 If that had happened. My life. Yeah. The entire life. Yeah. So you have the eating disorder. You go there. Then what happens? Can you still go back to the team after that? Yeah, I still went back to the team. You do it with an air of hesitation. And I still raced on the varsity team. And I was still a contributing member. But it was hard. And it wasn't what I loved to do anymore, which I think was the worst part.