 I will, you know, that's what I think I was charged. I reminded myself of like a sort of person on the watch or something, like I couldn't sleep. I was just protecting, looking out for danger. So now I see that and I've made peace with who I was. But of course, I didn't have any sense of humour. I couldn't laugh. I couldn't think freely. If I see pictures back at that time, I'm just dead behind the eyes. You know, you could think something else was there. Which brings us back to the photo that you posted.