 A little disconnected from God and from myself. I don't not believe God is real. I'm just mad at him. I don't not believe God is real. I just don't understand how to hear from him or know what he thinks about me. And now I don't know who I am. And so I had really lost a sense of being connected to God. And that is where this spoken word piece came from. I kind of discovered that I had to fight for my life.