Well I'm sure as hell not what I thought I was gonna be.  I was supposed to have one of those great lives with everything all laid- out and perfect.  I mean hell -- I was Miss Wichita for God's sakes.  Did I tell you that?  You live next door to a real live beauty queen.  I still got the tiara.  I kept it cause I thought it meant something.  I thought it meant I was gonna do something great with my life.  I thought it proved I was gonna grow up to be someone.