And maybe the hardest part about my life ending is that I learned something hard about myself, and that was that, as much as I would be frustrated about not being able to get my work out to the world, there was a part of me that was working very hard to engineer staying small, staying right under the radar.
و شاید سخت‌ترین چیزی که با پایان زندگی پیشینم به وجود آمد، درس سختی بود که درباره خودم یاد گرفتم، که این بود که هرچند من اعصابم از این خورد بود که نمی‌توانستم کارم را به دنیا نشان دهم، چیزی در وجودم به سختی می‌کوشید که کارم را کوچک جلوه دهد، و در خارج از دید ردیاب‌ها نگه دارد.