 so anxiety-inducing, if this is so uncomfortable for me, then I should really do it just to feel the pain, you know. And I'm happy I did that because apparently it was all right. The thing that struck me too about the film is sort of the carelessness or the beauty of youth, like the rash decisions that Christopher makes in his youth. And also the rash decisions he's making at the end of his life. Yeah. And as he starts that journey,