TEXT:  
  American Psycho 
  By 
  Bret Easton Ellis 
   
   
   
  Courtesy: 
   Shahid Riaz 
  Islamabad - Pakistan 
  shahid.riaz@gmail.com 
   
  
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  April Fools  
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  Morning  
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  Harry’s  
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  Pastels  
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  Tunnel  
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  Office  
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  Health Club  
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  Date  
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  Dry Cleaners  
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  Harry’s  
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  Deck Chairs  
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  Business Meeting  
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  Video Store then D’Agostino’s  
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  Facial  
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  Date with Evelyn  
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  Tuesday  
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  Genesis  
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  Lunch  
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  Concert  
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  A Glimpse of a Thursday Afternoon  
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  Yale Club  
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  Killing Dog  
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  Girls  
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  Shopping  
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  Christmas Party  
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  Nell’s  
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  Paul Owen  
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  Paul Smith  
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  Birthday, Brothers  
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  Lunch with Bethany  
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  Thursday  
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  Whitney Houston  
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  Dinner with Secretary  
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  Detective  
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  Summer  
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  Girls  
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  Confronted by Faggot  
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  Killing Child at Zoo  
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  Girls  
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  Rat  
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  Another Night  
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  Girl  
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  At Another New Restaurant  
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  Tries to Cook and Eat Girl  
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  Taking an Uzi to the Gym  
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  Chase, Manhattan  
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  Huey Lewis and the News  
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  In Bed with Courtney  
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  Smith & Wollensky  
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  Something on Television  
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  Sandstone  
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  The Best City for Business  
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  Working Out  
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  End of the 1980s  
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  Aspen  
  
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  Valentine’s Day  
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  Bum on Fifth  
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  New Club  
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  Taxi Driver  
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  At Harry’s  
  Bret Easton Ellis 
  American Psycho  
     This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, incidents, and dialogue, except for 
  incidental references to public figures, products, or services, are imaginary and are not 
  intended to refer to any living persons or to disparage any company’s products or 
  services. 
     for Bruce Taylor 
   
    
     Both the author of these Notes and the Notes themselves are, of course, fictional. 
  Nevertheless, such persons as the composer of these Notes not only exist in our 
  society, but indeed must exist, considering the circumstances under which our society 
  has generally been formed. I have wished to bring before the public, somewhat more 
  distinctly than usual, one of the characters of our recent past. He represents a 
  generation that is still living out its days among us. In the fragment entitled 
  “Underground” this personage describes himself and his views and attempts, as it were, 
  to clarify the reasons why he appeared and was bound to appear in our midst. The 
  subsequent fragment will consist of the actual “notes,” concerning certain events in his 
  life. 
  Fyodor Dostoevsky. Notes from Underground 
   
    
     One of the major mistakes people make is that they think manners are only the 
  expression of happy ideas. There’s a whole range of behavior that can be expressed in 
  a mannerly way. That’s what civilization is all about—doing it in a mannerly and not an 
  antagonistic way. One of the places we went wrong was the naturalistic Rousseauean 
  movement of the Sixties in which people said, “Why can’t you just say what’s on your 
  mind?” In civilization there have to be some restraints. If we followed every impulse, 
  we’d be killing one another. 
  Miss Manners (Judith Martin) 
   
    
  And as things fell apart 
  Nobody paid much attention 
    
  Talking Heads 
  April Fools 
     Abandon all hope ye who enter here is scrawled in blood red lettering on the side of 
  the Chemical Bank near the corner of Eleventh and First and is in print large enough to 
  be seen from the backseat of the cab as it lurches forward in the traffic leaving Wall 
  Street and just as Timothy Price notices the words a bus pulls up, the advertisement for 
  Les Misérables on its side blocking his view, but Price who is with Pierce & Pierce and 
  twenty-six doesn’t seem to care because he tells the driver he will give him five dollars 
  to turn up the radio, “Be My Baby” on WYNN, and the driver, black, not American, does 
  so. 
     “I’m resourceful,” Price is saying. “I’m creative, I’m young, unscrupulous, highly 
  
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  motivated, highly skilled. In essence what I’m saying is that society cannot afford to lose 
  me. I’m an asset.” Price calms down, continues to stare out the cab’s dirty window, 
  probably at the word FEAR sprayed in red graffiti on the side of a McDonald’s on Fourth 
  and Seventh. “I mean the fact remains that no one gives a shit about their work, 
  everybody hates their job, I hate my job, you’ve told me you hate yours. What do I do? 
  Go back to Los Angeles? Not an alternative. I didn’t transfer from UCLA to Stanford to 
  put up with this. I mean am I alone in thinking we’re not making enough money?” Like in 
  a movie another bus appears, another poster for Les Misérables replaces the word—not 
  the same bus because someone has written the word DYKE over Eponine’s face. Tim 
  blurts out, “I have a co-op here. I have a place in the Hamptons, for Christ sakes.” 
     “Parents’, guy. It’s the parents’.” 
     “I’m buying it from them. Will you fucking turn this up?” he snaps but distractedly at the 
  driver, the Crystals still blaring from the radio. 
     “It don’t go up no higher,” maybe the driver says. 
     Timothy ignores him and irritably continues. “I could stay living in this city if they just 
  installed Blaupunkts in the cabs. Maybe the ODM III or ORC II dynamic tuning 
  systems?” His voice softens here. “Either one. Hip my friend, very hip.” 
     He takes off the expensive-looking Walkman from around his neck, still complaining. “I 
  hate to complain—I really do—about the trash, the garbage, the disease, about how 
  filthy this city really is and you know and I know that it is a sty …” He continues talking 
  as he opens his new Tumi calfskin attaché case he bought at D. F. Sanders. He places 
  the Walkman in the case alongside a Panasonic wallet-size cordless portable folding 
  Easa-phone (he used to own the NEC 9000 Porta portable) and pulls out today’s 
  newspaper. “In one issue—in one issue—let’s see here… strangled models, babies 
  thrown from tenement rooftops, kids killed in the subway, a Communist rally, Mafia boss 
  wiped out, Nazis”—he flips through the pages excitedly—“baseball players with AIDS, 
  more Mafia shit, gridlock, the homeless, various maniacs, faggots dropping like flies in 
  the streets, surrogate mothers, the cancellation of a soap opera, kids who broke into a 
  zoo and tortured and burned various animals alive, more Nazis… and the joke is, the 
  punch line is, it’s all in this city—nowhere else, just here, it sucks, whoa wait, more 
  Nazis, gridlock, gridlock, baby-sellers, black-market babies, AIDS babies, baby junkies, 
  building collapses on baby, maniac baby, gridlock, bridge collapses—” His voice stops, 
  he takes in a breath and then quietly says, his eyes fixed on a beggar at the corner of 
  Second and Fifth, “That’s the twenty-fourth one I’ve seen today. I’ve kept count.” Then 
  asks without looking over, “Why aren’t you wearing the worsted navy blue blazer with 
  the gray pants?” Price is wearing a six-button wool and silk suit by Ermenegildo Zegna, 
  a cotton shirt with French cuffs by Ike Behar, a Ralph Lauren silk tie and leather wing 
  tips by Fratelli Rossetti. Pan down to the Post. There is a moderately interesting story 
  concerning two people who disappeared at a party aboard the yacht of a semi-noted 
  New York socialite while the boat was circling the island. A residue of spattered blood 
  and three smashed champagne glasses are the only clues. Foul play is suspected and 
  police think that perhaps a machete was the killer’s weapon because of certain grooves 
  and indentations found on the deck. No bodies have been found. There are no 
  suspects. Price began his spiel today over lunch and then brought it up again during the 
  squash game and continued ranting over drinks at Harry’s where he had gone on, over 
  three J&Bs and water, much more interestingly about the Fisher account that Paul 
  Owen is handling. Price will not shut up. 
     “Diseases!” he exclaims, his face tense with pain. “There’s this theory out now that if 
  you can catch the AIDS virus through having sex with someone whois infected then you 
  can also catch any thing, whether it’s a virus per se or not—Alzheimer’s, muscular 
  dystrophy, hemophilia, leukemia, anorexia, diabetes, cancer, multiple sclerosis, cystic 
  fibrosis, cerebral palsy, dyslexia, for Christ sakes—you can get dyslexia from pussy —” 
     “I’m not sure, guy, but I don’t think dyslexia is a virus.” 
     “Oh, who knows? They don’t know that. Prove it.” 
     Outside this cab, on the sidewalks, black and bloated pigeons fight over scraps of hot 
  
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  dogs in front of a Gray’s Papaya while transvestites idly look on and a police car cruises 
  silently the wrong way down a one-way street and the sky is low and gray and in a cab 
  that’s stopped in traffic across from this one, a guy who looks a lot like Luis Carruthers 
  waves over at Timothy and when Timothy doesn’t return the wave the guy—slicked-
  back hair, suspenders, horn-rimmed glasses—realizes it’s not who he thought it was 
  and looks back at his copy of USA Today. Panning down to the sidewalk there’s an ugly 
  old homeless bag lady holding a whip and she cracks it at the pigeons who ignore it as 
  they continue to peck and fight hungrily over the remains of the hot dogs and the police 
  car disappears into an underground parking lot. 
     “But then, when you’ve just come to the point when your reaction to the times is one of 
  total and sheer acceptance, when your body has become somehow tuned into the 
  insanity and you reach that point where it all makes sense, when it clicks, we get some 
  crazy fucking homeless nigger who actually wants —listen to me, Bateman—wants to 
  be out on the streets, this, those streets, see, those ”—he points—“and we have a 
  mayor who won’t listen to her, a mayor who won’t let the bitch have her way—Holy 
  Christ—let the fucking bitch freeze to death, put her out of her own goddamn self-made 
  misery, and look, you’re back where you started, confused, fucked… Number twenty-
  four, nope, twenty-five… Who’s going to be at Evelyn’s? Wait, let me guess.” He holds 
  up a hand attached to an impeccable manicure. “Ashley, Courtney, Muldwyn, Marina, 
  Charles—am I right so far? Maybe one of Evelyn’s ‘artiste’ friends from ohmygod the 
  ‘East’ Village. You know the type—the ones who ask Evelyn if she has a nice dry white 
  chardonnay—” He slaps a hand over his forehead and shuts his eyes and now he 
  mutters, jaw clenched, “I’m leaving. I’m dumping Meredith. She’s essentially daring me 
  to like her. I’m gone. Why did it take me so long to realize that she has all the 
  personality of a goddamn game-show host?… Twenty-six, twenty-seven… I mean I tell 
  her I’m sensitive. I told her I was freaked out by the Challenger accident—what more 
  does she want? I’m ethical, tolerant, I mean I’m extremely satisfied with my life, I’m 
  optimistic about the future—I mean, aren’t you?” 
     “Sure, but—” 
     “And all I get is shit from her… Twenty-eight, twenty-nine, holy shit it’s a goddamn 
  cluster of bums. I tell you—” He stops suddenly, as if exhausted, and turning away from 
  another advertisement for Les Misérables, remembering something important, asks, 
  “Did you read about the host from that game show on TV? He killed two teenage boys? 
  Depraved faggot. Droll, really droll.” Price waits for a reaction. There is none. Suddenly: 
  Upper West Side. 
     He tells the driver to stop on the corner of Eighty-first and Riverside since the street 
  doesn’t go the right way. 
     “Don’t bother going arou—” Price begins. 
     “Maybe I go other way around,” the cabdriver says. 
     “Do not bother.” Then barely an aside, teeth gritted, unsmiling: “Fucking nitwit.” 
     The driver brings the cab to a stop. Two cabs behind this cab both blare their horns 
  then move on. 
     “Should we bring flowers?” 
     “Nah. Hell, you’re banging her, Bateman. Why should we get Evelyn flowers? You 
  better have change for a fifty,” he warns the driver, squinting at the red numbers on the 
  meter. “Damnit. Steroids. Sorry I’m tense.” 
     “Thought you were off them.” 
     “I was getting acne on my legs and arms and the UVA bath wasn’t fixing it, so I started 
  going to a tanning salon instead and got rid of it. Jesus, Bateman, you should see how 
  ripped my stomach is. The definition. Completely buffed out…,” he says in a distant, odd 
  way, while waiting for the driver to hand him the change. “Ripped.” He stiffs the driver on 
  the tip but the driver is genuinely thankful anyway. “So long, Shlomo,” Price winks. 
     “Damn, damn, damned,” Price says as he opens the door. Coming out of the cab he 
  eyes a beggar on the street—“Bingo: thirty ”—wearing some sort of weird, tacky, filthy 
  green jump suit, unshaven, dirty hair greased back, and jokingly Price holds the cab’s 
  
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  door open for him. The bum, confused and mumbling, eyes locked shamefully on the 
  pavement, holds an empty Styrofoam coffee cup out to us, clutched in a tentative hand. 
     “I suppose he doesn’t want the cab,” Price snickers, slamming the cab door. “Ask him 
  if he takes American Express.” 
     “Do you take Am Ex?” 
     The bum nods yes and moves away, shuffling slowly. 
     It’s cold for April and Price walks briskly down the street toward Evelyn’s brownstone, 
  whistling “If I Were a Rich Man,” the heat from his mouth creating smoky plumes of 
  steam, and swinging his Tumi leather attaché case. A figure with slicked-back hair and 
  horn-rimmed glasses approaches in the distance, wearing a beige double-breasted 
  wool-gabardine Cerruti 1881 suit and carrying the same Tumi leather attaché case from 
  D. F. Sanders that Price has, and Timothy wonders aloud, “Is it Victor Powell? It can’t 
  be.” 
     The man passes under the fluorescent glare of a streetlamp with a troubled look on 
  his face that momentarily curls his lips into a slight smile and he glances at Price almost 
  as if they were acquainted but just as quickly he realizes that he doesn’t know Price and 
  just as quickly Price realizes it’s not Victor Powell and the man moves on. 
     “Thank god,” Price mutters as he nears Evelyn’s. 
     “It looked a lot like him.” 
     “Powell and dinner at Evelyn’s? These two go together about as well as paisley and 
  plaid.” Price rethinks this. “White socks with gray trousers.” 
     A slow dissolve and Price is bounding up the steps outside the brownstone Evelyn’s 
  father bought her, grumbling about how he forgot to return the tapes he rented last night 
  to Video Haven. He rings the bell. At the brownstone next to Evelyn’s, a woman—high 
  heels, great ass—leaves without locking her door. Price follows her with his gaze and 
  when he hears footsteps from inside coming down the hallway toward us he turns 
  around and straightens his Versace tie ready to face whoever. Courtney opens the door 
  and she’s wearing a Krizia cream silk blouse, a Krizia rust tweed skirt and silk-satin 
  d’Orsay pumps from Manolo Blahnik. 
     I shiver and hand her my black wool Giorgio Armani overcoat and she takes it from 
  me, carefully airkissing my right cheek, then she performs the same exact movements 
  on Price while taking his Armani overcoat. The new Talking Heads on CD plays softly in 
  the living room. 
     “A bit late, aren’t we, boys?” Courtney asks, smiling naughtily. 
     “Inept Haitian cabbie,” Price mutters, airkissing Courtney back. “Do we have 
  reservations somewhere and please don’t tell me Pastels at nine.” 
     Courtney smiles, hanging up both coats in the hall closet. “Eating in tonight, darlings. 
  I’m sorry, I know, I know, I tried to talk Evelyn out of it but we’re having… su shi.” 
     Tim moves past her and down the foyer toward the kitchen. “Evelyn? Where are you, 
  Evelyn?” he calls out in a singsong voice. “We have to talk.” 
     “It’s good to see you,” I tell Courtney. “You look very pretty tonight. Your face has a… 
  youthful glow.” 
     “You really know how to charm the ladies, Bateman.” There is no sarcasm in 
  Courtney’s voice. “Should I tell Evelyn you feel this way?” she asks flirtatiously. 
     “No,” I say. “But I bet you’d like to.” 
     “Come on,” she says, taking my hands off her waist and placing her hands on my 
  shoulders, steering me down the hall in the direction of the kitchen. “We have to save 
  Evelyn. She’s been rearranging the sushi for the past hour. She’s trying to spell your 
  initials—the P in yellowtail, the B in tuna—but she thinks the tuna looks too pale—” 
     “How romantic.” 
     “—and she doesn’t have enough yellowtail to finish the B ”—Courtney breathes in—
  “and so I think she’s going to spell Tim’s initials instead. Do you mind?” she asks, only a 
  bit worried. Courtney is Luis Carruthers’ girlfriend. 
     “I’m terribly jealous and I think I better talk to Evelyn,” I say, letting Courtney gently 
  push me into the kitchen. 
  
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     Evelyn stands by a blond wood counter wearing a Krizia cream silk blouse, a Krizia 
  rust tweed skirt and the same pair of silk-satin d’Orsay pumps Courtney has on. Her 
  long blond hair is pinned back into a rather severe-looking bun and she acknowledges 
  me without looking up from the oval Wilton stainless-steel platter on which she has 
  artfully arranged the sushi. “Oh honey, I’m sorry. I wanted to go to this darling little new 
  Salvadorian bistro on the Lower East Side—’ 
     Price groans audibly. 
     “—but we couldn’t get reservations. Timothy, don’t groan.” She picks up a piece of the 
  yellowtail and places it cautiously near the top of the platter, completing what looks like 
  a capital T. She stands back from the platter and inspects it. “I don’t know. Oh, I’m so 
  unsure.” 
     “I told you to keep Finlandia in this place,” Tim mutters, looking through the bottles—
  most of them magnums—at the bar. “She never has Finlandia,” he says to no one, to all 
  of us. 
     “Oh god, Tim othy. Can’t handle Absolut?” Evelyn asks and then contemplatively to 
  Courtney, “The California roll should circle the rim of the plate, no?” 
     “Bateman. Drink?” Price sighs. 
     “J&B rocks,” I tell him, suddenly thinking it’s strange that Meredith wasn’t invited. 
     “Oh god. It’s a mess,” Evelyn gasps. “I swear I’m going to cry.” 
     ‘The sushi looks marvelous, ” I tell her soothingly. 
     “Oh it’s a mess,” she wails. “It’s a mess.” 
     “No, no, the sushi looks marvelous,” I tell her and in an attempt to be as consoling as 
  possible I pick up a piece of the fluke and pop it in my mouth, groaning with inward 
  pleasure, and hug Evelyn from behind; my mouth still full, I manage to say “Delicious.” 
     She slaps at me in a playful way, obviously pleased with my reaction, and finally, 
  carefully, airkisses my cheek and then turns back to Courtney. Price hands me a drink 
  and walks toward the living room while trying to remove something invisible from his 
  blazer. “Evelyn, do you have a lint brush?” 
     I would rather have watched the baseball game or gone to the gym and worked out or 
  tried that Salvadorian restaurant that got a couple of pretty good reviews, one in New 
  York magazine, the other in the Times, than have dinner here but there is one good 
  thing about dinner at Evelyn’s: it’s close to my place. 
     “Is it okay if the soy sauce isn’t exactly at room temperature?” Courtney is asking. “I 
  think there’s ice in one of the dishes.” 
     Evelyn is placing strips of pale orange ginger delicately in a pile next to a small 
  porcelain dish filled with soy sauce. “No, it’s not okay. Now Patrick, could you be a dear 
  and get the Kirin out of the refrigerator?” Then, seemingly harassed by the ginger, she 
  throws the clump down on the platter. “Oh forget it. I’ll do it.” 
     I move toward the refrigerator anyway. Staring darkly, Price reenters the kitchen and 
  says, “Who in the hell is in the living room?” 
     Evelyn feigns ignorance. “Oh who is that?” 
     Courtney warns, “Ev-el-yn. You did tell them, I hope.” 
     “Who is it?” I ask, suddenly scared. “Victor Powell?” 
     “No, it’s not Victor Powell, Patrick,” Evelyn says casually. “It’s an artist friend of mine, 
  Stash. And Vanden, his girlfriend.” 
     “Oh so that was a girl in there,” Price says. “Go take a look, Bateman,” he dares. “Let 
  me guess. The East Village?” 
     “Oh Price,” she says flirtatiously, opening beer bottles. “Why no. Vanden goes to 
  Camden and Stash lives in SoHo, so there.” 
     I move out of the kitchen, past the dining room, where the table has been set, the 
  beeswax candles from Zona lit in their sterling silver candleholders from Fortunoff, and 
  into the living room. I can’t tell what Stash is wearing since it’s all black. Vanden has 
  green streaks in her hair. She stares at a heavy-metal video playing on MTV while 
  smoking a cigarette. 
     “Ahem,” I cough. 
  
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     Vanden looks over warily, probably drugged to the eyeballs. Stash doesn’t move. 
     “Hi. Pat Bateman,” I say, offering my hand, noticing my reflection in a mirror hung on 
  the wall—and smiling at how good I look. 
     She takes it; says nothing. Stash starts smelling his fingers. 
     Smash cut and I’m back in the kitchen. 
     “Just get her out of there.” Price is seething. “She’s doped up watching MTV and I 
  want to watch the goddamn MacNeil/Lehrer report.” 
     Evelyn is still opening large bottles of imported beer and absently mentions, “We’ve 
  got to eat this stuff soon or else we’re all going to be poisoned.” 
     “She’s got a green streak in her hair,” I tell them. “And she’s smoking.” 
     “Bateman,” Tim says, still glaring at Evelyn. 
     “Yes?” I say. “Timothy?” 
     “You’re a dufus.” 
     “Oh leave Patrick alone,” Evelyn says. “He’s the boy next door. That’s Patrick. You’re 
  not a dufus, are you, honey?” Evelyn is on Mars and I move toward the bar to make 
  myself another drink. 
     “Boy next door.” Tim smirks and nods, then reverses his expression and hostilely asks 
  Evelyn again if she has a lint brush. 
     Evelyn finishes opening the Japanese beer bottles and tells Courtney to fetch Stash 
  and Vanden. “We have to eat this now or else we’re going to be poisoned,” she 
  murmurs, slowly moving her head, taking in the kitchen, making sure she hasn’t 
  forgotten anything. 
     “If I can tear them away from the latest Megadeth video,” Courtney says before 
  exiting. 
     “I have to talk to you,” Evelyn says. 
     “What about?” I come up to her. 
     “No,” she says and then pointing at Tim, “to Price.” 
     Tim still glares at her fiercely. I say nothing and stare at Tim’s drink. 
     “Be a hon,” she tells me, “and place the sushi on the table. Tempura is in the 
  microwave and the sake is just about done boiling…” Her voice trails off as she leads 
  Price out of the kitchen. 
     I am wondering where Evelyn got the sushi—the tuna, yellowtail, mackerel, shrimp, 
  eel, even bonito, all seem so fresh and there are piles of wasabi and clumps of ginger 
  placed strategically around the Wilton platter—but I also like the idea that Idon’t know, 
  will never know, will never ask where it came from and that the sushi will sit there in the 
  middle of the glass table from Zona that Evelyn’s father bought her like some mysterious 
  apparition from the Orient and as I set the platter down I catch a glimpse of my reflection 
  on the surface of the table. My skin seems darker because of the candlelight and I 
  notice how good the haircut I got at Gio’s last Wednesday looks. I make myself another 
  drink. I worry about the sodium level in the soy sauce. 
     Four of us sit around the table waiting for Evelyn and Timothy to return from getting 
  Price a lint brush. I sit at the head taking large swallows of J&B. Vanden sits at the other 
  end reading disinterestedly from some East Village rag called Deception, its glaring 
  headline THE DEATH OF DOWNTOWN. Stash has pushed a chopstick into a lone 
  piece of yellowtail that lies on the middle of his plate like some shiny impaled insect and 
  the chopstick stands straight up. Stash occasionally moves the piece of sushi around 
  the plate with the chopstick but never looks up toward either myself or Vanden or 
  Courtney, who sits next to me sipping plum wine from a champagne glass. 
     Evelyn and Timothy come back perhaps twenty minutes after we’ve seated ourselves 
  and Evelyn looks only slightly flushed. Tim glares at me as he takes the seat next to 
  mine, a fresh drink in hand, and he leans over toward me, about to say, to admit 
  something, when suddenly Evelyn interrupts, “Not there, Timothy,” then, barely a 
  whisper, “Boy girl, boy girl.” She gestures toward the empty chair next to Vanden. 
  Timothy shifts his glare to Evelyn and hesitantly takes the seat next to Vanden, who 
  yawns and turns a page of her magazine. 
  
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     “Well, everybody,” Evelyn says, smiling, pleased with the meal she has presented, 
  “dig in,” and then after noticing the piece of sushi that Stash has pinned—he’s now bent 
  low over the plate, whispering at it—her composure falters but she smiles bravely and 
  chirps, “Plum wine anyone?” 
     No one says anything until Courtney, who is staring at Stash’s plate, lifts her glass 
  uncertainly and says, trying to smile, “It’s… delicious, Evelyn.” 
     Stash doesn’t speak. Even though he is probably uncomfortable at the table with us 
  since he looks nothing like the other men in the room—his hair isn’t slicked back, no 
  suspenders, no horn-rimmed glasses, the clothes black and ill-fitting, no urge to light 
  and suck on a cigar, probably unable to secure a table at Camols, his net worth a 
  pittance—still, his behavior lacks warrant and he sits there as if hypnotized by the 
  glistening piece of sushi and just as the table is about to finally ignore him, to look away 
  and start eating, he sits up and loudly says, pointing an accusing finger at his plate, “It 
  moved!” 
     Timothy glares at him with a contempt so total that I can’t fully equal it but I muster 
  enough energy to come close. Vanden seems amused and so now, unfortunately, does 
  Courtney, who I’m beginning to think finds this monkey attractive but I suppose if I were 
  dating Luis Carruthers I might too. Evelyn laughs good-naturedly and says, “Oh Stash, 
  you are a riot,” and then asks worriedly, “Tempura?” Evelyn is an executive at a financial 
  services company, FYI. 
     “I’ll have some,” I tell her and I lift a piece of eggplant off the platter, though I won’t eat 
  it because it’s fried. 
     The table begins to serve themselves, successfully ignoring Stash. I stare at Courtney 
  as she chews and swallows. 
     Evelyn, in an attempt to start a conversation, says, after what seems like a long, 
  thoughtful silence, “Vanden goes to Camden.” 
     “Oh really?” Timothy asks icily. “Where is that?” 
     “Vermont,” Vanden answers without looking up from her paper. 
     I look over at Stash to see if he’s pleased with Vanden’s casually blatant lie but he 
  acts as if he wasn’t listening, as if he were in some other room or some punk rock club 
  in the bowels of the city, but so does the rest of the table, which bothers me since I am 
  fairly sure we all know it’s located in New Hampshire. 
     “Where did you go?” Vanden sighs after it finally becomes clear to her that no one is 
  interested in Camden. 
     “Well, I went to Le Rosay,” Evelyn starts, “and then to business school in Switzerland.” 
     “I also survived business school in Switzerland,” Courtney says. “But I was in Geneva. 
  Evelyn was in Lausanne.” 
     Vanden tosses the copy of Deception next to Timothy and smirks in a wan, bitchy way 
  and though I am pissed off a little that Evelyn doesn’t take in Vanden’s condescension 
  and hurl it back at her, the J&B has relieved my stress to a point where I don’t care 
  enough to say anything. Evelyn probably thinks Vanden is sweet, lost, confused, an 
  artist. Price isn’t eating and neither is Evelyn; I suspect cocaine but it’s doubtful. While 
  taking a large gulp from his drink Timothy holds up the copy ofDeception and chuckles 
  to himself. 
     ‘“The Death of Downtown,” he says; then, pointing at each word in the headline, “Who-
  gives-a-rat’s-ass?” 
     I automatically expect Stash to look up from his plate but he still stares at the lone 
  piece of sushi, smiling to himself and nodding. 
     “Hey,” Vanden says, as if she was insulted. “That affects us.” 
     “Oh ho ho,” Tim says warningly. “That affects us? What about the massacres in Sri 
  Lanka, honey? Doesn’t that affect us too? What about Sri Lanka?” 
     “Well, that’s a cool club in the Village.” Vanden shrugs. “Yeah, that affects us too.” 
     Suddenly Stash speaks without looking up. “That’s called The Tonka. ” He sounds 
  pissed but his voice is even and low, his eyes still on the sushi. “It’s called The Tonka, 
  not Sri Lanka. Got it? The Tonka.” 
  
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     Vanden looks down, then meekly says, “Oh.” 
     “I mean don’t you know anything about Sri Lanka? About how the Sikhs are killing like 
  tons of Israelis there?” Timothy goads her. “Doesn’t that affect us?” 
     “Kappamaki roll anyone?” Evelyn cuts in cheerfully, holding up a plate. 
     “Oh come on, Price,” I say. “There are more important problems than Sri Lanka to 
  worry about. Sure our foreign policy is important, but there are more pressing problems 
  at hand.” 
     “Like what?” he asks without looking away from Vanden. “By the way, why is there an 
  ice cube in my soy sauce?” 
     “No,” I start, hesitantly. “Well, we have to end apartheid for one. And slow down the 
  nuclear arms race, stop terrorism and world hunger. Ensure a strong national defense, 
  prevent the spread of communism in Central America, work for a Middle East peace 
  settlement, prevent U.S. military involvement overseas. We have to ensure that America 
  is a respected world power. Now that’s not to belittle our domestic problems, which are 
  equally important, if not more. Better and more affordable long-term care for the elderly, 
  control and find a cure for the AIDS epidemic, clean up environmental damage from 
  toxic waste and pollution, improve the quality of primary and secondary education, 
  strengthen laws to crack down on crime and illegal drugs. We also have to ensure that 
  college education is affordable for the middle class and protect Social Security for senior 
  citizens plus conserve natural resources and wilderness areas and reduce the influence 
  of political action committees.” 
     The table stares at me uncomfortably, even Stash, but I’m on a roll. 
     “But economically we’re still a mess. We have to find a way to hold down the inflation 
  rate and reduce the deficit. We also need to provide training and jobs for the 
  unemployed as well as protect existing American jobs from unfair foreign imports. We 
  have to make America the leader in new technology. At the same time we need to 
  promote economic growth and business expansion and hold the line against federal 
  income taxes and hold down interest rates while promoting opportunities for small 
  businesses and controlling mergers and big corporate takeovers.” 
     Price nearly spits up his Absolut after this comment but I try to make eye contact with 
  each one of them, especially Vanden, who if she got rid of the green streak and the 
  leather and got some color—maybe joined an aerobics class, slipped on a blouse, 
  something by Laura Ashley—might be pretty. But why does she sleep with Stash? He’s 
  lumpy and pale and has a bad cropped haircut and is at least ten pounds overweight; 
  there’s no muscle tone beneath the black T-shirt. 
     “But we can’t ignore our social needs either. We have to stop people from abusing the 
  welfare system. We have to provide food and shelter for the homeless and oppose 
  racial discrimination and promote civil rights while also promoting equal rights for 
  women but change the abortion laws to protect the right to life yet still somehow 
  maintain women’s freedom of choice. We also have to control the influx of illegal 
  immigrants. We have to encourage a return to traditional moral values and curb graphic 
  sex and violence on TV, in movies, in popular music, everywhere. Most importantly we 
  have to promote general social concern and less materialism in young people.” 
     I finish my drink. The table sits facing me in total silence. Courtney’s smiling and 
  seems pleased. Timothy just shakes his head in bemused disbelief. Evelyn is 
  completely mystified by the turn the conversation has taken and she stands, unsteadily, 
  and asks if anyone would like dessert. 
     “I have… sorbet,” she says as if in a daze. “Kiwi, carambola, cherimoya, cactus fruit 
  and oh… what is that…” She stops her zombie monotone and tries to remember the last 
  flavor. “Oh yes, Japanese pear.” 
     Everyone stays silent. Tim quickly looks over at me. I glance at Courtney, then back at 
  Tim, then at Evelyn. Evelyn meets my glance, then worriedly looks over at Tim. I also 
  look over at Tim, then at Courtney and then at Tim again, who looks at me once more 
  before answering slowly, unsurely, “Cactus pear.” 
     “Cactus fruit,” Evelyn corrects. 
  
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     I look suspiciously over at Courtney and after she says “Cherimoya” I say “Kiwi” and 
  then Vanden says “Kiwi” also and Stash says quietly, but enunciating each syllable very 
  clearly, “Chocolate chip.” 
     The worry that flickers across Evelyn’s face when she hears this is instantaneously 
  replaced by a smiling and remarkably good-natured mask and she says, “Oh Stash, you 
  know I don’t have chocolate chip, though admittedly that’s pretty exotic for a sorbet. I 
  told you I have cherimoya, cactuspear, carambola, I mean cactus fruit —” 
     “I know. I heard you, I heard you,” he says, waving her off. “Surprise me.” 
     “Okay,” Evelyn says. “Courtney? Would you like to help?” 
     “Of course.” Courtney gets up and I watch as her shoes click away into the kitchen. 
     “No cigars, boys,” Evelyn calls out. 
     “Wouldn’t dream of it,” Price says, putting a cigar back into his coat pocket. 
     Stash is still staring at the sushi with an intensity that troubles me and I have to ask 
  him, hoping he will catch my sarcasm, “Did it, uh, move again or something?” 
     Vanden has made a smiley face out of all the disks of California roll she piled onto her 
  plate and she holds it up for Stash’s inspection and asks, “Rex?” 
     “Cool,” Stash grunts. 
     Evelyn comes back with the sorbet in Odeon margarita glasses and an unopened 
  bottle of Glenfiddich, which remains unopened while we eat the sorbet. 
     Courtney has to leave early to meet Luis at a company party at Bedlam, a new club in 
  midtown. Stash and Vanden depart soon after to go “score” something somewhere in 
  SoHo. I am the only one who saw Stash take the piece of sushi from his plate and slip it 
  into the pocket of his olive green leather bomber jacket. When I mention this to Evelyn, 
  while she loads the dishwasher, she gives me a look so hateful that it seems doubtful 
  we will have sex later on tonight. But I stick around anyway. So does Price. He is now 
  lying on a late-eighteenth-century Aubusson carpet drinking espresso from a Ceralene 
  coffee cup on the floor of Evelyn’s room. I’m lying on Evelyn’s bed holding a tapestry 
  pillow from Jenny B. Goode, nursing a cranberry and Absolut. Evelyn sits at her 
  dressing table brushing her hair, a Ralph Lauren green and white striped silk robe 
  draped over a very nice body, and she is gazing at her reflection in the vanity mirror. 
     “Am I the only one who grasped the fact that Stash assumed his piece of sushi was”—
  I cough, then resume—“a pet?” 
     “Please stop inviting your ‘artiste’ friends over,” Tim says tiredly. “I’m sick of being the 
  only one at dinner who hasn’t talked to an extraterrestrial.” 
     “It was only that once,” Evelyn says, inspecting a lip, lost is her own placid beauty. 
     “And at Odeon, no less,” Price mutters. 
     I vaguely wonder why I wasn’t invited to Odeon for the artists dinner. Had Evelyn 
  picked up the tab? Probably. And I suddenly picture a smiling Evelyn, secretly morose, 
  sitting at a whole table of Stash’s friends—all of them constructing little log cabins with 
  their french fries or pretending their grilled salmon was alive and moving the piece of 
  fish around the table, the fish conversing with each other about the “art scene,” new 
  galleries; maybe even trying to fit the fish into the log cabin made of french fries… 
     “If you remember well enough, I hadn’t seen one either,” Evelyn says. 
     “No, but Bateman’s your boyfriend, so that counted.” Price guffaws and I toss the 
  pillow at him. He catches it then throws it back at me. 
     “Leave Patrick alone. He’s the boy next door,” Evelyn says, rubbing some kind of 
  cream into her face. “You’re not an extraterrestrial, are you honey?” 
     “Should I even dignify that question with an answer?” I sigh. 
     “Oh baby.” She pouts into the mirror, looking at me in its reflection. “I know you’re not 
  an extraterrestrial.” 
     “Relief,” I mutter to myself. 
     “No, but Stash was there at Odeon that night,” Price continues, and then, looking over 
  at me, “At Odeon. Are you listening, Bateman?” 
     “No he wasn’ t,” Evelyn says. 
     “Oh yes he was, but his name wasn’t Stash last time. It was Horseshoe or Magnet or 
  
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  Lego or something equally adult,” Price sneers. “I forget.” 
     “Timothy, what are you going on about?” Evelyn asks tiredly. “I’m not even listening to 
  you.” She wets a cotton ball, wipes it across her forehead. 
     “No, we were at Odeon.” Price sits up with some effort. “And don’t ask me why, but I 
  distinctly remember him ordering the tuna cappuccino.” 
     “Carpaccio,” Evelyn corrects. 
     “No, Evelyn dear, love of my life. I distinctly remember him ordering the tuna 
  cappuccino,” Price says, staring up at the ceiling. 
     “He said carpaccio,” she counters, running the cotton ball over her eyelids. 
     “Cappuccino,” Price insists. “Untilyou corrected him.” 
     “You didn’t even recognize him earlier tonight,” she says. 
     “Oh but I do remember him,” Price says, turning to me. “Evelyn described him as ‘the 
  good-natured body builder.’ That’s how she introduced him. I swear.” 
     “Oh shut up,” she says, annoyed, but she looks over at Timothy in the mirror and 
  smiles flirtatiously. 
     “I mean I doubt Stash makes the society pages of W, which I thought was your 
  criterion for choosing friends,” Price says, staring back, grinning at her in his wolfish, 
  lewd way. I concentrate on the Absolut and cranberry I’m holding and it looks like a 
  glassful of thin, watery blood with ice and a lemon wedge in it. 
     “What’s going on with Courtney and Luis?” I ask, hoping to break their gaze. 
     “Oh god,” Evelyn moans, turning back to the mirror. “The really dreadful thing about 
  Courtney is not that she doesn’t like Luis anymore. It’s that—” 
     “They canceled her charge at Bergdorf’s?” Price asks. I laugh. We slap each other 
  high-five. 
     “No,” Evelyn continues, also amused. “It’s that she’s really in love with her real estate 
  broker. Some little twerp over at The Feathered Nest.” 
     “Courtney might have her problems,” Tim says, inspecting his recent manicure, “but 
  my god, what is a… Vanden?” 
     “Oh don’t bring this up,” Evelyn whines and starts brushing her hair. 
     “Vanden is a cross between… The Limited and… used Benetton,” Price says, holding 
  up his hands, his eyes closed. 
     “No.” I smile, trying to integrate myself into the conversation. “Used Fiorucci.” 
     “Yeah,” Tim says. “I guess.” His eyes, now open, zone in on Evelyn. 
     “Timothy, lay off,” Evelyn says. “She’s a Camden girl. What do you expect?” 
     “Oh god,” Timothy moans. “I am so sick of hearing Camden -girl problems. Oh my 
  boyfriend, I love him but he loves someone else and oh how I longed for him and he 
  ignored me and blahblah blahblahblah—god, how boring. College kids. It matters, you 
  know? It’s sad, right Bateman?” 
     “Yeah. Matters. Sad.” 
     “See, Bateman agrees with me,” Price says smugly. 
     “Oh he does not.” With a Kleenex Evelyn wipes off whatever she rubbed on. “Patrick is 
  not a cynic, Timothy. He’s the boy next door, aren’t you honey?” 
     “No I’m not,” I whisper to myself. “I’m a fucking evil psychopath.” 
     “Oh so what,” Evelyn sighs. “She’s not the brightest girl in the world.” 
     “Hah! Understatement of the century!” Price cries out. “But Stash isn’t the brightest 
  guy either. Perfect couple. Did they meet on Love Connection or something?” 
     “Leave them alone,” Evelyn says. “Stash is talented and I’m sure we’re under 
  estimating Vanden.” 
     “This is a girl…” Price turns to me. “Listen, Bateman, this is a girl—Evelyn told me 
  this—this is a girl who rented High Noon because she thought it was a movie about”—
  he gulps—“marijuana farmers.” 
     “It just hit me,” I say. “But have we deciphered what Stash—I assume he has a last 
  name but don’t tell me, I don’t want to know, Evelyn—does for a living?” 
     “First of all he’s perfectly decent and nice,” Evelyn says in his defense. 
     “The man asked for chocolate chip sorbet for Christ sakes!” Timothy wails, 
  
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  disbelieving. “What are you talking about?” 
     Evelyn ignores this, pulls off her Tina Chow earrings. “He’s a sculptor,” she says 
  tersely. 
     “Oh bullshit,” Timothy says. “I remember talking to him at Odeon.” He turns to me 
  again. “This was when he ordered the tuna cappuccino and I’m sure if left unattended 
  would have ordered the salmon au lait, and he told me he did parties, so that technically 
  makes him—I don’t know, correct me if I’m wrong, Evelyn—a caterer. He’s a caterer!” 
  Price cries out. “Not a fucking sculptor!” 
     “Oh gosh calm down,” Evelyn says, rubbing more cream into her face. 
     “That’s like saying you’re a poet.” Timothy is drunk and I’m beginning to wonder when 
  he will vacate the premises. 
     “Well,” Evelyn begins, “I’ve been known to—” 
     “You’re a fucking word processor!” Tim blurts out. He walks over to Evelyn and bows 
  next to her, checking out his reflection in the mirror. 
     “Have you been gaining weight, Tim?” Evelyn asks thoughtfully. She studies Tim’s 
  head in the mirror and says, “Your face looks… rounder.” 
     Timothy, in retaliation, smells Evelyn’s neck and says, “What is that fascinating… 
  odor?” 
     “Obsession.” Evelyn smiles flirtatiously, gently pushing Timothy away. “It’s Obsession. 
  Patrick, get your friend away from me.” 
     “No, no, wait,” Timothy says, sniffing loudly. “It’s not Obsession. It’s… it’s…” and then, 
  with a face twisted in mock horror, “It’s… Oh my god, it’s Q.T. Instatan!” 
     Evelyn pauses and considers her options. She inspects Price’s head one more time. 
  “Are you losing your hair?” 
     “Evelyn,” Tim says. “Don’t change the subject but…” And then, genuinely worried, 
  “Now that you mention it… too much gel?” Concerned, he runs a hand over it. 
     “Maybe,” Evelyn says. “Now make yourself useful and do sit down.” 
     “Well, at least it’s not green and I haven’t tried to cut it with a butter knife,” Tim says, 
  referring to Vanden’s dye job and Stash’s admittedly cheap, bad haircut. A haircut that’s 
  bad because it’s cheap. 
     “Are you gaining weight?” Evelyn asks, more seriously this time. 
     “Jesus,” Tim says, about to turn away, offended. “No, Evelyn.” 
     “Your face definitely looks… rounder,” Evelyn says. “Less… chiseled.” 
     “I don’t believe this.” Tim again. 
     He looks deep into the mirror. She continues brushing her hair but the strokes are less 
  definite because she’s looking at Tim. He notices this and then smells her neck and I 
  think he licks at it quickly and grins. 
     “Is that Q.T.?” he asks. “Come on, you can tell me. I smell it.” 
     “No,” Evelyn says, unsmiling. “You use that.” 
     “No. As a matter of fact I don’t. I go to a tanning salon. I’m quite honest about that,” he 
  says. “You’re using Q.T.” 
     “You’re projecting,” she says lamely. 
     “I told you,” Tim says. “I go to a tanning salon. I mean I know it’s expensive but…” 
  Price blanches. “Still, Q.T.?” 
     “Oh how brave to admit you go to a tanning salon,” she says. 
     “Q.T.” He chuckles. 
     “I don’t know what you’re talk ing about,” Evelyn says and resumes brushing her hair. 
  “Patrick, escort your friend out of here.” 
     Now Price is on his knees and he smells and sniffs at Evelyn’s bare legs and she’s 
  laughing. I tense up. 
     “Oh god,” she moans loudly. “Get out of here.” 
     “You are orange.” He laughs, on his knees, his head in her lap. “You look orange.” 
     “I am not,” she says, her voice a low prolonged growl of pain, ecstasy. “Jerk.” 
     I lie on the bed watching the two of them. Timothy is in her lap trying to push his head 
  under the Ralph Lauren robe. Evelyn’s head is thrown back with pleasure and she is 
  
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  trying to push him away, but playfully, and hitting him only lightly on his back with her 
  Jan Hové brush. I am fairly sure that Timothy and Evelyn are having an affair. Timothy is 
  the only interesting person I know. 
     “You should go,” she says finally, panting. She has stopped struggling with him. 
     He looks up at her, flashing a toothy, good-looking smile, and says, “Anything the lady 
  requests.” 
     “Thank you,” she says in a voice that sounds to me tinged with disappointment. 
     He stands up. “Dinner? Tomorrow?” 
     “I’ll have to ask my boyfriend,” she says, smiling at me in the mirror. 
     “Will you wear that sexy black Anne Klein dress?” he asks, his hands on her 
  shoulders, whispering this into her ear, as he smells it. “Bateman’s not welcome.” 
     I laugh good-naturedly while getting up from the bed, escorting him out of the room. 
     “Wait! My espresso!” he calls out. 
     Evelyn laughs, then claps as if delighted by Timothy’s reluctance to vacate. 
     “Come on fella,” I say as I push him roughly out of the bedroom. “Beddy-bye time.” 
     He still manages to blow her a kiss before I get him out and away. He is completely 
  silent as I walk him out of the brownstone. 
     After he leaves I pour myself a brandy and drink it from a checkered Italian tumbler 
  and when I come back to the bedroom I find Evelyn lying in bed watching the Home 
  Shopping Club. I lie down next to her and loosen my Armani tie. Finally I ask something 
  without looking at her. 
     “Why don’t you just go for Price?” 
     “Oh god, Patrick,” she says, her eyes shut. “Why Price? Price?” And she says this in a 
  way that makes me think she has had sex with him. 
     “He’s rich,” I say. 
     “Everybody’s rich,” she says, concentrating on the TV screen. 
     “He’s good-looking,” I tell her. 
     “Everybody’s good-looking, Patrick,” she says remotely. 
     “He has a great body,” I say. 
     “Everybody has a great body now,” she says. 
     I place the tumbler on the nightstand and roll over on top of her. While I kiss and lick 
  her neck she stares passionlessly at the wide-screen Panasonic remote-control 
  television set and lowers the volume. I pull my Armani shirt up and place her hand on 
  my torso, wanting her to feel how rock-hard, how halved my stomach is, and I flex the 
  muscles, grateful it’s light in the room so she can see how bronzed and defined my 
  abdomen has become. 
     “You know,” she says clearly, “Stash tested positive for the AIDS virus. And…” She 
  pauses, something on the screen catching her interest; the volume goes slightly up and 
  then is lowered. “And… I think he will probably sleep with Vanden tonight.” 
     “Good,” I say, biting lightly at her neck, one of my hands on a firm, cold breast. 
     “You’re evil,” she says, slightly excited, running her hands along my broad, hard 
  shoulder. 
     “No,” I sigh. “Just your fiancé.” 
     After attempting to have sex with her for around fifteen minutes, I decide not to 
  continue trying. 
     She says, “You know, you can always be in better shape.” 
     I reach for the tumbler of brandy. I finish it. Evelyn is addicted to Parnate, an 
  antidepressant. I lie there beside her watching the Home Shopping Club—at glass dolls, 
  embroidered throw pillows, lamps shaped like footballs, Lady Zirconia—with the sound 
  turned off. Evelyn starts drifting. 
     “Are you using minoxidil?” she asks, after a long time. 
     “No. I’m not,” I say. “Why should I?” 
     “Your hairline looks like it’s receding,” she murmurs. 
     “It’s not,” I find myself saying. It’s hard to tell. My hair is very thick and I can’t tell if I’m 
  losing it. I really doubt it. 
  
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     I walk back to my place and say good night to a doorman I don’t recognize (he could 
  be anybody) and then dissolve into my living room high above the city, the sounds of the 
  Tokens singing “The Lion Sleeps Tonight” coming from the glow of the Wurlitzer 1015 
  jukebox (which is not as good as the hard-to-find Wurlitzer 850) that stands in the comer 
  of the living room. I masturbate, thinking about first Evelyn, then Courtney, then Vanden 
  and then Evelyn again, but right before I come—a weak orgasm—about a near-naked 
  model in a halter top I saw today in a Calvin Klein advertisement. 
  Morning 
     In the early light of a May dawn this is what the living room of my apartment looks like: 
  Over the white marble and granite gas-log fireplace hangs an original David Onica. It’s a 
  six-foot-by-four-foot portrait of a naked woman, mostly done in muted grays and olives, 
  sitting on a chaise longue watching MTV, the backdrop a Martian landscape, a gleaming 
  mauve desert scattered with dead, gutted fish, smashed plates rising like a sunburst 
  above the woman’s yellow head, and the whole thing is framed in black aluminum steel. 
  The painting overlooks a long white down-filled sofa and a thirty-inch digital TV set from 
  Toshiba; it’s a high-contrast highly defined model plus it has a four-corner video stand 
  with a high-tech tube combination from NEC with a picture-in-picture digital effects 
  system (plus freeze-frame); the audio includes built-in MTS and a five-watt-per-channel 
  on-board amp. A Toshiba VCR sits in a glass case beneath the TV set; it’s a super-high-
  band Beta unit and has built-in editing function including a character generator with 
  eight-page memory, a high-band record and playback, and three-week, eight-event 
  timer. A hurricane halogen lamp is placed in each corner of the living room. Thin white 
  venetian blinds cover all eight floor-to-ceiling windows. A glass-top coffee table with oak 
  legs by Turchin sits in front of the sofa, with Steuben glass animals placed strategically 
  around expensive crystal ashtrays from Fortunoff, though I don’t smoke. Next to the 
  Wurlitzer jukebox is a black ebony Baldwin concert grand piano. A polished white oak 
  floor runs throughout the apartment. On the other side of the room, next to a desk and a 
  magazine rack by Gio Ponti, is a complete stereo system (CD player, tape deck, tuner, 
  amplifier) by Sansui with six-foot Duntech Sovereign 2001 speakers in Brazilian 
  rosewood. A downfilled futon lies on an oakwood frame in the center of the bedroom. 
  Against the wall is a Panasonic thirty-one-inch set with a direct-view screen and stereo 
  sound and beneath it in a glass case is a Toshiba VCR. I’m not sure if the time on the 
  Sony digital alarm clock is correct so I have to sit up then look down at the time flashing 
  on and off on the VCR, then pick up the Ettore Sottsass push-button phone that rests on 
  the steel and glass nightstand next to the bed and dial the time number. A cream 
  leather, steel and wood chair designed by Eric Marcus is in one corner of the room, a 
  molded plywood chair in the other. A black-dotted beige and white Maud Sienna carpet 
  covers most of the floor. One wall is hidden by four chests of immense bleached 
  mahogany drawers. In bed I’m wearing Ralph Lauren silk pajamas and when I get up I 
  slip on a paisley ancient madder robe and walk to the bathroom. I urinate while trying to 
  make out the puffiness of my reflection in the glass that encases a baseball poster hung 
  above the toilet. After I change into Ralph Lauren monogrammed boxer shorts and a 
  Fair Isle sweater and slide into silk polka-dot Enrico Hidolin slippers I tie a plastic ice 
  pack around my face and commence with the morning’s stretching exercises. 
  Afterwards I stand in front of a chrome and acrylic Washmobile bathroom sink—with 
  soap dish, cup holder, and railings that serve as towel bars, which I bought at Hastings 
  Tile to use while the marble sinks I ordered from Finland are being sanded—and stare 
  at my reflection with the ice pack still on. I pour some Plax antiplaque formula into a 
  stainless-steel tumbler and swish it around my mouth for thirty seconds. Then I squeeze 
  Rembrandt onto a faux-tortoiseshell toothbrush and start brushing my teeth (too hung 
  over to floss properly—but maybe I flossed before bed last night?) and rinse with 
  Listerine. Then I inspect my hands and use a nailbrush. I take the ice-pack mask off and 
  use a deep-pore cleanser lotion, then an herb-mint facial masque which I leave on for 
  
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  ten minutes while I check my toenails. Then I use the Probright tooth polisher and next 
  the Interplak tooth polisher (this in addition to the toothbrush) which has a speed of 4200 
  rpm and reverses direction forty-six times per second; the larger tufts clean between 
  teeth and massage the gums while the short ones scrub the tooth surfaces. I rinse 
  again, with Cepacol. I wash the facial massage off with a spearmint face scrub. The 
  shower has a universal all-directional shower head that adjusts within a thirty-inch 
  vertical range. It’s made from Australian gold-black brass and covered with a white 
  enamel finish. In the shower I use first a water-activated gel cleanser, then a honey-
  almond body scrub, and on the face an exfoliating gel scrub. Vidal Sassoon shampoo is 
  especially good at getting rid of the coating of dried perspiration, salts, oils, airborne 
  pollutants and dirt that can weigh down hair and flatten it to the scalp which can make 
  you look older. The conditioner is also good—silicone technology permits conditioning 
  benefits without weighing down the hair which can also make you look older. On 
  weekends or before a date I prefer to use the Greune Natural Revitalizing Shampoo, the 
  conditioner and the Nutrient Complex. These are formulas that contain D-panthenol, a 
  vitamin-B-complex factor; polysorbate 80, a cleansing agent for the scalp; and natural 
  herbs. Over the weekend I plan to go to Bloomingdale’s or Bergdorf’s and on Evelyn’s 
  advice pick up a Foltene European Supplement and Shampoo for thinning hair which 
  contains complex carbohydrates that penetrate the hair shafts for improved strength and 
  shine. Also the Vivagen Hair Enrichment Treatment, a new Redken product that 
  prevents mineral deposits and prolongs the life cycle of hair. Luis Carruthers 
  recommended the Aramis Nutriplexx system, a nutrient complex that helps increase 
  circulation. Once out of the shower and toweled dry I put the Ralph Lauren boxers back 
  on and before applying the Mousse A Raiser, a shaving cream by Pour Hommes, I 
  press a hot towel against my face for two minutes to soften abrasive beard hair. Then I 
  always slather on a moisturizer (to my taste, Clinique) and let it soak in for a minute. 
  You can rinse it off or keep it on and apply a shaving cream over it—preferably with a 
  brush, which softens the beard as it lifts the whiskers—which I’ve found makes 
  removing the hair easier. It also helps prevent water from evaporating and reduces 
  friction between your skin and the blade. Always wet the razor with warm water before 
  shaving and shave in the direction the beard grows, pressing gently on the skin. Leave 
  the sideburns and chin for last, since these whiskers are tougher and need more time to 
  soften. Rinse the razor and shake off any excess water before starting. Afterwards 
  splash cool water on the face to remove any trace of lather. You should use an 
  aftershave lotion with little or no alcohol. Never use cologne on your face, since the high 
  alcohol content dries your face out and makes you look older. One should use an 
  alcohol-free antibacterial toner with a water-moistened cotton ball to normalize the skin. 
  Applying a moisturizer is the final step. Splash on water before applying an emollient 
  lotion to soften the skin and seal in the moisture. Next apply Gel Appaisant, also made 
  by Pour Hommes, which is an excellent, soothing skin lotion. If the face seems dry and 
  flaky—which makes it look dull and older—use a clarifying lotion that removes flakes 
  and uncovers fine skin (it can also make your tan look darker). Then apply an anti-aging 
  eye balm (Baume Des Yeux) followed by a final moisturizing “protective” lotion. A scalp-
  programming lotion is used after I towel my hair dry. I also lightly blow-dry the hair to 
  give it body and control (but without stickiness) and then add more of the lotion, shaping 
  it with a Kent natural-bristle brush, and finally slick it back with a wide-tooth comb. I pull 
  the Fair Isle sweater back on and reslip my feet into the polka-dot silk slippers, then 
  head into the living room and put the new Talking Heads in the CD player, but it starts to 
  digitally skip so I take it out and put in a CD laser lens cleaner. The laser lens is very 
  sensitive, and subject to interference from dust or dirt or smoke or pollutants or 
  moisture, and a dirty one can inaccurately read CDs, making for false starts, inaudible 
  passages, digital skipping, speed changes and general distortion; the lens cleaner has a 
  cleaning brush that automatically aligns with the lens then the disk spins to remove 
  residue and particles. When I put the Talking Heads CD back in it plays smoothly. I 
  retrieve the copy of USA Today that lies in front of my door in the hallway and bring it 
  
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  with me into the kitchen where I take two Advil, a multivitamin and a potassium tablet, 
  washing them down with a large bottle of Evian water since the maid, an elderly 
  Chinese woman, forgot to turn the dishwasher on when she left yesterday, and then I 
  have to pour the grapefruit-lemon juice into a St. Rémy wineglass I got from Baccarat. I 
  check the neon clock that hangs over the refrigerator to make sure I have enough time 
  to eat breakfast unhurriedly. Standing at the island in the kitchen I eat kiwifruit and a 
  sliced Japanese apple-pear (they cost four dollars each at Gristede’s) out of aluminum 
  storage boxes that were designed in West Germany. I take a bran muffin, a 
  decaffeinated herbal tea bag and a box of oat-bran cereal from one of the large glass-
  front cabinets that make up most of an entire wall in the kitchen; complete with 
  stainless-steel shelves and sandblasted wire glass, it is framed in a metallic dark gray-
  blue. I eat half of the bran muffin after it’s been microwaved and lightly covered with a 
  small helping of apple butter. A bowl of oat-bran cereal with wheat germ and soy milk 
  follows; another bottle of Evian water and a small cup of decaf tea after that. Next to the 
  Panasonic bread baker and the Salton Pop-Up coffee maker is the Cremina sterling 
  silver espresso maker (which is, oddly, still warm) that I got at Hammacher Schlemmer 
  (the thermal-insulated stainless-steel espresso cup and the saucer and spoon are sitting 
  by the sink, stained) and the Sharp Model R-1810A Carousel II microwave oven with 
  revolving turntable which I use when I heat up the other half of the bran muffin. Next to 
  the Salton Sonata toaster and the Cuisinart Little Pro food processor and the Acme 
  Supreme Juicerator and the Cordially Yours liqueur maker stands the heavy-gauge 
  stainless-steel two-and-one-half-quart teakettle, which whistles “Tea for Two” when the 
  water is boiling, and with it I make another small cup of the decaffeinated apple-
  cinnamon tea. For what seems like a long time I stare at the Black & Decker Handy 
  Knife that lies on the counter next to the sink, plugged into the wall: it’s a sliver/peeler 
  with several attachments, a serrated blade, a scalloped blade and a rechargeable 
  handle. The suit I wear today is from Alan Flusser. It’s an eighties drape suit, which is an 
  updated version of the thirties style. The favored version has extended natural 
  shoulders, a full chest and a bladed back. The soft-rolled lapels should be about four 
  inches wide with the peak finishing three quarters of the way across the shoulders. 
  Properly used on double-breasted suits, peaked lapels are considered more elegant 
  than notched ones. Low-slung pockets have a flapped double-besom design—above 
  the flap there’s a slit trimmed on either side with a flat narrow strip of cloth. Four buttons 
  form a low-slung square; above it, about where the lapels cross, there are two more 
  buttons. The trousers are deeply pleated and cut full in order to continue the flow of the 
  wide jacket. An extended waist is cut slightly higher in the front. Tabs make the 
  suspenders fit well at the center back. The tie is a dotted silk design by Valentino 
  Couture. The shoes are crocodile loafers by A. Testoni. While I’m dressing the TV is 
  kept on to The Patty Winters Show. Today’s guests are women with multiple 
  personalities. A nondescript overweight older woman is on the screen and Patty’s voice 
  is heard asking, “Well, is it schizophrenia or what’s the deal? Tell us.” 
     “No, oh no. Multiple personalities are not schizophrenics,” the woman says, shaking 
  her head. “We are not dangerous.” 
     “Well,” Patty starts, standing in the middle of the audience, microphone in hand. “Who 
  were you last month?” 
     “Last month it seemed to be mostly Polly,” the woman says. 
     A cut to the audience—a housewife’s worried face; before she notices herself on the 
  monitor, it cuts back to the multiple-personality woman. 
     “Well,” Patty continues, “now who are you?” 
     “Well…,” the woman begins tiredly, as if she was sick of being asked this question, as 
  if she had answered it over and over again and still no one believed it. “Well, this month 
  I’m… Lambchop. Mostly… Lambchop.” 
     A long pause. The camera cuts to a close-up of a stunned housewife shaking her 
  head, another housewife whispering something to her. 
     The shoes I’m wearing are crocodile loafers by A. Testoni. 
  
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     Grabbing my raincoat out of the closet in the entranceway I find a Burberry scarf and 
  matching coat with a whale embroidered on it (something a little kid might wear) and it’s 
  covered with what looks like dried chocolate syrup crisscrossed over the front, 
  darkening the lapels. I take the elevator downstairs to the lobby, rewinding my Rolex by 
  gently shaking my wrist. I say good morning to the doorman, step outside and hail a 
  cab, heading downtown toward Wall Street. 
  Harry’s 
     Price and I walk down Hanover Street in the darkest moments of twilight and as if 
  guided by radar move silently toward Harry’s. Timothy hasn’t said anything since we left 
  P & P. He doesn’t even comment on the ugly bum that crouches beneath a Dumpster 
  off Stone Street, though he does manage a grim wolf whistle toward a woman—big tits, 
  blonde, great ass, high heels—heading toward Water Street. Price seems nervous and 
  edgy and I have no desire to ask him what’s wrong. He’s wearing a linen suit by Canali 
  Milano, a cotton shirt by Ike Behar, a silk tie by Bill Blass and cap-toed leather lace-ups 
  from Brooks Brothers. I’m wearing a lightweight linen suit with pleated trousers, a cotton 
  shirt, a dotted silk tie, all by Valentino Couture, and perforated cap-toe leather shoes by 
  Allen-Edmonds. Once inside Harry’s we spot David Van Patten and Craig McDermott at 
  a table up front. Van Patten is wearing a double-breasted wool and silk sport coat, 
  button-fly wool and silk trousers with inverted pleats by Mario Valentino, a cotton shirt by 
  Gitman Brothers, a polka-dot silk tie by Bill Blass and leather shoes from Brooks 
  Brothers. McDermott is wearing a woven-linen suit with pleated trousers, a button-down 
  cotton and linen shirt by Basile, a silk tie by Joseph Abboud and ostrich loafers from 
  Susan Bennis Warren Edwards. 
     The two are hunched over the table, writing on the backs of paper napkins, a Scotch 
  and a martini placed respectively in front of them. They wave us over. Price throws his 
  Tumi leather attaché case on an empty chair and heads toward the bar. I call out to him 
  for a J&B on the rocks, then sit down with Van Patten and McDermott. 
     “Hey Bateman,” Craig says in a voice that suggests this is not his first martini. “Is it 
  proper to wear tasseled loafers with a business suit or not? Don’t look at me like I’m 
  insane.” 
     “Oh shit, don’t ask Bateman,” Van Patten moans, waving a gold Cross pen in front of 
  his face, absently sipping from the martini glass. 
     “Van Patten?” Craig says. 
     “Yeah?” 
     McDermott hesitates, then says “Shut up” in a flat voice. 
     “What are you screwballs up to?” I spot Luis Carruthers standing at the bar next to 
  Price, who ignores him utterly. Carruthers is not dressed well: a four-button double-
  breasted wool suit, I think by Chaps, a striped cotton shirt and a silk bow tie plus horn-
  rimmed eyeglasses by Oliver Peoples. 
     “Bateman: we’re sending these questions in to GQ,” Van Patten begins. 
     Luis spots me, smiles weakly, then, if I’m not mistaken, blushes and turns back to the 
  bar. Bartenders always ignore Luis for some reason. 
     “We have this bet to see which one of us will get in the Question and Answer column 
  first, and so now I expect an answer. What do you think?” McDermott demands. 
     “About what?” I ask irritably. 
     “Tasseled loafers, jerk-off,” he says. 
     “Well, guys…” I measure my words carefully. “The tasseled loafer is traditionally a 
  casual shoe…” I glance back at Price, wanting the drink badly. He brushes past Luis, 
  who offers his hand. Price smiles, says something, moves on, strides over to our table. 
  Luis, once more, tries to catch the bartender’s attention and once more fails. 
     “But it’s become acceptable just because it’s so popular, right?” Craig asks eagerly. 
     “Yeah.” I nod. “As long as it’s either black or cordovan it’s okay.” 
     “What about brown?” Van Patten asks suspiciously. 
  
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     I think about this then say, “Too sporty for a business suit.” 
     “What are you fags talking about?” Price asks. He hands me the drink then sits down, 
  crossing his legs. 
     “Okay, okay, okay,” Van Patten says. “This is my question. A two-parter…” He pauses 
  dramatically. “Now are rounded collars too dressy or too casual? Part two, which tie knot 
  looks best with them?” 
     A distracted Price, his voice still tense, answers quickly with an exact, clear 
  enunciation that can be heard over the din in Harry’s. “It’s a very versatile look and it can 
  go with both suits and sport coats. It should be starched for dressy occasions and a 
  collar pin should be worn if it’s particularly formal.” He pauses, sighs; it looks as if he’s 
  spotted somebody. I turn around to see who it is. Price continues, “If it’s worn with a 
  blazer then the collar should look soft and it can be worn either pinned or unpinned. 
  Since it’s a traditional, preppy look it’s best if balanced by a relatively small four-in-hand 
  knot.” He sips his martini, recrossing his legs. “Next question?” 
     “Buy the man a drink,” McDermott says, obviously impressed. 
     “Price?” Van Patten says. 
     “Yes?” Price says, casing the room. 
     “You’re priceless.” 
     “Listen,” I ask, “where are we having dinner?” 
     “I brought the trusty Mr. Zagat,” Van Patten says, pulling the long crimson booklet out 
  of his pocket and waving it at Timothy. 
     “Hoo-ray,” Price says dryly. 
     “What do we want to eat?” Me. 
     “Something blond with big tits.” Price. 
     “How about that Salvadorian bistro?” McDermott. 
     “Listen, we’re stopping by Tunnel afterwards so somewhere near there.” Van Patten. 
     “Oh shit,” McDermott begins. “We’re going to Tunnel? Last week I picked up this 
  Vassar chick—” 
     “Oh god, not again,” Van Patten groans. 
     “What’s your prob lem?” McDermott snaps back. 
     “I was there. I don’t need to hear this story again,” Van Patten says. 
     “But I never told you what happened afterwards, “ McDermott says, arching his 
  eyebrows. 
     “Hey, when were you guys there?” I ask. “Why wasn’t I invited?” 
     “You were on that fucking cruise thing. Now shut up and listen. So okay I picked up 
  this Vassar chick at Tunnel—hot number, big tits, great legs, this chick was a little 
  hardbody—and so I buy her a couple of champagne kirs and she’s in the city on spring 
  break and she’s practically blowing me in the Chandelier Room and so I take her back 
  to my place—” 
     “Whoa, wait,” I interrupt. “May I ask where Pamela is during all of this?” 
     Craig winces. “Oh fuck you. I want a blow job, Bateman. I want a chick who’s gonna 
  let me—” 
     “I don’t want to hear this,” Van Patten says, clamping his hands over his ears. “He’s 
  going to say something disgusting.” 
     “You prude,” McDermott sneers. “Listen, we’re not gonna invest in a co-op together or 
  jet down to Saint Bart’s. I just want some chick whose face I can sit on for thirty, forty 
  minutes.” 
     I throw my swizzle stick at him. 
     “Anyway, so we’re back at my place and listen to this.” He moves in closer to the 
  table. “She’s had enough champagne by now to get a fucking rhino tipsy, and get this—” 
     “She let you fuck her without a condom?” one of us asks. 
     McDermott rolls his eyes up. “This is a Vassar girl. She’s not from Queens.” 
     Price taps me on the shoulder. “What does that mean?” 
     “Anyway, listen,” McDermott says. “She would… are you ready?” He pauses 
  dramatically. “She would only give me a hand job, and get this… she kept her glove on.” 
  
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  He sits back in his chair and sips his drink in a smug, satisfied sort of way. 
     We all take this in solemnly. No one makes fun of McDermott’s revelatory statement or 
  of his inability to react more aggressively with this chick. No one says anything but we 
  are all thinking the same thought: Never pick up a Vassar girl. 
     “What you need is a chick from Camden,” Van Patten says, after recovering from 
  McDermott’s statement. 
     “Oh great,” I say. “Some chick who thinks it’s okay to fuck her brother.” 
     “Yeah, but they think AIDS is a new band from England,” Price points out. 
     “Where’s dinner?” Van Patten asks, absently studying the question scrawled on his 
  napkin. “Where the fuck are we going?” 
     “It’s really funny that girls think guys are concerned with that, with diseases and stuff,” 
  Van Patten says, shaking his head. 
     “I’m not gonna wear a fucking condom,” McDermott announces. 
     “I have read this article I’ve Xeroxed,” Van Patten says, “and it says our chances of 
  catching that are like zero zero zero zero point half a decimal percentage or something, 
  and this no matter what kind of scumbag, slutbucket, horndog chick we end up boffing.” 
     “Guys just cannot get it.” 
     “Well, not white guys.” 
     “This girl was wearing a fucking glove?” Price asks, still shocked. “A glove? Jesus, 
  why didn’t you just jerk off instead?” 
     “Listen, the dick also rises,” Van Patten says. “Faulkner.” 
     “Where did you go to college?” Price asks. “Pine Manor?” 
     “Men,” I announce: “Look who approaches.” 
     “Who?” Price won’t turn his head. 
     “Hint,” I say. “Biggest weasel at Drexel Burnham Lambert.” 
     “Connolly?” Price guesses. 
     “Hello, Preston,” I say, shaking Preston’s hand. 
     “Fellows,” Preston says, standing over the table, nodding to everyone. “I’m sorry about 
  not making dinner with you guys tonight.” Preston is wearing a double-breasted wool 
  suit by Alexander Julian, a cotton shirt and a silk Perry Ellis tie. He bends down, 
  balancing himself by putting a hand on the back of my chair. “I feel really bad about 
  canceling, but commitments, you know.” 
     Price gives me an accusatory look and mouths “Was he invited?” 
     I shrug and finish what’s left of the J&B. 
     “What did you do last night?” McDermott asks, and then, “Nice threads.” 
     “Who did he do last night?” Van Patten corrects. 
     “No, no,” Preston says. “Very respectable, decent evening. No babes, no blow, no 
  brew. Went to The Russian Tea Room with Alexandra and her parents. She calls her 
  father—get this—Billy. But I’m so fucking tired and only one S toli.” He takes off his 
  glasses (Oliver Peoples, of course) and yawns, wiping them clean with an Armani 
  handkerchief. “I’m not sure, but I think our like weird Orthodox waiter dropped some acid 
  in the borscht. I’m so fucking tired.” 
     “What are you doing instead?” Price asks, clearly uninterested. 
     “Have to return these videos, Vietnamese with Alexandra, a musical, Broadway, 
  something British,” Preston says, scanning the room. 
     “Hey Preston,” Van Patten says. “We’re gonna send in the GQ questions. You got 
  one?” 
     “Oh yeah, I’ve got one,” Preston says. “Okay, so when wearing a tuxedo how do you 
  keep the front of your shirt from riding up?” 
     Van Patten and McDermott sit silently for a minute before Craig, concerned and his 
  brow creased in thought, says, ‘That’s a good one.” 
     “Hey Price,” Preston says. “Do you have one?” 
     “Yeah,” Price sighs. “If all of your friends are morons is it a felony, a misdemeanor or 
  an act of God if you blow their fucking heads off with a thirty-eight magnum?” 
     “Not GQ material,” McDermott says. “Try Soldier of Fortune.” 
  
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     “Or Vanity Fair.” Van Patten. 
     “Who is that?” Price asks, staring over at the bar. “Is that Reed Robison? And by the 
  way, Preston, you simply have a tab with a buttonhole sewn into the front of the shirt, 
  which can then be attached by a button to your trousers; and make sure that the stiff 
  pleated front of the shirt doesn’t extend below the waistband of your trousers or it will 
  rise up when you sit down now is that jerk Reed Robison? It looks a hell uva lot like 
  him.” 
     Stunned by Price’s remarks, Preston slowly turns around, still on his haunches, and 
  after he puts his glasses back on, squints over at the bar. “No, that’s Nigel Morrison.” 
     “Ah,” Price exclaims. “One of those young British faggots serving internship at…?” 
     “How do you know he’s a faggot?” I ask him. 
     “They’re all faggots.” Price shrugs. “The British.” 
     “How would you know, Timothy?” Van Patten grins. 
     “I saw him fuck Bateman up the ass in the men’s room at Morgan Stanley,” Price says. 
     I sigh and ask Preston, “Where is Morrison interning?” 
     “I forget,” Preston says, scratching his head. “Lazard?” 
     “Where?” McDermott presses. “First Boston? Goldman?” 
     “I’m not sure,” Preston says. “Maybe Drexel? Listen, he’s just an assistant corporate 
  finance analyst and his ugly, blacktooth girlfriend is in some dinky rat hole doing 
  leveraged buy outs.” 
     .’Where are we eat ing?” I ask, my patience at an all-time low. “We need to make a 
  reservation. I’m not standing at some fucking bar.” 
     “What in the fuck is Morrison wearing?” Preston asks himself. “Is that really a glen-
  plaid suit with a checkered shirt?” 
     “That’s not Morrison,” Price says. 
     “Who is it then?” Preston asks, taking his glasses off again. 
     “That’s Paul Owen,” Price says. 
     “That’s not Paul Owen,” I say. “Paul Owen’s on the other side of the bar. Over there.” 
     Owen stands at the bar wearing a double-breasted wool suit. 
     “He’s handling the Fisher account,” someone says. 
     “Lucky bastard,” someone else murmurs. 
     “Lucky Jew bastard,” Preston says. 
     “Oh Jesus, Preston,” I say. “What does that have to do with anything?” 
     “Listen, I’ve seen the bastard sitting in his office on the phone with CEOs, spinning a 
  fucking menorah. The bastard brought a Hanukkah bush into the office last December,” 
  Preston says suddenly, peculiarly animated. 
     “You spin a dreidel, Preston,” I say calmly, “not a menorah. You spin a dreidel.” 
     “Oh my god, Bateman, do you want me to go over to the bar and ask Freddy to fry you 
  up some fucking potato pancakes?” Preston asks, truly alarmed. “Some… latkes?” 
     “No,” I say. “Just cool it with the anti-Semitic remarks.” 
     “The voice of reason.” Price leans forward to pat me on the back. “The boy next door.” 
     “Yeah, a boy next door who according to you let a British corporate finance analyst 
  intern sodomize him up the ass,” I say ironically. 
     “I said you were the voice of reason,” Price says. “I didn’t say you weren’t a 
  homosexual.” 
     “Or redundant,” Preston adds. 
     “Yeah,” I say, staring directly at Price. “Ask Meredith if I’m a homosexual. That is, if 
  she’ll take the time to pull my dick out of her mouth.” 
     “Meredith’s a fag hag,” Price explains, unfazed, “that’s why I’m dumping her.” 
     “Oh wait, guys, listen, I got a joke.” Preston rubs his hands together. 
     “Preston,” Price says, “you are a joke. You do know you weren’t invited to dinner. By 
  the way, nice jacket; nonmatching but complementary.” 
     “Price, you are a bastard, you are so fucking mean to me it hurts,” Preston says, 
  laughing. “Anyway, so JFK and Pearl Bailey meet at this party and they go back to the 
  Oval Office to have sex and so they fuck and then JFK goes to sleep and…” Preston 
  
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  stops. “Oh gosh, now what happens… Oh yeah, so Pearl Bailey says Mr. President I 
  wanna fuck you again and so he says I’m going to sleep now and in… thirty-no, wait…” 
  Preston pauses again, confused. “Now… no, sixty minutes… no… okay, thirty minutes 
  I’ll wake up and we’ll do it again but you’ve got to keep one hand on my cock and the 
  other on my balls and she says okay but why do I have to keep one hand on your dick 
  and one… one hand on your balls… and…” He notices that Van Patten is idly doodling 
  something on the back of a napkin. “Hey Van Patten—are you listening to me?” 
     “I’m lis tening,” Van Patten says, irritated. “Go ahead. Finish it. One hand on my cock, 
  one hand on my balls, go on.” 
     Luis Carruthers is still standing at the bar waiting for a drink. Now it looks to me like 
  his silk bow tie is by Agnes B. It’s all unclear. 
     “I’m not,” Price says. 
     “And he says because...” Again Preston falters. There’s a long silence. Preston looks 
  at me. 
     “Don’t look at me,” I say. “It’s not my joke.” 
     “And he says… My mind’s a blank.” 
     “Is that the punch line—My mind’s a blank?” McDermott asks. 
     “He says, um, because…” Preston puts a hand over his eyes and thinks about it. “Oh 
  gosh, I can’t believe I forgot this…” 
     “Oh great, Preston.” Price sighs. “You are one unfunny bastard.” 
     “My mind’s a blank?” Craig asks me. “I don’t get it.” 
     “Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah,” Preston says. “Listen, I remember. Because the last 
  time I fucked a nigger she stole my wallet.” He starts chuckling immediately. And after a 
  short moment of silence, the table cracks up too, except for me. 
     “That’s it, that’s the punch line,” Preston says proudly, relieved. 
     Van Patten gives him high-five. Even Price laughs. 
     “Oh Christ,” I say. “That’s awful.” 
     ..Why?.. won says. “It’s funny. It’s humor.” 
     “Yeah, Bateman,” McDermott says. “Cheer up.” 
     “Oh I forgot. Bateman’s dating someone from the ACLU,” Price says. “What bothers 
  you about that?” 
     “It’s not funny,” I say. “It’s racist.” 
     “Bateman, you are some kind of morose bastard,” Preston says. “You should stop 
  reading all those Ted Bundy biographies.” Preston stands up and checks his Rolex. 
  “Listen men, I’m off. Will see you tomorrow.” 
     “Yeah. Same Bat Time, same Bat Channel,” Van Patten says, nudging me. 
     Preston leans forward before leaving. “Because the last time I fucked a nigger she 
  stole my wallet.” 
     “I get it. I get it,” I say, pushing him away. 
     “Remember this, guys: Few things perform in life as well as a Kenwood.” He exits. 
     “Yabba-dabba-do,” Van Patten says. 
     “Hey, did anyone know cavemen got more fiber than we get?” McDermott asks. 
  Pastels 
     I’m on the verge of tears by the time we arrive at Pastels since I’m positive we won’t 
  get seated but the table is good, and relief that is almost tidal in scope washes over me 
  in an awesome wave. At Pastels McDermott knows the maître d’ and though we made 
  our reservations from a cab only minutes ago we’re immediately led past the 
  overcrowded bar into the pink, brightly lit main dining room and seated at an excellent 
  booth for four, up front. It’s really impossible to get a reservation at Pastels and I think 
  Van Patter, myself, even Price, are impressed by, maybe even envious of, McDermott’s 
  prowess in securing a table. After we piled into a cab on Water Street we realized that 
  no one had made reservations anywhere and while debating the merits of a new 
  Californian-Sicilian bistro on the Upper East Side—my panic so great I almost ripped 
  
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  Zagat in two—the consensus seemed to emerge. Price had the only dissenting voice 
  but he finally shrugged and said, “I don’t give a shit,” and we used his portaphone to 
  make the reservation. He slipped his Walkman on and turned the volume up so loud that 
  the sound of Vivaldi was audible even with the windows halfway open and the noise of 
  the uptown traffic blasting into the taxi. Van Patter and McDermott made rude jokes 
  about the size of Tim’s dick and I did too. Outside Pastels Tim grabbed the napkin with 
  Van Patter’s final version of his carefully phrased question for GQ on it and tossed it at a 
  bum huddling outside the restaurant feebly holding up a sloppy cardboard sign: I AM 
  HUNGRY AND HOMELESS PLEASE HELP ME. 
     Things seem to be going smoothly. The maître d’ has sent over four complimentary 
  Bellinis but we order drinks anyway. The Ronettes are singing “Then He Kissed Me,” our 
  waitress is a little hardbody and even Price seems relaxed though he hates the place. 
  Plus there are four women at the table opposite ours, all great-looking—blond, big tits: 
  one is wearing a chemise dress in double-faced wool by Calvin Klein, another is wearing 
  a wool knit dress and jacket with silk faille bonding by Geoffrey Beene, another is 
  wearing a symmetrical skirt of pleated tulle and an embroidered velvet bustier by, I think, 
  Christian Lacroix plus high-heeled shoes by Sidonie Larizzi, and the last one is wearing 
  a black strapless sequined gown under a wool crepe tailored jacket by Bill Blass. Now 
  the Shirelles are coming out of the speakers, “Dancing in the Street,” and the sound 
  system plus the acoustics, because of the restaurant’s high ceiling, are so loud that we 
  have to practically scream out our order to the hardbody waitress—who is wearing a 
  bicolored suit of wool grain with passementerie trim by Myrone de Prémonville and 
  velvet ankle boots and who, I’m fairly sure, is flirting with me: laughs sexily when I order, 
  as an appetizer, the monkfish and squid ceviche with golden caviar; gives me a stare so 
  steamy, so penetrating when I order the gravlax potpie with green tomatillo sauce I have 
  to look back at the pink Bellini in the tall champagne flute with a concerned, deadly 
  serious expression so as not to let her think I’m too interested. Price orders the tapas 
  and then the venison with yogurt sauce and fiddlehead ferns with mango slices. 
  McDermott orders the sashimi with goat cheese and then the smoked duck with endive 
  and maple syrup. Van Patten has the scallop sausage and the grilled salmon with 
  raspberry vinegar and guacamole. The air-conditioning in the restaurant is on full blast 
  and I’m beginning to feel bad that I’m not wearing the new Versace pullover I bought last 
  week at Bergdorfs. It would look good with the suit I’m wearing. 
     “Could you please get rid of these things,” Price tells the busboy as he gestures 
  toward the Bellinis. 
     “Wait, Tim,” Van Patten says. “Cool out.I’ll drink them.” 
     “Euro trash, David,” Price explains. “Euro trash.” 
     “You can have mine, Van Patten,” I say. 
     “Wait,” McDermott says, holding the busboy back. “I’m keeping mine too.” 
     “Why?” Price asks. “Are you trying to entice that Armenian chick over by the bar?” 
     “What Armenian chick?” Van Patten is suddenly craning his neck, interested. 
     “Just take them all,” Price says, practically seething. 
     The busboy humbly removes the glasses, nodding to no one as he walks away. 
     “Who made you boss?” McDermott whines. 
     “Look, guys. Look who just came in.” Van Patten whistles. “Oh boy.” 
     “Oh for Christ sakes, not fucking Preston,” Price sighs. 
     “No. Oh no,” Van Patten says ominously. “He hasn’t spotted us yet.” 
     “Victor Powell? Paul Owen?” I say, suddenly scared. 
     “He’s twenty-four and worth, oh, let’s say, a repulsive amount of dough,” Van Patten 
  hints, grinning. He has obviously been spotted by the person and flashes a bright, toothy 
  smile. “A veritable shit load.” 
     I crane my neck but can’t figure out who’s doing anything. 
     “It’s Scott Montgomery,” Price says. “Isn’t it? It’s Scott Montgomery.” 
     “Perhaps,” Van Patten teases. 
     “It’s that dwarf Scott Montgomery,” says Price. 
  
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     “Price,” Van Patten says. “You’re priceless.” 
     “Watch me act thrilled,” Price says, turning around. “Well, as thrilled as I can get 
  meeting someone from Georgia.” 
     “Whoa,” McDermott says. “And he’s dressed to impress.” 
     “Hey,” Price says. “I’m depressed, I mean impressed.” 
     “Wow,” I say, spotting Montgomery. “Elegant navies.” 
     “Subtle plaids,” Van Patten whispers. 
     “Lotsa beige,” Price says. “You know.” 
     “Here he comes,” I say, bracing myself. 
     Scott Montgomery walks over to our booth wearing a double-breasted navy blue 
  blazer with mock-tortoiseshell buttons, a prewashed wrinkled-cotton striped dress shirt 
  with red accent stitching, a red, white and blue fireworks-print silk tie by Hugo Boss and 
  plum washed-wool trousers with a quadruple-pleated front and slashed pockets by 
  Lazo. He’s holding a glass of champagne and hands it to the girl he’s with—definite 
  model type, thin, okay tits, no ass, high heels—and she’s wearing a wool-crepe skirt and 
  a wool and cashmere velour jacket and draped over her arm is a wool and cashmere 
  velour coat, all by Louis Dell’OliO. High-heeled shoes by Susan Bennis Warren 
  Edwards. Sunglasses by Alain Mikli. Pressed-leather bag from Hermès. 
     “Hey fellas. How y’all doin?” Montgomery speaks in a thick Georgia twang. “This is 
  Nicki. Nicki, this is McDonald, Van Buren, Bateman—nice tan—and Mr. Price.” He 
  shakes only Timothy’s hand and then takes the champagne glass from Nicki. Nicki 
  smiles, politely, like a robot, probably doesn’t speak English. 
     “Montgomery,” Price says in a kindly, conversational tone, staring at Nicki. “How have 
  things been?” 
     “Well, fellas,” Montgomery says. “See y’all got the primo table. Get the check yet? Just 
  kidding.” 
     “Listen, Montgomery,” Price says, staring at Nicki but still being unusually kind to 
  someone I thought was a stranger. “Squash?” 
     “Call me,” Montgomery says absently, looking over the room. “Is that Tyson? Here’s 
  my card.” 
     “Great,” Price says, pocketing it. “Thursday?” 
     “Can’t. Going to Dallas tomorrow but…” Montgomery is already moving away from the 
  table, hurrying toward someone else, snapping for Nicki. “Yeah, next week.” 
     Nicki smiles at me, then looks at the floor—pink, blue, lime green tiles crisscrossing 
  each other in triangular patterns—as if it had some kind of answer, held some sort of 
  clue, offered a coherent reason as to why she was stuck with Montgomery. Idly I wonder 
  if she’s older than him, and then if she’s flirting with me. 
     “Later,” Price is saying. 
     “Later, fellas…” Montgomery is already about halfway across the room. Nicki slinks 
  behind him. I was wrong: she does have an ass. 
     “Eight hundred million.” McDermott whistles, shaking his head. 
     “College?” I ask. 
     “A joke,” Price hints. 
     “Rollins?” I guess. 
     “Get this,” McDermott says. “Hampden-Sydney.” 
     “He’s a parasite, a loser, a weasel,” Van Patten concludes. 
     “But he’s worth eight hundred million,” McDermott repeats emphatically. 
     “Go over and give the dwarf head— will that shut you’up?” Price says. “I mean how 
  impressed can you get, McDermott?” 
     “Anyway,” I mention, “nice babe.” 
     “That girl is hot,” McDermott agrees. 
     “Affirmative.” Price nods, but grudgingly. 
     “Oh man,” Van Patten says, distressed. “I know that chick.” 
     “Oh bullshit,” we all moan. 
     “Let me guess,” I say. “Picked her up at Tunnel, right?” 
  
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     “No,” he says, then after sipping his drink, “She’s a model. Anorexic, alcoholic, uptight 
  bitch. Totally French.” 
     “What a joke you are,” I say, unsure if he’s lying. 
     “Wanna bet?” 
     “So what?” McDermott shrugs. “I’d fuck her.” 
     “She drinks a liter of Stoli a day then throws it up and redrinks it, McDermott,” Van 
  Patten explains. “Total alkie.” 
     “Total cheap alkie,” Price murmurs. 
     “I don’t care,” McDermott says bravely. “She is beautiful. I want to fuck her. I want to 
  marry her. I want her to have my children.” 
     “Oh Jesus,” Van Patten says, practically gagging. “Who wants to marry a chick who’s 
  gonna give birth to a jug of vodka and cranberry juice?” 
     “He has a point,” I say. 
     “Yeah. He also wants to shack up with the Armenian chick at the bar,” Price sneers. 
  “What’ll she give birth to—a bottle of Korbel and a pint of peach juice?” 
     “What Armenian chick?” McDermott asks, exasperated, craning his neck. 
     “Oh Jesus. Fuck off, you faggots.” Van Patten sighs. 
     The maître d’ stops by to say hello to McDermott, then notices we don’t have our 
  complimentary Bellinis, and runs off before any of us can stop him. I’m not sure how 
  McDermott knows Alain so well—maybe Cecelia?—and it slightly pisses me off but I 
  decide to even up the score a little bit by showing everyone my new business card. I pull 
  it out of my gazelleskin wallet (Barney’s, $850) and slap it on the table, waiting for 
  reactions. 
     “What’s that, a gram?” Price says, not apathetically. 
     “New card.” I try to act casual about it but I’m smiling proudly. “What do you think?” 
     “Whoa,” McDermott says, lifting it up, fingering the card, genuinely impressed. “Very 
  nice. Take a look.” He hands it to Van Patten. 
     “Picked them up from the printer’s yesterday,” I mention. 
     “Cool coloring,” Van Patten says, studying the card closely. 
     “That’s bone,” I point out. “And the lettering is something called Silian Rail.” 
     “Silian Rail?” McDermott asks. 
     “Yeah. Not bad, huh?” 
     “It is very cool, Bateman,” Van Patten says guardedly, the jealous bastard, “but that’s 
  nothing….” He pulls out his wallet and slaps a card next to an ashtray. “Look at this.” 
     We all lean over and inspect David’s card and Price quietly says, “That’s really nice.” 
  A brief spasm of jealousy courses through me when I notice the elegance of the color 
  and the classy type. I clench my fist as Van Patten says, smugly, “Eggshell with 
  Romalian type…” He turns to me. “What do you think?” 
     “Nice,” I croak, but manage to nod, as the busboy brings four fresh Bellinis. 
     “Jesus,” Price says, holding the card up to the light, ignoring the new drinks. “This is 
  really super. How’d a nitwit like you get so tasteful?” 
     I’m looking at Van Patten’s card and then at mine and cannot believe that Price 
  actually likes Van Patten’s better. 
     Dizzy, I sip my drink then take a deep breath. 
     “But wait,” Price says. “You ain’t seen nothin’ yet…” He pulls his out of an inside coat 
  pocket and slowly, dramatically turns it over for our inspection and says, “Mine.” 
     Even I have to admit it’s magnificent. 
     Suddenly the restaurant seems far away, hushed, the noise distant, a meaningless 
  hum, compared to this card, and we all hear Price’s words: “Raised lettering, pale 
  nimbus white…” 
     “Holy shit,” Van Patten exclaims. “I’ve never seen…” 
     “Nice, very nice,” I have to admit. “But wait. Let’s see Montgomery’s.” 
     Price pulls it out and though he’s acting nonchalant, I don’t see how he can ignore its 
  subtle off-white coloring, its tasteful thickness. I am unexpectedly depressed that I 
  started this. 
  
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     “Pizza. Let’s order a pizza,” McDermott says. “Doesn’t anyone want to split a pizza? 
  Red snapper? Mmmmm. Bateman wants that,” he says, rubbing his hands eagerly 
  together. 
     I pick up Montgomery’s card and actually finger it, for the sensation the card gives off 
  to the pads of my fingers. 
     “Nice, huh?” Price’s tone suggests he realizes I’m jealous. 
     “Yeah,” I say offhandedly, giving Price the card like I don’t give a shit, but I’m finding it 
  hard to swallow. 
     “Red snapper pizza,” McDermott reminds me. “I’m fucking starving.” 
     “No pizza,” I murmur, relieved when Montgomery’s card is placed away, out of sight, 
  back in Timothy’s pocket. 
     “Come on,” McDermott says, whining. “Let’s order the red upper pizza.” 
     “Shut up, Craig,” Van Patten says, eyeing a waitress taking a booth’s order. “But call 
  that hardbody over.” 
     “But she’s not ours,” McDermott says, fidgeting with the menu he’s yanked from a 
  passing busboy. 
     “Call her over any way,” Van Patten insists. “Ask her for water or a Corona or 
  something.” 
     “Why her?” I’m asking no one in particular. My card lies on the table, ignored next to 
  an orchid in a blue glass vase. Gently I pick it up and slip it, folded, back into my wallet. 
     “She looks exactly like this girl who works in the Georgette Klinger section of 
  Bloomingdale’s,” Van Patten says. “Call her over.” 
     “Does anyone want the pizza or not?” McDermott’s getting testy. 
     “How would you know?” I ask Van Patten. 
     “I buy Kate’s perfume there,” he answers. 
     Price’s gestures gather the table’s attention. “Did I forget to tell everyone that 
  Montgomery’s a dwarf?” 
     “Who’s Kate?” I say. 
     “Kate is the chick who Van Patter’s having the affair with,” Price explains, staring back 
  at Montgomery’s table. 
     “What happened to Miss Kitt ridge?” I ask. 
     “Yeah,” Price smiles. “What about Amanda?” 
     “Oh god, guys, lighten up. Fidelity? Right.” 
     “Aren’t you afraid of diseases?” Price asks. 
     “From who, Amanda or Kate?” I ask. 
     “I thought we agreed that we can’t get it.” Van Patten’s voice rises. “So-o-o-o… 
  shithead. Shut up.” 
     “Didn’t I tell you—” 
     Four more Bellinis arrive. There are now eight Bellinis on the table. 
     “Oh my god,” Price moans, trying to grab at the busboy before he scampers off. 
     “Red snapper pizza… red snapper pizza…” McDermott has found a mantra for the 
  evening. 
     “We’ll soon become targets for horny Iranian chicks,” Price drones. 
     “It’s like zero zero zero percentage whatever, you know—are you listening?” Van 
  Patten asks. 
     “…snapper pizza… red snapper pizza…” Then McDermott slams his hand on the 
  table, rocking it. “Goddamnit, isn’t anybody listening to me?” 
     I’m still tranced out on Montgomery’s card—the classy coloring, the thickness, the 
  lettering, the print—and I suddenly raise a fist as if to strike out at Craig and scream, my 
  voice booming, “No one wants the fucking red snapper pizza! A pizza should be yeasty 
  and slightly bready and have a cheesy crust! The crusts here are too fucking thin 
  because the shithead chef who cooks here overbakes everything! The pizza is dried out 
  and brittle!” Red-faced, I slam my Bellini down on the table and when I look up our 
  appetizers have arrived. A hardbody waitress stands looking down at me with this 
  strange, glazed expression. I wipe a hand over my face, genially smiling up at her. She 
  
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  stands there looking at me as if I were some kind of monster—she actually looks scared 
  —and I glance over at Price—for what? guidance?—and he mouths “Cigars” and pats 
  his coat pocket. 
     McDermott quietly says, “I don’t think they’re brittle.” 
     “Honey,” I say, ignoring McDermott, taking an arm and pulling her toward me. She 
  flinches but I smile and she lets me pull her closer. “Now we’re all going to eat a nice big 
  meal here—” I start to explain. 
     “But this isn’t what I ordered,” Van Patten says, looking at his plate. “I wanted the 
  mussel sausage.” 
     “Shut up.” I shoot him a glance then calmly turn toward the hardbody, grinning like an 
  idiot, but a handsome idiot. “Now listen, we are good customers here and we’re 
  probably going to order some fine brandy, cognac, who knows, and we want to relax 
  and bask in this”—I gesture with my arm—“atmosphere. Now”—with the other hand I 
  pull out my gazelleskin wallet—“we would like to enjoy some fine Cuban cigars 
  afterwards and we don’t want to be bothered by some lout ish—” 
     “Lout ish.” McDermott nods to Van Patten and Price. 
     “Lout ish and inconsiderate patrons or tourists who are inevitably going to complain 
  about our innocuous little habit… So”—I press what I hope is fifty into a small-boned 
  hand—“if you could make sure we aren’t bothered while we do, we would grate fully 
  appreciate it.” I rub the hand, closing it into a fist over the bill. “And if anyone complains, 
  well…” I pause, then warn menacingly, “Kick ‘em out.” 
     She nods mutely and backs away with this dazed, confused look on her face. 
     “And,” Price adds, smiling, “if another round of Bellinis comes within a twenty-foot 
  radius of this table we are going to set the maître d’ on fire. So, you know, warn him.” 
     After a long silence during which we contemplate our appetizers, Van Patten speaks 
  up. “Bateman?” 
     “Yes?” I fork a piece of monkfish, push it into some of the golden caviar, then place 
  the fork back down. 
     “You are pure prep perfection,” he purrs. 
     Price spots another waitress approaching with a tray of four champagne flutes filled 
  with pale pinkish liquid and says, “Oh for Christ sakes, this is getting ridi culous…” She 
  sets them down, however, at the table next to us, for the four babes. 
     “She is hot, “ Van Patten says, ignoring his scallop sausage. 
     “Hardbody.” McDermott nods in agreement. “Definitely.” 
     “I’m not impressed,” Price sniffs. “Look at her knees.” 
     While the hardbody stands there we check her out, and though her knees do support 
  long, tan legs, I can’t help noticing that one knee is, admittedly, bigger than the other 
  one. The left knee is knobbier, almost imperceptibly thicker than the right knee and this 
  unnoticeable flaw now seems overwhelming and we all lose interest. Van Patten is 
  looking at his appetizer, stunned, and then he looks at McDermott and says, “That isn’t 
  what you ordered either. That’s sushi, not sashimi.” 
     “Jesus,” McDermott sighs. “You don’t come here for the food anyway.” 
     Some guy who looks exactly like Christopher Lauder comes over to the table and 
  says, patting me on the shoulder, “Hey Hamilton, nice tan,” before walking into the 
  men’s room. 
     “Nice tan, Hamilton,” Price mimics, tossing tapas onto my bread plate. 
     “Oh gosh,” I say, “hope I’m not blushin’.” 
     “Actually, where do you go, Bateman?” Van Patten asks. “For a tan.” 
     “Yeah, Bateman. Where do you go?” McDermott seems genuinely intrigued. 
     “Read my lips,” I say, “a tanning salon,” then irritably, “like everyone else.” 
     “I have,” Van Patten says, pausing for maximum impact, “a tanning bed at… home,” 
  and then he takes a large bite out of his scallop sausage. 
     “Oh bullshit,” I say, cringing. 
     “It’s true,” McDermott confirms, his mouth full. “I’ve seen it.” 
     “That is fuck ing outrageous,” I say. 
  
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     “Why the hell is it fuck ing outrageous?” Price asks, pushing tapas around his plate 
  with a fork. 
     “Do you know how expensive a fucking tanning salon membership is?” Van Patten 
  asks me. “A member ship for a year?” 
     “You’re crazy,” I mutter. 
     “Look, guys,” Van Patten says. “Bateman’s indignant.” 
     Suddenly a busboy appears at our table and without asking if we’re finished removes 
  our mostly uneaten appetizers. None of us complain except for McDermott, who asks, 
  “Did he just take our appetizers away?” and then laughs uncomprehendingly. But when 
  he sees no one else laughing he stops. 
     “He took them away because the portions are so small he probably thought we were 
  finished,” Price says tiredly. 
     “I just think that’s crazy about the tanning bed,” I tell Van Patten, though secretly I 
  think it would be a hip luxury except I really have no room for one in my apartment. 
  There are things one could do with it besides getting a tan. 
     “Who is Paul Owen with?” I hear McDermott asking Price. 
     “Some weasel from Kicker Peabody,” Price says distractedly. “He knew McCoy.” 
     “Then why is he sitting with those dweebs from Drexel?” McDermott asks. “Isn’t that 
  Spencer Wynn?” 
     “Are you freebasing or what?” Price asks. “‘That’s not Spencer Wynn.” 
     I look over at Paul Owen, sitting in a booth with three other guys—one of whom could 
  be Jeff Duvall, suspenders, slicked-back hair, horn-rimmed glasses, all of them drinking 
  champagne—and I lazily wonder about how Owen got the Fisher account. It makes me 
  not hungry but our meals arrive almost immediately after our appetizers are taken away 
  and we begin to eat. McDermott undoes his suspenders. Price calls him a slob. I feel 
  paralyzed but manage to turn away from Owen and stare at my plate (the potpie a 
  yellow hexagon, strips of smoked salmon circling it, squiggles of pea-green tomatillo 
  sauce artfully surrounding the dish) and then I gaze at the waiting crowd. They seem 
  hostile, drunk on complimentary Bellinis perhaps, tired of waiting hours for shitty tables 
  near the open kitchen even though they had reservations. Van Patten interrupts the 
  silence at our table by slamming his fork down and pushing his chair back. 
     “What’s wrong?” I say, looking up from my plate, a fork poised over it, but my hand will 
  not move; it’s as if it appreciated the plate’s setup too much, as if my hand had a mind of 
  its own and refused to break up its design. I sigh and put the fork down, hopeless. 
     “Shit. I have to tape this movie on cable for Mandy.” He wipes his mouth with a napkin, 
  stands up. “I’ll be back.” 
     “Have her do it, idiot,” Price says. “What are you, demented?” 
     “She’s in Boston, seeing her den tist.” Van Patten shrugs, pussywhipped. 
     “What in the hell are you going to do?” My voice wavers. I’m still thinking about Van 
  Patten’s card. “Call up HBO?” 
     “No;” he says. “I have a touch-tone phone hooked up to program a Videonics VCR 
  programmer I bought at Hammacher Schlemmer.” He walks away pulling his 
  suspenders up. 
     “How hip,” I say tonelessly. 
     “Hey, what do you want for dessert?” McDermott calls out. 
     “Something chocolate and flourless,” he shouts back. 
     “Has Van Patten stopped working out?” I ask. “He looks puffy.” 
     “It looks that way, doesn’t it,” Price says. 
     “Doesn’t he have a membership at the Vertical Club?” I ask. 
     “I don’t know,” Price murmurs, studying his plate, then sitting up he pushes it away 
  and motions to the waitress for another Finlandia on the rocks. 
     Another hardbody waitress approaches us tentatively, bringing over a bottle of 
  champagne, Perrier-Jouët, nonvintage, and tells us it’s complimentary from Scott 
  Montgomery. 
     “Nonvintage, that weasel,” Price hisses, craning his neck to find Montgomery’s table. 
  
