 And so I had experienced depression those few years. And then it got to the point where, I mean, it had been a few years that I was battling depression, going to therapy, going to different things to help it. And nothing seemed to be working, no drugs, no nothing. And the one day I remember exactly where I was, we were driving through the canyon and I looked up in the hills and I started to have a whole plan in my head about how to end my life.