 that that was something that you wanted in your life? So like I knew at the age of four that I liked women, right? I will never forget. I can't remember the name of the video, but it was a video by Madonna and she was running out on the beach and she had this like sheer kind of like dress on and like the waves were like pushing up on her. And it was at that moment that I liked what I saw. And I liked the way that I felt internally when I saw those things, right?