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  “Loser.” He gives him a thumbs-up sign from across the room. “The fucker’s so short I 
  could barely see him. I think I gave thumbs-up to Conrad. I can’t be sure.” 
     “Where’s Conrad?” I ask. “I should say hello to him.” 
     “The dude who called you Hamilton,” Price says. 
     “That wasn’t Conrad,” I say. 
     “Are you sure? It looked a helluva lot like him,” he says but he’s not really listening; he 
  blatantly stares at the hardbody waitress, at exposed cleavage as she leans down to get 
  a firmer grip on the bottle’s cork. 
     “No. That wasn’t Con rad,” I say, surprised at Price’s inability to recognize co-workers. 
  “That guy had a better haircut.” 
     We sit in silence while the hardbody pours the champagne. Once she leaves, 
  McDermott asks if we liked the food. I tell him the potpie was fine but there was way too 
  much tomatillo sauce. McDermott nods, says, “That’s what I’ve heard.” 
     Van Patten returns, mumbling, “They don’t have a good bathroom to do coke in.” 
     “Dessert?” McDermott suggests. 
     “Only if I can order the Bellini sorbet,” Price says, yawning. 
     “How about just the check,” Van Patten says. 
     “Time to go bird-dogging, gentlemen,” I say. 
     The hardbody brings the check over. The total is $475, much less than we expected. 
  We split it but I need the cash so I put it on my platinum AmEx and collect their bills, 
  mostly fresh fifties. McDermott demands ten dollars back since his scallop sausage 
  appetizer was only sixteen bucks. Montgomery’s bottle of champagne is left at the table, 
  undrunk. Outside Pastels a different bum sits in the street, with a sign that says 
  something completely illegible. He gently asks us for some change and then, more 
  hopefully, for some food. 
     “That dude needs a facial real bad,” I say. 
     “Hey McDermott,” Price cackles. “Throw him your tie.” 
     “Oh shit. What’s that gonna get him?” I ask, staring at the bum. 
     “Appetizers at Jams.” Van Patten laughs. He gives me high-five. 
     “Dude,” McDermott says, inspecting his tie, clearly offended. 
     “Oh, sorry… cab,” Price says, waving down a cab. “… and a beverage.” 
     “Off to Tunnel,” McDermott tells the driver. 
     “Great, McDermott,” Price says, getting in the front seat. “You sound really excited.” 
     “So what if I’m not some burned-out decadent faggot like yourself,” McDermott says, 
  getting in ahead of me. 
     “Did anyone know cavemen got more fiber than we do?” Price asks the cabdriver. 
     “Hey, I heard that too,” McDermott says. 
     “Van Patten,” I say. “Did you see the comp bottle of champagne Montgomery sent 
  over?” 
     “Really?” Van Patten asks, leaning over McDermott. “Let me guess. Perrier-Jouët?” 
     “Bingo,” Price says. “Nonvintage.” 
     “Fucking weasel,” Van Patten says. 
  Tunnel 
     All of the men outside Tunnel tonight are for some reason wearing tuxedos, except for 
  a middle-aged homeless bum who sits by a Dumpster, only a few feet away from the 
  ropes, holding out to anyone who pays attention a Styrofoam coffee cup, begging for 
  change, and as Price leads us around the crowd up to the ropes, motioning to one of the 
  doormen, Van Patten waves a crisp one-dollar bill in front of the homeless bum’s face, 
  which momentarily lights up, then Van Patten pockets it as we’re whisked into the club, 
  handed a dozen drink tickets and two VIP Basement passes. Once inside we’re vaguely 
  hassled by two more doormen—long wool coats, ponytails, probably German—who 
  demand to know why we’re not wearing tuxedos. Price handles this all suavely, 
  somehow, either by tipping the dorks or by persuading them with his clout (probably the 
  
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  former). I stay uninvolved and with my back to him try to listen as McDermott complains 
  to Van Patten about how crazy I am for putting down the pizzas made at Pastels, but it’s 
  hard to hear anything with Belinda Carlisle’s version of “I Feel Free” blasting over the 
  sound system. I have a knife with a serrated blade in the pocket of my Valentino jacket 
  and I’m tempted to gut McDermott with it right here in the entranceway, maybe slice his 
  face open, sever his spine; but Price finally waves us in and the temptation to kill 
  McDermott is replaced by this strange anticipation to have a good time, drink some 
  champagne, flirt with a hardbody, find some blow, maybe even dance to some oldies or 
  that new Janet Jackson song I like. 
     It gets quieter as we move into the front hallway, heading toward the actual entrance, 
  and we pass by three hardbodies. One is wearing a black side-buttoned notched-collar 
  wool jacket, wool-crepe trousers and a fitted cashmere turtleneck, all by Oscar de la 
  Renta; another is wearing a double-breasted coat of wool, mohair and nylon tweed, 
  matching jeans-style pants and a man’s cotton dress shirt, all by Stephen Sprouse; the 
  best-looking one is wearing a checked wool jacket and high-waisted wool skirt, both 
  from Barney’s, and a silk blouse by Andra Gabrielle. They’re definitely paying attention 
  to the four of us and we repay the compliment, turning our heads—except for Price, who 
  ignores them and says something rude. 
     “Jesus Christ, Price, lighten up,” McDermott whines. “What’s your problem? Those 
  girls were very hot.” 
     “Yeah, if you speak Farsi,” Price says, handing McDermott a couple of drink tickets as 
  if to placate him. 
     “What?” Van Patten says. “They didn’t look Spanish to me.” 
     “You know, Price, you’re going to have to change your attitude if you want to get laid,” 
  McDermott says. 
     “You’re telling me about getting laid?” Price asks Craig. “You, who scored with a hand 
  job the other night?” 
     “Your outlook sucks, Price,” Craig says. 
     “Listen, you think I act like I do around you guys when I want some pussy?” Price 
  challenges. 
     “Yeah, I do,” McDermott and Van Patten say at the same time. 
     “You know,” I say, “it’s possible to act differently from how one actually feels to get 
  sex, guys. I hope I’m not causing you to relose your innocence, McDermott.” I start 
  walking faster, trying to keep up with Tim. 
     “No, but that doesn’t explain why Tim acts like such a major asshole,” McDermott 
  says, trying to catch up with me. 
     “Like these girls care,” Price snorts. “When I tell them what my annual income is, 
  believe me, my behavior couldn’t matter less.” 
     “And how do you drop this little tidbit of info?” Van Patten asks. “Do you say, Here’s a 
  Corona and by the way I pull in a hundred eighty thou a year and what’s your sign?” 
     “One ninety,” Price corrects him, and then, “Yeah, I do. Subtlety is not what these girls 
  are after.” 
     “And what are these girls after, O knowledgeable one?” McDermott asks, bowing 
  slightly as he walks. 
     Van Patten laughs and still in motion they give each other high-five. 
     “Hey,” I laugh, “you wouldn’t ask if you knew.” 
     ‘They want a hardbody who can take them to Le Cirque twice a week, get them into 
  Nell’s on a regular basis. Or maybe a close personal acquaintance of Donald Trump,” 
  Price says flatly. 
     We hand our tickets to an okay-looking girl wearing a wool-melton duffel coat and a 
  silk scarf from Hermès. As she lets us in, Price winks at her and McDermott is saying, “I 
  worry about disease just walking into this place. These are some skanky chicks. I can 
  just feel it.” 
     “I told you, dude,” Van Patten says and then patiently restates his facts. “We can’t get 
  that. It’s like zero zero zero point oh one percentage—” 
  
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     Luckily, the long version of “New Sensation” by INXS drowns out his voice. The music 
  is so loud that conversation is possible only by screaming. The club is fairly packed; the 
  only real light coming in flashes off the dance floor. Everyone is wearing a tuxedo. 
  Everyone is drinking champagne. Since we only have two VIP Basement passes Price 
  shoves them at McDermott and Van Patten and they eagerly wave the cards at the guy 
  guarding the top of the stairs. The guy who lets them pass is wearing a double-breasted 
  wool tuxedo, a cotton wing-collar shirt by Cerruti 1881 and a black and white checkered 
  silk bow tie from Martin Dingman Neckwear. 
     “Hey,” I shout to Price. “Why didn’t we use those?” 
     “Because,” he screams over the music, grabbing me by the collar, “we need some 
  Bolivian Marching Powder…” 
     I follow him as he rushes through the narrow corridor that runs parallel to the dance 
  floor, then into the bar and finally into the Chandelier Room, which is jammed with guys 
  from Drexel, from Lehman’s, from Kidder Peabody, from First Boston, from Morgan 
  Stanley, from Rothschild, from Goldman, even from Citibank for Christ sakes, all of them 
  wearing tuxedos, holding champagne flutes, and effortlessly, almost as if it were the 
  same song, “New Sensation” segues into “The Devil Inside” and Price spots Ted 
  Madison leaning against the railing in the back of the room, wearing a double-breasted 
  wool tuxedo, a wing-collar cotton shirt from Paul Smith, a bow tie and cummerbund from 
  Rainbow Neckwear, diamond studs from Trianon, patent-leather and grosgrain pumps 
  by Ferragamo and an antique Hamilton watch from Saks; and past Madison, 
  disappearing into darkness, are the twin train tracks which tonight are lit garishly in 
  preppy greens and pinks and Price suddenly stops walking, stares past Ted, who smiles 
  knowingly when he spots Timothy, and Price gazes longingly at the tracks as if they 
  suggest some kind of freedom, embody an escape that Price has been searching for, 
  but I shout out to him, “Hey, there’s Teddy,” and this breaks his gaze and he shakes his 
  head as if to clear it, refocuses his gaze on Madison and shouts decisively, “No, that’s 
  not Madison for Christ sakes, that’s Turnball,” and the guy who I thought was Madison is 
  greeted by two other guys in tuxedos and he turns his back to us and suddenly, behind 
  Price, Ebersol wraps an arm around Timothy’s neck and laughingly pretends to strangle 
  him, then Price pushes the arm away, shakes Ebersol’s hand and says, “Hey Madison.” 
     Madison, who I thought was Ebersol, is wearing a splendid double-breasted white 
  linen jacket by Hackett of London from Bergdorf Goodman. He has a cigar that hasn’t 
  been lit in one hand and a champagne glass, half full, in the other. 
     “Mr. Price,” shouts Madison. “Very good to see you, sir.” 
     “Madison,” Price cries back. “We need your services.” 
     “Looking for trouble?” Madison smiles. 
     “Something more immediate,” Price shouts back. 
     “Of course,” Madison shouts and then, coolly for some reason, nods at me, shouting, I 
  think, “Bateman,” and then, “Nice tan.” 
     A guy standing behind Madison who looks a lot like Ted Dreyer is wearing a double-
  breasted shawl-collared tuxedo, a cotton shirt and a silk tartan bow tie, all of it, I’m fairly 
  sure, from Polo by Ralph Lauren. Madison stands around, nodding to various people 
  who pass by in the crush. 
     Finally Price loses his cool. “Listen. We need drugs,” I think I hear him shout. 
     “Patience, Price, patience,” Madison shouts. “I’ll talk to Ricardo.” 
     But he still stands there, nodding to people who push past 
     “Like what about now?” Price screams. 
     “Why aren’t you wearing a tux?” Madison shouts. 
     “How much do we want?” Price asks me, looking desperate. 
     “A gram is fine,” I shout. “I have to be at the office early tomorrow.” 
     “Do you have cash?” 
     I can’t lie, nod, hand him forty. 
     “A gram,” Price shouts to Ted 
     “Hey,” Madison says, introducing his friend, “this is You.” 
  
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     “A gram.” Price presses cash into Madison s hand. “You? What?” 
     This guy and Madison both smile and Ted shakes his head and shouts a name I can’t 
  hear. 
     “No,” Madison shouts, “Hugh.” I think. 
     “Yeah. Great to meet you, Hugh.” Price holds up his wrist and taps the gold Rolex with 
  his index finger. 
     “I’ll be right back,” Madison shouts. “Keep my friend company. Use your drink tickets.” 
  He disappears. You, Hugh, Who, fades into the crowd. I follow Price over to the railings. 
     I want to light my cigar but don’t have any matches; yet just holding it, catching some 
  of its aroma along with the knowledge that drugs are incoming, comforts me and I take 
  two of the drink tickets from Price and try to get him a Finlandia on the rocks which they 
  don’t have, the hardbody behind the bar informs me bitchily, but she’s got a rad body 
  and is so hot-looking that I will leave her a big tip because of this. I settle on an Absolut 
  for Price and order a J&B on the rocks for myself. As a joke I almost bring Tim a Bellini 
  but he seems far too edgy tonight to appreciate this so I wade back through the crowd to 
  where he stands and hand him the Absolut and he takes it thanklessly and finishes it 
  with one gulp, looks at the glass and grimaces, giving me an accusatory look. I shrug 
  helplessly. He resumes staring at the train tracks as if possessed. There are very few 
  chicks in Tunnel tonight. 
     “Hey, I’m going out with Courtney tomorrow night.” 
     “Her?” he shouts back, staring at the tracks. “Great.” Even with the noise I catch the 
  sarcasm. 
     “Well, why not? Carruthers is out of town.” 
     “Might as well hire someone from an escort service,” he shouts bitterly, almost without 
  thinking. 
     “Why?” I shout. 
     “Because she’s gonna cost you a lot more to get laid.” 
     “No way,” I scream. 
     “Listen, I put up with it too,” Price shouts, lightly shaking his glass. Ice cubes clank 
  loudly, surprising me. “Meredith’s the same way. She expects to be paid. They all do.” 
     “Price?” I take a large gulp of Scotch. “You’re priceless…” 
     He points behind him. “Where do those tracks go?” Laser lights start flashing. 
     “I don’t know,” I say after a long time, I don’t even know how long. 
     I get bored watching Price, who is neither moving nor speaking. The only reason he 
  occasionally turns away from the train tracks is to look for Madison or Ricardo. No 
  women anywhere, just an army of professionals from Wall Street in tuxedos. The one 
  female spotted is dancing alone in a corner to some song I think is called “Love 
  Triangle.” She’s wearing what looks like a sequined tank top by Ronaldus Shamask and 
  I concentrate on that but I’m in an edgy pre-coke state and I start chewing nervously on 
  a drink ticket and some Wall Street guy who looks like Boris Cunningham blocks my 
  view of the girl. I’m about to head off to the bar when Madison comes back—it’s been 
  twenty minutes—and he sniffs loudly, a big plastered jittery grin on his face as he 
  shakes hands with a sweaty stern-looking Price who moves away so quickly that when 
  Ted tries to slap him in a friendly sort of way on his back he just hits air. 
     I follow Price back past the bar and the dance floor, past the basement, and upstairs, 
  past the long line for the women’s room which is strange since there seem to be no 
  women at the club tonight, and then we’re in the men’s room, which is empty, and Price 
  and I slip into one of the stalls together and he bolts the door. 
     “I’m shaking,” Price says, handing me the small envelope. “You open it.” 
     I take it from him, carefully unfolding the edges of the tiny white package, exposing the 
  supposed gram—it looks like less to the dim fluorescent light of the men’s room. 
     “Jeez,” Price whispers in a surprisingly gentle way. “That’s not a helluva lot, is it?” He 
  leans forward to inspect it. 
     “Maybe it’s just the light,” I mention. 
     “What the fuck is Ricardo’s problem?” Price asks, gaping at the coke. 
  
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     “Shhh,” I whisper, taking out my platinum American Express card. “Let’s just do it.” 
     “Is he fucking selling it by the milligram?” Price asks. He sticks his own platinum 
  American Express card into the powder, bringing it up to his nose to inhale it. He stands 
  there silently for a moment, and then gasps “Oh my god” in a low, throaty voice. 
     “What?” I ask. 
     “It’s a fucking milligram of… Sweet’n Low,” he chokes. 
     I do some of it and come to the same conclusion. “It’s definitely weak but I have a 
  feeling if we do enough of it we’ll be okay—” But Price is furious, red-faced and 
  sweating; he screams at me as if this was my fault, as if buying the gram from Madison 
  was my idea. 
     “I want to get high off this, Bateman,” Price says slowly, his voice rising. “Not sprinkle 
  it on my fucking All-Bran!” 
     “You can always put it in your café au lait,” this prissy voice in the next stall cries out. 
     Price stares at me, eyes widening in disbelief, then flies into a rage and whirls around, 
  pounding his fist against the side of the stall. 
     “Calm down,” I tell him. “Let’s do it anyway.” 
     Price turns back to me and, after running a hand over his stiff, slicked-back hair, 
  seems to relent. “I guess you’re right,” and then he raises his voice, “that is, if the faggot 
  in the next stall thinks it’s okay.” 
     We wait for a sign and then the voice in the next stall finally lisps, “It’s okay with me…” 
     “Fuck yourself!” Price roars. 
     “Fuck yourself,” the voice mimics. 
     “No, fuck yourself,” Price screams back, trying to scramble over the aluminum divider, 
  but I pull him down with one hand and in the next stall the toilet flushes and the 
  unidentified person, obviously unnerved, scampers out of the men’s room. Price leans 
  against the door of our stall and stares at me in this hopeless way. He rubs a trembling 
  hand over his still-crimson face and shuts his eyes tightly, lips white, slight residue of 
  cocaine under one nostril—and then quietly he says, without opening his eyes, “Okay. 
  Let’s do it.” 
     “That’s the spirit,” I say. We take turns digging our respective cards into the envelope 
  until what we can’t get with the cards we press our fingers into and snort or lick off the 
  tips then rub into our gums. I’m not anywhere near high but another J&B might give the 
  body a false enough impression to kick in some kind of rush no matter how weak. 
     Stepping out of the stall we wash our hands, inspecting our reflections in the mirror, 
  and, once satisfied, head back to the Chandelier Room. I’m beginning to wish I’d 
  checked my overcoat (Armani) but no matter what Price says I feel kind of high and 
  minutes later as I wait at the bar trying to get this hardbody’s attention it starts not to 
  matter. I finally have to lay a twenty on the counter to get her attention, even though I 
  have plenty of drink tickets left. It works. Taking advantage of the drink tickets, I order 
  two double Stolis on the rocks. She pours the drinks in front of me. 
     I’m feeling good and I shout out to her, “Hey, don’t you go to NYU?” 
     She shakes her head, unsmiling. 
     “Hunter?” I shout. 
     She shakes her head again. Not Hunter. 
     “Columbia?” I shout—though that’s a joke. 
     She continues to concentrate on the bottle of Stoli. I decide not to continue the 
  conversation and just slap the drink tickets on the bar as she places the two glasses in 
  front of me. But she shakes her head and shouts, “It’s after eleven. Those aren’t good 
  anymore. It’s a cash bar. That’ll be twenty-five dollars,” and without complaining, playing 
  it totally cool, I pull out my gazelleskin wallet and hand her a fifty which she eyes, I 
  swear, contemptuously and, sighing, turns to the cash register and finds my change and 
  I say, staring at her, quite clearly but muffed by “Pump Up the Volume” and the crowd, 
  “You are a fucking ugly bitch I want to stab to death and play around with your blood,” 
  but I’m smiling. I leave the cunt no tip and find Price who is standing again, morosely, by 
  the railings, his hands gripping the steel bars. Paul Owen, who is handling the Fisher 
  
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  account, is wearing a six-button double-breasted wool tuxedo and he stands next to 
  Price screaming something like “Ran five hundred iterations of discounted cash flow 
  minus on an ICM PC took company cab to Smith and Wollensky.” 
     I hand the drink to Price, while nodding to Paul. Price says nothing, not even thanks. 
  He just holds the drink and mournfully stares at the tracks and then he squints and 
  bends his head down to the glass and when the strobe lights start flashing, he stands up 
  straight and murmurs something to himself. 
     “Aren’t you high?” I ask him. 
     “How are you?” Owen shouts. 
     “Very happy,” I say. 
     The music is one long, unending song that overlaps with other, separate songs 
  connected only by a dull thumping beat and it obliterates all conversation which, while 
  I’m talking to a weasel like Owen, is perfectly okay with me. There seem to be more girls 
  in the Chandelier Room now and I try to make eye contact with one of them—model 
  type with big tits. Price nudges me and I lean in to ask if we should perhaps get another 
  am. 
     “Why aren’t you wearing a tuxedo?” Owen asks, behind me. 
     “I’m leaving,” Price shouts. “I’m getting out.” 
     “Leaving what?” I shout back, confused. 
     “This,” he shouts, referring to, I’m not sure but I think, his double Stoli. 
     “Don’t,” I tell him. “I’ll drink it.” 
     “Listen to me, Patrick,” he screams. “I’m leaving.” 
     “Where to?” I really am confused. “You want me to find Ricardo?” 
     “I’m leaving,” he screams. “I… am… leaving!” 
     I start laughing, not knowing what he means. “Well, where are you going to go?” 
     “Away! ” he shouts. 
     “Don’t tell me,” I shout back at him. “Merchant banking?” 
     “No, Bateman. I’m serious you dumb son-of-a-bitch. Leav ing. Disappearing.” 
     “Where to?” I’m still laughing, stilt confused, still shouting. “Morgan Stanley? 
  Rehab?What?” 
     He looks away from me, doesn’t answer, just keeps staring past the railings, trying to 
  find the point where the tracks come to an end, find what lies behind the blackness. He’s 
  becoming a drag but Owen seems worse and I’ve already accidentally made eye 
  contact with the weasel. 
     “Tell him don’t worry, be happy,” Owen shouts. 
     “Are you still handling the Fisher account?” What else can I say to him? 
     “What?” Owen asks. “Wait. Is that Conrad?” 
     He points at some guy wearing a shawl-collar, single-breasted wool tuxedo, a cotton 
  shirt with a bow tie, all by Pierre Cardin, who stands near the bar, directly beneath the 
  chandelier, holding a glass of champagne, inspecting his nails. Owen pulls out a cigar, 
  then asks for a light. I’m bored so I go for the bar without excusing myself to ask the 
  hardbody I want to cut up for some matches. The Chandelier Room is packed and 
  everyone looks familiar, everyone looks the same. Cigar smoke hangs heavy, floating in 
  midair, and the music, INXS again, is louder than ever, but building toward what? I touch 
  my brow by mistake and my fingers come back wet. At the bar I pick up some matches. 
  On my way back through the crowd I bump into McDermott and Van Patten, who start 
  begging me for more drink tickets. I hand them the rest of the tickets knowing that they 
  are no longer valid, but we’re crushed together in the middle of the room and the drink 
  tickets don’t offer enough incentive for them to make the trek to the bar. 
     “Skanky chicks,” Van Patten says. “Beware. No hardbodies.” 
     “Basement sucks,” McDermott shouts. 
     “Did you find drugs?” Van Patten shouts. “We saw Ricardo.” 
     “No,” I shout. “Negative. Madison couldn’t find any.” 
     “Service, damnit, service,” the guy behind me shouts. 
     “It’s useless,” I shout. “I can’t hear anything.” 
  
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     “What?” Van Patten shouts. “I can’t hear anything.” 
     Suddenly McDermott grabs my arm. “What the fuck is Price doing? Look.” 
     As in a movie, I turn around with some difficulty, standing on my toes to see Price 
  perched on the rails, trying to balance himself, and someone has handed him a 
  champagne glass and drunk or wired he holds both arms out and closes his eyes, as if 
  blessing the crowd. Behind him the strobe light continues to flash off and on and off and 
  on and the smoke machine is going like crazy, gray mist billowing up, enveloping him. 
  He’s shouting something but I cant hear what—the room is jammed to overcapacity, the 
  sound level an earsplitting combination of Eddie Murphy’s “Party All the Time” and the 
  constant din of businessmen—so I push my way forward, my eyes glued on Price, and 
  manage to pass Madison and Hugh and Turnball and Cunningham and a few others. 
  But the crowd is too densely packed and it’s futile to even keep trying. Only a few of the 
  faces are fixated on Tim, still balancing on the railing, eyes half closed, shouting 
  something. Embarrassed, I’m suddenly glad I’m stuck in the crowd, unable to reach him, 
  to save him from almost certain humiliation, and during a perfectly timed byte of silence I 
  can hear Price shout, “Goodbye!” and then, the crowd finally paying attention, 
  “Fuckheads!” Gracefully he twists his body around and hops over the railing and leaps 
  onto the tracks and starts running, the champagne flute bobbing as he holds it out to his 
  side. He stumbles once, twice, with the strobe light flashing, in what looks like slow 
  motion, but he regains his composure before disappearing into blackness. A security 
  guard sits idly by the railing as Price recedes into the tunnel. He just shakes his head, I 
  think. 
     “Price! Come back!” I yell but the crowd is actually applauding his performance. 
  “Price!” I yell once more, over the clapping. But he’s gone and it’s doubtful that if he did 
  hear me he would do anything about it. Madison is standing nearby and sticks his hand 
  out as if to congratulate me for something. “That guy’s a riot.” 
     McDermott appears behind me and pulls at my shoulder. “Does Price know about a 
  VIP room that we don’t?” He looks worried. 
     Outside Tunnel now, I’m high but really tired and my mouth tastes surprisingly like 
  NutraSweet, even after drinking two more Stolis and half a J&B. Twelve-thirty and we 
  watch limousines try to make left turns onto the West Side Highway. The three of us, 
  Van Patten, McDermott and myself, discuss the possibilities of finding this new club 
  called Nekenieh. I’m not really high, just sort of drunk. 
     “Lunch?” I ask them, yawning. “Tomorrow?” 
     “Can’t,” McDermott says. “Haircut at the Pierre.” 
     “What about breakfast?” I suggest. 
     “Nope,” Van Patten says. “Gio’s. Manicure.” 
     “That reminds me,” I say, inspecting a hand. “I need one too.” 
     “How about dinner?” McDermott asks me. 
     “I’ve got a date,” I say. “Shit.” 
     “What about you?” McDermott asks Van Patten. 
     “No can do,” Van Patten says. “I’ve got to go to Sunmakers. Then private workout.” 
  Office 
     In the elevator Frederick Dibble tells me about an item on Page Six, or some other 
  gossip column, about Ivana Trump and then about this new Italian-Thai place on the 
  Upper East Side that he went to last night with Family Hamilton and starts raving about 
  this great fusilli shiitake dish. I have taken out a gold Cross pen to write down the name 
  of the restaurant in my address book. Dibble is wearing a subtly striped double-breasted 
  wool suit by Canali Milano, a cotton shirt by Bill Blass, a mini-glen-plaid woven silk tie by 
  Bill Blass Signature and he’s holding a Missoni Uomo raincoat. He has a good-looking, 
  expensive haircut and I stare at it, admiringly, while he starts humming along to the 
  Muzak station—a version of what could be “Sympathy for the Devil”—that plays 
  throughout all the elevators in the building our offices are in. I’m about to ask Dibble if he 
  
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  watched The Patty Winters Show this morning—the topic was Autism—but he gets out 
  on the floor before mine and repeats the name of the restaurant, “Thaidialano,” and then 
  “See you, Marcus” and steps out of the elevator. The doors shut. I am wearing a mini-
  houndstooth-check wool suit with pleated trousers by Hugo Boss, a silk tie, also by 
  Hugo Boss, a cotton broadcloth shirt by Joseph Abboud and shoes from Brooks 
  Brothers. I flossed too hard this morning and I can still taste the coppery residue of 
  swallowed blood in the back of my throat. I used Listerine afterwards and my mouth 
  feels like it’s on fire but I manage a smile to no one as I step out of the elevator, 
  brushing past a hung-over Wittenborn, swinging my new black leather attaché case from 
  Bottega Veneta. 
     My secretary, Jean, who is in love with me and who I will probably end up marrying, 
  sits at her desk and this morning, to get my attention as usual, is wearing something 
  improbably expensive and completely inappropriate: a Chanel cashmere cardigan, a 
  cashmere crewneck and a cashmere scarf, faux-pearl earrings, wool-crepe pants from 
  Barney’s. I pull my Walkman off from around my neck as I approach her desk. She looks 
  up and smiles shyly. 
     “Late?” she asks. 
     “Aerobics class.” I play it cool. “Sorry. Any messages?” 
     “Ricky Hendricks has to cancel today,” she says. “He didn’t say what it was he is 
  canceling or why.” 
     “I occasionally box with Ricky at the Harvard Club,” I explain. “Anyone else?” 
     “And… Spencer wants to meet you for a drink at Fluties Pier 17,” she says, smiling. 
     “When?” I ask. 
     “After six.” 
     “Negative,” I tell her as I walk into my office. “Cancel it.” 
     She gets up from behind her desk and follows me in. “Oh? And what should I say?” 
  she asks, amused. 
     “Just… say… no,” I tell her, taking my Armani overcoat off and hanging it on the Alex 
  Loeb coatrack I bought at Bloomingdate’s. 
     “Just… say… no?” she repeats. 
     “Did you see The Patty Winters Show this morning?” I ask...On Autism?” 
     “No.” She smiles as if somehow charmed by my addiction to The Patty Winters Show. 
  “How was it?” 
     I pick up this morning’s Wall Street Journal and scan the front page—all of it one ink-
  stained senseless typeset blur. “I think I was hallucinating while watching it. I don’t 
  know. I can’t be sure. I don’t remember,” I murmur, placing the Journal back down and 
  then, picking up today’s Financial Times, “I really don’t know.” She just stands there 
  waiting for instructions. I sigh and place my hands together, sitting down at the 
  Palazzetti glass-top desk, the halogen lamps on both sides already burning. “Okay, 
  Jean,” I start. “I need reservations for three at Camols at twelve-thirty and if not there, try 
  Crayons. All right?” 
     “Yes sir,” she says in a joky tone and then turns to leave. 
     “Oh wait,” I say, remembering something. “And I need reservations for two at Arcadia 
  at eight tonight.” 
     She turns around, her face falling slightly but still smiling. “Oh, something… romantic?” 
     “No, silly. Forget it,” I tell her. “I’ll make them. Thanks.” 
     “I’ll do it,” she says. 
     “No. No,” I say, waving her off. “Be a doll and just get me a Perrier, okay?” 
     “You look nice today,” she says before leaving. 
     She’s right, but I’m not saying anything—just staring across the office at the George 
  Stubbs painting that hangs on the wall, wondering if I should move it, thinking maybe it’s 
  too close to the Aiwa AM/FM stereo receiver and the dual cassette recorder and the 
  semiautomatic belt-drive turntable, the graphic equalizer, the matching bookshelf 
  speakers, all in twilight blue to match the color scheme of the office. The Stubbs painting 
  should probably go over the life-size Doberman that’s in the corner ($700 at Beauty and 
  
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  the Beast in Trump Tower) or maybe it would look better over the Pacrizinni antique 
  table that sits next to the Doberman. I get up and move all these sporting magazines 
  from the forties—they cost me thirty bucks apiece— that I bought at Funchies, Bunkers, 
  Gaks and Gleeks, and then I lift the Stubbs painting off the wall and balance it on the 
  table then sit back at my desk and fiddle with the pencils I keep in a vintage German 
  beer stein I got from Man-tiques. The Stubbs looks good in either place. A reproduction 
  Black Forest umbrella stand ($675 at Hubert des Forges) sits in an other corner without, 
  I’m just noticing, any umbrellas in it. 
     I put a Paul Butterfield tape in the cassette player, sit back at the desk and flip through 
  last week’s Sports Illustrated, but can’t concentrate. I keep thinking about that damn 
  tanning bed Van Patten has and I’m moved to pick up the phone and buzz jean. 
     “Yes?” she answers. 
     “Jean. Listen, keep your eyes open for a tanning bed, okay?” 
     “What?” she asks—incredulously, I’m sure, but she’s still probably smiling. 
     “You know. A tanning bed,” I repeat casually. “For a… tan.” 
     “Okay…, “ she says hesitantly. “Anything else?” 
     “And, oh shit, yeah. Remind me to return the videotapes I rented last night back to the 
  store.” I start to open and close the sterling silver cigar holder that sits by the phone. 
     “Anything else?” she asks, and then, flirtatiously, “How about that Perrier?” 
     “Yeah. That sounds good. And Jean?” 
     “Yes,” she says, and I’m relieved by her patience. 
     “You don’t think I’m crazy?” I ask. “I mean for wanting a tanning bed?” 
     There’s a pause and then, “Well, it is a little unusual,” she admits, and I can tell she is 
  choosing her words very carefully. “But no, of course not. I mean how else are you 
  going to keep up that devilishly handsome skin tone?” 
     “Good girl,” I say before hanging up. I have a great secretary. 
     She comes into the office five minutes later with the Perrier, a wedge of lime and the 
  Ransom file, which she did not need to bring, and I am vaguely touched by her almost 
  total devotion to me. I can’t help but be flattered. 
     “You have a table at Camols at twelve-thirty,” she announces as she pours the Perrier 
  into a glass tumbler. “Nonsmoking section.” 
     “Don’t wear that outfit again,” I say, looking her over quickly. “Thanks for the Ransom 
  file.” 
     “Um…” She stalls, about to hand me the Perrier, and asks, “What? I didn’t hear you,” 
  before setting the drink on my desk. 
     “I said,” and I repeat myself calmly, grinning, “do not wear that outfit again. Wear a 
  dress. A skirt or something.” 
     She stands there only a little stunned, and after she looks down at herself, she smiles 
  like some kind of cretin. “You don’t like this, I take it,” she says humbly. 
     “Come on,” I say, sipping my Perrier. “You’re prettier than that.” 
     ‘Thanks, Patrick,” she says sarcastically, though I bet tomorrow she’ll be wearing a 
  dress. The phone on her desk rings. I tell her I’m not here. She turns to leave. 
     “And high heels,” I mention. “I like high heels.” 
     She shakes her head good-naturedly as she exits, shutting my door behind her. I take 
  out a Panasonic pocket watch with a three-inch diagonal color TV and an AM/FM radio 
  and try to find something to watch, hopefully Jeopardy!, before turning to my computer 
  terminal. 
  Health Club 
     The health club I belong to, Xclusive, is private and located four blocks from my 
  apartment on the Upper West Side. In the two years since I signed up as a member, it 
  has been remodeled three times and though they carry the latest weight machines 
  (Nautilus, Universal, Keiser) they have a vast array of free weights which I like to use 
  also. The club has ten courts for tennis and racquetball, aerobics classes, four aerobic 
  
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  dance studios, two swimming pools, Lifecycles, a Gravitron machine, rowing machines, 
  treadmills, cross-country skiing machines, one-on-one training, cardiovascular 
  evaluations, personalized programs, massage, sauna and steam rooms, a sun deck, 
  tanning booths and a café with a juice bar, all of it designed by J. J. Vogel, who 
  designed the new Norman Prager club, Petty’s. Membership runs five thousand dollars 
  annually. 
     It was cool this morning but seems warmer after I leave the office and I’m wearing a 
  six-button double-breasted chalk-striped suit by Ralph Lauren with a spread-collar 
  pencil-striped Sea Island cotton shirt with French cuffs, also by Polo, and I remove the 
  clothes, gratefully, in the air-conditioned locker room, then slip into a pair of crow-black 
  cotton and Lycra shorts with a white waistband and side stripes and a cotton and Lycra 
  tank top, both by Wilkes, which can be folded so tightly that I can actually carry them in 
  my briefcase. After getting dressed and putting my Walkman on, clipping its body to the 
  Lycra shorts and placing the phones over my ears, a Stephen Bishop/Christopher Cross 
  compilation tape Todd Hunter made for me, I check myself in the mirror before entering 
  the gym and, dissatisfied, go back to my briefcase for some mousse to slick my hair 
  back and then I use a moisturizer and, for a small blemish I notice under my lower lip, a 
  dab of Clinique Touch-Stick. Satisfied, I turn the Walkman on, the volume up, and leave 
  the locker room. 
     Cheryl, this dumpy chick who is in love with me, sits at her desk up front signing 
  people in, reading one of the gossip columns in the Post, and she brightens up 
  noticeably when she sees me approaching. She says hello but I move past her quickly, 
  barely registering her presence since there’s no line at the Stairmaster, for which usually 
  one has to wait twenty minutes. With the Stairmaster you work the body’s largest 
  muscle group (between the pelvis and knees) and you can end up burning more calories 
  per minute than by doing any other aerobic activity, except maybe Nordic skiing. 
     I should probably be stretching first but if I do that I’ll have to wait in line—already 
  some faggot is behind me, probably checking out my back, ass, leg muscles. No 
  hardbodies at the gym today. Only faggots from the West Side, probably unemployed 
  actors, waiters by night, and Muldwyn Butner of Sachs, who I went to Exeter with, over 
  at the biceps curl machine. Butner is wearing a pair of knee-length nylon and Lycra 
  shorts with checkerboard inserts and a cotton and Lycra tank top and leather Reeboks. I 
  finish twenty minutes on the Stairmaster and let the overmuscled, bleached-blond, 
  middle-aged faggot behind me use it and I commence with stretching exercises. While I 
  stretch, The Patty Winters Show I watched this morning comes back to me. The topic 
  was Big Breasts and there was a woman on it who had a breastreduction since she 
  thought her tits were too big—the dumb bitch. I immediately called McDermott who was 
  also watching it and we both ridiculed the woman through the rest of the segment. I do 
  about fifteen minutes of stretching before heading off to the Nautilus machines. 
     I used to have a personal trainer whom Luis Carruthers had recommended but he 
  came on to me last fall and I decided to develop my own fitness program which 
  incorporates both aerobic exercises and training. With weights I alternate between free 
  weights and weight machines that use hydraulic, pneumatic or electromechanical 
  resistance. Most of the machines are very efficient since computerized keypads allow 
  one to make adjustments in weight resistance without getting up. The positive aspects 
  of the machines include minimizing muscle soreness and reducing any chance of injury. 
  But I also like the versatility and freedom that free weights offer and the many variations 
  in lifting that I can’t get on the machines. 
     On the leg machines I do five sets of ten repetitions. For the back I also do five sets of 
  ten repetitions. On the stomach crunch machine I’ve gotten so I can do six sets of fifteen 
  and on the biceps curl machine I do seven sets of ten. Before moving to the free weights 
  I spend twenty minutes on the exercise bike while reading the new issue of Money 
  magazine. Over at the free weights I do three sets of fifteen repetitions of leg 
  extensions, leg curls and leg presses, then three sets and twenty repetitions of barbell 
  curls, then three sets and twenty repetitions of bentover lateral raises for the rear 
  
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  deltoids and three sets and twenty repetitions of latissimus pulldowns, pulley rows, dead 
  lifts and bent-over barbell rows. For the chest I do three sets and twenty reps of incline-
  bench presses. For the front deltoids I also do three sets of lateral raises and seated 
  dumbbell presses. Finally, for the triceps I do three sets and twenty reps of cable 
  pushdowns and close-grip bench presses. After more stretching exercises to cool down 
  I take a quick hot shower and then head to the video store where I return two tapes I 
  rented on Monday, She-Male Reformatory and Body Double, but I rerent Body Double 
  because I want to watch it again tonight even though I know I won’t have enough time to 
  masturbate over the scene where the woman is getting drilled to death by a power drill 
  since I have a date with Courtney at seven-thirty at Café Luxembourg. 
  Date 
     Heading home from working out at Xclusive, and after an intense shiatsu massage, I 
  stop at a newsstand near my building, scanning the Adults Only rack with my Walkman 
  still on, the soothing strains of Pachelbel’s Canon somehow complementing the harshly 
  lit, laminated photographs in the magazines I flip through. I buy Lesbian Vibrator Bitches 
  and Cunt on Cunt along with the current Sports Illustrated and the new issue of Esquire, 
  even though I subscribe to them and both have already arrived in the mail. I wait until 
  the stand is empty to make my purchase. The vendor says something, motions toward 
  his hook nose, while handing me the magazines along with my change. I lower the 
  volume and lift one of the Walkman’s earphones up and ask, “What?” He touches his 
  nose again and in a thick, nearly impenetrable accent says, I think, “Nose uise bleding.” 
  I put my Bottega Veneta briefcase down and lift a finger up to my face. It comes away 
  red, wet with blood I reach into my Hugo Boss overcoat and bring out a Polo 
  handkerchief and wipe the blood away, nod my thanks, slip my Wayfarer aviator 
  sunglasses back on and leave. Fucking Iranian. 
     In the lobby of my building I stop at the front desk and try to get the attention of a black 
  Hispanic doorman I don’t recognize. He’s on the phone to his wife or his dealer of some 
  crack addict and stares at me as he nods, the phone cradled in the premature folds of 
  his neck. When it dawns on him that I want to ask something, he sighs, rolls his eyes up 
  and tells whoever is on the line to hold on. “Yeah whatchooneed?” he mumbles. 
     “Yes,” I begin, my tone as gentle and polite as I can possibly muster. “Could you 
  please tell the superintendent that I have a crack in my ceiling and…” I stop. 
     He’s looking at me as if I have overstepped some kind of unspoken boundary and I’m 
  beginning to wonder what word confused him: certainly not crack, so what was it? 
  Superintendent? Ceiling? Maybe even please? 
     “Whatchoomean?” He sighs thickly, slumped back, still staring at me. 
     I look down at the marble floor and also sigh and tell him, “Look. I don’t know. Just tell 
  the superintendent it’s Bateman… in Ten I.” When I bring my head back up to see if any 
  of this has registered I’m greeted by the expressionless mask of the doorman’s heavy, 
  stupid face. I am a ghost to this man, I’m thinking. I am something unreal, something not 
  quite tangible, yet still an obstacle of sorts and he nods, gets back on the phone, 
  resumes speaking in a dialect totally alien to me. 
     I collect my mail—Polo catalog, American Express bill, June Playboy, invitation to an 
  office party at a new club called Bedlam—then walk to the elevator, step in while 
  inspecting the Ralph Lauren brochure and press the button for my floor and then the 
  Close Door button, but someone gets in right before the doors shut and instinctively I 
  turn to say hello. It’s the actor Tom Cruise, who lives in the penthouse, and as a 
  courtesy, without asking him, I press the PH button and he nods thank you and keeps 
  his eyes fixed on the numbers lighting up above the door in rapid succession. He is 
  much shorter in person and he’s wearing the same pair of black Wayfarers I have on. 
  He’s dressed in blue jeans, a white T-shirt, an Armani jacket. 
     To break the noticeably uncomfortable silence, I clear my throat and say, “I thought 
  you were very fine in Bartender. I thought it was quite a good movie, and Top Gun too. I 
  
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  really thought that was good.” 
     He looks away from the numbers and then straight at me. “It was called Cocktail,” he 
  says softly. 
     “Pardon?” I say, confused. 
     He clears his throat and says, “Cocktail. Not Bartender. The film was called Cocktail.” 
     A long pause follows; just the sound of cables moving the elevator up higher into the 
  building competes with the silence, obvious and heavy between us. 
     “Oh yeah… Right,” I say, as if the title just dawned on me. “Cocktail. Oh yeah, that’s 
  right,” I say. “Great, Bateman, what are you thinking about?” I shake my head as if to 
  clear it and then, to patch things up, hold out my hand. “Hi. Pat Bateman.” 
     Cruise tentatively shakes it. 
     “So,” I go. “You like living in this building?” 
     He waits a long time before answering, “I guess.” 
     “It’s great,” I say. “Isn’t it?” 
     He nods, not looking at me, and I press the button for my floor again, an almost 
  involuntary reaction. We stand there in silence. 
     “So… Cocktail,” I say, after a while. “That’s the name.” 
     He doesn’t say anything, doesn’t even nod, but now he’s looking at me strangely and 
  he lowers his sunglasses and says, with a slight grimace, “Uh… your nose is bleeding.” 
     I stand there rock still for a moment, before understanding that I have to do something 
  about this, so I pretend to be suitably embarrassed, quizzically touch my nose then bring 
  out my Polo handkerchief—already spotted brown—and wipe the blood away from my 
  nostrils, overall handling it sort of well. “Must be the altitude.” I laugh. “We’re up so high.” 
     He nods, says nothing, looks up at the numbers. 
     The elevator stops at my floor and when the doors open I tell Tom, “I’m a big fan. It’s 
  really good to finally meet you.” 
     “Oh yeah, right.” Cruise smiles that famous grin and jabs at the Close Door button. 
     The girl I’m going out with tonight, Patricia Worrell—blond, model, dropped out of 
  Sweet Briar recently after only one semester—has left two messages on the answering 
  machine, letting me know how incredibly important it is that I call her. While loosening 
  my Matisse-inspired blue silk tie from Bill Robinson I dial her number and walk across 
  the apartment, cordless phone in hand, to flip on the air-conditioning. 
     She answers on the third ring. “Hello?” 
     “Patricia. Hi. It’s Pat Bateman.” 
     “Oh hi,” she says. “Listen, I’m on the other line. Can I call you back?” 
     “Well…,” I say. 
     “Look, it’s my health club,” she says. “They’ve screwed up my account. I’ll call you 
  back in a sec.” 
     “Yeah,” I say and hang up. 
     I go into the bedroom and take off what I was wearing today: a herringbone wool suit 
  with pleated trousers by Ciorgio Correggiari, a cotton oxford shirt by Ralph Lauren, a 
  knit tie from Paul Stuart and suede shoes from Cole-Haan. I slip on a pair of sixty-dollar 
  boxer shorts I bought at Barney’s and do some stretching exercises, holding the phone, 
  waiting for Patricia to call back. After ten minutes of stretching, the phone rings and I 
  wait six rings to answer it. 
     “Hi,” she says. “It’s me, Patricia.” 
     “Could you hold on? I’ve got another call.” 
     “Oh sure,” she says. 
     I put her on hold for two minutes, then get back on the line. “Hi,” I say. “Sorry.” 
     “That’s okay.” 
     “So. Dinner,” I say. “Stop by my place around eight?” 
     “Well, that’s what I wanted to talk to you about,” she says slowly. 
     “Oh no,” I moan. “What is it?” 
     “Well, see, it’s like this,” she begins. “There’s this concert at Radio City and—” 
     “No, no, no,” I tell her adamantly. “No music.” 
  
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     “But my ex-boyfriend, this keyboardist from Sarah Lawrence, he’s in the backup band 
  and—” She stops, as if she has already decided to protest my decision. 
     “No. Uh-uh, Patricia,” I tell her firmly, thinking to myself: Damnit, why this problem, 
  why tonight? 
     “Oh Patrick,” she whines into the phone. “It’ll be so much fun.” 
     I am now fairly sure that the odds of having sex with Patricia this evening are quite 
  good, but not if we attend a concert in which an ex-boyfriend (there is no such thing with 
  Patricia) is in the backup band. 
     “I don’t like concerts,” I tell her, walking into the kitchen. I open the refrigerator and 
  take out a liter of Evian. “I don’t like concerts,” I say again. “I don’t like ‘live’ music.” 
     “But this one isn’t like the others.” She lamely adds, “We have good seats.” 
     “Listen. There’s no need to argue,” I say. “If you want to go, go. ” 
     “But I thought we were going to be togeth er,” she says, straining for emotion. “I 
  thought we were going to have dinner,” and then, almost definitely an afterthought, “Be 
  together. The two of us.” 
     “I know, I know,” I say. “Listen, we should all be allowed to do exactly what we want to 
  do. I want you to do what you want to do.” 
     She pauses and tries a new angle. “Mis music is so beautiful, so… I know it sounds 
  corny, but it’s… glorious. The band is one of the best you’ll ever see. They’re funny and 
  wonderful and the music is so great and, oh gosh, I just want you to see them so badly. 
  We’ll have a great time, I guarantee it,” she says with dripping earnestness. 
     “No, no, you go,” I say. “You have a good time.” 
     “Patrick,” she says. “I have two tickets.” 
     “No. I don’t like concerts,” I say. “Live music bugs me.” 
     “Well,” she says and her voice sounds genuinely tinged with maybe real 
  disappointment, “I’ll feel bad that you’re not there with me.” 
     “I say go and have a good time.” I unscrew the cap off the Evian bottle, timing my next 
  move. “Don’t worry. I’ll just go to Dorsia alone then. It’s okay.” 
     There is a very long pause that I am able to translate into: Uh-huh, right, now see if 
  you want to go to that lousy fucking concert. I take a large gulp of Evian, waiting for her 
  to tell me what time she’ll be over. 
     “Dorsia?” she asks and then, suspiciously, “You have reservations there? I mean for 
  us?” 
     “Yes” I say, “Eight-thirty,” 
     “Well…” She emits a little laugh and then, faltering, “It was… well, what I mean is, I’ve 
  seen them. I just wanted you to see them.” 
     “Listen. What are you doing?” I ask. “If you’re not coming I have to call someone else. 
  Do you have Emily Hamilton’s number?” 
     “Oh now now, Patrick, don’t be… rash.” She giggles nervously. “They are playing two 
  more nights so I can see them tomorrow. Listen, calm down, okay?” 
     “Okay,” I say. “I’m calm.” 
     “Now what time should I be over?” Restaurant Whore asks. 
     “I said eight,” I tell her, disgusted. 
     “‘That’s fine,” she says and then in a seductive whisper, “See you at eight.” She 
  lingers on the phone as if she expects me to say something else, as if maybe I should 
  congratulate her for making the correct decision, but I hardly have time to deal with this 
  so I abruptly hang up. 
     The instant after I hang up on Patricia I dash across the room and grab the Zagat 
  guide and flip through it until I find Dorsia. With trembling fingers I dial the number. 
  Busy. Panicked, I put the phone on Constant Redial and for the next five minutes 
  nothing but a busy signal, faithful and ominous, repeats itself across the line. Finally a 
  ring and in the seconds before there’s an answer I experience that rarest of 
  occurrences—an adrenaline rush. 
     “Dorsia,” someone answers, sex not easily identifiable, made androgynous by the 
  wall-of-sound noise in the background. “Please hold.” 
  
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     It sounds slightly less noisy than a packed football stadium and it takes every ounce of 
  courage I can muster to stay on the line and not hang up. I’m on hold for five minutes, 
  my palm sweaty, sore from clenching the cordless phone so tightly, a fraction of me 
  realizing the futility of this effort, another part hopeful, another fraction pissed off that I 
  didn’t make the reservations earlier or get Jean to. The voice comes back on the lire and 
  says grufliy, “Dorsia.” 
     I clear my throat. “Um, yes, I know it’s a little late but is it possible to reserve a table 
  for two at eight-thirty or nine perhaps?” I’m asking this with both eyes shut tight. 
     There is a pause—the crowd in the background a surging, deafening mass—and with 
  real hope coursing through me I open my eyes, realizing that the maître d’, god love 
  him, is probably looking through the reservation book for a cancellation—but then he 
  starts giggling, low at first but it builds to a high-pitched crescendo of laughter which is 
  abruptly cut off when he slams down the receiver. 
     Stunned, feverish, feeling empty, I contemplate the next move, the only sound the dial 
  tone buzzing noisily from the receiver. Gather my bearings, count to six, reopen the 
  Zagat guide and steadily regain my concentration against the almost overwhelming 
  panic about securing an eight-thirty reservation somewhere if not as trendy as Dorsia 
  then at least in the next-best league. I eventually get a reservation at Barcadia for two at 
  nine, and that only because of a cancellation, and though Patricia will probably be 
  disappointed she might actually like Barcadia—the tables are well spaced, the lighting is 
  dim and flattering, the food Nouvelle Southwestern—and if she doesn’t, what is the bitch 
  going to do, sue me? 
     I worked out heavily at the gym after leaving the office today but the tension has 
  returned, so I do ninety abdominal crunches, a hundred and fifty push-ups, and then I 
  run in place for twenty minutes while listening to the new Huey Lewis CD. I take a hot 
  shower and afterwards use a new facial scrub by Caswell-Massey and a body wash by 
  Greune, then a body moisturizer by Lubriderm and a Neutrogena facial cream. I debate 
  between two outfits. One is a wool-crepe suit by Bill Robinson I bought at Saks with this 
  cotton jacquard shirt from Charivari and an Armani tie. Or a wool and cashmere sport 
  coat with blue plaid a cotton shirt and pleated wool trousers by Alexander Julian, with a 
  polka-dot silk tie by Bill Blass. The Julian might be a little too warm for May but if 
  Patricia’s wearing this outfit by Karl Lagerfeld that I think she’s going to, then maybe I 
  will go with the Julian, because it would go well with her suit. The shoes are crocodile 
  loafers by A. Testoni. 
     A bottle of Scharffenberger is on ice in a Spiros spun-aluminum bowl which is in a 
  Christine Van der Hurd etched-glass champagne cooler which sits on a Cristofle silver-
  plated bar tray. The Scharffenberger isn’t bad—it’s not Cristal, but why waste Cristal on 
  this bimbo? She probably wouldn’t be able to tell the difference anyway. I have a glass 
  of it while waiting for her, occasionally rearranging the Steuben animals on the glasstop 
  coffee table by Turchin, or sometimes I flip through the last hardcover book I bought, 
  something by Garrison Keillor. Patricia is late. 
     While waiting on the couch in the living room, the Wurlitzer jukebox playing “Cherish” 
  by the Lovin Spoonful, I come to the conclusion that Patricia is safe tonight, that I am not 
  going to unexpectedly pull a knife out and use it on her just for the sake of doing so, that 
  I am not going to get any pleasure watching her bleed from slits I’ve made by cutting her 
  throat or slicing her neck open or gouging her eyes out. She’s lucky, even though there 
  is no real reasoning behind the luck. It could be that she’s safe because her wealth, her 
  family’s wealth, protects her tonight, or it could be that it’s simply my choice. Maybe the 
  glass of Scharffenberger has deadened my impulse or maybe it’s simply that I don’t 
  want to ruin this particular Alexander Julian suit by having the bitch spray her blood all 
  over it. Whatever happens, the useless fact remains: Patricia will stay alive, and this 
  victory requires no skill, no leaps of the imagination, no ingenuity on anyone’s part. This 
  is simply how the world, my world, moves. 
     She arrives thirty minutes late and I tell the doorman to let her up even though I meet 
  her outside my door while I’m locking it. She isn’t wearing the Karl Lagerfeld suit I 
  
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  expected, but she looks pretty decent anyway: a silk gazar blouse with rhinestone cuff 
  links by Louis Dell’Olio and a pair of embroidered velvet pants from Saks, crystal 
  earrings by Wendy Gell for Anne Klein and gold sling-back pumps. I wait until we’re in 
  the cab heading midtown to tell her about not going to Dorsia and then I apologize 
  profusely, mention something about disconnected phone lines, a fire, a vengeful maître 
  d’. She gives a little gasp when I drop the news, ignores the apologies and turns away 
  from me to glare out the window. I try to placate her by describing how trendy, how 
  luxurious the restaurant we’re going to is, explaining its pasta with fennel and banana, 
  its sorbets, but she only shakes her head and then I’m reduced to telling her, oh Christ, 
  about how Barcadia has gotten much more expensive even than Dorsia, but she is 
  relentless. Her eyes, I swear, intermittently tear. 
     She doesn’t say anything until we’re seated at a mediocre table near the back section 
  of the main dining room and that’s only to order a Bellini. For dinner I order the shad-roe 
  ravioli with apple compote as an appetizer and the meat loaf with chèvre and quail-stock 
  sauce for an entrée. She orders the red snapper with violets and pine nuts and for an 
  appetizer a peanut butter soup with smoked duck and mashed squash which sounds 
  strange but is actually quite good. New York magazine called it a “playful but mysterious 
  little dish” and I repeat this to Patricia, who lights a cigarette while ignoring my lit match, 
  sulkily slumped in her seat, exhaling smoke directly into my face, occasionally shooting 
  furious looks at me which I politely ignore, being the gentleman that I can be. Once our 
  plates arrive I just stare at my dinner—the meat loaf dark red triangles topped by chèvre 
  which has been tinted pink by pomegranate juice, squiggles of thick tan quail stock 
  circling the beef, and mango slices dotting the rim of the wide black plate—for a long 
  time, a little confused, before deciding to eat it, hesitantly picking up my fork. 
     Even though dinner lasts only ninety minutes it feels as if we have been sitting in 
  Barcadia for a week, and though I have no desire to visit Tunnel afterwards it seems 
  appropriate punishment for Patricia’s behavior. The bill comes to $320—less than I 
  expected, actually—and I put it on my platinum AmEx. In the cab heading downtown, 
  my eyes locked on the meter, our driver tries to make conversation with Patricia who 
  completely ignores him while checking her makeup in a Gucci compact, adding lipstick 
  to an already heavily colored mouth. There was a baseball game on tonight that I think I 
  forgot to videotape so I won’t be able to watch it when I get home but I remember that I 
  bought two magazines after work today and I can always spend an hour or so poring 
  over those. I check my Rolex and realize that if we have one drink, maybe two, I’ll get 
  home in time for Late Night with David Letterman. Though physically Patricia is 
  appealing and I wouldn’t mind having sex with her body, the idea of treating her gently, 
  of being a kind date, of apologizing for this evening, for not being able to get into Dorsia 
  (even though Barcadia istwice as expensive for Christ sakes), rubs me the wrong way. 
  The bitch is probably pissed we don’t have a limo. 
     The cab stops outside Tunnel. I pay the fare and leave the driver a decent tip and hold 
  the door open for Patricia who ignores my hand when I try to help her step out of the 
  cab. No one stands outside the ropes tonight. In fact the only person on Twenty-fourth 
  Street is a bum who sits by a Dumpster, writhing in pain, moaning for change or food, 
  and we pass quickly by him as one of the three doormen who stand behind the ropes 
  lets us in, another one patting me on the back saying, “How are you, Mr. McCullough?” I 
  nod, opening the door for Patricia, and before following her in say, “Fine, uh, Jim,” and I 
  shake his hand. 
     Once inside, after paying fifty dollars for the two of us, I head immediately to the bar 
  without really caring if Patricia follows. I order a J&B on the rocks. She wants a Perrier, 
  no lime, and orders this herself. After I down half the drink, leaning against the bar and 
  checking the hardbody waitress out, something suddenly seems out of place; it’s not the 
  lighting or INXS singing “New Sensation” or the hardbody behind the bar. It’s something 
  else. When I slowly turn around to take in the rest of the club I’m confronted by space 
  that is completely deserted. Patricia and myself are the only two customers in the entire 
  club. We are, except for the occasional hardbody, literally the only two people in Tunnel. 
  
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  “New Sensation” becomes “The Devil Inside” and the music is full blast but it feels less 
  loud because there isn’t a crowd reacting to it, and the dance floor looks vast when 
  empty. 
     I move away from the bar and decide to check out the club’s other areas, expecting 
  Patricia to follow but she doesn’t. No one guards the stairs that lead to the basement 
  and as I step down them the music from upstairs changes, melds itself into Belinda 
  Carlisle singing “I Feel Free.” The basement has one couple in it who look like Sam and 
  Ilene Sanford but it’s darker down here, warmer, and I could be wrong. I move past 
  them as they stand by the bar drinking champagne and head over toward this extremely 
  well-dressed Mexican-looking guy sitting on a couch. He’s wearing a double-breasted 
  wool jacket and matching trousers by Mario Valentino, a cotton T-shirt by Agnes B. and 
  leather slip-ons (no socks) by Susan Bennis Warren Edwards, and he’s with a good-
  looking muscular Eurotrash chick—dirty blond, big tits, tan, no makeup, smoking Merit 
  Ultra Lights—who has on a cotton gown with a zebra print by Patrick Kelly and silk and 
  rhinestone high-heeled pumps. 
     I ask the guy if his name is Ricardo. 
     He nods. “Sure.” 
     I ask for a gram, tell him Madison sent me. I pull my wallet out and hand over a fifty 
  and two twenties. He asks the Eurotrash chick for her purse. She hands him a velvet 
  bag by Anne Moore. Ricardo reaches in and hands me a tiny folded envelope. Before I 
  leave, the Eurotrash girl tells me she likes my gazelleskin wallet. I tell her I would like to 
  tit-fuck her and then maybe cut her arms off, but the music, George Michael singing 
  “Faith,” is too loud and she can’t hear me. 
     Back upstairs I find Patricia where I left her, alone at the bar, nursing a Perrier. 
     “Listen, Patrick,” she says, her attitude relenting. “I just want you to know that I’m—” 
     “A bitch? Listen, do you want to do some coke?” I shout, cutting her line off. 
     “Uh, yeah… Sure.” She’s wildly confused. 
     “Come on,” I yell, taking her hand. 
     She puts her drink down on the bar and follows me through the deserted club, up the 
  stairs toward the rest rooms. There’s really no reason why we couldn’t do it downstairs 
  but that seems tacky and so we do most of it in one of the men’s room stalls. Back 
  outside the men’s room I sit on a couch and smoke one of her cigarettes while she goes 
  downstairs to get us drinks. 
     She comes back apologizing for her behavior earlier this evening. “I mean I loved 
  Barcadia, the food was outstanding and that mango sorbet, ohmygod I was in heaven. 
  Listen, it’s okay that we didn’t go to Dorsia. We can always go some other night and I 
  know that you probably tried to get us in but it’s just so hot right now. But, oh yeah, I 
  really loved the food at Barcadia. How long has it been open? I think it’s been three, four 
  months. I read a great review in New York or maybe it was Gourmet … But anyway, do 
  you want to come with me to this band tomorrow night, or maybe we can go to Dorsia 
  and then see Wallace’s band or maybe go to Dorsia after, but maybe it’s not even open 
  that late. Patrick, I’m serious: you should really see them. Avatar is such a great lead 
  singer and I actually thought I was in love with him once—well, actually I was in lust, not 
  love. I really liked Wallace then but he was into this whole investment banking thing and 
  he couldn’t handle the routine and he broke down, it was the acid not the cocaine that 
  did it. I mean I know but so when that all fell apart I knew that it would be, like, best to 
  just hang out and not deal with 
     J&B I am thinking. Glass of J&B in my right hand I am thinking. Hand I am thinking. 
  Charivari. Shirt from Charivari. Fusilli I am thinking. Jami Gertz I am thinking. I would like 
  to fuck Jami Gertz I am thinking. Porsche 911. A sharpei I am thinking. I would like to 
  own a sharpei. I am twenty-six years old I am thinking. I will be twenty-seven next year. 
  A Valium. I would like a Valium. No, two Valium I am thinking. Cellular phone I am 
  thinking. 
  Dry Cleaners 
  
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     The Chinese dry cleaners I usually send my bloody clothes to delivered back to me 
  yesterday a Soprani jacket, two white Brooks Brothers shirts and a tie from Agnes B. still 
  covered with flecks of someone’s blood. I have a lunch appointment at noon—in forty 
  minutes—and beforehand I decide to stop by the cleaners and complain. In addition to 
  the Soprani jacket, the shirts and tie, I bring along a bag of bloodstained sheets that also 
  need cleaning. The Chinese dry cleaners is located twenty blocks up from my apartment 
  on the West Side, almost by Columbia, and since I’ve never actually been there before 
  the distance shocks me (previously my clothes were always picked up after a phone call 
  from my apartment and then were delivered back within twenty-four hours). Because of 
  this excursion I have no time for a morning workout, and since I overslept, owing to a 
  late-night—predawn coke binge with Charles Griffin and Hilton Ashbury that started 
  innocently enough at a magazine party none of us were invited to at M.K. and ended at 
  my automated teller sometime around five, I’ve missed The Patty Winters Show which 
  actually was a repeat of an interview with the President, so it doesn’t really matter, I 
  guess. 
     I’m tense, my hair is slicked back, Wayfarers on, my skull is aching, I have a cigar—
  unlit—clenched between my teeth, am wearing a black Armani suit, a white cotton 
  Armani shirt and a silk tie, also by Armani. I look sharp but my stomach is doing flip-
  flops, my brain is churning. On my way into the Chinese cleaners I brush past a crying 
  bum, an old man, forty or fifty, fat and grizzled, and just as I’m opening the door I notice, 
  to top it off, that he’s also blind and I step on his foot, which is actually a stump, causing 
  him to drop his cup, scattering change all over the sidewalk. Did I do this on purpose? 
  What do you think? Or did I do this accidentally? 
     Then for ten minutes I point out the stains to the tiny old Chinese woman who, I’m 
  supposing, runs the cleaners and she’s even brought her husband out from the back of 
  the shop since I can’t understand a word she’s saying. But the husband remains utterly 
  mute and doesn’t bother to translate. The old woman keeps jabbering in what I guess is 
  Chinese and finally I have to interrupt. 
     “Listen, wait…” I hold up a hand with the cigar in it, the Soprani jacket draped over my 
  other arm. “You’re not… shhh, wait… shhh, you arenot giving me valid reasons.” 
     The Chinese woman keeps squealing something, grabbing at the arms of the jacket 
  with a tiny fist. I brush her hand away and, leaning in, speak very slowly. “What are you 
  trying to say to me?” 
     She keeps yipping, wild-eyed. The husband holds the two sheets he’s taken out of the 
  bag in front of him, both splattered with dried blood, and stares at them dumbly. 
     “Bleach-ee?” I ask her. “Are you trying to say bleach-ee?” I shake my head, 
  disbelieving. “Bleach-ee? Oh my god.” 
     She keeps pointing at the sleeves on the Soprani jacket and when she turns to the two 
  sheets behind her, the yipping voice rises another octave. 
     “Two things,” I say, talking over her. “One. You can’t bleach a Soprani. Out of the 
  question. Two”—and then louder, still over her—“two, I can only get these sheets in 
  Santa Fe. These are very expensive sheets and I really need them clean…. “ But she’s 
  still talking and I’m nodding as if I understand her gibberish, then I break into a smile 
  and lean right into her face. “If-you-don’t-shut-your-fucking-mouth-I-will-kill-you-are-you-
  understanding-me?” 
     The Chinese woman’s panicked jabbering speeds up incoherently, her eyes still wide. 
  Her face overall, maybe because of the wrinkles, seems oddly expressionless. 
  Pathetically I point at the stains again, but then realize this is useless and lower my 
  hand, straining to understand what she’s saying. Then, casually, I cut her off, talking 
  over her again. 
     “Now listen, I have a very important lunch meeting—I check my Rolex—“at Hubert’s in 
  thirty minutes”—then looking back at the woman’s flat, slanty—eyed face-“and I need 
  those… no, wait, twenty minutes. I have a lunch meeting at Hubert’s in twenty minutes 
  with Ronald Harrison and I need those sheets cleaned by this afternoon.” 
     But she’s not listening; she keeps blabbering something in the same spastic, foreign 
  
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  tongue. I have never firebombed anything and I start wondering how one goes about 
  it—what materials are involved, gasoline, matches… or would it be lighter fluid? 
     “Listen.” I snap out of it, and sincerely, in singsong, leaning into her face—her mouth 
  moving chaotically, she turns to her husband, who nods during a rare, brief pause—I tell 
  her, “I cannot understand you.” 
     I’m laughing, appalled at how ridiculous this situation is, and slapping a hand on the 
  counter look around the shop for someone else to talk to, but it’s empty, and I mutter, 
  “This is crazy.” I sigh, rubbing a hand over my face, and then abruptly stop laughing, 
  suddenly furious. I snarl at her, “You’re a fool. I can’t cope with this.” 
     She jabbers something back at me. 
     “What?” I ask spitefully. “You didn’t hear me? You want some ham? Is that what you 
  just said? You want… some ham?” 
     She grabs at the arm of the Soprani jacket again. Her husband stands behind the 
  counter, sullen and detached. 
     “You… are… a… fool! ” I bellow. 
     She jabbers back, undaunted, pointing relentlessly at the stains on the sheets. 
     “Stupid bitch-ee? Understand?” I shout, red-faced, on the verge of tears. I’m shaking 
  and I yank the jacket away from her, muttering “Oh Christ.” 
     Behind me the door opens and a bell chimes and I compose myself. Close my eyes, 
  breathe in deeply, remind myself about stopping in at the tanning salon after lunch, 
  maybe Hermès or— 
     “Patrick?” 
     Jolted by the sound of a real voice, I turn around and it’s someone I recognize from 
  my building, someone I’ve seen a number of times lingering in the lobby, staring 
  admiringly at me whenever I run into her. She’s older than me, late twenties, okay-
  looking, a little overweight, wearing a jogging suit—from where, Bloomingdale’s? I have 
  no idea—and she’s…beaming. Taking off her sunglasses she offers a wide smile. “Hi 
  Patrick, I thought it was you.” 
     Having no idea what her name is I sigh a muted “Hello” then very quickly mumble 
  something that resembles a woman’s name and then I just stare at her, stumped, 
  drained, trying to control my viciousness, the Chinese woman still screeching behind 
  me. Finally I clap my hands together and say, “Well.” 
     She stands there, confused, until nervously moving toward the counter, ticket in hand. 
  “Isn’t it ridiculous? Coming all the way up here, but you know they really are the best.” 
     ‘Then why can’t they get these stains out?” I ask patiently, still smiling, both eyes 
  closed until the Chinese woman has finally shut up and then I open them. “I mean can 
  you talk to these people or some thing?” I delicately propose. “I’m not getting any 
  where.” 
     She moves toward the sheet the old man holds up. “Oh my, I see,” she murmurs. The 
  moment she tentatively touches the sheet the old lady starts jabbering away, and 
  ignoring her, the girl asks me, “What are those?” She looks at the stains again and says, 
  “Oh my.” 
     “Um, well…” I look over at the sheets, which are really quite a mess. “It’s, um, 
  cranberry juice, cranapple juice.” 
     She looks at me and nods, as if unsure, then timidly ventures, “It doesn’t look like 
  cranberry, I mean cranapple, to me.” 
     I stare at the sheets for a long time before stammering, “Well, I mean, um, it’s really… 
  Bosco. You know, like…” I pause. “Like a Dove Bar. It’s a Dove Bar… Hershey’s 
  Syrup?” 
     “Oh yeah.” She nods, understanding, maybe a hint of skepticism. “Oh my.” 
     “Listen, if you could talk to them”—I reach over, yanking the sheet out of the old man’s 
  hand—“I would really appreciate it.” I fold the sheet and lay it gently on the counter, 
  then, checking my Rolex again, explain, “I’m really late. I have a lunch appointment at 
  Hubert’s in fifteen minutes.” I move toward the door of the dry cleaners and the Chinese 
  woman starts yapping again, desperately, shaking a finger at me. I glare at her, forcing 
  
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  myself not to mimic the hand gestures. 
     “Hubert’s? Oh really?” the girl asks, impressed. “It moved uptown, right?” 
     “Yeah, well, oh boy, listen, I’ve got to go.” I pretend to spot an oncoming cab across 
  the street through the glass door and, faking gratitude, tell her, “Thank you, uh… 
  Samantha.” 
     “It’s Victoria.” 
     “Oh right, Victoria.” I pause. “Didn’t I say that?” 
     “No. You said Samantha.” 
     “‘Well, I’m sorry.” I smile. “I’m having problems.” 
     “Maybe we could have lunch one day next week?” she suggests hopefully, moving 
  toward me while I’m backing out of the store. “You know, I’m downtown near Wall Street 
  quite often.” 
     “Oh, I don’t know, Victoria.” I force an apologetic grin, avert my gaze from her thighs. 
  “I’m at work all the time.” 
     “Well, what about, oh, you know, maybe a Saturday?” Victoria asks, afraid she’ll 
  offend. 
     “Next Saturday?” I ask, checking my Rolex again. 
     “Yeah.” She shrugs timidly. 
     “Oh. Can’t, I’m afraid. Matinee of Les Misérables,” I lie. “Listen. I’ve really got to go. 
  I’ll…” I run a hand over my hair and mutter “Oh Christ” before forcing myself to add, “I’ll 
  call you.” 
     “Okay.” She smiles, relieved. “Do.” 
     I glare at the Chinese woman once more and rush the hell out of there, dashing after a 
  nonexistent cab, and then I slow down a block or two up past the cleaners and- 
     . suddenly I find myself eyeing a very pretty homeless girl sitting on the steps of a 
  brownstone on Amsterdam, a Styrofoam coffee cup resting on the step below her feet, 
  and as if guided by radar I move toward her, smiling, fishing around in my pocket for 
  change. Her face seems too young and fresh and tan for a homeless person’s; it makes 
  her plight all the more heartbreaking. I examine her carefully in the seconds it takes to 
  move from the edge of the sidewalk to the steps leading up to the brownstone where 
  she sits, her head bowed down, staring dumbly into her empty lap. She looks up, 
  unsmiling, after she notices me standing over her. My nastiness vanishes and, wanting 
  to offer something kind, something simple, I lean in, still staring, eyes radiating 
  sympathy into her blank, grave face, and dropping a dollar into the Styrofoam cup I say, 
  “Good luck.” 
     Her expression changes and because of this I notice the book—Sartre—in her lap and 
  then the Columbia book bag by her side and finally the tan-colored coffee in the cup and 
  my dollar bill floating in it and though this all happens in a matter of seconds it’s played 
  out in slow motion and she looks at me, then at the cup, and shouts, “Hey, what’s your 
  goddamn problem?” and frozen, hunched over the cup, cringing, I stutter, “I didn’t… I 
  didn’t know it was… full,” and shaken, I walk away, hailing a taxi, and heading toward 
  Hubert’s in it I hallucinate the buildings into mountains, into volcanoes, the streets 
  become jungles, the sky freezes into a backdrop, and before stepping out of the cab I 
  have to cross my eyes in order to clear my vision. Lunch at Hubert’s becomes a 
  permanent hallucination in which I find myself dreaming while still awake. 
  Harry’s 
     “You should match the socks with the trousers,” Todd Hamlin tells Reeves, who is 
  listening intently, stirring his Beefeater on the rocks with a swizzle stick. 
     “Who says?” George asks. 
     “Now listen,” Hamlin patiently explains. “If you wear gray trousers, you wear gray 
  socks. It’s as simple as that.” 
     “But wait,” I interrupt. “What if the shoes are black? ” 
     “That’s okay,” Hamlin says, sipping his martini. “But then the belt has to match the 
  
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  shoes.” 
     “So what you’re saying is that with a gray suit you can either wear gray orblack socks,” 
  I ask. 
     “Er… yeah,” Hamlin says, confused. “I guess. Did I say that?” 
     “See, Hamlin,” I say, “I disagree about the belt since the shoes are so far away from 
  the actual belt line. I think you should concentrate on wearing a belt that coordinates 
  with the trousers.” 
     “He has a point,” Reeves says. 
     The three of us, Todd Hamlin and George Reeves and myself, are sitting in Harry’s 
  and it’s a little after six. Hamlin is wearing a suit by Lubiam, a great-looking striped 
  spread-collar cotton shirt from Burberry, a silk tie by Resikeio and a belt from Ralph 
  Lauren. Reeves is wearing a six-button double-breasted suit by Christian Dior, a cotton 
  shirt, a patterned silk tie by Claiborne, perforated cap-toe leather lace-ups by Allen-
  Edmonds, a cotton handkerchief in his pocket, probably from Brooks Brothers; 
  sunglasses by Lafont Paris lie on a napkin by his drink and a fairly nice attaché case 
  from T. Anthony rests on an empty chair by our table. I’m wearing a two-button single-
  breasted chalk-striped wool-flannel suit, a multicolored candy-striped cotton shirt and a 
  silk pocket square, all by Patrick Aubert, a polka-dot silk tie by Bill Blass and clear 
  prescription eyeglasses with frames by Lafont Paris. One of our CD Walkman headsets 
  lies in the middle of the table surrounded by drinks and a calculator. Reeves and Hamlin 
  left the office early today for facials somewhere and they both look good, faces pink but 
  tan, hair short and slicked back. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about Real-
  Life Rambos. 
     “But what about vests?” Reeves asks Todd. “Aren’t they… out?” 
     “No, George,” Hamlin says. “Of course not.” 
     “No,” I agree. “Vests have never been out of fashion.” 
     “Well, the question really is —how should they be worn?” Hamlin inquires. 
     “They should fit—” Reeves and I start simultaneously. 
     “Oh sorry,” Reeves says. “Go ahead.” 
     “No, it’s okay,” I say. “You go ahead.” 
     “I insist,” George says. 
     “Well, they should fit trimly around the body and cover the waistline,” I say. “It should 
  peek just above the waist button of the suit jacket. Now if too much of the vest appears, 
  it’ll give the suit a tight, constricted look that you don’t want.” 
     “Uh-huh,” Reeves says, nearly mute, looking confused. “Right. I knew that.” 
     “I need another J&B,” I say, getting up. “Guys?” 
     “Beefeater on rocks with a twist.” Reeves, pointing at me. 
     Hamlin. “Martini.” 
     “Sure thing.” I walk over toward the bar and while waiting for Freddy to pour the drinks 
  I hear some guy, I think it’s this Greek William Theodocropopolis, from First Boston, 
  who’s wearing a sort of tacky wool jacket in a houndstooth check and an okay-looking 
  shirt, but he also has on a super-looking cashmere tie from Paul Stuart that makes the 
  suit look better than it deserves to, and he’s telling some guy, another Greek, drinking a 
  Diet Coke, “So listen, Sting was at Chernoble—you know that place the guys who 
  opened Tunnel opened—and so this was on Page Six and someone drives up in a 
  Porsche 911 and in the car was Whitney and—” 
     Back at our table Reeves is telling Hamlin about how he taunts the homeless in the 
  streets, about how he hands a dollar to them as he approaches and then yanks it away 
  and pockets it right when he passes the bums. 
     “Listen, it works,” he insists. “They’re so shocked they shut up.” 
     “Just… say… no,” I tell him, setting the drinks on the table. “That’s all you have to 
  say.” 
     “Just say no?” Hamlin smiles. “It works?” 
     “Well, actually only with pregnant homeless women,” I admit. 
     “I take it you haven’t tried the just-say-no approach with the seven-foot gorilla on 
  
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  Chambers Street?” Reeves asks. “The one with the crack pipe?” 
     “Listen, has any one heard of this club called Nekenieh?” Reeves asks. 
     From my POV Paul Owen sits at a table across the room with someone who looks a 
  lot like Trent Moore, or Roger Daley, and some other guy who looks like Frederick 
  Connell. Moore’s grandfather owns the company he works at. Trent is wearing a mini-
  houndstooth-check worsted wool suit with multicolored overplaid. 
     “Nekenieh?” Hamlin asks. “What’s Nekenieh?” 
     “Guys, guys,” I say. “Who’s sitting with Paul Owen over there? Is that Trent Moore?” 
     “Where?” Reeves. 
     ‘They’re getting up. That table,” I say. “Those guys.” 
     “Isn’t that Madison? No, it’s Dibble,” Reeves says. He puts on his clear prescription 
  eyeglasses just to make sure. 
     “No,” Hamlin says. “It’s Trent Moore.” 
     “Are you sure?” Reeves asks. 
     Paul Owen stops by our table on his way out. He’s wearing sunglasses by Persol and 
  he’s carrying a briefcase by Coach Leatherware. 
     “Hello, men,” Owen says and he introduces the two guys he’s with, Trent Moore and 
  someone named Paul Denton. 
     Reeves and Hamlin and I shake their hands without standing up. George and Todd 
  start talking to Trent, who is from Los Angeles and knows where Nekenieh is located. 
  Owen turns his attention my way, which makes me slightly nervous. 
     “How have you been?” Owen asks. 
     “I’ve been great,” I say. “And you?” 
     “Oh terrific,” he says. “How’s the Hawkins account going?” 
     “It’s…” I stall and then continue, faltering momentarily, “It’s… all right.” 
     “Really?” he asks, vaguely concerned. “That’s interesting,” he says, smiling, hands 
  clasped together behind his back. “Not great?” 
     “Oh well,” I say. “You… know.” 
     “And how’s Marcia?” he asks, still smiling, looking over the room, not really listening to 
  me. “She’s a great girl.” 
     “Oh yes,” I say, shaken. “I’m… lucky.” 
     Owen has mistaken me for Marcus Halberstam (even though Marcus is dating Cecelia 
  Wagner) but for some reason it really doesn’t matter and it seems a logical faux pas 
  since Marcus works at P & P also, in fact does the same exact thing I do, and he also 
  has a penchant for Valentino suits and clear prescription glasses and we share the 
  same barber at the same place, the Pierre Hotel, so it seems understandable; it doesn’t 
  irk me. But Paul Denton keeps staring at me, or trying not to, as if he knows something, 
  as if he’s not quite sure if he recognizes me or not, and it makes me wonder if maybe he 
  was on that cruise a long time ago, one night last March. If that’s the case, I’m thinking, I 
  should get his telephone number or, better yet, his address. 
     “Well, we should have drinks,” I tell Owen. 
     “Great,” he says. “Let’s. Here’s my card.” 
     “Thanks,” I say, looking at it closely, relieved by its crudeness, before slipping it into 
  my jacket. “Maybe I’ll bring…” I pause, then carefully say, “Marcia?” 
     “That would be great,” he says. “Hey, have you been to that Salvadorian bistro on 
  Eighty-third?” he asks. “We’re eating there tonight.” 
     “Yeah. I mean no,” I say. “But I’ve heard it’s quite good.” I smile weakly and take a sip 
  of my drink. 
     “Yes, so have I.” He checks his Rolex. “Trent? Denton? Let’s split. Reservation’s in 
  fifteen.minutes.” 
     Goodbyes are said and on their way out of Harry’s they stop by the table Dibble and 
  Hamilton are sitting at, or at least I think it’s Dibble and Hamilton. Before they leave, 
  Denton looks over at our table, at me, one last time, and he seems panicked, convinced 
  of something by my presence, as if he recognized me from somewhere, and this, in turn, 
  freaks me out. 
  
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     “The Fisher account,” Reeves says. 
     “Oh shit,” I say. “Don’t remind us.” 
     “Lucky bastard,” Hamlin says. 
     “Has anyone seen his girlfriend?” Reeves asks. “Laurie Kennedy? Total hardbody.” 
     “I know her,” I say, admit, “I knew her.” 
     “Why do you say it like that?” Hamlin asks, intrigued. “Why does he say it like that, 
  Reeves?” 
     “Because he dated her,” Reeves says casually. 
     “How did you know that?” I ask, smiling. 
     “Girls dig Bateman.” Reeves sounds a little drunk. “He’s GQ. You’re total GQ, 
  Bateman.” 
     “Thanks guy, but…” I can’t tell if he’s being sarcastic but it makes me feel proud in a 
  way and I try to downplay my good looks by saying, “She’s got a lousy personality.” 
     “Oh Christ, Bateman,” Hamlin groans. “What does that mean?” 
     “What?” I say. “She does.” 
     “So what? It’s all looks. Laurie Kennedy is a babe,” Hamlin says, emphatically. “Don’t 
  even pretend you were interested for any other reason.” 
     “If they have a good personality then… something is very wrong,” Reeves says, 
  somehow confused by his own statement. 
     “If they have a good personality and they are not great-looking”—Reeves holds his 
  hands up, signifying something—“who fucking cares?” 
     “Well, let’s just say hypothetically, okay? What if they have a good personality?” I ask, 
  knowing full well what a hopeless, asinine question it is. 
     “Fine. Hypo thetically even better but—” Hamlin says. 
     “I know, I know.” I smile. 
     “There are no girls with good personalities,” we all say in unison, laughing, giving each 
  other high-five. 
     “A good personality,” Reeves begins, “consists of a chick who has a little hardbody 
  and who will satisfy all sexual demands without being too slutty about things and who 
  will essentially keep her dumb fucking mouth shut.” 
     “Listen,” Hamlin says, nodding in agreement. “The only girls with good personalities 
  who are smart or maybe funny or halfway intelligent or even talented—though god 
  knows what the fuck that means—are ugly chicks.” 
     “Absolutely.” Reeves nods. 
     “And this is because they have to make up for how fucking unattractive they are,” 
  Hamlin says, sitting back in his chair. 
     “Well, my theory’s always been,” I start, “men are only here to procreate, to carry on 
  the species, you know?” 
     They both nod. 
     “And so the only way to do that,” I continue, choosing words carefully, “is… to get 
  turned on by a little hardbody, but sometimes money or fame ” 
     “No buts,” Hamlin says, interrupting. “Bateman, are you telling me that you’re gonna 
  make it with Oprah Winfrey—hey, she’s rich, she’s powerful—or go down on Nell 
  Carter—hey, she’s got a show on Broadway, a great voice, residuals pouring in?” 
     “Wait,” Reeves says. “Who is Nell Carter?” 
     “I don’t know,” I say, confused by the name. “She owns Nell’s, I guess.” 
     “Listen to me, Bateman,” Hamlin says. “The only reason chicks exist is to get us 
  turned on, like you said. Survival of the species, right? It’s as simple”—he lifts an olive 
  out of his drink and pops it into his mouth—“as that.” 
     After a deliberate pause I say, “Do you know what Ed Gein said about women?” 
     “Ed Gein?” one of them asks. “Maître d’ at Canal Bar?” 
     “No,” I say, “Serial killer, Wisconsin in the fifties. He was an interesting guy.” 
     “You’ve always been interested in stuff like that, Bateman,” Reeves says, and then to 
  Hamlin, “Bateman reads these biographies all the time: Ted Bundy and Son of Sam and 
  Fatal Vision and Charlie Manson. All of them.” 
  
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     “So what did Ed say?” Hamlin asks, interested. 
     “He said,” I begin, “ ’When I see a pretty girl walking down the street I think two things. 
  One part of me wants to take her out and talk to her and be real nice and sweet and 
  treat her right.’” I stop, finish my J&B in one swallow. 
     “What does the other part of him think?” Hamlin asks tentatively. 
     “What her head would look like on a stick,” I say. 
     Hamlin and Reeves look at each other and then back at me before I start laughing, 
  and then the two of them uneasily join in. 
     “Listen, what about dinner?” I say, casually changing subjects. 
     “How about that Indian-Californian place on the Upper West Side?” Hamlin suggests. 
     “Fine with me,” I say. 
     “Sounds good,” Reeves says. 
     “Who’ll make the rez?” Hamlin asks. 
  Deck Chairs 
     Courtney Lawrence invites me out to dinner on Monday night and the invitation seems 
  vaguely sexual so I accept, but part of the catch is that we have to endure dinner with 
  two Camden graduates, Scott and Anne Smiley, at a new restaurant they chose on 
  Columbus called Deck Chairs, a place I had my secretary research so thoroughly that 
  she presented me with three alternative menus of what I should order before I left the 
  office today. The things that Courtney told me about Scott and Anne—he works at an 
  advertising agency, she opens restaurants with her father’s money, most recently 1968 
  on the Upper East Side—on the interminable cab ride uptown was only slightly less 
  interesting than hearing about Courtney’s day: facial at Elizabeth Arden, buying kitchen 
  utensils at the Pottery Barn (all of this, by the way, on lithium) before coming down to 
  Harry’s where we had drinks with Charles Murphy and Rusty Webster, and where 
  Courtney forgot the bag of Pottery Barn utensils she’d put underneath our table. The 
  only detail of Scott and Anne’s life that seems even remotely suggestive to me is that 
  they adopted a Korean boy of thirteen the year after they married, named him Scott Jr. 
  and sent him to Exeter, where Scott had gone to school four years before I attended. 
     “They better have reservations,” I warn Courtney in the cab. 
     “Just don’t smoke a cigar, Patrick,” she says slowly. 
     “Is that Donald Trump’s car?” I ask, looking over at the limousine stuck next to us in 
  gridlock. 
     “Oh god, Patrick. Shut up,” she says, her voice thick and drugged. 
     “You know, Courtney, I have a Walkman in my Bottega Veneta briefcase I could easily 
  put on,” I say. “You should take some more lithium. Or have a Diet Coke. Some caffeine 
  might get you out of this slump.” 
     “I just want to have a child,” she says softly, staring out the window, to no one. “Just… 
  two… perfect… children.” 
     “Are you talking to me or Shlomo here?” I sigh, but loudly enough for the Israeli driver 
  to hear me, and predictably Courtney doesn’t say anything. 
     The Patty Winters Show this morning was about Perfumes and Lipsticks and 
  Makeups. Luis Carruthers, Courtney’s boyfriend, is out of town in Phoenix and will not 
  be back in Manhattan until late Thursday. Courtney is wearing a wool jacket and vest, a 
  wool jersey T-shirt and wool gabardine pants by Bill Blass, crystal, enamel and gold 
  plated earrings by Gerard E. Yosca and silk-satin d’Orsay pumps from Manolo Blahnik. I 
  am wearing a custom-made tweed jacket, pants and a cotton shirt from the Alan Flusser 
  shop and a silk tie by Paul Stuart. There was a twenty-minute wait at the Stairmaster 
  machine at my health club this morning. I wave to a beggar on the corner of Forty-ninth 
  and Eighth, then give him the finger. 
     Tonight the talk centers around Elmore Leonard’s new book—which I haven’t read; 
  certain restaurant critics—who I have; the British sound track from Les Misérables 
  versus the American cast recording; that new Salvadorian bistro on Second and Eighty-
  
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  third; and which gossip columns are better written—the Post ’s or the News ’s. It seems 
  that Anne Smiley and I share a mutual acquaintance, a waitress from Abetone’s in 
  Aspen who I raped with a can of hairspray last Christmas when I was skiing there over 
  the holidays. Deck Chairs is crowded, earsplitting, the acoustics lousy because of the 
  high ceilings, and if I’m not mistaken, accompanying the din is a New Age version of 
  “White Rabbit” blaring from speakers mounted in the ceiling corners. Someone who 
  looks like Forrest Atwater—slicked-back blond hair, nonprescription redwood-framed 
  glasses, Armani suit with suspenders—is sitting with Caroline Baker, an investment 
  banker at Drexel, maybe, and she doesn’t look too good. She needs more makeup, the 
  Ralph Lauren tweed outfit is too severe. They’re at a mediocre table up front by the bar. 
     “It’s called California classic cuisine,” Anne tells me, leaning in close, after we ordered. 
  The statement deserves a reaction, I suppose, and since Scott and Courtney are 
  discussing the merits of the Post ’s gossip column, it’s up to me to reply. 
     “You mean compared to, say, California cuisine?” I ask carefully, measuring each 
  word, then lamely add, “Or post- California cuisine?” 
     “I mean I know it sounds so trendy but there is a world of difference. It’s sub tle,” she 
  says, “but it’s there.” 
     “I’ve heard of post-California cuisine,” I say, acutely aware of the design of the 
  restaurant: the exposed pipe and the columns and the open pizza kitchen and the… 
  deck chairs. “In fact I’ve even eaten it. No baby vegetables? Scallops in burritos? 
  Wasabi crackers? Am I on the right track? And by the way, did anyone ever tell you that 
  you look exactly like Garfield but run over and skinned and then someone threw an ugly 
  Ferragamo sweater over you before they rushed you to the vet? Fusilli? Olive oil on 
  Brie?” 
     “Exactly,” Anne says, impressed. “Oh Courtney, where did you find Patrick? He’s so 
  knowledgeable about things. I mean Luis’s idea of California cuisine is half an orange 
  and some gelati,” she gushes, then laughs, encouraging me to laugh with her, which I 
  do, hesitantly. 
     For an appetizer I ordered radicchio with some kind of free-range squid. Anne and 
  Scott both had the monkfish ragout with violets. Courtney almost fell asleep when she 
  had to exert the energy to read the menu, but before she slid off her chair I grabbed 
  both shoulders, propping her up, and Anne ordered for her, something simple and light 
  like Cajun popcorn perhaps, which wasn’t on the menu but since Anne knows Noj, the 
  chef, he made up a special little batch… just for Courtney! Scott and Anne insisted that 
  we all order some kind of blackened medium-rare redfish, a Desk Chairs specialty which 
  was, luckily for them, an entrée on one of the mock menus that Jean made up for me. If 
  it hadn’t, and if they nevertheless insisted on my ordering it, the odds were pretty good 
  that after dinner tonight I would have broken into Scott and Anne’s studio at around two 
  this morning—after Late Night with David Letterman —and with an ax chopped them to 
  pieces, first making Anne watch Scott bleed to death from gaping chest wounds, and 
  then I would have found a way to get to Exeter where I would pour a bottle of acid all 
  over their son’s slanty-eyed zipperhead face. Our waitress is a little hardbody who is 
  wearing gold faux-pearl tasseled lizard sling-back pumps. I forgot to return my 
  videotapes to the store tonight and I curse myself silently while Scott orders two large 
  bottles of San Pellegrino. 
     “It’s called California classic cuisine,” Scott is telling me. 
     “Why don’t we all go to Zeus Bar next week?” Anne suggests to Scott. “You think we’d 
  have a problem getting a table on Friday?” Scott is wearing a red and purple and black 
  striped cashmere intarsia sweater from Paul Stuart, baggy Ralph Lauren corduroys and 
  Cole-Haan leather moccasins. 
     “Well… maybe,” he says. 
     “That’s a good idea. I like it a lot,” Anne says, picking up a small violet off her plate 
  and sniffing the flower before placing it carefully on her tongue. She’s wearing a red, 
  purple and black hand-knitted mohair and wool sweater from Koos Van Den Akker 
  Couture and slacks from Anne Klein, with suede open-toe pumps. 
  
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     A waiter, though not the hardbody, strides over to take another drink order. 
     “J&B. Straight,” I say before anyone else orders. 
     Courtney orders a champagne on the rocks, which secretly appalls me. “Oh,” she says 
  as if reminded by something, “can I have that with a twist?” 
     “A twist of what?” I ask irritably, unable to stop myself. “Let me guess. Melon?” And 
  I’m thinking oh my god why didn’t you return those goddamn videos Bateman you dumb 
  son-of-a-bitch. 
     “You mean lemon, miss,” the waiter says, giving me an icy stare. 
     “Yes, of course. Lemon.” Courtney nods, seeming lost in some kind of dream but 
  enjoying it, oblivious to it. 
     “I’ll have a glass of the… oh gosh, I guess the Acacia,” Scott says and then addresses 
  the table: “Do I want a white? Do I really want a chardonnay? We can eat the redfish 
  with a cabernet.” 
     “Go for it,” Anne says cheerily. 
     “Okay, I’ll have the… oh jeez, the sauvignon blanc,” Scott says. 
     The waiter smiles, confused. 
     “Scottie,” Anne shrieks. “The sauvignon blanc?” 
     “Just teasing,” he snickers. “I’ll have the chardonnay. The Acacia.” 
     “You complete jerk.” Anne smiles, relieved. “You’re fun ny.” 
     “I’m having the chardonnay,” Scott tells the waiter. 
     “That’s nice,” Courtney says, patting Scott’s hand. 
     “I’ll just have…” Anne stalls, deliberating. “Oh, I’ll just have a Diet Coke.” 
     Scott looks up from a piece of corn bread he was dipping into a small tin of olive oil. 
  “You’re not drinking tonight?” 
     “No,” Anne says, smiling naughtily. Who knows why? And who fucking cares? “I’m not 
  in the mood.” 
     “Not even for a glass of the chardonnay?” Scott asks. “How about a sauvignon blanc?” 
     “I have this aerobics class at nine,” she says, slipping, losing control. “I really 
  shouldn’t.” 
     “Well then, I don’t want anything,” Scott says, disappointed. “I mean I have one at 
  eight at Xclusive.” 
     “Does anyone want to guess where I won’t be tomorrow morning at eight?” I ask. 
     “No, honey. I know how much you like the Acacia.” Anne reaches out and squeezes 
  Scott’s hand. 
     “No, babe. I’ll stick to the Pellegrino,” Scott says, pointing. 
     I’m tapping my fingers very loudly on the tabletop, whispering “shit, shit, shit, shit” to 
  myself. Courtney’s eyes are half closed and she’s breathing deeply. 
     “Listen. I’ll be daring,” Anne says finally. “I’ll have a Diet Coke with rum.” 
     Scott sighs, then smiles, beaming really. “Good.” 
     “That’s a caffeine-fine Diet Coke, right?” Anne asks the waiter. 
     “You know,” I interrupt, “you should have it with Diet Pepsi. It’s much better.” 
     “Really?” Anne asks. “What do you mean?” 
     “You should have the Diet Pepsi instead of the Diet Coke,” I say. “It’s much better. It’s 
  fizzier. It has a cleaner taste. It mixes better with rum and has a lower sodium content.” 
     The waiter, Scott, Anne, and even Courtney—they all stare at me as if I’ve offered 
  some kind of diabolical, apocalyptic observation, as if I were shattering a myth highly 
  held, or destroying an oath that was solemnly regarded, and it suddenly seems almost 
  hushed in Deck Chairs. Last night I rented a movie called Inside Lydia’s Ass and while 
  on two Halcion and in fact sipping a Diet Pepsi, I watched as Lydia—a totally tan 
  bleached-blonde hardbody with a perfect ass and great full tits—while on all fours gave 
  head to this guy with a huge cock while another gorgeous blonde little hardbody with a 
  perfectly trimmed blond pussy knelt behind Lydia and after eating her ass out and 
  sucking on her cunt started to push a long, greased silver vibrator into Lydia’s ass and 
  fucked her with it while she continued to eat her pussy and the guy with the huge cock 
  came all over Lydia’s face as she sucked his balls and then Lydia bucked to an 
  
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  authentic-looking, fairly strong orgasm and then the girl behind Lydia crawled around 
  and licked the come from Lydia’s face and then made Lydia suck on the vibrator. The 
  new Stephen Bishop came out last Tuesday and at Tower Records yesterday I bought 
  the compact disc, the cassette and the album because I wanted to own all three 
  formats. 
     “Listen,” I say, my voice trembling with emotion, “have whatever you want but I’m 
  telling you I recommend the Diet Pepsi.” I look down at my lap, at the blue cloth napkin, 
  the words Deck Chairs sewn into the napkin’s edge, and for a moment think I’m going to 
  cry; my chin trembles and I can’t swallow. 
     Courtney reaches over and touches my wrist gently, stroking my Rolex. “It’s okay 
  Patrick. It really is.…” 
     A sharp pain near my liver overcomes the surge of emotion and I sit up in my chair, 
  startled, confused, and the waiter leaves and then Anne asks if we’ve seen the recent 
  David Onica exhibit and I’m feeling calmer. 
     It turns out we haven’t seen the show but I don’t want to be tacky enough to bring up 
  the fact I own one, so I lightly kick Courtney under the table. This raises her out of the 
  lithium-induced stupor and she says robotically, “Patrick owns an Onica. He really 
  does.” 
     I smile, pleased; sip my J&B. 
     “Oh that’s fantas tic, Patrick,” Anne says. 
     “Really? An Onica?” Scott asks. “Isn’t he quite expensive?” 
     “Well, let’s just say…” I sip my drink, suddenly confused: say… say what? “Nothing.” 
     Courtney sighs, anticipating another kick. “Patrick’s cost twenty thousand dollars.” She 
  seems bored out of her mind, picking at a flat, warm piece of corn bread. 
     I give her a sharp look and try not to hiss. “Uh, no, Courtney, it was really fifty.” 
     She slowly looks up from the corn bread she’s mashing between her fingers and even 
  in her lithium haze manages a stare so malicious that it automatically humbles me, but 
  not enough to tell Scott and Anne the truth: that the Onica cost only twelve grand. But 
  Courtney’s frightening gaze—though I might be overreacting; she might be staring 
  disapprovingly at the patterns on the columns, the venetian blinds on the skylight, the 
  Montigo vases full of purple tulips lining the bar—scares me enough to not elaborate on 
  the procedure of purchasing an Onica. It’s a stare that I can interpret fairly easily. It 
  warns: Kick me again and no pussy, do you understand? 
     ‘That seems.…” Anne starts. 
     I hold my breath, my face tight with tension. 
     “…low,” she murmurs. 
     I exhale. “It is. But I got a fabulous deal,” I say, gulping. 
     “But fifty thousand?” Scott asks suspiciously. 
     “Well, I think his work… it has a kind of… wonderfully proportioned, purposefully 
  mock-superficial quality.” I pause, then, trying to remember a line from a review I saw in 
  New York magazine: “Purposefully mock…” 
     “Doesn’t Luis own one, Courtney?” Anne asks, and then tapping Courtney’s arm, 
  “Courtney?” 
     “Luis… owns… what?” Courtney shakes her head as if to clear it, widening her eyes to 
  make sure they don’t close on her. 
     “Who’s Luis?” Scott asks, waving to the waitress to have the butter the busboy 
  recently placed on the table removed—what a party animal. 
     Anne answers for Courtney. “Her boyfriend,” she says after seeing Courtney, 
  confused, actually looking at me for help. 
     “Where’s he at?” Scott asks. 
     “Texas,” I say quickly. “He’s out of town in Phoenix, I mean.” 
     “No,” Scott says. “I meant what house.” 
     “L. F. Rothschild,” Anne says, about to look at Courtney for confirmation, but then at 
  me. “Right?” 
     “No. He’s at P & P,” I say. “We work together, sort of.” 
  
