 So like if we're talking about in the aspects of like ministry and what that looks like. So let me start here. There's no shame in my game and me telling my age. So I'm proud to be 42, right? Because it is lit on the other side of 40 and folks just ought to be grateful to get here, right? Amen. So standing in my truth and what that feels like. So at 42, I realized that...