I thought this must be a family violence murder. My only explanation was this must be one of those appalling femicides of which we have far too many in this country—even one would be too many but we have appalling rates. I thought this was some estranged man taking out his rage on his ex-partner and his children and their community. I could not conceive that what we had faced, what the world was facing, had finally come home to little New Zealand. But so it was. And it is, I think, indicative of what we so often—and Mr Mitchell across the House said we lost our innocence that day. But listening to my colleague Mr Omer, I am reminded that others had had their innocence stripped earlier. And those of us who were able to stand in our white privilege had been comforted and supported and we had not noticed, perhaps sufficiently, what was going on in the world: that it is not just large organisations, it is the lone wolf—although I'm not sure why we say "the lone wolf"; the lone rat. 