 you know, the upper, upper, upper, upper. I found that as a kind of relief, as a kind of touchstone of home. I mean, and I know that it's not healthy. I'm not defending this, okay? I'm just saying that's the reality of what my life was, and it followed me all the way through Northwestern and through MIT and through my early career, and I end up in the spotlight. I end up at Harvard, but I'm still hanging. I'm still going to cockweed over in the housing project. I'm still going...