I blame myself Sonny.  I notice you been tense like something is happening; the night before last you're yellin' at the kids like a madman believe me.  And then you wanted me to go on this ride with the kids this caterpillar about from here to there - fulla one- year-old kids.  It's ridiculous. I'm not about to go on this ride so you yell right there 'You pig get on the fuckin' ride!' Well everything fell outta - me - my heart my liver fell to the floor - you name it!  Yellin' at me in front of all those people.  Because you never talked and I never been scared of you never.  I think: he's gonna shoot me and dump my body in the river.