 Yeah, you know, I know when I came back to Congress, it took me three and a half months, and a lot of people say, you know, how have you changed? Have you changed what you think? And that's not... I didn't change my views, but your perspective changes, absolutely. I mean, when you know you're that close from not making it. You know, I thought about my kids. I thought about my wife. I wanted to...