 I was furious at my fellow Christians because they were dancing around the Church talking about her everlasting life, and I was trying to grapple with the fact that she had been taken from me so tragically, etc., etc. But there was other stuff, too. The Church exerted influences on my life that I wanted to be free from, and that's part of the revelatory and confessional character of the book that I'm writing here. I realize in retrospect that I walked away from the Church in part because I didn't want to obey the teachings of the Church.