 there was still kind of this process of me being sort of deadpan for a while and just considering it something I had to do to promote the writing but the real turnaround came when I realized I really like this and I started to really get into it and I started to be a little bit more energetic on stage and really be starting to enjoy myself doing it and I realized oh I've kind of switched over here this is this is my main thing now this performance stuff so