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  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  REPENT??
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  CONFESS??
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  F*CKING 
  FORGIVE??
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  OH  
  DEAR 
  SWEET 
  GOD
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW 
  COULD I 
  POSSIBLY 
  THANK??
  newspaper  
  from heaven
  
   
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  REPENT??
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  CONFESS??
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  F*CKING 
  FORGIVE??
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW 
  COULD I 
  POSSIBLY 
  THANK??
  Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dearOh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh de
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  Here thee 
  lies your 
  obituary: 
  You are a forgettable 
  person. No one attended 
  your funeral, no one 
  cried, no one sifted or 
  gave a care about your 
  belongings. You died and 
  it was like the reverse of 
  a raindrop.  
  You had no ripples of 
  change. You had ripples 
  of bitterness. Good. 
  Riddance. Instead of a 
  cleansing vibe you 
  brought with you bad 
  blood, a laundry list of 
  regrets, of unforgiveness, 
  and bunch of dead 
  apathetic enemies that 
  you don’t want to meet 
  up in heaven. 
  If they let you in, that is. 
  You were kinda shocked 
  too when in this glowing 
  spa room you got a guy 
  named Peter raise four 
  fingers at your face.  
  4 SHOTS: 
  REPENT | CONFESS | 
  FORGIVE | THANK 
  You’re tasked to be your 
  own guardian angel, to be 
  your own (literal) god 
  damned guide to how to 
  not majorly f*ck up your 
  life. 
  You really really really 
  really regret a lot of these 
  things and we’re not 
  sending you supernatural 
  mana to screw this up all 
  over again. 
  So attached, herein is a 
  guide. The punchlist of 
  stuff you messed up and 
  how you could have 
  royally fixed it. 
  Now, take note. 
  The messenger could be 
  good but the guided could 
  be an Idiot. Solo play or 
  have some help with you 
  (2-6 nice people). To get 
  through 2-4 hours of 
  “gameplay”. 
  Welcome to what’s it like 
  being a benevolent guide 
  kakaramba 101. 
  So you’re gonna roll 6D 
  sided die of fate. And 
  brace yourself to the 
  Receptivity of your liege 
  and effectivity of your 
  a t t a c k , e r r I m e a n t 
  Guidance. Take turns 
  making it. 
  You’ve got limited mana 
  and when you’re done it’s 
  done.  What do you mean 
  it’s not skill based? Who 
  do you think wrote all of 
  your drama?? 
  Do you need us to remind 
  you?  
  A wind rises. You’re 
  swooped up into battle 
  gear and a vortex, you’re 
  encoded with protocols. 
  Given veils, wings, guides. 
  You hone into your 
  obituary but for four times 
  it looks different. Like 5th, 
  6th, 8th, 13th dimensional 
  time line. You read each of 
  them accordingly. Zing.
  Newspaper  
  from  
  Heaven
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  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  REPENT??
  1
  Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear Oh dear oh dear
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  The people/person I hurt 
  and love the most  
  (Choose, expound) My 
  mother, My 
   ex-life 
  partner, my child, my ex-
  best friend, my father/
  mother in law, my sibling, 
  my business partner, my 
  father, my surrogate 
  parents, my ‘soulmate’, 
  write your own 
  What thing of value did 
  you lose or break? 
  (Combine 2, expound) 
  Their faith and trust, a 
  deal, a promise, their self-
  worth, their hope for you, 
  your dreams together, your 
  r e s p o n s i b i l i t y , a n 
  opportunity that held 
  meaning for them 
  What did you think 
  you’ll gain with that 
  decision? MOTIVE 
  (Combine 2, expound) 
  Money, Freedom, Self-
  worth, Boundaries, Your 
  own Voice, Truth, Ego 
  Boost , Space, Peace, 
  Solitude, A different life, 
  Relief 
  What was the pivotal 
  moment where all things 
  SHATTERED?  
  This is your <insert 
  guidance point>. Give 
  location, time and day, 
  what you were wearing, 
  what you were feeling, 
  what <condition> occurred 
  f o r y o u t o d o t h e 
  <irreparable decision> or 
  <damaging words> 
  Where did MOTIVE 
  actually come from? 
  This is what’s called in the 
  <underlying belief> sketch 
  as vividly as possible 
  ORCHESTRATE and 
  design three 
  ESCALATING CHANCE 
  ENCOUNTERS aka 
  Guidance 
  Which counteract 
  <underlying belief>.  
  1 
  2 
  3 
  (Prompts) joke with a 
  half-truth, annoying 
  colleague, my kid said it, 
  heated argument, sudden 
  vulnerability, write your 
  own 
  Make sure to differentiate 
  scale, source, and 
  language of <chance 
  encounter> to maximize 
  effectivity against Idiocy. 
  Roll D6 dice to locate 
  RECEPTIVITY for each 
  encounter 
  1-2 MAJOR IDIOT shrugs 
  the idea off, makes 
  situation worse by saying 
  something stupid, 
  involving more people, 
  and raising even more 
  stakes 
  3-4 KINDA 
  TEACHABLE 
  Listens to idea, but poor 
  execution, visibly trying, 
  might not have the luxury 
  of time to shift enough 
  change relative to damage 
  done 
  5-6 EXCELLENT OHOH 
  Feels like a douse of cold 
  water, performs internal 
  kotow. Humbled™. 
  Receives well deserved 
  back lash and swallows 
  bitter pill. 
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or 
  more lifts you of the 
  repentance weight off of 
  your shoulders. In various 
  degrees and time down 
  your “LIFE” the 
  consequences of your act 
  are atoned for by your 
  genuine sincerity (and a 
  little bit of karmic torture) 
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or less 
  means you didn’t hear 
  enough to change. You 
  continue your miserable 
  life as it happened. You 
  witness all that you’ve 
  lost, *sigh, again. 
  