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     “Wasn’t he dating Samantha Stevens at one point?” Anne asks. 
     “No,” Courtney says. “That was just a photo someone took of them that was in W.” 
     I down my drink as soon as it arrives and wave almost immediately for another and I’m 
  thinking Courtney is a babe but no sex is worth this dinner. The conversation violently 
  shifts while I’m staring across the room at a great-looking woman—blonde, big tits, tight 
  dress, satin pumps with gold cones—when Scott starts telling me about his new 
  compact disc player while Anne unwittingly prattles on to a stoned and completely 
  oblivious Courtney about new kinds of low-sodium wheat-rice cake, fresh fruits and New 
  Age music, particularly Manhattan Steamroller. 
     “It’s Aiwa,” Scott’s saying. “You’ve got to hear it. The sound”—he pauses, closes his 
  eyes in ecstasy, chewing on corn bread—“is fantastic.” 
     “Well, you know, Scottie, the Aiwa is okay.” Oh holy shit, dream on, Scot-tie, I’m 
  thinking. “But Sansui is really top of the line.” I pause, then add, “I should know. I own 
  one.” 
     “But I thought Aiwa was top of the line.” Scott looks worried but not yet upset enough 
  to please me. 
     “No way, Scott,” I say. “Does Aiwa have digital remote control?’-“ 
     “Yeah,” he says. 
     “Computer controls?” 
     “Uh-huh.” What a completq and total dufus. 
     “Does the system come with a turntable that has a metacrylate and brass platter?” 
     “Yes,” the bastard lies! 
     “Does your system have an… Accophase T-106 tuner?” I ask him. 
     “Sure,” he says, shrugging. 
     “Are you sure?” I say. “Think carefully.” 
     “Yeah. I think so,” he says, but his hand shakes as it reaches for more of the corn 
  bread. 
     “What kind of speakers?” 
     “Well, Duntech wood,” he answers too quickly. 
     “So solly, dude. You’ve got to have the Infinity IRS V speakers,” I say. “Or—” 
     “Wait a minute,” he interrupts. “V speakers? I’ve never beard of V speakers.” 
     “See, that’s what I mean,” I say. “If you don’t have the V’s, you might as well be 
  listening to a goddamn Walkman.” 
     “What’s the bass response on those speakers?” he asks suspiciously. 
     “An ultralow fifteen hertz,” I purr, enunciating each word. 
     That shuts him up for a minute. Anne drones on about nonfat frozen yogurt and chow 
  chows. I sit back, satisfied at having stumped Scott, but too quickly he regains his 
  composure and says, “Anyway”—trying to act blissfully uncaring that he owns a cheap, 
  shitty stereo—“we bought the new Phil Collins today. You should hear how great 
  ‘Groovy Kind of Love’ sounds on it.” 
     “Yeah, I think it’s by far the best song he’s written,” I say, blah blah blah, and though 
  it’s finally something Scott and I can agree on, the plates of blackened redfish appear 
  and they look bizarre and Courtney excuses herself to the ladies’ room and, after thirty 
  minutes, when she hasn’t reappeared I wander into the back of the restaurant and find 
  her asleep in the coatcheck room. 
     But at her apartment she lies naked on her back, her legs—tan and aerobicized and 
  muscular and worked out—are spread and I’m on my knees giving her head while 
  jerking myself off and in the time since I’ve started licking and sucking on her pussy 
  she’s already come twice and her cunt is tight and hot and wet and I keep it spread 
  open, fingering it with one hand, keeping myself hard with the other. I lift her ass up, 
  wanting to push my tongue into her, but she doesn’t want me to and so I raise up my 
  head and reach over to the Portian antique nightstand for the condom that sits in the 
  ashtray from Palio next to the halogen Tensor lamp and the D’Oro pottery urn and I tear 
  the package open with two shiny slick fingers and my teeth, then slip it, easily, onto my 
  cock. 
  
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     “I want you to fuck me,” Courtney moans, pulling her legs back, spreading her vagina 
  even wider, fingering herself, making me suck her fingers, the nails on her hand long 
  and red, and the juice from her cunt, glistening in the light coming from the streetlamps 
  through the Stuart Hall venetian blinds, tastes pink and sweet and she rubs it over my 
  mouth and lips and tongue before it cools. 
     “Yeah,” I say, moving on top of her, sliding my dick gracefully into her cunt, kissing her 
  on the mouth hard, pushing into her with long fast strokes, my cock, my hips crazed, 
  moving on their own desirous momentum, already my orgasm builds from the base of 
  my balls, my asshole, coming up through my cock so stiff that it aches—but then in mid-
  kiss I lift my head up, leaving her tongue hanging out of her mouth starting to lick her 
  own red swollen lips, and while still humping but lightly now I realize there… is… a… 
  problem of sorts but I cannot think of what it is right now… but then it hits me while I’m 
  staring at the half-empty bottle of Evian water on the nightstand and I gasp “Oh shit” and 
  pull out. 
     “What?” Courtney moans. “Did you forget something?” 
     Without answering I get up from the futon and stumble into her bathroom trying to pull 
  off the condom but it gets stuck halfway and while easing it off I accidentally trip over the 
  Genold scale while also trying to flip on the light switch and in the process stubbing my 
  big toe, then, cursing, I manage to open the medicine cabinet. 
     “Patrick what are you do ing?” she calls from the bedroom. 
     “I’m looking for the water-soluble spermicidal lubricant,” I call back. “What do you think 
  I’m doing? Looking for an Advil?” 
     “Oh my god,” she cries out. “You didn’t have any on?” 
     “Courtney,” I call back, noticing a small razor nick above my lip. “Where is it?” 
     “I can not hear you, Patrick,” she calls out. 
     “Luis has terrible taste in cologne,” I mutter, picking up a bottle of Paco Rabanne, 
  sniffing it. 
     “What are you saying?” she cries out. 
     “The water-soluble spermicidal lubricant,” I shout back, staring into the mirror, 
  searching her counter for a Clinique Touch-Stick to put over the razor nick. 
     “What do you mean—where is it? ” she calls out. “Didn’t you have it with you?” 
     “Where is the goddamn water-soluble spermicidal lubricant? ” I scream. “Water! 
  Soluble! Spermicidal! Lubricant!” I’m shouting this while using some of her Clinique 
  cover-up over the blemish, then combing my hair back. 
     “Top shelf,” she says, “I think.” 
     While looking through the medicine cabinet I glance over at her tub, noticing how plain 
  it is, which moves me to say, “You know, Courtney, you should really get your act 
  together and get your tub marbleized or maybe add some Jacuzzi jets.” I call out, “Can 
  you hear me? Courtney?” 
     After a long while she says, “Yes… Patrick. I hear you.” 
     I finally find the tube behind a huge bottle—a jar —of Xanax on the top shelf of the 
  medicine cabinet and before my dick totally softens place a small dab of it inside the tip 
  of the condom, slather it on the latex sheath and then walk back into the bedroom, 
  jumping onto the futon, causing her to snap, “Patrick, this is not a fucking trampoline.” 
  Ignoring her I kneel over her body, sliding my cock up into Courtney and immediately 
  she’s pushing her hips up to meet my thrusts, then she licks her thumb and starts 
  rubbing her clit. I watch as my cock moves in then out then into her vagina with long fast 
  strokes. 
     “Wait,” she gasps. 
     “What?” I moan, puzzled but almost there. 
     “Luis is a despicable twit,” she gasps, trying to push me out of her. 
     “Yes,” I say, leaning on top of her, tonguing her ear. “Luis is a despicable twit. I hate 
  him too,” and now, spurred on by her disgust for her wimp boyfriend, I start moving 
  faster, my climax approaching. 
     “No, you idiot,” she groans. “I said Is it a receptacle tip? Not ‘Is Luis a despicable twit.’ 
  
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  Is it a receptacle tip? Get off me.” 
     “Is what a what?” I moan. 
     “Pull out,” she groans, struggling. 
     “I’m ignoring you,” I say, moving my mouth down on her small perfect nipples, both of 
  them stiff, sitting on hard, big tits. 
     “Pull out, goddamnit!” she screams. 
     “What do you want, Courtney?” I grunt, slowing my thrusts down until I finally 
  straighten up and then I’m just kneeling over her, my cock still half inside. She hunches 
  back against the headboard and my dick slides out. 
     “It’s a plain end.” I point. “I think.” 
     “Turn the light on,” she says, trying to sit up. 
     “Oh Jesus,” I say. “I’m going home.” 
     “Patrick,” she warns. “Turn on the light.” 
     I reach over and flip on the halogen Tensor. 
     “It’s a plain end, see?” I say. “So?” 
     “Take it off,” she says curtly. 
     “Why?” I ask. 
     “Because you have to leave half an inch at the tip,” she says, covering her breasts 
  with the Hermès comforter, her voice rising, her patience shot, “to catch the force of the 
  ejaculate!” 
     “I’m getting out of here,” I threaten, but don’t move. “Where’s your lithium?” 
     She throws a pillow over her head and mumbles something, retreating into a fetal 
  position. I think she’s starting to cry. 
     “Where is your lithium, Courtney?” I calmly ask again. “You must take some.” 
     Something indecipherable is mumbled again and she shakes her head—no, no, no—
  beneath the pillow. 
     “What? What did you say?” I ask with forced politeness, jerking myself feebly back to 
  an erection. “Where? ” Sobs beneath the pillow, barely audible. 
     “You are crying now and though it sounds clearer to me I still cannot hear a word 
  you’re saying.” I try to grab the pillow off her head. “Now speak up!” 
     Again she mumbles, again it doesn’t make any sense. 
     “Courtney,” I warn, getting furious, “if you just said what I think you said: that your 
  lithium is in a carton in the freezer next to the Frusen Glädjé and is a sorbet ”—I’m 
  screaming this—’if this is really what you said then I will kill you. Is it a sorbet? Is your 
  lithium really a sorbet?” I scream, finally pulling the pillow from her head and slapping 
  her hard once, across the face. 
     “Do you think you’re turning me on by having unsafe sex?” she screams back. 
     “Oh Christ, this really isn’t worth it,” I mutter, pulling the condom dowp so there is half 
  an inch to spare—a little less actually. “And see, Courtney, it’s there for what? Huh? Tell 
  us.” I slap her again, this time lightly. “Why is it pulled down half an inch? So it can catch 
  the force of the ejaculate! ” 
     “Well, it’s not a turn-on for me.” She’s hysterical, racked with tears, choking. “I have a 
  promotion coming to me. I’m going to Barbados in August and I don’t want a case of 
  Kaposi’s sarcoma to fuck it up!” She chokes, coughing. “Oh god I want to wear a bikini,” 
  she wails. “A Norma Kamali I just bought at Bergdorf’s.” 
     I grab her head and force her to look at the placement of the condom. “See? Happy? 
  You dumb bitch? Are you happy, you dumb bitch?” 
     Without looking at my dick she sobs, “Oh god just get it over with,” and falls back 
  down on the bed. 
     Roughly I push my cock back into her and bring myself to an orgasm so weak as to be 
  almost nonexistent and my groan of a massive but somewhat expected disappointment 
  is mistaken by Courtney for pleasure and momentarily spurs her on as she lies sobbing 
  beneath me on the bed, sniffling, to reach down and touch herself but I start getting soft 
  almost instantly—actually during the moment I came—but if I don’t withdraw from her 
  while still erect she’ll freak out so I hold on to the base of the condom as I literally wilt 
  
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  out of her. After lying there on separate sides of the bed for what might be twenty 
  minutes with Courtney whimpering about Luis and antique cutting boards and the 
  sterling silver cheese grater and muffin tin she left at Harry’s, she then tries to give me 
  head. “I want to fuck you again,” I tell her, “but I don’t want to wear a condom because I 
  don’t feel anything,” and she says calmly, taking her mouth off my limp shrunken dick, 
  glaring at me, “If you don’t use one you’re not going to feel anything anyway.” 
  Business Meeting 
     Jean, my secretary who is in love with me, walks into my office without buzzing, 
  announcing that I have a very important company meeting to attend at eleven. I’m sitting 
  at the Palazzetti glass-top desk, staring into my monitor with my Ray-Bans on, chewing 
  Nuprin, hung over from a coke binge that started innocently enough last night at Shout! 
  with Charles Hamilton, Andrew Spencer and Chris Stafford and then moved on to the 
  Princeton Club, progressed to Barcadia and ended at Nell’s around three-thirty, and 
  though earlier this morning, while soaking in a bath, sipping a Stoli Bloody Mary after 
  maybe four hours of sweaty, dreamless sleep, I realized that there was a meeting, I 
  seemed to have forgotten about it on the cab ride downtown. Jean is wearing a red 
  stretch-silk jacket, a crocheted rayon ribbon skirt, red suede pumps with satin bows by 
  Susan Bennis Warren Edwards and gold-plated earrings by Robert Lee Morris. She 
  stands there, in front of me, oblivious to my pain, a file in her hand. 
     After pretending to ignore her for close to a minute, I finally lower my sunglasses and 
  clear my throat. “Yes? Something else? Jean?” 
     “Mr. Grouchy today.” She smiles, placing the file timidly on my desk, and stands there 
  expecting me to... what, amuse her with vignettes from last night? 
     “Yes, you simpleton. I am Mr. Grouchy today,” I hiss, grabbing the file and shoving it in 
  the top desk drawer. 
     She stares at me, uncomprehending, then, actually looking crestfallen, says, “Ted 
  Madison called and so did James Baker. They want to meet you at Fluties at six.” 
     I sigh, glaring at her. “Well, what should you do?” 
     She laughs nervously, standing there, her eyes wide. “I’m not sure.” 
     “Jean.” I stand up to lead her out of the office. “What… do.. you… say?” 
     It takes her a little while but finally, frightened, she guesses, “Just… say… no?” 
     “Just… say… no.” I nod, pushing her out and slamming the door. 
     Before leaving my office for the meeting I take two Valium, wash them down with a 
  Perrier and then use a scruffing cleanser on my face with premoistened cotton balls, 
  afterwards applying a moisturizer. I’m wearing a wool tweed suit and a striped cotton 
  shirt, both by Yves Saint Laurent, and a silk tie by Armani and new black cap-toed 
  shoes by Ferragamo. I Plax then brush my teeth and when I blow my nose, thick, ropy 
  strings of blood and snot stain a forty-five-dollar handkerchief from Hermi’s that, 
  unfortunately, wasn’t a gift. But I’ve been drinking close to twenty liters of Evian water a 
  day and going to the tanning salon regularly and one night of binging hasn’t affected my 
  skin’s smoothness or color tone. My complexion is still excellent. Three drops of Visine 
  clear the eyes. An ice pack tightens the skin. All it comes down to is: I feel like shit but 
  look great. 
     I’m also the first to make it to the boardroom. Luis Carruthers follows like a puppy dog 
  at my heels, a close second, and takes the seat next to mine which means I’m 
  supposed to take off my Walkman. He’s wearing a wool plaid sports jacket, wool slacks, 
  a Hugo Boss cotton shirt and paisley tie—slacks, I’m guessing, from Brooks Brothers. 
  He starts rattling on about a restaurant in Phoenix, Propheteers, that I’m actually 
  interested in hearing about but not from Luis Carruthers, yet I’m on ten milligrams of 
  Valium and for that reason I can manage. On The Patty Winters Show this morning 
  were descendants of members of the Donner Party. 
     “The clients were total hicks, predict ably,” Luis is saying. “They wanted to take me to 
  a local production of Les Miz, which I already saw in Lon don, but—” 
  
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     “Did you have any trouble getting reservations at Propheteers?” I ask, cutting him off. 
     “No. None at all,” he says. “We ate late.” 
     “What did you order?” I ask. 
     “I had the poached oysters, the lotte and the walnut tart.” 
     “I hear the lotte is good there,” I murmur, lost in thought. 
     “The client had the boudin blanc, the roasted chicken and the cheesecake,” he says. 
     “Cheesecake?” I say, confused by this plain, alien-sounding list. “What sauce or fruits 
  were on the roasted chicken? What shapes was it cut into?” 
     “None, Patrick,” he says, also confused. “It was… roasted.” 
     “And the cheesecake, what flavor? Was it heated?” I say. “Ricotta cheesecake? Goat 
  cheese? Were there flowers or cilantro in it?” 
     “It was just… regular,” he says, and then, “Patrick, you’re sweating.” 
     “What did she have?” I ask, ignoring him. “The client’s bimbo.” 
     “Well, she had the country salad, the scallops and the lemon tart,” Luis says. 
     “The scallops were grilled? Were they sashimi scallops? In a ceviche of sorts?” I’m 
  asking. “Or were they gratinized?” 
     “No, Patrick,” Luis says. “They were… broiled.” 
     It’s silent in the boardroom as I contemplate this, thinking it through before asking, 
  finally, “What’s ‘broiled,’ Luis?” 
     “I’m not sure,” he says. “I think it involves… a pan.” 
     “Wine?” I ask. 
     “An ‘85 Sauvignon blanc,” he says. “Jordan. Two bottles.” 
     “Car?” I ask. “Did you rent while in Phoenix?” 
     “BMW.” He smiles. “Little black beamer.” 
     “Hip,” I murmur, remembering last night, how I lost it completely in a stall at Nell’s—my 
  mouth foaming, all I could think about were insects, lots of insects, and running at 
  pigeons, foaming at the mouth and running at pigeons. “Phoenix. Janet Leigh was from 
  Phoenix…” I stall, then continue. “She got stabbed in the shower. Disappointing scene.” 
  I pause. “Blood looked fake.” 
     “Listen, Patrick,” Luis says, pressing his handkerchief into my hand, my fingers 
  clenched into a fist that relaxes at Luis’s touch. “Dibble and I are having lunch next week 
  at the Yale Club. Would you like to join us?” 
     “Sure.” I think about Courtney’s legs, spread and wrapped around my face, and when I 
  look over at Luis in one brief, flashing moment his head looks like a talking vagina and it 
  scares the bejesus out of me, moves me to say something while mopping the sweat off 
  my brow. “That’s a nice… suit, Luis.” The farthest thing from my mind. 
     He looks down as if stunned, and then blushing, embarrassed, he touches his own 
  lapel. “Thanks, Pat. You look great too… as usual.” And when he reaches out to touch 
  my tie, I catch his hand before his fingers make it, telling him, “Your compliment was 
  sufficient.” 
     Reed Thompson walks in wearing a wool plaid four-button double-breasted suit and a 
  striped cotton shirt and a silk tie, all Armani, plus slightly tacky blue cotton socks by 
  Interwoven and black Ferragamo cap-toe shoes that look exactly like mine, with a copy 
  of the Wall Street Journal held in a nicely manicured fist and a Bill Kaiserman tweed 
  balmacaan overcoat draped casually across the other arm. He nods and sits across 
  from us at the table. Soon after, Todd Broderick walks in wearing a wool chalk-striped 
  six-button double-breasted suit and a striped broadcloth shirt and silk tie, all by Polo, 
  plus an affected linen pocket square that I’m fairly sure is also by Polo. McDermott 
  walks in next, carrying a copy of this week’s New York magazine and this morning’s 
  Financial Times, wearing new nonprescription Oliver Peoples redwood-framed glasses, 
  a black and white wool houndstooth-check single-breasted suit with notch lapels, a 
  striped cotton dress shirt with spread collar and a silk paisley tie, all of it designed and 
  tailored by John Reyle. 
     I smile, raising my eyebrows at McDermott, who sullenly takes the seat next to mine. 
  He sighs and opens the newspaper, silently reading. Since he hasn’t offered a “hello” or 
  
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  “good morning” I can tell that he’s pissed off and I suspect that it has something to do 
  with me. Finally, sensing that Luis is about to ask something, I turn to McDermott. 
     “So, McDermott, what’s wrong?” I smirk. “Long line at the Stairmaster this morning?” 
     “Who said anything’s wrong?” he asks, sniffing, turning pages in the Financial Times. 
     “Listen,” I tell him, leaning in, “I already apologized about yelling at you because of the 
  pizza at Pastels the other night.” 
     “Who said it was about that?” he asks tensely. 
     “I thought we already cleared this up,” I whisper, gripping the arm of his chair, smiling 
  over at Thompson. “I’m sorry I insulted the pizzas at Pastels. Happy?” 
     “Who said it’s about that?” he asks again. 
     “Then what is it, McDermott?” I whisper, noticing movement behind me. I count to 
  three then whirl around, catching Luis leaning toward me trying to eavesdrop. He knows 
  he’s been caught and he sinks slowly back into his chair, guilty. 
     “McDermott, this is ridiculous,” I whisper. “You can’t stay angry at me because I think 
  the pizza at Pastels is… crusty.” 
     “Brittle,” he says, shooting me a glance. “The word you used was brittle.” 
     “I apologize,” I say. “But I’m right. It is. You read the review in the Times, right?” 
     “Here.” He reaches into his pocket and hands me a Xeroxed article. “I just wanted to 
  prove you wrong. Read this.” 
     “What is it?” I ask, opening the folded page. 
     “It’s an article on your hero, Donald Trump.” McDermott grins. 
     “It sure is,” I say apprehensively. “Why didn’t I ever see this, I wonder.” 
     “And...” McDermott scans the article and points an accusatory finger at the bottom 
  paragraph, which he’s highlighted in red ink. “Where does Donald Trump think the best 
  pizza in Manhattan is served?” 
     “Let me read this,” I sigh, waving him away. “You might be wrong. What a lousy 
  photo.” 
     “Bateman. Look. I circled it,” he says. 
     I pretend to read the fucking article but I’m getting very angry and I have to hand the 
  article back to McDermott and ask, thoroughly annoyed, “So what? What does it mean? 
  What are you, McDermott, trying to tell me?” 
     “What do you think of the pizza at Pastels now, Bateman?” he asks smugly. 
     “Well,” I say, choosing my words carefully. “I think I have to go back and re taste the 
  pizza….” I’m saying this through gritted teeth. “I’m just suggesting that the last time I 
  was there the pizza was…” 
     “Brittle?” McDermott offers. 
     “Yeah.” I shrug. “Brittle.” 
     “Uh-huh.” McDermott smiles, triumphant. 
     “Listen, if the pizza at Pastels is okay with Donny,” I start, hating to admit this to 
  McDermott, then sighing, almost unintelligibly, “it’s okay with me.” 
     McDermott cackles gleefully, a victor. 
     I count three silk-crepe ties, one Versace silk-satin woven tie, two silk foulard ties, one 
  silk Kenzo, two silk jacquard ties. The fragrances of Xeryus and Tuscany and Armani 
  and Obsession and Polo and Grey Flannel and even Antaeus mingle, wafting into each 
  other, rising from the suits and into the air, forming their own mixture: a cold, sickening 
  perfume. 
     “But I’m not apologizing,” I warn McDermott. 
     “You already have, Bateman,” he says. 
     Paul Owen walks in wearing a cashmere one-button sports jacket, tropical wool 
  flannel slacks, a button-down tab-collared shirt by Ronaldus Shamask, but it’s really the 
  tie—blue and black and red and yellow bold stripes from Andrew Fezza by Zanzarra—
  that impresses me. Carruthers gets excited too, and he leans into my chair and asks, if 
  I’m listening correctly, “Do you think he has a power jock strap to go along with that 
  thing?” When I don’t answer he retreats, opens one of the Sports Illustriated s that sit in 
  the middle of the table and, humming to himself, starts to read an article on Olympic 
  
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  divers. 
     “Hello, Halberstam,” Owen says, walking by. 
     “Hello, Owen,” I say, admiring the way he’s styled and slicked back his hair, with a part 
  so even and sharp it… devastates me and I make a mental note to ask him where he 
  purchases his hair-care products, which kind of mousse he uses, my final guess after 
  mulling over the possibilities being Ten -X. 
     Greg McBride walks in and stops by my chair. “Did you watch the Winters Show this 
  morning? Riot. Total riot,” and we give each other high-five before he takes a seat 
  between Dibble and Lloyd. God knows where they came from. 
     Kevin Forrest, who walks in with Charles Murphy, is saying, “My call waiting is busted. 
  Felicia screwed it up somehow.” I’m not even paying attention to what they’re wearing. 
  But I find myself staring at Murphy’s vintage owl cuff links with blue crystal eyes. 
  Video Store then D’Agostino’s 
     I’m wandering around VideoVisions, the video rental store near my apartment on the 
  Upper West Side, sipping from a can of Diet Pepsi, the new Christopher Cross tape 
  blaring from the earphones of my Sony Walkman. After the office I played racquetball 
  with Montgomery, then had a shiatsu massage and met Jesse Lloyd, Jamie Conway 
  and Kevin Forrest for drinks at Rusty’s on Seventy-third Street. Tonight I’m wearing a 
  new wool topcoat by Ungaro Uomo Paris and carrying a Bottega Veneta briefcase and 
  an umbrella by Georges Gaspar. 
     The video store is more crowded than usual. There are too many couples in line for 
  me to rent She-Male Reformatory or Ginger’s Cunt without some sense of awkwardness 
  or discomfort, plus I’ve already bumped into Robert Ailes from First Boston in the Horror 
  aisle, or at least I think it was Robert Ailes. He mumbled “Hello, McDonald” as he 
  passed me by, holding Friday the 13th: Part 7 and a documentary on abortions in what I 
  noticed were nicely manicured hands marred only by what looked to me like an 
  imitation-gold Rolex. 
     Since pornography seems out of the question I browse through Light Comedy and, 
  feeling ripped off, settle for a Woody Allen movie but I’m still not satisfied. I want 
  something else. I pass through the Rock Musical section—nothing—then find myself in 
  Horror Comedy—ditto—and suddenly I’m seized by a minor anxiety attack. There are 
  too many fucking movies to choose from. I duck behind a promotional cardboard display 
  for the new Dan Aykroyd comedy and take two five-milligram Valiums, washing them 
  down with the Diet Pepsi. Then, almost by rote, as if I’ve been programmed, I reach for 
  Body Double —a movie I have rented thirty-seven times—and walk up to the counter 
  where I wait for twenty minutes to be checked out by a dumpy girl (five pounds 
  overweight, dry frizzy hair). She’s actually wearing a baggy, nondescript sweater—
  definitely not designer—probably to hide the fact that she has no tits, and even though 
  she has nice eyes: so fucking what? Finally it’s my turn. I hand her the empty boxes. 
     “Is this it?” she asks, taking my membership card from me. I’m wearing Mario 
  Valentino Persian-black gloves. My VideoVisions membership costs only two hundred 
  and fifty dollars annually. 
     “Do you have any Jami Gertz movies?” I ask her, trying to make direct eye contact. 
     “What?” she asks, distracted. 
     “Any movies that Jami Gertz is in?” 
     “Wh o?” She enters something into the computer and then says without looking at me, 
  “How many nights?” 
     “Three,” I say. “Don’t you know who Jami Gertz is?” 
     “I don’t think so.” She actually sighs. 
     “Jami Gertz,” I say. “She’s an actress.” 
     “I don’t think I know who you mean,” she says in a tone that suggests I’m harassing 
  her, but hey, she works in a video rental store and since it’s such a demanding high-
  powered profession her bitchy behavior is completely reasonable, right? The things I 
  
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  could do to this girl’s body with a hammer, the words I could carve into her with an ice 
  pick. She hands the guy behind her my boxes—and I pretend to ignore his horrified 
  reaction as he recognizes me after he looks at the Body Double box—but he dutifully 
  walks into some kind of vault in the back of the store to get the movies. 
     “Yeah. Sure you do,” I say good-naturedly. “She’s in those Diet Coke commercials. 
  You know the ones.” 
     “I really don’t think so,” she says in a monotone that almost cuts me off. She types the 
  names of the movies and then my membership number into the computer. 
     “I like the part in Body Double where the woman… gets drilled by the… power driller in 
  the movie… the best,” I say, almost gasping. It seems very hot in the video store right 
  now all of a sudden and after murmuring “oh my god” under my breath I place a gloved 
  hand on the counter to settle it from shaking. “And the blood starts pouring out of the 
  ceiling.” I take a deep breath and while I’m saying this my head starts nodding of its own 
  accord and I keep swallowing, thinking I have to see her shoes, and so as 
  inconspicuously as possible I try to peer over the counter to check out what kind of 
  shoes she’s wearing, but maddeningly they’re only sneakers—not K-Swiss, not Tretorn, 
  not Adidas, not Reebok, just cheap ones. 
     “Sign here.” She hands me the tapes without even looking at me, refusing to 
  recognize who I am; and breathing in hard and exhaling, she motions for the next in line, 
  a couple with a baby. 
     On the way back to my apartment I stop at D’Agostino’s, where for dinner I buy two 
  large bottles of Perrier, a six-pack of Coke Classic, a head of arugula, five medium-sized 
  kiwis, a bottle of tarragon balsamic vinegar, a tin of crême fraiche, a carton of 
  microwave tapas, a box of tofu and a white-chocolate candy bar I pick up at the 
  checkout counter. 
     Once outside, ignoring the bum lounging below the Les Misérables poster and holding 
  a sign that reads: I’VE LOST MY JOB I AM HUNGRY I HAVE NO MONEY PLEASE 
  HELP, whose eyes tear after I pull the tease-the-bum-with-a-dollar trick and tell him, 
  “Jesus, will you get a fucking shave, please,” my eyes almost like they were guided by 
  radar, focus in on a red Lamborghini Countach parked at the curb, gleaming beneath 
  the streetlamps, and I have to stop moving, the Valium shockingly, unexpectedly kicking 
  in, everything else becomes obliterated: the crying bum, the black kids on crack rapping 
  along to the blaring beatbox, the clouds of pigeons flying overhead looking for space to 
  roost, the ambulance sirens, the honking taxis, the decent-looking babe in the Betsey 
  Johnson dress, all of that fades and in what seems like time-lapse photography but in 
  slow motion, like a movie—the sun goes down, the city gets darker and all I can see is 
  the red Lamborghini and all I can hear is my own even, steady panting. I’m still standing, 
  drooling, in front of the store, staring, minutes later (I don’t know how many). 
  Facial 
     I leave the office at four-thirty, head up to Xclusive where I work out with free weights 
  for an hour, then taxi across the park to Gio’s in the Pierre Hotel for a facial, a manicure 
  and, if time permits, a pedicure. I’m lying on the elevated table in one of the private 
  rooms waiting for Helga, the skin technician, to facialize me. My Brooks Brothers shirt 
  and Garrick Anderson suit hang in the closet, my A. Testoni loafers sit on the floor, 
  thirty-dollar socks from Barney’s balled up in them, sixty-dollar boxer shorts from 
  Comme des Garçons are the only article of clothing I’m still wearing. The smock I’m 
  supposed to have on is crumpled next to the shower stall since I want Helga to check 
  my body out, notice my chest, see how fucking buff my abdominals have gotten since 
  the last time I was here, even though she’s much older than I am—maybe thirty or thirty-
  five—and there’s no way I’d ever fuck her. I’m sipping a Diet Pepsi that Mario, the valet, 
  brought me, with crushed ice in a glass on the side that I asked for but don’t want. 
     I pick up today’s Post that hangs from a Smithly Watson glass magazine rack and 
  scan the gossip columns, then my eye catches a story about recent sightings of these 
  
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  creatures that seem to be part bird, part rodent—essentially pigeons with the heads and 
  tails of rats—found deep in the center of Harlem and now making their way steadily 
  toward midtown. A grainy photograph of one of these things accompanies the article, 
  but experts, the Post assures us, are fairly certain this new breed is a hoax. As usual 
  this fails to soothe my fear, and it fills me with a nameless dread that someone out there 
  has wasted the energy and time to think this up: to fake a photograph (and do a half-
  assed job at that, the thing looks like a fucking Big Mac) and send the photograph in to 
  the Post, then for the Post to decide to run the story (meetings, debates, last-minute 
  temptations to cancel the whole thing?), to print the photograph, to have someone write 
  about the photo and interview the experts, finally to run this story on page three in 
  today’s edition and have it discussed over hundreds of thousands of lunches in the city 
  this afternoon. I close the paper and lie back, exhausted. 
     The door to the private room opens and a girl I haven’t seen before walks in and 
  through half-closed eyes I can see that she’s young, Italian, okay-looking. She smiles, 
  sitting in a chair at my feet, and begins the pedicure. She switches off the ceiling light 
  and except for strategically placed halogen bulbs shining down on my feet, hands and 
  face, the room darkens, making it impossible to tell what kind of body she has, only that 
  she’s wearing gray suede and black leather buttoned ankle boots by Maud Frizon. The 
  Patty Winters Show this morning was about UFOs That Kill. Helga arrives. 
     “Ah, Mr. Bateman,” Helga says. “How are you?” 
     “Very good, Helga,” I say, flexing the muscles in my stomach and chest. My eyes are 
  closed so it looks casual, as, if the muscles are acting on their own accord and I can’t 
  help it. But Helga drapes the smock gently across my heaving chest and buttons it up, 
  pretending to ignore the undulations beneath the tan, clean skin. 
     “You’re back so soon,” she says. 
     “I was only here two days ago,” I say, confused. 
     “I know, but…” She stalls, washing her hands in the sink. “Never mind.” 
     “Helga?” I ask. 
     “Yes, Mr. Bateman?” 
     “Walking in here I spotted a pair of men’s gold-tasseled loafers from Bergdorf 
  Goodman, waiting to be shined, outside the door of the next room. Who do they belong 
  to?” I ask. 
     “That’s Mr. Erlanger,” she says. 
     “Mr. Erlanger from Lehman’s?” 
     “No. Mr. Erlanger from Salomon Brothers,” she says. 
     “Did I ever tell you that I want to wear a big yellow smiley-face mask and then put on 
  the CD version of Bobby McFerrin’s ‘Don’t Worry, Be Happy’ and then take a girl and a 
  dog—a collie, a chow, a sharpei, it doesn’t really matter—and then hook up this 
  transfusion pump, this IV set, and switch their blood, you know, pump the dog’s blood 
  into the hardbody and vice versa, did I ever tell you this?” While I’m speaking I can hear 
  the girl working on my feet humming one of the songs from Les Misérables to herself, 
  and then Helga runs a moistened cotton ball across my nose, leaning close to the face, 
  inspecting the pores. I laugh maniacally, then take a deep breath and touch my chest—
  expecting a heart to be thumping quickly, impatiently, but there’s nothing there, not even 
  a beat. 
     “Shhh, Mr. Bateman,” Helga says, running a warm loofah sponge over my face, which 
  stings then cools the skin. “Relax.” 
     “Okay.” I say. “I’m relaxing.” 
     “Oh Mr. Bateman,” Helga croons, “you have such a nice complexion. How old are 
  you? May I ask?” 
     “I’m twenty-six.” 
     “Ah, that’s why. It’s so clean. So smooth.” She sighs. “Just relax.” 
     I drift, my eyes rolling back into my head, the Muzak version of “Don’t Worry, Baby” 
  drowning out all bad thoughts, and I start thinking only positive things—the reservations 
  I have tonight with Marcus Halberstam’s girlfriend, Cecelia Wagner, the mashed turnips 
  
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  at Union Square Café, skiing down Buttermilk Mountain in Aspen last Christmas, the 
  new Huey Lewis and the News compact disc, dress shirts by Ike Behar, by Joseph 
  Abboud, by Ralph Lauren, beautiful oiled hardbodies eating each other’s pussies and 
  assholes under harsh video lights, truckloads of arugula and cilantro, my tan line, the 
  way the muscles in my back look when the lights in my bathroom fall on them at the 
  right angle, Helga’s hands caressing the smooth skin on my face, lathering and 
  spreading cream and lotions and tonics into it admiringly, whispering, “Oh Mr. Bateman, 
  your face is so clean and smooth, so clean,” the fact that I don’t live in a trailer park or 
  work in a bowling alley or attend hockey games or eat barbecued ribs, the look of the 
  AT&T building at midnight, only at midnight. Jeannie comes in and starts the manicure, 
  first clipping and filing the nails, then brushing them with a sandpaper disk to smooth out 
  the remaining edges. 
     “Next time I’d prefer them a bit longer, Jeannie,” I warn her. 
     Silently she soaks them in warm lanolin cream, then dries both hands off and uses a 
  cuticle moisturizer, then removes all the cuticles while cleaning under the nails with a 
  cotton-on-wood stick. A heat vibrator massages the hand and forearm. The nails are 
  buffed first with chamois and then with bung lotion. 
  Date with Evelyn 
     Evelyn comes in on the call waiting of my third line and I wasn’t going to take it, but 
  since I’m holding on the second line to find out if Bullock, the maître d’ at the new Davis 
  François restaurant on Central Park South, has any cancellations for tonight so 
  Courtney (holding on the first line) and I might have dinner, I pick it up in the hope that 
  it’s my dry cleaners. But no, it’s Evelyn and though it really isn’t fair to Courtney, I take 
  her call. I tell Evelyn I’m on the other line with my private trainer. I then tell Courtney I 
  have to take Paul Owen’s call and that I’ll see her at Turtles at eight and then I cut 
  myself off from Bullock, the maître d’. Evelyn’s staying at the Carlyle since the woman 
  who lives in the brownstone next to hers was found murdered last night, decapitated, 
  and this is why Evelyn’s all shook up. She couldn’t deal with the office today so she 
  spent the afternoon calming herself with facials at Elizabeth Arden. She demands that 
  we have dinner tonight, and then says, before I can make up a plausible lie, an 
  acceptable. excuse, “Where were you last night, Patrick?” 
     I pause. “Why? Where were you?” I ask, while guzzling from a liter of Evian, still 
  slightly sweaty from this afternoon’s workout. 
     “Arguing with the concierge at the Carlyle,” she says, sounding rather pissed off. “Now 
  tell me, Patrick, where were you?” 
     “Why were you arguing with him?” Lask. 
     “Patrick,” she says—a declarative statement. 
     “I’m here,” I say after a minute. 
     “Patrick. It doesn’t matter. The phone in my room didn’t have two lines and there was 
  no call waiting,” she says. “Where were you?” 
     “I was… fooling around renting videotapes,” I say, pleased, giving myself high-five, the 
  cordless phone cradled in my neck. 
     “I wanted to come over,” she says in a whiny, little-girl tone. “I was scared. I still am. 
  Can’t you hear it in my voice?” 
     “Actually, you sound like anything but.” 
     “No, Patrick, seriously. I’m quite terrified,” she says. “I’m shaking. Just like a leaf I’m 
  shaking. Ask Mia, my facialist. She said I was tense.” 
     “Well,” I say, “you couldn’t have come over anyway.” 
     “Honey, why not?” she whines, and then addresses someone who just entered her 
  suite. “Oh wheel it over there near the window… no, that window… and can you tell me 
  where that damn masseuse is?” 
     “Because your neighbor’s head was in my freezer.” I yawn, stretching. “Listen. Dinner? 
  Where? Can you hear me?” 
  
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     At eight-thirty, the two of us are sitting across from each other in Barcadia. Evelyn’s 
  wearing an Anne Klein rayon jacket, a wool-crepe skirt, a silk blouse from Bonwit’s, 
  antique gold and agate earrings from James Robinson that cost, roughly, four thousand 
  dollars; and I’m wearing a double-breasted suit, a silk shirt with woven stripes, a 
  patterned silk tie and leather slip-ons, all by Gianni Versace. I neither canceled the 
  reservation at Turtles nor told Courtney not to meet me there, so she’ll probably show 
  up around eight-fifteen, completely confused, and if she hasn’t taken any Elavil today 
  she’ll probably be furious and it’s this fact—not the bottle of Cristal that Evelyn insists on 
  ordering and then adds cassis to—that I laugh out loud about. 
     I spent most of the afternoon buying myself early Christmas presents—a large pair of 
  scissors at a drugstore near City Hall, a letter opener from Hammacher Schlemmer, a 
  cheese knife from Bloomingdale’s to go along with the cheese board that Jean, my 
  secretary who’s in love with me, left on my desk before she went to lunch while I was in 
  a meeting. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about the possibility of nuclear 
  war, and according to the panel of experts the odds are pretty good it will happen 
  sometime within the next month. Evelyn’s face seems chalky to me right now, her mouth 
  lined with a purple lipstick that gives off an almost startling effect, and I realize that she’s 
  belatedly taken Tim Price’s advice to stop using her tanning lotion. Instead of 
  mentioning this and have her bore me silly with inane denials, I ask about Tim’s 
  girlfriend, Meredith, whom Evelyn despises for reasons never made quite clear to me. 
  And because of rumors about Courtney and myself, Courtney’s also on Evelyn’s shit list, 
  for reasons that are a little clearer. I place a hand over the top of the champagne flute 
  when the apprehensive waitress, at Evelyn’s request, attempts to add some blueberry 
  crisis into my Cristal. 
     “No thank you,” I tell her. “Maybe later. In a separate glass.” 
     “Party pooper.” Evelyn giggles, then takes a sharp breath. “But you smell nice. What 
  are you wearing—Obsession? You party pooper, is it Obsession?” 
     “No,” I say grimly. “Paul Sebastian.” 
     “Of course.” She smiles, downs her second glass. She seems in a much better mood, 
  boisterous almost, more than you’d expect of someone whose neighbor’s head was 
  sliced off in a matter of seconds while she was still conscious by an electric mini-chain 
  saw. Evelyn’s eyes momentarily glitter in the candlelight, then revert to their normal 
  pallid gray. 
     “How is Meredith?” I ask, trying to mask my void of disinterest. 
     “Oh god She’s dating Richard Cunningham.” Evelyn moans. “He’s at First Boston. If 
  you can believe it.” 
     “You know,” I mention, “Tim was going to break it off with her. Call it quits.” 
     “Why, for god’s sake?” Evelyn asks, surprised, intrigued. “They had that fabulous 
  place in the Hamptons.” 
     “I remember him telling me that he was sick to death of watching her do nothing but 
  her nails all weekend.” 
     “Oh my god,” Evelyn says, and then, genuinely confused, “You mean… wait, she 
  didn’t have someone do them for her?” 
     “Tim said, and he reiterated this fact quite often, that she had all the personality of a 
  game-show host,” I say dryly, sipping from the flute. 
     She smiles to herself, secretly. “Tim is a rascal.” 
     Idly, I wonder if Evelyn would sleep with another woman if I brought one over to her 
  brownstone and, if I insisted, whether they’d let me watch the two of them get it on. If 
  they’d let me direct, tell them what to do, position them under hot halogen lamps. 
  Probably not; the odds don’t look good. But what if I forced her at gunpoint? Threatened 
  to cut them both up, maybe, if they didn’t comply? The thought doesn’t seem 
  unappealing and I can imagine the whole scenario quite clearly. I start counting the 
  banquettes that encircle the room, then I start counting the people sitting in the 
  banquettes. 
     She’s asking me about Tim. “Where do you think that rascal has been? Rumor is he’s 
  
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  at Sachs,” she says ominously. 
     “Rumor is,” I say, “he’s in rehab. This champagne isn’t cold enough.” I’m distracted. 
  “Doesn’t he send you postcards?” 
     “Has he been sick?” she asks, with the slightest trepidation. 
     “Yes, I think so,” I say. “I think that’s what it is. You know, if you order a bottle of 
  Cristal it should at least be, you know, cold.” 
     “Oh my god,” Evelyn says. “You think he might be sick?” 
     “Yes. He’s in a hospital. In Arizona,” I add. The word Arizona has a mysterious tinge to 
  it and I say it again. “Arizona. I think.” 
     “Oh my god,” Evelyn exclaims, now truly alarmed, and she gulps down what little 
  Cristal is left in her glass. 
     “Who knows?” I manage the slightest of shrugs. 
     “You don’t think…” She breathes in and puts her glass down. “You don’t think it’s”—
  and now she looks around the restaurant before leaning in, whispering—“AIDS?” 
     “Oh no, nothing like that,” I say, though immediately I wish I had paused long enough 
  before answering to scare her. “Just… general… brain”—I bite the tip off an herbed 
  breadstick and shrug—“injuries.” 
     Evelyn sighs, relieved, and then says, “Is it warm in here?” 
     “All I can think about is this poster I saw in the subway station the other night before I 
  killed those two black kids—a photo of a baby calf, its head turned toward the camera, 
  its eyes caught wide and staring by the flash, and its body seemed like it was boxed into 
  some kind of crate, and in big, black letters below the photo it read, ‘Question: Why 
  Can’t This Veal Calf Walk?’ Then, ‘Answer: Because It Only Has Two Legs.’ But then I 
  saw another one, the same exact photo, the same exact calf, yet beneath it, this one 
  read, ‘Stay Out of Publishing.’” I pause, still fingering the breadstick, then ask, “Is any of 
  this registering with you or would I get more of a response from, oh, an ice bucket?” I 
  say all of this staring straight at Evelyn, enunciating precisely, trying to explain myself, 
  and she opens her mouth and I finally expect her to acknowledge my character. And for 
  the first time since I’ve known her she is straining to say something interesting and I pay 
  very close attention and she asks, “Is that…” 
     “Yes?” This is the only moment of the evening where I feel any genuine interest 
  toward what she has to say, and I urge her to go on. “Yes? Is that…?” 
     “Is that… Ivana Trump?” she asks, peering over my shoulder. 
     I whirl around. “Where? Where’s Ivana?” 
     “In the booth near the front, second in from”—Evelyn pauses—“Brooke Astor. See?” 
     I squint, put on my Oliver Peoples nonprescription glasses and realize that Evelyn, her 
  vision clouded by the cassis-riddled Cristal, not only has mistaken Norris Powell for 
  Ivana Trump but has mistaken Steve Rubell for Brooke Astor, and I can’t help it, I almost 
  explode. 
     “No, oh my god, oh my god, Evelyn,” I moan, crushed, disappointed, my adrenaline 
  rush turning sour, my head in my hands. “How could you mistake that wench for Ivana?” 
     “Sorry,” I hear her chirp. “Girlish mistake?” 
     “That is infuriat ing,” I hiss, both eyes clenched tight. 
     Our hardbody waitress, who has on satin high-backed pumps, sets down two new 
  champagne flutes for the second bottle of Cristal Evelyn orders. The waitress pouts her 
  lips at me when I reach for another breadstick and I lift my head toward her and pout 
  mine back, then press my head again into the palms of my hands, and this happens 
  again when she brings our appetizers. Dried peppers in a spicy pumpkin soup for me; 
  dried corn and jalapeño pudding for Evelyn. I’ve kept my hands over both ears trying to 
  block out Evelyn’s voice during this whole interim between her mistaking Norris Powell 
  for Ivana Trump and the arrival of our appetizers but now I’m hungry so I tentatively 
  remove my right hand from my ear. Immediately the whine seems deafening. 
     “…Tandoori chicken and foie gras, and lots of jazz, and he adored the Savoy, but 
  shad roe, the colors were gorgeous, aloe, shell, citrus, Morgan Stanley…” 
     I clasp my hands back where they were, pressing even tighter. Once again hunger 
  
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  overtakes me and so humming loudly to myself I reach again for the spoon, but it’s 
  hopeless: Evelyn’s voice is at a particular pitch that cannot be ignored. 
     “Gregory’s graduating from Saint Paul soon and will be attending Columbia in 
  September,” Evelyn is saying, carefully blowing on her pudding, which, by the way, is 
  served cold. “And I’ve got to get him a graduation present and I’m at a total loss. 
  Suggestions, hon?” 
     “A poster from Les Misérables?” I sigh, only half joldng. 
     “Per fect,” she says, blowing on the pudding again, then after a sip of Cristal she 
  makes a face. 
     “Yes, dear?” I ask, spitting a pumpkin seed that arches through.the air before 
  gracefully hitting the dead center of the ashtray instead of Evelyn’s dress, my original 
  target. “Hmmm?” 
     “We need more cassis,” she says. “Will you get our waitress?” 
     “Of course we do,” I say good-naturedly and, still smiling, “I have no idea who Gregory 
  is. You do know that, right?” 
     Evelyn puts her spoon down delicately next to the plate of pudding and looks into my 
  eyes. “Mr. Bateman, I really like you. I adore your sense of humor.” She gives my hand 
  a soft squeeze and laughs, actually says, “Ha-ha-ha…,” but she’s serious, not joking. 
  Evelyn really is paying me a compliment. She does admire my sense of humor. Our 
  appetizers are removed and at the same time our entrées arrive, so Evelyn has to take 
  her hand off mine to make room for the plates. She ordered quail stuffed into blue corn 
  tortillas garnished with oysters in potato skins. I have the free-range rabbit with Oregon 
  morels and herbed french fries. 
     “…He went to Deerfield then Harvard. She went to Hotchkiss then Radcliffe…” 
     Evelyn is talking but I’m not listening. Her dialogue overlaps her own dialogue. Her 
  mouth is moving but I’m not hearing anything and I can’t listen, I can’t really concentrate, 
  since my rabbit has been cut to look… just… like... a… star! Shoestring french fries 
  surround it and chunky red salsa has been smeared across the top of the plate—which 
  is white and porcelain and two feet wide—to give the appearance of a sunset but it looks 
  like one big gunshot wound to me and shaking my head slowly in disbelief I press a 
  finger into the meat, leaving the indentation of one finger, then another, and then I look 
  for a napkin, not my own, to wipe my hand with. Evelyn hasn’t broken her monologue—
  she talks and chews exquisitely—and smiling seductively at her I reach under the table 
  and grab her thigh, wiping my hand off, and still talking she smiles naughtily at me and 
  dips more champagne. I keep studying her face, bored by how beautiful it is, flawless 
  really, and I think to myself how strange it is that Evelyn has pulled me through so much; 
  how she’s always been there when I needed her most. I look back at the plate, 
  thoroughly unhungry, pick up my fork, study the plate hard for a minute or two, whimper 
  to myself before sighing and putting the fork down. I pick up my champagne glass 
  instead. 
     “…Groton, Lawrenceville, Milton, Exeter, Kent, Saint Paul’s, Hotchkiss, Andover, 
  Milton, Choate… oops, already said Milton…” 
     “If I’m not eating this tonight, and I’m not, I want some cocaine,” I announce. But I 
  haven’t interrupted Evelyn—she’s unstoppable, a machine—and she continues talking. 
     “Jayne Simpson’s wedding was so beautiful,” she sighs. “And the reception afterwards 
  was wild. Club Chernoble, covered by Page Six. Billy covered it. WWD did a layout.” 
     “I heard there was a two-drink minimum,” I say warily, signaling for a nearby busboy to 
  remove my plate. 
     “Weddings are so romantic. She had a diamond engagement ring. You know, Patrick, 
  I won’t settle for less,” she says coyly. “It has to be diamond.” Her eyes glaze over and 
  she tries to recount the wedding in mind-numbing detail. “It was a sitdown dinner for five 
  hundred… no, excuse me, seven hundred and fifty, followed by a sixteen-foot tiered Ben 
  and Jerry’s ice cream cake. The gown was by Ralph and it was white lace and low-cut 
  and sleeveless. It was darling. Oh Patrick, what would you wear?” she sighs. 
     “I would demand to wear Ray-Ban sunglasses. Expensive Ray-Bans,” I say carefully. 
  
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  “In fact I would demand that everyone would have to wear Ray-Ban sunglasses.” 
     “I’d want, a zydeco band, Patrick. That’s what I’d want. A zydeco band,” she gushes 
  breathlessly. “Or mariachi. Or reggae. Something ethnic to shock Daddy. Oh I can’t 
  decide.” 
     “I’d want to bring a Harrison AK-47 assault rifle to the ceremony; “ I say, bored, in a 
  rush, “with a thirty-round magazine so after thoroughly blowing your fat mother’s head 
  off with it I could use it on that fag brother of yours. And though personally I don’t like to 
  use anything the Soviets designed, I don’t know, the Harrison somehow reminds me 
  of…” Stopping, confused, inspecting yesterday’s manicure, I look back at Evelyn. 
  “Stoli?” 
     “Oh, and lots of chocolate truffles. Godiva. And oysters. Oysters on the half shell. 
  Marzipan. Pink tents. Hundreds, thousands of roses. Photographers. Annie Leibovitz. 
  We’ll get Annie Leibovitz,” she says excitedly. “And we’ll hire someone to videotape it!” 
     “Or an AR-15. You’d like it, Evelyn: it’s the most expensive of guns, but worth every 
  penny.” I wink at her. But she’s still talking; she doesn’t hear a word; nothing registers. 
  She does not fully grasp a word I’m saying. My essence is eluding her. She stops her 
  onslaught and breathes in and looks at me in a way that can only be described as dewy-
  eyed. Touching my hand, my Rolex, she breathes in once more, this time expectantly, 
  and says, “We should do it.” 
     I’m trying to catch a glimpse of our hardbody waitress; she’s bending over to pick up a 
  dropped napkin. Without looking back at Evelyn, I ask, “Do… what?” 
     “Get married,” she says, blinking. “Have a wedding.” 
     “Evelyn?” 
     “Yes darling?” 
     “Is your kir… spiked?” I ask. 
     “We should do it,” she says softly. “Patrick…” 
     “Are you proposing to me?” I laugh, trying to fathom this reasoning. I take the 
  champagne glass away from her and sniff its rim. 
     “Pat rick?” she asks, waiting for my answer. 
     “Jeez, Evelyn,” I say, stuck. “I don’t know.” 
     “Why not?” she asks petulantly. “Give me one good reason we shouldn’t.” 
     “Because trying to fuck you is like trying to French-kiss a very… small and… lively 
  gerbil?” I tell her. “I don’t know.” 
     “Yes?” she says. “And?” 
     “With braces?” I finish, shrugging. 
     “What are you going to do?” she asks. “Wait three years until you’re thirty?” 
     “Four years,” I say, glaring. “It’sfour years until I’m thirty.” 
     “Four years. Three years. Three months. Oh god, what’s the difference? You’ll still be 
  an old man.” She takes her hand away from mine. “You know, you wouldn’t be saying 
  this if you’d been to Jayne Simpson’s wedding. You’d take one look at it and want to 
  marry me immediately.” 
     “But I was at Jayne Simpson’s wedding, Evelyn, love of my life,” I say. “I was seated 
  next to Sukhreet Gabel. Believe me, I was there. ” 
     “You’re impos sible,” she whines. “You’re a party pooper.” 
     “Or maybe I didn’t,” I wonder aloud. “Maybe I… was it covered by MTV?” 
     “And their honeymoon wasso romantic. Two hours later they were on the Concorde. 
  To London. Oh, Claridge’s.” Evelyn sighs, her hand clasped under her chin, eyes 
  tearing. 
     Ignoring her, I reach into my pocket for a cigar, pull it out and tap it against the table. 
  Evelyn orders three flavors of sorbet: peanut, licorice and doughnut. I order a 
  decaffeinated espresso. Evelyn sulks. I light a match. 
     “Patrick,” she warns, staring at the flame. 
     “What?” I ask, my hand frozen in midair, about to light the tip of the cigar. 
     “You didn’t ask permission,” she says, unsmiling. 
     “Did I tell you I’m wearing sixty-dollar boxer shorts?” I ask, trying to appease her. 
  
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  Tuesday 
     There’s a black-tie party at the Puck Building tonight for a. new brand of computerized 
  professional rowing machine, and after playing squash with Frederick Dibble I have 
  drinks at Harry’s with Jamie Conway, Kevin Wynn and Jason Gladwin, and we hop into 
  the limousine Kevin rented for the night and take it uptown. I’m wearing a wing-collar 
  jacquard waistcoat by Kilgour, French & Stanbury from Barney’s, a silk bow tie from 
  Sales, patent-leather slip-ons by Baker-Benjes, antique diamond studs from Kentshire 
  Galleries and a gray wool silk-lined coat with drop sleeves and a button-down collar by 
  Luciano Soprani. An ostrich wallet from Bosca carries four hundred dollars cash in the 
  back pocket of my black wool trousers. Instead of my Rolex I’m wearing a fourteen-karat 
  gold watch from H. Stern. 
     I wander aimlessly around the Puck Building’s first-floor ballroom, bored, sipping bad 
  champagne (could it be nonvintage Bollinger?) from plastic flutes, chewing on kiwi 
  slices, each topped with a dollop of chèvre, vaguely looking around to score some 
  cocaine. Instead of finding anyone who knows a dealer I bump into Courtney by the 
  stairs. Wearing a silk and cotton stretch-tulle bodywrap with jeweled lace pants, she 
  seems tense and warns me to stay away from Luis. She mentions that he suspects 
  something. A cover band plays lame versions of old Motown hits from the sixties. 
     “Like what?” I ask, scanning the room. “That two plus two equals four? That you’re 
  secretly Nancy Reagan?” 
     “Don’t have lunch with him next week at the Yale Club,” she says, smiling for a 
  photographer, the flash blinding us momentarily. 
     “You look… voluptuous tonight,” I say, touching her neck, running a finger up over her 
  chin until it reaches the bottom lip. 
     “I’m not joking, Patrick.” Smiling, she waves to Luis, who is dancing clumsily with 
  Jennifer Morgan. He’s wearing a cream-colored wool dinner jacket, wool trousers, a 
  cotton shirt, and a silk glen-plaid cummerbund, all from Hugo Boss, a bow tie from Sales 
  and a pocket square from Paul Stuart. He waves back. I give him thumbs-up. 
     “What a dork,” Courtney whispers sadly to herself. 
     “Listen, I’m leaving,” I say, finishing the champagne. “Why don’t you go dance with 
  the… receptacle tip?” 
     “Where are you going?” she asks, gripping my arm. 
     “Courtney, I don’t want to experience another one of your… emotional outbursts,” I tell 
  her. “Besides, the canapés are shitty.” 
     “Where are you going?” she asks again. “Details, Mr. Bateman.” 
     “Why areyou so concerned?” 
     “Because I’d like to know,” she says. “You’re not going to Evelyn’s, are you?” 
     “Maybe,” I lie. 
     “Patrick,” she says. “Don’t leave me here. I don’t want you to go.” 
     “I have to return some videos,” I lie again, handing her my empty champagne glass, 
  just as another camera flashes somewhere. I walk away. 
     The band segues into a rousing version of “Life in the Fast Lane” and I start looking 
  around for hardbodies. Charles Simpson—or someone who looks remarkably like him, 
  slicked-back hair, suspenders, Oliver Peoples glasses—shakes my hand, shouts “Hey, 
  Williams” and tells me to meet a group of people with Alexandra Craig at Nell’s around 
  midnight. I give him a reassuring squeeze on the shoulder and tell him I’ll be there. 
     Outside, smoking a cigar, contemplating the sky, I spot Reed Thompson, who 
  emerges from the Puck Building with his entourage—Jamie Conway, Kevin Wynn, 
  Marcus Halberstam, no babes—and invites me along to dinner; and though I suspect 
  they have drugs, I have misgivings about spending the evening with them and decide 
  not to trek up to that Salvadorian bistro, especially since they don’t have reservations 
  and aren’t guaranteed a table. I wave them off, then cross Houston, dodging other limos 
  leaving the party, and start moving uptown. Walking along Broadway I stop at an 
  automated teller where just for the hell of it I take out another hundred dollars, feeling 
  
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  better having an even five hundred in my wallet. 
     I find myself walking through the antique district below Fourteenth Street. My watch 
  has stopped so I’m not sure what time it is, but probably ten-thirty or so. Black guys 
  pass by offering crack or hustling tickets to a party at the Palladium. I walk by a 
  newsstand, a dry cleaners, a church, a diner. The streets are empty; the only noise 
  breaking up the silence is an occasional taxi cruising toward Union Square. A couple of 
  skinny faggots walk by while I’m at a phone booth checking my messages, staring at my 
  reflection in an antique store’s window. One of them whistles at me, the other laughs: a 
  high, fey, horrible sound A torn playbill from Les Misérables tumbles down the cracked, 
  urine-stained sidewalk. A streetlamp burns out. Someone in a Jean-Paul Gaultier 
  topcoat takes a piss in an alleyway. Steam rises from below the streets, billowing up in 
  tendrils, evaporating. Bags of frozen garbage line the curbs. The moon, pale and low, 
  hangs just above the tip of the Chrysler Building. Somewhere from over in the West 
  Village the siren from an ambulance screams, the wind picks it up, it echoes then fades. 
     The bum, a black man, lies in the doorway of an abandoned antique store on Twelfth 
  Street on top of an open grate, surrounded by bags of garbage and a shopping cart from 
  Gristede’s loaded with what I suppose are personal belongings: newspapers, bottles, 
  aluminum cans. A handpainted cardboard sign attached to the front of the cart reads I 
  AM HUNGRY AND HOMELESS PLEASE HELP ME. A dog, a small mutt, short-haired 
  and rail thin, lies next to him, its makeshift leash tied to the handle of the grocery cart. I 
  don’t notice the dog the first time I pass by. It’s only after I circle the block and come 
  back that I see it lying on a pile of newspapers, guarding the bum, a collar around its 
  neck with an oversize nameplate that reads GIZMO. The dog looks up at me wagging its 
  skinny, pathetic excuse for a tail and when I hold out a gloved hand it licks at it hungrily. 
  The stench of some kind of cheap alcohol mixed with excrement hangs here like a 
  heavy, invisible cloud, and I have to hold my breath, before adjusting to the stink. The 
  bum wakes up, opens his eyes, yawning, exposing remarkably stained teeth between 
  cracked purple lips. 
     He’s fortyish, heavyset, and when he attempts to sit up I can make out his features 
  more clearly in the glare of the streetlamp: a few days’ growth of beard, triple chin, a 
  ruddy nose lined with thick brown veins. He’s dressed in some kind of tacky-looking lime 
  green polyester pantsuit with washed-out Sergio Valente jeans worn over it (this 
  season’s homeless person’s fashion statement) along with a ripped orange and brown 
  V-neck sweater stained with what looks like burgundy wine. It seems he’s very drunk—
  either that or he’s crazy or stupid. His eyes can’t even focus when I stand over him, 
  blocking out the light from a streetlamp, covering him in shadow. I kneel down. 
     “Hello,” I say, offering thy hand, the one the dog licked. “Pat Baternan.” 
     The bum stares at me, panting with the exertion it takes to sit up. He doesn’t shake my 
  hand. 
     “You want some money?” I ask gently. “Some… food?” 
     The bum nods and starts to cry, thankfully. 
     I reach into my pocket and pull out a ten-dollar bill, then change my mind and hold out 
  a five instead. “Is this what you need?” 
     The bum nods again and looks away, shamefully, his nose running, and after clearing 
  his throat says quietly, “I’m so hungry.” 
     “It’s cold out, too,” I say. “Isn’t it?” 
     “I’m so hungry.” He convulses once, twice, a third time, then looks away, 
  embarrassed. 
     “Why don’t you get a job?” I ask, the bill still held in my hand but not within the bum’s 
  reach. “If you’re so hungry, why don’t you get a job?” 
     He breathes in, shivering, and between sobs admits, “I lost my job…” 
     “Why?” I ask, genuinely interested. “Were you drinking? Is that why you lost it? Insider 
  trading? just joking. No, really—were you drinking on the job?” 
     He hugs himself, between sobs, chokes, “I was fired. I was laid off.” 
     I take this in, nodding. “Gee, uh, that’s too bad.” 
  
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     “I’m so hungry,” he says, then starts crying hard, still holding himself. His dog, the 
  thing called Gizmo, starts whimpering. 
     “Why don’t you get another one?” I ask. “Why don’t you get another job?” 
     “I’m not…” He coughs, holding himself, shaking miserably, violently, unable to finish 
  the sentence. 
     “You’re not what?” I ask softly. “Qualified for anything else?” 
     “Tm hungry,” he whispers. 
     “I know that, I know that,” I say. ‘Jeez, you’re like a broken record. I’m trying to help 
  you…” My impatience rises. 
     “I’m hungry,” he repeats. 
     “Listen. Do you think it’s fair to take money from people who do have jobs? Who do 
  work?” 
     His face crumples and he gasps, his voice raspy, “What am I gonna do?” 
     “Listen,” I say. “What’s your name?” 
     “Al,” he says. 
     “Speak up,” I tell him. “Come on.” 
     “Al,” he says, a little louder. 
     “Get a goddamn job, Al,” I say earnestly. “You’ve got a negative attitude. That’s what’s 
  stopping you. You’ve got to get your act together. I’ll help you.” 
     “You’re so kind, mister. You’re kind. You’re a kind man,” he blubbers. “I can tell.” 
     “Shhh,” I whisper. “It’s okay.” I start petting the dog. 
     “Please,” he says, grabbing for my wrist. “I don’t know what to do. I’m so cold.” 
     “Do you know how bad you smell?” I whisper this soothingly, stroking his face. “The 
  stench, my god…” 
     “I can’t…” He chokes, then swallows. “I can’t find a shelter.” 
     “You reek,” I tell him. “You reek of… shit.” I’m still petting the dog, its eyes wide and 
  wet and grateful. “Do you know that? Goddamnit, Al—look at me and stop crying like 
  some kind of faggot,” I shout. My rage builds, subsides, and I close my eyes,bringing my 
  hand up to squeeze the bridge of my nose, then I sigh: “Al… I’m sorry. It’s just that… I 
  don’t know. I don’t have anything in common with you.” 
     The bum’s not listening. He’s crying so hard he’s incapable of a coherent answer. I put 
  the bill slowly back into the pocket of my Luciano Soprani jacket and with the other hand 
  stop petting the dog and reach into the other pocket. The bum stops sobbing abruptly 
  and sits up, looking for the fiver or, I presume, his bottle of Thunderbird. I reach out and 
  touch his face gently once more with compassion and whisper, “Do you know what a 
  fucking loser you are?” He starts nodding helplessly and I pull out a long, thin knife with 
  a serrated edge and, being very careful not to kill him, push maybe half an inch of the 
  blade into his right eye, flicking the handle up, instantly popping the retina. 
     The bum is too surprised to say anything. He only opens his mouth in shock and 
  moves a grubby, mittened hand slowly up to his face. I yank his pants down and in the 
  passing headlights of a taxi can make out his flabby black thighs, rashed because of his 
  constantly urinating in the pantsuit. The stench of shit rises quickly into my face and 
  breathing through my mouth, down on my haunches, I start stabbing him in the 
  stomach, lightly, above the dense matted patch of pubic hair. This sobers him up 
  somewhat and instinctively he tries to cover himself with his hands and the dog starts 
  yipping, really furiously, but it doesn’t attack, and I keep stabbing at the bum now 
  between his fingers, stabbing the backs of his hands. His eye, burst open, hangs out of 
  its socket and runs down his face and he keeps blinking which causes what’s left of it 
  inside the wound to pour out like red, veiny egg yolk. I grab his head with one hand and 
  push it back and then with my thumb and forefinger hold the other eye open and bring 
  the knife up and push the tip of it into the socket, first breaking its protective film so the 
  socket fills with blood, then slitting the eyeball open sideways, and he finally starts 
  screaming once I slit his nose in two, lightly spraying me and the dog with blood, Gizmo 
  blinking to get the blood out of his eyes. I quickly wipe the blade clean across the bum’s 
  face, breaking open the muscle above his cheek. Still kneeling, I throw a quarter in his 
  
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  face, which is slick and shiny with blood, both sockets hollowed out and filled with gore, 
  what’s left of his eyes literally oozing over his screaming lips in thick, webby strands. 
  Calmly, I whisper, “There’s a quarter. Go buy some gum, you crazy fucking nigger.” 
  Then I turn to the barking dog and when I get up, stomp on its front legs while it’s 
  crouched down ready to jump at me, its fangs bared, immediately shattering the bones 
  in both its legs, and it falls on its side squealing in pain, front paws sticking up in the air 
  at an obscene, satisfying angle. I can’t help but start laughing and I linger at the scene, 
  amused by this tableau. When I spot an approaching taxi, I slowly walk away. 
     Afterwards, two blocks west, I feel heady, ravenous, pumped up, as if I’d just worked 
  out and endorphins are flooding my nervous system, or just embraced that first line of 
  cocaine, inhaled the first puff of a fine cigar, sipped that first glass of Cristal. I’m starving 
  and need something to eat, but I don’t want to stop by Nell’s, though I’m within walling 
  distance and Indochine seems an unlikely place for a celebratory drink. So I decide to 
  go somewhere Al would go, the McDonald’s in Union Square. Standing in the line, I 
  order a vanilla milk shake (“Extra -thick,” I warn the guy, who just shakes his head and 
  flips on a machine) and take it to a table up front, where Al would probably sit, my 
  jacket, and its sleeves, lightly spattered with flecks of his blood. Two waitresses from the 
  Cat Club walk in after me and sit in the booth across from mine, both smiling flirtatiously. 
  I play it cool and ignore them. An old, crazy woman, wrinkled, chain-smoking, sits near 
  us, nodding at no one. A police car passes by, and after two more milk shakes my high 
  slowly dissolves, its intensity diminishing. I grow bored, tired; the evening seems horribly 
  anticlimactic and I start cursing myself for not going to that Salvadorian bistro with Reed 
  Thompson and the guys. The two girls linger, still interested. I check my watch. One of 
  the Mexicans working behind the counter stares at me while smoking a cigarette and he 
  studies the stains on the Soprani jacket in a way that suggests he’s going to say 
  something about it, but a customer comes in, one of the black guys who tried to sell me 
  crack earlier, and he has to take the black guy’s order. So the Mexican puts out his 
  cigarette and that’s what he does. 
  Genesis 
     I’ve been a big Genesis fan ever since the release of their 1980 album, Duke. Before 
  that I didn’t really understand any of their work, though on their last album of the 1970s, 
  the concept-laden And Then There Were Three (a reference to band member Peter 
  Gabriel, who left the group to start a lame solo career), I did enjoy the lovely “Follow 
  You, Follow Me.” Otherwise all the albums before Duke seemed too artsy, too 
  intelleotual. It was Duke (Atlantic; 1980), where Phil Collins’ presence became more 
  apparent, and the music got more modern, the drum machine became more prevalent 
  and the lyrics started getting less mystical and more specific (maybe because of Peter 
  Gabriel’s departure), and complex, ambiguous studies of loss became, instead, 
  smashing first-rate pop songs that I gratefully embraced. The songs themselves seemed 
  arranged more around Collins’ drumming than Mike Rutherford’s bass lines or Tony 
  Banks’ keyboard riffs. A classic example of this is “Misunderstanding,” which not only 
  was the group’s first big hit of the eighties but also seemed to set the tone for the rest of 
  theiralbums as the decade progressed. The other standout on Duke is “Turn It On 
  Again,” which is about the negative effects of television. On the other hand, “Heathaze” 
  is a song I just don’t understand, while “Please Don’t Ask” is a touching love song 
  written to a separated wife who regains custody of the couple’s child. Has the negative 
  aspect of divorce ever been rendered in more intimate terms by a rock ‘n’ roll group? I 
  don’t think so. “Duke Travels” and “Dukes End” might mean something but since the 
  lyrics aren’t printed it’s hard to tell what Collins is singing about, though there is 
  complex, gorgeous piano work by Tony Banks on the latter track. The only bummer 
  about Duke is “Alone Tonight,” which is way too reminiscent of “Tonight Tonight Tonight” 
  from the group’s later masterpiece Invisible Touch and the only example, really, of 
  where Collins has plagiarized himself. 
  
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     Abacab (Atlantic; 1981) was released almost immediately after Duke and it benefits 
  from a new producer, Hugh Padgham, who gives the band a more eighties sound and 
  though the songs seem fairly generic, there are still great bits throughout: the extended 
  jam in the middle of the title track and the horns by some group called Earth, Wind and 
  Fire on “No Reply at All” are just two examples. Again the songs reflect dark emotions 
  and are about people who feel lost or who are in conflict, but the production and sound 
  are gleaming and upbeat (even if the titles aren’t: “No Reply at All,” “Keep It Dark,” “Who 
  Dunnit?” “Like It or Not”). Mike Rutherford’s bass is obscured somewhat in the mix but 
  otherwise the band sounds tight and is once again propelled by Collins’ truly amazing 
  drumming. Even at its most despairing (like the song “Dodo,” about extinction), Abacab 
  musically is poppy and lighthearted. 
     My favorite track is “Man on the Corner,” which is the only song credited solely to 
  Collins, a moving ballad with a pretty synthesized melody plus a riveting drum machine 
  in the background. Though it could easily come off any of Phil’s solo albums, because 
  the themes of loneliness, paranoia and alienation are overly familiar to Genesis it 
  evokes the band’s hopeful humanism. “Man on the Corner” profoundly equates a 
  relationship with a solitary figure (a bum, perhaps a poor homeless person?), “that 
  lonely man on the corner” who just stands around. “Who Dunnit?” profoundly expresses 
  the theme of confusion against a funky groove, and what makes this song so exciting is 
  that it ends with its narrator never finding anything out at all. 
     Hugh Padgham produced next an even less conceptual effort, simply called Genesis 
  (Atlantic; 1983), and though it’s a fine album a lot of it now seems too derivative for my 
  tastes. ‘That’s All” sounds like “Misunderstanding,” “Taking It All Too Hard” reminds me 
  of “Throwing It All Away.” It also seems less jazzy than its predecessors and more of an 
  eighties pop album, more rock ‘n’ roll. Padgham does a brilliant job of producing, but the 
  material is weaker than usual and you can sense the strain. It opens with the 
  autobiographical “Mama,” that’s both strange and touching, though I couldn’t tell if the 
  singer was talking about his actual mother or to a girl he likes to call “Mama.” ‘That’s All” 
  is a lover’s lament about being ignored and beaten down by an unreceptive partner; 
  despite the despairing tone it’s got a bright sing-along melody that makes the song less 
  depressing than it probably needed to be. “That’s All” is the best tune on the album, but 
  Phil’s voice is strongest on “House by the Sea,” whose lyrics are, however, too stream-
  of-consciousness to make much sense. It might be about growing up and accepting 
  adulthood but it’s unclear; at any rate, its second instrumental part puts the song more in 
  focus for me and Mike Banks gets to show off his virtuosic guitar skills while Tom 
  Rutherford washes the tracks over with dreamy synthesizers, and when Phil repeats the 
  song’s third verse at the end it can give you chills. 
     “Illegal Alien” is the most explicitly political song the group has yet recorded and their 
  funniest. The subject is supposed to be sad—a wetback trying to get across the border 
  into the United States—but the details are highly comical: the bottle of tequila the 
  Mexican holds, the new pair of shoes he’s wearing (probably stolen); and it all seems 
  totally accurate. Phil sings it in a brash, whiny pseudo-Mexican voice that makes it even 
  funnier, and the rhyme of “fun ” with “illegal alien ” is inspired. “Just a Job to Do” is the 
  album’s funkiest song, with a killer bass line by Banks, and though it seems to be about 
  a detective chasing a criminal, I think it could also be about a jealous lover tracking 
  someone down. “Silver Rainbow” is the album’s most lyrical song. The words are 
  intense, complex and gorgeous. The album ends on a positive, upbeat note with “It’s 
  Gonna Get Better.” Even if the lyrics seem a tiny bit generic to some, Phil’s voice is so 
  confident (heavily influenced by Peter Gabriel, who never made an album this polished 
  and heartfelt himself) that he makes us believe in glorious possibilities. 
     Invisible Touch (Atlantic; 1986) is the group’s undisputed masterpiece. It’s an epic 
  meditation on intangibility, at the same time it deepens and enriches the meaning of the 
  preceding three albums. It has a resonance that keeps coming back at the listener, and 
  the music is so beautiful that it’s almost impossible to shake off because every song 
  makes some connection about the unknown or the spaces between people (“Invisible 
  
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  Touch”), questioning authoritative control whether by domineering lovers or by 
  government (“Land of Confusion”) or by meaningless repetition (“Tonight Tonight 
  Tonight’. All in all it ranks with the finest rock ‘n’ roll achievements of the decade and the 
  mastermind behind this album, along of course with the brilliant ensemble playing of 
  Banks, Collins and Rutherford, is Hugh Padgham, who has never found as clear and 
  crisp and modern a sound as this. You can practically hear every nuance of every 
  instrument. 
     In terms of lyrical craftsmanship and sheer songwriting skills this album hits a new 
  peak of professionalism. Take the lyrics to “Land of Confusion,” in which a singer 
  addresses the problem of abusive political authority. This is laid down with a groove 
  funkier and blacker than anything Prince or Michael Jackson—or any other black artist 
  of recent years, for that matter—has come up with. Yet as danceable as the album is, it 
  also has a stripped-down urgency that not even the overrated Bruce Springsteen can 
  equal. As an observer of love’s failings Collins beats out the Boss again and again, 
  reaching new heights of emotional honesty on “In Too Deep”; yet it also showcases 
  Collins’ clowny, prankish, unpredictable side. It’s the most moving pop song of the 
  1980s about monogamy and commitment. “Anything She Does” (which echoes the J. 
  Geils Band’s “Centerfold” but is more spirited and energetic) starts off side two and after 
  that the album reaches its peak with “Domino,” a two-part song. Part one, “In the Heat of 
  the Night,” is full of sharp, finely drawn images of despair and it’s paired with “The Last 
  Domino,” which fights it with an expression of hope. This song is extremely uplifting. The 
  lyrics are as positive and affirmative as anything I’ve heard in rock. 
     Phil Collins’ solo efforts seem to be more commercial and therefore more satisfying in 
  a narrower way, especially No Jacket Required and songs like “In the Air Tonight” and 
  “Against All Odds” (though that song was overshadowed by the masterful movie from 
  which it came) and “Take Me Home” and “Sussudio” (great, great song; a personal 
  favorite) and his remake of “You Can’t Hurry Love,” which I’m not alone in thinking is 
  better than the Supremes’ original. But I also think that Phil Collins works better within 
  the confines of the group than as a solo artist—and I stress the word artist. In fact it 
  applies to all three of the guys, because Genesis is still the best, most exciting band to 
  come out of England in the 1980s. 
  Lunch 
     I’m sitting in DuPlex, the new Tony McManus restaurant in Tribeca, with Christopher 
  Armstrong, who also works at P & P. We went to Exeter together, then he went to the 
  University of Pennsylvania and Wharton, before moving to Manhattan. We, inexplicably, 
  could not get reservations at Subjects, so Armstrong suggested this place. Armstrong is 
  wearing a four-button double-breasted chalk-striped spread-collar cotton shirt by 
  Christian Dior and a large paisley-patterned silk tie by Givenchy Gentleman. His leather 
  agenda and leather envelope, both by Bottega Veneta, lie on the third chair at our table, 
  a good one, up front by the window. I’m wearing a nailhead-patterned worsted wool suit 
  with overplaid from DeRigueur by Schoeneman, a cotton broadcloth shirt by Bill Blass, a 
  Macclesfield silk tie by Savoy and a cotton handkerchief by Ashear Bros. A Muzak 
  rendition of the score from Les Misérables plays lightly throughout the restaurant. 
  Armstrong’s girlfriend is Jody Stafford, who used to date Todd Hamlin, and this fact plus 
  the TV monitors hanging from the ceilings with closed-circuit video of chefs working in 
  the kitchen fills me with nameless dread. Armstrong just got back from the islands and 
  has a very deep, very even tan, but so do I. 
     “So how were the Bahamas?” I ask after we order. “You just got back, right?” 
     “Well, Taylor,” Armstrong begins, staring at a point somewhere behind me and slightly 
  above my head—on the column that has been terra-cotta-ized or perhaps on the 
  exposed pipe that runs the length of the ceiling. “Travelers looking for that perfect 
  vacation this summer may do well to look south, as far south as the Bahamas and the 
  Caribbean islands. There are at least five smart reasons for visiting the Caribbean 
  
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  including the weather and the festivals and events, the less crowded hotels and 
  attractions, the price and the unique cultures. While many vacationers leave the cities in 
  search of cooler climates during the summer months, few have realized that the 
  Caribbean has a year-round climate of seventy-five to eighty-five degrees and that the 
  islands are constantly cooled by the trade winds. It is frequently hotter north in…” 
     On The Patty Winters Show this morning the topic was Toddler-Murderers. In the 
  studio audience were parents of children who’d been kidnapped, tortured and murdered, 
  while on stage a panel of psychiatrists and pediatricians were trying to help them cope 
  —somewhat futilely I might add, and much to my delight—with their confusion and 
  anger. But what really cracked me up was—via satellite on a lone TV monitor—three 
  convicted Toddler-Murderers on death row who due to fairly complicated legal loopholes 
  were now seeking parole and would probably get it. But something kept distracting me 
  while I watched the huge Sony TV over a breakfast of sliced kiwi and Japanese apple-
  pear, Evian water, oat-bran muffins, soy milk and cinnamon granola, ruining my 
  enjoyment of the grieving mothers, and it wasn’t until the show was almost over that I 
  figured out what it was: the crack above my David Onica that I had asked the doorman 
  to tell the superintendent to fix. On my way out this morning I stopped at the front desk, 
  about to complain to the doorman, when I was confronted with a new doorman, my age 
  but balding and homely and fat. Three glazed jelly doughnuts and two steaming cups of 
  extra-dark hot chocolate lay on the desk in front of him beside a copy of the Post 
  opened to the comics and it struck me that I was infinitely better-looking, more 
  successful and richer than this poor bastard would ever be and so with a passing rush of 
  sympathy I smiled and nodded a curt though not impolite good morning without lodging 
  a complaint. “Oh really?” I find myself saying loudly, completely uninterested, to 
  Armstrong. 
     “Like the United States it celebrates the summer months with festivals and special 
  events including music concerts, art exhibits, street fairs and sporting tournaments, and 
  because of the vast number of people traveling elsewhere, the islands are less crowded, 
  allowing for better service and no lines when waiting to use that sailboat or dine in that 
  restaurant. I mean I think most people go to sample the culture, the food, the history…” 
     On the way to Wall Street this morning, due to gridlock I had to get out of the company 
  car and was walking down Fifth Avenue to find a subway station when I passed what I 
  thought was a Halloween parade, which was disorienting since I was fairly sure this was 
  May. When I stopped on the corner of Sixteenth Street and made a closer inspection it 
  turned out to be something called a “Gay Pride Parade,” which made my stomach turn. 
  Homosexuals proudly marched down Fifth Avenue, pink triangles emblazoned on 
  pastel-colored windbreakers, some even holding hands, most singing “Somewhere” out 
  of key and in unison. I stood in front of Paul Smith and watched with a certain 
  traumatized fascination, my mind reeling with the concept that a human being, a man, 
  could feel pride over sodomizing another man, but when I began to receive fey catcalls 
  from aging, overmuscled beachboys with walruslike mustaches in between the lines 
  “There’s a place for us, Somewhere a place for us,” I sprinted over to Sixth Avenue, 
  decided to be late for the office and took a cab back to my apartment where I put on a 
  new suit (by Cerruti 1881), gave myself a pedicure and tortured to death a small dog I 
  had bought earlier this week in a pet store on Lexington. Armstrong drones on. 
     “Water sports are of course the leading attraction. But golf courses and tennis courts 
  are in excellent condition and the pros at many of the resorts are made more available 
  during the summer. Many of the courts are lit for night playing as well…” 
     Fuck… yourself… Armstrong, I’m thinking while staring out the window at the gridlock 
  and pacing bums on Church Street. Appetizers arrive: sun-dried-tomato brioche for 
  Armstrong. Poblano chilies with an oniony orange-purple marmalade on the side for me. 
  I hope Armstrong doesn’t want to pay because I need to show the dim-witted bastard 
  that I in fact do own a platinum American Express card. I feel very sad at this moment 
  for some reason, listening to Armstrong, and a lump forms in my throat but I swallow 
  and take a sip from my Corona and the emotion passes and during a pause while he’s 
  
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  chewing, I ask, “The food? How’s the food?” almost involuntarily, thinking about 
  anything but. 
     “Good question. As for dining out, the Caribbean has become more attractive as the 
  island cuisine has mixed well with the European culture. Many of the restaurants are 
  owned and managed by Americans, British, French, Italian, even Dutch expatriates...” 
  Mercifully, he pauses, taking a bite out of his brioche, which looks like a sponge 
  drenched in blood—his brioche looks like a big bloody sponge —and he washes it down 
  with a sip from his Corona. My turn. 
     “How about sightseeing?” I ask disinterestedly, concentrating on the blackened chilies, 
  the yellowish marmalade circling the plate in an artful octagon, cilantro leaves circling 
  the marmalade, chili seeds circling the cilantro leaves. 
     “Sightseeing is highlighted by the European culture which established many of the 
  islands as regional fortresses in the seventeen hundreds. Visitors can see the various 
  spots where Columbus landed and as we near the three hundredth anniversary of his 
  first sailing in 1590 there is a heightened awareness in the islands as to the history and 
  culture that is an integral part of island life…” 
     Armstrong: you are an… asshole. “Uh-huh.” I nod. “Well…” Paisley ties, plaid suits, 
  my aerobics class, returning videotapes, spices to pick up from Zabar’s, beggars, white-
  chocolate truffles… The sickening scent of Drakkar Noir, which is what Christopher is 
  wearing, floats over near my face, mingling with the scent of the marmalade and 
  cilantro, the onions and the blackened chilies. “Uh-huh,” I say, repeat. 
     “And for the active vacationer there is mountain climbing, cave exploring, sailing, 
  horseback riding and white-water river rafting, and for the gamblers there are casinos on 
  many of the islands…” 
     Fleetingly I imagine pulling out my knife, slicing a wrist, one of mine, aiming the 
  spurting vein at Armstrong’s head or better yet his suit, wondering if he would still 
  continue to talk. I consider getting up without excusing myself, taking a cab to another 
  restaurant, somewhere in SoHo, maybe farther uptown, having a drink, using the rest 
  room, maybe even making a phone call to Evelyn, coming back to Duplex, and every 
  molecule that makes up my body tells me that Armstrong would still be talking about not 
  only his vacation but what seems like the world’s vacation in the fucking Bahamas. 
  Somewhere along the line the waiter removes half-eaten appetizers, brings fresh 
  Coronas, free-range chicken with raspberry vinegar and guacamole, calf’s liver with 
  shad roe and leeks, and though I’m not sure who ordered what it doesn’t really matter 
  since both plates look exactly the same. I end up with the free-range chicken with extra 
  tomatillo sauce, I think. 
     “Visitors to the Caribbean don’t need a passport—just proof of U.S. citizenship—and 
  even better, Taylor, is that language is no barrier. English is spoken everywhere, even 
  on those islands where the local language is French or Spanish. Most of the islands are 
  former British…” 
     “My life is a living hell,” I mention off the cuff, while casually moving leeks around on 
  my plate, which by the way is a porcelain triangle. “And there are many more people I, 
  uh, want to… want to, well, I guess murder.” I say this emphasizing the last word, 
  staring straight into Armstrong’s face. 
     “Service has improved to the islands as both American Airlines and Eastern Airlines 
  have created hubs in San Juan where they have set up connecting flights to those 
  islands they don’t serve with direct flights. With additional service from BWIA, Pan Am, 
  ALM, Air Jamaica, Bahamas Air and Cayman Airways, most islands are easy to reach. 
  There are additional connections within the islands from LIAT and BWIA, which provide 
  a series of scheduled island-hopping flights…” 
     Someone who I think is Charles Fletcher walks over while Armstrong keeps talking 
  and he pats me on the shoulder and says “Hey Simpson” and “See you at Fluties” and 
  then at the door meets up with a very attractive woman—big tits, blond, tight dress, not 
  his secretary, not his wife—and they leave Duplex together in a black limousine. 
  Armstrong is still eating, cutting into the perfectly square slices of calf’s liver, and he 
  
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  keeps talking while I become increasingly mournful. 
     “Vacationers who can’t take a full week away will find the Caribbean an ideal spot for 
  the alternative weekend escape. Eastern Airlines has created its Weekender Club which 
  includes many Caribbean destinations and enables members to visit many places at 
  sharply reduced prices which I know doesn’t matter but I still think people are going 
  Concert 
     Everyone is very uptight at the concert Carruthers drags us to in New Jersey this 
  evening, an Irish band called U2 who were on the cover of Time magazine last week. 
  The tickets were originally for a group of Japanese clients who canceled their trip to 
  New York at the last minute, making it virtually impossible for Carruthers (or so he says) 
  to sell these front-row seats. So it’s Carruthers and Courtney, Paul Owen and Ashley 
  Cromwell, and Evelyn and myself. Earlier, when I found out that Paul Owen was 
  coming, I tried to call Cecilia Wagner, Marcus Halberstam’s girlfriend, since Paul Owen 
  seems fairly sure that I’m Marcus, and though she was flattered by my invitation (I 
  always suspected I was one of her crushes) she had to attend a black-tie party for the 
  opening of the new British musical Maggie! But she did mention something about lunch 
  next week and I told her I would give her a call on Thursday. I was supposed to have 
  dinner with Evelyn tonight, but the thought of sitting alone with her during a two-hour 
  meal fills me with a nameless dread and so I call and reluctantly explain the schedule 
  changes and she asks if Tim Price is coming and when I tell her no, there is the briefest 
  hesitation before she accepts and then I cancel the reservation Jean made for us at H2 
  0, the new Clive Powell restaurant in Chelsea, and leave the office early for a quick 
  aerobics class before the concert. 
     None of the girls are particularly excited about seeing the band and all have confided 
  in me, separately, that they don’t want to be here, and in the limousine heading toward 
  somewhere called the Meadowlands, Carruthers keeps trying to placate everyone by 
  telling us that Donald Trump is a big U2 fan and then, even more desperately, that John 
  Gutfreund also buys their records. A bottle of Cristal is opened, then another. The TV is 
  tuned to a press conference Reagan’s giving but there’s a lot of static and no one pays 
  attention, except for me. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about Shark Attack 
  Victims. Paul Owen has called me Marcus four times and Evelyn, much to my relief, 
  Cecilia twice, but Evelyn doesn’t notice since she’s been glaring at Courtney the entire 
  time we’ve been in the limousine. Anyway, no one has corrected Owen and it’s unlikely 
  that anyone will. I even called her Cecilia a couple of times myself when I was sure she 
  wasn’t listening, while she was staring hatefully at Courtney. Carruthers keeps telling me 
  how nice I look and complimenting my suit. 
     Evelyn and I are by far the best-dressed couple. I’m wearing a lamb’s wool topcoat, a 
  wool jacket with wool flannel trousers, a cotton shirt, a cashmere V-neck sweater and a 
  silk tie, all from Armani. Evelyn’s wearing a cotton blouse by Dolce do Gabbana, suede 
  shoes by Yves Saint Laurent, a stenciled calf skirt by Adrienne Landau with a suede belt 
  by Jill Stuart, Calvin Klein tights, Venetian-glass earrings by Frances Patiky Stein, and 
  clasped in her hand is a single white rose that I bought at a Korean deli before 
  Carruthers’ limousine picked me up. Carruthers is wearing a lamb’s wool sport coat, a 
  cashmere/vicuña cardigan sweater, cavalry twill trousers, a cotton shirt and a silk tie, all 
  from Hermès. (“How tacky,” Evelyn whispered to me; I silently agreed.) Courtney is 
  wearing a triple-layered silk organdy top and a long velvet skirt with a fishtail hem, 
  velvet-ribbon and enamel earrings by José and Maria Barrera, gloves by Portolano and 
  shoes from Gucci. Paul and Ashley are, I think, a bit over dressed, and she has 
  sunglasses on even though the windows in the limo are tinted and it’s already dusk. She 
  holds a small bouquet of flowers, daisies, Carruthers gave her, which failed to make 
  Courtney jealous since she seems intent upon clawing Evelyn’s face open, which right 
  now, though it’s the better-looking face, seems not a bad idea and one I wouldn’t mind 
  watching Courtney carry out. Courtney has a slightly better body, Evelyn nicer tits. 
  
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     The concert has been dragging on now for maybe twenty minutes. I hate live music 
  but everyone around us is standing, their screams of approval competing with the racket 
  coming from the towering walls of speakers stacked over us. The only real pleasure I 
  get from being here is seeing Scott and Anne Smiley ten rows behind us, in shittier 
  though probably not less expensive seats. Carruthers changes seats with Evelyn to 
  discuss business with me, but I can’t hear a word so I change seats with Evelyn to talk 
  to Courtney. 
     “Luis is a weasel,” I shout. “He suspects nothing.” 
     “The Edge is wearing Armani,” she shouts, pointing at the bassist. 
     “That’s not Armani,” I shout back. “It’s Empor io.” 
     “No,” she shouts. “Armani.” 
     “The grays are too muted and so are the taupes and navies. Definite winged lapels, 
  subtle plaids, polka dots and stripes are Armani. Not Emporio, “ I shout, extremely 
  irritated that she doesn’t know this, can’t differentiate, both my hands covering both 
  ears. “There’s a difference. Which one’s The Ledge?” 
     “The drummer might be The Ledge,” she shouts. “I think. I’m not sure. I need a 
  cigarette. Where were you the other night? If you tell me with Evelyn I’m going to hit 
  you.” 
     “The drummer is not wearing anything by Armani,” I scream. “Or Emporio for that 
  matter. Nowhere.” 
     “I don’t know which one the drummer is,” she shouts. 
     “Ask Ashley,” I suggest, screaming. 
     “Ashley?” she screams, reaching over across Paul and tapping Ashley’s leg. “Which 
  one’s The Ledge?” Ashley shouts something at her that I can’t hear and then Courtney 
  turns back to me, shrugging. “She said she can’t believe she’s in New Jersey.” 
     Carruthers motions for Courtney to change seats with him. She waves the little twit 
  away and grips my thigh, which I flex rock-hard, and her hand lingers admiringly. But 
  Luis persists and she gets up, and screams at me, “I think we need drugs tonight!” I nod. 
  The lead singer, Bono, is screeching out what sounds like “Where the Beat Sounds the 
  Same.” Evelyn and Ashley leave to buy cigarettes, use the ladies’ room, find 
  refreshments. Luis sits next to me. 
     “The girls are bored,” Luis screams at me. 
     “Courtney wants us to find her some cocaine tonight,” I shout. 
     “Oh, great.” Luis looks sulky. 
     “Do we have reservations anywhere?” 
     “Brussels,” he shouts, checking his Rolex. “But it’s doubtful if we’ll make it.” 
     “If we don’t make it,” I warn him, “I’m not going any where else. You can drop me at 
  my apartment.” 
     “We’ll make it,” he shouts. 
     “If we don’t, what about Japanese?” I suggest, relenting. ‘There’s a really top sushi bar 
  on the Upper West Side. Blades. Chef used to be at Loito. It got a great rating in Zagat.” 
     “Bateman, I hate the Japanese,” Carruthers screams at me, one hand placed over an 
  ear. “Little slanty-eyed bastards.” 
     “What,” I scream, “in the hell are you talking about?” 
     “Oh I know, I know,” he screams, eyes bulging. “They save more than we do and they 
  don’t innovate much, but they sure in the fuck know how to take, steal, our innovations, 
  improve on them, then ram them down our fucking throats!” 
     I stare at him, disbelieving for a moment, then look at the stage, at the guitarist 
  running around in circles, Bono’s arms outstretched as he runs back and forth across 
  the length of its edge, and then back at Luis whose face is still crimson with fury and 
  he’s still staring at me, wide-eyed, spittle on his lips, not saying anything. 
     “What in the hell does that have to do with Blades?” I ask finally, genuinely confused. 
  “Wipe your mouth.” 
     ‘“That’s why I hate Japanese food,” he screams back. “Sashimi. California roll. Oh 
  Jesus.” He makes a gagging motion, with one finger going down his throat. 
  
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     “Carruthers…” I stop, still looking at him, studying his face closely, slightly freaked out, 
  unable to remember what I wanted to say. 
     “What, Bateman?” Carruthers asks, leaning in. 
     “Listen, I can’t believe this shit,” I scream. “I can’t believe you didn’t make the 
  reservations for later. We’re going to have to wait.” 
     “What?” he screams, cupping his ear, as if it makes a difference. 
     “We are going to have to wait!” I scream louder. 
     “This is not a problem,” he shouts. 
     The lead singer reaches out to us from the stage, his hand outstretched, and I wave 
  him away. “It’s okay? It’s okay? No, Luis. You’re wrong. It’s not okay.” I look over at Paul 
  Owen, who seems equally bored, his hands clamped over both ears, but still managing 
  to confer with Courtney about something. 
     “We won’t have to wait,” Luis screams. “I promise.” 
     “Promise nothing, you geek,” I scream, then, “Is Paul Owen still handling the Fisher 
  account?” 
     “I don’t want you to be mad at me, Patrick,” Luis screams desperately. “It’ll be all 
  right.” 
     “Oh Jesus, forget it,” I scream. “Now listen to me: is Paul Owen still handling the 
  Fisher account?” 
     Carruthers looks over at him and then back at me. “Yeah, I guess. I heard Ashley has 
  chlamydia.” 
     “I’m going to talk to him,” I shout, getting up, taking the empty seat next to Owen. 
     But when I sit down something strange on the stage catches my eye. Bono has now 
  moved across the stage, following me to my seat, and he’s staring into my eyes, 
  kneeling at the edge of the stage, wearing black jeans (maybe Gitano), sandals, a 
  leather vest with no shirt beneath it. His body is white, covered with sweat, and it’s not 
  worked out enough, there’s no muscle tone and what definition there might be is 
  covered beneath a paltry amount of chest hair. He has a cowboy hat on and his hair is 
  pulled back into a ponytail and he’s moaning some dirge—I catch the lyric “A hero is an 
  insect in this world”—and he has a faint, barely noticeable but nonetheless intense smirk 
  on his face and it grows, spreading across it confidently, and while his eyes blaze, the 
  backdrop of the stage turns red and suddenly I get this tremendous surge of feeling, this 
  rush of knowledge and my own heart beats faster because of this and it’s not impossible 
  to believe that an invisible cord attached to Bono has now encircled me and now the 
  audience disappears and the music slows down, gets softer, and it’s just Bono 
  onstage—the stadium’s deserted, the band fades away… 
     And then everyone, the audience, the band, reappears and the music slowly swells up 
  and Bono turns away and I’m left tingling, my face flushed, an aching erection pulsing 
  against my thigh, my hands clenched in fists of tension. But suddenly everything stops, 
  as if a switch has been turned off, the backdrop flashes back to white. Bono is on the 
  other side of the stage now and everything, the feeling in my heart, the sensation 
  combing my brain, vanishes and now more than ever I need to know about the Fisher 
  account that Owen is handling and this information seems vital, more pertinent than the 
  bond I feel I have with Bono, who is now dissolving and remote. I turn to Paul Owen. 
     “Hey,” I shout. “How’s it going?” 
     “Those guys over there…” He motions toward a group of stagehands standing by the 
  edge of the far side of the front row, peering into the crowd, conferring with one another. 
  “They were pointing over here at Evelyn and Courtney and Ashley.” 
     “Who are they?” I shout. “Are they from Oppenheimer?” 
     “No,” Owen shouts back. “I think they’re roadies who look for chicks to go backstage 
  and have sex with the band.” 
     “Oh,” I scream. “I thought maybe they worked at Barney’s.” 
     “No,” he shouts. “They’re called trim coordinators.” 
     “How do you know that?” 
     “I have a cousin who manages All We Need of Hell,” he shouts. 
  
