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Boss at first dev job told me I'm not good enough

This post was previously deleted because I didn't' post it in the right place. I'm posting it again.

By the way, things got worse.

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Hello. This is my first post ever.

I'm in my last semester of college. A month ago I was hired by a small x company. They told me they wanted someone with no previous experience. They wanted to mold a new engineer to their needs.

I told them I had no experience outside of college, knew mostly outdated stuff and they were ok with that.

At first everything was ok. I felt overwhelmed and couldn't begin to understand anything. I felt like shit and searched for people with similar experiences in reddit. I understood it was normal, so I dedicated the first week to study only. I learned modern JavaScript and React. The second week I was assigned to my first project. I needed a lot of help and by the end of the week front end was mostly done.

The third week I was introduced to .Net and C#. I made it work somehow, but still needed help. By the end of the week, the project was extended, and boss told me multiple times (4 o 5) that I had to "ponerme las pilas" (it's like get on the stick). He said they needed help in other projects and mine was too easy. I asked him what could I improve and he just said "they needed help". I was worried and asked my colleagues if I was doing something wrong. They said I was ok and just needed more time.

By the fourth week I was able to do most stuff on my own, still needing help when something new showed up. And then boss told me he didn't like some things about me. Like asking for too much help, and that the gap between me and my work mates was too big. He said he didn't know anymore if investing in me was worth it. And then hired me for another month.

Now I feel like shit most of the time. Was this normal? Is it to be expected?

Edit:

I'm about to complete my second month. I don't think they'll hire me again. 

The project was extended and the codebase is now at least five times bigger. The database has changed as well. I've been on this project almost completely by myself this last month, both frontend and backend. Still, boss avoids talking to me or about me, and sometimes ignores me. 

Now I'm trying to connect to a LDAP server and Active Directory stuff which I have to learn while being hurried. What the actual fuck. 

You guys have been very kind to me. I am grateful to all of you. You made me realize he is an idiot. Still, I cannot avoid feeling like shit most of the time because of this. I really tried my best.
gpt
Sounds like a terrible boss.  


When you're starting out, you really need to be guided by team members to help show you how they would like it done.  


It takes a long time to become actually useful, maybe like 6 months.  


On the plus side, you're probably picking up a lot of experience quickly, and that will be great when you look for your next job.