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This conjoined itself still with another, the really stupefying consciousness of a question that he would have allowed to shape itself had he dared. THIS CONJOINED ITSELF STILL WITH ANOTHER THE REALLY STUPEFYING CONSCIOUSNESS OF A QUESTION THAT HE WOULD HAVE ALLOWED TO SHAPE ITSELF HAD HE DARED
effacement of even so fine a feature of his situation would be an abject anticlimax. It would represent, as connected with his past attitude, a drop of dignity under the shadow of which his existence could only become the most grotesques of failures. He had been far from holding it a failure--long as he had waited for the appearance that was to make it a success. He had waited for quite another thing, not for such a thing as that. The breath of his good faith came short, however, as he recognised how long he had waited, or how long at least his companion had. That she, at all events, might be recorded as having waited in vain--this affected him sharply, and all the more because of his at first having done little more than amuse himself with the idea. It grew more grave as the gravity of her condition grew, and the state of mind it produced in him, which he himself ended by watching as if it had been some definite disfigurement of his outer person, may pass for another of his surprises. LONG RIDDLE THE MERE EFFACEMENT OF EVEN SO FINE A FEATURE OF HIS SITUATION WOULD BE AN ABJECT ANTICLIMAX IT WOULD REPRESENT AS CONNECTED WITH HIS PAST ATTITUDE A DROP OF DIGNITY UNDER THE SHADOW OF WHICH HIS EXISTENCE COULD ONLY BECOME THE MOST GROTESQUES OF FAILURES HE HAD BEEN FAR FROM HOLDING IT A FAILURE LONG AS HE HAD WAITED FOR THE APPEARANCE THAT WAS TO MAKE IT A SUCCESS HE HAD WAITED FOR QUITE ANOTHER THING NOT FOR SUCH A THING AS THAT THE BREATH OF HIS GOOD FAITH CAME SHORT HOWEVER AS HE RECOGNIZED HOW LONG HE HAD WAITED OR HOW LONG AT LEAST HIS COMPANION HAD THAT SHE AT ALL EVENTS MIGHT BE RECORDED AS HAVING WAITED IN VAIN THIS AFFECTED HIM SHARPLY AND ALL THE MORE BECAUSE OF HIS AT FIRST HAVING DONE LITTLE MORE THAN AMUSE HIMSELF WITH THE IDEA IT GREW MORE GRAVE AS THE GRAVITY OF HER CONDITION GREW AND THE STATE OF MIND IT PRODUCED IN HIM WHICH HE HIMSELF ENDED BY WATCHING AS IF IT HAD BEEN SOME DEFINITE DISFIGUREMENT OF HIS OUTER PERSON MAY PASS FOR ANOTHER OF HIS SURPRISES
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