 just means in video games you're gonna be better at the game uh so so some people understand that uh and i think no i think i think it's all fabulous one question for you because i know you got to make the rounds when you're out there you know when your book is out um i did this as well doesn't the process and i know you've done it multiple times though but doesn't the process it's really weird it's like you work on this book like you're the unabomber alone in the