 and I hated home more. And when you talk about home, what home are you talking about? So I'm talking about the home that I had with mom where we felt like we were constantly cycling from one boyfriend's place to the next boyfriend's place to the next husband's place. And the reason I really hated that home is that, one, it was pretty unstable. It was pretty chaotic. There was a lot of intense fighting, sometimes even domestic violence directed one direction or the other.