 because I think that again people think that imposter syndrome is just I didn't get a promotion so you know I'm not worthy but like where did that come from you know that we don't get stuff every day you know there's some people get things and some people don't but for that to be a stain on your character that many of us kind of you know digest I think it's because it came from somewhere so in the book I talk about digging up the root and for me it was the root of leaving my family and being put in a boarding school in Hershey Pennsylvania talk about that