ومررت بنفس العار و تبادل الاتهامات وشعرت بتحسن ورجعت الى العمل, حتى حدث مرارا وتكرارا وتكرارا.
And I went through the same period of shame and recriminations  and felt cleansed and went back to work,  until it happened again and again and again.