 I, yeah, I started therapy in, um, 87, 1987. I was out quite a, quite a long time. And these, these traits I had wouldn't stop. They wouldn't ease up. I was always nervous. I was always hot headed. My moods were up and down, up and down. Most of the time they were down. And, uh, so I, I, I decided to go, uh, get, get some help at the VA hospital. And like I said, I've been going ever since, but, um,