 like I knew in 2016 okay I want to make this record and then as I mentioned I didn't and then I knew towards the end of 2019 I started making some new demos and planning for 2020 and then of course the pandemic happened and so that it got put on the back burner again so 2022 I really knew like I need to get these songs out of my system I really felt ready you know I'd had a lot of