 very very difficult task and i always say i cannot imagine doing it you know all of us here you know we can have a day where we're tired we're off a little bit and make a mistake right literally not life or death but with them it is and you know hopefully um you know some change in leadership makes things a little bit better but you know thank god it didn't uh you know it's horrible that it happened but but thank god it wasn't any worse um what is this it was