The break up with his girlfriend and early deaths of his close friends caused such pain that he started to seek for different remedies to ease the suffering. Over the years he tried number of treatments for substance abuse, but all in vain, falling back to the same situation over and over again, only finding himself even deeper in the addiction.
Sõprade surmad ja tüdruksõbrast lahkuminek tekitasid valu, millele ta hakkas leevendust otsima. Katsetades aastate vältel edutult erinevaid narkomaaniast vabanemise mooduseid, leidis ta ikka ja jälle end samast olukorrast, aga veelgi sügavamal.