 in order to share it or to tell people, it wasn't like I sat down and thought like, oh, I'll write a book about this. No, I just was writing because I needed to externalize these experiences and these emotions. I needed to get them out of my body where I was carrying them for the year or the 14 months before. So yes, I just needed to get them out in almost the most honest way I could, which was poetry. Is that what happened? Like when you put your pen to paper or like your fingers to keyboard, is there this sort of release? Is this sort of this feeling that you get?