 than your own life that you're creating here. That's what you have to deal with. Cause that's, that's a case of you are living this quiet life of desperation and these little, I can't even wrap my head around this. And like, dude, my whole career has been sitting with people who've made some wild choices and I've never heard this, not $50,000. I've seen 5,000. I've seen like 10,000. I've never seen 50,000 bucks. The second thing is, is then you're a guy that doesn't tell his wife the truth.