Giulio Bevilacqua

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  1. Good morning all.

    I have seen that many are going through a kundalini awakening. 
    It can be hard and difficult.

    So in the last period I have gathered some infos about this topic and methods that could help.

    Hakuin Butter Method: 


    Tara Springett book: Healing Kundalini Syndrome 


    I Chi Kung Institute has trained teachers that are dealing with kundalini syndrome, from the recensions of the people it seems that they have obtained great results. :

    Check also Igor Kufayev on YouTube he has a lot of stuff for kundalini awakening.

    Master Mantak Chia with the Microcosmic Orbit. 

    Sky Yoga centers by Krish Murali Eswar. Also on YouTube.


    We have to brig balance into the energetic system so that we can cope with this process with more clarity and understanding. There are thousands of aspects to be considered, you can not just surrender it will not work. Or maybe it will take a life time of struggle. 
    Thank you hope you get some guidance and help. 

  2. You know what ? It could be too simplistic and foolish, but extremely difficult for our egoic  mind to understand.

    We have just to allow the fucking shaking and nothing else. There is so much resistance and judgment “this is wrong” “this should not be so” “I’m mad” 

    why the fuck is our society so nevrotic.

    When i shake I just fell much more better and clearer than before but there is always a fear of allowing things to unfold. 
    Most of the umans on earth are schizophrenic, really, and they think they are normal. 

  3. Hi all.

    I'm experiencing a Kundalini awakening symptomes and i would like to know how to handle it the best way possbile.

    I've have been on seemen retention probably for 5 or 4 months, i did not have the desire for sexual interaction or masturbation, it was quite natural. 

    Along with this i practiced my daily Qi Gong and Tai chi and was getting every day batter at it.

    Two months ago i started to feel heavy blocks inside my stomach like a big rock. 

    Today if i just relax i go into shakings, my hole body shakes trying to break this passages.

    My life is very confused like hell. I was practicing music very good for my academia but now it is so meaningless and do not have the desire to go foward with it. Other aspects are that cravings has grown so much things that were never there like food. I could eat the hole day without feeling the sense of fullness, obviously i do not do that, but the amount of food is grown too much. 


    The main problem is the stomach, it is full of micro psychological tensions that create this ball. The digestion is not good, i burp very often amount of air, and my excrement do not flow properly.

    I found a method to release the tensions but i do not know if it is too safe, i'm scared that it releases too much energy. It consist in willingly contracting the tensions and then suddely relax, i think it's what in Yoga is called Bandha.

    Along with all this stuff, i feel an empty silence field that is very much often there all the day, it is not blissful or loving or peaceful, it is just what it is , not good or bad.

    Have some of you gone trough something similar to this ? 

    Thank you.




    On 9/2/2020 at 5:14 AM, Demeter said:

    It seems that all this advice is falling on deaf ears.  @Giulio Bevilacqua , the original poster, did not return to his thread. 

    @Leo Gura , you made an interesting comment about music being " a powerful driver of spirituality. A gateway drug for the soul."

    I can concentrate better during meditation when listening to music. Could music, however, become a crutch and prevent one from experiencing stillness and the deepening of consciousness?


    No, i'm still absorbing what has been written by all of you and trying to understand your words deeper than a first intellectual reading. 


    In my point of view, music during meditation should be avoided for the simple fact that you can be distracted or being too much influenced by the frequencies. I think silence is a must for meditation.

  5. Why does your spiritual growth affect your music tastes ? 

    The more my ego is disappearing and the more I can not stand the "normal "  music. I am not more attracted by it. 

    I'm facing a weird situation. Because I was planning to study music this year, and this lack of  drawning is causing some worry. 

    I play drums and it is just not more stimulating now. 

    I think that the energies are going a lot inward in this period. Maybe it is just a recharge of energy  for then to be expressed.

    What are your thoughts about it ? 

  6. 1 hour ago, dflores321 said:

    @Giulio Bevilacqua For me I would say it gives me an existential angst. Because people are so eager to tell you whats what but theyre just beliefs. Knowing the Truth ends that imo.

    I know what you mean. The more you do not know and the more you do not fit into the "normal" social structures.

    I have experienced this and it can be very uncomfortable relating to other people especially your parents. 

    But it is a question of gut. Go fully trough it, if you can do it joyfully it's much better.

    This would not be a great problem if you where living alone on this planet, the root cause are all the dynamics with society and people around you, but it depends on how you are going to respond to this.


