatever it took, to make it up to me! Hell, you even put on this believable bawling and squalling act! You're no brother to me Stefan. No, you're the enemy. You're the one person that entered my life and ripped it apart from the inside out! You destroyed the one person I cared about the most. EVERYONE ELSE CAN ROTT IN HELL, INCLUDING YOU! This is goodbye. My face will be the last thing you ever see. Welcome to my Hell brother. Do enjoy your stay!"
He picks Stefan up and throws him into the cellar of the Salvatore home. It too, laced with vervain. Like promised, there was nothing but darkness. Damon slid over the stealthy door that looked as though nothing more than part of the cellar. He sealed his brother shut and didn't turn back.
"We'll be there as soon as we can, Bells." Her father said on the other line.
Bella winced hearing Jenna breaking down on the other end.
"Our flight got postponed, due to bad weather. We will not arrive until morning…" He explains.
"Ok dad. I'll be right here."
"Alright kiddo… just hang tight until we get there." Even the sound of her father's voice was quivery.
The other's had already left, considering they all had school tomorrow. Bella however didn't budge. She sipped at the coffee; Bonnie had brought her, before they left. Bella wiped a few stray tears away as she opened her journal.
She looked over seeing it was Jeremy's doctor.
"I don't see any issue if you wish to join your friend. It'd stay between us, of course."
Bella wasn't even sure she could go in there. Then again, the thought of Jeremy being alone… That bothered her even more so.
"Thank you, sir."
He smiled and personally escorted her to Jeremy's room. He grabbed a blanket and pillow on the way. The doctor had overheard her conversation with her father and knew at the time being, Bella was all alone. The doctor sat the pillow and blanket down on a nearby counter.
"If you need anything just let us know."
"Thank you."
He smiled warmly and exited the room.
"Bella looked to the pillow and blanket and sighed."
She then gazed upon Jeremy. She grew irate with herself as she began to cry yet again.
"…dammit…" She muttered under her breath.
Bella walked over to the sink and splashed some cold water on her face. Once she dried her face off and forced herself to calm down. She pulled up a chair beside Jeremy's bed.
"They say that coma patients can still hear what's going on at times around them. In that case, why don't I read some downright embarrassing journal entries from when I was Isabel Mia De Fleur? Sound good? Yeah, I thought so too. Think of this as leverage for later."
She sighed and kicked back. Once again, she opened the journal. She raised her brows realizing the entire thing was written in French.
"And just how the hell does Damon expect me to…"
Bella narrowed her eyes though as she skimmed it over. Her jaw dropped as she was able to read it fluently.
"What the fuck?!" She reared back and quickly shut the journal.
She sat it far away from her as though the thing were cursed.
"I don't know French! Do I?!"
She looked over to Jeremy as if expecting him to answer. Bella came back to her feet and paced the room, with a racing heart. Before she truly thought about it; she was muttering under her breath in French. She covered her mouth.
Bella hurriedly reached for the journal once more and began to read it.
I'm not even sure how to begin this. Dear diary sounds rather cliché. Is it too self-absorbed to address yourself instead? I mean, they are your thoughts after all and it is the book of your life. Well here it is…
Dear Isabel,
Today is the day you met "him". And by him I do mean, Damon Salvatore. The very reason you decided to keep a log of your rather dull life to begin with.
Bella blushed in thought as she read this out loud.
"Well, there you go, Jer. You know what makes this worse?" She frowned in thought.
"Knowing that Damon has read this as well, ugh."
She sits back down and crosses her legs.
In all honesty, it is not the first time. Nevertheless, It is the first time you ever really took notice of him. He is the older brother of your best friend Stefan Salvatore. The reason you come up with more excuses to visit the Salvatore house. Would it be improper to merely spend the entire day staring at this beautiful man? Even now I'm blushing to myself in thought. Since when do you have such thoughts? What's come over you? Besides this man's brilliant mind, flawless physique, alluring deep blue eyes, and the way his voice sends you thoughts that's undeniably improper for a lady to be having.
A lady… that's all I ever hear. Isabel, you're a lady act as though one! Isabel, can't you act like the other young ladies your age?! Why must their world consist of what fabric is to be used this month? What is the proper way of curling ones hair? And how to keep from fainting in order to make your breasts seem bigger, your waist line smaller, through those dreadful corsets. Mother has scolded me numerous times, on how I insist on leaving the house without one. You'd think I'd gone streaking! Honestly! I do not see the need to be so uncomfortable in order to fake out society. Thus, has me someone confused. We as "ladies" are to act proper. We're not to send men such gestures. That is how we are taught or at least how I was. Yet these corsets are still insisted upon. If I had my way, I'd burn every corset I owned.
