 I couldn't relieve myself of. And as life was going on and I was getting more and more successful, I didn't celebrate it where other people were like, oh, my gosh, you know, your mom would be so proud of you. I never thought, you know, Sharon, I never thought I never thought. And and I was telling him that, you know, I wish my mom would be here to say I'm proud of you. That's like the one person I wanted to hear that.