 once like my story i just wanted to be normal and i wanted to be loved and cared for and have normal friendships where people didn't really and then once that friendship was there then maybe at some point i would tell them i was like hey by the way my my life my childhood was a bit weird and many sometimes people wouldn't believe me they'll be like get out of here you're lying there's such you know you just invented that story like haha good try you know and i'm like well check wikipedia