 at least where I need to go. But what it means is that when I am really stressed out, as I have been, as we have been, and so many of these different cases and so many things that happen, then I will be very aggressive about finding what that next step is so that I can feel soothing. And so I don't think that that is the healthiest thing for me to do because it tires me out. And I'm not really processing the emotion of fear that we sort of live in.