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I meant to be such a help to John, such a real rest and comfort, and here I am a comparative burden already! I MEANT TO BE SUCH A HELP TO JOHN SUCH A REAL REST AND COMFORT AND HERE I AM A COMPARATIVE BURDEN ALREADY
emselves in unheard-of contradictions. The color is repellant, almost revolting; a smouldering, unclean yellow, strangely faded by the slow-turning sunlight. It is a dull yet lurid orange in some places, a sickly sulphur tint in others. No wonder the children hated it! I should hate it myself if I had to live in this room long. There comes John, and I must put this away,—he hates to have me write a word. We have been here two weeks, and I haven’t felt like writing before, since that first day. I am sitting by the window now, up in this atrocious nursery, and there is nothing to hinder my writing as much as I please, save lack of strength. John is away all day, and even some nights when his cases are serious. I am glad my case is not serious! But these nervous troubles are dreadfully depressing. John does not know how much I really suffer. He knows there is no reason to suffer, and that satisfies him. Of course it is only nervousness. It does weigh on me so not to do my duty in any way! T OUTRAGEOUS ANGLES DESTROY THEMSELVES IN UNHEARD OF CONTRADICTIONS THE COLOR IS REPELLENT ALMOST REVOLTING A SMOULDERING UNCLEAN YELLOW STRANGELY FADED BY THE SLOW TURNING SUNLIGHT IT IS A DULL YET LURID ORANGE IN SOME PLACES A SILKY SULPHUR TINT IN OTHERS NO WONDER THE CHILDREN HATED IT I SHOULD HATE IT MYSELF IF I HAD TO LIVE IN THIS ROOM LONG THERE COMES JOHN AND I MUST PUT THIS AWAY HE HATES TO HAVE ME WRITE A WORD WE HAVE BEEN HERE TWO WEEKS AND I HAVEN'T FELT LIKE WRITING BEFORE SINCE THAT FIRST DAY I AM SITTING BY THE WINDOW NOW UP IN THIS ATROCIOUS NURSERY AND THERE IS NOTHING TO HINDER MY WRITING AS MUCH AS I PLEASE SAVE LACK OF STRENGTH JOHN IS AWAY ALL DAY AND EVEN SOME NIGHTS WHEN HIS CASES ARE SERIOUS I AM GLAD MY CASE IS NOT SERIOUS BUT THOSE NERVOUS TROUBLES ARE DREADFULLY DEPRESSING JOHN DOES NOT KNOW HOW MUCH I REALLY SUFFER HE KNOWS THERE IS NO REASON TO SUFFER AND THAT SATISFIES HIM OF COURSE IT IS ONLY NERVOUSNESS IT DOES WEIGH ON ME SO NOT TO DO MY DUTY IN ANY WAY
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