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In a little while he comes in, and sits down beside me. There is a wild, unhealthy excitement in his eye, and, under a defiant air of unnatural gaiety, he attempts to hide his consciousness of guilt. IN A LITTLE WHILE HE COMES IN AND SITS DOWN BESIDE ME THERE IS A WILD UNHEALTHY EXCITEMENT IN HIS EYE AND UNDER A DEFIANT AIR OF UNNATURAL GAIETY HE ATTEMPTS TO HIDE HIS CONSCIOUSNESS OF GUILT
however, and at last stops altogether. "Come, come," I say to him, encouragingly, "pull yourself together, and be a man. Don't think about it. Put it behind you, and determine that you _won't_ be conquered. Come, we shall be round the corner in another minute, where you won't be able to see it. Take my hand, and let's run!" He makes a few feeble steps forward with me, and then stops again. "It's no good, old man," he says, with a sickly smile, so full of pathos that it is impossible to find it in one's heart to feel anything but pity for him. "I can't help it. I have given way to this sort of thing too long. It is too late to reform now. You go on and get a drink somewhere; I'll join you again in a few minutes. Don't worry about me; it's no good." And back he goes with tottering steps, while I sadly pass on into the nearest cafe, and, over a glass of absinthe or cognac, thank Providence that I learnt to control my craving for churches in early youth, and so am not now like this poor B. TO HURRY HIM ON HE LAGS MORE AND MORE BEHIND HOWEVER AND AT LAST STOPS ALTOGETHER COME COME I SAY TO HIM ENCOURAGINGLY PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND BE A MAN DON'T THINK ABOUT IT PUT IT BEHIND YOU AND DETERMINE THAT YOU WON'T BE CONQUERED COME WE SHALL BE ROUND THE CORNER IN ANOTHER MINUTE WHERE YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE IT TAKE MY HAND AND LET'S RUN HE MAKES A FEW FEEBLE STEPS FORWARD WITH ME AND THEN STOPS AGAIN IT'S NO GOOD OLD MAN HE SAYS WITH A SICKLY SMILE SO FULL OF PATHOS THAT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND IT IN ONE'S HEART TO FEEL ANYTHING BUT PITY FOR HIM I CAN'T HELP IT I HAVE GIVEN WAY TO THIS SORT OF THING TOO LONG IT IS TOO LATE TO REFORM NOW YOU GO ON AND GET A DRINK SOMEWHERE I'LL JOIN YOU AGAIN IN A FEW MINUTES DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME IT'S NO GOOD AND BACK HE GOES WITH TOTTERING STEPS WHILE I SADLY PASS ON INTO THE NEAREST CAFE AND OVER A GLASS OF ABSINTHE OR COGNAC THANK PROVIDENCE THAT I LEARN TO CONTROL MY CRAVING FOR CHURCHES IN EARLY YOUTH AND SO AM NOT NOW LIKE THIS POOR BEE
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