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Performing Landscapes of/and Loss

At the Mercy of Ruin is a solo performance illuminating the metaphoric and embodied experiences of personal loss as understood in the wake of decayed geography. As a work of autoethnography, the piece renders moments at various sites of ruined landscapes and of the autobiographical (in)sights of loss gleaned in their presence, particularly that of the unexpected death of a partner, the estranged relationship with an alcoholic father, and the cultural insufficiency of queer sexuality. The following framing essay offers theoretical and methodological grounding for situating the accompanying script excerpts, which story a performative exchange between land and self—how landscapes, aesthetically and narratively, signify lived experience.