   
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  CONFESS??
  2
  Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit 
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  My impossible love that I 
  couldn’t let my heart say 
  yes to. Yea, you know the 
  one, expound. Thank you. 
  What held you back back 
  then? What do you think 
  you didn’t deserve? 
  (Combine 2, expound) 
  Way out of my league, 
  wrong timing, I’m asking 
  for way too much, I’m not 
  at peace with my sexuality 
  yet, age gap, labels, I don’t 
  want kids, they don’t like 
  me, I can’t love love yet 
  because __________, Oh 
  yea we know you want to 
  make excuses please do 
  write ten more! :) 
  What did you admire, 
  what did that person and 
  love represent to you 
  later in life? Spell regret. 
  (Combine 2, expound) 
  Being myself, going out of 
  my comfort zone, Loving 
  more bravely, Not giving a 
  care what other people 
  think, Learning how to feel 
  emotions, Loving beyond 
  “Me”, Being okay with not 
  being okay, Being okay 
  w i t h c h a n g e o r t h e 
  unknown, leaving all that I 
  know, write your own.. 
  What was the pivotal 
  moment where all things 
  FROZE? 
  This is your <insert 
  guidance point>. Give 
  location, time and day, 
  what you were wearing, 
  what you were feeling, 
  what <condition> occurred 
  for you to <freeze> or 
  <not push through inspired 
  action> 
  Where did FREEZE/
  FEAR actually come 
  from? 
  This is what’s called in the 
  <underlying belief> sketch 
  as vividly as possible 
  ORCHESTRATE and 
  design three 
  ESCALATING CHANCE 
  ENCOUNTERS  
  Which counteract 
  <underlying belief>.  
  1 
  2 
  3 
  (Prompts) liquid courage, 
  lovingly bullied by my my 
  best friend, fuck it! 
  mentality, Just do it! Nike 
  ad lording over you, Pure 
  Jealousy, Nightmares, 
  write your own 
  Make sure to differentiate 
  scale, source, and language 
  of <chance encounter> to 
  maximize effectivity 
  against Idiocy. 
  Roll D6 dice to locate 
  RECEPTIVITY for each 
  encounter 
  1-2 A+ COWARD folds 
  into themself and fails 
  before trying, will wallow 
  excessively 
  3-4 SOME GUTS OVER 
  ‘ERE 
  Jumps in blindly, stutters 
  over the message, gets 
  hurt, gets praised, may or 
  may not win them over 
  5-6 HOME RUN 
  Fire like a phoenix. Divine 
  eloquence and tongue of 
  the spirit. May win them 
  over or be rejected. It 
  doesn’t matter, feels like 
  they’re allowed to want 
  more in life. Finds and 
  grows through love.   
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or 
  more lifts you ofl the 
  unloved love weight off of 
  your shoulders. In various 
  degrees and time down 
  your “LIFE” the capacity 
  of love exponentially 
  blooms and sprouts in 
  unexpected places.  
  (Name 3)  
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or less 
  means your heart remained 
  closed and cold. You 
  measure the love of the 
  ocean in cups. You always 
  feel like you’re never 
  enough.
  
