 And I want you to say, this was me trying to love you, and I'm sorry because I was wrong. And then I want you to look at her and say, I am scared to death about our financial future. I'm nervous that I'm not providing enough. I'm nervous that we're going to be 35 years old and we're not going to have enough money in the bank. I'm nervous about kids we have yet or don't have yet and them going to college. I'm scared to death about all of this. I don't know how to best –