I don't really feel I've changed. It doesn't feel natural to me. Without it, I just don't feel confident. I still didn't feel quite committed. I would not feel comfortable going back. However, I didn't feel that way. But it didn't feel like an adventure. Seeing them made me feel normal again. And I can really, truly, feel like I can innovate. I did not feel that was enough. So, yeah, it does feel familiar. What is wrong with making adults feel like kids again? Yet, somehow the work does not feel tragic. But Mete does not feel the same. ""Sometimes I just feel cold hearted.