 after living through an event that should have took them out. So it was, I got to thinking, I'm like, well, you know what? I represent both of those things, but the soul is the fight. The fight is in the soul every day. As we, for with our mind, our will, our emotions, we have to make these decisions every single day. And so that's what was trying to survive my soul. My physical body was a mess, but I'm like, if I could have my soul together and my mind together together,