 I repent that I have not been joyful because you commanded me to be joyful. I'm sorry. I repent. Please forgive me. And now I am going to perform an act of joy. I don't feel it, but look at my action. And this is a step of obedience with my will to say, I am going to rejoice. I'm going to be glad before you in these terrible circumstances. I'm separated from my wife and children. I don't know the future.