 I'm sitting there crying hysterically in my bed because I know I'm going to be back in this bed three months from now and he says well why don't you take birth control and the casual way he said it the non-judgmental way he said it and then he explains to me that there's a pill that you can take that you're not going to get pregnant it's not birth control light it's not hopefully or make it less likely or just because I'm nursing it's an actual pill you take and you don't get pregnant