 pounding so fast and so hard against my ribcage in a way I'd never felt before. And I thought I was having a heart attack. You thought you were going to die. I thought I was going to die in that moment. And while I was having that thought, oh, my God, I'm going to die, was also, well, here it is. It felt like... It finally caught up with you. It finally caught up with me. It wasn't a matter... In my head, still I have these thoughts. It's not a matter of...