 unplugged my computer and you know at that time everything would be lost and I was just devastated and I went to her the next that night and said this is what I love you always said that this is America the greatest place in the world you could do whatever you want if you love it and the next day she came to school and she had a pile of filmmaking books and said if you're going to do this you have to study it like a craft and from then on they were right there next to me they must have seen it in my eyes I don't know exactly