 And when you add being a believer onto that, then you have a different expectation. And many of us have an expectation of God. And I had this and nobody taught me this. I just came to this conclusion on my own that because I surrendered my life to Jesus and because I was trying to live for him and because I wanted to please him and because I was in full time missionary work, all of these things, I made these assumptions that my life would be easier now.