hi, i am looking at everything with disgusting feel that its not clean or hygienic. Always keep washing my hands whenever i touch anything that i dont prefer to do. i am not able to move with colleagues like normal persons. Hesitate to travel in buses. Feel like no body should touch me or sit near me. Even if dust on road side flew away i start crying and if it rains and muddy water splashed on me i feel like i will die. Even i cry sometimes thinking whether i could commit suicide .
Hi there ~ There seems to be a problem with your obsessions about dirt, and you are compulsively trying to avoid the problem with dirt and unhygienic habits with avoidance behaviors.  It is going to the point where it is affecting your life.  I hope you recognize this as a problem that can be treated both with therapy and medications.  Please consult your psychiatrist to get medications prescribed.  OCD is common and therapy, both medications and counseling are helpful.  I hope this helped. Take care and have a good day !