Although buoyed up by the sensitive support of his wife and family, as he later confessed, "I often felt that I would be better dead."
على الرغم من أن أنشط الدعم الحساس من زوجته وعائلته، كما اعترف في وقت لاحق، "إنني كثيراً ما شعرت بأنني سأكون أفضل ميت."