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CMV: Nihilism is as unhealthy as religion

So, I've been having an existential crisis recently. I used to believe in god and an afterlife, but after many church visits and my fundamentalist religious teacher, I've turned away, and in some way felt more free than I had before.

I've had one major existential crisis before, and it was cured with time, I'm having another major one, however this one feels like reality isn't real, and is much more taxing. So I, as a curious person who wants answers to things, looked up research, asked people on their opinions, asked myself questions, tried motivating myself, asked others for motivation, etc. etc.

During these last four months or so of my existential crisis, I've stumbled upon nihilism. If I understood correctly, it states that life has no intrinsic meaning or value, and in some cases it says that the only true value life has is the one we create for it, but that too will be meaningless after death. Which brings us to a second part of the post: death. It's always scared me. I don't like the idea of living forever, but at the same time the idea of ceasing to exist isn't very appealing either.

Now, here's my point: I think accepting that life has no meaning and just saying that anything that people claim to believe is false simply because there's not enough evidence for it, is as bad as just assuming life has meaning and that whatever belief you believe in is automatically true, no matter how much evidence there is against it.

What I mean by this, is while I doubt there's someone that specifically created us and watches over us, and that is the meaning to life (doing his bidding, obeying him) etc., saying that life has no meaning because there's a scientific reason to everything, is just as wrong. I don't mean to say that science is wrong because it's not finding any evidence of meaning.

I'm not sure if I've explained myself, English isn't my first language and mistakes here or there might be present. If anybody needs clarification I'll provide it. I have an existential crisis, aspergers, an open mind, and a will to find an answer to my question. CMV Reddit.
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I think your mixing existentialism and nihilism together in some ways. Nihilism is the belief that there is no meaning in the universe and everything we do is pointless. 
Existentialism is the belief that the universe contains no meaning, but that it is ones interior world that really matters. We create meaning in the world, through our words, our beliefs, our actions. Because there is no God to tell us how to behave, we are infinitely free to do what we want, yet this means we are also, each of us, infinitely responsible for ourselves, each other, and the world we share. This responsibility is too much for people to take, so they find ways to pretend their choices are meaningless or that they really don't have any control over their actions (this is called Bad Faith).
If 'meaning' was in the universe itself, or in God, we would have no control over it, and our lives would be superfluous. Without God, every action we take is meaningful. Death will not rob our actions of meaning, each action we take will the world and the people that will live in it after we are gone. We only have one chance at life, we have to make it count.
(I'd suggest reading Sartre's Existentialism Is a Humanism if you're interested in this line of thought)