 The healing that has happened. The healing that has happened since I've been with you. I've been closed off for a long time. Okay. But I use it as a defense mechanism. Okay. I wanted to make sure that my mom was taken care of. You got all this psychology jargon. Come on now. Come on. I wanted to make sure my mom was taken care of. I wanted to make sure my kids were taken care of. Okay. And I wanted to make sure me first, I was taken care of. I come up through rough environments. Okay. So I was dealing with a whole lot.