 Somehow being in that hard winter and with all of those, for me, like impossible events, like the ongoing, the natural disasters, just being a single parent in a burned up town and it was all so impossible. And so then when I would hear like, oh, you can only access your property with this or with that and all of these rules, it would be too much. And so I just, I couldn't go at all until I had a friend come to visit and she said that she would go down to the property with me. And we went together and it was,