 so when i was first making music i think i like was like too cool to sort of like like performing and really like um give it my all i was sort of like you know what i mean it was like the early 2000s and everybody was kind of like into shoegaze and lo-fi and it was sort of like make doing the performance really small was what was cool um and i think i'm just in this era where i'm like no i'm gonna really give it my all and um