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     “It’s irritating that you know this,” I say. 
     “What?” he shouts. 
     “Are you still handling the Fisher account?” I shout back. 
     “Yeah,” he screams. “Lucked out, huh, Marcus?” 
     “You sure did,” I scream. “How did you get it?” 
     “Well, I had the Ransom account and things just fell into place.” He shrugs helplessly, 
  the smooth bastard. “You know?” 
     “Wow,” I shout. 
     “Yeah,” he shouts back, then turns around in his seat and shouts at two dumb-looking 
  fat girls from New Jersey passing an oversize joint between them, one of the cows 
  wrapped in what I’m guessing is the Irish flag. “Will you please put your skunk-weed 
  away—it reeks.” 
     “I want it,” I shout, staring at his perfect, even part; even his scalp is tan. 
     “You want what?” he shouts back. “Marijuana?” 
     “No. Nothing,” I scream, my throat raw, and I slump back into my seat, stare emptily at 
  the stage, biting my thumbnail, ruining yesterday’s manicure. 
     We leave after Evelyn and Ashley return and later, in the limousine racing back toward 
  Manhattan to make the reservation at Brussels, another bottle of Cristal opened, 
  Reagan still on the television set, Evelyn and Ashley tell us that two bouncers accosted 
  them near the ladies’ room and demanded they come backstage. I explain who they 
  were and what purpose they serve. 
     “My god,” Evelyn gasps. “Are you telling me I’ve been… trim -coordinated?” 
     “I bet Bono has a small dick,” Owen says, staring out the tinted window. “Irish, you 
  know.” 
     “Do you think they had an automated teller back there?” Luis asks. 
     “Ashley,” Evelyn shouts. “Did you hear that? We’ve been trim -coordinated!” 
     “How does my hair look?” I ask. 
     “More Cristal?” Courtney asks Luis. 
  A Glimpse of a Thursday Afternoon 
     and it’s midafternoon and I find myself standing at a phone booth on a corner 
  somewhere downtown, I don’t know where, but I’m sweaty and a pounding migraine 
  thumps dully in my head and I’m experiencing a major-league anxiety attack, searching 
  my pockets for Valium, Xanax, a leftover Halcion, anything, and all I find are three faded 
  Nuprin in a Gucci pillbox, so I pop all three into my mouth and swallow them down with a 
  Diet Pepsi and I couldn’t tell you where it came from if my life depended on it. I’ve 
  forgotten who I had lunch with earlier and, even more important, where. Was it Robert 
  Ailes at Beats? Or was it Todd Hendricks at Ursula’s, the new Philip Duncan Holmes 
  bistro in Tribeca? Or was it Ricky Worrall and were we at December’s? Or would it have 
  been Kevin Weber at Contra in NoHo? Did I order the partridge sandwich on brioche 
  with green tomatoes, or a big plate of endive with clam sauce? “Oh god, I can’t 
  remember,” I moan, my clothes—a linen and silk sport coat, a cotton shirt, pleated linen 
  khald trousers, all by Matsuda, a silk tie with a Matsuda insignia, with a belt from Coach 
  Leatherware—drenched with sweat, and I take off the jacket and wipe my face with it. 
  The phone keeps ringing but I don’t know who I’ve called and I just stand on the corner, 
  Ray-Bans balanced on my forehead at what feels like an odd, crooked angle, and then I 
  hear a faint familiar sound coming through the wires—Jean’s soft voice competing with 
  the endless gridlock stuck on Broadway. The Patty Winters Show this morning was 
  Aspirin: Can It Save Your Life? “Jean?” I cry out. “Hello? Jean? ” “Patrick? Is that you?” 
  she calls back. “Hello? ” “Jean, I need help,” I shout. “Patrick?” “What?” “Jesse Forrest 
  called,” Jean says. “He has a reservation at Melrose tonight at eight, and Ted Madison 
  and Jamie Conway want to meet you for drinks at Harry’s. Patrick?” Jean asks. “Where 
  are you?” “Jean?” I sigh, wiping my nose. “I’m not—” “Oh, and Todd Lauder called,” 
  Jean says, “no, I mean Chris—oh no, it was Todd Lauder. Yeah, Todd Lauder.” “Oh 
  
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  god,” I moan, loosening my tie, the August sun beating down on me, “what do you say, 
  you dumb bitch?” “Not Bice, Patrick. The reservation is at Melrose. Not Bice.” “What am 
  I doing?” I cry out. “Where are you?” and then, “Patrick? What’s wrong?” “I’m not going 
  to make it, Jean,” I say, then choke out, “to the office this afternoon.” “Why?” She 
  sounds depressed or maybe it’s just simple confusion. “Just… say… no…,” I scream. 
  “What is it, Patrick? Are you all right?” she asks. “Stop sounding so fucking… sad. 
  Jesus,” I shout. “Patrick I’m sorry. I mean I meant to say just say no, but—” I hang up on 
  her and lunge away from the phone booth and the Walkman around my neck suddenly 
  feels like a boulder strapped around my throat (and the sounds blaring from it—early 
  Dizzy Gillespie—deeply irritate) and I have to throw the Walkman, a cheap one, into the 
  nearest trash can I stumble into and then I hang on to the rim of the can, breathing 
  heavily, the cheap Matsuda jacket tied around my waist, staring at the still-functioning 
  Walkman, the sun melting the mousse on my head and it mingles with the sweat 
  pouring down my face and I can taste it when I lick my lips and it starts tasting good and 
  I’m suddenly ravenous and I run my hand through my hair and lick greedily at the palm 
  while moving up Broadway, ignoring the old ladies passing out fliers, past jeans stores, 
  music blasting from inside, pouring out onto the streets, people’s movements matching 
  the beat of the song, a Madonna single, Madonna crying out, “life is a mystery, everyone 
  must stand alone…,” bike messengers whiz by and I’m standing on a corner scowling at 
  them, but people pass, oblivious, no one pays attention, they don’t even pretend to not 
  pay attention, and this fact sobers me up long enough that I walk toward a nearby 
  Conran’s to buy a teapot, but just when I assume my normalcy has returned and I’m all 
  straightened out, my stomach tightens and the cramps are so intense that I hobble into 
  the nearest doorway and clutch my waist, doubling over with pain, and as suddenly as it 
  appears it fades long enough for me to stand up straight and rush into the next 
  hardware store I come across, and once inside I buy a set of butcher knives, an ax, a 
  bottle of hydrochloric acid, and then, at the pet store down the block, a Habitrail and two 
  white rats that I plan to torture with the knives and acid, but somewhere, later in the 
  afternoon, I leave the package with the rats in it at the Pottery Barn while shopping for 
  candles or did I finally buy the teapot? Now I’m lunging up Lafayette, sweating and 
  moaning and pushing people out of my way, foam pouring out of my mouth, stomach 
  contracting with horrendous abdominal cramps—they might be caused by the steroids 
  but that’s doubtful—and I calm myself down enough to walk into a Gristede’s, rush up 
  and down the aisles and shoplift a canned ham that I calmly walk out of the store with, 
  hidden under the Matsuda jacket, and down the block, where I try to hide in the lobby of 
  the American Felt Building, breaking the tin open with my keys, ignoring the doorman, 
  who at first seems to recognize me, then, after I start stuffing handfuls of the ham into 
  my mouth, scooping the lukewarm pink meat out of the can, getting it stuck beneath my 
  nails, threatens to call the police. I’m outta there, outside, throwing up all the ham, 
  leaning against a poster for Les Misérables at a bus stop and I kiss the drawing of 
  Eponine’s lovely face, her lips, leaving brown streaks of bile smeared across her soft, 
  unassuming face and the word DYKE scrawled beneath it. Loosening my suspenders, 
  ignoring beggars, beggars ignoring me, sweat-drenched, delirious, I find myself back 
  downtown in Tower Records and I compose myself, muttering over and over to no one, 
  “I’ve gotta return my videotapes, I’ve gotta return my videotapes,” and I buy two copies 
  of my favorite compact disc, Bruce Willis, The Return of Bruno, and then I’m stuck in the 
  revolving door for five full spins and I trip out onto the street, bumping into Charles 
  Murphy from Kidder Peabody or it could be Bruce Barker from Morgan Stanley, 
  whoever, and he says “Hey, Kinsley” and I belch into his face, my eyes rolling back into 
  my head, greenish bile dripping in strings from my bared fangs, and he suggests, 
  unfazed, “See you at Fluties, okay? Severt too?” I screech and while backing away I 
  bump into a fruit stand at a Korean deli, collapsing stacks of apples and oranges and 
  lemons, that go rolling onto the sidewalk, over the curb and into the street where they’re 
  splattered by cabs and cars and buses and trucks and I’m apologizing, delirious, offering 
  a screaming Korean my platinum AmEx accidentally, then a twenty, which he 
  
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  immediately takes, but still he grabs me by the lapels of the stained, wrinkled jacket I’ve 
  forced myself back into and when I look up into his slanty-eyed round face he suddenly 
  bursts into the chorus of Lou Christie’s “Lightnin’ Strikes.” I pull away, horrified, 
  stumbling uptown, toward home, but people, places, stores keep interrupting me, a 
  drug, dealer on Thirteenth Street who offers me crack and blindly I wave a fifty at him 
  and he says “Oh, man” gratefully and shakes my hand, pressing five vials into my palm 
  which I proceed to eat whole and the crack dealer stares at me, trying to mask his deep 
  disturbance with an amused glare, and I grab him by the neck and croak out, my breath 
  reeking, “The best engine is in the BMW 750iL,” and then I move on to a phone booth, 
  where I babble gibberish at the operator until I finally spit out my credit card number and 
  then I’m speaking to the front office of Xclusive, where I cancel a massage appointment 
  that I never made. I’m able to compose myself by simply staring at my feet, actually at 
  the A. Testoni loafers, kicking pigeons aside, and without even noticing, I enter a shabby 
  delicatessen on Second Avenue and I’m still confused, mixed up, sweaty, and I walk 
  over to a short, fat Jewish woman, old and hideously dressed. “Listen,” I say. “I have a 
  reservation. Bateman. Where’s the maître d? I know Jackie Mason,” and she sighs, “I 
  can seat you. Don’t need a reservation,” as she reaches for a menu. She leads me to a 
  horrible table in back near the rest rooms and I grab the menu away from her and rush 
  to a booth up front and I’m appalled by the cheapness of the food—“Is this a goddamn 
  joke?”—and sensing a waitress is near I order without looking up. “A cheeseburger. I’d 
  like a cheeseburger and I’d like it medium rare.” “I’m sorry, sir,” the waitress says. “No 
  cheese. Kosher,” and I have no idea what the fuck she’s talking about and I say, “Fine. 
  A kosher burger but with cheese, Monterey Jack perhaps, and—oh god,” I moan, 
  sensing more cramps coming on. “No cheese, sir,” she says. “Kosher… ” “Oh god, is 
  this a nightmare, you fucking Jew?” I mutter, and then, “Cottage cheese? Just bring it?” 
  “I’ll get the manager,” she says. “Whatever. But bring me a beverage in the meanwhile,” 
  I hiss. “Yes?” she asks. “A… vanilla… milk shake…” “No milk shakes. Kosher,” she 
  says, then, “I’ll get the manager.” “No, wait.” “Mister I’ll get the manager.” “What in the 
  fuck is going on?” I ask, seething, my platinum AmEx already slapped on the greasy 
  table. “No milk shake. Kosher,” she says, thick-upped, just one of billions of people who 
  have passed over this planet. “Then bring me a fucking… vanilla… malted!” I roar, 
  spraying spit all over my open menu. She just stares. “Extra thick!” I add. She walks 
  away to get the manager and when I see him approaching, a bald carbon copy of the 
  waitress, I get up and scream, “Fuck yourself you retarded cocksucking kike,” and I run 
  out of the delicatessen and onto the street where this 
  Yale Club 
     “What are the rules for a sweater vest?” Van Patten asks the table. 
     “What do you mean?” McDermott furrows his brow, takes a sip of Absolut. 
     “Yes,” I say, “Cla rify.” 
     “Well, is it strictly infor mal—” 
     “Or can it be worn with a suit?” I interrupt, finishing his sentence. 
     “Exactly.” He smiles. 
     “Well, according to Bruce Boyer—” I begin. 
     “Wait.” Van Patten stops me. “Is he with Morgan Stanley?” 
     “No.” I smile. “He’s not with Morgan Stanley.” 
     “Wasn’t he a serial killer?” McDermott asks suspiciously, then moans. “Don’t tell me 
  he was another serial killer, Bateman. Not another serial killer.” 
     “No, McDufus, he wasn’t a serial killer,” I say, turning back to Van Patten, but before 
  continuing turn back to McDermott. ‘That really pisses me off.” 
     “But you always bring them up,” McDermott complains. “And always in this casual, 
  educational sort of way. I mean, I don’t want to know anything about Son of Sam or the 
  fucking Hillside Strangler or Ted Bundy or Featherhead, for god sake.” 
     “Featherhead?” Van Patten asks. “Who’s Featherhead? He sounds exceptionally 
  
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  dangerous.” 
     “He means Leatherface,” I say, teeth tightly clenched. 
     “Leatherface. He was part of the Texas Chainsaw Massacre.” 
     “Oh.” Van Patten smiles politely. “Of course.” 
     “And he was exceptionally dangerous,” I say. 
     “And now okay, go on. Bruce Boyer, what did he do?” McDermott demands, releasing 
  a sigh, rolling his eyes up. “Let’s see—skin them alive? Starve them to death? Run them 
  over? Feed them to dogs? What?” 
     “You guys,” I say, shaking my head, then teasingly admit, “He did something far 
  worse.” 
     “Like what—take them to dinner at McManus’s new restaurant?” McDermott asks. 
     “That would do it,” Van Patter agrees. “Did you go? It was grubby, wasn’t it?” 
     “Did you have the meat loaf?” McDermott asks. 
     “The meat loaf?” Van Patten’s in shock. “What about the interior. What about the 
  fucking tablecloths?” 
     “But did you have the meat loaf?” McDermott presses. 
     “Of course I had the meat loaf, and the squab, and the marlin,” Van Patten says. 
     “Oh god, I forgot about the marlin,” McDermott groans. “The marlin chili.” 
     “After reading Miller’s review in the Times, who in their right mind wouldn’t order the 
  meat loaf, or the marlin for that matter?” 
     “But Miller got it wrong,” McDermott says. “It was just grubby. The quesadilla with 
  papaya? Usually a good dish, but there, Jesus.” He whistles, shaking his head. 
     “And cheap,” Van Patten adds. 
     “So cheap.” McDermott is in total agreement. “And the watermelon-brittle tart—” 
     “Gentlemen.” I cough. “Ahem. I hate to interrupt, but…” 
     “Okay, okay, go on,” McDermott says. “Tell us more about Charles Moyer.” 
     “Bruce Boyer,” I correct him. “He was the author of Elegance. A Guide to Quality in 
  Menswear.” Then as an aside, “And no, Craig, he wasn’t a serial killer in his spare time.” 
     “What did Brucie baby have to say?” McDermott asks, chewing on ice. 
     “You’re a clod. It’s an excellent book. His theory remains we shouldn’t feel restricted 
  from wearing a sweater vest with a suit,” I say. “Did you hear me call you a clod?” 
     “Yeah.” 
     “But doesn’t he point out that a vest shouldn’t overpower the suit?” Van Patten offers 
  tentatively. 
     “Yes…” I’m mildly irritated that Van Patten has done his homework but asks for advice 
  nonetheless. I calmly continue. “With discreet, pinstripes you should wear a subdued 
  blue or charcoal gray vest. A plaid suit would call for a bolder vest.” 
     “And remem ber,” McDermott adds, “with a regular vest the last button should be left 
  undone.” 
     I glance sharply at McDermott. He smiles, sips his drink and then smacks his lips, 
  satisfied. 
     “Why?” Van Patten wants to know. 
     “It’s traditional,” I say, still glaring at McDermott. “But it’s also more comfortable.” 
     “Will wearing suspenders help the vest sit better?” I heapr Van Patten ask. 
     “Why?” I ask, turning to face him. 
     “Well, since you avoid the…” He stops, stuck, looking for the right word. 
     “Encumbrance of—?” I begin. 
     “The belt buckle?” McDermott finishes. 
     “Sure,” Van Patten says. 
     “You have to remember—” Again I’m interrupted by McDermott. 
     “Remember that while the vest should be in keeping with the color and the style of the 
  suit, completely avoid matching the vest’s pattern with your socks or tie,” McDermott 
  says, smiling at me, at Van Patten. 
     “I thought you hadn’t read this… this book,” I stammer angrily. “You just told me you 
  couldn’t tell the difference between Bruce Boyer and… and John Wayne Gacy.” 
  
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     “It came back to me.” He shrugs. 
     “Listen.” I turn back to Van Patten, finding McDermott’s one-upmanship totally cheap. 
  “Wearing argyle socks with as argyle vest will look too studied.” 
     “You think so?” he asks. 
     “You’ll look like you consciously worked for this look,” I say, then, suddenly upset, turn 
  back to McDermott. “Featherhead? How in the hell did you get Featherhead from 
  Leatherface?” 
     “Ah, cheer up, Bateman,” he says, slapping me on the back, then massaging my neck. 
  “What’s the matter? No shiatsu this morning?” 
     “Keep touching me like this,” I say, eyes shut tight, entire body wired and ticking, 
  coiled up ready, wanting to spring, “and you’ll draw back a stump.” 
     “Whoa, hold on there, little buddy,” McDermott says, backing off in mock fear. The two 
  of them giggle like idiots and give each other high-five, completely unaware that I’d cut 
  his hands off, and much more, with pleasure. 
     The three of us, David Van Patten, Craig McDermott and myself, are sitting in the 
  dining room of the Yale Club at lunch. Van Patten is wearing a glen-plaid wool-crepe 
  suit from Krizia Uomo, a Brooks Brothers shirt, a tie from Adirondack and shoes by 
  Cole-Haan. McDermott is wearing a lamb’s wool and cashmere blazer, worsted wool 
  flannel trousers by Ralph Lauren, a shirt and tie also by Ralph Lauren and shoes from 
  Brooks Brothers. I’m wearing a tick-weave wool suit with a windowpane overplaid, a 
  cotton shirt by Luciano Barbera, a tie by Luciano Barbera, shoes from Cole-Haan and 
  nonprescription glasses by Bausch & Lomb. The Patty Winters Show this morning was 
  about Nazis and, inexplicably, I got a real charge out of watching it. Though I wasn’t 
  exactly charmed by their deeds, I didn’t find them unsympathetic either, nor I might add 
  did most of the members of the audience. One of the Nazis, in a rare display of humor, 
  even juggled grapefruits and, delighted, I sat up in bed and clapped. 
     Luis Carruthers sits five tables away from this one, dressed as if he’d had some kind 
  of frog attack this morning—he’s wearing an unidentifiable suit from some French tailor; 
  and if I’m not mistaken the bowler hat on the floor beneath his chair also belongs to 
  him—it has Luis written all over it. He smiles but I pretend not to have noticed. I worked 
  out at Xclusive for two hours this morning and since the three of us have taken the rest 
  of the afternoon off, we’re all getting massages. We haven’t ordered yet, in fact we 
  haven’t even seen menus. We’ve just been drinking. A bottle of champagne is what 
  Craig originally wanted, but David shook his head vehemently and said “Out, out, out ” 
  when this was suggested and so we ordered drinks instead. I keep watching Luis and 
  whenever he looks over at our table I tip my head back and laugh even if what Van 
  Patten or McDermott’s saying isn’t particularly funny, which is practically always. I’ve 
  perfected my fake response to a degree where it’s so natural-sounding that no one 
  notices. Luis stands up, wipes his mouth with a napkin and glances over here again 
  before exiting the dining area and, I’m supposing, goes to the men’s room. 
     “But there’s a limit,” Van Patten is saying. “The point is, I mean, I don’t want to spend 
  the evening with the Cookie Monster.” 
     “But you’re still dating Meredith so, uh, what’s the difference?” I ask. Naturally he 
  doesn’t hear. 
     “But ditsy is cute,” McDermott says. “Ditsy is very cute.” 
     “Bateman?” Van Patten asks. “Any style opinions on ditsiness?” 
     “What?” I ask, getting up. 
     “Ditsy? No?” McDermott this time. “Ditsy’s desirable, comprende?” 
     “Listen,” I say, pushing my chair in. “I just want everyone to know that I’m pro-family 
  and anti-drug. Excuse me.” 
     As I walk away Van Patten grabs a passing waiter and says, his voice fading, “Is this 
  tap water? I don’t drink tap water. Bring me an Evian or something, okay?” 
     Would Courtney like me less if Luis was dead? This is the question I have to face, with 
  no clear answer burning back across my mind, as I make my way slowly through the 
  dining room, waving to someone who looks like Vincent Morrison, someone else who 
  
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  I’m fairly sure is someone who looks like Tom Newman. Would Courtney spend more 
  time with me—the time she now spends with Luis—if he was out of the picture, no 
  longer an alternative, if he was perhaps… dead? If Luis were killed would Courtney be 
  upset? Could I genuinely be of comfort without laughing in her face, my own spite 
  doubling back on me, giving everything away? Is the fact that she dates me behind his 
  back what excites her, my body or the size of my dick? Why, for that matter, do I want to 
  please Courtney? If she likes me only for my muscles, the heft of my cock, then she’s a 
  shallow bitch. But a physically superior, near-perfect-looking shallow bitch, and that can 
  override anything, except maybe bad breath or yellow teeth, either of which is a real 
  dealbreaker. Would I ruin things by strangling Luis? If I married Evelyn would she make 
  me buy her Lacroix gowns until we finalized our divorce? Have the South African 
  colonial forces and the Soviet-backed black guerrillas found peace yet in Namibia? Or 
  would the world be a safer, kinder place if Luis was hacked to bits? My world might, so 
  why not? There really is no… other hand. It’s really even too late to be asking these 
  questions since now I’m in the men’s room, staring at myself in the mirror—tan and 
  haircut perfect—checking out my teeth which are completely straight and white and 
  gleaming. Winking at my reflection I breathe in, sliding on a pair of leather Armam 
  gloves, and then make my way toward the stall Luis occupies. The men’s room is 
  deserted. All the stalls are empty except for the one at the end, the door not locked, left 
  slightly ajar, the sound of Luis whistling something from Les Misérables getting almost 
  oppressively louder as I approach. 
     He’s standing in the stall, his back to me, wearing a cashmere blazer, pleated wool 
  trousers, a cotton-silk white shirt, pissing into the toilet. I can tell he senses movement in 
  the stall because he stiffens noticeably and the sound of his urine hitting water stops 
  abruptly in midstream. In slow motion, my own heavy breathing blocking out all other 
  sounds, my vision blurring slightly around the edges, my hands move up over the collar 
  of his cashmere blazer and cotton-flannel shirt, circling his neck until my thumbs meet at 
  the nape and my index fingers touch each other just above Luis’s Adam’s apple. I start 
  to squeeze, tightening my grip, but it’s loose enough to let Luis turn around—still in slow 
  motion—so he can stand facing me, one hand over his wool and silk Polo sweater, the 
  other hand reaching up. His eyelids flutter for an instant, then widen, which is exactly 
  what I want. I want to see Luis’s face contort and turn purple and I want him to know 
  who it is who is killing him. I want to be the last face, the last thing, that Luis sees before 
  he dies and I want to cry out, “I’m fucking Courtney. Do you hear me? I’m fucking 
  Courtney. Ha-ha-ha,” and have these be the last words, the last sounds he hears until 
  his own gurglings, accompanied by the crunching of his trachea, drown everything else 
  out. Luis stares at me and I tense the muscles in my arms, preparing myself for a 
  struggle that, disappointingly, never comes. 
     Instead he looks down at my wrists and for a moment wavers, as if he’s undecided 
  about something, and then he lowers ‘his head and… kisses my left wrist, and when he 
  looks back up at me, shyly, it’s with an expression that’s… loving and only part 
  awkward. His right hand reaches up and tenderly touches the side of my face. I stand 
  there, frozen, my arms still stretched out in front of me, fingers still circled around Luis’s 
  throat. 
     “God, Patrick,.. he whispers. “Why here? ” 
     His hand is playing with my hair now. I look over at the side of the stall, where 
  someone has scratched into the paint Edwin gives marvelous head, and I’m still 
  paralyzed in this position and gazing at the words, confused, studying the frame 
  surrounding the words as if that contained an answer, a truth. Edwin? Edwin who? I 
  shake my head to clear it and look back at Luis, who has this horrible, love-struck grin 
  plastered on his face, and I try to squeeze harder, my face twisted with exertion, but I 
  can’t do it, my hands won’t tighten, and my arms, still stretched out, look ludicrous and 
  useless in their fixed position. 
     “I’ve seen you looking at me,” he says, panting. “I’ve noticed your”—he gulps—“hot 
  body.” 
  
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     He tries to kiss me on the lips but I back away, into the stall door, accidentally closing 
  it. I drop my hands from Luis’s neck and he takes them and immediately places them 
  back. I drop them once again and stand there contemplating my next move, but I’m 
  immobile. 
     “Don’t be… shy,” he says. 
     I take a deep breath, close my eyes, count to ten, open them and make a helpless 
  attempt to lift my arms back up to strangle Luis, but they feel weighed down and lifting 
  them becomes an impossible task. 
     “You don’t know how long I’ve wanted it…” He’s sighing, rubbing my shoulders, 
  trembling. “Ever since that Christmas party at Arizona 206. You know the one, you were 
  wearing that red striped paisley Armani tie.” 
     For the first time I notice his pants are still unzipped and calmly and without difficulty I 
  turn out of the stall and move over to a sink to wash my hands, but my gloves are still on 
  and I don’t want to take them off. The bathroom at the Yale Club suddenly seems to me 
  to be the coldest room in the universe and I shudder involuntarily. Luis trails behind, 
  touching my jacket, leaning next to me at the sink. 
     “I want you,” he says in a low, faggoty whisper and when I slowly turn my head to 
  glare at him, while hunched over the sink, seething, my eye contact radiating revulsion, 
  he adds, “too.” 
     I storm out of the men’s room, bumping into Brewster Whipple, I think. I smile at the 
  maître d’ and after shaking his hand I make a run for the closing elevator but I’m too late 
  and I cry out, pounding a fist against the doors, cursing. Composing myself, I notice the 
  maître d’ conferring with a waiter, the two of them looking my way questioningly, and so 
  I straighten up, smile shyly and wave at them. Luis strides over calmly, still grinning, 
  flushed, and I just stand there and let him walk up to me. He says nothing. 
     “What… is… it?” I finally hiss. 
     “Where are you going?” he whispers, bewildered. 
     “I… I’ve gotta…” Stumped, I look around the crowded dining room, then back at Luis’s 
  quivering, yearning face. “I’ve gotta return some videotapes,” I say, jabbing at the 
  elevator button, then, my patience shot, I start to walk away and head back toward my 
  table. 
     “Patrick,” he calls out. 
     I whirl around. “What? ” 
     He mouths “I’ll call you” with this expression on his face that lets me know, that 
  assures me, my “secret” is safe with him. “Oh my god,” I practically gag, and shaking 
  visibly I sit back at our table, completely defeated, my gloves still on, and gulp down the 
  rest of a watery J&B on the rocks. As soon as I’ve seated myself Van Patten asks, “Hey 
  Bateman, what’s the right way to wear a tie bar or clasp?” 
     “While a tie holder is by no means required businesswear, it adds to a clean, neat 
  overall appearance. But the accessory shouldn’t dominate the tie. Choose a simple gold 
  bar or a small clip and place it at the lower end of the tie at a downward forty-five-degree 
  angle.” 
  Killing Dog 
     Courtney calls, too wasted on Elavil to meet me for a coherent dinner at Cranes, the 
  new Kitty Oates Sanders restaurant in Gramercy Park where Jean, my secretary, made 
  reservations for us last week, and I’m nonplussed. Even though it got excellent reviews 
  (one in New York magazine; the other in The Nation) I don’t complain or persuade 
  Courtney to change her mind since I have two files I should go over and The Patty 
  Winters Show I taped this morning hasn’t been watched yet. It’s sixty minutes about 
  women who’ve had mastectomies, which at seven-thirty, over breakfast, before the 
  office, I couldn’t bear to sit through, but after today—hanging out at the office, where the 
  air-conditioning broke down, a tedious lunch with Cunningham at Odeon, my fucking 
  Chinese cleaners unable to get bloodstains out of another Soprani jacket, four 
  
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  videotapes overdue that ended up costing me a fortune, a twenty-minute wait at the 
  Stairmasters—I’ve adapted; these events have toughened me and I’m prepared to deal 
  with this particular topic. 
     Two thousand abdominal crunches and thirty minutes of rope jumping in the living 
  room, the Wurlitzer jukebox blasting “The Lion Sleeps Tonight” over and over, even 
  though I worked out in the gym today for close to two hours. After this I get dressed to 
  pick up groceries at D’Agostino’s: blue jeans by Armani, a white Polo shirt, an Armani 
  sport coat, no tie, hair slicked back with Thompson mousse; since it’s drizzling, a pair of 
  black waterproof lace-ups by Manolo Blahnik; three knives and two guns carried in a 
  black Epi leather attaché case ($3,200) by Louis Vuitton; because it’s cold and I don’t 
  want to fuck up my manicure, a pair of Armani deerskin gloves. Finally, a belted trench 
  coat in black leather by Cianfranco Ferré that cost four thousand dollars. Though it’s 
  only a short walk to D’Agostino’s, I put on a CD Walkman anyway, with the long version 
  of Bon Jovi’s “Wanted Dead or Alive” already in it. I grab an Etro wood-handled paisley 
  umbrella from Bergdorf Goodman, three hundred dollars on sale, off a newly installed 
  umbrella rack in the closet near the entranceway and I’m out the door. 
     After the office I worked out at Xclusive and once home made obscene phone calls to 
  young Dalton girls, the numbers I chose coming from the register I stole a copy of from 
  the administration office when I broke in last Thursday night. “I’m a corporate raider,” I 
  whispered lasciviously into the cordless phone. “I orchestrate hostile takeovers. What do 
  you think of that?” and I would pause before making sucking noises, freakish piglike 
  grunts, and then ask, “Huh, bitch?” Most of the time I could tell they were frightened and 
  this pleased me greatly, enabled me to maintain a strong, pulsing erection for the 
  duration of the phone calls, until one of the girls, Hilary Wallace, asked, unfazed, “Dad, 
  is that you?” and whatever enthusiasm I’d built up plummeted. Vaguely disappointed, I 
  made a few more calls, but only halfheartedly, opening today’s mail while doing so, and 
  I finally hung up in midsentence when I came across a personalized reminder from 
  Clifford, the guy who helps me at Armani, that there was a private sale at the boutique 
  on Madison… two weeks ago! and though I figured out that one of the doormen 
  probably withheld the card to piss me off, it still doesn’t erase the fact that I missed the 
  fucking sale, and dwelling over this loss while wandering down Central Park West 
  somewhere around Seventy-sixth, Seventy-fifth, it strikes me profoundly that the world is 
  more often than not a bad and cruel place. 
     Someone who looks almost exactly like Jason Taylor—black hair slicked back, navy 
  double-breasted cashmere coat with a beaver collar, black leather boots, Morgan 
  Stanley—passes beneath a streetlamp and nods as I turn down the volume on the 
  Walkman to hear him say “Hello, Kevin” and I catch a whiff of Grey Flannel and, still 
  walking, I look back at the person who resembles Taylor, who could be Taylor, 
  wondering if he’s still dating Shelby Phillips, when I almost stumble over a beggar lying 
  on the street, sprawled in the doorway of an abandoned restaurant—a place Tony 
  McManus opened two summers ago called Amnesia—and she’s black and out-of-her-
  mind crazy, repeating the words “Money please help mister money please help mister” 
  like some kind of Buddhist chant. I try to lecture her on the merits of getting a job 
  somewhere—perhaps at Cineplex Odeon, I suggested not impolitely—silently debating 
  whether or not to open the briefcase, pull out the knife or the gun. But it strikes me that 
  she’s too easy a target to be truly satisfying, so I tell her to go to hell and turn up the 
  Walkman just as Bon Jovi cries “It’s all the same, only the names have changed… ” and 
  move on, stopping at an automated teller to take three hundred dollars out for no 
  particular reason, all the bills crisp, freshly printed twenties, and I delicately place them 
  in my gazelleskin wallet so as not to wrinkle them. At Columbus Circle, a juggler wearing 
  a trench cloak and top hat, who is usually at this location afternoons and who calls 
  himself Stretch Man, performs in front of a small, uninterested crowd; though I smell 
  prey, and he seems fully worthy of my wrath, I move on in search of a less dorky target. 
  Though if he’d been a mime, odds are he’d already be dead. 
     Faded posters of Donald Trump on the cover of Time magazine cover the windows of 
  
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  another abandoned restaurant, what used to be Palaze, and this fills me with a 
  newfound confidence. I’ve arrived at D’Agostino’s, standing directly in front of it, gazing 
  into it, and I have an almost overwhelming urge to walk in and browse through each 
  aisle, filling my basket with bottles of balsamic vinegar and sea salt, roam through the 
  vegetable and produce stands inspecting the color tones of red peppers and yellow 
  peppers and green peppers and purple peppers, deciding what flavor, what shape of 
  gingerbread cookie to buy, but I’m still longing for something deeper, something 
  undefined to do beforehand, and I start to stalk the dark, cold streets off Central Park 
  West and I catch sight of my face reflected in the tinted windows of a limousine that’s 
  parked in front of Café des Artistes and my mouth is moving involuntarily, my tongue 
  wetter than usual, and my eyes are blinking uncontrollably of their own accord. In the 
  streetlamp’s glare, my shadow is vividly cast on the wet pavement and I can see my 
  gloved hands moving, alternately clutching themselves into fists, fingers stretching, 
  wriggling, and I have to stop in the middle of Sixty-seventh Street to calm myself down, 
  whisper soothing thoughts, anticipating D’Agostino’s, a reservation at Dorsia, the new 
  Mike and the Mechanics CD, and it takes an awesome amount of strength to fight down 
  the urge to start slapping myself in the face. 
     Coming slowly up the street is an old queer wearing a cashmere turtleneck, a paisley 
  wool ascot and a felt hat, walking a brown and white sharpei, its bunched-up face 
  sniffing low to the ground. The two of them get closer, passing beneath one streetlamp, 
  then another, and I’ve composed myself sufficiently to slowly take off the Walkman and 
  inconspicuously unlock the briefcase. I’m standing in the middle of the thin strip of 
  sidewalk next to a white BMW 320i and the queer with the sharpei is now within feet of 
  me and I get a good look at him: late fifties, pudgy, with obscenely healthy-looking pink 
  skin, no wrinkles, all of this topped off with a ridiculous mustache that accentuates his 
  feminine features. He gives me the once-over with a quizzical smile, while the sharpei 
  sniffs a tree, then a garbage bag sitting next to the BMW. 
     “Nice dog.” I smile, leaning down. 
     The sharper eyes me warily, then growls. 
     “Richard.” The man glares at the dog, then looks back up at me, apologetic, and I can 
  sense he’s flattered, not only that I’ve noticed his dog but that I’ve actually stopped to 
  talk to him about it, and I swear the old bastard is positively flushed, creaming in his 
  tacky loose corduroys from, I’m guessing, Ralph Lauren. 
     “It’s okay,” I tell him and pet the dog gently, laying the briefcase on the ground. “It’s a 
  sharpei, right?” 
     “No. Shar-pei,” he says, lisping, a way I’ve never heard it pronounced before. 
     “Shar-pei?” I try to say it the same way he does, still stroking the velvet bumpiness of 
  the dog’s neck and back. 
     “No.” He laughs flirtatiously. “Shar-pei. Accent on the last syllable.” Akthent on thee 
  latht thyllable. 
     “Well, whatever,” I say, standing up and grinning boyishly. “It’s a beautiful animal.” 
     “Oh thank you,” he says, then, exathperated, “It costs a fortune.” 
     “Really? Why?” I ask, leaning down again and stroking the dog. “Hiya Richard. Hiya 
  little fella.” 
     “You wouldn’t believe it,” he says. “You see, the bags around its eyes have to be lifted 
  surgically every two years, so we have to go all the way down to Key West—which has 
  the only vet I really trust in this world—and a little snip, a little tuck, and Richard can see 
  splendidly once again, can’t you, baby?” He nods approvingly as I continue to run my 
  hand seductively across the dog’s back. 
     “Well,” I say. “He looks great.” 
     There’s a pause in which I watch the dog. The owner keeps eyeing me and then he 
  just can’t help it, he has to break the silence. 
     “Listen,” he says. “I really hate to ask this.” 
     “Go ahead,” I urge. 
     “Oh gosh, this is so silly,” he admits, chuckling. 
  
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     I start laughing. “Why?” 
     “Are you a model?” he asks, not laughing anymore. “I could swear I’ve seen you in a 
  magazine or somewhere.” 
     “No, I’m not,” I say, deciding not to lie. “But I’m flattered.” 
     “Well, you look just like a movie star.” He waves a limp wrist, then, “I don’t know,” and 
  finally he lisps the following—I swear to God—to himself: “Oh stop it, silly, you’re 
  embarrassing yourself.” 
     I lean down, giving the appearance of picking up the briefcase, but because of the 
  shadows I’m leaning into he doesn’t see me pull out the knife, the sharpest one, with the 
  serrated edge, and I’m asking him what he paid for Richard, naturally but also very 
  deliberately, without even looking up to check to see if other people are walking down 
  the street. In one swift movement I pick the dog up quickly by the neck and hold it with 
  my left arm, pushing it back against the streetlamp while it nips at me, trying to bite my 
  gloves, its jaws snapping, but since I’ve got such a tight grip on its throat it can’t bark 
  and I can actually hear my hand crush its trachea. I push the serrated blade into its 
  stomach and quickly slice open its hairless belly in a squirt of brown blood, its legs 
  kicking and clawing at me, then blue and red intestines bulge out and I drop the dog 
  onto the sidewalk, the queer just standing there, still gripping the leash, and this has all 
  happened so fast he’s in shock and he just stares in horror saying “oh my god oh my 
  god” as the sharpei drags itself around in a circle, its tail wagging, squealing, and it 
  starts licking and sniffing the pile of its own intestines, spilled out in a mound on the 
  sidewalk, some still connected to its stomach, and as it goes into its death throes still 
  attached to its leash I whirl around on its owner and I push him back, hard, with a 
  bloodied glove and start randomly stabbing him in the face and head, finally slashing his 
  throat open in two brief chopping motions; an arc of red-brown blood splatters the white 
  BMW 320i parked at the curb, setting off its car alarm, four fountainlike bursts coming 
  from below his chin. The spraylike sound of the blood. He falls to the sidewalk, shaking 
  like mad, blood still pumping, as I wipe the knife clean on the front of his jacket and toss 
  it back in the briefcase and begin to walk away, but to make sure the old queer is really 
  dead and not faking it (they sometimes do) I shoot him with a silencer twice in the face 
  and then I leave, almost slipping in the puddle of blood that has formed by the side of 
  his head, and I’m down the street and out of darkness and like in a movie I appear in 
  front of the D’Agostino’s, sales clerks beckoning for me to enter, and I’m using an 
  expired coupon for a box of oat-bran cereal and the girl at the checkout counter—black, 
  dumb, slow—doesn’t get it, doesn’t notice the expiration date has passed even though 
  it’s the only thing I buy, and I get a small but incendiary thrill when I walk out of the 
  store, opening the box, stuffing handfuls of the cereal into my mouth, trying to whistle 
  “Hip to Be Square” at the same time, and then I’ve opened my umbrella and I’m running 
  down Broadway, then up Broadway, then down again, screaming like a banshee, my 
  coat open, flying out behind me like some kind of cape. 
  Girls 
     Tonight an infuriating dinner at Raw Space with a vaguely ditzed-out Courtney who 
  keeps asking me questions about spa menus and George Bush and Tofutti that belong 
  only in someone’s nightmare. I utterly ignore her, to no avail, and while she’s in 
  midsentence—Page Six, Jackie O—I resort to waving our waiter over and ordering the 
  cold corn chowder lemon bisque with peanuts and dill, an arugula Caesar salad and 
  swordfish meat loaf with kiwi mustard, even though I already ordered this and he tells 
  me so. I look up at him, not even trying to feign surprise, and smile grimly. “Yes, I did, 
  didn’t I?” The Floridian cuisine looks impressive but the portions are small and costly, 
  especially in a place with a dish of crayons on each table. (Courtney draws a Laura 
  Ashley print on her paper place mat and I draw the insides of Monica Lustgarden’s 
  stomach and chest on mine and when Courtney, charmed by what I’m drawing, inquires 
  as to what it is, I tell her, “Uh, a… watermelon”). The bill, which I pay for with my 
  
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  platinum American Express card, comes to over three hundred dollars. Courtney looks 
  okay in a Donna Karan wool jacket, silk blouse and cashmere wool skirt. I’m wearing a 
  tuxedo for no apparent reason. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about a new 
  sport called Dwarf Tossing. 
     In the limousine, dropping her off at Nell’s, where we’re supposed to have drinks with 
  Meredith Taylor, Louise Samuelson and Pierce Towers, I tell Courtney that I need to 
  score some drugs and I promise that I’ll be back before midnight. “Oh, and tell Nell I say 
  hi,” I add casually. 
     “Just buy some downstairs if you have to, for god’s sake,” she whines. 
     “But I promised someone I’d stop by their place. Paranoia Understand?” I whine back. 
     “Who’s paranoid?” she asks, eyes squinting. “I don’t get it.” 
     “Honey, the drugs downstairs are usually a notch below NutraSweet in terms of 
  potency,” I tell her. “You know.” 
     “Don’t implicate me, Patrick,” she warns. 
     “Just go inside and order me a Foster’s, okay?” 
     “Where are you really going?” she asks after a beat, now suspicious. 
     “I’m going to… Noj’s,” I say. “I’m buying coke from Noj.” 
     “But Noj is the chef at Deck Chairs,” she says, as I’m pushing her out of the limousine. 
  “Noj isn’t a drug dealer. He’s a chef!” 
     “Don’t have a hissy fit, Courtney,” I sigh, my hands on her back. 
     “But don’t lie to me about Noj,” she whines, struggling to stay in the car. “Noj is the 
  chef at Deck Chairs. Did you hear me?” 
     I stare at her, dumbfounded, caught in the harsh lights hung above the ropes outside 
  Nell’s. 
     “I mean Fiddler,” I finally admit, meekly. “I’m going to Fiddler’s to score.” 
     “You’re impossible,” she mutters, walking away from the limo. “There is something 
  seriously wrong with you.” 
     “I’ll be back,” I call out after her, slamming the limo’s door shut, then I cackle gleefully 
  to myself while relighting a cigar, “Don’t you bet on it.” 
     I tell the chauffeur to head over to the meat-packing district just west of Nell’s, near the 
  bistro Florent, to look for prostitutes and after heavily scanning the area twice—actually, 
  I’ve spent months prowling this section of town for the appropriate babe—I find her on 
  the corner of Washington and Thirteenth. She’s blond and slim and young, trashy but 
  not an escort bimbo, and most important, she’s white, which is a rarity in these parts. 
  She’s wearing tight cutoff shorts, a white T-shirt and a cheap leather jacket, and except 
  for a bruise over her left knee her skin is pale all over, including the face, though her 
  thickly lipsticked mouth is done up in pink. Behind her, in four-foot-tall red block letters 
  painted on the side of an abandoned brick warehouse, is the word M E A T and the way 
  the letters are spaced awakens something in me and above the building like a backdrop 
  is a moonless sky, which earlier, in the afternoon, was hung with clouds but tonight isn’t. 
     The limousine cruises up alongside the girl. Through its tinted windows, closer up, 
  she’s paler, the blond hair now seems bleached and her facial features indicate 
  someone even younger than I first imagined, and because she’s the only white girl I’ve 
  seen tonight in this section of town, she seems—whether she is or not—especially 
  clean; you could easily mistake her for one of the NYU girls walking home from Mars, a 
  girl who has been drinking Seabreezes all night while moving across a dance floor to the 
  new Madonna songs, a girl who perhaps afterwards had a fight with her boyfriend, 
  someone named Angus or Nick or… Pokey, a girl on her way to Florent to gossip with 
  friends, to order another Seabreeze perhaps or maybe a cappuccino or a glass of Evian 
  water—and unlike most of the whores around here, she barely registers the limousine 
  as it pulls up next to her and stops, idling. Instead she lingers casually, pretending to be 
  unaware of what the limousine actually signifies. 
     When the window opens, she smiles but looks away. The following exchange takes 
  place in less than a minute. 
     “I haven’t seen you around here,” I say. 
  
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     “You just haven’t been looking,” she says, really cool. 
     “Would you like to see my apartment?” I ask, flipping the light on inside the back of the 
  limo so she can see my face, the tuxedo I’m wearing. She looks at the limousine, then at 
  me, then back at the limo. I reach into my gazelleskin wallet. 
     “I’m not supposed to,” she says, looking off into a pocket of darkness between two 
  buildings across the street, but when her eyes fall back on me she notices the hundred-
  dollar bill I’m holding out to her and without asking what I’m doing, without asking what it 
  is I really want of her, without even asking if I’m a cop, she takes the bill and then 
  I’m.allowed to rephrase my question. “Do you want to come up to my apartment or not?” 
  I ask this grinning. 
     “I’m not supposed to,” she says again, but after another glance at the black, long car 
  and at the bill she’s now putting into her hip pocket and at the bum, shuffling toward the 
  limousine, a cup jangling with coins held in a scabby outstretched arm, she manages to 
  answer, “But I can make an exception.” 
     “Do you take American Express?” I ask, switching the light off. 
     She’s still gazing out into that wall of darkness, as if looking for a sign from someone 
  invisible. She shifts her stare to meet mine and when I repeat “Do you take American 
  Express?” she looks at me like I’m crazy, but I smile pointlessly anyway while holding 
  the door open and tell her, “I’m joking. Come on, get in.” She nods to someone across 
  the street and I guide this girl into the back of the darkened limousine, slamming the 
  door, then locking it. 
     Back in my apartment, while Christie takes a bath (I don’t know her real name, I 
  haven’t asked, but I told her to respond only when I call her Christie) I dial the number 
  for Cabana Bi Escort Service and, using my gold American Express card, order a 
  woman, a blond, who services couples. I give the address twice and afterwards, again, 
  stress blond. The guy on the other end of the line, some old dago, assures me that 
  someone blond will be at my door within the hour. 
     After flossing and changing into a pair of silk Polo boxer shorts and a cotton Bill Blass 
  sleeveless T-shirt, I walk into the bathroom, where Christie lies on her back in the tub, 
  sipping white wine from a thin-stemmed Steuben wineglass. I sit on the tub’s marble 
  edge and pour Monique Van Frere herb-scented bath oil into it while inspecting the body 
  lying in the milky water. For a long time my mind races, becomes flooded with 
  impurities—her head is within my reach, is mine to crush; at this very moment my urge 
  to strike out, to insult and punish her, rises then subsides, and afterwards I’m able to 
  point out, “That’s a very fine chardonnay you’re drinking.” 
     After a long pause, my hand squeezing a small, childlike breast, I say, “I want you to 
  clean your vagina.” 
     She stares up at me with this seventeen-year-old’s gaze, then looks down at the 
  length of her body soaking in the tub. With the mildest of shrugs she places the glass on 
  the tub’s edge and moves a hand down to the sparse hair, also blond, below her flat 
  porcelain-smooth stomach, and then she spreads her legs slightly. 
     “No,” I say quietly. “From behind. Get on your knees.” 
     She shrugs again. 
     “I want to watch,” I explain. “You have a very nice body,” I say, urging her on. 
     She rolls over, kneeling on all fours, her ass raised up above the water, and I move to 
  the other edge of the tub to get a better view of her cunt, which she fingers with a soapy 
  hand. I move my hand above her moving wrist to her asshole, which I spread and with a 
  dab of the bath oil finger lightly. It contracts, she sighs. I remove the finger, then slide it 
  into her cunt, which hangs below it, both our fingers moving in, then out, then back into 
  her. She’s wet inside and using this wetness I move my index finger back up to her 
  asshole and slide it in easily, up to the knuckle. She gasps twice and pushes herself 
  back onto it, while still fingering her cunt. This goes on for a while until the doorman 
  rings, announcing that Sabrina has arrived. I tell Christie to get out of the tub and dry off, 
  to choose a robe—but not the Bijan—from the closet and meet me and our guest in the 
  living room for drinks. I move back to the kitchen, where I pour a glass of wine for 
  
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  Sabrina. 
     Sabrina, however, is not a blond. And standing in the doorway after my initial shock 
  subsides, I finally let her in. Her hair is brownish blond, not real blond, and though this 
  infuriates me I don’t say anything because she’s also very pretty; not as young as 
  Christie but not too used up either. In short, she looks like she’ll be worth whatever it is 
  I’m paying her by the hour. I calm down enough to become totally unangry when she 
  takes off her coat and reveals a hardbody dressed in tight black peg pants and a flower-
  print halter top, with black pointy-toed high-heeled shoes. Relieved, I lead her into the 
  living room and position her on the white down-filled sofa and, without asking if she 
  wants anything to drink, bring her a glass of white wine and a coaster to place it on from 
  the Mauna Kea Hotel in Hawaii. The Broadway cast recording of Les Misérables is 
  playing on CD from the stereo. When Christie comes in from the bathroom to join us, 
  wearing a Ralph Lauren terry-cloth robe, her blond hair slicked back, looking white now 
  because of the bath, I place her on the couch next to Sabrina—they nod hello—and 
  then I take a seat in the Nordian chrome and teakwood chair across from the couch. I 
  decide it’s probably best if we get to know each other before we adjourn to the bedroom 
  and so I break a long, not unpleasant silence by clearing my throat and asking a few 
  questions. 
     “So,” I start, crossing my legs. “Don’t you want to know what I do?” 
     The two of them stare at me for a long time. Fixed smiles locked on their faces, they 
  glance at each other before Christie, unsure, shrugs and quietly answers, “No.” 
     Sabrina smiles, takes this as a cue and agrees. “No, not really.” 
     I stare at the two of them for a minute before recrossing my legs and sighing, very 
  irritated: “Well, I work on Wall Street. At Pierce & Pierce.” 
     A long pause. 
     “Have you heard of it?” I ask. 
     Another long pause. Finally Sabrina breaks the silence. “Is it connected with Mays… 
  or Macy’s?” 
     I pause before asking, “Mays?” 
     She thinks about it for a minute then says, “Yeah. A shoe outlet? Isn’t P & P a shoe 
  store?” 
     I stare at her, hard. 
     Christie stands up, surprising me, and moves over to admire the stereo. “You have a 
  really nice place here… Paul,” and then, looking through the compact discs, hundreds 
  upon hundreds of them, stacked and lined up in a large white-oak shelf, all of them 
  alphabetically listed, “How much did you pay for it?” 
     I’m standing up to pour myself another glass of the Acacia. “Actually, none of your 
  business, Christie, but I can assure you it certainly wasn’t cheap.” 
     From the kitchen I notice Sabrina has taken a pack of cigarettes out of her handbag 
  and I walk back into the living room, shaking my head before she can light one. 
     “No, no smoking,” I tell her. “Not in here.” 
     She smiles, pauses slightly and with a little nod slips the cigarette back into its box. I’m 
  carrying a tray of chocolates with me and I offer one to Christie. 
     “Varda truffle?” 
     She stares blankly at the plate then politely shakes her head. I move over to Sabrina, 
  who smiles and takes one, and then, concerned, I notice her wineglass, which is still full. 
     “I don’t want you to get drunk,” I tell her. “But that’s a very fine chardonnay you’re not 
  drinking.” 
     I place the tray of trues on the glass-top Palazzetti coffee table and sit back in the 
  armchair, motioning for Christie to get back on the couch, which she does. We sit here 
  silently, listening to the Les Misérables CD. Sabrina chews on the truffle thoughtfully and 
  takes another. 
     I have to break the silence again myself. “So have either of you been abroad?” It hits 
  me almost immediately what the sentence sounds like, how it could be misinterpreted. “I 
  mean to Europe?” 
  
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     Both of them are looking at each other as if some secret signal is passing between 
  them, before Sabrina shakes her head and then Christie follows with the same head 
  movement. 
     The next question I ask, after another long silence, is, “Did either of you go to college, 
  and if so, where?” 
     The response to this question consists of a barely contained glare from each of them, 
  and so I decide to take this as an opportunity to lead them into the bedroom, where I 
  make Sabrina dance a little before taking off her clothes in front of Christie and me while 
  every halogen bulb in the bedroom burns. I have her put on a Christian Dior lace and 
  charmeuse teddy and then I take off all my clothes—except for a pair of Nike all-sport 
  sneakers—and Christie eventually takes off the Ralph Lauren robe and is buck naked 
  except for an Angela Cummings silk and latex scarf, which I knot carefully around her 
  neck, and suede gloves by Gloria Jose from Bergdorf Goodman that I bought on sale. 
     Now the three of us are on the futon. Christie is on all fours facing the headboard, her 
  ass raised high in the air, and I’m straddling her back as if I was riding a dog or 
  something, but backward, my knees resting on the mattress, my dick half hard, and I’m 
  facing Sabrina, who is staring into Christie’s spread-open ass with a determined 
  expression. Her smile seems tortured and she’s wetting her own lips by fingering herself 
  and tracing her glistening index finger across them, like she’s applying lip gloss. With 
  both my hands I keep Christie’s ass and cunt spread open and I urge Sabrina to move 
  in closer and sniff them. Sabrina is now face level at Christie’s ass and cunt, both of 
  which I’m fingering lightly. I motion for Sabrina to move her face in even closer until she 
  can smell my fingers which I push into her mouth and which she sucks on hungrily. With 
  my other hand I keep massaging Christie’s tight, wet pussy, which hangs heavy, soaked 
  below her spread, dilated asshole. 
     “Smell it,” I tell Sabrina and she moves in closer until she’s two inches, an inch, away 
  from Christie’s asshole. My dick is standing straight up now and I keep jerking myself off 
  to keep it that way. 
     “Lick her cunt first,” I tell Sabrina and with her own fingers she spreads it open and 
  starts lapping at it like a dog while massaging the clit and then she moves up to 
  Christie’s asshole which she laps at in the same way. Christie’s moans are urgent and 
  uncontrolled and she starts pushing her ass harder into Sabrina’s face, onto Sabrina’s 
  tongue, which Sabrina pushes slowly in and out of Christie’s asshole. While she does 
  this I watch, transfixed, and start rubbing Christie’s clit quickly until she’s humping onto 
  Sabrina’s face and shouts “I’m coming” and while pulling on her own nipples has a long, 
  sustained orgasm. And though she could be faking it I like the way it looks so I don’t 
  slap her or anything. 
     Tired of balancing myself, I fail off Christie and lie on my back, positioning Sabrina’s 
  face over my stiff, huge cock which I guide into her mouth with my hand, jerking it off 
  while she sucks on the head. I pull Christie toward me and while taking her gloves off 
  start kissing her hard on the mouth, licking inside it, pushing my tongue against hers, 
  past hers, as far down her throat as it will go. She fingers her cunt, which is so wet that 
  her upper thighs look like someone’s slathered something slick and oily all over them. I 
  push Christie down past my waist to help Sabrina suck my cock off and after the two of 
  them take turns licking the head and the shaft, Christie moves to my balls which are 
  aching and swollen, as large as two small plums, and she laps at them before placing 
  her mouth over the entire sac, alternately massaging and lightly sucking the balls, 
  separating them with her tongue. Christie moves her mouth back to the cock Sabrina’s 
  still sucking on and they start kissing each other, hard, on the mouth, right above the 
  head of my dick, drooling saliva onto it and jacking it off. Christie keeps masturbating 
  herself this entire time, working three fingers in her vagina, wetting her clit with her 
  juices, moaning. This turns me on enough to grab her by the waist and swivel her 
  around and position her cunt over my face, which she gladly sits on. Clean and pink and 
  wet and spread, her clit swollen, engorged with blood, her cunt hangs over my head and 
  I push my face into it, tonguing it, craving its flavor, while fingering her asshole. Sabrina 
  
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  is still working on my cock, jacking off the base of it, the rest of it filling her mouth, and 
  now she moves on top of me, her knees resting on either side of my chest, and I tear off 
  her teddy so that her ass and cunt are facing Christie, whose head I force down and 
  order to “lick them, suck on that clit” and she does. 
     It’s an awkward position for all of us, so this only goes on for maybe two or three 
  minutes, but during this short period Sabrina comes in Christie’s face, while Christie, 
  grinding her cunt hard against my mouth, comes all over mine and I have to steady her 
  thighs and grip them firmly so she won’t break my nose with her humping. I still haven’t 
  come and Sabrina’s doing nothing special to my cock so I pull it out of her mouth and 
  have her sit on it. My cock slides in almost too easily—her cunt is too wet, drenched with 
  her own cunt juice and Christie’s saliva, and there’s no friction—so I take the scarf from 
  around Christie’s neck and pull my cock out of Sabrina’s cunt and, spreading her open, 
  wipe her cunt and my cock off and then try to resume fucking her while I continue to eat 
  out Christie, who I bring to yet another climax within a matter of minutes. The two girls 
  are facing each other—Sabrina’s fucking my cock, Christie’s sitting on my face—and 
  Sabrina leans in to suck and finger Christie’s small, firm, full tits. Then Christie starts 
  French-kissing Sabrina hard on the mouth as I continue to eat her out, my mouth and 
  chin and jaw covered with her juices, which momentarily dry, then are replaced by 
  others. 
     I push Sabrina off my cock and lay her on her back, her head at the foot of the futon. 
  Then I lay Christie over her, placing the two in a sixty-nine position, with Christie’s ass 
  raised up in the air, and with a surprisingly small amount of Vaseline, after slipping on a 
  condom, finger her tight ass until it relaxes and loosens enough so I can ease my dick 
  into it while Sabrina eats Christie’s cunt out, fingering it, sucking on her swollen clit, 
  sometimes holding on to my balls and squeezing them lightly, teasing my asshole with a 
  moistened finger, and then Christie is leaning into Sabrina’s cunt and she’s roughly 
  spread her legs open as wide as possible and starts digging her tongue into Sabrina’s 
  cunt, but not for long because she’s interrupted by yet another orgasm and she lifts her 
  head up and looks back at me, her face slick with cunt juice, and she cries out “Fuck me 
  I’m coming oh god eat me I’m coming” and this spurs me on to start fucking her ass very 
  hard while Sabrina keeps eating the cunt that hangs over her face, which is covered 
  with Christie’s pussy juice. I pull my cock out of Christie’s ass and force Sabrina to suck 
  on it before I push it back into Christie’s spread cunt and after a couple of minutes of 
  fucking it I start coming and at the same time Sabrina lifts her mouth off my balls and 
  just before I explode into Christie’s cunt, she spreads my ass cheeks open and forces 
  her tongue up into my asshole which spasms around it and because of this my orgasm 
  prolongs itself and then Sabrina removes her tongue and starts moaning that she’s 
  coming too because after Christie finishes coming she resumes eating Sabrina’s cunt 
  and I watch, hunched over Christie, panting, as Sabrina lifts her hips repeatedly into 
  Christie’s face and then I have to lie back, spent but still hard, my cock, glistening, still 
  aching from the force of my ejaculation, and I close my eyes, my knees weak and 
  shaking. 
     I awaken only when one of them touches my wrist accidentally. My eyes open and I 
  warn them not to touch the Rolex, which I’ve kept on during this entire time. They lie 
  quietly on either side of me, sometimes touching my chest, once in a while running their 
  hands over the muscles in my abdomen. A half hour later I’m hard again. I stand up and 
  walk over to the armoire, where, next to the nail gun, rests a sharpened coat hanger, a 
  rusty butter knife, matches from the Gotham Bar and Grill and a half-smoked cigar; and 
  turning around, naked, my erection jutting out in front of me, I hold these items out and 
  explain in a hoarse whisper, “We’re not through yet…” An hour later I will impatiently 
  lead them to the door, both of them dressed and sobbing, bleeding but well paid. 
  Tomorrow Sabrina will have a limp. Christie will probably have a terrible black eye and 
  deep scratches across her buttocks caused by the coat hanger. Bloodstained Kleenex 
  will lie crumpled by the side of the bed along with an empty carton of Italian seasoning 
  salt I picked up at Dean & Deluca. 
  
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  Shopping 
     The colleagues I have to buy presents for include Victor Powell, Paul Owen, David 
  Van Patten, Craig McDermott, Luis Carruthers, Preston Nichols, Connolly O’Brien, Reed 
  Robison, Scott Montgomery, Ted Madison, Jeff Duvall, Boris Cunningham, Jamie 
  Conway, Hugh Turnball, Frederick Dibble, Todd Hamlin, Muldwyn Butner, Ricky 
  Hendricks and George Carpenter, and though I could have sent Jean to make these 
  purchases today, instead I asked her to sign, stamp and mail three hundred designer 
  Christmas cards with a Mark Kostabi print on them and then I wanted her to find out as 
  much as she could about the Fisher account that Paul Owen is handling. Right now I’m 
  moving down Madison Avenue, after spending close to an hour standing in a daze near 
  the bottom of the staircase at the Ralph Lauren store on Seventy-second, staring at 
  cashmere sweater vests, confused, hungry, and when I finally took hold of my bearings, 
  after failing to get the address of the blond hardbody who worked behind the counter 
  and who was coming on to me, I left the store yelling “Come all ye faithfull” Now I scowl 
  at a bum huddled in the doorway of a store called EarKarma and he’s clutching a sign 
  that reads HUNGRY AND HOMELESS… PLEASE HELP ME, GOD BLESS and then I 
  find myself moving down Fifth toward Saks, trying to remember if I switched the tapes in 
  my VCR, and suddenly I’m worried that I might be taping thirtysomething over Pamela’s 
  Tight Fuckhole. A Xanax fails to ward off the panic. Saks intensifies it. 
     …pens and photo albums, pairs of bookends and lightweight luggage, electric shoe 
  polishers and heated towel stands and silver-plated insulated carafes and portable 
  palm-sized color TVs with earphones, birdhouses and candleholders, place mats, picnic 
  hampers and ice buckets, lace-trimmed oversize linen napkins and umbrellas and 
  sterling silver monogrammed golf tees and charcoal-filter smoke trappers and desk 
  lamps and perfume bottles, jewelry boxes and sweaters and baskets to hold magazines 
  in and storage boxes, office tote bags, desk accessories, scarves, file holders, address 
  books, agendas for handbags… 
     My priorities before Christmas include the following: (1) to get an eight o’clock 
  reservation on a Friday night at Dorsia with Courtney, (2z) to get myself invited to the 
  Trump Christmas party aboard their yacht, (3) to find out as much as humanly possible 
  about Paul Owen’s mysterious Fisher account, (4) to saw a hardbody’s head off and 
  Federal Express it to Robin Barker—the dumb bastard—over at Salomon Brothers and 
  (5) to apologize to Evelyn without making it look like an apology. The Patty Winters 
  Show this morning was about women who married homosexuals and I almost called 
  Courtney up to warn her—as a joke—but then decided against it, deriving a certain 
  amount of satisfaction from imagining Luis Carruthers proposing to her, Courtney shyly 
  accepting, their nightmarish honeymoon. Scowling at another beggar shivering in the 
  misty drizzle at Fifty-seventh and Fifth, I walk up and squeeze his cheek affectionately, 
  then laugh out loud. “His eyes how they twinkled! His dimples how merry!” The Salvation 
  Army choir harmonizes badly on “Joy to the World.” I wave to someone who looks 
  exactly like Duncan McDonald, then duck into Bergdorf’s. 
     …paisley ties and crystal water pitchers, tumbler sets and office clocks that measure 
  temperature and humidity and barometric pressure, electric calling card address books 
  and margarita glasses, valet stands and sets of dessert plates, correspondence cards 
  and mirrors and shower clocks and aprons and sweaters and gym bags and bottles of 
  champagne and porcelain cachepots and monogrammed bath sheets and foreign-
  currency-exchange minicalculators and silver-plated address books and paperweights 
  with fish and boxes of fine stationery and bottle openers and compact discs and 
  customized tennis balls and pedometers and coffee mugs… 
     I check my Rolex while I’m buying scruffing lotion at the Clinique counter, still in 
  Bergdorf’s, to make sure I have enough time to shop some more before I have to meet 
  Tim Severt for drinks at the Princeton Club at seven. I worked out this morning for two 
  hours before the office and though I could have used this time for a massage (since my 
  muscles are sore from the exhausting exercise regimen I’m now on) or a facial, even 
  
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  though I had one yesterday, there are just too many cocktail parties in the upcoming 
  weeks that I have to attend and my presence at them will put a crimp in my shopping 
  schedule so it’s best if I get the shopping out of the way now. I run into Bradley Simpson 
  from P & P outside F.A.O. Schwarz and he’s wearing a glen-plaid worsted wool suit with 
  notched lapels by Perry Ellis, a cotton broadcloth shirt by Gitman Brothers, a silk tie by 
  Savoy, a chronograph with a crocodileskin band by Breil, a cotton raincoat by Paul 
  Smith and a fur felt hat by Paul Stuart. After he says, “Hey Davis,” I inexplicably start 
  listing the names of all eight reindeer, alphabetically, and when I’ve finished, he smiles 
  and says, “Listen, there’s a Christmas party at Nekenieh on the twentieth, see you 
  there?” I smile and assure him I’ll be at Nekenieh on the twentieth and as I walk off, 
  nodding to no one, I call back to him, “Hey asshole, I wanna watch youdie, motherfuck-
  aaahhh,” and then I start screaming like a banshee, moving across Fifty-eighth, banging 
  my Bottega Veneta briefcase against a wall. Another choir, on Lexington, sings “Hark 
  the Herald Angels” and I tap-dance, moaning, in front of them before I move like a 
  zombie toward Bloomingdale’s, where I rush over to the first tie rack I see and murmur 
  to the young faggot working behind the counter, “Too, too fabulous,” while fondling a silk 
  ascot. He flirts and asks if I’m a model. “I’ll see you in hell,” I tell him, and move on. 
     …vases and felt fedoras with feather headbands and alligator toiletry cases with gilt-
  silver bottles and brushes and shoehorns that cost two hundred dollars and candlesticks 
  and pillow covers and gloves and slippers and powder puffs and handknitted cotton 
  snowflake sweaters and leather skates and Porsche-design ski goggles and antique 
  apothecary bottles and diamond earrings and silk ties and boots and perfume bottles 
  and diamond earrings and boots and vodka glasses and card cases and cameras and 
  mahogany servers and scarves and aftershaves and photo albums and salt and pepper 
  shakers and ceramic-toaster cookie jars and two-hundred-dollar shoehorns and 
  backpacks and aluminum lunch pails and pillow covers… 
     Some kind of existential chasm opens before me while I’m browsing in Bloomingdale’s 
  and causes me to first locate a phone and check my messages, then, near tears, after 
  taking three Halcion (since my body has mutated and adapted to the drug it no longer 
  causes sleep—it just seems to ward off total madness), I head toward the Clinique 
  counter where with my platinum American Express card I buy six tubes of shaving 
  cream while flirting nervously with the girls who work there and I decide this emptiness 
  has, at least in part, some connection with the way I treated Evelyn at Barcadia the 
  other night, though there is always the possibility it could just as easily have somexhing 
  to do with the tracking device on my VCR, and while I make a mental note to put in an 
  appearance at Evelyn’s Christmas party—I’m even tempted to ask one of the Clinique 
  girls to escort me—I also remind myself to look through my VCR handbook and deal 
  with the tracking device problem. I see a ten-year-old girl standing by her mother, who is 
  buying a scarf, some jewelry, and I’m thinking: Not bad. I’m wearing a cashmere 
  topcoat, a double-breasted plaid wool and alpaca sport coat, pleated wool trousers, 
  patterned silk tie, all by Valentino Couture, and leather lace-ups by Allen-Edmonds. 
  Christmas Party 
     I’m having drinks with Charles Murphy at Rusty’s to fortify myself before making an 
  appearance at Evelyn’s Christmas party. I’m wearing a four-button double-breasted 
  wool and silk suit, a cotton shirt with a button-down collar by Valentino Couture, a 
  patterned silk tie by Armani and cap-toed leather slipons by Allen-Edmonds. Murphy is 
  wearing a six-button double-breasted wool gabardine suit by Courrèges, a striped cotton 
  shirt with a tab collar and a foulard-patterned silk-crepe tie, both by Hugo Boss. He’s on 
  a tirade about the Japanese—“They’ve bought the Empire State Building and Nell’s. 
  Nell’s, can you believe it, Bateman?” he exclaims over his second Absolut on the 
  rocks—and it moves something in me, it sets something off, and after leaving Rusty’s, 
  while wandering around the Upper West Side, I find myself crouched in the doorway of 
  what used to be Carly Simon’s, a very hot J. Akail restaurant that closed last fall, and 
  
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  leaping out at a passing Japanese delivery boy, I knock him off his bicycle and drag him 
  into the doorway, his legs tangled somehow in the Schwinn he was riding which works 
  to my advantage since when I slit his throat—easily, effortlessly—the spasmodic kicking 
  that usually accompanies this routine is blocked by the bike, which he still manages to 
  lift five, six times while he’s choking on his own hot blood. I open the cartons of 
  Japanese food and dump their contents over him, but to my surprise instead of sushi 
  and teriyaki and hand rolls and soba noodles, chicken with cashew nuts falls all over his 
  gasping bloodied face and beef chow mein and shrimp fried rice and moo shu pork 
  splatter onto his heaving chest, and this irritating setback—accidentally killing the wrong 
  type of Asian—moves me to check where this order was going—Sally Rubinstein—and 
  with my Mont Blanc pen to write I’m gonna get you too… bitch on the back of it, then 
  place the order over the dead kid’s face and shrug apologetically, mumbling “Uh, sorry” 
  and recall that The Patty Winters Show this morning was about Teenage Girls Who 
  Trade Sex for Crack I spent two hours at the gym today and can now complete two 
  hundred abdominal crunches in less than three minutes. Near Evelyn’s brownstone I 
  hand a freezing bum one of the fortune cookies I took from the delivery boy and he 
  stuffs it, fortune and all, into his mouth, nodding thanks. “Fucking slob,” I mutter loud 
  enough for him to hear. As I turn the corner and head for Evelyn’s, I notice the police 
  lines are still up around the brownstone where her neighbor Victoria Bell was 
  decapitated. Four limousines are parked in front, one still running. 
     I’m late. The living room and dining room are already crowded with people I don’t 
  really want to talk to. Tall, full blue spruces covered with white twinkling lights stand on 
  either side of the fireplace. Old Christmas songs from the sixties sung by the Ronettes 
  are on the CD player. A bartender in a tuxedo pours champagne and eggnog, mixes 
  Manhattans and martinis, opens bottles of Calera Jensen pinot noir and a Chappellet 
  chardonnay. Twenty-year-old ports line a makeshift bar between vases of poinsettias. A 
  long folding table has been covered with a red tablecloth and is jammed with pans and 
  plates and bowls of roasted hazelnuts and lobster and oyster bisques and celery root 
  soup with apples and Beluga caviar on toast points and creamed onions and roast 
  goose with chestnut stung and caviar in puff pastry and vegetable tarts with tapenade, 
  roast duck and roast rack of veal with shallots and gnocchi gratin and vegetable strudel 
  and Waldorf salad and scallops and bruschetta with mascarpone and white truffles and 
  green chili soufflé and roast partridge with sage, potatoes and onion and cranberry 
  sauce, mincemeat pies and chocolate truffles and lemon soufflé tarts and pecan tarte 
  Tatin. Candles have been lit everywhere, all of them in sterling silver Tiffany 
  candleholders. And though I cannot be positive that I’m not hallucinating, there seem to 
  be midgets dressed in green and red elf suits and felt hats walking around with trays of 
  appetizers. I pretend not to have noticed and head straight for the bar where I gulp down 
  a glass of not-bad champagne then move over to Donald Petersen, and as with most of 
  the men here, someone has tied paper antlers to his head. On the other side of the 
  room Maria and Darwin Hutton’s five-year-old daughter, Cassandra, is wearing a seven-
  hundred-dollar velvet dress and petticoat by Nancy Halser. After finishing a second 
  glass of champagne I move to martinis—Absolut doubles—and after I’ve calmed down 
  sufficiently I take a closer look around the room, but the midgets are still there. 
     “Too much red,” I mutter to myself, trancing out. “It’s makin’ me nervous.” 
     “Hey McCloy,” Petersen says. “What do you say?” 
     I snap out of it and automatically ask, “Is this the British cast recording of Les 
  Misérables or not?” 
     “Hey, have a holly jolly Christmas.” He points a finger at me, drunk. 
     “So what is this music?” I ask, thoroughly annoyed. “And by the way, sir, deck the 
  halls with boughs of holly.” 
     “Bill Septor,” he says, shrugging. “I think Septor or Skeptor.” 
     “Why doesn’t she put on some Talking Heads for Christ sakes,” I complain bitterly. 
     Courtney is standing on the other side of the room, holding a champagne glass and 
  ignoring me completely. 
  
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     “Or Les Miz,” he suggests. 
     “American or British cast recording?” My eyes narrowing, I’m testing him. 
     “Er, British,” he says as a dwarf hands us each a plate of Waldorf salad. 
     “Definitely,” I murmur, staring at the dwarf as he waddles away. 
     Suddenly Evelyn rushes up to us wearing a sable jacket and velvet pants by Ralph 
  Lauren and in one hand she’s holding a piece of mistletoe, which she places above my 
  head, and in the other a candy cane. 
     “Mistletoe alert!” she shrieks, kissing me dryly on the cheek. “Merry Xmas, Patrick. 
  Merry Xmas, Jimmy.” 
     “Merry… Xmas,” I say, unable to push her away since I’ve got a martini in one hand 
  and a Waldorf salad in the other. 
     “You’re late, honey,” she says. 
     “I’m not late,” I say, barely protesting. 
     “Oh yes you are,” she says in singsong. 
     “I’ve been here the entire time,” I say, dismissing her. “You just didn’t see me.” 
     “Oh, stop scowling. You’re such a Grinch.” She turns to Petersen. “Did you know 
  Patrick’s the Grinch?” 
     “Bah humbug,” I sigh, staring over at Courtney. 
     “Hell, we all know McCloy’s the Grinch,” Petersen bellows drunkenly. “How ya doin’, 
  Mr. Grinch?” 
     “And what does Mr. Grinch want for Christmas?” Evelyn asks in a baby’s voice. “Has 
  Mr. Grinchie been a good boy this year?” 
     I sigh. “The Grinch wants a Burberry raincoat, a Ralph Lauren cashmere sweater, a 
  new Rolex, a car stereo—” 
     Evelyn stops sucking on the candy cane to interrupt. “But you don’t have a car, 
  honey.” 
     “I want one anyway.” I sigh again. “The Grinch wants a car stereo anyway.” 
     “How’s the Waldorf salad?” Evelyn asks worriedly. “Do you think it tastes all right?” 
     “Delicious,” I murmur, craning my neck, spotting someone, suddenly impressed. “Hey, 
  you didn’t tell me Laurence Tisch was invited to this party.” 
     She turns around. “What are you talking about?” 
     “Why,” I ask, “is Laurence Tisch passing around a tray of canapes?” 
     “Oh god, Patrick, that’s not Laurence Tisch,” she says. “That’s one of the Christmas 
  elves.” 
     “One of the what? You mean the midgets.” 
     ‘They’re elves,” she stresses. “Santa’s helpers. God, what a sourpuss. Look at them. 
  They’re adorable. That one over there is Rudolph, the one passing out candy canes is 
  Blitzen. The other one is Donner—” 
     “Wait a minute, Evelyn, wait,” I say, closing my eyes, holding up the hand with the 
  Waldorf salad in it. I’m sweating, déjà vu, but why? Have I met these elves somewhere? 
  Forget about it. “I… those are the names of reindeer. Not elves. Blitzen was a reindeer.” 
     “The only Jewish one,” Petersen reminds us. 
     “Oh...” Evelyn seems bewildered by this information and she looks over at Petersen to 
  confirm this. “Is this true?” 
     He shrugs, thinks about it and looks confused. “Hey, baby—reindeer, elves, Grinches, 
  brokers… Hell, what’s the difference long as the Cristal flows, hey?” He chuckles, 
  nudging me in the ribs. “Ain’t that right, Mr. Grinch?” 
     “Don’t you think it’s Christmasy?” she asks hopefully. 
     “Oh yes, Evelyn,” I tell her. “It’s very Christmasy and I’m truthful, not lying.” 
     “But Mr. Sourpuss was late,” she pouts, shaking that damn piece of mistletoe at me 
  accusingly. “And not a word about the Waldorf salad.” 
     “You know, Evelyn, there were a lot of other Xmas parties in this metropolis that I 
  could have attended tonight yet I chose yours. Why? you might ask. Why? I asked 
  myself. I didn’t come up with a feasible answer, yet I’m here, so be, you know, grateful, 
  babe,” I say. 
  
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     “Oh, so this is my Christmas present?” she asks, sarcastic. “How sweet, Patrick, how 
  thoughtful.” 
     “No, this is.” I give her a noodle I just noticed was stuck on my shirt cuff. “Here.” 
     “Oh Patrick, I’m going to cry,” she says, dangling the noodle up to candlelight. “It’s 
  gorgeous. Can I put it on now?” 
     “No. Feed it to one of the elves. That one over there looks pretty hungry. Excuse me 
  but I need another drink.” 
     I hand Evelyn the plate of Waldorf salad and tweak one of Petersen’s antlers and 
  head toward the bar humming “Silent Night,” vaguely depressed by what most of the 
  women are wearing—pullover cashmere sweaters, blazers, long wool skirts, corduroy 
  dresses, turtlenecks. Cold weather. No hardbodies. 
     Paul Owen is standing near the bar holding a champagne flute, studying his antique 
  silver pocket watch (from Harnmahcher Schlemmer, no doubt), and I’m about to walk 
  over and mention something about that damned Fisher account when Humphrey 
  Rhinebeck bumps into me trying to avoid stepping on one of the elves and he’s still 
  wearing a cashmere chesterfield overcoat by Crombie from Lord & Taylor, a peak-
  lapeled double-breasted wool tuxedo, a cotton shirt by Perry Ellis, a bow tie from Hugo 
  Boss and paper antlers in a way that suggests he’s completely unaware, and as if by 
  rote the twerp says, “Hey Bateman, last week I brought a new herringbone tweed jacket 
  to my tailor for alterations.” 
     “Well, uh, congratulations seem in order,” I say, shaking his hand. “That’s… nifty.” 
     “Thanks.” He blushes, looking down. “Anyway, he noticed that the retailer had 
  removed the original label and replaced it with one of his own. Now what I want to know 
  is, is this legal?” 
     “It’s confusing, I know,” I say, still moving through the crowd. “Once a line of clothing 
  has been purchased from its manufacturer, it’s perfectly legal for the retailer to replace 
  the original label with his own. However, it’s not legal to replace it with another retailer’s 
  label.” 
     “But wait, why is that?” he asks, trying to sip from his martini glass while attempting to 
  follow me. 
     “Because details regarding fiber content and country of origin or the manufacturer’s 
  registration number must remain intact. Label tampering is very hard to detect and rarely 
  reported,” I shout over my shoulder. Courtney is kissing Paul Owen on the cheek, their 
  hands already firmly clasped. I stiffen up and stop walking. Rhinebeck bumps into me. 
  But she moves on, waving to someone across the room. 
     “So what’s the best solution?” Rhinebeck calls out behind me. 
     “Shop for familiar labels from retailers you know and take those fucking antlers off 
  your head, Rhinebeck. You look like a retard. Excuse me.” I walk off but not before 
  Humphrey reaches up and feels the headpiece. “Oh my god.” 
     “Owen!” I exclaim, merrily holding out a hand, the other hand grabbing a martini off a 
  passing elf tray. 
     “Marcus! Merry Christmas,” Owen says, shaking my hand. “How’ve you been? 
  Workaholic, I suppose.” 
     “Haven’t seen you in a while,” I say, then wink. “Workaholic, huh?” 
     “Well, we just got back from the Knickerbocker Club,” he says and then greets 
  someone who bumps into him—“Hey Kinsley”—then back to me. “We’re going to Nell’s. 
  Limo’s out front.” 
     “We should have lunch,” I say, trying to figure out a way to bring up the Fisher account 
  without being tacky about it. 
     “Yes, that would be great,” he says. “Maybe you could bring..” 
     “Cecelia?” I guess. 
     “Yes. Cecelia,” he says. 
     “Oh, Cecelia would… adore it,” I say. 
     “Well, let’s do it.” He smiles. 
     “Yes. We could go to… Le Bernardin,” I say, then after pausing, “for some… seafood 
  
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  perhaps? Hmmm?” 
     “Le Bernardin is in Zagat’s top ten this year.” He nods. “You know that?” 
     “We could have some…” I pause again, staring at him, then more deliberately, “fish 
  there. No?” 
     “Sea urchins,” Owen says, scanning the room. “Meredith loves the sea urchins there.” 
     “Oh does she?” I ask, nodding. 
     “Meredith,” he calls out, motioning for someone behind me. “Come here.” 
     “She’s here?” I ask. 
     “She’s talking to Cecilia over there,” he says. “Meredith,” he calls out, waving. I turn 
  around. Meredith and Evelyn make their way over to us. 
     I whirl around back to Owen. 
     Meredith walks over with Evelyn. Meredith is wearing a beaded wool gabardine dress 
  and bolero by Geoffrey Beene from Barney’s, diamond and gold earrings by James 
  Savitt ($13,000), gloves by Geoffrey Beene for Portolano products, and she says, “Yes 
  boys? What are you two talking about? Making up Christmas lists?” 
     “The sea urchins at Le Bernardin, darling,” Owen says. 
     “My fav orite topic.” Meredith drapes an arm over my shoulder, while she confides to 
  me as an aside, ‘“They’re fabulous.” 
     “Delectable.” I cough nervously. 
     “What does everyone think of the Waldorf salad?” Evelyn asks. “Did you like it?” 
     “Cecelia, darling, I haven’t tried it yet,” Owen says, recognizing someone across the 
  room. “But I’d like to know why Laurence Tisch is serving the eggnog.” 
     “That’s not Laurence Tisch,” Evelyn whines, genuinely upset. “That’s a Christmas elf. 
  Patrick, what did you tell him?” 
     “Nothing,” I say. “Cecelia!” 
     “Besides, Patrick, you’re the Grinch.” 
     At the mentions of my name I immediately start blabbering, hoping that Owen didn’t 
  notice. “Well, Cecelia, I told him I thought it was a, you know, a mixture of the two, like 
  a…” I stop, briefly look at them before lamely spitting out, “a Christmas Tisch.” Then, 
  nervously, I lift a sprig of parsley off a slice of pheasant pâté that a passing elf is 
  carrying, and hold it over Evelyn’s head before she can say anything. “Mistletoe alert!” I 
  shout, and people around us are suddenly ducking, and then I kiss her on the lips while 
  looking at Owen and Meredith, both of them staring at me strangely, and out of the 
  corner of my eye I catch Courtney, who is talking to Rhinebeck, gazing at me hatefully, 
  outraged. 
     “Oh Patrick—” Evelyn starts. 
     “Cecelia! Come here at once.” I pull her arm, then tell Owen and Meredith, “Excuse 
  us. We have to talk to that elf and get this all straightened out.” 
     “I’m so sorry,” she says to the two of them, shrugging helplessly as I drag her away. 
  “Pat rick, what is going on?” 
     I maneuver her into the kitchen. 
     “Patrick?” she asks. “What are we doing in the kitchen?” 
     “Listen,” I tell her; grabbing her shoulders, facing her. “Let’s get out of here.” 
     “Oh Patrick,” she sighs. “I can’t just leave. Aren’t you having a good time?” 
     “Why can’t you leave?” I ask. “Is it so unreasonable? You’ve been here long enough.” 
     “Patrick, this is my Christmas party,” she says. “Besides, the elves are going to sing ‘O 
  Tannenbaum’ any minute now.” 
     “Come on, Evelyn. Let’s just get out of here.” I’m on the verge of hysteria, panicked 
  that Paul Owen or, worse, Marcus Halberstam is going to walk into the kitchen. “I want 
  to take you away from all this.” 
     “From all what?” she asks, then her eyes narrow. “You didn’t like the Waldorf salad, 
  did you?” 
     “I want to take you away from this,” I say, motioning around the kitchen, spastic. “From 
  sushi and elves and… stuff.” 
     An elf walks into the kitchen, setting down a tray of dirty plates, and past him, over 
  
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  him, I can see Paul Owen leaning into Meredith, who’s shouting something into his ear 
  over the din of Christmas music, and he scans the room looking for someone, nodding, 
  then Courtney walks into view and I grab Evelyn, bringing her even closer to me. 
     “Sushi? Elves? Patrick you’re confusing me,” Evelyn says. “And I don’t appreciate it.” 
     “Let’s go.” I’m squeezing her roughly, pulling her toward the back door. “Let’s be 
  daring for once. For just once in your life, Evelyn, be daring.” 
     She stops, refusing to be pulled along, and then she starts smiling, considering my 
  offer but only slightly won over. 
     “Come on…” I start whining. “Let this be my Christmas present.” 
     “Oh ho, I was already at Brooks Brothers and—” she starts. 
     “Stop it. Come on, I want this,” I say and then in a last, desperate attempt I smile 
  flirtatiously, kissing her lightly on the lips, and add, “Mrs. Batsman?” 
     “Oh Patrick,” she sighs, melting. “But what about cleanup?” 
     “The midgets’ll do it,” I assure her. 
     “But someone has to oversee it, honey.” 
     “So choose an elf. Make that one over there the elf overseer,” I say. “But let’s go, 
  now.” I start pulling her toward the back door of the brownstone, her shoes squeaking as 
  they slide across the Muscoli marble tile. 
     And then we’re out the door, rushing down the alley adjacent to the brownstone, and I 
  stop and peer around the corner to see if anyone we know is leaving or entering the 
  party. We make a run for a limousine I think is Owen’s, but I don’t want to make Evelyn 
  suspicious so I simply walk up to the closest one, open the door and push her in. 
     “Pat rick,” she squeals, pleased. “This is so naughty. And a limo—” I close the door on 
  her and walk around the car and knock on the driver’s window. The driver unrolls it. 
     “Hi,” I say, holding out a hand. “Pat Bateman.” 
     The driver just stares, an unlit cigar clenched in his mouth, first at my outstretched 
  hand; then at my face, then at the top of my head. 
     “Pat Bateman,” I repeat. “What, ah, what is it?” 
     He keeps looking at me. Tentatively I touch my hair to see if it’s messed up or out of 
  place and to my shock and surprise I feel two pairs of paper antlers. There are four 
  antlers on my fucking head. I mutter, “Oh Jesus, whoa!” and tear them off, staring at 
  them crumpled in my hands, horrified. I throw them on the ground, then turn back to the 
  driver. 
     “So. Pat Bateman,” I say, smoothing my hair back into place. 
     “Uh, yeah? Sid.” He shrugs. 
     “Listen, Sid. Mr. Owen says we can take this car, so…” I stop, my breath steaming in 
  the frozen air. 
     “Who’s Mr. Owen?” Sid asks. 
     “Paul Owen. You know,” I say. “Your customer.” 
     “No. This is Mr. Barker’s limo,” he says. “Nice antlers though.” 
     “Shit,” I say, running around the limo to get Evelyn out of there before something bad 
  happens, but it’s too late. The second I open the door, Evelyn sticks her head out and 
  squeals, “Patrick, darling, I love it. Champagne ”—she holds up a bottle of Cristal in one 
  hand and a gold box in the other—“and truffles too.” 
     I grab her arm and yank her out, mumbling by way of an explanation, under my 
  breath, “Wrong limo, take the truffles,” and we head over to the next limousine. I open 
  the door and guide Evelyn in, then move around to the front and knock on the driver’s 
  window. He unrolls it. He looks exactly like the other driver. 
     “Hi. Pat Batsman, “ I say, holding out my hand. 
     “Yeah? Hi. Donald Trump. My wife Ivana’s in the back,” he says sarcastically, taking it. 
     “Hey, watch it,” I warn. “Listen, Mr. Owen says we can take his car. I’m… oh damn. I 
  mean I’m Marcus.” 
     “You just said your name was Pat.” 
     “No. I was wrong,” I say sternly, staring directly at him. “I was wrong about my name 
  being Pat. My name is Marcus. Marcus Halberstam.” 
  
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     “Now you’re sure of this, right?” he asks. 
     “Listen, Mr. Owen said I can take his car for the night, so…” I stop. “You know, let’s 
  just get on with it.” 
     “I think I should talk to Mr. Owen first,” the driver says, amused, toying with me. 
     “No, wait!” I say, then calming down, “Listen, I’m… it’s fine, really.” I start chuckling to 
  myself. “Mr. Owen is in a very, very bad mood.” 
     “I’m not supposed to do this,” the driver says without looking up at me. “It’s totally 
  illegal. No way. Give it up.” 
     “Oh come on, man,” I say. 
     “It’s totally against company regulations,” he says. 
     “Fuck company regulations,” I bark out at him. 
     “Fuck company regulations?” he asks, nodding, smiling. 
     “Mr. Owen says it’s okay,” I say. “Maybe you’re not listening.” 
     “Nope. No can do.” He shakes his head 
     I pause, stand up straight, run a hand over my face, breathe in and then lean back 
  down. “Listen to me…” I breathe in again. “They’ve got midgets in there.” I point with a 
  thumb back at the brownstone. “Midgets who are about to sing ‘O Tannenbaum’…” I 
  look at him imploringly, begging for sympathy, at the same time looking appropriately 
  frightened. “Do you know how scarythat is? Elves”—I gulp—“harmonizing?” I pause, 
  then quickly ask, “Think about it.” 
     “Listen, mister—” 
     “Marcus,” I remind him. 
     “Marcus. Whatever. I’m not gonna break the rules. I can’t do anything about it. It’s 
  company rules. I’m not gonna break ‘em.” 
     We both lapse into silence. I sigh, look around, considering dragging Evelyn to the 
  third limo, or maybe back to Barker’s limo—he’s a real asshole—but no, goddamnit, I 
  want Owen’s. Meanwhile the driver sighs to himself, “If the midgets want to sing, let 
  them sing.” 
     “Shit,” I curse, taking out my gazelleskin wallet. “Here’s a hundred.” I hand him two 
  fifties. 
     “Two hundred,” he says. 
     ‘“This city sucks,” I mutter, handing the money over. 
     “Where do you want to go?” he asks, taking the bills with a sigh, as he starts the 
  limousine. 
     “Club Chernoble,” I say, rushing to the back and opening the door. 
     “Yes sir,” he shouts. 
     I hop in, shutting the door just as the driver peels away from Evelyn’s brownstone 
  toward Riverside Drive. Evelyn’s sitting next to me while I’m catching my breath, wiping 
  cold sweat off my brow with an Armani handkerchief. When I look over at her, she’s on 
  the verge of tears, her lips trembling, silent for once. 
     “You’re startling me. What happened?” I am alarmed. “What… what did I do? The 
  Waldorf salad was good. What else?” 
     “Oh Patrick,” she sighs. “It’s… lovely. I don’t know what to say.” 
     “Well…” I pause carefully. “I don’t… either.” 
     ‘This,” she says, presenting me with a diamond necklace from Tiffany’s, Meredith’s 
  present from Owen. “Well, help me put it on, darling. You’re not the Grinch, honey.” 
     “Uh, Evelyn,” I say, then curse under my breath as she turns her back toward me so I 
  can clasp it around her neck. The limousine lurches forward and she falls against me, 
  laughing. then kisses my cheek. “It’s lovely, oh I love it… Oops, must have true breath. 
  Sorry, honey. Find me some champagne and pour me a glass.” 
     “But…” I stare helplessly at the glittering necklace. “That’s not it.” 
     “What?” Evelyn asks, looking around the limo. “Are there glasses in here? What’s not 
  it, honey?” 
     ‘“That’s not it.” I’m speaking in monotone. 
     “Oh, honey.” She smiles. “You have something else for me?” 
  
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     “No, I mean—” 
     “Come on, you devil,” she says, playfully grabbing at my coat pocket. “Come on, what 
  is it?” 
     “What is what?” I ask calmly, annoyed. 
     “You’ve got something else. Let me guess. A ring to match?” she guesses. “A 
  matching bracelet? A brooch? So that’s itl” She claps her hands. “It’s a matching 
  brooch.” 
     While I’m trying to push her away from me, holding one of her arms back, the other 
  snakes behind me and grabs something out of my pocket—another fortune cookie I 
  lifted from the dead Chinese boy. She stares at it, puzzled for a moment, and says, 
  “Patrick, you’re so… romantic,” and then, studying the fortune cookie and with less 
  enthusiasm, “so… original.” 
     I’m also staring at the fortune cookie. It’s got a lot of blood on it and I shrug and say, 
  as jovially as I can, “Oh, you know me.” 
     “But what’s on it?” She holds it up close to her face, peering at it. “What’s this… red 
  stuff?” 
     “That’s…” I peer also, pretending to be intrigued by the stains, then I grimace. “That’s 
  sweet ‘n’ sour sauce.” 
     She cracks it open excitedly, then studies the fortune, confused. 
     “What does it say?” I sigh, fooling around with the radio then scanning the limo for 
  Owen’s briefcase, wondering where the champagne could possibly be, the open box 
  from Tiffany’s, empty, empty on the floor, suddenly, overwhelmingly, depressing me. 
     “It says…” She pauses then squints at it closely, rereading it. “It says, The fresh grilled 
  joie gras at Le Cirque is excellent but the lobster salad is only so-so.” 
     “That’s nice,” I murmur, looking for champagne glasses, tapes, anything. 
     “It really says this, Patrick.” She hands me the fortune, a slight smile creeping up on 
  her face that I can make out even in the darkness of the limo. “What could it possibly 
  mean?” she asks slyly. 
     I take it from her, read it, then look at Evelyn, then back at the fortune, then out the 
  tinted window, at snow flurries swirling around lampposts, around people waiting for 
  buses, beggars staggering directionless down city streets, and I say out loud to myself, 
  “My luck could be worse. It really could.” 
     “Oh honey,” she says, throwing her arms around me, hugging my head. “Lunch at Le 
  Cirque? You’re the best. You’re not the Grinch. I take it back. Thursday? Is Thursday 
  good for you? Oh no. I can’t do it Thursday. Herbal wrap. But how’s Friday? And do we 
  really want to go to La Cirque? How about—” 
     I push her off me and knock on the divider, rapping my knuckles against it loudly until 
  the driver lowers it. “Sid, I mean Earle, whoever, this isn’t the way to Chernoble.” 
     “Yes it is, Mr. Bateman—” 
     “Hey!” 
     “I mean Mr. Halberstam. Avenue C, right?” He coughs politely. 
     “I suppose,” I say, staring out the window. “I don’t recognize anything. 
     “Avenue C?” Evelyn looks up from marveling at the necklace Paul Owen bought 
  Meredith. “What’s Avenue C? C as in… Cartier, I take it?” 
     “It’s hip,” I assure her. “It’s totally hip.” 
     “Have you been there?” she asks. 
     “Millions of times,” I mutter. 
     “Chernoble? No, not Chernoble, “ she whines. “Honey, it’s Christmas.” 
     “What in the hell does that mean?” I ask. 
     “Limo driver, oh limo driver…” Evelyn leans forward, balancing herself on my knees. 
  “Limo driver, we’re going to the Rainbow Room. Driver, to the Rainbow Room, please.” 
     I push her back and lean forward. “Ignore her. Chernoble. ASAP.” I press the button 
  and the divider goes back up. 
     “Oh Patrick. It’s Christmas,” she whines. 
     “You keep saying that as if it means something,” I say, staring right at her. 
  
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     “But it’s Christmas,” she whines again. 
     “I can’t stand the Rainbow Room,” I say, adamant. 
     “Oh why not, Patrick?” she whines. “They have the best Waldorf salad in town at the 
  Rainbow Room. Did you like mine? Did you like my Waldorf salad, honey?” 
     “Oh my god,” I whisper, covering my face with both heads. 
     “Honestly. Did you?” she asks. “The only thing I really worried about was that and the 
  chestnut stuffing…” She pauses. “Well, because the chestnut stuffing was… well, gross, 
  you know—” 
     “I don’t want to go to the Rainbow Room,” I interrupt, my hands still covering my face, 
  “because I can’t score drugs there.” 
     “Oh…” She looks me over, disapprovingly. “Tsk, tsk, tsk. Drugs, Patrick? What kind of, 
  ahem, drugs are we talking about?” 
     “Drugs, Evelyn. Cocaine. Drugs. I want to do some cocaine tonight. Do you 
  understand?” I sit up and glare at her. 
     “Patrick,” she says, shaking her head, as if she’s lost faith in me. 
     “I can see you’re confused,” I point out. 
     “I just don’t want any part of it,” she says. 
     “You don’t have to do any of it,” I tell her. “Maybe you’re not even invited to do any of 
  it.” 
     “I just don’t understand why you have to ruin this time of year for me,” she says. 
     “Think of it as… frost. As Christmas frost. As expensive Christmas frost,” I say, 
     “Well…,” she says, lighting up. “It’s kind of exciting to slum, isn’t it?” 
     “Thirty bucks at the door apiece is not exactly slumming, Evelyn.” Then I ask, 
  suspiciously, “Why wasn’t Donald Trump invited to your party?” 
     “Not Donald Trump again, ” Evelyn moans. “Oh god. Is that why you were acting like 
  such a buffoon? This obsession has got to end!” she practically shouts. “That’s why you 
  were acting like such an ass!” 
     “It was the Waldorf salad, Evelyn,” I say, teeth clenched. “It was the Waldorf salad that 
  was making me act like an ass!” 
     “Oh my god. You mean it, too!” She throws her head back in despair. “I knew it, I knew 
  it.” 
     “But you didn’t even make it!” I scream. “It was catered!” 
     “Oh god,” she wails. “I can’t believe it.” 
     The limousine pulls up in front of Club Chernoble, where a crowd ten deep waits 
  standing outside the ropes in the snow. Evelyn and I get out, and using Evelyn, much to 
  her chagrin, as a blocker, I push my way through the crowd and luckily spot someone 
  who looks exactly like Jonathan Leatherdale, about to be let in, and really shoving 
  Evelyn, who’s still holding on to her Christmas present, I call out to him, “Jonathan, hey 
  Leatherdale,” and suddenly, predictably, the whole crowd starts shouting, “Jonathan, 
  hey Jonathan.” He spots me as he turns around and calls out, “Hey Baxter!” and winks, 
  giving me the thumbs-up sign, but it’s not to me, it’s to someone else. Evelyn and I 
  pretend we’re with his party anyway. The doorman closes the ropes on us, asks, “You 
  two come in that limo?” He looks over at the curb and motions with his head. 
     “Yes.” Evelyn and I both nod eagerly. 
     “You’re in,” he says, lifting the ropes. 
     We walk in and I lay out sixty dollars; not a single drink ticket. The club is predictably 
  dark except for the flashing strobe lights, and even with them, all I can really see is dry 
  ice pumping out of a fog machine and one hardbody dancing to INXS’s “New 
  Sensation,” which blasts out of speakers at a pitch that vibrates the body. I tell Evelyn to 
  go to the bar and get us two glasses of champagne. “Oh of course,” she shouts back, 
  heading tentatively toward one thin white strip of neon, the only light illuminating what 
  might be a place where alcohol is served. In the meantime I score a gram from 
  someone who looks like Mike Donaldson, and after debating for ten minutes while 
  checking out this hardbody whether I should ditch Evelyn or not, she comes up with two 
  flutes half full of champagne, indignant, sad-faced. “It’s Korbel,” she shouts. “Let’s 
  
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  leave.” I shake my head negative and shout back, “Let’s go to the rest rooms.” She 
  follows. 
     The one bathroom at Chernoble is unisex. Two other couples are already there, one of 
  them in the only stall. The other couple is, like us, impatiently waiting for the stall to 
  empty. The girl is wearing a silk jersey halter top, a silk chiffon skirt and silk sling-backs, 
  all by Ralph Lauren. Her boyfriend is wearing a suit tailored by, I think, William 
  Fioravanti or Vincent Nicolosi or Scali—some wop. Both are holding champagne 
  glasses: his, full; hers, empty. It’s quiet except for the sniffling and muted laughter 
  coming from the stall, and the bathroom’s door is thick enough to block out the music 
  except for the deep thumping drumbeat. The guy taps his foot expectantly. The girl 
  keeps sighing and tossing her hair over her shoulder in these strangely enticing jerky 
  head movements; then she looks over at Evelyn and me and whispers something to her 
  boyfriend. Finally, after she whispers something to him again, he nods and they leave. 
     “Thank god,” I whisper, fingering the gram in my pocket; then, to Evelyn, “Why are you 
  so quiet?” 
     “The Waldorf salad,” she murmurs, not looking at me. “Damnit.” 
     There’s a click, the door to the stall opens and a young couple—the guy wearing a 
  double-breasted wool cavalry twill suit, cotton shirt and silk tie, all by Givenchy, the girl 
  wearing a silk taffeta dress with ostrich hem by Geoffrey Beene, vermeil earrings by 
  Stephen Dweck Moderne and Chanel grosgrain dance shoes—walks out, discreetly 
  wiping each other’s noses, staring at themselves in the mirror before leaving the rest 
  room, and just as Evelyn and I are about to walk into the stall they’ve vacated, the first 
  couple rushes back in and attempts to overtake it. 
     “Excuse me,” I say, my arm outstretched, blocking the entrance. “You left. It’s, uh, our 
  turn, you know?” 
     “Uh, no, I don’t think so,” the guy says mildly. 
     “Patrick,” Evelyn whispers behind me. “Let them… you know.” 
     “Wait. No. It’s our turn,” I say. 
     “Yeah, but we were waiting first.” 
     “Listen, I don’t want to start a fight—” 
     “But you are,” the girlfriend says, bored yet still managing a sneer. 
     “Oh my,” Evelyn murmurs behind me, looking over my shoulder. 
     “Listen, we should just do it here,” the girl, who I wouldn’t mind fucking, spits out. 
     “What a bitch,” I murmur, shaking my head. 
     “Listen,” the guy says, relenting. “While we’re arguing about this, one of us could be in 
  there.” 
     “Yeah,” I say. “Us. ” 
     “Oh Christ,” the girl says, hands on hips, then to Evelyn and me, “I can’t believe who 
  they’re letting in now.” 
     “You are a bitch,” I murmur, disbelieving. “Your attitude sucks, you know that?” 
     Evelyn gasps and squeezes my shoulder. “Pat rick.” 
     The guy has already started snorting his coke, spooning the powder out of a brown 
  vial, inhaling then laughing after each hit, leaning against the door. 
     “Your girlfriend’s a total bitch,” I tell the guy. 
     “Patrick,” Evelyn says. “Stop it.” 
     “She’s a bitch,” I say, pointing at her. 
     “Patrick, apologize,” Evelyn says. 
     The guy goes into hysterics, his head thrown back, sniffing in loudly, then he doubles 
  up and tries to catch his breath. 
     “Oh my god,” Evelyn says, appalled. “Why are you laughing? Defend her.” 
     “Why?” the guy asks, then shrugs, both nostrils ringed with white powder. “He’s right.” 
     “I’m leaving, Daniel,” the girl says, near tears. “I can’t handle this. I can’t handle you. I 
  can’t handle them. I warned you at Bice.” 
     “Go ahead,” the guy says. “Go. Just do it. Take a hike. I don’t care.” 
     “Patrick, what have you started?” Evelyn asks, backing away from me. “This is 
  
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  unacceptable,” and then, looking up at the fluorescent bulbs, “And so is this lighting. I’m 
  leaving.” But she stands there, waiting. 
     “I’m leaving, Daniel,” the girl says. “Did you hear me?” 
     “Go ahead. Forget it,” Daniel says, staring at his nose in the mirror, waving her away. 
  “I said take a hike.” 
     “I’m using the stall,” I tell the room. “Is this okay? Does anybody mind?” 
     “Aren’t you going to defend your girlfriend?” Evelyn asks Daniel. 
     “Jesus, what do you want me to do?” He looks at her in the mirror, wiping his nose, 
  sniffing again. “I bought her dinner. I introduced her to Richard Marx. Jesus Christ, what 
  else does she want?” 
     “Beat the shit out of him?” the girl suggests, pointing at me. 
     “Oh honey,” I say, shaking my head, “the things I could do to you with a coat hanger.” 
     “Goodbye, Daniel,” she says, pausing dramatically. “I’m out of here.” 
     “Good,” Daniel says, holding up the vial. “More for moi.” 
     “And don’t try calling me,” she screams, opening the door. “My answering machine is 
  on tonight and I’m screening all calls!” 
     “Patrick,” Evelyn says, still composed, prim. “I’ll be outside.” 
     I wait a moment, staring at her from inside the stall, then at the girl standing in the 
  doorway. “Yeah, so?” 
     “Patrick,” Evelyn says, “don’t say something you’ll regret.” 
     “Just go,” I say. “Just leave. Take the limo.” 
     “Patrick—” 
     “Leave,” I roar. “The Grinch says leave!” 
     I slam the door of the stall and start shoveling the coke from the envelope into my 
  nose with my platinum AmEx. In between my gasps I hear Evelyn leave, sobbing to the 
  girl, “He made me walk out of my own Christmas party, can you believe it? My 
  Christmas party?” And I hear the girl sneer “Get a life” and I start laughing raucously, 
  banging my head against the side of the stall, and then I hear the guy do a couple more 
  hits, then he splits, and after finishing most of the gram I peek out from over the stall to 
  see if Evelyn’s still hanging around, pouting, chewing her lower lip sorrowfully—oh boo 
  hoo hoo, baby—but she hasn’t come back, and then I get an image of Evelyn and 
  Daniel’s girlfriend on a bed somewhere with the girl spreading Evelyn’s legs, Evelyn on 
  all fours, licking her asshole, fingering her cunt, and this makes me dizzy and I head out 
  of the rest room into the club, horny and desperate, lusting for contact. 
     But it’s later now and the crowd has changed—it’s now filled with more punk rockers, 
  blacks, fewer Wall Street guys, more bored rich girls from Avenue A lounging around, 
  and the music has changed; instead of Belinda Carlisle singing “I Feel Free” it’s some 
  black guy rapping, if I’m hearing this correctly, something called “Her Shit on His Dick” 
  and I sidle up to a couple of hardbody rich girls, both of them wearing skanky Betsey 
  Johnson-type dresses, and I’m wired beyond belief and I start off with a line like “Cool 
  music—haven’t I seen you at Salomon Brothers?” and one of them, one of these girls, 
  sneers and says, “Go back to Wall Street,” and the one with the nose ring says, 
  “Fucking yuppie.” 
     And they say this even though my suit looks black in the darkness of the club and my 
  tie—paisley, Armani, silk—is loosened. 
     “Hey.” I say, grinding my teeth. “You may think I’m a really disgusting yuppie but I’m 
  not, really,” I tell them, swallowing rapidly, wired out of my head. 
     Two black guys are sitting with them at the table. Both sport faded jeans, T-shirts, and 
  leather jackets. One has reflector sunglasses on, the other has a shaved head. Both are 
  glaring at me. I stick out my hand at a crooked angle, trying to mimic a rapper. “Hey,” I 
  say. “I’m fresh. The freshest, y’know… like, uh, def… the deffest.” I take a sip of 
  champagne. “You know… def.” 
     To prove this I spot a black guy with dreadlocks and I walk up to him and exclaim 
  “Rasta Man!” and hold out my hand, anticipating a high-five. But the nigger just stands 
  there. 
  
