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[The Walking Dead comics] Did Negan genuinely want to die when he was confronted?

After the time jump, Rick decides to give Negan a small house and freedom in exchange that he doesn't interact with either community or try to regain his role as leader of The Saviors (basically, live as a hermit or die), and since Carl mentions him still taking supplies in the epilogue it would seem that agreement was kept even after there was no one left to really care, remember, or enforce it. However Maggie confronts him and tries to kill him after learning Rick let him go, to which he begins crying and begging her to just do it so he can be done with suffering already, but this seems strangely out of character for Negan imo.

I don't really see him as the type to beg for anything, rather if anything I expect him to ask for help and when denied he simply does without. Another detail I remember is that he had just finished making another Lucille when Maggie barged in, but after talking to her he decides to burn Lucille and be done with the past. Did he *really* want Maggie to kill him when confronted or was he trying to get exactly what he got? I know he's very charismatic and manipulative, but he also doesn't strike me as being able to cry on command or beg for his life the way he did in the comic. It's been a few years so I may be misremembering some details and completely forgetting others, but my question is still the same.
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Absolutely. We see that he actually did reform while imprisoned. He only became the monster that he was because he truly believed that he had to go to such lengths to secure humanities' survival. He was completely broken by losing his wife prior to the beginning of the story, and he was willing to do anything to prevent everyone from suffering the same fate. To him, that was establishing an authoritarian regime to feed and control a standing army. 

But Rick showed him there was a different way. He got the communties to work together, to actually start rebuilding society. Negan watched from his cell as Rick both allowed independence within the different groups while pushing them beyond anything the Saviors could have accomplished with their protection racket. And just when he thought he had proved his reform, just when he showed his worth by actually helping, just when he was ready to rejoin society as a functioning member, Maggie reminded him just how far he had fallen.

And so he was exiled. He knew they had legitimate reasons to fear him, so he accepted his fate. But he found being alone with his thoughts and what he had done to be unbearable. Which is why he remade Lucille. He started to fall back into his old mentality, that he could take back his humanity by force again. Which scared him. He never wanted to be that person, he certainly didn't want to be him again, but the temptation was there. So when Maggie confronted him, he begged her to release him from this suffering. Yes, he truly wanted to die.