 I can't explain that in totality, but I'm telling you, the longer I serve Christ, the more joyous it is to actually follow him, to serve him, to walk with him. And the things that he calls me to give up, the way in which he rebukes me and the things that I lay along the roadside along the way are joyous to me the more I do it. It ain't ever enjoyable in the moment. I'm like, man, I'm glad this is being taken from me. I'm glad the Lord's calling me to give in this way or to bend or to be gracious in these regards. But nonetheless, we