 And as I was reading it, I'm in this college, and I'm playing on the basketball team, and there's four girls to every guy, and there's sort of a way to live that looks like really fun. And I'm reading this New Testament that's saying, this is not God's way. And I didn't mind him forgiving my sins, but this running my life stuff was, I didn't really, you know. And so I developed this schizophrenic Christianity.