 Then I was reading in John, John chapter 18, and this verse just plunged into my heart where Peter is saying, No, no, you shouldn't go to the cross. And Jesus said, Shall I not drink the cup that the Father has given me? And it's a rhetorical question. The obvious answer is yes, but I don't want to drink the cup. I say, Oh, Jesus, I've been drinking this cup for so long for myself.