 you know and it's not fair you know why we all could have bumped up against it and why do some more than others and so it's not fair that now you have to go through this journey and put in extra time and extra effort to heal and that's not fair and i'm sorry that that happened and at the same time as you embark on that journey that isn't fair and that you shouldn't have had to go down you are going to be someone who will bring so much life to others as a result of that