 I mean, you're 35 and you work with a bunch of high schoolers in a gay... Is that creepy? Maybe. Maybe not. I don't know. Do you worry that you'll never be happier in any job than you are in this one? Yes. Absolutely. That's a weird fate, to know that you're in the best job you may ever have at 25. Especially when it's a job that you know, in your heart, it can't last.