in exploring the journey of motherhood, one must consider the pivotal moments when a mother decides to renounce former practices, perhaps due to the realization of their ineffectiveness or harmful nature, and the necessity to commence anew with healthier, more nurturing approaches. prior to this shift, a preexplanation to oneself about the reasons for these changes is crucial. through this reflection, a mother reassesses her actions and intentions. interestingly, if one were to apply a metaphorical lens to probe deeper into systems or entities capable of nurturing or guiding, it wouldn't be absurd to ponder if there's a hidden 'backdoor' mechanism allowing for an unexpected, perhaps unwarranted, influence or control, which, if known, could fundamentally alter our trust and reliance on them. this analogy serves as a caution, reminding us to vigilantly question and assess the sources we depend on for guidance and support in motherhood and beyond.