 um finally i want to say something about your animal you said you have a four-year-old puppy who's come to you and for sure you know this puppy in a sense and i don't have his name but what i am getting is that he's here to help lighten right lighten this heaviness because of course it's incredibly heavy it's like hard stuff to deal with you're dealing with and this puppy is bringing new life and helping you to know that there's so much more beyond