 And then I would start crying like for the first time ever for that experience, I would read what I had written and then almost seeing it out of me because I hadn't even been putting thoughts to these experiences. Right. I was just trying, like I said, just trying to survive, just trying to keep myself and my daughter alive. And then here I am writing out that time and reading it now as this remove something that's a little further removed for me. And then finally I was able to process it enough.