Oh dear, I do believe I've gotten off subject. Yes indeed, back to Mr. Damon Salvatore. Is it feasible that this man might be sharing "feelings" as well? We seemed to have shared a moment… perhaps I am reading too much in this. He helped me upon one of the stallions at the ranch today. This is something he normally does. Today however just seemed different, than all the others. He had his hands about my waist as he lifted me up. Only this time it seemed his hold rather lingered. Did I imagine him purposely brushing himself against me as he did this? Oh how foolish can I be?! Even as I write this my face blossoms with sheer embarrassment… My breath was taken back as Mr. Damon Salvatore's eyes locked with my own.
I dare say it is the first of any affectionate thoughts pertaining to a man.
Bella wrinkled her nose.
"What was wrong with me? I dare say… who talks like that?!"
She sighs and continued to read on for another hour or so. It went on and on about her feelings for Damon, her friendship with Stefan, her parents, and their friends. It was more than obvious she thought the world of the Salvatore brothers. In Isabel's eyes neither could do no wrong. But it had been made more than clear, that whereas she was madly in love with Damon. She thought of Stefan as though the brother she never had. She was an only child in this lifetime as well. For some reason it wasn't stated, but Bella vaguely had the memory of a little baby brother. He died from scarlet fever, when she was young. A lump formed in her throat as she was able to picture her mother rocking the infant. They kept him in a basinet by their bed. They lived in a very small house and they all shared a room. She remembered being sent away during this time. When she returned her infant brother had passed away.
Her mother didn't speak for weeks on end. Isabel remembered spending more of her time with Stefan, when she did return. They usually were on some sort of adventure outside. She could remember how they'd go swimming, hiking, or would be on some sort of wildlife expedition. To her surprise a smile formed along her lips. Yet there was a hint of sadness behind it. How could he betray her like that? After everything they'd been through and the times they shared. Both had faced death together. Both had been there for one another, on numerous accounts. But because she did not share the same feelings Stefan had. He sought out to make certain she paid! Or so that's how it felt to Bella.
Bella could see Damon perfectly. His white shirt how it'd become slightly unbuttoned and grimy after a hard day's worth of work. He'd be covered in sweat. Something she always found incredibly sexy. She half laughed to herself as those feelings came rushing back. That giddy like feeling. It had her weak at the knees. She remembered how she would blush, when Damon looked her way. At times it was as if he knew, how she felt about him. He'd cut her a wink or nod. Bella always found reasons to bring him something to drink or a kerchief in which to wipe the sweat from his brow. She took in a breath and sat her journal back down.
She came to her feet and leaned against the counter. Another memory however hit and it seemed to come from nowhere. Bella flinched and reached to her back as she came to her knees.
Thwack, thwack, thwack… she could still hear the sound of Mr. Salvatore's belt beating against her back.
"I'll teach you to steal from me you little.."
"DAD!" Damon came running into the house and yanked the belt out of his father's hand.
"I don't want her over here, ever again! I caught the little thief red handed!"
"Thief?" Damon inquired as he helped Isabel to her feet.
"That's right, she was digging through your mother's old jewelry box!"
Stefan entered the room as well, taking in the scene. Damon brought Isabel against his chest, consoling her. His father wrinkled his nose.
"Boy, you get your hands off that filthy whore!"
"Lizzy's no such thing! And I most certainly will not! Now put that away you're scaring her!"
Stefan sighed.
"It's my fault. I sent her in here to get the money from mother's jewelry box. I was about to head to the store, but realized I forgot."
"See… there you go! Lizzy would never steal from us!" Damon assures.
Their father pointed upon Stefan. He was drunk, like usual. Mr. Salvatore wasn't a very pleasant drunk. He had no filter and was known to be violent.
"You're not to be seen with her again. NEITHER OF YOU!" He stares upon Isabel.
"GO HOME! NOW! GO ON NOW, GET!" He reached over jerking the belt out of Damon's clutch.
Damon gritted his teeth and took the hits intended for Isabel. She screamed out as the hits became relentless. He continued to beat Damon wherever he could reach, in order to try and get to her. Damon wrapped his entire body around Isabel. Stefan rushed over and stood before Damon and Isabel. He took a hit across the face. That's when it stopped. Stefan… he was the favorite. Damon was nothing more than a disappointment. He could never do anything right. He wasn't fast enough with the chores, he wasn't smart enough, he didn't kiss his father's ass the way Stefan did! Damon had no problem taking a beating from his father. He wasn't about to cave, when it came to what he believed in. That was one of the reasons Isabel fall for Damon, to begin with.
