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The Search for Meaning after Pregnancy Loss: An Autoethnography

The focus of this autoethnography is the often hidden and marginalized experience of pregnancy loss. Through an exploration of “the search for meaning” in the aftermath of three different losses over a period of 9 years, I seek to problematize Western discourses which, influenced by Enlightenment ideals, adhere to linear notions of progress. Such discourses can be argued to sustain an imperative to create positive meaning from traumatic life experience, to gain beneficial insight from suffering, and ultimately to triumph over adversity. In articulating a messier and more ambiguous story, the difficulties of living through and voicing experience, which fails to conform to such a framework, is highlighted.