 thought, well, this means I'm going to die. And that that's just, you know, my need, my need to connect sexually with other men is maybe the thing that's going to take me down. And, you know, the anxiety, the constant anxiety around sex, coupled with this, you know, insatiable need for it, you know, is a kind of trauma, which I've buried and I've moved on. I'm on prep, life goes on, blah, blah, blah. But this play has enabled me to