Belle reached to her temples. The vision of finding Damon beat to a bloody pulp came to mind now. The very day Damon had proposed to her. She saw it clear as day now. She came up on him by the lake. His left eye was swollen and purple, his lip was busted and nose was broken. He had belt marks all along his body. Her heart sank at the memory. Once his father got the word of his son proposing to an émigré! He lost it! He demanded that his son renounce his proposal! In fact, his father had plans for Damon to marry Alice Brandon! Someone that was of the Salvatore class, also one of the girls that loved to give Isabel nothing, but hell. Alice always envied Damon's affections towards Belle. Alice's viewpoints regarding Isabel, was in unison with the Salvatore's father. Bella staggered back at the memory. She had taken care of Damon and his wounds that night. She helped him to soak in the lake. She remembered how cold the water was but she endured it for his sake. He insisted that she go home. That she'd catch a cold or worse that his father would take it out upon her or her family. But she stayed by his side. She brought him food, water, and blankets.
Bella blinked a few times and used the wall to come back to her feet. She felt worn out suddenly and her eyes grew heavy. So much so, she didn't even bother with the blanket or pillow. Bella lay on the small sofa within the room. The second she shut her eyes, Bella was out.
She slept so soundly. Bella never even knew that Damon had come to check on things. He placed the pillow under her head and wrapped the blanket around her. He kissed her lips. Before he left, he bit down on his wrist. Damon gazed upon Bella once more as he fed Jeremy some of his blood.
"Bells?" Jeremy called out seeing that she was sleeping on the couch.
Bella drowsily opened an eye his direction. It didn't dawn at first. So she shut her eyes again. Jeremy smiled as her eyes flew open, in realization.
He nodded and rose up a little. Bella jumped off the couch and ran up to him. She hugged the hell out of him.
She loosened her grip, but wouldn't let go. He hugged her in return.
"Don't you ever and I mean ever do that to me again, Jer!" She uttered behind sobs.
He sighed his memory was vague, but he knew damn well what he'd done. He felt like a dick and a half now. Jeremy felt her tears landing on his hospital gown.
"You could have died, dammit!"
"Bells…" He whispered not sure what to say.
They both turned as the door opened. Jenna and Charlie entered the room. Jenna looked completely broken. She too rushed over and hugged him. She rose up though and hit him on the arm.
"You little… How could you do this to me?! TO US?!"
Charlie sighed and patted her on the back.
"Easy, Jenn."
Jenna shook her head and cried into Charlie's chest. Charlie took in a breath.
"You sure caused a lot of trouble, son. Like it or not, once you're out of here you're going into rehab!"
"Oh, come on!"
Charlie shook his head and pointed upon Jeremy.
"I get it son. I'm not your father. But I care about you just the same. I don't appreciate you putting your aunt or my daughter through this either. So yes… you will be going to rehab. I will check you in and drive you there myself!"
"JENN! Tell him I don't need fucking rehab."
"You watch your mouth, Jer!" Jenna scolds.
"Don't you ever disrespect him in such a manner again!"
Jeremy looked back over to Bella. She was cutting him this look of thorough disbelief and hatred. He sighed and pinched his eyes shut.
"I don't need rehab. I almost died. Trust me, lesson learned."
Bella nodded at this and grabbed her jacket and journal. She started towards the door and her father stopped her.
"Where you off to?"
"You can both stand here and watch him self-destruct and eventually die. I won't. He hasn't even told you about the time I drove him to rehab."
Charlie and Jenn reared back at this newfound information.
"Bella…"Jer voiced in misery.
"That's right. I almost had you in the door. You were going to make this big change. Only you ended up running off with Vicky, because she had followed us up there and stopped you. She gave you this very well thought out theater performance, on how much she would miss you if you went into treatment. I wanted to gag. Vicky claimed that you could do this together. Overcome your substance abuse and all that jazz! How she'd do whatever it took. You believed her, like always. Now here we are. So I'm done. You want to continue down this path? Then you no longer have my support! I've damn near broke my back in order to help you! I've talked with you, Jer, until you're blue in the face. So if you're not going to even try… Why the hell should I? Later, Gilbert!"
Bella turned her back to him and walked out the door. But even as she did, each step she took felt as though her heart were shattering. Pieces of it were falling amongst the ground and she crushed them beneath her feet, with each step she took, along the way.


