 and battling with addiction. I was the only Chinese girl in my class. And so even though I don't have a memory of someone saying to me that I stuck out too much or was too different, I just remember thinking I don't look like any other girls in my class. So constantly trying to wear my eye makeup a certain way for my eyes to look bigger or pretend like my clothes weren't from the thrift store or hand-me-downs. I was constantly trying to water down my details about my dad, my family, my church, my heritage, my background,