 What was scary about showing joy? I think as a queer person, to lean into the joy can feel quite radical sometimes. And what was scary was the way that I move my body when I'm joyful or the way that I dance. It felt, doing that in front of thousands of people was always petrifying to me. I can do it in clubs, I can do it with my family, I can do it with boyfriends, stuff like that, but...