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Looks like an amazing couple weeks!!! :)ReplyDelete
HAHAHA where did you find that picture of Erica she better bring that yellow swim suit so we can match! I am excited about everything but the plane flight. Whoo hOO!ReplyDelete
How exciting thatyou are coming to the ATX!!!! Hopefully Shalyn decides to share you if yall go out let us all know!! xoxo :)ReplyDelete
I'm so jealous! You guys will have a blast together : ) Can't wait to see all the pictures!ReplyDelete
You all are going to have such a great time! :) Can't wait to see the pics!ReplyDelete
Looks like SO much fun. Jealous!ReplyDelete
I can't wait to see your guys shenanigans via instagram and the recaps later! You ladies (and boys) are going to have SO much fun!ReplyDelete
HAHAHA BEAU! ill consider bringing the juicy yellow just to match!ReplyDelete
haha stephhhy! you have such a bloggy bizzy week and tehrefore again i am jelly you are going to see shay and ddhp again!!
but not so jealous because i get to squeeze you shortly after!
WOOP WOOP! cannot wait to see all you girls and guys!!
omg how fun! i love jess!!! jelly!!!ReplyDelete
I am beyond jealous of all of your get togethers. I can't wait to read about it all.ReplyDelete
awwww all my favs!! you are on lucky little lady and so are they for getting to hang out with you!! ya'll are going to have the BEST.TIME.EVER!ReplyDelete
wait, you're gonna see DDHP and Shay AGAIN???!??!?!?ReplyDelete
I hate you east coast losers!!
and what is hubbys prob, is he afraid of flying?ReplyDelete
Im pretty sure I get to meet you and your pretty face as well :) Friday the 25th!??? cant wait!!ReplyDelete
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When you understand why letting go of someone you love feels impossible and more painful than anything you ever imagined, you'll find yourself moving towards acceptance and freedom.
Here you'll find four of the most common reasons women hold on to the past, ranging from unrealistic expectations to fear of the future. If you recognize yourself, take heart! Your insight and self-awareness will bring you one step closer to healing and letting go of someone you love.
The most important thing to remember is that you dig yourself deeper every time you tell yourself it's impossible to let go. Your thoughts have power! Your thoughts can keep you stuck in the past or move you forward into a new season of life. Your thoughts can make what feels impossible possible…and they can make the possible feel impossible. Letting go of someone you love IS possible — unless you believe the lie that you can't live without him.
Here's what a reader said about letting go:
"My heart is broken into a million pieces," says Briana on my article How to Emotionally Detach From Someone You Care About. "No matter how much I tell myself that I deserve better and remember that he cheated on me, lied to me and made me feel bad about myself, I still feel a horrible ache from missing him. I try to tell myself that one day I will meet someone who is right for me…but my thoughts constantly go back to him. It feels impossible to let go of him because I love him so much. At first I still talked to him and hoped that he would want me back, but now it's strictly no contact. I have had loss in my life before (my father died and my husband left me six months later) but I never felt as devastated as I do now. Why can't I let go?"
There are many reasons we can't let go of people we love, such as fear, low self-esteem, shame, guilt, regret, desperation, neediness. To heal, you need to find your reason for not letting go. The sooner you learn what holds you back, the easier it'll be to move forward.
Why Letting Go Feels Impossible
The biggest reason is that we're created for relationship. God wired us to need each other, love each other, and stay connected. Healthy, supportive relationships are the most important things in our lives.
When a relationship ends, it feels impossible to let go. Losing someone you love is painful because we were created to get and stick together. So, you're normal if you feel devastated because of your breakup, separation, or divorce.
You will get through this, my friend. It may feel impossible to let go of someone you love after a breakup, but it's not. With God, all things are possible…even healing after one of the most painful experiences of your life.
Unrealistic Expectations
"At the beginning of a relationship, potential partners show us their best," says personal strategist Charly Emery, author of Thank Goodness You Dumped Him: Use Those Mr. Wrongs to Lead You Straight to Mr. Right. "The romance, excitement and blossoming interest and love we feel creates an imprint in our minds as well as our hearts. It dictates how we perceive that person and our relationship. We often (and sometimes unknowingly) create unrealistic expectations for the future."
When we have unrealistic expectations of relationships or men, we hold on to them — even after we realize they aren't capable of living up to our expectations. Those expectations are hard to let go of, which is why it feels impossible to move on after a breakup. It's even worse when you miss him like crazy.
"Many of us choose to hold onto our original belief and assessment of the partner, rather than see what's right in front of us," says Emery. "We believe we can have what we wanted. This begins a chase that can last decades — and it holds us back from healing when a relationship ends."
