 wanting to keep my fingers moving and to keep playing because I was afraid that somehow in the five minutes between the last time I was playing notes in the practice room and the time I walked on stage, somehow I would lose my connection to all my skills. And then we can start getting in all these mind games where, you know, you miss a note backstage and it's like, oh crap, is that going to happen on stage? And like, it actually makes the nerves worse sometimes.