 that much fun it is i mean i've had situations like you know there are every kind of emotion that you can think of from from sheer terror to absolute delight um can happen in a single dive i mean it's one of those kind of things to where you know the terror part of it is not really i don't mean to be too dramatic but there are situations that you're just going like what am i going to do now oh nothing i'm just going to keep swimming it's fine you know