You're afraid if you look for your passion and don't find it, you'll feel like you're an idiot, so then you make excuses about why you're not going to look for your passion.
Sinua pelottaa että etsit intohimoasi etkä löydä sitä, tunnet itsesi idiootiksi, joten keksit tekosyitä miksi et etsi intohimoasi.