 You don't have to be responsible with any of the choices that you're making, that there are safety nets and there's a meaninglessness, which has great reward financially for you. You can get really lost down that path. And so I was well into that path. But I also knew that what welfare was doing with me living there, the rules were don't work, don't save, don't get married, that that wasn't going to be enough for me to sustain the more free, creative life that I wanted.