 And when you go through times like that as a Christian, Jesus shows up. He shows up in your life. He draws near to you. When you don't have the courage or the strength to draw near to him, he draws near to you. It might surprise you to know that as a pastor, there have been times in my life when I have been in such deep anguish, I haven't been able to pray. I've tried to pray and the words just wouldn't come out of my mouth.