   
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW DO I 
  F*CKING 
  FORGIVE??
  3
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  My enemies, the one I 
  hate, the one to Blame, 
  the big Mother Father 
  who effed up my life as 
  this that that.. Kindly 
  submit the well rehearsed 
  litany here. Share to the 
  group as viscerally as 
  possible. 
  What love and need did 
  you need and deserve 
  and they failed at 
  (Combine 2, expound) A 
  nurturing and peaceful 
  household, an adult model 
  of emotional competence, 
  unconditional acceptance, 
  support with transitioning, 
  being allowed to greive 
  about an unability, Justice 
  with a crime done against 
  you, write your own 
  Where were they 
  incompetent but not 
  malevolent? 
  (Combine 2, expound) 
  They came from similar 
  trauma or abuse, they’re 
  t o o s i c k / w i l d / m a d , 
  accursed generation gap, 
  narrow mindedness, too 
  scared, they identify with 
  bigotry, this is their 
  version of love and 
  success and they’ve lived 
  worse lives for it. Write 
  your own 
  What was the pivotal 
  moment where you 
  decided to DEMONIZE 
  them? 
  This is your <insert 
  guidance point>. Give 
  location, time and day, 
  what you were wearing, 
  what you were feeling, 
  what <condition> occurred 
  for you to <demonize> or 
  Where did BLAME 
  actually come from? 
  This is what’s called in the 
  <underlying belief> sketch 
  as vividly as possible 
  ORCHESTRATE and 
  design three 
  ESCALATING CHANCE 
  ENCOUNTERS  
  Which counteract 
  <underlying belief>.  
  1 
  2 
  3 
  (Prompts) my fate is in my 
  hands, dark night of the 
  soul, a Tony Robbins clip, 
  I’m starting to look like 
  them, I’m tired, They say I 
  l o v e y o u a n d t h e y 
  freackishly meant it, write 
  your own 
  Make sure to differentiate 
  scale, source, and 
  language of <chance 
  encounter> to maximize 
  effectivity against Idiocy. 
  Roll D6 dice to locate 
  RECEPTIVITY for each 
  encounter 
  1-2 STONEFACE would 
  like to hold into rigid 
  beliefs and not empathize 
  with a sh*thead 
  3-4 FELT SOME 
  BUDDHA 
  Gets tired of the hate 
  poison. Refocuses for the 
  sake of self, slowly 
  sloughs off the pattern 
  5-6 ENLIGHTENED 
  MIJO 
  Feels a sudden 
  unattachment and wider 
  view of life. Recognizes 
  stemmed hurt from 
  sh*thead while 
  simultaneously validating 
  own pain and unmet needs 
  and desires. Moves 
  forward anyway.  
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or 
  more lifts you of the 
  heaviest sinkholes of hate 
  from your ankles. You feel 
  light as a feather. There is 
  more life that can enter 
  down your stream. You 
  recognize YOU are here 
  for yourself. 
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or less 
  The baggage only feels 
  heavier over time. 
  Elaborate at three different 
  points as you review your 
  “LIFE” 
  
   
  OH DEAR SWEET 
  GOD, HOW 
  COULD I 
  POSSIBLY 
  THANK??
  4
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  “In hindsight, now that 
  I’m dead, I didn’t 
  appreciate this person 
  enough. Though I’m 
  scared to admit it, having 
  important moments 
  could be scary.” A Name. 
  What held you back back 
  then? What made it 
  scary? 
  (Combine 2, expound) I’d 
  be called dramatic, it 
  wouldn’t be reciprocated, 
  they’d think I’m being 
  desperate or pathetic, a lot 
  of this is illogical, I would 
  look stupid, we really only 
  met by coincidence, it 
  wouldn’t affect them 
  anyway, they don’t have to 
  know  
  What could you have 
  double downed on 
  appreciating? 
  (Combine 2, expound) I 
  felt like myself again, I felt 
  l i k e I w a s s e e n , I 
  remember that life can be 
  so ‘accidentally’ good to 
  me, Raw unadultered 
  gratefulness, them feeling 
  really good about your 
  grace, 
  What was the pivotal 
  moment where you made 
  grace STOP ? 
  This is your <insert 
  guidance point>. Give 
  location, time and day, 
  what you were wearing, 
  what you were feeling, 
  what <condition> occurred 
  for you to <stop grace> or 
  < h a v e 
  r a d i c a l 
  authenticity> 
  Where did 
  HESITATION actually 
  come from? 
  This is what’s called the 
  <underlying belief> sketch 
  as vividly as possible 
  ORCHESTRATE and 
  design three 
  ESCALATING CHANCE 
  ENCOUNTERS  
  Which counteract 
  <underlying belief>.  
  1 
  2 
  3 
  (Prompts) you somehow 
  meet again, they come to 
  you with a problem and 
  you can actually help, you 
  share a Moment on the 
  subway, they’re drunk so 
  you care about your self-
  image less, write your 
  own, team building 
  Make sure to differentiate 
  scale, source, and 
  language of <chance 
  encounter> to maximize 
  effectivity against Idiocy. 
  Roll D6 dice to locate 
  RECEPTIVITY for each 
  encounter 
  1-2  BLIND fails to see 
  the good juju that could 
  roll out from 
  acknowledging good that’s 
  already there. Moves on 
  like nothing great 
  happened. 
  3-4 NEAR SIGHTED 
  Thanks judiciously, but 
  doesn’t bask in the feeling. 
  Learns and grows into the 
  weird skill. 
  5-6 ALL   V I S I O N 
  Recognizes the 
  interconnectedness of all 
  energy and action. Bravely 
  says thanks, lifts the 
  people who lifted them. 
  Rises and grows in mutual 
  support. 
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or 
  more lifts you of the 
  unloved love weight off of 
  INGRATIA aka ungrateful 
  b*tch. In various degrees 
  and time down your 
  “LIFE” the capacity of 
  mutual support brings you 
  beyond what you 
  previously imagined. 
  A TOTAL OF 9 
  receptivity points or less 
  means you remain afraid 
  of connection. <underlying 
  belief> multiplies in the 
  backdrop of your life and 
  you remain blind to it. 
  *sigh. Again. 
  
