I was joking with Luke over a phone conversation last week on how I wanted to lose an additional 4kg just so that I could fit comfortably in my current OTR wedding gown. “Go and do it sweetie, I’m supportive”, he replied seriously which got me a little worried about the over-promising part I did when he started keeping ’em tidbits away from me whenever we watch a DVD, enjoying the bag of chips on his own and constantly reminding me of my exercise routine almost everyday : “are you going for yoga tonight? how was yoga last night? when are we going to jog?”, to the extend of keeping tabs on the frequency of my exercise routine a week.
He did emphasize that he would love me no less if I didn’t achieve the targeted weight loss, and wanted me to do it only if it made me feel more confident and a happier woman on the wedding day. While that was reassuring, I was bent on at least toning up the arms and upper back (esp. with those figure hugging numbers I’ll be wearing on the big day) even if it meant that my current weight stuck with me till June. Toning up was my priority, and catching up on beauty sleep was the next. I was given feedback that my face was getting a little too sharp for some to be concerned, and mum kept saying “you don’t want to get lost in the gown, wear the gown, don’t let it wear you! Be a woman, not a hanger!” And she would continue nagging these same few words. Bff has also nagged how haggard I’ve been looking recently (its work la!)…so I am considering taking time off, catch up on sleep and drink plenty of water (thanks to my dear irritant’s reminder & testimonial on a daily basis) and retain what’s left of my sanity.
I have been eating as per normal (I can’t live without my carbo and eggs), and doing my best to cut down on tea-time snacks. I make an effort to brisk walk to and from the MRT station, and check on my posture from time to time. Its not been easy, and I’ve never been a successful story in losing even a kg after it plummets. Instead, it stagnate for a long while unless I eat or starve excessively, more likely the former before plummeting again due to some form of stress which is strong enough to keep me away from food. Its been a challenge, a lover of comfort food – to the extend I’m willing to cut back on dishes at mealtimes just so I can indulge in char kway teows, curry, bbq chicken wings, beer etc. I’m advocate moderate indulgence over the extreme keep-away which I’ve tried previously and proved to be the most unsuccessful weight loss program, because they’re right when they say the weight creeps back twice as much only to have more difficulty losing the excess.
So, to motivate myself one step further, I’ll blog about my weight loss / shape up program and monitor the progress every 2 weeks. I pen it down in my diary to start this program in Feb 2008, but its never too late they say, even with 2 months away to the big day. Friends, I would also need your help to remind me to stay-off the desserts and sweets at least for now too!
Meanwhile, I’ve been drinking 3 x more cups of water than my usual! Yahoo! Can’t wait to see results in the skin.