 or 17 and then the shoot her down comments you know when they said shoot her down that's exactly what they said on the ball field in 2017 so a lot of those emotions came back but i'll tell you this i mean you know when i was in the hospital the night of the shooting you know my wife had flown up from new orleans with our young kids and you know they didn't know if i was going to make it through the night um president trump and melania came to the hospital that night and