 for a good 10 years, but I lost my faith. I mean, I can't tell you in four minutes exactly what all of that was about. There was a woman who died in her 40s, and there was a funeral, and I was furious at my fellow Christians because they were dancing around the church talking about her everlasting life, and I was just trying to grapple with the fact that she had been taken from me so tragically, etc., etc. But there was other stuff, too. The church exerted influences on my life that I wanted to be free from,