 you are living this quiet life of desperation and these little, I can't even wrap my head around this. And like, dude, my whole career has been sitting with people who've made some wild choices and I've never heard this, not $50,000. I've seen 5,000. I've seen like 10,000. I've never seen 50,000 bucks. The second thing is, is then you're a guy that doesn't tell his wife the truth. The third thing is you're a guy that put his kids financially at risk. Those are the things we need to deal with.