 all those nights she would go to sleep, I would just cry. I was broken. Like I was really broken. And finally, one night I got sick. I got sick and my daughter just found out probably like a year or two ago when I got sick. I was really sick. She thought I was kidding because she had a little clay nursing stuff, nursing stethoscope and all that. But I got sick one night and I was sitting on the end of the bed and it came clear as day to me. God just said, do I have your attention? Do I have your attention now? That's all I could hear was, do I have your attention now? Because prior to that,