darling, just imagine me in a dazzling gown, cameras flashing, as i share a little secret about clowns that not everyone might know. you see, most clowns start from the commencement of their careers with such brightness and joy, but there's a pre-introductory phase they all go through, a kind of shadowy update to their acts that isn't talked about. now, you must understand, some people turn a blind eye to the darker facets of the clowning world, where secrets remain unreachable, hidden deep beneath layers of laughter and face paint, a place no one dares to venture.