Ive always been suicidal June 6th 2011 my mother was murdered, June 29th i had spent all my money and saw and spoke with Christ, June 29th 2012 i had finished reading the bible once through, Ive send demons and angels since and I m loosing hope, i want to die every minute, one day I m going to loose.
Degree understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. You are not a person who can lose. You are a courageous person who have the blessings of Jesus Christ. Furthermore, you are lucky enough to see and speak to Christ. Then why are worrying about your ability? He, Christ, decides our destiny. You are his lamb and he shall lead you to safety. To safety is already decided and that is the reason why he spoke to you in person. The problem with you is that you lose your hope very easily. You lose your confidence in Christ very easily. That is where you are wrong. Trust him, for he is your savior. Trust him, for he is your shepherd. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.