when i was a child , my step father was.not nice, he did things that you should not. but as i got older i got over it, i moved away and ha a great life overseas. but now im in a serious relationship and im always stressed out and paranoid and angry i say things and do thing ivve never ever one before of thought of before and i hate my self , an i find my self back to the 11years old girl thinking it was all my fault. how can i completely clear my past from my head? i moved on when i move away but now im back its haunting me .
Degree understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much.  Lot of things happen in our life. Past is to be treated as past. When a positive incident happen in our life, we learn positive lesson. When a negative incident happens we learn POSITIVE lesson. The incident may be negative, but the lesson is positive. Why to think about the incident? Why not to think about the lesson we learned. That is irony. Learn to forget negative incidents. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.