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     “I mean”—I cough—“Mon,” and then, with less enthusiasm, “We be, uh, jamming..” 
     He brushes past me, shaking his head. I look back at the girls. They shake their 
  heads—a warning to me not to come back over. I turn my gaze to a hardbody who’s 
  dancing by herself next to a column, then I finish my champagne and walk up to her, 
  asking for a phone number. She smiles. Exit. 
  Nell’s 
     Midnight. I’m sitting in a booth at Nell’s with Craig McDermott and Alex Taylor—who 
  has just passed out—and three models from Elite: Libby, Daisy and Caron. It’s nearing 
  summer, mid-May, but the club is air-conditioned and cool, the music from the light jazz 
  band drifts through the half-empty room, ceiling fans are whirring, a crowd twenty deep 
  waits outside in the rain, a surging mass. Libby is blond and wearing black grosgrain 
  high-heeled evening shoes with exaggeratedly pointed toes and red satin bows by Yves 
  Saint Laurent. Daisy is blonder and wearing black satin tapered-toe pumps set off by 
  splattered-silver sheer black stockings by Betsey Johnson. Caron is platinum blond and 
  wearing stack-heeled leather boots with a pointed patent-leather toe and wool tweed 
  turned-over calf by Karl Lagerfeld for Chanel. All three of them have on skimpy black 
  wool-knit dresses by Giorgio di Sant’Angelo and are drinking champagne with cranberry 
  juice and peach schnapps and smoking German cigarettes—but I don’t complain, even 
  though I think it would be in Nell’s best interest if a nonsmoking section was initiated. 
  Two of them are wearing Giorgio Armani sunglasses. Libby has jet lag. Of the three, 
  Daisy is the only one I even remotely want to fuck. Earlier in the day after a meeting with 
  my lawyer about some bogus rape charges, I had an anxiety attack in Dean & Deluca 
  which I worked off at Xclusive. Then I met the models for drinks at the Trump Plaza. 
  This was followed by a French movie that I completely did not understand, but it was 
  fairly chic anyway, then dinner at a sushi restaurant called Vivids near Lincoln Center 
  and a party at one of the models’ ex-boyfriend’s loft in Chelsea, where bad, fruity 
  sangria was served. Last night I had dreams that were lit like pornography and in them I 
  fucked girls made of cardboard. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about 
  Aerobic Exercise. 
     I’m wearing a two-button wool suit with pleated trousers by Luciano Soprani, a cotton 
  shirt by Brooks Brothers and a silk tie by Armani. McDermott’s got on this wool suit by 
  Lubiam with a linen pocket square by Ashear Bros., a Ralph Lauren cotton shirt and a 
  silk tie by Christian Dior and he’s about to toss a coin to see which one of us is going 
  downstairs to fetch the Bolivian Marching Powder since neither one of us wants to sit 
  here in the booth with the girls because though we probably want to fuck them, we don’t 
  want to, in fact can’t, we’ve found out, talk to them, not even condescendingly—they 
  simply have nothing to say and, I mean, I know we shouldn’t be surprised by this but still 
  it’s somewhat disorienting. Taylor is sitting up but his eyes are closed, his mouth slightly 
  open, and though McDermott and I originally thought he was protesting the girls’ lack of 
  verbal skills by pretending to be asleep, it dawns on us that perhaps he’s authentically 
  shitfaced (he’s been near incoherent since the three sakes, he downed at Vivids), but 
  none of the girls pay any attention, except maybe Libby since she’s sitting next to him, 
  but it’s doubtful, very doubtful. 
     “Heads, heads, heads,” I mutter under my breath. 
     McDermott flips the quarter. 
     “Tails, tails, tails,” he chants, then he slaps his hand over the coin after it lands on his 
  napkin. 
     “Heads, heads, heads,” I hiss, praying. 
     He lifts his palm. “It’s tails,” he says, looking at me. 
     I stare at the quarter for a long time before asking, “Do it again.” 
     “So long,” he says, looking over at the girls before getting up, then he glances at me, 
  rolls his eyes, gives his head a curt shake. “Listen,” he reminds me. “I want another 
  martini. Absolut. Double. No olive.” 
  
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     “Hurry,” I call after him, then under my breath, watching as he waves gaily from the top 
  of the stairs, “Fucking moron.” 
     I turn back to the booth. Behind us, a table of Eurotrash hardbodies that suspiciously 
  resemble Brazilian transvestites shriek in unison. Let’s see… Saturday night I’m going to 
  a Mets game with Jeff Harding and Leonard Davis. I’m renting Rambo movies on 
  Sunday. The new Lifecycle will be delivered on Monday… I stare at the three models for 
  an agonizing amount of time, minutes, before saying anything, noticing that someone 
  has ordered a plate of papaya slices and someone else a plate of asparagus, though 
  both remain untouched. Daisy carefully looks me over, then aims her mouth in my 
  direction and blows smoke toward my head, exhaling, and it floats over my hair, missing 
  my eyes, which are protected anyway by the Oliver Peoples nonprescription redwood-
  framed glasses I’ve been wearing most of the night. Another one, Libby, the bimbo with 
  jet lag, is trying to figure out how to unfold her napkin. My frustration level is surprisingly 
  low, because things could be worse. After all, these could be English girls. We could be 
  drinking... tea. 
     “So!” I say, clapping my hands together, trying to seem alert. “It was hot out today. 
  No?” 
     “Where did Greg go?” Libby asks, noticing McDermott’s absence. 
     “Well, Gorbachev is downstairs,” I tell her. “McDermott, Greg, is going to sign a peace 
  treaty with him, between the United States and Russia.” I pause, trying to gauge her 
  reaction, before adding, “McDermott’s the one behind glasnost, you know.” 
     “Well… yeah,” she says, her voice impossibly toneless, nodding. “But he told me he 
  was in mergers and… aquasessions.” 
     I’m looking over at Taylor, who’s still sleeping. I snap one of his suspenders but 
  there’s no reaction, no movement, then I turn back to Libby. “You’re not confused, are 
  you?” 
     “No,” she says, shrugging. “Not really.” 
     “Gorbachev’s not downstairs,” Caron says suddenly. 
     “Are you lying?” Daisy asks, smiling. 
     I’m thinking: Oh boy. Yes. Caron’s right. Gorbachev’s not downstairs. He’s at Tunnel. 
  Excuse me. Waitress?” I grab at a passing hardbody who’s wearing a Bill Blass navy 
  lace gown with a silk organza ruffle. “I’ll have a J&B on the rocks and a butcher knife or 
  something sharp from the kitchen. Girls?” 
     None of them say anything. The waitress is staring at Taylor. I look over at him, then 
  back at the hardbody waitress, then back at Taylor. “Bring him the, um, grapefruit sorbet 
  and, oh, let’s say, a Scotch, okay?” 
     The waitress just stares at him. 
     “Ahem, honey?” I wave my hand in front of her face. “J&B? On the rocks?” I tell her, 
  enunciating over the jazz band, who are in the middle of a fine rendition of “Take Five.” 
     She finally nods. 
     “And bring them”—I gesture toward the girls—“whatever it was they’re drinking. Ginger 
  ale? Wine cooler?” 
     “No,” Libby says. “It’s champagne.” She points, then says to Caron, “Right?” 
     “I guess.” Caron shrugs. 
     “With peach schnapps,” Daisy reminds her. 
     “Champagne,” I repeat, to the waitress. “With, uh-huh, peach schnapps. Catch that?” 
     Waitress nods, writes something down, leaves, and I’m checking out her ass as she 
  walks away, then I look back at the three of them, studying each one very carefully for 
  any signs, a flicker of betrayal that would cross their faces, the one gesture that would 
  give away this robot act, but it’s fairly dark in Nell’s and my hope—that this is the case—
  is just wishful thinking and so I clap my hands together again and breathe in. “So! It was 
  really hot out today. Right?” 
     “I need a new fur,” Libby sighs, staring into her champagne 
     “Full length or ankle length?” Daisy asks in the same tonelow voice. 
     “A stole?” Caron suggests. 
  
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     “Either a full length or…” Libby stops and thinks hard for a minute. “I saw this short, 
  cuddly wrap…” 
     “But mink, right?” Daisy asks. “Definitely mink?” 
     “Oh yeah. Mink,” Libby says. 
     “Hey Taylor,” I whisper, nudging him. “Wake up. They’re talking. You’ve gotta see 
  this.” 
     “But which kind?” Caron’s on a roll. 
     “Don’t you find some minks are too…fluffy?” Daisy asks. 
     “Some minks are too fluffy.” Libby this time. 
     “Silver fox is very popular,” Daisy murmurs. 
     “Beige tones are also increasingly popular,” Libby says. 
     “Which ones are those?” someone asks. 
     “Lynx. Chinchilla. Ermine. Beaver—” 
     “Hello?” Taylor wakes up, blinking. “I’m here.” 
     “Go back to sleep, Taylor,” I sigh. 
     “Where’s Mr. McDermott?” he asks, stretching. 
     “Wandering around downstairs. Looking for coke.” I shrug. “Silver fox is very popular,” 
  one of them says. 
     “Raccoon. Fitch. Squirrel. Muskrat. Mongolian lamb.” 
     “Am I dreaming,” Taylor asks me, “or… am I really hearing an actual conversation?” 
     “Well, I suppose what passes for one.” I wince. “Shhh. Listen. It’s inspiring.” 
     At the sushi restaurant tonight McDermott, in a state of total frustration, asked the girls 
  if they knew the names of any of the nine planets. Libby and Caron guessed the moon. 
  Daisy wasn’t sure but she actually guessed… Comet. Daisy thought that Comet was a 
  planet. Dumbfounded, McDermott, Taylor and I all assured her that it was. 
     “Well, it’s easy to find a good fur now,” Daisy says slowly. “Since more ready-to-wear 
  designers have now entered the fur field, the range increases because each designer 
  selects different pelts to give his collection an individual character.” 
     “It’s all so scary,” Caron says, shivering. 
     “Don’t be intimidated,” Daisy says. “Fur is only an accessory. Don’t be intimidated by 
  it.” 
     “But a luxurious accessory,” Libby points out. 
     I ask the table, “Has anyone ever played around with a TEC nine-millimeter Uzi? It’s a 
  gun. No? They’re particularly useful because this model has a threaded barrel for 
  attaching silencers and barrel extensions.” I say this nodding. 
     “Furs shouldn’t be intimidating.” Taylor looks over at me and blankly says, “I’m 
  gradually uncovering some startling information here.” 
     “But a luxurious accessory,” Libby points out again. 
     The waitress reappears, setting the drinks down along with a bowl of grapefruit sorbet. 
  Taylor looks at it and says, blinking, “I didn’t order this.” 
     “Yes you did,” I tell him. “In your sleep you ordered this. You ordered this in your 
  sleep.” 
     “No I didn’t,” he says, unsure. 
     “I’ll eat it,” I say. “Jjust listen.” I’m tapping my fingers against the table loudly. 
     “Karl Lagerfeld hands down,” Libby’s saying. 
     “Why?” Caron. 
     “He created the Fendi collection, of course,” Daisy says, lighting a cigarette. 
     “I like the Mongolian lamb mixed with mole or”—Caron stops to giggle—“this black 
  leather jacket lined with Persian lamb.” 
     “What do you think of Geoffrey Beene?” Daisy asks her. 
     Caron ponders this. “The white satin collars… iffy.” 
     “But he does mar velous things with Tibetan lambs,” Libby says. 
     “Carolina Herrera?” Caron asks. 
     “No, no, too fluffy,” Daisy says, shaking her head 
     “Too schoolgirl,” Libby agrees. 
  
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     “James Galanos has the most wonderful Russian lynx bellies, though,” Daisy says. 
     “And don’t forget Arnold Scaasi. The white ermine,” Libby says. “To die for.” 
     “Really?” I smile and lift my lips into a depraved grin. “To die for?” 
     “To die for,” Libby says again, affirmative about something for the first time all night. 
     “I think you’d look adorable in, oh, a Geoffrey Beene, Taylor,” I whine in a high, faggy 
  voice, flopping a limp wrist on his shoulder, but he’s sleeping again so it doesn’t matter. I 
  remove the hand with a sigh. 
     “That’s Miles…” Caron peers over at some aging gorilla in the next booth with a 
  graying crew cut and an eleven-year-old bimbo balanced on his lap. 
     Libby turns around to make sure. “But I thought he was filming that Vietnam movie in 
  Philadelphia.” 
     “No. The Philippines,” Caron says. “It wasn’t in Philadelphia.” 
     “Oh yeah,” Libby says, then, “Are you sure?” 
     “Yeah. In fact it’s over,” Caron says in a tone that’s completely undecided. She blinks. 
  “In fact it’s… out.” She blinks again. “In fact I think it came out… last year.” 
     The two of them are looking over at the next booth disinterestedly, but when they turn 
  back to our table, their eyes falling on the sleeping Taylor, Caron turns to Libby and 
  sighs. “Should we go over and say hello?” 
     Libby nods slowly, her features quizzical in the candlelight, and stands up. “Excuse 
  us.” They leave. Daisy stays, sips Caron’s champagne. I imagine her naked, murdered, 
  maggots burrowing, feasting on her stomach, tits blackened by cigarette burns, Libby 
  eating this corpse out, then I clear my throat. “So it was really hot out today, wasn’t it?” 
     “It was,” she agrees. 
     “Ask me a question,” I tell her, feeling suddenly, well, spontaneous. 
     She inhales on the cigarette, then blows out. “So what do you do?” 
     “What do you think I do?” And frisky too. 
     “A model?” She shrugs. “An actor?” 
     “No,” I say. “Flattering, but no.” 
     “Well?” 
     “I’m into, oh, murders and executions mostly. It depends.” I shrug. 
     “Do you like it?” she asks, unfazed. 
     “Um… It depends. Why?” I take a bite of sorbet. 
     “Well, most guys I know who work in mergers and acquisitions don’t really like it,” she 
  says. 
     ‘That’s not what I said,” I say, adding a forced smile, finishing my J&B. “Oh, forget it.” 
     “Ask me a question,” she says. 
     “Okay. Where do you…” I stop for a moment, stuck, then, “summer?” 
     “Maine,” she says. “Ask me something else.” 
     “Where do you work out?” 
     “Private trainer,” she says. “How about you?” 
     “Xclusive,” I say. “On the Upper West Side.” 
     “Really?” She smiles, then notices someone behind me, but her expression doesn’t 
  change, and her voice remains fiat. “Francesca. Oh my god. It’s Francesca. Look.” 
     “Daisy! And Patrick, you devil!” Francesca screeches. “Daisy, what in god’s name are 
  you doing with a stud like Batman?” She overtakes the booth, sliding in with this bored 
  blond girl I don’t recognize. Francesca is wearing a velvet dress by Saint Laurent Rive 
  Gauche and the girl I don’t recognize is wearing a wool dress by Geoffrey Beene. Both 
  are wearing pearls. 
     “Hello, Francesca,” I say. 
     “Daisy, oh my god, Ben and Jerry’s here. I love Ben and Jerry,” I think is what she 
  says, all in a breathless rush, shouting over the light din—actually, drowning out the light 
  din—of the jazz band. “Don’t you love Ben and Jerry?” she asks, her eyes wide, and 
  then she rasps out to a passing waitress, “Orange juice! I need orange juice! Jesus 
  fucking Christ the help here has got to go. Where’s Nell? I’ll tell her,” she mutters, 
  looking around the room, then turns to Daisy. “How’s my face? Bateman, Ben and Jerry 
  
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  are here. Don’t sit there like an idiot. Oh god I’m kidding. I adore Patrick but come on, 
  Batman, look lively, you stud, Ben and Jerry are here.” She winks lasciviously then wets 
  both lips with her tongue. Francesca writes for Vanity Fair. 
     “But I already…” I stop and look down at my sorbet, troubled. “I already ordered this 
  grapefruit sorbet.” Gloomily I point at the dish, confused. “I don’t want any ice cream.” 
     “For Christ sakes, Bateman, Jagger is here. Mick. Jerry. You know,” Francesca says, 
  talking to the booth but constantly scanning the room. Daisy’s expression hasn’t 
  changed once all evening. “What a y-u-p-p-i-e,” she spells to the blond girl, then 
  Francesca’s eyes land on my sorbet. I pull it toward me protectively. 
     “Oh yeah,” I say. “‘Just another night, just another night with you…’” I sing, sort of. “I 
  know who he is.” 
     “You look thin, Daisy, you’re making me sick. Anyway, this is Alison Poole, who is also 
  too thin and makes me sick,” Francesca says, lightly slapping my hands covering the 
  sorbet, pulling the dish back toward her. “And this is Daisy Milton and Patrick—” 
     “We’ve met,” Alison says, glaring at me. 
     “Hi, Alison. Pat Bateman,” I say, holding out my hand. 
     “We’ve met,” she says again, glaring harder. 
     “Uh… we have?” I ask. 
     Francesca screams, “God, look at that profile of Bateman’s. Totally Roman. And those 
  lashes!” she shrieks. 
     Daisy smiles approvingly. I play it cool, ignoring them. 
     I recognize Alison as a girl I did last spring while at the Kentucky Derby with Evelyn 
  and her parents. I remember she screamed when I tried to push my entire arm, gloved 
  and slathered with Vaseline, toothpaste, anything I could find, up into her vagina. She 
  was drunk, wasted on coke, and I had tied her up with wire, slapped duct tape all over 
  her mouth, her face, her breasts. Francesca has given me head before. I don’t 
  remember the place, or when, but she’s given me head and liked it. I suddenly 
  remember, painfully, that I would have liked to see Alison bleed to death that afternoon 
  last spring but something stopped me. She was so high—“oh my god,” she kept 
  moaning during those hours, blood bubbling out of her nose—she never wept. Maybe 
  that was the problem; maybe that was what saved her. I won a lot of money that 
  weekend on a horse called Indecent Exposure. 
     “Well… Hi.” I smile weakly but soon regain my confidence. Alison would never have 
  told anyone that story. Not a soul could’ve possibly heard about that lovely, horrible 
  afternoon. I grin at her in the darkness of Nell’s. “Yeah, I remember you. You were a 
  real…” I pause, then growl, “manhandler.” 
     She says nothing, just looks at me like I’m the opposite of civilization or something. 
     “Jesus. Is Taylor sleeping or just dead?” Francesca asks while gobbling up what’s left 
  of my sorbet. “Oh my God, did anyone read Page Six today? I was in it, so was Daisy. 
  And Taffy too.” 
     Alison gets up without looking over at me. “I’m going to find Skip downstairs and 
  dance.” She walks away. 
     McDermott comes back and gives Alison, who’s squeezing past him, the once-over 
  before taking the seat next to mine. 
     “Any luck?” I ask. 
     “No dice,” he says, wiping his nose. He lifts my drink to his face and sniffs it, then 
  takes a sip and lights one of Daisy’s cigarettes. He looks back at me while lighting it and 
  introduces himself to Francesca before looking back at me. “Don’t look so, you know, 
  astounded, Bateman. It hap pens.” 
     I pause, staring at him, before asking, “Are you, uh, like, shitting me, McDermott?” 
     “No,” he says. “No luck.” 
     I pause again, then look down at my lap and sigh. “Look, McDermott, I’ve pulled this 
  act before. I know what you’re doing.” 
     “I fucked her.” He sniffs again, pointing at some girl in one of the booths up front. 
  McDermott’s sweating profusely and reeks of Xeryus. 
  
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     “You did? Wow. Now listen to me,” I say, then notice something out of the corner of 
  my eye. “Francesca… ” 
     “What?” She looks up, a dribble of sorbet running down her chin. 
     “You’re eating my sorbet?” I point at the dish. 
     She swallows, glaring at me. “Lighten up, Bateman. What do you want from me, you 
  gorgeous stud? An AIDS test? Oh my god, speaking of which, that guy over there, 
  Krafft? Yep. No loss.” 
     The guy Francesca pointed out is sitting in a booth near the stage where the jazz band 
  plays. His hair is slicked back over a very boyish face and he’s wearing a suit with 
  pleated trousers and a silk shirt with light gray polka dots by Comme des Garçons 
  Homme and sipping a martini and it’s not difficult to imagine him in someone’s bedroom 
  tonight, lying, probably to the girl he’s sitting with: blonde, big tits, wearing a metal-
  studded dress by Giorgio di Sant’Angelo. 
     “Should we tell her?” someone asks. 
     “Oh no,” Daisy says. “Don’t. She looks like a real bitch.” 
     “Listen to me, McDermott.” I lean in toward him. “You have drugs. I can see it in your 
  eyes. Not to mention that fucking sniffing.” 
     “Nope. Negatif. Not tonight, honey.” He wags his head. 
     Applause for the jazz band—the whole table claps, even Taylor, whom Francesca has 
  inadvertently woken up, and I turn away from McDermott, heavily pissed, and bring my 
  hands together like everyone else. Caron and Libby walk upto the table and Libby says, 
  “Caron’s got to go to Atlanta tomorrow.Vogue shoot. We have to leave.” Someone gets 
  the check and McDermott puts it on his gold AmEx card, which conclusively proves that 
  he’s high on coke since he’s a famous tight-wad. 
     Outside it’s muggy and there’s a faint drizzle, almost like a mist, lightning but no 
  thunder. I trail McDermott, hoping to confront him, almost bumping into someone in a 
  wheelchair who I remember rolling up to the ropes when we first arrived and the guy’s 
  still sitting there, wheels moving up then backing away, up then back on the pavement, 
  totally ignored by the doormen. 
     “McDermott,” I call. “What are you doing? Give me your drugs.” 
     He turns, facing me, and breaks into this weird jig, twirling around, then just as 
  abruptly he stops and walks over to a black woman and child who are sitting in the 
  doorway of the closed deli next to Nell’s and predictably she’s begging for food, a 
  predictable cardboard sign at her feet. It’s hard to tell if the kid, six or seven, is black or 
  not, even if it’s really hers, since the light outside Nells is too bright, really unflattering, 
  and tends to make everyone’s skin look the same yellowish, washed-out color. 
     “What are they doing?” I.ibby says, staring, transfixed. “Don’t they know they need to 
  stand closer to the ropes?” 
     “Libby, come on,” Caron says, pulling her toward two taxis at the curb. 
     “McDermott?” I ask. “What in the hell are you doing?” 
     McDermott’s eyes are glazed over and he’s waving a dollar bill in front of the woman’s 
  face and she starts sobbing, pathetically trying to grab at it, but of course, typically, he 
  doesn’t give it to her. Instead he ignites the bill with matches from Canal Bar and relights 
  the half-smoked cigar clenched between his straight white teeth—probably caps, the 
  jerk. 
     “How… gentrifying of you, McDermott,” I tell him. 
     Daisy is leaning against a white Mercedes parked next to the curb. Another Mercedes, 
  this one a limo, black, is double-parked next to the white one. There’s more lightning. An 
  ambulance screams down Fourteenth Street. McDermott walks by Daisy and kisses her 
  hand before hopping in the second cab. 
     I’m left standing in front of the crying black woman, Daisy staring. 
     “Jesus,” I mutter, then, “Here…” I hand the black woman a book of matches from 
  Lutèce before realizing the mistake, then find a book of matches from Tavern on the 
  Green and toss them at the kid and pluck the other matchbook from her dirty, scabbed 
  fingers. 
  
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     “Jesus,” I mutter again, walking over to Daisy. 
     “There are no more cabs,” she says, hands on hips. Another flash of lightning causes 
  her to jerk her head around, whining, “Where’s the photo graphers? Who’s taking the pic 
  tures?” 
     “Taxi!” I whistle, trying to wave down a passing cab. 
     Another bolt of lighting rips across the sky above Zeckendorf Towers and Daisy 
  squeals, “Where is the photographer? Patrick. Tell them to stop.” She’s confused, her 
  head moving left, right, behind, left, right She lowers her sunglasses. 
     “Oh my god,” I mutter, my voice building to a shout. “It’s light ning. Not a 
  photographer. Lightning!” 
     “Oh right, I’m supposed to believe you. You said Gorbachev was downstairs,” she 
  says accusingly. “I don’t believe you. I think the press is here.” 
     “Jesus, here’s a cab. Hey, taxi.” I whistle at an oncoming cab that has just turned off 
  Eighth Avenue, but someone taps my shoulder and when I turn around, Bethany, a girl I 
  dated at Harvard and who I was subsequently dumped by, is standing in front of me 
  wearing a lace-embroidered sweater and viscose-crepe trousers by Christian Lacroix, 
  an open white umbrella in one hand. The cab I was trying to hail whizzes by. 
     “Bethany,” I say, stunned. 
     “Patrick.” She smiles. 
     “Bethany,” I say again. 
     “How are you, Patrick?” she asks. 
     “Um, well, um, I’m fine,” I stutter, after an awkward byte of silence. “And you?” 
     “Really well, thanks,” she says. 
     “You know… well, were you in there?” I ask. 
     “Yeah, I was.” She nods, then, “It’s good to see you.” 
     “Are you… living here?” I ask, gulping. “In Manhattan?” 
     “Yes.” She smiles. “I’m working at Milbank Tweed.” 
     “Oh, well… great.” I look back over at Daisy and I’m suddenly angry, remembering the 
  lunch in Cambridge, at Quarters, where Bethany, her arm in a sling, a faint bruise above 
  her cheek, ended it all, then, just as suddenly, I’m thinking: My hair, oh god, my hair, 
  and I can feel the drizzle ruining it. “Well, I gotta go.” 
     “You’re at P & P, right?” she asks, then, “You look great.” Spotting another cab 
  approaching, I back away. “Yeah, well, you know.” 
     “Let’s have lunch,” she calls out. 
     “What could be more fun?” I say, unsure. The cab has noticed Daisy and stopped. 
     “I’ll call you,” she says. 
     “Whatever,” I say. 
     Some black guy has opened the cab door for Daisy and she steps in daintily and the 
  black guy holds it open for me too while I get in, waving, nodding to Bethany. “A tip, 
  mister,” the black guy asks, “from you and the pretty lady?” 
     “Yeah,” I growl, trying to check my hair in the cabdriver’s rearview mirror. “Here’s a tip: 
  get a real job, you dumb fucking nigger.” Then I slam the door myself and tell the 
  cabdriver to take us to the Upper West Side. 
     “Didn’t you think it was interesting in that movie tonight how they were spies but they 
  weren’t spies?” Daisy asks. 
     “And you can drop her off in Harlem,” I tell the driver. 
     I’m in my bathroom, shirtless in front of the Orobwener mirror, debating whether to 
  take a shower and wash my hair since it looks shitty due to the rain. Tentatively I 
  smooth some mousse into it then run a comb over the mousse. Daisy sits in the Louis 
  Montoni brass and chrome chair by the futon, spooning Macadamia Brittle Häagen-Dazs 
  ice cream into her mouth. She is wearing only a lace bra and a garter belt from 
  Bloomingdale’s. 
     “You know,” she calls out, “my ex-boyfriend Fiddler, at the party earlier tonight, he 
  couldn’t understand what I was doing there with a yuppie.” 
     I’m not really listening, but while staring at my hair, I manage, “Oh. Really?” 
  
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     “He said…” She laughs. “He said you gave him bad vibes.” 
     I sigh, then make a muscle. “That’s… too bad.” 
     She shrugs and offhandedly admits. “He used to do a lot of cocaine. He used to beat 
  me up.” 
     I suddenly start paying attention, until she says, “But he never touched my face.” 
     I walk into the bedroom and start undressing. 
     “You think I’m dumb, don’t you?” she asks, staring at me, her legs, tan and 
  aerobicized, slung over one of the chair’s arms. 
     “What?” I slip my shoes off, then bend down to pick them up. 
     “You think I’m dumb,” she says. “You think all models are dumb.” 
     “No,” I say, trying to contain my laughter. “I really don’t.” 
     “You do,” she insists. “I can tell.” 
     “I think you are...” I stand there, my voice trailing off. 
     “Yes?” She’s grinning, waiting. 
     “I think you are totally brilliant and incredibly… brilliant,” I say in monotone. 
     “That’s nice.” She smiles serenely, licking the spoon “You have, well, a tender quality 
  about you.” 
     “Thanks.” I take my pants off and fold them neatly, hanging them along with the shirt 
  and tie over a black steel Philippe Stark clothes hanger. “You know, the other day I 
  caught my maid stealing a piece of bran toast from my wastebasket in the kitchen.” 
     Daisy takes this in, then asks, “Why?” 
     I pause, staring at her flat, well-defined stomach. Her torso is completely tan and 
  muscular. So is mine. “Because she said she was hungry.” 
     Daisy sighs and licks the spoon thoughtfully. 
     “You think my hair looks okay?” I’m still standing there, in just my Calvin Klein jockey 
  shorts, hard-on bulging, and a fifty-dollar pair of Armani socks. 
     “Yeah.” She shrugs. “Sure.” 
     I sit on the edge of the futon and peel off the socks. 
     “I beat up a girl today who was asking people on the street for money.” I pause, then 
  measure each of the following words carefully. “She was young and seemed frightened 
  and had a sign that explained she was lost in New York and had a child, though I didn’t 
  see it. And she needed money, for food or something. For a bus ticket to Iowa. Iowa. I 
  think it was Iowa and…” I stop for a moment, balling the socks up, then unballing them. 
     Daisy stares at me blankly for a minute, before asking, “And then?” 
     I pause, distracted, and then stand up. Before walking into the bathroom I mutter, “And 
  then? I beat the living shit out of her.” I open the medicine cabinet for a condom and, as 
  I re-enter the bedroom, say, “She had misspelled disabled. I mean, that’s not the reason 
  I did what I did but… you know.” I shrug. “She was too ugly to rape.” 
     Daisy stands up, placing the spoon next to the Häagen-Dazs carton on the Gilbert 
  Rhode-designed nightstand. 
     I point. “No. Put it in the carton.” 
     “Oh, sorry,” she says. 
     She admires a Palazzetti vase while I slip on the condom. I get on top of her and we 
  have sex and lying beneath me she is only a shape, even with all the halogen lamps 
  burning. Later, we are lying on opposite sides of the bed. I touch her shoulder. 
     “I think you should go home,” I say. 
     She opens her eyes, scratches her neck. 
     “I think I might… hurt you,” I tell her. “I don’t think I can control myself.” 
     She looks over at me and shrugs. “Okay. Sure,” then she starts to get dressed. “I don’t 
  want to get too involved anyway,” she says. 
     “I think something bad is going to happen,” I tell her. 
     She pulls her panties on, then checks her hair in the Nabolwev mirror and nods. “I 
  understand.” 
     After she’s dressed and minutes of pure, hard silence have passed, I say, not 
  unhopefully, “You don’t want to get hurt, do you?” 
  
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     She buttons up the top of her dress and sighs, without looking over at me. “That’s why 
  I’m leaving.” 
     I say, “I think I’m losing it.” 
  Paul Owen 
     I screened calls all morning long in my apartment, taking none of them, glaring tiredly 
  at a cordless phone while sipping cup after cup of decaf herbal tea. Afterwards I went to 
  the gym, where I worked out for two hours; then I had lunch at the Health Bar and could 
  barely eat half of an endive-with-carrot-dressing salad I ordered. I stopped at Barney’s 
  on my way back from an abandoned loft building I had rented a unit in somewhere 
  around Hell’s Kitchen. I had a facial. I played squash with Brewster Whipple at the Yale 
  Club and from there made reservations for eight o’clock under the name Marcus 
  Halberstam at Texarkana, where I’m going to meet Paul Owen for dinner. I choose 
  Texarkana because I know that a lot of people I have dealings with are not going to be 
  eating there tonight. Plus I’m in the mood for their chili-wrapped pork and one or two 
  Dixie beers. It’s June and I’m wearing a two-button linen suit, a cotton shirt, a silk tie and 
  leather wing-tips, all by Armani. Outside Texarkana a cheerful black bum motions for 
  me, explaining that he’s Bob Hope’s younger brother, No Hope. He holds out a 
  Styrofoam coffee cup. I think this is funny so I give him a quarter. I’m twenty minutes 
  late. From an open window on Tenth Street I can hear the last strains of “A Day in the 
  Life” by the Beetles. 
     The bar in.Texarkana is empty and in the dining area only four or five tables have 
  people at them. Owen is at a booth in the back, complaining bitterly to the waiter, grilling 
  him, demanding to know the exact reasons why they are out of the crawfish gumbo 
  tonight. The waiter, a not-bad-looking faggot, is at a loss and helplessly lisps an excuse. 
  Owen is in no mood for pleasantries, but then neither am I. As I sit down, the waiter 
  apologizes once more and then takes my drink order. “J&B, straight,” I stress. “And a 
  Dixie beer.” He smiles while writing this down—the bastard even bats his eyelashes—
  and when I’m about to warn him not to attempt small taut with me, Owen barks out his 
  drink order, “Double Absolut martini,” and the fairy splits. 
     ‘This is really a beehive of, uh, activity, Halberstam,” Owen says, gesturing toward the 
  near-empty room. “This place is hot, very hot.” 
     “Listen, the mud soup and the charcoal arugula are outrageous here,” I tell him. 
     “Yeah, well,” he grumbles, staring into his martini glass. “You’re late.” 
     “Hey, I’m a child of divorce. Give me a break,” I say, shrugging, thinking: Oh 
  Halberstam you are an asshole. And then, after I’ve studied the menu, “Hmmm, I see 
  they’ve omitted the pork loin with lime Jell-O.” 
     Owen is wearing a double-breasted silk and linen suit, a cotton shirt and a silk tie, all 
  by Joseph Abboud, and his tan is impeccable. But he’s out of it tonight, surprisingly 
  untalkative, and his dourness drizzles over my jovial, expectant mood, dampening it 
  considerably, and I have suddenly resorted to making comments such as “Is that Ivana 
  Trump over there?” then, laughing, “ Jeez, Patrick, I mean Marcus, what are you think 
  ing? Why would Ivana be at Texarkana?” But this doesn’t make dinner any less 
  monotonous. It doesn’t help lessen the fact that Paul Owen is exactly my age, twenty-
  seven, or make this whole thing any less disconcerting to me. 
     What I’ve mistaken at first for pomposity on Owen’s part is actually just drunkenness. 
  When I press for information about the Fisher account he offers useless statistical data 
  that I already knew about: how Rothschild was originally handling the account, how 
  Owen came to acquire it. And though I had Jean gather this information for my files 
  months ago, I keep nodding, pretending that this primitive info is revelatory and saying 
  things like “This is enlightening” while at the same time telling him “I’m utterly insane” 
  and “I like to dissect girls.” Every time I attempt to steer the conversation back to the 
  mysterious Fisher account, he infuriatingly changes the topic back to either tanning 
  salons or brands of cigars or certain health clubs or the best places to jog in Manhattan 
  
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  and he keeps guffawing, which I find totally upsetting. I’m drinking Southern beer for the 
  first part of the meal—pre entrée, post appetizer—then switch to Diet Pepsi midway 
  through since I need to stay slightly sober. I’m about to tell Owen that Cecelia, Marcus 
  Halberstam’s girlfriend, has two vaginas and that we plan to wed next spring in East 
  Hampton, but he interrupts. 
     “I’m feeling, er, slightly mellow,” he admits, drunkenly squeezing a lime onto the table, 
  completely missing his beer mug.. 
     “Uh-huh.” I dip a stick of jicama sparingly into a rhubarb mustard sauce, pretending to 
  ignore him. 
     He’s so drunk by the time dinner is over that I (1) make him pay the check, which 
  comes to two hundred and fifty dollars, (2a) make him admit what a dumb son-of a-bitch 
  he really is, and (3) get him back to my place, where he makes himself another drink—
  he actually opens a bottle of Acacia I thought I had hidden, with a Mulazoni sterling 
  silver wine opener that Peter Radloff bought me after we completed the Heatherberg 
  deal. In my bathroom I take out the ax I’d stashed in the shower, pop two five-milligram 
  Valium, washing them down with a tumblerful of Plax, and then I move into the foyer, 
  where I put on a cheap raincoat I picked up at Brooks Brothers on Wednesday and 
  move toward Owen, who is bent over near the stereo system in the living room looking 
  through my CD collection—all the lights in the apartment on, the venetian blinds closed. 
  He straightens up and walks slowly backward, sipping from his wineglass, taking in the 
  apartment, until he seats himself in a white aluminum folding chair I bought at the 
  Conran’s Memorial Day sale weeks ago, and finally he notices the newspapers—copies 
  of USA Today and W and The New York Times —spread out beneath him, covering the 
  floor, to protect the polished white-stained oak from his blood. I move toward him with 
  the ax in one hand, and with my other I button up the raincoat. 
     “Hey, Halberstam,” he asks, managing to slur both words. 
     “Yes, Owen,” I say, drawing near. 
     “Why are there, um, copies of the Style section all over the place?” he asks tiredly. 
  “Do you have a dog? A chow or something?” 
     No, Owen.” I move slowly around the chair until I’m facing him, standing directly in his 
  line of vision, and he’s so drunk he can’t even focus in on the ax, he doesn’t even notice 
  once I’ve raised it high above my head. Or when I change my mind and lower it to my 
  waist, almost holding it as if it’s a baseball bat and I’m about to swing at an oncoming 
  ball, which happens to be Owen’s head. 
     Owen pauses, then says, “Anyway, I used to hate Iggy Pop but now that he’s so 
  commercial I like him a lot better than—” 
     The ax hits him midsentence, straight in the face, its thick blade chopping sideways 
  into his open mouth, shutting him up. Paul’s eyes look up at me, then involuntarily roll 
  back into his head, then back at me, and suddenly his hands are trying to grab at the 
  handle, but the shock of the blow has sapped his strength. There’s no blood at first, no 
  sound either except for the newspapers under Paul’s kicking feet, rustling, tearing. 
  Blood starts to slowly pour out of the sides of his mouth shortly after the first chop, and 
  when I pull the ax out—almost yanking Owen out of the chair by his head—and strike 
  him again in the face, splitting it open, his arms flailing at nothing, blood sprays out in 
  twin brownish geysers, staining my raincoat. This is accompanied by a horrible 
  momentary hissing noise actually coming from the wounds in Paul’s skull, places where 
  bone and flesh no longer connect, and this is followed by a rude farting noise caused by 
  a section of his brain, which due to pressure forces itself out, pink and glistening, 
  through the wounds in his face. He falls to the floor in agony, his face just gray and 
  bloody, except for one of his eyes, which is blinking uncontrollably; his mouth is a 
  twisted red-pink jumble of teeth and meat and jawbone, his tongue hangs out of an open 
  gash on the side of his cheek, connected only by what looks like a thick purple string. I 
  scream at him only once: “Fucking stupid bastard. Fucking bastard.” I stand there 
  waiting, staring up at the crack above the Onica that the superintendent hasn’t fixed yet. 
  It takes Paul five minutes to finally die. Another thirty to stop bleeding. 
  
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     I take a cab to Owen’s apartment on the Upper East Side and on the ride across 
  Central Park in the dead of this stifling June night in the back of the taxi it hits me that 
  I’m still wearing the bloody raincoat. At his apartment I let myself in with the keys I took 
  from the corpse’s pocket and once inside I douse the coat with lighter fluid and burn it in 
  the fireplace. The living room is very spare, minimalist. The walls are white pigmented 
  concrete, except for one wall, which is covered with a trendy large-scale scientific 
  drawing, and the wall facing Fifth Avenue has a long strip of faux-cowhide paneling 
  stretched across it. A black leather couch sits beneath it. 
     I switch on the wide-screen thirty-one-inch Panasonic to Late Night with David 
  Letterman, then move over to the answering machine to change Owen’s message. 
  While erasing the current one (Owen giving all the numbers he can be reached at—
  including the Seaport, for god’s sake —while Vivaldi’s Four Seasons plays tastefully in 
  the background) I wonder aloud where I should send Paul, and after a few minutes of 
  intense debating decide: London. “I’ll send the bastard to England,” I cackle while 
  turning the volume down on the TV and then I leave the new message. My voice sounds 
  similar to Owen’s and to someone hearing it over the phone probably identical. Tonight 
  Letterman has on Stupid Pet Tricks. A German shepherd with a Mets cap on peels and 
  eats an orange. This is replayed twice, in slow motion. 
     Into a hand-constructed bridle leather suitcase with a khaki-colored canvas cover, 
  extra-heavy cap corners, gold straps and locks, by Ralph Lauren, I pack a wool six-
  button double-breasted peak-lapel chalk-striped suit and one wool flannel navy suit, 
  both from Brooks Brothers, along with a Mitsubishi rechargeable electric shaver, a 
  silver-plated shoehorn from Barney’s, a Tag-Heuer sports watch, a black leather Prada 
  currency holder, a Sharp Handy-Copier, a Sharp Dialmaster, his passport in its own 
  black leather passport case and a Panasonic portable hair dryer. I also steal for myself a 
  Toshiba portable compact disc player with one of the discs from the original cast 
  recording of Les Misérables still in it. The bathroom is done completely in white except 
  for the Dalmatian-spot wallpaper covering one wall. I throw any toiletry articles I might’ve 
  missed into a plastic Hefty bag. 
     Back at my apartment his body is already in rigor mortis, and after wrapping it up in 
  four cheap terry-cloth towels I also bought at the Conran’s Memorial Day sale, I place 
  Owen headfirst and fully dressed into a Canalino goose-down sleeping bag, which I zip 
  up then drag easily into the elevator, then through the lobby, past the night doorman, 
  down the block, where briefly I run into Arthur Crystal and Kitty Martin, who’ve just had 
  dinner at Café Luxembourg. Luckily Kitty Martin is supposed to be dating Craig 
  McDermott, who is in Houston for the night, so they don’t linger, even though Crystal—
  the rude bastard—asks me what the general rules of wearing a white dinner jacket are. 
  After answering him curtly I hail a taxi, effortlessly manage to swing the sleeping bag 
  into the backseat, hop in and give the driver the address in Hell’s Kitchen. Once there I 
  carry the body up four flights of stairs until we’re at the unit I own in the abandoned 
  building and I place Owen’s body into an oversize porcelain tub, strip off his Abboud suit 
  and, after wetting the corpse down, pour two bags of lime over it. 
     Later, around two, in bed, I’m unable to sleep. Evelyn catches me on call waiting while 
  I’m listening to messages on 976-TWAT and watching a tape on the VCR of this 
  morning’s Patty Winters Show which is about Deformed People. 
     “Patrick?” Evelyn asks. 
     I pause, then in a dull monotone calmly announce, “You have reached Patrick 
  Bateman’s number. He is unable to come to the phone right now. So please leave a 
  message after the tone…” I pause, then add, “Have a nice day.” I pause again, praying 
  to god that she bought it, before emitting a pitiful “Beep.” 
     “Oh stop it, Patrick,” she says irritably. “I know it’s you. What in god’s name do you 
  think you’re doing?” 
     I hold the phone out in front of me then drop it on the floor and bang it against the 
  nightstand. I keep pressing some of the numbers down, hoping that when I lift the 
  receiver up to my ear I’ll be greeted by a dial tone. “Hello? Hello?” I say. “Is anyone 
  
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  there? Yes?” 
     “Oh for god’s sake stop it. Just stop it,” Evelyn wails. 
     “Hi, Evelyn,” I say cheerily, my face twisted into a grimace. 
     “Where have you been tonight?” she asks. “I thought we were supposed to have 
  dinner. I thought we had reservations at Raw Space.” 
     “No, Evelyn,” I sigh, suddenly very tired. “We didn’t. Why would you think that?” 
     “I thought I had it written down,” she whines. “I thought my secretary had written it 
  down for me.” 
     “Well, one of you was wrong,” I say, rewinding the tape by remote control from my 
  bed. “Raw Space? Jesus. You… are… insane.” 
     “Honey,” she pouts. “Where were you tonight? I hope you didn’t go to Raw Space 
  without me.” 
     “Oh my god,” I moan. “I had to rent some videotapes. I mean I had to return some 
  videos.” 
     “What else did you do?” she asks, still whining. 
     “Well, I ran into Arthur Crystal and Kitty Martin,” I say. ‘They just had dinner at Café 
  Luxembourg.” 
     “Oh really?” Chillingly, her interest perks up. “What was Kitty wearing?” 
     “An off-the-shoulder ball gown with velvet bodice and a floral-patterned lace skirt by 
  Laura Marolakos, I think.” 
     “And Arthur?” 
     “Same thing.” 
     “Oh Mr. Bateman.” She giggles. “I adore your sense of humor.” 
     “Listen, it’s late. I’m tired.” I fake a yawn. 
     “Did I wake you?” she asks worriedly. “I hope I didn’t wake you.” 
     “Yes,” I say. “You did. But I took your call so it’s my fault, not yours.” 
     “Dinner, honey? Tomorrow?” she asks, coyly expecting an affirmative response. 
     “I can’t. Work.” 
     “You practically own that damn company,” she moans. “What work? What work do you 
  do? I don’t understand.” 
     “Evelyn,” I sigh. “Please.” 
     “Oh Patrick, lets go away this summer,” she says wistfully. “Let’s go to Edgartown or 
  the Hamptons.” 
     “I’ll do that,” I say. “Maybe I’ll do that.” 
  Paul Smith 
     I’m standing in Paul Smith talking to Nancy and Charles Hamilton and their two-year-
  old daughter, Glenn. Charles is wearing a four-button double-breasted linen suit by 
  Redaelli, a cotton broadcloth shirt by Ascot Chang, a patterned silk tie by Eugenio 
  Venanzi and loafers by Brooks Brothers. Nancy is wearing a silk blouse with mother-of-
  pearl sequins and a silk chiffon skirt by Valentino and silver earrings by Reena 
  Pachochi. I’m wearing a six-button double-breasted chalk-striped wool suit and a 
  patterned silk tie, both by Louis, Boston, and a cotton oxford cloth shirt by Luciano 
  Barbera. Glenn is wearing silk Armani overalls and a tiny Mets cap. As the salesgirl 
  rings up Charles’s purchases, I’m playing with the baby while Nancy holds her, offering 
  Glenn my platinum American Express card, and she grabs at it excitedly, and I’m 
  shaking my head, talking in a high-pitched baby voice, squeezing her chin, waving the 
  card in front of her face, cooing, “Yes I’m a total psychopathic murderer, oh yes I am, I 
  like to kill people, oh yes I do, honey, little sweetie pie, yes I do…” After the office today I 
  played squash with Ricky Hendricks, then had drinks with Stephen Jenkins at Fluties 
  and I’m supposed to meet Bonnie Abbott for dinner at Pooncakes, the new Bishop 
  Sullivan restaurant in Gramercy Park, at eight o’clock.The Patty Winters Show this 
  morning was about Concentration Camp Survivors. I take out a Sony Watchman Pocket 
  TV (the FD-270) that has a 2.7-inch black-and-white miniscreen and weighs only 
  
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  thirteen ounces, and hold it out to Glenn. Nancy asks, “How’s the shad roe at Rafaeli’s?” 
  Right now, outside this store, it’s not dark yet but it is getting there. 
     “It’s terrific,” I murmur, staring happily at Glenn. 
     Charles signs the slip and while placing his gold American Express card back into his 
  wallet he turns to me and recognizes someone over my shoulder. 
     “Hey Luis,” Charles says, smiling. 
     I turn around. 
     “Hi, Charles. Hi, Nancy.” Luis Carruthers kisses Nancy’s cheek, then shakes the 
  baby’s hand. “Oh hiya, Glenn. My my, you look so big.” 
     “Luis, you know Robert Chanc—” Charles starts. 
     “Pat Bateman,” I say, putting the Watchman back in my pocket. “Forget it. We’ve met.” 
     “Oh, I’m sorry. That’s right. Pat Bateman,” Charles says. Luis is wearing a wool-crepe 
  suit, a cotton broadcloth shirt and a silk tie, all by Ralph Lauren. Like me, like Charles, 
  he wears his hair slicked back and he’s wearing Oliver Peoples redwood-framed 
  glasses. Mine, at least, are nonprescription. 
     “Well well,” I say, shaking his hand. Luis’s grip is overly firm, yet horribly sensuous at 
  the same time. “Excuse me, I have to purchase a tie.” I wave bye-bye to baby Glenn 
  once more and move off to inspect the neckwear in the adjoining room, wiping my hand 
  against a two-hundred-dollar bath towel that hangs on a marble rack. 
     Soon enough Luis wanders over and leans against the tie drawer, pretending to 
  examine the ties like I’m doing. 
     “What are you doing here?” he whispers. 
     “Buying a tie for my brother. It’s his birthday soon. Excuse me.” I move down the rack, 
  away from him. 
     “He must feel very lucky to have a brother like you,” he says, sliding up next to me, 
  grinning sincerely. 
     “Maybe, but I find him completely repellent,” I say. “You might like him though.” 
     “Patrick, why won’t you look at me?” Luis asks, sounding anguished. “Look at me.” 
     “Please, please leave me alone, Luis,” I say, my eyes closed, both fists clenched in 
  anger. 
     “Come on, let’s have a drink at Sofi’s and talk about this,” he suggests, starting to 
  plead. 
     “Talk about what?” I ask incredulously, opening my eyes. 
     “Well… aboutus.” He shrugs. 
     “Did you follow me in here?” I ask. 
     “Into where?” 
     “Here. Paul Smith. Why?” 
     “Me? Follow you? Oh come on.” He tries to laugh, scoffing at my remark. “Jesus.” 
     “Luis,” I say, forcing myself to make eye contact. “Please leave me alone. Go away.” 
     “Patrick,” he says. “I love you very much. I hope you realize this.” 
     I moan, moving over to the shoes, smiling wanly at a salesperson. 
     Luis follows. “Patrick, what are we doing here?” 
     “Well, I’m trying to buy a tie for my brother and”—I pick up a loafer, then sigh—“and 
  you’re trying to give me head, figure it out. Jesus, I’m getting out of here.” 
     I move back over to the tie rack, grab one without choosing and take it up to the 
  register. Luis follows. Ignoring him, I hand the salesgirl the platinum AmEx card and tell 
  her, “There’s a bum outside the door.” I point out the window at the crying homeless 
  man with the bag of newspapers standing on a bench next to the store’s entrance. “You 
  should call the police or something.” She nods thanks and runs my card through the 
  computer. Luis just stands there, shyly staring at the ground. I sign the receipt, take the 
  bag and inform the salesgirl, pointing at Luis, “He’s not with me.” 
     Outside I try to wave down a cab on Fifth Avenue. Luis hurries out of the store after 
  me. 
     “Patrick, we’vegot to talk,” he calls out over the roar of traffic. He runs up to me, 
  grabbing my coat sleeve. I whirl around, my switchblade already open, and I jab it 
  
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  threateningly, warning Luis to stay back. People move out of our way, continue walking. 
     “Hey, whoa, Patrick,” he says, holding his hands up, backing off. “Patrick…” 
     I hiss at him, still holding out the knife until a cab I flag down skids to a stop. Luis tries 
  to get near me, his hands still up, and I keep the knife aimed at him, slicing the air with 
  it, while I open the door to the cab and back in, still hissing, then I close the door and tell 
  the driver to head over to Gramercy Park, to Pooncakes. 
  Birthday, Brothers 
     I spend all day thinking about what kind of table my brother Sean and I will be seated 
  at tonight in the Quilted Giraffe. Since it’s his birthday and he happens to be in the city, 
  my father’s accountant, Charles Conroy, and the trustee of his estate, Nicholas Leigh, 
  both called last week and mutually suggested that it would be in everyone’s best interest 
  to use this date as an excuse to find out what Sean’s doing with. his life and perhaps to 
  ask a pertinent question or two. And tough both of these men know I despise Sean, and 
  that the feeling is unambiguously reciprocated, it would be a good idea to get him to 
  come to dinner, and as a lure, as bait in case he refuses, by mentioning, not lightly, that 
  something bad has happened. I was on a conference call to Conroy and Leigh last 
  Wednesday afternoon. 
     “Something bad? Like what?” I asked, trying to concentrate on the numbers sliding 
  across my monitor while simultaneously waving Jean away, even though she was 
  holding a sheaf of papers I was supposed to sign. “That all Michelob breweries in the 
  Northeast are closing? That 976-BIMBO has stopped making house calls?” 
     “No,” Charles said, then quietly mentioned, “Tell him your mother is… worse.” 
     I mulled over this tactic, then said, “He might not care.” 
     “Tell him…” Nicholas paused, then cleared his throat and rather delicately proposed, 
  “it has to do with her estate.” 
     I looked up from the monitor, lowering my Wayfarer aviator sunglasses, and stared at 
  Jean, then lightly fingered the Zagat guide that sat next to the monitor. Pastels would be 
  impossible. Ditto Dorsia. Last time I called Dorsia someone had actually hung up on me 
  even before I asked, “Well, if not next month, how about January?” and though I have 
  vowed to get a reservation at Dorsia one day (if not during this calendar year, then at 
  least before I’m thirty), the energy I would spend attempting this feat isn’t worth wasting 
  on Sean. Besides, Dorsia’s far too chic for him. I want to make him endure this dinner; 
  to not be allowed the pleasure of being distracted by hardbodies on their way to Nell’s; 
  somewhere with a men’s room attendant so he would have to be painfully subtle about 
  what is now, I’m sure, his chronic cocaine usage. I handed the Zagat to Jean and asked 
  her to find the most expensive restaurant in Manhattan. She made a nine o’clock 
  reservation at the Quilted Giraffe. 
     “Things are worse at Sandstone,” I tell Sean later this afternoon, around four o’clock. 
  He’s staying in our father’s suite at the Carlyle. MTV is blasting in the background, other 
  voices shout over its din. I can hear a shower running. 
     “Like what? Mom ate her pillow? What?” 
     “I think we should have dinner,” I say. 
     “Dominique, cool it,” he says, then places his hand over the phone and mutters 
  something, muffled. 
     “Hello, Sean? What’s going on?” I’m asking. 
     “I’ll call back,” he says, hanging up. 
     I happen to like the tie I bought Sean at Paul Smith last week and I’ve decided not to 
  give it to him (though the idea of the asshole, say; hanging himself with it pleases me 
  greatly). In fact I decide to wear it to the Quilted Giraffe tonight. Instead of the tie, I’m 
  going to bring him a Casio QD-150 Quick-Dialer combination wristwatch, calculator and 
  data bank. It dials touch-tone phones sonically when held up to a mouthpiece and it 
  stores up to fifty names and numbers. I start laughing while putting this useless gift back 
  into its box, thinking to myself that Sean doesn’t even have fifty acquaintances. He 
  
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  couldn’t even name fifty people. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about Salad 
  Bars. 
     Sean calls at five from the Racquet Club and tells me to meet him at Dorsia tonight. 
  He just talked to Brin, the owner, and reserved a table at nine. My mind is a mess. I 
  don’t know what to think or how to feel. The Patty Winters Show this morning was about 
  Salad Bars. 
     Later. Dorsia, nine-thirty: Sean is half an hour late. The maître d’ refuses to seat me 
  until my brother arrives. My worst fear—a reality. A prime booth across from the bar sits 
  there, empty, waiting for Sean to grace it with his presence. My rage is controlled, 
  barely, by a Xanax and an Absolut on the rocks. While taking a piss in the men’s room, I 
  stare into a thin, weblike crack above the urinal’s handle and think to myself that if I 
  were to disappear into that crack, say somehow miniaturize and slip into it, the odds are 
  good that no one would notice I was gone. No… one… would… care. In fact some, if 
  they noticed my absence, might feel an odd, indefinable sense of relief. This is true: the 
  world is better off with some people gone. Our lives are not all interconnected. That 
  theory is a crock. Some people truly do not need to be here. In fact one of them, my 
  brother, Sean, is sitting in the booth he reserved when I come out of the men’s room 
  after I’ve phoned the apartment and checked for messages (Evelyn’s suicidal, Courtney 
  wants to buy a chow, Luis suggests dinner on Thursday). Sean is already chain-
  smoking, and I’m thinking to myself.Damn, why didn’t I request a table in the 
  nonsmoking section? He’s shaking hands with the maître d’ as I walk over but doesn’t 
  even bother to introduce us. I sit down and nod. Sean nods too, having already ordered 
  a bottle of Cristal, knowing that I’m paying; also knowing, I’m sure, that I know he 
  doesn’t drink champagne. 
     Sean, who is now twenty-three, went to Europe last fall, or at least this is what Charles 
  Conroy said Sean told him, and though Charles did receive a substantial bill from the 
  Plaza Athénée, the signature on the receipts didn’t match Sean’s and no one really 
  seemed to know how long Sean was actually in France or even if he had spent real time 
  there. Afterwards he bummed around, then reenrolled at Camden for about three 
  weeks. Now he’s in Manhattan before flying to either Palm Beach or New Orleans. 
  Predictably, tonight he’s alternately moody and insistently arrogant. He has also, I’ve 
  just noticed, started to pluck his eyebrows. He no longer has only one. The 
  overwhelming urge I have to mention this to him is quelled only by squeezing my hand 
  into a fist so tightly that I break the skin on the palm of my hand and the biceps of my left 
  arm bulges then rips through the cloth of the linen Armani shirt I have on. 
     “So you like this place?” he asks, grinning. 
     “My… favorite,” I joke through clenched teeth. 
     “Let’s order,” he says, not looking at me, waving to a hardbody, who brings over two 
  menus and a wine list while smiling appreciatively at Sean, who in turn ignores her 
  totally. I open the menu and—damnit— it’s not prix fixe, which means that Sean orders 
  the lobster with caviar and peach ravioli as an appetizer and the blackened lobster with 
  strawberry sauce as an entrée-the two most expensive items on the menu. I order the 
  quail sashimi with grilled brioche and the baby soft-shell crabs with grape jelly. A 
  hardbody opens the bottle of Cristal and pours it into crystal tumblers, which I guess is 
  supposed to be cool. After she leaves, Sean notices me staring at him in a vaguely 
  disapproving manner. 
     “What?” he asks. 
     “Nothing,” I say. 
     “What… is… it… Patrick?” He spaces the words out, obnoxiously. 
     “Lobster to start with? And for an entrée?” 
     “What do you want me to order? The Pringle Potato Chip appetizer?” 
     “Two lobsters?” 
     “These matchbooks are slightly larger than the lobster they serve here,” he says. 
  “Besides, I’m not that hungry.” 
     “Even more of a reason.” 
  
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     “I’ll fax you an apology.” 
     “Still, Sean.” 
     “Rock ‘n’ roll—” 
     “I know, I know, rock ‘n’ roll, deal with it, right?” I say, holding up a hand while sipping 
  the champagne. I wonder if it’s not too late to ask one of the waitresses to bring a piece 
  of cake over here with a candle in it just to embarrass the shit out of him, to put the little 
  bastard in his place—but instead I put the glass down and ask, “Listen, so, oh Jesus.” I 
  breathe in, then force out, “What did you do today?” 
     “Played squash with Richard Lindquist.” He shrugs contemptuously. “Bought a 
  tuxedo.” 
     “Nicholas Leigh and Charles Conroy want to know if you’re going to the Hamptons this 
  summer.” 
     “Not if I can help it,” he says, shrugging. 
     A blond girl close enough to physical perfection, with big tits and a Les Misérables 
  playbill in one hand, wearing a long rayon matte-jersey evening dress by Michael Kors 
  from Bergdorf Goodman, Manolo Blahnik shoes and gold-plated chandelier earrings by 
  Ricardo Siberno, stops by to say hello to Sean and though I would fuck this girl, Sean 
  ignores her flirtatious manner and refuses to introduce me. During this encounter Sean 
  is completely rude, yet the girl leaves smiling, raising a gloved hand. “We’ll be at 
  Mortimer’s. Later.” He nods, staring at my water glass, then waves down a waiter and 
  orders a Scotch, straight. 
     “Who was that?” I ask. 
     “Some babe who went to Stephens.” 
     “Where did you meet her?” 
     “Playing pool at M.K.” He shrugs. 
     “Is she a du Pont?” I ask. 
     “Why? Do you want her number?” 
     “No, I just wanted to know if she’s a du Pont.” 
     “She might be. I don’t know.” He lights another cigarette, a Parliament, with what looks 
  like an eighteen-karat gold cigarette lighter from Tiffany’s. “She might be a friend of one 
  of the du Ponts.” 
     I keep thinking of reasons why I’m sitting here, right now, tonight, with Sean, at Dorsia, 
  but none come to mind. Just this infinitely recurring zero floats into view. After dinner—
  the food is small but very good; Sean touches nothing—I tell him that I have to meet 
  Andrea Rothmere at Nell’s and if he wants espresso or dessert, he should order it now 
  since I have to be downtown by midnight. 
     “Why rush?” he asks. “Nell’s isn’t that hip anymore.” 
     “Well.” I falter, quickly regain composure. “We’re just going to meet there. We’re really 
  going to”—my mind races, lands on something—“Chernoble.” I take another sip of 
  champagne from the tumbler. 
     “Big yawn. Really big yawn,” he says, scanning the room. 
     “Or Contraclub East. I can’t remember.” 
     “Out. Stone Age. Prehistory.” He laughs cynically. 
     Tense pause. “How would you know?” 
     “Rock ‘n’ roll.” He shrugs. “Deal with it.” 
     “Well, Sean where, do you go?” 
     Immediate answer. “Petty’s.” 
     “Oh yes,” I murmur, having forgotten that it was already open. 
     He whistles something, smokes a cigarette. 
     “We’re going to a party Donald Trump’s having,” I lie. 
     “Big fun. Very big fun.” 
     “Donald’s a nice guy. You should meet him,” I say. “I’ll… introduce you to him.” 
     “Really?” Sean asks, maybe hopefully, maybe not. 
     “Yeah, sure.” Oh, right. 
     Now, by the time I get the check… let’s see… pay it, take a cab back to my place, it 
  
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  will be almost midnight, which doesn’t give me enough time to return yesterday’s 
  videotapes, so if I don’t stop by my place I can just go in and rent another videotape, 
  though on my membership doesn’t it say that you can only take out three at a time? So 
  this means last night I took out two (Body Double and Blond, Hot, Dead) so I could rent 
  one more, but I’ve forgotten I’m also part of the Gold Circle Membership Plan, which 
  means that if I’ve spent one thousand dollars (at least) in the last six months then I’m 
  allowed to rent as many videos on any given night as I want, but if I still have two out 
  now that might mean I can’t take any more out, Gold Circle Member or not, if the other 
  ones haven’t been returned, but— 
     “Damien. You’re Damien,” I think I hear Sean mutter. 
     “What did you say?” I ask, looking up. “I didn’t hear you.” 
     “Nice tan,” he sighs. “I said nice tan.” 
     “Oh,” I say, still confused about the video thing. I look down—at what, my lap? “Uh, 
  thanks.” 
     “Rock’n’ roll.” He stamps his cigarette out. Fumes rise from the crystal ashtray, then 
  die. 
     Sean knows I know he can probably get us into Petty’s, which is the new Norman 
  Prager club on Fifty-ninth, but I’m not going to ask him and he’s not going to offer. I 
  place my platinum American Express card over the check. Sean’s eyes are glued to a 
  hardbody by the bar in a Thierry Mugler wool jersey dress and a Claude Montana scarf, 
  sipping from a champagne tumbler. When our waitress come by to pick up the check 
  and the card, I shake my head no. Sean’s eyes finally fall on it, for a second, maybe 
  more, and I wave the waitress back over and allow her to take it. 
  Lunch with Bethany 
     Today I’m meeting Bethany for lunch at Vanities, the new Evan Kiley bistro in Tribeca, 
  and though I worked out for nearly two hours this morning and even lifted weights in my 
  office before noon, I’m still extremely nervous. The cause is hard to locate but I’ve 
  narrowed it down to one of two reasons. It’s either that I’m afraid of rejection (though I 
  can’t understand why: she called me, she wants to see me, she wants to have lunch 
  with me, she wants to fuck me again) or, on the other hand, it could have something to 
  do with this new Italian mousse I’m wearing, which, though it makes my hair look fuller 
  and smells good, feels very sticky and uncomfortable, and it’s something I could easily 
  blame my nervousness on. So we wouldn’t run out of things to talk about over lunch, I 
  tried to read a trendy new short-story collection called Wok that I bought at Barnes & 
  Noble last night and whose young author was recently profiled in the Fast Track section 
  of New York magazine, but every story started off with the line “When the moon hits 
  your eye like a big pizza pie” and I had to put this slim volume back into my bookshelf 
  and drink a J&B on the rocks, followed by two Xanax, to recover from the effort. To 
  make up for this, before I fell asleep I wrote Bethany a poem and it took a long time, 
  which surprised me, since I used to write her poems, long dark ones, quite often when 
  we were both at Harvard, before we broke up. God, I’m thinking to myself as I walk into 
  Vanities, only fifteen minutes late, I hope she hasn’t ended up with Robert Hall, that 
  dumb asshole. I pass by a mirror hung over the bar as I’m led to our table and check out 
  my reflection—the mousse looks good. The topic on The Patty Winters Show this 
  morning was Has Patrick Swayze Become Cynical or Not? 
     I have to stop moving as I near the table, following the maître d’ (this is all happening 
  in slow motion). She isn’t facing me and I can only catch the back of her neck, her 
  brown hair pinned up into a bun, and when she turns to gaze out the window I see only 
  part of her profile, briefly; she looks just like a model. Bethany’s wearing a silk gazar 
  blouse and a sills satin start with crinoline. A Paloma Picasso hunter green suede and 
  wrought-iron handbag sits in front of her on the table, next to a bottle of San Pellegrino 
  water. She checks her watch. The couple next to our table is smoking and after I lean in 
  behind Bethany, surprising her, kissing her cheek, I coolly ask the maître d’ to reseat us 
  
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  in the non smoking section. I’m suave but loud enough for the nicotine addicts to hear 
  me and hopefully feel a slight twinge of embarrassment about their filthy habit. 
     “Well?” I ask, standing there, arms crossed, tapping my foot impatiently. 
     ‘I’m afraid there is no nonsmoking section, sir,” the maître d’ informs me. 
     I stop tapping my foot and slowly scan the restaurant, the bistro, wondering how my 
  hair really looks, and suddenly I wish I had switched mousses because since I last saw 
  my hair, seconds ago, it feels different, as if its shape was somehow altered on the walls 
  from bar to table. A pang of nausea that I’m unable to stifle washes warmly over me, but 
  since I’m really dreaming all this I’m able to ask, “So you say there’s no nonsmoking 
  section? Is this correct?” 
     “Yes sir.” The maître d’, younger than myself, faggy, innocent, an actor no doubt, 
  adds, “I’m sorry.” 
     “Well, this is… very interesting. I can accept this.” I reach into my back pocket for my 
  gazelleskin wallet and press a twenty into the maître d’s uncertain fist. He looks at the 
  bill, confused, then murmurs “Thank you” and walks away as if in a daze. 
     “No. Thank you,” I call out and take my seat across from Bethany, nodding 
  courteously to the couple next to us, and though I try to ignore her for as long as 
  etiquette allows, I can’t. Bethany looks absolutely stunning, just like a model. 
  Everything’s murky. I’m on edge. Feverish, romantic notions— 
     “Didn’t you smoke at Harvard?” is the first thing she says. 
     “Cigars,” I say. “Only cigars.” 
     “Oh,” she says. 
     “But I quit that,” I lie, breathing in hard, squeezing my hands together. 
     “That’s good.” She nods. 
     “Listen, did you have any trouble getting reservations?” I ask, and I am fucking 
  shaking. I put my hands on the table like a fool, hoping that under her watchful gaze 
  they will stop trembling. 
     “You don’t need reservations here, Patrick,” she says soothingly, reaching out a hand, 
  covering one of mine with hers. “Calm down. You look like a wild man.” 
     “I’m clam, I mean calm,” I say, breathing in hard, trying to smile, and then, 
  involuntarily, unable to stop myself, ask, “How’s my hair?” 
     “Your hair is fine,” she says. “Shhh. It’s okay.” 
     “All right. I am all right.” I try to smile again but I’m sure it looks just like a grimace. 
     After a short pause she comments, “That’s a nice suit. Henry Stuart?” 
     “No,” I say, insulted, touching its lapel. “Garrick Anderson.” 
     .’It’s very nice,” she says and then, genuinely concerned, “Are you okay, Patrick? You 
  just… twitched.” 
     “Listen. I’m frazzled. I just got back from Washington. I took the Trump shuttle this 
  morning,” I tell her, unable to make eye contact, all in a rush. “It was delightful. The 
  service—really fabulous. I need a drink.” 
     She smiles, amused, studying me in a shrewd way. “Was it?” she asks, not totally, I 
  sense, without smugness. 
     “Yes.” I can’t really look at her and it takes immense effort to unfold the napkin, lay it 
  across my lap, reposition it correctly, busy myself with the wineglass, praying for a 
  waiter, the ensuing silence causing the loudest possible sound. “So did you watch The 
  Patty Winters Show this morning?” 
     “No, I was out jogging,” she says, leaning in. “It was about Michael J. Fox, right?” 
     “No,” I correct her. “It was about Patrick Swayze.” 
     “Oh really?” she asks, then, “It’s hard to keep.track. You’re sure?” 
     “Yes. Patrick Swayze. I’m positive.” 
     “How was it?” 
     “Well, it was very interesting,” I tell her, breathing in air. “It was almost like a debate, 
  about whether he’s gotten cynical or not.” 
     “Do you think he has?” she asks, still smiling. 
     “Well, no, I’m not sure,” I start nervously. “It”s an interesting question. It wasn’t 
  
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  explored fully enough. I mean after Dirty Dancing I wouldn’t think so, but withTiger 
  Warsaw I don’t know. I might be crazy, but I thought I detected some bitterness. I’m not 
  sure.” 
     She stares at me, her expression unchanged. 
     “Oh, I almost forgot,” I say, reaching into my pocket. “I wrote you a poem.” I hand her 
  the slip of paper. “Here.” I feel sick and broken, tortured, really on the brink. 
     “Oh Patrick.” She smiles. “How sweet.” 
     “Well, you know,” I say, looking down shyly. 
     Bethany takes the slip of paper and unfolds it. 
     “Read it,” I urge enthusiastically. 
     She looks it over quizzically, puzzled, squinting, then she turns the page over to see if 
  there’s anything on the back. Something in her understands it’s short and she looks 
  back at the words written, scrawled in red, on the front of the page. 
     “It’s like haiku, you know?” I say. “Read it. Go on.” 
     She clears her throat and hesitantly begins reading, slowly, stopping often. “ ’The poor 
  nigger on the wall. Look at him.’” She pauses and squints again at the paper, then 
  hesitantly resumes. “ ’Look at the poor nigger. Look at the poor nigger… on… the… 
  wall.’” She stops again, faltering, looks at me, confused, then back at the paper. 
     “Go on,” I say, looking around for a waiter. “Finish it.” 
     She clears her throat and staring steadily at the paper tries to read the rest of it in a 
  voice below a whisper. “ ’Fuck him… Fuck the nigger on the wall…’” She falters again, 
  then reads the last sentence, sighing. “ ’Black man… is… de… debil?’” 
     The couple at the next table have slowly turned to gaze over at us. The man looks 
  aghast, the woman has an equally horrified expression on her face. I stare her down, 
  glaring, until she looks back at her fucking salad. 
     “Well, Patrick,” Bethany says, clearing her throat, trying to smile, handing the paper 
  back to me. 
     “Yes?” I ask. “Well?” 
     “I can see that”—she stops, thinking—“that your sense of… social injustice is”—she 
  clears her throat again and looks down—“still intact.” 
     I take the paper back from her and slip it in my pocket and smile, still trying to keep a 
  straight face, holding my body upright so she won’t suspect me of cringing. Our waiter 
  comes over to the table and I ask him what kinds of beer they serve. 
     “Heineken, Budweiser, Amstel light,” he recites. 
     “Yes?” I ask, staring at Bethany, gesturing for him to continue. 
     “That’s, um, all, sir,” he says. 
     “No Corona? No Kirin? No Grolsch? No Morretti?” I ask, confused, irate. 
     “I’m sorry, sir, but no,” he says cautiously. “Only Heineken, Budweiser, Amstel Light.” 
     “That’s crazy,” I sigh. “I’ll have a J&B on the rocks. No, an Absolut martini. No, a J&B 
  straight up.” 
     “And I’ll have another San Pellegrino,” Bethany says. 
     “I’ll have the same thing;” I quickly add, my leg jerking up then down uncontrollably 
  beneath the table. 
     “Okay. Would you like to hear the specials?” he asks. 
     “By all means,” I spit out, then, calming down, smile reassuringly at Bethany. 
     “You’re sure?” He laughs. 
     “Please,” I say, unamused, studying the menu. 
     “For appetizers I have the sun-dried tomatoes and golden caviar with poblano chilies 
  and I also have a fresh endive soup—” 
     “Wait a minute, wait a minute,” I say, holding up a hand, stopping him. “Hold on a 
  minute.” 
     “Yes sir?” the waiter asks, confused. 
     “You have? You mean the restaurant has,” I correct him. “You don’t have any sun-
  dried tomatoes. The restaurant does. You don’t have the poblano chilies. The restaurant 
  does. Just, you know, clarify.” 
  
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     The waiter, stunned, looks at Bethany, who handles the situation deftly by asking him, 
  “So how is the endive soup served?” 
     “Er… cold,” the waiter says, not fully recovered from my outburst, sensing he’s dealing 
  with someone very, very on edge. 
     He stops again, uncertain. 
     “Go on,” I urge. “Please go on.” 
     “It’s served cold,” he starts again. “And for entrées we have monkfish with mango 
  slices and red snapper sandwich on brioche with maple syrup and”—he checks his pad 
  again—“cotton.” 
     “Mmmm, sounds delicious. Cotton, mmmm,” I say, rubbing my hands together 
  eagerly. “Bethany?” 
     “I’ll have the ceviche with leeks and sorrel,” Bethany says. “And the endive with… 
  walnut dressing.” 
     “Sir?” the waiter asks tentatively. 
     “I’ll have… “ I stop, scan the menu quickly. “I’ll have the squid with pine nuts and can I 
  have a slice of goat cheese, of chèvre ”—I glance over at Bethany to see if she flinches 
  at my mispronunciation—“with that and some… oh, some salsa on the side.” 
     The waiter nods, leaves, we’re left alone. 
     “Well.” She smiles, then notices the table slightly shaking. “What’s… wrong with your 
  leg?” 
     “My leg? Oh.” I look down at it, then back at her. “It’s… the music. I like the music a 
  lot. The music that’s playing.” 
     “What is it?” she asks, tilting her head, trying to catch a refrain of the New Age Muzak 
  coming from the speakers hooked to the ceiling over the bar. 
     “It’s… I think it’s Belinda Carlisle,” I guess. “I’m not sure.” 
     “But…” she starts, then stops. “Oh, forget it.” 
     “But what?” 
     “But I don’t hear any singing.” She smiles, looks down demurely. 
     I hold my leg still and pretend to listen. “But it’s one of her songs,” I say, then lamely 
  add, “I think it’s called ‘Heaven Is a Place on Earth.’ You know it.” 
     “Listen,” she says, “have you gone to any concerts lately?” 
     “No,” I say, wishing she hadn’t brought this, of all topics, up. “I don’t like live music.” 
     “ music?” she asks, intrigued, sipping San Pellegrino water. 
     “Yeah. You know. Like a band,” I explain, sensing from her expression that I’m saying 
  totally the wrong things. “Oh, I forgot. I did see U2.” 
     “How were they?” she asks. “I liked the new CD a lot.” 
     “They were great, just totally great. Just totally…” I pause, unsure of what to say. 
  Bethany raises her eyebrows quizzically, wanting to know more. “Just totally… Irish.” 
     “I’ve heard they’re quite good live,” she says, and her own voice has a light, musical lilt 
  to it. “Who else do you like?” 
     “Oh you know,” I say, completely stuck. “The Kingsmen. ‘Louie, Louie.’ That sort of 
  stuff.” 
     “Gosh, Patrick,” she says, looking at every part of my face. 
     “What?” I panic, immediately touching my hair. “Too much mousse? You don’t like the 
  Kingsmen?” 
     “No.” She laughs. “I just don’t remember you being so tan back at school.” 
     “I had a tan then, didn’t I?” I ask. “I mean I wasn’t Casper the Ghost or anything, was 
  I?” I put my elbow on the table and flex my biceps, asking her to squeeze the muscle. 
  After she touches it, reluctantly, I resume my questions. “Was I really not that tan at 
  Harvard?” I ask mock-worriedly, but worriedly. 
     “No, no.” She laughs. “You were definitely the George Hamilton of the class of eighty-
  four.” 
     “Thanks,” I say, pleased. 
     The waiter brings our drinks—two bottles of San Pellegrino water. Scene Two. 
     “So you’re at Mill… on the water? Taffeta? What is it?” I ask. Her body, her skin tone, 
  
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  seem firm and rosy. 
     “Milbank Tweed,” she says. “That’s where I am.” 
     “Well,” I say, squeezing a lime into my glass. “That’s just wonderful. Law school really 
  paid off.” 
     “And you’re at… P & P?” she asks. 
     “Yes,” I say. 
     She nods, pauses, wants to say something, debates whether she should, then asks, 
  all in a matter of seconds: “But doesn’t your family own—” 
     “I don’t want to talk about this,” I say, cutting her off. “But yes, Bethany. Yes.” 
     “And you still work at P & P?” she asks. Each syllable is spaced so that it bursts, 
  booming sonically, into my head. 
     “Yes,” I say, looking furtively around the room. 
     “But—” She’s confused. “Didn’t your father—” 
     “Yes, of course,” I say, interrupting. “Have you had the focaccia at Pooncakes?” 
     “Patrick.” 
     “Yes?” 
     “What’s wrong?” 
     “I just don’t want to talk about…” I stop. “About work.” 
     “Why not?” 
     “Because I hate it,” I say. “Now listen, have you tried Pooncakes yet? I think Miller 
  underrated it.” 
     “Patrick,” she says slowly. “If you’re so uptight about work, why don’t you just quit? 
  You don’t have to work.” 
     “Because,” I say, staring directly at her, “I… want… to… fit... in.” 
     After a long pause, she smiles. “I see.” There’s another pause. 
     This one I break. “Just look at it as, well, a new approach to business,” I say. 
     “How”—she stalls—“sensible.” She stalls again. “How, um, practical.” 
     Lunch is alternately a burden, a puzzle that needs to be solved, an obstacle, and then 
  it floats effortlessly into the realm of relief and I’m able to give a skillful performance—
  my overriding intelligence tunes in and lets me know that it can sense how much she 
  wants me, but I hold back, uncommitted. She’s also holding back, but flirting 
  nonetheless. She has made a promise by asking me to lunch and I panic, once the 
  squid is served, certain that I will never recover unless it’s fulfilled. Other men notice her 
  as they pass by our table. Sometimes I coolly bring my voice down to a whisper. I’m 
  hearing things—noise, mysterious sounds, inside my head; her mouth opens, closes, 
  swallows liquid, smiles, takes me in like a magnet covered with lipstick, mentions 
  something involving fax machines, twice. I finally order a J&B on the rocks, then a 
  cognac. She has mint-coconut sorbet. I touch, hold her hand across the table, more 
  than a friend. Sun pours into Vanities, the restaurant empties out, it nears three. She 
  orders a glass of chardonnay, then another, then the check. She has relaxed but 
  something happens. My heartbeat rises and falls, momentarily stabilizes. I listen 
  carefully. Possibilities once imagined plummet. She lowers her eyes and when she 
  looks back at me I lower mine. 
     “So,” she asks. “Are you seeing anyone?” 
     “My life is essentially uncomplicated,” I say thoughtfully, caught off guard. 
     “What does that mean?” she asks. 
     I take a sip of cognac and smile secretly to myself, teasing her, dashing her hopes, 
  her dreams of being reunited. 
     “Are you seeing anyone, Patrick?” she asks. “Come on, tell me.’ 
     Thinking of Evelyn, I murmur to myself, “Yes.” 
     “Who?” I hear her ask. 
     “A very large bottle of Desyrel,” I say in a faraway voice, suddenly very sad. 
     “What?” she asks, smiling, but then she realizes something and shakes her head. “I 
  shouldn’t be drinking.” 
     “No, I’m not really,” I say, snapping out of it, then, not of my own accord, “I mean, does 
  
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  anyone really see anyone? Does anyone really see anyone else? Did you ever see me? 
  See? What does that mean? Ha! See? Ha! I just don’t get it. Ha!” I laugh. 
     After taking this in, she says, nodding; “That has a certain kind of tangled logic to it, I 
  suppose.” 
     Another long pause and I fearfully ask the next question. “Well, are you seeing 
  anyone?” 
     She smiles, pleased with herself, and still looking down, admits, with incomparable 
  clarity, “Well, yes, I have a boyfriend and—” 
     “Who?” 
     “What?” She looks up. 
     “Who is he? What’s his name?” 
     “Robert Hall. Why?” 
     “With Salomon Brothers?” 
     “No, he’s a chef.” 
     “With Salomon Brothers?” 
     “Patrick, he’s a chef. And co-owner of a restaurant.” 
     “Which one?” 
     “Does it matter?” 
     “No, really, which one?” I ask, then under my breath, “I want to cross it out of my 
  Zagat guide.” 
     “Its called Dorsia,” she says, then, “Patrick, are you okay?” 
     Yes, my brain does explode and my stomach bursts open inwardly—a spastic, acidic, 
  gastric reaction; stars and planets, whole galaxies made up entirely of little white chef 
  hats, race over the film of my vision. I choke out another question. 
     “Why Robert Hall?” I ask. “Why him?” 
     “Well, I don’t know,” she says, sounding a little tipsy. “I guess it has to do with being 
  twenty-seven and—” 
     “Yeah? So am I. So is half of Manhattan. So what? That’s no excuse to marry Robert 
  Hall.” 
     “Marry?” she asks, wide-eyed, defensive. “Did I say that?” 
     “Didn’t you say marry?” 
     “No, I didn’t, but who knows.” She shrugs. “We might.” 
     “Ter-rific.” 
     “As I was saying, Patrick”—she glares at me, but in a playful way that makes me 
  sick—“I think.you know that, well, time is running out. That biological clock just won’t 
  stop ticking,” she says, and I’m thinking: My god, it took only two glasses of chardonnay 
  to get her to admit this? Christ, what a lightweight. “I want to have children.” 
     “With Robert Hall?” I ask, incredulous. “You might as well do it with Captain Lou 
  Albano, for Christ sakes. I just don’t get you. Bethany.” 
     She touches her napkin, looking down and then out onto the sidewalk, where waiters 
  are setting up tables for dinner. I watch them too. “Why do I sense hostility on your part, 
  Patrick?” she asks softly, then sips her wine. 
     “Maybe because I’m hostile,” I spit out. “Maybe because you sense this.” 
     “Jesus, Patrick,” she says, searching my face, genuinely upset. “I thought you and 
  Robert were friends.” 
     “What?” I ask. “I’m confused.” 
     “Weren’t you and Robert friends?” 
     I pause, doubtful. “Were we?” 
     “Yes, Patrick, you were.” 
     “Robert Hall, Robert Hall, Robert Hall,” I mutter to myself, trying to remember. 
  “Scholarship student? President of our senior class?” I think about it a second longer, 
  then add, “Weak chin?” 
     “No, Patrick,” she says. “The other Robert Hall.” 
     “I’m confusing him with the other Robert Hall?” I ask. 
     “Yes, Patrick,” she says, exasperated. 
  
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     Inwardly cringing, I close my eyes and sigh. “Robert Hall. Not the one whose parents 
  own half of, like, Washington? Not the one who was”—I gulp—“captain of the crew 
  team? Six feet?” 
     “Yes,” she says. “That Robert Hall.” 
     “But…” I stop. 
     “Yes? But what? ” She seems prepared to wait for an answer. 
     “But he was a fag, ” I blurt out. 
     “No, he was not, Patrick,” she says, clearly offended. 
     “I’m positive he was a fag.” I start nodding my head. 
     “Why are you so positive?” she asks, not amused. 
     “Because he used to let frat guys—not the ones in my house—like, you know, gang 
  bang him at parties and tie him up and stuff. At least, you know, that’s what I’ve heard,” I 
  say sincerely, and then, more humiliated than I have ever been in my entire life, I 
  confess, “Listen, Bethany, he offered me a… you know, a blow job once. In the, um, 
  civics section of the library.” 
     “Oh my god,” she gasps, disgusted. “Where’s the check?” 
     “Didn’t Robert Hall get kicked out for doing his thesis on Babar? Or something like 
  Babar?” I ask. “Babar the elephant? The, oh Jesus, French elephant?” 
     “What are you talking about?” 
     “Listen to me,” I say. “Didn’t he go to business school at Kellogg? At Northwestern, 
  right?” 
     “He dropped out,” she says without looking at me. 
     “Listen.” I touch her hand. 
     She flinches and pulls back. 
     I try to smile. “Robert Hall’s not a fag—” 
     “I can assure you of that,” she says a tad too smugly. How can anyone get indignant 
  over Robert Hall? Instead of saying “Oh yeah, you dumb sorry bitch” I say soothingly, 
  “I’m sure you can,” then, “Tell me about him. I want to know how things stand with the 
  two of you,” and then, smiling, furious, full of rage, I apologize. “I’m sorry.” 
     It takes some time but she finally relents and smiles back at me and I ask her, once 
  again, “Tell me more,” and then, under my breath, smiling a rictus at her, “I’d like to slice 
  open your beaver.” The chardonnay has mellowed her, so she softens and talks freely. 
     I think about other things while she describes her recent past: air, water, sky, time, a 
  moment, a point somewhere when I wanted to show her everything beautiful in the 
  world. I have no patience for revelations, for new beginnings, for events that take place 
  beyond the realm of my immediate vision. A young girl, a freshman, I met in a bar in 
  Cambridge my junior year at Harvard told me early one fall that “Life is full of endless 
  possibilities.” I tried valiantly not to choke on the beer nuts I was chewing while she 
  gushed this kidney stone of wisdom, and I calmly washed them down with the rest of a 
  Heineken, smiled and concentrated on the dart game that was going on in the corner. 
  Needless to say, she did not live to see her sophomore year. That winter, her body was 
  found floating in the Charles River, decapitated, her head hung from a tree on the bank, 
  her hair knotted around a low-hanging branch, three miles away. My rages at Harvard 
  were less violent than the ones now and it’s useless to hope that my disgust will 
  vanish—there is just no way. 
     “Oh, Patrick,” she’s saying. “You’re still the same. I don’t know if that’s good or bad.” 
     “Say it’s good.” 
     “Why? Is it?” she asks, frowning. “Was it? Then?” 
     “You only knew one facet of my personality,” I say. “Student.” 
     “Lover?” she asks, her voice reminding me of someone human. 
     My eyes fall on her coldly, untouched. Out on the street, music that sounds like salsa 
  blares. The waiter finally brings the check. 
     “I’ll pay for it,” I sigh. 
     “No,” she says, opening her handbag. “I invited you.” 
     “But I have a platinum American Express card,” I tell her. 
  
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     “But so do I,” she says, smiling. 
     I pause, then watch her place the card on the tray the check came on. Violent 
  convulsions seem close at hand if I do not get up. “The women’s movement. Wow.” I 
  smile, unimpressed. 
     Outside, she waits on the sidewalk while I’m in the men’s room throwing up my lunch, 
  spitting out the squid, undigested and less purple than it was on my plate. When I come 
  out of Vanities onto the street, putting on my Wayfarers, chewing a Cert, I murmur 
  something to myself, and then I kiss her on the cheek and make up something else. 
  “Sorry it took so long. Had to call my lawyer.” 
     “Oh?” She acts concerned—the dumb bitch. 
     ‘Just a friend of mine.” I shrug. “Bobby Chambers. He’s in prison. Some friends of his, 
  well, mainly me, are trying to remount his defense,” I say with another shrug, then, 
  changing the subject, “Listen.” 
     “Yes?” she asks, smiling. 
     “It’s late. I don’t want to go back to the office,” I say, checking my Rolex. The sun, 
  setting, glints off it, momentarily blinding her. “Why don’t you come up to my place?” 
     “What?” She laughs. 
     “Why don’t you come up to my place?” I suggest again. 
     “Patrick.” She laughs suggestively. “Are you serious?” 
     “I have a bottle of Pouilly-Fuissé, chilled, huh?” I say, arching my eyebrows. 
     “Listen, that line might’ve worked at Harvard but”—she laughs, then continues—“um, 
  we’re older now and...” She stops. 
     “And… what?” I ask. 
     “I shouldn’t have had that wine at lunch,” she says again. 
     We start walking. It’s a hundred degrees outside, impossible to breathe. It’s not day, 
  it’s not night. The sky seems yellow. I hand a beggar on the cornea of Duane and 
  Greenwich a dollar just to impress her. 
     “Listen, come over,” I say again, almost whining. “Come on over.” 
     “I can t,” she says. “The air-conditioning in my office is broken but I can’t. I’d like to but 
  I can’t.” 
     “Aw come on,” I say, grabbing her shoulders, giving them a good-natured squeeze. 
     “Patrick, I have to be back at the office,” she groans, protesting weakly. 
     “But you’ll be swelt ering in there,” I point out. 
     “I have no choice.” 
     “Come on.” Then, trying to entice her, “I have a 1940s Durgin Gorham four-piece 
  sterling silver tea and coffee set I’d like to show you.” 
     “I can’t.” She laughs, putting on her sunglasses. 
     “Bethany,” I say, warning her. 
     “Listen,” she says, relenting. “I’ll buy you a Dove Bar. Have a Dove Bar instead.” 
     “I’m appalled. Do you know how many grams of fat, of sodium, are in the chocolate 
  covering alone?” I gasp, mock horrified. 
     “Come on,” she says. “You don’t need to worry about that.” 
     “No, you come on,” I say, walking in front of her for a little while so she won’t sense 
  any aggressiveness on my part. “Listen, come by for a drink and then we’ll walk over to 
  Dorsia and I’ll meet Robert, okay?” I turn around, still walking, but backward now. 
  “Please?” 
     “Patrick,” she says. “You’re begging.” 
     “I really want to show you that Durgin Gorham tea set.” I pause. “Please?” I pause 
  again. “It cost me three and a half thousand dollars.” 
     She stops walking because I stop, looks down, and when she looks back up her brow, 
  both cheeks, are damp with a layer of perspiration, a fine sheen. She’s hot. She sighs, 
  smiling to herself. She looks at her watch. 
     “Well?” I ask. 
     “If I did…,” she starts. 
     “Ye-e-es?” I ask, stretching the word out. 
  
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     “If I did, I have to make a phone call.” 
     “No, negative,” I say, waving down a cab. “Call from my place.” 
     “Patrick,” she protests. “There’s a phone right over there.” 
     “Let’s go now,” I say. “There’s a taxi.” 
     In the cab heading toward the Upper West Side, she says, “I shouldn’t have had that 
  wine.” 
     “Are you drunk?” 
     “No,” she says, fanning herself with a playbill from Les Misérables someone left in the 
  backseat of the cab, which isn’t air-conditioned and even with both windows open she 
  keeps fanning herself. “Just slightly… tipsy..” 
     We both laugh for no reason and she leans into me, then realizes something and pulls 
  back. “You have a doorman, right?” she asks suspiciously. 
     “Yes.” I smile, turned on by her unawareness of just how close to peril she really is. 
     Inside my apartment. She moves into the living room area, nodding her head 
  approvingly, murmuring, “Very nice, Mr. Bateman, very nice.” Meanwhile I’m locking the 
  door, making sure it’s bolted shut, then I move over to the bar and pour some J&B into a 
  glass while she runs her hand over the Wurlitzer jukebox, inspecting it. I’ve started 
  growling to myself and my hands are shaking so badly I decide to forgo any ice and then 
  I’m in the living room, standing behind her while she looks up at the David Onica that’s 
  hung above the fireplace. She cocks her head, studying it, then she starts giggling and 
  looks at me, puzzled, then back at the Onica, still laughing. I don’t ask what’s wrong—I 
  could care less. Downing the drink in a single gulp, I move over to the Anaholian white-
  oak armoire where I keep a brand-new nail gun I bought last week at a hardware store 
  near my office in Wall Street. After I’ve slipped on a pair of black leather gloves, I make 
  sure the nail gun is loaded. 
     “Patrick?” Bethany asks, still giggling. 
     “Yes?” I say, then, “Darling?” 
     “Who hung the Onica?” she asks. 
     “You like it?” I ask. 
     “It’s fine, but…” She stops, then says, “I’m pretty sure it’s hung upside down.” 
     “What?” 
     “Who hung the Onica?” 
     “I did,” I say, my back still to her. 
     “You’ve hung the Onica upside down.” She laughs. 
     “Hmmm?” I’m standing at the armoire, squeezing the nail gun, getting used to its 
  weight in my gloved fist. 
     “I can’t believe it’s upside down,” she says. “How long has it been this way?” 
     “A millennium,” I whisper, turning around, nearing her. 
     “What?” she asks, still studying the Onica. 
     “I said, what in the fuck are you doing with Robert Hall?” I whisper. 
     “What did you say?” As if in slow motion, like in a movie, she turns around. 
     I wait until she’s seen the nail gun and the gloved hands to scream, “What the fuck are 
  you doing with Robert Hall? ” 
     Perhaps on instinct, perhaps from memory, she makes a futile dash for the front door, 
  crying out. Though the chardonnay has dulled her reflexes, the Scotch I’ve drunk has 
  sharpened mine, and effortlessly I’m leaping in front of her, blocking her escape, 
  knocking her unconscious with four blows to the head from the nail gun. I drag her back 
  into the living room, laying her across the floor over a white Voilacutro cotton sheet, and 
  then I stretch her arms out, placing her hands flat on thick wooden boards, palms up, 
  and nail three fingers on each hand, at random, to the wood by their tips. This causes 
  her to regain consciousness and she starts screaming. After I’ve sprayed Mace into her 
  eyes, mouth, into her nostrils, I place a camel-hair coat from Ralph Lauren over her 
  head, which drowns out the screams, sort of. I keep shooting nails into her hands until 
  they’re both covered—nails bunched together, twisted over each other in places, making 
  it impossible for her to try and sit up. I have to remove her shoes, which slightly 
  
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  disappoints me, but she’s kicking at the floor violently, leaving black scuff marks on the 
  stained white oak. During this period I keep shouting “You bitch” at her and then my 
  voice drops to a raspy whisper and into her ear I drool the line “You fucking cunt.” 
     Finally, in agony, after I’ve taken the coat off her face, she starts pleading, or at least 
  tries to, the adrenaline momentarily overpowering the pain. “Patrick oh god stop it 
  please oh god stop hurting me…” But, typically, the pain returns—it’s too intense not 
  to—and she passes out again and vomits, while unconscious, and I have to hold her 
  head up so she doesn’t choke on it and then I Mace her again. The fingers I haven’t 
  nailed I try to bite off, almost succeeding on her left thumb which I manage to chew all 
  the flesh off of, leaving the bone exposed, and then I Mace her, needlessly, once more. I 
  place the camel-hair coat back over her head in case she wakes up screaming, then set 
  up the Sony palm-sized Handycam so I can film all of what follows. Once it’s placed on 
  its stand and running on automatic, with a pair of scissors I start to cut off her dress and 
  when I get up to her chest I occasionally stab at her breasts, accidentally (not really) 
  slicing off one of her nipples through the bra. She starts screaming again once I’ve 
  ripped her dress off, leaving Bethany in only her bra, its right cup darkened with blood, 
  and her panties, which are soaked with urine, saving them for later. 
     I lean in above her and shout, over her screams, “Try to scream, scream, keep 
  screaming…” I’ve opened all the windows and the door to my terrace and when I stand 
  over her, the mouth opens and not even screams come out anymore, just horrible, 
  guttural, animal-like noises, sometimes interrupted by retching sounds. “Scream, 
  honey,” I urge, “keep screaming.” I lean down, even closer, brushing her hair back. “No 
  one cares. No one will help you…” She tries to cry out again but she’s losing 
  consciousness and she’s capable of only a weak moan. I take advantage of her helpless 
  state and, removing my gloves, force her mouth open and with the scissors cut out her 
  tongue, which I pull easily from her mouth and hold in the palm of my hand, warm and 
  still bleeding, seeming so much smaller than in her mouth, and I throw it against the 
  wall, where it sticks for a moment, leaving a stain, before falling to the floor with a tiny 
  wet slap. Blood gushes out of her mouth and I have to hold her head up so she won’t 
  choke. Then I fuck her in the mouth, and after I’ve ejaculated and pulled out, I Mace her 
  some more. 
     Later, when she briefly regains consciousness, I put on a porkpie hat I was given by 
  one of my girlfriends freshman year at Harvard. 
     “Remember this?” I shout, towering over her. “And look at this!” I scream triumphantly, 
  holding up a cigar. “I still smoke cigars. Ha. See? A cigar.” I light it with steady, 
  bloodstained fingers, and her face, pale to the point of blueness, keeps contracting, 
  twitching with pain, her eyes, dull with horror, close, then open halfway, her life reduced 
  to nightmare. 
     “And another thing,” I yell, pacing. “It’s not Carrick Anderson either. The suit is by 
  Armani! Giorgio Armani.” I pause spitefully and, leaning into her, sneer, “And you 
  thought it was Henry Stuart. Jesus.” I slap her hard across the face and hiss the words 
  “Dumb bitch,” spraying her face with spit, but it’s covered with so much Mace that she 
  probably can’t even feel it, so I Mace her again and then I try to fuck her in the mouth 
  once more but I can’t come so I stop. 
  Thursday 
     Later, the next night in fact, three of us, Craig McDermott, Courtney and myself, are in 
  a cab heading toward Nell’s and talking about Evian water. Courtney, in an Armani 
  mink, has just admitted, giggling, that she uses Evian for ice cubes, which sparks a 
  conversation about the differences in bottled water, and at Courtney’s request we each 
  try to list as many brands as we can. 
     Courtney starts, counting each name off on one of her fingers. “Well, there’s Sparcal, 
  Perrier, San Pellegrino, Poland Spring, Calistoga…” She stops, stuck, and looks over at 
  McDermott for help. 
  
