 What is it? What is that word? What is that place? What is that meaning? And I'd always avoided this kind of question because I couldn't find my way into politics. It seemed too compromised all the time. It seemed too much involved in everything about the world that I was suspicious of. And all the false enthusiasms and all the danger and all the lying that I, as a young idealistic person, wanted to break through. And yet this question was there.