 I think it was a way of being emotional. I would say I'm sort of a person who doesn't process my emotions in the moment very well, especially not then. Maybe now I'm a little bit better at it. But it was a way of sort of free expressing without the pressure of another person looking. I always feel like I can't emote when someone's staring at my face. And so poetry is kind of like sort of, you know, smoke and mirrors to hide behind. Were you surprised by what you were writing about? No.