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     He sighs, then lists, “Canadian Spring, Canadian Calm, Montclair, which is also from 
  Canada, Vittel from France, Crodo, which is Italian…” He stops and rubs his chin 
  thoughtfully, thinking of one more, then announces it as if surprised. “Elan.” And though 
  it seems he’s on the verge of naming another one, Craig lapses into an unilluminating 
  silence. 
     “Elan?” Courtney asks. 
     “It’s from Switzerland,” he says. 
     “Oh,” she says, then turns to me. “It’s your turn, Patrick.” 
     Staring out the window of the cab, lost in thought, the silence I’m causing filling me 
  with a nameless dread, numbly, by rote, I list the following. “You forgot Alpenwasser, 
  Down Under, Schat, which is from Lebanon, Qubol and Cold Springs—” 
     “I said that one already,” Courtney cuts in, accusingly. 
     “No,” I say. “You said Poland Spring.” 
     “Is that right?” Courtney murmurs, then tugging at McDermott’s overcoat, “Is he right, 
  Craig?” 
     “Probably.” McDermott shrugs. “I guess.” 
     “You must also remember that one should always buy mineral water in glass bottles. 
  You shouldn’t buy it in plastic ones,” I say ominously, then wait for one of them to ask 
  me why. 
     “Why?” Courtney’s voice is tinged with actual interest. 
     “Because it oxidizes,” I explain. “You want it to be crisp, with no aftertaste..” 
     After a long, confused, Courtney-like pause, McDermott admits, staring out the 
  window, “He’s right.” 
     “I really don’t understand the differences in water,” Courtney murmurs. She’s sitting 
  between McDermott and myself in the back of the cab and under the mink has on a 
  wool twill suit by Givenchy, tights by Calvin Klein and shoes by Warren Susan Allen 
  Edmonds. Earlier, in this same cab, when I touched the mink suggestively, with no intent 
  other than to check its quality and she could sense this, Courtney quietly asked me if I 
  had a breath mint. I said nothing. 
     “What do you mean?” McDermott inquires solemnly: 
     “Well,” she says, “I mean what’s really the difference between something like spring 
  water and natural water, for instance, or, I mean, is there one?” 
     “Courtney. Natural water is any water from an underground source,” Craig sighs, still 
  staring out the window. “Mineral content hasn’t been changed, although the water may 
  have been disinfected or filtered.” McDermott is wearing a wool tuxedo with notched 
  lapels by Cianni Versace, and he reeks of Xeryus. 
     I momentarily break out of my conscious inertia to explain further: “And in spring 
  water, minerals may have been added or removed and it’s usually filtered, not 
  processed.” I pause. “Seventy-five percent of all bottled water in America is actually 
  spring water.” I pause again, then ask the cab, “Did anyone know that?” 
     A long, soulless pause follows and then Courtney asks another question, this one only 
  half finished. “The differences between distilled and purified water is…?” 
     I’m not really listening to any of this conversation, not even to myself, because I’m 
  thinking of ways to get rid of Bethany’s body, or at least debating whether or not I should 
  keep it in my apartment another day or so. If I decide to get rid of it tonight, I can easily 
  stuff what’s left of her into a Hefty garbage bag and leave it in the stairwell; or I can exert 
  the extra effort and drag it into the street, leaving it with the rest of the trash on the curb. 
  I could even take it to the apartment in Hell’s Kitchen and pour lime over it, smoke a 
  cigar and watch it dissolve while listening to my Walkman, but I want to keep the men’s 
  bodies separate from the women’s, and besides, I also want to watch Bloodhungry, the 
  videotape I rented this afternoon—its ad line reads, “Some clowns make you laugh, but 
  Bobo will make you die and then he’ll eat your body”—and a midnight trip to Hell’s 
  Kitchen, even without a stop at Bellvue’s for a small bite to eat, wouldn’t give me enough 
  time. Bethany’s bones and most of her intestines and flesh will probably get dumped 
  into the incinerator down the hall from my apartment. 
  
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     Courtney, McDermott and I have just left a Morgan Stanley party that took place near 
  the Seaport at the tip of Manhattan in a new club called Goldcard, which seemed like a 
  vast city of its own and where I ran into Walter Rhodes, a total Canadian, whom I 
  haven’t seen since Exeter and who also, like McDermott, reeked of Xeryus, and I 
  actually told him, “Listen, I’m trying to stay away from people. I’m avoiding even 
  speaking to them,” and then I asked to be excused. Only slightly stunned, Walter said, 
  “Uh, sure, I, um, understand.” I’m wearing a six-button double-breasted wool-crepe 
  tuxedo with pleated trousers and a silk grosgrain bow tie, all by Valentino. Luis 
  Carruthers is in Atlanta for the week. I did a line of coke with Herbert Gittes at Goldcard 
  and before McDermott hailed this cab to head for Nell’s I took a Halcion to get rid of the 
  edge from the cocaine, but it hasn’t sunk in yet. Courtney seems attracted to McDermott 
  and since her Chembank card wasn’t functioning tonight, at least not at the automated 
  teller we stopped at (the reason being she uses it too often to cut lines of coke with, 
  though she would never admit this; cocaine residue has, at various times, fucked up my 
  card also) and McDermott’s was working, she bypassed mine in favor of his, which 
  means, knowing Courtney, that she wants to fuck McDermott. But it doesn’t really 
  matter. Even though I’m more handsome than Craig, we both look pretty much the 
  same. Talking animals were the topic of this morning’s Patty Winters Show. An octopus 
  was floating in a makeshift aquarium with a microphone attached to one of its tentacles 
  and it kept asking—or so its “trainer,” who is positive that mollusks have vocal cords, 
  assured us—for “cheese.” I watched, vaguely transfixed, until I started to sob. A beggar 
  dressed as a Hawaiian frets over a garbage can on the darkened corner of Eighth and 
  Tenth. 
     “With distilled or purified water,” McDermott is saying, “most of the minerals have been 
  removed. The water has been boiled and the steam condensed into purified water.” 
     “Wheras distilled water has a flat taste and it’s usually not for drinking.” I find myself 
  yawning. 
     “And mineral water?” Courtney asks. 
     “It’s not defined by the—” McDermott and I start simultaneously. 
     “Go ahead,” I say, yawning again, causing Courtney to yawn also. 
     “No, you go ahead,” he says apathetically. 
     “It’s not defined by the FDA,” I tell her. “It has no chemicals or salts or sugars or 
  caffeine.” 
     “And sparkling water gets its fizz from carbon dioxide, right?” she asks. 
     “Yes.” Both McDermott and I nod, staring straight ahead. 
     “I knew that,” she says hesitantly, and by the tone of her voice I can sense, without 
  looking over, that she probably smiles when she says this. 
     “But only buy naturally sparkling water,” I caution. “Because that means the carbon 
  dioxide content is in the water at its source.” 
     “Club soda and seltzer, for example, are artificially carbonated,” McDermott explains. 
     “White Rock seltzer is an exception,” I mention, nonplussed by McDermott’s 
  ridiculous, incessant one-upmanship. “Ramlösa sparkling mineral water is also very 
  good.” 
     The cab is about to turn onto Fourteenth street, but maybe four or five limousines are 
  trying to make the same right so we miss the light. I curse the driver but an old Motown 
  song from the sixties, maybe it’s the Supremes, plays muted, up front, the sound 
  blocked by the fiberglass partition. I try to open it but it’s locked and won’t slide across. 
  Courtney asks, “What kind should you drink after exercising?” 
     “Well,” I sigh. “Whatever it is, it should be really cold.” 
     “Because?” she asks. 
     “Because it’s absorbed faster than if it was at room temperature.” Absently I check my 
  Rolex. “It should probably be water. Evian. But not in plastic.” 
     “My trainer says Gatorade’s okay,” McDermott counters. 
     “But don’t you hunk water is the best fluid replacer since it enters the bloodstream 
  faster than and other liquid?” I can’t help but add, “Buddy?” 
  
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     I check my watch again. If I have one J&B on the rocks at Nell’s I can make it home in 
  time to watch all of Bloodhungry by two. Again it’s silent in the cab, which moves 
  steadily toward the crowd outside the club, the limousines dropping off passengers then 
  moving on, each of us concentrating on that, and also on the sky above the city, which 
  is heavy, looming with dark clouds. The limousines keep blaring their horns at each 
  other, solving nothing. My throat, because of the coke I did with Gittes, feels parched 
  and I swallow, trying to wet it. Posters for a sale at Crabtree & Evelyn line the boarded 
  windows of abandoned tenement. buildings on the other side of this street. Spell 
  “mogul,” Bateman. How do you spell mogul? M-o-g-u-l. Mo-gul. Mog-ul. Ice, ghosts, 
  aliens— 
     “I don’t like Evian,” McDermott says somewhat sadly. “It’s too sweet.” He looks so 
  miserable when he admits this that it moves me to agree. 
     Glancing over at him in the darkness of the cab, realizing he’s probably going to end 
  up in bed with Courtney tonight, I feel an instantaneous moment of pity for him. 
     “Yes. McDermott,” I say slowly. “Evian is too sweet.” 
     Earlier, there was so much of Bethany’s blood pooled on the floor that I could make 
  out my reflection in it while I reached for one of my cordless phones, and I watched 
  myself make a haircut appointment at Gio’s. Courtney breaks my trance by admitting, “I 
  was afraid to try Pellegrino for the first time.” She looks over at me nervously—expecting 
  me to… what, agree?—then at McDermott, who offers her a wan, tight smile. “But once I 
  did, it was… fine.” 
     “How courageous,” I murmur, yawning again, the cab inching its way toward Nell’s, 
  then, raising my voice, “Listen, does anyone know of a device you can hook up to your 
  phone to simulate that call-waiting sound?” 
     Back at my place I stand over Bethany’s body, sipping a drink contemplatively, 
  studying its condition. Both eyelids are open halfway and her lower teeth look as if 
  they’re jutting out since her lips have been torn—actually bitten—off. Earlier in the day I 
  had sawed off her left arm, which is what finally killed her, and right now I pick it up, 
  holding it by the bone that protrudes from where her hand used to be (I have no idea 
  where it is now: the freezer? the closet?), clenching it in my fist like a pipe, flesh and 
  muscle still clinging to it though a lot of it has been hacked or gnawed off, and I bring it 
  down on her head. It takes very few blows, five or six at most, to smash her jaw open 
  completely, and only two more for her face to cave in on itself. 
  Whitney Houston 
     Whitney Houston burst onto the music scene in 1985 with her self-titled LP which had 
  four number one hit singles on it, including “The Greatest Love of All,” “You Give Good 
  Love” and “Saving All My Love for You,” plus it won a Grammy Award for best pop vocal 
  performance by a female and two American Music Awards, one for best rhythm and 
  blues single and another for best rhythm and blues video. She was also cited as best 
  new artist of the year by Billboard and by Rolling Stone magazine. With all this hype one 
  might expect the album to be an anticlimactic, lackluster affair, but the surprise is that 
  Whitney Houston (Arista) is one of the warmest, most complex and altogether satisfying 
  rhythm and blues records of the decade and Whitney herself has a voice that defies 
  belief. From the elegant, beautiful photo of her on the cover of the album (in a gown by 
  Giovanne De Maura) and its fairly sexy counterpart on the back (in a bathing suit by 
  Norma Kaman) one knows that this isn’t going to be a blandly professional affair; the 
  record is smooth but intense and Whitney’s voice leaps across so many boundaries and 
  is so versatile (though she’s mainly ajazz singer) that it’s hard to take in the album on a 
  first listening. But you won’t want to. You’ll want to savor it over many. 
     It opens with “You Give Good Love” and “Thinking About You,” both produced and 
  arranged by Kashif, and they emanate warm, lush jazz arrangements but with a 
  contemporary synthesized beat and though they’re both really good songs, the album 
  doesn’t get kicking until “Someone for Me” which was produced by Jermaine Jackson, 
  
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  where Whitney sings longingly against a jazz-disco background and the difference 
  between her longing and the sprightliness of the song is very moving. The ballad 
  “Saving All My Love for You” is the sexiest, most romantic song on the record. It also 
  has a killer saxophone solo by Tom Scott and one can hear the influences of sixties girl-
  group pop in it (it was cowritten by Gerry Goffin) but the sixties girl groups were never 
  this emotional or sexy (or as well produced) as this song is. “Nobody Loves Me Like You 
  Do” is a glorious duet with Jermaine Jackson (who also produced it) and just one 
  example of how sophisticated lyrically this album is. The last thing it suffers from is a 
  paucity of decent lyrics which is what usually happens when a singer doesn’t write her 
  own material and has to have her producer choose it. But Whitney and company have 
  picked well here. 
     The dance single “How Will I Know” (my vote for best dance song of the 1980s) is a 
  joyous ode to a girl’s nervousness about whether another guy is interested in her. It’s 
  got a great keyboard riff and it’s the only track on the album produced by wunderkind 
  producer Narada Michael Walden. My own personal favorite ballad (aside from ‘The 
  Greatest Love of All”—her crowning achievement) is “All at Once” which is about how a 
  young woman realizes all at once her lover is fading away from her and it’s 
  accompanied by a gorgeous string arrangement. Even though nothing on the album 
  sounds like filler, the only track that might come close is “Take Good Care of My Heart,” 
  another duet with Jermaine Jackson. The problem is that it strays from the album’s jazz 
  roots and seems too in. fluenced by 1980s dance music. 
     But Whitney’s talent is restored with the overwhelming “The Greatest Love of All,” one 
  of the best, most powerful songs ever written about self-preservation and dignity. From 
  the first line (Michael Masser and Linda Creed are credited as the writers) to the last, it’s 
  a state-of-the-art ballad about believing in yourself. It’s a powerful statement and one 
  that Whitney sings with a grandeur that approaches the sublime. Its universal message 
  crosses all boundaries and instills one with the hope that it’s not too late for us to better 
  ourselves, to act kinder. Since it’s impossible in the world we live in to empathize with 
  others, we can always empathize with ourselves. It’s an important message, crucial 
  really, and it’s beautifully stated on this album. 
     Her second effort, Whitney (Arista, 1987), had four number one singles, “I Wanna 
  Dance with Somebody,” “So Emotional,” “Didn’t We Almost Have It All?” and “Where Do 
  Broken Hearts Go?” and was mostly produced by Narada Michael Walden and though 
  it’s not as serious an effort as Whitney Houston it’s hardly a victim of Sophomore Slump. 
  It starts off with the bouncy; danceable “I Wanna Dance with Somebody (Who Loves 
  Me)” which is in the same vein as the last album’s irrepressible “How Will I Know.” This 
  is followed by the sensuous “Just the Lonely Talking Again” and it reflects the serious 
  jazz influence that permeated the first album and one can also sense a newfound artistic 
  maturity in Whitney’s voice—she did all the vocal arrangements on this album—and this 
  is all very evident on “Love Will Save the Day” which is the most ambitious song 
  Whitney’s yet performed. It was produced by Jellybean Benitez and it pulsates with an 
  uptempo intensity and like most of the songs on this album it reflects a grownup’s 
  awareness of the world we all live in. She sings and we believe it. This is quite a change 
  from the softer, little-girl-lost image that was so appealing on the first album. 
     She projects an even more adult image on the Michael Masser-produced “Didn’t We 
  Almost Have It All,” a song about meeting up with a long-lost lover and letting him know 
  your feelings about the past affair, and it’s Whitney at her most poetic. And as on most 
  of the ballads there’s a gorgeous string arrangement. “So Emotional” is in the same vein 
  as “How Will I Know” and “I Wanna Dance with Somebody” but it’s even more rock-
  influenced and, like all the songs on Whitney, played by a terrific backup studio band 
  with Narada on drum machine, Wolter Afanasieff on the synthesizer and synth bass, 
  Corrado Rustici on synth guitar, and someone listed as Bongo Bob on percussion 
  programming and drum sampling. “Where You Are” is the only song on the album 
  produced by Kashif and it bears his indelible imprint of professionalism—it has a 
  smooth, gleaming sound and sheen to it with a funky sax solo by Vincent Henry. It 
  
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  sounded like a hit single to me (but then all the songs on the album do) and I wondered 
  why it wasn’t released as one. 
     “Love Is a Contact Sport” is the album’s real surprise—a big-sounding, bold, sexy 
  number that, in terms of production, is the album’s centerpiece, and it has great lyrics 
  along with a good beat. It’s one of my favorites. On “You’re Still My Man” you can hear 
  how clearly Whitney’s voice is like an instrument—a flawless, warm machine that almost 
  overpowers the sentiment of her music, but the lyrics and the melodies are too 
  distinctive, too strong to let any singer, even one of Whitney’s caliber, overshadow them. 
  “For the Love of You” shows off Narada’s brilliant drum programming capabilities and its 
  jazzy modern feel harks back not only to purveyors of modern jazz like Michael Jackson 
  and Sade but also to other artists, like Miles Davis, Paul Butterfield and Bobby McFerrin. 
     “Where Do Broken Hearts Go” is the album’s most powerful emotional statement of 
  innocence lost and trying to regain the safety of childhood. Her voice is as lovely and 
  controlled as it ever has been and it leads up to “I Know Him So Well,” the most moving 
  moment on the record because it’s first and foremost a duet with her mother, Cissy. It’s 
  a ballad about… who?—a lover shared? a long-lost father?—with a combination of 
  longing, regret, determination and beauty that ends the album on a graceful, perfect 
  note. We can expect new things from Whitney (she made a stunning gift to the 1988 
  Olympics with the ballad “One Moment in Time”) but even if we didn’t, she would remain 
  the most exciting and original black jazz voice of her generation. 
  Dinner with Secretary 
     Monday night at eight o’clock. I’m in my office attempting yesterday’s New York Times 
  Sunday crossword puzzle, listening to rap music on the stereo, trying to fathom its 
  popularity, since a little blonde hardbody I met at Au Bar two nights ago told me that rap 
  is all she listens to, and though later I beat the living shit out of her at someone’s 
  apartment in the Dakota (she was almost decapitated; hardly a strange experience for 
  me), earlier this morning her taste in music haunted my memory and I had to stop at 
  Tower Records on the Upper West Side and buy ninety dollars’ worth of rap CDs but, as 
  expected, I’m at a loss: niggerish voices uttering ugly words like digit, pudding, chunk. 
  Jean sits at her desk, which is piled high with reams of documents that I want her to go 
  over. Today has not been bad: I worked out for two hours before the office; the new 
  Robison Hirsch restaurant called Finna opened in Chelsea; Evelyn left two messages on 
  my answering machine and another with Jean, letting me know that she’ll be in Boston 
  for most of the week; and best of all, The Patty Winters Show this morning was in two 
  parts. The first was an exclusive interview with Donald Trump, the second was a report 
  on women who’ve been tortured. I’m supposed to have dinner with Madison Grey and 
  David Campion at Café Luxembourg, but at eight-fifteen I find out that Luis Carruthers is 
  going to be dining with us so I call up Campion, the dumb bastard, and cancel, then 
  spend minutes debating about what I should do with the rest of the evening. Looking out 
  my window, I realize that within moments the sky above this city will be completely dark. 
     Jean peers into my office, knocking gently on the half-open door. I pretend not to 
  acknowledge her presence, though I’m not sure why, since I’m kind of lonely. She 
  moves up to the desk. I’m still staring at the crossword puzzle with my Wayfarers on, 
  stunned but for no real reason. 
     She places a file on top of the desk before asking, “Doin’ the crossword?” dropping the 
  g in “doing”—a pathetic gesture of intimacy, an irritating stab at forced friendliness. I gag 
  inwardly, then nod without looking up at her. 
     “Need help?” she asks, moving cautiously around the desk to where I sit, and she 
  leans over my shoulder to offer assistance. I’ve already filled in every space with either 
  the word meat or bone and she emits only a slight gasp when noticing this, and when 
  she sees the pile of No. 2 pencils I’ve snapped in half lying on my desk she dutifully 
  picks them up and walks out of the room. 
     “Jean?” I call. 
  
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     “Yes, Patrick?” She reenters the office trying to downplay her eagerness. 
     “Would you like to accompany me to dinner?” I ask, still staring at the crossword, 
  gingerly erasing the m in one of the many meat s I’ve filled the puzzle with. “That is, if 
  you’re not… doing anything.” 
     “Oh no,” she answers too quickly and then, I think, realizing this quickness, says, “I 
  have no plans.” 
     “Well, isn’t this a coincidence,” I ask, looking up, lowering my Wayfarers. 
     She laughs lightly but there’s a real urgency in it, something uncomfortable, and this 
  does little in the way of making me feel less sick. 
     “I guess,” she shrugs. 
     “I also have tickets to a… a Mills Vanilla concert, if you’d like to go,” I tell her casually. 
     Confused, she asks, “Really? Who?” 
     “Milla… Vanilla,” I repeat slowly. 
     “Milla… Vanilla?” she asks uncomfortably. 
     “Milla… Vanilla,” I say. “I think that’s what their name is.” 
     She says, “I’m not sure.” 
     “About going?” 
     “No… of the name.” She concentrates, then says, “I think they’re called… Milli Vanilli.” 
     I pause for a long time before saying, “Oh.” 
     She stands there, nods once. 
     “It doesn’t matter,” I say—I don’t have any tickets to it anyway. “It’s months from now.” 
     “Oh,” she says, nodding again. “Okay.” 
     “Listen, where should we go?” I lean back and pull my Zagat from the desk’s top 
  drawer. 
     She pauses, afraid of what to say, taking my question as a test she needs to pass, 
  and then, unsure she’s chosen the right answer, offers, “Anywhere you want?” 
     “No, no, no.” I smile, leafing through the booklet. “How about anywhere you want?” 
     “Oh Patrick,” she sighs. “I can’t make this decision.” 
     “No, come on,” I urge. “Anywhere you want.” 
     “Oh I can’t.” Helplessly, she sighs again. “I don’t know.” 
     “Come on,” I urge her, “where do you want to go? Anywhere you want. Just say it. I 
  can get us in anywhere.” 
     She thinks about it for a long time and then, sensing her time is running out, timidly 
  asks, trying to impress me, “What about… Dorsia?” 
     I stop looking through the Zagat guide and without glancing up, smiling tightly, 
  stomach dropping, I silently ask myself, Do I really want to say no? Do I really want to 
  say I can’t possibly get us in? Is that what I’m really prepared to do? Is that what I really 
  want to do? 
     “So-o-o-o,” I say; placing the book down, then nervously opening it up again to find the 
  number. “Dorsia is where Jean wants to go…” 
     “Oh I don’t know,” she says, confused. “No, we’ll go anywhere you want.” 
     “Dorsia is… fine,” I say casually, picking up the phone, and with a trembling finger very 
  quickly dial the seven dreaded numbers, trying to remain cool. Instead of the busy signal 
  I’m expecting, the phone actually rings at Dorsia and after two rings the same harassed 
  voice I’ve grown accustomed to for the past free months answers, shouting out, “Dorsia, 
  yes?” the room behind the voice a deafening hum. 
     “Yes, can you take two tonight, oh, let’s say, in around twenty minutes?” I ask, 
  checking my Rolex, offering Jean a wink. She seems impressed. 
     “We are totally booked,” the maître d’ shouts out smugly. 
     “Oh, really?” I say, trying to look pleased, on the verge of vomiting. “That’s great.” 
     “I said we are totally booked,” he shouts. 
     “Two at nine?” I say. “Perfect.” 
     “There are no tables available tonight,” the maître d’, unflappable, drones. “The 
  waiting list is also totally booked.” He hangs up. 
     “See you then.” I hang up too, and with a smile that tries its best to express pleasure 
  
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  at her choice, I find myself fighting for breath, every muscle tensed sharply. Jean is 
  wearing a wool jersey and flannel dress by Calvin Klein, an alligator belt with a silver 
  buckle by Barry Kieselstein Cord, silver earrings and clear stockings also by Calvin 
  Klein. She stands there in front of the desk, confused. 
     “Yes?” I ask, walking over to the coatrack. “You’re dressed… okay.” 
     She pauses. “You didn’t give them a name,” she says softly. 
     I think about this while putting on my Armani jacket and while reknotting my Armani 
  silk tie, and without stammering I tell her, “They… know me.” 
     While the maître d’ seats a couple who I’m pretty sure are Kate Spencer and Jason 
  Lauder, Jean and I move up to his podium, where the reservation book lies open, 
  names absurdly legible, and leaning over it casually I spot the only name for two at nine 
  without a line drawn through it, which happens to be—oh Jesus—Schrawtz. I sigh, and 
  tapping my foot, my mind racing, I try to concoct some kind of feasible plan. Suddenly I 
  turn to Jean and say, “Why don’t you go to the women’s room.” 
     She’s looking around the restaurant, taking it in. Chaos People are waiting ten deep at 
  the bar. The maître d’ seats the couple at a table in the middle of the room. Sylvester 
  Stallone and a bimbo sit in the front booth that Sean and I sat in just weeks before, 
  much to my sickened amazement, and his bodyguards are piled into the booth next to 
  that, and the owner of Petty’s, Norman Prager, lounges in the third. Jean turns her head 
  to me and shouts “What?” over the din. 
     “Don’t you want to use the ladies’ room?” I ask. The maître d’ nears us, picking his 
  way through the packed restaurant, unsmiling. 
     “Why? I mean… do I?” she asks, totally confused. 
     ‘Just... go,” I hiss, desperately squeezing her arm. 
     “But I don’t need to go, Patrick,” she protests. 
     “Oh Christ,” I mutter. Now it’s too late anyway. 
     The maître d’ walks up to the podium and inspects the book, takes a phone call, 
  hangs up in a matter of seconds, then looks us over, not exactly displeased. The maître 
  d’ is at least fifty and has a ponytail. I clear my throat twice to get his full attention, make 
  some kind of lame eye contact. 
     “Yes?” he asks, as if harassed. 
     I give him a dignified expression before sighing inside. “Reservations at nine…” I gulp. 
  “For two.” 
     “Ye-e-es?” he asks suspiciously, drawing the word out. “Name?” he says, then turns to 
  a passing waiter, eighteen and model handsome, who’d asked, “Where’s da ice?” He’s 
  glaring and shouting, “Not… now. Okay? How many times do you need to be told?” The 
  waiter shrugs, humbly, and then the maître d’ points off toward the bar, “Da ice is over 
  dere!” He turns back to us and I am genuinely frightened. 
     “Name,” he commands. 
     And I’m thinking: Of all the fucking names, why this one? “Um, Schrawtz”—oh god—
  “Mr. and Mrs. Schrawtz.” My face, I’m sure, is ashen and I say the name mechanically, 
  but the maître d’ is too busy to not buy it and I don’t even bother to face Jean, who I’m 
  sure is totally bewildered by my behavior as we’re led to the Schrawtzes’ table, which 
  I’m sure probably sucks though I’m relieved anyway. 
     Menus already lie on the table but I’m so nervous the words and even the prices look 
  like hieroglyphics and I’m completely at a loss. A waiter takes our drink order—the same 
  one who couldn’t locate the ice—and I find myself saying things, without listening to 
  Jean, like “Protecting the ozone layer is a really cool idea” and telling knock-knock 
  jokes. I smile, fixing it on my face, in another country, and it takes no time at all—
  minutes, really, the waiter doesn’t even get a chance to tell us about the specials—for 
  me to notice the tall, handsome couple by the podium conferring with the maître d’, and 
  after sighing very deeply, light-headed, stammering, I mention to Jean, “Something bad 
  is happening.” 
     She looks up from the menu and puts down the iceless drink 
     she’s been sipping. “Why? What’s wrong?” 
  
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     The maître d’ is glaring over at us, at me, from across the room as he leads the couple 
  toward our table. If the couple had been short, dumpy, excessively Jewish, I could’ve 
  kept this table, even without the aid of a fifty, but this couple looks like they’ve just 
  strolled out of a Ralph Lauren ad, and though Jean and I do too (and so does the rest of 
  the whole goddamn restaurant), the man is wearing a tuxedo and the girl—a totally 
  fuckable babe—is covered with jewels. This is reality, and as my loathsome brother 
  Sean would say, I have to deal with it. The maître d’ now stands at the table, hands 
  clasped behind his balk, unamused, and after a long pause asks, “Mr. and Mrs… 
  Schrawtz?” 
     “Yes?” I play it cool. 
     He just stares. This is accompanied by an abnormal silence. His ponytail, gray and 
  oily, hangs like some kind of malignancy below his collar. 
     “You know,” I finally say, somewhat suavely, “I happen to know the chef.” 
     He continues staring. So, no doubt, does the couple behind him. 
     After another long pause, for no real reason, I ask, “Is he… in Aspen?” 
     This is getting nowhere. I sigh and turn to Jean, who looks completely mystified. “Let’s 
  go, okay?” She nods dumbly. Humiliated, I take Jean’s hand and we get up—she slower 
  than I—brushing past the maître d’ and the couple, and make our way back through the 
  crowded restaurant and then we’re outside and I’m utterly devastated and murmuring 
  robotically to myself “I should have known better I should have known better I should,” 
  but Jean skips down the street laughing, pulling me along, and when I finally notice her 
  unexpected mirth, between giggles she lets out “That was so funny” and then, 
  squeezing my clenched fist, she lets me know “Your sense of humor is so 
  spontaneous.” Shaken, walking stiffly by her side, ignoring her, I ask myself “Where… 
  to… now?” and in seconds come up with an answer—Arcadia, toward which I find 
  myself guiding us. 
     After someone who I think is Hamilton Conway mistakes me for someone named Ted 
  Owen and asks if I can get him into Petty’s tonight—I tell him, “I’ll see what I can do,” 
  then turn what’s left of my attention to Jean, who sits across from me in the near-empty 
  dining room of Arcadia—after he leaves, only five of the restaurant’s tables have people 
  at them. I’ve ordered a J&B on the rocks. Jean’s sipping a glass of white wine and 
  talking about how what she really wants to do is “get into merchant banking” and I’m 
  thinking: Dare to dream. Someone else, Frederick Dibble, stops by and congratulates 
  me on the Larson account and then has the nerve to say, “Talk to you later; Saul.” But 
  I’m in a daze, millions of miles away, and Jean doesn’t notice; she’s talking about a new 
  novel she’s been reading by some young author—its cover, I’ve seen, slathered with 
  neon; its subject, lofty suffering. Accidentally I think she’s talking about something else 
  and I find myself saying, without really looking over at her, “You need a tough skin to 
  survive in this city.” She flushes, seems embarrassed and takes another sip of the wine, 
  which is a nice sauvignon blanc. 
     “You seem distant,” she says. 
     “What?” I ask, blinking. 
     “I said you seem distant,” she says. 
     “No,” I sigh. “I’m still my same kooky self.” 
     “That’s good.” She smiles—am I dreaming this?—relieved. 
     “So listen,” I say, trying to focus in on her, “what do you really want to do with your 
  life?” Then, remembering how she was droning on about a career in merchant banking, I 
  add, “Just briefly, you know, summarize.” Then I add, “And don’t tell me you enjoy 
  working with children, okay?” 
     “Well, I’d like to travel,” she says. “And maybe go back to school, but I really don’t 
  know…” She pauses thoughtfully and announces, sincerely, “I’m at a point in my life 
  where there seems to be a lot of possibilities, but I’m so… I don’t know… unsure.” 
     “I think it’s also important for people to realize their limitations.” Then, out of the blue I 
  ask, “Do you have a boyfriend?” 
     She smiles shyly, blushes, and then says, “No. Not really.” 
  
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     “Interesting,” I murmur. I’ve opened my menu and I’m studying tonight’s prix fixe 
  dinner. 
     “Are you seeing anyone?” she ventures timidly. “I mean, seriously?” 
     I decide on the pilot fish with tulips and cinnamon, evading the question by sighing, “I 
  just want to have a meaningful relationship with someone special,” and before she’s 
  allowed to respond I ask her what she’s going to order. 
     “I think the mahi-mahi,” she says and then, squinting at the menu, “with ginger.” 
     “I’m having the pilot fish,” I say. “I’m developing a taste for them. For… pilot fish,” I 
  say, nodding. 
     Later, after a mediocre dinner, a bottle of expensive California cabernet sauvignon 
  and a crime brûlée that we share, I order a glass of fifty-dollar port and Jean sips a 
  decaffeinated espresso and when she asks where the restaurant got its name, I tell her, 
  and I don’t make anything ridiculous up—though I’m tempted, just to see if she’d believe 
  it anyway. Sitting across from Jean right now in the darkness of Arcadia, it’s very easy to 
  believe that she would swallow any kind of misinformation I push her way—the crush 
  she has on me rendering her powerless—and I find this lack of defense oddly unerotic. I 
  could even explain my pro-apartheid stance and have her find reasons why she too 
  should share them and invest large sums of money in racist corporations tha- 
     “Arcadia was an ancient region in Peloponnesus, Greece; which was founded in 370 
  Bs.C., and it was completely surrounded by mountains. Its chief city was… Megalopolis, 
  which was also the center of political activity and the capital of the Arcadian 
  confederacy…” I take a sip of the port, which is thick, strong, expensive. “It was 
  destroyed during the Greek war of independence…” I pause again. “Pan was worshiped 
  originally in Arcadia. Do you know who Pan was?” 
     Never taking her eyes off me, she nods. 
     “His revels were very similar to those of Bacchus,” I tell her. “He frolicked with nymphs 
  at night but he also liked to… frighten travelers during the day… Hence the word pan-
  ic.” Blah blah blah. I’m amused that I’ve retained this knowledge and I look up from the 
  port I’ve been staring thoughtfully into and smile at her. She’s silent for a long time, 
  confused, unsure of how to respond, but eventually she looks deeply into my eyes and 
  says, haltingly, leaning across the table, “That’s… so… interesting,” which is all that 
  comes out of her mouth, is all she has to say. 
     Eleven thirty-four. We stand on the sidewalk in front of Jean’s apartment on the Upper 
  East Side. Her doorman eyes us warily and fills me with a nameless dread, his gaze 
  piercing me from the lobby. A curtain of stars, miles of them, are scattered, glowing, 
  across the sky and their multitude humbles me, which I have a hard time tolerating. She 
  shrugs and nods after I say something about forms of anxiety. It’s as if her mind is 
  having a hard time communicating with her mouth, as if she is searching for a rational 
  analysis of who I am, which is, of course, an impossibility: there… is… no… key. 
     “Dinner was wonderful,” she says. “Thank you very much.” 
     “Actually, the food was mediocre, but you’re welcome.” I shrug. 
     “Do you want to come up for a drink?” she asks too casually, and even though I’m 
  critical of her approach it doesn’t necessarily mean that I don’t want to go up—but 
  something stops me, something quells the bloodlust: the doorman? the way the lobby is 
  lit? her lipstick? Plus I’m beginning to think that pornography is so much less 
  complicated than actual sex, and because of this lack of complication, so much more 
  pleasurable. 
     “Do you have any peyote?” I ask. 
     She pauses, confused. “What?” 
     “Just a joke,” I say, then, “Listen, I want to watch David Letterman so...” I pause, 
  unsure as to why I’m lingering. “I should go.” 
     “You can watch it…” She stops, then suggests, “at my place.” 
     I pause before asking, “Do you have cable?” 
     “Yes.” She nods. “I have cable.” 
     Stuck, I pause again, then pretend to mull it over. “No, it’s okay. I like to watch it… 
  
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  without cable.” 
     She offers a sad, perplexed glance. “What?” 
     “I have to return some videotapes,” I explain in a rush. 
     She pauses. “Now? It’s”—she checks her witch—“almost midnight. 
     “Well, yeah,” I say, considerably detached. 
     “Well, I guess… it’s good night then,” she says. 
     What kind of books does Jean read? Titles race through my mind: How to Make a 
  Man Fall in Love with You. How to Keep a Man in Lone with You Forever. How to Close 
  a Deal: Get Married. How to Be Married One Year from Today. Supplicant. In my 
  overcoat pocket I finger the ostrich condom case from Luc Benoit I bought last week but, 
  er, no. 
     After awkwardly shaking hands she asks, still holding mine, “Really? You don’t have 
  cable?” 
     And though it has been in no way a romantic evening, she embraces me and this time 
  emanates a warmth I’m not familiar with. I am so used to imagining everything 
  happening the way it occurs in movies, visualizing things falling somehow into the shape 
  of events on a screen, that I almost hear the swelling of an orchestra, can almost 
  hallucinate the camera panning low around us, fireworks bursting in slow motion 
  overhead, the seventy-millimeter image of her lips parting and the subsequent murmur 
  of “I want you” in Dolby sound. But my embrace is frozen and I realize, at first distantly 
  and they with greater clarity, that the havoc raging inside me is gradually subsiding and 
  she is kissing me on the mouth and this jars me back into some kind of reality and I 
  lightly push her away. She glances up at me fearfully. 
     “Listen, I’ve got to go,” I say, checking my Rolex. “I don’t want to miss… Stupid Pet 
  Tricks.” 
     “Okay,” she says, composing herself. “Bye.” 
     “Night,” I say. 
     We both head off in our separate directions, but suddenly she calls out something. 
     I turn around. 
     “Don’t forget you have a breakfast meeting with Frederick Bennet and Charles Rust at 
  ‘21,’” she says from the door, which the doorman is holding open for her. 
     “Thanks,” I call out, waving. “It slipped my mind completely.” 
     She waves back, disappearing into the lobby. 
     On my way over to Park Avenue to find a cab I pass an ugly, homeless bum—a 
  member of the genetic underclass—and when he softly pleads for change, for 
  “anything,” I notice the Barnes & Noble book bag that sits next to him on the steps of the 
  church he’s begging on and I can’t help but smirk, out loud, “Oh right, like you read…,” 
  and then, in the back of the cab on the way across town to my apartment, I imagine 
  running around Central Park on a cool spring afternoon with Jean, laughing, holding 
  hands. We buy balloons, we let them go. 
  Detective 
     May slides into June which slides into July which creeps toward August. Because of 
  the heat I’ve had intense dreams the last four nights about vivisection and I’m doing 
  nothing now, vegetating in my office with a sickening headache and a Walkman with a 
  soothing Kenny G CD playing in it, but the bright midmorning sunlight floods the room, 
  piercing my skull, causing my hangover to throb, and because of this, there’s no workout 
  this morning. Listening to the music I notice the second light on my phone blinking off 
  and on, which means that Jean is buzzing me. I sigh and carefully remove the 
  Walkman. 
     “What is it?” I ask in monotone. 
     “Um, Patrick?” she begins. 
     “Ye-es, Je-an?” I ask condescendingly, spacing the two words out. 
     “Patrick, a Mr. Donald Kimball is here to see you,” she says nervously. 
  
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     “Who?” I snap, distracted. 
     She emits a small sigh of worry, then, as if asking, lowers her voice. “Detective Donald 
  Kimball?” 
     I pause, staring out the window into sky, then at my monitor, then at the headless 
  woman I’ve been doodling on the back cover of this week’s Sports Illustrated, and I run 
  my hand over the glossy finish of the magazine once, twice, before tearing the cover off 
  and crumpling it up. Finally I start. “Tell him…” Then, mulling it over, rethinking my 
  options, I stop and begin again. “Tell him I’m at lunch.” 
     Jean pauses, then whispers. “Patrick… I think he knows you’re here.” During my 
  protracted silence, she adds, still hushed, “It’s ten-thirty.” 
     I sigh, stalling again, and in a contained panic tell Jean, “Send him in, I guess.” 
     I stand up, walk over to the Jodi mirror that hangs next to the George Stubbs painting 
  and check my hair, running an oxhorn comb through it, then, calmly, I pick up one of my 
  cordless phones and, preparing myself for a tense scene, pretend to be talking with 
  John Akers, and I start enunciating clearly into the phone before the detective enters the 
  office. 
     “Now, John…” I clear my throat. “You’ve got to wear clothes in proportion to your 
  physique,” I begin, talking to nobody. “There are definitely dos and don’ts, good buddy, 
  of wearing a bold-striped shirt. A bold-striped shirt calls for solid colored or discreetly 
  patterned suits and ties.…” 
     The door to the office opens and I wave in the detective, who is surprisingly young, 
  maybe my age, wearing a linen Armani suit not unlike mine, though his is slightly 
  disheveled in a hip way, which worries me. I offer a reassuring smile. 
     “And a shirt with a high yarn count means it’s more durable than one that doesn’t… 
  Yes, I know… But to determine this you’ve got to examine the material’s weave …” I 
  point to the Mark Schrager chrome and teak chair on the opposite side of my desk, 
  silently urging him to sit. 
     “Tightly woven fabric is created not only by using a lot of yarn but by using yarn of 
  high-quality fibers, both long and thin, which… yes… which are… which fabricate a 
  close weave as opposed to short and stubbly fibers, like those found in tweed. And 
  loosely woven fabrics such as knits are extremely delicate and should be treated with 
  great care…” Because of the detective’s arrival, it seems unlikely that this will be a good 
  day and I eye him warily as he takes the seat and crosses his legs in a way that fills me 
  with a nameless dread. I realize I’ve been quiet too long when he turns around to see if 
  I’m off the phone. 
     “Right, and… Yes, John, right. And… yes, always tip the stylist fifteen percent…” I 
  pause. “No, the owner of the salon shouldn’t be tipped…. “ I shrug at the detective 
  hopelessly, rolling my eyes. He nods, smiles understandingly and recrosses his legs. 
  Nice socks. Jesus. “The girl who washes the hair? It depends. I’d say a-dollar or two…” I 
  laugh. “Depends on what she looks like…” I laugh harder. “And yeah, what else she 
  washes…” I pause again, then say, “Listen, John, I’ve got to go. T. Boone Pickens just 
  walked in…” I pause, grinning like an idiot, then laugh. “Just joking…” Another pause. 
  “No, don’t tip the owner of the salon.” I laugh once more, then, finally, “Okay, John… 
  right, got it.” I hang up the phone, push its antenna down and then, uselessly stressing 
  my normality, say, “Sorry about that.” 
     “No, I’m sorry,” he says, genuinely apologetic. “I should’ve made an appointment.” 
  Gesturing toward the cordless phone I’m placing back in its recharging cradle, he asks, 
  “Was that, uh, anything important?” 
     “Oh that?” I ask, moving toward my desk, sinking into my chair. ‘Just mulling over 
  business problems. Examining opportunities… Exchanging rumors… Spreading gossip.” 
  We both laugh. The ice breaks. 
     “Hi,” he says, sitting up, holding out his hand. “I’m Donald Kimball.” 
     “Hi. Pat Bateman.” I take it, squeezing it firmly. “Nice to meet you.” 
     “I’m sorry,” he says, “to barge in on you like this, but I was supposed to talk to Luis 
  Carruthers and he wasn’t in and… well, you’re here, so…” He smiles, shrugs. “I know 
  
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  how busy you guys can get.” He averts his eyes from the three copies of Sports 
  Illustrated that lie open atop my desk, covering it, along with the Walkman. I notice them 
  too, then close all three issues and slip them into the desk’s top drawer along with the 
  still-running Walkman. 
     “So,” I start, trying to come off as friendly and conversational as possible. “What’s the 
  topic of discussion?” 
     “Well,” he starts. “I’ve been hired by Meredith Powell to investigate the disappearance 
  of Paul Owen.” 
     I nod thoughtfully before asking, “You’re not with the FBI or anything, are you?” 
     “No, no,” he says. “Nothing like that. I’m just a private investigator.” 
     “Ah, I see… Yes.” I nod again, still not relieved. “Paul’s disappearance… Yes.” 
     “So it’s nothing that official,” he confides. “I just have some basic questions. About 
  Paul Owen. About yourself—” 
     “Coffee?” I ask suddenly. 
     As if unsure, he says, “No, I’m okay.” 
     “Perrier? San Pellegrino?” I offer. 
     “No, I’m okay,” he says again, opening a small black notebook he’s taken out of his 
  pocket along with a gold Cross pen. 
     I buzz Jean. 
     “Yes, Patrick?” 
     “Jean can you bring Mr…” I stop, look up. 
     He looks up too. “Kimball.” 
     “…Mr. Kimball a bottle of San Pelle—” 
     “Oh no, I’m okay,” he protests. 
     “It’s no problem,” I tell him. 
     I get the feeling he’s trying not to stare at me strangely. He turns back to his notebook 
  and writes something down, then crosses something out. Jean walks in almost 
  immediately and she places the bottle of San Pellegrino and a Steuben etched-glass 
  tumbler on my desk in front of Kimball. She gives me a fretful, worried glance, which I 
  scowl at. Kimball looks up, smiles and nods at Jean, who I notice is not wearing a bra 
  today. Innocently, I watch her leave, then return my gaze to Kimball, clasping my hands 
  together, sitting up. “Well, what’s the topic of discussion?” I say again. 
     “The disappearance of Paul Owen,” he says, reminding me. 
     “Oh right. Well, I haven’t heard anything about the disappearance or anything…” I 
  pause, then try to laugh. “Not on Page Six at least.” 
     Kimball smiles politely. “I think his family wants this kept quiet.” 
     “Understandable.” I nod at the untouched glass and bottle, and then look up at him. 
  “Lime?” 
     “No, really,” he says. “I’m okay.” 
     “You sure?” I ask. “I can always get you a lime.” 
     He pauses briefly, then says, “Just some preliminary questions that I need for my own 
  files, okay?” 
     “Shoot,” I say. 
     “How old are you?” he asks. 
     ‘Twenty-seven,” I say. “I’ll be twenty-eight in October.” 
     “Where did you go to school?” He scribbles something in his book. 
     “Harvard,” I tell him. “Then Harvard Business School.” 
     “Your address?” he asks, looking only at his book. 
     “Fifty-five West Eighty-first Street,” I say. “The American Gardens Building.” 
     “Nice.” He looks up, impressed. “Very nice.” 
     “Thanks.” I smile, flattered. 
     “Doesn’t Tom Cruise live there?” he asks. 
     “Yup.” I squeeze the bridge of my nose. Suddenly I have to close my eyes tightly. 
     I hear him speak. “Pardon me, but are you okay?” 
     Opening my eyes, both of them tearing, I say, “Why do you ask?” 
  
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     “You seem… nervous.” 
     I reach into a drawer in my desk and bring out a bottle of aspirin. 
     “Nuprin?” I offer. 
     Kimball looks at the bottle strangely and then back at me before shaking his head. 
  “Uh… no thanks.” He’s taken out a pack of Marlboros and absently lays it next to the 
  San Pellegrino bottle while studying something in the book. 
     “Bad habit,” I point out. 
     He looks up and, noticing my disapproval, smiles sheepishly. “I know. I’m sorry.” 
     I stare at the box. 
     “Do you… would you rather I not smoke?” he asks, tentative. 
     I continue to stare at the cigarette packet, debating. “No… I guess it’s okay.” 
     “You sure?” he asks. 
     “No problem.” I buzz Jean. 
     “Yes, Patrick?” 
     “Bring us an ashtray for Mr. Kimball, please,” I say. 
     In a matter of seconds, she does. 
     “What can you tell me about Paul Owen?” he finally asks, after Jean leaves, having 
  placed a Fortunoff crystal ashtray on the desk next to the untouched San Pellegrino. 
     “Well.” I cough, swallowing two Nuprin, dry. “I didn’t know him that well.” 
     “How welldid you know him?” he asks. 
     “I’m… at a loss,” I tell him, somewhat truthfully. “He was part of that whole… Yale 
  thing, you know.” 
     “Yale thing?” he asks, confused. 
     I pause, having no idea what I’m talking about. “Yeah.. Yale thing.” 
     “What do you mean… Yale thing?” Now he’s intrigued. 
     I pause again—what do I mean? “Well, I think, for one, that he was probably a closet 
  homosexual.” I have no idea; doubt it, considering his taste in babes. “Who did a lot of 
  cocaine…” I pause, then add, a bit shakily, “That Yale thing.” I’m sure I say this 
  bizarrely, but there’s no other way to put it. 
     It’s very quiet in the office right now. The room suddenly seems cramped and 
  sweltering and even though the air-conditioning is on full blast, the air seems fake, 
  recycled. 
     “So…” Kimball looks at his book helplessly. “There’s nothing you can tell me about 
  Paul Owen?” 
     “Well.” I sigh. “He led what I suppose was an orderly life, I guess.” Really stumped, I 
  offer, “He… ate a balanced diet.” 
     I’m sensing frustration on Kimball’s part and he asks, “What kind of man was he? 
  Besides”—he falters, tries to smile—“the information you’ve just given.” 
     How could I describe Paul Owen to this guy? Boasting, arrogant, cheerful dickhead 
  who constantly weaseled his way out of checks at Nell’s? That I’m heir to the 
  unfortunate information that his penis had a name and that name was Michael? No. 
  Calmer, Bateman. I think that I’m smiling. 
     “I hope I’m not being cross-examined here,” I manage to say. 
     “Do you feel that way?” he asks. The question sounds sinister but isn’t. 
     “No,” I say carefully. “Not really.” 
     Maddeningly he writes something else down, then asks, without looking up, chewing 
  on the tip of the pen, “Where did Paul hang out?” 
     “Hang… out?” I ask. 
     “Yeah,” he says. “You know… hang out.” 
     “Let me think,” I say, tapping my fingers across my desk. “The Newport. Harry’s. 
  Fluties. Indochine. Nell’s. Cornell Club. The New York Yacht Club. The regular places.” 
     Kimball looks confused. “He had a yacht?” 
     Stuck, I casually say, “No. He just hung out there.” 
     “And where did he go to school?” he asks. 
     I pause. “Don’t you know this?” 
  
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     “I just wanted to know if you know; ‘ he says without looking up. 
     “Er, Yale,” I say slowly. “Right?” 
     “Right.” 
     “And then to business school at Columbia,” I add, “I think.” 
     “Before all that?” he asks. 
     “If I remember correctly, Saint Paul’s… I mean—” 
     “No, it’s okay. That’s not really pertinent,” he apologizes. “I just have no other 
  questions, I guess. I don’t have a lot to go on.” 
     “Listen, I just…” I start softly, tactfully. “I just want to help.” 
     “I understand,” he says. 
     Another long pause. He marks something down but it doesn’t seem important. 
     “Anything else you can tell me about Owen?” he asks, sounding almost timid. 
     I think about it, then feebly announce, “We were both seven in 1969.” 
     Kimball smiles. “So was I.” 
     Pretending to be interested in the case, I ask, “Do you have any witnesses or 
  fingerprints—” 
     He cuts me off, tiredly. “Well, there’s a message on his answering machine saying he 
  went to London.” 
     “Well,” I ask then, hopefully, “maybe he did, huh?” 
     “His girlfriend doesn’t think so,” Kimball says tonelessly. 
     Without even beginning to understand, I imagine, what a speck Paul Owen was in the 
  overall enormity of things. 
     “But…” I stop. “Has anyone seen him in London?” 
     Kimball looks at his book, flips over a page and then, looking back at me, says, 
  “Actually, yes.” 
     “Hmmm,” I say. 
     “Well, I’ve had a hard time getting an accurate verification,” he admits. “A… Stephen 
  Hughes says he saw him at a restaurant there, but I checked it out and what happened 
  is, he mistook a Hubert Ainsworth for Paul, so…” 
     “Oh,” I say. 
     “Do you remember where you were on the night of Paul’s appearance?” He checks his 
  book. “Which was on the twenty-fourth of June?” 
     “Gosh… I guess…” I think about it. “I was probably returning videotapes.” I open my 
  desk drawer, take out my datebook and looking through December announce, “I had a 
  date with a girl named Veronica…” I’m completely lying, totally making this up. 
     “Wait,” he says, confused, looking at his book. “That’s.. not what I’ve got.” 
     My thigh muscles tense. “What?” 
     “That’s not the information I’ve received,” he says. 
     “Well…” I’m suddenly confused and scared, the Nuprin bitter in my-stomach. “I… 
  Wait… What information have you received?” 
     “Let’s see…” He flips through his pad, finds something. “That you were with—” 
     “Wait.” I laugh. “I could be wrong…” My spine feels damp. 
     “Well…” He stops. “When was the last time you were with Paul Owen?” he asks. 
     “We had”—oh my god, Bateman, think up something—“gone to a new musical that 
  just opened, called… Oh Africa, Brave Africa.” I gulp. “It was… a laugh riot… and that’s 
  about it. I think we had dinner at Orso’s… no, Petaluma. No, Orso’s.” 
     I stop. “The… last time Iphysically saw him was… at an automated teller. I can’t 
  remember which… just one that was near, um, Nell’s.” 
     “But the night he disappeared?” Kimball asks. 
     “I’m not really sure,” I say. 
     “I think maybe you’ve got your dates mixed up,” he says, glancing at his book. 
     “But how?” I ask. “Where do you place Paul that night?” 
     “According to his datebook, and this was verified by his secretary, he had dinner 
  with… Marcus Halberstam,” he says. 
     “And?” I ask. 
  
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     “I’ve questioned him.” 
     “Marcus?” 
     “Yes. And he denies it,” Kimball says. “Though at first he couldn’t be sure.” 
     “But Marcus denied it?” 
     “Yes.” 
     “Well, does Marcus have an alibi?” I have a heightened receptivity to his answers now. 
     “Yes.” 
     Pause. 
     “He does?” I ask. “You’re sure?” 
     “I checked it out; “ he says with an odd smile. “It’s clean.” 
     Pause. 
     “Now where were you?” He laughs. 
     I laugh too, though I’m not sure why. “Where was Marcus?” I’m almost giggling. 
     Kimball keeps smiling as he looks me over. “He wasn’t with Paul Owen,” he says 
  enigmatically. 
     “So who was he with?” I’m laughing still, but I’m also very dizzy. 
     Kimball opens his book and for the first time gives me a slightly hostile look. “He was 
  at Atlantis with Craig McDermott, Frederick Dibble, Harry Newman, George Butner 
  and”—Kimball pauses, then looks up—“you.” 
     In this office right now I am thinking about how long it would take a corpse to 
  disintegrate right in this office. In this office these are the things I fantasize about while 
  dreaming: Eating ribs at Red, Hot and Blue in Washington, D.C. If I should switch 
  shampoos. What really is the best dry beer? Is Bill Robinson an overrated designer? 
  What’s wrong with IBM? Ultimate luxury. Is the term “playing hardball” an adverb? The 
  fragile peace of Assisi. Electric light. The epitome of luxury. Of ultimate luxury. The 
  bastard’s wearing the same damn Armani linen suit I’ve got on. How easy it would be to 
  scare the living wits out of this fucking guy. Kimball is utterly unaware of how truly 
  vacant I am. There is no evidence of animate life in this office, yet still he takes notes. 
  By the time you finish reading this sentence, a Boeing jetliner will take off or land 
  somewhere in the world. I would like a Pilsner Urquell. 
     “Oh right,” I say. “Of course… We had wanted Paul Owen to come,” I say, nodding my 
  head as if just realizing something. “But he said he had plans…” Then, lamely, “I guess I 
  had dinner with Victoria the… following night.” 
     “Listen, like I said, I was just hired by Meredith.” He sighs, closing his book. 
     Tentatively, I ask, “Did you know that Meredith Powell is dating Brock Thompson?” 
     He shrugs, sighs. “I don’t know about that. All I know is that Paul Owen owes her 
  supposedly a lot of money.” 
     “Oh?” I say, nodding. “Really?” 
     “Personally,” he says, confiding, “I think the guy went a little nutso. Split town for a 
  while. Maybe he did go to London. Sightseeing. Drinking. Whatever. Anyway, I’m pretty 
  sure he’ll turn up sooner or later.” 
     I nod slowly, hoping to look suitably bewildered. 
     “Was he involved at all, do you think, in, say, occultism or Satan worship?” Kimball 
  asks seriously. 
     “Er, what?” 
     “I know it sounds like a lame question but an New Jersey last month—I don’t, know if 
  you’ve heard about this, but a young stockbroker was recently arrested and charged 
  with murdering a young Chicano girl and performing voodoo rituals with, well, various 
  body parts—” 
     “Yikes!” I exclaim. 
     “And I mean…” He smiles sheepishly again. “Have you heard anything about this?” 
     “Did the guy deny doing it?” I ask, tingling. 
     “Right.” Kimball nods. 
     “That was an interesting case,” I manage to say. 
     “Even though the guy says he’s innocent he still thinks he’s Inca, the bird god, or 
  
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  something,” Kimball says, scrunching his features up. 
     We both laugh out loud about this. 
     “No,” I finally say. “Paul wasn’t into that. He followed a balanced diet and—” 
     “Yeah, I know, and was into that whole Yale thing,” Kimball finishes tiredly. 
     There is a long pause that, I think, might be the longest one so far. 
     “Have you consulted a psychic?” I ask. 
     “No.” He shakes his head in a way that suggests he’s considered it. Oh who cares? 
     “Had his apartment been burglarized?” I ask. 
     “No, it actually hadn’t,” he says. “Toiletries were missing. A suit was gone. So was 
  some luggage. That’s it.” 
     “Do you suspect foul play?” 
     “Can’t say,” he says. “But like I told you, I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s just hiding out 
  someplace.” 
     “I mean no one’s dealing with the homicide squad yet or anything, right?” I ask. 
     “No, not yet. As I said, we’re not sure. But…” He stops, looks dejected. “Basically no 
  one has seen or heard anything.” 
     “That’s so typical, isn’t it?” I ask. 
     “It’s just strange,” he agrees, staring out the window, lost. “One day someone’s 
  walking around, going to work, alive, and then…” Kimball stops, fails to complete the 
  sentence. 
     “Nothing,” I sigh, nodding. 
     “People just… disappear,” he says. 
     “The earth just opens up and swallows people,” I say, somewhat sadly, checking my 
  Rolex. 
     “Eerie.” Kimball yawns, stretching. “Really eerie.” 
     “Ominous.” I nod my agreement. 
     “It’s just”—he sighs, exasperated—“futile.” 
     I pause, unsure of what to say, and come up with “Futility is… hard to deal with.” 
     I am thinking about nothing. It’s silent in the office. To break it, I point out a book on 
  top of the desk, next to the San Pellegrino bottle. The Art of the Deal, by Donald Trump. 
     “Have you read it?” I ask Kimball. 
     “No,” he sighs, but politely asks, “Is it any good?” 
     “It’s very good,” I say, nodding. 
     “Listen.” He sighs again. “I’ve taken up enough of your time.” He pockets the 
  Marlboros. 
     “I have a lunch meeting with Cliff Huxtable at The Four Seasons in twenty minutes 
  anyway,” I lie, standing up. “I have to go too.” 
     “Isn’t The Four Seasons a little far uptown?” He looks concerned, also getting up. “I 
  mean aren’t you going to be late?” 
     “Uh, no,” I stall. “There’s one… down here.” 
     “Oh really?” he asks. “I didn’t know that.” 
     “Yes,” I say, leading him to the door. “It’s very good.” 
     “Listen,” he says, turning to face me. “If anything occurs to you, any information at 
  all…” 
     I hold up a hand. “Absolutely. I’m one hundred percent with you,” I say solemnly. 
     “Great,” the ineffectual one says, relieved. “And thanks for your, uh, time, Mr. 
  Bateman.” 
     Moving him toward the door, my legs wobbly, astronautlike, leading him out of the 
  office, though I’m empty, devoid of feeling, I still sense—without deluding myself—that 
  I’ve accomplished something and then, anticlimactically, we talk for a few minutes more 
  about razor-burn balms and tattersall shirts. There was an odd general lack of urgency 
  to the conversation that I found soothing—nothing happened at all—but when he smiles, 
  hands me his card, leaves, the door closing sounds to me like a billion insects 
  screaming, pounds of bacon sizzling, a vast emptiness. And after he leaves the building 
  (I have Jean buzz Tom at Security to make sure) I call someone recommended by my 
  
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  lawyer, to make sure none of my phones are wiretapped, and after a Xanax I’m able to 
  meet with my nutritionist at an expensive, upscale health-food restaurant called Cuisine 
  de Soy in Tribeca and while sitting beneath the dolphin, stuffed and shellacked, that 
  hangs over the tofu bar, its body bent into an arc, I’m able to ask the nutritionist 
  questions like “Okay, so give me the muffin lowdown” without cringing. Back at the office 
  two hours later, I find out that none of my phones are tapped. 
     I also run into Meredith Powell later this week, on Friday night, at Ereze with Brock 
  Thompson, and though we talk for ten minutes, mostly about why neither one of us is in 
  the Hamptons, with Brock glaring at me the entire time, she doesn’t mention Paul Owen 
  once. I’m having an excruciatingly slow dinner with my date, Jeannette. The restaurant 
  is flashy and new and the meal inches along, drags by. The portions are meager. I grow 
  increasingly agitated. Afterwards I want to bypass M.K., even though Jeanette 
  complains because she wants to dance. I’m tired and I need to rest. At my apartment I 
  lie in bed, too distracted to have sex with her, so she leaves, and after watching a tape 
  of this morning’s Patty Winters Show, which is about the best restaurants in the Middle 
  East, I pick up my cordless phone and tentatively, reluctantly, call Evelyn. 
  Summer 
     Most of the summer I spent in a stupor, sitting either in my once or in new restaurants, 
  in my apartment watching videotapes or in the backs of cabs, in nightclubs that just 
  opened or in movie theaters, at the building in Hell’s Kitchen or in new restaurants. 
  There were four major air disasters this summer, the majority of them captured on 
  videotape, almost as if these events had been planned, and repeated on television 
  endlessly. The planes kept crashing in slow motion, followed by countless roaming 
  shots of the wreckage and the same random views af the burned, bloody carnage, 
  weeping rescue workers retrieving body parts. I started using Oscar de la Renta men’s 
  deodorant, which gave me a slight rash. A movie about a small talking bug was released 
  to great fanfare and grossed over two hundred million dollars. The Mets were doing 
  badly. Beggars and homeless seemed to have multiplied in August and the ranks of the 
  unfortunate, weak and aged lined the streets everywhere. I found myself asking too 
  many summer associates at too many dinners in flashy new restaurants before taking 
  them to Les Misérables if anyone had seen The Toolbox Murders on HBO and silent 
  tables would stare back at me, before I would cough politely and summon the waiter 
  over for the check, or I’d ask for sorbet or, if this was earlier in the dinner, for another 
  bottle of San Pellegrino, and then I’d ask the summer associates, “No?” and assure 
  them, “It was quite good.” My platinum American Express card had gone through so 
  much use that it snapped in half, self-destructed, at one of those dinners, when I took 
  two summer associates to Restless and Young, the new Pablo Lester restaurant in 
  midtown, but I had enough cash in my gazelleskin wallet to pay for the meal. The Patty 
  Winters Show s were all repeats. Life remained a blank canvas, a cliché, a soap opera. I 
  felt lethal, on the verge of frenzy. My nightly bloodlust overflowed into my days and I had 
  to leave the city. My mask of sanity was a victim of impending slippage. This was the 
  bone season for me and I needed a vacation. I needed to go to the Hamptons. 
     I suggested this to Evelyn and, like a spider, she accepted. 
     The house we stayed at was actually Tim Price’s, which Evelyn had the keys to for 
  some reason, but in my stupefied state I refused to ask for specifics. 
     Tim’s house was on the water in East Hampton and was adorned with many gable 
  roofs and was four stories high, all connected by a galvanized-steel staircase, and had 
  what at first I thought was a Southwestern motif but wasn’t. The kitchen was one 
  thousand square feet of pure minimalist design; one wall held everything: two huge 
  ovens, massive cupboards, a walk-in freezer, a three-door refrigerator. An island of 
  custom-crafted stainless steel divided the kitchen into three separate spaces. Four of 
  the nine bathrooms contained trompe l’oeil paintings and five of them had antique lead 
  ram’s heads that hung over the sink, water spouting from their mouths. All the sinks and 
  
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  bathtubs and showers were antique marble and the floors were composed of tiny marble 
  mosaics. A television was built into a wall alcove above the master bathtub. Every room 
  had a stereo. The house also contained twelve Frank Lloyd Wright standing lamps, 
  fourteen Josef Heffermann club chairs, two walls of floor-to-ceiling videocassette cases 
  and another wall stacked solely with thousands of compact discs encased in glass 
  cabinets. A chandelier by Eric Schmidt hung in the front entranceway, below it stood an 
  Atomic Ironworks steel moose hatrack by a Young sculptor I’d never heard of. A round 
  nineteenth-century Russian dining table sat in a room adjacent to the kitchen, but had 
  no chairs. Spooky photographs by Cindy Sherman lined the walls everywhere. There 
  was an exercise room. There were eight walk-in closets, five VCRs, a Noguchi glass 
  and walnut dining table, a hall table by Marc Schaffer and a fax machine. There was a 
  topiary tree in the master bedroom next to a Louis XVI window bench. An Eric Fischl 
  painting hung over one of the marble fireplaces. There was a tennis court. There were 
  two saunas and an indoor Jacuzzi in a small guesthouse that sat by the pool, which was 
  black-bottomed. There were stone columns in odd places. 
     I really tried to make things work the weeks we were out there. Evelyn and I rode 
  bicycles and jogged and played tennis. We talked about going to the south of France or 
  to Scotland; we talked about driving through Germany and visiting unspoiled opera 
  houses. We went windsurfing. We talked about only romantic things: the light on eastern 
  Long Island, the moonrise in October over the hills of the Virginia hunt country. We took 
  baths together in the big marble tubs. We had breakfast in bed, snuggling beneath 
  cashmere blankets after I’d poured imported coffee from a Melior pot into Hermès cups. 
  I woke her up with fresh flowers. I put notes in her Louis Vuitton carry bag before she 
  left for her weekly facials in Manhattan. I bought her a puppy, a small black chow, which 
  she named NutraSweet and fed dietetic chocolate trues to. I read long passages aloud 
  from Doctor Zhivago and A Farewell to Arms (my favorite Hemingway). I rented movies 
  in town that Price didn’t own, mostly comedies from the 1930s, and played them on one 
  of the many VCRs, our favorite being Roman Holiday, which we watched twice. We 
  listened to Frank Sinatra (only his 1950s period) and Nat King Cole’s After Midnight, 
  which Tim had on CD. I bought her expensive lingerie, which sometimes she wore. 
     After skinny-dipping in the ocean late at night, we would come into the house, 
  shivering, draped in huge Ralph Lauren towels, and we’d make omelets and noodles 
  tossed with olive oil and truffles and porcini mushrooms; we’d make soufflés with 
  poached pears and cinnamon fruit salads, grilled polenta with peppered salmon, apple 
  and berry sorbet, mascarpone, red beans with arrozo wrapped in romaine lettuce, bowls 
  of salsa and skate poached in balsamic vinegar, chilled tomato soup and risottos 
  flavored with beets and lime and asparagus and mint, and we drank lemonade or 
  champagne or well-aged bottles of Château Margaux. But soon we stopped lifting 
  weights together and wing laps and Evelyn would eat only the dietetic chocolate trues 
  that NutraSweet hadn’t eaten, complaining about weight she hadn’t gained. Some nights 
  I would find my self roaming the beaches, digging up baby crabs and eating handfuls of 
  sand—this was in the middle of the night when the sky was so clear I could see the 
  entire solar system and the sand, lit by it, seemed almost lunar in scale. I even dragged 
  a beached jellyfish back to the house and microwaved it early one morning, predawn, 
  while Evelyn slept, and what I didn’t eat of it I fed to the chow. 
     Sipping bourbon, then champagne, from cactus-etched highball glasses, which Evelyn 
  would set on adobe coasters and into which she would stir raspberry cassis with papier-
  mâché jalapeño-shaped stirrers, I would lie around, fantasizing about killing someone 
  with an Allsop Racer ski pole, or I would stare at the antique weather vane that hung 
  above one of the fireplaces, wondering wild-eyed if I could stab anyone with it, then I’d 
  complain aloud, whether Evelyn was in the room or not, that we should have made 
  reservations at Dick Loudon’s Stratford Inn instead. Evelyn soon started talking only 
  about spas and cosmetic surgery and then she hired a masseur, some scary faggot who 
  lived down the road with a famous book publisher and who flirted openly with me. 
  Evelyn went back to the city three times that last week we were in the Hamptons, once 
  
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  for a manicure and a pedicure and a facial, the second time for a one-on-one training 
  session at Stephanie Herman, and finally to meet with her astrologer. 
     “Why helicopter in?” I asked in a whisper. 
     “What do you want me to do?” she shrieked, popping another dietetic true into her 
  mouth. “Rent a Volvo?” 
     While she was gone I would vomit—just to do it—into the rustic terra-cotta jars that 
  lined the patio in front or I would drive into town with the scary masseur and collect razor 
  blades. At night I’d place a faux-concrete and aluminum-wire sconce by Jerry Kott over 
  Evelyn’s head and since she’d be so knocked out on Halcion she wouldn’t brush it off, 
  and though I laughed at this, while the sconce rose evenly with her deep breathing, 
  soon it made me sad and I stopped placing the sconce over Evelyn’s head. 
     Everything failed to subdue me. Soon everything seemed dull: another sunrise, the 
  lives of heroes, falling in love, war, the discoveries people made about each other. The 
  only thing that didn’t bore me, obviously enough, was how much money Tim Price 
  made, and yet in its obviousness it did. There wasn’t a clear, identifiable emotion within 
  me, except for greed and, possibly, total disgust. I had all the characteristics of a human 
  being—flesh, blood, skin, hair—but my depersonalization was so intense, had gone so 
  deep, that the normal ability to feel compassion had been eradicated, the victim of a 
  slow, purposeful erasure. I was simply imitating reality, a rough resemblance of a human 
  being, with only a dim corner of my mind functioning. Something horrible was happening 
  and yet I couldn’t figure out why—I couldn’t put my finger on it. The only thing that 
  calmed me was the satisfying sound of ice being dropped into a glass of J&B. 
  Eventually I drowned the chow, which Evelyn didn’t miss; she didn’t even notice its 
  absence, not even when I threw it in the walk-in freezer, wrapped in one of her sweaters 
  from Bergdorf Goodman. We had to leave the Hamptons because I would find myself 
  standing over our bed in the hours before dawn, with an ice pick gripped in my fist, 
  waiting for Evelyn to open her eyes. At my suggestion, one morning over breakfast, she 
  agreed, and on the last Sunday before Labor Day we returned to Manhattan by 
  helicopter. 
  Girls 
     “I thought the pinto beans with salmon and mint were really, really… you know,” 
  Elizabeth says, walking into the living room of my apartment and in one graceful 
  movement kicking off both satin and suede Maud Frizon pumps and flopping onto the 
  couch, “good, but Patrick, my god it was expensive and,” then, bristling, she bitches, “it 
  wasonly pseudo nouvelle.” 
     “Was it my imagination or were there goldfish on the tables?” I ask, undoing my 
  Brooks Brothers suspenders while searching the refrigerator for a bottle of sauvignon 
  blanc. “Anyway,I thought it was hip.” 
     Christie has taken a seat on the long, wide sofa, away from Elizabeth, who stretches 
  out lazily. 
     “Hip, Patrick?” she calls out. “Donald Trump eats there.” 
     I locate the bottle and stand it on the counter and, before finding a wine opener, stare 
  at her blankly from across the room. “Yes? Is this a sarcastic comment?” 
     “Guess,” she moans and follows it with a “Duh” so loud that Christie flinches. 
     “Where are you working now, Elizabeth?” I ask, closing drawers. “Polo outlet or 
  something?” 
     Elizabeth cracks up at this and says blithely, while I uncork the Acacia, “I don’t have to 
  work, Bateman,” and after a beat she adds, bored, “You of all people should know how 
  that feels, Mr. Wall Street.” She’s checking her lipstick in a Gucci compact; predictably it 
  looks perfect. 
     Changing the subject, I ask, “Who chose that place anyway?” I pour the two girls wine 
  and then make myself a J&B on the rocks with a little water. “The restaurant, I mean.” 
     “Carson did. Or maybe Robert.” Elizabeth shrugs and then after snapping the compact 
  
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  shut, staring intently at Christie, asks, “You look really familiar. Did you go to Dalton?” 
     Christie shakes her head no. It’s almost three in the morning. I’m grinding up a tab of 
  Ecstasy and watching it dissolve in the wineglass I plan to hand Elizabeth. This 
  morning’s topic on The Patty Winters Show was People Who Weigh Over Seven 
  Hundred Pounds—What Can We Do About Them? I switch on the kitchen lights, find 
  two more tabs of the drug in the freezer, then shut the lights off. 
     Elizabeth is a twenty-year-old hardbody who sometimes models in Georges Marciano 
  ads and who comes from an old Virginia banking family. We had dinner earlier tonight 
  with two friends of hers, Robert Farrell, twenty-seven, a guy who’s had a rather sketchy 
  career as a financier, and Carson Whitall, who was Robert’s date. Robert wore a wool 
  suit by Belvest, a cotton shirt with French cuffs by Charvet, an abstract-patterned silk-
  crepe tie by Hugo Boss and sunglasses by Ray-Ban that he insisted on wearing during 
  the meal. Carson wore a suit by Yves Saint Laurent Rive Gauche and a pearl necklace 
  with matching pearl and diamond earrings by Harry Winston. We had dinner at Free 
  Spin, the new Albert Lioman restaurant in the Flatiron district, then took the limousine to 
  Nell’s, where I excused myself, assuring an irate Elizabeth I’d be right back, and 
  directed the chauffeur to the meat-packing district, where I picked up Christie. I made 
  her wait in the back of the locked limousine while I reentered Nell’s and had drinks with 
  Elizabeth and Carson and Robert in one of the booths up front, empty since the place 
  had no celebrities in it tonight—a bad sign. Finally, at two-thirty, while Carson bragged 
  drunkenly about her monthly flower bill, Elizabeth and I split. She was so pissed off 
  about something Carson told her was in the latest issue of W that she didn’t even 
  question Christie’s presence. 
     In the ride back toward Nell’s Christie had admitted that she was still upset about the 
  last time we shared together, and that she had major reservations about tonight, but the 
  money I’ve offered is simply too good to pass up and I promised her that nothing like 
  last time will be repeated. Though she was still scared, a few shots of vodka in the back 
  of the limo along with the money I’d given her so far, over sixteen hundred dollars, 
  relaxed her like a tranquilizer. Her moodiness turned me on and she acted like a total 
  sex kitten when I first handed her the cash amount—six bills attached to a Hughlans 
  silver money clip—but after I urged her into the limo she told me that she might need 
  surgery after what happened last time, or a lawyer, so I wrote out a check to cash in the 
  amount of one thousand dollars, but since I knew it would never be cashed I didn’t have 
  a panic attack about it or anything. Looking over at Elizabeth right now, in my apartment, 
  I’m noticing how well endowed she is in the chest area and I’m hoping that after the 
  Ecstasy hits her system I can convince the two girls to have sex in front of me. 
     Elizabeth is asking Christie if she’s ever met some asshole named Spicey or been to 
  Au Bar. Christie is shaking her head I hand Elizabeth the Ecstasy-laden sauvignon 
  blanc while she stares at Christie like she was from Neptune, and after recovering from 
  Christie’s admission she yawns. “Anyway, Au Bar sucks now. It’s terrible. I went to a 
  birthday party there for Malcolm Forbes. Oh my god, please.” She downs the wine, 
  facing. I take a seat in one of the chrome and oak Sottsass chairs and reach over to the 
  ice bucket that sits on the glass-top coffee table, adjusting the bottle of wine in order to 
  chill it better. Immediately Elizabeth makes a move for it, pouring herself another glass. I 
  dissolve two more tabs of the Ecstasy in the bottle before bringing it into the living room. 
  A sullen Christie sips her untainted wine cautiously and tries not to stare at the floor; she 
  still seems scared, and finding the silence unbearable or incriminating she asks 
  Elizabeth where she met me. 
     “Oh god,” Elizabeth starts, moaning as if she falsely remembered something 
  embarrassing. “I met Patrick at, oh god, the Kentucky Derby in ‘86—no, ‘87, and…” She 
  turns to me. “You were hanging out with that bimbo Alison something… Stoole?” 
     “Poole, honey,” I reply calmly. “Alison Poole.” 
     “Yeah, that was her name,” she says, then with unmasked sarcasm, “Hot number.” 
     “What do you mean by that?” I ask, offended. “She was a hot number.” 
     Elizabeth turns to Christie and unfortunately says, “if you had an American Express 
  
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  card she’d give you a blow job,” and I’m hoping to god that Christie doesn’t look over at 
  Elizabeth, confused, and say “But we don’t take credit cards.” To make sure this doesn’t 
  happen, I bellow “Oh, bullshit,” but goodnaturedly. 
     “Listen,” Elizabeth tells Christie, holding her hand out like a fag offering gossipy 
  information. “This girl worked at a tanning salon, and”—and in the same sentence, 
  without changing tone—“what do you do?” 
     After a long silence, Christie turning redder and even more scared, I say, “She’s… my 
  cousin.” 
     Slowly, Elizabeth takes this in and says, “Uh-huh?” 
     After another long silence, I say, “She’s… from France.” 
     Elizabeth looks at me skeptically—like I’m completely crazy but chooses not to pursue 
  this line of questioning and asks instead, “Where’s your phone? I’ve got to call Harley.” 
     I move over to the kitchen and bring the cordless phone to her, pulling up its antenna. 
  She dials a number and, while waiting for someone to answer, stares at Christie. 
  “Where do yo u summer?” she asks. “southampton?” 
     Christie looks at me and then back at Elizabeth and quietly says, “No.” 
     “Oh god,” Elizabeth wails, “it’s his machine.” 
     “Elizabeth.” I point at my Rolex. “It’s three in the morning.” 
     “He’s a goddamn drug dealer,” she says, exasperated “These are his peak hours.” 
     “Don’t tell him you’re here,” I warn. 
     “Why would I?” she asks. Distracted, she reaches for her wine and downs another full 
  glass and makes a face. “This tastes weird.” She checks the label, then shrugs. 
  “Harley? It’s me. I need your services. Translate that any way you’d like. I’m at—” She 
  looks over at me. 
     “You’re at Marcus Halberstam’s,” I whisper. 
     “Who?” Leaning in, she grins mischievously. 
     “Mar-cus Hal-ber-stam,” I whisper again. 
     “I want the number, idiot.” She waves me away and continues, “Anyway, I’m at Mark 
  Hammerstein’s and I’ll try you later and if I don’t see you at Canal Bar tomorrow night 
  I’m going to sic my hairdresser on you. Bon voyage. How do I hang this thing up?” she 
  asks, even though she expertly pushes the antenna down and presses the Off button, 
  tossing the phone onto the Schrager chair that I’ve moved next to the jukebox. 
     “See.” I smile. “You did it.” 
     Twenty minutes later Elizabeth is squirming on the couch and I’m trying to coerce her 
  into having sex with Christie in front of me. What started out as a casual suggestion is 
  now at the forefront of my brain and I’m insistent. Christie stares impassively at a stain I 
  hadn’t noticed on the white-oak floor, her wine mostly untouched. 
     “But I’m not a lesbian,” Elizabeth protests again, giggling. “I’m not into girls.” 
     “Is this afirm no?” I ask, staring at her glass, then at the near-empty bottle of wine. 
     “Why’d you think I’d be intothat?” she asks. Because of the Ecstasy, the question is 
  flirtatious and she seems genuinely interested. Her foot is rubbing against my thigh. I’ve 
  moved over to the couch, sitting between the two girls, and I’m massaging one of her 
  calves. 
     “Well, you went to Sarah Lawrence for one thing,” I tell her. “You never know.” 
     “Those are Sarah Lawrence guys, Patrick,” she points out, giggling rubbing harder, 
  causing friction, heat, everything. 
     “Well, I’m sorry: “ I admit. “I don’t usually deal with a lot of guys who wear panty hose 
  on the Street.” 
     “Patrick, you went to Patrick, I mean, Harvard, oh god, I’m so drunk. Anyway, listen. I 
  mean, wait—” She pauses, taken a deep breath, mumbles an unintelligible remark 
  about feeling bizarre, then, after closing her eyes, opens them and asks, “Do you have 
  any coke?” 
     I’m staring at her glass, noticing that the dissolved Ecstasy has slightly changed the 
  color of the wine. She follows my gaze and takes a gulp of it as if it were some kind of 
  elixir that could soothe her increasing agitation. She leans her head back, woozily, on 
  
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  one of the pillows on the couch. “Or Halcion. I’d take a Halcion.” 
     “Listen, I would just like to see… the two of you… get it on,” I say innocently. “What’s 
  wrong with that? It’s totally disease-free.” 
     “Patrick.” She laughs. “You’re a lunatic.” 
     “Come on,” I urge. “Don’t you find Christie attractive?” 
     “Let’s not get lewd,” she says, but the drug is kicking in and I can sense that she’s 
  excited but doesn’t want to be. “I’m in no mood to have lewd conversation.” 
     “Come on,” I say. “I think it would be a turn-on.” 
     “Does he do this all the time?” Elizabeth asks Christie. 
     I look over at Christie. 
     Christie shrugs, noncommittal, and studies the back of a compact disc before setting it 
  on the table next to the stereo. 
     “Are you telling me you’ve never gotten it on with a girl?” I ask, touching a black 
  stocking, then, beneath it, a leg. 
     “But I’m not a lesbian,” she stresses. “And no, I never have.” 
     “Nev er?” I ask, arching my eyebrows. “Well, there’s always a first time…” 
     “You’re making me feel weird,” Elizabeth moans, losing control of her facial features. 
     “I’m not,” I say, shocked. 
     Elizabeth is making out with Christie, both of them naked on my bed, all the lights in 
  the room burning, while I sit in the Louis Montoni chair by the side of the futon, watching 
  them very closely, occasionally repositioning their bodies. Now I make Elizabeth lie on 
  her back and hold both legs up, open, spreading them as wide as possible, and then I 
  push Christie’s head down and make her lap at her cunt—not suck on it but lap at it, like 
  a thirsty dog—while fingering the clit, then, with her other hand, she sticks two fingers 
  into the open, wet cunt, while her tongue replaces the fingers and then she takes the 
  dripping fingers she’s fucked Elizabeth’s cunt with and forces them into Elizabeth’s 
  mouth, making her suck on them. Then I have Christie lie on top of Elizabeth and make 
  her suck and bite at Elizabeth’s full, swollen tits, which Elizabeth is also squeezing, and 
  then I tell the two of them to kiss each other, hard, and Elizabeth takes the tongue that’s 
  been licking at her own small, pink cunt into her mouth hungrily, like an animal, and 
  uncontrollably they start humping each other, pressing their cunts together, Elizabeth 
  moaning loudly, wrapping her legs around Christie’s hips, bucking up against her, 
  Christie’s legs spread in such a way that, from behind, I can see her cunt, wet and 
  spread, and above it, her hairless pink asshole. 
     Christie sits up and turns herself around and while still on top of Elizabeth presses her 
  cunt into Elizabeth’s gasping face and soon, like in a movie, like animals, the two of 
  them start feverishly licking and fingering each other’s cunts. Elizabeth, totally red-faced, 
  her neck muscles straining like a madwoman’s, tries to bury her head in Christie’s pussy 
  and then spreads Christie’s ass cheeks open and starts tonguing the hole there, making 
  guttural sounds. “Yeah,” I say in monotone. “Stick your tongue up that bitch’s asshole.” 
     While this is going on I’m greasing with Vaseline a large white dildo that’s connected 
  to a belt. I stand up and hoist Christie off Elizabeth, who is writhing mindlessly on the 
  futon, and I attach the belt around Christie’s waist, and then I turn Elizabeth around and 
  position her on all fours and I make Christie fuck her with it doggy style, while I finger 
  Christie’s cunt, then her clit, then her asshole, which is so wet and loose from 
  Elizabeth’s saliva I’m able to force my index finger into it effortlessly and her sphincter 
  tightens, relaxes, then contracts around it. I make Christie pull the dildo out of 
  Elizabeth’s cunt and have Elizabeth lie on her back while Christie fucks her in the 
  missionary position. Elizabeth is fingering her clit while madly French-kissing Christie 
  until, involuntarily, she brings her head back, legs wrapped around Christie’s pumping 
  hips, her face tense, her mouth open, her lipstick smeared by Christie’s cunt juice, and 
  she yells “oh god I’m coming I’m coming fuck me I’m coming” because I told both of 
  them to let me know when they had orgasms and to be very vocal about it. 
     Soon it’s Christie’s turn and Elizabeth eagerly straps on the dildo and fucks Christie’s 
  cunt with it while I spread Elizabeth’s asshole and tongue it and soon she pushes me 
  
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  away and starts fingering herself desperately. Then Christie puts the dildo on again and 
  she fucks Elizabeth in the ass with it while Elizabeth fingers her clit, bucking her ass up 
  against the dildo, grunting, until she has another orgasm. After pulling the dildo from her 
  ass I make Elizabeth suck on it before she straps it on again and while Christie lies on 
  her back Elizabeth pushes it easily into her cunt. During this I lick Christie’s tits and suck 
  hard on each nipple until both of them are red and stiff. I keep fingering them to make 
  sure they stay that way. During this Christie has kept on a pair of thigh-high suede boots 
  from Henri Bendel that I’ve made her wear. 
     Elizabeth, naked, running from the bedroom, blood already on her, is moving with 
  difficulty and she screams out something garbled. My organ had been prolonged and its 
  release was intense and my knees are weak. I’m naked too, shouting “You bitch, you 
  piece of bitch trash” at her and since most of the blood is coming from her feet, she 
  slips, manages to get up, and I strike out at her with the already wet butcher knife that 
  I’m gripping in my right hand, clumsily, slashing her neck from behind, severing 
  something, some veins. When I strike out a second time while she’s trying to escape, 
  heading for the door, blood shoots even into the living room, across the apartment, 
  splattering against the tempered glass and the laminated oak panels in the kitchen. She 
  tries to run forward but I’ve cut her jugular and it’s spraying everywhere, blinding both of 
  us momentarily, and I’m leaping at her in a final attempt to finish her off. She turns to 
  face me, her features twisted in anguish, and her legs give out after I punch her in the 
  stomach and she hits the floor and I slide in next to her. After I’ve stabbed her five or six 
  times—the blood’s spurting out in jets; I’m leaning over to inhale its perfume—her 
  muscles stiffen, become rigid, and she goes into her death throes; her throat becomes 
  flooded with dark-red blood and she thrashes around as if tied up, but she isn’t and I 
  have to hold her down. Her mouth fills with blood that cascades over the sides of her 
  cheeks, over her chin. Her body, shaking spasmodically, resembles what I imagine an 
  epileptic goes through in a fit and I hold down her head, rubbing my dick, stiff, covered 
  with blood, across her choking face, until she’s motionless. 
     Back in my bedroom, Christie lies on the futon, tied to the legs of the bed, bound up 
  with rope, her arms above her head, ripped pages from last month’s Vanity Fair stuffed 
  into her mouth. Jumper cables hooked up to a battery are clipped to both breasts, 
  turning them brown. I had been dropping lit matches from Le Relais onto her belly and 
  Elizabeth, delirious and probably overdosing on the Ecstasy, had been helping before I 
  turned on her and chewed at one of her nipples until I couldn’t control myself and bit it 
  off, swallowing. For the first time I notice just how small and delicately structured 
  Christie is, was. I start kneading her breasts with a pair of pliers, then I’m mashing them 
  up, things are moving fast, I’m making hissing noises, she spits out the pages from the 
  magazine, tries to bite my hand, I laugh when she dies, before she does she starts 
  crying, then her eyes roll back in some kind of horrible dream state. 
     In the morning, for some reason, Christie’s battered hands are swollen to the size of 
  footballs, the fingers are indistinguishable from the rest of her hand and the smell 
  coming from her burnt corpse is jolting and I have to open the venetian blinds, which are 
  spattered with burnt fat from when Christie’s breasts burst apart, electrocuting her, and 
  then the windows, to air out the room. Her eyes are wide open and glazed over and her 
  mouth is lipless and black and there’s also a black pit where her vagina should be 
  (though I don’t remember doing anything to it) and her lungs are visible beneath the 
  charred ribs. What is left of Elizabeth’s body lies crumpled in the corner of the living 
  room. She’s missing her right arm and chunks of her right leg. Her left hand, chopped off 
  at the wrist, lies clenched on top of the stand in the kitchen, in its own small pool of 
  blood. Her head sits on the kitchen table and its blood-soaked face—even with both 
  eyes scooped out and a pair of Alain Mikli sunglasses over the holes—looks like it’s 
  frowning. I get very tired looking at it and though I didn’t get any sleep last night and I’m 
  utterly spent, I still have a lunch appointment at Odeon with Jem Davies and Alana 
  Burton at one. That’s very important to me and I have to debate whether I should cancel 
  it or not. 
  
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  Confronted by Faggot 
     Autumn: a Sunday around four o’clock in the afternoon. I’m at Barney’s, buying cuff 
  links. I had walked into the store at two-thirty, after a cold, tense brunch with Christie’s 
  corpse; rushed up to the front counter, told a salesclerk, “I need a whip. Really.” In 
  addition to the cuff links, I’ve bought an ostrich travel case with double-zippered 
  openings and vinyl lining, an antique silver, crocodile and glass pill jar, an antique 
  toothbrush container, a badger-bristle toothbrush and a faux-tortoiseshell nailbrush. 
  Dinner last night? At Splash. Not much to remember: a watery Bellini, soggy arugula 
  salad, a sullen waitress. Afterwards I watched a repeat of an old Patty Winters Show 
  that I found on what I originally thought was a videotape of the torture and subsequent 
  murder of two escort girls from last spring (the topic was Tips on How Your Pet Can 
  Become a Movie Star). Right now I’m in the middle of purchasing a belt—not for 
  myself—as well as three ninety-dollar ties, ten handkerchiefs, a four-hundred-dollar robe 
  and two pairs of Ralph Lauren pajamas, and I’m having it all mailed to my apartment 
  except for the handkerchiefs, which I’m having monogrammed then sent to P & P. I’ve 
  already made somewhat of a scene in the ladies’ shoe department and, embarrassingly, 
  was chased out by a distressed salesperson. At first it’s only a sense of vague 
  uneasiness and I’m unsure of its cause, but then it feels, though I can’t be positive, as if 
  I’m being followed, as if someone has been tracking me throughout Barney’s. 
     Luis Carruthers is, I suppose, incognito. He’s wearing some kind of jaguar-print silk 
  evening jacket, deerskin gloves, a felt hat, aviator sunglasses, and he’s hiding behind a 
  column, pretending to inspect a row of ties, and, gracelessly, he gives me a sidelong 
  glance. Leaning down, I sign something, a bill I think, and fleetingly Luis’s presence 
  forces me to consider that maybe a life connected to this city, to Manhattan, to my job, is 
  not a good idea, and suddenly I imagine Luis at some horrible party, drinking a nice dry 
  rosé, fags clustered around a baby grand, show tunes, now he’s holding a flower, now 
  he has a feather boa draped around his neck, now the pianist bangs out something from 
  Les Miz, darling. 
     “Patrick? Is that you?” I hear a tentative voice inquire. 
     Like a smash cut from a horror movie—a jump zoom—Luis Carruthers appears, 
  suddenly, without warning, from behind his column, slinking and jumping at the same 
  time, if that’s’ possible. I smile at the salesgirl, then awkwardly move away from him and 
  over to a display case of suspenders, in dire need of a Xanax, a Valium, a Halcion, a 
  Frozfruit, anything. 
     I don’t, can’t, look at him, but I sense he’s moved closer to me. His voice confirms it. 
     “Patrick?… Hello?” 
     Closing my eyes, I move a hand up to my face and mutter, under my breath, “Don’t 
  make me say it, Luis.” 
     “Patrick?” he says, feigning innocence. “What do you mean?” 
     A hideous pause, then, “Patrick… Why aren’t you looking at me?” 
     “I’m ignoring you, Luis.” I breathe in, calming myself by checking the price tag on an 
  Armani button-up sweater. “Can’t you tell? I’m ignoring you.” 
     “Patrick, can’t we just talk?” he asks, almost whining. “Patrick —look at me.” 
     After another sharp intake of breath, sighing, I admit, “There is nothing, not-hing to 
  talk—” 
     “We can’t go on like this,’ he impatiently cuts me off. “I can’ go on like this.” 
     I mutter. I start walking away from him. He follows, insistent. 
     “Anyway,” he says, once we’ve reached the other side of the store, where I pretend to 
  look through a row of silk ties but everything’s blurry, “you’ll be glad to know that I’m 
  transferring… out of state.” 
     Something rises off me and I’m able to ask, but still without looking at him, “Where?” 
     “Oh, a different branch,” he says, sounding remarkably relaxed, probably due to the 
  fact that I actually inquired about the move. “In Arizona.” 
     “Ter-riffic,” I murmur. 
  
