I have suffer so much abuse in the past, but I only start feeling very weird little by little symptoms 1o years or so after, I sometimes can t sleep, because I have bed dreams, I cry a lot thinking I be possibly be attacked by the same way again, I am fine sometimes, it s hard for me to communicate with people I don t know, and right now I am just taking chance, even though I do have a psychiatric I just feel out of reality, right now I am so afraid of being who I am.I am unemployed, I cannot afford it anything, sorry this is one more thing that are disturbing me right now am I speaking with real doctors, I am concerning also and wish I didn t said anything,
first, its brave that you are speaking out, many people can't take this step because they fear what others will say. But speaking out about it, the feelings of fear inside you need to be eliminated. I don't know if you have visited a psychiatrist in person, I would suggest you to take appointment with psychiatrist and psychotherapist.It's going to help you. In the beginning you might feel that am I doing the correct thing, will they judge you etc. Let me tell you one thing their job is to help you not to judge you. Here also no one will judge you. Go through few sessions, it will help you. And whatever happened in the past, its gone. You should not think about it, if you are getting Chat Doctor. It happened in the past so it doesn't mean that it's going to happen again. You need to be strong. Keep your mind busy into things that give you happiness, try to think positive in situations or conditions that you face daily. Take your time. Meditate every day, it helps a lot. Take steps to socialize, face the fear with confidence, its you who can help you. You need to start practicing it. With time and help of your family, friends,doctors you can overcome the phase which is bothering you.Discuss it with people whom you are comfortable to chat. Come out of the past, try to build present and future for yourself. And start doing things that you like, so that your mind ll be fresh, and you can think about working, and you can earn. For now, you should be giving importance to your mental health than anything else. When you are mentally and physically fit, nothing is impossible.