 when you talk about your why you know your why is the thing that's under the thing that's under the thing that's under the thing that you never really really talk about because it hurts it hurts like heck and so for me most people think well sonia why after coming back from the show did you start a weight loss clinic your why must be because you want other people to get healthy and you want them to lose weight that's absolutely true i do but that's not my why