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     “Don’t you want to know why?” he asks. 
     “No, not really.” 
     “Because of you,” he says. 
     “Don’t say that,” I plead. 
     “Because of you,” he says again. 
     “You are sick,” I tell him. 
     “If I’m sick it’s because ofyou,” he says too casually, checking his nails. “Because of 
  you I am sick and I will not get better.” 
     “You have distorted this obsession of yours way out of proportion. Way, way out of 
  proportion,” I say, then move over to another aisle. 
     “But I know you have the same feelings I do,” Luis says, trailing me. “And I know that 
  just because…” He lowers his voice and shrugs. “Just because you won’t admit… 
  certain feelings you have doesn’t mean you don’t have them.” 
     “What are you trying to say?” I hiss. 
     ‘That I know you feel the same way I do.” Dramatically, he whips off his sunglasses, 
  as if to prove a point. 
     “You have reached… an inaccurate conclusion,” I choke. “You are… obviously 
  unsound.” 
     “Why?” he asks. “Is it so wrong to love you, Patrick?” 
     “Oh… my… god.” 
     “To want you? To want to be with you?” he asks. “Is that so wrong?” 
     I can feel him staring helplessly into me, that he’s near total emotional collapse. After 
  he finishes, except for a long silence I have no answer. Finally I counter this by hissing, 
  “What is this continuing inability you have to evaluate this situation rationally?” I pause. 
  “Huh?” 
     I lift my head up from the sweaters, the ties, whatever, and glance at Luis. In that 
  instant he smiles, relieved that I’m acknowledging his presence, but the smile soon 
  becomes fractured and in the dark inner recesses of his fag mind he realizes something 
  and starts crying. When I calmly walk over to a column so I can hide behind it, he 
  follows and roughly grabs my shoulder, spinning me around so I’m facing him: Luis 
  blotting out reality. 
     At the same time I ask Luis to “Go away” he sobs, “Oh god, Patrick, why don’t you like 
  me?” and then, unfortunately, he falls to the floor at my feet. 
     “Get up,” I mutter, standing there. “Get up.” 
     “Why can’t we be together?” he sobs, pounding his fist on the floor. 
     “Because I… don’t”—I look around the store quickly to make sure no one is listening; 
  he reaches for my knee, I brush his hand away—“find you… sexually attractive,” I 
  whisper loudly, staring down at him. “I can’t believe I actually said that,” I mumble to 
  myself, to no one, and then shake my head, trying to clear it, things reaching a level of 
  confusion that I’m incapable of registering. I tell Luis, “Leave me alone, please,” and I 
  start to walk away. 
     Unable to grasp this request, Luis grabs at the hem of my Armani silk-cloth trench coat 
  and, still lying on the floor, cries out, “Please, Patrick,please don’t leave me.” 
     “Listen to me,” I tell him, kneeling down, trying to haul Luis up off the floor. But this 
  causes him to shout out something garbled, which turns into a wail that rises and 
  reaches a crescendo that catches the attention of a Barney’s security guard standing by 
  the store’s front entrance, who starts making his way over. 
     “Look what you’ve done,” I whisper desperately. “Get up. Get up.” 
     “Is everything okay?” The security guard, a big black guy, is looking down at us. 
     “Yes, thank you,” I say, glaring at Luis. “Everything’s fine.” 
     “No-o-o-o,” Luis wails, racked with sobs. 
     “Yes,” I reiterate, looking up at the guard. 
     “You sure?” the guard asks. 
     Smiling professionally, I tell him, “Please just give us a minute. We need some 
  privacy.” I turn back to Luis. “Now come on, Luis. Get up. You’re slobbering.” I look back 
  
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  up at the security guard and mouth, holding up a hand, while nodding, “Just a minute, 
  please.” 
     The security guard nods unsurely and moves hesitantly back to his post. 
     Still kneeling, I grab Luis by his heaving shoulders and calmly tell him, my voice 
  lowered, as threatening as possible, as if speaking to a child about to be punished, 
  “Listen to me, Luis. If you do not stop crying, you fucking pathetic faggot, I am going to 
  slit your fucking throat. Are you listening to me?” I slap him lightly on the face a couple 
  of times. “I can’t be more emphatic.” 
     “Oh just kill me,” he wails, his eyes closed, nodding his head back and forth, retreating 
  further into incoherence; then he blubbers, “If I can’t have you, I don’t want to live. I want 
  to die.” 
     My sanity is in danger of fading, right here in Barney’s, and I grab Luis by the collar, 
  scrunching it up in my fist, and pulling his face very close to mine, I whisper, under my 
  breath, “Listen to me, Luis. Are you listening to me? I usually don’t warn people, Luis. 
  So-be-thankful-I-am-warning-you.” 
     His rationality shot to hell, making guttural noises, his head bent down shamefully, he 
  offers a response that’s barely audible. I grab his hair—it’s stiff with mousse; I recognize 
  the scent as Cactus, a new brand—and yanking his head up, snarling, I spit out, “Listen, 
  you want to die? I’ll do it, Luis. I’ve done it before and I will fucking gut you, rip your 
  fucking stomach open and cram your intestines down your fucking faggot throat until 
  you choke on them.” 
     He’s not listening. Still on my haunches, I just stare at him in disbelief. 
     “Please, Patrick, please. Listen to me, I’ve figured it all out. I’m quitting P & P, you can 
  too, and, and, and we’ll relocate to Arizona, and then—” 
     “Shut up, Luis.” I shake him. “Oh my god, just shut up.” I quickly stand, brushing 
  myself off, and when I think his outburst has subsided and I’m able to walk away, Luis 
  grabs at my right ankle and tries to hang on as I’m leaving Barney’s and I end up 
  dragging him along for six feet before I have to kick him in the face, while smiling 
  helplessly at a couple who are browsing near the sock department. Luis looks up at me, 
  imploring, the beginnings of a small gash forming on his left cheek. The couple move 
  away. 
     “I love you,” he miserably wails. “I love you.” 
     “I’m convinced, Luis,” I shout at him. “You’ve convinced me. Now get up.” 
     Luckily, a salesperson, alarmed by the scene Luis has made, intervenes and helps 
  him up. 
     A few minutes later, after he’s sufficiently calmed down, the two of us are standing just 
  inside Barney’s main entrance. He has a handkerchief in one hand, his eyes are shut 
  tightly, a bruise slowly forms, swelling beneath his left eye. He seems composed. 
     “Just, you know, have the guts to face, uh, reality,” I tell him. 
     Anguished, he stares out the revolving doors at the warm falling rain and then, with a 
  mournful sigh, turns to me. I’m looking at the rows, the endless rows, of ties, then at the 
  ceiling. 
  Killing Child at Zoo 
     A string of days pass. During the nights I’ve been sleeping in twenty-minute intervals. I 
  feel aimless, things look cloudy, my homicidal compulsion, which surfaces, disappears, 
  surfaces, leaves again, lies barely dormant during a quiet lunch at Alex Goes to Camp, 
  where I have the lamb sausage salad with lobster and white beans sprayed with lime 
  and foie gras vinegar. I’m wearing faded jeans, an Armani jacket, and a white, hundred-
  and-forty-dollar Comme des Garçons T-shirt. I make a phone call to check my 
  messages. I return some videotapes. I stop at an automated teller. Last night, Jeanette 
  asked me, “Patrick, why do you keep razor blades in your wallet?” The Patty Winters 
  Show this morning was about a boy who fell in love with a box of soap. 
     Unable to maintain a credible public persona, I find myself roaming the zoo in Central 
  
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  Park, restlessly. Drug dealers hang out along the perimeter by the gates and the smell 
  of horse shit from passing carriages drifts over them into the zoo, and the tips of 
  skyscrapers, apartment buildings on Fifth Avenue, the Trump Plaza, the AT&T building, 
  surround the park which surrounds the zoo and heightens its unnaturalness. A black 
  custodian mopping the floor in the men’s room asks me to flush the urinal after I use it. 
  “Do it yourself, nigger,” I tell him and when he makes a move toward me, the flash of a 
  knifeblade causes him to back off. All the information booths seem closed. A blind man 
  chews, feeds, on a pretzel. Two drunks, faggots, console each other on a bench. 
  Nearby a mother breast-feeds her baby, which awakens something awful in me. 
     The zoo seems empty, devoid of life. The polar bears look stained and drugged. A 
  crocodile floats morosely in an oily makeshift pond. The puffins stare sadly from their 
  glass cage. Toucans have beaks as sharp as knives. The seals stupidly dive off rocks 
  into swirling black water, barking mindlessly. The zookeepers feed them dead fish. A 
  crowd gathers around the tank, mostly adults, a few accompanied by children. On the 
  seals’ tank a plaque warns: COINS CAN KILL—IF SWALLOWED, COINS CAN LODGE 
  IN AN ANIMAL’S STOMACH AND CAUSE ULCERS, INFECTIONS AND DEATH. DO 
  NOT THROW COINS IN THE POOL. So what do I do? Toss a handful of change into 
  the tank when none of the zookeepers are watching. It’s not the seals I hate—it’s the 
  audience’s enjoyment of them that bothers me. The snowy owl has eyes that look just 
  like mine, especially when it widens them. And while I stand there, staring at it, lowering 
  my sunglasses, something unspoken passes between me and the bird—there’s this 
  weird kind of tension, a bizarre pressure, that fuels the following, which starts, happens, 
  ends, very quickly. 
     In the darkness of the penguin habitat—Edge of the Icepack is what the zoo 
  pretentiously calls it—it’s cool, in sharp contrast to the humidity outside. The penguins in 
  the tank glide lazily underwater past the glass walls where spectators crowd in to stare. 
  The penguins on the rocks, not swimming, look dazed, stressed out, tired and bored; 
  they mostly yawn, sometimes stretching. Fake penguin noises, cassettes probably, play 
  over a sound system and someone has turned up the volume because it’s so crowded 
  in the room. The penguins are cute, I guess. I spot one that looks like Craig McDermott. 
     A child, barely five, finishes eating a candy bar. His mother tells him to throw the 
  wrapper away, then resumes talking to another woman, who is with a child around the 
  same age, the three of them staring into the dirty blueness of the penguin habitat. The 
  first child moves toward the trash can, located in a dim corner in the back of the room, 
  that I am now crouching behind. He stands on tiptoes, carefully throwing the wrapper 
  into the trash. I whisper something. The child spots me and just stands there, away from 
  the crowd, slightly scared but also dumbly fascinated. I stare back. 
     “Would you like… a cookie?” I ask, reaching into my pocket. 
     He nods his small head, up, then down, slowly, but before he can answer, my sudden 
  lack of care crests in a massive wave of fury and I pull the knife out of my pocket and I 
  stab him, quickly, in the neck. 
     Bewildered, he backs into the trash can, gurgling like an infant, unable to scream or 
  cry out because of the blood that starts spurting out of the wound in his throat. Though 
  I’d like to watch this child die, I push him down behind the garbage can, then casually 
  mingle in with the rest of the crowd and touch the shoulder of a pretty girl, and smiling I 
  point to a penguin preparing to make a dive. Behind me, if one were to look closely, one 
  could see the child’s feet kicking in back of the trash can. I keep an eye on the child’s 
  mother, who after a while notices her son’s absence and starts scanning the crowd. I 
  touch the girl’s shoulder again, and she smiles at me and shrugs apologetically, but I 
  can’t figure out why. 
     When the mother finally notices him she doesn’t scream because she can see only his 
  feet and assumes that he’s playfully hiding from her. At first she seems relieved that 
  she’s spotted him and moving toward the trash can she coos, “Are you playing hide-
  and-seek, honey?” But from where I stand, behind the pretty girl, who I’ve already found 
  out is foreign, a tourist, I can see the exact moment when the expression on the 
  
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  mother’s face changes into fear, and slinging her purse over her shoulder she pulls the 
  trash can away, revealing a face completely covered in red blood and the child’s having 
  trouble blinking its eyes because of this, grabbing at his throat, now kicking weakly. The 
  mother makes a sound that I cannot describe—something high-pitched that turns into 
  screaming. 
     After she falls to the floor beside the body, a few people turning around, I find myself 
  shouting out, my voice heavy with emotion, “I’m a doctor, move back, I’m a doctor,” and 
  I kneel beside the mother before an interested crowd gathers around us and I pry her 
  arms off the child, who is now on his back struggling vainly for breath, the blood coming 
  evenly but in dying arcs out of his neck and onto his Polo shirt, which is drenched with it. 
  And I have a vague awareness during the minutes I hold the child’s head, reverently, 
  careful not to bloody myself, that if someone makes a phone call or if a real doctor is at 
  hand, there’s a good chance the child can be saved. But this doesn’t happen. Instead I 
  hold it, mindlessly, while the mother—homely, Jewish-looking, overweight, pitifully trying 
  to appear stylish in designer jeans and an unsightly leaf-patterned black wool sweater—
  shrieks do something, do something, do something, the two of us ignoring the chaos, 
  the people who start screaming around us, concentrating only on the dying child. 
     Though I am satisfied at first by my actions, I’m suddenly jolted with a mournful 
  despair at how useless, how extraordinarily painless, it is to take a child’s life. This thing 
  before me, small and twisted and bloody, has no real history, no worthwhile past, 
  nothing is really lost. It’s so much worse (and more pleasurable) taking the life of 
  someone who has hit his or her prime, who has the beginnings of a full history, a 
  spouse, a network of friends, a career, whose death will upset far more people whose 
  capacity for grief is limitless than a child’s would, perhaps ruin many more lives than just 
  the meaningless, puny death of this boy. I’m automatically seized with an almost 
  overwhelming desire to knife the boy’s mother too, who is in hysterics, but all I can do is 
  slap her face harshly and shout for her to calm down. For this I’m given no disapproving 
  looks. I’m dimly aware of light coming into the room, of a door being opened 
  somewhere, of the presence of zoo officials, a security guard, someone—one of the 
  tourists?—taking flash pictures, the penguins freaking out in the tank behind us, 
  slamming themselves against the glass in a panic. A cop pushes me away, even though 
  I tell him I’m a physician. Someone drags the boy outside, lays him on the ground and 
  removes his shirt. The boy gasps, dies. The mother has to be restrained. 
     I feel empty, hardly here at all, but even the arrival of the police seems an insufficient 
  reason to move and I stand with the crowd outside the penguin habitat, with dozens of 
  others, taking a long time to slowly blend in and then back away, until finally I’m walking 
  down Fifth Avenue, surprised by how little blood has stained my jacket, and I stop in a 
  bookstore and buy a book and then at a Dove Bar stand on the corner of Fifty-sixth 
  Street, where I buy a Dove Bar—a coconut one—and I imagine a hole, widening in the 
  sun, and for some reason this breaks the tension I started feeling when I first noticed the 
  snowy owl’s eyes and then when it recurred after the boy was dragged out of the 
  penguin habitat and I walked away, my hands soaked with blood, uncaught. 
  Girls 
     My appearances in the office the last month or so have been sporadic to say the least. 
  All I seem to want to do now is work out, lifting weights, mostly, and secure reservations 
  at new restaurants I’ve already been to, then cancel them. My apartment reeks of rotten 
  fruit, though actually the smell is caused by what I scooped out of Christie’s head and 
  poured into a Marco glass bowl that sits on a counter near the entranceway. The head 
  itself lies covered with brain pulp, hollow and eyeless, in the corner of the living room 
  beneath the piano and I plan to use it as a jack-o’-lantern on Halloween. Because of the 
  stench I decide to use Paul Owen’s apartment for a little tryst I have planned for tonight. 
  I’ve had the premises scanned for surveillance devices; disappointingly, there were 
  none. Someone I talk to through my lawyer tells me that Donald Kimball, the private 
  
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  investigator, has heard that Owen really is in London, that someone spotted him twice in 
  the lobby of Claridge’s, once each at a tailor on Savile Row and at a trendy new 
  restaurant in Chelsea. Kimball flew over two nights ago, which means no one is keeping 
  watch over the apartment anymore, and the keys I stole from Owen still function so I 
  was able to bring the tools (a power drill, a bottle of acid, the nail gun, knives, a Bic 
  lighter) over there after lunch. I hire two escort girls from a reputable if somewhat sleazy 
  private establishment I’ve never used before, charging them on Owen’s gold American 
  Express card which, I suppose because everyone thinks Owen is now in London, no 
  one has put a trace on, though there is one on his platinum AmEx. The Patty Winters 
  Show today was—ironically, I thought—about Princess Di’s beauty tips. 
     Midnight. The conversation I have with the two girls, both very young, blond 
  hardbodies with big tits, is brief, since I’m having a difficult time containing my 
  disordered self. 
     “You live in a palace, mister,” one of the girls, Torri, says in a baby’s voice, awed by 
  Owen’s ridiculous-looking condo. “It’s a real palace.” 
     Annoyed, I shoot her a glance. “It’s not that nice.” 
     While making drinks from Owen’s well-stocked bar, I mention to both of them that I 
  work on Wall Street, at Pierce & Pierce. Neither seems particularly interested. Again, I 
  find myself hearing a voice—one of theirs—asking if that’s a shoe store. Tiffany flips 
  through an issue of GQ that’s three months old, sitting on the black leather couch 
  beneath the strip of faux-cowhide paneling, and she’s looking confused, like she doesn’t 
  understand something, anything. I’m thinking, Pray, you bitch, just pray, and then I have 
  to admit to myself what a turn-on it is encouraging these girls to debase themselves in 
  front of me for what amounts to pocket change. I also mention, after pouring them 
  another drink, that I went to Harvard, and then I ask, after a pause, “Ever hear of it?” 
     I’m shocked when Torri answers, “I had a business acquaintance who said he went 
  there.” She shrugs dumbly. 
     “A client?” I ask, interested. 
     “Well,” she starts nervously. “Let’s just say a business acquaintance.” 
     “Was this a pimp?” I ask—then the weird part happens. 
     “Well”—she stalls again before continuing—“let’s just call him a business 
  acquaintance.” She sips from her glass. “He said he went to Harvard, but… I didn’t 
  believe him.” She looks over at Tiffany, then back at me. Our mutual silence encourages 
  her to keep talking and she continues haltingly. “He had, like, this monkey. And I would 
  have to watch this monkey in… his apartment.” She stops, starts, continues in 
  monotone, occasionally gulping. “I’d want to watch TV all day, ‘cause there was nothing 
  else to do while the guy was out… and while I tried to keep an eye on the monkey. But 
  there was… something wrong with this monkey.” She stops and takes a deep breath. 
  “The monkey would only watch…” Again she stops, takes in the room, a quizzical 
  expression creasing her face as if she’s not sure she should be telling us this story; if 
  we, me and the other bitch, should be privy to this information. And I brace myself for 
  something shocking, something revelatory, a connection. “It would only watch…” She 
  sighs, then in a sudden rush admits, “The Opnah Winfrey Show and that’s all it would 
  watch. The guy had tapes and tapes of it and he had made all of them for this 
  monkey”—now she looks over at me, imploringly, as if she’s losing her mind here, right 
  now, in Owen’s apartment and wants me to, what, verify it?—“with the commercials 
  edited out. One time I tried to… turn the channel, turn one of the tapes off… if I wanted 
  to watch a soap instead or something… but”—she finishes her drink and rolling her 
  eyes, obviously upset by this story, continues bravely—“the monkey would s-s-screech 
  at me and it would only calm down when Oprah was on.” She swallows, clears her 
  throat, looks like she’s going to cry but doesn’t. “And you know, you try to turn the 
  channel and that d-damn monkey would try to scratch you,” she concludes bitterly and 
  hugs herself, shivering, uselessly trying to warm herself. 
     Silence. Arctic, frigid, utter silence. The light burning over us in the apartment is cold 
  and electric. Standing there, I look at Torri then at the other girl, Tiffany, who looks 
  
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  queasy. 
     I finally say something, stumbling over my own words. “I don’t care… whether you’ve 
  led a… decent life… or not.” 
     Sex happens—a hard-core montage. After I shave Torri’s pussy she lies on her back 
  on Paul’s futon and spreads her legs while I finger her and suck it off, sometimes licking 
  her asshole. Then Tiffany sucks my cock—her tongue is hot and wet and she keeps 
  flicking it over the head, irritating me—while I call her a nasty whore, a bitch. Fucking 
  one of them with a condom while the other sucks my balls, lapping at them, I stare at the 
  Angelic silk-screen print hanging over the bed and I’m thinking about pools of blood, 
  geysers of the stuff. Sometimes it’s very quiet in the room except for the wet sounds my 
  cock makes slipping in and out of one of the girls’ vaginas. Tiffany and I take turns 
  eating Torri’s hairless cunt and asshole. The two of them come, yelling simultaneously, 
  in a sixty-nine position. Once their cunts are wet enough I bring out a dildo and let the 
  two of them play with it. Torri spreads her legs and fingers her own slit while Tiffany 
  fucks her with the huge, greased dildo, Torri urging Tiffany to fuck her cunt harder with 
  it, until finally, gasping, she comes. 
     Again I make the two of them eat each other out but it starts failing to turn me on—all I 
  can think about is blood and what their blood will look like and though Torri knows what 
  to do, how to eat pussy, it doesn’t subdue me and I push her away from Tiffany’s cunt 
  and start licking and biting at the pink, soft, wet cuntness while Torri spreads her ass 
  and sits on Tiffany’s face while fingering her own slit. Tiffany hungrily tongues her pussy, 
  wet and glistening, and Torri reaches down and squeezes Tiffany’s big, firm tits. I’m 
  biting hard, gnawing at Tiffany’s cunt, and she starts tensing up. “Relax,” I say 
  soothingly. She starts squealing, trying to pull away, and finally she screams as my 
  teeth rip into her flesh. Torri thinks Tiffany is coming and grinds her own cunt harder 
  onto Tiffany’s mouth, smothering her screams, but when I look up at Torri, blood 
  covering my face, meat and pubic hair hanging from my mouth, blood pumping from 
  Tiffany’s torn cunt onto the comforter, I can feel her sudden rush of horror. I use Mace to 
  blind both of them momentarily and then I knock them unconscious with the butt of the 
  nail gun. 
     Torri awakens to find herself tied up, bent over the side of the bed, on her back, her 
  face covered with blood because I’ve cut her lips off with a pair of nail scissors. Tiffany 
  is tied up with six pairs of Paul’s suspenders on the other side of the bed, moaning with 
  fear, totally immobilized by the monster of reality. I want her to watch what I’m going to 
  do to Torri and she’s propped up in a way that makes this unavoidable. As usual, in an 
  attempt to understand these girls I’m filming their deaths. With Torri and Tiffany I use a 
  Minox LX ultra-miniature camera that takes 9.5mm film, has a 15mm f/3.5 lens, an 
  exposure meter and a built-in neutral density filter and sits on a tripod. I’ve put a CD of 
  the Traveling Wilburys into a portable CD player that sits on the headboard above the 
  bed, to mute any screams. 
     I start by skinning Torri a little, making incisions with a steak knife and ripping bits of 
  flesh from her legs and stomach while she screams in vain, begging for mercy in a high 
  thin voice, and I’m hoping that she realizes her punishment will end up being relatively 
  light compared to what I’ve planned for the other one. I keep spraying Torri with Mace 
  and then I try to cut off her fingers with nail scissors and finally I pour acid onto her belly 
  and genitals, but none of this comes close to killing her, so I resort to stabbing her in the 
  throat and eventually the blade of the knife breaks off in what’s left of her neck, stuck on 
  bone, and I stop. While Tiffany watches, finally I saw the entire head off—torrents of 
  blood splash against the walls, even the ceiling—and holding the head up, like a prize, I 
  take my cock, purple with stiffness, and lowering Torri’s head to my lap I push it into her 
  bloodied mouth and start fucking it, until I come, exploding into it. Afterwards I’m so hard 
  I can even walk around the blood-soaked room carrying the head, which feels warm and 
  weightless, on my dick. This is amusing for a while but I need to rest so I remove the 
  head, placing it in Paul’s oak and teak armoire, and then I’m sitting in a chair, naked, 
  covered with blood, watching HBO on Owen’s TV, drinking a Corona, complaining out 
  
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  loud, wondering why Owen doesn’t have Cinemax. 
     Later—now—I’m telling Tiffany, “I’ll let you go, shhh…,” and I’m stroking her face, 
  which is slick, owing to tears and Mace, gently, and it burns me that she actually looks 
  up hopefully for a moment before she sees the lit match I’m holding in my hand that I’ve 
  torn from a matchbook I picked up in the bar at Palio’s where I was having drinks with 
  Robert Farrell and Robert Prechter last Friday, and I lower it to her eyes, which she 
  instinctively closes, singeing both eyelashes and brows, then I finally use a Bic lighter 
  and hold it up to both sockets, making sure they stay open with my fingers, burning my 
  thumb and pinkie in the process, until the eyeballs burst. While she’s still conscious I roll 
  her over, and spreading her ass cheeks, I nail a dildo that I’ve tied to a board deep into 
  her rectum, using the nail gun. Then, turning her over again, her body weak with fear, I 
  cut all the flesh off around her mouth and using the power drill with a detachable, 
  massive head I widen that hole while she shakes, protesting, and once I’m satisfied with 
  the size of the hole I’ve created, her mouth open as wide as possible, a reddish-black 
  tunnel of twisted tongue and loosened teeth, I force my hand down, deep into her throat, 
  until it disappears up to my wrist—all the while her head shakes uncontrollably, but she 
  can’t bite down since the power drill ripped her teeth out of her gums—and grab at the 
  veins lodged there like tubes and I loosen them with my fingers and when I’ve gotten a 
  good grip on them violently yank them out through her open mouth, pulling until the neck 
  caves in, disappears, the skin tightens and splits though there’s little blood. Most of the 
  neck’s innards, including the jugular, hang out of her mouth and her whole body starts 
  twitching, like a roach on its back, shaking spasmodically, her melted eyes running 
  down her face mixing with the tears and Mace, and then quickly, not wanting to waste 
  time, I turn off the lights and in the dark before she dies I rip open her stomach with my 
  bare hands. I can’t tell what I’m doing with them but it’s making wet snapping sounds 
  and my hands are hot and covered with something. 
     The aftermath. No fear, no confusion. Unable to linger since there are things to be 
  done today: return videotapes, work out at the gym, a new British musical on Broadway 
  I promised Jeanette I’d take her to, a dinner reservation to be made somewhere. What’s 
  left of both bodies is in early rigor mortis. Part of Tiffany’s body—I think it’s her even 
  though I’m having a hard time telling the two apart—has sunken in and her ribs jut out, 
  most broken in half, from what’s left of her stomach, both breasts having been pierced 
  by them. A head has been nailed to the wall, fingers lie scattered or arranged in some 
  kind of circle around the CD player. One of the bodies, the one on the floor, has been 
  defecated on and seems to be covered with teeth marks where I had bitten into it, 
  savagely. With the blood from one of the corpses’ stomachs that I dip my hand into, I 
  scrawl, in dripping red letters above the faux-cowhide paneling in the living room, the 
  words I AM BACK and below it a scary drawing which looks like this 
  Rat 
     The following are delivered mid-October. 
     An audio receiver, the Pioneer VSX-9300S, which features an integrated Dolby 
  Prologic Surround Sound processor with digital delay, plus a full-function infrared 
  remote control that masters up to 154 programmed functions from any other brand’s 
  remote and generates 125 watts of front speaker power as well as 30 watts in back. 
     An analog cassette deck by Akai, the GX-950B, which comes complete with manual 
  bias, Dolby recording level controls, a built-in calibrated tone generator and a spot-erase 
  editing system enabling one to mark the beginning and end points of a certain musical 
  passage, which can then be erased with a single push of a button. The three-head 
  design features a self-enclosed tape unit, resulting in minimized interference, and its 
  noise-reduction setup is fortified with Dolby HX-Pro while its front-panel controls are 
  activated by a full-function wireless remote. 
     A multidisc CD player by Sony, the MDP-700, which spins both audios and videos—
  anything from three-inch digital audio singles to twelve-inch video discs. It contains a 
  
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  still-frame slow-motion multispeed visual/audio laser that incorporates four-times-over 
  sampling and a dual-motor system that helps ensure consistent disc rotation while the 
  disc-protect system helps prevent the discs from warping. An automatic music sensor 
  system lets you make up to ninety-nine track selections while an auto chapter search 
  allows you to scan up to seventy-nine segments of a video disc. Included is a ten-key 
  remote control joy-shuttle dial (for frame-by-frame search) and a memory stop. This also 
  has two sets of gold-plated A-V jacks for topnotch connections. 
     A high-performance cassette deck, the DX-5000 from NEC, which combines digital 
  special effects with excellent hi-fi, and a connected four-head VHS-HQ unit, which 
  comes equipped with a twenty-one-day eight-event programmer, MTS decoding and 
  140 cable-ready channels. An added bonus: a fifty-function unified remote control lets 
  me zap out TV commercials. 
     Included in the Sony CCD-V200 8mm camcorder is a seven-color wipe, a character 
  generator, an edit switch that’s also capable of time-lapse recording, which allows me 
  to, say, record a decomposing body at fifteen-second intervals or tape a small dog as it 
  lies in convulsions, poisoned. The audio has built-in digital stereo record/playback, while 
  the zoom lens has four-lux minimum illumination and six variable shutter speeds. 
     A new TV monitor with a twenty-seven-inch screen, the CX-2788 from Toshiba, has a 
  built-in MTS decoder, a CCD comb filter, programmable channel scan, a super-VHS 
  connection, seven watts per channel of power, with an additional ten watts dedicated to 
  drive a subwoofer for extra low-frequency oomph, and a Carver Sonic Holographing 
  sound system that produces a unique stereo 3-D sound effect. 
     Pioneer’s LD-ST disc player with wireless remote and the Sony MDP-700 multidisc 
  player with digital effects and universal-wireless-remote programming (one for the 
  bedroom, one for the living room), which play all sizes and formats of audio and video 
  discs—eight-inch and twelve-inch laser discs, five-inch CD video discs and three- and 
  five-inch compact discs—in two autoload drawers. The LD-W1 from Pioneer holds two 
  full-sized discs and plays both sides sequentially with only a several-second lag per side 
  during the changeover so you don’t have to change or flip the discs. It also has digital 
  sound, wireless remote and a programmable memory. Yamaha’s CDV-16oo multidisc 
  player handles all disc formats and has a fifteen-selection random-access memory and 
  a wireless remote. 
     A pair of Threshold monoblock amplifiers that cost close to $15,000 are also delivered. 
  And for the bedroom, a bleached oak cupboard to store one of the new televisions 
  arrives on Monday. A tailored cotton-upholstered sofa framed by eighteenth-century 
  Italian bronze and marble busts on contemporary painted wood pedestals arrives on 
  Tuesday. A new bed headboard (white cotton covered with beige brass nail trim) also 
  arrives on Tuesday. A new Frank Stella print for the bathroom arrives on Wednesday 
  along with a new Superdeluxe black suede armchair. The Onica, which I’m selling, is 
  being replaced by a new one: a huge portrait of a graphic equalizer done in chrome and 
  pastels. 
     I’m talking to the delivery guys from Park Avenue Sound Shop about HDTV, which 
  isn’t available yet, when one of the new black AT&T cordless phones rings. I tip them, 
  then answer it. My lawyer, Ronald, is on the other end. I’m listening to him, nodding, 
  showing the delivery guys out of the apartment. Then I say, “The bill is three hundred 
  dollars, Ronald. We only had coffee.” A long pause, during which I hear a bizarre 
  sloshing sound coming from the bathroom. Walking cautiously toward it, cordless phone 
  still in hand, I tell Ronald, “But yes… Wait… But I am… But we only had espresso.” 
  Then I’m peering into the bathroom. 
     Perched on the seat of the toilet is a large wet rat that has—I’m assuming—come up 
  out of it. It sits on the rim of the toilet bowl, shaking itself dry, before it jumps, tentatively, 
  to the floor. It’s a massive rodent and it lurches, then scrambles, across the tile, out of 
  the bathroom’s other entrance and into the kitchen, where I follow it toward the leftover 
  pizza bag from Le Madri that for some reason sits on the floor on top of yesterday’s New 
  York Times near the garbage pail from Zona, and the rat, lured by the smell, takes the 
  
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  bag in its mouth and shakes its head furiously, like a dog would, trying to get at the leek-
  goat cheese-truffle pizza, making squealing sounds of hunger. I’m on a lot of Halcion at 
  this point so the rat doesn’t bother me as much as, I suppose, it should. 
     To catch the rat I buy an extra-large mousetrap at a hardware store on Amsterdam. I 
  also decide to spend the night at my family’s suite in the Carlyle. The only cheese I have 
  in the apartment is a wedge of Brie in the refrigerator and before leaving I place the 
  entire slice—it’s a really big rat—along with a sun-dried tomato and a sprinkling of dill, 
  delicately on the trap, setting it. But when I come back the following morning, because of 
  the rat’s size, the trap hasn’t killed it. The rat just lies there, stuck, squeaking, thrashing 
  its tail, which is a horrible, oily, translucent pink, as long as a pencil and twice as thick, 
  and it makes a slapping sound every time it hits against the white oak floor. Using a 
  dustpan—which it takes me over a fucking hour to find—I corner the injured rat just as it 
  frees itself from the trap and I pick the thing up, sending it into a panic, making it squeal 
  even louder, hissing at me, baring its sharp, yellow rat fangs, and dump it into a 
  Bergdorf Goodman hatbox. But then the thing claws its way out and I have to keep it in 
  the sink, a board, heavy with unused cookbooks, covering it, and even then it almost 
  escapes, while I sit in the kitchen thinking of ways to torture girls with this animal 
  (unsurprisingly I come up with a lot), making a list that includes, unrelated to the rat, 
  cutting open both breasts and deflating them, along with stringing barbed wire tightly 
  around their heads. 
  Another Night 
     McDermott and I are supposed to have dinner tonight at 1500 and he calls me around 
  six-thirty, forty minutes before our actual reservation (he couldn’t get us in at any other 
  time, except for six-ten or nine, which is when the restaurant closes—it serves 
  Californian cuisine and its seating times are an affectation carried over from that state), 
  and though I’m in the middle of flossing my teeth, all of my cordless phones lie by the 
  sink in the bathroom and I’m able to pick the right one up on the second ring. So far I’m 
  wearing black Armani trousers, a white Armani shirt, a red sad black Armani tie. 
  McDermott lets me know that Hamlin wants to come with us. I’m hungry. There’s a 
  pause. 
     “So?” I ask, straightening my tie. “Okay.” 
     “So?” McDermott sighs. “Hamlin doesn’t want to go to 1500.” 
     “Why not?” I turn off the tap in the sink. 
     “He was there last night.” 
     “So… what are you, McDermott, trying to tell me?” 
     ‘“That we’re going someplace else,” he says. 
     “Where?” I ask cautiously. 
     “Alex Goes to Camp is where Ham lin suggested,” he says. 
     “Hold on. I’m Plaxing.” After swishing the antiplaque formula around in my mouth and 
  inspecting my hairline in the mirror, I spit out the Plax. “Veto. Bypass. I went there last 
  week.” 
     “I know. So did I,” McDermott says. “Besides, it’s cheap. So where do we go instead?” 
     “Didn’t Hamlin have a fucking backup?” I growl, irritated. 
     “Er, no.” 
     “Call him back and get one,” I say, walking out of the bathroom. “I seem to have 
  misplaced my Zagat.” 
     “Do you want to hold or should I call you back?” he asks. 
     “Call me back, bozo.” We hang up. 
     Minutes pass. The phone rings. I don’t bother screening it. It’s McDermott again. 
     “Well?” I ask. 
     “Hamlin doesn’t have a backup and he wants to invite Luis Carruthers and what I want 
  to know is, does this mean Courtney’s coming?” McDermott asks. 
     “Luis cannot come,” I say. 
  
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     “Why not?” 
     “He just can’t.” I ask, “Why does he want Luis to come?” 
     There’s a pause. “Hold on,” McDermott says. “He’s on the other line. I’ll ask him.” 
     “Who?” A flash of panic. “Luis?” 
     “Hamlin.” 
     While holding I move into the kitchen, over to the refrigerator, and take out a bottle of 
  Perrier. I’m looking for a glass when I hear a click. 
     “Listen,” I say when McDermott gets back on the line. “I don’t want to see Luis or 
  Courtney so, you know, dissuade them or something. Use your charm. Be charming.” 
     “Hamlin has to have dinner with a client from Texas and—” 
     I cut him off. “Wait, this has nothing to do with Luis. Let Hamlin take the fag out 
  himself.” 
     “Hamlin wants Carruthers to come because Hamlin is supposed to be dealing with the 
  Panasonic case, but Carruthers knows a lot more about it and that’s why he wants 
  Carruthers to come,” McDermott explains. 
     I pause while taking this in. “If Luis comes I’ll kill him. I swear to god I’ll kill him. I’ll 
  fucking kill him.” 
     “Jeez, Bateman,” McDermott murmurs, concerned. “You’re a real humanitarian. A 
  sage.” 
     “No. just…” I start, confused, irritated. “Just… sensible.” 
     “I just want to know if Luis comes does this mean that Courtney will come too?” he 
  wonders again. 
     “Tell Hamlin to invite—oh shit, I don’t know.” I stop. “Tell Hamlin to have dinner with 
  the Texas guy alone.” I stop again, realizing something. “Wait a minute. Does this mean 
  Hamlin will… take us out? I mean pay for it, since it’s a business dinner?” 
     “You know, sometimes I think you’re very smart, Bateman,” McDermott says. “Other 
  times…” 
     “Oh shit, what the hell am I saying?” I ask myself out loud, annoyed. “You and I can 
  have a goddamn business dinner together. Jesus. I’m not going. That’s it. I’m not going.” 
     “Not even if Luis doesn’t come?” he asks. 
     “No. Nope.” 
     “Why not?” he whines. “We have reservations at 1500.” 
     “I… have to… watch The Cosby Show.” 
     “Oh tape it for Christ sakes, you ass. ” 
     “Wait.” I’ve realized something else. “Do you think Hamlin will”—I pause awkwardly—
  “have some drugs, perhaps… for the Texan?” 
     “What does Bateman think?” McDermott asks, the jaded asshole. 
     “Hmmm. I’m thinking about it. I’m thinking about this.” 
     After a pause McDermott says “Tick-tock, tick-tock” in singsong. “We’re getting 
  nowhere. Of course Hamlin is going to be carrying.” 
     “Get Hamlin, have him… get him on three-way,” I sputter, checking my Rolex. “Hurry. 
  Maybe we can talk him into 1500.” 
     “Okay,” McDermott says. “Hold on.” 
     There are four clicking noises and then I hear Hamlin saying, “Bateman, is it okay to 
  wear argyle socks with a business suit?” He’s attempting a joke but it fails to amuse me. 
     Sighing inwardly, my eyes closed, I answer, impatient, “Not really, Hamlin. They’re too 
  sporty. They interfere with a business image. You can wear them with casual suits. 
  Tweeds, whatever. Now Hamlin?” 
     “Bateman?” And then he says, ‘“Thank you.” 
     “Luis cannot come,” I tell him. “And you’re welcome.” 
     “No prob,” he says. “The Texan’s not coming anyway.” 
     “Why not?” I ask. 
     “Hay letsyall go to See Bee Jee Bees I har that’s pretty new wave. Lifestyle 
  difference,” Hamlin explains. “The Texan is not accepted until Monday. I quickly, and 
  quite nimbly I might add, rearranged my hectic schedule. A sick father. A forest fire. An 
  
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  excuse.” 
     “How does that take care of Luis?” I ask suspiciously. 
     “Luis is having dinner with the Texan tonight, which saves me a whole lotta trouble, 
  pardner. I’m seeing him at Smith and Wollensky on Monday,” Hamlin says, pleased with 
  himself. “So everything is A-okay.” 
     “Wait,” McDermott asks tentatively, “does this mean that Courtney isn’t coming?” 
     “We have missed or are going to miss our reservations at 1500,” I point out. “Besides, 
  Hamlin, you went there last night, huh?” 
     “Yeah,” he says. “It’s got passable carpaccio. Decent wren. Okay sorbets. But let’s go 
  somewhere else and, uh, then go on the search for the, uh, perfect body. Gentlemen?” 
     “Sounds good,” I say, amused that Hamlin, for once, has the right idea. “But what is 
  Cindy going to say about this?” 
     “Cindy has to go to a charity thing at the Plaza, something—” 
     “That’s the Trump Plaza,” I note absently, while finally opening the Perrier bottle. 
     “Yeah, the Trump Plaza,” he says. “Something about trees near the library. Money for 
  trees or a bush of some kind,” he says, unsure. “Plants? Beats me.” 
     “So where to?” McDermott asks. 
     “Who cancels 1500?” I ask. 
     “You do,” McDermott says. 
     “Oh McDermott,” I moan, “Just do it.” 
     “Wait,” Hamlin says. “Let’s decide where we’re going first.” 
     “Agreed.” McDermott, the parliamentarian. 
     “I am fanatically opposed to anywhere not on the Upper West or Upper East side of 
  this city,” I say. 
     “Bellini’s?” Hamlin suggests. 
     “Nope. Can’t smoke cigars there,” McDermott and I say at the same time. 
     “Cross that one out,” Hamlin says. “Gandango?” he suggests. 
     “Possibility, possibility,” I murmur, mulling it over. “Trump eats there.” 
     “Zeus Bar?” one of them asks. 
     “Make a reservation,” says the other. 
     “Wait,” I tell them, “I’m thinking.” 
     “Bateman …,” Hamlin warns. 
     “I’m toying with the idea,” I say. 
     “Bateman …” 
     “Wait. Let me toy for a minute.” 
     “I’m really too irritated to be dealing with this right now,” McDermott says. 
     “Why don’t we just forget this shit and bash some Japs,” Hamlin suggests. “Then find 
  the perfect body.” 
     “Not a bad idea, actually.” I shrug. “Decent combo.” 
     “What do you want to do, Bateman?” McDermott asks. 
     Thinking about it, thousands of miles away, I answer, “I want to…” 
     “Yes…?” they both ask expectantly. 
     “I want to… pulverize a woman’s face with a large, heavy brick.” 
     “Besides that,” Hamlin moans impatiently. 
     “Okay, fine,” I say, snapping out of it. “Zeus Bar.” 
     “You sure? Right? Zeus Bar?” Hamlin concludes, he hopes. 
     “Guys. I am finding myself increasingly incapable of dealing with this at all,” 
  McDermott says. “Zeus Bar. That’s final.” 
     “Hold on,” Hamlin says. “I’ll call and make a reservation.” He clicks off, leaving 
  McDermott and myself on hold. It’s silent for a long time before either one of us says 
  anything. 
     “You know,” I finally say. “It will probably be impossible to get a reservation there.” 
     “Maybe we should go to M.K. The Texan would probably like to go to M.K.,” Craig 
  says. 
     “But, McDermott, the Texan isn’t coming,” I point out. 
  
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     “I can’t go to M.K. anyway,” he says, not listening, and he doesn’t mention why. 
     “I don’t want to know about it.” 
     We wait two more minutes for Hamlin. 
     “What in the hell is he doing?” I ask, then my call waiting clicks in. 
     McDermott hears it too. “Do you want to take that?” 
     “I’m thinking.” It clicks again. I moan and tell McDermott to hold on. It’s Jeanette. She 
  sounds tired and sad. I don’t want to get back on the other line so I ask her what she did 
  last night. 
     “After you were supposed to meet me?” she asks. 
     I pause, unsure. “Uh, yeah.” 
     “We ended up at Palladium which was completely empty. They were letting in people 
  for free.” She signs. “We saw maybe four or five people.” 
     “That you knew?” I ask hopefully. 
     “In... the… club,” she says, spacing each word out bitterly. 
     “I’m sorry,” I finally say. “I had to… return some videotapes…” And then, reacting to 
  her silence, “You know, I would’ve met you—” 
     “I.don’t want to hear about it,” she sighs, cutting me off. “What are you doing tonight?” 
     I pause, wondering how to answer, before admitting, “Zeus Bar at nine. McDermott. 
  Hamlin.” And then, less hopefully, “Would you like to meet us?” 
     “I don’t know,” she sighs. Without a trace of softness she asks, “Do you want me to?” 
     “Must you insist on being so pathetic?” I ask back. 
     She hangs up on me. I get back on the other line. 
     “Bateman, Bateman, Bateman, Bateman, “ Hamlin is droning. 
     “I’m here. Shut the fuck up.” 
     “Are we still procrastinating?” McDermott asks. “Don’t procrastinate.” 
     “I’ve decided I’d rather play golf,” I say. “I haven’t been golfing in a long time.” 
     “Fuck golf, Batsman,” Hamlin says. “We have a nine o’clock reservation at Kaktus—” 
     “And a reservation to cancel at 1500 in, um, let’s see… twenty minutes ago, 
  Batsman,” McDermott says. 
     “Oh shit, Craig. Cancel them now,” I say tiredly. 
     “God, I hate golf,” Hamlin says, shuddering. 
     “You cancel them,” McDermott says, laughing. 
     “What name are they under?” I ask, not laughing, my voice rising. 
     After a pause, McDermott says “Carruthers” softly. 
     Hamlin and I burst out laughing. 
     “Really?” I ask. 
     “We couldn’t get into Zeus Bar,” Hamlin says. “So it’s Kaktus.” 
     “Hip,” I say dejectedly. “I guess.” 
     “Cheer up.” Hamlin chortles. 
     My call waiting buzzes again and before I can even decide whether to take it or not, 
  Hamlin makes up my mind for me. “Now if you guys don’t want to go to Kaktus—” 
     “Wait, my call waiting,” I say. “Hold on.” 
     Jeanette is in tears. “What aren’t you capable of?” she asks, sobbing. “Just tell me 
  what you are not capable of.” 
     “Baby. Jeanette,” I say soothingly. “Listen, please. We’ll be at Zeus Bar at ten. Okay?” 
     “Patrick, please,” she begs. “I’m okay. I just want to talk—” 
     “I’ll see you at nine or ten, whenever,” I say. “I’ve gotta go. Hamlin and McDermott are 
  on the other line.” 
     “Okay.” She sniffs, composing herself, clearing her throat. “I’ll see you there. I’m really 
  sor—” 
     I click back onto the other line. McDermott is the only one left. 
     “He got off,” McDermott says. “He’ll see us at nine.” 
     “Great,” I murmur. “I feel settled.” 
     “Who was that?” 
     “Jeanette,” I say. 
  
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     I hear a faint click, then another one. 
     “Was that yours or mine?” McDermott asks. 
     “Yours,” I say, “I think.” 
     “Hold on.” 
     I wait, impatiently pacing the length of the kitchen. McDermott clicks back on. 
     “It’s Van Patten,” he says. “I’m putting him on three-way.” 
     Four more clicks. 
     “Hey Bateman,” Van Patten cries out. “Buddy. ” 
     “Mr. Manhattan,” I say. “I’m acknowledging you.” 
     “Hey, what’s the correct way to wear a cummerbund?” he asks. 
     “I already answered that twice today,” I warn. 
     The two of them start talking about whether or not Van Patten can get to Kaktus by 
  nine and I’ve stopped concentrating on the voices coming through the cordless phone 
  and started watching instead, with growing interest, the rat I’ve bought—I still have the 
  mutant one that emerged from the toilet—in its new glass cage, heave what’s left of its 
  acid-ridden body halfway across the elaborate Habitrail system that sits on the kitchen 
  table, where it attempts to drink from the water holder that I filled with poisoned Evian 
  this morning. The scene seems too pitiful to me or not pitiful enough. I can’t decide. A 
  call-waiting noise takes me out of my mindless delirium and I tell Van Patten and 
  McDermott to please hold. 
     I click off, then pause before saying, “You have reached the home of Patrick Bateman. 
  Please leave a message after—” 
     “Oh for god’s sake, Patrick, grow up,” Evelyn moans. “Just stop it. Why do you insist 
  on doing that? Do you really think you’re going to get away with it?” 
     “With what?” I ask innocently. “Protecting myself?” 
     “With torturing me,” she pouts. 
     “Honey,” I say. 
     “Yes?” she sniffs. 
     “You don’t know what torture is. You don’t know what you’re talking about,” I tell her. 
  “You really don’t know what you’re talking about.” 
     “I don’t want to talk about it,” she says. “It’s over. Now, what are you doing for dinner 
  tonight?” Her voice softens. “I was thinking maybe dinner at TDK at, oh, say ninish?” 
     “I’m eating at the Harvard Club by myself tonight,” I say. 
     “Oh don’t be silly,” Evelyn says. “I know you’re having dinner at Kaktus with Hamlin 
  and McDermott.” 
     “How do you know that?” I ask, not caring if I’ve been caught in a lie. “Anyway, it’s 
  Zeus Bar, not Kaktus.” 
     “Because I just talked to Cindy,” she says. 
     “I thought Cindy was going to this plant or tree—this bush benefit,” I say. 
     “Oh no, no, no,” Evelyn says. “That’s next week. Do you want to go?” 
     “Hold on,” I say. 
     I get back on the line with Craig and Van Patten. 
     “Bateman?” Van Patten asks. “What the fuck are you doing?” 
     “How the hell does Cindy know we’re having dinner at Kaktus?” I demand. 
     “Hamlin told her?” McDermott guesses. “I don’t know.” 
     “Because now Evelyn knows,” I say. 
     “When the fuck is Wolfgang Puck going to open a restaurant in this goddamn city?” 
  Van Patten asks us. 
     “Is Van Patten on his third six-pack of Fosters or is he still, like, working on his first?” I 
  ask McDermott. 
     “The question you’re asking, Patrick,” McDermott begins, “is, should we exclude the 
  women or not? Right?” 
     “Something is turning into nothing very quickly,” I warn. “That’s all I’m saying.” 
     “Should you invite Evelyn?” McDermott asks. “Is this what you want to know?” 
     “No, we should not,” I stress. 
  
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     “Well, hey, I wanted to bring Elizabeth,” Van Patten says timidly (mock-timidly?). 
     “No,” I say. “No women.” 
     “What’s wrong with Elizabeth?” Van Patten asks. 
     “Yeah?” McDermott follows. 
     “She’s an idiot. No, she’s intelligent. I can’t tell. Don’t invite her,” I say. 
     After a pause I hear Van Patten say, “I sense weirdness starting.” 
     “Well, if not Elizabeth, what about Sylvia josephs?” McDermott suggests. 
     “Nah, too old to fuck,” Van Patten says. 
     “Oh Christ,” McDermott says. “She’s twenty-three.” 
     “Twenty-eight,” I correct. 
     “Really?” a concerned McDermott asks, after pausing. 
     “Yes” I say. “Really.” 
     McDermott’s left saying “Oh.” 
     “Shit, I just forgot,” I say, slapping my hand to my forehead “I invited Jeanette.” 
     “Now that is one babe I would not mind, ahem, inviting,” Van Patten says lewdly. 
     “Why does a nice young babe like Jeanette put up with you?” McDermott asks. “Why 
  does she put up with you, Bateman?” 
     “I keep her in cashmere. A great deal of cashmere,” I murmur, and then, “I’ve got to 
  call her and tell her not to come.” 
     “Aren’t you forgetting something?” McDermott asks me. 
     “What?” I’m lost in thought. 
     “Is, like, Evelyn still on the other line?” 
     “Oh shit,” I exclaim. “Hold on.” 
     “Why am I even bothering with this?” I hear McDermott ask himself, sighing. 
     “Bring Evelyn,” Van Patten cries out. “She’s a babe too! Tell her to meet us at Zeus 
  Bar at nine-thirty!” 
     “Okay, okay,” I shout before clicking back to the other line. 
     “I do not appreciate this, Patrick,” Evelyn is saying. 
     “How about meeting us at Zeus Bar at nine-thirty?” I suggest. 
     “Can I bring Stash and Vanden?” she asks coyly. 
     “Is she the one with a tattoo?” I ask back, coyly. 
     “No,” she sighs. “No tattoo.” 
     “Bypass, bypass.” 
     “Oh Pat rick,” she whines. 
     “Look, you were lucky you were even invited, so just…” My voice trails off. 
     Silence, during which I don’t feel bad. 
     “Come on, just meet us there,” I say. “I’m sorry.” 
     “Oh all right,” she says, resigned. “Nine-thirty?” 
     I click back onto the other line, interrupting Van Patter and McDermott’s conversation 
  about whether it’s proper or not to wear a blue suit as one would a navy blazer. 
     “Hello?” I interrupt. “Shut up. Does everyone have my undivided attention?” 
     “Yes, yes, yes,” Van Patter sighs, bored. 
     “I am calling Cindy up to get Evelyn out of coming to dinner with us,” I announce. 
     “Why in the hell did you invite Evelyn in the first place?” one of them asks. 
     “We were joking, you idiot,” the other adds. 
     “Er, good question,” I say, stammering. “Uh, h-hold on.” 
     I dial Cindy’s number after finding it in my Rolodex. She answers after screening the 
  call. 
     “Hello, Patrick,” she says. 
     “Cindy,” I say. “I need a favor.” 
     “Hamlin’s not coming to dinner with you guys,” she says. “He tried calling back but 
  your lines were all busy. Don’t you guys have call waiting?” 
     “Of course we have call waiting,” I say. “What do you think we are, barbarians?” 
     “Hamlin’s not coming,” she says again, flatly. 
     “What’s he doing instead?” I ask. “Oiling his Top-Siders?” 
  
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     “He’s going out with me, Mr. Bateman.” 
     “But what about your, uh, bush benefit?” I ask. 
     “Hamlin got it mixed up,” she says. 
     “Pumpkin,” I start. 
     “Yes?” she asks. 
     “Pumpkin, you’re dating an asshole,” I say sweetly. 
     “Thanks, Patrick. That’s nice.” 
     “Pumpkin,” I warn, “you’re dating the biggest dickweed in New York.” 
     “You’re telling me like I don’t know this.” She yawns. 
     “Pumpkin, you’re dating a tumbling, tumbling dickweed.” 
     “Do you know that Hamlin owns six television sets and seven VCRs?” 
     “Does he ever use that rowing machine I got him?” I actually wonder. 
     “Unused,” she says. “Totally unused.” 
     “Pumpkin, he’s a dickweed.” 
     “Will you stop calling me pumpkin,” she asks, annoyed. 
     “Listen, Cindy, if you had a choice to read WWD or…” I stop, unsure of what I was 
  going to say. “Listen, is there anything going on tonight?” I ask. “Something not too… 
  boisterous?” 
     “What do you want, Patrick?” she sighs. 
     “I just want peace, love, friendship, understanding,” I say dispassionately. 
     “What-do-you-want?” she repeats. 
     “Why don’t the two of you come with us?” 
     “We have other plans.” 
     “Hamlin made the goddamn reservations,” I cry, outraged. 
     “Well,you guys use them.” 
     “Why don’t you come?” I ask lasciviously. “Dump dickweed off at Juanita’s or 
  something.” 
     “I think I’m passing on dinner,” she says. “Apologize to ‘the guys’ for me.” 
     “But we’re going to Kaktus, uh, I mean Zeus Bar,” I say, then, confused, add, “No, 
  Kaktus.” 
     “Are you guys really going there? ” she asks. 
     “Why?” 
     “Conventional wisdom has it that it is no longer the ‘in’ place to dine,” she says. 
     “But Hamlin made the fucking reservation!” I cry out. 
     “Did he make reservations there? ” she asks, bemused. 
     “Centuries ago!” I shout. 
     “Listen,” she says, “I’m getting dressed.” 
     “I’m not at all happy about this,” I say. 
     “Don’t worry,” she says, and then hangs up. 
     I get back on the other line. 
     “Bateman, I know this sounds like an impossibility,” McDermott says. “But the void is 
  actually widening.” 
     “I am not into Mexican,” Van Patten states. 
     “But wait, we’re not having Mexican, are we?” I say. “Am I confused? Aren’t we going 
  to Zeus Bar?” 
     “No, moron,” McDermott spits. “We couldn’t get into Zeus Bar. Kaktus. Kaktus at nine.” 
     “But I don’t want Mexican,” Van Patten says. 
     “But you, Van Patten, made the reservation,” McDermott hollers. 
     “I don’t either,” I say suddenly. “Why Mexican?” 
     “It’s not Mexican Mexican,” McDermott says, exasperated “It’s something called 
  nouvelle Mexicana, tapas or some other south of the border thing. Something like that. 
  Hold on. My call waiting.” 
     He clicks off, leaving Van Patten and myself on the line. 
     “Bateman,” Van Patten sighs, “my euphoria is quickly subsiding.” 
     “What are you talking about?” I’m actually trying to remember where I told Jeanette 
  
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  and Evelyn to meet us. 
     “Let’s change the reservation,” he suggests. 
     I think about it, then suspiciously ask, “Where to?” 
     “1969, “ he says, tempting me. “Hmmm? 1969?” 
     “I would like to go there,” I admit. 
     “What should we do?” he asks. 
     I think about it. “Make a reservation. Quick.” 
     “Okay. For three? Five? How many?” 
     “Five or six, I guess.” 
     “Okay. Hold.” 
     Just as he clicks off, McDermott gets back on. 
     “Where’s Van Patten?” he asks. 
     “He… had to take a piss,” I say. 
     “Why don’t you want to go to Kaktus?” 
     “Because I’m gripped by an existential panic,” I lie. 
     “You think that’s a good enough reason,” McDermott says. “I do not.” 
     “Hello?” Van Patten says, clicking back on. “Bateman?” 
     “Well?” I ask. “McDermott’s here too.” 
     “Nope. No way, José.” 
     “Shit.” 
     “What’s going on?” McDermott asks. 
     “Well, guys, do we want margaritas?” Van Patten asks. “Or no margaritas?” 
     “I could go for a margarita,” McDermott says. 
     “Bateman?” Van Patten asks. 
     “I would like several bottles of beer, preferably un -Mexican,” I say. 
     “Oh shit,” McDermott says. “Call waiting. Hold on.” He clicks off. 
     If I am not mistaken it is now eight-thirty. 
     An hour later. We’re still debating. We have canceled the reservation at Kaktus and 
  maybe someone has remade it. Confused, I actually cancel a nonexistent table at Zeus 
  Bar. Jeanette has left her apartment and cannot be reached at home and I have no idea 
  which restaurant she’s going to, nor do I remember which one I told Evelyn to meet us 
  at. Van Patten, who has already had two large shots of Absolut, asks about Detective 
  Kimball and what we talked about and all I really remember is something like how 
  people fail between cracks. 
     “Did you talk to him?” I ask. 
     “Yeah, yeah.” 
     “What did he say happened to Owen?” 
     “Vanished. Just vanished. Poof,” he says. I can hear him opening a refrigerator. “No 
  incident. Nothing. The authorities have nada.” 
     “Yeah,” I say. “I’m in heavy turmoil over it.” 
     “Well, Owen was… I don’t know,” he says. I can hear a beer being opened. 
     “What else did you tell him, Van Patten?” I ask. 
     “Oh the usual,” he sighs. “That he wore yellow and maroon ties. That he had lunch at 
  ‘21.’ That in reality he was not an arbitrageur—which was what Thimble thought he 
  was—but a merger-maker. Only the usual.” I can almost hear him shrug. 
     “What else?” I ask. 
     “Let’s see. That he didn’t wear suspenders. A belt man. That he stopped doing 
  cocaine, simpatico beer. You know, Bateman.” 
     “He was a moron,” I say. “And now he’s in London.” 
     “Christ,” he mutters, “general competence is on the fucking decline.” 
     McDermott clicks back on. “Okay. Now where to?” 
     “What time is it?” Van Patter asks. 
     “Nine-thirty,” both of us answer. 
     “Wait, what happened to 1969?” I ask van Patter. 
     “What’s this about 1969?” McDermott doesn’t have a clue. 
  
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     “I don’t remember,” I say. 
     “Closed. No reservations,” Van Patter reminds me. 
     “Can we get back to 1500?” I ask. 
     “1500 is now closed,” McDermott shouts. “The kitchen is closed. The restaurant is 
  closed. It’s over. We have to go to Kaktus.” 
     Silence. 
     “Hello? Hello? Are you guys there?” he hollers, losing it. 
     “Bouncy as a beach ball,” Van Patter says. 
     I laugh. 
     “If you guys think this is funny,” McDermott warns. 
     “Oh yeah, what? What are you going to do?” I ask. 
     “Guys, it’s just that I am apprehensive about failure in terms of securing a table before, 
  like, well, midnight.” 
     “Are you sure about 1500?” I ask. “That seems really bizarre.” 
     “That suggestion is moot!” McDermott screams. “Why, you may ask? Because-they-
  are-closed! Because-they-are-closed-they-have-stopped-taking-reservations! Are-you-
  following-this?” 
     “Hey, no sweat, babe,” Van Patter says coolly. “We’ll go to Kaktus. 
     “We have a reservation there in ten, no, fifteen minutes ago,” McDermott says. 
     “But I canceled them, I thought,” I say, taking another Xanax. 
     “I remade them,’. McDermott says. 
     “You are indispensable,” I tell him in monotone. 
     “I can be there by ten,” McDermott says. 
     “By the time I stop at my automated teller, I can be there by ten-fifteen,” Van Patter 
  says slowly, counting the minutes. 
     “Does anyone have any idea that Jeanette and Evelyn are meeting us at Zeus Bar, 
  where we do not have a reservation? Has this passed through anyone’s mind?” I ask, 
  doubting it. 
     “But Zeus Bar is closed. and besides that we canceled a reservation we didn’t even 
  have there,” McDermott says, trying to stay calm. 
     “But I think I told Jeanette and Evelyn to meet us there,” I say, bringing my fingers up 
  to my mouth, horrified by this possibility. 
     After a pause McDermott asks, “Do you want to get into trouble? Are you asking for it 
  or something?” 
     “My call waiting,” I say. “Oh my god. What time is it? My call waiting.” 
     “It’s gotta be one of the girls,” Van Patten says gleefully. 
     “Hold on,” I croak. 
     “Good luck,” I hear Van Patten say before I click off. 
     “Hello?” I ask meekly. “You have reached the—” 
     “It’s me,” Evelyn shouts, the noise in the background almost drowning her out. 
     “Oh hi,” I say casually. “What’s going on?” 
     “Patrick, what are you doing.at home?” 
     “Where are you?” I ask good-naturedly. 
     “I-am-at-Kaktus,” she hisses. 
     “What are you doing there?” I ask. 
     “You said you’d meet me here, that-is-what,” she says. “I confirmed your 
  reservations.” 
     “Oh god, I’m sorry,” I say. “I forgot to tell you.” 
     “Forgot-to-tell-me-what?” 
     “To tell you that we aren’t”—I gulp—“going there.” I close my eyes. 
     “Who-in-the-hell-is-Jeanette?” she hisses calmly. 
     “Well, aren’t you guys having fun?” I ask, ignoring her question. 
     “No-we-are-not.” 
     “Why not?” I ask. “We’ll be there… soon.” 
     “Because this whole thing feels, gee, I don’t know… inappropriate?” she screams. 
  
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     “Listen, I’ll call you right back.” I’m about to pretend to take the number down. 
     “You won’t be able to,” Evelyn says, her voice tense and lowered. 
     “Why not? The phone strike’s over,” I joke, sort of. 
     “Because-Jeanette-is-behind-me-and-wants-to-use-it,” Evelyn says. 
     I pause for a very long time. 
     “Pat-rick?” 
     “Evelyn. Let it slide. I’m leaving right now. We’ll all be there shortly. I promise.” 
     “Oh my god—” 
     I click back to the other line. 
     “Guys, guys, someone fucked up. I fucked up. You fucked up. I don’t know,” I say in a 
  total panic. 
     “What’s wrong?” one of them asks. 
     “Jeanette and Evelyn are at Kaktus,” I say. 
     “Oh boy.” Van Patter cracks up. 
     “You know, guys, it’s not beyond my capacity to drive a lead pipe repeatedly into a 
  girl’s vagina,” I tell Van Patter and McDermott, then add, after a silence I mistake for 
  shock, finally on their parts an acute perception of my cruelty, “but compassionately.” 
     “We all know about your lead pipe, Bateman,” McDermott says. “Stop bragging.” 
     “Is he like trying to tell us he has a big dick?” Van Patter asks Craig. 
     “Gee, I’m not sure,” McDermott says. “Is that what you’re trying to tell us, Bateman?” 
     I pause before answering. “It’s… well, no, not exactly.” My call waiting buzzes. 
     “Fine, I’m officially jealous,” McDermott wisecracks. “Now where? Christ, what time is 
  it?” 
     “It doesn’t really matter. My mind has already gone numb.” 
     I’m so hungry now that I’m eating oat bran cereal out of a box. 
     My call waiting buzzes again. 
     “Maybe we can get some drugs.” 
     “Call Hamlin.” 
     “Jesus, you can’t walk into a bathroom in this city without coming out with a gram, so 
  don’t worry.” 
     “Anyone hear about Bell South’s cellular deal?” 
     “Spuds McKenzie is on The Patty Winters Show tomorrow. 
  Girl 
     On a Wednesday night another girl, who I meet at M.K. and I plan to torture and film. 
  This one remains nameless to me and she sits on the couch in the living room of my 
  apartment. A bottle of champagne, Cristal, half empty, sits on the glass table. I punch in 
  tunes, numbers that light up the Wurlitzer. She finally asks, “What’s that… smell in 
  here?” and I answer, under my breath, “A dead… rat,” and then I’m opening the 
  windows, the sliding glass door that leads out to the terrace, even though it’s a chilly 
  night, mid-autumn, and she’s dressed scantily, but she has another glass of the Cristal 
  and it seems to warm her enough so that she is able to ask me what I do for a living. I 
  tell her that I went to Harvard then started working on Wall Street, at Pierce & Pierce, 
  after I graduated from business school there, and when she asks, either confused or 
  jokingly, “What’s that?” I swallow and with my back to her, straightening the new Onica, 
  find the strength to force out, “A… shoe store.” I did a line of cocaine I found in my 
  medicine cabinet when we first came back to my place, and the Cristal takes the edge 
  off it, but only slightly: The Patty Winters Show this morning was about a machine that 
  lets people talk to the dead. This girl is wearing a wool barathea jacket and skirt, a silk 
  georgette blouse, agate and ivory earrings by Stephen Dweck, a silk jacquard torsolette 
  vest, all from… where? Charivari, I’m guessing. 
     In the bedroom she’s naked and oiled and sucking my dick and I’m standing over her 
  and then I’m slapping her in the face with it, grabbing her hair with my hand, calling her 
  a “fucking whore bitch,” and this turns her on even more and while lamely sucking my 
  
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  cock she starts fingering her clit and when she’s asking me “Do you like this?” while 
  licking at the balls, I’m answering “yap, yap” and breathing hard. Her breasts are high 
  and full and firm, both nipples very stiff, and while she’s choking on my cock while I’m 
  fucking her mouth roughly with it, I reach down to squeeze them and then while I’m 
  fucking her, after ramming a dildo up her ass and keeping it there with a strap, I’m 
  scratching at her tits, until she warns me to stop. Earlier in the evening I was having 
  dinner with Jeanette at a new Northern Italian restaurant near Central Park on the Upper 
  East Side that was very expensive. Earlier in the evening I was wearing a suit tailored 
  by Edward Sexton and thinking sadly about my family’s house in Newport. Earlier in the 
  night after dropping Jeanette off I stopped at M.K. for a fund-raiser that had something 
  to do with Dan Quayle, who even I don’t like. At M.K. the girl I’m fucking came on to me, 
  hard, upstairs on a couch while I was waiting to play pool. “Oh god,” she’s saying. 
  Excited, I slap her, then lightly punch her in the mouth, then kiss it, biting her lips. Fear, 
  dread, confusion overwhelm her. The strap breaks and the dildo slides out of her ass 
  while she tries to push me off. I roll away and pretend to let her escape and then, while 
  she’s gathering her clothes, muttering about what a “crazy fucking bastard” I am, I leap 
  out at her, jackal-like, literally foaming at the mouth. She cries, apologizing, sobbing 
  hysterically, begging for me not to hurt her, in tears, covering her breasts, now 
  shamefully. But even her sobs fail to arouse me. I feel little gratification when I Mace 
  her, less when I knock her head against the wall four or five times, until she loses 
  consciousness, leaving a small stain, hair stuck to it. After she drops to the floor I head 
  for the bathroom and cut another line of the mediocre coke I scored at Nells or Au Bar 
  the other night. I can hear a phone ringing, an answering machine picking up the call. 
  I’m bent low, over a mirror, ignoring the message, not even bothering to screen it. 
     Later, predictably, she’s tied to the floor, naked, on her back, both feet, both hands, 
  tied to makeshift posts that are connected to boards which are weighted down with 
  metal. The hands are shot full of nails and her legs are spread as wide as possible. A 
  pillow props her ass up and cheese, Brie, has been smeared across her open cunt, 
  some of it even pushed up into the vaginal cavity. She’s barely gained consciousness 
  and when she sees me, standing over her, naked, I can imagine that my virtual absence 
  of humanity fills her with mind-bending horror. I’ve situated the body in front of the new 
  Toshiba television set and in the VCR is an old tape and appearing on the screen is the 
  last girl I filmed. I’m wearing a Joseph Abboud suit, a tie by Paul Stuart, shoes by J. 
  Crew, a vest by someone Italian and I’m kneeling on the floor beside a corpse, eating 
  the girl’s brain, gobbling it down, spreading Grey Poupon over hunks of the pink, fleshy 
  meat. 
     “Can you see?” I ask the girl not on the television set. “Can you see this? Are you 
  watching?” I whisper. 
     I try using the power drill on her, forcing it into her mouth, but she’s conscious enough, 
  has strength, to close her teeth, clamping them down, and even though the drill goes 
  through the teeth quickly, it fails to interest me and so I hold her head up, blood dribbling 
  from her mouth, and make her watch the rest of the tape and while she’s looking at the 
  girl on the screen bleed from almost every possible orifice, I’m hoping she realizes that 
  this would have happened to her no matter what. That she would have ended up lying 
  here, on the floor in my apartment, hands nailed to posts, cheese and broken glass 
  pushed up into her cunt, her head cracked and bleeding purple, no matter what other 
  choice she might have made; that if she had gone to Nell’s or Indochine or Mars or Au 
  Bar instead of M.K., if she had simply not taken the cab with me to the Upper West Side, 
  that this all would have happened anyway. I would have found her. This is the way the 
  earth works. I decide not to bother with the camera tonight. 
     I’m trying to ease one of the hollow plastic tubes from the dismantled Habitrail system 
  up into her vagina, forcing the vaginal lips around one end of it, and even with most of it 
  greased with olive oil, it’s not fitting in properly. During this, the jukebox plays Frankie 
  Valli singing “The Worst That Could Happen” and I’m grimly lip-syncing to it, while 
  pushing the Habitrail tube up into this bitch’s cunt. I finally have to resort to pouring acid 
  
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  around the outside of the pussy so that the flesh can give way to the greased end of the 
  Habitrail and soon enough it slides in, easily. “I hope this hurts you,” I say. 
     The rat hurls itself against the glass cage as I move it from the kitchen into the living 
  room. It refused to eat what was left of the other rat I had bought it to play with last 
  week, that now lies dead, rotting in a corner of the cage. (For the last five days I’ve 
  purposefully starved it.) I set the glass cage down next to the girl and maybe because of 
  the scent of the cheese the rat seems to go insane, first running in circles, mewling, then 
  trying to heave its body, weak with hunger, over the side of the cage. The rat doesn’t 
  need any prodding and the bent coat hanger I was going to use remains untouched by 
  my side and with the girl still conscious, the thing moves effortlessly on newfound 
  energy, racing up the tube until half of its body disappears, and then after a minute—its 
  rat body shaking while it feeds—all of it vanishes, except for the tail, and I yank the 
  Habitrail tube out of the girl, trapping the rodent. Soon even the tail disappears. The 
  noises the girl is making are, for the most part, incomprehensible. 
     I can already tell that it’s going to be a characteristically useless, senseless death, but 
  then I’m used to the horror. It seems distilled, even now it fails to upset or bother me. I’m 
  not mourning, and to prove it to myself, after a minute or two of watching the rat move 
  under her lower belly, making sure the girl is still conscious, shaking her head in pain, 
  her eyes wide with terror and confusion, I use a chain saw and in a matter of seconds 
  cut the girl in two with it. The whirring teeth go through skin and muscle and sinew and 
  bone so fast that she stays alive long enough to watch me pull her legs away from her 
  body—her actual thighs, what’s left of her mutilated vagina—and hold them up in front of 
  me, spouting blood, like trophies almost. Her eyes stay open for a minute, desperate 
  and unfocused, then close, and finally, before she dies, I force a knife uselessly up her 
  nose until it slides out of the flesh on her forehead, and then I hack the bone off her 
  chin. She has only half a mouth left and I fuck it once, then twice, three times in all. Not 
  caring whether she’s still breathing or not I gouge her eyes out, finally using my fingers. 
  The rat emerges headfirst—somehow it turned itself around inside the cavity—and it’s 
  stained with purple blood (I also notice where the chain saw took off about half of its tail) 
  and I feed it extra Brie until I feel I have to stomp it to death, which I do. Later the girl’s 
  femur and left jawbone lie in the oven, baking, and tufts of pubic hair fill a Steuben 
  crystal ashtray, and when I light them they burn very quickly. 
  At Another New Restaurant 
     For a limited period of time I’m capable of being halfway cheerful and outgoing, so I 
  accept Evelyn’s invitation to dinner during the first week of November at Luke, a new 
  superchic nouvelle Chinese restaurant that also serves, oddly enough, Creole cuisine. 
  We have a good table (I reserved under Wintergreen’s name—the simplest of triumphs) 
  and I feel anchored, calm, even with Evelyn sitting across from me prattling on about a 
  very large Fabergé egg she thought she saw at the Pierre, rolling around the lobby of its 
  own accord or something like that. The office Halloween party was at the Royalton last 
  week and I went as a mass murderer, complete with a sign painted on my back that 
  read MASS MURDERER (which was decidedly lighter than the sandwich board I had 
  constructed earlier that day that read DRILLER KILLER), and beneath those two words I 
  had written in blood Yep, that’s me and the suit was also covered with blood, some of it 
  fake, most of it real. In one fist I clenched a hank of Victoria Bell’s hair, and pinned next 
  to my boutonniere (a small white rose) was a finger bone I’d boiled the flesh off of. As 
  elaborate as my costume was, Craig McDermott still managed to win first place in the 
  competition. He came as Ivan Boesky, which I thought was unfair since a lot of people 
  thought I’d gone as Michael Milken last year. The Patty Winters Show this morning was 
  about Home Abortion Kits. 
     The first five minutes after being seated are fine, then the drink I ordered touches the 
  table and I instinctively reach for it, but I find myself cringing every time Evelyn opens 
  her mouth. I notice that Saul Steinberg is eating here tonight, but refuse to mention this 
  
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  to Evelyn. 
     “A toast?” I suggest. 
     “Oh? To what?” she murmurs uninterestedly, craning her neck, looking around the 
  stark, dimly lit, very white room. 
     “Freedom?” I ask tiredly. 
     But she’s not listening, because some English guy wearing a three-button wool 
  houndstooth suit, a tattersall wool vest, a spread-collar cotton oxford shirt, suede shoes 
  and a silk tie, all by Carrick Anderson, whom Evelyn pointed out once after we’d had a 
  fight at Au Bar and called “gorgeous,” and whom I had called “a dwarf,” walks over to 
  our table, openly flirting with her, and it pisses me off to think that she feels I’m jealous 
  about this guy but I eventually get the last laugh when he asks if she still has the job at 
  “that art gallery on First Avenue” and Evelyn, clearly stressed, her face falling, answers 
  no, corrects him, and after a few awkward words he moves on. She sniffs, opens her 
  menu, immediately starts on about something else without looking at me. 
     “What are all these T-shirts I’ve been seeing?” she asks. “All over the city? Have you 
  seen them? Silkience Equals Death? Are people having problems with their conditioners 
  or something? Am I missing something? What were we talking about?” 
     “No, that’s absolutely wrong. It’s Science Equals Death.” I sigh, close my eyes. “Jesus, 
  Evelyn, only you could confuse that and a hair product.” I have no idea what the hell I’m 
  saying but I nod, waving to someone at the bar, an older man, his face covered in 
  shadow, someone I only half know, actually, but he manages to raise his champagne 
  glass my way and smile back, which is a relief. 
     “Who’s that?” I hear Evelyn asking. 
     “He’s a friend of mine,” I say. 
     “I don’t recognize him,” she says. “P & P?” 
     “Forget it,” I sigh. 
     “Who is it, Patrick?” she asks, more interested in my reluctance than in an actual 
  name. 
     “Why?” I ask back. 
     “Who is it?” she asks. “Tell me.” 
     “A friend of mine,” I say, teeth gritted. 
     “Who, Patrick?” she asks, then, squinting, “Wasn’t he at my Christmas party?” 
     .”No, he was not,” I say, my hands drumming the tabletop. 
     “Isn’t it… Michael J. Fox?” she asks, still squinting. “The actor?” 
     “Hardly,” I say, then, fed up, “Oh for Christ sakes, his name is George Levanter and 
  no, he didn’t star in The Secret of My Success.” 
     “Oh how interesting.” Already Evelyn is back poring over the menu. “Now, what were 
  we talking about?” 
     Trying to remember, I ask, “Conditioners? Or some kind of conditioner?” I sigh. “I don’t 
  know. You were talking to the dwarf.” 
     “Ian is not a midget, Patrick,” she says. 
     “He is unusually short, Evelyn,” I counter. “Are you sure he wasn’t at your Christmas 
  party”—and then, my voice lowered—“serving hors d’oeuvres?” 
     “You cannot keep referring to Ian as a dwarf,” she says, smoothing her napkin over 
  her lap. “I will not stand for it,” she whispers, not looking at me. 
     I can’t restrain myself from snickering. 
     “It isn’t funny, Patrick,” she says. 
     “You cut the conversation short,” I point out. 
     “Did you expect me to be flattered?” she spits out bitterly. 
     “Listen, baby, I’m just trying to make that encounter seem as legitimate as possible, so 
  don’t, uh, you know, screw it up for yourself.” 
     “Just stop it,” she says, ignoring me. “Oh look, it’s Robert Farrell.” After waving to him, 
  she discreetly points him out to me and sure enough, Bob Farrell, whom everyone likes, 
  is sitting on the north side of the room at a window table, which secretly drives me mad. 
  “He’s very good-looking,” Evelyn confides admiringly, only because she’s noticed me 
  
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  contemplating the twenty-year-old hardbody he’s sitting with, and to make sure I’ve 
  registered this she teasingly chirps, “Hope I’m not making you jealous.” 
     “He’s handsome,” I admit. “Stupid-looking but handsome.” 
     “Don’t be nasty. He’s very handsome,” she says and then suggests, “Why don’t you 
  get your hair styled that way?” 
     Before this comment I was an automaton, only vaguely paying attention to Evelyn, but 
  now I’m panicked, and I ask, “What’s wrong with my hair?” In a matter of seconds my 
  rage quadruples. “What the hell is wrong with my hair?” I touch it lightly. 
     “Nothing,” she says, noticing how upset I’ve gotten. “Just a suggestion,” and then, 
  really noticing how flushed I’ve become, “Your hair looks really… really great.” She tries 
  to smile but only succeeds in looking worried. 
     A sip—half a glass—of the J&B calms me enough to say, looking over at Farrell, 
  “Actually, I’m horrified by his paunch.” 
     Evelyn studies Farrell too. “Oh, he doesn’t have a paunch.” 
     “That’s definitely a paunch,” I say. “Look at it.” 
     “That’s just the way he’s sitting,” she says, exasperated. “Oh you’re—” 
     “It’s a paunch, Evelyn,” I stress. 
     “Oh you’re crazy.” She waves me off. “A lunatic.” 
     “Evelyn, the man is barely thirty.” 
     “So what? Everyone’s not into weight lifting like you,” she says, annoyed, looking back 
  at the menu. 
     “I do not ‘weight lift,’” I sigh. 
     “Oh go over and sock him in the nose, then, you big bully,” she says, brushing me off. 
  “I really don’t care.” 
     “Don’t tempt me,” I warn her, then looking back at Farrell I mutter, “What a creep.” 
     “Oh my god, Patrick. You have no right to be so embittered,” Evelyn says angrily, still 
  staring into her menu. “Your animosity is grounded on nothing. There must be 
  something really the matter with you.” 
     “Look at his suit,” I point out, unable to help myself. “Look at what he’s wearing.” 
     “Oh so what, Patrick.” She turns a page, finds it has nothing on it and turns back to the 
  page she was previously studying. 
     “Hasn’t it occurred to him that his suit might inspire loathing?” I ask. 
     “Patrick you are being a lunatic,” she says, shaking her head, now looking over the 
  wine list. 
     “Goddamnit, Evelyn. What do you mean, being?” I say. “I fucking am one.” 
     “Must you be so militant about it?” she asks. 
     “I don’t know.” I shrug. 
     “Anyway, I was going to tell you what happened to Melania and Taylor and…” She 
  notices something and in the same sentence adds, sighing, “…stop looking at my chest, 
  Patrick. Look at me, not my chest. Now anyway, Taylor Grassgreen and Melania were… 
  You know Melania, she went to Sweet Briar. Her father owns all those banks in Dallas? 
  And Taylor went to Cornell. Anyway, they were supposed to meet at the Cornell Club 
  and then they had a reservation at Mondrian at seven and he was wearing…” She 
  stops, retraces. “No. Le Cygne. They were going to Le Cygne and Taylor was…” She 
  stops again. “Oh god, it was Mondrian. Mondrian at seven and he was wearing a Piero 
  Dimitri suit. Melania had been shopping. I think she’d been to Bergdorf’s, though I’m not 
  positive—but anyway, oh yes… it was Bergdorf’s because she was wearing the scarf at 
  the office the other day, so anyway, she hadn’t been to her aerobics class for something 
  like two days and they were mugged on one of—” 
     “Waiter?” I call to someone passing by. “Another drink? J&B?” I point to the glass, 
  upset that I phrased it as a question rather than a command. 
     “Don’t you want to find out what happened?” Evelyn asks, displeased. 
     “With bated breath,” I sigh, totally uninterested. “I can hardly wait.” 
     “Anyway, the most amusing thing happened,” she starts. 
     I am absorbing what you are saying to me, I’m thinking. I notice her lack of carnality 
  
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  and for the first time it taunts me. Before, it was what attracted me to Evelyn. Now its 
  absence upsets me, seems sinister, fills me with a nameless dread. At our last 
  session—yesterday, in fact—the psychiatrist I’ve been seeing for the past two months 
  asked, “What method of contraception do you and Evelyn use?” and I sighed before 
  answering, my eyes fixed out the window on a skyscraper, then at the painting above 
  the Turchin glass coffee table, a giant visual reproduction of a graphic equalizer by 
  another artist, not Onica. “Her job.” When he asked about her preferred sexual act, I told 
  him, completely serious, “Foreclosure.” Dimly aware that if it weren’t for the people in 
  the restaurant I would take the jade chopsticks sitting on the table and push them deep 
  into Evelyn’s eyes and snap them in two, I nod, pretending to listen, but I’ve already 
  phased out and I don’t do the chopsticks thing. Instead I order a bottle of the Chassagne 
  Montrachet. 
     “Isn’t that amusing?” Evelyn asks. 
     Casually laughing along with her, the sounds coming out of my mouth loaded with 
  scorn, I admit, “Riotous.” I say it suddenly, blankly. My gaze traces the line of women at 
  the bar. Are there any I’d like to fuck? Probably. The long-legged hardbody sipping a kir 
  on the last stool? Perhaps. Evelyn is agonizing between the mâché raisin and gumbo 
  salade or the gratinized beet, hazelnut, baby greens and endive salad and I suddenly 
  feel like I’ve been pumped full of clonopin, which is an anticonvulsive, but it wasn’t doing 
  any good. 
     “Christ, twenty dollars for a fucking egg roll?” I mutter, studying the menu. 
     ‘It’s a moo shu custard, lightly grilled,” she says. 
     “It’s a fucking egg roll,” I protest. 
     To which Evelyn replies, “You’re so cultivated, Patrick.” 
     “No.” I shrug. “Just reasonable.” 
     “I’m desperate for some Beluga,” she says. “Honey?” 
     “No,” I say. 
     “Why not?” she asks, pputing. 
     “Because I don’t want anything out of a can or that’s Iranian,” I sigh. 
     She sniffs haughtily and looks back at the menu. “The moo foo jambalaya is really 
  first-rate,” I hear her say. 
     The minutes tick by. We order. The meal arrives. Typically, the plate is massive, white 
  porcelain; two pieces of blackened yellowtail sashimi with ginger lie in the middle, 
  surrounded by tiny dots of wasabi, which is circled by a minuscule amount of hijiki, and 
  on top of the plate sits one lone baby prawn; another one, even smaller, lies curled on 
  the bottom, which confuses me since I thought this was primarily a Chinese restaurant. I 
  stare at the plate for a long time and when I ask for some water, our waiter reappears 
  with a pepper shaker instead and insists on hanging around our table, constantly asking 
  us at five-minute intervals if we’d like “some pepper, perhaps?” or “more pepper?” and 
  once the fool moves over to another booth, whose occupants, I can see out of the 
  corner of my eye, both cover their plates with their hands, I wave the maître d’ over and 
  ask him, “Could you please tell the waiter with the pepper shaker to stop hovering over 
  our table? We don’t want pepper. We haven’t ordered anything that needs pepper. No 
  pepper. Tell him to get lost.- 
     “Of course. My apologizes.” The maître d’ humbly bows. 
     Embarrassed, Evelyn asks, “Must you be so overly polite?” 
     I put down my fork and shut my eyes. “Why are you constantly undermining my 
  stability?” 
     She breathes in. “Let’s just have a conversation. Not an interrogation. Okay?” 
     “About what?” I snarl. 
     “Listen,” she says. “The Young Republican bash at the Pla…” She stops herself as if 
  remembering something, then continues, “at the Trump Plaza is next Thursday.” I want 
  to tell her I can’t make it, hoping to god she has other plans, even though two weeks 
  ago, drunk and coked up at Mortimer’s or Au Bar, I invited her, for Christ sakes. “Are we 
  going?” 
  
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     After a pause, “I guess,” I say glumly. 
     For dessert I’ve arranged something special. At a power breakfast at the ‘21’ Club this 
  morning with Craig McDermott, Alex Baxter and Charles Kennedy, I stole a urinal cake 
  from the men’s room when the attendant wasn’t looking. At home I covered it with a 
  cheap chocolate syrup, froze it, then placed it in an empty Godiva box, tying a silk bow 
  around it, and now, in Luke, when I excuse myself to the rest room, I make my way 
  instead to the kitchen, after I’ve stopped at the coatcheck to retrieve the package, and I 
  ask our waiter to present this to the table “in the box” and to tell the lady seated there 
  that Mr. Bateman called up earlier to order this especially for her. I even tell him, while 
  opening the box, to put a flower on it, whatever, hand him a fifty. He brings it over once 
  a suitable amount of time has elapsed, after our plates have been removed, and I’m 
  impressed by what a big deal he makes over it; he’s even placed a silver dome over the 
  box and Evelyn coos with delight when he lifts it off, saying “Voi-ra,” and she makes a 
  move for the spoon he’s laid next to her water glass (that I make sure is empty) and, 
  turning to me, Evelyn says, “Patrick, that’s so sweet,” and I nod to the waiter, smiling, 
  and wave him away when he tries to place a spoon on my side of the table. 
     “Aren’t you having any?” Evelyn asks, concerned. She hovers over the chocolate-
  dipped urinal cake anxiously, poised. “I adore Godiva.” 
     “I’m not hungry,” I say. “Dinner was… filling.” 
     She leans down, smelling the brown oval, and, catching a scent of something 
  (probably disinfectant), asks me, now dismayed, “Are you… sure?” 
     “No, darling,” I say. “I want you to eat it. There’s not a lot there.” 
     She takes the first bite, chewing dutifully, immediately and obviously disgusted, then 
  swallows. She shudders, then makes a grimace but tries to smile as she takes another 
  tentative bite. 
     “How is it?” I ask, then, urging, “Eat it. It’s not poisoned or anything.” 
     Her face, twisted with displeasure, manages to blanch again as if she were gagging. 
     “What?” I ask, grinning. “What is it?” 
     “It’s so…” Her face is now one long agonized grimace mask and, shuddering, she 
  coughs. “…minty.” But she tries to smile appreciatively, which becomes an impossibility. 
  She reaches for my glass of water and gulps it down, desperate to rid her mouth of the 
  taste. Then, noticing how worried I look, she tries to smile, this time apologetically. “It’s 
  just”—she shudders again—“it’s just… so minty.” 
     To me she looks like a big black ant—a big black ant in an original Christian Lacroix—
  eating a urinal cake and I almost start laughing, but I also want to keep her at ease. I 
  don’t want her to get second thoughts about finishing the urinal cake. But she can’t eat 
  any more and with only two bites taken, pretending to be full, she pushes the tainted 
  plate away, and at this moment I start feeling strange. Even though I marveled at her 
  eating that thing, it also makes me sad and suddenly I’m reminded that no matter how 
  satisfying it was to see Evelyn eating something I, and countless others, had pissed on, 
  in the end the displeasure it caused her was at my expense—it’s an anticlimax, a futile 
  excuse to put up with her for three hours. My jaw begins to clench, relax, clench, relax, 
  involuntarily. There is music playing somewhere but I can’t hear it. Evelyn asks the 
  waiter, hoarsely, if perhaps he could get her some Life Savers from the Korean deli 
  around the block. 
     Then, very simply, dinner reaches its crisis point, when Evelyn says, “I want a firm 
  commitment.” 
     The evening has already deteriorated considerably so this comment doesn’t ruin 
  anything or leave me unprepared, but the unreasonableness of our situation is choking 
  me and I push my water glass back toward Evelyn and ask the waiter to remove the 
  half-eaten urinal cake. My endurance for tonight is shot the second the melting dessert 
  is taken away. For the first time I notice that she has been eyeing me for the last two 
  years not with adoration but with something closer to greed. Someone finally brings her 
  a water glass along with a bottle of Evian I didn’t hear her order. 
     “I think, Evelyn, that…” I start, stall, start again. “…that we’ve lost touch.” 
  
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     “Why? What’s wrong?” She’s waving to a couple—Lawrence Montgomery and Geena 
  Webster, I think—and from across the room Geena (?) holds up her hand, which has a 
  bracelet on it. Evelyn nods approvingly. 
     “My… my need to engage in… homicidal behavior on a massive scale cannot be, um, 
  corrected,” I tell her, measuring each word carefully. “But I… have no other way to 
  express my blocked… needs.” I’m surprised at how emotional this admission makes me, 
  and it wears me down; I feel light-headed. As usual, Evelyn misses the essence of what 
  I’m saying, and I wonder how long it will take to finally rid myself of her. 
     “We need to talk,” I say quietly. 
     She puts her empty water glass down and stares at me. “Patrick,” she begins. “If 
  you’re going to start in again on why I should have breast implants, I’m leaving, ” she 
  warns. 
     I consider this, then, “It’s over, Evelyn. It’s all over.” 
     “Touchy, touchy,” she says, motioning to the waiter for more water. 
     “I’m serious,” I say quietly. “It is fucking over. Us. This is no joke.” 
     She looks back at me and I think that maybe someone is actually comprehending 
  what I’m trying to get through to them, but then she says, “Let’s just avoid the issue, all 
  right? I’m sorry I said anything. Now, are we having coffee?” Again she waves the waiter 
  over. 
     “I’ll have a decaf espresso,” Evelyn says. “Patrick?” 
     “Port,” I sigh. “Any kind of port.” 
     “Would you like to see—” the waiter begins. 
     “Just the most expensive port,” I cut him off. “And oh yeah, a dry beer.” 
     “My my,” Evelyn murmurs after the waiter leaven. 
     “Are you still seeing your shrink?” I ask. 
     “Patrick, “ she warns. “Who?” 
     “Sorry,” I sigh. “Your doctor.” 
     “No.” She opens her handbag, looking for something. 
     “Why not?” I ask, concerned. 
     “I told you why,” she says dismissively. 
     “But I don’t remember,” I say, mimicking her. 
     “At the end of a session he asked me if I could get him plus three into Nell’s that 
  night.” She checks her mouth, the lips, in the mirror of the compact. “Why do you ask?” 
     “Because I think you need to see someone,” I begin, hesitantly, honestly. “I think you 
  are emotionally unstable.” 
     “You have a poster of Oliver North in your apartment and you’re calling me unstable?” 
  she asks, searching for something else in the handbag. 
     “No. You are, Evelyn.” I say. 
     “Exaggerating. You”re exaggerating,” she says, rifling through the bag, not looking at 
  me. 
     I sigh, but then begin gravely, “I’m not going to push the issue, but—” 
     “How uncharacteristic of you, Patrick,” she says. 
     “Evelyn. This has got to end,” I sigh, talking to my napkin. “I’m twenty-seven. I don’t 
  want to be weighed down with a commitment.” 
     “Honey?” she asks. 
     “Don’t call me that, “ I snap. 
     “What? Honey?” she asks. 
     “Yes,” I snap again. 
     “What do you want me to call you?” she asks, indignantly. “CEO?” She stifles a giggle. 
     “Oh Christ.” 
     “No, really Patrick. What do you want me to call you?” 
     King, I’m thinking. King, Evelyn. I want you to call me King. But I don’t say this. 
  “Evelyn. I don’t want you to call me anything. I don’t think we should see each other 
  anymore.” 
     “But your friends are my friends. My friends are your friends. I don’t think it would 
  
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  work,” she says, and then, staring at a spot above my mouth, “You have a tiny fleck on 
  the top of your lip. Use your napkin.” 
     Exasperated, I brush the fleck away. “Listen, I, know that your friends are my friends 
  and vice versa. I’ve thought about that.” After a pause I say, breathing in, “You can have 
  them.” 
     Finally she looks at me, confused, and murmurs, “You’re really serious, aren’t you?” 
     “Yes”, I say, “I am.” 
     “But… what about us? What about the past?” she asks blankly. 
     “The past isn’t real. It’s just a dream,” I say. “Don’t mention the past.” 
     She narrows her eyes with suspicion. “Do you have something against me, Patrick?” 
  And then the hardness in her face changes instantaneously to expectation, maybe 
  hope. 
     “Evelyn,” I sigh. “I’m sorry. You’re just… not terribly important… to me.” 
     Without missing a beat she demands, “Well, who is? Who do you think is, Patrick? 
  Who do you want?” After an angry pause she asks, “Cher?” 
     “Cher?” I ask back, confused. “Cher? What are you talking about? Oh forget it. I want 
  it over. I need sex on a regular basis. I need to be distracted.” 
     In a matter of seconds she becomes frantic, barely able to contain the rising hysteria 
  that’s surging through her body. I’m not enjoying it as much as I thought I would. “But 
  what about the past? Our past?” she asks again, uselessly. 
     “Don’t mention it,” I tell her, leaning in. 
     “Why not?” 
     “Because we never really shared one,” I say, keeping my voice from rising. 
     She calms herself down and, ignoring me, opening her handbag again, mutters, 
  “Pathological. Your behavior is pathological.” 
     “What does that mean?” I ask, offended. 
     “Abhorrent. You’re pathological.” She finds a Laura Ashley pillbox and unsnaps it. 
     “Pathological what?” I ask, trying to smile. 
     “Forget it.” She takes a pill that I don’t recognize and uses my water to swallow it. 
     “I’m pathological? You’re telling me that I’m pathological?” I ask. 
     “We look at the world differently, Patrick.” She sniffs. 
     “Thank god,” I say viciously. 
     “You’re inhuman,” she says, trying, I think, not to cry. 
     “I’m”—I stall, attempting to defend myself—“in touch with… humanity.” 
     “No, no, no.” She shakes her head. 
     “I know my behavior is… erratic sometimes,” I say, fumbling. 
     Suddenly, desperately, she takes my hand from acres the table, pulling it closer to her. 
  “What do you want me to do? What is it you want?” 
     “Oh Evelyn,” I groan, pulling my hand away, shocked that I’ve finally gotten through to 
  her. 
     She’s crying. “What do you want me to do, Patrick? Tell me. Please,” she begs. 
     “You should… oh god, I don’t know. Wear erotic underwear?” I say, guessing. “Oh 
  Jesus, Evelyn. I don’t know. Nothing. You can’t do anything.” 
     “Please, what can I do?” she sobs quietly. 
     “Smile less often? Know more about cars? Say my name with less regularity? Is this 
  what you want to hear?” I ask. “It won’t change anything. You don’t even drink beer,” I 
  mutter. 
     “But you don’t drink beer either.” 
     “‘That doesri t matter. Besides, I just ordered one. So there.” 
     “Oh Patrick.” 
     “If you really want to do something for me, you can stop making a scene right now,” I 
  say, looking uncomfortably around the room. 
     “Waiter?” she asks, as soon as he sets down the decaf espresso, the port and the dry 
  beer. “I’ll have a… I’ll have a… a what?” She looks over at me tearfully, confused and 
  panicked. “A Corona? Is that what you drink, Patrick? A Corona?” 
  
