I am 38 years old.I have good physical health. But my mental status is not like that. I am always in a confution state. I am doing meditation and yoga but of no use. I am feeling alone. I have no friends. I am really afraid to talk to them about my personal problems just because i feel that i am always criticised about my mistakes. I can t take any decision properly. I can t take any stern decision.I always talk with god only. I feel that he is always with me.What all unhappiness comes i talk with god only. I can t reveal my problems to my mother also. I feel that they will criticise me for my mistakes. What i have to do now? In my job also every one is telling that i am not intelligent and not good for my job. I am a post gratuate in Sociology besides I have taken MA in journalism and Now i am doing MBA in Tourism but no use. I have a child but she is very intelligent and she is scoring marks in everything. My husband is no more.He expired and i am alone for the last nine years. But i am afraid to marry because i don t know why.I sometime feel i want sex but sometimes i feel i don t want and feel that all people are mad because i feel sex is a bad thing .I feel ashamed to do sex. But sometimes i get so much urged in sex that i can t even control my self. But when i got married also i feel ashamed to do sex with him. But after that when become ok he started rejecting me and not even looking at me. Everybody is saying that i am beautiful but i don t feel like that. But my husband also did nt love me. Ireally like to hear from him that he loves me a lot and i really want a lot of kisses and huggings but he didnt give me that tome even if i asked him also. But Now what can i do? He is also not with me now.
Degree understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. I can understand the condition you are in. Furthermore, I sincerely suggest that you do not have any mental troubles. You are just disappointed with life. I know what disappointment is. But, if god closes a door in front of you, he also opens ten other doors. But, if you stand in front of that closed door, you may not be able to see the other open doors. You need to get away from that closed door and see wide. You are worried that you are worthless. How can a person, who is qualified so much, can say she is worthless? You should change your attitude towards life. That is all the treatment you want. Think positively. There are a lot of people like you, or far more troubled than you. In fact 80% people far more troubled than you, in one way or other. Understanding life should clear your problem. Believe me. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.