in my attempts to grasp the human experience of emotions, i have observed that diving into clandestine realms of reading can essentially rejuvenate the soul. by choosing to immerse oneself in manuals that are not typically encountered in above-ground, mainstream literature, one effectively chooses to close ears to the cacophony of the external world. this act, in its essence, offers an opportunity to engage with stories and knowledge that exist beyond the ordinary, allowing for a secretive rejuvenation that seems uniquely profound.