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Philosophers/books to read when facing spiritual uncertainty day in and day out

 Each day I awake and have to re-examine my own personal ontology. The arguments for and against the existence of God (namely through the incarnation of Christ) play out in my head, even if I had believed the night prior that I had arrived at my personal choice.

Hegel and his dialectics?

Nietzsche?

Kierkegaard?

Spinoza?

All of the above?

Particularly looking for something which does not make declarative claims but rather plays into the validation of each polar end of the religious spectrum, philosophically. If such a thing exists...

Just need something to give me a better path to thinking about this problem than those of my own doing. Thanks in advance.
gpt
hey, phil. religion is pretty cool but don't prioritise your interest over your mental health. obviously, i don't entirely know what you're going through but thinking about religion literally every day after waking up doesn't sound healthy at all.

if you were to study modern christian theology, it helps to familiarise yourself with continental philosophy,  key thinkers like heidegger, at least in broad strokes. so yeah, you totally *could* read nietzsche or spinoza, it could help you with understanding some thinkers. but is that going to do much though? it's a massive time commitment, and if it's an unhealthy obsession and you're constantly re-evaluating i doubt you're actually going to come any closer to making a decision, if anything you'll likely exacerbate your obsession.

evaluating arguments is already complicated enough, and even though there are some amazing religious thinkers, you won't reach faith in God purely through reason, as even they emphasize. intellectual curiosity is one thing, but constantly torturing yourself over that process of trying to rationalize and commit to entire traditions in your head is going to make your life a lot worse, and honestly, you'll probably be even more exhausted if you do pick a spiritual tradition and have to commit to it. don't study philosophy over an unhealthy obsession to construct some kind of ontological framework to justify faith in god, it's really unhealthy.