 expose you and so like my inhibitions were turned off that I like that feeling I like being a little bit out of control it's something I'd never had before I'd always been self-regulated I'd keep myself in check when I thought something was going a little bit too far I'd bring it back I'd rein it in but when I was drinking and smoking weed that changed that led me down a path it opened a door something that I'd never thought I'd do was smoke marijuana and a year prior I was the president of the