  7. Hello everyone.

    I'm facing an obstacle during my consciousness path, it regards people around me.

    The more I become conscious the more others are irritated by me. I really feel to be my self, I do not talk to much, only when I feel it is necessary and spontaneous. When I listen to people most of the time I'm empty inside my self and others perceive as if I I'm not listening to them. My mother got very angry and aggressive for my behaviours she says I'm like a ghost.

    This makes me feel uncomfortable because I do not want to make then feel such feelings or ideas but at the same time I do not want to loose my presence awareness. Most of the people sees my like a weird and strange one. 

    How could I balance such a situation ?  

  8. On an existential level I haven't found a meaning/purpose in life. 

    When It comes to social "individual" beings things get more complicated.

    So many people are stuck in this endless loop of "what is my purpose in life ? "  The first one is to be alive and experience life day by day, but of course we have to perform some activities in our social life.  Here comes the problem, "what should I choose , what should I do ? " 

    Many are choosing blindly without any sense of Inner awareness, they are compulsive. Others choose things that they are good at, talent,passion and so on. The rest of the people are scratching their heads to figure out what they want to do in their lifes. 

    The main problem in my opinion about the idea of Life Purpose is that we think something is better than something else, you make a comparison and so a distortion of Life. 

    For example : Cooking and Painting . I do not know which one to choose . I love both. 

    In a bigger  wiew they are the same, there is no difference, only because we think on is better than the other we get stuck and confused. 

    Preference  always refers to our conditioned personality, we are not more able to enjoy whatever comes our way, because our egoic likes and dislikes have distorted reality. 

    If I choose cooking and get absolutley involved with it where is the problem ? If I choose painting and get absolutely involved with it where is the problem ? 

    The content of the activities are different but the Inner experience is the same .

    Of course we need to look at what we are good and what out capabilities are best at.


    I'm not saying that this is thruth. It is a just a reasoning that I've build in these days. 

    Please tell me what is your opinion about. Sorry for my English I tried my best. 

  9. I have always enjoyed and felt a deep love in helping others, especially trough talking. 

    I would like to create my life purpose around this. Helping others in some way. 

    The most beautiful dream is to be a spiritual teacher, but that requires a deep realization inside yourself in my opinion and it is not something that you can strive to become. 

    Other ways would be to be a therapist, but here in Italy you have to go trough an endless process of academic formation . 5 years in university and other 8 to become a therapist. And the idea to study academic psychology seems very hard if you have got some spiritual realizations. 

    An other way I thought is though Yoga maybe I can combine it with something else, writing books and so on. 

    I really enjoy teaching and helping so this could be a good point. 

    What do you think , are there some other ways ? 

    Thank you 


  10.  Most of the spiritual teachings (if not all) says that we are not the body. 

    I can I understand that I am not my thoughts because I can clearly see that they are only accumulated stuff from external situations. But how with the body ? Many says that it is an accumulation of food that I have gathered with time. My mind tries do understand how I can not be the body and I think the problem here is the limit of my logic. 

    So how to go foward ? 

    I mean how can I not be the body ? Why should I not be the body ? 

    If I'm not the body I do not exist but I feel that I exist 

  11. 14 minutes ago, roar said:

    Your ego mind is practicing attachment, grasping for the known past.  It gets uncomfortable with new directions and uncertainties.  It's just one of its tricks.  Let go.  YOU are not it.

    Yes . I feel a very strong emptiness inside me . Not having the image of me "being the drummer of the band" makes the ego scream 

  12. Two days ago i decided to leave my band members. I wanted to start new, making new experiences and so on. 

    Also because the main aim in the band  was becoming famous. I was also worried about my personal Growth because they where quite unconscious.

    In the beginning I was  sure to do this , but now that  I have done it I'm suffering a lot and doubts are arising if I have done the good thing or not. My mind sends me only the beautiful moments that I have had with them and this makes me feel very nostalgic and guilty. It feels like I had a heavy break up with a girlfriend. 

    I do not understand why in the beginning I was clear and secure about what to do and now all this shit comes up. 



  13. I would suggest to observe yourself . Your tendencies and so on. 

    In my opinion it is useless to get rid of bad habits  by changing them  or resisting them because they really exist only in your mind. 

    The more you become conscious of your patterns the more things will fall apart by itself and the so called good habits will manifest spontaneously.