there is an abundant, super abundant enjoyment even in one's own suffering, in causing one's own suffering and wherever man has allowed himself to be persuaded to self denial in the sense, or to self mutilation, as among the Phoenicians and ascetics, or in general, to desensualisation, decarnalisation, and contrition, to Puritanical repentance spasms, to vivisection of conscience and to Pascal like he is secretly allured and impelled forwards by his cruelty, by the dangerous thrill of cruelty.