ربما اردت ان اكون ناجحاً جداً وقادر على تحمل المسؤولية التي يمكنني ان اقوم بها ويمكنني ان ارعى نزلاء صاحب المشفى دون الرجوع اليه.
Maybe I wanted to be so successful  and so able to take responsibility  that I would do so  and I would be able to take care of my attending's patients  without even having to contact him.