 advocate and collaborate and educate you know i'll tell you a story that changed my life on this issue of suicide that i've told it before but not very often i don't even want to i don't like to remember but i was on the air i was a local radio host in atlanta and a guy a regular caller calls in and i'm you know i won't give his name and and he goes hey man i just wanted to call you and say uh uh goodbye i said what do you mean goodbye and he goes no no i'm checking out i'm out