 um i mean anything christ's love compels us that's what i've i was born on the mission field and i think my parents have always just said you know we're we're in we're in desperate need of help ourselves i'm in desperate need of help every day and god loves me and i have hope in that and that also pushes me to help those around me i think we're called to relieve suffering and minister to people here and that's what that's what pushes me into it i think