 were you in a different sort of were you not feeling like making a record or something well I mean I I had I mean I always complain you know I'm always sort of like at the end of everything do you know what I mean it's like I'm toiling along here at the outside of it all and and so I'm like well I guess that's it you know I wrote the big song about the sardines on my last album I was like I don't know if I could do any better you know and then uh