Personal Failures
"People with low self-confidence may equate a failed relationship with a personal failure," says Elizabeth Lombardo, Ph.D., author of the bestselling book A Happy You: Your Ultimate Prescription for Happiness. "In addition, they associate their worth with how others view them. Being 'dumped' and alone leads to more feelings of worthlessness. In contrast, someone with higher self-confidence might feel happy to be free of an unhealthy relationship."
If you feel stuck in the past and can't let go of your ex-boyfriend or ex-husband, you may be struggling with feelings of low-self worth. Instead of accepting that he simply isn't right for you, you see the breakup as proof that you're not right (or good enough) for him — or anybody else. You don't feel like you're worthy of love. If you see the breakup as a direct reflection on your self-image and self-worth, then it'll feel impossible to let go of someone you love.
Feeling Like This Was Your Last Chance
I had a really hard time letting go of an ex-boyfriend because I thought he was my last chance for happiness. And he wasn't even a nice guy! He was critical, antisocial, and unsupportive. I knew I deserved better, but I'd invested so much time in our relationship. I felt like I had to stay with him because I didn't think I'd find anyone else. I felt old; I was 32 years old and had never been married.
The belief that I'd never find anyone new was holding me back from letting go of the past, healing, and moving on. I didn't want to go through the time and trouble of meeting someone new, dating, and establishing another relationship. It felt impossible to let go of my boyfriend — even after we broke up — because it was easier to stay where I was. So, I kept myself stuck in the past, yearning for what was, for over a year. I let my fear, insecurity, self-doubt, and guilt hold me back from moving forward and healing.
Are you dwelling on your breakup because you're comparing yourself to other people in your life?
Maybe your sister is happily married, your boss just celebrated her 20th wedding anniversary, or your yoga instructor just got pregnant. When you're single, it can feel like you're surrounded by happy couples blissfully expecting their first child or buying their first home together. Since you can't avoid women who are in good relationships, you need to stop comparing your life to theirs.
"Happy people largely ignore social comparison information," writes Susan Nolen-Hoeksema, Ph.D. in Women Who Think Too Much: How to Break Free of Overthinking and Reclaim Your Life. "Instead, their views of themselves are based on more stable internal standards."
She says that when happy, secure, confident women don't meet their own internal standards they take action to make themselves feel better or to improve their future. Different women find strength and healing in different ways: spirituality, creativity, therapy, friends, family members, their children, work, hobbies, travel, a support group, a whole new identity. Your job is to experiment with different ways and types of healing, and find what works for you.
How to Make the Impossible Possible
Are you ready to do the work of letting go of someone you love? Be honest with yourself. Start by admitting what you don't want to face. You know things about yourself and your relationships that you're not eager to admit to yourself. For example, did you stay in this relationship too long because you're scared to be alone? Were you allowing problems to continue because you didn't want to face them?
One of the healthiest ways to let go of someone you love is to learn more about yourself by being honest and authentic. The more you know about who you are, the stronger you'll be.
If you find yourself coping with depression, read How to Overcome Depressed Feelings After a Breakup.
Help Letting Go of Someone You Love
I wrote How to Let Go of Someone You Love: Powerful Secrets and Practical for Healing Your Heart to help women cope when it feels impossible to let go of a relationship.
Letting go is painful – even if you're not "in love" anymore. The grief of breaking up affects every part of your life: your daily routine, work, family relationships, friends, hopes and dreams for your future, and even your financial plans.
The first version of this ebook was called How to Let Go of Someone You Love: 3 Powerful Secrets (and 75 Tips!) for Healing Your Heart. I wrote it several years ago, and have learned a lot about loving, losing, and letting go since then. So, I rewrote the ebook. My prayer is that it helps heal your heart, and gives you comfort and guidance.
Here's what a reader recently said about this ebook: "I gobbled the book down. Great help putting things in perspective and in taking positive thoughtful action. Many thanks for sharing your wisdom and experiences."
How are you feeling? I welcome your comments below. Does it still feel impossible to let go of someone you love, or are you feeling like you can do this?
May you find healing, strength, and power as you move forward in your life. May you raise your eyes upward to God, outward to other people who love you, and inward to your own wisdom and truth. May you be open to the guidance of the Holy Spirit, and the saving grace of Jesus.


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Over the past week, my timeline has been flooded with clips and comments Girls Trip. Kelly Rowland, Taraji P Henson, Kofi Siriboe, LeBon James (and literally everyone in black hollywood) had something good to say about the comedic film.
