 But I didn't for a long time. I mean, I might have thought I did a little bit, but I was just pretty focused more on the answers and the rest. And I loved finding those answers and I loved chasing them. But I didn't find that kind of larger than self comfort in some hybrid of knowing a lot about how the world works and understanding that and still having all these layers of what I don't know and finding some comfort in just that, if that makes sense. That was...