 And I've never really met anyone who's really actually. And so I think I'm kind of. And so there's this life. And it's usually filled with lots of guilt and lots of duty. And you're supposed to do more of this and less of that. And then so what happens is you try hard and you fail. And you really want to be authentic. So you try really, really harder and you fail again. And then you realize, you know, forget it. You start just trying hard or not trying so hard. And then you fake it.