 uh no no took me more five years to to quit the job five years after you were it's not the same job exactly but yeah i went back to ads uh i had i was raising a a little boy also with my ex so i felt kind of okay i'm gonna get a salary and and uh you know do something stable and then i had the burnout which led me to inscape yeah what does the burnout feel like can i ask that what does burnout feel like what is that what does that i know what you know what does that burn out there feel like what did it feel like