 then an ambulance would come and they would examine me and they would be like, all right, if I wasn't having a heart attack, they'd be like, show's over. You at least thought you were going to. Now you need to get your head out of the sand. Because you had been avoiding doctors all this time. For more than a decade. And at that point, that was such a traumatic, horrifying experience where I kind of felt like I didn't pull my head out of the sand. My body was ripped out of the sand and my head went with it.