 I have been limited in this way by these people. And also the only way for me to break through that is to make that, carve that path myself and to forge it. And it's hard. It's hard. I want to come back to some more of the, like the actual challenge of making this, but there's another part of your story that I think adds another layer of meaning to this, which is, you know, is what we were talking about just a moment ago, sort of with having to ask people for permission as an actor to have a part and,