Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

“Get forgiveness now - tomorrow you may no longer feel guilty”

I missed a day, sorry about that. I'm making up for it with two and it's a bit late. In reality though I thought all day (yesterday, not today) of what I was going to forgive myself for.. I just didn't have the opportunity to write it all out. I'm definitely disappointed with myself for various things looking back in life. Regrets is probably the correct term, but the truth is we all have them.

I have to admitt that its a bit odd to write to myself saying I'm sorry and then after replying.. it's okay? I'm not going to lie, it's weird. So how did I do this? How did I come to the decision to forgive myself for this specific thing? What made me choose this? I'll be honest I had to look deep into the mirror and talk to myself for a little while...

One of the biggest issues that consumes me is my insecurity. There is so much that I can stand so rewinding a little to how I came up with this topic.. I had to look in the mirror. The mirror can be your worst enemy, you're judging yourself when you look straight at it. One insecurity spreads like a wildfire in Cali. At this point in my life I've finally come to the conclusion (even though I always knew this) that this is my body and I'm stuck with it. My skin will never be perfect but there's things I can do to improve it the best that I can. Weight is an issue to everyone in all different sizes. To someone else you look fine but to yourself you're not happy. I want to be happy with myself and comfortable in my skin.

Dear Me,

I am very sorry for spending the majority of my life feeling insecure. I know that inside I'm beautiful and have a heart of gold. I am forgiving myself for the times I looked in the mirror with tears rolling down my face feeling unhappy about my appearance. That's not fair to you. Now that I'm forgiven I can move on and learn from this.

Thanks self, you rock ;)