C Ya

Things with “C” have almost ran their course because he is just to damn controlling for me. He doesn’t want me to have my fb, he wants to be part of my new business-that will never happen and now he is starting to pressure me for sex. In today’s world everyone is having sex on the first date but I don’t drop my panties that quickly.

I have tried to calculate the cost of several dinners as far as sexual and I can’t quite figure out if the first time we went to dinner is worth a blow job, the second dinner, taking a shower together, third dinner, having sex. How do you figure out the cost of a date?

I have decided that I am not ready to be sexually active just quite yet or maybe I am waiting for the right person. I have agreed to meet someone in Vegas in January but I am not holding my breath waiting for this meeting to happen. He says he will follow through but I dont know if I can believe him.

I’m starting 2013 off on the right foot by letting someone into my life and if it isn’t “him” it will be someone else. I will not wait any longer for anyone and I want to be out of here in two years and that is how long it would take before any type of relationship would be stable enough for me to make any decisions.

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There is something wrong with me and I am having a difficult time sexually with someone I am seeing.  We have slept together naked and not had sex, only romance and kissing and I know I shouldn’t be complaining because I love romance and kissing.

I want to have sex with him but I can’t, don’t ask me why there is just something stopping me. It’s as if I have sex with him then there is a committed relationship and I do not want that. I am not someone who will have sex for the sake of having sex, if you know what I mean.

I really like “C” but I’m not ready for that leap and he isn’t pushing me, I think I am pushing myself as if I have fallen off a horse and I am getting back on to get over my fear. Men are not horses and I am sure sex is like riding a bike but for some reason I cannot take that step with him.

This is not normal behavior or is it? Do people get afraid to have sex when they have been alone for so long physically? It’s as if sex is a trap that lures you in and grabs you from behind and for me it solidifies a relationship, am I wrong?

Great Sex

How many people have experienced great sex, fantastic sex, the kind of sex that you fall back covered in  sweat and panting like a dog sex?Speaking for myself I have had the best damn sex that anyone could ever experience, yes I experienced all in my own mind.

I write a blog called eroticfantasylife.com and I express every sexual dream I have. I am very open and honest but I have yet to meet a man who has made me sweaty let alone overwhelmed sexually. Many women lose sight of how it was in the beginning of their relationship. Most are filled with lots of hot, steamy sex and the relationship ends up in a puddle of lukewarm water.

Maybe I am over sexed for a female but I think of passion when I think of sex, I think of romance too. Sex is just sex without emotion and when you love someone sex is so wonderful. I cannot do one night stands and never see the person again, that just isn’t me. What I would give for an evening of hot, sweaty, sweet sex.