 to have extended time with jesus that sounds silly maybe but it was like no i need it feels very noble i need to move the laundry i need to do this for my child to do that for my child it feels too luxurious to have like an hour of time to sit with god i'm like no that's your command that's your command number one and it might not be an hour you know but but you can have nuggets you can sit down i think as a mom sometimes you have many kids it feels wrong in the middle of a busy day or even selfish yeah