 And the whole time I'm asking the Lord, why am I here? What am I supposed to be getting out of this? I'm not frustrated or concerned or bewildered, Jamie, by what's going on. I'm peaceable about all of it. I've had a wonderful time together with these guys. Looking forward to getting back together with them again. I just want to know, Lord, what are you trying to show me? But this peace that comes with serving him,