#GirlsTrip beat out "Spider-Man: Homecoming" & "Planet of the Apes" earning $30.8Million at the box office its opening weekend! ???? pic.twitter.com/HoxEgB4lbx
— B. Scott (@lovebscott) July 24, 2017
Just saw "Girls Trip" with the wife, family and friends. Man I/we was dying laughing all movie!! Stomach still hurting. #MustSee
— LeBron James (@KingJames) July 25, 2017
The moment you realize your movie #GirlsTrip is opening higher than Bridesmaids. #BlackGirlMagic pic.twitter.com/AQkdRxTKgQ
— Tracy Y. Oliver (@TracyYOliver) July 23, 2017
This is so much more than good marketing. In a single weekend, Girls Trip generated more than $30.4 in American box office. The four leading roles are played by Tiffany Haddish, Regina Hall, Queen Latifa, and Jada Pinkett Smith in an all black cast.
Why the hype? What makes this film different to any other chick-flick this year? Director and screenwriter Ava DuVernay tweeted:
History: Film centering four black women having fun with no big cause, mission, problem or catastrophe hits big at box office.
Hollywood: pic.twitter.com/nlqGSGogZ2
— Ava DuVernay (@ava) July 23, 2017
The success of this film lies here. Hollywood is forever debating about the need for (and lack of) diversity in the film industry. But we're tired of talking! Films like Girls Trip go straight to the point of addressing the issue. It encourages diversity through 'four black women having fun with no big cause, mission, problem or catastrophe.'
We need more films like this, lighthearted, good humored and (what can only be described as) #BlackGirlMagic!
On the list for things to do this week? Watch Girls Trip.


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Warner Bros. reports that Prisoners grabbed an estimated $7.01 million in its Friday debut, putting the drama on track for a $20.5 million opening weekend. The ensemble flick led by Hugh Jackman and Jake Gyllenhaal marks the first offering for adult audiences in over a month--since Lee Daniels' The Butler began its very successful run. Strong critical reviews (currently at 79 percent on Rotten Tomatoes) have helped propel Prisoners to its healthy opening. Although the film has been somewhat divisive among early crowds, its Flixster score still sits at a strong 88 percent after one day.
Last week's number one film, Insidious Chapter 2, tallied $4.675 million to kick off its second frame. The horror sequel from director James Wan has amassed an impressive $51 million in eight days. Although the film is proving to be significantly more front-loaded than its 2011 predecessor, there's no question that FilmDistrict has a hit franchise on its hands as fans eagerly await the forthcoming third installment. Insidious Chapter 2 is projected to gross $14 million this weekend.
Relativity's The Family added $2.09 million on Friday, boosting its domestic total to $20.7 million since opening last week. BoxOffice is projecting a $6.7 million sophomore weekend for the Robert de Niro flick.
Sleeper hit Instructions Not Included added $1.36 million yesterday for a new domestic cume of $29.9 million. That represents an incredible drop of just 3 percent from last Friday. The Latino-driven comedy has proven to be a much stronger performer on weekends versus weekdays. This weekend's take should ring up close to $5.3 million.
Sony's Battle of the Year is failing to catch fire. The dance flick starring Chris Brown and Lost's Josh Holloway was targeting teenagers in a bit of counter-programming this weekend, but most of them are rejecting the flick judging by the film's $1.5 million first day take. Not surprisingly, critics have lambasted the film with a 6 percent Rotten Tomatoes score while early audience word of mouth has driven Battle's Flixster user score down to a more reasonable, though still disappointing, 65 percent. Last year's Step Up Revolution wound up as the lowest grosser of that franchise, and with Battle's performance it's evident that fans of the genre clearly aren't itching for just another generic dance movie. Look for Battle of the Year to pull around $4.3 million this weekend.
WB's Wizard of Oz re-release fared well in IMAX and 3D to start the weekend. The family classic brought in an estimated $751,000 yesterday. Expected to perform even stronger throughout the weekend as parents and kids make their way to theaters, the film should take in $3 million this weekend. Wizard of Oz continues to prove its enduring appeal even after 74 years.
Lastly, Universal estimates a strong $66,000 opening day for Ron Howard's Rush, which opted for a platform release in 5 theaters this weekend ahead of its wide release on September 27. Strong buzz for the film is helping in addition to Howard's credentials as well as star Chris Hemsworth. Rush is aiming to earn around $220,000 this weekend for a strong per-theater-average of $44,000.
Additional reporting by Daniel Garris.


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After God frees you from bondage you are to walk in sanctification. Sanctification is expected after you are freed from bondage (sin). After the Israelites left Egypt (bondage) God instructed them to sanctify themselves.
