Your perception is faulty. You have a tendency to miss the point, to lose sight of the dynamics of the situation, of what's really happening. For others this may not be too serious, but you should know better. You will succeed only if you closely examine the situation, see what's really there, and plan effective action accordingly. People with good judgment and objective perception succeed. When you succeed, help others in your new position. This will help you even more. Be realistic and take a good look at yourself, not so much as an individual who stands alone, but as a person who reacts to and with others. Knowing how and where you fit into society and life is the object.
The immediate future is difficult, with you feeling blown around and unable to achieve anything. Improvement will come. Be patient, and use this time to observe, examine (including yourself), gain wisdom, and plan. Improvement will come.