 And I just surrendered at that point because I just knew I was leaving this world. And I just closed my eyes. You were prepared. Or were you prepared to die? I was. I mean, I thought I was dying anyway. And they even told my husband when they were wheeling me out, the doctor said to my husband, I don't think she's going to make it because her organs are starting to shut down. So it was horrible. And I learned later on, and that's also in the book, that