 one of your stories about your relationship of what did it look like to see whiteness in the mirror? And so it was the meeting of those two impetuses that this book came about. So that's one way of telling the story of this book. The second way of telling the story of the book is, again, this is my story. So who is this guy and what's the story? And what have I tried to tell through the course of this book? And I think the easiest way to hint at that