 and woodworking because I thought I was understood at one point I was like just mad at God because I was like you know how you let this happen you know like seriously I was just like this this is a joke I thought the right thing to do was get custody of my daughter but ever since I got custody of her everything's already going down so I'm like what kind of crap is this you know and it's just you know being honest I was like what is this talk to me and I'm like you talk to everybody else well I don't hear it I don't hear what they hear the little money I got I gotta pay aftercare