 so we push through all this sickness and this illness and this exhaustion and all it does is end up it was like you know like i have now high blood pressure and type 2 diabetes you know what i mean like it's not it's not worth it and so that's the reason why i tell that story and the pressure was high um but a lot of that pressure i was putting on myself i never got it from the obamas tisha dyer undiplomatic how my attitude created the best kind of trouble