 And I wanted to be a part of that. I didn't want to be a part of the Christian thing. Yeah, I believed in God, but what I've realized now is what it came down to is I rejected Jesus. I think that's important to note is that, yeah, I did believe in God. I never claimed atheism or anything like that, but I rejected Jesus. And that's where I think in my heart, I started going down a path that led me to some really dark places. Essentially,