   
  Hi, so it’s Peter 
  again.…
  THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT THIS IS IT 
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  Here thee 
  lies your 
  ascencion 
  FOR 36 RECEPTIVITY 
  POINTS OR MORE 
  The tide have turned and 
  your soul is saved. By you. 
  You save your own soul 
  and welcomed and rewrit 
  more love into your life. 
  Good job.  
  Look fondly at the twist 
  and turns of the life that is 
  written. Exchange at the 
  table your best and worst 
  moments. Which hit home 
  and which frustrated you 
  the most. 
  Drink water, break bread as 
  you shirk yourself out of 
  the role/soul you send up, 
  <SOUL’S NAME> up to 
  heaven. 
  Bye! 
  Bye!  
                       Goodbye!
  Here thee 
  lies your 
  purgatory 
  FOR LESS THAN 36 
  RECEPTIVITY POINTS  
  The tides refused to turn. 
  That’s alright, sometimes 
  you’re just really stubborn. 
  Maybe next time, you can 
  welcome and allow a rerun 
  of more love into your life. 
  Good job. 
  Look fondly at the twist 
  and turns of the life that is 
  written. Exchange at the 
  table your best and worst 
  moments. Which hit home 
  and which frustrated you 
  the most. 
  Drink water, break bread as 
  you shirk yourself out of 
  the role/soulyou send up, 
  <SOUL’S NAME> up to a 
  maybe chance of trying 
  again. 
  Bye! Bye!           Goodbye!
  
   
  Newspaper  
  from  
  Heaven
  UNBOUNDED  
  GRATITUDE 
  Jamila Nedjani of  
  Sword Queen Games 
  https://www.patreon.com 
  /swordqueengames 
  Gorgeous illustrations from: 
  www.oldbookillustrations.com 
  Fonts: Times New Roman, Gotham, 
  Helvetica Neue, Akrobat 
  License: Attribution-ShareAlike  
  4.0 International 
  (CC BY-SA 4.0).
  .  
  This is my own take on 
  ho'oponopono. I love you, 
  thank you, sorry, I forgive you. 
  It’s the top things dying people 
  wish they said, and maybe 
  weighted souls do too.  
  I’m pretty sure I’m not the only 
  one who wish they could wind 
  back the tape, realize what 
  drives our fears, loves and 
  limitations in important cross 
  roads of our life.. 
  How decisions earlier on could 
  ripple out in the fabric of life. 
  Maybe we could rehearse that. 
  Heck it’d be fun being ghosts-
  lost soul trying to amend that.   
  Hi! I’m Maria and I’m new to 
  TTRPG games but I love it’s 
  gamut and capacity for 
  immense self-reflection 
  discovery and sheer raw 
  creativity.  
  Currently running a functional 
  shroom biz, doing philippine 
  theater, studying acupuncture, 
  and making art. Proud to be a 
  Real Ass Shaman. Do check out 
  my art at: 
  instagram.com/mariasantisimaa
  Why not right?  
   If anything, we could just 
  peel back at how 
  complicated it is being 
  human.
  DATE: 23 may 2019    SOUL NUMBER.  JEREMIAZEKIEL D5                         VOL 3                    CODE. “FOUR” & “EVER”
  
  OH DEAR 
  SWEET GOD
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