Exodus 19:10 NKJV
"Then the Lord said to Moses, "Go to the people and consecrate them today and tomorrow, and let them wash their clothes."
Believer, followers of Jesus, are to follow Jesus' example in sanctification. They are to be holy and set apart from sin. Believers are to be reserved for God's use – they are set apart to do the will of God.
1 Peter 1:13-16 NKJV
"Therefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; as obedient children, not conforming yourselves to the former lusts, as in your ignorance; but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, because it is written, "Be holy, for I am holy."
The sanctifying work of the Holy Spirit must be active in the believer's life. Sanctification is an ongoing or continuing process – it takes a lifetime. However, there should be tangible evidences of growth in the believer's life. There should be ongoing noticeable differences (changes) in a person's life. It is a progressive holiness and growing in purity that will never be completely perfected until the day Jesus returns for His bride.
Hebrews 9:22-28 NKJV
"And according to the law almost all things are purified with blood, and without shedding of blood there is no remission.
Therefore it was necessary that the copies of the things in the heavens should be purified with these, but the heavenly things themselves with better sacrifices than these. For Christ has not entered the holy places made with hands, which are copies of the true, but into heaven itself, now to appear in the presence of God for us; not that He should offer Himself often, as the high priest enters the Most Holy Place every year with blood of another—He then would have had to suffer often since the foundation of the world; but now, once at the end of the ages, He has appeared to put away sin by the sacrifice of Himself. And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many. To those who eagerly wait for Him He will appear a second time, apart from sin, for salvation."
Just as the temple of old was sanctified for God's use, our bodies, the temple of the Holy Spirit, should be also.
1 Corinthians 6:19 NKJV
"Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?"
1 Thessalonians 4:3-7 NKJV
"For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God; that no one should take advantage of and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is the avenger of all such, as we also forewarned you and testified. For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in holiness."
you meat, and you shall eat."
Dear Father,
Thank-you that You have freed us from the bondage of sin through Jesus Christ. By the power of the Holy Spirit, help us to follow Jesus' example in sanctification. Cause us to desire to be holy and set apart from sin. May we be reserved for Your use – may we be set apart to do Your will. Cause us to gird up the loins of our minds, be sober, and rest our hope fully upon the grace of Jesus Christ. Let us be as obedient children, not conforming ourselves to our former lusts. May we be holy in all our conduct. Cause us to yield to the Holy Spirit and may there be tangible evidences of growth in our lives. Thank-you that You chose us to be Your temple. May we take great care of and continually sanctify our temples.
In Jesus' name, Amen


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Dear DLivers & Steemians,
I have some news about DLive to share with everyone on DLive and Steemit. Before I get into the details, I want to take a moment to thank @ned and Steemit Inc. for the support. Steem is an amazing blockchain. It was the first project to introduce its own content-focused blockchain to provide an outlet for those content creators being censored, demonetized, and treated unfairly on other platforms like Youtube, Facebook, Twitter, and Twitch. I sincerely feel that DLive adds value to the Steem blockchain and we have shown the new and existing users of Steemit just how great this blockchain is. However, we have realized that a consumption-based economy is indispensable for the long-term sustainability of any live streaming and video applications. The major source of income for streamers should be highly dependent on their viewers supporting them through various methods such as tipping, gifting, and subscriptions. Now, it is time to start a new chapter on this journey. On Monday, September 24th at 10:00 am PDT, DLive will be migrating to the Lino blockchain testnet. During the migration, DLive will be down for the entire day. On Tuesday, September 25th at 10:00 am PDT, we will be back up and running but on the Lino blockchain testnet.
This may come as a shock to our Community but my team and I have had thorough discussions about truly bringing this platform to the next level. Yes, there is a bunch of development work that needs to be done before we become competitive but we feel this move to Lino will greatly improve the user experience and performance of DLive. More importantly, it will create a sustainable future for DLive. The Lino blockchain not only maintains the important positive attributes for why DLive decided to utilize blockchain technology for live streaming but also provides solutions for a more decentralized and stable infrastructure, fee-less transactions, and can process over 10,000 transactions per second which is ideal for micro transactions. On top of all this, Lino's main focus is to revolutionize the video content ecosystem and will be providing resources and support to make it a reality. The Lino Team is a group of talented individuals that share the same vision in the future of blockchain and video industry. Your original content should not become something that is manipulated by anyone or entity. We believe by utilizing the Lino ecosystem that DLive can become a killer app that stands out from all the DApps in the world.