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     “Oh my god. Give it up. Please, just excuse her,” I tell the waiter, then, as soon as he 
  walks away, “Yes. A Corona. But we’re in a fucking Chinese-Cajun bistro so—” 
     “Oh god, Patrick,” she sobs, blowing her nose into the handkerchief I’ve tossed at her. 
  “You’re so lousy. You’re… inhuman.” 
     “No, I’m…” I stall again. 
     “You… are not…” She stops, wiping her face, unable to finish. 
     “I’m not what?” I ask, waiting, interested. 
     “You are not”—she sniffs, looks down, her shoulders heaving—“all there. You”—she 
  chokes—“don’t add up.” 
     “I do too,” I say indignantly, defending myself. “I do too add up.” 
     “You’re a ghoul,” she sobs. 
     “No, no,” I say, confused, watching her. “You’re the ghoul.” 
     “Oh god,” she moans, causing the table next to ours to look over, then away. “I can’t 
  believe this.” 
     “I’m leaving now,” I say soothingly. “I’ve assessed the situation and I’m going.” 
     “Don’t,” she says, trying to grab my hand. “Don’t go.” 
     “I’m leaving, Evelyn.” 
     “Where are you going?” Suddenly she looks remarkably composed. She’s been 
  careful not to let the tears, which actually I’ve just noticed are very few, affect her 
  makeup. “Tell me, Patrick, where are you going?” 
     I’ve placed a cigar on the table. She’s too upset to even comment. “I’m just leaving,” I 
  say simply. 
     “But where?” she asks, more tears welling up. “Where are you going?” 
     Everyone in the restaurant within a particular aural distance seems to be looking the 
  other way. 
     “Where are you going?’.’ she asks again. 
     I make no comment, lost in my own private maze, thinking about other things: 
  warrants, stock offerings, ESOPs, LBOs, IPOs, finances, refinances, debentures, 
  converts, proxy statements, 8-Ks, 10-Qs, zero coupons, PiKs, GNPs, the IMF, hot 
  executive gadgets, billionaires, Kenkichi Nakajima, infinity, Infinity, how fast a luxury car 
  should go, bailouts, junk bonds, whether to cancel my subscription to The Economist, 
  the Christmas Eve when I was fourteen and had raped one of our maids, Inclusivity, 
  envying someone’s life, whether someone could survive a fractured skull, waiting in 
  airports, stifling a scream, credit cards and someone’s passport and a book of matches 
  from La Côte Basque splattered with blood, surface surface surface, a Rolls is a Rolls is 
  a Rolls. To Evelyn our relationship is yellow and blue, but to me it’s a gray place, most 
  of it blacked out, bombed, footage from the film in my head is endless shots of stone 
  and any language heard is utterly foreign, the sound flickering away over new images: 
  blood pouring from automated tellers, women giving birth through their assholes, 
  embryos frozen or scrambled (which is it?), nuclear warheads, billions of dollars, the 
  total destruction of the world, someone gets beaten up, someone else dies, sometimes 
  bloodlessly, more often mostly by rifle shot, assassinations, comas, life played out as a 
  sitcom, a blank canvas that reconfigures itself into a soap opera. It’s an isolation ward 
  that serves only to expose my own severely impaired capacity to feel. I am at its center, 
  out of season, and no one ever asks me for any identification. I suddenly imagine 
  Evelyn’s skeleton, twisted and crumbling, and this fills me with glee. It takes a long time 
  to answer her question—Where are you going?— but after a sip of the port, then the dry 
  beer, rousing myself, I tell her, at the same time wondering: If I were an actual 
  automaton what difference would there really be? 
     “Libya,” and then, after a significant pause, “Pago Pago. I meant to say Pago Pago,” 
  and then I add, “Because of your outburst I’m not paying for this meal.” 
  Tries to Cook and Eat Girl 
  
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     Dawn. Sometime in November. Unable to sleep, writhing on my futon, still in a suit, my 
  head feeling like someone has lit a bonfire on it, in it, a constant searing pain that keeps 
  both eyes open, utterly helpless. There are no drugs, no food, no liquor that can 
  appease the forcefulness of this greedy pain; all my muscles are stiff, all my nerves 
  burning, on fire. I’m taking Sontinex by the hour since I’ve run out of Dalmane, but 
  nothing really helps and soon even the box of Sominex is empty. Things are lying in the 
  corner of my bedroom: a pair of girl’s shoes from Edward Susan Bennis Allen, a hand 
  with the thumb and forefinger missing, the new issue of Vanity Fair splashed with 
  someone’s blood, a cummerbund drenched with gore, and from the kitchen wafting into 
  the bedroom is the fresh smell of blood cooking, and when I stumble up out of bed into 
  the living room, the walls are breathing, the stench of decay smothers everything. I light 
  a cigar, hoping the smoke will mask at least some of it. 
     Her breasts have been chopped off and they look blue and deflated, the nipples a 
  disconcerting shade of brown. Surrounded by dried black blood, they lie, rather 
  delicately, on a china plate I bought at the Pottery Barn on top of the Wurlitzer jukebox 
  in the corner, though I don’t remember doing this. I have also shaved all the skin and 
  most of the muscle off her face so that it resembles a skull with a long, flowing mane of 
  blond hair falling from it, which is connected to a full, cold corpse; its eyes are open, the 
  actual eyeballs hanging out of their sockets by their stalks. Most of her chest is 
  indistinguishable from her neck, which looks like ground-up meat, her stomach 
  resembles the eggplant and goat cheese lasagna at Il Marlibro or some other kind of 
  dog food, the dominant colors red and white and brown. A few of her intestines are 
  smeared across one wall and others are mashed up into balls that lie strewn across the 
  glasstop coffee table like long blue snakes, mutant worms. The patches of skin left on 
  her body are blue-gray, the color of tinfoil. Her vagina has discharged a brownish syrupy 
  fluid that smells like a sick animal, as if that rat had been forced back up in there, had 
  been digested or something. 
     I spend the next fifteen minutes beside myself, pulling out a bluish rope of intestine, 
  most of it still connected to the body, and shoving it into my mouth, choking on it, and it 
  feels moist in my mouth and it’s filled with some kind of paste which smells bad. After an 
  hour of digging, I detach her spinal cord and decide to Federal Express the thing without 
  cleaning it, wrapped in tissue, under a different name, to Leona Helmsley. I want to drink 
  this girl’s blood as if it were champagne and I plunge my face deep into what’s left of her 
  stomach, scratching my chomping jaw on a broken rib. The huge new television set is 
  on in one of the rooms, first blaring out The Patty Winters Show, whose topic today is 
  Human Dairies, then a game show, Wheel of Fortune, and the applause coming from 
  the studio audience sounds like static each time a new letter is turned. I’m loosening the 
  tie I’m still wearing with a blood-soaked hand, breathing in deeply. This is my reality. 
  Everything outside of this is like some movie I once saw. 
     In the kitchen I try to make meat loaf out of the girl but it becomes too frustrating a 
  task and instead I spend the afternoon smearing her meat all over the walls, chewing on 
  strips of skin I ripped from her body, then I rest by watching a tape of last week’s new 
  CBS sitcom, Murphy Brown. After that and a large glass of J&B I’m back in the kitchen. 
  The head in the microwave is now completely black and hairless and I place it in a tin 
  pot on the stove in an attempt to boil any remaining flesh I forgot to shave off. Heaving 
  the rest of her body into a garbage bag—my muscles, slathered with Ben-Gay, easily 
  handling the dead weight—I decide to use whatever is left of her for a sausage of some 
  kind. 
     A Richard Marx CD plays on the stereo, a bag from Zabar’s loaded with sourdough 
  onion bagels and spices sits on the kitchen table while I grind bone and fat and flesh 
  into patties, and though it does sporadically penetrate how unacceptable some of what 
  I’m doing actually is, I just remind myself that this thing, this girl, this meat, is nothing, is 
  shit, and along with a Xanax (which I am now taking half-hourly) this thought 
  momentarily calms me and then I’m humming, humming the theme to a show I watched 
  often as a child—The Jetsons? The Banana Splits? Scooby Doo? Sigmund and the Sea 
  
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  Monsters? I’m remembering the song, the melody, even the key it was sung in, but not 
  the show. Was it Lidsville? Was it H. R. Pufnstuf? These questions are punctuated by 
  other questions, as diverse as “Will I ever do time?” and “Did this girl have a trusting 
  heart?” The smell of meat and blood clouds up the condo until I don’t notice it anymore. 
  And later my macabre joy sours and I’m weeping for myself, unable to find solace in any 
  of this, crying out, sobbing “I just want to be loved,” cursing the earth and everything I 
  have been taught: principles, distinctions, choices, morals, compromises, knowledge, 
  unity, prayer—all of it was wrong, without any final purpose. All it came down to was: die 
  or adapt. I imagine my own vacant face, the disembodied voice coming from its mouth: 
  These are terrible times. Maggots already writhe across the human sausage, the drool 
  pouring from my lips dribbles over them, and still I can’t tell if I’m cooking any of this 
  correctly, because I’m crying too hard and I have never really cooked anything before. 
  Taking an Uzi to the Gym 
     On a moonless night, in the starkness of the locker room at Xclusive, after working out 
  for two hours, I’m feeling good. The gun in my locker is an Uzi which cost me seven 
  hundred dollars and though I am also carrying a Ruger Mini ($469) in my Bottega 
  Veneta briefcase and it’s favored by most hunters, I still don’t like the way it looks; 
  there’s something more manly about an Uzi, something dramatic about it that gets me 
  excited, and sitting here, Walkman on my head, in a pair of two-hundred-dollar black 
  Lycra bicycle shorts, a Valium just beginning to take effect, I stare into the darkness of 
  the locker, tempted. The rape and subsequent murder last night of an NYU student 
  behind the Gristede’s on University Place, near her dorm, however inappropriate the 
  timing, no matter how uncharacteristic the lapse, was highly satisfying and though I’m 
  unprepared by my change of heart, I’m in a reflective mood and I place the gun, which is 
  a symbol of order to me, back in the locker, to be used at another time. I have 
  videotapes to return, money to be taken out of an automated teller, a dinner reservation 
  at 150 Wooster that was difficult to get. 
  Chase, Manhattan 
     Tuesday night, at Bouley, in No Man’s Land, a fairly unremarkable marathon dinner, 
  even after I tell the table, “Listen, guys, my life is a living hell,” they utterly ignore me, the 
  group assembled (Richard Perry, Edward Lampert, John Constable, Craig McDermott, 
  Jim Kramer, Lucas Tanner) continuing to argue about allocating assets, which stocks 
  look best for the upcoming decade, hardbodies, real estate, gold, why long-term bonds 
  are too risky now, the spread collar, portfolios, how to use power effectively, new ways 
  to exercise, Stolichnaya Cristall, how best to impress very important people, eternal 
  vigilance, life at its best, here in Bouley I cannot seem to control myself, here in a room 
  that contains a whole host of victims, lately I can’t help noticing them everywhere—in 
  business meetings, nightclubs, restaurants, in passing taxis and in elevators, on line at 
  automated tellers and on porno tapes, in David’s Cookies and on CNN, everywhere, all 
  of them having one thing in common: they are prey, and during dinner I almost become 
  unglued, plummeting into a state of near vertigo that forces me to excuse myself before 
  dessert, at which point I use the rest room, do a line of cocaine, pick up my Giorgio 
  Armani wool overcoat and the.357 magnum barely concealed within it from the 
  coatcheck, strap on a holster and then I’m outside, but on The Patty Winters Show this 
  morning there was an interview with a man who set his daughter on fire while she was 
  giving birth, at dinner we all had shark… 
     …in Tribeca it’s misty out, sky on the verge of rain, the restaurants down here empty, 
  after midnight the streets remote, unreal, the only sign of human life someone playing a 
  saxophone on the corner of Duane Street, in the doorway, of what used to be Duplex, 
  which is now an abandoned bistro that closed last month, a young guy, bearded, white 
  beret, playing a very beautiful but clichéd saxophone solo, at his feet an open umbrella 
  
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  with a dollar, damp, and some change in it, unable to resist I move up to him, listening to 
  the music, something from Les Misérables, he acknowledges my presence, nods, and 
  while he closes his eyes—lifting the instrument up, leaning his head back during what I 
  guess he thinks is a passionate moment—in one fluid motion I take the.357 magnum out 
  of its holster and, not wanting to arouse anyone in the vicinity, I screw a silencer onto 
  the gun, a cold autumn wind rushes up the street, engulfing us, and when the victim 
  opens his eyes, spotting the gun, he stops playing, the tip of the saxophone still in his 
  mouth, I pause too, then nod for him to go on, and, tentatively, he does, then I raise the 
  gun to his face and in midnote pull the trigger, but the silencer doesn’t work and in the 
  same instant a huge crimson ring appears behind his head the booming sound of the 
  gunshot deafens me, stunned, his eyes still alive, he falls to his knees, then onto his 
  saxophone, I pop the clip and replace it with a full one, then something bad happens… 
     …because while doing this I’ve failed to notice the squad car that was traveling behind 
  me—doing what? god only knows, handing out parking tickets?—and after the noise the 
  magnum makes echoes, fades, the siren of the squad car pierces the night, out of 
  nowhere, sending my heart into palpitations, I start walking away from the trembling 
  body, slowly, casually at first, as if innocent, then I break into a run, full-fledged, the cop 
  car screeching after me, over a loudspeaker a cop shouts uselessly, “halt stop halt put 
  down your weapon,” ignoring them I make a left on Broadway, heading down toward 
  City Hall Park, ducking into an alleyway, the squad car follows but only makes it halfway 
  as the alley narrows, a spray of blue sparks flying up before it gets stuck and I run out 
  the end of the alley as fast as I can onto Church Street, where I flag down a cab, hop in 
  the front seat and scream at its driver, a young Iranian guy completely taken by surprise, 
  to “get the hell out of here fast—no drive,” I’m waving the gun at him, in his face, but he 
  panics, cries out in mangled English “don’t shoot me please don’t kill me,” holding his 
  hands up, I mutter “oh shit” and scream “drive” but he’s terrified, “oh don’t shoot me man 
  don’t shoot,” I impatiently mutter “fuck yourself” and, raising the gun to his face, pull the 
  trigger, the bullet splatters his head open, cracks it in half like a dark red watermelon 
  against the windshield, and I reach over him, open the door, push the corpse out, slam 
  the door, start driving… 
     …in an adrenaline rush causing panting, I can only get a few blocks, partly because of 
  panic, mostly because of the blood, brains, chunks of head covering the windshield, and 
  I barely avoid a collision with another cab on Franklin—is it?—and Greenwich, veering 
  the taxi sharply to the right, swerving into the side of a parked limousine, then I shift into 
  reverse, screech down the street, turn on the windshield wipers, realizing too late that 
  the blood sprayed across the glass is on the inside, attempt to wipe it away with a 
  gloved hand, and racing blindly down Greenwich I lose control entirely, the cab swerves 
  into a Korean deli, next to a karaoke restaurant called Lotus Blossom I’ve been to with 
  Japanese clients, the cab rolling over fruit stands, smashing through a wall of glass, the 
  body of a cashier thudding across the hood, Patrick tries to put the cab in reverse but 
  nothing happens, he staggers out of the cab, leaning against it, a nerve-racking silence 
  follows, “nice going, Bateman,” he mutters, limping out of the store, the body on the 
  hood moaning in agony, Patrick with no idea where the cop running toward him across 
  the street has come from, he’s yelling something into his walkie-talkie, thinking Patrick is 
  stunned, but Patrick surprises him by lunging out before the cop can get to his gun and 
  he knocks him over onto the sidewalk… 
     …where people from the Lotus Blossom are now standing, staring dumbly at the 
  wreckage, no one helping the cop as the two men lie struggling on the sidewalk, the cop 
  wheezing from exertion on top of Patrick, trying to wrestle the magnum from his grasp, 
  but Patrick feels infected, like gasoline is coursing through his veins instead of blood, it 
  gets windier, the temperature drops, it starts raining, but softly they roll into the street, 
  Patrick keeps thinking there should be music, he forces a demonic leer, his heart 
  thumping, and manages quite easily to bring the gun up to the cop’s face, two pairs of 
  hands holding it but Patrick’s finger pulls the trigger, the bullet blowing a crease in the 
  top of the officer’s skull yet failing to kill him, but lowering his aim with the aid of the 
  
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  loosening grip of the officer’s fingers Patrick shoots him in the face, the bullet’s exit 
  casting a lingering pinkish mist while some of the people on the sidewalk scream, do 
  nothing, hide, run back into the restaurant, as the cop car Patrick thought he evaded in 
  the alley careens toward the deli, red lights flashing, screeching to a halt right when 
  Patrick trips over the curb, collapsing onto the sidewalk, at the same time reloading the 
  magnum, hiding behind the corner, the terror he thought had passed engulfing him 
  again, thinking: I have no idea what I’ve done to increase my chances of getting caught, 
  I shot a saxophonist? a saxophonist? who was probably a mime too? for that I get this? 
  and in the near distance he can hear other cars coming, lost in the maze of streets, the 
  cops now, right here, don’t bother with warnings anymore, they just start shooting and 
  he returns their gunfire from his belly, getting a glimpse of both cops behind the open 
  doors of the squad car, guns flashing like in a movie and this makes Patrick realize he’s 
  involved in an actual gunfight of sorts, that he’s trying to dodge bullets, that the dream 
  threatens to break, is gone, that he’s not aiming carefully, just obliviously returning 
  gunfire, lying there, when a stray bullet, sixth in a new round, hits the gas tank of the 
  police car, the headlights dim before it bursts apart, sending a fireball billowing up into 
  the darkness, the bulb of a streetlamp above it exploding unexpectedly in a burst of 
  yellow-green sparks, flames washing over the bodies of the policemen both living and 
  dead, shattering all the windows of Lotus Blossom, Patrick’s ears ringing… 
     …while running toward Wall Street, still in Tribeca, he stays away from where the 
  streetlamps shine the brightest, notices that the entire block he’s lurching down is 
  gentrified, then he dashes past a row of Porsches, tries to open each one and sets a 
  string of car alarm sirens off, the car he would like to steal is a black Range Rover with 
  permanent four-wheel drive, an aircraft-grade aluminum body on a boxed steel chassis 
  and a fuel-injected V-8 engine, but he can’t find one, and though this disappoints him 
  he’s also intoxicated by the whirlwind of confusion, by the city itself, the rain falling from 
  an ice-cold sky but still warm enough in the city, on the ground, for fog to drift through 
  the passageways the skyscrapers create in Battery Park, in Wall Street, wherever, most 
  of them a kaleidoscopic blur, and now he’s jumping over an embankment, somersaulting 
  over it, then he’s running like crazy, running full tilt, his brain locked into the physical 
  exertion of utter, sheer panic, helter-skelter, now he thinks a car is following him down a 
  deserted highway, now he feels the night accepts him, from somewhere else a shot is 
  heard but doesn’t really register because Patrick’s mind is out of sync, forgetting his 
  destination, until like a mirage his once building, where Pierce & Pierce is located, 
  comes into view, the lights in it going off, floor by floor, as if a darkness is rising through 
  it, running another hundred yards, two hundred yards, ducking into the stairs, below, 
  where? his senses blocked for the first time with fear and bewilderment, and dumbstruck 
  with confusion he rushes into the lobby of what he thinks is his building, but no, 
  something seems wrong, what is it? you moved (the move itself was a nightmare even 
  though Patrick has a better office now; the new Barney’s and Godiva stores adjacent to 
  the lobby ease the strain) and he’s gotten the buildings mixed up, it’s only at the 
  elevator… 
     …doors, both of which are locked, where he notices the huge Julian Schnabel in the 
  lobby and he realizes wrong fucking building and he whirls around, making a mad 
  scramble for the revolving doors, but the night watchman who tried to get Patrick’s 
  attention before now waves him in, as he’s about to bolt out of the lobby, “Burning the 
  midnight oil, Mr. Smith? You forgot to sign in,” and frustrated, Patrick shoots at him while 
  spinning once, twice through the glass doors which thrust him back into the lobby of god 
  only knows where as the bullet catches the watchman in the throat, knocking him 
  backward, leaving a spray of blood hanging momentarily in midair before drizzling down 
  on the watchman’s contorted, twisted face, and the black janitor Patrick has just noticed 
  has been watching the scene from a corner of the lobby, mop in hand, bucket by his 
  feet, drops the mop, raises his hands, and Patrick shoots him right between the eyes, a 
  stream of blood covers his face, the back of his head explodes in a spray, behind him 
  the bullet knocks out a chunk of marble, the force of the blast slams him against the 
  
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  wall, Patrick dashing across the street toward the light of his new office, when he walks 
  in… 
     …nodding toward Gus,our night watchman, signing in, heading up in the elevator, 
  higher, toward the darkness of his floor, calm is eventually restored, safe in the 
  anonymity of my new office, able with shaking hands to pick up the cordless phone, 
  looking through my Rolodex, exhausted, eyes falling upon Harold Carnes’ number, 
  dialing the seven digits slowly, breathing deeply, evenly, I decide to make public what 
  has been, until now, my private dementia, but Harold isn’t in, business, London, I leave 
  a message, admitting everything, leaving nothing out, thirty, forty, a hundred murders, 
  and while I’m on the phone with Harold’s machine a helicopter with a searchlight 
  appears, flying low over the river, lightning cracks the sky open in jagged bolts behind it, 
  heading toward the building I was last at, descending to land on the building’s roof 
  across from this one, the bottom of the building surrounded already by police cars, two 
  ambulances, and a SWAT team leaps out of the helicopter, a half-dozen armed men 
  disappear into the entrance on the deck of the roof, flares are lined up what seems like 
  everywhere, and I’m watching all of this with the phone in my hand, crouched by my 
  desk, sobbing though I don’t know why, into Harold’s machine, “I left her in a parking 
  lot… near a Dunkin’ Donuts… somewhere around midtown…” and finally, after ten 
  minutes of this, I sign off by concluding, “Uh, I’m a pretty sick guy,” then hang up, but I 
  call back and after an interminable beep, proving my message was indeed recorded, I 
  leave another: “Listen, it’s Bateman again, and if you get back tomorrow, I may show up 
  at Da Umberto’s tonight so, you know, keep your eyes open,” and the sun, a planet on 
  fire, gradually rises over Manhattan, another sunrise, and soon the night turns into day 
  so fast it’s like some kind of optical illusion… 
  Huey Lewis and the News 
     Huey Lewis and the News burst out of San Francisco onto the national music scene at 
  the beginning of the decade, with their self-titled rock pop album released by Chrysalis, 
  though they really didn’t come into their own, commercially or artistically, until their 1983 
  smash, Sports. Though their roots were visible (blues, Memphis soul, country) on Huey 
  Lewis and the News they seemed a little too willing to cash in on the late seventies/early 
  eighties taste for New Wave, and the album—though it’s still a smashing debut—seems 
  a little too stark, too punk. Examples of this being the drumming on the first single, 
  “Some of My Lies Are True (Sooner or Later),” and the fake handclaps on “Don’t Make 
  Me Do It” as well as the organ on “Taking a Walk.” Even though it was a little bit 
  strained, their peppy boy-wants-girl lyrics and the energy with which Lewis, as a lead 
  singer, instilled all the songs were refreshing. Having a great lead guitarist like Chris 
  Hayes (who also shares vocals) doesn’t hurt either. Hayes’ solos are as original and 
  unrehearsed as any in rock. Yet the keyboardist, Sean Hopper, seemed too intent on 
  playing the organ a little too mechanically (though his piano playing on the second half 
  of the album gets better) and Bill Gibson’s drumming was too muted to have much 
  impact. The songwriting also didn’t mature until much later, though many of the catchy 
  songs had hints of longing and regret and dread (“Stop Trying” is just one example). 
     Though the boys hail from San Francisco and they share some similarities with their 
  Southern California counterparts, the Beach Boys (gorgeous harmonies, sophisticated 
  vocalizing, beautiful melodies—they even posed with a surfboard on the cover of the 
  debut album), they also carried with them some of the bleakness and nihilism of the 
  (thankfully now forgotten) “punk rock” scene of Los Angeles at the time. Talk about your 
  Angry Young Man!—listen to Huey on “Who Cares,” “Stop Trying,” “Don’t Even Tell Me 
  That You Love Me,” “Trouble in Paradise” (the titles say it all). Huey hits his notes like 
  an embittered survivor and the band often sounds as angry as performers like the Clash 
  or Billy Joel or Blondie. No one should forget that we have Elvis Costello to thank for 
  discovering Huey in the first place. Huey played harmonica on Costello’s second record, 
  the thin, vapid My Aim Was You. Lewis has some of Costello’s supposed bitterness, 
  
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  though Huey has a more bitter, cynical sense of humor. Elvis might think that intellectual 
  wordplay is as important as having a good time and having one’s cynicism tempered by 
  good spirits, but I wonder what he thinks about Lewis selling so many more records than 
  he? 
     Things looked up for Huey and the boys on the second album, 1982’s Picture This, 
  which yielded two semihits, “Workin’ for a Livin’” and “Do You Believe in Love,” and the 
  fact that this coincided with the advent of video (there was one made for both songs) 
  undoubtedly helped sales. The sound, though still tinged with New Wave trappings, 
  seemed more roots-rock than the previous album, which might have something to do 
  with the fact that Bob Clearmountain mixed the record or that Huey Lewis and the News 
  took over the producing reins. Their songwriting grew more sophisticated and the group 
  wasn’t afraid to quietly explore other genres—notably reggae (“Tell Her a Little Lie”) and 
  ballads (“Hope You Love Me Like You Say” and “Is It Me?”). But for all its power-pop 
  glory, the sound and the band seem, gratefully, less rebellious, less angry on this record 
  (though the blue-collar bitterness of “Workin’ for a Livin’” seems like an outtake from the 
  earlier album). They seem more concerned with personal relationships—four of the 
  album’s ten songs have the word “love” in their title—rather than strutting around as 
  young nihilists, and the mellow good-times feel of the record is a surprising, infectious 
  change. 
     The band is playing better than it last did and the Tower of Power horns give the 
  record a more open, warmer sound. The album hits its peak with the back-to-back one-
  two punch of “Workin’ for a Livin’” and “Do You Believe in Love,” which is the best song 
  on the album and is essentially about the singer asking a girl he’s met while “looking for 
  someone to meet” if she “believes in love.” The fact that the song never resolves the 
  question (we never find out what the girl says) gives it an added complexity that wasn’t 
  apparent on the group’s debut. Also on “Do You Believe in Love” is a terrific sax solo by 
  Johnny Colla (the guy gives Clarence Clemons a run for his money), who, like Chris 
  Hayes on lead guitar and Sean Hopper on keyboards, has by now become an 
  invaluable asset to the band (the sax solo on the ballad “Is It Me?” is even stronger). 
  Huey’s voice sounds more searching, less raspy, yet plaintive, especially on “The Only 
  One,” which is a touching song about what happens to our mentors and where they end 
  up (Bill Gibson’s drumming is especially vital to this track). Though the album should 
  have ended on that powerful note, it ends instead with “Buzz Buzz Buzz,” a throwaway 
  blues number that doesn’t make much sense compared to what preceded it, but in its 
  own joky way it amuses and the Tower of Power horns are in excellent form. 
     There are no such mistakes made on the band’s third album and flawless 
  masterpiece, Sports (Chrysalis). Every song has the potential to be a huge hit and most 
  of them were. It made the band rock ‘n’ roll icons. Gone totally is the bad-boy image, 
  and a new frat-guy sweetness takes over (they even have the chance to say “ass” in 
  one song and choose to bleep it instead). The whole album has a clear, crisp sound and 
  a new sheen of consummate professionalism that gives the songs on the album a big 
  boost. And the wacky, original videos made to sell the record (“Heart and Soul,” “The 
  Heart of Rock ‘n’ Roll,” “If This Is It,” “Bad Is Bad,” “I Want a New Drug”) made them 
  superstars on MTV. 
     Produced by the band, Sports opens with what will probably become their signature 
  song, “The Heart of Rock ‘n Roll,” a loving ode to rock ‘n’ roll all over the United States. 
  It’s followed by “Heart and Soul,” their first big single, which is a trademark Lewis song 
  (though it’s written by outsiders Michael Chapman and Nicky Chinn) and the tune that 
  firmly and forever established them as the premier rock band in the country for the 
  1980s. If the lyrics aren’t quite up to par with other songs, most of them are more than 
  serviceable and the whole thing is a jaunty enterprise about what a mistake one-night 
  stands are (a message the earlier, rowdier Huey would never have made). “Bad Is Bad,” 
  written solely by Lewis, is the bluesiest song the band had recorded up to this point and 
  Mario Cipollina’s bass playing gets to shine on it, but it’s really Huey’s harmonica solos 
  that give it an edge. “I Want a New Drug,” with its killer guitar riff (courtesy of Chris 
  
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  Hayes), is the album’s centerpiece—not only is it the greatest antidrug song ever 
  written, it’s also a personal statement about how the band has grown up, shucked off 
  their bad-boy image and learned to become more adult. Hayes’ solo on it is incredible 
  and the drum machine used, but not credited, gives not only “I Want a New Drug” but 
  most of the album a more consistent backbeat than any of the previous albums—even 
  though Bill Gibson is still a welcome presence. 
     The rest of the album whizzes by flawlessly—side two opens with their most searing 
  statement yet: “Walking on a Thin Line,” and no one, not even Bruce Springsteen, has 
  written as devastatingly about the plight of the Vietnam vet in modern society. This 
  song, though written by outsiders, shows a social awareness that was new to the band 
  and proved to anyone who ever doubted it that the band, apart from its blues 
  background, had a heart. And again in “Finally Found a Home” the band proclaims its 
  newfound sophistication with this paean to growing up. And though at the same time it’s 
  about shedding their rebel image, it’s also about how they “found themselves” in the 
  passion and energy of rock ‘n’ roll. In fact the song works on so many levels it’s almost 
  too complex for the album to carry, though it never loses its beat and it still has Sean 
  Hopper’s ringing keyboards, which make it danceable. “If This Is It” is the album’s one 
  ballad, but it’s not downbeat. It’s a plea for a lover to tell another lover if they want to 
  carry on with the relationship, and the way Huey sings it (arguably the most superb 
  vocal on the album), it becomes instilled with hope. Again, this song—as with the rest of 
  the album—isn’t about chasing or longing after girls, it’s about dealing with relationships. 
  “Crack Me Up” is the album’s only hint at a throwback to the band’s New Wave days 
  and it’s minor but amusing, though its antidrinking, antidrug, pro-growing-up statement 
  isn’t. 
     And as a lovely ending to an altogether remarkable album, the band does a version of 
  “Honky Tonk Blues” (another song written by someone not in the band, named Hank 
  Williams), and even though it’s a very different type of song, you can feel its presence 
  throughout the rest of the album. For all its professional sheen, the album has the 
  integrity of honky-tonk blues. (Aside: During this period Huey also recorded two songs 
  for the movie Back to the Future, which both went Number One, “The Power of Love” 
  and “Back in Time,” delightful extras, not footnotes, in what has been shaping up into a 
  legendary career.) What to say to Sports dissenters in the long run? Nine million people 
  can’t be wrong. 
     Fore! (Chrysalis; 1986) is essentially a continuation of the Sports album but with an 
  even more professional sheen. This is the record where the guys don’t need to prove 
  they’ve grown up and that they’ve accepted rock ‘n’ roll, because in the three year 
  transition between Sports and Fore! they already had. (In fact three of them are wearing 
  suits on the cover of the record.) It opens with a blaze of fire, “Jacob’s Ladder,” which is 
  essentially a song about struggle and overcoming compromise, a fitting reminder of 
  what Huey and the News represents, and with the exception of “Hip to Be Square” it’s 
  the best song on the album (though it wasn’t written by anyone in the band). This is 
  followed by the sweetly good-matured “Stuck with You,” a lightweight paean to 
  relationships and marriage. In fact most of the love songs on the album are about 
  sustained relationships, unlike the early albums, where the concerns were about either 
  lusting after girls and not getting them or getting burned in the process. On Fore! the 
  songs are about guys who are in control (who have the girls) and now have to deal with 
  them. This new dimension in the News gives the record an added oomph and they 
  seem more content and satisfied, less urgent, and this makes for their most pleasingly 
  crafted record to date. But also for every “Doing It All for My Baby” (a delightful ode 
  about monogamy and satisfaction) there’s a barn-banning blues scorcher number like 
  “Whole Lotta Lovin’,” and side one (or, on the CD, song number five) ends with the 
  masterpiece “Hip to Be Square” (which, ironically, is accompanied by the band’s only 
  bad video), the key song on Fore!; which is a rollicking ode to conformity that’s so 
  catchy most people probably don’t even listen to the lines, but with Chris Hayes blasting 
  guitar and the terrific keyboard playing who cares? And it’s not just about the pleasures 
  
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  of conformity and the importance of trends—it’s also a personal statement about the 
  band itself, though of what I’m not quite sure. 
     If the second part of Fore! doesn’t have the intensity of the first, there are some real 
  gems that are actually quite complicated. “I Know What I Like” is a song that Huey 
  would never have sung six years back—a blunt declaration of independence—while the 
  carefully placed “I Never Walk Alone,” which follows, actually complements the song 
  and explains it in broader terms (it also has a great organ solo and except for “Hip to Be 
  Square” has Huey’s strongest vocals). “Forest for the Trees” is an upbeat antisuicide 
  tract, and though its title might seem like a cliché, Huey and the band have a way of 
  energizing clichés and making them originals wholly their own. The nifty a cappella 
  “Naturally” evokes an innocent time while showcasing the band’s vocal harmonies (if 
  you didn’t know better you’d think it was the Beach Boys coming out of your CD player), 
  and even if it’s essentially a throwaway, a trifle of sorts, the album ends on a majestic 
  note with “Simple as That,” a blue-collar ballad that sounds not a note of resignation but 
  one of hope, and its complex message (it wasn’t written by anyone in the band) of 
  survival leads the way to their next album, Small World, where they take on global 
  issues. Fore! might not be the masterpiece Sports is (what could be?), but in its own 
  way it’s just as satisfying and the mellower, gentler Huey of ‘86 is just as happening. 
     Small World (Chrysalis; 1988) is the most ambitious, artistically satisfying record yet 
  produced by Huey Lewis and the News. The Angry Young Man has definitely been 
  replaced by a smoothly professional musician and even though Huey has only really 
  mastered one instrument (the harmonica), its majestic Dylanesque sounds give Small 
  World a grandeur few artists have reached. It’s an obvious transition and their first 
  album that tries to make thematic sense—in fact Huey takes on one of the biggest 
  subjects of all: the importance of global communication. It’s no wonder four out of the 
  album’s ten songs have the word “world” in their titles and that for the first time there’s 
  not only one but three instrumentals. 
     The CD gets off to a rousing start with the Lewis/Hayes-penned “Small World (Part 
  One),” which, along with its message of harmony, has a blistering solo by Hayes at its 
  center. In “Old Antone’s” one can catch the zydeco influences that the band has picked 
  up on touring around the country, and it gives it a Cajun flavor that is utterly unique. 
  Bruce Hornsby plays the accordion wonderfully and the lyrics give you a sense of a true 
  Bayou spirit. Again, on the hit single “Perfect World,” the Tower of Power horns are used 
  to extraordinary effect. It’s also the best cut on the album (written by Alex Call, who isn’t 
  in the band) and it ties up all the album’s themes—about accepting the imperfections of 
  this world but still learning to “keep on dreamin’ of livin’ in a perfect world.” Though the 
  sang is fastpaced pop it’s still moving in terms of its intentions and the band plays 
  splendidly on it. Oddly this is followed by two instrumentals: the eerie African-influenced 
  reggae dance track “Bobo Tempo” and the second part of “Small World.” But just 
  because these tunes are wordless doesn’t mean the global message of communication 
  is lost, and they don’t seem like filler or padding because of the implications of their 
  thematic reprise; the band gets to show off its improvisational skills as well. 
     Side two opens smashingly with “Walking with the Kid,” the first Huey song to 
  acknowledge the responsibilities of fatherhood. His voice sounds mature and even 
  though we, as listeners, don’t find out until the last line that “the kid” (who we assume is 
  a buddy) is actually his son, the maturity in Huey’s voice tips us off and it’s hard to 
  believe that the man who once sang “Heart and Soul” and “Some of My Lies Are True” 
  is singing this. The album’s big ballad, “World to Me,” is a dreamy pearl of a song, and 
  though it’s about sticking together in a relationship, it also makes allusions to China and 
  Alaska and Tennessee, carrying on the album’s “Small World” theme—and the band 
  sounds really good on it. “Better Be True” is also a bit of a ballad, but it’s not a dreamy 
  pearl and its lyrics aren’t really about sticking together in a relationship nor does it make 
  allusions to China or Alaska and the band sounds really good on it. 
     “Give Me the Keys (And I’ll Drive You Crazy)” is a good-times blues rocker about 
  (what else?) driving around, incorporating the album’s theme in a much more playful 
  
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  way than previous songs on the album did, and though lyrically it might seem 
  impoverished, it’s still a sign that the new “serious” Lewis—that Huey the artist hasn’t 
  totally lost his frisky sense of humor. The album ends with “Slammin’,” which has no 
  words and it’s just a lot of horns that quite frankly, if you turn it up really loud, can give 
  you a fucking big headache and maybe even make you feel a little sick, though it might 
  sound different on an album or on a cassette though I wouldn’t know anything about 
  that. Anyway it set off something wicked in me that lasted for days. And you cannot 
  dance to it very well. 
     It took something like a hundred people to put Small World together (counting all the 
  extra musicians, drum technicians, accountants, lawyers—who are all, thanked), but this 
  actually adds to the CD’s theme of community and it doesn’t clutter the record—it makes 
  it a more joyous experience. With this CD and the four previous ones behind it, Huey 
  Lewis and the News prove that if this really is a small world, then these guys are the 
  best American band of the 1980s on this or any other continent—and it has with it Huey 
  Lewis, a vocalist, musician and writer who just can’t be topped. 
  In Bed with Courtney 
     I’m in Courtney’s bed. Luis is in Atlanta. Courtney shivers, presses against me, 
  relaxes. I roll off her onto my back, landing on something hard and covered with fur. I 
  reach under myself to find a stuffed black cat with blue jewels for eyes that I think I 
  spotted at F.A.O. Schwarz when I was doing some early Christmas shopping. I’m at a 
  loss as to what to say, so I stammer, “Tiffany lamps… are making a comeback.” I can 
  barely see her face in the darkness but hear the sigh, painful and low, the sound of a 
  prescription bottle snapping open, her body shifting in the bed. I drop the cat on the 
  floor, get up, take a shower. On The Patty Winters Show this morning the topic was 
  Beautiful Teenage Lesbians, which I found so erotic I had to stay home, miss a meeting, 
  jerk off twice. Aimless, I spent an inordinate amount of the day at Sotheby’s, bored and 
  confused. Last night, dinner with Jeanette at Deck Chairs, she seemed tired and 
  ordered little. We split a pizza that cost ninety dollars. After toweling my hair dry I put on 
  a Ralph Lauren robe and walk back into the bedroom, start to dress. Courtney is 
  smoking a cigarette, watching Late Night with David Letterman, the sound turned down 
  low. 
     “Will you call me before Thanksgiving?’ she asks. 
     “Maybe.” I button up the front of my shirt, wondering why I even came here in the first 
  place. 
     “What are you doing?” she asks, speaking slowly. 
     My response is predictably cool. “Dinner at the River Café. Afterwards Au Bar, 
  maybe.” 
     “That’s nice,” she murmurs. 
     “You and… Luis?” I ask. 
     “We were supposed to have dinner at Tad and Maura’s,” she sighs. “But I don’t think 
  we’re going to anymore.” 
     “Why not?” I slip on my vest, black cashmere from Polo, thinking: I am really 
  interested. 
     “Oh you know how Luis is about the Japanese,” she starts, her eyes already glazed 
  over. 
     When she fails to continue I ask, annoyed, “You’re making sense. Go on.” 
     “Luis refused to play Trivial Pursuit at Tad and Maura’s last Sunday because they 
  have an Akita.” She takes a drag off her cigarette. 
     “So, like…” I pause. “What happened?” 
     “We played at my place.” 
     “I never knew you smoked,” I say. 
     She smiles sadly but in a dumb way. “You never noticed.” 
     “Okay, I admit I’m embarrassed, but just a little.” I move over to the Martian mirror that 
  
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  hangs above a Sottsass teakwood desk to make sure the knot in my Armani paisley tie 
  isn’t crooked. 
     “Listen, Patrick,” she says, with effort. “Can we talk?” 
     “You look marvelous.” I sigh, turning my head, offering an airkiss. “There’s nothing to 
  say. You’re going to marry Luis. Next week, no less.” 
     “Isn’t that special?” she asks sarcastically, but not in a frustrated way. 
     “Read my lips,” I say, turning back to the mirror. “You look marvelous.” 
     “Patrick?” 
     “Yes, Courtney?” 
     “If I don’t see you before Thanksgiving…” She stops, confused. “Have a nice one?” 
     I look at her for a moment before replying, tonelessly, “You too.” 
     She picks up the stuffed black cat, strokes its head. I step out the door into the 
  hallway, heading down it toward the kitchen. 
     “Patrick?” she calls sofy from her bedroom. 
     I stop but don’t turn around. “Yes?” 
     “Nothing.” 
  Smith & Wollensky 
     I’m with Craig McDermott in Harry’s on Hanover. He’s smoking a cigar, drinking a Stoli 
  Cristall martini, asking me what the rules are for wearing a pocket square. I’m drinking 
  the same thing, answering him. We’re waiting for Harold Carnes, who just got back from 
  London on Tuesday, and he’s half an hour late. I’m nervous, impatient, and when I tell 
  McDermott that we should have invited Todd or at least Hamlin, who was sure to have 
  cocaine, he shrugs and says that maybe we’ll be able to find Carnes at Delmonico’s. But 
  we don’t find Carnes at Delmonico’s so we head uptown to Smith & Wollensky for an 
  eight o’clock reservation that one of us made. McDermott is wearing a six-button 
  double-breasted wool suit by Cerruti 1881, a tattersall cotton shirt by Louis, Boston, a 
  silk tie by Dunhill. I’m wearing a six-button double-breasted wool suit by Ermenegildo 
  Zegna, a striped cotton shirt by Luciano Barbera, a silk tie by Armani, suede wing-tips 
  by Ralph Lauren, socks by E. G. Smith. Men Who’ve Been Raped by Women was the 
  topic on The Patty Winters Show this morning. Sitting in a booth at Smith and 
  Wollensky, which is strangely empty, I’m on Valium, drinking a good glass of red wine, 
  wondering absently about that cousin of mine at St. Albans in Washington who recently 
  raped a girl, biting her earlobes off, getting a sick thrill not ordering the hash browns, 
  how my brother and I once rode horses together, played tennis—this is burning from my 
  memory but McDermott eclipses these thoughts when he notices I haven’t ordered the 
  hash browns after dinner has arrived. 
     “What is this? You can’t eat at Smith and Wollensky without ordering the hash 
  browns,” he complains. 
     I avoid his eyes and touch the cigar I’m saving in my jacket pocket. 
     “Jesus, Bateman, you’re a raving maniac. Been at P & P too long,” he mutters. “No 
  fucking hash browns.” 
     I don’t say anything. How can I tell McDermott that this is a very disjointed time of my 
  life and that I notice the walls have been painted a bright, almost painful white and under 
  the glare of the fluorescent lights they seem to pulse and glow. Frank Sinatra is 
  somewhere, singing “Witchcraft.” I’m staring at the walls, listening to the words, 
  suddenly thirsty, but our waiter is taking orders from a very large table of exclusively 
  Japanese businessmen, and someone who I think is either George MacGowan or 
  Taylor Preston, in the booth behind this one, wearing something by Polo, is eyeing me 
  suspiciously and McDermott is still staring at my steak with this stunned look on his face 
  and one of the Japanese businessmen is holding an abacus, another one is trying to 
  pronounce the word “teriyaki,” another is mouthing, then singing, the words to the song, 
  and the table laughs, an odd, not completely foreign sound, as he lifts up a pair of 
  
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  chopsticks, shaking his head confidently, imitating Sinatra. His mouth opens, what 
  comes out of it is: “that sry comehitle stale… that clazy witchclaft… ” 
  Something on Television 
     While getting dressed to meet Jeanette for a new British musical that opened on 
  Broadway last week and then dinner at Progress, the new Malcolm Forbes restaurant 
  on the Upper East Side, I watch a tape of this morning’s Patty Winters Show, which is 
  split into two parts. The first section is a feature on the lead singer of the rock band 
  Guns n’ Roses, Axl Rose, whom Patty quoted as telling an interviewer, “When I get 
  stressed I get violent and take it out on myself. I’ve pulled razor blades on myself but 
  then realized that having a scar is more detrimental than not having a stereo… I’d rather 
  kick my stereo in than go punch somebody in the face. When I get mad or upset or 
  emotional, sometimes I’ll walk over and play my piano.” Part two consists of Patty 
  reading letters that Ted Bundy, the mass murderer, had written to his fiancée during one 
  of his many trials. “ ’Dear Carole,’” she reads, while an unfairly bloated head shot of 
  Bundy, just weeks away from execution, Hashes across the screen, “ ’please do not sit 
  in the same row in court with Janet. When I look over toward you there she sits 
  contemplating me with her mad eyes like a deranged seagull studying a clam… I can 
  feel her spreading hot sauce on me already…’” 
     I wait for something to happen. I sit in my bedroom for close to an hour. Nothing does. 
  I get up, do the rest of the coke—a minuscule amount that’s in my closet left over from a 
  late Saturday at M.K. or Au Bar, stop at Orso for a drink before meeting Jeanette, who I 
  called earlier, mentioning that I had two tickets to this particular musical and she didn’t 
  say anything except “I’ll go” and I told her to meet me in front of the theater at ten to 
  eight and she hung up. I tell myself while I’m sitting alone at the bar in Orso that I was 
  going to call one of the numbers that flashed on the bottom of the screen, but then I 
  realize that I didn’t know what to say and I remember ten of the words Patty read: “I can 
  feel her spreading hot sauce on me already.” 
     I remember these words again for some reason while Jeanette and I are sitting in 
  Progress after the musical and it’s late, the restaurant is crowded. We order something 
  called eagle carpaccio, mesquite-grilled mahi-mahi, endive with chèvre and chocolate-
  covered almonds, this weird kind of gazpacho with raw chicken in it, dry beer. Right now 
  there really is nothing edible on my plate, what there is tastes like plaster. Jeanette is 
  wearing a wool smoking jacket, a silk chiffon shawl with one sleeve, wool tuxedo pants, 
  all Armani, antique gold and diamond earrings, stockings from Givenchy, grosgrain flats. 
  She keeps sighing and threatens to light a cigarette even though we’re seated in the 
  nonsmoking section of the restaurant. Jeanette’s behavior deeply unsettles me, causes 
  black thoughts to form and expand in my head. She’s been drinking champagne kirs but 
  has already had too many and when she orders her sixth I suggest that maybe she’s 
  had enough. She looks at me and says, “I am cold and thirsty and I will order what I 
  fucking want.” 
     I say, “Then have an Evian or San Pellegrino for Christ sakes.” 
  Sandstone 
     My mother and I are sitting in her private room at Sandstone, where she is now a 
  permanent resident. Heavily sedated, she has her sunglasses on and keeps touching 
  her hair and I keep looking at my hands, pretty sure that they’re shaking. She tries to 
  smile when she asks what I want for Christmas. I’m not surprised at how much effort it 
  takes to raise my head and look at her. I’m wearing a two-button wool gabardine suit 
  with notched lapels by Gian Marco Venturi, cap-toed leather laceups by Armani, tie by 
  Polo, socks I’m not sure where from. It’s nearing the middle of April. 
     “Nothing,” I say, smiling reassuringly. 
     There’s a pause. I break it by asking, “What do you want?” 
  
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     She says nothing for a long time and I look back at my hands, at dried blood, probably 
  from a girl named Suki, beneath the thumbnail. My mother licks her lips tiredly and says, 
  “I don’t know. I just want to have a nice Christmas.” 
     I don’t say anything. I’ve spent the last hour studying my hair in the mirror I’ve insisted 
  the hospital keep in my mother’s room. 
     “You look unhappy,” she says suddenly. 
     “I’m not,” I tell her with a brief sigh. 
     “You look unhappy,” she says, more quietly this time. She touches her hair, stark 
  blinding white, again. 
     “Well, you do too,” I say slowly, hoping that she won’t say anything else. 
     She doesn’t say anything else. I’m sitting in a chair by the window, and through the 
  bars the lawn outside darkens, a cloud passes over the sun, soon the lawn turns green 
  again. She sits on her bed in a nightgown from Bergdorf’s and slippers by Norma Kamali 
  that I bought her for Christmas last year. 
     “How was the party?” she asks. 
     “Okay,” I say, guessing. 
     “How many people were there?” 
     “Forty. Five hundred.” I shrug. “I’m not sure.” 
     She licks her lips again, touches her hair once more. “What time did you leave?” 
     “I don’t remember,” I answer after a long time. 
     “One? Two?” she asks. 
     “It must have been one,” I say, almost cutting her off. 
     “Oh.” She pauses again, straightens her sunglasses, black Ray-Bans I bought her 
  from Bloomingdale’s that cost two hundred dollars. 
     “It wasn’t very good,” I say uselessly, looking at her. 
     “Why?” she asks, curious. 
     “It just wasn’t,” I say, looking back at my hand, the specks of blood under the nail on 
  my thumb, the photograph of my father, when he was a much younger man, on my 
  mother’s bedside table, next to a photograph of Sean and me when we were both 
  teenagers, wearing tuxedos, neither one of us smiling. In the photograph of my father 
  he’s wearing a six-button double-breasted black sport coat, a white spread-collar cotton 
  shirt, a tie, pocket square, shoes, all by Brooks Brothers. He’s standing next to one of 
  the topiary animals a long time ago at his father’s estate in Connecticut and there’s 
  something the matter with his eyes. 
  The Best City for Business 
     And on a rainy Tuesday morning, after working out at Xclusive, I stop by Paul Owen’s 
  apartment on the Upper East Side. One hundred and sixty-one days have passed since 
  I spent the night in it with the two escort girls. There has been no word of bodies 
  discovered in any of the city’s four newspapers or on the local news; no hints of even a 
  rumor floating around. I’ve gone so far as to ask people—dates, business 
  acquaintances—over dinners, in the halls of Pierce & Pierce, if anyone has heard about 
  two mutilated prostitutes found in Paul Owen’s apartment. But like in some movie, no 
  one has heard anything, has any idea of what I’m talking about. There are other things 
  to worry over: the shocking amount of laxative and speed that the cocaine in Manhattan 
  is now being cut with, Asia in the 1990s, the virtual impossibility of landing an eight 
  o’clock reservation at PR, the new Tony McManus restaurant on Liberty Island, crack. 
  So what I’m assuming is that, essentially, like, no bodies have been found. For all I 
  know, Kimball has moved to London too. 
     The building looks different to me as I step out of the taxi, though I can’t figure out 
  why. I still have the keys I stole from Owen the night I killed him and I take them out, 
  now, to open the lobby door but they don’t work, won’t fit properly. Instead, a uniformed 
  doorman who wasn’t here six months ago opens it for me, excusing himself for taking so 
  long. I stand there in the rain, confused, until he ushers me in, merrily asking, with a 
  
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  thick Irish accent, “Well, are you coming in or staying out—you’re getting soaked.” I 
  move into the lobby, my umbrella held under one arm, tucking the surgical mask I 
  brought with me to deal with the smell back into my pocket. I’m holding a Walkman, 
  debating what to say, how to phrase it. 
     “Well, now what can I do for you sir?” he asks. 
     I stall—a long, awkward pause—before saying, simply, “Fourteen-A.” 
     He looks me over carefully before checking his book, then beams, marking something 
  down. “Ah, of course. Mrs. Wolfe is up there right now.” 
     “Mrs…. Wolfe?” Weakly, I smile. 
     “Yes. She’s the real estate agent,” he says, looking up at me. “You do have an 
  appointment, don’t you?” 
     The elevator operator, also a new addition, stares at the floor as the two of us rise up 
  into the building. I’m trying to retrace my steps on that night, during that whole week, 
  uselessly knowing I have never been back to this apartment after murdering the two 
  girls. How much is Owen’s apartment worth? is a question that keeps forcing its way into 
  my mind until finally it just rests there, throbbing. The Patty Winter Show this morning 
  was about people with half their brains removed. My chest feels like ice. 
     The elevator doors open. I step out, cautiously, watching behind me as they close, 
  then I’m moving down the hallway toward Owen’s apartment. I can hear voices inside. I 
  lean against the wall, sighing, keys in my hand, knowing already the locks have been 
  changed. As I wonder what I should do, trembling, staring at my loafers, which are black 
  and by A. Testoni, the door to the apartment opens, startling me out of a momentary 
  flash of self-pity. A middle-aged real estate broker walks out, offers a smile, asks, 
  checking her book, “Are you my eleven o’clock?” 
     “No,” I say. 
     She says “Excuse me” and, making her way down the hall, looks back at me, once, 
  with a strange expression on her face, before disappearing around the corner. I’m 
  staring into the apartment. A couple in their late twenties stand, conferring with each 
  other, in the middle of the living room. She’s wearing a wool jacket, a silk blouse, wool 
  flannel slacks, Armani, vermeil earrings, gloves, holding a bottle of Evian water. He has 
  on a tweed sport jacket, cashmere sweater vest, cotton chambray shirt, tie, Paul Stuart, 
  Agnes B. cotton trench coat draped over arm. Behind them, the apartment looks 
  spotless. New venetian blinds, the cowhide paneling is gone; however, the furniture, the 
  mural, the glass coffee table, Thonet chairs, black leather couch, all seem intact; the 
  large-screen television set has been moved into the living room and it’s been turned on, 
  the volume low, a commercial where a stain walks off a jacket and addresses the 
  camera is on now, but it doesn’t make me forget what I did to Christie’s breasts, to one 
  of the girls’ heads, the nose missing, both ears bitten off, how you could see her teeth 
  through where I had ripped the flesh from her jaws and both cheeks, the torrents of gore 
  and the blood that washed over the apartment, the stench of the dead, my own 
  confused warning that I had drawn in— 
     “Can I help you?” the real estate agent, Mrs. Wolfe I’m guessing, intrudes. She has a 
  very angular thin face, the nose is large, distressingly real -looking, heavily lipsticked 
  mouth, white-blue eyes. She’s wearing a wool boucle jacket, washed silk blouse, shoes, 
  earrings, a bracelet, from where? I don’t know. Maybe she’s younger than forty. 
     I’m still leaning against the wall, staring at the couple, who move back into the 
  bedroom, leaving the main room empty. I’m just noticing that bouquets in glass vases, 
  dozens of them, fill the apartment everywhere, and I can smell them from where I’m 
  standing in the hall. Mrs. Wolfe glances behind her to see what I’m staring at, then back 
  to me. “I’m looking for… Doesn’t Paul Owen live here?” 
     A long pause before she answers. “No. He doesn’t.” 
     Another long pause. “Are you, like… sure?” I ask, before feebly adding, “I don’t… 
  understand.” 
     She realizes something that causes the muscles in her face to tighten. Her eyes 
  narrow but don’t close. She’s noticed the surgical mask I’m gripping in a damp fist and 
  
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  she breathes in, sharply, refusing to look away. I am definitely not feeling right about any 
  of this. On the TV, in a commercial, a man holds up a piece of toast and tells his wife, 
  “Hey, you’re right… this margarine really does taste better than shit.” The wife smiles. 
     “You saw the ad in the Times?” she asks. 
     “No… I mean yes. Yes, I did. In the Times,” I falter, gathering a pocket of strength, the 
  smell from the roses thick, masking something revolting. “But… doesn’t Paul Owen… 
  still own this?” I ask, as forcibly as possible. 
     There’s a long pause before she admits, “There was no ad in the Times.” 
     We stare at each other endlessly. I’m convinced she senses I’m about to say 
  something. I’ve seen this look on someone’s face before. Was it in a club? A victim’s 
  expression? Had it appeared on a movie screen recently? Or had I seen it in the mirror? 
  It takes what seems like an hour before I can speak again. “But that’s… his”—I stop, my 
  heart skips, resumes beating—“furniture.” I drop my umbrella, then lean down quickly to 
  retrieve it. 
     “I think you should go,” she says. 
     “I think… I want to know what happened.” I feel sick, my chest and back covered with 
  sweat, drenched, it seems, instantaneously. 
     “Don’t make any trouble,” she says. 
     All frontiers, if there had ever been any, seem suddenly detachable and have been 
  removed, a feeling that others are creating my fate will not leave me for the rest of the 
  day. This… is… not… a… game, I want to shout, but I can’t catch my breath though I 
  don’t think she can tell. I turn my face away. I need rest. I don’t know what to say. 
  Confused, I reach out for a moment to touch Mrs. Wolfe’s arm, to steady myself, but I 
  stop it in midair, move it to my chest instead, but I can’t feel it, not even when I loosen 
  my tie; it rests there, trembling, and I can’t make it stop. I’m blushing, speechless. 
     “I suggest you go,” she says. 
     We stand there in the hallway facing each other. 
     “Don’t make any trouble,” she says again, quietly. 
     I stand there a few seconds longer before finally backing away, holding up my hands, 
  a gesture of assurance. 
     “Don’t come back,” she says. 
     “I won’t,” I say. “Don’t worry.” 
     The couple appears in the doorway. Mrs. Wolfe watches me until I’m at the elevator 
  door, pressing the button for the attendant. In the elevator, the smell of the roses is 
  overpowering. 
  Working Out 
     Free weights and Nautilus equipment relieve stress. My body responds to the workout 
  accordingly. Shirtless, I scrutinize my image in the mirror above the sinks in the locker 
  room at Xclusive. My arm muscles burn; my stomach is as taut as possible, my chest 
  steel, pectorals granite hard, my eyes white as ice. In my locker in the locker room at 
  Xclusive lie three vaginas I recently sliced out of various women I’ve attacked in the past 
  week. Two are washed off, one isn’t. There’s a barrette clipped to one of them, a blue 
  ribbon from Hermès tied around my favorite. 
  End of the 1980s 
     The smell of blood works its way into my dreams, which are, for the most part, terrible: 
  on an ocean liner that catches fire, witnessing volcanic eruptions in Hawaii, the violent 
  deaths of most of the inside traders at Salomon, James Robinson doing something bad 
  to me, finding myself back at boarding school, then at Harvard, the dead walk among 
  the living. The dreams are an endless reel of car wrecks and disaster footage, electric 
  chairs and grisly suicides, syringes and mutilated pinup girls, flying saucers, marble 
  Jacuzzis, pink peppercorns. When I wake up in a cold sweat I have to turn on the wide-
  
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  screen television to block out the construction sounds that continue throughout the day, 
  rising up from somewhere. A month ago was the anniversary of Elvis Presley’s death. 
  Football games flash by, the sound turned off. I can hear the answering machine click 
  once, its volume lowered, then twice. All summer long Madonna cries out to us, “life is a 
  mystery, everyone must stand alone...” 
     When I’m moving down Broadway to meet Jean, my secretary, for brunch, in front of 
  Tower Records a college student with a clipboard asks me to name the saddest song I 
  know. I tell him, without pausing, “You Can’t Always Get What You Want” by the 
  Beatles. Then he asks me to name the happiest song I know, and I say “Brilliant 
  Disguise” by Bruce Springsteen. He nods, makes a note, and I move on, past Lincoln 
  Center. An accident has happened. An ambulance is parked at the curb. A pile of 
  intestines lies on the sidewalk in a pool of blood. I buy a very hard apple at a Korean deli 
  which I eat on my way to meet Jean who, right now, stands at the Sixty-seventh Street 
  entrance to Central Park on a cool, sunny day in September. When we look up at the 
  clouds she sees an island, a puppy dog, Alaska, a tulip. I see, but don’t tell her, a Gucci 
  money clip, an ax, a woman cut in two, a large puffy white puddle of blood that spreads 
  across the sky, dripping over the city, onto Manhattan. 
     We stop at an outdoor café, Nowheres, on the Upper West Side, debating which 
  movie to see, if there are any museum exhibits we should attend, maybe just a walk, 
  she suggests the zoo, I’m nodding mindlessly. Jean is looking good, like she’s been 
  working out, and she’s wearing a gilt lamb jacket and velvet shorts by Matsuda. I’m 
  imagining myself on television, in a commercial for a new product—wine cooler? tanning 
  lotion? sugarless gum?—and I’m moving in jump-cut, walling along a beach, the film is 
  black-and-white, purposefully scratched, eerie vague pop music from the mid-1960s 
  accompanies the footage, it echoes, sounds as if it’s coming from a calliope. Now I’m 
  looking into the camera, now I’m holding up the product—a new mousse? tennis 
  shoes?—now my hair is windblown then it’s day then night then day again and then it’s 
  night. 
     “I’ll have an iced decaf au lait,” Jean tells the waiter. 
     “I’ll have a decapitated coffee also,” I say absently, before catching myself. “I mean… 
  decaff einated.” I glance over at Jean, worried, but she just smiles emptily at me. A 
  Sunday Times sits on the table between us. We discuss plans for dinner tonight, maybe. 
  Someone who looks like Taylor Preston walks by, waves at me. I lower my Ray-Bans, 
  wave back. Someone on a bike pedals past. I ask a busboy for water. A waiter arrives 
  instead and after that a dish containing two scoops of sorbet, cilantro-lemon and vodka-
  lime, are brought to the table that I didn’t hear Jean order. 
     “Want a bite?” she asks. 
     “I’m on a diet,” I say. “But thank you.” 
     “You don’t need to lose any weight,” she says, genuinely surprised. “You’re kidding, 
  right? You look great. Very fit.” 
     “You can always be thinner,” I mumble, staring at the traffic in the street, distracted by 
  something—what? I don’t know. “Look… better.” 
     “Well, maybe we shouldn’t go out to dinner,” she says, concerned. “I don’t want to ruin 
  your… willpower.” 
     “No. It’s all right,” I say. “I’m not… very good at controlling it anyway.” 
     “Patrick, seriously. I’ll do whatever you want,” she says. “If you don’t want to go to 
  dinner, we won’t. I mean—” 
     “It’s okay,” I stress. Something snaps. “You shouldn’t fawn over him…” I pause before 
  correcting myself. “I mean… me. Okay?” 
     “I just want to know what you want to do,” she says. 
     “To live happily ever after, right?” I say sarcastically. “That’s what I want.” I stare at her 
  hard, for maybe half a minute, before turning away. This quiets her. After a while she 
  orders a beer. It’s hot out on the street. 
     “Come on, smile,” she urges sometime later. “You have no reason to be so sad.” 
     “I know,” I sigh, relenting. “But it’s.. tough to smile. These days. At least I find it hard 
  
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  to. I’m not used to it, I guess. I don’t know.” 
     “That’s… why people need each other,” she says gently, trying to make eye contact 
  while spooning the not inexpensive sorbet into her mouth. 
     “Some don’t.” I clear my throat self-consciously. “Or, well, people compensate… They 
  adjust…” After a long pause, “People can get accustomed to anything, right?” I ask. 
  “Habit does things to people.” 
     Another long pause. Confused, she says, “I don’t know. I guess… but one still has to 
  maintain… a ratio of more good things than… bad in this world,” she says, adding, “I 
  mean, right?” She looks puzzled, as if she finds it strange that this sentence has come 
  out of her mouth. A blast of music from a passing cab, Madonna again, “life is a 
  mystery, everyone must stand alone…” Startled by the laughter at the table next to ours, 
  I cock my head and hear someone admit, “Sometimes what you wear to the office 
  makes all the difference,” and then Jean says something and I ask her to repeat it. 
     “Haven’t you ever wanted to make someone happy?” she asks. 
     “What?” I ask, trying to pay attention to her. “Jean?” 
     Shyly, she repeats herself. “Haven’t you ever wanted to make someone happy?” 
     I stare at her, a cold, distant wave of fright washes over me, dousing something. I 
  clear my throat again and, trying to speak with great purposefulness, tell her, “I was at 
  Sugar Reef the other night… that Caribbean place on the Lower East Side… you know 
  it—” 
     “Who were you with?” she interrupts. 
     Jeanette. “Evan McGlinn.” 
     “Oh.” She nods, silently relieved, believing me. 
     ..Anyway…” I sigh, continuing, “I saw some guy in the men’s room… a total… Wall 
  Street guy… wearing a one-button viscose, wool and nylon suit by… Luciano Soprani… 
  a cotton shirt by… Gitman Brothers… a silk tie by Ermenegildo Zegna and, I mean, I 
  recognized the guy, a broker, named Eldridge… I’ve seen him at Harry’s and Au Bar 
  and DuPlex and Alex Goes to Camp… all the places, but… when I went in after him, I 
  saw… he was writing… something on the wall above the… urinal he was standing at.” I 
  pause, take a swallow of her beer. “When he saw me come in… he stopped writing… 
  put away the Mont Blanc pen… he zipped up his pants… said Hello, Henderson to me… 
  checked his hair in the mirror, coughed… like he was nervous or… something and… left 
  the room.” I pause again, another swallow. “Anyway… I went over to use the… urinal 
  and… I leaned over… to read what he… wrote.” Shuddering, I slowly wipe my forehead 
  with a napkin. 
     “Which was?” Jean asks cautiously. 
     I close my eyes, three words fall from my mouth, these lips: “ ’Kill… All… Yuppies.’” 
     She doesn’t say anything. 
     To break the uncomfortable silence that follows, I mention all I can come up with, 
  which is, “Did you know that Ted Bundy’s first dog, a collie, was named Lassie?” Pause. 
  “Had you heard this?” 
     Jean looks at her dish as if it’s confusing her, then back up at me. “Who’s… Ted 
  Bundy?” 
     “Forget it,” I sigh. 
     “Listen, Patrick. We need to talk about something;” she says. “Or at least I need to talk 
  about something.” 
     …where there was nature and earth, life and water, I saw a desert landscape that was 
  unending, resembling some sort of crater, so devoid of reason and light and spirit that 
  the mind could not grasp it on any sort of conscious level and if you came close the 
  mind would reel backward, unable to take it in. It was a vision so clear and real and vital 
  to me that in its purity it was almost abstract. This was what I could understand, this was 
  how I lived my life, what I constructed my movement around, how I dealt with the 
  tangible. This was the geography around which my reality revolved: it did not occur to 
  me, ever, that people were good or that a man was capable of change or that the world 
  could be a better place through one’s taking pleasure in a feeling or a look or a gesture, 
  
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  of receiving another person’s love or kindness. Nothing was affirmative, the term 
  “generosity of spirit” applied to nothing, was a cliché, was some kind of bad joke. Sex is 
  mathematics. Individuality no longer an issue. What does intelligence signify? Define 
  reason. Desire—meaningless. Intellect is not a cure. Justice is dead. Fear, 
  recrimination, innocence, sympathy, guilt, waste, failure, grief, were things, emotions, 
  that no one really felt anymore. Reflection is useless, the world is senseless. Evil is its 
  only permanence. God is not alive. Love cannot be trusted. Surface, surface, surface 
  was all that anyone found meaning in… this was civilization as I saw it, colossal and 
  jagged… 
     “…and I don’t remember who it was you were talking to… it doesn’t matter. What does 
  is that you were very forceful, yet… very sweet and, I guess, I knew then that…” She 
  places her spoon down, but I’m not watching her. I’m looking out at the taxis moving up 
  Broadway, yet they can’t stop things from unraveling, because Jean says the following: 
  “A lot of people seem to have…” She stops, continues hesitantly, “lost touch with life 
  and I don’t want to be among them.” After the waiter clears her dish, she adds, “I don’t 
  want to get… bruised.” 
     I think I’m nodding. 
     “I’ve learned what it’s like to be alone and… I think I’m in love with you.” She says this 
  last part quickly, forcing it out. 
     Almost superstitiously, I turn toward her, sipping an Evian water, then, without 
  thinking, say, smiling, “I love someone else.” 
     As if this film had speeded up she laughs immediately, looks quickly away, down, 
  embarrassed. “I’m, well, sorry… gosh.” 
     “But…” I add quietly, “you shouldn’t be… afraid.” 
     She looks back up at me, swollen with hope. 
     “Something can be done about it,” I say. Then, not knowing why I’d said that, I modify 
  the statement, telling her straight on,”Maybe something can’t. I don’t know. I’ve thrown 
  away a lot of time to be with you, so it’s not like I don’t care.” 
     She nods mutely. 
     “You should never mistake affection for… passion,” I warn her. “It can be… not good. 
  It can.... get you into, well, trouble.” 
     She’s not saying anything and I can suddenly sense her sadness, flat and calm, like a 
  daydream. “What are you trying to say?” she asks lamely, blushing. 
     “Nothing. I’m just… letting you know that… appearances can be deceiving.” 
     She stares at the Times stacked in heavy folds on the table. A breeze barely causes it 
  to flutter. “Why… are you telling me this?” 
     Tactfully, almost touching her hand but stopping myself, I tell her, “I just want to avoid 
  any future misconnections.” A hardbody walks by. I notice her, then look back at Jean. 
  “Oh come on, don’t look that way. You have nothing to be ashamed of.” 
     “I’m not,” she says, trying to act casual. “I just want to know if you’re disappointed in 
  me for admitting this.” 
     How could she ever understand that there isn’t any way I could be disappointed since 
  I no longer find anything worth looking forward to? 
     “You don’t know much about me, do you?” I ask teasingly. 
     “I know enough,” she says, her initial response, but then she shakes her head. “Oh 
  let’s just drop this. I made a mistake. I’m sorry.” In the next instant she changes her 
  mind. “I want to know more,” she says, gravely. 
     I consider this before asking, “Are you sure?” 
     “Patrick,” she says breathlessly, “I know my life would be… much emptier without 
  you… in it.” 
     I consider this too, nodding thoughtfully. 
     “And I just can’t…” She stops, frustrated. “I can’t pretend these feelings don’t exist, 
  can I?” 
     “Shhh…” 
     …there is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real 
  
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  me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can 
  shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our 
  lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there. It is hard for me to make 
  sense on any given level. Myself is fabricated, an aberration. I am a noncontingent 
  human being. My personality is sketchy and unformed, my heartlessness goes deep 
  and is persistent. My conscience, my pity, my hopes disappeared a long time ago 
  (probably at Harvard) if they ever did exist. There are no more barriers to cross. All I 
  have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the 
  mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it, I have now surpassed. I still, 
  though, hold on to one single bleak truth: no one is safe, nothing is redeemed. Yet I am 
  blameless. Each model of human behavior must be assumed to have some validity. Is 
  evil something you are? Or is it something you do? My pain is constant and sharp and I 
  do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. 
  I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this—and I have, countless times, in 
  just about every act I’ve committed—and coming face-to-face with these truths, there is 
  no catharsis. I gain no deeper knowledge about myself, no new understanding can be 
  extracted from my telling. There has been no reason for me to tell you any of this. This 
  confession has meant nothing …. 
     I’m asking Jean, “How many people in this world are like me?” 
     She pauses, carefully answers, “I don’t… think anyone?” She’s guessing. 
     “Let me rephrase the ques— Wait, how does my hair look?” I ask, interrupting myself. 
     “Uh, fine.” 
     “Okay. Let me rephrase the question.” I take a sip of her dry beer. “Okay. Why do you 
  like me?” I ask. 
     She asks back, “Why?” 
     “Yes,” I say, “Why.” 
     “Well…” A drop of beer has fallen onto my Polo shirt. She hands me her napkin. A 
  practical gesture that touches me. “You’re… concerned with others,” she says 
  tentatively. “That’s a very rare thing in what”—she stops again—“is a… I guess, a 
  hedonistic world. This is… Patrick, you’re embarrassing me.” She shakes her head, 
  closing her eyes. 
     “Go on,” I urge. “Please. I want to know.” 
     “You’re sweet.” She rolls her eyes up. “Sweetness is… sexy… I don’t know. But so 
  is… mystery.” Silence. “And I think… mystery… you’re mysterious.” Silence, followed by 
  a sigh. “And you’re… considerate.” She realizes something, no longer scared, stares at 
  me straight on. “And I think shy men are romantic.” 
     “How many people in this world are like me?” I ask again. “Do I really appear like 
  that?” 
     “Patrick,” she says. “I wouldn’t lie.” 
     “No, of course you wouldn’t… but I think that…” My turn to sigh, contemplatively. “I 
  think… you know how they say no two snowflakes are ever alike?” 
     She nods. 
     “Well, I don’t think that’s true. I think a lot of snowflakes are alike… and I think a lot of 
  people are alike too.” 
     She nods again, though I can tell she’s very confused. 
     “Appearances can be deceiving,” I admit carefully. 
     “No,” she says, shaking her head, sure of herself for the first time. “I don’t think they 
  are deceiving. They’re not.” 
     “Sometimes, Jean,” I explain, “the lines separating appearance—what you see—and 
  reality—what you don’t—become, well, blurred.” 
     “That’s not true,” she insists. “‘That’s simply not true.” 
     “Really?” I ask, smiling. 
     “I didn’t use to think so,” she says. “Maybe ten years ago I didn’t. But I do now.” 
     “What do you mean?” I ask, interested. “You used to?” 
     …a flood of reality. I get an odd feeling that this is a crucial moment in my life and I’m 
  
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  startled by the suddenness of what I guess passes for an epiphany. There is nothing of 
  value I can offer her. For the first time I see Jean as uninhibited; she seems stronger, 
  less controllable, wanting to take me into a new and unfamiliar land—the dreaded 
  uncertainty of a totally different world. I sense she wants to rearrange my life in a 
  significant way—her eyes tell me this and though I see truth in them, I also know that 
  one day, sometime very soon, she too will be locked in the rhythm of my insanity. All I 
  have to do is keep silent about this and not bring it up—yet she weakens me, it’s almost 
  as if she’s making the decision about who I am, and in my own stubborn, willful way I 
  can admit to feeling a pang, something tightening inside, and before I can stop it I find 
  myself almost dazzled and moved that I might have the capacity to accept, though not 
  return, her love. I wonder if even now, right here in Nowheres, she can see the 
  darkening clouds behind my eyes lifting. And though the coldness I have always felt 
  leaves me, the numbness doesn’t and probably never will. This relationship will probably 
  lead to nothing… this didn’t change anything. I imagine her smelling clean, like tea… 
     “Patrick… talk to me… don’t be so upset,” she is saying. “I think it’s… time for me to… 
  take a good look… at the world I’ve created,” I choke, tearfully, finding myself admitting 
  to her, “I came upon… a half gram of cocaine… in my armoire last… night.” I’m 
  squeezing my hands together, forming one large fist, all knuckles white. 
     “What did you do with it?” she asks. 
     I place one hand on the table. She takes it. 
     “I threw it away. I threw it all away. I wanted to do it,” I gasp, “but I threw it away.” 
     She squeezes my hand tightly. “Patrick?” she asks, moving her hand up until it’s 
  gripping my elbow. When I find the strength to look back at her, it strikes me how 
  useless, boring, physically beautiful she really is, and the question Why not end up with 
  her? floats into my line of vision. An answer: she has a better body than most other girls 
  I know. Another one: everyone is interchangeable anyway. One more: it doesn’t really 
  matter. She sits before me, sullen but hopeful, characterless, about to dissolve into 
  tears. I squeeze her hand back, moved, no, touched by her ignorance of evil. She has 
  one more test to pass. 
     “Do you own a briefcase?” I ask her, swallowing. 
     “No,” she says. “I don’t.” 
     “Evelyn carries a briefcase,” I mention. 
     “She does…?” Jean asks. 
     “And what about a Filofax?” 
     “A small one,” she admits. 
     “Designer?” I ask suspiciously. 
     “No.” 
     I sigh, then take her hand, small and hard, in mine. 
     …and in the southern deserts of Sudan the heat rises in airless waves, thousands 
  upon thousands of men, women, children, roam throughout the vast bushland, 
  desperately seeking food. Ravaged and starving, leaving a trail of dead, emaciated 
  bodies, they eat weeds and leaves and… lily pads, stumbling from village to village, 
  dying slowly, inexorably; a gray morning in the miserable desert, grit flies through the sir, 
  a child with a face like a black moon lies in the sand, scratching at his throat, cones of 
  dust rising, flying across land like whirling tops, no one can see the sun, the child is 
  covered with sand, almost dead, eyes unblinking, grateful (stop and imagine for an 
  instant a world where someone is grateful for something) none of the haggard pay 
  attention as they file by, dazed and in pain (nothere is one who pays attention, who 
  notices the boy’s agony and smiles, as if holding a secret), the boy opens and closes his 
  cracked, chapped mouth soundlessly, there is a school bus in the distance somewhere 
  and somewhere else, above that, in space, a spirit rises, a door opens, it asks “Why? 
  ”—a home for the dead, an infinity, it hangs in a void, time limps by, love and sadness 
  rush through the boy 
     “Okay.” 
     I am dimly aware of a phone ringing somewhere. In the café on Columbus, countless 
  
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  numbers, hundreds of people, maybe thousands, have walked by our table during my 
  silence. “Patrick,” Jean says. Someone with a baby stroller stops at the corner and 
  purchases a Dove Bar. The baby stares at Jean and me. We stare back. It’s really weird 
  and I’m experiencing a spontaneous kind of internal sensation, I feel I’m moving toward 
  as well as away from something, and anything is possible. 
  Aspen 
     It is four days before Christmas, at two in the afternoon. I’m sitting in the back of a 
  pitch-black limousine parked in front of a nondescript, brownstone off Fifth Avenue trying 
  to read an article about Donald Trump in the new issue of Fame magazine. Jeanette 
  wants me to come in with her but I say “Forget it.” She has a black eye from last night 
  since I had to coerce her over dinner at Il Marlibro to even consider doing this; then, 
  after a more forceful discussion at my apartment, she consented. Jeanette’s dilemma 
  lies outside my definition of guilt, and I had told her, truthfully, over dinner that it was 
  very hard for me to express concern for her that I don’t feel. During the entire drive from 
  my place on the Upper West Side, she’s been sobbing. The only clear, identifiable 
  emotion coming from her is desperation and maybe longing, and though I successfully 
  ignore her for most of the ride I finally have to tell her, “Listen, I’ve already taken two 
  Xanax this morning so, uh, you’re incapable of, like, upsetting me.” Now, as she 
  stumbles out of the limo onto the frozen pavement, I mumble, “It’s for the best,” and, 
  offering consolation, “Don’t take it so seriously.” The driver, whose name I’ve forgotten, 
  leads her into the brownstone and she gives a last, regretful look back. I sigh and wave 
  her off. She’s still wearing, from last night, a leopard-print cotton balmacaan coat with 
  wool challis lining over a wool crepe shirtless dress by Bill Bless. Bigfoot was 
  interviewed on The Patty Winters Show this morning and to my shock I found him 
  surprisingly articulate and charming. The glass I’m drinking Absolut vodka from is 
  Finnish. I’m very suntanned compared to Jeanette. 
     The driver comes out of the building, gives me thumbs-up, carefully pulls the limousine 
  away from the curb and begins the trek to JFK airport, where my flight to Aspen leaves 
  in ninety minutes. When I get back, in January, Jeanette will be out of the country. I 
  relight a cigar, search for an ashtray. There’s a church on the corner of this street. Who 
  cares? This is, I think, the fifth child I’ve had aborted, the third I haven’t aborted myself 
  (a useless statistic, I admit). The wind outside the limousine is brisk and cold and the 
  rain hits the darkened windows in rhythmic waves, mimicking Jeanette’s probable 
  weeping in the operating room, dizzy from the anesthesia, thinking about a memory 
  from her past, a moment where the world was perfect. I resist the impulse to start 
  cackling hysterically. 
     At the airport I instruct the chauffeur to stop by F.A.O. Schwarz before picking 
  Jeanette up and purchase the following: a doll, a rattle, a teething ring, a white Gund 
  polar bear, and have them sitting in the backseat for her, unwrapped. Jeanette should 
  be okay—she has her whole life in front of her (that is, if she doesn’t run into me). 
  Besides, this girl’s favorite movie is Pretty in Pink and she thinks Sting is cool, so what is 
  happening to her is, like, not totally undeserved and one shouldn’t feel bad for her. This 
  is no time for the innocent. 
  Valentine’s Day 
     Tuesday morning and I’m standing by my desk in the living room on the phone with 
  my lawyer, alternately keeping my eye on The Patty Winters Show and the maid as she 
  waxes the floor, wipes blood smears off the walls, throws away gore-soaked 
  newspapers without a word. Faintly it hits me that she too is lost in a world of shit, 
  completely drowning in it, and this somehow sets off my remembering that the piano 
  tuner will be stopping by this afternoon and that I should leave a note with the doorman 
  to let him in. Not that the Yamaha has ever been played; it’s just that one of the girls fell 
  
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  against it and some strings (which I used later) were pulled out, snapped or something. 
  Into the phone I’m saying, “I need more tax breaks.” Patty Winters is on the TV screen 
  asking a child, eight or nine, “But isn’t that just another term for an orgy?” The timer 
  buzzes on the microwave. I’m heating up a soufflé. 
     There’s no use in denying it: this has been a bad week. I’ve started drinking my own 
  urine. I laugh spontaneously at nothing. Sometimes I sleep under my futon. I’m flossing 
  my teeth constantly until my gums are aching and my mouth tastes like blood. Before 
  dinner last night at 1500 with Reed Goodrich and Jason Rust I was almost caught at a 
  Federal Express in Times Square trying to send the mother of one of the girls I killed last 
  week what might be a dried-up, brown heart. And to Evelyn I successfully Federal 
  Expressed, through the office, a small box of flies along with a note, typed by Jean, 
  saying that I never, ever wanted to see her face again and, though she doesn’t really 
  need one, to go on a fucking diet. But there are also things that the average person 
  would think are nice that I’ve done to celebrate the holiday, items I’ve bought Jean and 
  had delivered to her apartment this morning: Castellini cotton napkins from Bendel’s, a 
  wicker chair from Jenny B. Goode, a taffeta table throw from Barney’s, a vintage chain-
  mail-vent purse and a vintage sterling silver dresser set from Macy’s, a white pine 
  whatnot from Conran’s, an Edwardian nine-carat-gold “gate” bracelet from Bergdorfs 
  and hundreds upon hundreds of pink and white roses. 
     The office. Lyrics to Madonna songs keep intruding, bursting into my head, 
  announcing themselves in tiring, familiar ways, and I stare into space, my eyes lazily lit 
  up while I try to forget about the day looming before me, but then a phrase that fills me 
  with a nameless dread keeps interrupting the Madonna songs—isolated farmhouse 
  constantly returns to me, over and over. Someone I’ve been avoiding for the last year, a 
  nerd from Fortune who wants to write an article about me, calls again this morning and I 
  end up calling the reporter back to arrange an interview. Craig McDermott is having 
  some kind of fax frenzy and won’t take any of my phone calls, preferring to 
  communicate by fax only. The Post this morning says the remains of three bodies that 
  disappeared aboard a yacht last March have been recovered, frozen in ice, hacked up 
  and bloated, in the East River; some maniac is going around the city poisoning one-liter 
  bottles of Evian water, seventeen dead already; talk of zombies, the public mood, 
  increasing randomness, vast chasms of misunderstanding. 
     And, for the sake of form, Tim Price resurfaces, or at least I’m pretty sure he does. 
  While I’m at my desk simultaneously crossing out the days in my calendar that have 
  already passed and reading a new best seller about once management called Why It 
  Works to Be a Jerk, Jean buzzes in, announcing that Tim Price wants to talk, and 
  fearfully I say, “Send him… in.” Price strolls into the office wearing a wool suit by Canali 
  Milano, a cotton shirt by Ike Behar, a silk tie by Bill Bless, cap-toed leather lace-ups from 
  Brooks Brothers. I’m pretending to be on the phone. He sits down, across from me, on 
  the other side of the Palazzetti glass-top desk. There’s a smudge on his forehead or at 
  least that’s what I think I see. Aside from that he looks remarkably fit. Our conversation 
  probably resembles something like this but is actually briefer. 
     “Price,” I say, shaking his hand. “Where have you been?” 
     “Oh, just making the rounds.” He smiles. “But hey, I’m back.” 
     “Far out.” I shrug, confused. “How was… it?” 
     “It was…surprising.” He shrugs too. “It was… depressing.” 
     “I thought I saw you in Aspen,” I murmur. 
     “Hey, how are you, Bateman?” he asks. 
     “I’m okay,” I tell him, swallowing. “Just… existing.” 
     “And Evelyn?” he asks. “How is she?” 
     “Well, we broke up.” I smile. 
     ‘“That’s too bad.” He takes this in, remembers something. “Courtney?” 
     “She married Luis.” 
     “Grassgreen?” 
     “No. Carruthers.” 
  
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     He takes this in too. “Do you have her number?” 
     While writing it down for him, I mention, “You’ve been gone, like, forever, Tim. What’s 
  the story?” I ask, again noticing the smudge on his forehead, though I get the feeling 
  that if I asked someone else if it was truly there, he (or she) would just say no. 
     He stands up, takes the card. “I’ve been back. You just probably missed me. Lost 
  track. Because of the move.” He pauses, teasingly. “I’m working for Robinson. Right-
  hand man, you know?” 
     “Almond?” I ask, offering one, a futile effort on my part to mask my dismay at his 
  smugness. 
     He pats my back, says, “You’re a madman, Batsman. An animal. A total animal.” 
     “I can’t disagree.” I laugh weakly, walking him to the door. As he leaves I’m wondering 
  and not wondering what happens in the world of Tim Price, which is really the world of 
  most of us: big ideas, guy stuff, boy meets the world, boy gets it. 
  Bum on Fifth 
     I’m coming back from Central Park where, near the children’s zoo, close to the spot I 
  murdered the McCaffrey boy, I fed portions of Ursula’s brain to passing dogs. Walking 
  down Fifth Avenue around four o’clock in the afternoon, everyone on the street looks 
  sad, the air is full of decay, bodies lie on the cold pavement, miles of it, some are 
  moving, most are not. History is sinking and only a very few seem dimly aware that 
  things are getting bad. Airplanes fly low across the city, crossing in front of the sun. 
  Winds shoot up Fifth, then funnel down Fifty-seventh Street. Flocks of pigeons rise in 
  slow motion and burst up against the sky. The smell of burning chestnuts mixes with 
  carbon monoxide fumes. I notice the skyline has changed only recently. I look up, 
  admiringly, at Trump Tower, tall, proudly gleaming in the late afternoon sunlight. In front 
  of it two smartass nigger teenagers are ripping off tourists at three-card monte and I 
  have to fight the impulse to blow them away. 
     A bum I blinded one spring sits cross-legged on a ratty blanket near the corner of 
  Fifty-fifth Street. Moving closer I see the beggar’s scarred face and then the sign he’s 
  holding beneath it, which reads VIETNAM VET BLINDED IN VIETNAM. PLEASE HELP 
  ME. WE ARE HUNGRY AND HOMELESS. We? Then I notice the dog, who is already 
  eyeing me suspiciously and, as I approach its master, gets up, growling, and when I’m 
  standing over the bum, it finally barks, wagging its tail frantically. I kneel down, 
  threateningly raise a hand at it. The dog backs off, its paws askew. 
     I’ve pulled out my wallet, pretending to drop a dollar into his empty coffee can, but 
  then realize: Why bother pretending? No one’s watching anyway, definitely not him. I 
  retract the dollar, leaning in. He senses my presence and stops shaking the can. The 
  sunglasses he wears don’t even begin to cover the wounds I inflicted. His nose is so 
  junked up I can’t imagine a person breathing through it. 
     “You never were in Vietnam,” I whisper in his ear. 
     After a silence, during which he pisses in his pants, the dog whimpering, he croaks, 
  “Please… don’t hurt me.” 
     “Why would I waste my time?” I mutter, disgusted. 
     I move away from the bum, noticing, instead, a little girl smoking a cigarette, begging 
  for change outside Trump Tower. “Shoo,” I say. She says “Shoo” back. On The Patty 
  Winters Show this morning a Cheerio sat in a very small chair and was interviewed for 
  close to an hour. Later this afternoon, a woman wearing a silver fox and mink coat has 
  her face slashed in front of the Stanhope by an enraged fur activist. But now, still staring 
  at the sightless bum from across the street, I buy a Dove Bar, a coconut one, in which I 
  find part of a bone. 
  New Club 
  
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     Thursday night I run into Harold Carnes at a party for a new club called World’s End 
  that opens in a space where Petty’s used to be on the Upper East Side. I’m with Nina 
  Goodrich and Jean in a booth and Harold’s standing at the bar drinking champagne. I’m 
  drunk enough to finally confront him about the message I left on his machine. Excused 
  from the booth, I make my way to the other side of the bar, realizing that I need a martini 
  to fortify myself before discussing this with Cannes (it has been a very unstable week for 
  me—I found myself sobbing during an episode of Alf on Monday). Nervously, I 
  approach. Harold is wearing a wool suit by Gieves & Hawkes, a silk twill tie, cotton shirt, 
  shoes by Paul Stuart; he looks heavier than I remember. “Face it,” he’s telling Truman 
  Drake, “the Japanese will own most of this country by the end of the ‘90s.” 
     Relieved that Harold is, as usual, still dispensing valuable and new information, with 
  the addition of a faint but unmistakable trace of, god forbid, an English accent, I find 
  myself brazen enough to blurt out, “Shut up, Carnes, they will not.” I down the martini, 
  Stoli, while Cannes, looking quite taken aback, stricken almost, turns around to face me, 
  and his bloated head breaks out into an uncertain smile. Someone behind us is saying, 
  “But look what happened to Gekko…” 
     Truman Drake pats Harold on the back and asks me, “Is there one suspender width 
  that’s more, well, appropriate than others?” Irritably I push dim into the crowd and he 
  disappears. 
     “So Harold,” I say, “did you get my message?” 
     Carnes seems confused at first and, while lighting a cigarette, finally laughs. “Jesus, 
  Davis. Yes, that was hila rious. That was you, was it?” 
     “Yes, naturally.” I’m blinking, muttering to myself, really, waving his cigarette smoke 
  away from my face. 
     “Bateman killing Owen and the escort girl?” He keeps chuckling. “Oh that’s bloody 
  marvelous. Really key, as they say at the Groucho Club. Really key.” Then, looking 
  dismayed, he adds, “It was a rather long message, no?” 
     I’m smiling idiotically and then I say, “But what exactly do you mean, Harold?” Secretly 
  thinking to myself that this fat bastard couldn’t possibly have gotten into the fucking 
  Groucho Club, and even if he had, to admit it in such a fashion obliterates the fact that 
  his entrance was accepted. 
     “Why, the message you left.” Carnes is already looking around the club, waving to 
  various people and bimbos. “By the way, Davis, how is Cynthia?” He accepts a glass of 
  champagne from a passing waiter. “You’re still seeing her, right?” 
     “But wait, Harold. What-do-you-mean?” I repeat emphatically. 
     He’s already bored, neither concerned nor listening, and excusing himself, says, 
  “Nothing. Good to see you. Oh my, is that Edward Towers?” 
     I crane my neck to look, then turn back to Harold. “No,” I say. “Carnes? Wait.” 
     “Davis,” he sighs, as if patiently trying to explain something to a child, “I am not one to 
  bad-mouth anyone, your joke was amusing. But come on, man, you had one fatal flaw: 
  Bateman’s such a bloody ass-kisser, such a brown-nosing goody-goody, that I couldn’t 
  fully appreciate it. Otherwise it was amusing. Now let’s have lunch, or we’ll have dinner 
  at 150 Wooster or something with McDermott or Preston. A real raver.” He tries to move 
  on. 
     “Ray-vah? Ray-vah? Did you say ray-vah, Carnes?” I’m wide-eyed, feeling wired even 
  though I haven’t done any drugs. “What are youtalking about? Bateman is what?” 
     “Oh good god, man. Why else would Evelyn Richards dump him? You know, really. 
  He could barelypick up an escort girl, let alone… what was it you said he did to her?” 
  Harold is still looking distractedly around the club and he waves to another couple, 
  raising his champagne glass. “Oh yes, ‘chop her up.’” He starts laughing again, though 
  this time it sounds polite. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I must really.” 
     “Wait. Stop,” I shout, looking up into Carnes’ face, making sure he’s listening. “You 
  don’t seem to understand. You’re not really comprehending any of this.I killed him. I did 
  it, Carnes. I chopped Owen’s fucking head off. I tortured dozens of girls. That whole 
  message I left on your machine was true.” I’m drained, not appearing calm, wondering 
  
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  why this doesn’t feel like a blessing to me. 
     “Excuse me,” he says, trying to ignore my outburst. “I really must be going.” 
     “No!” I shout. “Now, Carnes. Listen to me. Listen very, very carefully. I-killed-Paul-
  Owen-and-I-liked-it. I can’t make myself any clearer.” My stress causes me to choke on 
  the words. 
     “But that’s simply not possible,” he says, brushing me off. “And I’m not finding this 
  amusing anymore.” 
     “It never was supposed to be!” I bellow, and then, “Why isn’t it possible?” 
     “It’s just not,” he says, eyeing me worriedly. 
     “Why not?” I shout again over the music, though there’s really no need to, adding “You 
  stupid bastard.” 
     He stares at me as if we are both underwater and shouts back, very clearly over the 
  din of the club, “Because… I had… dinner… with Paul Owen… twice… in London… just 
  ten days ago.” 
     After we stare at each other for what seems like a minute, I finally have the nerve to 
  say something back to him but my voice lacks any authority and I’m not sure if I believe 
  myself when I tell him, simply, “No, you… didn’t.” But it comes out a question, not a 
  statement. 
     “Now, Donaldson,” Carnes says, removing my hand from his arm. “If you’ll excuse 
  me.” 
     “Oh you’re excused,” I sneer. Then I make my way back to our booth where John 
  Edmonton and Peter Beavers are now sitting and I numb myself with a Halcion before 
  taking Jean home, back to my place. Jean is wearing something by Oscar de la Renta. 
  Nina Goodrich was wearing a sequined dress by Matsuda and refused to give me her 
  number, even though Jean was in the women’s room downstairs. 
  Taxi Driver 
     Another broken scene in what passes for my life occurs on Wednesday, seemingly 
  pointing to someone’s fault, though whose I can’t be sure. Stuck in gridlock in a cab 
  heading downtown toward Wall Street after a power breakfast at the Regency with Peter 
  Russell, who used to be my dealer before he got a real job, and Eddie Lambert. Russell 
  was wearing a two-button wool sport coat by Redaelli, a cotton shirt by Hackert, a silk tie 
  by Richel, pleated wool trousers by Krizia Uomo and leather Cole-Haan shoes. The 
  Patty Winters Show this morning was about girls in the fourth grade who trade sex for 
  crack and I almost canceled with Lambert and Russell to catch it. Russell ordered for 
  me while I was in the lobby on the phone. It was, unfortunately, a high-fat, high-sodium 
  breakfast and before I could comprehend what was happening, plates of herbed waffles 
  with ham in Madeira cream sauce, grilled sausages and sour cream coffee cake were 
  set at our table and I had to ask the waiter for a pot of decaf herbal tea, a plate of sliced 
  mango with blueberries and a bottle of Evian. In the early morning light that poured 
  through the windows at the Regency I watched as our waiter shaved black truffles 
  gracefully over Lambert’s steaming eggs. Overcome, I broke down and demanded to 
  have the black truffles shaved over my mango slices. Nothing much happened during 
  the breakfast. I had to make another phone call, and when I returned to our table I 
  noticed that a mango slice was missing, but I didn’t accuse anyone. I had other things 
  on my mind: how to help America’s schools, the trust gap, desk sets, a new era of 
  possibilities and what’s in it for me, getting tickets to see Sting in The Threepenny 
  Opera, which just opened on Broadway, how to take more and remember less… 
     In the cab I’m wearing a double-breasted cashmere and wool overcoat by Studio 
  000.1 from Ferré, a wool suit with pleated trousers by DeRigueur from Schoeneman, a 
  silk tie by Givenchy Gentleman, socks by Interwoven, shoes by Armani, reading the 
  Wall Street Journal with my Ray-Ban sunglasses on and listening to a Walkman with a 
  Bix Beiderbecke tape playing in it. I put down the Journal, pick up the Post, just to check 
  Page Six. At the light on Seventh and Thirty-fourth, in the cab next to this one sits, I 
  
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  think, Kevin Gladwin, wearing a suit by Ralph Lauren. I lower my sunglasses. Kevin 
  looks up from the new issue of Money magazine and spots me looking over at him in a 
  curious way before his cab moves forward in the traffic. The cab I’m in suddenly breaks 
  free of the gridlock and turns right on Twenty-seventh, taking the West Side Highway 
  down to Wall Street. I put the paper down, concentrate on the music and the weather, 
  how unseasonably cool it is, and I’m just beginning to notice the way the cabdriver looks 
  at me in the rearview mirror. A suspicious, hungry expression keeps changing the 
  features on his face—a mass of clogged pores, ingrown hairs. I sigh, expecting this, 
  ignoring him. Open the hood of a car and it will tell you something about the people who 
  designed it, is just one of many phrases I’m tortured by. 
     But the driver knocks on the plexiglass divider, motions to me. While taking the 
  Walkman off I notice he’s locked all the doors—I see the locks lower in a flash, hear the 
  hollow clicking noise, the moment I turn the volume off. The cab is speeding faster than 
  it should down the highway, in the far right lane. “Yes?” I ask irritably. “What?” 
     “Hey, don’t I know you?” he asks in a thick, barely penetrable accent that could easily 
  be either New Jersey or Mediterranean. 
     “No.” I start putting the Walkman back on. 
     “You look familiar,” he says. “What’s your name?” 
     “No I don’t. You don’t either,” I say, then, an afterthought, “Chris Hagen.” 
     “Come on.” He’s smiling like there’s something wrong. “I know who you are.” 
     “I’m in a movie. I’m an actor,” I tell him. “A model.” 
     “Nah, that’s not it,” he says grimly. 
     “Well”—I lean over, checking his name—“Abdullah, do you have a membership at 
  M.K.?” 
     He doesn’t answer. I reopen the Post to a photo of the mayor dressed as a pineapple, 
  then close it again and rewind the tape in my Walkman. I start counting to myself—one, 
  two, three, four—my eyes focus in on the meter. Why didn’t I carry a gun with me this 
  morning? Because I didn’t think I had to. The only weapon on me is a used knife from 
  last night. 
     “No,” he says again. “I’ve seen your face somewhere.” 
     Finally, exasperated, I ask, trying to appear casual, “You have? Really? Interesting. 
  Just watch the road, Abdullah.” 
     There’s a long, scary pause while he stares at me in the rearview mirror and the grim 
  smile fades. His face is blank. He says, “I know. Man, I know who you are,” and he’s 
  nodding, his mouth drawn tight. The radio that was tuned into the news is shut off. 
     Buildings pass by in a gray-red blur, the cab passes other cabs, the sky changes color 
  from blue to purple to black back to blue. At another light—a red one he races straight 
  through—we pass, on the other side of the West Side Highway, a new D’Agostino’s on 
  the corner where Mars used to be and it moves me to tears, almost, because it’s 
  something that’s identifiable and I get as nostalgic for the market (even though it’s not 
  one I will ever shop at) as I have about anything and I almost interrupt the driver, tell him 
  to pull over, have him let me out, let him keep the change from a ten—no, a twenty—but 
  I can’t move because he’s driving too fast and something intervenes, something 
  unthinkable and ludicrous, and I hear him say it, maybe. “You’re the guy who kill Solly.” 
  His face is locked into a determined grimace. As with everything else, the following 
  happens very quickly, though it feels like an endurance test. 
     I swallow, lower my sunglasses and tell him to slow down before asking, “Who, may I 
  ask, is Sally?” 
     “Man, your face is on a wanted poster downtown,” he says, unflinching. 
     “I think I would like to stop here,” I manage to croak out. 
     “You’re the guy, right?” He’s looking at me like I’m some kind of viper. 
     Another cab, its light on, empty, cruises past ours, going at least eighty. I’m not saying 
  anything, just shaking my head. “I am going to take”—I swallow, trembling, open my 
  leather datebook, pull out a Mount Blanc pen from my Bottega Veneta briefcase—“your 
  license number down...” 
  
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     “You kill Solly,” he says, definitely recognizing me from somewhere, cutting another 
  denial on my part by growling, “You son-of-a-bitch.” 
     Near the docks downtown he swerves off the highway and races the cab toward the 
  end of a deserted parking area and it hits me somewhere, now, this moment, when he 
  drives into and then over a dilapidated, rust-covered aluminum fence, heading toward 
  water, that all I have to do is put the Walkman on, blot out the sound of the cabdriver, 
  but my hands are twisted into paralyzed fists that I can’t unclench, held captive in the 
  cab as it hurtles toward a destination only the cabdriver, who is obviously deranged, 
  knows. The windows are rolled down partially and I can feel the cool morning air drying 
  the mousse on my scalp. I feel naked, suddenly tiny. My mouth tastes metallic, then it 
  gets worse. My vision: a winter road. But I’m left with one comforting thought: I am 
  rich—millions are not. 
     “You’ve, like, incorrectly identified me,” I’m saying. 
     He stops the cab and turns around toward the backseat. He’s holding a gun, the make 
  of which I don’t recognize. I’m staring at him, my quizzical expression changing into 
  something else. 
     “The watch. The Rolex,” he says simply. 
     I listen, silent, squirming in my seat. 
     He repeats, “The watch.” 
     “Is this some kind of prank?” I ask. 
     “Get out,” he spits. “Get the fuck out of the car.” 
     I stare past the driver’s head, out the windshield, at gulls flying low over the dark, wavy 
  water, and opening the door I step out of the cab, cautiously, no sudden moves. It’s a 
  cold day. My breath steams, wind picks it up, swirls it around. 
     “The watch, you scumbag,” he says, leaning out the window, the gun aimed at my 
  head. 
     “Listen, I don’t know what you think you’re doing or what you’re exactly trying to 
  accomplish or what it is youthink you’re going to be able to do. I’ve never been 
  fingerprinted, I have alibis—” 
     “Shut up,” Abdullah growls, cutting me off. “Just shut your fucking mouth.” 
     “I am innocent,” I shout with utter conviction. 
     “The watch.” He cocks the gun. 
     I unhook the Rolex and, sliding it off my wrist, hand it to him. 
     “Wallet.” He motions with his gun. “Just the cash.” 
     Helplessly I take out my new gazelleskin wallet and quickly, my fingers freezing, 
  numb, hand him the cash, which amounts to only three hundred dollars since I didn’t 
  have time to stop at an automated teller before the power breakfast. Solly, I’m guessing, 
  was the cabdriver I killed during the chase scene last fall, even though that guy was 
  Armenian. I suppose I could have killed another one and I am just not recalling this 
  particular incident. 
     “What are you going to do?” I ask. “Isn’t there a reward of some kind?” 
     “No. No reward,” he mutters, shuffling the bills with one hand, the gun, still pointed at 
  me, in the other. 
     “How do you know I’m not going to call you in and get your license revoked?” I ask, 
  handing over a knife I just found in my pocket that looks as if it was dipped into a bowl of 
  blood and hair. 
     “Because you’re guilty,” he says, and then, “Get that away from me,” waving the gun 
  at the stained knife. 
     “Like you know,” I mutter angrily. 
     “The sunglasses.” He points again with the gun. 
     “How do you know I’m guilty?” I can’t believe I’m asking this patiently. 
     “Look what you’re doing, asshole,” he says. “The sunglasses.” 
     “These are expensive,” I protest, then sigh, realizing the mistake. “I mean cheap. 
  They’re very cheap. Just… Isn’t the money enough?” 
     “The sunglasses. Give them now,” he grunts. 
  
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     I take the Wayfarers off and hand them to him. Maybe I really did kill a Solly, though 
  I’m positive that any cabdrivers I’ve killed lately were not American. I probably did. There 
  probably is a wanted poster of me at… where, the taxi—the place where all the taxis 
  congregate? What’s it called? The driver tries the sunglasses on, looks at himself in the 
  rearview mirror and then takes them off. He folds the glasses and puts them in his jacket 
  pocket. 
     “You’re a dead man.” I smile grimly at him. 
     “And you’re a yuppie scumbag,” he says. 
     “You’re a dead man, Abdullah,” I repeat, no joke. “Count on it.” 
     “Yeah? And you’re a yuppie scumbag. Which is worse?” 
     He starts the cab up and pulls away from me. 
     While walking back to the highway I stop, choke back a sob, my throat tightens. “I just 
  want to…” Facing the skyline, through all the baby talk, I murmur, “keep the game 
  going.” As I stand, frozen in position, an old woman emerges behind a Threepenny 
  Opera poster at a deserted bus stop and she’s homeless and begging, hobbling over, 
  her face covered with sores that look like bugs, holding out a shaking red hand. “Oh will 
  you please go away?” I sigh. She tells me to get a haircut. 
  At Harry’s 
     On a Friday evening, a group of us have left the office early, finding ourselves at 
  Harry’s. Group consists of Tim Price, Craig McDermott, myself, Preston Goodrich, who 
  is currently dating a total hardbody named, I think, Plum—no last name, just Plum, an 
  actress/model, which I have a feeling we all think is pretty hip. We’re having a debate 
  over where to make reservations for dinner: Flamingo East, Oyster Bar, 220, 
  Counterlife, Michael’s, SpagoEast, Le Cirque. Robert Farrell is here too, the Lotus 
  Quotrek, a portable stock-quotation device, in front of him on the table, and he’s pushing 
  buttons while the latest commodities flash by. What are people wearing? McDermott has 
  on a cashmere sport coat, wool trousers, a silk tie, Hermès. Farrell is wearing a 
  cashmere vest, leather shoes, wool cavalry twill trousers, Garrick Anderson. I’m wearing 
  a wool suit by Armani, shoes by Allen-Edmonds, pocket square by Brooks Brothers. 
  Someone else has on a suit tailored by Anderson and Sheppard. Someone who looks 
  like Todd Lauder, and may in fact be, gives thumbs-up from across the room, etc., etc. 
     Questions are routinely thrown my way, among them: Are the rules for wearing a 
  pocket square the same as for a white dinner jacket? Is there any difference at all 
  between boat shoes and Top-Siders? My futon has already flattened out and it’s 
  uncomfortable to sleep on—what can I do? How does one judge the quality of compact 
  discs before buying them? What tie knot is less bulky than a Windsor? How can one 
  maintain a sweater’s elasticity? Any tips on buying a shearling coat? I am, of course, 
  thinking about other things, asking myself my own questions: Am I a fitness junkie? Man 
  vs. Conformity? Can I get a date with Cindy Crawford? Does being a Libra signify 
  anything and if so, can you prove it? Today I was obsessed with the idea of faxing 
  Sarah’s blood I drained from her vagina over to her office in the mergers division at 
  Chase Manhattan, and I didn’t work out this morning because I’d made a necklace from 
  the bones of some girl’s vertebrae and wanted to stay home and wear it around my neck 
  while I masturbated in the white marble tub in my bathroom, grunting and moaning like 
  some kind of animal. Then I watched a movie about five lesbians and ten vibrators. 
  Favorite group: Talking Heads. Drink: J&B or Absolut on the rocks. TV show: Late Night 
  with David Letterman. Soda: Diet Pepsi. Water: Evian. Sport: Baseball. 
     The conversation follows its own rolling accord—no real structure or topic or internal 
  logic or feeling; except, of course, for its own hidden, conspiratorial one. Just words, and 
  like in a movie, but one that has been transcribed improperly, most of it overlaps. I’m 
  having a sort of hard time paying attention because my automated teller has started 
  speaking to me, sometimes actually leaving weird messages on the screen, in green 
  lettering, like “Cause a Terrible Scene at Sotheby’s” or “Kill the President” or “Feed Me a 
  
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  Stray Cat,” and I was freaked out by the park bench that followed me for six blocks last 
  Monday evening and it too spoke to me. Disintegration—I’m taking it in stride. Yet the 
  only question I can muster up at first and add to the conversation is a worried “I’m not 
  going anywhere if we don’t have a reservation someplace, so do we have a reservation 
  someplace or not?” I notice that we’re all drinking dry beers. Am I the only one who 
  notices this? I’m also wearing mock-tortoiseshell glasses that are nonprescription. 
     On the TV screen in Harry’s is The Patty Winters Show, which is now on in the 
  afternoon and is up against Geraldo Rivera, Phil Donahue and Oprah Winfrey. Today’s 
  topic is Does Economic Success Equal Happiness? The answer, in Harry’s this 
  afternoon, is a roar of resounding “Definitely,” followed by much hooting, the guys all 
  cheering together in a friendly way. On the screen now are scenes from President 
  Bush’s inauguration early this year, then a speech from former President Reagan, while 
  Patty delivers a hard-to-hear commentary. Soon a tiresome debate forms over whether 
  he’s lying or not, even though we don’t, can’t, hear the words. The first and really only 
  one to complain is Price, who, though I think he’s bothered by something else, uses this 
  opportunity to vent his frustration, looks inappropriately stunned, asks, “How can he lie 
  like that? How can he pull that shit?” 
     “Oh Christ,” I moan. “What shit? Now where do we have reservations at? I mean I’m 
  not really hungry but I would like to have reservations somewhere. How about 220?” An 
  afterthought: “McDermott, how did that rate in the new Zagat’s?” 
     “No way,” Farrell complains before Craig can answer. “The coke I scored there last 
  time was cut with so much laxative I actually had to take a shit in M.K.” 
     “Yeah, yeah, life sucks and then you die.” 
     “Low point of the night,” Farrell mutters. 
     “Weren’t you with Kyria the last time you were there?” Goodrich asks. “Wasn’t that the 
  low point?” 
     “She caught me on call waiting. What could I do?” Farrell shrugs. “I apologize.” 
     “Caught him on call waiting.” McDermott nudges me, dubious. 
     “Shut up, McDermott,” Farrell says, snapping Craig’s suspenders. “Date a beggar.” 
     “You forgot something, Farrell,” Preston mentions. “McDermott is a beggar.” 
     “How’s Courtney?” Farrell asks Craig, leering. 
     “Just say no.” Someone laughs. 
     Price looks away from the television screen, then at Craig, and he tries to hide his 
  displeasure by asking me, waving at the TV, “I don’t believe it. He looks so… normal. He 
  seems so… out of it. So… un dangerous.” 
     “Bimbo, bimbo,” someone says. “Bypass, bypass.” 
     “He is totally harmless, you geek. Was totally harmless. Just like you are totally 
  harmless. But he did do all that shit and you have failed to get us into 150, so, you 
  know, what can I say?” McDermott shrugs. 
     “I just don’t get how someone, anyone, can appear that way yet be involved in such 
  total shit,” Price says, ignoring Craig, averting his eyes from Farrell. He takes out a cigar 
  and studies it sadly. To me it still looks like there’s a smudge on Price’s forehead. 
     “Because Nancy was right behind him?” Farrell guesses, looking up from the Quotrek. 
  “Because Nancy did it?” 
     “How can you be so fucking, I don’t know, cool about it?” Price, to whom something 
  really eerie has obviously happened, sounds genuinely perplexed. Rumor has it that he 
  was in rehab. 
     “Some guys are just born cool, I guess.” Farrell smiles, shrugging. 
     I’m laughing at this answer since Farrell is so obviously uncool, and Price shoots me a 
  reprimanding look, says, “And Bateman—what are you so fucking zany about?” 
     I shrug too. “I’m just a happy camper.” And I add, remembering, quoting, my brother: 
  “Rocking and a rolling.” 
     “Be all that you can be,” someone adds. 
     “Oh brother.” Price won’t let it die. “Look,” he starts, trying for a rational appraisal of 
  the situation. “He presents himself as a harmless old codger. But inside…” He stops. My 
  
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  interest picks up, flickers briefly. “But inside…” Price can’t finish the sentence, can’t add 
  the last two words he needs:doesn’t matter. I’m both disappointed and relieved for him. 
     “Inside? Yes, inside?” Craig asks, bored. “Believe it or not, we’re actually listening to 
  you. Go on.” 
     “Bateman,” Price says, relenting slightly. “Come on. What do you think?” 
     I look up, smile, don’t say anything. From somewhere—the TV?—the national anthem 
  plays. Why? I don’t know. Before a commercial, maybe. Tomorrow, on The Patty 
  Winters Show, Doormen from Nell’s: Where Are They Now? I sigh, shrug, whatever. 
     “That’s, uh, a pretty good answer.” Price says, then adds, “You’re a real nut.” 
     “That is the most valuable piece of information I’ve heard since”—I look at my new 
  gold Rolex that insurance paid for—“McDermott suggested we all drink dry beers. 
  Christ, I want a Scotch.” 
     McDermott looks up with an exaggerated grin and purrs, “Bud. Long neck. Beautiful.” 
     “Very civilized.” Goodrich nods. 
     Superstylish English guy Nigel Morrison stops by our table and he’s wearing a flower 
  in the lapel of his Paul Smith jacket. But he can’t stay long since he has to meet other 
  British friends, Ian and Lucy, at Delmonico’s. Seconds after he walks away, I hear 
  someone sneer, “Nigel. A pâté animal.” 
     Someone else: “Did you know that caveman got more fiber than we do?” 
     “Who’s handling the Fisher account?” 
     “Screw that. What about the Shepard thing? The Shepard account?” 
     “ Is that David Monrowe? What a burnout.” 
     “Oh brother.” 
     “For Christ sakes.” 
     “…lean and mean…” 
     “What’s in it for me?” 
     “The Shepard play or the Shepard account?” 
     “Rich people with cheap stereos.” 
     “No, girls who can hold their liquor.” 
     “…total lightweight…” 
     “Need a light? Nice matches.” 
     “What’s in it for me?” 
     “yup yup yup yup yup yup…” 
     I think it’s me who says, “I have to return some videotapes.” 
     Someone has already taken out a Minolta cellular phone and called for a car, and 
  then, when I’m not really listening, watching instead someone who looks remarkably like 
  Marcus Halberstam paying a check, someone asks, simply, not in relation to anything, 
  “Why? ” and though I’m very proud that I have cold blood and that I can keep my nerve 
  and do what I’m supposed to do, I catch something, then realize it: Why? and 
  automatically answering, out of the blue, for no reason, just opening my mouth, words 
  coming out, summarizing for the idiots: “Well, though I know I should have done that 
  instead of not doing it, I’m twenty-seven for Christ sakes and this is, uh, how life 
  presents itself in a bar or in a club in New York, maybe anywhere, at the end of the 
  century and how people, you know, me, behave, and this is what being Pat rick means 
  to me, I guess, so, well, yup, uh…” and this is followed by a sigh, then a slight shrug and 
  another sigh, and above one of the doors covered by red velvet drapes in Harry’s is a 
  sign and on the sign in letters that match the drapes’ color are the words THIS IS NOT 
  AN EXIT. 
   
  
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