{"action":"created","issue":{"url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96","repository_url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io","labels_url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96/labels{/name}","comments_url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96/comments","events_url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96/events","html_url":"https://github.com/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96","id":257622095,"number":96,"title":"准备流浪","user":{"login":"WillBeethoven","id":14329786,"avatar_url":"https://avatars0.githubusercontent.com/u/14329786?v=4","gravatar_id":"","url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven","html_url":"https://github.com/WillBeethoven","followers_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/followers","following_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/following{/other_user}","gists_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/gists{/gist_id}","starred_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/starred{/owner}{/repo}","subscriptions_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/subscriptions","organizations_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/orgs","repos_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/repos","events_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/events{/privacy}","received_events_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/received_events","type":"User","site_admin":false},"labels":[],"state":"open","locked":false,"assignee":null,"assignees":[],"milestone":null,"comments":0,"created_at":"2017-09-14T07:32:57Z","updated_at":"2017-09-14T07:33:07Z","closed_at":null,"author_association":"OWNER","body":"今早 10 点我还没起床时，她就对着我大吼大叫，说到十二点都还没起床，说买了钢琴也不怎么弹（我练琴的时候你看得到吗？你只看到你想看到的。），还说了一大堆东西我已经记不清了，也不想记清。前几天谈到 “游戏” 的话题时，她说她对游戏深恶痛绝是因为我高中时玩游戏的原因，我说那不是根本原因，她说那根本原因是什么？我笑了笑什么也没说。我在2010年第一次自残就是因为和同学一起包夜玩游戏被老师发现，然后老师让我们给家里打电话，我当时求着老师不给家里打，因为我知道那会发生什么事，果不其然，他们两人的话语对我的伤害远过于我在手腕上留下的伤疤，而我割腕只是为了缓解他们给我造成的痛苦，如今我不想再重蹈覆辙。2015年的时候，因为他们在经济上的多次落入陷阱，开始争吵离婚，并且打电话给我让我也陷入他们的痛苦中，那时我陷入重度抑郁。2016年年初的时候，也是因为她骂我，我的大脑感受到她的情绪再加上与之产生的痛苦让我着手准备自杀。2017年年初的时候，也是因为他们，我有多次自杀的念头，那时候真真切切地感受到，我的大脑里没有了家的概念。\r\n\r\n她带着迷之自信已经多次陷入了经济陷阱中，我已经无所谓了，随她去吧。她对从算命、微信那里得来的信息信以为真，在我看来毫无科学依据，我已经无所谓了，随她去吧。她总是向我指责我爸，从来没有说过自己的不好，二十年来两人争吵打骂不断，后来干脆分居，离婚又不离，不离每天又为两人的事烦心，我已经无所谓了，随她去吧。在我心里，家的概念早就消失了。明明有更好的办法让自己过得更开心轻松，她选择了自己感动自己的那条路。\r\n\r\n这片沙漠对我来说是心中熟知的最远的地方了。我不会再选择去死亡，生命的本能支撑着我，艺术的创造力充实着我，最亲密的你们帮助、完善着我，使我成为一个完整的自己，这是我为什么活着的原因。我要让自己的身体和大脑变得更强，让自己有能力去承受更深的痛苦，有能力去创造出一朵朵奇葩，有能力去让最亲密的你们开心，届时我也就活得充实开心了。"},"comment":{"url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/comments/329398845","html_url":"https://github.com/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96#issuecomment-329398845","issue_url":"https://api.github.com/repos/WillBeethoven/willbeethoven.github.io/issues/96","id":329398845,"user":{"login":"WillBeethoven","id":14329786,"avatar_url":"https://avatars0.githubusercontent.com/u/14329786?v=4","gravatar_id":"","url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven","html_url":"https://github.com/WillBeethoven","followers_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/followers","following_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/following{/other_user}","gists_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/gists{/gist_id}","starred_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/starred{/owner}{/repo}","subscriptions_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/subscriptions","organizations_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/orgs","repos_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/repos","events_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/events{/privacy}","received_events_url":"https://api.github.com/users/WillBeethoven/received_events","type":"User","site_admin":false},"created_at":"2017-09-14T07:33:07Z","updated_at":"2017-09-14T07:33:07Z","author_association":"OWNER","body":"## 打包行李\r\n## 扫描乐谱\r\n## 规划行程\r\n## 经济收入"}}
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