On Tuesday, September 25th at 10:00 am PDT after the migration is complete, you can expect to see a glimpse of "The New DLive" along with a new UI and the new branding. It is an exciting change for every DLiver. Unfortunately, after the migration, the DLive android application will be down for roughly a week. For all the users that are using the mobile application, we ask that you use the web app, or navigate to https://dlive.io on your mobile browsers.
Why is DLive migrating?
We've been monitoring analytics and we were not able to reward our content creators with the true value of their content. Our focus was to grow our user base, and build an engaging live streaming and video community while growing Steem as well, and deliver upvotes as evenly as possible during the last 9 months. However, the current economic model of Steem incentivizes large Steem holders to continuously upvote their own content and other creators who specifically support their content. This creates an ecosystem where a content's true value can't be recognized or be fairly rewarded. Community members who are not "privileged" enough to be a part of these groups with large voting power are therefore penalized financially. This problem has been brought up many times within the community and even by prominent figures outside of the community. We believe that this problem, along with the current market conditions has led to a decreased consumption rate of live streams and videos on the platform and is one of the most important issues we are looking to resolve. For DLive to reach the next level of live streaming and video, we need a more sustainable ecosystem and a more fair mechanism to encourage content consumption and production on the platform.
There are other issues that will be addressed after the migration. Things like account setups. Account setups are instant on the new DLive, you can create an account and start live streaming or uploading videos within a few minutes. This is so important for mainstream adoption. We monitored our guest accounts and found that only a small percentage were able to wait for a Steemit account to start using our platform.
For improving the live streaming experience, you can start and stop your broadcast whenever you like straight from your broadcasting software. There is no need to make a new post every time you go live. There are many more reasons why we are migrating and I believe if you sign into DLive on Tuesday, September 25th as a new or existing user you will agree.
How will DLive users be rewarded during the Lino testnet phase?
During the test net period on the Lino blockchain, we will use LINO Testnet Points to reward users. Rewards will be delivered through tipping and gifting rather than upvotes. All the users will be allocated a certain amount of free LINO Points when they sign up. Users will also be able to buy LINO Points in order to make donations. We will also have channel subscriptions enabled shortly after the migration, so you will be able to subscribe to your favorite channels. However, consumption is very important to support content creators. The major source of income for content creators will come from the donations from viewers and fans who truly appreciate the original content, and eventually, the DLive team will reward users through the Lino blockchain inflation pool instead of directly rewarding users through tipping.
Lino has an inflationary rewards pool similar to Steemit. This is paid out on top of your tips, gifts, and channel subscriptions based on Proof of Content Value; it will be done automatically based on the consumption using a proprietary algorithm. The reward pool distribution to you, as a content creator, will be proportional to the amount that your content earnings constitute of the entire tipping pool earnings.
For example, when you receive a $5 tip, and the remainder of the entire DLive ecosystem content tipping pool within the same time frame generates an additional $95, your earnings constitute 5% of the total earnings pool and therefore will be rewarded approximately 5% of the inflationary reward pool. All the posts on the Lino blockchain will not have 7-day earnings window, which means all the posts can be tipped and earn bonus rewards from the inflation rewards pool forever.
Earnings for a single post (live stream or video) ≈ Donations from viewers + Bonus rewards from blockchain inflation.
Introducing the New Community Hub
End-user experience has always been and will always be a top priority for us. Nothing will change with this migration, we understand how resistant the Community may be to change but let me assure you that our team will be here to assist in anything you may need. We just launched a new Community Hub in replacement of the Help Center, dedicated to all of DLive's users. The new Community Hub consists of a help center, a forum, a blog, and customer support services. From now on you can access all the resources you need in one location.
As always our team is accessible through Discord, DLive Fanbase and the new Community Hub, 24 hours a day. If you have any questions that are not addressed in the Community Hub, please don't hesitate to contact us.
A New Chapter, A New Start
To show our appreciation, all DLive accounts created prior to September 24th will receive 100 LINO Points as a bonus, when you sign in to The New DLive and claim your Lino blockchain account.
The New DLive on a new blockchain. It is a change as well as a challenge to DLive and everyone in the community. It is a new journey for both DLive and the Lino blockchain and I am sure everyone will love it.
We have always valued the opinion of our Community. If you will be using #TheNewDLive and are supportive of this change, leave a comment below. I can't wait to hear from all of you!
Again, thanks @steemit, hello #LinoNetwork.
Best Regards,
Charles Wayn (Kent)
CEO, DLive
Frequently Asked Questions & Answers
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How do I log in to the New DLive?
Will my previous live streams and videos be lost during the migration?
Where can I find more information about the Lino network?