 It really did seem like I could not rely on what he would provide the next day. It was just today. And I knew that it was possible to get into remission at some point. There's different kinds of treatments, but you always know, like, getting into a flare-up is, with any amount of stress, you're going to be triggered right back into a flare-up. And I knew that any type of healing I might receive could really only be temporary, probably.